Omg Ally, I’m so sorry you’re dealing with dismissive doctors, I totally know how you feel (unfortunately) and boooy can I relate to those sobs (sending so much love), so while it’s super hearbreaking, thank you for leaving that stuff in. Your vlogs are such pure comfort and I’m so happy I found your channel last year. Thanks for filming your beautiful life, the good and the bad. I’m hoping there’ll be so much more good to come.
I read this book called Rage Becomes Her and it talked about how unwell women are often dismissed for not looking sick and for other reasons, I’m not even unwell and this pisses me off
Every time you share your struggles I feel it so deeply. I am a New Yorker who has lived in Berlin for 18 years now. I left NYC because I was so sick and every doctor dismissed me and told me I needed to see a psychiatrist instead. I suffered (and still do) from chronic fatigue (back then doctors would laugh at me when I mentioned this), excruciating migraines called Hemiplegic that mimic stroke symptoms, and body pain that makes it very difficult to get out of bed. About 9 years ago things got better when I went vegan but I'm still a far cry from feeling well. Also like you, I am autistic. Diagnosed last year at the age of 45. My relationship to seeing doctors is an effing nightmare. Anywayyyyyy, all that to say, I SEE YOU and your struggles. And i thank you immensely for being you and being here in your little corner of the internet. My daughter, who is 13, loves watching your videos with me. She is currently drawing me a snail for my next tattoo thanks to your beautiful little guys. 🐌🐌🤍💙
I'm calling it now, Ally. You are going to surpass your 50k follower goal. Thanks for all the time you put into your videos, they always make my day better 😊
It’s nice to see you including gym stuff/goals in ur vids because being a spoonie girlie who does that is deeply under-represented. I can never do all the workouts on my schedule due to sick days each week but it still feels great when I can. Also, doctor dismissal is THE worst.
7:50 the emulation energy of enjoying someone’s work and feeling in a non-creepy way like “i want to encapsulate her energy, and i feel like a child being like i wanna be you when i grow up, but i’m older than her, but you know what i mean” is exactly how i feel about this channel 😁 glad to be subscribed to isobel now too, fabulous recommendation!
Yeeeesss to the Ana Luisa sponsorship!!! You should pitch designing a piece for them 👀 I’d buy a snail or frog design in a heartbeat if you made one. Food for thought heheh
OH MY GOODNESS GENIUS THIS IS INSPIRED, if there was like a pigeon or snail or cowboy cats earrings i would be throwing my money at that collab so faaaaaaaaaast...!!!
Ally, I saw pretty much everyone in the comments validating you in your sickness in pain, so I decided to join and say, that I feel you. I've been struggling with health issues (while of course not looking sick) for 10 years now and only last year in November I finally found a new general physician who took me seriously. My old one didn't do anything even when I proposed possible diagnosis to her and specifically asked her for certain test I would like to run and if I could get a recommendation for a psychiatrist, because I knew that although my issues were of physical nature, my mental state and anxiety was firing my symptoms big time. She looked me dead in the eye and said: "Ohh, Miss Fabia, do you even know how hard is it to find a good therapist? Do you really want to go through that trouble?" (I live in Germany btw, to pretty privileged in terms of healthcare over here) I was shocked. Another 5 years past and I finally had the courage to go to another general physician in my area who had just opened up his office. I was sitting in front of this young man (he's only 5 years older than me) and was crying my eyes out, telling him what had been going on over the past years and that I'm so tired of all of it. He considered me, proposed some test, to check my physical state and then asked me if I was interested in therapy. Yes, YES, YEEEEEES. He also gave me several contacts for therapists in my city and encouraged me to reach out, if I needed any other help to get what I need. This week, I went to my first therapy session with a lovely doctor who is specialized in psycho-somatic illnesses and I am so glad that I finally don't have to explain my issues to a wall anymore. I hope my little story gives you strength and hope. Oh, and "The God of Small Things" sounded awfully familiar. Upon looking it up, I noticed that I had to read it for my literature class I took when I was studying abroad, but only skimmed through it. Back than I wasn't a big reader (ironic right, studying literature and all, but well, University kinda killed the fun) and having only two weeks to finish a book was horror. That's why I don't remember much other than I found it kind of disturbing at times.
Thank you for sharing this! I had a horrible experience with a specialist recently… and I felt so defeated! He was mean in a unnecesary way and I felt ashamed that I ‘wasted’ his time. It took time and some conversations with different doctors to give it a place and to understand that doctors can be flawed and mean spirited. I cried so much and I’m find a lot of piece in discovering that im not alone in searching for medical help. ❤ May all the cats you meet in the next few weeks be cute & loving ♥️♥️
The little random tidbits of like Linda from Bob’s Burgers popping up in your brain also happens to me. And I’ve never met someone who has normalized that and it gave me a lot of peace today when I really needed it. So thank you and have a great day, week, month, life, all of it.
as someone who has struggled for many years to get the medical help that i needed because i "didn't look sick" i am giving you tHE BIGGEST HUG! the process of finding the right medical help when you are suffering from something that is not well known among doctors or that isn't easily visible on the outside or a simple scan is genuinely horrible and honestly sickening in and of itself. i fully understand the struggle. know that you're not alone in this (which can be both a comfort but also a huge source of frustration in this case..) always know that no matter what these doctors tell you, YOU are not in the wrong. you are the one who knows your body best, so stay stubborn and keep demanding answers/help. i hope you'll manage to find medical professionals who will be able to help you! i hope that you get to experience the relief of finally being heard and getting some actionable answers/advice. and before you get there, keep listening to your own body with at much kindness and patience that you can muster (& keep breathing well. like that may seem like very weird and stupid advice, but when your in a position where u feel so powerless over what's going on with your own body, taking good control over your breath can actually bring some relief, considering that it's a part of your bodily functioning that u have control over and it effects literally all systems within your body. again, maybe it's weird advice, but there's a lot of power in how u breathe and it's good not to forget that when you are made to feel so powerless otherwise).
Aw Ally, I’m sorry you had to go through Drs dismissing your illness and experiences again. I just wish I could give you a big hug! Thank you again for continuing to push through and despite everything happening staying in high spirits. We all love and appreciate you so much!
Oh man! Yes! You are finally reading Mary Oliver! ❤ I really hope you can find a doctor that not only listens but believes in your pain. Finding a way of making one. Thank you for this awesome, real and wholesome content! ❤
Omg I didn't know you were also a mountain goats fan, that's so cool! They've consistently been my top artist almost every year since I found them, haha
i've been watching your channel for a while and your struggle with doctors reminded me of mine so much. it was either "you have the worst things possible and we need to do so many tests" or "it's an in your head, we won't do anything" (more of the later) i understand you so much. i came across a doctor after 10 years of struggling with arthritis and other pains and they suggested celiac. it was the answer finally! idk how it's like for you but i had intense migraines all the time that required frequent ER visits. i thought i could just write this out so you can have it in mind or read about it and see if it matches you too. hope you can find answers soon can u can be in less pain as possible. sending u much love!
I know I'm a little late but I'm SO sorry you had that experience with dismissive doctors. It's awful and confusing that this is such a common thing. I had a doctor tell me I was "just constipated" when I went to get a concerning and painful abdominal bulge checked out and she made me feel like an idiot. Two years later I had to have a hysterectomy bc guess what! It was ginormous fibroids! Thankfully I tried again and found a doctor who listened. To anyone who's struggling with being believed about your pain, keep trying, keep telling your story, and keep advocating for yourself! ❤
they are a little more expensive but cloth and paper has really pretty neutral sticky tabs and mochi things has fun and cute ones that are not offensively neon!
I totally understand your fear of doctor. I had so many bad experience with psychologists and psychiatrists that try to check everything I can about them before going to see them but we never know if they are good unless we try. Sending love and strength ! ❤ Thanks for this video ❤️
I just ordered 1 million book tabs and sticky notes from Cloth & Paper! I found them on a list of black-owned stationary but I can't find that list again so no longer positive BUT they have gorgeous options!!!
this week I described your youtube to a friend by saying: it’s the only person I’m subscribed to that when I see there is a new video, I save it for a moment where I can fully savour it, usually while I eat dinner or have a snack, because all your videos give me such comfort, I feel like I need to give you my full attention 🥰 I’m so grateful that I found you and have made your videos part of my cozy self care routine!! 💞
I love making a vision board at the beginning of the year! I set it as my computer background and make it how I want my camera roll to look. Bright/ cozy, full of travels, and friendship. Exciting times.
1. My heart absolutely broke when you put in the clip of the post-doctor breakdown 😭🥺❤️🩹 2. Your inclusion of the Sims and Kingdom Hearts music helped make it better ❤
I don’t make vision boards but if I did, you’d be all over it! I love your cozy corner of the internet. Side note, I’m so sorry for the discouraging doctor visit. I know how exhausting it is to constantly feel like you have to advocate for yourself and I hope you find the answers you’re seeking in this v fresh new year
your videos always make me smile .. thank you and I sorry that the doctor said that to you it break my heart hearing you cry sending love from Australia
Oh my year is just starting out on the right foot because of my discovery of THIS CHANEL and the wonderful existence that is you and all the things you choose to put into the universe that is accessible to us! How am I just now finding you? Never have I found someone who is the seemingly physical manifestation or curation of so many things that I absolutely love. Nintendo music nostalgia: Check. Love of Books: Check. Cozy Snail Parent Vibes: Check! While I know much of the internet is romanticized, you make things look like the best kind of romantic!! Thank you for just being a relatable human being and sharing the crappy parts of life with us because you make the rest of us feel less alone during our crappy parts!
Ally, I am so sorry that the doctor treated you with disrespect. I have been to so many doctors that tell me the same thing and I am so tempted to yell at them and say, “what will make me look sick then? Throwing up in front of you? Passing out?” Like some doctors make me so upset so I completely understand. Also you have the cutest cat❤ sending you all the love girl!
that clip of you crying was heartbreaking to me :( i’m so sorry ally. i hope this new year is filled with understanding and no more shitty doctors !!!!!
the risk with silica packets is that they are choking hazards, not that they are toxic or poisonous. Hopefully this puts your mind a little at ease about your cats and the sachets. also protip they are great for keeping in places where humidity build up is best avoided. Jewelry boxes, makeup bags, in boxes where books, cards, photos, or important paper documents are stored.
Love your energy! So sorry you had to deal with that at the doctor! Touched you included me on your vision board, hopefully i can absorb some of your magic to achieve my intentions this year! Mwa mwa!
Thanks for the update Ally. I really enjoyed learning about your vision board, I hope it all comes to fruition for you. Also, I'm sorry the Doctors are continuing to be dismissive of your experience. That is so frustrating and unacceptable behavior by the Docs.. I wish you courage and strength to continue on your quest for answers. (Actually, I wish you would find a doc that believes you and takes your concerns seriously!) I noticed you had a playlist for reading, would you be willing to link it/share it? I'm always looking for new music, especially for reading. You can be proud of yourself for the work you do, all the effort your putting in to take care of yourself, and for acknowledging that it's okay to not feel okay sometimes. 🐌🍄🌱
oh how i love ally!!! you deserve rest! i hope you fill this week with the cats and mary oliver and sleep and joy! sending u allllll the best vibes across the ocean and the land between us!!
Haven’t even started the video yet but just wanted to say I’ve been struggling a lot these past few months, after a few years of not having any severe mental health issues it’s been kind of a slap in the face. And things like your videos, are what keep me grounded and hopeful. Thank you for creating them ❤
Oh my heart. I've been there too Ally. I think it's almost more exhausting trying to get a diagnosis and going through countless tests than it is just being chronically ill. I'm so sorry you got the 'you don't look sick' comment. I see you! I love your videos, they are often a comfort watch for me (I saved this one for after my psychologist appointment today!). Personally I'd rather rewatch an older video than know you pushed beyond your limits to get uploaded. Also, I wear your snail shirt to lots of appointments and always get compliments :)
The beginning of january has been so shitty to me, thanks for sharing these videos with us and reminding everyone that's it's okay to feel sad and tired sometimes and that we can make it through the year
i don't know if i missed it but could we pls have a link to that reading playlist?? (if you don't mind of course!!)) also, thank you for being here ally
You could try washi tape! And you can get a lot of custom designed washi tape on places like Etsy! I've seen a lot of people using it as the tabs in their books, which requires a bit more work but also looks a lot more colorful and you can support smaller creators 😊
Hi! Would you be willing to share your ultimate reading playlist? Don't feel pressured! I have trouble making a good relaxing playlist for reading so Im wondering about yours. Thank you so much :)
This is going to sound silly BUT whenever I think of being a woman with medical struggles and dismissive doctors I think of an episode of Golden Girls. Dorothy experiences fatigue and just cannot get energy any time of day and a doctor basically tells her “you’re old lady what do you expect”. But she keeps trying. She advocates for herself and keeps going and finds a doctor that will listen and help her and BELIEVE HER. Hopefully you’ll find your doctor that believes you and helps you and respects you. You will be on my heart ❤
girl i know where you can get tab things that aren’t from jeff (i think) and they have prettier colors. i’m not sure if belgium (sorry if that’s not where you live, i’m bad with countries. there’s so many) has this place, but it’s a store called daiso and they have such amazing stationary and it’s pretty cheap too. that’s where i get mine. i believe half price books has some too, and probably barnes and noble.
I hope you find some health solutions and better doctors this year! I'm glad you had a reminder for the book club bc I just joined the Patreon and the editing for this video is *chef's kiss* sending love 💕
As a follow chronic migraine sufferer I feel you on the dismissive doctors and navigating through systems that really aren't designed for those with chronic pain or any kind of invisible illness. I wanted to say also that as of a few months ago I started propranolol and my attacks have reduced dramatically. Not sure if you/your doctor has tried that but definitely worth a go if not. Sending you all the good vibes. Thank you for being authentically you as always xx
I haven't seen anyone else mention it but for tabs I would probably go to Etsy, or kawaii pen shop (or basically a Japanese stationary store if you find one that ships to you for a reasonable price). Best of luck with the drs, as drs can be asses
I'm sorry you had a rough week... I love your videos, they bring me so much confort and happiness, you always manage to make me smile so i wanted to thank you ☺️ I hope the next few weeks will be better for you ! 🙏💛
I'm sending you all my love Ally!!! I'm so sorry you have to deal with such horrible doctors on top of dealing with your sickness and all the uncertanty that comes with it. One day someone will understand you and treat you with the kindness and respect you deserve. Here's to it being sooner rather than later. Love your videos and I hope you have a great new year!! Cheers from Croatia ❤
sending you the biggest hugs virtually. not having the answers and not being listened to really sucks. i hope you find the right doctor soon. sending you so much love, thank you for always making our lives brighter 💛💛💛
At a very low point in my life, it was your vlogs that made me feel atleast a little bit better. Thank you for doing this. Also, when you said your vlog will be coming on this week , I kept on checking my notifications to see if it did happen.. Thank you for making my days better, time and again.. Happy new year ❤️
I just want to come here and validate u! I am chronically ill and I don’t even eff w doctors anymore (not shaming anyone at all who does cuz they r v necessary sadly) like I see them and i go through the motions, but after they refused to diagnose w me conditions I had literally every symptom of (guessing it’s cuz I don’t “look” sick allegedly and I’m a brown woman……) I started doing my own research and treating myself bc I literally had so much medical trauma. Doctors will act absolutely wild and there r no consequences for them, only us!!!!! Healthy ppl do not have to do all that we have to do, no matter how u look. Hoping u have better experiences going forward😭
your videos never ever fail to make me feel so full⭐️remember to congratulate yourself for your hard work because what you do has such a grand impact on us viewers!! ^^
My heart hurt listening to you cry. I’ve been there. It took years, but my diagnosis finally came. I still deal with doctors who dismiss health issues, but it happens less. I know you will find your answers;I just hope it’s in 2023!
i love your vlogs so much. they are such a comfort to me. so thank you for sharing parts of your life with us ❤ sending all the light and love from louisiana!
Damn. Grieving and mourning things in my life has also been a theme recently. Living as a fellow American expat in Germany, there are some things and experience that I miss out on that are considered the typical “American experience/tradition” and accepting that I’m fully aware I chose this life for myself, but also allowing myself to mourn the experiences my friends get to have that I miss out on because of my choice to live here. Maybe you experience this as well, if so, I’m right there with ya. Lots of love ❤️
those doctors need a kick in the butt, they truly suck... I hope it doesn't bring you down too much and as my message on instagram said you are strong!! you are enough and you bring such comfort to a lot of people and I hope we can bring the same comfort back to you!!! (also about sticky tabs, there's nicer ones on etsy or like aliexpress, there is also some on amazon but I agree that bezos doesn't need more money tbh) love your videos and hug your cats an extra time from me, much love!!!! 💖
My heart breaks for you. I know all too well how dismissive drs can be and I have so much hope that with time you will find who will help you. Allow yourself to be upset and sad. Thank you for your cozy vlogs ❤
Omg Ally, I’m so sorry you’re dealing with dismissive doctors, I totally know how you feel (unfortunately) and boooy can I relate to those sobs (sending so much love), so while it’s super hearbreaking, thank you for leaving that stuff in. Your vlogs are such pure comfort and I’m so happy I found your channel last year. Thanks for filming your beautiful life, the good and the bad. I’m hoping there’ll be so much more good to come.
I read this book called Rage Becomes Her and it talked about how unwell women are often dismissed for not looking sick and for other reasons, I’m not even unwell and this pisses me off
Every time you share your struggles I feel it so deeply. I am a New Yorker who has lived in Berlin for 18 years now. I left NYC because I was so sick and every doctor dismissed me and told me I needed to see a psychiatrist instead. I suffered (and still do) from chronic fatigue (back then doctors would laugh at me when I mentioned this), excruciating migraines called Hemiplegic that mimic stroke symptoms, and body pain that makes it very difficult to get out of bed. About 9 years ago things got better when I went vegan but I'm still a far cry from feeling well. Also like you, I am autistic. Diagnosed last year at the age of 45. My relationship to seeing doctors is an effing nightmare. Anywayyyyyy, all that to say, I SEE YOU and your struggles. And i thank you immensely for being you and being here in your little corner of the internet. My daughter, who is 13, loves watching your videos with me. She is currently drawing me a snail for my next tattoo thanks to your beautiful little guys. 🐌🐌🤍💙
I'm calling it now, Ally. You are going to surpass your 50k follower goal. Thanks for all the time you put into your videos, they always make my day better 😊
"I am going to make it through this year (if it kills me)" is so relatable to me!!!
that song by the mountain goats is always my anthem december --> february times
It’s nice to see you including gym stuff/goals in ur vids because being a spoonie girlie who does that is deeply under-represented. I can never do all the workouts on my schedule due to sick days each week but it still feels great when I can. Also, doctor dismissal is THE worst.
omg it’s happening… stay calm, it’s a new ally vlog A NEW ALLY VLOG!!!!
7:50 the emulation energy of enjoying someone’s work and feeling in a non-creepy way like “i want to encapsulate her energy, and i feel like a child being like i wanna be you when i grow up, but i’m older than her, but you know what i mean” is exactly how i feel about this channel 😁 glad to be subscribed to isobel now too, fabulous recommendation!
Yeeeesss to the Ana Luisa sponsorship!!! You should pitch designing a piece for them 👀 I’d buy a snail or frog design in a heartbeat if you made one. Food for thought heheh
OH MY GOODNESS GENIUS THIS IS INSPIRED, if there was like a pigeon or snail or cowboy cats earrings i would be throwing my money at that collab so faaaaaaaaaast...!!!
Ally, I saw pretty much everyone in the comments validating you in your sickness in pain, so I decided to join and say, that I feel you. I've been struggling with health issues (while of course not looking sick) for 10 years now and only last year in November I finally found a new general physician who took me seriously. My old one didn't do anything even when I proposed possible diagnosis to her and specifically asked her for certain test I would like to run and if I could get a recommendation for a psychiatrist, because I knew that although my issues were of physical nature, my mental state and anxiety was firing my symptoms big time. She looked me dead in the eye and said: "Ohh, Miss Fabia, do you even know how hard is it to find a good therapist? Do you really want to go through that trouble?" (I live in Germany btw, to pretty privileged in terms of healthcare over here) I was shocked.
Another 5 years past and I finally had the courage to go to another general physician in my area who had just opened up his office. I was sitting in front of this young man (he's only 5 years older than me) and was crying my eyes out, telling him what had been going on over the past years and that I'm so tired of all of it. He considered me, proposed some test, to check my physical state and then asked me if I was interested in therapy. Yes, YES, YEEEEEES. He also gave me several contacts for therapists in my city and encouraged me to reach out, if I needed any other help to get what I need. This week, I went to my first therapy session with a lovely doctor who is specialized in psycho-somatic illnesses and I am so glad that I finally don't have to explain my issues to a wall anymore. I hope my little story gives you strength and hope.
Oh, and "The God of Small Things" sounded awfully familiar. Upon looking it up, I noticed that I had to read it for my literature class I took when I was studying abroad, but only skimmed through it. Back than I wasn't a big reader (ironic right, studying literature and all, but well, University kinda killed the fun) and having only two weeks to finish a book was horror. That's why I don't remember much other than I found it kind of disturbing at times.
Thank you for sharing this! I had a horrible experience with a specialist recently… and I felt so defeated! He was mean in a unnecesary way and I felt ashamed that I ‘wasted’ his time. It took time and some conversations with different doctors to give it a place and to understand that doctors can be flawed and mean spirited. I cried so much and I’m find a lot of piece in discovering that im not alone in searching for medical help. ❤ May all the cats you meet in the next few weeks be cute & loving ♥️♥️
Yay!! She promised a vlog and she delivered!! Already loving it ✌️❤️
The little random tidbits of like Linda from Bob’s Burgers popping up in your brain also happens to me. And I’ve never met someone who has normalized that and it gave me a lot of peace today when I really needed it. So thank you and have a great day, week, month, life, all of it.
as someone who has struggled for many years to get the medical help that i needed because i "didn't look sick" i am giving you tHE BIGGEST HUG! the process of finding the right medical help when you are suffering from something that is not well known among doctors or that isn't easily visible on the outside or a simple scan is genuinely horrible and honestly sickening in and of itself. i fully understand the struggle. know that you're not alone in this (which can be both a comfort but also a huge source of frustration in this case..) always know that no matter what these doctors tell you, YOU are not in the wrong. you are the one who knows your body best, so stay stubborn and keep demanding answers/help. i hope you'll manage to find medical professionals who will be able to help you! i hope that you get to experience the relief of finally being heard and getting some actionable answers/advice. and before you get there, keep listening to your own body with at much kindness and patience that you can muster (& keep breathing well. like that may seem like very weird and stupid advice, but when your in a position where u feel so powerless over what's going on with your own body, taking good control over your breath can actually bring some relief, considering that it's a part of your bodily functioning that u have control over and it effects literally all systems within your body. again, maybe it's weird advice, but there's a lot of power in how u breathe and it's good not to forget that when you are made to feel so powerless otherwise).
:') thank you, anna
Aw Ally, I’m sorry you had to go through Drs dismissing your illness and experiences again. I just wish I could give you a big hug! Thank you again for continuing to push through and despite everything happening staying in high spirits. We all love and appreciate you so much!
Oh man! Yes! You are finally reading Mary Oliver! ❤ I really hope you can find a doctor that not only listens but believes in your pain. Finding a way of making one. Thank you for this awesome, real and wholesome content! ❤
Omg I didn't know you were also a mountain goats fan, that's so cool! They've consistently been my top artist almost every year since I found them, haha
I can’t express how happy I am every time you upload a video
HOMIE I WASNT READY FOR THE LIMP BIZKIT TRANSITION
I choked laughing. Love love love your videos.
You can get the pretty pastel/vintage-y page tabs from stationary pals
i've been watching your channel for a while and your struggle with doctors reminded me of mine so much. it was either "you have the worst things possible and we need to do so many tests" or "it's an in your head, we won't do anything" (more of the later) i understand you so much. i came across a doctor after 10 years of struggling with arthritis and other pains and they suggested celiac. it was the answer finally! idk how it's like for you but i had intense migraines all the time that required frequent ER visits. i thought i could just write this out so you can have it in mind or read about it and see if it matches you too. hope you can find answers soon can u can be in less pain as possible. sending u much love!
Ally, we need your Spotify playlist link! I can confidently say all of us will appreciate listening to ally's ultimate reading playlist. ❤️🎶
you know, i don't personally know you but its feels like I do and you've helped me with so much! i love you ally i hope you feel better!
i need that playlist immediately :0 i can’t find it on spotify
I know I'm a little late but I'm SO sorry you had that experience with dismissive doctors. It's awful and confusing that this is such a common thing. I had a doctor tell me I was "just constipated" when I went to get a concerning and painful abdominal bulge checked out and she made me feel like an idiot. Two years later I had to have a hysterectomy bc guess what! It was ginormous fibroids! Thankfully I tried again and found a doctor who listened. To anyone who's struggling with being believed about your pain, keep trying, keep telling your story, and keep advocating for yourself! ❤
Your videos bring me so much comfort in my down time, and bring me so many great reading suggestions so thank you!
they are a little more expensive but cloth and paper has really pretty neutral sticky tabs and mochi things has fun and cute ones that are not offensively neon!
I totally understand your fear of doctor. I had so many bad experience with psychologists and psychiatrists that try to check everything I can about them before going to see them but we never know if they are good unless we try. Sending love and strength ! ❤
Thanks for this video ❤️
I just ordered 1 million book tabs and sticky notes from Cloth & Paper! I found them on a list of black-owned stationary but I can't find that list again so no longer positive BUT they have gorgeous options!!!
this week I described your youtube to a friend by saying: it’s the only person I’m subscribed to that when I see there is a new video, I save it for a moment where I can fully savour it, usually while I eat dinner or have a snack, because all your videos give me such comfort, I feel like I need to give you my full attention 🥰 I’m so grateful that I found you and have made your videos part of my cozy self care routine!! 💞
this is such a heartwarming compliment omg thank you paige!
i love the style of your editing is so funnyyyyyyyyyy. also hearing you cry broke my heart :(
Your white cat reminds me so much of the first cat I had when I was a child. That was about 50 years ago.
I love making a vision board at the beginning of the year! I set it as my computer background and make it how I want my camera roll to look. Bright/ cozy, full of travels, and friendship. Exciting times.
1. My heart absolutely broke when you put in the clip of the post-doctor breakdown 😭🥺❤️🩹
2. Your inclusion of the Sims and Kingdom Hearts music helped make it better ❤
I love the Sims audio being in this video. Peak cozy.
I don’t make vision boards but if I did, you’d be all over it! I love your cozy corner of the internet.
Side note, I’m so sorry for the discouraging doctor visit. I know how exhausting it is to constantly feel like you have to advocate for yourself and I hope you find the answers you’re seeking in this v fresh new year
hip hip hooray for vlogs!!
"I'm going to make it though this year if it kills me" is definitely the vibe for 2023... I've been starting off rough!
ohhhh devotions devotions devotions. i found her poem Sometimes in that book and carry it with me everywhere. so special
Dude you don't know how much i needed an ally vlog today ❤️
your videos always make me smile .. thank you and I sorry that the doctor said that to you it break my heart hearing you cry sending love from Australia
Oh my year is just starting out on the right foot because of my discovery of THIS CHANEL and the wonderful existence that is you and all the things you choose to put into the universe that is accessible to us! How am I just now finding you? Never have I found someone who is the seemingly physical manifestation or curation of so many things that I absolutely love. Nintendo music nostalgia: Check. Love of Books: Check. Cozy Snail Parent Vibes: Check! While I know much of the internet is romanticized, you make things look like the best kind of romantic!! Thank you for just being a relatable human being and sharing the crappy parts of life with us because you make the rest of us feel less alone during our crappy parts!
Ally, I am so sorry that the doctor treated you with disrespect. I have been to so many doctors that tell me the same thing and I am so tempted to yell at them and say, “what will make me look sick then? Throwing up in front of you? Passing out?” Like some doctors make me so upset so I completely understand. Also you have the cutest cat❤ sending you all the love girl!
your cats are angels in disguise i think
I just found your channel and your videos are like a warm hug! Thank you🐌🍄💟
that clip of you crying was heartbreaking to me :( i’m so sorry ally. i hope this new year is filled with understanding and no more shitty doctors !!!!!
the risk with silica packets is that they are choking hazards, not that they are toxic or poisonous. Hopefully this puts your mind a little at ease about your cats and the sachets. also protip they are great for keeping in places where humidity build up is best avoided. Jewelry boxes, makeup bags, in boxes where books, cards, photos, or important paper documents are stored.
Hi Ally...take it easy! Don't worry about not reading enough. Your vlogs are so much more! Take care...
Love your energy! So sorry you had to deal with that at the doctor! Touched you included me on your vision board, hopefully i can absorb some of your magic to achieve my intentions this year! Mwa mwa!
awww omg and i love your energy! mwas right back athcha
Thanks for the update Ally. I really enjoyed learning about your vision board, I hope it all comes to fruition for you. Also, I'm sorry the Doctors are continuing to be dismissive of your experience. That is so frustrating and unacceptable behavior by the Docs.. I wish you courage and strength to continue on your quest for answers. (Actually, I wish you would find a doc that believes you and takes your concerns seriously!)
I noticed you had a playlist for reading, would you be willing to link it/share it? I'm always looking for new music, especially for reading.
You can be proud of yourself for the work you do, all the effort your putting in to take care of yourself, and for acknowledging that it's okay to not feel okay sometimes. 🐌🍄🌱
omg love watching ur vlogs
Your vision board is on ANOTHER LEVEL ❤
oh how i love ally!!! you deserve rest! i hope you fill this week with the cats and mary oliver and sleep and joy! sending u allllll the best vibes across the ocean and the land between us!!
Thank you for sharing the healing Rumi vibrations at 15:06 Sending some strong vibes back for an actual empathetic doctor in 2023 🤞
Haven’t even started the video yet but just wanted to say I’ve been struggling a lot these past few months, after a few years of not having any severe mental health issues it’s been kind of a slap in the face. And things like your videos, are what keep me grounded and hopeful. Thank you for creating them ❤
Oh my heart. I've been there too Ally. I think it's almost more exhausting trying to get a diagnosis and going through countless tests than it is just being chronically ill. I'm so sorry you got the 'you don't look sick' comment. I see you!
I love your videos, they are often a comfort watch for me (I saved this one for after my psychologist appointment today!). Personally I'd rather rewatch an older video than know you pushed beyond your limits to get uploaded.
Also, I wear your snail shirt to lots of appointments and always get compliments :)
take it down a notch!! philosophy for 2023!!
The vulnerability. Love it.🥹💜
Love & light to you, friend✌🏽
Thanks for the tea dragon society books rec the cutest thing ever 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
Loved the plant hands 😂
The beginning of january has been so shitty to me, thanks for sharing these videos with us and reminding everyone that's it's okay to feel sad and tired sometimes and that we can make it through the year
Aww Ally I am so sorry about the doctors! I 100% know how you feel and I'm sending you all the love and support I can right now
Aww...love that you do cat stretchies with your cat too 😂🐱🐈
i don't know if i missed it but could we pls have a link to that reading playlist?? (if you don't mind of course!!)) also, thank you for being here ally
How do you make such beautiful collages?! Not gonna lie, I’d be excited about a diy collage semi tutorial video from you 😊
Uh! I Love your videos!!! So wholesome and genuine! Finding such happiness in little things ❤❤❤
Thank you for the reminder ❤
You could try washi tape! And you can get a lot of custom designed washi tape on places like Etsy! I've seen a lot of people using it as the tabs in their books, which requires a bit more work but also looks a lot more colorful and you can support smaller creators 😊
Hi! Would you be willing to share your ultimate reading playlist? Don't feel pressured! I have trouble making a good relaxing playlist for reading so Im wondering about yours. Thank you so much :)
I love this channel, I love these vlogs. U cook so good, u draw so good, u play w cat so good. Eat pray slay this 2023
This is going to sound silly BUT whenever I think of being a woman with medical struggles and dismissive doctors I think of an episode of Golden Girls. Dorothy experiences fatigue and just cannot get energy any time of day and a doctor basically tells her “you’re old lady what do you expect”. But she keeps trying. She advocates for herself and keeps going and finds a doctor that will listen and help her and BELIEVE HER. Hopefully you’ll find your doctor that believes you and helps you and respects you. You will be on my heart ❤
Every time i feel overwhelmed i come to watch one of your videos. It feels extremely nice. Thank you, Ally 🤍
Thank you for uploading today. I always look forward to these videos. Can't wait for next months book club pick.
Always enjoy your vlogs and how honest you are. Love your vision board. Yes yo manifesting all the money this year, right there with you!
girl i know where you can get tab things that aren’t from jeff (i think) and they have prettier colors. i’m not sure if belgium (sorry if that’s not where you live, i’m bad with countries. there’s so many) has this place, but it’s a store called daiso and they have such amazing stationary and it’s pretty cheap too. that’s where i get mine. i believe half price books has some too, and probably barnes and noble.
I hope you find some health solutions and better doctors this year! I'm glad you had a reminder for the book club bc I just joined the Patreon and the editing for this video is *chef's kiss* sending love 💕
As a follow chronic migraine sufferer I feel you on the dismissive doctors and navigating through systems that really aren't designed for those with chronic pain or any kind of invisible illness. I wanted to say also that as of a few months ago I started propranolol and my attacks have reduced dramatically. Not sure if you/your doctor has tried that but definitely worth a go if not. Sending you all the good vibes. Thank you for being authentically you as always xx
i tried this and it was definitely helpful but gave me unrelenting night terrors so had to stop 😭
@@allisonpaiges ah I'm so sorry! I've been having some really scary dreams recently and this might explain it! Thank you for letting me know!! Xx
I haven't seen anyone else mention it but for tabs I would probably go to Etsy, or kawaii pen shop (or basically a Japanese stationary store if you find one that ships to you for a reasonable price).
Best of luck with the drs, as drs can be asses
I'm sorry you had a rough week... I love your videos, they bring me so much confort and happiness, you always manage to make me smile so i wanted to thank you ☺️ I hope the next few weeks will be better for you ! 🙏💛
I'm sending you all my love Ally!!! I'm so sorry you have to deal with such horrible doctors on top of dealing with your sickness and all the uncertanty that comes with it. One day someone will understand you and treat you with the kindness and respect you deserve. Here's to it being sooner rather than later. Love your videos and I hope you have a great new year!! Cheers from Croatia ❤
sending you the biggest hugs virtually. not having the answers and not being listened to really sucks. i hope you find the right doctor soon. sending you so much love, thank you for always making our lives brighter 💛💛💛
At a very low point in my life, it was your vlogs that made me feel atleast a little bit better. Thank you for doing this. Also, when you said your vlog will be coming on this week , I kept on checking my notifications to see if it did happen.. Thank you for making my days better, time and again..
Happy new year ❤️
I just want to come here and validate u! I am chronically ill and I don’t even eff w doctors anymore (not shaming anyone at all who does cuz they r v necessary sadly) like I see them and i go through the motions, but after they refused to diagnose w me conditions I had literally every symptom of (guessing it’s cuz I don’t “look” sick allegedly and I’m a brown woman……) I started doing my own research and treating myself bc I literally had so much medical trauma. Doctors will act absolutely wild and there r no consequences for them, only us!!!!! Healthy ppl do not have to do all that we have to do, no matter how u look. Hoping u have better experiences going forward😭
IM SO HAPPY I GET TO WATCH THIS BEFORE GOING TO WORK!!!
your videos never ever fail to make me feel so full⭐️remember to congratulate yourself for your hard work because what you do has such a grand impact on us viewers!! ^^
Sistem of a Down always giving energy
My heart hurt listening to you cry. I’ve been there. It took years, but my diagnosis finally came. I still deal with doctors who dismiss health issues, but it happens less. I know you will find your answers;I just hope it’s in 2023!
that cabbage meal looked good!
I like your glasses. Great video
i love your vlogs so much. they are such a comfort to me. so thank you for sharing parts of your life with us ❤ sending all the light and love from louisiana!
Damn. Grieving and mourning things in my life has also been a theme recently. Living as a fellow American expat in Germany, there are some things and experience that I miss out on that are considered the typical “American experience/tradition” and accepting that I’m fully aware I chose this life for myself, but also allowing myself to mourn the experiences my friends get to have that I miss out on because of my choice to live here.
Maybe you experience this as well, if so, I’m right there with ya. Lots of love ❤️
Ooooo I like the new outro page!! Cute!!
thank you for the sunny's love friend!!!!!!!! hoping u get a non bobo doctor soon
I'd love to hear more about your bujo and organization! ❤ thanks for the vlog, ally
those doctors need a kick in the butt, they truly suck... I hope it doesn't bring you down too much and as my message on instagram said you are strong!! you are enough and you bring such comfort to a lot of people and I hope we can bring the same comfort back to you!!! (also about sticky tabs, there's nicer ones on etsy or like aliexpress, there is also some on amazon but I agree that bezos doesn't need more money tbh) love your videos and hug your cats an extra time from me, much love!!!! 💖
when you’re so early you beat the notification ✨💖
oh dang! impressive!
The minecraft music makes me feel so at home watching this video :))
I love the spark new growth hoodie!! I need it!
new viewer I loved your vlog I look forward to seeing more! ❤
such a comforting vlog thank youuu ♡
My heart breaks for you. I know all too well how dismissive drs can be and I have so much hope that with time you will find who will help you. Allow yourself to be upset and sad.
Thank you for your cozy vlogs ❤
It’s was… I just. ❤ Thank you for sharing all of this. Send you a BIg HUG ❤❤❤
oh man! I absolutely love your vision boards i am definitely going to give that a try!!