I can't listen to this song without crying. It's a release to have words that express how so many of my struggles feel. I have a chronic autoimmune disease that they have labeled as me/cfs or long covid or just don't know. I've also survived abusive relationships. This hits on so many levels. Your voice is beautiful. I love the quiet simplicity of the video, too. You have a beautiful soul.
We are such a huge community. The battered and bruised. Used and abused. Completely confused. We share pain. But we're here. Still. Some days barely hanging on by a thread. Fighting the fight. Some days strong, others incredibly weak. One step forward and two steps back all too often. Music helps. It's the conversations we wish we could have with each other. It's a hug from a stranger who's hurting too. It's a whisper that someone knows just how we feel. I have a wish for all of us. A little kindness. Some understanding. And peace. Sweet, beautiful peace. Take care as best you can everybody. God Bless. Love and hope. ❤❤❤
"A full time job isn't this much work." this line hits hard because it's so true. a full time job still only is 8 hours a day but a chronic or mental illness is there 24 hours 7 days a week. UPDATE: been 3 weeks since I was released from the hospital after 4 weeks of treatment and I feel it getting worse every day. UPDATE2: started therapy in the day-clinic this week after I had to quit my internship a month ago
I'm a domestic violence survivor of 3 and half yrs of torture 😭 to being in the hospital bcuz he tried to kill me And this song hits me so hard and it's not the same as being sick and I'm truly sorry 😢😢 I've been free 5 months now 💜 and I want to say this song really touches my heart and I feel it!! Music like this, is amazing!! it's so real & raw that it speaks to people ❤ I appreciate it. Healing definitely hurts 🫶🫶🫶
I been out for 2 and 1/2 years now and it's still hard!! But I'd rather have this pain than then prison I put myself in for so long!! Glad you got out too
Girl. As a cancer survivor this hit me so hard. I was an athlete before chemo. I'm 3 years out and the pain I'm in every day is debilitating. You are not alone. Thank you so much for writing and sharing this amazing song.
It took 11 years for me to discover where the pain was coming from. I've recently been diagnosed with stage 2-3 of endometriosis and adenomyiosis. I've lost months in bed during these years. I lost people around me due to this condition. I struggled with people's wrong perception, I wasn't believed. I just had my surgery last month and now I feel so emotional about all these years, my tears just showed listening to this song... Ny heart stays with all the women who are dealing with this.
I'm waiting for my diagnostic surgery next month I feel misunderstood 😢I'm in pain and the only person who was listening was my doc but I feel like she's tired of me complaining all the time . I'm so scared that they won't find it and I'll go back to where I was 😢 it's a mixture of emotions thoughts and feeling. I honestly don't know how I feel all I want is answers that's all
As an abuse and trauma survivor and someone with cPTSD this is so relatable. People often don't see the struggle behind (chronic) illnesses and the time sink and work they are.
Agreed!❤ They have absolutely no idea how it's a constant 24/7 battle. You never get a break. So slips ups happen and I wish people understood how much it took out of me not to slip up. It's exhausting..
This is my daily anthem…been fighting chronic Lyme and other chronic illnesses for a decade. Herxing so bad right now and this song comforts me through it. To anyone reading this: you’re stronger than you know. Hang in there 💗
As a mom of 3 boys and my youngest passing away unexpectedly and suddenly. With ptsd, anxiety, depression, and grieving I've lost myself. A year and half since he's gone and it's the hardest thing I ever had to go through all while trying to be there for my other kids. Seeing what it did to my kids. Their bond was unbelievable and seeing them torn apart hurts. I feel so stuck in between here and there. I miss my son 💜
This song helped me through my multiple sclerosis diagnosis and still is the song I come back to after two years when Im just frustrated with the pain and everything ❤
i know dude. i feel it a lot. i started struggling with anxiety and depression when i was 8, was put on meds and everything for years, till when i was 14 they finally figured out i had hypothyroidism cuz they took my blood at the psych hospital. and after that when i started seeing more doctors they just kept telling me all these other chronic illnesses i have and it just piles on and on. i’m almost 22 now tho. my mom was my rock especially because she taught me how to lean on God, and i hope you have a rock too. but even if you don’t, you’re becoming a rock yourself that will help someone so dramatically because of what you went through. i don’t know who id be without my chronic illnesses and that’s not to say they define me, but it’s to say i became one hell of a person through the battles they put me through. id probably be some wimp without them, and i wouldn’t be this proud of myself for not only getting through those circumstances, but knowing i can face anything that happens to me now. and if i can help anyone with a similar situation because of the wisdom God gave me in my worst times, it will all have been worth it. your music is incredible katie - you make people feel your emotions. not only that, but you make other peoples emotions SEEN. your journey, though full of hard times, is not without goodness. you are using it to recognize the pain of others who may not every be seen otherwise. that’s huge.
I’ve been through so many pains through different diseases and diagnoses. I have had burn type pain time to time do a surgery I had. I think burn survivors are the strongest people in the world. Anytime I deal with the small thing I have it makes me hysterical, I panic and just scream from the pain. I cannot imagine having actual burns on my body. So I just wanted to say if you don’t know, you are insanely strong. Also this song is amazing for anyone surviving through any illness of trauma for that matter. I’ve never felt more heard than by blu eyes music
i think you need to edit the comment, it reads a little bit off from what it's supposed to mean, it feels like you'r telling her she does not deserve millions of subscribers, where we all know they lyrics are divinely good she wrote
I think they were saying it's amazing to see she doesn't have a million upon millions of subscribers becuz she has amazing talent and deserves to be heard and seen as the talented artist she is 🥰❤️💕?!
It took more than one year for me, to find out that I have fibromyalgia. A lot of doctors, a lot of doubts, a lot of fear. And this song describes perfectly what I'm feeling. ❤️
this is how i feel battling depression. i’m working through trauma and i’m learned how to take care of and live with myself, but damn. healing fucking hurts sometimes.
As a nurse whose spent the last several shifts with a 20-something who has no fight left, I hear that patient's voice in this song. I HEAR YOU... and it hurts me too 😢❤
Girl, this song hits so hard. I've been living with POTS going on 7 years now and I just recently got diagnosed with Small Fiber Poly Neuropathy. Sometimes it seems like it will never end. Hearing these words is so validating. Thank you, just thank you. ❤
I first heard this song shortly after getting diagnosed with brain cancer. I had just gotten out of the hospital from having brain surgery and this song helped me feel like someone kind of understood how I felt and what I was going through. I don’t know what your song is actually about, but just know that it helps a lot of people feel less alone in whatever they may be battling! ❤
Your a true work of art young lady well on your way to creating your beautiful masterpiece with a pure heart your such a rare beauty inside and out thank u for sharing this pure beauty you are a true angel on this earth and an incredible Inspiration to us all
This whole song resonates with so many people in their healing journey. People don’t know how painful healing really is. Healing can take months, and most of the time years… you captured the feeling so well and I’m sure many people are listening gratefully that they know they are not the only one going through this.❤
Thank you for writing this. It is nice to feel seen and hear similar feelings in a song. 15 years, 2 surgeries, thousands of dollars, and many doctors later I'm still fighting chronic illness and pain. This is good, keep singing from the soul.
I just wanted to let you know how beautiful this song is, and how deeply it resonates with me. Last month I lost my 21 year old Son from a catastrophic stroke due to his kidney disease. Grief is so heavy... it's physically painful and it's all consuming. I don't know how to breathe most days, let alone heal. And it f*cking hurts SO bad. Thank you for putting words and feelings to something I have struggled to express properly. I just found your music, and I am now a forever fan ❤️🩹
2 brain surgeries, spine surgeries, repairs… in 6 years none of it has fixed the skull crushing pain in my head everyday. And to hear over and over we can’t find the problem and we don’t know what else to do for you … has crushed my mind, body and spirit more than I ever thought possible. Year by year, my children get bigger, my husband and I grow older and all we know is watching me in and out of consciousness passed out from the pain. The hardest thing to do is hold on, even for that next breath that you’re not sure is even going to come, or the next beat of your heart that may never happen. I have never resonated with someone’s music and lyrics so much in my life and hearing this gave me an ounce of a voice that I don’t have anymore. Thank you for putting into words what so many of us can’t do and expressing what we feel when the right thing to say can’t escape us ❤️❤️❤️
@@michellejohnson9741 I’m so sorry 😢 It’s absolutely exhausting hearing it over and over like you’re crazy. Healthcare needs help because expecting people to live like this is insane! When they are stumped for answers and don’t know what else to do, it always comes back to “ well, maybe it’s just all in YOUR head 🤷♀️” If any of them had an ounce of decency, they would admit that they aren’t sure how to help or proceed but would be happy to help you moving in a different direction with a fresh set of eyes. Most are too much of egomaniacs though to admit they don’t something and need help! You have to be some kind of evil to just let others suffer like that because you can’t get off your high horse. Makes me beyond infuriated to see people pushed to the brink of suicidal ideas because they are suffering like this and just get swept under the rug 😢
Been diagnosed with a chronic incurable illness this year. I really needed this song. So glad I came across this on instagram. Really beautiful. Your voice is beautiful. You’re so brave and talented to be able to put all this in such a vulnerable honest way. Honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart for this music. ❤
I'm fifteen and I've had undiagnosed chronic pain, dislocations and migraines for seven years. Everything went downhill for me one day when I was nine, and my problems were always brushed to the side and labeled "puberty" because my sister was sick too. This song encapsulates everything I've felt for the last seven years. Thank you for this.
Dude this exactly, been sick since i was 8 im 15 now and finally getting answers after years of doctors gaslighting me, telling me i wasn't exhausted just lazy or the agony my joints were in were growing pains. Begging then to believe me. This song is the definition of perfection, letting everyone down over and over again. Finally thinking your getting better just to have a horrible flare up and end up sicker. Realising this isnt something ill get better from, it wont go away. This is my life.
Hey ! Are you still undiagnosed? Your symptoms look like mine , i have elhers danlos syndrom (hypermobile) . Maybe it can be helpful if you google the name and check . Hope my english is not to bad, its not my first language 😅
@user-uy7ng8gm3r I have been looking into Ehlers Danlos syndrome and I have a doctor's appointment next month to talk about it! Thank you for the suggestion though!
I'm 16 and I've been dealing with consistent health issues for the last couple years and was told "oh it's just stress" and now my doctor is listening to me and I'm going through testing but it's just so exhausting and so far all the tests have come back negative and it's just so frustrating because I know somethings wrong and no one knows what it is. This song is a blessing, and it's so nice being able to listen too it.
hey, thanks for writing songs about your experience with medical trauma and illness! there's a whole community of folx out here who will understand and feel seen by this.
I have had so many medical issues this year while/after carrying my child. I also had financial, mental, and relationship issues adding to the pain and stress. It has been a roller-coaster of hell, and this song has been on repeat for me since I haven't had time to process any of my emotions. Thank you so much for posting this ❤
Thank you for your music!! My hubby asked how in the world I keep finding the perfect songs just for me, as your songs really do say what my life is all about.
Wow this is a beautifully written song coming from your soul and heart. Shocked there aren’t more views. This should be on the radio. Thank you for writing something so raw and real and vulnerable. You’ve touched my heart and soul. And it makes me feel not alone with being in the “healing” phase. Keep writing more please!
I found this song as it was recommended for an tiktok video i just posted. It’s perfect. Healing really does fucking hurt sometimes. To the point you don’t feel you’re ‘healing’ at all. It feels worse. And everyone tells you to trust the process and you try to believe them but… sending so much love.
Please never stop making this music. We need this so badly. To feel seen and understood. To hear someone else tell our story. It's so hard being sick, Thank you for making it a little less lonely
I really feel this. It's so hard to get through this, and i hope, for everyone that reads this and hears this amazing song - which is so relatable - to get to the other side of the pain and survives and conquers it! We are going to survive this and we will show ourselfs to the world again!! Thank you for your amazing music, please never stop!
It's so true how lonely it is. No one gets it because it's your own journey and I hate that I can't easily explain it to people. Even with people in your corner, it still feels like a battle you are fighting alone.
Need a karaoke version, really want to cover this. I was diagnosed with FND and this is the only song that relates to what I've been through. You're amazing 💖
Omg THIS!!! It reaches me on so many levels. I have Fibromyalgia, ME, depression and chronic anxiety. My life turned upside down. The line "it gets better until it gets worse". Ouffff ..so so true. I even went throught a lot of loss last year and it applies so well also. Healing does fucking hurt and you just want to close your eyes sometimes until it's over 💔. Your voice is so soothing and beautiful ❤
I love this song so much because having chronic illness for the pass 20 years it definitely a full time job living in pain in and out of the hospital isn’t easy healing from PTSD other
Crying inside... 1:15 in the afternoon... Wearing my thick jacket and a bucket hat to hide my face and having tea alone when I accidentally found this song...my dad died just last year from cancer.
I never thought I could come across such a good song and such an inspiring voice. Actually, I just happened to hear this song of yours on a random playlist of a Spotify user. Curiosity led me to you and this wonderful song. I really appreciate and respect your music, talent, and voice. So from the bottom of my heart, I genuinely hope you will continue to produce great songs in the future
2:23 I just this year reached the "end" of my healing process and being patient with myself was the worst part. I wanted so badly to just be done 'getting better' and just 'be better' but that's not how it works. If anyone reading is curious I put end in quotes because while I don't hurt almost ever anymore, I know it'll be years before I don't hurt ever ever.
As someone who’s fighting cancer getting ready to start yet another 6 weeks of chemo in a few weeks and who’s healing from closing a chapter in my life thats 20 years old ive never related to a song so much.
This 😭🔥 For 7 longs years no one could tell me what was going on with me. I had to walk away from my career, which I loved. I f*cking LOVED my job. I slowly became more of a homebody, unable to even play with my kids and dog like I used to. Then, it finally reached a head and I had a huge episode no one could dismiss as anxiety. 2½ years later I finally know. POTS, Small Fiber Neuropathy, & Hemiplegic Migraine Disorder. I just started meds for the POTS and it's rough right now. Living in a Chronically Ill body is a jail sentence till you're finally free. You may get some freedom until you're ball and chain is strapped to you again.
I feel this song on a deeper level :( the hurt and isolation is debilitating "A full time job isn't this much work." I have second job on top of the full time job and I still wasn't enough
My daddy (aka old guy) will have passed 3 months ago. It hasn't gotten easier and I'm looking for a wah forward. Your song has helped and shown me that it's not a one way street and that back sliding in your grief is ok.
Faden, my love, you are so strong and so brave. I know you hurt even when you smile, but if anyone can get through it, it's you. Thank you for not giving up the fight. ❤
I can't listen to this song without crying. It's a release to have words that express how so many of my struggles feel. I have a chronic autoimmune disease that they have labeled as me/cfs or long covid or just don't know. I've also survived abusive relationships. This hits on so many levels. Your voice is beautiful. I love the quiet simplicity of the video, too. You have a beautiful soul.
We are such a huge community. The battered and bruised. Used and abused. Completely confused. We share pain.
But we're here. Still. Some days barely hanging on by a thread. Fighting the fight. Some days strong, others incredibly weak. One step forward and two steps back all too often.
Music helps.
It's the conversations we wish we could have with each other. It's a hug from a stranger who's hurting too. It's a whisper that someone knows just how we feel.
I have a wish for all of us. A little kindness. Some understanding. And peace. Sweet, beautiful peace.
Take care as best you can everybody. God Bless. Love and hope. ❤❤❤
"A full time job isn't this much work." this line hits hard because it's so true. a full time job still only is 8 hours a day but a chronic or mental illness is there 24 hours 7 days a week.
UPDATE: been 3 weeks since I was released from the hospital after 4 weeks of treatment and I feel it getting worse every day.
UPDATE2: started therapy in the day-clinic this week after I had to quit my internship a month ago
applys wonderfully to chronic pain and chronic illness or disability
Hope you are doing better ❤
I hope youre doing well, its been awhile.
I'm a domestic violence survivor of 3 and half yrs of torture 😭 to being in the hospital bcuz he tried to kill me And this song hits me so hard and it's not the same as being sick and I'm truly sorry 😢😢 I've been free 5 months now 💜 and I want to say this song really touches my heart and I feel it!! Music like this, is amazing!! it's so real & raw that it speaks to people ❤ I appreciate it. Healing definitely hurts 🫶🫶🫶
I been out for 2 and 1/2 years now and it's still hard!! But I'd rather have this pain than then prison I put myself in for so long!! Glad you got out too
I’m so glad you’re out of that hell.. one day at a time ❤ here for you
You are the strongest!! More love to you❤
I'm so sorry I'm a dv surviour too still hurts like the first time
Five years for me …
You are not alone ♥️🦋🥹
Girl. As a cancer survivor this hit me so hard. I was an athlete before chemo. I'm 3 years out and the pain I'm in every day is debilitating. You are not alone. Thank you so much for writing and sharing this amazing song.
wishing you nothing but the best
Same
Yes, same
Me too,1 year in remission,I'm not the same person,living in so much pain,sending 🤗
It took 11 years for me to discover where the pain was coming from. I've recently been diagnosed with stage 2-3 of endometriosis and adenomyiosis. I've lost months in bed during these years. I lost people around me due to this condition. I struggled with people's wrong perception, I wasn't believed. I just had my surgery last month and now I feel so emotional about all these years, my tears just showed listening to this song... Ny heart stays with all the women who are dealing with this.
I'm waiting for my diagnostic surgery next month I feel misunderstood 😢I'm in pain and the only person who was listening was my doc but I feel like she's tired of me complaining all the time . I'm so scared that they won't find it and I'll go back to where I was 😢 it's a mixture of emotions thoughts and feeling. I honestly don't know how I feel all I want is answers that's all
As an abuse and trauma survivor and someone with cPTSD this is so relatable. People often don't see the struggle behind (chronic) illnesses and the time sink and work they are.
Agreed!❤ They have absolutely no idea how it's a constant 24/7 battle. You never get a break. So slips ups happen and I wish people understood how much it took out of me not to slip up. It's exhausting..
This is my daily anthem…been fighting chronic Lyme and other chronic illnesses for a decade. Herxing so bad right now and this song comforts me through it. To anyone reading this: you’re stronger than you know. Hang in there 💗
As a mom of 3 boys and my youngest passing away unexpectedly and suddenly. With ptsd, anxiety, depression, and grieving I've lost myself. A year and half since he's gone and it's the hardest thing I ever had to go through all while trying to be there for my other kids. Seeing what it did to my kids. Their bond was unbelievable and seeing them torn apart hurts. I feel so stuck in between here and there. I miss my son 💜
I hope you’re doing well mama ❤
This is just an awsome song thank you so much , I just love this song..
Damn, girl. Thank you for putting words to how a lot of us with chronic illness feel 😢
As someone with endometriosis who’s had 5 surgeries and years of misdiagnosis and medical gaslighting, I felt this in my soul! So so well written ❤❤❤
You are not alone. Sending you healing light and peaceful energy right to your heart, sweet girl 💖🙏🤗
This song helped me through my multiple sclerosis diagnosis and still is the song I come back to after two years when Im just frustrated with the pain and everything ❤
i know dude. i feel it a lot. i started struggling with anxiety and depression when i was 8, was put on meds and everything for years, till when i was 14 they finally figured out i had hypothyroidism cuz they took my blood at the psych hospital. and after that when i started seeing more doctors they just kept telling me all these other chronic illnesses i have and it just piles on and on. i’m almost 22 now tho. my mom was my rock especially because she taught me how to lean on God, and i hope you have a rock too. but even if you don’t, you’re becoming a rock yourself that will help someone so dramatically because of what you went through. i don’t know who id be without my chronic illnesses and that’s not to say they define me, but it’s to say i became one hell of a person through the battles they put me through. id probably be some wimp without them, and i wouldn’t be this proud of myself for not only getting through those circumstances, but knowing i can face anything that happens to me now. and if i can help anyone with a similar situation because of the wisdom God gave me in my worst times, it will all have been worth it. your music is incredible katie - you make people feel your emotions. not only that, but you make other peoples emotions SEEN. your journey, though full of hard times, is not without goodness. you are using it to recognize the pain of others who may not every be seen otherwise. that’s huge.
I'm a burn survivor and this really hits!! 17mths and still in recovery. When u think it is getting better, everything falls apart again. ❤
I’ve been through so many pains through different diseases and diagnoses. I have had burn type pain time to time do a surgery I had. I think burn survivors are the strongest people in the world. Anytime I deal with the small thing I have it makes me hysterical, I panic and just scream from the pain. I cannot imagine having actual burns on my body. So I just wanted to say if you don’t know, you are insanely strong.
Also this song is amazing for anyone surviving through any illness of trauma for that matter. I’ve never felt more heard than by blu eyes music
it’s amazing to think you don’t have millions of subscribers, you deserve it
Agreed! In time, I hope she gets that!
i think you need to edit the comment, it reads a little bit off from what it's supposed to mean, it feels like you'r telling her she does not deserve millions of subscribers, where we all know they lyrics are divinely good she wrote
She will ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I think they were saying it's amazing to see she doesn't have a million upon millions of subscribers becuz she has amazing talent and deserves to be heard and seen as the talented artist she is 🥰❤️💕?!
She does,am all her sad listeners 🖇️
It took more than one year for me, to find out that I have fibromyalgia. A lot of doctors, a lot of doubts, a lot of fear. And this song describes perfectly what I'm feeling. ❤️
this is how i feel battling depression. i’m working through trauma and i’m learned how to take care of and live with myself, but damn. healing fucking hurts sometimes.
As a nurse whose spent the last several shifts with a 20-something who has no fight left, I hear that patient's voice in this song. I HEAR YOU... and it hurts me too 😢❤
Oh my heart. Im 45 and can't imagine being that young and feeling like I do now. Sending your patient so much love and strength 😢❤
Wow.... Just living out loud and helping others on their road! All kindsa truth here! Keep on Keep on Keep on!!
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Thank you ❤❤❤
Girl, this song hits so hard. I've been living with POTS going on 7 years now and I just recently got diagnosed with Small Fiber Poly Neuropathy. Sometimes it seems like it will never end. Hearing these words is so validating. Thank you, just thank you. ❤
I also have POTS and this illness is a helluva lot to deal with. I hope you are doing well! 😊
Me too. Only other potsies actually seem to truly understand the suffering and loss involved.
Hang in there fellow sufferers. ❤❤❤
I have Fibromyalgia. This song speaks to me so much. Every day is freaking hard. Thank you for this song 😭❤️
I'm healing from c-ptsd. I've been saying how lonely and painful healing is. You hit the nail on the head.
So lonely and painful but the other side is so freeing
I first heard this song shortly after getting diagnosed with brain cancer. I had just gotten out of the hospital from having brain surgery and this song helped me feel like someone kind of understood how I felt and what I was going through. I don’t know what your song is actually about, but just know that it helps a lot of people feel less alone in whatever they may be battling! ❤
Your a true work of art young lady well on your way to creating your beautiful masterpiece with a pure heart your such a rare beauty inside and out thank u for sharing this pure beauty you are a true angel on this earth and an incredible Inspiration to us all
Thanks for this song 🥹
This whole song resonates with so many people in their healing journey. People don’t know how painful healing really is. Healing can take months, and most of the time years… you captured the feeling so well and I’m sure many people are listening gratefully that they know they are not the only one going through this.❤
Thank you for writing this. It is nice to feel seen and hear similar feelings in a song. 15 years, 2 surgeries, thousands of dollars, and many doctors later I'm still fighting chronic illness and pain. This is good, keep singing from the soul.
I just wanted to let you know how beautiful this song is, and how deeply it resonates with me. Last month I lost my 21 year old Son from a catastrophic stroke due to his kidney disease. Grief is so heavy... it's physically painful and it's all consuming. I don't know how to breathe most days, let alone heal. And it f*cking hurts SO bad. Thank you for putting words and feelings to something I have struggled to express properly.
I just found your music, and I am now a forever fan ❤️🩹
I'm giving you a very big and tender, loving, human hug.... I can't imagine the pain you must be going through
2 brain surgeries, spine surgeries, repairs… in 6 years none of it has fixed the skull crushing pain in my head everyday. And to hear over and over we can’t find the problem and we don’t know what else to do for you … has crushed my mind, body and spirit more than I ever thought possible. Year by year, my children get bigger, my husband and I grow older and all we know is watching me in and out of consciousness passed out from the pain. The hardest thing to do is hold on, even for that next breath that you’re not sure is even going to come, or the next beat of your heart that may never happen. I have never resonated with someone’s music and lyrics so much in my life and hearing this gave me an ounce of a voice that I don’t have anymore. Thank you for putting into words what so many of us can’t do and expressing what we feel when the right thing to say can’t escape us ❤️❤️❤️
They have been saying the same to me. Hugs and prayers
@@michellejohnson9741 I’m so sorry 😢 It’s absolutely exhausting hearing it over and over like you’re crazy. Healthcare needs help because expecting people to live like this is insane! When they are stumped for answers and don’t know what else to do, it always comes back to “ well, maybe it’s just all in YOUR head 🤷♀️” If any of them had an ounce of decency, they would admit that they aren’t sure how to help or proceed but would be happy to help you moving in a different direction with a fresh set of eyes. Most are too much of egomaniacs though to admit they don’t something and need help! You have to be some kind of evil to just let others suffer like that because you can’t get off your high horse. Makes me beyond infuriated to see people pushed to the brink of suicidal ideas because they are suffering like this and just get swept under the rug 😢
Thank you for writing this song. As much as it hurts, I needed to hear this.
Been diagnosed with a chronic incurable illness this year. I really needed this song. So glad I came across this on instagram. Really beautiful. Your voice is beautiful. You’re so brave and talented to be able to put all this in such a vulnerable honest way. Honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart for this music. ❤
Yessss. Thank You. Your music helps me get through the pain.
Prayers lifted.. gentle hugs.
I feel this healing does f*****g hurt but have faith the scars may always be there but you pick yourself up!! This is such an amazing truthful song
I'm fifteen and I've had undiagnosed chronic pain, dislocations and migraines for seven years. Everything went downhill for me one day when I was nine, and my problems were always brushed to the side and labeled "puberty" because my sister was sick too. This song encapsulates everything I've felt for the last seven years. Thank you for this.
I pray the Lord bless you in Jesus name 🥺❤
Dude this exactly, been sick since i was 8 im 15 now and finally getting answers after years of doctors gaslighting me, telling me i wasn't exhausted just lazy or the agony my joints were in were growing pains. Begging then to believe me. This song is the definition of perfection, letting everyone down over and over again. Finally thinking your getting better just to have a horrible flare up and end up sicker. Realising this isnt something ill get better from, it wont go away. This is my life.
Hey ! Are you still undiagnosed?
Your symptoms look like mine , i have elhers danlos syndrom (hypermobile) .
Maybe it can be helpful if you google the name and check .
Hope my english is not to bad, its not my first language 😅
@user-uy7ng8gm3r I have been looking into Ehlers Danlos syndrome and I have a doctor's appointment next month to talk about it! Thank you for the suggestion though!
I'm 16 and I've been dealing with consistent health issues for the last couple years and was told "oh it's just stress" and now my doctor is listening to me and I'm going through testing but it's just so exhausting and so far all the tests have come back negative and it's just so frustrating because I know somethings wrong and no one knows what it is. This song is a blessing, and it's so nice being able to listen too it.
You are becoming my go to music for when I'm feeling overwhelmed 😭 thank you for making your music. It's helping so much
Thank you 💙
Absolute perfection….love this ❤️
I a world where I feel misunderstood your music never fails to make me feel understood. You are amazingly talented
hey, thanks for writing songs about your experience with medical trauma and illness! there's a whole community of folx out here who will understand and feel seen by this.
Thanks for sharing the truths in this song. The pain is so real…. Some days it feels like it will never stop.
This is perfect. Your voice is perfect. The feeling you show in your voice gives comfort. Cheers !!!
I have had so many medical issues this year while/after carrying my child. I also had financial, mental, and relationship issues adding to the pain and stress. It has been a roller-coaster of hell, and this song has been on repeat for me since I haven't had time to process any of my emotions. Thank you so much for posting this ❤
Wow!! Fuuu!! Yes!! CPTSD! 💜
Thank you for your music!! My hubby asked how in the world I keep finding the perfect songs just for me, as your songs really do say what my life is all about.
Wow this is a beautifully written song coming from your soul and heart. Shocked there aren’t more views. This should be on the radio. Thank you for writing something so raw and real and vulnerable. You’ve touched my heart and soul. And it makes me feel not alone with being in the “healing” phase. Keep writing more please!
no clue how i've gone this long without knowing about your music. thanks for this. i needed it.
This song has been such a gift. Thank you for putting these truths into words; they apply in so many ways to do many different experiences.
I found this song as it was recommended for an tiktok video i just posted. It’s perfect. Healing really does fucking hurt sometimes. To the point you don’t feel you’re ‘healing’ at all. It feels worse. And everyone tells you to trust the process and you try to believe them but… sending so much love.
Please never stop making this music. We need this so badly. To feel seen and understood. To hear someone else tell our story. It's so hard being sick, Thank you for making it a little less lonely
So many people relate to your songs. I am grateful for you and your sharing of your emotional journey!!! Thank you
I really feel this. It's so hard to get through this, and i hope, for everyone that reads this and hears this amazing song - which is so relatable - to get to the other side of the pain and survives and conquers it! We are going to survive this and we will show ourselfs to the world again!! Thank you for your amazing music, please never stop!
I don't know why I've been able to relate to so many of your songs. I've just been through a lot in my life and all I do is just keep moving forward.
I love this so much! Thank you for sharing! This is beautiful. ❤️❤️❤️
Loving your music. It's my go to ❤️
It's so true how lonely it is. No one gets it because it's your own journey and I hate that I can't easily explain it to people. Even with people in your corner, it still feels like a battle you are fighting alone.
❤ your music as I type the tears fall....
As someone who's dealing with chronic pain this song has been my only comfort through some rough days. Thank you for sharing your music ❤️
Still here but kinda wanna throw in the towel ngl. I'm so tired
Need a karaoke version, really want to cover this. I was diagnosed with FND and this is the only song that relates to what I've been through. You're amazing 💖
I love this song!
sooo true... thank you for finding the words
so raw and authentic. brilliant talent
Omg THIS!!! It reaches me on so many levels. I have Fibromyalgia, ME, depression and chronic anxiety. My life turned upside down. The line "it gets better until it gets worse". Ouffff ..so so true. I even went throught a lot of loss last year and it applies so well also. Healing does fucking hurt and you just want to close your eyes sometimes until it's over 💔. Your voice is so soothing and beautiful ❤
I love this song so much because having chronic illness for the pass 20 years it definitely a full time job living in pain in and out of the hospital isn’t easy healing from PTSD other
You are a precious warrior!
Such a great debut EP! So honest and vulnerable. Well done! 💙 Always a pleasure to listen to your music.
Crying inside... 1:15 in the afternoon... Wearing my thick jacket and a bucket hat to hide my face and having tea alone when I accidentally found this song...my dad died just last year from cancer.
From tiktok❤ I'm so glad i found this. Thank you❤️🥺
Thank you love
I can just imagine you sitting there with your coffee and recording yourself for this vid 💀❤️
Blessings ✨
Resonates…the lyrics left me speechless 🙏🏻
Masterpiece 👊
Healing Fuck in hurts sometimes…💔
I wish there was a pill 💊 to erase my memories…
I never thought I could come across such a good song and such an inspiring voice. Actually, I just happened to hear this song of yours on a random playlist of a Spotify user. Curiosity led me to you and this wonderful song. I really appreciate and respect your music, talent, and voice. So from the bottom of my heart, I genuinely hope you will continue to produce great songs in the future
Thank you for this song!
2:23 I just this year reached the "end" of my healing process and being patient with myself was the worst part. I wanted so badly to just be done 'getting better' and just 'be better' but that's not how it works.
If anyone reading is curious I put end in quotes because while I don't hurt almost ever anymore, I know it'll be years before I don't hurt ever ever.
Thank you for this
WOW!!!
Wow it is heartfelt.
This song makes me cry so much 😭
I love all of your music it has helped me when I’m dealing with my mental illness issues thank you
💔 healing is like having a gut full of glass year and a half for me and ...that was well written
As someone who’s fighting cancer getting ready to start yet another 6 weeks of chemo in a few weeks and who’s healing from closing a chapter in my life thats 20 years old ive never related to a song so much.
After 7 years of an abusive marriage and almost dieing by his hand in February this hits hard. Thank you for this. ❤
another beautiful yet relatable one 💙
You are so talented. I didn't think it could be put into words... this song really hits home.
Thank you
This 😭🔥 For 7 longs years no one could tell me what was going on with me. I had to walk away from my career, which I loved. I f*cking LOVED my job. I slowly became more of a homebody, unable to even play with my kids and dog like I used to. Then, it finally reached a head and I had a huge episode no one could dismiss as anxiety. 2½ years later I finally know. POTS, Small Fiber Neuropathy, & Hemiplegic Migraine Disorder. I just started meds for the POTS and it's rough right now. Living in a Chronically Ill body is a jail sentence till you're finally free. You may get some freedom until you're ball and chain is strapped to you again.
Thank you 💕🙏
This is so amazing, thank you for sharing your music & incredible voice with the world
I sent this to my husband because its everything I feel about healing through something no one understands or can give you a clear diagnosis on.
your music takes me into another dimension, love it 🥰
I'm so glad I've found your music. The best ones always come when I need them most
Absolutely beautiful 🥰
I feel this song on a deeper level :( the hurt and isolation is debilitating "A full time job isn't this much work." I have second job on top of the full time job and I still wasn't enough
I love this song so much! I feel the lyrics and I needed a song like this!
I love your music 🎶. Sending you love ❤️
My daddy (aka old guy) will have passed 3 months ago. It hasn't gotten easier and I'm looking for a wah forward. Your song has helped and shown me that it's not a one way street and that back sliding in your grief is ok.
Faden, my love, you are so strong and so brave. I know you hurt even when you smile, but if anyone can get through it, it's you. Thank you for not giving up the fight. ❤
It’s been over TEN YEARS!!!! And it still hurts up until today when I dwell too much in the past. But I’m getting there .
Keep going 👏🏻❤️👍🏻