why i really left the internet
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- Опубликовано: 25 авг 2024
- I know this video gets kinda heavy at the end (please watch to the end) but I hope you enjoy it in some way
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That mitski tweet when she said “I used to rebel by destroying myself, but realized that’s awfully convenient to the world. For some of us our best revolt is self preservation”
Love and relate to that SO much, ty for sharing
I love mitski
LOVE this quote and mitski
"if i dont love myself, i will die." is honestly so beautful and has so much truth to it, like wow
touching video
I relate to that phrase so much I think the only way we can progress is by taking a truth so morbid and flipping it into a beautiful meaning. I really hope he’s doing better now ♥️
This guy’s sense of humor is so unique. I love it
Drew makes me laugh more than any comedian I've ever seen
The part about needing a relationship with yourself really spoke to me. We need to stop being so negative to our inner monologues and start talking to ourselves like we don't hate who we are all the time.
“I just work at an aquarium now. I didn’t have to apply, I don’t have to clock in, I don’t smell like fish, I just straight up work there.” Honestly goals.
You probably grossly underestimate how many people you’ve connected with over the years, but this one feels especially candid and refreshing. Hope you stick around, Drew.
Yes 🙌🏼 🙌🏼 Thank you 🙏🏻 🙏🏻 You said it all. Perfectly. He’s also freaking funny af :)
Thank you for existing. My daughter has had crippling anxiety since she was 9 yrs old. We have watched you on RUclips for a long time. When you talk about your struggles with mental health it gives her hope. It makes her feel not alone.
This made my heart so full. So happy she can have that and give her hope.
Drew is like the nice uncle you never really see often but always hope the best for him and wish you’d see him more.
“i will die if i don’t at least make an attempt to love myself”
i’m literally at that point right now, thank you so much for sharing so honestly drew. we missed you ❤️
This x ✌️❤️
this^^
Same. 🥺🤙🏻
i think im at that point too. I've been so fucking mean to myself for years, and this is not working anymore.
Same here 🖤
Drew is genuinely so smart when it comes to saying things most people cant put into words.
your profile pic makes me nostalgic
“I will die if I don’t say I love you.” This line hit so deep. I’m writing this comment in bed after one of the worst depression slumps ever and cried from watching you verbalize everything I was thinking so beautifully, yet again. You are a consistent inspiration. I hope one day you can appreciate yourself as much as we appreciate and cherish you.
this video gives me so much comfort, and i feel a little guilty for that because i know this video comes from a place that was so dark
Drew’s fan base has got to be one the most compassionate and understanding. We’re always so happy to hear from him and there’s never pressure from us for him to upload. We genuinely care about his well being and can appreciate the bits and pieces he’s willing to share with us. We’re also hilarious because King Drew is effortlessly the funniest in the platform by far.
Just reading comments on his videos is uplifting lol. You are so right, his fans have so much in common.
I’m literally getting goose bumps reading this
I appreciate all of his fans so much for this. Wishing you a great day stranger!
Exactly
@@Timboyxxx ikr it feels like family here and I wish i could be surrounded around such accepting people like this in my horrible south county
“What’s wrong with a little bit of numbness? Don’t I deserve that?” I’m absolutely taking that up with my therapist this week.
Not if the numbness hurts you or separates you from your life. I don't think it'd hurt
I feel like this relates to a couple principles of Buddhism
I cried hearing him say “I love you” to himself. i’ve been watching for years and I always hoped he could reach that point and from a person who has tried really hard to love themselves for the same reason of “I will die if I don’t”, it made me so proud to see the growth. progress not perfection. 💖
that last part about having a relationship with yourself really awakened feelings i didnt even know i had. youre a wizard with words drew
“my wife is sleeping… and my husband”… “I’d suggest you be nice to me”
THIS. THIS humor is what we’ve missed Drew! You’re one of the most effortlessly funny people that made me laugh when I was growing up and now still never fails to make me laugh. You are so genuine and I hope you are feeling the happiness you deserve ❤️
12:25 “Everyone’s holding a secret in their heart about how bad they felt last year.” Drew, YES, I am.
I’ll say it again, Drew- myself and the rest of the community would binge watch said 45 minute video over and over again, we love you so much.
Sending love from Australia 🇦🇺
Glad you’re taking better care of yourself. You really are still the funny guy in the room without really trying. And with age you get more poignant and thought-provoking. Glad you’re back. The internet with Drew Monson is so much more interesting than the internet without Drew Monson.
Best to your dad.
god, we love u so much
Oh shit, hey bestieeeeee
Frances ☺️
frances, i love you. now that i know that you love drew though, i love you even more😭
He looks good!!!
omg hi Frances lol love u
Loving yourself is so hard! It feels fake and egotistical at times, but you’re so right, it’s a matter of survival. Glad to see this update from you, and please let me touch a stingray at the aquarium.
I’m so glad he’s back! 🥺
illy I LOVE YOU
Omg hi illy! XD nice to see you here!
Love that we have the same taste in content because I respect both you and drew so much 🥰
I’m the real aquarium guy, you can touch the stingrays we can’t stop you but you might get kicked out
The doctor thing was sooooo relatable. A lot definitely does change from 24 to 26. Same with the mental stuff, loving myself has been a down hill battle so far.
Hearing you talk about this… it actually really helped me in a way. To not feel as alone. I have been going through similar stuff, especially the needing to love myself more. And when you talk about the urgency of needing to work on that for your own sake, I relate to that. I have been distancing myself and doing a lot of self sabotaging behaviors. Wish you luck on this path to self acceptance. It’s frickin rough but so important to give your all.
i missed you so much . avoiding the wrath of st paul
I appreciate how little sense this comment made to me until I actually watched the video
woahhh i remember when u had 50k subs
Omg my lesbian icon is here
I've literally been retyping this comment in for like 5 minutes because I cannot form sentences to save my life. But this video was the silver lining the universe threw me today and I hope this comment helps you see how your light shines on others. Seriously, can't explain how much I needed to hear these words tonight. Thank you for being genuine and beautiful.
exactly this!!!
seconding this
+
Same. Drew’s videos do add a random pop of Seenness into my life. This one was really unexpected and kinda jus really made me feel good. It also further confirmed my theory that I am, in fact, Drew Monson.
The things that seem easiest to feel I've found are the hardest to put into words - but this... yep.
I think this is the first time I've left a RUclips comment. This was so wonderful to hear. I didn't realize I was the same age as you. I also started the pandemic as a 24 year old and am now 26. You describing the Windows upgrade and not liking the new gray button was incredible. All of this was incredible. Every single word from start to finish resonated with me. Thank you. I hope your journey to loving yourself is even MORE successful than the amount of love you are getting in these comments :)
When you talk about everyone walking around with a secret in their heart, and how that secret is how painful and scary last year was…that makes me want to bust out in tears. My job recently announced that our office is closing, and literally the only thing getting me through quarantine was the idea that this was all temporary. But it’s not temporary, and now I’m faced with the reality that I need to adjust to a completely new lifestyle. It’s certainly possible to do, but it’s sad and overwhelming and I feel lost. This video helps me feel less alone; thank you💛
holy shit i missed you so much
Pizza Queen is here 😭❤️💞
Same
yes fr 😭
Honestly!!
HI ANNAMARIE!
Drew is so effortlessly funny I could listen to him talk about random shit for hours and be completely entertained
I concur! He’d be a dope comedian! 🦄
Watching this again after his new video really gives a different perspective
I come back to this video like once a quarter, whenever I remember it, mainly for the last like 10 minutes. It’s inspirational in such a niche way. Relatable beyond belief. I also went off my meds in 2020 for no good reason, just being mentally ill and the mental illness being like “nah you don’t need meds actually” and it was also a terrible and dangerous idea for me. Glad we’re both on the way to doing a lot better. ❤
Man, I missed this humor. There is literally nobody else I know that has this humor. Drew, you are seriously special. And I commend you on recognizing how important it is to talk kindly to ourselves. I have a lot of faith in you 💜
he's so effortlessly hilarious
He is a rare gem thats for sure. 💛
I remember saying to my friend “I know myself the most therefore, I hate myself.” And then they responded with a quirky “right? Normalize hating yourself.”
We shouldn’t normalize it, like drew said, we shouldn’t be the people who roll their eyes when someone says they love themselves, or proud of themselves.
Anyway, I am glad your doing okay drew.
got me quakin'
you're right though (not about hating urself, about the other thing) it's so easy to make up reasons to try and degrade ourselves, when building ourselves up will help us succeed and inspire others to do the same.
I got this comment to 420 likes & im PROUD OF IT
THIS! 🔝
Hey take as many public online breaks as you need, this video gave me such a deep comfort, you have such a gift for speaking from the heart. The past 2 years have been super fucking hard and it's kinda beautiful to feel listened to by someone who doesn't even know me from the internet. Keep being nice to yourself Drew, we like that guy
i think the most comforting thing about this video is that it’s so relatable to so many people. i relate to it so heavily and so does every single other person who has commented. none of us are alone in feeling this way, even though it feels like such an isolating experience. i’m just starting my journey on trying to love myself and trying to find a place where i am not so miserable that i dread every day. it’s going to be long and hard and confusing, but this has reassured me that i’m not alone and that nows as good as time as any to stop letting my brain sabotage my own happiness
It literally clicked for me today. I might spiral again in ten minutes or two hours but I have a different understanding now. I don’t want to be the person I used to be (self hating, narcissistic), I want to be better and do better and learn to actually start loving myself (whoever that is)
drew is an underrated speaker like even his flow/stream of consciousness & rambles are always clear, relatable & make perfect sense to me
yea hes a poet at heart. I feel bad he was suicidal. sounds like he had a suicide attempt
When we say we “miss you” THIS exact vibe is what most of us mean. Just you and the camera and your unique stream of consciousness. That Stream of conscious has grown and evolved over the years but at its core it’s still YOU. And that’s what we love. 🥰❤️ Great to see you old friend.
This comment is genuinely why I love this man
LITERALLY!!!
YES
“Unique stream of consciousness” I like that a lot. We’re lucky to experience it
exactly! he is just raw and a genuinely good person
Everytime this guy talks its like he’s reaching into my head and saying everything I feel.
this is one of the most genuine shit ive seen on the internet, its scary how much i could understand how you feel
I don't know how to explain this but I feel like Drew is one of those people that you meet at a party and end up chatting the night away with because he's so easy to connect with. This was so incredibly refreshing and weirdly validating, thank you for making this Drew. Glad to have you back
Yessss I really really get what you mean! One of those people you feel so lucky to have come across and just knowing they exist makes you happier lol
@@bums009 yes 100%! They make you want to know more about them and / or life in general
“It’s like an ex from high school being like ‘I miss you’ and you’re like ‘Do you??? Cause I’m not him!’” I don’t know why but that line really struck me. Feeling completely disconnected to your old self due to experiences & changes over the years that seeing people from the past is disorienting.
Edit: after the whole video, the ending turned out surprisingly hopeful and beautiful and honestly I feel like this is a video that everyone needs to see right now.
I need someone like you in my life. You just picked my brain apart. I hope things get better for you. You seem like such a nice person who is very self aware of themselves and others I want more Drew’s in the world.
I have been ignoring and carrying on with my own self-deprecating humour, believing it to be a mere coping mechanism while at the same time hurting myself before anyone else could. It felt really very good to hear you, someone I do not really know but respect so much regardless, be so frank about how harmful it really is. Thank you so much for sharing and making me think on a subject as insidiously toxic as this.
When we say we miss you, I think I speak for most of us when I say that THIS is the you we miss. I miss your honesty, life stories, songs and your exquisitely unique perspective on things. You don’t have to feel like you’ve “grown out” of your audience so to speak just because you’ve grown as a person. 99% of us love you for the CORE of who you and we’re happy to grow as people alongside you. It’s good to have you back my friend
You said it perfectly
yes!! this!!
LITRALLY LUVVVV LITRALLLYT
I agree with this, I’m just glad he’s well
Yes!
The "I will die if I don't say I love you" ripped my heart in half. You've been dearly missed, Drew.
i really liked your way of speaking about the necessity of changing your relationship with yourself to be more positive. the way that you said you HAVE TO learn to love yourself reminds me of the way i will sometimes tell myself things like i will get through this, because i HAVE TO. things will be okay, because they HAVE TO be. ive found that setting clear boundaries/goals with myself like really helps
I once heard someone say “people are always going to like you or dislike you, so you might as well be yourself”
Loving yourself in a world that profits off of every way it can make you hate yourself, is the bravest thing you can do.
this is such good advice, i might have to adopt it as a motto!
thats such a pretty quote thanks for that
💯❤️
Preach
Do you love yourself more or less after all of the plastic surgery you’ve gotten?
I watched one of your videos years ago and now once every few years I get recommended a new video from you and I'm totally hear for it! I recently read a book called "Digital Minimalism" which helped me rethink my relationship with tech and the platforms I post content on it. I highly recommend it after hearing your thoughts about the Internet. I feel happier than ever after analyzing my own behavior through that book!
here* dagnabbit
I didn't know you guys liked drew thats so awesome
one of my favourite youtubers supporting one of my favourite youtubers, what a world :)
Oh my god! Seeing SBSK comment on Drew's video? Does this get any better? Two amazing souls.
Omg Drew Monson and SBSK, two of my faves ❤️❤️
I was diagnosed with bpd & cptsd in the beginning of the pandemic in March, after getting out of a psychiatric hospital. I watched the shutdowns begin on the TVs in the rec room. It was an incredibly hard year but it feels like I am slowly crawling up & building a relationship with myself. We’ve all grown a lot! Seeing this makes me feel much less alone, & I am happy to see you smiling. I really recommend cats, they have been a good motivator for me lol.
This is literally what I’ve been going through the last year, you are not alone life is hard af at times just know there is hope. Thank you for your transparency 🙏🏽
It’s okay to take a break the internet is overrated
The “movie of you in your head” thing about being your own being friend was incredible.
honestly.. I think hearing that might be a turning point for me 😗 I'm going through like the worst time in my life and I pretty much only have myself rn.. and maybe it's an opportunity to rly bond with myself? I've always wanted a twin that knew everything about me n had the same experiences n opinions as me but I LITERALLY DO. ITS ME. amazing.
@@naomi-art-stuff same here girl... but i'll be your bestie if you need anything babes!!!
@@emmajolene98 🥺🥺🥺 ur too sweet
Honestly same! I genuinely thought I was the only one who felt that way and it's so refreshing to hear it from someone else's mouth.
“I feel like people are so worried about the cringe around them, but what about the cringe within?” might actually have to be my senior quote omg
Do ittt
Honestly better than whatever angsty sentence I can come up with, might do that too…and I just started watching Drew lol
Do it
im also going to say, do it.
Do it
I feel incredibly weird about "loving myself" and being vocal about it too, even though I want to so I completely understand that part. For me I'm still still the point though where I doubt and dislike myself so much I don't really give myself a chance to succeed anywhere or even do the things I love anymore
i'm so proud of you drew. i used to watch your videos about depression and feel at home because i felt the same way you did. and in the years since then i have worked on myself so much and come to the same realisations you touched on at the end of this video and it's so so nice to know we've both made it this far. i'm at a place in my life where i now truely do love myself and it took a lot of effort to get here so i know how much work you've put in to get to this point. i'm so, so proud of you drew, honestly. look at us! we're doing it
I love that he gave no updates or anything, it was just Drew sharing his thoughts and feelings and honestly, it's not cringey at all that he's trying to love himself. It can be sooo hard to achieve self love but you are great and I'm sure you'll get the hang of it. Go Drew!
It worries me that every tangent you go on makes sense to me.
It’s such an awesome form of comedy. It’s literally what goes on inside my ADHD brain every minute of the day. Lol
when u think abt it ur comment is lowkey offensive and codescending but hey🙊
tarantula kat!
ADHD gang
@Lava Lamp wow, I feel bad because I didn’t mean that st all. I didn’t mean it like that at all. I meant the opposite. I’ve connected to him on RUclips for years because of how I relate to his humor and how it’s kind of chaotic but well said.
Honestly this is the algorithm really reaching out and hugging me. I’ve been having the same feeling of “I have to love myself right now it’s time to stop letting myself die slowly” and hearing you say it and feeling that connection with some random person on the internet literally made me tear up. Thank you for making this video. It’s exactly what I needed to watch
The bit about loving yourself was so damn accurate. Thank you for this.
You’re literally the most effortlessly funny person on the internet. This video showed how much i missed listening to you. I think about you all the time and always wish you well. Love you!!
Yes! He is hilarious
YES
I have lol’d at a yt video in a bit
The “I got a haircut” video will always kill me in the first two minutes 😂
He's existence gives me so much nostalgia
The title could have been "eating toast" and I would have clicked just as fast! Was having a bad year and you just made my year!
girl same
he made your YEAR?
@@TrulyOutrageous lol I was going to say I was having a bad day but he hasn’t posted in a year
Five hours ago this was titled just “hey”
@@TrulyOutrageous he definitely made mine
You literally just explained how I feel when I couldn’t form the words to do it myself
Watching this again waiting for a new upload
You were spot on with how everyone right now is holding the secret of how bad/weird the past year and a half was/is. Each person experienced something unique but pretty much all of us did experience something bad/weird and it’s hard to explain.. I’m so glad you’re back for now, it’s like a breath of fresh air on RUclips
My
I think people will watch no matter what. We love your creativity and comedy style.
No cap
yea absolutely. he’s a special guy
not in a short bus kinda way either
I love the song at the end drew
@@WhoCares-ty7jo lmfaooo
Drew, thank you dude. You are literally one of the most transparent and relatable people I’ve seen on the internet, whether it be intentional or not. I (as do a lot of other fans) respect the decision you made to leave the internet because of your mental health. It’s a big decision to make considering you have such a platform, and you still knew to do the right thing. Mental health always comes first.
Wow, this video describes exactly how I've felt... There's just been so much loss and confusion that's been impossible to comprehend, let alone explain to someone else. I really appreciate you so much for sharing this and I look forward to new content from you!
It’s crazy how Drew reached right into my mind and spoke my deepest thoughts. I hope he decides to keep uploading content. I missed his humor and banter, but happiness and mental health come first.
This was the most comforting thing I've ever watched. It's weird knowing a complete stranger has the exact same thoughts as you.
100%
I agree 👍
Yes!
Makes me realize we all have more in common than we think, yeah?
Your mind is so amazing like you manage to make the most interesting videos and be the most interesting person so casually, I literally aspire to be like this
I've felt a lot similarly in recent years-especially the intense moments you mention-and have struggled to put those thoughts into words, but you do it so wonderfully. Thank you for that. I'm so happy to see you loving yourself.
That thing about “the worst thing a doctor can say to you when you’re obviously in pain is ‘all your tests are normal” oh MAN I can relate!!!!!
Yes 🙌🏻
My mom has small blood vessel disease and no one had any clue how to find it or treat it for years. People in our community told her that her symptoms were all in her head for 30 YEARS 😩
Ugh YES. I’ve had multiple doctors and specialists say they think I have an autoimmune disease for various reasons and then all eight million blood tests at the rheumatologist showed nothing conclusive so they’re like 🤷♀️🤷♀️like just enough is ABNORMAL to be concerning but nothing that has a conclusive answer 😤
@@lizalove91 I really think that this is common with women- as a 19 almost 20 year old girl- the only thing that let my doctors know something was very wrong is the fact that I had severe arthritis in my foot that needed surgery.
Lots of women seem to complain about joint pain, fatigue, etc
DO NOT stop looking for a good doctor and an answer. I recommend women doctors- men tended to just brush me off.
I’ve learned that if I don’t feel Ok (in pain or sick), and the doctor says everything looks Ok, I’ll be really persistent to find a solution lol I’ll get a second or third opinion if I have to.
I have Lyme disease and it took them YEARS to figure it out bc the tests came back negative. I was sooo sick but docs said everything is fine! Smdh
This is one of the best, most genuine “youtube comeback” videos I’ve ever seen. This is the perfect example of using your time away from the internet to introspect and grow as a person. I hope Drew can keep doing whatever makes him happiest, with or without an audience
!!!!
yeah i miss watching people with that authenticity
this hits
I’ve never related to another human better. You make me feel better for having such a hard time too with the pandemic and everything going on. I have really bad anxiety attacks and the overwhelming fear from the pandemic sent me into an existential crisis that I’m still trying to pull myself out of. I appreciate you putting your true feelings out there to share with us, not everyone is that authentic.
I love Drew’s comedy and way of telling a story. Also seems like a genuine and thoughtful person.
drew, you’re extremely hard on yourself and self reflect over everything you say or do. i love you... i’ve been watching and listening to you since i was about 13... i’m 20 now! i’m proud of you for having the courage to come back during times like these. i love you so much! going to go listen to “stupid now” now
"I will die if I don't say, 'I love you.'"
I felt every inch of this and I can't express how badly I needed to hear another human being say this. Thank you for sharing Drew. Thank you.
This is dramatic
exactly this comment. YES YES YES!!
@@whippitgod8821 LMAOO stoppppp
@@whippitgod8821 LMFAO
That's sweet. Glad it helped.
"The cringe within". I don't know why exactly but I think that is beautifully said and very humorous in a kind of oddly profound way.
I can relate so much to what you're talking about feeling and it honestly helps to know that there are people out there who have a similar way of seeing and experiencing things. Although that may sound stupid of me to say.
(Edited for grammatical error)
I completely feel you the whole “I will die”’ like I’m not joking I will die. But also don’t forget you can still look for love because there’s someone out there wether it’s platonic or romantic will love you until you love yourself. And I hope we can both find that,. And soon because not to be grim but I’m on the edge and I’m trying so hard to love myself but it’s just not happening..... but I’m trying really hard every single day. Living in LA makes it even harder because there’s so many perfect people it makes me hate myself even more. Sorry for the rant I had to get it off my chest and I hope this gets to you. You aren’t alone feeling like this, I wish we could meet up and lift each other up.... that sounds creepy, and I probably would take sick the day of but god you put into words how I feel.
Apparently I'm psychic. I literally thought about you yesterday and double checked to see if you'd posted anything recently and realized it's been over a year. It's seriously so weird you posted today and I'm glad you did.
Me too!!! I thought about him last night
SAME!
Same. A couple nights ago, I watched the videos were Shane, Drew and Garrett do the scary challenges. I literally just decided to out of the blue, no reason to at all.
Me too I literally got a random tiktok about his music (never got anything drew related before) and then got a notification he had posted... so weird
I've been rewatching his old videos lately, he definitely felt us all thinking about him lol
Having someone else actually talk openly and in depth about how horribly traumatising last year was (especially for those with any kind of preexisting trauma) really helped me a lot.
I’m glad you came by. Stay safe.
@@pterodactylbull What a shitty, uncompassionate take. The fact that there’s people who’ve lost everything from this pandemic, and your response is “it could be worse”? Maybe it wasn’t for you, but try to realize that you have no idea what everyone else has gone through.
@@pterodactylbull I agree to some extent, however if I’ve understood you correctly I feel as though perhaps you’re seeing the issue from a particular perspective without addressing the perspectives of others.
I guess my thoughts on it are that the issue I’m seeing is that there are already people in this world who were experiencing those extremes before the pandemic hit. The world isn’t one size fits all.
Human beings are very versatile. People survive unbearable things all the time. It’s not about whether you think you can or not, usually there’s just no other option.
Ignoring that we do experience trauma from global events that change our collective lives forever in my opinion makes us more susceptible to something down the line being what breaks us. We should be constantly finding ways to take care of our bodies and minds. If we don’t, we die.
The world will get worse. Pandemics will become more frequent. Things will get more fucked up. I’m in it for the long haul and addressing how an event made you weaker, having the words to describe your response to those events, finding support systems that will last long term and learning deeply about the events themselves is crucial to long term survival.
This stuff interests me and I value your opinion. Hope I haven’t misunderstood your comment.
@@pterodactylbull haha, many assumptions my guy. Have a nice day 😂
Last year was SO WEIRD and sad and crazy 😩😭 I love your vids because you're so hilarious with how you express yourself. You remind people it's ok to be your weird self and I mean that as a complement.
i love listening to drew. He does such a good job of explaining most of the things that’s run thru my head 24/7 lol
Drew and Garrett Watts are the only people I instantly drop everything for to watch their videos. They radiate the best energy ✨
Yes!!
When you looked at the camera and asked, “why are you here?”
I said, “because I miss you” and started tearing up. You are amazing, Drew. 💕
Are you okay
@@brittany2539 yes I am thank you! I’m just a sensitive person (:
I always find it interesting the connection and attachment someone can develop from watching clips of someone's life or little rants.
i dont think i’ve ever related to a yt video so much. im glad ur here
Same here 💞💕
On the same self love journey wishing you the best of luck! You’re starting earlier than me so you’re doing great! Going to be 31 this month and trying to love myself to the fullest. I def needed to hear this as well! Happy to watch your videos again
the whole “idk what you miss” thing when someone says “I miss you” really hit me hard. I know how that feels. I think covid may have spiked derealization/depersonalization and dissociation episodes for a lot of us, even ppl without preexisting mental illnesses. thank you for making this. even if you may have dreaded it
Fosho
Drew is such a refreshing youtuber. He’s honest with us about how he feels and explains it in his own way. I see why you left and I’m glad you took your time and still are to collect yourself. We love you drew and all of us who support you honestly honestly do
you're so good at verbalizing this stuff. I've had a lil bit of a similar loving thyself arc and the intensity of "if i don't love myself, one way or another, I will eat myself alive" CANNOT be overstated.
eloquent icon. whether or not you stay on the internet i am sending u good thoughts through the airwaves
LMAO me leaving this comment as if drew and i know each other xoxoxo gossip girl
Drew just so you know your music comforted me through some really awful awful times. Thank you for creating something that brought me peace and comfort through absolute pain and anguish. I'm learning to love myself too
Thousands of people are always happy to see you. Your personality has had such an impact on us that we still think about you months/years after viewing your content. That’s something most people on this planet only dream of being able to achieve! You are special, and when your brain tries to disagree just remember we all want you to love yourself
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Legit was either in some RUclips or TikTok comments and people were like "Im glad he's taking time for himself. Hope he's doing good. Love his videos." Like we do think about u!!!
That's beautiful and so true 💛
Lovely to hear from you and I agree with this post. Love yourself xo
I spent Y E A R S hanging out with people who encouraged my self deprecating humor and constantly being hateful towards myself and one day they got bored and left and I barely survived. The reason I did survive is because I had a very similar conversation with myself that you just had on camera. You deserve love, especially your own!
This sounds similar to my friend Jade, she always puts herself down and me and my other friend would always try to reassure her or try to change her mindset but she just would keep on putting herself down, eventually when she left school (I did sixth form, she left after fifth) we just didn't talk as much but I still cared for her, now that so much time has passed tho not really speaking to her, I just don't feel the same care as I did before, I'm just not in the mindset to be friends with her right now. I wish her the best but it doesn't mean I have to be in her life.
I think luckily a lot of us share that feeling. Of being so unhappy that happy people make us annoyed.
we love you, i’m so sorry that you struggle so much. you’re not alone
This was so unbelievably relatable. I’ve had to stop rolling my eyes at myself as I’m starting to do daily affirmations lol something that resonated with me was we don’t get rid of what makes us “cringey”, we get rid of the internalized voices that cringe. Take care Drew it was great to see and listen to you share your journey of self acceptance and love x
We missed you, Drew. We’re here for whatever content you make or don’t make. We’re here for you and your journey. And I hope we get videos of your new job at the aquarium.
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The last part really spoke to me. You managed to say what a lot of us are thinking without making it cringe. I love you.
glad you’re back man. i’ve been listening to your music for a long time… i remember when i first heard “to hold amber” back in freshman year, that songs amazing.