I wish I would have thought to myself. My dad was gone. How would I feel not being able to talk to him anymore ? I wish I would have talked to him sooner. Life is too short to hold grudges. Thank you for all the love and support.
I lost both parents and both best friends in the last few years. I feel your pain. I don't know if the pain becomes easier to deal with or if it simply becomes a normal part of your life. Either way you keep moving forward. Good luck with this chapter. I'll be here with you.
Jeffe, it take two . You'll be fine 🙏. It could have been the dads of our time. I didn't have a good relationship with mine. After he died, I found out my brother didn't either.
I resigned my corporate job when I was 45 to go back and make peace with my mom and dad while there were in their 70’s and had 3 great years with them before my Mom died. My dad now lives with me and my wife and it was the best decision in my life.
Jefe, im sitting here an the fence whether or not I should drive 4 hours to meet up with my Dad and brother and cousins and uncles to spread my recently deceased Uncles ashes at our family homestead. I've got a few justifiable reasons to not go. Watching your video (it popped up on my feed for important reasons) put the reasons why i SHOULD go in the forefront of my heart and mind. My Dad is 80 this year. I won't get many more of these opportunities to be with him on the homestead. Thank-you for your honesty and heartfelt video. It was all the encouragement I needed.
Go. Don't hesitate. Go. Time is fleeting and you may not get another chance ever again. Whether your relation is strained or not, you won't regret it! GO!
Obviously I don't know you Jefe or your dad but I could not help tearing up a bit watching and listening to your video story. I am 75 years old and I lost my dad when I was 32 years old. I still miss him everyday.
I never imagined how much it would hurt as an adult to lose our parents. It hurts to see then grow old, weaken and frail, but the pain of losing them and month after month, year after year never seeing them, hearing their voices again still hurts so much. What ever your parents did, they made a good man.
Hi Jefe…I just subscribed to your channel and watched this as my first video. I’m a 64 yr old retired airline pilot and I’m amazed at how close to home this video was and how hard it hit me. I just moved to Hurricane (I promise not to tell anyone how amazing it is) from Sarasota,FL right before the last hurricane made a direct impact. Most of my life was spent in Boulder, CO and I did my best to raise a family there while flying mostly internationally. After the inevitable divorce my son was 12 and my daughter 15 and my former wife decided not to relocate to any of the places the airline decided to base me during my career. Like you I lost touch little by little with my parents and kids under the pressure of constant travel. My parents passed away and I was fortunate enough to be there for the funerals like you were for your dad. I couldn’t afford to move back to CO after retirement but watching you and Matt on RUclips helped me choose Hurricane. It’s only a 10 hour drive to see my “kids” in CO and I’m trying to slowly get back into their lives. Like you said, we’re only here for a short while and I don’t want to waste another second away from the only family I have left. Thanks for sharing your story, it couldn’t have been easy. Us men are supposed to “grow a pair” and get over it, but I think we deserve more.
I forgave my dad 20 years ago for his sins that destroyed our family and made me a very angry person. It was the best thing I could have ever done as it set me free from the hate that had consumed me. And the key to forgiving him came after I received the forgiveness for my own sins from my faith in Christ. He saved me, and in turn I could reach back and love my dad again. Great video. Beautiful country. Glad you reconnected with your family and started on your own journey to heal.
I love this reply! It is very similar to my story! I was a bit fortunate that my dad’s sins (although extremely gross) never destroyed our family…I really hated him before when I was a lost teenager, left home at 18, joined the Air Force. Served for 8 yrs. In my ignorance at the time, at my high school grad/ going away party I told my brother that I was going to tell the old man to go to hell that I never wanted to see him again, just before I’d leave to BMTS. Am so very grateful my brother talked me out of that! My 1st permanent duty station in the Air Force was in San Antonio Tx. was there for 2 yrs… I got way lost in those two years! Wicked crazy life! Be Praise The Dear Lamb of God! that he reached way down in the garbage and pulled me out! From Tx I was reassigned to Guam. Just about 6weeks after landing on that little island, I received The Lord Jesus Christ as my Saviour! About 30mins later was the next time I saw my folks. At that time my dad and I spent a lot of time together and I was able to tell him about how I felt when I left home and that I am super grateful (now that I clearly understood what it was the Scriptures say about hell) that I never told him to go there. From 1996-1999 was my Bible school. From 99-2001 deputation, have been doing mission work here in the Philippines since 2001.
Jefe, I really appreciate your video. I’ve been away from home since 1987 and can really relate to what you are saying and experiencing in this situation…I’ve been on the mission field since 2001… saw May dad only 2 times from then until he died… during the time we’d visit back home for a month or so… my dad died on 1 Apr 2006. I miss him a lot! Am very grateful for the things he taught me. Sure wish he were still around am certain I could learn more from him! God bless you Jefe. And thank you for posting this video! Thanks for showing folks such a private thing…
Sorry for your loss, Jefe. Thank you taking us along with you on your trip home. Nothing like home. Nothing like family. Good to hear your making amens where you need, life's too short. Be blessed
Man I'm so sorry to hear about your father. I lost me Dad about four months ago. He was my hero and best friend. It definitely changes your perspective on life. I hope your healing is swift. Dont beat yourself up my man. Use the opportunity to grow closer to our maker and keep trucking. Many blessings
I am sorry for your loss. I learned from a coworker that had a similar situation losing their father they haven’t spoken to in years, I have a new relationship with my dad that I have never had before. He has said many times how amazing are relationships has become. I hope other learn to move past the issues from the past and get their relationship back from your video. Thank you for sharing, you’re a strong person sharing this experience.
When my Dad died I also felt great sorrow and was depressed for over a year. during visitation a man told me that at some point when I thought of Dad my thoughts would be happy memories and not always feeling sad. He was right one day I thought about Dad and a smile came across my face and a good memory of fun time we shared came into my head. It will take some time but it will happen for you also... Sorry for your loss...
It’s interesting how family dynamics can be exactly the same but different . One of the best 4th of Julys I had was camping at the Flaming Gorge and watching the fireworks in Dutch John . Thanks for taking us along on your journey.
Family, even when it's hard and imperfect, is worth working our way back to. . . it's a journey you've started late, but far ahead of most people. I am so very sorry for your loss. May the God of all comfort sustain you and your family in this storm of grief.
You aren't alone in dealing with past family communication issues, Jefe. Many of us suffer through it. I truly respect you being open and honest about it, and making an effort to reconnect and to remember the positives along the way. Don't beat yourself up over things you cannot change. Learn from them, and change how you relate with those still here. Hugs to you.
Jefe, you're not the only one who feels like this. I too am if guilty is the right word, just to let you know you're not the only one feeling like this. Cherish life and the one's around your immediate circle.
Having lost my oldest son before my parents passed, I was able to see more clearly what really matters in my relationships with those I love. It was an expensive lesson... my heart goes out to you, my friend. The best you can do is live your best life.
A father knows his children and I’m sure he knew how you felt and he was proud of the man you became. You will see him again and spend an eternity with him. God bless you brother.
Thank you so much for sharing your stories, my dad passed away from cancer when I was in high school. Time really does go by faster than you expect, live every moment to the fullest. Don't forget to smile!
-Sad, but good for you to be at your old home. I stayed away from my home and family for 13 yrs. I stayed away because memories of sevre abuse surfaced. They were hard to deal with and get past, but i did. I'm so thankful for the Lord Jesus Christ, who healed me, strengthened me, and teaches me. Jesus is truly King!
Sorry for the loss of your father, Jefe. I lost my dad 2/14/2000, Had been gone for about 2 years, talked to him a few times. Like you, I wish I'd have called him more often. It is sad that we realize after the fact, what we SHOULD have done, vs what we did do!
I lost my dad a little over a year ago. Fortunately despite some ups and downs we had a good relationship. It’s weird now just over a year out, I still have “I can’t wait to tell dad this, he’ll love it” thoughts before I remember I can’t tell him. I wish you strength on your journey of mourning and healing sir. Thank you for taking us along.
It’s good to see you honoring your dad and spending time with your siblings Jefe. My parents have been gone for a long time. Then I lost my big brother, my only sibling in 2016 to a work related accident. Cherish every moment you get to spend with them. Time goes by way to fast.
Jefe, congrats on your family reunion. It's kind of bittersweet seeing how your town has changed . I live in the town I grew up in and sometimes think how things have changed in 70 yrs. Great video.
Sorry for loss SFC, that said as a parent all I want is my boys to be close forever. If this brings you back into the fold with yours I am sure your dad is smiling down. Stay close with family. Godspeed.
My father was far from what you would call a good father. However, I still loved him. He ended up with cancer, and I was fortunate to have been able to spend a little time with him. He told me that he was proud of the man I had become because the deck was stacked against me most of my life. All we can do is learn from their mistakes and be better men than they were.
Jeffe, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Know this, you will always have his memory and with time you will heal. I am not a religious person but I do believe that his energy will manifest in you in subtle ways and you will be reminded of him periodically. Take care of yourself and give yourself time to grieve.
You’re not alone. One of the hardest things when my father died was knowing our relationship was fixed in time. It was 10 years this spring, it’s easier but it’s always a part of your life.
Family is very important to me. When you said it was the first time your little brother had seen all of the siblings together, it made me sad. Im glad you got together. That is beautiful country out there. Thank you for being respectful of the old sites and for bringing us along.
I so loved this video. Effe I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad. But happy you got to reconnect with your family at my favorite place in our country. We always camp 26 miles west of Blanding in the Bears Ears and do a lot of ruin hunting ❤. We try to get back there every couple years. Thanks for taking us back
This will be Your greatest memory of your family times spent together, After awhile you will be very happy you went. The past is exactly that Past. LOOK towards better times . Beautiful Family, Thank You for sharing such a personable time . CONDOLENCES TO ALL. ❤😊
There's nothing sadder than waiting too long to make a call -- and it happens way to often to too many people. Sorry for your loss, glad to see you moving forward, and hopefully this will inspire someone, somewhere to make contact. God Bless
If only I could see my dad one more time! It's been 35 years. We were just starting to patch up our relationship. I was 26 and my first child was not quite 2 weeks old. We were 1200 miles apart. He had received the photos of my son that morning and showed them off to his friends and customers. My oldest brother called me at 1:30 the following morning. The most difficult journey of my life began at that moment. Your video brought back a ton of memories and emotions.
Sorry for your loss. My wife and I served a mission for our church in the area and truly grew to love it. Clark’s was remodeled while we were there. We took deliveries from Blue Mountain Meats and may very well have met your dad. We made many friends there and return 3-4 times a year.
Sorry for your loss. I had the same deal with my Dad. I moved out at 17, put myself through vocational school and never looked back. Slowly, we were getting closer, but he died suddenly at 63 and I wish we had made more progress. God Bless!
That was a great tribute to your dad, and what a great way to celibrate his life, and exploring the places that ment so much to him and your family, you all lived in some realy cool places, and so beautiful. Sorry for your loss.
So sorry to hear about your dad. I never met mine and he has passed. I understand the feeling of regret, but keep those memories on your heart and he’ll always be with you.
My dad left for California when I was 5. Next time I saw him I was 18. We never connected but wish we did. My first time going to California was pretty much to say goodbye. He died 3 hrs after I got there. I tried as a kid to go visit. But he wouldn’t pay for me to come. All and all I loved him because he was my dad.
Young man god loves you.Your life will change for the best we all some difficult family problems he hears. Just walk with love in your heart with a great big smile.Your a good man.
Hey man, I'm sorry for your loss. Don't beat on yourself too hard Jefe, you have a great heart. You're a very kind person, everything you did feels true from your heart. My mom often tell me that sometimes it's the intention that matters. The unexpected things always happened in life, but you really intended to rebuild the relationship with your dad, this time I think that's really what matters. Please seek professional help if you need it Jefe, grief is a btch to deal with. I'm happy that you got to hang out with your brothers and sister out there. I agree with your point in the end about contacting your love ones. The passed will always be missed, but it's time to worry with those that's still alive, go get in contact with them!
Sorry for your loss Jeff. Glad to see you’ve reconnected with your family and I hope you continue to stay reconnected. Stubbornness can be an extremely powerful emotion than can often lead to regret.
I loved the way you began by saying that both you and your father shared responsibility for the relationship not working out. That shows wisdom. I’ve had the same issue, and it took me years to come to the same realization. When that happens, peace surrounds you.
You have my deepest sympathies . Losing parents is the hardest thing ever, but a part of life. I lost my Dad in 2010 , my Mom in 2015, both at the age of 92 . I was far from being the perfect son and I regret my mistakes, but I changed for the good. I made changes in my life and got to spend a lot of time with them before they left. We were very close when they passed. I'm 73 now and I still have many fantastic memories of them to keep me going. I am glad that you realized how important family can be and spent time with family to help you heal. I pray you will find peace and know that your folks loved you and you have become the man they always knew you could and would be. Also know that there are MANY of us out here that have a TON of respect for you for being who you are. Don't ever change !! Wishing you all the success in everything you do and hold on to your memories !!! You are now at the top of my favorite You Tube list Keep up the great work !!
Sorry for your loss, Jefe. I know it well after both mom and dad are gone. Going through all their stuff really brings it all out. A lifetime of memories. You will have a choice. Wander off alone or embrace your family. I feel you'll make good! choices
Thank you for sharing your beautiful touching story. Just know you are not the only one out there that lives with similar emotions and feelings and regrets. I too have those same feeling. I lost my best Friend/Brother suddenly on April 15 th. He had a massive heart attack and I miss him everyday. I miss our text messages. I miss our phone calls. I miss hanging out together and just sitting sometimes saying nothing. I at times call his cell phone just to hear his voice. Again thank you for sharing your beautiful memories
Thank you for sharing. Family is one of the most impotent things in life. I'm in my late 50's, we're 6 siblings and we see each other at least once a month and sometimes more often, as well as our nieces and nephews. we lost our father over 30 years ago when he was only 55 years old. Never give up your family.
Deepest condolences to you and yours Jefe. When my sister passed in June of this year I took time to go back to our old neighborhood to visit memories both good and bad. It did help especially around the time of her service.
I lost my father in 2002. It’s still hard to believe it’s been 22 years but I was lucky enough that I moved home six years before he passed away and got to go hunting with him every year and even got to go hunting with him with his oldest grandson and his first hunting trip something we will never forget! It always helps to go back when you’re an adult and talk to your parents when you understand what they went through that’s a conversation that should never be missed and I am glad I got to have it! My brother and father had a falling out and did not talk to much and he missed that , then he was gone in 2016 , at 48 , and I can tell you even years later I miss being able to talk problems out with both of them !!!!!! ❤
Hopefully, soon you will be able to enjoy a big family reunion under happier circumstances. Thanks for showing us your old stomping grounds. Nice trip altogether.☺
Sorry for the loss of your father, but don't regret any of the choices you made along the way; they are what made you who you are today. Wishing you many happy adventures.
I am sorry for your loss, however I appreciate the wisdom shared. I also grew up in Blanding and have many wonderful memories of Blue Mountain, Devils Canyon, Mustang, Devil's Heart Beat, Black Mesa, and many other areas.
Very nice video Jefe. Got to spend quality time with your family and remembering old memories. Nice light show from mother nature. All the best to you and all your family.
It's hard to say goodbye to our loved ones, especially when it's a difficult relationship. Thanks for your transparency and reminder to value those we love.
I’m so sorry for your loss, I completely understand not being in touch with your family, and I’m always telling myself I’ll regret it one of these days. I grew up in a small town in northern Utah. I always thought I was meant for the city, so once I graduated from high school (95 to age me) I moved to Long Beach ca. That was a massive culture shock, I lasted down there for almost a year. It took me until 2012 moving from place to place, never feeling at “home” that I finally moved back to my small town. I’ve been home ever since, I don’t think I’ll ever leave again, unless it’s to another small town. No more city life for this gal. Being gone that long I completely understand not knowing anyone anymore. I used to know everyone, now we don’t even know a few of our neighbors across the street. The town has grown so much (more than doubled I’d say in population and homes), that I miss the way we grew up. We still don’t have any stoplights, but it’s not far off. Thank you for taking us on your adventures, I’ve spent a small amount of time in Monticello and blanding in 97, and haven’t been back since, I’m sure it’s changed a lot, but it’s definitely beautiful down there.
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I wish I would have thought to myself. My dad was gone. How would I feel not being able to talk to him anymore ? I wish I would have talked to him sooner. Life is too short to hold grudges. Thank you for all the love and support.
I lost both parents and both best friends in the last few years. I feel your pain. I don't know if the pain becomes easier to deal with or if it simply becomes a normal part of your life. Either way you keep moving forward.
Good luck with this chapter. I'll be here with you.
What is the name of those ruins im trying to take my parents
Jeffe, it take two . You'll be fine 🙏. It could have been the dads of our time. I didn't have a good relationship with mine. After he died, I found out my brother didn't either.
Great video and ❤warming great way to show respect and rebuilding you relationships with family.
Similar situation for me. Never real close to mine but you feel it. Thanks for sharing your story.
I resigned my corporate job when I was 45 to go back and make peace with my mom and dad while there were in their 70’s and had 3 great years with them before my Mom died. My dad now lives with me and my wife and it was the best decision in my life.
Honor him (and yourself) by living the best life you possibly can.
Jefe, im sitting here an the fence whether or not I should drive 4 hours to meet up with my Dad and brother and cousins and uncles to spread my recently deceased Uncles ashes at our family homestead. I've got a few justifiable reasons to not go. Watching your video (it popped up on my feed for important reasons) put the reasons why i SHOULD go in the forefront of my heart and mind. My Dad is 80 this year. I won't get many more of these opportunities to be with him on the homestead. Thank-you for your honesty and heartfelt video. It was all the encouragement I needed.
Go
Go. Don't hesitate. Go. Time is fleeting and you may not get another chance ever again. Whether your relation is strained or not, you won't regret it! GO!
I hope I was able to positively help you decide what to do. I hope you have many more years with your dad.
Go. You may not get a chance later
If you haven't made that journey yet, get in the car and go, I'm sure you won't be disappointed and if you are at least you tried and did all you can.
Obviously I don't know you Jefe or your dad but I could not help tearing up a bit watching and listening to your video story. I am 75 years old and I lost my dad when I was 32 years old. I still miss him everyday.
I bet your father would have loved that you guys got together and did things he loved and shared with you.
I never imagined how much it would hurt as an adult to lose our parents. It hurts to see then grow old, weaken and frail, but the pain of losing them and month after month, year after year never seeing them, hearing their voices again still hurts so much. What ever your parents did, they made a good man.
Sorry for the loss of your father. You did the right thing by getting back together with your brothers.
Goodness gracious, man. That hit like a ton of bricks. I send my condolences. I pray you reach the healing level you wish to achieve.
Hi Jefe…I just subscribed to your channel and watched this as my first video. I’m a 64 yr old retired airline pilot and I’m amazed at how close to home this video was and how hard it hit me. I just moved to Hurricane (I promise not to tell anyone how amazing it is) from Sarasota,FL right before the last hurricane made a direct impact. Most of my life was spent in Boulder, CO and I did my best to raise a family there while flying mostly internationally. After the inevitable divorce my son was 12 and my daughter 15 and my former wife decided not to relocate to any of the places the airline decided to base me during my career. Like you I lost touch little by little with my parents and kids under the pressure of constant travel. My parents passed away and I was fortunate enough to be there for the funerals like you were for your dad. I couldn’t afford to move back to CO after retirement but watching you and Matt on RUclips helped me choose Hurricane. It’s only a 10 hour drive to see my “kids” in CO and I’m trying to slowly get back into their lives. Like you said, we’re only here for a short while and I don’t want to waste another second away from the only family I have left. Thanks for sharing your story, it couldn’t have been easy. Us men are supposed to “grow a pair” and get over it, but I think we deserve more.
My mother and father died 10 years ago, but I still talk to them in my mind everyday. Helps me from missing them.
I forgave my dad 20 years ago for his sins that destroyed our family and made me a very angry person. It was the best thing I could have ever done as it set me free from the hate that had consumed me. And the key to forgiving him came after I received the forgiveness for my own sins from my faith in Christ. He saved me, and in turn I could reach back and love my dad again. Great video. Beautiful country. Glad you reconnected with your family and started on your own journey to heal.
I love this reply! It is very similar to my story! I was a bit fortunate that my dad’s sins (although extremely gross) never destroyed our family…I really hated him before when I was a lost teenager, left home at 18, joined the Air Force. Served for 8 yrs. In my ignorance at the time, at my high school grad/ going away party I told my brother that I was going to tell the old man to go to hell that I never wanted to see him again, just before I’d leave to BMTS. Am so very grateful my brother talked me out of that! My 1st permanent duty station in the Air Force was in San Antonio Tx. was there for 2 yrs… I got way lost in those two years! Wicked crazy life! Be Praise The Dear Lamb of God! that he reached way down in the garbage and pulled me out! From Tx I was reassigned to Guam. Just about 6weeks after landing on that little island, I received The Lord Jesus Christ as my Saviour! About 30mins later was the next time I saw my folks. At that time my dad and I spent a lot of time together and I was able to tell him about how I felt when I left home and that I am super grateful (now that I clearly understood what it was the Scriptures say about hell) that I never told him to go there. From 1996-1999 was my Bible school. From 99-2001 deputation, have been doing mission work here in the Philippines since 2001.
Jefe, I really appreciate your video. I’ve been away from home since 1987 and can really relate to what you are saying and experiencing in this situation…I’ve been on the mission field since 2001… saw May dad only 2 times from then until he died… during the time we’d visit back home for a month or so… my dad died on 1 Apr 2006. I miss him a lot! Am very grateful for the things he taught me. Sure wish he were still around am certain I could learn more from him! God bless you Jefe. And thank you for posting this video! Thanks for showing folks such a private thing…
Thanks for sharing with us Jefe. No one tells us how tough it is to lose our parents, we simply get to find out.
Sorry about your father's passing.
Thank you for sharing about your family. Allows us to know you a little better.
Sorry for your loss brother. Always stay you.
Sorry for your loss, Jefe. Thank you taking us along with you on your trip home. Nothing like home. Nothing like family. Good to hear your making amens where you need, life's too short. Be blessed
Our fathers are proud of us!! Your father will always be with you!!
Man I'm so sorry to hear about your father. I lost me Dad about four months ago. He was my hero and best friend. It definitely changes your perspective on life. I hope your healing is swift. Dont beat yourself up my man. Use the opportunity to grow closer to our maker and keep trucking. Many blessings
I am sorry for your loss. I learned from a coworker that had a similar situation losing their father they haven’t spoken to in years, I have a new relationship with my dad that I have never had before. He has said many times how amazing are relationships has become. I hope other learn to move past the issues from the past and get their relationship back from your video.
Thank you for sharing, you’re a strong person sharing this experience.
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your Dad!
Welcome to the club. Many men feel the same way about their father. Just know that your father loves you very much hurt for you too.
When my Dad died I also felt great sorrow and was depressed for over a year. during visitation a man told me that at some point when I thought of Dad my thoughts would be happy memories and not always feeling sad. He was right one day I thought about Dad and a smile came across my face and a good memory of fun time we shared came into my head. It will take some time but it will happen for you also... Sorry for your loss...
It’s interesting how family dynamics can be exactly the same but different . One of the best 4th of Julys I had was camping at the Flaming Gorge and watching the fireworks in Dutch John . Thanks for taking us along on your journey.
Family, even when it's hard and imperfect, is worth working our way back to. . . it's a journey you've started late, but far ahead of most people. I am so very sorry for your loss. May the God of all comfort sustain you and your family in this storm of grief.
You aren't alone in dealing with past family communication issues, Jefe. Many of us suffer through it. I truly respect you being open and honest about it, and making an effort to reconnect and to remember the positives along the way. Don't beat yourself up over things you cannot change. Learn from them, and change how you relate with those still here. Hugs to you.
Jefe, you're not the only one who feels like this. I too am if guilty is the right word, just to let you know you're not the only one feeling like this. Cherish life and the one's around your immediate circle.
Sorry about your father. Glad you got to reconnect with family, looks like you had a great time hanging out with them.
Sometimes honoring those who have died through adventures are the best ways to work through grief.
Having lost my oldest son before my parents passed, I was able to see more clearly what really matters in my relationships with those I love. It was an expensive lesson... my heart goes out to you, my friend. The best you can do is live your best life.
A father knows his children and I’m sure he knew how you felt and he was proud of the man you became. You will see him again and spend an eternity with him. God bless you brother.
I feel this in very soul You made a tough old retired firefighter cry again for his father that he never reached out to
Thank you so much for sharing your stories, my dad passed away from cancer when I was in high school. Time really does go by faster than you expect, live every moment to the fullest. Don't forget to smile!
Sorry for your loss!
-Sad, but good for you to be at your old home.
I stayed away from my home and family for 13 yrs.
I stayed away because memories of sevre abuse surfaced.
They were hard to deal with and get past, but i did.
I'm so thankful for the Lord Jesus Christ, who healed me, strengthened me, and teaches me.
Jesus is truly King!
Sorry for the loss of your father, Jefe. I lost my dad 2/14/2000, Had been gone for about 2 years, talked to him a few times. Like you, I wish I'd have called him more often. It is sad that we realize after the fact, what we SHOULD have done, vs what we did do!
Sorry to hear of your loss of your dad.......... Stay in touch with the family.......
So sorry for your loss. You can't fix the past, but what you can do is remember the good times and honor his life. Prayers for you and your family.
I lost my dad a little over a year ago. Fortunately despite some ups and downs we had a good relationship. It’s weird now just over a year out, I still have “I can’t wait to tell dad this, he’ll love it” thoughts before I remember I can’t tell him. I wish you strength on your journey of mourning and healing sir. Thank you for taking us along.
It’s good to see you honoring your dad and spending time with your siblings Jefe.
My parents have been gone for a long time. Then I lost my big brother, my only sibling in 2016 to a work related accident.
Cherish every moment you get to spend with them. Time goes by way to fast.
Thanks for sharing a part of your life. Very impressed with your cooking talents. Good you have reunited with family.
Sorry for your loss 🙏.
Sorry to hear about your dad, thoughts and prayers out to you and your family!
So sorry to hear of the loss of your father jefe and family
Jefe, congrats on your family reunion. It's kind of bittersweet seeing how your town has changed . I live in the town I grew up in and sometimes think how things have changed in 70 yrs. Great video.
Sorry for loss SFC, that said as a parent all I want is my boys to be close forever. If this brings you back into the fold with yours I am sure your dad is smiling down. Stay close with family. Godspeed.
My father was far from what you would call a good father. However, I still loved him. He ended up with cancer, and I was fortunate to have been able to spend a little time with him. He told me that he was proud of the man I had become because the deck was stacked against me most of my life. All we can do is learn from their mistakes and be better men than they were.
Jeffe, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Know this, you will always have his memory and with time you will heal. I am not a religious person but I do believe that his energy will manifest in you in subtle ways and you will be reminded of him periodically. Take care of yourself and give yourself time to grieve.
You’re not alone. One of the hardest things when my father died was knowing our relationship was fixed in time. It was 10 years this spring, it’s easier but it’s always a part of your life.
Sorry to hear about your Dad, Jefe. You did a really good thing reliving good memories.
Family is very important to me. When you said it was the first time your little brother had seen all of the siblings together, it made me sad. Im glad you got together. That is beautiful country out there. Thank you for being respectful of the old sites and for bringing us along.
I so loved this video. Effe I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad. But happy you got to reconnect with your family at my favorite place in our country. We always camp 26 miles west of Blanding in the Bears Ears and do a lot of ruin hunting ❤. We try to get back there every couple years. Thanks for taking us back
My heartfelt condolences to you Jefe! Thank you for sharing all of that with us. Great video, too! Good luck with your new adventures!
This will be Your greatest memory of your family times spent together, After awhile you will be very happy you went. The past is exactly that Past. LOOK towards better times . Beautiful Family, Thank You for sharing such a personable time . CONDOLENCES TO ALL. ❤😊
Our hearts go out to you my brother, Enjoy the time and precious moments. God bless you we're always here for you Jefe. 🤜🤛
There's nothing sadder than waiting too long to make a call -- and it happens way to often to too many people. Sorry for your loss, glad to see you moving forward, and hopefully this will inspire someone, somewhere to make contact. God Bless
If only I could see my dad one more time! It's been 35 years. We were just starting to patch up our relationship. I was 26 and my first child was not quite 2 weeks old. We were 1200 miles apart. He had received the photos of my son that morning and showed them off to his friends and customers. My oldest brother called me at 1:30 the following morning. The most difficult journey of my life began at that moment. Your video brought back a ton of memories and emotions.
I really appreciate these trips with memories I am 74 now and memories are my most precious assets
Amen !! 73 here..
I miss my dad. I just want to call him. Hear his voice. Tell him I love him.
Sorry for your loss. My wife and I served a mission for our church in the area and truly grew to love it. Clark’s was remodeled while we were there. We took deliveries from Blue Mountain Meats and may very well have met your dad. We made many friends there and return 3-4 times a year.
Sorry for your loss... Great video showing your family! A blessed life!
Always remember those good memories of your dad and he will always be in your heart.
Sorry for your loss. I had the same deal with my Dad. I moved out at 17, put myself through vocational school and never looked back.
Slowly, we were getting closer, but he died suddenly at 63 and I wish we had made more progress.
God Bless!
You are an amazing and gifted story teller. I know I’m going to love this channel! Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. ❤️
May your heart heal from this loss.
A child is that part of ourselves we cast into a future we will not see. He will always be a part of you.
My heart goes out to you. Not bad for your second video 11,000 in a couple hours and 40,000 subscribers.. good job
That was a great tribute to your dad, and what a great way to celibrate his life, and exploring the places that ment so much to him and your family, you all lived in some realy cool places, and so beautiful. Sorry for your loss.
My heartfelt condolences to you and your family.
Sorry you lost your Dad but glad you got to spend time with your family. 👍
So sorry to hear about your dad. I never met mine and he has passed. I understand the feeling of regret, but keep those memories on your heart and he’ll always be with you.
Condolences, Jefe. I know what you're dealing with, been there myself. Good people and positivity will carry you through.
Sorry to hear about your dad. I lost mine 8 years ago.
I am sorry for your loss. Life is a short. Hang in there…you’ve got this.
Thanks for taking us along for the ride Jefe. Prayers sent to you and your family for your loss.
My dad left for California when I was 5. Next time I saw him I was 18. We never connected but wish we did. My first time going to California was pretty much to say goodbye. He died 3 hrs after I got there. I tried as a kid to go visit. But he wouldn’t pay for me to come. All and all I loved him because he was my dad.
He didn't want you to see him suffering. We men are like that.
Young man god loves you.Your life will change for the best we all some difficult family problems he hears.
Just walk with love in your heart with a great big smile.Your a good man.
Thanks for sharing. I had a great relationship with my Dad. He has been two years and I miss him greatly
Sorry for your loss. It's time's like this that make you look for answers, you'll be okay. Been in your shoes, since 2006, I just keep plugging away
Bless you Jefe. My dad died suddenly when I was 15. SAME!! Workin on mom..........
Hey man, I'm sorry for your loss. Don't beat on yourself too hard Jefe, you have a great heart. You're a very kind person, everything you did feels true from your heart.
My mom often tell me that sometimes it's the intention that matters. The unexpected things always happened in life, but you really intended to rebuild the relationship with your dad, this time I think that's really what matters.
Please seek professional help if you need it Jefe, grief is a btch to deal with. I'm happy that you got to hang out with your brothers and sister out there. I agree with your point in the end about contacting your love ones. The passed will always be missed, but it's time to worry with those that's still alive, go get in contact with them!
Sorry for your loss Jeff. Glad to see you’ve reconnected with your family and I hope you continue to stay reconnected.
Stubbornness can be an extremely powerful emotion than can often lead to regret.
I’m in tears of sorrow n happiness for you! Many blessings to you!
I loved the way you began by saying that both you and your father shared responsibility for the relationship not working out. That shows wisdom. I’ve had the same issue, and it took me years to come to the same realization. When that happens, peace surrounds you.
Thank you Jefe for the walk back in time...condolences for the loss of your dad...bringing the family closer because of it.
Great heart felt video...
You truly can go home again. Thank you for sharing this.
You have my deepest sympathies . Losing parents is the hardest thing ever, but a part of life.
I lost my Dad in 2010 , my Mom in 2015, both at the age of 92 . I was far from being the perfect son and I regret my mistakes, but I changed for the good. I made changes in my life and got to spend a lot of time with them before they left. We were very close when they passed.
I'm 73 now and I still have many fantastic memories of them to keep me going.
I am glad that you realized how important family can be and spent time with family to help you heal.
I pray you will find peace and know that your folks loved you and you have become the man they always knew you could and would be. Also know that there are MANY of us out here that have a TON of respect for you for being who you are. Don't ever change !!
Wishing you all the success in everything you do and hold on to your memories !!! You are now at the top of my favorite You Tube list Keep up the great work !!
Sorry for your loss, Jefe. I know it well after both mom and dad are gone. Going through all their stuff really brings it all out. A lifetime of memories. You will have a choice. Wander off alone or embrace your family. I feel you'll make good! choices
It’s great to see that the healing began with family and just doing things that connected you to your dad.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful touching story. Just know you are not the only one out there that lives with similar emotions and feelings and regrets. I too have those same feeling. I lost my best Friend/Brother suddenly on April 15 th. He had a massive heart attack and I miss him everyday. I miss our text messages. I miss our phone calls. I miss hanging out together and just sitting sometimes saying nothing.
I at times call his cell phone just to hear his voice.
Again thank you for sharing your beautiful memories
Thank you for sharing. Family is one of the most impotent things in life. I'm in my late 50's, we're 6 siblings and we see each other at least once a month and sometimes more often, as well as our nieces and nephews. we lost our father over 30 years ago when he was only 55 years old. Never give up your family.
Deepest condolences to you and yours Jefe. When my sister passed in June of this year I took time to go back to our old neighborhood to visit memories both good and bad. It did help especially around the time of her service.
Jefe, it's good to see your family. It's awesome that you return to visit your roots. may God bless you and your family
Thank you for sharing your heart with the world. Jefe, you're a good man, your Dad would be proud.
Your camping set up is awesome. So sorry about you losing your dad I understand how you miss him. Through and prayers to you and your family.
Your loss and reflection make a great start to your channel. I am definitely in. Thanks for posting.
I lost my father in 2002. It’s still hard to believe it’s been 22 years but I was lucky enough that I moved home six years before he passed away and got to go hunting with him every year and even got to go hunting with him with his oldest grandson and his first hunting trip something we will never forget! It always helps to go back when you’re an adult and talk to your parents when you understand what they went through that’s a conversation that should never be missed and I am glad I got to have it! My brother and father had a falling out and did not talk to much and he missed that , then he was gone in 2016 , at 48 , and I can tell you even years later I miss being able to talk problems out with both of them !!!!!! ❤
Hopefully, soon you will be able to enjoy a big family reunion under happier circumstances. Thanks for showing us your old stomping grounds. Nice trip altogether.☺
Sorry for the loss of your father, but don't regret any of the choices you made along the way; they are what made you who you are today. Wishing you many happy adventures.
I am sorry for your loss, however I appreciate the wisdom shared. I also grew up in Blanding and have many wonderful memories of Blue Mountain, Devils Canyon, Mustang, Devil's Heart Beat, Black Mesa, and many other areas.
Sorry for your loss jefe. Prayers for comfort and healing.
Very nice video Jefe. Got to spend quality time with your family and remembering old memories. Nice light show from mother nature. All the best to you and all your family.
It's hard to say goodbye to our loved ones, especially when it's a difficult relationship. Thanks for your transparency and reminder to value those we love.
I’m so sorry for your loss, I completely understand not being in touch with your family, and I’m always telling myself I’ll regret it one of these days. I grew up in a small town in northern Utah. I always thought I was meant for the city, so once I graduated from high school (95 to age me) I moved to Long Beach ca. That was a massive culture shock, I lasted down there for almost a year. It took me until 2012 moving from place to place, never feeling at “home” that I finally moved back to my small town. I’ve been home ever since, I don’t think I’ll ever leave again, unless it’s to another small town. No more city life for this gal. Being gone that long I completely understand not knowing anyone anymore. I used to know everyone, now we don’t even know a few of our neighbors across the street. The town has grown so much (more than doubled I’d say in population and homes), that I miss the way we grew up. We still don’t have any stoplights, but it’s not far off. Thank you for taking us on your adventures, I’ve spent a small amount of time in Monticello and blanding in 97, and haven’t been back since, I’m sure it’s changed a lot, but it’s definitely beautiful down there.