flatsound | learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism
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you're on the phone
with someone who doesn't know
about your soul and how it
can't be held by flesh and bone
and i guess that's fine
i would never want you to
stop your life
but when i saw you both
with your shoulders touching
sitting so close
i knew i'd hold on to this feeling
i'd hold on to anything at all
was it my fault
because i easily confused you
for someone who would hold my hand
when things got hard
when things got dark
because oh my god
when they get dark
they get so dark
you were always a shitty friend
and you would leave when i got sick
you never called me on my birthday
i want to call you on your birthday
so i'll hold on to this feeling
i'll hold on to this hate
for as long as i need
for it to help me
"You never called me on my birthday, I wanna call you on your birthday."
How much I relate to this lyric is just unexplainable
*edit: update. I called him on his birthday*
x tonib x me too. i don’t know how to describe how. but me too.
Late comment, but I feel you...
And he ended up calling...
That hurt. It sucks when somebody means more to you than you mean to them.
He forgot my birthday.
7 years wasted. Glad you're not holding me back anymore.
i hope ur doing so much better💗💗
10 years here ',:)
8 years here too ┐(´д｀)┌ but I'm finally free
Deadpan7 At least you learned from it
3 years and countless opportunities thrown away, I'm gonna get better
lyrics:
you’re on the phone with someone who doesn’t know
about your soul, and how it can’t be held by flesh and bone
and i guess that’s fine
i would never want you to stop your life
but when i saw you both with your shoulders touching
sitting so close
i knew i’d hold onto this feeling
i’d hold onto anything at all
was it my fault?
because i easily confused you as someone who would hold my hand
when things got hard, when things got dark
because oh my god, when they get dark
they get so dark
you were always a shitty friend
and you would leave when i got sick
you never called me on my birthday
i wanna call you on your birthday
so i’ll hold onto this feeling
i’ll hold onto this hate
for as long as i need it to help me
i read the title as "learning to hate yourself as a defense mechanism"
toukakouka Same
toukakouka omg same
toukakouka woah i just realize my mistake
Oh same
Sameeeee
I hate missing the people who damaged me. It doesn't happen too often, but there's this one person... They were wonderful or at least in the beginning they were. But I miss them to a point of sickness.
RevolutionRobbie I do too, it's the worst...
I get this so hard.
oh my god, me with my ex. He became an ass in the end but my heart feels so empty without him. I never had anyone I could connect to until we met...
it’s hard to let go of someone who was bad for you butmade you feel special
I feel you.
loving a narcissist feels exactly like this
Yesssss
@George Adept yessir
@George Adept you don't choose who you love
and as someone who only fell for "nice guys"until now I can say: they can be douche bags too
@George Adept im crying and laughing you're genuinely a stereotypical niceguy
@George Adept They're saying the ideas you present are typical of "Nice Guys", internet terminology for men who are self-titled as being nice and better than 'douchebags' while mirroring their sexist beliefs and behaviours only under the guise of being an underdog. Saying all women are narcissistic and only go for 'douchebags' is very typical thinking for a Nice Guy. For further reference, there's a whole subreddit dedicated for chronicling people like you. Check r/niceguys and you might find yourself there.
maybe it's not healthy to listen to this, when you're told you have depression.. But who else can you relate to, when you're at a point to low, only a melody so melancholy can touch you with words that know no bounds
I fricken feel this so much, I realize its been two years since you wrote this but I hope your doing ok
@@Ghostinapapercrown Agree'd...
Don’t give up! Your never alone even at the loneliest times. It may be cliche but it’s true. Although I don’t know you, your a human being. You deserve happiness.
K A N E hey it’s been 3 years bud. hope ur doing better now :)
My school counsellor told me to try listening to upbeat music and stop listening to sad music because it’s going to make me worse. In a way, he’s probably right. But I feel like this music gets me. It’s so strangely comforting.
am i the only person who feels like he is singing right in my ears?? like i know im wearing earphones but it feels like he is here with me, singing this for me
eh hasreen that sound that comes in mid way that's like an Ebow maybe... kinda sounds like his ghost. Yeah I'm sure it was okay 👌basically this must be a side project from another artist about a friend who isn't around anymore..
Ether pad is a good app on android to make that sound though... (:
Especially is I'm in the dark of my room alone..
I am.. trust me this bottle of Jim hugged me for the last time and these four walls have heard my last word.. tonight is my last night.. Goodbye world.. I will never taste the sweet taste of your air.. I will never hold my brothers in my arms again.. please.. if theirs anyone out there help... Please jus tell me things are gonna be okay..... These next thirty Im going to listen and sip this Jim beam and at 9... Boom
@@franklinrussell2516 holy fuck shit dude everything is gonna be ok, plz tell me you're here. Everything will be fine, trust me bro
eh hasreen I like to close my eyes, and just imagine that I’m not alone. It’s comforting until it’s done 😂👍
to everyone listening to this song: I hope you get better soon.
I hope I don't
Shoelog Productions i hope you’re okay.
@@outatime9598 not really okay right now, but that in itself should be okay
Thank you
Thank you.
You liked me,
And I liked you
But I was scared to get hurt
for a second time
I didn't want anyone at all
but I needed you
And I was willing to risk it
but when I was finally ready
You had moved on
Ketzechka they didn’t feel the same way you did
oh same
This is exactly what happened to me, wow. I have trust issues so I told him we should go slow, it was completely mutual. We talked everyday and then all of sudden he shut me out. I later found out he was dating his best friend. Guess I wasn't worth enough for him to wait and I ended up being just an option. Maybe he liked things fast and couldn't go fast. I just wanted to enjoy the trip.
im in the same spot right now :(
this is exactly what's happening to me now. I rejected them even though I really did like them because the self-hatred and trust issues got too overwhelming. Now, I'm sitting in the bath, regretting saying no and missing what we never had. They've moved on, found someone else, and everyday it gets more painful. I can never let myself be happy, and that's the blatant truth.
honestly this song reminds me so much of myself. when did i become such a piece of shit.
My friend showed me this, they said they were thinking of me. I understand.
SAME
Same.
same
who hurt this boy
Someone worth being hurt by it seems.
ava s actually always wondered this. Mitch's stuff if always so personal and he always has really personal lines so you can tell they're pretty heartfelt .
ava s Sadly, probably someone who said they loved him.
This is actually the song I listen to when my friends hurt me, which is a lot.
Cloud Breaker i understand exactly what your going through hahaaHAHAHAHAHAHAhahaahhah There the ones how call you there friend but you never felt the same for them like its not your fault your kind to everyone because you know its what they need regardless of how fucked up they threat you.you always give them gifts for the holidays and birthdays but they never have returned the favor. You have never asked for any kind of fancy or expense gift just a thank you just a god damn thank you not a fuck half as bull shite one. But see your the kind of person how thinks that one day they will remember your birthday like its on a fucking Halloween for fucks sake. But what's more fucked up even more then those individuals is that you always think that they will remember its been 4 fucking long years and nothing not even a call on your birthday or even a sincere "happy birthday" like you never fucking care you just want them the say happy birthday sincerely..IS THAT TO FUCKING HARD TO DO....but when your boy friend dose not even give you a gift on your birthday you just kind of diy inside you have been fuck up inside sense you could remember but this time it hurts so fucking bad that on your birthday you snape and cry in fucking public IN PUBLIC see your the kind of person who never cry and for you if you cry in public your feel like everyone is hunting for you ready to kill you because your gard is down and they know it ..but the tres keep fulling and no one in your family seems to fuck care. What started you to cry was when your boy friend text are you okay.as you text the words no i am not okay you fuck let go and all the fucking tears fall
you message me and my heart breaks a little every time
ughfactionless I can relate
fucking felt that
You should Bloc the..
Not related but is your user a reference to divergent?
i miss him, but he's not even mine.
hana m I wished someone loved me that much
Same 😭😭😭
I love him but he doesn’t
I love him, but he loves someone else
I love him but he got over me a long time ago
Do you remember Kylie? Those nights when I was there, and he wasn't? Those nights that I held you while you cried, and kissed your forehead while you told me everything you've done. Remember how I never judged you for your past, and still loved you unconditionally? But you left me. Because he told you too. Now I'm left by myself, missing you. Wanting a phone call..... but you can't... not even on my birthday. Because he doesn't allow it.
Wow, this is my exact situation right now. I hope things got better ):
Hope both of you are doing better.
Anyone still here
Anyone?
@@da_big_scouser1759 I gotchu 🖤
not kylie, but i remember this. with someone else. obviously. anyway, wanna call sometime?
I know he's shitty. I know he's not worth it. Yet I keep holding on to this wishful thinking of mine. And I am so tired.
He's there in every person you take interest in and maybe thats why. He's all your interested in and yet he's the worst possible thing for you.
hurts to love
You need to create enough life and fun for yourself at home/when alone so you have no wishful thinking and can stop caring whats going on with other people
Anne Daquila oh hi hello are you me
You're in love with a memory
"If we could just pretend" playing in the background between 5:07- 5:17.
+Lorena Carrasco Beautiful ending
AAYYEE same name !!
ouch !
welp, if you haven't figured it out by now, the reason why it's playing in the background is because the girl who sang in that song with Mitch, is the girl that this EP is about. a really really BEAUTIFUL ending.
I still fight for peace every day but listening to you makes me feel like someone is fighting this with me
Exactly.
More than you think.
its been a year but it still hurts.
psyche ..does it ever stop hurting? it hasn’t for me.
Much love. Keep your head up 💚
psyche does it still hurt ? i may not know u but i hope ur happier :)
Its been 4 years? Does it still hurt???
We are all broken in some way by something or someone. Which in a strange way, makes us all even more beautiful.
Some of us find beauty and comfort in pain
I’m in love with the fact that almost everyone is venting in the comment section. It a really shitty and demented way, it comforts me. Makes me feel a little bit less alone.
Understandable!! Its been 2 years, hope you're doing better now
He's a poet and a musician this is wonderfull
Wonderful
Yeah,it is
MishaAckles the pizza man Your profile picture is wonderful. 💙
i cried reading these comments paired with the song
by bf listens to flatsound a lot so if you see this dont be sad sweetheart I love you
eerie blowballs do you think he ever comes back to this comment and reads it?
@@KaoticDreww I would :/
Kaotic Drew I wonder so aswell I miss him constantly since we broke up
@@eerieblowballs8259 baby I'm so sorry
I'm sorry you guys broke up I hope everything works out
“you never called me on my birthday, i want to call you on your birthday” I’m 10 minutes early, but happy birthday, i miss you. you’re why i hate libras so much.
Oh same my mom ruined libras for me
ok I like sad music, but this is something else..
i am too full of hope. i miss him.
5 years of friendship and it all ended :( . I miss the old you...
people change baby, everything happens to make something new
i remember listening to this album when i was really struggling with intense abandonment issues, depression, anxiety, and ocd. it hurts to listen to this album again but i just love it so much
I hope you're doing better.
comfort album tbh
same for me, It's still painful to listen to these piece of song that were with you when you were down.
Hope your good
I miss you. A lot. But I can't go back to you. I can't, I'm sorry.
it still hurts holy shit
hi! i really hope you’re doing better now. i know your original comment was made 2 years ago and you replied a year ago, so i’m just checking in. you doing okay?
i obviously don’t know you but i hope you can be happy.
fuck, this hit me too hard. i wasn't ready.
This is what my mind sounds like
+jaimie Forster wow you're so unique. what do you want, a medal for being special?
+achebog hay m8 no need 2 be rude to them
+achebog what is your problem dude chill
lol no lol no
I understand your mind then. It's very much like my mind too.
this is so beautiful I'm fucking EMO
+Prince Pheonix same
It's okay to feel everything too much
Welcome to the crew
you mean hipster?
"because i easily confused you
for someone who would hold my hand"
This lyric is literally everything
"I so easily confused you for someone who would hold my hand"
i'm sorry, (ex)-friend.
i fell in love with you, and you rejected me.
you were a great friend, you'd always be there for me. you'd always know when something was wrong.
i ditched you for another person, just so i could feel love in this hellish world.
but, you ditched me too. for him.
i try, try so hard to let go of you.
i tell myself "i hate you" but how can i?
i miss you.
i'm sorry.
but, you played with my heart so many god damned times.
and for that, how could i ever be close to you, without falling in love again?
i hate you. you fucking broke me.
swiggaswoody oh shit, are those tears..?? Anyway, I relate to what you wrote..
@ PALTH whoops im sorry
but im kinda friends with her again so
that's exactly the shit i'm going through right now
I know the feel.
Isn't it just great when you know you have 0 chance but still you can't stop liking them? I hate myself for making myself suffer for liking him, but at the same time he makes me happy about myself just by being him and i'm conflicted.
this song reminds me of my best friend. i miss her so much.
where is she now?
Ania N when I posted this comment we were kind is fighting and i hadn't seen her in like 2 months. after I posted this we made up and such
Ohhh..i can relate. i haven`t seen my bff fosr 6 months but now we are good
Same but we never made up again...rip
to everyone listening and relating to this and other flatsound songs: please stay safe
'Four Songs For Losing You' is a blessing in disguise.😭 It's packed with hurt, anger, upset, love, heartbreak. IT'S SOOO PURE. I LOVE IT.
Practically no one is going to read this, especially the person I'm writing about.
I loved you. You were the best thing that had or has happened to me. I'm so sorry I betrayed you. I failed you and we both know it.
I've said it before, but I am sorry and I truly regret what I did. If I could turn back time, I'd probably change nothing, because you deserve better than me.
Well, actually, at least 65 people read this
"because you deserve better than me"
false humbleness
I love waking up and realizing you put a few songs out I am so happy.
I'm sure talking to you would be knowing myself and feeling whole because
everytime i hear or read anything that proceeds from your mind i get scared about how much empathy and articulateness can be given to only one person
this music is depressing but calming?¿? idk how. Good job, you've found a really good style of music 💖
Alex Smith I know that this is off topic but
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The Phandom is everywhere
true
Alex Smith agreed
Shoulders touching... did he just expose phan?!?!
This song fits perfectly into my real life. That's weird when you hear a song which sounds exactly like your life...
kinqboxlt i hope you're better now
i honestly don't find this as an emo style of music.. it's sad but. it gives me rather peace, strange emptiness and beautiful realization of life. i get lost in my moving fingers and see the beauty in the world again by listening. Oh god Mitch you're a whole lot of something.
the low humming that comes out from my laptop makes it seem as though his voice is with me right here and now. so beautiful, i do need this
“You were always a shitty friend” just breaks me every time
really feeling this right now, I love having a calm day on my own and listening to your music it's so relaxing
I see that you like brand new as well. you should check out my channel!
this is the first flatsound song I ever heard. the title caught my eye when I saw it in my recommended songs on spotify. Im glad I gave into my curiosity, you really can't find music like this just anywhere
Just realized how much of a shitty boyfriend he was... and yet i still miss him so much
i had everything
i could ever want
you were golden
but i was greedy
now youre gone
and now i realize
noone needs me
liked u needed me
im sorry
same dude
oh my god this just popped up in my recommendations, and wow I relate so deeply.
his birthday's in two days, i miss him so fucking much. i want to call him.
just do it
thank you angel but i can't
i'm so sorry for ur loss
it's the time of the year again..
Next month will make it a year since we got together, but August will make a year since we've been apart. It's the significant dates that we hold closest, such as birthdays and first dates. They come back, haunting, and never really leave. I hope that someday, the need fades and you'll be okay. I miss him too. I've missed him for way too long, considering he's neatly forgotten me. It's tough, but it'll be okay.
Woke up and saw you made new songs and I just listened to them straight out of bed and felt it love you Mitch
first song of yours i ever heard 3 years ago today. your podcast is great. im sorry for all the pain that made you write this, but thank you for putting your pain into words
All this sensibility in his Lyrics and music and voice and everything. So much passion, he really seems to be a deep person
I relate to this song
but I'm the shitty friend
fuck you
Same dude... It's okay. We can change❤
Yes im shitty friend, I prolly want people to hate me so they leave me alone. BUT THIS MUSIC IS SO GOODDDDD
i hope you get attached to someone and they leave
@@esor2 it had been 23 months since they said this and they barely explained, chill tf out. yall really in comments being toxic for no reason 😭
Sounds a bit like Keaton Henson. 😊😊
Tobio Hinata keaton 💛
I hear great things about their music, but I haven't been able to bring myself to listen to it. They share the name with the person who crumbled my hearts into pieces and it makes it all so much more real. And not fair
i love u man
This is so beautiful I can't handle it
i cried again again , curled up in a protective ball now in a dark corner of the room in front of my lappy. my body just wont react to anything except your music , Mitch. i love you and please keep doing this beautiful thing. oh you beautiful talented person! :)
I clicked on this expecting it to be a how to. I'm not disappointed though.
AnotherWeirdo I did too haha
i dropped my group of friends recently, people that i grew up with and the only ones that loved me for me. and to them i say; im sorry i distanced myself and never tried to fix things. i hope we cross paths again somewhere later in life. thank u for making me feel wanted, especially on days i was considering things i shouldn’t have.
I JUST FOUND YOUR MUSIC. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT
I love comment sections like this since everyone’s just trying to make each other feel better. It’s as heart warming as it depressing
Wow. I just found this song, clicked on it without thinking. I am in tears.
What a perfect surprise to wake up peacefully, makes me feel so whole. Luv u
A perfect mix between low roar and dashboard confessional
Omg.. The last part when I hear the telephone ringing sound.. IT killed me.
IM FUCKING CHOKING U CAME OUT WITH MORE MUSIC IM CRYING OMG
I'm possibly the happiest person ever, I found your music on Spotify by coincidence. I've been loving and listening to your music for a long time, and now I found your channel I'm just so happy. You're such an inspiration :)
probably a bad idea to listen to this in class after a breakup lol...this is wildly specific to my situation. it's crazy. his birthday is coming up and i swear the last stanza is so fucking me...
My father is dying. Probably this week. He used to be my hero and my favorite person, I used to love every minute with him, but then I grew up. I realized he was never a father but a playmate, never my cheerleader but I was his. He needed me more than I needed him.
I feel so conflicted over whether I'll mourn him or mourn who he could have been for me. Right now it's easiest to hate him, to be angry, to hold on to this self righteous indignation. I've known he's dying for two years and hidden my conflict behind jokes, dark humour, just shoving it all under the rug, and now...
What do I do? I can't even tell if I hate him or not, if I miss him or not, if I'm guilty over it all or not.
This is what your narcissism does to your child.
How does one feel about it?
For now, I'll hold on to this hate as long as I need it.
Hey. I hope u okay now !!
It's been a year I've heard this song .... The first time I heard it i was all alone in my house ...I was going through such a hard time ...I was so tired of life that I took around 15 of my anxiety pills all together ... Started to listen to it ... Tears flowing down my eyes and comforted myself to sleep... And wished it was the last time I close my eyes ... Woke up a day after and yet alive :') ..... Been through a lot after that day till now .. yet surviving through it .
Damn, how are you now? How you feel?
hey, it's been 2 years since you made this comment. how are you doing these days? i hope you're still here, and i hope you're doing a lot better than you were when you wrote this. take it easy
I love all your songs because they have such meaning and emotion. It's just beautiful ❤️🐼
nothing hurts more than losing your bestfriend. it's like losing the other side of you
"You never called me on my birthday, I wanna call you on your birthday" that line hit so fucking hard. Relate to it, and this whole song so much, especially since his birthday is today. I miss him and I can't get him out of my head :/ everything reminds me of him.
fuck, this is so beautiful, so relatable
This made me really recognise how shitty life is but also somehow made me realize that it will get better and it will be ok in the end.
i miss you so so fucking much
how did he or she die?
+Tanmeet Singh they might not have died, they most likely broke up. I obviously don't know but you should assume 😊
Tanmeet Singh ah yea.. it was actually a break up..
i wish I could hug my ibestfriend. I wish I could tell her how much she made me, how much I cried every night bcs of her. How much I cared and loved her. I wish we're talking rn and tell her how sad i am . I need her.
the worst part of the healing process is when you've eventually blocked out all the bad things and you convince yourself that it was your fault. you did this to yourself, not them. and then when you see them making new, better relationships, you're so jealous it makes your whole body ache. you have to constantly remind yourself that they treated you like shit. but it still hurts. you still miss them for reasons unknown.
i hate it
It’s such a shitty feeling to live with...
this gives me life like seriously oh my god
favorite flatsound song
I love the quiet ringing in the end, it's just such a nice little narrative touch to the song.
hits me every single time
i just wasted years of my life constantly trying to find music like this and now i'm here and never been happier
reading everyone's stories in the comments makes me happy i'm not alone, if anyone ever sees this, please do anything and everything to take care of yourself . listen to his song called "be yourself" , it will help you get better
I've never felt so close to a musical artist, he helps me not feel alone, I wish I can tell him but I just need to tell him thank u
I know you didn't love me but I continued to love you but now that's it's over I've never loved you more. I miss you I hope you love me like I do
Dani E I’m in the same situation after my first breakup.. I know it’s been two years, but do you feel better? I want to feel better. So badly.
this song is really telling how i feel rn :''))
i miss you mary
I miss Mary too
digitalsshark we all miss our mary's, man.
i dont miss mary at all. she with me too much.
learning to simply let my true self feel the emotions and feelings I've been burying deep down due to trying to become perfect for others. How mentally exhausting it has been. thank you for this.
i think of my dad who denies that my anxiety exists even though I don’t talk at school and come home crying sometimes. “was it my faultbecause, I easily confused you for someone who would hold my hand”
thank you for this masterpiece. you broke my heart.
I had a friend about a year ago. She was my best friend, we got along so well and did everything together. She was my only friend, but she was a bad friend. She talked about me behind my back, she made fun of me when I was sad, she criticized everything I did, and told me I would never succeed. I wanted her to care about me as much as I cared about her. No matter how hard I tried, she never did. She was the only person I had though. So I stayed with her.
A few months ago she texted me and told me that we shouldn’t be friends. She said she had new friends and that she didn’t want to “put up with” my depression. She said that her new friends were better anyway. I was extremely upset. I felt like it was my fault. But I moved on from it.
Just last night I had a dream that we were sitting together and talking. Like how we used to. We were talking about life...and our futures. I woke up this morning with this sing on my recommended page. I feel like I can relate to it...this is how I feel.
Idk why I typed this out it was pointless, but I feel like I have to share this somewhere. I’ve been keeping these feelings inside for years now.
Wow, you had a really toxic relationship. I understand why you still think of her but it's a good thing that your friendship is over. I hope that you will found real friends that deserves you, that actually cares for you and don't do messed up things like she did.
And it's not pointless to share your feelings! It can help to talk to people around you, it feels good to be heard and understood.
La super gaufre
aww, thank you so much. And luckily I did end up finding a nice supportive group of friends.
@@Jellybird_lps I'm happy to hear that ;)
The timing in which I found this is so wow. Thank you.
I cri
Every time
I've listened to this song probably several dozen times and I just now noticed the snippet of "If We Could Just Pretend" at the end
beautiful