“There’s a stigma out there that men are supposed to be these tough dudes who can’t open up, who can’t talk about what they’re feelin because that makes you less of a man. We need to cut that shit off now because that’s absolute bullshit”… Amen brother. I’d much rather one of my closest friends cry on my shoulder and ask for help than for me to end up carrying his casket because he felt like he couldn’t. Needs to become normalized.
I only have a few friends, but I've started practicing this in my life with great results. I've decided I will never again assume my friends will think less of me for opening up, and I've guaranteed them that I will never think less of them for the same thing. I've opened up to a couple of my bros about some things, even crying at a couple points over some things I'm going through. Mental illness, the desire to delete myself, etc. Not only were they there for me, I immediately felt more bonded to my friends and like we 'became family' almost. If you are another guy and you're willing to sit there and support me in my hardest time when I'm being a bit of a crybaby, and not judge me, and actually give me advice, and all that jazz... you're my brother. Period, facts, end of story.
Well fuqin said. As someone who lost his younger cousin and a best friend to suicide, you would rather hear all the complaining, all the drama...ANYTHING other than church music and crying when they aren't there anymore.
Somewhere on the comments page of the Suicide video Ren wrote this but it wasn’t pinned so it can get lost in the comments. This is beautiful and relevant to the song and everyone should read it. Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write. Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday. I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again. This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary. Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe. Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then. On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left. Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late. Joe’s body was never found. Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe. As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since. My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew. Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came.
Thanks for sharing this. Aw Ren 😥❤️ ...I'm sure Joe is smiling at how successful his friend is, and how big hearted and beautiful souled he is. Sending wishes for peace and comfort to those who have lost someone, and also to those contemplating taking this route. You ARE loved, and needed more than you know, and you are wanted here, not gone.
I can't help but wonder every time I read this? I wonder if when they were searching that's when Ren got bitten by a tick? I don't know if they are even in that area but every time ..I wonder.
RUclips had their "policies" regarding words that you can't say. Suicide was one of the biggest. It took Ren to break that policy and say the "banned word" and even name his song with that word. He's taking the stigma out of something that should NEVER be banned or ignored. Thank you Ren...Thank you Ray 💜
Posted by Ren Ren: Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write. Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday. I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again. This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary. Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe. Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then. On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left. Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late. Joe’s body was never found. Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe. As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since. My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew. Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came. This will be my next release. You can turn on notifications by following the link in the comments below During this campaign I will be raising money for the RNLI, the group of brave men and women who spent hours tirelessly looking for Joe after the night he went missing. I'll also be donating 50% of the profit on all copies of the 'Freckled Angels' album directly to Joes family as a nice surprise gift. I will include links to the RNLI donation page below where 100% of the money will go to support them, I will be travelling to the UK later this month to make a music video, and have carved out a couple of days where I will travel to my home town on the isle of Anglesey to present the royal national lifeboat institution with a cheque of all the money raised. 1 Reply
Apparently on the last monolog he could only make it a couple lines at a time - you can hear the cuts but after "fragility" he said f it just let the rest roll
thank you for your wise words, and reacting to this, you sir have a beautiful soul, and thank you for supporting my favourite artist ever Ren is starting a movement of love, sending big love to you and your family from the UK ❤❤❤
Ren made the internet cry the day he released this tune. Thanks for a wonderful reaction Ray, I was waiting to see what you thought about it. It's haunting and so heartbreaking. He speaks for so many people in this song. look after yourself! 😊😊
They change from skulls to faces to fists! Amazing video Fans sent Ren paintings and drawings of him and they fed it into AI this is the result.The first part was made much earlier it is about himself,the 2nd part is about Joe, Ren said he would never do it after the pain and sorrow left behind after Joe. this needs to be spoken of, we are losing so many this way especially young men.
Beautiful words ray, sorry to hear you been through these situations as well, what Ren has done with this song is to get everyone who has heard it TALKING about it, RUclips can flag it and try and censor it, and try push it under the carpet...how wrong that is, and like you said male S words are at the highest levels we ever faced and that's because we try and hide it instead of talking to each other. Ren has a beautiful soul, he has been through so much in his life but still wanted to push this message out about his own struggles and to remember his friend Joe. This song will save lives!!
You talk about regrets with your friend. Please take that off your shoulders. As ren says, "we're all human beings." We're not perfect, and we can't hold ourselves responsible for what we don't know, and for the actions of other people. We need to give ourselves grace, too! Glad to see you back. Take care of yourself and your family. Everything else will take into place ❤️
Yes this song addresses su1cide and how much it happens, but i am so grateful to Ren for putting to words the torrent of emotions of guilt anger pain when someone you love ends their time and you feel you failed them. As you get older it happens more and more....i lost my ex fiance/close friend who was bipolar and i did everything i could from thailand while he was in uk having a severe down episode...speaking hours on skype even sending him tickets to come to stay with me, even had a friend drive to see him and tell him he is ok - will be ok....graeme still left us the next morning. i have never recovered. 11 years now. i havent been able to have a relationship since, my heart is too broken. :( thank you Ren for putting words to the scrambled brain you have when someone you love leaves. he hung himself so a lot of what ren sings makes me weep...his father was so angry he had him cremated and scattered with no grave so there is nowhere i can go to sit with him, i feel this song. love to gra and joe.....rest in peace and feel our love xxx
I just want to say thank you. I love how you always playing in your reactions, but you gave this the seriousness this topic deserves. I appreciated you sharing what you've went through with your friend who you lost also. Sending love ❤️
I warmed up with Hi Ren and Jenny and Screech Heavy. How he can talk about taboo and everybody talks about his genius and talent. This is new LoVe ya Ren
I can see Ren is the first thing that gives you, my man, some peace of mind. You have such a powerfull mind and such a empathetic soul, like I, you needed this since forever. ❤
So glad to see you doing better Ray.. we missed and love you too..♥️ the first section of the song was about Ren himself.. I think he was angry at Joe a bit as Joe’s death kept him from acting out his own suicidal thoughts because he saw how much it hurt the people left behind.. so in a way Joe was his freckled guardian Angel..the second part written recently was him finally getting the only closure he could get by putting his emotions and loss out there for others to see and talk about and maybe realize the collateral damage it takes.. I relate personally on both sides of the song.. if people would have hindsight many more could be saved.. but alas we are only humans and most times are unable to truly help by doing anything other than be there for each other.. beautiful reaction Ray.. I really feel you try your best to get where Ren comes from as he is our perfectly imperfect angel here on Earth trying to make a difference.. ♥️🎶♥️
I've watched loads of reactions to this and only just realised about the metaphor of resisting the urge to pop the blister. That tension building up inside and constantly having to resist doing anything about it even though it would feel good. 😢
Honestly you are such a genuine, caring, humble person out there. Loved your reaction my friend, sending hugs from across the pond ❤ keep up your awsome content
Welcome back! This was a really well done react, tasteful, respectful, real! The song is hypnotic and given the subject matter really enjoyable and the video is superb. 1st part deals with REN at his lowest feeling like that may be a route to take, the 2nd is remorse over Joe it's unbelievably raw and I think it's important that was left as it was and not simply performed. This song is important and I hope so much that the powers that be at youtube don't remove it.
My fav rock band, Citizen Soldier, has a line in their song ‘Burden’ that I was reminded of as you were talking… “I’d rather hear your hell than see your funeral”. Sometimes we need to tell people they’re not a burden… And remind them that we are there to listen. To their dark… To their sad… To the ugly… All of it.
Thank you so much for being another real human that will show his emotions to help others understand that its ok and never something to be ashamed of.... Ren has opened up a safe space for so many of us to identify with his lyrics and experience....in doing so we now have a community thst is no longer so afraid to ve vulnerable and that IS SO POWERFUL.... thank you for joining that community so authentically
What is amazing is how vulnerable Ren was at when he wrote this and created this video plus currently releasing to it all of us. 2nd is Ren’s loss of his childhood when he lost his innocence and feeling of immortality. He reminds me of the Maestro Tuomas Holopainen who composed most of Nightwish songs, poetry in his lyrics, and music. One theme Tuomas has is Dead Boy meaning a loss of childhood. Ren previous work seems to add meaning and us understand this video. For example, changing face of Ren walking through the cityscape suggests “eternal dancing” between darkness and light in one’s thoughts. Finally, while emphasizing the pain Ren’s friend Joe was going through also showing how hurt he was by the choice his friend Joe made along with the guilt of just possibly missing getting to Joe in time to save him or even to say goodbye plus Joe’s body was never found for closure. I am sure Ren has forgiven himself logically and intellectually but it is very much harder emotionally. In other words, the choices one makes affects more than oneself. As Aurora has sung ‘Let the River Run’.
Good talk, Uncle Ray. Touching. I'm a 3 time survivor of self deletion. Talk to someone... anyone. Someone out there loves you, someone out there depends on you. You are wanted, you are needed, you are loved. Talk to someone.
As men there used to be a lot of avenues to release frustrations, emotion, or whatever but there isnt as many anymore. So that stereotype of men holding in our feelings does need to stop bc its eating us alive. There were outlets to release anger and regret but not today...today everything is a problem it seems so music is a great way to release. Ren doesn't miss and Ray, im glad you're on the road to feeling better.
From your reaction I can tell that you want to cry just let it go let it go and your heart will rest good tonight don't get me wrong there's times where that energy the bad energy comes to me and I said all night Crying by myself there's nothing wrong with crying if you want to cry let it out
The last song that I heard that touched me so deeply and made me bawl like a baby was "How Could You Leave Us". Both songs have that talking/crying part. If you don't feel the emotion in this song then you're dead inside. Great reaction, Ray! Much love❣️✌️
Mr Vibe…you are quickly taking your rightful place on the top tier. You are fun but you are serious and deep. You find it. Share it. And I believe you. The word Fire is overused perhaps…except when you use it. And your silence…is deafening. You are so human. Thank you.
I think what makes this harder for Ren is that 2 weeks before Joe died he tried to check himself into a mental health facility and was turned away because he didn't have an appointment. Ren already has issues with the mental health system and that would've been one more reason for him to rail against the system. Ren said when he got the call from another friend that Joe was on the bridge Ren lived about 10 minutes away but he knew he could run it in 5 minutes. He kept calling as he ran and about 1/2 way the message went from busy to not in service. Ren was the first to get to the bridge. No one was there.
I have seen the original video and a few reactions, I was kind waiting to see your reaction to it. I think your reaction was the more balanced that I saw. You were able to don't forget that is reaction to a music but talk about the emotional part and your experiences related to it. Thank you;
Tio Ray! So happy to see that mug of yours. I just wanted to mention that I also took it as a double meaning when he said that "he's six feet under and he can't stay down because his body purges." Yeah first I just assumed he was talking about keeping food down. Then I thought, maybe he keeps trying die but he can't? ) he's buried underground six feet under and the Earth spits his body back up cuz his body purges.
"Six feet deep, I can't eat, I'm nervous, Won't stay down 'cause my body purges". A few potential double entendres : "Six feet deep" often means dead/buried but might also refer to his height - using deep instead of tall for the double meaning. "Won't stay down" could mean his buried body won't stay down, or that his food won't stay down (which is why he can't eat, he's nervous) because his body "purges" i.e. that it rejects the food - this reflects his auto-immunity and inability to cope with almost all foods. Purge can also mean to purify. Possible word play with the movie/TV series The Purge (not sure about that one)
I don't care who you are, when Ren brings it home at the end verse. If you don't hurt listening to it, there's something wrong. It cuts like a knife to the soul every time i hear this song. Respect for letting it play. Looking into your own abyss and seeing that tranquility is only a single movement away is hard when your mind is torturing you daily and you feel trapped by your own thoughts, feelings, circumstances. Meds make it worse, they might soften the worst thoughts but the price you pay is that it dulls the pleasure too. You live in a state of mental limbo. It's why i seek out reactions to things like this --- if i can feel something then at least i know i'm still partly here.... that somewhere in the noise, chaos and fog there's a shred of "me" left somewhere trying to find his way out of the forest of endless dark paths. Ren is a gift to us all and it hurts knowing he has to suffer so for his art. He doesn't' deserve the hand fate dealt him
Welcome back. Loved hearing you commit to your health. I'll take what precious few reactions you do, you've long since earned all your subs and then some. Much love.
When I listen to the ending and hear ren talking about the tranquility I can't help but to be amazed at rens strength in that moment. The fact that suicide was running through his mind due to his medical condition it must have taken every ounce of strength not to jump the way his best friend did.
10:03 - Woke is an adjective derived from African-American Vernacular English (AAVE) meaning "alert to racial prejudice and discrimination" and has broadened from there. Don't hate the word, be entertained by the people who use it as slur without realizing what it says about themselves.
The first half is actually about himself and places he has been. It was written awhile back and had been produced and ready for release. In his interview with Knox he discussed Joe for the first time in a long time. He always felt this song was incomplete so sat down at his piano and added the second half. Just a couple weeks before release. He said he struggled for years to find the perfect words and decided to forgo his insistence on perfection and just sat down and let it flow with his piano. Completly Raw. And still perfect.
❤ I truly appreciate your honesty and wise words here 💯 I love to see men push back against that ridiculous notion that men should keep everything inside. You're right it's BS, and I think it's a message that needs to be heard 👏 Good to see you back! In NZ 🇳🇿 we say Kia Kaha - Stay strong ❤
In an interview you probably saw where he talked about going to see Joes parents with the final version of this and was real nervous to play for them and hadn’t seen them in a long time they said they sat around together and listened and cried, and it was therapeutic for them all. He’s a beautiful soul as well as a surreal talent, I’ve lost 3 friends this way And it never gets easier.
That song saved my life when I first heard it and continues to do so. Its not about me it's about the lasting devastation a choice could be the legacy. I'm doing good now I have to say. But this is needed
Thank you for your reaction and speaking from your heart. I lost my sister. This song hit hard. The ending got me to think in a differently and allowed me to stop being angry with her choice to leave this world.. I appreciate your insight on all Rens music..
When you said that we have to talk about this, just remind me of CNN's hit piece,and Ren talking about this very subject. Do you remember his response? It was not about suicide, but helping others with this. He then made comments about how it is our (his) responsibility to bring healthy conversations forward. You good sir, did just that. Thanks.
Dear God I just want to say this from the bottom of my heart prayers to everybody who has lost a family member I will be praying for all those people protect the innocent defend them thank you so much for sharing that moment with us really means a lot thank you so much for also making my day when I'm having a bad day at work with your reaction videos thank you for the bottom of my heart really appreciate it be safe have a blessed day and thank you once again I just want to be honest with you but me listening to Eminem I was going through some dark time as a teenager I guess what I'm trying to say is that I felt like I was surrounded by Darkness but it was one song it's my favorite song but it hits close to my heart don't get me wrong I love Eminem but one song in specific. To my heart and that was the way I am that song hits close to my heart have a blessed day and stay safe and I will be praying for your family and everybody else in the world
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“There’s a stigma out there that men are supposed to be these tough dudes who can’t open up, who can’t talk about what they’re feelin because that makes you less of a man. We need to cut that shit off now because that’s absolute bullshit”… Amen brother. I’d much rather one of my closest friends cry on my shoulder and ask for help than for me to end up carrying his casket because he felt like he couldn’t. Needs to become normalized.
I only have a few friends, but I've started practicing this in my life with great results. I've decided I will never again assume my friends will think less of me for opening up, and I've guaranteed them that I will never think less of them for the same thing. I've opened up to a couple of my bros about some things, even crying at a couple points over some things I'm going through. Mental illness, the desire to delete myself, etc. Not only were they there for me, I immediately felt more bonded to my friends and like we 'became family' almost. If you are another guy and you're willing to sit there and support me in my hardest time when I'm being a bit of a crybaby, and not judge me, and actually give me advice, and all that jazz... you're my brother. Period, facts, end of story.
Absolutely thats why music like this is very important to be shared , people need to know we are not alone
Well fuqin said. As someone who lost his younger cousin and a best friend to suicide, you would rather hear all the complaining, all the drama...ANYTHING other than church music and crying when they aren't there anymore.
Amen …I know more men that have un alived themself than Woman. Please speak out 💕
That was so perfectly put. It should be made into a Meme and shared everywhere men hang out
I’ve watched a ton of reactions to this track over the past week. THIS is the one I’ve been looking forward to the most.
Did not disappoint. Appreciate you Ray
same
100% agree ❤
Same
1000% agree!!!
How do you make 750 000 people cry?
Ren: hold my beer.
Good to see you back ... blessings and hugs free to anybody who needs it.
Except he’s sober. 😊 maybe hold my b-12 shots. 😅
@@craigwilliams6963 lol ren isn't 'sober'
Somewhere on the comments page of the Suicide video Ren wrote this but it wasn’t pinned so it can get lost in the comments. This is beautiful and relevant to the song and everyone should read it.
Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write.
Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday.
I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again.
This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary.
Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe.
Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then.
On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left.
Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late.
Joe’s body was never found.
Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe.
As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since.
My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew.
Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came.
Thanks for sharing this. Aw Ren 😥❤️ ...I'm sure Joe is smiling at how successful his friend is, and how big hearted and beautiful souled he is. Sending wishes for peace and comfort to those who have lost someone, and also to those contemplating taking this route. You ARE loved, and needed more than you know, and you are wanted here, not gone.
Thanks
I can't help but wonder every time I read this? I wonder if when they were searching that's when Ren got bitten by a tick? I don't know if they are even in that area but every time ..I wonder.
Beautiful bro love ya
Ty for your words, your reaction, your ❤ and support for your listeners and REN.
Thank you too for stopping by🙏🏽
RUclips had their "policies" regarding words that you can't say. Suicide was one of the biggest. It took Ren to break that policy and say the "banned word" and even name his song with that word. He's taking the stigma out of something that should NEVER be banned or ignored. Thank you Ren...Thank you Ray 💜
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Ren:
Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write.
Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday.
I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again.
This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary.
Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe.
Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then.
On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left.
Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late.
Joe’s body was never found.
Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe.
As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since.
My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew.
Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came. This will be my next release. You can turn on notifications by following the link in the comments below
During this campaign I will be raising money for the RNLI, the group of brave men and women who spent hours tirelessly looking for Joe after the night he went missing. I'll also be donating 50% of the profit on all copies of the 'Freckled Angels' album directly to Joes family as a nice surprise gift. I will include links to the RNLI donation page below where 100% of the money will go to support them, I will be travelling to the UK later this month to make a music video, and have carved out a couple of days where I will travel to my home town on the isle of Anglesey to present the royal national lifeboat institution with a cheque of all the money raised.
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I’m pretty sure that you are the only reactor that understood the “useless my mother “ line.
We all know for sure that Joe is up there, VERY proud of Ren.
Apparently on the last monolog he could only make it a couple lines at a time - you can hear the cuts but after "fragility" he said f it just let the rest roll
thank you for your wise words, and reacting to this, you sir have a beautiful soul, and thank you for supporting my favourite artist ever Ren is starting a movement of love, sending big love to you and your family from the UK ❤❤❤
I appreciate that, thank u for the love
Loved your reaction brother. We’re all human being on this rock and it’s about time we all start acting like it.
Been waiting for your reaction…woke from a dead sleep, went and checked and boom there it was. You’re always on point with your words.
What a song to jump back into Ren with. Gut-wrenching. Good to see you up and around, Ray! Take care of yourself, bro.
Thank you for handling this song with such respect always love your reactions this one's no different❤
One of the best reactions to this I've seen, thank you for being so open and empathetic. It's what the world needs more of. Respect.
Wow, thank you🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Ren made the internet cry the day he released this tune. Thanks for a wonderful reaction Ray, I was waiting to see what you thought about it. It's haunting and so heartbreaking. He speaks for so many people in this song. look after yourself! 😊😊
They change from skulls to faces to fists! Amazing video Fans sent Ren paintings and drawings of him and they fed it into AI this is the result.The first part was made much earlier it is about himself,the 2nd part is about Joe, Ren said he would never do it after the pain and sorrow left behind after Joe. this needs to be spoken of, we are losing so many this way especially young men.
He speaks about this with Knox Hill or Rosalie and how the song was finished and then he wanted to dedicate it to Joe.
Great commentary Ray. Glad you feeling better. Great track. Great video😎😎👍👍
Beautiful words ray, sorry to hear you been through these situations as well, what Ren has done with this song is to get everyone who has heard it TALKING about it, RUclips can flag it and try and censor it, and try push it under the carpet...how wrong that is, and like you said male S words are at the highest levels we ever faced and that's because we try and hide it instead of talking to each other. Ren has a beautiful soul, he has been through so much in his life but still wanted to push this message out about his own struggles and to remember his friend Joe. This song will save lives!!
every time I listen to this song I cry every time ❤
You talk about regrets with your friend. Please take that off your shoulders. As ren says, "we're all human beings." We're not perfect, and we can't hold ourselves responsible for what we don't know, and for the actions of other people. We need to give ourselves grace, too!
Glad to see you back. Take care of yourself and your family. Everything else will take into place ❤️
Yes this song addresses su1cide and how much it happens, but i am so grateful to Ren for putting to words the torrent of emotions of guilt anger pain when someone you love ends their time and you feel you failed them. As you get older it happens more and more....i lost my ex fiance/close friend who was bipolar and i did everything i could from thailand while he was in uk having a severe down episode...speaking hours on skype even sending him tickets to come to stay with me, even had a friend drive to see him and tell him he is ok - will be ok....graeme still left us the next morning. i have never recovered. 11 years now. i havent been able to have a relationship since, my heart is too broken. :( thank you Ren for putting words to the scrambled brain you have when someone you love leaves. he hung himself so a lot of what ren sings makes me weep...his father was so angry he had him cremated and scattered with no grave so there is nowhere i can go to sit with him, i feel this song. love to gra and joe.....rest in peace and feel our love xxx
I just want to say thank you. I love how you always playing in your reactions, but you gave this the seriousness this topic deserves. I appreciated you sharing what you've went through with your friend who you lost also. Sending love ❤️
I appreciate that thank u for listing
I warmed up with Hi Ren and Jenny and Screech Heavy. How he can talk about taboo and everybody talks about his genius and talent. This is new LoVe ya Ren
He highlights both sides of the story and the pain that comes through of the one left behind hopefully will give pause for thought.
I can see Ren is the first thing that gives you, my man, some peace of mind. You have such a powerfull mind and such a empathetic soul, like I, you needed this since forever. ❤
No matter what sex, gender, age or race, we are all human and deserve to be respected and heard. Sending love to you all ❤
Ren is awake; woke is past tense.
So glad to see you doing better Ray.. we missed and love you too..♥️ the first section of the song was about Ren himself.. I think he was angry at Joe a bit as Joe’s death kept him from acting out his own suicidal thoughts because he saw how much it hurt the people left behind.. so in a way Joe was his freckled guardian Angel..the second part written recently was him finally getting the only closure he could get by putting his emotions and loss out there for others to see and talk about and maybe realize the collateral damage it takes.. I relate personally on both sides of the song.. if people would have hindsight many more could be saved.. but alas we are only humans and most times are unable to truly help by doing anything other than be there for each other.. beautiful reaction Ray.. I really feel you try your best to get where Ren comes from as he is our perfectly imperfect angel here on Earth trying to make a difference.. ♥️🎶♥️
I have no words.Just total sadness 😢😢
sending healing vibes & lots of love to you during your time of healing!
Matthew Walker has the best advice on sleep, he has book’s and a podcast on it.
I've watched loads of reactions to this and only just realised about the metaphor of resisting the urge to pop the blister. That tension building up inside and constantly having to resist doing anything about it even though it would feel good. 😢
Honestly you are such a genuine, caring, humble person out there. Loved your reaction my friend, sending hugs from across the pond ❤ keep up your awsome content
Thank you so much 🙏🏽🙏🏽
It’s a serious song. And also a serious reaction. God bless you brother
Welcome back!
This was a really well done react, tasteful, respectful, real!
The song is hypnotic and given the subject matter really enjoyable and the video is superb. 1st part deals with REN at his lowest feeling like that may be a route to take, the 2nd is remorse over Joe it's unbelievably raw and I think it's important that was left as it was and not simply performed.
This song is important and I hope so much that the powers that be at youtube don't remove it.
My fav rock band, Citizen Soldier, has a line in their song ‘Burden’ that I was reminded of as you were talking…
“I’d rather hear your hell than see your funeral”.
Sometimes we need to tell people they’re not a burden… And remind them that we are there to listen. To their dark… To their sad… To the ugly… All of it.
Thank you for reaching out to everyone, the most beautiful reaction to the song
Thank you so much for being another real human that will show his emotions to help others understand that its ok and never something to be ashamed of.... Ren has opened up a safe space for so many of us to identify with his lyrics and experience....in doing so we now have a community thst is no longer so afraid to ve vulnerable and that IS SO POWERFUL....
thank you for joining that community so authentically
Love You ❤❤❤ Thank You so much for your words! Sooo important! The 'strong man' stigma I believe is a cause of so much suffering in this world.
Excellent commentary
Hi Ray I don't leave comments usually ..but
I feel you so much, I feel Ren , I can't stop crying , the way you explain everything..thankyou
What is amazing is how vulnerable Ren was at when he wrote this and created this video plus currently releasing to it all of us.
2nd is Ren’s loss of his childhood when he lost his innocence and feeling of immortality. He reminds me of the Maestro Tuomas Holopainen who composed most of Nightwish songs, poetry in his lyrics, and music. One theme Tuomas has is Dead Boy meaning a loss of childhood.
Ren previous work seems to add meaning and us understand this video. For example, changing face of Ren walking through the cityscape suggests “eternal dancing” between darkness and light in one’s thoughts.
Finally, while emphasizing the pain Ren’s friend Joe was going through also showing how hurt he was by the choice his friend Joe made along with the guilt of just possibly missing getting to Joe in time to save him or even to say goodbye plus Joe’s body was never found for closure. I am sure Ren has forgiven himself logically and intellectually but it is very much harder emotionally. In other words, the choices one makes affects more than oneself.
As Aurora has sung ‘Let the River Run’.
Good talk, Uncle Ray. Touching. I'm a 3 time survivor of self deletion. Talk to someone... anyone. Someone out there loves you, someone out there depends on you. You are wanted, you are needed, you are loved. Talk to someone.
Rens song with Chinchilla How To Be Me is also about Joe .
I am so grateful for your reaction to this piece. You really do this with an open heart. Glad you are back -Thank you. ❤
As men there used to be a lot of avenues to release frustrations, emotion, or whatever but there isnt as many anymore. So that stereotype of men holding in our feelings does need to stop bc its eating us alive. There were outlets to release anger and regret but not today...today everything is a problem it seems so music is a great way to release. Ren doesn't miss and Ray, im glad you're on the road to feeling better.
I knew you would do this important conversation justice, Ray. ❤
I hope you're feeling better and continuing to rest.
From your reaction I can tell that you want to cry just let it go let it go and your heart will rest good tonight don't get me wrong there's times where that energy the bad energy comes to me and I said all night Crying by myself there's nothing wrong with crying if you want to cry let it out
The last song that I heard that touched me so deeply and made me bawl like a baby was "How Could You Leave Us". Both songs have that talking/crying part. If you don't feel the emotion in this song then you're dead inside. Great reaction, Ray!
Much love❣️✌️
Mr Vibe…you are quickly taking your rightful place on the top tier.
You are fun but you are serious and deep.
You find it. Share it. And I believe you.
The word Fire is overused perhaps…except when you use it.
And your silence…is deafening. You are so human.
Thank you.
I respect your reactions quite a lot and your sentiment and words on this one were heartfelt
By the way best wishes to you and your health too man😊
Such a moving reaction, so sorry for your loss Ray. Wishing you and your family love ❤
I think what makes this harder for Ren is that 2 weeks before Joe died he tried to check himself into a mental health facility and was turned away because he didn't have an appointment. Ren already has issues with the mental health system and that would've been one more reason for him to rail against the system. Ren said when he got the call from another friend that Joe was on the bridge Ren lived about 10 minutes away but he knew he could run it in 5 minutes. He kept calling as he ran and about 1/2 way the message went from busy to not in service. Ren was the first to get to the bridge. No one was there.
HE'S BACK!!!I was s so happy to see your face on my feed!! Perfect reaction to come back to!! LET'S GOOOOO
I appreciate you, 🙏🏽 💛
Ren leaves me speechless 🔥🕊🔥
Good to see you back and feeling better.
No words to describe just amazing
Total respect, man. Much aroha atu, aroha mai from New Zealand.
Yay he's back, hope you are fighting fit 🎉
❤️✊🏻 Great reaction. Great advice. Telling someone how you're feeling can be the first step to survival. ❤️
So true!
I have seen the original video and a few reactions, I was kind waiting to see your reaction to it. I think your reaction was the more balanced that I saw. You were able to don't forget that is reaction to a music but talk about the emotional part and your experiences related to it. Thank you;
I've been waiting for u to watch this one..
Tio Ray! So happy to see that mug of yours. I just wanted to mention that I also took it as a double meaning when he said that "he's six feet under and he can't stay down because his body purges." Yeah first I just assumed he was talking about keeping food down. Then I thought, maybe he keeps trying die but he can't? ) he's buried underground six feet under and the Earth spits his body back up cuz his body purges.
"Six feet deep, I can't eat, I'm nervous, Won't stay down 'cause my body purges". A few potential double entendres : "Six feet deep" often means dead/buried but might also refer to his height - using deep instead of tall for the double meaning. "Won't stay down" could mean his buried body won't stay down, or that his food won't stay down (which is why he can't eat, he's nervous) because his body "purges" i.e. that it rejects the food - this reflects his auto-immunity and inability to cope with almost all foods. Purge can also mean to purify. Possible word play with the movie/TV series The Purge (not sure about that one)
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Hard subject. Hard song. I was waiting for your reaction Ray. You always get it! Thank you! Much love from the UK.
I don't care who you are, when Ren brings it home at the end verse. If you don't hurt listening to it, there's something wrong. It cuts like a knife to the soul every time i hear this song. Respect for letting it play.
Looking into your own abyss and seeing that tranquility is only a single movement away is hard when your mind is torturing you daily and you feel trapped by your own thoughts, feelings, circumstances. Meds make it worse, they might soften the worst thoughts but the price you pay is that it dulls the pleasure too. You live in a state of mental limbo. It's why i seek out reactions to things like this --- if i can feel something then at least i know i'm still partly here.... that somewhere in the noise, chaos and fog there's a shred of "me" left somewhere trying to find his way out of the forest of endless dark paths.
Ren is a gift to us all and it hurts knowing he has to suffer so for his art. He doesn't' deserve the hand fate dealt him
I was really looking forward for YOUR reaction to this song… didn’t disapoint, much love Ray, hope you’re feeling better ❤
You are so sweet to reach out to people. Glad you are better. 😊
Welcome back. Loved hearing you commit to your health. I'll take what precious few reactions you do, you've long since earned all your subs and then some. Much love.
Still cry... Then he did his tribute to Joe in his live video, "For Joe"...
"Killing Me Softly With His Song"...
When I listen to the ending and hear ren talking about the tranquility I can't help but to be amazed at rens strength in that moment. The fact that suicide was running through his mind due to his medical condition it must have taken every ounce of strength not to jump the way his best friend did.
Please tell Mrs Vibe, kudos to her for never giving up on you. You're an awesome person. Glad you're recovering well
Great reaction, as always Ray, big hugs 🤗😘🇬🇧
Thanks so much
10:03 - Woke is an adjective derived from African-American Vernacular English (AAVE) meaning "alert to racial prejudice and discrimination" and has broadened from there. Don't hate the word, be entertained by the people who use it as slur without realizing what it says about themselves.
Thank you for how you opened this reaction, it was really needed.
The first half is actually about himself and places he has been. It was written awhile back and had been produced and ready for release. In his interview with Knox he discussed Joe for the first time in a long time. He always felt this song was incomplete so sat down at his piano and added the second half. Just a couple weeks before release. He said he struggled for years to find the perfect words and decided to forgo his insistence on perfection and just sat down and let it flow with his piano. Completly Raw. And still perfect.
Glad you're back, Ray. Take care of you, man. I really appreciate your thoughtful reaction to this intense piece of art.
I appreciate that
This one is deep ,hard and beautiful!! Great reaction bro,thank you so much!!!
I appreciate it
❤ I truly appreciate your honesty and wise words here 💯 I love to see men push back against that ridiculous notion that men should keep everything inside. You're right it's BS, and I think it's a message that needs to be heard 👏 Good to see you back! In NZ 🇳🇿 we say Kia Kaha - Stay strong ❤
In an interview you probably saw where he talked about going to see Joes parents with the final version of this and was real nervous to play for them and hadn’t seen them in a long time they said they sat around together and listened and cried, and it was therapeutic for them all. He’s a beautiful soul as well as a surreal talent, I’ve lost 3 friends this way And it never gets easier.
Wow lovely dude! Love your respect in this one ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much 😀
@@vibereacts05 thanQ!! i love watching you and your brother on the left 😬 love from the netherlands🌷
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This is the reaction this song deserves. Thank you ❤️
That song saved my life when I first heard it and continues to do so. Its not about me it's about the lasting devastation a choice could be the legacy. I'm doing good now I have to say. But this is needed
Thank you for your reaction and speaking from your heart. I lost my sister. This song hit hard. The ending got me to think in a differently and allowed me to stop being angry with her choice to leave this world.. I appreciate your insight on all Rens music..
Only a min into this but im pretty sure skin and blister is rhyming slang for sister. Which just makes that flow even better
Loved your reaction to this amazing song! Sending hugs and love ❤️
Check out Ren - I Was Born -will make you laugh, the way you break things down...😂🔥🔥
Thank you for your reaction and heart felt words,peace and love to you
When you said that we have to talk about this, just remind me of CNN's hit piece,and Ren talking about this very subject.
Do you remember his response? It was not about suicide, but helping others with this. He then made comments about how it is our (his) responsibility to bring healthy conversations forward.
You good sir, did just that. Thanks.
Thanks for fighting Ray. The world needs you, and those of us that follow you support you and want your reactions and perspectives.
Hope you're feeling better!! This song is so raw and so important!
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Dear God I just want to say this from the bottom of my heart prayers to everybody who has lost a family member I will be praying for all those people protect the innocent defend them thank you so much for sharing that moment with us really means a lot thank you so much for also making my day when I'm having a bad day at work with your reaction videos thank you for the bottom of my heart really appreciate it be safe have a blessed day and thank you once again I just want to be honest with you but me listening to Eminem I was going through some dark time as a teenager I guess what I'm trying to say is that I felt like I was surrounded by Darkness but it was one song it's my favorite song but it hits close to my heart don't get me wrong I love Eminem but one song in specific. To my heart and that was the way I am that song hits close to my heart have a blessed day and stay safe and I will be praying for your family and everybody else in the world
I love you too, brotha.
Look after yourself brother.. Best wishes from Belfast
Thank you, I will