Please I’m suffering from Dp/Dr do you have the manual? Please help me with the manual I’m here in Nigeria 🇳🇬 I don’t have money to get the manual it’s so expensive to my country currency 😢😢😢😢
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Hello girl! Sometimes i feel like i’m getting better because i don’t have others symtoms like somatic symtoms , panic attack etc . Know i just have dp/dr and i feel bad because i can’t feel joy like before and i can’t feel love for my family and my boyfriend . Does this thing get better overtime by itself right , should we just be patient because it’s not something specific that we can do . Feeling like a robot i think is the worst thing that can ever happened to us
I agree with the vision issue. You kinda see everything but it's like you are disconnected from your vision, very far away. I felt the same when I was drunk but obviously it didn't last for years.
Visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
Omg! This was exactly me 13 years ago 😢 the suicidal ideation was horrific. I developed DPDR after contracting swine flu and physical burn out. These symptoms are EXACTLY what I was experiencing. I remember trying to tell my doctor that my eyes felt like they'd retracted back into my head and were somehow 'stuck'. I'm currently experiencing another episode of DPDR after a bout of labyrinthitis and by God, I'm grateful I've found Shaun this time ❤
Thanks for your comment Carly and I'm very glad the channel has been helpful 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop ❤ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
I’m genuinely crying as I write this because this is the first time someone’s dpdr journey began in the same way mine did. Mine started after taking medication that I had an adverse reaction to and this video has finally made me feel seen! No one ever understands how just one dose of medication could cause this - I feel so much hope now. Thank you a thousand times over.
Dpdr is real, and it's scary. I've been going through episodes of it since I was 19. It would come and go. This last time was the worst. I literally had no idea how to explain it to people or put it into words. I found Sean by accident while going down a rabbit hole. He put everything that was going on with me into words and made sense of it all. I instantly got his dpdr manual, and it was an absolute life changer. I still struggle with anxiety, but with the dpdr part, I mostly got it under control. If you read this, just know that you are not alone out there, and you can and will get through it.
Please I’m suffering from Dp/Dr do you have the manual? Please help me with the manual I’m here in Nigeria 🇳🇬 I don’t have money to get the manual it’s so expensive to my country currency 😢😢😢😢
I am going through the same sometimes it feels like it's gone and the next moment it comes again. I totally lost my personality and it is badly affecting my life
Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
This is the most intriguing life story I can relate to. Everything she explined is on point. I was kinda lucky to recover alone by myself with no one around me.😔🌞
I had the exact reaction to a flu shot my DPDR lasted over 6 months it was the scariest time of my life I thought i had a stroke or was developing an SMI there was no internet so I went to so many drs convinced drs convinced I was dying - i also researched so much in the library if became obsessional I had to leave college for a month and go home as I was a wreck went to more drs thst said you have anxiety disorder this a script I recovered once I went in Xanax temporarily I knew when you said the migraine and injection you were referring ti raglan my son had to get that in the hospital for severe migraine and it made him act off rains anxiety impending doom and he jumped up and started ripping ivs out and running around room im so glad you found your relief and recovery once is a while when have high a stress I can feel a scent of it coming but I’m able to distract and talk myself back into reality Btw reglan is not an anti psychotic it’s an anti emetic an anti nausea drug but it does block dopamine like the antipsychotic would Vistaril is an antihistamine so if you ever feel threads coming perhaps have a standing script for it it’s harmless short term
I’ve been dealing with anxiety my whole life, but didn’t get stricken with DPDR until I had a panic attack in 2010. I’ve been dealing with it 14 years but I’m now finally starting to turn the corner. Thanks to this channel, Shaan Kaasan, and finally seeing a therapist and changing my thought habits. my biggest symptom has been my brain fog, memory, and thinking that I have some sort of dementia (I’m 40 btw). Hearing your story really lets me know I’m not the only one out there dealing with this, and I am now taking daily steps towards recovery. Recovery is not completely linear. You’ll take three steps forward and two steps back, but if you trust the process and continue the sky’s the limit. Thank you for your content and this amazing video!
It’s so hard for me because the anhedonia and emotional numbness feeds back into the anxiety. I can’t enjoy my interests, and then the question of “why can’t I enjoy this? Why did I like this before? Where’s my emotional connection to this thing? Did I like this? What things did I like and dislike? Why can’t I feel empathy like usual?” I start looking at everything objectively because I can’t “feel” any connection, and the disconnect gets worse. Things involving complex concepts like human behavior, violence, and death, and not being able to remember or compartmentalize how I felt about those things in different situations. It makes me feel alien or robotic or like I’m emotionally cold (which scares me a lot, and the thought of having to accept that sensation scares me as well). Not only can I not feel joy, attachment to my interests, but worry and concern as well. Concern about money, my loved ones, my job, politics, my physical health, etc. I also used to appreciate and get attached to characters in stories, and really feel those emotions. I want that back. I want that all back. I want to have normal problems again, I want to feel again. Happy, sad, angry, scared, loving, curious, smart, confident, nervous, and anxious, but about real life stuff. I want to be able to create stories in my head again and use them to create things or simply daydream. I want to think about my interests and use them for inspiration. I don’t want to change. I don’t want to feel different. I don’t want to forget who I am or what I like or who I want to be. I want to feel like myself again. I don’t want to feel like I’m flashing around at random points in my life, I just want to remember those times normally. It’s only been 4 weeks of this hell, and it feels like my life has completely changed. I’m trying my best. I’m in therapy. I’m trying to stay grounded, doing the various techniques, counting, square breathing, 5-4-3-2-1, remembering names, tactile things like ice, doing the muscle stretches, trying to mentally pivot when I spiral, but it’s hard. I’m trying to accept that this feeling is just for now, and that it’ll pass, that I’ll get back to normal. I’m on an SSRI for my anxiety. But it’s so hard. Radical acceptance is extremely hard. Feeling detached from everyone and everything is so hard. Trying to distract myself is torturous. I feel like I’m missing out in everything happening around me, even things I’m a direct participant in. I just want to feel normal again. I want to love my favorite things again, to feel genuine hype and excitement for something, to have that same sense of wonder and amazement at the world, to be able to remember what I learned in school at least well enough to go back for my master's degree. I know it takes time, I know it’s not a linear process, I know you don’t just snap back out, I know it doesn’t all come back at once, I know it gets better. I’ve been here before, for 4 whole months, with a few minor episodes after here and there and I got out before. I’ve been out for over 3 years. 3 years of ups and downs, but they were real and I was present, even when depressed. Now I can barely remember those 3 years, those three years since I graduated college, as I grew as a person, had fun with my friends, was able to make jokes, got back into most if not all of my interests and discovered new ones, experienced great things like visiting Niagara Falls with my friends, reconnecting with some friends from high school, participating in a charity event, losing my dog of 14 years, finally getting a job. I was present and grounded for all of these things. All of these events. I felt real emotion. So why? Why put me back here again? In this bizarre state where nothing feels right. I want to feel like me again. I was imperfect, but growing, hopeful, and real. I keep having random flashes of random memories of my past, either of other times I felt dissociated, or had intrusive thoughts, depressed, or even DPDR, or it might just be state specific memory messing with me, like there’s this feeling like I’ve always been like this. But I know I wasn’t. Memories that I merely had no reason to think about or perhaps repressed. Yet the memories I want to remember feel distant like they aren’t mine. Or like the emotions attached to them aren’t real. I know they’re real. So why can’t I just wake up? Why can’t I just feel like myself again? Why does it feel like I’ve changed? That I’m somehow too far gone? I’m not though. I’m still here. I’m still me. No “checking” just living. Doing what I normally do. No expectations. No spiraling. It’s still so hard though. My brain feels all messed up. I don’t like living this way. I want to live just like before. I want that intensity back, that fire, that passion, that little perk up when I hear or see something I know I like, to say HEY I like that thing too. I dont want my interests to fade away. I dont want to lose touch with what I love. I dont want to feel empty anymore.
U used to wake up. And land in the here and now right. Thinking about stuff. U wake up now feeling empty, trying to do stuff but cant or you want to do it it but then there is just nothing. Nothing to think about. I try to think of stuff normal stuff it feels like i can't
dont worry its all temporary everything will start coming back to you slowly just keep your mind off dp and have some fun with friends @@laurencethegrey
I feel you. But trust me you've got nothing to do but to live. Just go, live your life as it is. Part of progress, is to not notice your progress except later on. You don't even realize you've recovered once you actually have, that doesn't happen unless you're fully immersed into things. Go man, live your life. I know it's easier said than done, but I'm sure you can do it!
But in just not sure if i got dpdr wich makes me anxious aswell. Like there is nothing wrong with me but I just feel off i had so much anxiety and panic attacks prior now im just numb. Nothing scares me but i also know i was not like this. There is just no way. Its like my. Body walks and talks. About everything without me thinking about it. I keep trying to remember how i was before all of this. I don't really sure what triggerd it i had grief and stress and anxiety but thats all gone either if its dp or not im just not sure. I kinda relate with dimetredon on many aspects but i dont have the attacks anymore I wish i could talk to someone explain what i went through and how i am now i still can do stuff ofc like this feeling of i wanna do stuff something but i keep being in the same state as it wear its like i react to everything i sort of used tho with emotions but without emotions would love to hear someone talk and say that sounds like dpdr i just have to wait for my therapy tho.
I think I've been blessed with a miracle I only had DP dr for a week and went back to May doctor and got reevaluated and he was very surprised and said I am now 85 percent back to normal in only a week from having this what helped was using nicotine and being distracted and using melatonin he was surprised when I told him I used nicotine but he said this might be one of the quickest recoveries of all time I want to thank this channel for helping through this past week but I will continue staying away from weed for a long long time I hope my blessings can be passed down to yall
Why do my dreams seem very strange and I cannot distinguish whether they really happened to me or just a dream and I remember things that I do not know whether they happened or not@@Dpmanual
Thank you for this it gives us a headsup knowing that this is just a short journey and we just need to be more patient with ourselves. The same thing happens to me, but i am happy that i am recovering alone using whatever method you describe in your youtube video❤ and also the most important thing is to pray and ask God for his guidance because with him nothing is impossible . And i just want to say that people who can afford to pay for the manual are the luckiest🙃
Interesting story. I actually went inpatient too, but i went to a drug rehab facility because i thought i was in drug withdrawal. I stayed 75 days and it helped immensely.
Why do my dreams seem very strange and I cannot distinguish whether they really happened to me or just a dream and I remember things that I do not know whether they happened or not
I am truly very happy for you. I am going through this and these exact symptoms myself and your recovery story is truly inspirational. I remain hopeful that I can share a success story soon.
Don't worry, DPDR is a temporary, harmless condition and you can and will recover, 100% 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
I got dp/ dr after taking edibles , for 7 years I couldn’t find an answer to my problem and one day i saw a video on youtube by this guy called barry mcdonah , he was taking about dp/dr and i was like oh my god this sounds quite similar to my problem and then i bought his book called (DARE) where he explains about dp/dr in more detail. I remember crying out of happiness that finallly finallyyy I found out what was going on with me, before that i was convinced that i had done permanent damage to my brain , then i bought ur book and it really changed everything for me , now im way better than i used to be , i would love have conversations with you and share my story with u and others (:
Thanks for your comment and I'm delighted to hear you're doing so well! And yes I'd love to feature your story on the channel, drop me an email and we can arrange! 😊
@@Dave.mcclinton yess! I love my mom more than anyone and anything in this world , at 1 point i remember looking at her and felt nothing and it scared the shi* out of me , ill tell u how get rid of dp/dr . First of all acknowledge its the symptom high anxiety and stress hormones . Then allow the symptoms to come and go don’t judge they are just symptoms of anxiety respond to them with love and be friends with them . The more u practice it the better u get at it Then once u get rid of the fear , the next step is to slowly break the habit , whenever u become aware of ur dp/dr just acknowledge it (say whatever its just a symptom of anxiety and i have become hyper aware of everything and its ok ) then shift your focus to anything that ur doing , don’t do this get rid of the symptoms! Remember ur friends with dp/dr !you don’t mind if its messing with ur vision or ur emotions just let it do whatever it wants to do , don’t be bothered by it , the key here is to get rid of the fear . And stop giving a fuck about it thats it . If you do this in the right without being afraid of it i assure that after sometime u will look at it laugh at it . FEAR is the biggest illusion my friend try to conquer it
It certainly makes me very sleepy, so I've only ever taken it on days I don't work. No issues otherwise. I rarely take it anymore and I only ever took it sporadically anyway.
Thank you for sharing this interview. I hope it makes people more aware of the dangerous, harmful side effects of Droperidol. While for many people the akathisia goes away in days / weeks, there are those for whom it lasts longer. The akathisia in this narrative is a very interesting / confounding variable. I respectfully wonder whether what Marianne experienced could be diagnosed as "anxiety" or whether this was just the akathisia going away with time as her brain healed / found homeostasis. I think this matters as a point of discussion because I feel very bad and think it is wrong when those experiencing akathisia are told it's just their anxiety.
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi is there a way I can connect with you via email. I just realized I’m in this and your experience seems somewhat similar to mine…
what do i do when i cant figure out the root cause of the anxiety that caused my dpdr? i dont even drink or smoke or anything and my life was pretty alright. i was doing okay it just suddenly happened around the time my exams were about to end. was it because of studies or past heartbreaks (even though i was completely over them and didnt even care anymore)? idk. but it really sucks, the constant anhedonia and loss of sense of self and existential dread and the crippling anxiety about the inevitablity of death SUCKS how do i go back from this i want to feel normal and enjoy life again PLEASE HELP
I was given a shot in the ER as well when i had a really bad panic attack , i never thought that could have triggered the dpdr😮,i jve had dpsr doe 2 years now.The anhedonia has lifted but My vision and memory are still so bad,but we keep living becuase it does get better.
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
This is what im experiencing !!!! Like things feel real and they dont at the same time and my mind is telling me what if im at 100% and now you have ptsd or youve been traumatized and now you look at life differently please someone who has recovered let me know
You don’t have ptsd from it, you forget about it for the most part. I know it’s unbelievable, but distraction really is key, even if you don’t like anything, just force yourself through life. You will come back to a normal life, in my case I would say a better one. I wouldn’t call myself traumatized, although I am afraid of it happening again in the future. Which I highly suspect it will, as I often get it after someone’s passing, but I am learning to be less afraid of it and prevent it from happening as I know my triggers and I know what thought processes cause it. If we accept it and don’t fear it, and know for a fact we have always gotten out of it, the threat should go away. Hope you are on the road to recovery, and if not, you will get there, we all can!
this is a great story, thank you for being so open about these things, i’m going through it right now and people seem distant and being in public is hard but most of my other symptoms have softened, is this a good sign?
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Hey Marianne, Amazing video. I went through a 1-1 experience as you did, panick attack due to hospital visual system issues etc. At the end of your video you mention, reaching out to people who went through this, any chance we can speak briefly?
Hi Shaun ive started reading the manual and it's really good and i read in like 3 hours because i genuinely enjoyed reading it and i don't even enjoy reading. Wanted to ask you if i should focus on my recovery first or resume my MMA and boxing training because this sport especially sparring and fights are really scary and i haven't trained since i got dp ?
It’s so hard for me because the anhedonia and emotional numbness feeds back into the anxiety. I can’t enjoy my interests, and then the question of “why can’t I enjoy this? Why did I like this before? Where’s my emotional connection to this thing? Did I like this? What things did I like and dislike? Why can’t I feel empathy like usual?” I start looking at everything objectively because I can’t “feel” any connection, and the disconnect gets worse. Things involving complex concepts like human behavior, violence, and death, and not being able to remember or compartmentalize how I felt about those things in different situations. It makes me feel alien or robotic or like I’m emotionally cold (which scares me a lot, and the thought of having to accept that sensation scares me as well). Not only can I not feel joy, attachment to my interests, but worry and concern as well. Concern about money, my loved ones, my job, politics, my physical health, etc. I want to have normal problems again, I want to feel again. Happy, sad, angry, scared, loving, curious, smart, confident, nervous, and anxious, but about real life stuff. I want to be able to create stories in my head again and use them to create things or simply daydream. I want to think about my interests and use them for inspiration. I don’t want to change. I don’t want to feel different. I don’t want to forget who I am or what I like or who I want to be. I want to feel like myself again. It’s only been 4 weeks of this hell, and it feels like my life has completely changed. I’m trying my best. I’m in therapy. I’m trying to stay grounded. I’m trying to accept that this feeling is just for now, and that it’ll pass, that I’ll get back to normal. I’m on an SSRI for my anxiety. But it’s so hard. Feeling detached from everyone and everything is so hard. Trying to distract myself is torturous. I feel like I’m missing out in everything happening around me, even things I’m a direct participant in. I just want to feel normal again. I know it takes time, I know it’s not a linear process, I know you don’t just snap back out, I know it doesn’t all come back at once, I know it gets better. I’ve been here before, for 4 whole months, with a few minor episodes here and there and I got out before. I’ve been out for over 3 years. 3 years of ups and downs, but they were real and present. Now I can barely remember those 3 years, those three years since I graduated college, as I grew as a person, had fun with my friends, got back into all of my interests and discovered new ones, experienced great things like visiting Niagara Falls with my friends, reconnecting with some friends from high school, participating in a charity event, losing my dog of 14 years, finally getting a job. I was present for all of these things. All of these events. I felt real emotion. So why? Why put me back here again? In this bizarre state where nothing feels right. I want to feel like me again. I keep having random flashes of random memories of my past, either if other times I felt dissociated or it might just be state specific memory, like there’s this feeling like I’ve always been like this, but I know I wasn’t. Memories that I merely had no reason to think about. Yet the memories I want to remember feel distant like they aren’t mine. Or like the emotions attached to them aren’t real. I know they’re real. So why can’t I just wake up? Why can’t I just feel like myself again? Why does it feel like I’ve changed? That I’m somehow too far gone?
Hey Shaun! Have you ever heard of a DPDR wave coming because someone expected it to happen? For instance, today I did something which normally causes me anxiety, so I became “hyper aware” and started checking myself for DPDR, and then it happened.
Hi, thanks for your comment 😊 Remember that ultimately, DPDR is just a symptom of anxiety so when the symptoms vary, it's just your anxiety levels going up and down, and certain situations / environments can change them. I know it might seem difficult to believe but you actually have complete control over it 😊 Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website, starting with this one: www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
I recently got DP, I’m also 15 so it seems weird I’ve got this so young but I do tend to stress a lot tho and I had a strange dream one night and I woke up confused about why I felt weird and I started to not feel real kinda like I was watching my life through a TV and nothing felt normal. I didn’t feel connected to my body and I still feel this way and now it’s still happening to me. Now a few days after that I’ve calmed down from my first little panic attack and and I’ve calmed down and I’m just waiting for it to go away. If anyone has any tips on how to help it go away faster I would love that
Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Hey Shaun I have a question. Now since a week I developed a negative sleep association. Even if Im really tired and haven’t slept for a day when I lay down in bed I get anxious and my heart rate goes up. I have to be really really tired to fall asleep without even noticing but so far Ive noticed that Im just laying around and trying my best to fall asleep but it just doesn’t work out. What can I do? Any advice. Would love to hear
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
I am here beacuse i have a big problem.. when i get better from dpdr.. it feels everything so good again.. but even if i am better i feel sad beacuse i got this.. i feel very depressed like i still can t enjoy my life again, i need help with that… when i first got this i wasn t so depressed.. i was very motivated that i will feel better
Remember that depression can happen along with DP, just like with all anxiety-based conditions. If you’re feeling particularly depressed, please do speak to a medical professional as soon as possible. But in the meantime don't worry, DP and anxiety are not permanent and you can and will recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/is-depersonalization-permanent/
@@MarianneManning-cp7miHello Marianne. Do you felt like the colors of the world were off? Or like the world felt off? And how did you know you were recovering? The symptoms were getting milder? Did you felt aswell that you didnt think like your normal self? And when you recovered everything Went back to 100% normal?
The worst thing is i cant sleep normal after my weed experince my dreams get sometimes too strong where i get a pankc attack beceause i think i become shizophrenic but then nothing happens but still after 1 year i suffer deeply
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
Like i could see everything fine but everything feels off and its really creepy and im thinking what if its not dpdr anymore and you recovered and you're looking at life differently because of it
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
@@Dpmanual Thank you. Many people have reported that the weed 'caused' it since i started to smoke weed after developing DP, but it neither caused, triggered it, except when the weed was too strong and i didn't like it, i continued, but unpleasant strains, or smoking unpredictable strains with particular genetic profiles such as Skunk #1 was unpleasant but that's about it. but i have these feelings brought on which is the DP and anxiety association between each other which has bidirectional relationship is what one triggers another, and anything i don't like and my body dislikes, it can trigger it. Things that step my emotions out of comfort zone can cause this. Violence can trigger this for me. Alarming situations cna trigger this. This does not have one cause only.
Hi I wondering if my situation could relate to others. I had my first episode of depersonalization for a few months when I was about 10, that passed and I got it quite bad again during my school exams at age 15. That went on for a few months but It gradually got better. Perhaps the fact that I was in school kinda kept me distracted at times enough to somewhat recover. I’m now 22 and get short bouts of depersonalization here a there but not bad at all. The problem is that the one thing I’ve been dealing with constantly for the last 5-7 years is a lack of emotions. Also an empty mind, I hardly hear any thoughts in my head. I’ve recently done 3 months as an inpatient in a mental health hospital because as Marianne experienced, I was coming around the fact that without my emotions, life had lost all meaning. Unfortunately I have come out the same as I went it. I’m now wondering if the numbness is the one thing that stuck around for my bad bouts of depersonalization when I was 15. Like Marianne I went to a couple psychiatrists who told me I was anhedonic due to depression but I was like ‘I’m not depressed though’. I can get through my day okay I just can’t connect with any of my emotions. Which does in ways make life hard to get through in its own way. Is there something I should be working on. Perhaps really committing to more behavior activation and doing more activities? Perhaps that will gradually draw out my emotions? The difference between me and Marianne being that for me it’s been many years since I’ve properly been connected with my emotions and similarly years since the main other major depersonalization symptoms have passed. Side note: Also sucks that mental health professionals in my experience know very little about depersonalization. I mentioned it multiple times to all the Doctors that were working with me during my inpatient stay and they never really asked more about my experince with depersonalization. Excuse the long message. Thanks if you read it.
I didn’t get dp feelings in like 2 weeks which is a great thing but I think I still can’t truly feel the moments and everything still feel a little disconnected sometimes and I can’t enjoy fully the moments that I used to. Iam scared that I feel better now but I can’t feel everything normal again and feel happiness is it gonna stay like that forever now?
Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/
The fact thay she first had to get her sleep on track seems to me that she first had to resolve her anxiety. Thus this makes me think this still an anxiety issue.
j'ai tellement peur de pas guérir de ça c'est vraiment flippant rassurer moi svp cela fait 1ans en ce moment la j'ai l'impression que c'est même pas moi qui écrit cela😢
Hey Shaun. Question if you don’t mind I’ve found your book really helpful but there is one symptom that bugs me and my anxiety latches on to and tells me is something different - it being anhedonia or emotional numbing. I just don’t feel the pleasure or excitement from things like I used to. Is this normal for DPDR?
Don’t worry, symptoms like emotional numbness are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
The thing with me id thay i dont fear the feeling of depersonalization itself, but i fear it not going away and this causes me to have dp, does this mean i have depersonalization disorder?
how can I not think about the DP/DR distracting myself, if I no longer care about anything about my life, because before entering it I had some bad news that I already couldn't get over and it brought me anxiety, and it had already created a depression in me I wasn't interested in anything anymore, and in this state I smoked a joint for the first time which made me enter the DP, now I've been in it for a month how can I not think about it if I no longer have anything to distract me since I don't I don't care about anything, and this feeling of zeroing out the emotions of DP doesn't make me face the cause of my depression before smoking, am I stuck like this?? How can I do it? Should I try to resolve the cause of the depression first and then go back to not thinking about the PD and making it disappear?? Thank you
Don't worry, concentration + memory issues are very common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/
I have a question, i had a panic attack at work and after that i've had dpdr and now im 5 month in and im starting to feel concected and i can almost live like a human again and but i still have a lot of eye floaters visual snow when i look at the sky or a white wall for an example and the 2d vision. My eyes is always so tiered and its almost hurting behind and around the eye. Is this still dpdr or something after because its so annoying. Or is this somekind of after effect from month of really hard dpdr ? Does this go away aswell. Im zooning out just to give my eyes some rest? I would be really glad if someone thats been thru this answered. Hope you have an amazing day :) and for everyone thats suffers i will get better i promise i went thru hell and back i feels like and im finally to feel like a human
She describes exactly how bad mine used to be! It was horrific. I felt like i had dementia. Couldn't think into the last minutes or next minutes at all. Couldn't remember yesterday/last week/last month. Would sit outside in the cold and not even feel cold at all. Would sit in 100 degree weather and not feel hot at all. Would have no sense i was even outside or sense my surroundings. Couldn't feel anything for my child or anyone else.Could feel no emotions at all not even sadness,i felt like i had a lobotomy.. I lost my ability to visualize in my head. I felt like i was on a bad LSD trip nonstop for years. I did LSD when younger and it felt exactly like it except didn't have any of the good feelings of it. I lost all sense of time. A 20 minute shower would feel like 4 hours. I felt like i was in another dimension or universe . I couldn't feel my body, i felt like a ghost head floating around. Nothing felt real at all.My soul would feel like it was outside of my body, either to the sides front or back of my body but never in my body. I got mine due to coming off of a benzos (thank god she didn't get on those!) and I had over 175 symptoms all together including Akathesia .I could hardly read or write or talk. I couldn't watch tv for 3 years because i couldn't remember what i seen 5 minutes ago, as if my brain wasn't processing new information at all. It gradually over the last 8 years has lessened in severity and intensity and symptoms have dropped off thank god. I still have some minor DP/DR though,more minor memory processing issues.I'm starting to feel emotions again but not back to my normal self yet. True they tried to label me and gaslighted me and what i was going through. They tried to throw other meds at me but i was too terrified to ever touch another medication.I was beyond traumatized and still to this day scared of Drs and medications due to what i've been through.I don't trust them at all and learned how little they know about the drugs they prescribe or the side effects and withdrawals they cause. I also now have chemical sensitivity and have bad reactions to literally everything, even certain foods and especially anything with alcohol in it at all. ( Prior to my benzo injury, i never had any allergies whatsoever) .I'm still on vistaril and clonodine but it never helped my DP/DR any. God bless everyone out there going through this. Please stay strong and remember it will get better with time. We lost a lot of people coming off of benzos because they couldn't take feeling the suffering another minute . I hate they couldn't pull through and know it was only temporary and not permanent .
@@Waves353 I'm so sorry that you're going through this too. Yeah I'm her lol . We had to pause the group because I was unable to manage it by myself and I'm now busy trying to live again too so I don't have much energy and time to give anymore
@@SurvivingBenzos it’s great that you’re trying to live again. What a long freaking road. The other forums seem sterile where you can’t let rip and makes it lonelier. Thanks JJ( feel like I know you and it’s a bit creepy 🤣)
@@Waves353 yeah I hate that. It's one reason I pushed to keep the group going for so long because it's one of the safest groups where people can talk about the hell they're going through without worrying about being judged or called negative for posting about the hell they're going through. I seriously wouldn't have made it without that group . It's sad that all the good active admins left and near impossible to find anyone that would be able to help everyday to keep it running and would truly care about the group and the members in it. I did it by myself for a good year or so and between that and helping run it for like 7 years I was totally burnt out. I keep hoping one of these days I'll find it in me to open it again and try to train new admins to keep it running
@@Waves353 it really does help to hear from others who've had it as severe. Boy can I relate! It used to be so triggering to hear that when I could hardly make it from my bed to the bathroom and just moving my body to sit outside felt like a marathon . There was no way I'd ever be able to go on a vacation or do normal people things at all. It took all I had just to survive each second closed in my room away from people because the smallest overstimulation/ stress made the symptoms million times worse on me
Hey i have a question. What if i still research and think about dp and dr but not in a bad way (without fear)? Is it still not letting brain recover like fear or is it good.
I'd recommend waiting until you're 100% fully recovered before doing any research 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-the-questions-are-the-condition/
One more thing pls🙏🏻 I don't know if you have been on antidepressants, but I have been on them for 6 months and they have helped with my mood, but my fear is that antidepressants cause even more emotional numbing and depersonalization in some cases and how will I know that I am better if Which symptoms are side effects of medications? I was experiencing dp/dr before medications and i still feel it because i know that are side effect of medications too , i’m feelimg so confused , really?!!Shaunn
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
I also can’t give you advice on this but I can tell you antidepressants made me feel like a zombie . Just be careful comming off taper slowly because that can cause other symptoms as well !
@@DpmanualI’m visiting a psychiatrist and i have a lot of intrusive thoughts and racing thoughts and i just can’t get stop thinking because every minute they come to me as automatic away . I’m scared because he said we need to eliminate if the are OCD or just from anxiety but before anxiet i didn’t have them before i’m so scared if i have OcD
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
i am struggling with anxiety at the moment. i cant seem to get out of my head and i have ocd thoughts about dpdr and i disassociate alot. is it normal to not be able to get out of my head while having anxiety?
Excuse my language but how the fuck can a doctor just so easily inject an antipsychotic into a patient for a migraine?? 5% of people who take an antipsychotic develop tardive dyskonesia and adverse reactions to them are actually extremely common. Feel very sorry for her - being treated with something that literally affects your brains function and chemistry for a migraine is ridiculous. As someone who developed DPDR and akathisia from an adverse reaction to Zoloft and currently 2 years + suffering protected withdrawal I can fully understand. The dangers of these pharmaceutical drugs needs to be more well known. Doctors just don’t understand what they’re prescribing and it’s dangerous. When she uttered the phrase “we’ve never seen anyone have a reaction to this” it sent shivers down my spine. Everyone in the prescribed med injury community have heard that exact line when they were gaslit by medical professionals about their symptoms being somatic rather than being induced by the damage of the drugs. Glad she finally recovered.
Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
Hey, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. If they're not familiar with DPDR you can show them this video which will clear things up for them: ruclips.net/video/ANzyteEPKt8/видео.html Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Don't worry, it doesn't matter how long it’s lasted, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
Hello! My situation is the following: Ive been much better, my symptoms are getting milder and milder that they dont affect me anymore. BUT i feel that something is off, hard to explain, I dont have derealization, everything seems normal to me, my memory is better, my brainfog is better, everything is better. My only concern is that I feel kinda off, like not myself. Do you felt that in your recovery Journey?
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Did you got to 100% back? (I know that going thru something like that transform you a lil bit) But did you went back to your way of thinking? For example i dont worry about stuff of life
I felt like that as well. I am not 100% recovered, but it is a huge difference between how i am feeling right now and how i felt when i developed it. I also have some moments when i feel i am 100% recovered and you definitely recognise what is like to be normal, like anxiety dissapears, you are wondering why are you scared because everything cames back to normal in that moments, but as you said, after some good hours or minutes of feeling normal, i start to be disconnected. It doesn’t feel like a dream world as it was in the beggining, but it feels like you are sleepy and not 100% awake and lucid. I see the differences especially when i am driving. When i have that breaks when i feel normal i see very well and i feel so awake but when i feel disconnected i feel like i am in a bubble, like i am drank, but without dizziness, idk how to call it, disconnected i think. I think it is a way to recovery.
Intrusive thoughts and feelings of Depersonalization are both common symptoms of anxiety 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
is it common to not recognize family, like i recognize they’re appearance but sometimes they just feel like strangers, like i never even knew them even though i know that’s my dad ect
Don’t worry, experiences like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
Bro I recently got panic attack from marijuana, ever since my minds not feeling well I'm imagining any kind of symtoms. Can I recover from it without medication ?
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/ And if you have any further questions on medication please don’t hesitate to speak to a medical professional 😊
@@Dpmanual thank you my conditions were getting better like I can sleep without any thoughts and I feel less fear. What keeps bothering me was should I take medication or am I getting better or not
Why do my dreams seem very strange and I cannot distinguish whether they really happened to me or just a dream and I remember things that I do not know whether they happened or not?
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/ And memory issues are common too: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
Hey, question; you are saying that is important to think about other thinks, and not to focus on dpdr, en then it will slowly go away, and eventually like it never happened. But when you make your videos, you think all the time about dpdr when talking about it right? Don’t you ever have that same feeling again? After you’ve recovered?
Hi Michy, great question 😊 Yes, I talk about DPDR all the time but because the underlying feelings of anxiety that caused and perpetuated the condition are gone, I can speak it about from a rational and non-anxious perspective. So it doesn't trigger more feelings of anxiety / DPDR. Read this, I think you'll find it interesting 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-come-back/
Errr that can't be legal. Just so giving someone medecine that isn't treating what they issue is when the patient consents because they want pain treatment .... j
I didn’t have underlying anxiety.. I had a reaction to a med given to me . I developed akathisa which then caused me terror and panic .. my whole brain chemistry changed causing me a multitude of symptoms including dpdr
I didn’t have underlying anxiety. I had a reaction to a medication that was given to me that caused me akathisa with terrible anxiety and terror, changing my brain chemistry causing a multitude of symptoms, including dpdr
I disagree with marijuana legalization and its harms outweight the benefits, although i would not ban it again altogether since many use either way and encourage others, many as well should not be exempted from using just because many have been offeres by those whose body agrees with thc. Things happen, just like a wrong friend drinks beer with an experienced and has a traumatic reaction. Just like i hate high potency weed and tolerate low potency ones. Everyone to each preference and good luck that she recovered and is healthy now.
Hey Shaun, I'm almost 100% recovered. I have small episodes of DPDR (derealization/depersonalization), and they don't happen every day. They hardly bother me anymore. But one thing that's been bothering me and interfering quite a bit is the strangeness of my own voice, well, not exactly strangeness, but rather an excessive attention to it and my expressions of emotions. Have you ever met someone who has gone through this? Do you know how to help me?
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Thanks for the advice! I actually went ahead and got 'The DP Manual,' but it was a bit of a splurge for me. As for a direct call with Shaun, that's something I unfortunately can't afford at the moment. Plus, my English skills are a work in progress; I can comprehend and read just fine, but stringing together sentences and speaking fluently? Well, let's just say it's a bit of a challenge! Ahahahhah.
yes i suffered badly for weeks couldn't sleep had constant panic attacks had the worst symptoms imaginable but look now im slowly back recovering i did have a minor setback because i decided to smoke weed after not fully recovering but im doing well im at around 70% recovered now@@samuel.almeida.10
Yes, as with all anxiety-based conditions it's common to have periods where you're experiencing it 24/7 😊 I know it can be frustrating but it will become less constant and fade away and stop as your recovery continues. Watch this: ruclips.net/video/vrmXFzfJAa4/видео.htmlsi=HTaB8QBDM7sHNp-Z&t=196
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
Don’t worry, fears of going crazy are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frightening but they’re harmless and temporary and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long it’s lasted, you can and will recover 100% 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
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Please I’m suffering from Dp/Dr do you have the manual? Please help me with the manual I’m here in Nigeria 🇳🇬 I don’t have money to get the manual it’s so expensive to my country currency 😢😢😢😢
This is the recovery story we needed!!!!!
❤ glad I could help
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Hello girl! Sometimes i feel like i’m getting better because i don’t have others symtoms like somatic symtoms , panic attack etc . Know i just have dp/dr and i feel bad because i can’t feel joy like before and i can’t feel love for my family and my boyfriend . Does this thing get better overtime by itself right , should we just be patient because it’s not something specific that we can do . Feeling like a robot i think is the worst thing that can ever happened to us
@@MarianneManning-cp7miHow u doing today? I hace visual simptoms like floaters, tunnel visión or watching like in pauses
@@diartahazrolli9411hey do u feel better ?
I had it for soo long.. now fully recovered 😀
Delighted to hear it! 😊
Please I don’t have money to get the manual..please who can help me with the manual pls
@@Dpmanualplease Shaun I don’t have the money to get the manual please can you help me out. Love from Nigeria 🇳🇬 😢
What’s your email? I’ll forward it to you
@@e.jt.v464how are you
I agree with the vision issue. You kinda see everything but it's like you are disconnected from your vision, very far away. I felt the same when I was drunk but obviously it didn't last for years.
Visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
That's exactly how my vision feels.
@@flyingcat7975you are not alone 🤗
Omg! This was exactly me 13 years ago 😢 the suicidal ideation was horrific. I developed DPDR after contracting swine flu and physical burn out. These symptoms are EXACTLY what I was experiencing. I remember trying to tell my doctor that my eyes felt like they'd retracted back into my head and were somehow 'stuck'. I'm currently experiencing another episode of DPDR after a bout of labyrinthitis and by God, I'm grateful I've found Shaun this time ❤
Thanks for your comment Carly and I'm very glad the channel has been helpful 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop ❤
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
I’m genuinely crying as I write this because this is the first time someone’s dpdr journey began in the same way mine did. Mine started after taking medication that I had an adverse reaction to and this video has finally made me feel seen! No one ever understands how just one dose of medication could cause this - I feel so much hope now. Thank you a thousand times over.
So glad it was helpful 😊❤️
100% get you, I needed this as well I took Finasteride for 30 days and shortly after ended up in this warped version of reality
I’m so happy you feel hopeful ❤your going to be ok ❤❤
Dpdr is real, and it's scary. I've been going through episodes of it since I was 19. It would come and go. This last time was the worst. I literally had no idea how to explain it to people or put it into words. I found Sean by accident while going down a rabbit hole. He put everything that was going on with me into words and made sense of it all. I instantly got his dpdr manual, and it was an absolute life changer. I still struggle with anxiety, but with the dpdr part, I mostly got it under control. If you read this, just know that you are not alone out there, and you can and will get through it.
Thanks for your comment! I'm delighted that you're doing so well and that The DP Manual has been helpful 😊
Finally a story i can relate too. This is depersonalisation: you feel real but disconnected.
Yeah for you does everything look and feel wierd ??????!!!!!!!!!
@@jacobaragon3398 no everythings looks normal to me
@nvb455 yeah for me everything looks normal
Please I’m suffering from Dp/Dr do you have the manual? Please help me with the manual I’m here in Nigeria 🇳🇬 I don’t have money to get the manual it’s so expensive to my country currency 😢😢😢😢
@@e.jt.v464 hello bro
I am going through the same sometimes it feels like it's gone and the next moment it comes again. I totally lost my personality and it is badly affecting my life
Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual.
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Hey do u feel better ?
This is the most intriguing life story I can relate to. Everything she explined is on point.
I was kinda lucky to recover alone by myself with no one around me.😔🌞
Well done , ❤
how did you do it
Loved your story, Marianne! Stay being you! 💘
I had the exact reaction to a flu shot my DPDR lasted over 6 months it was the scariest time of my life I thought i had a stroke or was developing an SMI there was no internet so I went to so many drs convinced drs convinced I was dying - i also researched so much in the library if became obsessional I had to leave college for a month and go home as I was a wreck went to more drs thst said you have anxiety disorder this a script
I recovered once I went in Xanax temporarily I knew when you said the migraine and injection you were referring ti raglan my son had to get that in the hospital for severe migraine and it made him act off rains anxiety impending doom and he jumped up and started ripping ivs out and running around room im so glad you found your relief and recovery once is a while when have high a stress I can feel a scent of it coming but I’m able to distract and talk myself back into reality
Btw reglan is not an anti psychotic it’s an anti emetic an anti nausea drug but it does block dopamine like the antipsychotic would
Vistaril is an antihistamine so if you ever feel threads coming perhaps have a standing script for it it’s harmless short term
I’ve been dealing with anxiety my whole life, but didn’t get stricken with DPDR until I had a panic attack in 2010. I’ve been dealing with it 14 years but I’m now finally starting to turn the corner.
Thanks to this channel, Shaan Kaasan, and finally seeing a therapist and changing my thought habits.
my biggest symptom has been my brain fog, memory, and thinking that I have some sort of dementia (I’m 40 btw). Hearing your story really lets me know I’m not the only one out there dealing with this, and I am now taking daily steps towards recovery.
Recovery is not completely linear. You’ll take three steps forward and two steps back, but if you trust the process and continue the sky’s the limit.
Thank you for your content and this amazing video!
Thanks for your comment Pierre and I'm so glad the video was helpful! 😊
It’s so hard for me because the anhedonia and emotional numbness feeds back into the anxiety. I can’t enjoy my interests, and then the question of “why can’t I enjoy this? Why did I like this before? Where’s my emotional connection to this thing? Did I like this? What things did I like and dislike? Why can’t I feel empathy like usual?” I start looking at everything objectively because I can’t “feel” any connection, and the disconnect gets worse. Things involving complex concepts like human behavior, violence, and death, and not being able to remember or compartmentalize how I felt about those things in different situations. It makes me feel alien or robotic or like I’m emotionally cold (which scares me a lot, and the thought of having to accept that sensation scares me as well).
Not only can I not feel joy, attachment to my interests, but worry and concern as well. Concern about money, my loved ones, my job, politics, my physical health, etc. I also used to appreciate and get attached to characters in stories, and really feel those emotions. I want that back. I want that all back.
I want to have normal problems again, I want to feel again. Happy, sad, angry, scared, loving, curious, smart, confident, nervous, and anxious, but about real life stuff. I want to be able to create stories in my head again and use them to create things or simply daydream. I want to think about my interests and use them for inspiration.
I don’t want to change. I don’t want to feel different. I don’t want to forget who I am or what I like or who I want to be. I want to feel like myself again. I don’t want to feel like I’m flashing around at random points in my life, I just want to remember those times normally.
It’s only been 4 weeks of this hell, and it feels like my life has completely changed. I’m trying my best. I’m in therapy. I’m trying to stay grounded, doing the various techniques, counting, square breathing, 5-4-3-2-1, remembering names, tactile things like ice, doing the muscle stretches, trying to mentally pivot when I spiral, but it’s hard. I’m trying to accept that this feeling is just for now, and that it’ll pass, that I’ll get back to normal. I’m on an SSRI for my anxiety. But it’s so hard. Radical acceptance is extremely hard. Feeling detached from everyone and everything is so hard. Trying to distract myself is torturous. I feel like I’m missing out in everything happening around me, even things I’m a direct participant in. I just want to feel normal again. I want to love my favorite things again, to feel genuine hype and excitement for something, to have that same sense of wonder and amazement at the world, to be able to remember what I learned in school at least well enough to go back for my master's degree.
I know it takes time, I know it’s not a linear process, I know you don’t just snap back out, I know it doesn’t all come back at once, I know it gets better. I’ve been here before, for 4 whole months, with a few minor episodes after here and there and I got out before. I’ve been out for over 3 years. 3 years of ups and downs, but they were real and I was present, even when depressed. Now I can barely remember those 3 years, those three years since I graduated college, as I grew as a person, had fun with my friends, was able to make jokes, got back into most if not all of my interests and discovered new ones, experienced great things like visiting Niagara Falls with my friends, reconnecting with some friends from high school, participating in a charity event, losing my dog of 14 years, finally getting a job. I was present and grounded for all of these things. All of these events. I felt real emotion. So why? Why put me back here again? In this bizarre state where nothing feels right. I want to feel like me again. I was imperfect, but growing, hopeful, and real.
I keep having random flashes of random memories of my past, either of other times I felt dissociated, or had intrusive thoughts, depressed, or even DPDR, or it might just be state specific memory messing with me, like there’s this feeling like I’ve always been like this. But I know I wasn’t. Memories that I merely had no reason to think about or perhaps repressed. Yet the memories I want to remember feel distant like they aren’t mine. Or like the emotions attached to them aren’t real. I know they’re real. So why can’t I just wake up? Why can’t I just feel like myself again? Why does it feel like I’ve changed? That I’m somehow too far gone? I’m not though. I’m still here. I’m still me.
No “checking” just living. Doing what I normally do. No expectations. No spiraling.
It’s still so hard though. My brain feels all messed up. I don’t like living this way. I want to live just like before. I want that intensity back, that fire, that passion, that little perk up when I hear or see something I know I like, to say HEY I like that thing too. I dont want my interests to fade away. I dont want to lose touch with what I love. I dont want to feel empty anymore.
U used to wake up. And land in the here and now right. Thinking about stuff. U wake up now feeling empty, trying to do stuff but cant or you want to do it it but then there is just nothing. Nothing to think about. I try to think of stuff normal stuff it feels like i can't
dont worry its all temporary everything will start coming back to you slowly just keep your mind off dp and have some fun with friends @@laurencethegrey
I feel you. But trust me you've got nothing to do but to live. Just go, live your life as it is. Part of progress, is to not notice your progress except later on. You don't even realize you've recovered once you actually have, that doesn't happen unless you're fully immersed into things. Go man, live your life. I know it's easier said than done, but I'm sure you can do it!
100 percent @@drmowafy
But in just not sure if i got dpdr wich makes me anxious aswell. Like there is nothing wrong with me but I just feel off i had so much anxiety and panic attacks prior now im just numb. Nothing scares me but i also know i was not like this. There is just no way. Its like my. Body walks and talks. About everything without me thinking about it. I keep trying to remember how i was before all of this. I don't really sure what triggerd it i had grief and stress and anxiety but thats all gone either if its dp or not im just not sure. I kinda relate with dimetredon on many aspects but i dont have the attacks anymore I wish i could talk to someone explain what i went through and how i am now i still can do stuff ofc like this feeling of i wanna do stuff something but i keep being in the same state as it wear its like i react to everything i sort of used tho with emotions but without emotions would love to hear someone talk and say that sounds like dpdr i just have to wait for my therapy tho.
I think I've been blessed with a miracle I only had DP dr for a week and went back to May doctor and got reevaluated and he was very surprised and said I am now 85 percent back to normal in only a week from having this what helped was using nicotine and being distracted and using melatonin he was surprised when I told him I used nicotine but he said this might be one of the quickest recoveries of all time I want to thank this channel for helping through this past week but I will continue staying away from weed for a long long time I hope my blessings can be passed down to yall
Glad to hear you're doing so well 😊
How you found a doctor that knew about dpdr and worked specifically on that
What I needed to take in atm. God bless them both
Glad it was helpful 😊
Why do my dreams seem very strange and I cannot distinguish whether they really happened to me or just a dream and I remember things that I do not know whether they happened or not@@Dpmanual
Thank you for this it gives us a headsup knowing that this is just a short journey and we just need to be more patient with ourselves. The same thing happens to me, but i am happy that i am recovering alone using whatever method you describe in your youtube video❤ and also the most important thing is to pray and ask God for his guidance because with him nothing is impossible . And i just want to say that people who can afford to pay for the manual are the luckiest🙃
Interesting story. I actually went inpatient too, but i went to a drug rehab facility because i thought i was in drug withdrawal. I stayed 75 days and it helped immensely.
Why do my dreams seem very strange and I cannot distinguish whether they really happened to me or just a dream and I remember things that I do not know whether they happened or not
I am truly very happy for you. I am going through this and these exact symptoms myself and your recovery story is truly inspirational. I remain hopeful that I can share a success story soon.
Don't worry, DPDR is a temporary, harmless condition and you can and will recover, 100% 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
Hey do u feel better?
I wish I could talk to her I got the DPDR the same way she did, I have so many questions
I got dp/ dr after taking edibles , for 7 years I couldn’t find an answer to my problem and one day i saw a video on youtube by this guy called barry mcdonah , he was taking about dp/dr and i was like oh my god this sounds quite similar to my problem and then i bought his book called (DARE) where he explains about dp/dr in more detail. I remember crying out of happiness that finallly finallyyy I found out what was going on with me, before that i was convinced that i had done permanent damage to my brain , then i bought ur book and it really changed everything for me , now im way better than i used to be , i would love have conversations with you and share my story with u and others (:
Thanks for your comment and I'm delighted to hear you're doing so well! And yes I'd love to feature your story on the channel, drop me an email and we can arrange! 😊
Did you have problems with emotional numbness as well ?
@@Dave.mcclinton yess! I love my mom more than anyone and anything in this world , at 1 point i remember looking at her and felt nothing and it scared the shi* out of me , ill tell u how get rid of dp/dr .
First of all acknowledge its the symptom high anxiety and stress hormones .
Then allow the symptoms to come and go don’t judge they are just symptoms of anxiety respond to them with love and be friends with them . The more u practice it the better u get at it
Then once u get rid of the fear , the next step is to slowly break the habit , whenever u become aware of ur dp/dr just acknowledge it (say whatever its just a symptom of anxiety and i have become hyper aware of everything and its ok ) then shift your focus to anything that ur doing , don’t do this get rid of the symptoms! Remember ur friends with dp/dr !you don’t mind if its messing with ur vision or ur emotions just let it do whatever it wants to do , don’t be bothered by it , the key here is to get rid of the fear . And stop giving a fuck about it thats it . If you do this in the right without being afraid of it i assure that after sometime u will look at it laugh at it . FEAR is the biggest illusion my friend try to conquer it
@@ITEMOR thanks man this emotional numbness is killing me
@@ITEMOR hello, are your émotions normals now ? And if you forget about dépersonnalisation do u feel "normal"?
Vistaril/ Hydroxyzine (antihistamine ) worked well for me too. I took no other meds, no SSRI's etc.
It's great but it makes me super groggy . Any problems stopping that medicine ?
It certainly makes me very sleepy, so I've only ever taken it on days I don't work. No issues otherwise. I rarely take it anymore and I only ever took it sporadically anyway.
I have hydroxyzine but I’m scared to take it cause I heard for some people it can make dpdr worse as a side effect
Very relatable. I am mostly recovered but I like to listen because it has been a very lonely journey
Glad to hear you're doing so well ❤️😊
@@Dpmanual Thank you!
@@browncoco17 😊😊
Thank you for sharing this interview. I hope it makes people more aware of the dangerous, harmful side effects of Droperidol. While for many people the akathisia goes away in days / weeks, there are those for whom it lasts longer.
The akathisia in this narrative is a very interesting / confounding variable. I respectfully wonder whether what Marianne experienced could be diagnosed as "anxiety" or whether this was just the akathisia going away with time as her brain healed / found homeostasis. I think this matters as a point of discussion because I feel very bad and think it is wrong when those experiencing akathisia are told it's just their anxiety.
I was thinking to take my daughter to Amen clinic as well.. happy that you recovered and you have ur son back
Don’t take her to amen clinic I went thru all of that trying to get help for this save ur money trust me
@@UriahWarner Thank you to let me know it will cost me a lot I thought he might has something that will benefit her.
Don’t it’s a waste of money !!
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi thank you to let me know
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi is there a way I can connect with you via email. I just realized I’m in this and your experience seems somewhat similar to mine…
what do i do when i cant figure out the root cause of the anxiety that caused my dpdr? i dont even drink or smoke or anything and my life was pretty alright. i was doing okay it just suddenly happened around the time my exams were about to end. was it because of studies or past heartbreaks (even though i was completely over them and didnt even care anymore)? idk. but it really sucks, the constant anhedonia and loss of sense of self and existential dread and the crippling anxiety about the inevitablity of death SUCKS how do i go back from this i want to feel normal and enjoy life again PLEASE HELP
It doesn't matter what caused it, the method for recovery is always the same 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
I was given a shot in the ER as well when i had a really bad panic attack , i never thought that could have triggered the dpdr😮,i jve had dpsr doe 2 years now.The anhedonia has lifted but My vision and memory are still so bad,but we keep living becuase it does get better.
how long did your anhedonia last?
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
This is what im experiencing !!!! Like things feel real and they dont at the same time and my mind is telling me what if im at 100% and now you have ptsd or youve been traumatized and now you look at life differently please someone who has recovered let me know
How are you now
You don’t have ptsd from it, you forget about it for the most part. I know it’s unbelievable, but distraction really is key, even if you don’t like anything, just force yourself through life. You will come back to a normal life, in my case I would say a better one. I wouldn’t call myself traumatized, although I am afraid of it happening again in the future. Which I highly suspect it will, as I often get it after someone’s passing, but I am learning to be less afraid of it and prevent it from happening as I know my triggers and I know what thought processes cause it. If we accept it and don’t fear it, and know for a fact we have always gotten out of it, the threat should go away. Hope you are on the road to recovery, and if not, you will get there, we all can!
this is a great story, thank you for being so open about these things, i’m going through it right now and people seem distant and being in public is hard but most of my other symptoms have softened, is this a good sign?
also are naps good to rest the mind?
Yes this is normal !! It will take a while for your brain to adjust for sure
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Hey Marianne, Amazing video. I went through a 1-1 experience as you did, panick attack due to hospital visual system issues etc. At the end of your video you mention, reaching out to people who went through this, any chance we can speak briefly?
Thank you for serbian translation of manual ❤
Thank Dušan Mihić @dusanmihic4124 for his work in translating it 👏🙏😊
Hi Shaun ive started reading the manual and it's really good and i read in like 3 hours because i genuinely enjoyed reading it and i don't even enjoy reading. Wanted to ask you if i should focus on my recovery first or resume my MMA and boxing training because this sport especially sparring and fights are really scary and i haven't trained since i got dp ?
Yep the anhedonia and emotional numbness sucks
It’s so hard for me because the anhedonia and emotional numbness feeds back into the anxiety. I can’t enjoy my interests, and then the question of “why can’t I enjoy this? Why did I like this before? Where’s my emotional connection to this thing? Did I like this? What things did I like and dislike? Why can’t I feel empathy like usual?” I start looking at everything objectively because I can’t “feel” any connection, and the disconnect gets worse. Things involving complex concepts like human behavior, violence, and death, and not being able to remember or compartmentalize how I felt about those things in different situations. It makes me feel alien or robotic or like I’m emotionally cold (which scares me a lot, and the thought of having to accept that sensation scares me as well).
Not only can I not feel joy, attachment to my interests, but worry and concern as well. Concern about money, my loved ones, my job, politics, my physical health, etc.
I want to have normal problems again, I want to feel again. Happy, sad, angry, scared, loving, curious, smart, confident, nervous, and anxious, but about real life stuff. I want to be able to create stories in my head again and use them to create things or simply daydream. I want to think about my interests and use them for inspiration.
I don’t want to change. I don’t want to feel different. I don’t want to forget who I am or what I like or who I want to be. I want to feel like myself again.
It’s only been 4 weeks of this hell, and it feels like my life has completely changed. I’m trying my best. I’m in therapy. I’m trying to stay grounded. I’m trying to accept that this feeling is just for now, and that it’ll pass, that I’ll get back to normal. I’m on an SSRI for my anxiety. But it’s so hard. Feeling detached from everyone and everything is so hard. Trying to distract myself is torturous. I feel like I’m missing out in everything happening around me, even things I’m a direct participant in. I just want to feel normal again. I know it takes time, I know it’s not a linear process, I know you don’t just snap back out, I know it doesn’t all come back at once, I know it gets better. I’ve been here before, for 4 whole months, with a few minor episodes here and there and I got out before. I’ve been out for over 3 years. 3 years of ups and downs, but they were real and present. Now I can barely remember those 3 years, those three years since I graduated college, as I grew as a person, had fun with my friends, got back into all of my interests and discovered new ones, experienced great things like visiting Niagara Falls with my friends, reconnecting with some friends from high school, participating in a charity event, losing my dog of 14 years, finally getting a job. I was present for all of these things. All of these events. I felt real emotion. So why? Why put me back here again? In this bizarre state where nothing feels right. I want to feel like me again.
I keep having random flashes of random memories of my past, either if other times I felt dissociated or it might just be state specific memory, like there’s this feeling like I’ve always been like this, but I know I wasn’t. Memories that I merely had no reason to think about. Yet the memories I want to remember feel distant like they aren’t mine. Or like the emotions attached to them aren’t real. I know they’re real. So why can’t I just wake up? Why can’t I just feel like myself again? Why does it feel like I’ve changed? That I’m somehow too far gone?
@@dimetrodon2250 really nothing has changed its just your brain being a douchebag. It will go away in time you have to fake it until you make it
Are sleeping prolblems and fear of schizophrenia similar to depersonalization?
@@dimetrodon2250 how are you now?
@@dimetrodon2250how r u
Hey Shaun! Have you ever heard of a DPDR wave coming because someone expected it to happen? For instance, today I did something which normally causes me anxiety, so I became “hyper aware” and started checking myself for DPDR, and then it happened.
Hi, thanks for your comment 😊 Remember that ultimately, DPDR is just a symptom of anxiety so when the symptoms vary, it's just your anxiety levels going up and down, and certain situations / environments can change them. I know it might seem difficult to believe but you actually have complete control over it 😊 Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website, starting with this one: www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
I recently got DP, I’m also 15 so it seems weird I’ve got this so young but I do tend to stress a lot tho and I had a strange dream one night and I woke up confused about why I felt weird and I started to not feel real kinda like I was watching my life through a TV and nothing felt normal. I didn’t feel connected to my body and I still feel this way and now it’s still happening to me. Now a few days after that I’ve calmed down from my first little panic attack and and I’ve calmed down and I’m just waiting for it to go away. If anyone has any tips on how to help it go away faster I would love that
Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Hey Shaun I have a question.
Now since a week I developed a negative sleep association.
Even if Im really tired and haven’t slept for a day when I lay down in bed I get anxious and my heart rate goes up. I have to be really really tired to fall asleep without even noticing but so far Ive noticed that Im just laying around and trying my best to fall asleep but it just doesn’t work out. What can I do? Any advice. Would love to hear
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
I am here beacuse i have a big problem.. when i get better from dpdr.. it feels everything so good again.. but even if i am better i feel sad beacuse i got this.. i feel very depressed like i still can t enjoy my life again, i need help with that… when i first got this i wasn t so depressed.. i was very motivated that i will feel better
Remember that depression can happen along with DP, just like with all anxiety-based conditions. If you’re feeling particularly depressed, please do speak to a medical professional as soon as possible. But in the meantime don't worry, DP and anxiety are not permanent and you can and will recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/is-depersonalization-permanent/
It could still just be hanging around ! I felt that way too !
@@MarianneManning-cp7miHello Marianne. Do you felt like the colors of the world were off? Or like the world felt off? And how did you know you were recovering? The symptoms were getting milder?
Did you felt aswell that you didnt think like your normal self?
And when you recovered everything Went back to 100% normal?
The worst thing is i cant sleep normal after my weed experince my dreams get sometimes too strong where i get a pankc attack beceause i think i become shizophrenic but then nothing happens but still after 1 year i suffer deeply
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
Like i could see everything fine but everything feels off and its really creepy and im thinking what if its not dpdr anymore and you recovered and you're looking at life differently because of it
I got dp due to my traumatic reaction to home sickness when i was in pre military trial for consecutive 4 days.
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
@@Dpmanual Thank you. Many people have reported that the weed 'caused' it since i started to smoke weed after developing DP, but it neither caused, triggered it, except when the weed was too strong and i didn't like it, i continued, but unpleasant strains, or smoking unpredictable strains with particular genetic profiles such as Skunk #1 was unpleasant but that's about it. but i have these feelings brought on which is the DP and anxiety association between each other which has bidirectional relationship is what one triggers another, and anything i don't like and my body dislikes, it can trigger it. Things that step my emotions out of comfort zone can cause this. Violence can trigger this for me. Alarming situations cna trigger this. This does not have one cause only.
@@unraveledultimatefatehey do u feel better?
Hi I wondering if my situation could relate to others. I had my first episode of depersonalization for a few months when I was about 10, that passed and I got it quite bad again during my school exams at age 15. That went on for a few months but It gradually got better. Perhaps the fact that I was in school kinda kept me distracted at times enough to somewhat recover.
I’m now 22 and get short bouts of depersonalization here a there but not bad at all. The problem is that the one thing I’ve been dealing with constantly for the last 5-7 years is a lack of emotions. Also an empty mind, I hardly hear any thoughts in my head.
I’ve recently done 3 months as an inpatient in a mental health hospital because as Marianne experienced, I was coming around the fact that without my emotions, life had lost all meaning. Unfortunately I have come out the same as I went it. I’m now wondering if the numbness is the one thing that stuck around for my bad bouts of depersonalization when I was 15.
Like Marianne I went to a couple psychiatrists who told me I was anhedonic due to depression but I was like ‘I’m not depressed though’. I can get through my day okay I just can’t connect with any of my emotions. Which does in ways make life hard to get through in its own way.
Is there something I should be working on. Perhaps really committing to more behavior activation and doing more activities? Perhaps that will gradually draw out my emotions?
The difference between me and Marianne being that for me it’s been many years since I’ve properly been connected with my emotions and similarly years since the main other major depersonalization symptoms have passed.
Side note:
Also sucks that mental health professionals in my experience know very little about depersonalization. I mentioned it multiple times to all the Doctors that were working with me during my inpatient stay and they never really asked more about my experince with depersonalization.
Excuse the long message. Thanks if you read it.
Hi Shaun, what's your opinion on Ashwaganda supplementation during DP?
I didn’t get dp feelings in like 2 weeks which is a great thing but I think I still can’t truly feel the moments and everything still feel a little disconnected sometimes and I can’t enjoy fully the moments that I used to. Iam scared that I feel better now but I can’t feel everything normal again and feel happiness is it gonna stay like that forever now?
Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/
The fact thay she first had to get her sleep on track seems to me that she first had to resolve her anxiety. Thus this makes me think this still an anxiety issue.
j'ai tellement peur de pas guérir de ça c'est vraiment flippant rassurer moi svp cela fait 1ans en ce moment la j'ai l'impression que c'est même pas moi qui écrit cela😢
Hey Shaun. Question if you don’t mind I’ve found your book really helpful but there is one symptom that bugs me and my anxiety latches on to and tells me is something different - it being anhedonia or emotional numbing. I just don’t feel the pleasure or excitement from things like I used to. Is this normal for DPDR?
Don’t worry, symptoms like emotional numbness are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
The thing with me id thay i dont fear the feeling of depersonalization itself, but i fear it not going away and this causes me to have dp, does this mean i have depersonalization disorder?
how can I not think about the DP/DR distracting myself, if I no longer care about anything about my life, because before entering it I had some bad news that I already couldn't get over and it brought me anxiety, and it had already created a depression in me I wasn't interested in anything anymore, and in this state I smoked a joint for the first time which made me enter the DP, now I've been in it for a month how can I not think about it if I no longer have anything to distract me since I don't I don't care about anything, and this feeling of zeroing out the emotions of DP doesn't make me face the cause of my depression before smoking, am I stuck like this??
How can I do it? Should I try to resolve the cause of the depression first and then go back to not thinking about the PD and making it disappear??
Thank you
Is it also possible to feel as though you’re reliving the same day? Or things happened already? Can dpdr be the cause or is that something different?
Don't worry, concentration + memory issues are very common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/
How are you now
Please tell me what you did
how do i stop checking my symptoms like idk how to stop checking my symptoms its annoying i even catch my self doing it please give me tips
Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊
I have a question, i had a panic attack at work and after that i've had dpdr and now im 5 month in and im starting to feel concected and i can almost live like a human again and but i still have a lot of eye floaters visual snow when i look at the sky or a white wall for an example and the 2d vision. My eyes is always so tiered and its almost hurting behind and around the eye. Is this still dpdr or something after because its so annoying. Or is this somekind of after effect from month of really hard dpdr ? Does this go away aswell. Im zooning out just to give my eyes some rest? I would be really glad if someone thats been thru this answered. Hope you have an amazing day :) and for everyone thats suffers i will get better i promise i went thru hell and back i feels like and im finally to feel like a human
It will go away !!
She describes exactly how bad mine used to be! It was horrific. I felt like i had dementia. Couldn't think into the last minutes or next minutes at all. Couldn't remember yesterday/last week/last month. Would sit outside in the cold and not even feel cold at all. Would sit in 100 degree weather and not feel hot at all. Would have no sense i was even outside or sense my surroundings. Couldn't feel anything for my child or anyone else.Could feel no emotions at all not even sadness,i felt like i had a lobotomy.. I lost my ability to visualize in my head. I felt like i was on a bad LSD trip nonstop for years. I did LSD when younger and it felt exactly like it except didn't have any of the good feelings of it. I lost all sense of time. A 20 minute shower would feel like 4 hours. I felt like i was in another dimension or universe .
I couldn't feel my body, i felt like a ghost head floating around. Nothing felt real at all.My soul would feel like it was outside of my body, either to the sides front or back of my body but never in my body. I got mine due to coming off of a benzos (thank god she didn't get on those!) and I had over 175 symptoms all together including Akathesia .I could hardly read or write or talk. I couldn't watch tv for 3 years because i couldn't remember what i seen 5 minutes ago, as if my brain wasn't processing new information at all. It gradually over the last 8 years has lessened in severity and intensity and symptoms have dropped off thank god. I still have some minor DP/DR though,more minor memory processing issues.I'm starting to feel emotions again but not back to my normal self yet.
True they tried to label me and gaslighted me and what i was going through. They tried to throw other meds at me but i was too terrified to ever touch another medication.I was beyond traumatized and still to this day scared of Drs and medications due to what i've been through.I don't trust them at all and learned how little they know about the drugs they prescribe or the side effects and withdrawals they cause. I also now have chemical sensitivity and have bad reactions to literally everything, even certain foods and especially anything with alcohol in it at all. ( Prior to my benzo injury, i never had any allergies whatsoever) .I'm still on vistaril and clonodine but it never helped my DP/DR any.
God bless everyone out there going through this. Please stay strong and remember it will get better with time. We lost a lot of people coming off of benzos because they couldn't take feeling the suffering another minute . I hate they couldn't pull through and know it was only temporary and not permanent .
❤❤
@@Waves353 I'm so sorry that you're going through this too. Yeah I'm her lol . We had to pause the group because I was unable to manage it by myself and I'm now busy trying to live again too so I don't have much energy and time to give anymore
@@SurvivingBenzos it’s great that you’re trying to live again. What a long freaking road. The other forums seem sterile where you can’t let rip and makes it lonelier. Thanks JJ( feel like I know you and it’s a bit creepy 🤣)
@@Waves353 yeah I hate that. It's one reason I pushed to keep the group going for so long because it's one of the safest groups where people can talk about the hell they're going through without worrying about being judged or called negative for posting about the hell they're going through.
I seriously wouldn't have made it without that group . It's sad that all the good active admins left and near impossible to find anyone that would be able to help everyday to keep it running and would truly care about the group and the members in it. I did it by myself for a good year or so and between that and helping run it for like 7 years I was totally burnt out.
I keep hoping one of these days I'll find it in me to open it again and try to train new admins to keep it running
@@Waves353 it really does help to hear from others who've had it as severe. Boy can I relate! It used to be so triggering to hear that when I could hardly make it from my bed to the bathroom and just moving my body to sit outside felt like a marathon . There was no way I'd ever be able to go on a vacation or do normal people things at all. It took all I had just to survive each second closed in my room away from people because the smallest overstimulation/ stress made the symptoms million times worse on me
Hey i have a question. What if i still research and think about dp and dr but not in a bad way (without fear)? Is it still not letting brain recover like fear or is it good.
I'd recommend waiting until you're 100% fully recovered before doing any research 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-the-questions-are-the-condition/
One tip I’ll say is what i got from the manual “Any and all thoughts of DPDR are completely useless”
One more thing pls🙏🏻 I don't know if you have been on antidepressants, but I have been on them for 6 months and they have helped with my mood, but my fear is that antidepressants cause even more emotional numbing and depersonalization in some cases and how will I know that I am better if Which symptoms are side effects of medications? I was experiencing dp/dr before medications and i still feel it because i know that are side effect of medications too , i’m feelimg so confused , really?!!Shaunn
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
I also can’t give you advice on this but I can tell you antidepressants made me feel like a zombie . Just be careful comming off taper slowly because that can cause other symptoms as well !
@@DpmanualI’m visiting a psychiatrist and i have a lot of intrusive thoughts and racing thoughts and i just can’t get stop thinking because every minute they come to me as automatic away . I’m scared because he said we need to eliminate if the are OCD or just from anxiety but before anxiet i didn’t have them before i’m so scared if i have OcD
10 yıldır aralıksız bir şekilde bunu yaşıyorum ve psikoloğum çözüm olmadığını söyledi.
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
i am struggling with anxiety at the moment. i cant seem to get out of my head and i have ocd thoughts about dpdr and i disassociate alot. is it normal to not be able to get out of my head while having anxiety?
This was me for almost two years !!
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi what helped you stay present and in the moment? dpdr is really exhausting 😔
Excuse my language but how the fuck can a doctor just so easily inject an antipsychotic into a patient for a migraine?? 5% of people who take an antipsychotic develop tardive dyskonesia and adverse reactions to them are actually extremely common. Feel very sorry for her - being treated with something that literally affects your brains function and chemistry for a migraine is ridiculous.
As someone who developed DPDR and akathisia from an adverse reaction to Zoloft and currently 2 years + suffering protected withdrawal I can fully understand.
The dangers of these pharmaceutical drugs needs to be more well known. Doctors just don’t understand what they’re prescribing and it’s dangerous.
When she uttered the phrase “we’ve never seen anyone have a reaction to this” it sent shivers down my spine. Everyone in the prescribed med injury community have heard that exact line when they were gaslit by medical professionals about their symptoms being somatic rather than being induced by the damage of the drugs.
Glad she finally recovered.
je remarque que a chaque fois que j'ai une attaque de panique mon état s'améliore après. est ce que y'a il des gens qui sont comme moi
So is it common to not be able to cry with this?
Nevermind lol
Hi shaun. Is it normal for me fear the feelings depersonalization. For this is what causes it
Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
1 year of dpdr 🎉🎉
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
4 years so far, I had gotten it when I was 13. I can feel it slowly fading away if that makes sense?
Hey, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. If they're not familiar with DPDR you can show them this video which will clear things up for them: ruclips.net/video/ANzyteEPKt8/видео.html
Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Exactly how ive folt 24/7 for 23 years.
Don't worry, it doesn't matter how long it’s lasted, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
Hello! My situation is the following: Ive been much better, my symptoms are getting milder and milder that they dont affect me anymore. BUT i feel that something is off, hard to explain, I dont have derealization, everything seems normal to me, my memory is better, my brainfog is better, everything is better. My only concern is that I feel kinda off, like not myself. Do you felt that in your recovery Journey?
Yes!!! 💯 I felt just that way like I was good but something still was off ! It gets better
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Did you got to 100% back? (I know that going thru something like that transform you a lil bit) But did you went back to your way of thinking? For example i dont worry about stuff of life
I felt like that as well. I am not 100% recovered, but it is a huge difference between how i am feeling right now and how i felt when i developed it. I also have some moments when i feel i am 100% recovered and you definitely recognise what is like to be normal, like anxiety dissapears, you are wondering why are you scared because everything cames back to normal in that moments, but as you said, after some good hours or minutes of feeling normal, i start to be disconnected. It doesn’t feel like a dream world as it was in the beggining, but it feels like you are sleepy and not 100% awake and lucid. I see the differences especially when i am driving. When i have that breaks when i feel normal i see very well and i feel so awake but when i feel disconnected i feel like i am in a bubble, like i am drank, but without dizziness, idk how to call it, disconnected i think.
I think it is a way to recovery.
I wanted to ask, are the symptoms and causes of depersonalization also apply to intrusive thoughts?
Intrusive thoughts and feelings of Depersonalization are both common symptoms of anxiety 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
is it common to not recognize family, like i recognize they’re appearance but sometimes they just feel like strangers, like i never even knew them even though i know that’s my dad ect
Don’t worry, experiences like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
@@Dpmanual thank you, even my boyfriend feels like a complete stranger and i feel so bad. i’m not sure what to do
@@addisoc5195are you any better I feel the same I’m so scared
I suffer from DPDR, but I always have low blood pressure, is this normal?
Yes
Bro I recently got panic attack from marijuana, ever since my minds not feeling well I'm imagining any kind of symtoms. Can I recover from it without medication ?
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
And if you have any further questions on medication please don’t hesitate to speak to a medical professional 😊
@@Dpmanual thank you my conditions were getting better like I can sleep without any thoughts and I feel less fear. What keeps bothering me was should I take medication or am I getting better or not
Why do my dreams seem very strange and I cannot distinguish whether they really happened to me or just a dream and I remember things that I do not know whether they happened or not?
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
And memory issues are common too:
www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
@@Dpmanual that is normal ? That hppen just at morning at night don't happen
I fell like i am gonna fie😢😢😢
How are you now
Hey, question; you are saying that is important to think about other thinks, and not to focus on dpdr, en then it will slowly go away, and eventually like it never happened. But when you make your videos, you think all the time about dpdr when talking about it right? Don’t you ever have that same feeling again? After you’ve recovered?
Hi Michy, great question 😊 Yes, I talk about DPDR all the time but because the underlying feelings of anxiety that caused and perpetuated the condition are gone, I can speak it about from a rational and non-anxious perspective. So it doesn't trigger more feelings of anxiety / DPDR. Read this, I think you'll find it interesting 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-come-back/
What activities can we do to distract from depersonalisation?
Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊
Im going through this exact same thing after a bad reaction to Wellbutrin. Marianne if you could please reach out to me, id be forever grateful.
How are you now
Errr that can't be legal. Just so giving someone medecine that isn't treating what they issue is when the patient consents because they want pain treatment .... j
Hey i want to connect to share my recovery story😊
How did you recover, say the right way?
@@alaaalhosary8309 heyy its not a one day thing.. it surely takes time.. but you willl be fine and fully recovered.. trust me
@@Kidseasydrawing369
I want to contact you, maybe?
@@Kidseasydrawing369 What's your name on Instagram?
Sounds good! Drop me a line and we can arrange 😊
Shaun please reply me loss of appetite is also a symptom 😭
Loss of appetite is very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions: www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/anxiety-lose-appetite
Can someone tell me what underlying anxiety did marianne had?
I didn’t have underlying anxiety.. I had a reaction to a med given to me . I developed akathisa which then caused me terror and panic .. my whole brain chemistry changed causing me a multitude of symptoms including dpdr
I didn’t have underlying anxiety. I had a reaction to a medication that was given to me that caused me akathisa with terrible anxiety and terror, changing my brain chemistry causing a multitude of symptoms, including dpdr
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Oh Alright. Thanks for sharing your story! this by far resonated the most with me
I disagree with marijuana legalization and its harms outweight the benefits, although i would not ban it again altogether since many use either way and encourage others, many as well should not be exempted from using just because many have been offeres by those whose body agrees with thc. Things happen, just like a wrong friend drinks beer with an experienced and has a traumatic reaction. Just like i hate high potency weed and tolerate low potency ones. Everyone to each preference and good luck that she recovered and is healthy now.
Hey Shaun, I'm almost 100% recovered. I have small episodes of DPDR (derealization/depersonalization), and they don't happen every day. They hardly bother me anymore. But one thing that's been bothering me and interfering quite a bit is the strangeness of my own voice, well, not exactly strangeness, but rather an excessive attention to it and my expressions of emotions. Have you ever met someone who has gone through this? Do you know how to help me?
its gonna go away
@@audiovisualss Did you experience this too?
You should book a call with Shaun ❤ he will help you
@@MarianneManning-cp7mi Thanks for the advice! I actually went ahead and got 'The DP Manual,' but it was a bit of a splurge for me. As for a direct call with Shaun, that's something I unfortunately can't afford at the moment. Plus, my English skills are a work in progress; I can comprehend and read just fine, but stringing together sentences and speaking fluently? Well, let's just say it's a bit of a challenge! Ahahahhah.
yes i suffered badly for weeks couldn't sleep had constant panic attacks had the worst symptoms imaginable but look now im slowly back recovering i did have a minor setback because i decided to smoke weed after not fully recovering but im doing well im at around 70% recovered now@@samuel.almeida.10
Can I ask you something?
Yes !!
Is it normal for DPDR to feel 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is this temporary or chronic?
Yes, as with all anxiety-based conditions it's common to have periods where you're experiencing it 24/7 😊 I know it can be frustrating but it will become less constant and fade away and stop as your recovery continues. Watch this:
ruclips.net/video/vrmXFzfJAa4/видео.htmlsi=HTaB8QBDM7sHNp-Z&t=196
How are you
why i lost connection with my head? why my head scared my?
Insular cortex offline
DPDR symptoms
@@nvb455 what?
@@MarcelFerrin-please explain
@@marthasisco9678 it’s a trigger caused by the nervous system its usual
It makes you feel
Disassociated
Is it normal to feel dpdr in dreams
Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/
Its hydroxyzine the medicine and akathesia is brutal
Do you have aka also?
@@Waves353 I used to i recovered from it though. mine was from benzo withdrawal and ssri withdrawal
@@Waves353not anymore you can heal from all of it
@@Waves353 I had it
@@Waves353 I got it from a med
That injection first day when you were ok, in hospital; did nothing to you.
You just feel like an insane person but you arent but cant control yourself in life
Don’t worry, fears of going crazy are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frightening but they’re harmless and temporary and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
3282 Declan Shoal
I have all this simptoms for 28 yers😢
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long it’s lasted, you can and will recover 100% 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
@@Dpmanual Thank you❤️
@@valentinagjorgjioska374 Happy to help 😊