1/28/22 god i wish i could show this to my 13 year old self and be like "you fucking made this, you did this, you've actually made *something* of your emotions" and i'd wonder how they'd react, would they be proud of me? or would they find me boring, would they even relate to me? but then i have to ask my current self, why does any of that even matter, why do i value the opinions of my past self over my current self? also just adding this comment because i feel it might be interesting to see how my opinions on listening to it change over time 1/28/23. Its been a year now since i released the forgotten, its funny apart of me feels like i released it last week, and another part feels like it was a life time ago. i thought it would be interesting to look back on each song Lifeless. Honestly yeah i dont have much to say about this one, it sets the tone i was going for very well, nice simple soundscape. Sunder. Okay this is going to be a problem throughout the whole ep but uhhhh the EP as a whole wasnt mixed?? at all?? meaning some songs are way too loud and others are way too quiet, point is this song is too loud lmao. but talking just about the song itself im still really happy with this one, if Lifeless captured the emotionless fog of being post abused, Sunder captures the feelings of being torn apart desperately clawing to figure out what the fuck even happened. Faceless. andddddd back to the emotionless fog we go, im overall pretty "meh" about this song, it exists, its chill, but theres not much to look into or hear. Why Must I Fall In Love. Heres another song that exposes one of this EPs problems. all of these songs were made for tumblr/tiktok, and as such they werent made to be put into a EP/Album. and while i really like this song from the simple melody to the for lack of a better word very "human" way the melody is played. but i have to admit this song doesnt quite fit the theme of the EP, or at the very least should of been put near the end of the EP. Maze of Death. This is the first song on the EP where i really just dont really like it, mostly because the main melody just sounds like a basic door chime and doesnt work in terms of evoking emotion at all, at least its short lol. Happy. This is another one of those songs where like, its fine? its neat, its cool, but looking back im unsure if the high tempo style of this song meshes well with the EP as a whole. Fuzz. Alright we are finally back on track in terms of songs that really do actually fit the EP. yeah i like this one. Who is Depths of Escapism. this song feels like a warm comfy blanket after a rough day, and it is, very welcome. Thank you. i dont think this one makes sense on the EP, but i do want to give the context this song was written under. basically during November 2021 i was posting every day to my tumblr and as such trying to make a song every day, Thank you was one of the last songs i wrote during that little challenge and i wanted to thank everyone for sticking by me through the challenge while also capturing my scattered brain from writing 30 songs in one month. and i think under that context the song works very well, however listening to it under the context of the EP its a little too hopeful, little too high pitched, and a little too rushed. Exausted. theres really nothing i can say about this one? its nice white noise, sometimes you need a nice little bit of white noise, its cute, but also too quiet due to the EP's lack of mixing. Despondency. iirc this was one of the first songs i ever wrote and it was written with the idea of becoming a animation so its a little slow/long for my taste and uh, its another fine song? its a nice little comfort simple melody, not my favorite but its alright. i will say this EP is getting a little stale in having so many of these little comfort melody songs, i wish it had more songs like Sunder lol. Haven't you noticed? Nothing Changes. i have a soft spot towards these old freestyle on a keyboard songs i used to make, i dont have much to say other then i think this is one of the better songs on the EP. The Void of my Dejection. please,,,, depths from a year ago,,, we've had enough simple comforting melodies,,,, Missing. fun fact this song nearly got cut from the EP and was only put on it because it was a fan favorite. im very happy it made the EP as i think structurally its the best song on the EP, i just wish it went a little slower and built up the climax a little more. Tired. i remember when i first made this one being really proud of it as it felt like a "real" song, and while i still agree that its very well made i do feel its lacking some personality and im not sure if it fits the EP's theme at all, but all in all its a nice song. I Think Ill Be Okay. okay but i find it really funny how this song was designed to be the EP closer and then after this we still have one more song??? just all around weird EP pacing lmao. Welcome to the Depths of Escapism. Now while I think Ill Be Okay was made to be the EP closer i do think this song works much better as a closer as it fits the theme of the album very well while still being a little more upbeat/looking forward to the future. all in all THE FORGOTTEN, Its uh, a first EP thats for sure lol. i think its major flaw is just being too long for its own good, causing some songs to be put on the EP when they really shouldnt of been. but also there arent any songs i skip while listening back to this, and for a first EP ill fucking take that! like its pretty alright!
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1/28/22 god i wish i could show this to my 13 year old self and be like "you fucking made this, you did this, you've actually made *something* of your emotions" and i'd wonder how they'd react, would they be proud of me? or would they find me boring, would they even relate to me? but then i have to ask my current self, why does any of that even matter, why do i value the opinions of my past self over my current self?
also just adding this comment because i feel it might be interesting to see how my opinions on listening to it change over time
1/28/23.
Its been a year now since i released the forgotten, its funny apart of me feels like i released it last week, and another part feels like it was a life time ago.
i thought it would be interesting to look back on each song
Lifeless.
Honestly yeah i dont have much to say about this one, it sets the tone i was going for very well, nice simple soundscape.
Sunder.
Okay this is going to be a problem throughout the whole ep but uhhhh the EP as a whole wasnt mixed?? at all?? meaning some songs are way too loud and others are way too quiet, point is this song is too loud lmao.
but talking just about the song itself im still really happy with this one, if Lifeless captured the emotionless fog of being post abused, Sunder captures the feelings of being torn apart desperately clawing to figure out what the fuck even happened.
Faceless.
andddddd back to the emotionless fog we go, im overall pretty "meh" about this song, it exists, its chill, but theres not much to look into or hear.
Why Must I Fall In Love.
Heres another song that exposes one of this EPs problems. all of these songs were made for tumblr/tiktok, and as such they werent made to be put into a EP/Album. and while i really like this song from the simple melody to the for lack of a better word very "human" way the melody is played. but i have to admit this song doesnt quite fit the theme of the EP, or at the very least should of been put near the end of the EP.
Maze of Death.
This is the first song on the EP where i really just dont really like it, mostly because the main melody just sounds like a basic door chime and doesnt work in terms of evoking emotion at all, at least its short lol.
Happy.
This is another one of those songs where like, its fine? its neat, its cool, but looking back im unsure if the high tempo style of this song meshes well with the EP as a whole.
Fuzz.
Alright we are finally back on track in terms of songs that really do actually fit the EP. yeah i like this one.
Who is Depths of Escapism.
this song feels like a warm comfy blanket after a rough day, and it is, very welcome.
Thank you.
i dont think this one makes sense on the EP, but i do want to give the context this song was written under. basically during November 2021 i was posting every day to my tumblr and as such trying to make a song every day, Thank you was one of the last songs i wrote during that little challenge and i wanted to thank everyone for sticking by me through the challenge while also capturing my scattered brain from writing 30 songs in one month.
and i think under that context the song works very well, however listening to it under the context of the EP its a little too hopeful, little too high pitched, and a little too rushed.
Exausted.
theres really nothing i can say about this one? its nice white noise, sometimes you need a nice little bit of white noise, its cute, but also too quiet due to the EP's lack of mixing.
Despondency.
iirc this was one of the first songs i ever wrote and it was written with the idea of becoming a animation so its a little slow/long for my taste and uh,
its another fine song? its a nice little comfort simple melody, not my favorite but its alright. i will say this EP is getting a little stale in having so many of these little comfort melody songs, i wish it had more songs like Sunder lol.
Haven't you noticed? Nothing Changes.
i have a soft spot towards these old freestyle on a keyboard songs i used to make, i dont have much to say other then i think this is one of the better songs on the EP.
The Void of my Dejection.
please,,,, depths from a year ago,,, we've had enough simple comforting melodies,,,,
Missing.
fun fact this song nearly got cut from the EP and was only put on it because it was a fan favorite.
im very happy it made the EP as i think structurally its the best song on the EP, i just wish it went a little slower and built up the climax a little more.
Tired.
i remember when i first made this one being really proud of it as it felt like a "real" song, and while i still agree that its very well made i do feel its lacking some personality and im not sure if it fits the EP's theme at all, but all in all its a nice song.
I Think Ill Be Okay.
okay but i find it really funny how this song was designed to be the EP closer and then after this we still have one more song??? just all around weird EP pacing lmao.
Welcome to the Depths of Escapism.
Now while I think Ill Be Okay was made to be the EP closer i do think this song works much better as a closer as it fits the theme of the album very well while still being a little more upbeat/looking forward to the future.
all in all THE FORGOTTEN, Its uh, a first EP thats for sure lol.
i think its major flaw is just being too long for its own good, causing some songs to be put on the EP when they really shouldnt of been. but also there arent any songs i skip while listening back to this, and for a first EP ill fucking take that! like its pretty alright!