I cried at the ending. It’s hard to think about the relationship that could have been if our families would let us coexist regardless of ours and their beliefs
You’re an amazing guy for pushing through the hurt and pain to bring awareness to what the Order is doing! You can tell it all comes from love for your family! I never thought about the fact that your mom was pushed into the relationship by the only motherly figure in her life. When your parents tell you something is okay, you trust them because they’re your parents. It’s so terrible to put all of this adult stuff onto children when they don’t even have a chance of making decisions for themselves.
Oh, Eskel. I’m sending you a big hug from Ohio. I’m so sorry that this cult has caused you, your family, and so many others so much pain. God wouldn’t want that. You and your sisters are so incredibly brave and strong, to not only leave but to now speak out about what you went through. I’m so proud of you. 🤗💜
I have been waiting for you to talk about your mom. I’m so sorry Eskel! I can’t imagine having such a kind, loving son and not being in his life. You’ve got a virtual mama in West Virginia buddy!! Keep speaking your truth, they can NEVER take that from you!! Big air hugs!!
I know that I always say this, but I really hope your mom makes it out one day. You and your siblings deserve a mom who prioritizes you and your safety. It’s sad her sister brought her into this. Sending lots of love and good vibes your way. Good, but very sad, video Eskel 💛
Ugh I cried at the end😭 I’m pregnant so this is not helping with my already screwed up emotional state!!! Lol I hope your family sees how great you, Amanda, rachel and Kammi are. Religion doesn’t define a person or their heart ❤️
Eskel, this was hands down the best video I’ve seen on your channel. Thank you for doing this video and allowing yourself to be so vulnerable in this. The emotions hit hard. So hard. I can see the happiness and the sadness at the same time. I truly pray for your mother whether she decides to stay in or not. It has to be extremely hard and difficult for her. But I also pray for you 4 that are out. A lot of healing has to be done but watching you guys over the last year or so, I have no doubt that you guys will figure it out. ❤
This is so sad. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. All of you I hope these things will end. I wish all the fathers would realize their own mistakes and I hope the next generation has less struggle and more reunions that are hopeful.
Eskel, the Lord is with you. I am so sorry this hurts you. I am praying that one day your family will be all together again in a safe and loving place.
That part where you meet with your little siblings made me cry. I can see how happy not only _you_ are but _they_ are as well. I hope more of your siblings find their way out so you can be together.
watching this episode here with your experiences & feelings has me in absolute tears I really hope sometime soon you'll be reunited with your family again.
I recently read Lois Borne's book 'Conversations with a witch'. Lois was psychic and often communed with spirits. In that book, a chapter called 'Communion' talks about the afterlife - she spoke to a deceased friend and learned some things about it - everything in it was my idea of the afterlife - no religion rules it, you arrive and all your ancestors are waiting for you, it sounds peaceful and wonderful. It was eyeopening and confirming - and not hard to believe. It gives great comfort.
It was a wonderful chapter, really confirmed my own ideas of the afterlife. I don't fear death - what I do fear is leaving my projects unfinished- a book I am writing - I fear not finishing that before I pass. I have no kids, so that would be my legacy...
I can't say 100% what happens because I'm still alive obviously but I'm a paranormal investigator with my husband and I can say there's definitely some sort of afterlife
A witch divines satanically, every one of them will admit it, so don't believe any such deception. Jesus Christ is the only way, the truth and the life! Not a church, but Jesus Christ, and where He is there is LIBERTY! 2 Cor 3:17. These evil churches have crucified Him all over again and it's all wrong. Any church that imprisons and enslaves people in the name of God is obviously false and should be shut down.
My heart broke for you when I watched this episode and it just broke again. The joy when you saw your family again was just beautiful. I’m So sorry you have to experience this fracture of your family due to coercion and control. I hope that someday your Mom and siblings can all learn that they are living a lie and that freedom from control is so liberating.
Hi Eskel. Trying to rest my algorithm to pull you and Amanda up as independent creators first. Ty for continuing to share the hard parts of your story.
I know it's hard, but the story isn't over. Hopefully one day your mom will realize her worth. She is an intelligent and capable woman, and she and her children deserve better.
This was heartbreaking. The fact that the brainwashing that the cult is able do is very sad. To destroy families in the name of leadership, afterlife. I cried for you and your siblings.
This is one of your best videos. You were vulnerable and authentic. I pray your family sees this and recognizes the true love and compassion you carry for them. May they find their freedom.
Thank you Eskel for sharing and being vulnerable. I am sorry that this has to be so painful. I know this video will help many people. Sending you and your family much love.
Watching those kids giving their “testimony” or whatever it’s called just gives me the chills and the creeps. Evidence of brainwashing. So glad you and your sisters got out.
I really like this video. This video has heart and will really touch people. These are the kind of videos that you should put out more often. I know it's kind of hard to do that every time but these videos are very well done. My heart goes out to you and your family. And you're right this is a cult and it is destructive to families. May the love and peace of God surround you. Thank you eskel. I'll send this message from North Carolina.
I am so sorry your mom felt the need or calling or whatever it was to go back. She missed out on a pretty awesome opportunity. You must have been devastated.
You've come so far and it's incredible, but it's okay to not be okay sometimes. Healing is a process, and some feelings don't go away even after years. Keep pushing forward, you can do amazing things.
Watching you, Amanda and Kami has made me think more than once that the greatest gift your mother gave all of you was your critical thinking. Without it you wouldn't be able to see the inconsistencies and the holes in the rhetoric. I am afraid that she is too entrenched to be able to leave, but I hope she gifts your younger siblings with that same insight so that they can one day join you and the girls. Stay strong, Eskel.
You are going to be a turning point, a linchpin, in your family’s line. YOU ARE GOING TO FREE EVERY GENERATION AFTER YOU. Your children, will have a loving father. Your children will have the gift of agency. Your children will know their father. Your children will be loved unconditionally. It is a blessing worth waiting for. Until it is entirely yours, however, I hope my love and acceptance of you, and the others in this community; and most importantly Christ’s love for you, will sustain you until then. ❤️❤️❤️ Also, just in case no one has told you this today: YOU ARE WORTHY. YOU ARE ENOUGH. I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. It is exciting watching you grow and become stronger and wiser everyday. Thank you, for the price mage and gift of being able to see that. 🙏
Eskel I am so happy for you to get out of the Order, but so sad for how your family abandoned you and your sisters, You are a brave, loving guy. Keep your chin up.
It’s a beautiful family…sorry sweetie. I’ll be your adoptive grandma in Alabama if you want, I would love it. I grew up in Utah and am fascinated with all things ex-mo and offshoots.
The order is culture of raising children, i cant even put into words the support of bringing a child into the world. It's understandable a mother would have a hard time leaving the community... I wish more focus was on the metal health and growth of a child. Instead it's toxic cuz leaders view women and children as resources, property not individuals.
I was so sad your mom went back. You can tell how much she loves you all and wants you all to be together. Hopefully one day. I was curious about your little sisters. Are they approaching marriage age soon? Do you think your mom will allow them to get married before they turn 18? Or do you think any of them might follow you to the outside?
Ohhh sweet Eskel I seen your video and I just wanted to reach through the phone and give you a big hug, I don’t have a family either I went no contact with all of my family bc they where abusive as well I never grew up in a polygamist family, so I don’t understand at that but I did come from a narcissist family I’m in Utah, if you need anything plz let me know; even if it is as simple as a hug
I was so happy to see your mom and all of you guys reunite. Sadly, your mom chose to go back to the cult. I hope your mom and the rest of your siblings will decide to leave the cult for a better life one day.
Matthew 19:29 And everyone that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life.
Eskel is Ray the next in age to you? And was/is he your dad’s favourite? I’m so sorry for what you’ve all been through. I’m really late to watching this as I had to take a break from watching yours and your sister channel for a little while. My husband is going through EMDR therapy due to the trauma of a different orthodox religion he grew up in.
Have faith in the TRUE God that your family will see the light. I believe that God can do this. More of your siblings will leave. I don’t know about your Mom. God doesn’t want his children to suffer and He will hold the adults accountable for what they have done to your siblings. My heart breaks for you in the meantime. Thank you for sharing your story.
I cried at the ending. It’s hard to think about the relationship that could have been if our families would let us coexist regardless of ours and their beliefs
I cried at the end. Your mom is beautiful. Im sorry she got sucked back in.
You’re an amazing guy for pushing through the hurt and pain to bring awareness to what the Order is doing! You can tell it all comes from love for your family! I never thought about the fact that your mom was pushed into the relationship by the only motherly figure in her life. When your parents tell you something is okay, you trust them because they’re your parents. It’s so terrible to put all of this adult stuff onto children when they don’t even have a chance of making decisions for themselves.
Oh, Eskel. I’m sending you a big hug from Ohio. I’m so sorry that this cult has caused you, your family, and so many others so much pain. God wouldn’t want that. You and your sisters are so incredibly brave and strong, to not only leave but to now speak out about what you went through. I’m so proud of you. 🤗💜
I have been waiting for you to talk about your mom. I’m so sorry Eskel! I can’t imagine having such a kind, loving son and not being in his life. You’ve got a virtual mama in West Virginia buddy!! Keep speaking your truth, they can NEVER take that from you!! Big air hugs!!
I know that I always say this, but I really hope your mom makes it out one day. You and your siblings deserve a mom who prioritizes you and your safety. It’s sad her sister brought her into this. Sending lots of love and good vibes your way. Good, but very sad, video Eskel 💛
We should start a save Eskels mom and raise money to help her leave with her children! I would absolutely be on board with this!
Ugh I cried at the end😭 I’m pregnant so this is not helping with my already screwed up emotional state!!! Lol I hope your family sees how great you, Amanda, rachel and Kammi are. Religion doesn’t define a person or their heart ❤️
Eskel, this was hands down the best video I’ve seen on your channel. Thank you for doing this video and allowing yourself to be so vulnerable in this. The emotions hit hard. So hard. I can see the happiness and the sadness at the same time. I truly pray for your mother whether she decides to stay in or not. It has to be extremely hard and difficult for her. But I also pray for you 4 that are out. A lot of healing has to be done but watching you guys over the last year or so, I have no doubt that you guys will figure it out. ❤
This is so sad. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. All of you I hope these things will end. I wish all the fathers would realize their own mistakes and I hope the next generation has less struggle and more reunions that are hopeful.
Eskel, the Lord is with you. I am so sorry this hurts you. I am praying that one day your family will be all together again in a safe and loving place.
That part where you meet with your little siblings made me cry. I can see how happy not only _you_ are but _they_ are as well. I hope more of your siblings find their way out so you can be together.
Thank you, Eskel.
great to see them free and togather again
watching this episode here with your experiences & feelings has me in absolute tears I really hope sometime soon you'll be reunited with your family again.
I recently read Lois Borne's book 'Conversations with a witch'. Lois was psychic and often communed with spirits. In that book, a chapter called 'Communion' talks about the afterlife - she spoke to a deceased friend and learned some things about it - everything in it was my idea of the afterlife - no religion rules it, you arrive and all your ancestors are waiting for you, it sounds peaceful and wonderful. It was eyeopening and confirming - and not hard to believe. It gives great comfort.
Now i have to read that book. I can honestly say, that i am touched and see spirits and even pets wait for you on the other side.
It was a wonderful chapter, really confirmed my own ideas of the afterlife. I don't fear death - what I do fear is leaving my projects unfinished- a book I am writing - I fear not finishing that before I pass. I have no kids, so that would be my legacy...
@@TheJackdaw77 it will work out. You probably have many years on earth.
I can't say 100% what happens because I'm still alive obviously but I'm a paranormal investigator with my husband and I can say there's definitely some sort of afterlife
A witch divines satanically, every one of them will admit it, so don't believe any such deception. Jesus Christ is the only way, the truth and the life! Not a church, but Jesus Christ, and where He is there is LIBERTY! 2 Cor 3:17. These evil churches have crucified Him all over again and it's all wrong. Any church that imprisons and enslaves people in the name of God is obviously false and should be shut down.
My heart broke for you when I watched this episode and it just broke again. The joy when you saw your family again was just beautiful. I’m
So sorry you have to experience this fracture of your family due to coercion and control. I hope that someday your Mom and siblings can all learn that they are living a lie and that freedom from control is so liberating.
Eskel you sweet angel 😭😭 you have such a pure heart. I hate that your family is missing out on knowing the man you are today.
Hi Eskel. Trying to rest my algorithm to pull you and Amanda up as independent creators first. Ty for continuing to share the hard parts of your story.
12:27 the most telling fact about you, Eskel, is that what you value most in life is quality relationships with those you love.
You are so lucky to have such amazing sisters, you are a very resilient person Eskel❤❤
"Most people don't have good relationships with their parents"
*clutches pearls*
Thank you for sharing the hard parts as well as the joys.
I know it's hard, but the story isn't over. Hopefully one day your mom will realize her worth. She is an intelligent and capable woman, and she and her children deserve better.
This was heartbreaking. The fact that the brainwashing that the cult is able do is very sad. To destroy families in the name of leadership, afterlife. I cried for you and your siblings.
Society in general has been brainwashed and programmed in general. Each of us is in one regard or another, we just don't want to believe we are.
This is one of your best videos. You were vulnerable and authentic. I pray your family sees this and recognizes the true love and compassion you carry for them. May they find their freedom.
Thanks!
So proud of you for your strength, healing, and progress.
Proud of you Eskle! 🤗🥰❤️🔥❤️🔥
Thank you Eskel for sharing and being vulnerable. I am sorry that this has to be so painful. I know this video will help many people. Sending you and your family much love.
Watching those kids giving their “testimony” or whatever it’s called just gives me the chills and the creeps. Evidence of brainwashing. So glad you and your sisters got out.
Oh Eskel. This was a beautiful video full of sadness but full of hope too. I admire your courage!
Sending you all the love Eskel! ❤️ 💔💕
I’m so proud of you! You’re an amazing young man.
I’m so sorry for what you’ve been put through ☹️🥺
I really like this video. This video has heart and will really touch people. These are the kind of videos that you should put out more often. I know it's kind of hard to do that every time but these videos are very well done. My heart goes out to you and your family. And you're right this is a cult and it is destructive to families. May the love and peace of God surround you. Thank you eskel. I'll send this message from North Carolina.
I am so sorry your mom felt the need or calling or whatever it was to go back. She missed out on a pretty awesome opportunity. You must have been devastated.
You’re amazing. Thank you for sharing
You've come so far and it's incredible, but it's okay to not be okay sometimes. Healing is a process, and some feelings don't go away even after years. Keep pushing forward, you can do amazing things.
Great video!!!
This is a really well done video ❤
Watching you, Amanda and Kami has made me think more than once that the greatest gift your mother gave all of you was your critical thinking. Without it you wouldn't be able to see the inconsistencies and the holes in the rhetoric. I am afraid that she is too entrenched to be able to leave, but I hope she gifts your younger siblings with that same insight so that they can one day join you and the girls. Stay strong, Eskel.
So sorry, Eskel. I hope she gets out of there again, once and for all!
I am so happy for you the journey and everything in the world and in the end it was worth in I little brother keep your head up
How many full siblings are left in the order? You and the others that have left are so strong. You will be an incredible resource when they do leave.
You are going to be a turning point, a linchpin, in your family’s line. YOU ARE GOING TO FREE EVERY GENERATION AFTER YOU. Your children, will have a loving father. Your children will have the gift of agency. Your children will know their father. Your children will be loved unconditionally.
It is a blessing worth waiting for. Until it is entirely yours, however, I hope my love and acceptance of you, and the others in this community; and most importantly Christ’s love for you, will sustain you until then.
❤️❤️❤️
Also, just in case no one has told you this today:
YOU ARE WORTHY. YOU ARE ENOUGH. I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. It is exciting watching you grow and become stronger and wiser everyday.
Thank you, for the price mage and gift of being able to see that. 🙏
Eskel I am so happy for you to get out of the Order, but so sad for how your family abandoned you and your sisters, You are a brave, loving guy. Keep your chin up.
It’s a beautiful family…sorry sweetie. I’ll be your adoptive grandma in Alabama if you want, I would love it. I grew up in Utah and am fascinated with all things ex-mo and offshoots.
Omg Eskel you look just like your mom, omg 🥰
awwwhhh.. your mom is so pretty
WHO’S KINGDOM ARE THEY BUILDING!? It is certainly not Christ’s.
The order is culture of raising children, i cant even put into words the support of bringing a child into the world. It's understandable a mother would have a hard time leaving the community... I wish more focus was on the metal health and growth of a child. Instead it's toxic cuz leaders view women and children as resources, property not individuals.
I was so sad your mom went back. You can tell how much she loves you all and wants you all to be together. Hopefully one day. I was curious about your little sisters. Are they approaching marriage age soon? Do you think your mom will allow them to get married before they turn 18? Or do you think any of them might follow you to the outside?
I'll pray for your family
Eskel, your live chat stopped at 1:01?
Ohhh sweet Eskel I seen your video and I just wanted to reach through the phone and give you a big hug, I don’t have a family either I went no contact with all of my family bc they where abusive as well
I never grew up in a polygamist family, so I don’t understand at that but I did come from a narcissist family
I’m in Utah, if you need anything plz let me know; even if it is as simple as a hug
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I was so happy to see your mom and all of you guys reunite. Sadly, your mom chose to go back to the cult. I hope your mom and the rest of your siblings will decide to leave the cult for a better life one day.
Matthew 19:29 And everyone that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life.
Eskel is Ray the next in age to you? And was/is he your dad’s favourite? I’m so sorry for what you’ve all been through. I’m really late to watching this as I had to take a break from watching yours and your sister channel for a little while. My husband is going through EMDR therapy due to the trauma of a different orthodox religion he grew up in.
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This is horrible. Sorry Eskel.😢
You have we viewers that care about you, that are not in the cult.
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Have faith in the TRUE God that your family will see the light. I believe that God can do this. More of your siblings will leave. I don’t know about your Mom. God doesn’t want his children to suffer and He will hold the adults accountable for what they have done to your siblings. My heart breaks for you in the meantime. Thank you for sharing your story.
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