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I started in a hospital, med surg floor. Was told by other nurses/peers that’s where I needed to start. I hated it and was close to leaving nursing all together. I then found a position in hospice and I’ve never been happier. I love my job. Don’t give up on finding your place in the nursing world.
I'm currently in nursing school and work as a nurse tech on a medsurg floor. I really want to do hospice. I've been a caregiver to family members on hospice. Hospice has a very soft spot in my heart. What is your role if you don't mind me asking. Are you a case mgr, admissions nurse? I'm volunteering for a hospice agency (companionship visits), but it doesn't expose me to the nursing side. I'd love to connect if you're open to it.
I think it’s no coincidence at all that this video was in my suggestions. I literally just had a mental breakdown on Monday explaining to my boyfriend that I love being a nurse and helping my patients but the burn out IS REAL! I’ve been a nurse for 3-4 months on a medical surgical unit and immediately I’ve known that bedside nursing isn’t for me. Don’t get me wrong, I love nursing and I knew it wouldn’t be an easy job but the burn out is literally not worth the mental /physical/verbal abuse. I absolutely agree with the staffing situation, I work in south Florida and we are ALWAYS understaffed. The understaffing is both dangerous to the patient and me. I don’t complain much but I know once I finish out my year and gain mor experience I will definitely Seek other opportunities with my nursing degree. Thank you so much for the transparency. And good luck to you in your future endeavors .
Hi Jahnaya! I just moved to North Dakota but doing my pre reqs online in Miami. What hospital do you work at? I hear it’s understaffed but some nurses are getting 1k extra for extra shift atleast that’s the case at Jackson Memorial Hospital.
New nurse here and I just left the hospital after 5 months and went into hospice. It it completely different and I love it. Less patients, more time, and less stress.
Understaffing is a huge issue and really does take a toll on our mental and physical well-being. I wish NY had Cali's staffing ratio cap because it is absolutely ridiculous.
Over a two year ICU nurse here and I’m 23 as well, and i could not agree with everything you said more! I’m here 2 years later and nothing is more disappointing and frustrating than doing the same job as someone else if not working harder than others and still making not nearly as much as they do. Like you said at 23 years old I’m doing more than fine for myself, but it would be nice to be compensated for all the hard work we put in as full time staff who have stayed during all the short staffing, Covid outbreak waves, etc. Best advice I was ever given was do what’s best for you because the system won’t! Keep going and find you niche and place that makes it worth your while girl!
Thank you so much for this video! These nurse vlogs have glamorized nursing giving new/potential nurses unrealistic expectations. Thank you so much for keeping it real.
Girl! I just finished my first week in a Endoscopy Clinic apart of a major hospital. I’m so glad I did it. Prep and PACU right now, it’s fast paced and quite a learning curve from the floor with the charting but bedside wasn’t for me starting out. The patients are so appreciative of the nurses, it’s objective, and very little of the mindless running around for call bells. Downsides are we rarely give meds beside fluids so med knowledge may go down and weekday/ day shift pay only besides call. It’s all related to GI, so there isn’t a variety of multiple body systems but I think it’s great.
I’m a newer RN and I went straight into CVICU and I just left about 3 months. I truly believe bedside just isn’t for me anymore and I think it’s because I was a CNA for 8 years and even tho I’m a nurse bedside is still beside. I left and I’m going back to dialysis!! I was a dialysis tech for almost 2 years and loved it so I definitely feel like a weight has been lifted off of me and this was the best choice for me and my mental health! Do whatever makes YOU happy !!! You worked so hard for this degree so doing what makes you happy and healthy is what is most important ♥️
I was a caregiver for 2 years, a CNA for 13 years, and an LVN for 2 years. Just 2 weeks into a nursing residency, and I already want to quit. I’m so done with bedside nursing. I’ve been burned out for so long, and I never fully recovered from it.
I’m so glad this was in my feed, I was going to school to be a registered nurse but I hear so much about being burned out and how it’s draining, I’m switching my major to surgical tech for now, maybe in the future I might go back to get my nursing degree but for now I know this is best.
I completely understand you! I am 8 months in on a pediatric step down floor and I am trying to make it to a year. But honestly, I am looking into outpatient. There have been too many times where I break down before work bc I’m anxious about staffing or the acuity of the patients. It will work out for the best though! Good luck to you! You are doing great!!
I’m glad you posted this . Before I was accepted into nursing school I just knew I wanted to work in the Er. Now I work in the ER in registration while in nursing school and I’ve definitely changed my mind . The foolishness that comes through the ER is insaneee .
I graduate in December and I’m already feeling the burnout. Just from doing my preceptorship on a medsurg floor and I’m like 😳 nurses are sooooo overworked & understaffed! I hate it has gotten like this. Even the seasoned nurses say it’s NEVER been this bad. Just having the right amount of staff would make allll the difference. I hate so many are leaving are leaving bedside b/c I can see it’s potential but I definitely get it! Prayers on your journey and good luck in school!💓
I love how real this video is, I would love to see you do a sit down video on nurse bullying and your experiences with it (whether you've experienced it or seen it ) and your thoughts on it.
I love how you talked about working a two/three-man job. I work as a nurse extern and have a very similar experience. The burnt-out and mental shut down is so real!
It's a problem everywhere! I have been an LPN less than a year and I left bedside 2 weeks ago. I went to a methadone/rehab clinic. So much better on my mental and my back! I work prn at my old facility. After working 20 hours bc I had no relief I decided bedside was not for me! Management will definitely guilt trip you into working extra shifts and they are nurses and they won't dare work those shifts. I didn't see your video as negativ. I'm glad you are keeping things real and honest with us!
Thank you! ❤️ I didn’t want the video to be negative at all & was afraid some may take it that way. I just wanted to be honest! Moving to the clinic was a smart move!
I’m so glad you posted this video and how candid you are! I just started in the ED as a new grad too. I can definitely see it already that I’m about to get burnt out so quick. I’m barely two months into being a nurse and this is my second switch on specialties and it’s not it either. I definitely agree that bedside is not it. But I definitely do not regret getting my nursing degree. There’s so many ways to go with it. I can’t wait to see where you go! Much love 💕
This was so real! I loved how you articulated your feelings because many nurses feel the same way! I wish I could say I am surprised but I am not one bit. I am a LPN and got a job outside of bedside because I couldn’t do it anymore! I graduate in December with my RN and I don’t really know what route I want to take. I listen to all the nurses on the floor and they are so miserable. I wish there was a solution to all of this😢.
Dominique I am glad you addressed the struggles of nursing in this video. I feel like I have preached this for years and people don't really understand it until they are actually working at the bedside. I love bedside and I love my job but I also worked very hard for my license and I cannot imagine ever losing it due to being unsafe, understaffed and etc. I even have nurses who worked on the floor for 50 years and have said nursing is not the same that it use to be. I always knew nursing would be challenging but I had no problem with that but when I experienced the mental physical and emotional toll of this career I got myself in FNP school quick and in a hurry .
Yes! That’s the plan, travel for 6 months to a year & off to NP school! I plan on saving for school to avoid loans. Thank you so much for tuning in girly ❤️
I wish it could be better for nurses because you guys do so much for us! Did it change once Covid happened or has it been like this for a while and covid just made it worse?
Dom you was real uncut in this video! you came a long way since those days in nursing school to now being a actual nurse!! If they not gonna appreciate you. Then we will here thank you for what you do!!!!!! Continue moving forward trusting in God, and let not anyone take it away from you.
Dom thank you so much. I just left my ER nurse position after 6 months because of the short staffing and mental burnout and honestly, risk to my license. The mental toll it took really made me leave. Thank you for talking about this and not sugar coating anything. I struggled feeling like a failure big time but as always you keep it real and really make nurses like me feel heard and seen. 💕
May I ask what your next job is? I was working on a medical floor as a new grad and I turned in my resignation letter this week. I was so mentally unhealthy I wanted to take my own life multiple times on the floor. But now that I quit I don’t know what to do now
@@maxpeng8715 as a fellow nurse with 20 years of experience my heart breaks reading this! My love no job should ever make you feel this way! I suggest you try hospice or home health. One patient at a time and you control your schedule. When you get hungry or need to run to Walmart there is no penalty. Give it a look and see if it good fit. Blessings pumpkin!!!!
God, this breaks my heart. I hope your doing better. There’s so much to live for. Your life is much more precious than a job. Sending love and blessings your way Max!
You are my motivation! I found your channel towards the end of nursing school and to see you now at 6 months really pushes me. I’m winding down my first semester of pre reqs for pre nursing. I’m interested in the ER as well as L&D.
Lovely video. I graduated in the same college as you, go panthers! I graduated in may 2021. Started in cardiac step down unit as new grad on nights and it’s been almost a year since I’ve been a nurse. The burnout is real and bedside can be stressful. The great thing about my floor/hospital is we have great ratios of 3-5 pts max! I recently went part-time, working 2 days/week and let me tell you it makes a difference if you value a quality of life and helps decrease the burnout. The great thing about nursing is the flexibility in schedule and where you can go in terms of specialty. Do what works for you, the hospital needs you, not the other way around. You worked hard for that degree so do what works for you.
Thank you for being transparent. You have always been a friend in my head. I'll get my BSN in April 2023. And I will start working on my masters. That way when I feel the burnout I can teach.
My roommate and I have been externs for almost a year now and we're already talking about burnout which is absolutely absurd. I haven't even officially become a nurse yet and I'm already exhausted?? It blows my mind. I pray that L&D will make me happy as I anticipate but I've come to terms with the idea that bedside isn't the end all be all for me. Def will be looking into outpatient nursing jobs like Fertility, Derm, Aesthetics or somethinggg...idk, but I'm so happy you shared your truth and kept it real. I love the brutal honesty it's super needed these days
As a little girl I've always wanted to be a nurse, my mother was a CNA for 20 years and highly encouraged me to do so as well. I became a CNA for an agency and worked in many nursing homes, and prayed for the day I could get a job In a hospital. That day finally came, I was so excited and wanted to give my all picking up as many shifts as my body would let me just for my Manager to give me shit for the little things such as not getting a patients water quick enough, telling me to LIE when my shift clock asked me if I got me an UNINTERRUPTED 30-minute break, and many more. When I first started there were supposed to be 4 CNAS on a floor (Which there never were) then a few months later they maxed it out to 3! but there were only ever 2 and many days there were only one. I worked in med surg but this happens on every floor. I counted down the days till I quit. As for abuse I already knew the abuse healthcare workers experience from working at a nursing home, Its not different in a hospital. Since then I only work home health It's me with one patient. I am currently in nursing school and I have NO plans of working in a hospital. I would rather work in a nursing home where I become close with the residents, home health where its just me and one patient or I go from house to house or my main choice of a clinic, But Many people who work in a clinic love it so much so its not many positions unless you speak a different language. My instructor says we aren't going to see a change in health care until we elect someone who has worked in direct patient health care.
I’m glad that you spoke your truth. I completely agree with you on everything you said. Take care of you and what’s best for your mental health I can honestly say bedside is not it at all. I’m looking forward to seeing more of your journey, I love your videos.❤
i thank you for your transparency 💖 very informative video! i graduate in may 2024 and i am just trying to get a insight into the real nursing world and you provided just that! good luck to you!
New grad RN here👋🏾 I started at a local dialysis clinic in Kansas City (not one of the major ones) and so far, so good. I’d like to eventually venture into the world of acute dialysis but that’s as close to bedside nursing that I’ll ever get. I would like to eventually travel as a dialysis RN.
I agree with everything that you said! I am 7 months in and everything is accurate. We have been so short staffed it’s ridiculous! My intentions are to finish my nurse residency and go travel. We go through so much and I feel burnt out as well. I am not doing bedside for the rest of my life either or working staff waiting for a pension. I have a bedside ditch plan for sure. Investing in myself!!! ❤️ you are right! You do not have to pick up hours just because they ask. I need to make my RUclips video explaining it as well. I just happened to come across it when I was working. I am a critical care stepdown nurse so we get many ED patients that are still not stable. Definitely have experienced the rude patients, the laying on the call lights, totals and a bunch of other things so I truly understand.
absolutely doing 3 mans’ job with a 1 person paycheck, and the unsafe staffing is just so serious e v e r y w h e r e !!! except california like you said… like it’s just so scary and i absolutely agree with you and i’ve been a new grad RN on a tele/med floor for 2 months only
I’m at my one year on a medsurg unit. I’m over it. I can’t pee, eat, etc when I want to. The mental/emotional stress is too much. I’ve been so depressed and anxious this past year alone. I thought when i started nursing that i would’ve been going to work often to pickup shifts to pay off my student loans but i can only do my 3 shifts and that’s it. The patient load is too much, they are extremely sick
Thanks for being honest!! I have been thinking of doing a career change from LE to nursing. I like the flexibility and the fact that you can work almost anywhere. This definitely makes me think twice. I hear about burn out all the time. That definitely concerns me. Again thanks for your honesty. Good luck with furthering your education and with being a nurse!
I feel you when you said that you were burned out at only 6 months. That was me also. I even ended going part time. Almost a year in doing part time and still feeling the burn out. Sometimes it doesn't matter what you do, bedside is just exhausting. I wanted to stay for 2 years minimal but that's not going to happen. I am looking for jobs away from the bedside right now as we speak.
It’s worse here in Dublin, Ireland. I look after 12 patients during nightshift in an acute medical-surgical ward! That’s the regular Nurse Patient ratio here No LPN or UAP. Only a healthcare assistant that doesn’t do vital signs even, only for hygiene needs. I get paid €22 ($21) per hour with 10 years of bedside experience. The salary can’t be negotiated. There’s a standardised scale for all HSE Public Nurses. Imagine the rate of a newly grad (Around $16). A lot of us are quitting and moving to Australia. Can’t get a mortgage here at all if you’re a single person. As for me, I’m sitting the Nclex very soon this year. So goodluck to me 🙏
I’ve been at bedside for 20 years and honestly, it’s has not changed. 12 years traveling, ICU, TRAUMA, CVICU, Neuro ICU, SICU, IR, & MICU, getting worse and patients sicker, less training for staff. Except for lower pay, 10 times for the abuse from patients, families, and the health care industry. I’ve also been teaching for 12 years, and I feel sorry for the new grads because babies teaching babies. Things to remember 1-YOU are replaceable, 2-Call security & don’t get involved, 3- Call credentialing agencies and report safety issue, 4-Follow hospital policy on reporting safety concerns…Not documented , Nit done!! This is what pisses me off more than anything, everyone complaining, no one taking action. If you guys think it’s bad now wait, it’s going to get worse! These factors break my heart every day and can’t imagine how new grads going to survive 😢. I left 3 months ago and not working in healthcare at all now. This article shows the future
Your video hit all the major points with experiencing burnout! I was a nursing student myself & I dropped out - - I felt burned out just within my clinicals during nursing school; & I took that as a sign that I would feel that way as a nurse as well! && talking to some of my former nursing school classmates, majority of them wish they would’ve went to school for something other than nursing - - but I guess ppl see the scrubs & think the job is going to be “cute”, but burnout is REAL! I currently work on the postpartum unit, & I’m trying to make my exit out of healthcare all together✌🏾😂
Heyy, i graduate in May and I was looking into L&D or postpartum. I'm an extern and they kind of merge those two specialties together. Can you talk to me about your experiences and what's making you want to leave healthcare altogether?
@@ayannasarahj I’m just burned out honestly! && the discrimination I see against black women in childbirth is healthcare is just awful! I’ve had enough & seen enough
When I interviewed for the ER they told me I the lower acuity areas you will get 10-12 patients. They were up front about it which I appreciated but hell no.
I was a caregiver for 2 years, a CNA for 13 years, and an LVN for 2 years. Just 2 weeks into a nursing residency, and I already want to quit. I’m so done with bedside nursing. I’ve been burned out for so long, and I never fully recovered from it.
When I worked in cardio and surgery, we regularly had 10-12 patients EACH and it was just 2-3 of us at a time; and the pay was subpar. Currently looking for non clinical opportunities because bedside was my entire life and the staff I had recently gave mean girls vibes smh! 😅
What’s the average starting pay for Nursing? I personally give nurses their prompts because I couldn’t do it! I will stick with my technologist careers. At least us technologist work independently for the most part, we just need certification/registration/license which means less schooling and can start off making $20-$40/hr depending on what kind of technologist are you. I tell everyone join the Imaging department doing X-ray, CT, MRI, etc and you won’t be disappointed!!! Starting pay can be as high as $30-$40 base pay so do night shift weekends and you can see as high as $35-$50/ hr as a new graduate!
First of all, thank you for your honesty and for sharing your true feelings. New RN here. Currently in the STARN program. Already feeling burnout. Already looking for a second stream of income. It's mentally and physically draining. I want to travel nurse as well. I'm definitely going to get my masters because bedside nursing is not for me, and I can see it already.
Yay! that was my next question, what do you want to do?.... But I am so happy that you want to travel too! I am working to become a travel nurse as well. I am sorry to hear that this has been your experience and yes unfortunately our careers can be A LOT (to say the least). I love that you are continuing your education! So you do you see yourself being an NP? Also those glasses 🤩
Thank you for being honest! I agree with the physical toll on our bodies. I work in the ER too and the amount of work we do does not correlate with the pay. There was a shift where I didn’t sit for 6 hours and my legs were in so much pain. All states should have mandated nurse to patient ratios. After one year I am considering travel nursing or going back to pursue a provider role.
Yes love u r right it’s exciting when u see nurses wearing figs, hold cute water bottles, Starbucks, the money but only God knows. I’m starting a new job next week.❤
Yassss!!! Girl, I felt EVERY. WORD! I've been a nurse for 8 months and I've been feeling the burnout. I definitely was questioning why I was already feeling this way... I dreaded going to work and had anxiety before shifts with the unknown (and I usually never have anxiety)! My fiance and family started to question if I was even happy at my job (because they all loved their jobs). I thought about leaving the bedside or maybe it was just my hospital or floor or even me??! ... that was when I knew I needed a change cause I knew I was a damn good nurse and doing everything correctly, but still not satisfied. I knew it was my environment and the burnout was real (not sure if we're feeling the early burnout due to the after effects of covid, nurses leaving, or all of the above)!! I wanted to wait my one year to get more experience to get accepted to into other specialties, but honestly I said I'm not going to wait anymore, I'm not going to work X amount to reach the one year mark and dread every shift... it's not worth the short staff, ungrateful managers, and rude/abusive patients who don't appreciate all that you do. I wasn't going to feel guilty when my manager texted me on my day off to pick up an extra shift because THEY didn't do their part in hiring more nurses. It's not my fault or responsibility. I had many convos with my family and followed my heart because why wait when we are all replaceable??! I took the chance and currently left my first nursing job and going into a specialty dear to my heart and to a company that I feel will treat and respect me as a nurse... I haven't regretted it one bit!!! Just walking in to this new company, I can definitely feel the difference and positivity. Nurses are easily replaceable, but what companies don't realize is so are they! Managers should know as a new grad, we are expected to switch jobs frequently to find our niche. I pray we will all find ours. 🙏🤍
I got so burned out as a nurse 4 years ago. I was bullied by my preceptor who was harassing but i just wanted to make it. I needed to make this happen. I pushed through and years later learned you are nothing but a warm body. I have been so burned out even through covid. Nurses are abused and used and at times treated like servants. You can be understaffed and unsafe but you need to smile while your patients yell for you to go running for a blanket. Go running for doctors, go running for admin and go running for families. Yet get called lazy by every none nursing staff in the building. If you want to be a nurse understand that you need to draw your boundaries and stick to them. Do your hours and CLOCK OUT.
I'm in nursing school and based off what I've seen as an EMT and in clinical and from other nurses... I'm already planning to move closer to the west coast to live and/or at least work in California. I got in this game to help people but I'm not going to kill myself over it. Can't help people if you kill yourself or lose your license.
Girl I feel you as someone who went to the PICU fresh out of school I had to keep telling myself I don’t have to help out. Worst of all I had to deal with constant mean girls on top of that, nope staying home! Beginning bedside may not be for me either, unless I truly find my love.
Thank you! & very to little to none. We don’t have toothbrushes or anything like that in the ER. The rooms don’t have showers or toilets. If a patient needs to toilet we walk them to the public restroom. Patients usually wait to go to a room to shower and brush their teeth. However, of course if a patient can’t ambulate we have to clean them in bed and change chucks.
Yes & yes! I never planned on doing bedside for a long period of time as I’m continuing my schooling. I do plan on travel nursing in the meantime. I am also open to changing specialties!
Back in the day...like the 1800 I could see why nurses got paid based on experience. But now, everyone gets taught the same program, they take the same nclex so the pay should be within the same range.
I have been contemplating what I want to do next. Im doing LTC right now and honestly it’s so slow and I hate the repetitive motions. I feel like I need fast paced or faster than what I’m doing now lol. It’s a toss up between ER and med surg. I know you get a lot of experience with ER which is what I’m looking for but I don’t want to be in the way.
Great video....I just applied to nursing school and I am interested in psychiatry, but there is not much information out there for a new grad seeking a job in the psychiatry field.... do you have any pointers? Thanks!
100% agree. They are slowly making that a reality here in RI. They are starting to put more LPNs back into the hospitals, but they are starting off slow. So, they hire LPNS, but not as many as RNs. As far as CNAs, they already had multiple positions in the hospitals here.
@@DominiqueDooley I am a new grad too I decided to travel around Australia and work as an agency nurse. Everywhere is short-staffed and but you are lucky if you find a place with lovely, friendly staff. staff support is very important. yes do it !!
Thank you lol ❤️ & I keep my settings on auto, nothing special. I do use natural lighting as well. No ring ring lights or anything. I prefer the way my videos look with the natural light. I hope this helps!
Great video. Both my sisters and my mom are nurses. One is travel nursing while studying for her crna and the other is doing night shift trying to do her masters. It’s crazy and I dropped and since I hated it 😂. Wishing you the best and all the success
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I started in a hospital, med surg floor. Was told by other nurses/peers that’s where I needed to start. I hated it and was close to leaving nursing all together. I then found a position in hospice and I’ve never been happier. I love my job. Don’t give up on finding your place in the nursing world.
I'm currently in nursing school and work as a nurse tech on a medsurg floor. I really want to do hospice. I've been a caregiver to family members on hospice. Hospice has a very soft spot in my heart. What is your role if you don't mind me asking. Are you a case mgr, admissions nurse? I'm volunteering for a hospice agency (companionship visits), but it doesn't expose me to the nursing side. I'd love to connect if you're open to it.
I think it’s no coincidence at all that this video was in my suggestions. I literally just had a mental breakdown on Monday explaining to my boyfriend that I love being a nurse and helping my patients but the burn out IS REAL! I’ve been a nurse for 3-4 months on a medical surgical unit and immediately I’ve known that bedside nursing isn’t for me. Don’t get me wrong, I love nursing and I knew it wouldn’t be an easy job but the burn out is literally not worth the mental /physical/verbal abuse. I absolutely agree with the staffing situation, I work in south Florida and we are ALWAYS understaffed. The understaffing is both dangerous to the patient and me. I don’t complain much but I know once I finish out my year and gain mor experience I will definitely Seek other opportunities with my nursing degree. Thank you so much for the transparency. And good luck to you in your future endeavors .
I agree. I’ve done the same, including crying. I just tell myself it’s all temporary! ❤️ thank you for sharing babe! I appreciate your kind words!
@@DominiqueDooley You’re welcome luv ❤️ we both have to keep pushing .
Baby start looking from now it’s ok
Same sis! I’m 3 months in and know bedside isn’t for me. I’m in the ER and my anxiety is at an all time high! Love nursing just not bedside
Hi Jahnaya! I just moved to North Dakota but doing my pre reqs online in Miami. What hospital do you work at? I hear it’s understaffed but some nurses are getting 1k extra for extra shift atleast that’s the case at Jackson Memorial Hospital.
New nurse here and I just left the hospital after 5 months and went into hospice. It it completely different and I love it. Less patients, more time, and less stress.
I left bedside for hospice as well and I absolutely love it! I can’t see myself doing anything else now
Understaffing is a huge issue and really does take a toll on our mental and physical well-being. I wish NY had Cali's staffing ratio cap because it is absolutely ridiculous.
Over a two year ICU nurse here and I’m 23 as well, and i could not agree with everything you said more! I’m here 2 years later and nothing is more disappointing and frustrating than doing the same job as someone else if not working harder than others and still making not nearly as much as they do. Like you said at 23 years old I’m doing more than fine for myself, but it would be nice to be compensated for all the hard work we put in as full time staff who have stayed during all the short staffing, Covid outbreak waves, etc. Best advice I was ever given was do what’s best for you because the system won’t! Keep going and find you niche and place that makes it worth your while girl!
Thank you so much for this video! These nurse vlogs have glamorized nursing giving new/potential nurses unrealistic expectations. Thank you so much for keeping it real.
Girl! I just finished my first week in a Endoscopy Clinic apart of a major hospital. I’m so glad I did it. Prep and PACU right now, it’s fast paced and quite a learning curve from the floor with the charting but bedside wasn’t for me starting out. The patients are so appreciative of the nurses, it’s objective, and very little of the mindless running around for call bells. Downsides are we rarely give meds beside fluids so med knowledge may go down and weekday/ day shift pay only besides call. It’s all related to GI, so there isn’t a variety of multiple body systems but I think it’s great.
I’m a newer RN and I went straight into CVICU and I just left about 3 months. I truly believe bedside just isn’t for me anymore and I think it’s because I was a CNA for 8 years and even tho I’m a nurse bedside is still beside. I left and I’m going back to dialysis!! I was a dialysis tech for almost 2 years and loved it so I definitely feel like a weight has been lifted off of me and this was the best choice for me and my mental health! Do whatever makes YOU happy !!! You worked so hard for this degree so doing what makes you happy and healthy is what is most important ♥️
Absolutely, happiness is the ultimate thing! Thank you for sharing your kind words ❤️
Im in nursing school now and thinking about becoming a PCT. Did you do PCT for Dialysis in school?
I was a caregiver for 2 years, a CNA for 13 years, and an LVN for 2 years. Just 2 weeks into a nursing residency, and I already want to quit. I’m so done with bedside nursing. I’ve been burned out for so long, and I never fully recovered from it.
I’m so glad this was in my feed, I was going to school to be a registered nurse but I hear so much about being burned out and how it’s draining, I’m switching my major to surgical tech for now, maybe in the future I might go back to get my nursing degree but for now I know this is best.
I completely understand you! I am 8 months in on a pediatric step down floor and I am trying to make it to a year. But honestly, I am looking into outpatient. There have been too many times where I break down before work bc I’m anxious about staffing or the acuity of the patients.
It will work out for the best though! Good luck to you! You are doing great!!
I’m glad you posted this . Before I was accepted into nursing school I just knew I wanted to work in the Er. Now I work in the ER in registration while in nursing school and I’ve definitely changed my mind . The foolishness that comes through the ER is insaneee .
I graduate in December and I’m already feeling the burnout. Just from doing my preceptorship on a medsurg floor and I’m like 😳 nurses are sooooo overworked & understaffed! I hate it has gotten like this. Even the seasoned nurses say it’s NEVER been this bad. Just having the right amount of staff would make allll the difference. I hate so many are leaving are leaving bedside b/c I can see it’s potential but I definitely get it! Prayers on your journey and good luck in school!💓
I love how real this video is, I would love to see you do a sit down video on nurse bullying and your experiences with it (whether you've experienced it or seen it ) and your thoughts on it.
I can definitely do a video on it or mention it in a vlog! ❤️
I love how you talked about working a two/three-man job. I work as a nurse extern and have a very similar experience. The burnt-out and mental shut down is so real!
I totally understand, I was a nurse extern before a nurse & felt the same way. Just keep pushing through girly! ❤️
It's a problem everywhere! I have been an LPN less than a year and I left bedside 2 weeks ago. I went to a methadone/rehab clinic. So much better on my mental and my back! I work prn at my old facility. After working 20 hours bc I had no relief I decided bedside was not for me! Management will definitely guilt trip you into working extra shifts and they are nurses and they won't dare work those shifts. I didn't see your video as negativ. I'm glad you are keeping things real and honest with us!
Thank you! ❤️ I didn’t want the video to be negative at all & was afraid some may take it that way. I just wanted to be honest! Moving to the clinic was a smart move!
@@DominiqueDooley I pray things get better at your job. 🙏🏿❤️
I’m so glad you posted this video and how candid you are! I just started in the ED as a new grad too. I can definitely see it already that I’m about to get burnt out so quick. I’m barely two months into being a nurse and this is my second switch on specialties and it’s not it either. I definitely agree that bedside is not it. But I definitely do not regret getting my nursing degree. There’s so many ways to go with it. I can’t wait to see where you go! Much love 💕
Thank you so much! ❤️ & Yes, there’s endless opportunities as a nurse! This is just step 1!
This was so real! I loved how you articulated your feelings because many nurses feel the same way! I wish I could say I am surprised but I am not one bit. I am a LPN and got a job outside of bedside because I couldn’t do it anymore! I graduate in December with my RN and I don’t really know what route I want to take. I listen to all the nurses on the floor and they are so miserable. I wish there was a solution to all of this😢.
Thank you so much! ❤️
Dominique I am glad you addressed the struggles of nursing in this video. I feel like I have preached this for years and people don't really understand it until they are actually working at the bedside. I love bedside and I love my job but I also worked very hard for my license and I cannot imagine ever losing it due to being unsafe, understaffed and etc. I even have nurses who worked on the floor for 50 years and have said nursing is not the same that it use to be. I always knew nursing would be challenging but I had no problem with that but when I experienced the mental physical and emotional toll of this career I got myself in FNP school quick and in a hurry .
Yes! That’s the plan, travel for 6 months to a year & off to NP school! I plan on saving for school to avoid loans. Thank you so much for tuning in girly ❤️
I wish it could be better for nurses because you guys do so much for us! Did it change once Covid happened or has it been like this for a while and covid just made it worse?
Whats FNP school?
Dom you was real uncut in this video! you came a long way since those days in nursing school to now being a actual nurse!! If they not gonna appreciate you. Then we will here thank you for what you do!!!!!! Continue moving forward trusting in God, and let not anyone take it away from you.
Thank you so much 😭❤️
Dom thank you so much. I just left my ER nurse position after 6 months because of the short staffing and mental burnout and honestly, risk to my license. The mental toll it took really made me leave. Thank you for talking about this and not sugar coating anything. I struggled feeling like a failure big time but as always you keep it real and really make nurses like me feel heard and seen. 💕
Your not a failure! I love this for you ❤️
May I ask what your next job is? I was working on a medical floor as a new grad and I turned in my resignation letter this week. I was so mentally unhealthy I wanted to take my own life multiple times on the floor. But now that I quit I don’t know what to do now
@@maxpeng8715 as a fellow nurse with 20 years of experience my heart breaks reading this! My love no job should ever make you feel this way! I suggest you try hospice or home health. One patient at a time and you control your schedule. When you get hungry or need to run to Walmart there is no penalty. Give it a look and see if it good fit. Blessings pumpkin!!!!
God, this breaks my heart. I hope your doing better. There’s so much to live for. Your life is much more precious than a job. Sending love and blessings your way Max!
I just hit my 6 month mark too!! Thanks for touching on these topics!
You are my motivation! I found your channel towards the end of nursing school and to see you now at 6 months really pushes me. I’m winding down my first semester of pre reqs for pre nursing. I’m interested in the ER as well as L&D.
Excellent video. Thank you very much. Best regards, Greg
Such an honest video. So true. I've been a nurse for four months now and I'm feeling the EXACT same way. Thanks for sharing!
I’ve been a NP for 13 years and I can attest that nursing is hard. Shout out to those at the bedside.
Lovely video. I graduated in the same college as you, go panthers! I graduated in may 2021. Started in cardiac step down unit as new grad on nights and it’s been almost a year since I’ve been a nurse. The burnout is real and bedside can be stressful. The great thing about my floor/hospital is we have great ratios of 3-5 pts max! I recently went part-time, working 2 days/week and let me tell you it makes a difference if you value a quality of life and helps decrease the burnout. The great thing about nursing is the flexibility in schedule and where you can go in terms of specialty. Do what works for you, the hospital needs you, not the other way around. You worked hard for that degree so do what works for you.
Thank you so much ❤️ part time too is definitely an option!
Sis you keeping it real ! You are not negative this is real life! Thanks I got 8 months before I finished school.
A very honest revelation! Honest to yourself ❤️🙏❤️
Thank you for being transparent. You have always been a friend in my head. I'll get my BSN in April 2023. And I will start working on my masters. That way when I feel the burnout I can teach.
My roommate and I have been externs for almost a year now and we're already talking about burnout which is absolutely absurd. I haven't even officially become a nurse yet and I'm already exhausted?? It blows my mind. I pray that L&D will make me happy as I anticipate but I've come to terms with the idea that bedside isn't the end all be all for me. Def will be looking into outpatient nursing jobs like Fertility, Derm, Aesthetics or somethinggg...idk, but I'm so happy you shared your truth and kept it real. I love the brutal honesty it's super needed these days
Thank you for this thorough and honest video, Dominique. We don't often hear about this side of nursing and the warning is appreciated💕
Awe this video was so nice! Thank you for being honest about nursing because it’s definitely A DIFFICULT JOB.
Thank you for the kind words ❤️
As a nursing student and RUclipsr I have learnt alot from you, thanks for inspiring me to be better and helping me know better
As a little girl I've always wanted to be a nurse, my mother was a CNA for 20 years and highly encouraged me to do so as well. I became a CNA for an agency and worked in many nursing homes, and prayed for the day I could get a job In a hospital. That day finally came, I was so excited and wanted to give my all picking up as many shifts as my body would let me just for my Manager to give me shit for the little things such as not getting a patients water quick enough, telling me to LIE when my shift clock asked me if I got me an UNINTERRUPTED 30-minute break, and many more. When I first started there were supposed to be 4 CNAS on a floor (Which there never were) then a few months later they maxed it out to 3! but there were only ever 2 and many days there were only one. I worked in med surg but this happens on every floor. I counted down the days till I quit. As for abuse I already knew the abuse healthcare workers experience from working at a nursing home, Its not different in a hospital. Since then I only work home health It's me with one patient. I am currently in nursing school and I have NO plans of working in a hospital. I would rather work in a nursing home where I become close with the residents, home health where its just me and one patient or I go from house to house or my main choice of a clinic, But Many people who work in a clinic love it so much so its not many positions unless you speak a different language. My instructor says we aren't going to see a change in health care until we elect someone who has worked in direct patient health care.
Only been In ICU for 6 months, and I feel the same don’t think I’ll be here longer
I’m glad that you spoke your truth. I completely agree with you on everything you said. Take care of you and what’s best for your mental health I can honestly say bedside is not it at all. I’m looking forward to seeing more of your journey, I love your videos.❤
I’m at my 6 month mark too!! I’m ready to go 🥲🤣
Thank you my dear, you are preparing me mentally. Be strong💪🏾
Thanks for keeping it real ☺️
i thank you for your transparency 💖 very informative video! i graduate in may 2024 and i am just trying to get a insight into the real nursing world and you provided just that! good luck to you!
I like how real you put this. You should look into outpatient, step-down, nuclear, or a specialty that has limited beds per patient/nurse.
New grad RN here👋🏾 I started at a local dialysis clinic in Kansas City (not one of the major ones) and so far, so good. I’d like to eventually venture into the world of acute dialysis but that’s as close to bedside nursing that I’ll ever get. I would like to eventually travel as a dialysis RN.
Really appreciate the honesty 🤍
Everything you said is the truth.i wish you good luck in your next step in life .pls keep updating us
Yesss thank you for taking this to a serious convo !! I completely agree with everything new grad as well
The glasses is giving🥰🥰😍😍😍
I agree with everything that you said! I am 7 months in and everything is accurate. We have been so short staffed it’s ridiculous! My intentions are to finish my nurse residency and go travel. We go through so much and I feel burnt out as well. I am not doing bedside for the rest of my life either or working staff waiting for a pension. I have a bedside ditch plan for sure. Investing in myself!!! ❤️ you are right! You do not have to pick up hours just because they ask. I need to make my RUclips video explaining it as well. I just happened to come across it when I was working. I am a critical care stepdown nurse so we get many ED patients that are still not stable. Definitely have experienced the rude patients, the laying on the call lights, totals and a bunch of other things so I truly understand.
absolutely doing 3 mans’ job with a 1 person paycheck, and the unsafe staffing is just so serious e v e r y w h e r e !!! except california like you said… like it’s just so scary and i absolutely agree with you and i’ve been a new grad RN on a tele/med floor for 2 months only
Just subscribed thank you for this information currently in school and this helps before getting my license to be prepared!
This is the best and most honest video I have ever seen.
I’m at my one year on a medsurg unit. I’m over it. I can’t pee, eat, etc when I want to. The mental/emotional stress is too much. I’ve been so depressed and anxious this past year alone. I thought when i started nursing that i would’ve been going to work often to pickup shifts to pay off my student loans but i can only do my 3 shifts and that’s it. The patient load is too much, they are extremely sick
This is so good. I’m not a nurse but I can still apply your points to my job. Thanks!!!
Thanks for being honest!! I have been thinking of doing a career change from LE to nursing. I like the flexibility and the fact that you can work almost anywhere. This definitely makes me think twice. I hear about burn out all the time. That definitely concerns me. Again thanks for your honesty. Good luck with furthering your education and with being a nurse!
I feel you when you said that you were burned out at only 6 months. That was me also. I even ended going part time. Almost a year in doing part time and still feeling the burn out. Sometimes it doesn't matter what you do, bedside is just exhausting. I wanted to stay for 2 years minimal but that's not going to happen. I am looking for jobs away from the bedside right now as we speak.
It’s worse here in Dublin, Ireland. I look after 12 patients during nightshift in an acute medical-surgical ward! That’s the regular Nurse Patient ratio here No LPN or UAP. Only a healthcare assistant that doesn’t do vital signs even, only for hygiene needs. I get paid €22 ($21) per hour with 10 years of bedside experience. The salary can’t be negotiated. There’s a standardised scale for all HSE Public Nurses. Imagine the rate of a newly grad (Around $16). A lot of us are quitting and moving to Australia. Can’t get a mortgage here at all if you’re a single person. As for me, I’m sitting the Nclex very soon this year. So goodluck to me 🙏
Best of luck to you. I see the grass isn’t necessarily greener elsewhere. It is just healthcare in general.
I’ve been at bedside for 20 years and honestly, it’s has not changed. 12 years traveling, ICU, TRAUMA, CVICU, Neuro ICU, SICU, IR, & MICU, getting worse and patients sicker, less training for staff. Except for lower pay, 10 times for the abuse from patients, families, and the health care industry. I’ve also been teaching for 12 years, and I feel sorry for the new grads because babies teaching babies. Things to remember 1-YOU are replaceable, 2-Call security & don’t get involved, 3- Call credentialing agencies and report safety issue, 4-Follow hospital policy on reporting safety concerns…Not documented , Nit done!! This is what pisses me off more than anything, everyone complaining, no one taking action. If you guys think it’s bad now wait, it’s going to get worse! These factors break my heart every day and can’t imagine how new grads going to survive 😢. I left 3 months ago and not working in healthcare at all now. This article shows the future
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hey girl, everything you said its true, my daughter work at the H.S. P. more then 6 yr but she quit this yr. she more happy now.🤩🤩🤩
Mamas you’re so gorgeous 😩😍😍
Your video hit all the major points with experiencing burnout! I was a nursing student myself & I dropped out - - I felt burned out just within my clinicals during nursing school; & I took that as a sign that I would feel that way as a nurse as well! && talking to some of my former nursing school classmates, majority of them wish they would’ve went to school for something other than nursing - - but I guess ppl see the scrubs & think the job is going to be “cute”, but burnout is REAL! I currently work on the postpartum unit, & I’m trying to make my exit out of healthcare all together✌🏾😂
Heyy, i graduate in May and I was looking into L&D or postpartum. I'm an extern and they kind of merge those two specialties together. Can you talk to me about your experiences and what's making you want to leave healthcare altogether?
@@ayannasarahj I’m just burned out honestly! && the discrimination I see against black women in childbirth is healthcare is just awful! I’ve had enough & seen enough
When I interviewed for the ER they told me I the lower acuity areas you will get 10-12 patients. They were up front about it which I appreciated but hell no.
I was a caregiver for 2 years, a CNA for 13 years, and an LVN for 2 years. Just 2 weeks into a nursing residency, and I already want to quit. I’m so done with bedside nursing. I’ve been burned out for so long, and I never fully recovered from it.
Bedside nursing can be taxing; I recommend stepping away for a while or maybe consider changing your environment!
Thank you SO MUCH for being so honest. This is helpful. What field are you going to school for ?
When I worked in cardio and surgery, we regularly had 10-12 patients EACH and it was just 2-3 of us at a time; and the pay was subpar. Currently looking for non clinical opportunities because bedside was my entire life and the staff I had recently gave mean girls vibes smh! 😅
What’s the average starting pay for Nursing? I personally give nurses their prompts because I couldn’t do it! I will stick with my technologist careers. At least us technologist work independently for the most part, we just need certification/registration/license which means less schooling and can start off making $20-$40/hr depending on what kind of technologist are you. I tell everyone join the Imaging department doing X-ray, CT, MRI, etc and you won’t be disappointed!!! Starting pay can be as high as $30-$40 base pay so do night shift weekends and you can see as high as $35-$50/ hr as a new graduate!
This was amazing throughly enjoyed this 👍🏾👏🏾🤗❤️
First of all, thank you for your honesty and for sharing your true feelings. New RN here. Currently in the STARN program. Already feeling burnout. Already looking for a second stream of income. It's mentally and physically draining. I want to travel nurse as well. I'm definitely going to get my masters because bedside nursing is not for me, and I can see it already.
Yay! that was my next question, what do you want to do?.... But I am so happy that you want to travel too! I am working to become a travel nurse as well. I am sorry to hear that this has been your experience and yes unfortunately our careers can be A LOT (to say the least). I love that you are continuing your education! So you do you see yourself being an NP?
Also those glasses 🤩
Yes! I plan on pursuing either NP or CRNA ❤️ we live and learn, this is just a milestone. Thank you so much Meenah!
Thank you for being honest! I agree with the physical toll on our bodies. I work in the ER too and the amount of work we do does not correlate with the pay. There was a shift where I didn’t sit for 6 hours and my legs were in so much pain. All states should have mandated nurse to patient ratios. After one year I am considering travel nursing or going back to pursue a provider role.
Agreed! I plan on doing both. Traveling for a year or two & definitely going back to school to become a provider.
Great video so real!! Ty💖
Yes love u r right it’s exciting when u see nurses wearing figs, hold cute water bottles, Starbucks, the money but only God knows. I’m starting a new job next week.❤
Yassss!!! Girl, I felt EVERY. WORD! I've been a nurse for 8 months and I've been feeling the burnout. I definitely was questioning why I was already feeling this way... I dreaded going to work and had anxiety before shifts with the unknown (and I usually never have anxiety)! My fiance and family started to question if I was even happy at my job (because they all loved their jobs). I thought about leaving the bedside or maybe it was just my hospital or floor or even me??! ... that was when I knew I needed a change cause I knew I was a damn good nurse and doing everything correctly, but still not satisfied. I knew it was my environment and the burnout was real (not sure if we're feeling the early burnout due to the after effects of covid, nurses leaving, or all of the above)!! I wanted to wait my one year to get more experience to get accepted to into other specialties, but honestly I said I'm not going to wait anymore, I'm not going to work X amount to reach the one year mark and dread every shift... it's not worth the short staff, ungrateful managers, and rude/abusive patients who don't appreciate all that you do. I wasn't going to feel guilty when my manager texted me on my day off to pick up an extra shift because THEY didn't do their part in hiring more nurses. It's not my fault or responsibility. I had many convos with my family and followed my heart because why wait when we are all replaceable??! I took the chance and currently left my first nursing job and going into a specialty dear to my heart and to a company that I feel will treat and respect me as a nurse... I haven't regretted it one bit!!! Just walking in to this new company, I can definitely feel the difference and positivity. Nurses are easily replaceable, but what companies don't realize is so are they! Managers should know as a new grad, we are expected to switch jobs frequently to find our niche. I pray we will all find ours. 🙏🤍
My SNAP position shift one has SHOOK ME!!!!
GIRL, YOU ARE TOO PRETTY!!!! MODEL GOOD LOOK....SHEESH!!!
I got so burned out as a nurse 4 years ago. I was bullied by my preceptor who was harassing but i just wanted to make it. I needed to make this happen. I pushed through and years later learned you are nothing but a warm body. I have been so burned out even through covid. Nurses are abused and used and at times treated like servants. You can be understaffed and unsafe but you need to smile while your patients yell for you to go running for a blanket. Go running for doctors, go running for admin and go running for families. Yet get called lazy by every none nursing staff in the building. If you want to be a nurse understand that you need to draw your boundaries and stick to them. Do your hours and CLOCK OUT.
I 100% agree with this entire post!! Thank you for sharing gorgeous!
How do y’all wear glasses and lashes!? I feel so handicapped cuz I can’t.
Girl I be fighting for my life lol
I'm in nursing school and based off what I've seen as an EMT and in clinical and from other nurses... I'm already planning to move closer to the west coast to live and/or at least work in California. I got in this game to help people but I'm not going to kill myself over it. Can't help people if you kill yourself or lose your license.
Absolutely!!
This generation of nurse is a different kind of breed,they are not playing.
Absolutely not; we know our worth as nurses! 💪🏽
Girl I feel you as someone who went to the PICU fresh out of school I had to keep telling myself I don’t have to help out. Worst of all I had to deal with constant mean girls on top of that, nope staying home! Beginning bedside may not be for me either, unless I truly find my love.
Love your videos! ❤️ As an er nurse, are you doing ADL’s if any at all?
Thank you! & very to little to none. We don’t have toothbrushes or anything like that in the ER. The rooms don’t have showers or toilets. If a patient needs to toilet we walk them to the public restroom. Patients usually wait to go to a room to shower and brush their teeth. However, of course if a patient can’t ambulate we have to clean them in bed and change chucks.
Before you leave bedside, have you thought about leaving your hospital? Or working in a different specialty?
Yes & yes! I never planned on doing bedside for a long period of time as I’m continuing my schooling. I do plan on travel nursing in the meantime. I am also open to changing specialties!
Are you in California by chance?
Back in the day...like the 1800 I could see why nurses got paid based on experience. But now, everyone gets taught the same program, they take the same nclex so the pay should be within the same range.
I wanna be a nurse I just can't see how to remember so much info. Would you say nursing is like a routine?
Definitely depends on the floor you decide to work on!
I feel the same way unfortunately.
I have been contemplating what I want to do next. Im doing LTC right now and honestly it’s so slow and I hate the repetitive motions. I feel like I need fast paced or faster than what I’m doing now lol. It’s a toss up between ER and med surg. I know you get a lot of experience with ER which is what I’m looking for but I don’t want to be in the way.
Great video....I just applied to nursing school and I am interested in psychiatry, but there is not much information out there for a new grad seeking a job in the psychiatry field.... do you have any pointers? Thanks!
Hospitals need to bring team nursing by hiring more LPNs and CNAs
Absolutely agree! More hands on deck!
100% agree. They are slowly making that a reality here in RI. They are starting to put more LPNs back into the hospitals, but they are starting off slow. So, they hire LPNS, but not as many as RNs. As far as CNAs, they already had multiple positions in the hospitals here.
I can relate. I wanna be travel nurse. Ps Come to Australia you will love it .
Ahhh! Yes, I have to! I’m taking your word in it lolll
@@DominiqueDooley I am a new grad too I decided to travel around Australia and work as an agency nurse. Everywhere is short-staffed and but you are lucky if you find a place with lovely, friendly staff. staff support is very important. yes do it !!
Yes, you can't run your body down. I agree, you're only one person. What you're in school for right now?
Absolutely cannot! & yes I am, finishing up my bachelors and quickly moving onto my masters!
@@DominiqueDooley That's good! Are you getting your Masters in nursing?
Yes! I plan to get my doctorates as well!
@@DominiqueDooley That's great! Keep pushing 💪
if you don’t mind me asking what is your camera setting because I love your skin 😩🙌🏾. I have the same camera as you btw
Thank you lol ❤️ & I keep my settings on auto, nothing special. I do use natural lighting as well. No ring ring lights or anything. I prefer the way my videos look with the natural light. I hope this helps!
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OH noooo i just accepted a Med-surg offer :( hopefully I get another offer for Mom and baby or NICU soon !!
What else could u do if you don’t do bed side?
There’s so many other options such as outpatient, doctors offices etc ❤️
Great video. Both my sisters and my mom are nurses. One is travel nursing while studying for her crna and the other is doing night shift trying to do her masters. It’s crazy and I dropped and since I hated it 😂. Wishing you the best and all the success
Well said.. This is all the reasons why I will not return to the bedside.
What degree were you enrolled in at the time of this video ?
Maybe if u switched hospitals..? my friend felt the same but she got into a better hospital and doesn’t feel like this anymore.
Ayeeee 1st onee❕❕what’s up golden baessss💕
Hey gworlllll ❤️