Thank you, Natasha; it is always so good to see you. As a displaced person, it is understandable that you feel lost. You nevertheless have a large online community that cares about you.
Feeling lost and a lack of meaning is not a weakness, just shows you’re thoughtful and care deeply. Life is a journey and each must find one’s’ own meaning. It’s great that you’re reviving your passion about linguistics, you have a natural gift for it!
Never lost, just finding new ways and challenges. Keep on “ adventuring “, even though sometimes it’s not easy, even extremely difficult, but remember those times will pass.
She's investing in a lost cause if her future's not in Georgia. So her anxiety is understandable. But she's also "spoilt for choice", not knowing where her future is. Her anxiety is very familiar to me: I, too, am unable to figure out where in the world my home is. The UK and Ireland are sinking quite literally, with the wettest year on record and the fields too wet to plant crops - while homelessness is on the rise and healthcare is crumbling.
You have a large following because you share the truth, your truth. It doesn't matter what topic you're covering, I enjoy your honest thoughts. RUclips is such a weird place. Keep doing it.
Be gentle to yourself. You recently fled your country. That does not leave the mind untouched. I was happy to see some enthousiasm, when you started talking about your hobbies. Wenn du mit jemandem Deutsch sprechen möchtest, lass es mich wissen.
Thanks for teaching us kid. I am 55 and still don’t know what I want to do with my life. Smile a little every day. Learn a little every day and it will take you on your way. Peace , love , and enlightenment.
I hear you about the exhaustion of feeling anxious. You have a lot of stress, from trying to figure out what to do in life, all along with the actions of your country's leadership, and escaping to a country you did not intend to live. Thank you for acting with vulnerability by sharing your life.
I get the impression that you're pretty hard on yourself. You speak English better than half the people here in Canada and now you're learning German too. It's actually really impressive. You have grown so much since I first found your channel. All the best and definitely do your vlogs! They don't have to be perfect. Just be yourself!
Dear Natasha, one of the most attractive things (for me) about your videos is your presentation in simplicity. So please don't worry about how interesting you think something might be, or being perfect, etc. You are interesting all by yourself, genuine and honest. The stark simplicity of your videos is a feature of its own. That makes them better than so many of those overly edited "perfect" videos that are actually very empty. Yours are full.
Such a lovely video, it's clearly therapy for you and pure delight for your viewers! My Russian grandfather's name was "Spiridon". Glad to see your pigeon has returned! I am shopping for an e-reader also, in America they're called a "Kindle". They're much easier on your eyes. It's normal in your twenties to be confused even depressed about your direction in life, but you are sorting it out, it takes time. I am thrilled that you are taking classes and moving forward, and recognize that however good or bad your education was, it's a good base. You have a terrific command of English, don't berate yourself for this. The shots of you wearing the lime sweatshirt against the beautiful spring flowers show you at your best, and they're really well composed. That botanical garden is gorgeous and would lift anybody up. Thank you for sharing your small things with us. You have so many things going for you, including the thousands of people who enjoy your videos. All the best, Kirk from USA.
I've been watching your videos since day 1. You don't need to feel pressure to be "perfectionist". We like watching you being yourself. You are a compelling person. That's what makes your videos compelling. Just keep being you.
Anxiety and depression can definitely make you overthink things and cause you to feel like you are not progressing and standing still. Many people feel the same and hearing you speak about these struggles can help others experiencing the same feelings. Everyone has bad days. You are very well spoken in English and get your points across very well. Keep up the good work and treat yourself well!
Judging from the number of subscribers and viewers of your videos, I would say people are greatly enjoying the things you share. You've shown me a LOT of new and interesting things from your side of the world. FYI, if those cactus you showed during your eco walk are the same type we have in Texas, we call them prickly pears. Thanks Natasha!
Don't doubt your skills. I've always loved the every day quality of your videos, just walking around, exploring, and sharing your thoughts in your own unique way. It's very special.
You remain one of my favorite YT personalities. Your content, even if you lose confidence in it yourself, is always interesting. You and "depressed Russian' are the best. I admire you, your strength, resilience, and honesty. 🙂
Natasha, du bist ein wunderbarer Mensch, der vielfältig interessiert ist und sich viele Gedanken über seine Mitmenschen und die Umwelt macht. Alleine dadurch gibst du deinem Leben mehr Sinn, als die meisten Anderen jemals erreichen werden. Ich hoffe, dass du auch noch den richtigen Ort findest, an dem du dir auch deine Zukunft vorstellen kannst! All the best for you! Greetings from Germany.
Dear Natasha, I am glad to see you're thriving and healthy in Tbilisi, and very pleased that you have interesting things to keep yourself consciously aware of the possibilities life has to offer. I also love maps! And, I also do 'eco walks' picking up and dragging out out trash, old tires, and debris from a river and park nearby here in New Haven, Connecticut, USA. Always honor your Russian heritage. Russia is a great land.
Natasha. I've been a subscriber for some time now. No need to apologise for your English. Its excellent. Noticably better than when I first found your channel. And Kudos to you for learning German and Georgian as well. I have wanted to learn both German and Russian all my life. I'm 56 now and I'm starting. It's hard at my age but you have a good head start. Hobbies are interesting and I think vital. I have several hobbies myself, mostly history related and frankly they have been a great help to me at times by keeping me from getting too introspective and depressed. I understand how hard it is being forced to relocate because of circumstances beyond your control. I had to emigrate when I was in my early 30's. But you are doing a great job with your channel and I think you are starting to find a wider interest in Linguistics based on your degree which will open up a new intellectual pathway for you. And that will be a good thing. I know it's hard but with your interests and desires (and your Bachelors degree in Language) perhaps you can investigate moving to another country and continuing with your studies there and maybe even getting a Masters degree. I'd suggest America but I know how hard it is for Russians to get the necessary Visas so maybe Germany. That would help your German studies a lot. If you were fluent in three languages that would be a really impressive achievement. And certainly I'm sure you would have no problem accomplishing that at least from an intellectual level. Finally. I live in Phoenix Arizona and I was surprise to see that Cactus on your ecological walk. We have a lot of Cacti here and some look very like that. I didn't realize things like that grew in that part of the world. Keep up the great work. Looking forward to more.
Thanks Natasha for sharing your everyday experiences and a wimdow into your world. I particularly appreciate your trash collecting experiences, l.collecct trash in the the UK and your example encourages me to keep doing it when l sometimes feel it makes little difference.
I’m an older person and in my experience trying to find your meaning in life adds stress. That’s not to say having goals and going for them is a bad thing but living life as it comes and taking chances as you have is less stressful in my experience. It sounds like you hit the spot many content creators get caught in.
I love getting a glimpse of your daily life and hobbies! I understand the difficulty trying to find your place and purpose in life. Sometimes it just comes down to being a good person and contributing to society even in little ways, as well as enjoying the small things in life. I believe that linguists is interesting to you in part because you have a talent for it. And your English is excellent! I wish you would believe that fact.🧡🌸
Hiya Natasha, it's always a good day when we see you have another update for us! Your stories are so interesting and i hope your mood will get better and better - please don't worry so much, time passes and you will see things get better. By the way, your English is very good and the sound of your voice is so cool too. Well, when your video finishes i will listen to Juliya Koshkina singing Summer Moved On and then make dinner. Have a very good week and enjoy the warm weather! 😘
This feeling is extremely common in modern life. I don't anyone who doesn't feel like this, including myself. I don't say that to minimize the feeling but to amplify of how big a problem this is and to let you know that you are not alone with this feeling. I think this feeling wasn't so prevalent in the past when society was more community orientated, and of course, the internet hasn't helped either.
What I truly appreciate and have loads of empathy for is a your ability to talk about your mental health. Natasha, you do a highly effective job of speaking your truth, and I see this, generally, in other Russian content creators. It seems as if you are still trying to search for and understand your role in this world. You are young and you will find your way. I urge you to continue down this path. I think you are close to locking in on that thing that makes you excited about the path your life is going. Selfishly, I truly appreciate your content and look forward to your vlogs.
Hi Natasha, the questions you are asking yourself about life remind me of myself many years ago, and sometimes now. It's part of some human beings, even growing up in a safe place. Keep on going, discovering and learning!
I've been following your channel since before the war, and you remind me that there are good Russians out there. What keeps me going is music, so I want to mention the classical music of your country which I love. Keep it up, and thanks for continuing to share your adventures.
Natasha, you mean more to us than you even know! Allow yourself these feelings, they are natural emotions and this too shall pass. Keep up the great videos, you are such a beautiful person. If only there were more like you back in Russia, God bless from Canada.
I've felt in limbo several times in my life. It's an anxious type of feeling that things are not quite right yet, and you are still looking for it in order to be fulfilled. I hope you find what it is you want (your purpose) or where it is you want to be.
I love that you are giving back to Georgia with your clean up efforts. Whenever I visit another country I always try to do something- even as little as picking up litter and putting in the trash can to try and do something positive for place hosting me.
Anxiety comes with a creative mind. I always enjoy looking and learning through your lense. Work your way and at your speed through the rough stuff. You definitely have a talent for this.
Natasha, it's always a great pleasure to watch your videos, even the smallest things from your daily life that you film, are interesting for us, your audience. I understand your anxiety about your future. Listening to you, I also felt anxiety because I felt powerless to be able to help a wonderful person like you. You don't deserve such a situation of living. But I am sure that you will find help from your many friends to build your future wherever you want. Your community is large and we will always be there for you. Greetings from France
It is incredible with anxiety and a little sadness that Natasha has and does all those activities. Today I watched 3 videos from the channel and this is the one I liked the most. You are truly an inspiration. I hope that soon you can return to your country or find a place where you can see your future.
Sounds like ethnolinguistics or sociolinguistics would be a good match to your interests. As to the cleanups, no matter the country this is something you take pride in and feel good about doing so it will have meaning for you wherever you do it. Thanks for sharing these things. (Love the bunny)
the hat is why I fell in love with this channel, that and the fact that she constantly finds beauty in the little things in life, which is inspiring and the pigeon (Georgia)
There's something very calming about your narration and how you film. I watch your videos sometimes when I have had enough of the news and want to see how someone else sees the world.
You are such a sweetheart. I love the way you live your life with intent and purpose. I love the constructive and helpful things you do. Thanks for sharing from your heart. I can identify with your struggle of trying to find your way. Stay strong. You have a lot of friends who care about you. Congratulations on getting an ebook. I have one too.
Hi Natasha. You've been through so much stuff. Don't beat yourself up too badly if you're feeling down, it's only natural. Also, your English vocabulary and grammar are excellent! All the best. UK
Thank you for sharing your activity, it inspires me to do the same, keep finding the purpose. Im in a similiar situation as you where im in a place far away from my hometown for work and i dont feel as hopeful as i used to be. But guess what ill try my best to stay sane as you are
You are learning a lot of interesting things. Some people feel spiritually displaced for years or their whole life. All we can do is find our meaning in the moment and follow the little tugs on our heart as life unfolds. We are made from love and nothing we do can change that. Every breath we take is a success. It's okay to worry. It's okay not to worry. It's okay to be you. You are our teacher and we are yours. That's a cute felt bunny. Well done.
I think a very good job for you would be a tour guide. It would not be much different than the vlogs you do now, but you would be interacting with real people rather than with a camera, which would be more rewarding. Your ability to give tours in Russian, English, and perhaps other languages, while also knowing some Georgian, would make you a good candidate for such jobs. There are many different types of tours you could give, general city sightseeing, museums and historic sites, nature and animals.
I really love your t-shirt!!! it suits you perfectly! you are so lovelyy you shouldn't have to worry so much. Biggest mistake of life is to be afraid of making mistakes so much that you end up avoid living. Do many things, even if you fail half of them, you will enjoy some of them in end and it's gonna be fine! Some things will fulfil your soul!
Its obvious why all your people love u. Their is something about your personality that is just so charming, lovable, i dont know , lol whatever.....! yea yea ... your rocking it babes
From an outsider's perspective, your life *is* interesting and you *are* making a difference. I'm not just talking about participating in local cleanups (which is very admirable), I mean in the way that your videos clearly inspire others in a positive way. Keep doing what you're doing, mate. And don't worry about not reading the books ya buy straight away - it's taken me 20 years to get to some of mine! :-)
I always enjoy your videos. I'm glad you are enjoying your life and staying busy. I know it takes a lot of time and effort to make these videos and I really do appreciate your hard work. Thank you.
I'm so Proud of You girl !!! You may be having some mood swings, but darn you're doing so well even so. You're so talented with your multi-language studies. That's super good. Glad to see you got a Kindle (reader tablet). I have several and love them. Take all your books with you anywhere you go. You're my favorite person to view online & your videos always cheer me up! -Carey from Michigan
I want you to know. I wait for your RUclips videos they make me feel so good to see you grow. You have taught me so much about Russia and Georgia and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.❤
Your interest in learning more about the Georgian language and culture will open doors for you and it shows respect for the local society. It is incredibly valuable, even if you're not getting a tangible "reward" for it right away.
Ŵow! Cleaning the environment in order to mantain our planet clean is indeed a great thing! Liguistics is also important! I think that a hobby can help us to live better. Very happy for you Natasha! Thank you and take care 🌷💕⚘️
Don't be so hard on yourself Natasha. You reflect that you are a wonderful human being with a precious soul wiith a deep empathy for others. Learning a language like English is an extraordinary accomplishment in itself....I cannot imagine how proficient you have become as I have struggled as bilingual Canada ( I'm now 74 years old)just to learn French which has many common roots to English. ...although I' ve come to believe that most women are genetically predisposed to be more able to excel in language skills and you are proving that!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Good to see you again. Keep doing what you like and learning new things. It's the only way to determine what will give you the purpose you seek. You're the first RUclipsr I've ever followed and now I follow dozens but I still drop everything when I see you have a new post.
I really enjoyed your sharing about your hobbies Natasha. I love board games but I can't find others to play with me. I am also trying to learn German (slowly by myself). I understand your mood swings into depression. Your path ahead is uncertain. But you are constructing a good foundation for whatever is ahead. 😊
I'm in the US, I have/had anxiety also and the doctor here prescribed a drug to lower it for me. From my perspective, the anxiety was only a thing in itself. It wasn't the external factors that made it so intense but that I needed to figure out my body to reduce the anxious way I was thinking about things. In Alaska, vitamin D helped and so did knowing that the anxiety was more about me than the situation I was in at that time. I've been a long time follower, your videos are great. During 2022 it was really interesting to see the situation from your videos and I hope you can enjoy life with less anxiety eventually.
"...the faith bit, it's not so much in the leaping, it's in the landing, the space between them can feel forever, but when you land, and you will, you learn that landing teaches you to fly", quote from Free Diver Stig Pryds.
Your board game and e book are great hobbies. Your desk looks awesome. Nice to have some green plants. George or Georgina is a nice name for your bird. You had a great day outdoors. Nothing to fear if you are careful.
Natasha, you're doing fine. You're right; get some rest, then you'll feel much better. Thanks for being an eco-friendly individual; your partake is greatly appreciated. Linguistic is one of my favorites. Love learning about another culture. Love your contents. 👍👍
Just as I was wondering what happened to the pigeon you used to have - you produced it! Keep going, Natasha. Your videos have way more meaning than most . ❤🇬🇧
Natasha is an amazing person who creates wonderful, creative content that is enjoyed by tens of thousands of people worldwide. That is quite an accomplishment!
The pumping of the chest in the first aid that you showed at the end of the video is generally called by its abbreviation "CPR" in English. The full name is Cardio-Pulmonary Resuscitation ( you can see why we use an abbreviation! xD )
Being tired, sleeping badly - these things have effects chemically that can be deeply unsettling and confusing when we are normally given to thoughtfulness and reflection, but we begin to forget we have that fatigue working on us. That is, as we go through a day on which we are dragging, we often take as normal feelings what are really very much fatigue-altered feelings, and feelings we would have recognized as simple effects of fatigue earlier in the day, or toward the end of the day. Somehow in the middle of the day this dragging, run-down state of mind strikes us as more or less normal, and, being introspective people, we overthink the negative implications of our overly negative, fatigue-altered thoughts. This leads to despair about our ability to overcome challenges, to find joy in daily projects, etc. Add to that your situation of being left with no good choice but to leave your native country and your being in a new country where you may not have a long-term home, with much about life being in a state of change or prospective change, and there can seem like just too much uncertainty and even absurdity to find a good path forward or to find much meaning in daily life. Happily, a lot of that negativity lifts with some good sleep and nutrition, and even small successes like cleaning up or meeting a friend or having a good walk can, with this minimal restorative self-care, take on much happier and more-promising senses. Learning to interpret and to compensate for the frequent changes in our body chemistry is a key to a positive life and a key to another important element of staying sane and positive: keeping your bigger-picture prospects and your day-to-day challenges and pleasures in a reasonable and proportional perspective. These things do not just come to us naturally as a birthright. These are learned skills we can improve at as we age and, one hopes, grow as increasingly wise people. Some of us find the right balances relatively young, and others never learn, but for most of us, these aspects of mental health and practical self-assessment and perspective-adjustment are practices we get better at with time. That learning process can involve needless pain, when we find perspective and appreciation of what we have and can do only after we let ourselves in for making difficult times worse than they need to be. The trick is to find our balances, controlling what we can and letting go when we must and should and enjoying the everyday beauty in the world, as soon as we can manage while we minimize pain and hopelessness. You give every sign of being in a positive growth period, with real challenges but also real assets in your intelligence, curiosity, and creativity and your having a way to support yourself, using these things, from more or less anywhere. If you take care of your body and give your emotions the benefit of a positive perspective (as you are generally doing, with understandable moments of doubt) to avoid valleys of despair brought on by focusing on what you don't have, you have all the tools you need to enjoy your time in Georgia. That may be many years or a matter of weeks, but you can find your way in this place and make it positively home for as long as you want or need it to be home. Thanks, by the way, for taking the comments some of us left for you about your channel and putting them to use so soon in your videos. It is clear you read some of our suggestions. On orientalism - a term and an idea we owe to Edward Said, a Palestinian scholar who spent most of his career at Columbia University in New York - it is a complex subject that was introduced to most of us in a book by that name. It is elaborated on by Said in other works and it has been taken up and put to different uses around the world - including, as you have discovered, in Russia and Georgia. In the course of the discussion, Said touches on the many, many ways powerful and sometimes colonial groups of people not only come to dominate and to exploit other people, but also the ways they actively change targeted groups and fictionalize these people, inventing characteristics, stereotypes, and group flaws by way of coming to a handy "understanding" of these previously foreign and now merely different people, to be put to various social and psychological purposes. In some ways, Said's concept flows from studies of colonialism, but it is a particularly psychologically sophisticated take on the subject with strikingly personal implications, in a social-societal way. We should not, on language, attempt to impede the progress of society or of language. But language changing does not mean anything goes or that it makes no sense to standardize and to learn our languages as they are and the way they work. In English, we have a crisis. Two hundred years of efforts to standardize English to make it teachable, somewhat consistent, and thus learnable, to give the masses access to the language of power in English-speaking societies, came to a screeching halt in the seventies and eighties in the UK and US (and other places over time). The reason was not language being changeable, though people made use of that idea after the fact to claim teaching native-language grammar was pointless and counter productive. It was the introduction of austerity politics turned on public-education funding, which was essentially a direct attack on universal education by the political right in both countries. This undermined school budgets in two or three rounds of major budget cuts that killed some of the teaching in primary schools of visual arts and music and then essentially eliminated the teaching of English grammar. The effects have been devastating over the ensuing decades, as anyone with a strong grasp of the language can tell just by reading any American newspaper. Now, people do not have their writing corrected all the way through university, because "who are we to correct these people? The language changes" - and people don't write or speak or understand one another very well at all. We can readily accept new words and usages that help make a language more expressive. We should read and listen with generosity. We should reject, however, new words and constructions that make it more difficult to understand what is being said or that simple harden an old error because people make the error often. No. It is easy enough to distinguish bad changes from helpful ones. It would be easier still if we actually taught children, once again, about how English works. I have gone on too long. Clearly, you drew out a lot of reaction from the viewer. Good work. Be well, Natasha. Get some rest.
I'm having burn-out too at the moment.. I also have anxiety problems. Keep your head up and do what you love to do, relax and take your time. Hope you will find comfort and a hug somewhere.
Anxiety and depression are illnesses. I suffer myself. This sense of rootlessness, pointlessness, hypercorrection, and self-criticism is all part of it. Once you accept it and realise it is a disability like any physical disability, you can accept yourself more easily. I also thoroughly enjoy language learning and linguistics. Perhaps it brings a sense of order in a chaotic world. Also, the hat was very nice.
Very impressed with your ability in English language . In many ways , your grammar is far better, than most people who are born in England. Your video is very interesting and motivating. You are extremely good at discovering new avenues to follow. You are able organise your thought process both in your mind and the way for example your desk is organised and structured. Most interesting.
Be easy on yourself. You are going through a lot right now. Things take time. It takes time to not be so hard on yourself. When you learn these new ways of thinking, they come naturally. Thank you for sharing. You are doing great. Plus all these other things.
I find board gaming is an awesome way to deal with things like anxiety. Finding a game store or cafe that lets you game there is a great way to start! All sorts of games for all sorts of tastes out there these days as well.
You’re very personable! I hope you find some peace. You’re allowed to be upset about all the changes to your life at such an age. An ebook is a wonderful thing! Make time to enjoy your reading and hobbies! Be well!
I m looking forward to your next video because of what is happening in Georgia now. You are at the right place at the right moment. This is history writing itself before our eyes and you are at the center of it.
The rod that you tie around a limb that has a broken bone is a called a "splint". The dressing that is put around a wound to keep it clean and free of debris is called a "bandage". (Only telling you cause you said you weren't sure what the words were) Good video!
Smart lady. These days present mental/emotional challenges unlike anything humans have experienced before, especially when considered collectively. And in your particular case, the added challenges (albeit with real benefits) of operating a YT Channel means it's imperative that your sanity is a very high priority, each day. FYI my #1 tool for 'survival' is meditation. Take good care.
As a Georgian I've never participated in such cleaning events myself, so seeing you do it really earned my respect. You have also done so many good things for our country by popularizing it through your videos therefore I think your thinking of being "out of place" is out of place. maybe some real georgian friends could fix that but what do I know?
Thank you for sharing. It is hard to live in exile in a different land. I spent 3 years living on Guam and hated living so close to the equator and so far from anywhere else in the world. But I did lots of exploring, and I now cherish the memories from those excursions. I loved hearing about your books, your electronic reader (I have one too) and all you shared. You are a very special amazing person. So many people from all over have left you comments, you are making a difference and I have learned much from you. Thank you!
Natasha. Over the years I have admired your honesty and the way you communicate your feelings to your viewers. I am more than 3x your age but appreciate your views very much. Keep on doing what you are doing. Live for today and only occasionally think about tomorrow. I think very highly of your life principles (eco, politics, freedom, social involvement, and many others. Best wishes from NZ/Aotearoa. 18:43
Thank you, Natasha; it is always so good to see you. As a displaced person, it is understandable that you feel lost. You nevertheless have a large online community that cares about you.
Natasha has a really attractive personality and she will fit well into the Georgian society. It's never easy being a foreigner in another country.
Feeling lost and a lack of meaning is not a weakness, just shows you’re thoughtful and care deeply. Life is a journey and each must find one’s’ own meaning. It’s great that you’re reviving your passion about linguistics, you have a natural gift for it!
Never lost, just finding new ways and challenges.
Keep on “ adventuring “, even though sometimes it’s not easy, even extremely difficult, but remember those times will pass.
She's investing in a lost cause if her future's not in Georgia. So her anxiety is understandable. But she's also "spoilt for choice", not knowing where her future is.
Her anxiety is very familiar to me: I, too, am unable to figure out where in the world my home is. The UK and Ireland are sinking quite literally, with the wettest year on record and the fields too wet to plant crops - while homelessness is on the rise and healthcare is crumbling.
@@brexitgreens i’am calling you out for talking a lot of nonsensical rubbish!
Book, boardgames and friends, doing things with purpose.
Things to help keep any of us sane, well done.
You have a large following because you share the truth, your truth. It doesn't matter what topic you're covering, I enjoy your honest thoughts. RUclips is such a weird place. Keep doing it.
You are a smart, sincere person with a good heart, and good intentions.
While I agree with most of what you're saying.
Please don't ever say "your truth" that's peak 1984.
There is only the (one) truth.
Be gentle to yourself. You recently fled your country. That does not leave the mind untouched. I was happy to see some enthousiasm, when you started talking about your hobbies. Wenn du mit jemandem Deutsch sprechen möchtest, lass es mich wissen.
plus anxiety will never be understood by people who never had it, that's how it seems to me from their explanations
Thanks for teaching us kid. I am 55 and still don’t know what I want to do with my life. Smile a little every day. Learn a little every day and it will take you on your way. Peace , love , and enlightenment.
Hopefully the day will come when you will return to Russia under a democratic change in government and a bright future.
I hear you about the exhaustion of feeling anxious. You have a lot of stress, from trying to figure out what to do in life, all along with the actions of your country's leadership, and escaping to a country you did not intend to live. Thank you for acting with vulnerability by sharing your life.
I get the impression that you're pretty hard on yourself. You speak English better than half the people here in Canada and now you're learning German too. It's actually really impressive. You have grown so much since I first found your channel. All the best and definitely do your vlogs! They don't have to be perfect. Just be yourself!
Dear Natasha, one of the most attractive things (for me) about your videos is your presentation in simplicity. So please don't worry about how interesting you think something might be, or being perfect, etc. You are interesting all by yourself, genuine and honest. The stark simplicity of your videos is a feature of its own. That makes them better than so many of those overly edited "perfect" videos that are actually very empty. Yours are full.
@natasha’s adventures THIS ⬆️ !! I know you know but still…. Keep on being you (and that “you” will go through phases)
Such a lovely video, it's clearly therapy for you and pure delight for your viewers! My Russian grandfather's name was "Spiridon". Glad to see your pigeon has returned! I am shopping for an e-reader also, in America they're called a "Kindle". They're much easier on your eyes. It's normal in your twenties to be confused even depressed about your direction in life, but you are sorting it out, it takes time. I am thrilled that you are taking classes and moving forward, and recognize that however good or bad your education was, it's a good base. You have a terrific command of English, don't berate yourself for this. The shots of you wearing the lime sweatshirt against the beautiful spring flowers show you at your best, and they're really well composed. That botanical garden is gorgeous and would lift anybody up. Thank you for sharing your small things with us. You have so many things going for you, including the thousands of people who enjoy your videos. All the best, Kirk from USA.
I've been watching your videos since day 1. You don't need to feel pressure to be "perfectionist". We like watching you being yourself. You are a compelling person. That's what makes your videos compelling. Just keep being you.
Anxiety and depression can definitely make you overthink things and cause you to feel like you are not progressing and standing still. Many people feel the same and hearing you speak about these struggles can help others experiencing the same feelings. Everyone has bad days. You are very well spoken in English and get your points across very well. Keep up the good work and treat yourself well!
Keep trying to smile and keep hope in the future. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Take care Natasha !
I also enjoy going to my waterfalls to collect the trash that pools up. Nobody likes going outside to look at trash.
Great video! Love your vibes!
Judging from the number of subscribers and viewers of your videos, I would say people are greatly enjoying the things you share. You've shown me a LOT of new and interesting things from your side of the world. FYI, if those cactus you showed during your eco walk are the same type we have in Texas, we call them prickly pears. Thanks Natasha!
I always love hearing your thoughts about the world. Your intelligence and candor is always welcome.
Don't doubt your skills. I've always loved the every day quality of your videos, just walking around, exploring, and sharing your thoughts in your own unique way. It's very special.
Natasha,
We agree on so much.
Thanks for the Video and tell everyone I said hello 👋.
-Cliff
Battleship Marine Supply
Fairhope, Alabama
You remain one of my favorite YT personalities. Your content, even if you lose confidence in it yourself, is always interesting. You and "depressed Russian' are the best. I admire you, your strength, resilience, and honesty. 🙂
Natasha, du bist ein wunderbarer Mensch, der vielfältig interessiert ist und sich viele Gedanken über seine Mitmenschen und die Umwelt macht.
Alleine dadurch gibst du deinem Leben mehr Sinn, als die meisten Anderen jemals erreichen werden.
Ich hoffe, dass du auch noch den richtigen Ort findest, an dem du dir auch deine Zukunft vorstellen kannst!
All the best for you! Greetings from Germany.
I do hope, as Georgia links up more to the EU, it will be easier for you to travel to and enjoy other western countries.
Dear Natasha, I am glad to see you're thriving and healthy in Tbilisi, and very pleased that you have interesting things to keep yourself consciously aware of the possibilities life has to offer. I also love maps! And, I also do 'eco walks' picking up and dragging out out trash, old tires, and debris from a river and park nearby here in New Haven, Connecticut, USA. Always honor your Russian heritage. Russia is a great land.
Thankyou for connecting with us, Natasha! Blessings
Your complexion is beautiful. Stay healthy Natasha. We all love you ❤
Abs.
Once I found myself in a similar situation,(without the overthinking and anxiety). It was bad enough without them.
Happy Birthday dear Natasha !
Natasha. I've been a subscriber for some time now. No need to apologise for your English. Its excellent. Noticably better than when I first found your channel. And Kudos to you for learning German and Georgian as well. I have wanted to learn both German and Russian all my life. I'm 56 now and I'm starting. It's hard at my age but you have a good head start. Hobbies are interesting and I think vital. I have several hobbies myself, mostly history related and frankly they have been a great help to me at times by keeping me from getting too introspective and depressed. I understand how hard it is being forced to relocate because of circumstances beyond your control. I had to emigrate when I was in my early 30's. But you are doing a great job with your channel and I think you are starting to find a wider interest in Linguistics based on your degree which will open up a new intellectual pathway for you. And that will be a good thing. I know it's hard but with your interests and desires (and your Bachelors degree in Language) perhaps you can investigate moving to another country and continuing with your studies there and maybe even getting a Masters degree. I'd suggest America but I know how hard it is for Russians to get the necessary Visas so maybe Germany. That would help your German studies a lot. If you were fluent in three languages that would be a really impressive achievement. And certainly I'm sure you would have no problem accomplishing that at least from an intellectual level. Finally. I live in Phoenix Arizona and I was surprise to see that Cactus on your ecological walk. We have a lot of Cacti here and some look very like that. I didn't realize things like that grew in that part of the world. Keep up the great work. Looking forward to more.
Thanks Natasha for sharing your everyday experiences and a wimdow into your world. I particularly appreciate your trash collecting experiences, l.collecct trash in the the UK and your example encourages me to keep doing it when l sometimes feel it makes little difference.
I’m an older person and in my experience trying to find your meaning in life adds stress. That’s not to say having goals and going for them is a bad thing but living life as it comes and taking chances as you have is less stressful in my experience. It sounds like you hit the spot many content creators get caught in.
You seem to be doing everything right. Your an active member of the community. You are learning the language. And your very smart. I admire you. 😀
I love getting a glimpse of your daily life and hobbies! I understand the difficulty trying to find your place and purpose in life. Sometimes it just comes down to being a good person and contributing to society even in little ways, as well as enjoying the small things in life. I believe that linguists is interesting to you in part because you have a talent for it. And your English is excellent! I wish you would believe that fact.🧡🌸
Hiya Natasha, it's always a good day when we see you have another update for us! Your stories are so interesting and i hope your mood will get better and better - please don't worry so much, time passes and you will see things get better.
By the way, your English is very good and the sound of your voice is so cool too. Well, when your video finishes i will listen to Juliya Koshkina singing Summer Moved On and then make dinner. Have a very good week and enjoy the warm weather! 😘
This feeling is extremely common in modern life. I don't anyone who doesn't feel like this, including myself. I don't say that to minimize the feeling but to amplify of how big a problem this is and to let you know that you are not alone with this feeling. I think this feeling wasn't so prevalent in the past when society was more community orientated, and of course, the internet hasn't helped either.
What I truly appreciate and have loads of empathy for is a your ability to talk about your mental health. Natasha, you do a highly effective job of speaking your truth, and I see this, generally, in other Russian content creators. It seems as if you are still trying to search for and understand your role in this world. You are young and you will find your way. I urge you to continue down this path. I think you are close to locking in on that thing that makes you excited about the path your life is going. Selfishly, I truly appreciate your content and look forward to your vlogs.
Hi Natasha, the questions you are asking yourself about life remind me of myself many years ago, and sometimes now. It's part of some human beings, even growing up in a safe place. Keep on going, discovering and learning!
Spasibo, Natasha! Board games are a wonderful way to socialize and have fun! Walks in nature are so good for the mind too.
I've been following your channel since before the war, and you remind me that there are good Russians out there.
What keeps me going is music, so I want to mention the classical music of your country which I love.
Keep it up, and thanks for continuing to share your adventures.
Natasha, you mean more to us than you even know! Allow yourself these feelings, they are natural emotions and this too shall pass. Keep up the great videos, you are such a beautiful person. If only there were more like you back in Russia, God bless from Canada.
It's always nice to hear You talking about things that interest You, what You do etc
You’re a cool intelligent girl Natasha and I personally find you vids interesting and relaxing. Good luck and take care of yourself.
I've felt in limbo several times in my life. It's an anxious type of feeling that things are not quite right yet, and you are still looking for it in order to be fulfilled. I hope you find what it is you want (your purpose) or where it is you want to be.
I love that you are giving back to Georgia with your clean up efforts. Whenever I visit another country I always try to do something- even as little as picking up litter and putting in the trash can to try and do something positive for place hosting me.
Anxiety comes with a creative mind. I always enjoy looking and learning through your lense. Work your way and at your speed through the rough stuff. You definitely have a talent for this.
The view from the monastery looks beautiful. Thank you for bringing us with you on these experiences and sharing your thoughts, as always
Natasha, it's always a great pleasure to watch your videos, even the smallest things from your daily life that you film, are interesting for us, your audience. I understand your anxiety about your future. Listening to you, I also felt anxiety because I felt powerless to be able to help a wonderful person like you. You don't deserve such a situation of living. But I am sure that you will find help from your many friends to build your future wherever you want. Your community is large and we will always be there for you. Greetings from France
It is incredible with anxiety and a little sadness that Natasha has and does all those activities. Today I watched 3 videos from the channel and this is the one I liked the most. You are truly an inspiration. I hope that soon you can return to your country or find a place where you can see your future.
Sounds like ethnolinguistics or sociolinguistics would be a good match to your interests. As to the cleanups, no matter the country this is something you take pride in and feel good about doing so it will have meaning for you wherever you do it. Thanks for sharing these things. (Love the bunny)
the hat is why I fell in love with this channel, that and the fact that she constantly finds beauty in the little things in life, which is inspiring
and the pigeon (Georgia)
There's something very calming about your narration and how you film. I watch your videos sometimes when I have had enough of the news and want to see how someone else sees the world.
You are such a sweetheart. I love the way you live your life with intent and purpose. I love the constructive and helpful things you do. Thanks for sharing from your heart. I can identify with your struggle of trying to find your way. Stay strong. You have a lot of friends who care about you. Congratulations on getting an ebook. I have one too.
Hi Natasha. You've been through so much stuff. Don't beat yourself up too badly if you're feeling down, it's only natural.
Also, your English vocabulary and grammar are excellent! All the best. UK
Thank you for sharing your activity, it inspires me to do the same, keep finding the purpose. Im in a similiar situation as you where im in a place far away from my hometown for work and i dont feel as hopeful as i used to be. But guess what ill try my best to stay sane as you are
You are learning a lot of interesting things. Some people feel spiritually displaced for years or their whole life. All we can do is find our meaning in the moment and follow the little tugs on our heart as life unfolds. We are made from love and nothing we do can change that. Every breath we take is a success. It's okay to worry. It's okay not to worry. It's okay to be you. You are our teacher and we are yours. That's a cute felt bunny. Well done.
I think a very good job for you would be a tour guide. It would not be much different than the vlogs you do now, but you would be interacting with real people rather than with a camera, which would be more rewarding. Your ability to give tours in Russian, English, and perhaps other languages, while also knowing some Georgian, would make you a good candidate for such jobs. There are many different types of tours you could give, general city sightseeing, museums and historic sites, nature and animals.
I really love your t-shirt!!! it suits you perfectly! you are so lovelyy you shouldn't have to worry so much. Biggest mistake of life is to be afraid of making mistakes so much that you end up avoid living. Do many things, even if you fail half of them, you will enjoy some of them in end and it's gonna be fine! Some things will fulfil your soul!
Natasha, do not be pessimistic. Goodness alwys finds its way to win. Greetings from Australia
Great content, Natasha! You have a great ability to express your innermost feelings to your audience, and in extraordinarily fluent English too.
Its obvious why all your people love u. Their is something about your personality that is just so charming, lovable, i dont know , lol whatever.....! yea yea ... your rocking it babes
From an outsider's perspective, your life *is* interesting and you *are* making a difference. I'm not just talking about participating in local cleanups (which is very admirable), I mean in the way that your videos clearly inspire others in a positive way. Keep doing what you're doing, mate. And don't worry about not reading the books ya buy straight away - it's taken me 20 years to get to some of mine! :-)
So many crazy ups and downs for you since I subscribed to your channel 3 years ago. I'm glad you've got some relative normality now.
I always enjoy your videos. I'm glad you are enjoying your life and staying busy. I know it takes a lot of time and effort to make these videos and I really do appreciate your hard work. Thank you.
I'm so Proud of You girl !!! You may be having some mood swings, but darn you're doing so well even so. You're so talented with your multi-language studies. That's super good. Glad to see you got a Kindle (reader tablet). I have several and love them. Take all your books with you anywhere you go. You're my favorite person to view online & your videos always cheer me up! -Carey from Michigan
I want you to know. I wait for your RUclips videos they make me feel so good to see you grow. You have taught me so much about Russia and Georgia and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.❤
Very nice to see someone who cares about nature and volunteers to clean up the rubbish that other people leave behind. 🥰
Thank you for your honest reflection, and being open about your emotional state. May you find that place where you feel in harmony with it.
Your interest in learning more about the Georgian language and culture will open doors for you and it shows respect for the local society. It is incredibly valuable, even if you're not getting a tangible "reward" for it right away.
Ŵow! Cleaning the environment in order to mantain our planet clean is indeed a great thing! Liguistics is also important! I think that a hobby can help us to live better. Very happy for you Natasha! Thank you and take care 🌷💕⚘️
So nice to see you Natasha ! Sorry that you are feeling unsettled…
I volunteered for a clean up, (you inspired me) (74yr old)
Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re doing a great job! We love your videos ❤
Another great video Natasha . Take care , look after yourself you mean such a lot to so many subscribers we all support you !!
Don't be so hard on yourself Natasha. You reflect that you are a wonderful human being with a precious soul wiith a deep empathy for others. Learning a language like English is an extraordinary accomplishment in itself....I cannot imagine how proficient you have become as I have struggled as bilingual Canada ( I'm now 74 years old)just to learn French which has many common roots to English. ...although I' ve come to believe that most women are genetically predisposed to be more able to excel in language skills and you are proving that!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Good to see you again. Keep doing what you like and learning new things. It's the only way to determine what will give you the purpose you seek. You're the first RUclipsr I've ever followed and now I follow dozens but I still drop everything when I see you have a new post.
I really enjoyed your sharing about your hobbies Natasha. I love board games but I can't find others to play with me. I am also trying to learn German (slowly by myself). I understand your mood swings into depression. Your path ahead is uncertain. But you are constructing a good foundation for whatever is ahead. 😊
You will be ok Natasha, thanks for being so open with everyone, it is good to let it out, it has to go somewhere :0)
I'm in the US, I have/had anxiety also and the doctor here prescribed a drug to lower it for me. From my perspective, the anxiety was only a thing in itself. It wasn't the external factors that made it so intense but that I needed to figure out my body to reduce the anxious way I was thinking about things. In Alaska, vitamin D helped and so did knowing that the anxiety was more about me than the situation I was in at that time. I've been a long time follower, your videos are great. During 2022 it was really interesting to see the situation from your videos and I hope you can enjoy life with less anxiety eventually.
"...the faith bit, it's not so much in the leaping, it's in the landing, the space between them can feel forever, but when you land, and you will, you learn that landing teaches you to fly", quote from Free Diver Stig Pryds.
Your board game and e book are great hobbies. Your desk looks awesome. Nice to have some green plants. George or Georgina is a nice name for your bird. You had a great day outdoors. Nothing to fear if you are careful.
Thanks!
Natasha, you're doing fine. You're right; get some rest, then you'll feel much better. Thanks for being an eco-friendly individual; your partake is greatly appreciated. Linguistic is one of my favorites. Love learning about another culture. Love your contents. 👍👍
Just as I was wondering what happened to the pigeon you used to have - you produced it! Keep going, Natasha. Your videos have way more meaning than most . ❤🇬🇧
Natasha is an amazing person who creates wonderful, creative content that is enjoyed by tens of thousands of people worldwide. That is quite an accomplishment!
Thanks, Natasha, good luck in Georgia, please come to New York City,we love 😘😙💕 you
The pumping of the chest in the first aid that you showed at the end of the video is generally called by its abbreviation "CPR" in English. The full name is Cardio-Pulmonary Resuscitation ( you can see why we use an abbreviation! xD )
Enjoyed the look at your days, and look at linguistics! I am fluent in Czech and learned English as a Czech refugee to Canada in '68.
Being tired, sleeping badly - these things have effects chemically that can be deeply unsettling and confusing when we are normally given to thoughtfulness and reflection, but we begin to forget we have that fatigue working on us. That is, as we go through a day on which we are dragging, we often take as normal feelings what are really very much fatigue-altered feelings, and feelings we would have recognized as simple effects of fatigue earlier in the day, or toward the end of the day. Somehow in the middle of the day this dragging, run-down state of mind strikes us as more or less normal, and, being introspective people, we overthink the negative implications of our overly negative, fatigue-altered thoughts. This leads to despair about our ability to overcome challenges, to find joy in daily projects, etc. Add to that your situation of being left with no good choice but to leave your native country and your being in a new country where you may not have a long-term home, with much about life being in a state of change or prospective change, and there can seem like just too much uncertainty and even absurdity to find a good path forward or to find much meaning in daily life.
Happily, a lot of that negativity lifts with some good sleep and nutrition, and even small successes like cleaning up or meeting a friend or having a good walk can, with this minimal restorative self-care, take on much happier and more-promising senses. Learning to interpret and to compensate for the frequent changes in our body chemistry is a key to a positive life and a key to another important element of staying sane and positive: keeping your bigger-picture prospects and your day-to-day challenges and pleasures in a reasonable and proportional perspective. These things do not just come to us naturally as a birthright. These are learned skills we can improve at as we age and, one hopes, grow as increasingly wise people. Some of us find the right balances relatively young, and others never learn, but for most of us, these aspects of mental health and practical self-assessment and perspective-adjustment are practices we get better at with time. That learning process can involve needless pain, when we find perspective and appreciation of what we have and can do only after we let ourselves in for making difficult times worse than they need to be. The trick is to find our balances, controlling what we can and letting go when we must and should and enjoying the everyday beauty in the world, as soon as we can manage while we minimize pain and hopelessness.
You give every sign of being in a positive growth period, with real challenges but also real assets in your intelligence, curiosity, and creativity and your having a way to support yourself, using these things, from more or less anywhere. If you take care of your body and give your emotions the benefit of a positive perspective (as you are generally doing, with understandable moments of doubt) to avoid valleys of despair brought on by focusing on what you don't have, you have all the tools you need to enjoy your time in Georgia. That may be many years or a matter of weeks, but you can find your way in this place and make it positively home for as long as you want or need it to be home.
Thanks, by the way, for taking the comments some of us left for you about your channel and putting them to use so soon in your videos. It is clear you read some of our suggestions.
On orientalism - a term and an idea we owe to Edward Said, a Palestinian scholar who spent most of his career at Columbia University in New York - it is a complex subject that was introduced to most of us in a book by that name. It is elaborated on by Said in other works and it has been taken up and put to different uses around the world - including, as you have discovered, in Russia and Georgia. In the course of the discussion, Said touches on the many, many ways powerful and sometimes colonial groups of people not only come to dominate and to exploit other people, but also the ways they actively change targeted groups and fictionalize these people, inventing characteristics, stereotypes, and group flaws by way of coming to a handy "understanding" of these previously foreign and now merely different people, to be put to various social and psychological purposes. In some ways, Said's concept flows from studies of colonialism, but it is a particularly psychologically sophisticated take on the subject with strikingly personal implications, in a social-societal way.
We should not, on language, attempt to impede the progress of society or of language. But language changing does not mean anything goes or that it makes no sense to standardize and to learn our languages as they are and the way they work. In English, we have a crisis. Two hundred years of efforts to standardize English to make it teachable, somewhat consistent, and thus learnable, to give the masses access to the language of power in English-speaking societies, came to a screeching halt in the seventies and eighties in the UK and US (and other places over time). The reason was not language being changeable, though people made use of that idea after the fact to claim teaching native-language grammar was pointless and counter productive. It was the introduction of austerity politics turned on public-education funding, which was essentially a direct attack on universal education by the political right in both countries. This undermined school budgets in two or three rounds of major budget cuts that killed some of the teaching in primary schools of visual arts and music and then essentially eliminated the teaching of English grammar. The effects have been devastating over the ensuing decades, as anyone with a strong grasp of the language can tell just by reading any American newspaper. Now, people do not have their writing corrected all the way through university, because "who are we to correct these people? The language changes" - and people don't write or speak or understand one another very well at all.
We can readily accept new words and usages that help make a language more expressive. We should read and listen with generosity. We should reject, however, new words and constructions that make it more difficult to understand what is being said or that simple harden an old error because people make the error often. No. It is easy enough to distinguish bad changes from helpful ones. It would be easier still if we actually taught children, once again, about how English works.
I have gone on too long. Clearly, you drew out a lot of reaction from the viewer. Good work. Be well, Natasha. Get some rest.
Fascinating and helpful for an elderly former teacher in Australia 🦘🦘🦘🦘🦘
I'm having burn-out too at the moment.. I also have anxiety problems. Keep your head up and do what you love to do, relax and take your time. Hope you will find comfort and a hug somewhere.
Anxiety and depression are illnesses. I suffer myself. This sense of rootlessness, pointlessness, hypercorrection, and self-criticism is all part of it. Once you accept it and realise it is a disability like any physical disability, you can accept yourself more easily.
I also thoroughly enjoy language learning and linguistics. Perhaps it brings a sense of order in a chaotic world.
Also, the hat was very nice.
So well spoken, I love people like you. Intelligent and kind. So soothing
this was a great video. casual daily life and sharing internal thoughts. loved it. thanks Natasha
Very impressed with your ability in English language . In many ways , your grammar is far better, than most people who are born in England. Your video is very interesting and motivating. You are extremely good at discovering new avenues to follow. You are able organise your thought process both in your mind and the way for example your desk is organised and structured. Most interesting.
Be easy on yourself.
You are going through a lot right now.
Things take time. It takes time to not be so hard on yourself.
When you learn these new ways of thinking, they come naturally.
Thank you for sharing.
You are doing great. Plus all these other things.
I find board gaming is an awesome way to deal with things like anxiety. Finding a game store or cafe that lets you game there is a great way to start! All sorts of games for all sorts of tastes out there these days as well.
You’re very personable! I hope you find some peace. You’re allowed to be upset about all the changes to your life at such an age. An ebook is a wonderful thing! Make time to enjoy your reading and hobbies! Be well!
I m looking forward to your next video because of what is happening in Georgia now. You are at the right place at the right moment. This is history writing itself before our eyes and you are at the center of it.
Hallo Natasha freut mich zu hören dass du Deutsch lernst. Ich wünsch dir alles Gute. Grüße aus Deutschland.
The rod that you tie around a limb that has a broken bone is a called a "splint". The dressing that is put around a wound to keep it clean and free of debris is called a "bandage". (Only telling you cause you said you weren't sure what the words were) Good video!
Pigeon returns 😍😍😍
It's nice to see you smiling and enjoying your hobbies 🤗
Smart lady. These days present mental/emotional challenges unlike anything humans have experienced before, especially when considered collectively. And in your particular case, the added challenges (albeit with real benefits) of operating a YT Channel means it's imperative that your sanity is a very high priority, each day. FYI my #1 tool for 'survival' is meditation. Take good care.
As a Georgian I've never participated in such cleaning events myself, so seeing you do it really earned my respect.
You have also done so many good things for our country by popularizing it through your videos therefore I think your thinking of being "out of place" is out of place. maybe some real georgian friends could fix that but what do I know?
Your OK Natasha,life is a rollercoaster and you ride
I love your new video, Natasha! 😊 Stay safe! Best wishes from Jonny in Oslo, Norway ❤
Thank you for sharing. It is hard to live in exile in a different land. I spent 3 years living on Guam and hated living so close to the equator and so far from anywhere else in the world. But I did lots of exploring, and I now cherish the memories from those excursions. I loved hearing about your books, your electronic reader (I have one too) and all you shared. You are a very special amazing person. So many people from all over have left you comments, you are making a difference and I have learned much from you. Thank you!
Natasha. Over the years I have admired your honesty and the way you communicate your feelings to your viewers. I am more than 3x your age but appreciate your views very much. Keep on doing what you are doing. Live for today and only occasionally think about tomorrow.
I think very highly of your life principles (eco, politics, freedom, social involvement, and many others. Best wishes from NZ/Aotearoa. 18:43