I heard there was going to be many alternate endings in Portal 2, but were removed because none of the playtesters would find them. One was being able to look up very early in the game at a full moon, shoot a portal at it, and then shoot a portal at a wall in the room you were currently in and be sucked out into space, and this song would immediately start playing. How disturbing.
In portal 2 I tried going backwards out of the door while holding the radio. The door shut and I dropped the radio. I was sad, but when I moved to the very middle of the door, I heard the music, and sat there for a while, listening to it, and when I was in the elevator, I heard it faintly. I was so sad in the next chamber.
oh my god a very similar thing happened to me the first time I played the game, I stumbled upon that radio and of course had to listen to it and bring it around with me as I solved the puzzle. At one point after I solved the puzzle I just happened to be standing near the door with my back to it, holding the radio, and I accidentally walked backwards and made the door close with the radio on the other side, right as that final minor chord of the song hit. It was the most perfect accidental timing. It was literally exactly at 4:24 in the song when the door closed and I could hear that final chord play from the other side.
"This was a triumph I'm making a note here: "HUGE SUCCESS" It's hard to overstate my satisfaction Aperture Science We do what we must because we can For the good of all of us, except the ones who are dead But there's no sense crying over every mistake You just keep on trying 'til you run out of cake And the Science gets done And you make a neat gun For the people who are still alive I'm not even angry I'm being so sincere right now Even though you broke my heart And killed me and tore me to pieces And threw every piece into a fire As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you Now these points of data make a beautiful line And we're out of beta, we're releasing on time So I'm GLaD I got burned Think of all the things we learned For the people who are still alive Go ahead and leave me I think I prefer to stay inside Maybe you'll find someone else to help you Maybe Black Mesa That was a joke, haha, fat chance Anyway, this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist Look at me still talking when there's Science to do When I look out there, it makes me GLaD I'm not you I've experiments to run There is research to be done On the people who are still alive And believe me I am still alive I'm doing science and I'm still alive I feel fantastic and I'm still alive While you're dying I'll be still alive And when you're dead I will be still alive Still alive, still alive"
The creator of Portal once said Chell isnt actually mute, she just chooses not to speak. Whether youre in the clean perfectly placed white walls of the test facility or the broken shambles of old aperture the game takes no hesitation in constantly reminding you that you are alone in this world. I think thats what made Rattmans dens feel so comforting and surreal, that another human could potentially exist. To me Portal feels like drowning in loneliness despite being surrounded by voices.
I absolutely agree. This loneliness feeling is amplified by the fact that in many chambers, there are viewing windows, it _feels_ like you _should_ be getting watched, and yet never once is anyone there. Truly amazing.
@@Lozinlimboas a kid, the voices and noises in ratmans dens freaked me the fuck out. He felt more like a terrifying spectre than a living person. GLaDOS’s insults and quips were more of a comfort to me by comparison.
Look up some kf the 2010-11 audience preview videos there's one where at the very end where you have to push the button to switch off wheatley for glados the procedure voice ask for voice confirmation and Chel fucking says either do it or yes But no one gave a shit because they are mostly in awe of the sequence and clap so it's hard to hear but one it's the first main game of valves hl-portal series where a protagonists speaks and it's amazing It got changed in the end but it's well known that Chel isn't a mute amd it would have been cathartic to hear whenfinishg the game for the first time
Chell is racist towards robots xD Why talk to toasters, nobody real around. Glados and Whitley can talk all they want, but for Chell they are nothing but cold mindless grey computers, just mad AI.
This song made me feel for really feel for Rattmann. As soon as I heard this, I went back and read Lab Rat again, and really grasped the Lovecraftian horror that Aperture truly is. This man, constantly on the run from his own creation, doing anything he can to stay alive in the pits of Hell, with only one salvation - Chell. Then when he finally escapes and is about to rejoice, Chell is forced back into the facility. Rattmann, despite his newfound freedom, goes back in after her. He is truly an unsung hero in video game history. It's really quite sad we haven't got an ending to his story yet. Just like Schrodinger's Cat, he is both dead and alive. Valve just needs to open the box. Schrodinger's Ratt.
For a while, i had forgotten why i love this game. It's not just puzzles and robots. There's such an intriguing and amazingly well crafted backstory to it all, which sometimes even expands outside the game itself.
Two of my very close friends taught me to play this on piano in school years ago. We lost one of them in 2015 and this song always reminded me of him. Today I just found out my best friend who helped teach me this passed away as well. This song is giving me some peace, it will forever be special to me.
I am sorry for your loss, I am glad you have fond memories of them and you should cherish them forever, life isn't forever but we gotta keep moving on!
In Portal 2 I found a radio. in Rat's den, I kept it until i finished the puzzle. but then when I got to the elevator room it disintegrated. I felt sad.
I heard one on Spotify today and i was like... "Something just doesn't sound right.." and i haven't heard this song in years. Any reason it was removed?
I know where it's from. I've played portal 2 many times, if I remember correctly I first came across it in an Easter egg room that just had a pile of junk and a radio playing this in it. When I said it's beautiful I wasn't referring to where it came from, there's just something about the melody that's really haunting. That and the words are really relate able in a way.
When I found this in portal 2 I never wanted to leave the radio, it was incrediably relaxing compared to the run-down and depressing setting and mood of portal 2
I don't understand life. In 2005 a friend recommended this song "Mr. November" to me, and I loved it and played it on repeat for awhile, but while at work I started putting the rest of the album on repeat and after a dozen listens or so I fell in love with every song. I won five tickets to see them live in a pub in Boston two years later with 30 other people and they were so friendly and great. I saw them over the years 13 more times in concert everywhere from Boston to NYC to Spain to the rural coast of Germany, and they were always great. Falling in love with Game of Thrones I was so happy when the lead singer of this personal band I'd found suddenly was singing the end credits over the finale to the second season. Falling in love with the game Portal, I was so shocked when I found a boombox I could carry in the game, and it was playing a song that's now in my top 5 for the band. I had tickets to see them where I live now in London in June, and those probably won't happen but that's okay, we'll do it again later. I guess what I'm saying is that I don't understand life. But god it's these things that make me love life.
The fan made games like portal stories: mel could count as valve titles considering that valve actually gave their blessing, but it’s not the same as a 100% valve made game
This song, I... I don't know why but it gets me man. Whenever something bad happens, I listen to it and I remember portal. And the rat mans story and how he couldn't give up even though he was down on his luck. And I think, I have to keep going... For the greater good.
It's such a shame that such a great and beautiful song is so hidden in Portal 2. On my first playthrough I had no idea this hidden room was anywhere, I found out some time later. Such a great song.
I just found the room for the very first time after restarting the game from the beginning and I searched the name and got here, such a beautiful song and game.
Valve creates worlds. They’re like some sort of modern Willy Wonka, making things that take people to the farthest realm of their imagination, conveying stories they have never been heard before. What they have left us is a legacy, for us and new generations to enjoy again and again.
Even if they haven't talked to us in years (Not counting Alyx), I still love them. They've given me a great childhood of fantastic videogames that still gives me joy today. They'll always be my favorite video game developer/publisher.
Ohh the memories from Portal 2, best game experience EVER and I will never forget when i found the radio playing this song, I was in a dreamstate for many minutes!
I remember the first time I found that radio. I picked it up and didn't even move until the song ended; the piece was just so hauntingly beautiful and sad at the same moment. I felt as utterly along and isolated as Chell and, somehow, knew what is must be like to be god-only-knows how far in the future and possibly the last human on Earth so that I would be forever alone and isolated and that this would be last human voice I would ever hear again. And then the radio went to silence and I found that I'd been crying a little and didn't even know it. That's the power of music. Add to that the perfect placement in-game and, well, emotions distilled down to their very essence.
Why isn't there a game about ratman yet? It would be so great... Having extremly hard puzles, but you'll get the help of the cube along the way. You could have the whole ratman's comic in cutscenes, and maybe even not have the Portal gun.
@@Osysseus5277 Just like half life had half life: alyx why we cant get a Rattman prequel?, with maybe as HL:A a ending that connects to the future of the saga after Portal 2
If you ask me, this song is about someone who's stuck in a depression and/or contemplating suicide, because they feel isolated from society ("Exile. It takes your mind again") and that previous successes have just been flukes ("You've got sucker's luck"). The singer tries to show sympathy and subtly remind this person that there's at least someone who cares about them ("Oh, you meant so much. Have you given up? Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind the way *you trouble mine?*"), trying to dissuade them from doing something rash ("Now you're thinking too fast, you're like marbles on glass"). The latter part of the song, from 2:14 onward, sounds much more positive, showing that they're feeling much better, with the singer even reprimanding them for letting it get to that point ("Vilify, don't even try. Did you fall for the same emptinesses again?") But that's just my take on it.
Hearing this question “Does it feel like a trial” when I’ve been in hopeless places in my life has really filled me with something I can’t explain. Listening to this song, I can’t help but pick myself up defiantly against everything pulling me down. Everyone needs a song like this to bring them back.
Only difference is we have literally no way to get back any of the documents from Alexandria. We can still listen to this song, but I get what you’re saying
@@strangeactuallylegume false, the library of alexandria was made of copies of every book that entered alexandria, it's not like they were the only books in existence. It's a shame to lose a great library but those documents existed in many places and still do
Half Life 3 is currently being made by two different community teams to create two different versions. It isn't being made by Valve but the fans have always done great at taking their games to a whole new level.
This song really does communicate the feeling of exile. Being and feeling completely isolated from anyone or everything else. No wonder it fits so well into Portal. You can really tell this communicated exactly what Rattmann was feeling locked down here on his own constantly, with only his fragmented mind to keep him company.
It feels so stupid for a song that’s from Portal 2, a game I’m horribly obsessed with, to become my comfort song but honestly, I love it. It feels soft, and comforting, and grey, and it smells like rain- it makes me think of those days where the clouds are overcast and maybe raining, but in the short distance the sun is so bright that the world is both grey and yellow and green and blue all at once. It’s beautiful. And listening to the song makes me think of Portal which makes me happy. I want to try and animate Portal and Portal 2 completely as if films. I don’t know if anyone’s done that before, but I’d like to even if they have. I have this idea of Chell finding the den and the radio, and solemnly looking at the Doug Rattman’s wall art reflecting on how hard it’s been just to end up right back where she started, testing under GLaDOS’ rule, and eventually sitting down with the radio in her arms playing the song. It fades out as she falls asleep, and a dream sequence animation plays for the rest of the song before it eventually ends and fades back out and Chell wakes up. She gets up, portals out of the den, finishes the test and leaves the radio just in front of the Emancipation Grill so that it lives on forever. I can’t guarantee that I’ll ever actually do this or even be able to, but I like to think about doing it, and I like to think about it.
My 11 year old played this song for me and it nearly brought me to tears. Not only that it displayed depth of his feelings AND how it ties to his love for Portal but how our children have ways of communicating to us. So inspiring yet sad at the same time.
The desolate radio sitting in an abandoned facility. The song playing on an endless loop, powered by god knows what creation of that desolate facility, echoing through dozens of corridors and once lively testing facilities and chambers. This song defines the entirety of the universe of Portal and Half-Life. But then you realize, the man, Rattmann, wandering solemnly through hallways, trying to stay sane for long enough to get out of the structurally unsound facility, hearing that song endlessly.
supposedly, it was meant to be used in a secret ending. Early on in ruined Aperture, you could look up and see the moon. Shoot a portal at it, you'd get sucked out into space, and this song would play.
Tuning: Eb Ab Db Gb Bb Eb "Exile... it takes your mind... again" Em G C Am "You got sucker's luck..." Em C G D "Does it feel like a trial..." Am F C G "Vilify, dont even try..." Dm Am C Em Tuning: C# F# B E G# C# F#m A D Bm F#m D A E Bm G D A Em Bm D F#m Tuning: G# C# F# B D# G# Bm D G Em Bm G D A Em C G D Am Em G Bm
I remember my brothers, cousin, and I listening to this because we loved Portal 2. My brother, who showed all of this, passed away recently. I'm so glad he shared Valve games with us all, they always will be close to my heart. Thank you bro, I miss you.
I don't know him, and didnt know of him till now, i already miss him, i remember goin through on the xbox 360 with my brother sittin on the top bunk playin portal and borderlands, and to this day thoes games are my top favorites mostly portal tho dispite my name being krieg, named after a borderlands 2 character. im sorry you lost your brother, hope life is good for you
i've never played portal 2, but i'd noticed, when i went looking for songs by the national, at some point i had "liked" this song on spotify. so i played it to refresh my memory and fell absolutely in love with it immediately. and not too long after it became my most replayed song, it was removed from the service. i miss it everyday.
+TheSyntheticPop The Martian Remix: Damon... He's gotten lost... again. Damon... He's gotten lost... again. Now he's stuck on Mars. Just a world too far. 'Cause the ship left without him. He got hit in the face by the flying space trash... (repeat) xD
Exile It takes your mind again Exile It takes your mind again You've got sucker's luck Have you given up? Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind The way you trouble mine? Exile It takes your mind again Exile It takes your mind again Oh, you meant so much Have you given up? Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind The way you trouble mine? Does it feel like a trial? Now, you're thinking too fast You're like marbles on glass Vilify Don't even try Vilify Don't even try You've got sucker's luck Have you given up? Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind The way you trouble mine? Does it feel like a trial? Did you fall for the same Empty answers again? Vilify Don't even try Vilify Don't even try Vilify Don't even try Vilify
This song reminds me of Rathmines public school, when I was in my Portal craze, I made custom cores, turrets, PotatOs and a custom GLaDOS, I remember I introduced my pals to it and they got into the craze, we watched Portal 2 videos on the computers that were in our room (we were in a special ed classroom and had access to RUclips, we were responsible and trusted to not watch something inappropriate) we also watched Minecraft videos,like mods reviews and skits! But that was only two years of Rathmines 2015 and 2016, I got chocked up when I had to leave for highschool... my friends were Ryka, James, Benn and Ryda when I left for high school Benn had to move away with his Dad, Ryka was with a foster family and got adopted by a family that lived away from Rathmines so he and his brother, Tyger (I don't know if that's how his name is spelt) had to move to, Ryda ended up in the mainstream classes, and James, he wasn't doing to well after all that, he's illiterate and has anger issues, but he's nice, he always got annoyed by Lawson, Lawson he *CAN* be nice sometimes, but he's just chooses to be irritating most of the time and that made James suffer bad days at school, I felt bad when I found out that... The type of person the James is like is simular to Piglet from Winnie the Pooh, I'll have to someday make a video about that because I think I've just wasted some of your time by making this a comment!
I miss this song, it brings back nostalgia for 2011, experiencing for the first time the story of portal 2 and the mystery videos on RUclips at the time.
Goddamn it valve....i grew up playing your games, having so much fun and then you went silent for almost a decade.....i think old valve is coming back in the 2020s but i cant believe its going to be 10 years since this masterpeice of a game came out. Ill miss the late 2000s and early 2010s because of how good and popular valve games were...
This song was a staple in my playlists 9 years ago or so. I just played it out loud for the first time in years and the lyrics came back in a second. Bonus: I had my hamster out, running around, but she stopped to listen to the violins in the song, staring straight at me. So there’s that!
Shadowclawsrevenge To be fair mate, the song was created exclusively for Portal 2, so you probably have Valve to thank for getting the National to make it in the first place
So I've known of this song for a long time but forgot about it, was only when I saw someone's custom description of a sniper rifle in TeamFortess2 that was "does it bother your mind like you bother mine?" and it just unlocked such nostalgia when I realized which song it was, had to come back and give it a listen
the portal series was a very big part of my life growing up. i completely forgot about this song for probably a good 8 years? i immediately started crying listening to it again after so long. the song is sad in itself, but music we relate to our childhood always stings harder the older we get. this song reminds me of innocent times. :(
I feel that this melody fervently conveys the tragedy, the sorrow and apathy that is ratman's psyche. All melting and culminating together into a masterpiece that brings you through thoughts of pure beauty and yet pure pain as it Carrie's you through its elegant tune. Leaving you alone with its echoes....
@@Daniel_JT. :)) Hello, stranger! Much better. I'm very glad I didn't give up. At the time that I was writing, I felt as if every day for the rest of my life I would have to struggle to be happy. That everything was a "trial," day in, day out. On and on. I was just so tired of trying to have my life actually FEEL good. Without taking so much effort. I was afraid it could never feel natural to be happy again. Like I could never get back to those childhood days. But *change is real* And I feel joy again :) Not just every once in a while... But often. And it comes to me not with horrible, exhausting struggle. It comes naturally ❤️
This song makes me feel sad and nostalgic but there is a mix of another feeling there isn’t a word for. It’s uncomfortable but comforting at the same time. It makes me feel like Im not very alive compared to when I was a kid. It reminds me that life really sucks but life was beautiful. I hope life can be beautiful again.
i was contemplating suicide like 5-6 years ago, in my bathroom, you know... and when this song droped from the playlist i was hearing... it saved me at the same time it almost made me "do it", cause when the song progressed it went deeper and deeper with the words an phrases, feeding my bad thougts until i puted enough attention on what the song was about (Oh, you meant so much... Have you given up?) giving me feelings of people that care about and questioning myself,and the part of "Now, you're thinkin' too fast you're like, marbles on glass" it was like sang to me in real time then. This song is unique for everyone in different ways, like any song really, but for me it goes beyond that, for making me be here today still, able to make this comment to share this little story a very few people will actually read, but for you reading this, thanks and hope you find your way in this life, maybe reading this will change something in you, who knows
@@Amis5474 I care because I can relate a lot to the comment. I come to this song when I have destructive thoughts. Your lack of compassion is concerning and hurtful.
I was a kid when portal 2 came out and I vividly remember playing the game for the first time. When the radio started playing this song I just sat there and stopped playing. Just staring at the screen. Not really sure why but it felt like I sat there for a really long time
No Portal 2 for me , this just reminds me of the Darkness I entered after my wife took her own life . (She had written this song down ) I never even knew that she left me song lyrics until I finally heard this song .
@@TheONLYFeli0 , Hi , yeah you gotta let life move on otherwise the pain just drags you down and down . When I finally forgave myself for not being there when my wife needed me the most , it was then that I started to heal . My problem at the time was I blamed myself cos I knew there was a problem But I just thought it was down to the fact that I was working every hour I could to pay for everything , like couples tend to have to do when they first start out , I never in my wildest dreams did I think though that the problem was actually a deep depression from which she would never recover , I never even spotted the depression (I guess cos I was never there , I use to work till I was dead on my feet then come home to eat and crash out), I just thought my wife was moaning about wanting me to spend more time with her , like any woman would , however I mistakenly thought that having the money for nice things was more important , I learnt a harsh lesson . My life since then is that money comes second every time . Take Care and remember , yes we all want the finer things in life but nothing is more important than time spent with your partner . R .
This song is amazing. Most of the people who heard this song came from Portal 2, and I am one of those people,the greatest game ever and this song. I love it.
"Does it trouble your mind the way, you trouble mine" Really resonates with me. There are a lot of people whom I once knew that I no longer talk to, and are without ways to contact them again. I always wonder If I'm ever on their mind, if they ever think of me even if it's in a negative way. It sucks to be remembered as a bad memory, sure, but it's even worse to be forgotten completely. Puffa.Lump, Layla, Mars, Lily. About 4 others others whom I forgot the names of. I know you'll never see this, but I still have you all in my memory. Even if we only talked for a few months each between 2018 and 2020, those were the best (and worst) 2 damn years of my life on Instagram and you guys really shaped me into who I am today. I still remember all of you, both the negatives and the positives. The fights and the love. The break-ups and the make-ups. Everything. I really hope you all remember me, too. I hope you haven't forgotten me in the way I haven't forgotten you. I hope it all troubled your mind in the way you troubled mine.
I was going through a rough time with bad relationships with family members. I love portal and this song helped me a lot and I feel really healthy and happy, thanks to the people who made this song for helping me through the bad
I just replayed Portal 2 on my PS3. The feeling of nostalgia and longing for days now long passed is still fresh in my mind. Every time I hear this song I just want to go back to my younger self, to hide from what the world would become. But I can't do that. Nobody can. We're stuck with what we're given, and we need to accept that this world isn't as simple as it used to seem.
Lors de ma première partie j'ai trouvé cette petite radio dans la tanière, je l'ai instinctivement amené avec moi en haut de la salle de test, j'ai écouté la chanson en entier, 4 minutes qui ont parus si longues, j'ai regardé les trous dans le plafond en me demandant a quel point j'étais éloigné du ciel, je ne m'étais jamais senti aussi seul, le jeu venait a peine de commencer et j'avais l'impression que ça allait être une expérience incroyable, ce le fut.
This song stopped me dead in game. It just blew me away with the emotions it triggered. It almost brought me to tears. This song is speck of gold in the music we hear today.
Damn a lot of us are really sad and empty and this sucks lmao we all understand that but its crazy how so many people can hear the same song and feel the same way with the same shitty thoughts simultaneously. As alone as I feel its like I'm accompanied lol. Like we're all on our own planes in loneliness, all secluded and dark, but at the same time, we're all in the same spot. Shits crazy yo hope it doesn't take as long as its taking for me to get rid of it lol.
Naw yall are just easily swayed by emotions. I still love this song regardless and get nostalgic when I feel it. It's just the comment section sounding sad that influences others to type sad comments.
this song is one of the two songs i know that makes me cry on command. i listened to it through a very hard time for me emotionally and i thank this song so much.
I always imagined Chell lingering in the chamber for hours, just listening to this song loop again and again, knowing that she couldn't take the radio with her.
In front of you beholds a seemingly Infinite facility, with rooms that stretch into the horizon, each and every one of them filled with deadly traps, and not even the walls are safe. An incredible loneliness hunts your mind. And yet, you still endure.
It feels so odd, coming back here and seeing all these old comments. After reminiscing on the good times I had on Gmod pac/dark rp servers, with friends that are now long gone and are offline now, this song popped up in the back of my head, and I don't know, I just had to listen to it again.
Exile takes your mind... But take your mind back. Get mad! Just because you're quarantined doesn't mean you're supposed to go crazy, what are you supposed to do then?! Demand to see exile's manager! Make exile rue the day it thought it could give you lemons! Do you know who you are?! *You are the one who's going to beat the lonely depression quarantine has given you. You are strong, and you are powerful. You've gotten this far. Don't give up hope just yet, my friend.*
I heard there was going to be many alternate endings in Portal 2, but were removed because none of the playtesters would find them. One was being able to look up very early in the game at a full moon, shoot a portal at it, and then shoot a portal at a wall in the room you were currently in and be sucked out into space, and this song would immediately start playing. How disturbing.
honestly I would have loved secret endings like this.
Being able to end it without even trying.
damn ive never know that
@@thevillageeclectic fitting title from the song too. Exile
DAMN! That would have been an awesome thing they could have done. :(
@@thevillageeclectic ... Don't even try
In portal 2 I tried going backwards out of the door while holding the radio. The door shut and I dropped the radio. I was sad, but when I moved to the very middle of the door, I heard the music, and sat there for a while, listening to it, and when I was in the elevator, I heard it faintly. I was so sad in the next chamber.
oh my god a very similar thing happened to me the first time I played the game, I stumbled upon that radio and of course had to listen to it and bring it around with me as I solved the puzzle. At one point after I solved the puzzle I just happened to be standing near the door with my back to it, holding the radio, and I accidentally walked backwards and made the door close with the radio on the other side, right as that final minor chord of the song hit. It was the most perfect accidental timing. It was literally exactly at 4:24 in the song when the door closed and I could hear that final chord play from the other side.
I listened to it all the way through until it stopped but even then I was still sad
Holy fuck yes
Good to know the fanbase for Portal is still alive.
Senorita Evanita Still alive
BA DUM TSS
"I understood that reference."
"This was a triumph
I'm making a note here: "HUGE SUCCESS"
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science
We do what we must because we can
For the good of all of us, except the ones who are dead
But there's no sense crying over every mistake
You just keep on trying 'til you run out of cake
And the Science gets done
And you make a neat gun
For the people who are still alive
I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart
And killed me and tore me to pieces
And threw every piece into a fire
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you
Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we're out of beta, we're releasing on time
So I'm GLaD I got burned
Think of all the things we learned
For the people who are still alive
Go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you
Maybe Black Mesa
That was a joke, haha, fat chance
Anyway, this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist
Look at me still talking when there's Science to do
When I look out there, it makes me GLaD I'm not you
I've experiments to run
There is research to be done
On the people who are still alive
And believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
While you're dying I'll be still alive
And when you're dead I will be still alive
Still alive, still alive"
*SLOW CLAP*
The creator of Portal once said Chell isnt actually mute, she just chooses not to speak.
Whether youre in the clean perfectly placed white walls of the test facility or the broken shambles of old aperture the game takes no hesitation in constantly reminding you that you are alone in this world.
I think thats what made Rattmans dens feel so comforting and surreal, that another human could potentially exist.
To me Portal feels like drowning in loneliness despite being surrounded by voices.
I absolutely agree. This loneliness feeling is amplified by the fact that in many chambers, there are viewing windows, it _feels_ like you _should_ be getting watched, and yet never once is anyone there. Truly amazing.
@@Lozinlimboas a kid, the voices and noises in ratmans dens freaked me the fuck out. He felt more like a terrifying spectre than a living person. GLaDOS’s insults and quips were more of a comfort to me by comparison.
Look up some kf the 2010-11 audience preview videos there's one where at the very end where you have to push the button to switch off wheatley for glados the procedure voice ask for voice confirmation and Chel fucking says either do it or yes
But no one gave a shit because they are mostly in awe of the sequence and clap so it's hard to hear but one it's the first main game of valves hl-portal series where a protagonists speaks and it's amazing
It got changed in the end but it's well known that Chel isn't a mute amd it would have been cathartic to hear whenfinishg the game for the first time
@@kR-qj7rw yeah I’ve seen that iteration of the games climax, and the problem with it is that, beyond Chell speaking, nothing that exciting happens.
Chell is racist towards robots xD
Why talk to toasters, nobody real around.
Glados and Whitley can talk all they want, but for Chell they are nothing but cold mindless grey computers, just mad AI.
This song made me feel for really feel for Rattmann. As soon as I heard this, I went back and read Lab Rat again, and really grasped the Lovecraftian horror that Aperture truly is. This man, constantly on the run from his own creation, doing anything he can to stay alive in the pits of Hell, with only one salvation - Chell. Then when he finally escapes and is about to rejoice, Chell is forced back into the facility. Rattmann, despite his newfound freedom, goes back in after her. He is truly an unsung hero in video game history. It's really quite sad we haven't got an ending to his story yet. Just like Schrodinger's Cat, he is both dead and alive. Valve just needs to open the box. Schrodinger's Ratt.
Is that the Deus Ex Hell Gang We Out Here guy?
he's dead lmao
We did get an ending. He, I’m pretty sure, died in a sleeping chamber after being shot in the leg by a turret. That’s what lab rat said.
@@skittles536 We don't know if he actually died, I mean it is very possible to survive a shot in your leg
Jędrzej Kawa I said I’m pretty sure. I don’t know for sure either.
For a while, i had forgotten why i love this game. It's not just puzzles and robots. There's such an intriguing and amazingly well crafted backstory to it all, which sometimes even expands outside the game itself.
PolarPoop
That's how Valve is ❤️
I want a game that actually shows Rattmann one of these days, Rattmann is too cool to die from a god damned turret.
The Reaper yep agreed
Fuarian HE'S ALIVE I'VE HEARD HIM RAMBLING IT'S FAINT AND FILLED WITH PAIN BUT IT'S THERE!!!!!!!
its called a ratman's nest and most people know about it.
I miss 2011
mt2oo8 me too man me too :/
I miss cheap healthcare
mt2oo8 i miss portal 2 videos :(
mt2oo8 I MISS PORTAL 2 OLD DAYS IN 2011 MY BEST DAYS:( :)
***** This guy has got his priorities straight :P
Two of my very close friends taught me to play this on piano in school years ago. We lost one of them in 2015 and this song always reminded me of him.
Today I just found out my best friend who helped teach me this passed away as well. This song is giving me some peace, it will forever be special to me.
this comment is so touching I teared up
I am sorry for your loss, I am glad you have fond memories of them and you should cherish them forever, life isn't forever but we gotta keep moving on!
How did they die 🤭
My god, he thought you well.
Sorry for your loss, glad you guys could bond over a masterpiece of a game in life
In Portal 2 I found a radio. in Rat's den, I kept it until i finished the puzzle. but then when I got to the elevator room it disintegrated. I felt sad.
+TheWindowsUser92 I wish they'd let you keep it through the whole game. :(
TwilightSky15 Yeah :(
+TwilightSky15 I wish they'd let you go out and continue to playing. :/
Yeah
***** Yeah I agree with y'all. This must be one of the best Song in a OST I've ever heard, most touching.
Today is a sad day, I am sorry to announce that this song was taken down from spotify today :(
Why was it taken down? It was also taken down from Apple Music
It really is annoying >:(
dude are you sure, exactly today? brw I just discovered this song I really didn't know it existed lol
Yup I saw it greyed out in my playlist truly a sad day :(
@@CjROCKS Yep, the day I posted the comment
Oh man, the pianos in this are absolute perfection.
this is a awesome dong and the piano is absolutely perfect
Oh my god I haven't seen you comment on anything in ages 😂
Song*
😂😂 I didn't know Batman had an acquired taste for piano Lol
I love this song, I learnt about it from portal 2 and I know how to play it on keyboard
Coming back to this song several years later... it's just so beautiful.
Same brother
It’s like a funeral a sad 😢 one 🪦⚰️
same i was replaying portal 2 today and saw the lyrics on the walls
truly, the highest peak of gaming! 2010-2014.
same
Had to come here after seeing it’s been removed from Spotify. Such a beautiful song
I heard one on Spotify today and i was like... "Something just doesn't sound right.." and i haven't heard this song in years. Any reason it was removed?
There's just something incredibly beautiful about this song that I can't put into words.
It's from a game
***** portal 2 not alot of poeple know that cause all they watch is once upon a time in 2fort
I know where it's from. I've played portal 2 many times, if I remember correctly I first came across it in an Easter egg room that just had a pile of junk and a radio playing this in it. When I said it's beautiful I wasn't referring to where it came from, there's just something about the melody that's really haunting. That and the words are really relate able in a way.
That it does ^__^
When I found this in portal 2 I never wanted to leave the radio, it was incrediably relaxing compared to the run-down and depressing setting and mood of portal 2
I don't understand life.
In 2005 a friend recommended this song "Mr. November" to me, and I loved it and played it on repeat for awhile, but while at work I started putting the rest of the album on repeat and after a dozen listens or so I fell in love with every song.
I won five tickets to see them live in a pub in Boston two years later with 30 other people and they were so friendly and great.
I saw them over the years 13 more times in concert everywhere from Boston to NYC to Spain to the rural coast of Germany, and they were always great.
Falling in love with Game of Thrones I was so happy when the lead singer of this personal band I'd found suddenly was singing the end credits over the finale to the second season.
Falling in love with the game Portal, I was so shocked when I found a boombox I could carry in the game, and it was playing a song that's now in my top 5 for the band.
I had tickets to see them where I live now in London in June, and those probably won't happen but that's okay, we'll do it again later.
I guess what I'm saying is that I don't understand life.
But god it's these things that make me love life.
No one fully understands life, that what makes it unique
I know what you mean haha, it's always cool seeing things you suddenly discover pop up all over the place.
It’s nice hearing experiences like this. It’s good to know some people actually enjoy life.
Wait that was them G.O.T
@@dylanm3742 Yeah Matt sang a cover of Rains of Castamere that played at the end of The Battle of Blackwater.
ruclips.net/video/9vDL7AgLdYQ/видео.html
This song is the perfect representation of the Valve community going 8 years without a major game.
What about Half Life Alyx?
The fan made games like portal stories: mel could count as valve titles considering that valve actually gave their blessing, but it’s not the same as a 100% valve made game
god damn i hate valve all over again. theyre no better than EA
@@mellojoe9421 yeah kinda like how valve published CSGO but did very little work on it. Hidden Path Entertainment actually developed CSGO
"does it feel like a trial" like fuck dude it sure does
This song, I... I don't know why but it gets me man.
Whenever something bad happens, I listen to it and I remember portal. And the rat mans story and how he couldn't give up even though he was down on his luck. And I think, I have to keep going... For the greater good.
+Papa Meme same here, but i also listen to Gary Jules' "Mad World", and Simon and Garfunkel's "Sounds of Silence".
+Zomerset Zombie Ohhh, I love these. Donnie Darko/Watchmen feels.
+Zomerset Zombie I love those, but I also love Hazy shade of winter by Simon and Garfunkel
thank you, I needed that.
Zomerset Zombie ahhhh gears of war
It's such a shame that such a great and beautiful song is so hidden in Portal 2. On my first playthrough I had no idea this hidden room was anywhere, I found out some time later. Such a great song.
I just found the room for the very first time after restarting the game from the beginning and I searched the name and got here, such a beautiful song and game.
Valve creates worlds. They’re like some sort of modern Willy Wonka, making things that take people to the farthest realm of their imagination, conveying stories they have never been heard before. What they have left us is a legacy, for us and new generations to enjoy again and again.
Even if they haven't talked to us in years (Not counting Alyx), I still love them. They've given me a great childhood of fantastic videogames that still gives me joy today. They'll always be my favorite video game developer/publisher.
Shame the stories don’t have a satisfying end or continuation
@@stellarch9524 True.
@@stellarch9524 some stories are better left unfinished
Even more in that Willy just stopped interacting with the public for god knows how long and then randomly shows up again and takes the world by storm.
shame that this song is being taken down everywhere
I played portal, found this song, cried. I am such a wimp.
+TabiStar I don't blame you, its an amazing song in an amazing game
+TabiStar see what i mean?
u comment on so many songs i like
same
So now we're wimps because we cry? Nope. We cry because we're humans, and we can't be happy all the time.
Spotify sucks...this song is amazing. I just realized it was missing in my Playlist
same
it's back up
Same! Thought I was going crazy lol
@@SalemsRising and they removed it again...
same dude..
Spotify: Exiles this song from service
Everyone: we will vilify them till it gets put back
why did they took it off?
is there a way to request it back?? i’m so sad it’s not there anymore.
It’s not on Apple Music either anymore. Not even available to buy.
After years and years I came back to this masterpiece
me too
I lost a lot of things in these years.. but this has always a place in my heart
Ohh the memories from Portal 2, best game experience EVER and I will never forget when i found the radio playing this song, I was in a dreamstate for many minutes!
Maybe you can find the single :D
I remember the first time I found that radio. I picked it up and didn't even move until the song ended; the piece was just so hauntingly beautiful and sad at the same moment. I felt as utterly along and isolated as Chell and, somehow, knew what is must be like to be god-only-knows how far in the future and possibly the last human on Earth so that I would be forever alone and isolated and that this would be last human voice I would ever hear again.
And then the radio went to silence and I found that I'd been crying a little and didn't even know it.
That's the power of music. Add to that the perfect placement in-game and, well, emotions distilled down to their very essence.
Why is it that sad songs make people use proper punctuation?
hey see it doesn't make me use commas and dots look i'm a thug
Bob-ombs Away
Yup.
Gravitas.
You spelled "sentences" wrong...
Jess Caron good spot.
Happy 2024 to the remaining portal fandom.
And heres to many more years! 🎉
Why isn't there a game about ratman yet? It would be so great... Having extremly hard puzles, but you'll get the help of the cube along the way. You could have the whole ratman's comic in cutscenes, and maybe even not have the Portal gun.
There's a portal 2 mod called lab rat in the works. Search it up.
I know this comment was 6 years ago but i think that's a great idea
Portal: Rattman
@@Osysseus5277 Just like half life had half life: alyx why we cant get a Rattman prequel?, with maybe as HL:A a ending that connects to the future of the saga after Portal 2
If you ask me, this song is about someone who's stuck in a depression and/or contemplating suicide, because they feel isolated from society ("Exile. It takes your mind again") and that previous successes have just been flukes ("You've got sucker's luck"). The singer tries to show sympathy and subtly remind this person that there's at least someone who cares about them ("Oh, you meant so much. Have you given up? Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind the way *you trouble mine?*"), trying to dissuade them from doing something rash ("Now you're thinking too fast, you're like marbles on glass"). The latter part of the song, from 2:14 onward, sounds much more positive, showing that they're feeling much better, with the singer even reprimanding them for letting it get to that point ("Vilify, don't even try. Did you fall for the same emptinesses again?")
But that's just my take on it.
All of this makes sense somehpw
+Roarger how*
+Kapteindood excellent analys on the main purpose of the song you sir deserve a reward *claps* and im not joking im serious
Kapteindood only the writer knows what it's about
Does it trouble your mind the way you trouble mine?
Rukia Kuchiki Aren't you supposed to be killing hollows or something? Haha
Jordan Dansereau
I get breaks.
Rukia Kuchiki Oh yeah, I forgot. You're probably in human high school. Or struggling with a juice box :)
Jordan Dansereau
Th-they're very tricky, those devil boxes are!
Rukia Kuchiki Using a juice box is almost as difficult as drawing a half-decent rabbit.
without the context of portal, this song feels like a sad grey rainy day.
I love a grey rainy day. They're not always sad. But yes, this song has no sunshine and that's why it's beautiful.
@@poppedweasel not always, no. but they usually are for me. grey rainy days make me sad, but just normal non-grey rainy days make me happy.
Hearing this question “Does it feel like a trial” when I’ve been in hopeless places in my life has really filled me with something I can’t explain. Listening to this song, I can’t help but pick myself up defiantly against everything pulling me down.
Everyone needs a song like this to bring them back.
taking this song off of Spotify/Apple Music is what the Burning of the Library of Alexandria must have been like
Only difference is we have literally no way to get back any of the documents from Alexandria. We can still listen to this song, but I get what you’re saying
@@strangeactuallylegume false, the library of alexandria was made of copies of every book that entered alexandria, it's not like they were the only books in existence. It's a shame to lose a great library but those documents existed in many places and still do
After the events of last night, this song is pretty fitting. Rest In Peace Gordon, and thank you for the memories.
ThatClassyCombine explain more of your story more specifically please
I think they were reffering to Marc Laidlaw leaving valve and posting "Epistle 3" or HL2 Episode 3's story
imlegos ok
Half Life 3 is currently being made by two different community teams to create two different versions. It isn't being made by Valve but the fans have always done great at taking their games to a whole new level.
@@RobertFJr except Hunt Down the Freeman, of course
This song really does communicate the feeling of exile. Being and feeling completely isolated from anyone or everything else. No wonder it fits so well into Portal. You can really tell this communicated exactly what Rattmann was feeling locked down here on his own constantly, with only his fragmented mind to keep him company.
It feels so stupid for a song that’s from Portal 2, a game I’m horribly obsessed with, to become my comfort song but honestly, I love it. It feels soft, and comforting, and grey, and it smells like rain- it makes me think of those days where the clouds are overcast and maybe raining, but in the short distance the sun is so bright that the world is both grey and yellow and green and blue all at once. It’s beautiful. And listening to the song makes me think of Portal which makes me happy.
I want to try and animate Portal and Portal 2 completely as if films. I don’t know if anyone’s done that before, but I’d like to even if they have. I have this idea of Chell finding the den and the radio, and solemnly looking at the Doug Rattman’s wall art reflecting on how hard it’s been just to end up right back where she started, testing under GLaDOS’ rule, and eventually sitting down with the radio in her arms playing the song. It fades out as she falls asleep, and a dream sequence animation plays for the rest of the song before it eventually ends and fades back out and Chell wakes up. She gets up, portals out of the den, finishes the test and leaves the radio just in front of the Emancipation Grill so that it lives on forever.
I can’t guarantee that I’ll ever actually do this or even be able to, but I like to think about doing it, and I like to think about it.
STOP YOU'RE MAKING ME CRY
@@kiltedstrong NEVER >:D
Nah I've felt the same way since ten years ago lol
Portal 2 turns 10 years old in a week....how time flies fast when you have fun
Yeah, and valve still dont continue the games :(
@@twxzzy._ no need to continue the portal franchise
@@Luka2000_ definetly! The Portal story is mostly finished. It'd be a cash grab if they made another
@@Luka2000_ youre right but jt still would be interesting to know what happens to chell after portal 2 or a little more lore about rattman
@@twxzzy._ not really. We dont need a game after portal 2, maybe a comic sure but no games needed
My 11 year old played this song for me and it nearly brought me to tears. Not only that it displayed depth of his feelings AND how it ties to his love for Portal but how our children have ways of communicating to us. So inspiring yet sad at the same time.
this is one of my go to panic songs. As depressing as the song is, it helps bring me down when i don't have anyone to talk to.
The desolate radio sitting in an abandoned facility. The song playing on an endless loop, powered by god knows what creation of that desolate facility, echoing through dozens of corridors and once lively testing facilities and chambers. This song defines the entirety of the universe of Portal and Half-Life. But then you realize, the man, Rattmann, wandering solemnly through hallways, trying to stay sane for long enough to get out of the structurally unsound facility, hearing that song endlessly.
this made me cry
Portal should of played the song in more places than than small den in the beginning of the game :/
but it was more lore-wise that way
supposedly, it was meant to be used in a secret ending. Early on in ruined Aperture, you could look up and see the moon. Shoot a portal at it, you'd get sucked out into space, and this song would play.
Tuning: Eb Ab Db Gb Bb Eb
"Exile... it takes your mind... again" Em G C Am
"You got sucker's luck..." Em C G D
"Does it feel like a trial..." Am F C G
"Vilify, dont even try..." Dm Am C Em
Tuning: C# F# B E G# C#
F#m A D Bm
F#m D A E
Bm G D A
Em Bm D F#m
Tuning: G# C# F# B D# G#
Bm D G Em
Bm G D A
Em C G D
Am Em G Bm
you're epic tysm!
@@PookieLoo LOL I stole this from someone else
The fact that this song isn't on Spotify is criminal
For real! I was just looking for it
It used to be but got removed
i just noticed this too, why was it removed 😩
It's here
@@SuborbitalPigeon fr fr?
This song has such a special place in me, it's unspeakable
Me too. It gives me shivers every time I hear it now, and then
I remember my brothers, cousin, and I listening to this because we loved Portal 2. My brother, who showed all of this, passed away recently. I'm so glad he shared Valve games with us all, they always will be close to my heart. Thank you bro, I miss you.
I don't know him, and didnt know of him till now, i already miss him, i remember goin through on the xbox 360 with my brother sittin on the top bunk playin portal and borderlands, and to this day thoes games are my top favorites mostly portal tho dispite my name being krieg, named after a borderlands 2 character. im sorry you lost your brother, hope life is good for you
i've never played portal 2, but i'd noticed, when i went looking for songs by the national, at some point i had "liked" this song on spotify. so i played it to refresh my memory and fell absolutely in love with it immediately. and not too long after it became my most replayed song, it was removed from the service. i miss it everyday.
I feel like this song would go well at some point during the movie The Martian
+Austin Vickers pretty much any time in there
+Austin Vickers i agree
+Austin Vickers Matt Damooooon!!!
+Austin Vickers Good Idea
+TheSyntheticPop The Martian Remix:
Damon...
He's gotten lost...
again.
Damon...
He's gotten lost...
again.
Now he's stuck on Mars.
Just a world too far.
'Cause the ship left without him.
He got hit in the face by the flying space trash...
(repeat) xD
Exile
It takes your mind again
Exile
It takes your mind again
You've got sucker's luck
Have you given up?
Does it feel like a trial?
Does it trouble your mind
The way you trouble mine?
Exile
It takes your mind again
Exile
It takes your mind again
Oh, you meant so much
Have you given up?
Does it feel like a trial?
Does it trouble your mind
The way you trouble mine?
Does it feel like a trial?
Now, you're thinking too fast
You're like marbles on glass
Vilify
Don't even try
Vilify
Don't even try
You've got sucker's luck
Have you given up?
Does it feel like a trial?
Does it trouble your mind
The way you trouble mine?
Does it feel like a trial?
Did you fall for the same
Empty answers again?
Vilify
Don't even try
Vilify
Don't even try
Vilify
Don't even try
Vilify
i remember after about 3 hours playing i found a radio that plays this in a pile of rubbish i just sat there listening to it.
If I were prisoned in this giant laboratory I would do the same.
3 hours? jeezus ._. i found it like about 30 minutes in...unless theres multiple
The one i found was in the lower levels "portal 2"
Oh my, I just found it in a videogame. Hope life get's better for you, less rubbish filled.
Holy Mackerel the Third You mean portal 2? Because, that's what they are talking about.
If this doesn't play at my funeral, I'm not leaving Earth
Multiple? Impressive.
@@ripelivejam Wdym?
@@NingyoTheInkling read what he said "funerals" it's a typo so he's poking fun at it 😅
@@Coffeebomb22791 Oh, didn't notice that. Oh well, I guess I have extra lives then
@@NingyoTheInkling 😆
I have to say goodbye to my cat, its been 14 years. This song reminds me of her, i cry...man.
***** im so sorry.
***** ;)
Don't worry because you guys will be re united with your animals ;)
TheHumanCaterpillar ;)
Its okay tell someone to buy you a new one
This song reminds me of Rathmines public school, when I was in my Portal craze, I made custom cores, turrets, PotatOs and a custom GLaDOS, I remember I introduced my pals to it and they got into the craze, we watched Portal 2 videos on the computers that were in our room (we were in a special ed classroom and had access to RUclips, we were responsible and trusted to not watch something inappropriate) we also watched Minecraft videos,like mods reviews and skits! But that was only two years of Rathmines 2015 and 2016, I got chocked up when I had to leave for highschool... my friends were Ryka, James, Benn and Ryda
when I left for high school Benn had to move away with his Dad, Ryka was with a foster family and got adopted by a family that lived away from Rathmines so he and his brother, Tyger (I don't know if that's how his name is spelt) had to move to, Ryda ended up in the mainstream classes, and James, he wasn't doing to well after all that, he's illiterate and has anger issues, but he's nice, he always got annoyed by Lawson, Lawson he *CAN* be nice sometimes, but he's just chooses to be irritating most of the time and that made James suffer bad days at school, I felt bad when I found out that... The type of person the James is like is simular to Piglet from Winnie the Pooh, I'll have to someday make a video about that because I think I've just wasted some of your time by making this a comment!
Makes me want to visit this place now.
Hopefully you'll see each other again
I miss this song, it brings back nostalgia for 2011, experiencing for the first time the story of portal 2 and the mystery videos on RUclips at the time.
Get lost
@@Amis5474 don't tell him what to do.
The way the violin weeps is just hauntingly beautiful
I’m heartbroken they took it off Spotify, this shi help me sleep
Same.
"The Cake Is A Lie" - Douglas Rattmann
“When life gives you lemons, don’t make lemonade, Make life take the lemons back!” - Cave Johnson
"I don't blame you" -Sentry Turret
"I dont remember posting that" -me
"Yeah. Yeah! Take the lemons!"
-GLaDOS
“Nooooo cube!” - pretty much every portal player who met the companion cube for the first time.
10 years later. Still fucking perfect.
Kinda sad and weird that this is gone from streaming services, love Portal 2.
Fuckin same. Love this song. Most of Brad Breeck's stuff got removed this past weekend too. Idk why
Goddamn it valve....i grew up playing your games, having so much fun and then you went silent for almost a decade.....i think old valve is coming back in the 2020s but i cant believe its going to be 10 years since this masterpeice of a game came out.
Ill miss the late 2000s and early 2010s because of how good and popular valve games were...
This song was a staple in my playlists 9 years ago or so. I just played it out loud for the first time in years and the lyrics came back in a second.
Bonus: I had my hamster out, running around, but she stopped to listen to the violins in the song, staring straight at me. So there’s that!
I fell for the same emptiness’s again. I’ve got suckers luck and I’ve given up
SPOTIFY
PUT BACK THIS SONG ON YOUR SERVICES AND MY LIFE IS YOURS
It's fucking nuts it got removed from Spotify...
It's weird that it was removed. Why? Is it the pessimistic message?
Valve, you sure are amazing.
Indeed.
Why would you credit valve with this?
Draϟa I know that, i'm just wondering why you would credit Valve for using the song instead of The National for actually creating it.
That's actually a good point, I was a little unsure. They're both amazing, then!
Shadowclawsrevenge
To be fair mate, the song was created exclusively for Portal 2, so you probably have Valve to thank for getting the National to make it in the first place
i think it’s pretty amazing how everyone seems to tear up to this very emotive song. and i love how it doesn’t try to be so moving, it just is.
R.I.P Spy
Sad music
Space Core Once upon a time in 2 fort?
JDubz yup
***** Can you link that video again I can't seem to find it :S ?
Me too I love those animations that give you the feels.
Catrina Lambert portal 2 :DDDDD easter egg :) Chamber 3 Chapter 2 :)
So I've known of this song for a long time but forgot about it, was only when I saw someone's custom description of a sniper rifle in TeamFortess2 that was "does it bother your mind like you bother mine?"
and it just unlocked such nostalgia when I realized which song it was, had to come back and give it a listen
the portal series was a very big part of my life growing up. i completely forgot about this song for probably a good 8 years? i immediately started crying listening to it again after so long. the song is sad in itself, but music we relate to our childhood always stings harder the older we get. this song reminds me of innocent times. :(
Coming back to this song after 6 years...
Still gives me chills......
why was this taken off of spotify. what is the reason. heartbroken
I feel that this melody fervently conveys the tragedy, the sorrow and apathy that is ratman's psyche. All melting and culminating together into a masterpiece that brings you through thoughts of pure beauty and yet pure pain as it Carrie's you through its elegant tune. Leaving you alone with its echoes....
"Does it feel like a trial..." Man. Found this song at a particular moment in my life.
I'm not gonna give up.
How are you doing today?
@@Daniel_JT. :)) Hello, stranger!
Much better. I'm very glad I didn't give up.
At the time that I was writing, I felt as if every day for the rest of my life I would have to struggle to be happy. That everything was a "trial," day in, day out. On and on. I was just so tired of trying to have my life actually FEEL good. Without taking so much effort.
I was afraid it could never feel natural to be happy again. Like I could never get back to those childhood days.
But *change is real*
And I feel joy again :) Not just every once in a while... But often. And it comes to me not with horrible, exhausting struggle.
It comes naturally ❤️
This song makes me feel sad and nostalgic but there is a mix of another feeling there isn’t a word for. It’s uncomfortable but comforting at the same time. It makes me feel like Im not very alive compared to when I was a kid. It reminds me that life really sucks but life was beautiful. I hope life can be beautiful again.
They removed this from Spotify so now I'm here
i was contemplating suicide like 5-6 years ago, in my bathroom, you know... and when this song droped from the playlist i was hearing... it saved me at the same time it almost made me "do it", cause when the song progressed it went deeper and deeper with the words an phrases, feeding my bad thougts until i puted enough attention on what the song was about (Oh, you meant so much... Have you given up?) giving me feelings of people that care about and questioning myself,and the part of "Now, you're thinkin' too fast you're like, marbles on glass" it was like sang to me in real time then.
This song is unique for everyone in different ways, like any song really, but for me it goes beyond that, for making me be here today still, able to make this comment to share this little story a very few people will actually read, but for you reading this, thanks and hope you find your way in this life, maybe reading this will change something in you, who knows
Nobody cares and get a job.
@@Amis5474 don't say that,people care. That's rude for you to say.
@@Amis5474 I care because I can relate a lot to the comment. I come to this song when I have destructive thoughts. Your lack of compassion is concerning and hurtful.
I've loved this song ever since it came out and it's helped me get through hard times too. Thank you for sharing it really moved me ❤
@@Amis5474 fatherless comment
The fact I’m literally tearing up shows how Portal this is.
This song was written for Portal 2, yet all the commenters are here, somehow, because of TF2, which came out before this song was written.
+Cinichecuk an animation used it
look up "once upon a time in 2fort" and watch part 1 and 2
+Cinichecuk It's because "Once Upon A Time In 2fort", probably the greatest SFM of all time, used it.
+Cinichecuk
At least both games're made by Valve.
+Andrew Ricklefs What's an SFM?
I was a kid when portal 2 came out and I vividly remember playing the game for the first time. When the radio started playing this song I just sat there and stopped playing. Just staring at the screen. Not really sure why but it felt like I sat there for a really long time
I played through portal 2 again. I got the radio and just sat in a corner staring into the sky listening to this.
I heard this song for the first time on the day my niece was born. To this day, it still brings me to tears.
+JadeEyes1 Soooo... You were born on 2011?
No. My niece was.
+JadeEyes1 thats so lovely! congrats on ur niece (a very very late congrats)
No Portal 2 for me , this just reminds me of the Darkness I entered after my wife took her own life . (She had written this song down ) I never even knew that she left me song lyrics until I finally heard this song .
Good god that is sad, I hope you recovered from that. It must have been a shock.
Jesus Christ, man. Hope you're ok.
I hope you've gotten better since you've written this.
@@TheONLYFeli0 , Hi , yeah you gotta let life move on otherwise the pain just drags you down and down .
When I finally forgave myself for not being there when my wife needed me the most , it was then that I started to heal .
My problem at the time was I blamed myself cos I knew there was a problem But I just thought it was down to the fact that I was working every hour I could to pay for everything , like couples tend to have to do when they first start out , I never in my wildest dreams did I think though that the problem was actually a deep depression from which she would never recover , I never even spotted the depression (I guess cos I was never there , I use to work till I was dead on my feet then come home to eat and crash out), I just thought my wife was moaning about wanting me to spend more time with her , like any woman would , however I mistakenly thought that having the money for nice things was more important , I learnt a harsh lesson .
My life since then is that money comes second every time .
Take Care and remember , yes we all want the finer things in life but nothing is more important than time spent with your partner . R .
This song is amazing. Most of the people who heard this song came from Portal 2, and I am one of those people,the greatest game ever and this song. I love it.
"Does it trouble your mind the way, you trouble mine" Really resonates with me.
There are a lot of people whom I once knew that I no longer talk to, and are without ways to contact them again.
I always wonder If I'm ever on their mind, if they ever think of me even if it's in a negative way. It sucks to be remembered as a bad memory, sure, but it's even worse to be forgotten completely.
Puffa.Lump, Layla, Mars, Lily. About 4 others others whom I forgot the names of. I know you'll never see this, but I still have you all in my memory. Even if we only talked for a few months each between 2018 and 2020, those were the best (and worst) 2 damn years of my life on Instagram and you guys really shaped me into who I am today. I still remember all of you, both the negatives and the positives. The fights and the love. The break-ups and the make-ups. Everything.
I really hope you all remember me, too. I hope you haven't forgotten me in the way I haven't forgotten you. I hope it all troubled your mind in the way you troubled mine.
I was going through a rough time with bad relationships with family members. I love portal and this song helped me a lot and I feel really healthy and happy, thanks to the people who made this song for helping me through the bad
I just replayed Portal 2 on my PS3. The feeling of nostalgia and longing for days now long passed is still fresh in my mind. Every time I hear this song I just want to go back to my younger self, to hide from what the world would become. But I can't do that. Nobody can. We're stuck with what we're given, and we need to accept that this world isn't as simple as it used to seem.
Seems we're in the same predicament of replaying this on ps3 lmao. Cheers, pal.
This song is just... so powerful...
Sorry not to be mean, but I can't take you seriously with that profile picture 😂😂
xD I know lol
like if cry every time ( ; ^ ;)
HMHMHMM (gonna burst out laughing) god dammit
i agree but that beautiful pic of ethan really doesnt make it better
This song is a work of art that I can't help but come back to.
Its scary how much this song reflects real life at the moment
you are Redstone Creeper 2501. you are the light of the community in times of darkness
I feel bad for fans of the National who like this song. We're very sorry we outshout you on your own turf.
Would some cake make you feel better?
eyyy i see what you did theree
Mossypath WHEEEEEEEE *runs away*
the cake is a lie .-.
"cake or death!?" um cake please
I think we'll be on our way out.
Lors de ma première partie j'ai trouvé cette petite radio dans la tanière, je l'ai instinctivement amené avec moi en haut de la salle de test, j'ai écouté la chanson en entier, 4 minutes qui ont parus si longues, j'ai regardé les trous dans le plafond en me demandant a quel point j'étais éloigné du ciel, je ne m'étais jamais senti aussi seul, le jeu venait a peine de commencer et j'avais l'impression que ça allait être une expérience incroyable, ce le fut.
This song stopped me dead in game. It just blew me away with the emotions it triggered. It almost brought me to tears. This song is speck of gold in the music we hear today.
Such masterpiece............
wow
so harmony
much song
Much deep
***** many melodies
Damn a lot of us are really sad and empty and this sucks lmao we all understand that but its crazy how so many people can hear the same song and feel the same way with the same shitty thoughts simultaneously. As alone as I feel its like I'm accompanied lol. Like we're all on our own planes in loneliness, all secluded and dark, but at the same time, we're all in the same spot. Shits crazy yo hope it doesn't take as long as its taking for me to get rid of it lol.
alright not to undervalue the value of your comment but at the time of writing of this reply you have 69 likes and i don't want to change that
Great analysis. Good shit!
Well duh it's a sad song :(
Naw yall are just easily swayed by emotions. I still love this song regardless and get nostalgic when I feel it. It's just the comment section sounding sad that influences others to type sad comments.
this song is one of the two songs i know that makes me cry on command. i listened to it through a very hard time for me emotionally and i thank this song so much.
I always imagined Chell lingering in the chamber for hours, just listening to this song loop again and again, knowing that she couldn't take the radio with her.
I did exactly that in the game. My fiancee came home from work and I was just sitting there, crying.
I wonder why this song is still missing from Spotify after 10 months?
In front of you beholds a seemingly Infinite facility, with rooms that stretch into the horizon, each and every one of them filled with deadly traps, and not even the walls are safe.
An incredible loneliness hunts your mind.
And yet, you still endure.
It feels so odd, coming back here and seeing all these old comments.
After reminiscing on the good times I had on Gmod pac/dark rp servers, with friends that are now long gone and are offline now, this song popped up in the back of my head, and I don't know, I just had to listen to it again.
Exile takes your mind...
But take your mind back. Get mad! Just because you're quarantined doesn't mean you're supposed to go crazy, what are you supposed to do then?! Demand to see exile's manager! Make exile rue the day it thought it could give you lemons! Do you know who you are?! *You are the one who's going to beat the lonely depression quarantine has given you. You are strong, and you are powerful. You've gotten this far. Don't give up hope just yet, my friend.*
This comment is so nice
Its been so long since ive been outside
Thank you.
You’re amazing
I read this in JK Simmons' voice
2011 was a pretty great year in gaming...