There are excuses, and there are reasons. Your health is *never* an excuse, it's an important reason. Taking care of yourself is a necessity, not a frivolity. You're never letting us down.
Your mental health is not an "excuse". Kathleen your mental health is a PRIORITY always and no matter how long it takes and no matter how long your breaks are your subscribers will always remain by your side. Love you and hope you are doing well!
i started watching you in your mississipi days because my boyfriend (now husband) was in the military and i didnt have many friends and i was always alone. but you were always my company. knowing we wanted to get married, watching you helped me a lot. i suffered in the past from anxiety and i was about to become a military wife. leaving my family behind. im hispanic and family is the world to me. i dont always comment on your videos, but i do tweet you a lot. but just know that without you, kat, i wouldnt have much. i know that sounds dramatic. but everytime you tweet or upload, i feel like my friend texted back. and when you take days off for work or vacation, i just feel like my friend is on vacation and i cant wait for her to tell me how it went. youtube is a weird place because we all have different stories behind the screen, but this is my story and i'm so glad i came across your channel. even my husband wishes he was danny's friend because they are into the literal same things lol. love you so much! and when emilia told me she told you about me (scope days) i felt like so happy to know that you have a friend like her too
I watch you with my 3 year old daughter and we love you. She saw you were sad and kissed my phone. Loves to watch your tutorials while she plays with her makeup.
It’s obvious you feel bad about “complaining” about work, but don’t. Every one of your subscribers complains about their job. Just because yours is a great one, doesn’t mean that you don’t get sick of it or have issues. Even stay at home moms complain about their job, which is totally justified! You do you. We love you and it’s relatable.
I’m a stay at home mom, & we only have one car between my fiancé & I. So I’m always suck at the house. & I love love love being a stay at home mom & spending every second with my child I just hate being in the house all day. If I’m lucky I get to leave the house one a week & it’s to go to the store & I honestly get excited about that. Staying in one place for so long really can mess with your head
Chelsey Layne I’m on maternity leave right now and totally see how being home all day with no social interaction other than your baby can be draining!! I think my husband is ready to kill me bc I bombard him with questions the second he gets home haha just so excited to talk to a grown up!
Mackenzie Bates I’m the same way!! I have so much to say & he doesn’t want to talk at all from being with customers all day. It’s a horrible mixture!! Luckily I have amazing friends who are willing to help me get out of the house & they love bringing my daughter along with us!
Kathleen please don’t feel like you’re somehow letting your subscribers down by having a bad day or a bad week. Dealing with depression and anxiety is hard enough without feeling like you’re disappointing others. I know it feels like you’re letting us down, but I swear we don’t actually care. And if someone is being snotty about it and leaving mean comments, it’s because they’ve personally never been there. They don’t know what you’re going through. I personally can relate to this so much. I’ve gone through horrible depression in the past and the most important thing to remember is that you’re always much harsher on yourself than anyone else will ever be. Just know that we’re here for you. We’re not judging! We just want you to feel better! Love you Kathleen!!!
To be honest with you, I'm not that interested in make up anymore and still, I watch almost every single video you post. Mostly because I can feel your passion and I love how fun and mature you are. Kathleen, you are not alone, me and millions of people can toally relate to how you feel. I just wanted to let you know that you are already helping a lot using your plattform to talk about this👏. Thank you so much Kat, for showing us how strong we are when we show our vulnerabilties without fear ❤
No no no. Honey. Anxiety is real. Depression is real. You don’t have to explain omg I almost cried when your voice broke. Sending you good vibes girl you’re doing wonderful ❤️
I understand your battles with anxiety, so many of us feel it too, just know we're all here for you and understand if you can't always post. Your health is number 1!
Kathleen, please do not feel like we are going to judge you on feeling like this, because we won't/aren't. At least I won't. You can have the happiest, most grateful life ever and still be depressed and have anxiety. Depression and anxiety don't need a reason to appear or make you feel like crap, they just do. Also I totally agree with you on the fact that life keeps moving on and so should you, but there is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to stay in bed a few days and cry and be sad. Being depressed isn't wrong or bad and neither is having anxiety. Now having suicidal thoughts isn't good, and if anyone is reading this comment and having suicidal thoughts or feelings contact someone to help you please. And I am not saying you have any Kathleen, or judging anyone who does. I just want you to know how much we and I love you so so much and you should never feel worried about how we will react or feel to the way you are feeling. You feel what you feel, and that's okay. I will definitely be praying for you and just remember that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. The Lord will give you strength to fight this battle, you just have to trust and believe in Him. I love you so so much Kathleen!
I agree with everything you said 💕 I actually came here to say the same things but I was worried that my English is not good enough to help me explain my idea so I was really happy to see your comment 💕 I know how someone could feel uncomfortable to talk about their emotions because people can very easily misunderstand them and make them feel guilty for their emotions but actually this is not how the brain work 👀 depression and anxiety have nothing to do with having great or horrible lives, it's about specific chemicals and hormones that are being produced into our brains, some people are just blessed to have less production of stress hormones it's nothing that they worked hard to have it's in there genetic sestem! That is why people are so different in their ability to get depressed and their brains are so different in the way they deal with problems and that is totally OK 💕 it just hurts me when I see someone being very hesitant and afraid to talk about emotions because the society is very judgmental 💔 I love you Kathleen and hope you feel better soon 🧡☁️
Thank you for saying this! I relate to this video so much ohh my goodness ugh I feel so bad for her and everyone who goes through these things... especially right now with seasonal depression setting in too, things feel so slow and never ending. Health always comes first tho and I finally learned that my process is going to be different than everyone else’s regardless of how I feel, so I’m slowly learning to embrace that and be more confident in my journey. Love you all & love you Kathleen. ❤️❤️
@@sarahkaltenecker Aww! I love this comment. Yes just slowly get better. Every journey is always a marathon, not a sprint. ❤️ Also I'm so happy that my comment blessed you. God was truly speaking to my heart and I just said what I felt, so thank you for accepting that. ❤️
This is why we love you Kathleen. You are always so real and genuine. You are one of the few youtubers that RUclips fame hasn’t really changed, you have stayed humble and genuine. People tend to forget that we are all just human. I have postpartum anxiety after having my son so I can totally relate to what you are going through. Anxiety is very real and very hard, I wake up every day thinking my baby is going to die, I know it’s irrational but when you’re going through it, you can’t tell yourself nothing. So thank you for posting videos like this and being so real and so yourself. We love you, keep your head up love! 😘❤️
Laura Love postpartum anxiety is so real and so hard. I was worried about postpartum depression when I was pregnant but never imagined that postpartum anxiety would hit me as hard as it did. Wishing you all the best.
Everyone's pain is valid, including yours Kat. I can totally relate to you, I feel like you're me. When I get overwhelmed I shut down. So take your time to heal, to relax, to feel better. Your true subscribers who love you will always be here for you, and that includes me. Sending you hugs and prayers.
I just want to say that this video helped me a lot personally. There is power in acknowledging your feelings and living in your truth. You help validate our shared human experiences in a world where social media constantly reinforces an unrealistic standard of a being perfect. Love you Kathleen and want you to know that you are very special! 💕💕
Kathleen, how in the heck do you get hate comments or tweets?! I think you're one of the most genuine and sweetest youtubers out there. And the effort you make into your videos reflects in the great quality of them! I can't imagine anyone having anything negative to say about you... Sending tons of love your way!
Kathleen dont cry!! I have been watching your videos since my second year of university (but never comment until today) and you are the first youtuber I ever watched and who taught me how to do my makeup and I bought a lot of the products you recommended to learn about makeup! I have told all of my friends about you and they all love your content and who you are !! It is definitely OKAY to be depressed sometimes and that is about life!! You can't be happy all the time otherwise you won't actually feel happy :) Life goes up and down and I really wanna tell you that you are an amazing person and a youtuber!!! You inspire me so much and we love you
Don't push yourself to hard I could automatically tell your expression on your face was so different on this video. It's totally ok to break down sometimes. It seems like your a strong person you'll be ok that's why your so liked!
Kathleen we are never disappointed by you and always get it if you need a mental break. The job you do is not easy and on top of running a business its totally normal to lose yourself. Don't feel like you are falling behind bcus you are doing amazing and its okay if you feel like shit sometimes but know we are always here to support you 😁💕
We all love you! Anxiety is so real, so debilitating, so overwhelming. A lot of us can relate. Take the time YOU need. Some people need to realize that you are a regular person, with regular things that happen. You are amazing and take care of yourself!
Girl. This is YOUR channel. It’s YOUR business. We do not make the rules. I have bad anxiety and I know what it’s like to not want to get out of bed and for other people to think you’re just being dramatic when you’re not.. so you take as much time as YOU need and we will all still be here! AM I RIGHT PEOPLE? We love you and just care about your mental health! Take care of yourself girl! ❤️
Always get teary eyed when Kathleen talks about her anxiety and when she's down because I feel that so much. I love you Kathleen. Found you in 2015 when I was depressed and watched your videos and started getting into makeup and I've followed you ever since. I'm so much better now but I know that you are helping others through their bad times with your channel. You are very uplifting and inspiring even when you can't see it yourself! Will ALWAYS be here for your videos :)
Damn that hit me right in the feels when you were talking about your anxiety. I’ve been the same way and it sucks so much because people just don’t understand if they don’t have it. Just know, YOURE NOT ALONE. We all love you so much. Love holly, The crazy candle girl ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Ive actually noticed that a lot of people ive met have anxiety, it feels like theres a higher percentage of people who have anxiety (myself included) than people who dont
I love that you’re so open and honest with your subscribers about your anxiety issues. Hearing you speak on it reminds me of myself so much, and it makes me feel less alone. Watching your videos helps brighten my day when I have those “lay in bed all day” days. Thank you for being you, Kathleen. Thank you for being so genuine and for giving us great content, whether that be three times a week or three times a month. Continue doing what’s best for you!
When people say “hold on. It gets better. Six months from now this won’t matter”... you wonder SIX MONTHS! HOW AM I GOING TO GET THROUGH THE NEXT SIX MINUTES!!?? We’ve all been there. It’s hard to see the light sometimes, but just know that just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it’s not there. Your lights are always there waiting for you patiently. With loyalty and love. You can get through this ❤️💕✨
Girl, my daughters friend (12 hrs old). Opened up to me about being suicidal. She doesn’t know why she feels like that, she doesn’t know why she feels lonely, she’s not getting bullied, her parents are good. Sometimes there is no reason why we feel that way, we just do. That’s why mental health issue is big right now. It’s all good, it’s good to let it out. You’re not alone.
H Hargreaves Poor baby,it sounds like she's dealing with depression😢 I've had run ins with it as an adult but I couldn't imagine going through it at such a young age😔 Please reach out to her parents and get her some help. I hope and pray that everything gets better for her💓
It’s very likely she has depression. That’s how I am. I have a great life but there are just times where I feel like I should die. Just comfort her and if she’s comfortable with it talk to her parents.
Been going through the same thing with anxiety and being down. I’ve been on the verge of tears everyday. I’m in bed most days as long as possible just wasting the day away. Take the time you need.
Kathleen, depression is not sadness and I think that is why most do not understand it. You can have all the money, family, friends, materials, love, and even happiness in the world all while being so miserably depressed you do not want to get up in the morning. I have had Manic Depressive Disorder since I was 5. Do what you need to be healthy please. Anyone that truly cares for you will still be here. Your true subscribers aren't going anywhere 💜💜
Depression and anxiety don't take into account what is going fine in life. It will fine the tiniest issue and feed on that and grow! I'm a very positive person, never had any anxiety before. When i had a distance relationship with my boyfriend it was tough and i actually became depressed. But when i finally moved in with him i thought i had everything i wanted and should be happy but i cried every evening, for no reason, and felt even worse because i SHOULD have been happy. It passed after a few months but this period was terrifying and taught me that it is possible to feel crappy for no rational reason. You're not alone sweetie, it is a human feeling. Love you, you are my top favorite youtuber and if you can't film, "who cares?? " Focus on yourself, take care, nothing matters more! ❤
Girl you’re amazing! No disappointment towards you here!! I was one of those people that never really understood people with anxiety or depression but since having a baby, I 1000% understand everything you’re talking about now! It’s so real and it’s so hard to work through it especially when you can’t even explain what’s wrong. Just know you never disappoint your followers that love you!
Self care isn’t selfish! Take care of your mental health first!!! I deal with crippling anxiety and depression as well. Thank you for being raw with this. Sending good vibes that your mental health improves soon, and your anxiety disappears!!
You don’t have to justify your feelings! They are valid. Anxiety and depression don’t make sense. You can have the best life and still struggle with things like that. You are valid!!!
I’ve only just started binging your videos and beauty channels in general within the past few months, and as someone who has suffered from depression and anxiety my entire adult life, I adore you and how you light up so many lives as much as you can. My worst days used to occur when my life seemed “great”, so know that one thing has little to do with the other. Please know you are a literal beam of sunshine for me and equally as inspiring. And remember that you are the most important person in your head! Treat her well and take time when you need it!
I for one absolutely love and appreciate you talking open about your anxiety. I struggle with depression, anxiety, and severe panic attacks and its refreshing to see someone open and honest about these things. I love how you said "Even the happiest people can get depressed" You are so right, Kathleen. When there's no reason to be sad, but your sad... Those are the worst times. I think we all worry about things we cant change. Makeup is an escape of mine too. You should know, YOU help people with that! Your channel is such a safe and encouraging place! ❤❤❤
Your health should come first all the time and that includes mental health!! Don't worry about us too much. It's so sad that it burdens you... we all love u so much!! All the love from us♡
Syamim Aziz you hit the nail on the head. There are excuses, and then there are reasons, and the two are mutually exclusive. A reason is a legitimate explanation for why something has occurred, and an excuse is just dodging. We never think you are excuses. You are the most beautiful human being and we are so sorry you have been hurting. Sending you the biggest virtual hug and wishing you endless comfort in your time of frustration. Love you girlie❤️❤️❤️
I truly do understand you 100%. I've been suffering from anxiety and depression for the past 9 years. What helps me is inspirational books and self talk.
It does not matter what you post, when you post, how long it’s been since you posted - We’re going to keep coming back because we love you! Your mental health is just as important as your physical health and you have to take care of yourself first. We will always be here when you’re ready 🥰
Depression isn’t always about just being sad. People who say to just move on are uneducated and have little experience. It has to do with a chemical imbalance most of the time. People can’t just turn it off and be happy. At least that is the issue with me. Just take it all day by day Kathleen! Things will get better, they always do! ❤️❤️❤️😘
We adore you for a billion reasons. Don’t be hard on yourself. You’re doing an amazing job at everything. I hope that you feel truly happy one day soon. Love you so fricking much xxxxxx
I have been struggling sooooo much lately. School and work and home life its all just overwhelming right now and watching your videos is an escape because of your personality, feels like talking to a friend. When you’re honest like this about your emotions it really feels like I can relate and just makes me love you and you’re channel more. Thank you Kathleen.
Depression isn't sadness. It's a chemical imbalance in your brain. A symptom can be sadness, but they also include fatigue, apathy, lack of appetite or increase in appetite, forgetfulness, being easily distracted, etc. And anxiety is the same. It's not just feeling anxious, it's a chemical imbalance in your brain. If you broke both of your arms and literally couldn't film, it would be the same thing. You have reputable illnesses. Just because they are mental illnesses doesn't make them any less valid or debilitating. Having a great life doesn't fix the chemicals in your brain. Having a great support system doesn't change the chemicals in your brain. Take care of yourself!!
It’s important to note that fixing anxiety and depression isn’t just about fixing a chemical imbalance. Sometimes we create habits and thought patterns that perpetuate our sadness and anxiety and these need to be tackled as well in order to heal. If we tell ourselves our day is going to be crappy everyday, this affects those balances and makes us feel crappy everyday. In therapy, you work on changing these negative thought patterns which in turn helps with the balances in your brain.
I have had horrible anxiety and depression my entire life and that “will I ever feel normal again” feeling is literally the most haunting thing ever. These are not excuses, these feelings are very real. Much love to you mama.
I’m exactly the same, I shut down when I get overwhelmed too, and it’s horrible and so hard to get out of it. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for around 7 years now and it doesn’t get easier. You saying it’s so hard for you to get out of, i feel exactly the same way, and I admire you so much doing everything you do while suffering. So taking a few days off is understandable. I don’t feel strong enough to do anything. I made a RUclips channel because I’m alone and want to talk to people like you do, but I haven’t been able to post because I’ve felt so crap about everything. Little things seem so much bigger than they are, and it’s so upsetting because it stops us from doing every day things... I’m rambling. I just wanna say I admire you so much
Kathleen, you have no idea how comforting it is to hear you talk about your struggle with anxiety. I'm currently in a very similar situation and have felt so lost. I did my makeup before work while watching this video and I feel so happy knowing I'm not alone. Thank you so much for sharing, we love you
Remember Kathleen: We ALL struggle. You are doing fine! Needing time to destress, to withdraw from some of the hardship and horror that goes on in the world, is perfectly normal and healthy. Crying can be very cathartic and helpful. Keep up your peptalks to yourself. Enjoy your family and your pets and your husband. Try coloring! Come back to your channel when you are ready and into it. Ignore the haters. We love you!
You’re so unbelievable inspiring. I also get that same “shutting down” reaction when life gets too much, and it’s really hard to explain to my friends and family members why I can’t get myself going to fix the problem, and I completely relate to the feeling of needing to just push forward and push through the barriers keeping you down. I love you so much, and you’re doing so well. We’re always so happy when you upload but we understand when you don’t!! 💓
I truly understand what you were saying about anxiety and how it can completely disabled you. And I'm grateful to you for sharing because it really helped me to hear someone describe the low phases I go through due to stress. Thanks Kathleen. And as always, wishing you the very best. You're such a bright light. These videos are about more than just makeup....they are therapeutic. Love you
I totally understand the anxiety part girl hang in there😘, what’s been helping me is the way I force myself to start thinking whenever I start feeling super anxious and overwhelmed. I know it’s easier said than done, but I always ask myself a question, “can I alter/ change the situation in any way?” If the answer is no. Then it is out my control and everything that will proceed is not my fault bc I did my part. The universe and world will go on regardless of whatever happens, so as long as I physically did my what I could, I need to let go of the idea that I can do more and this is not enough. Things don’t always go as planned but maybe that’s the point to learn to learn to let go of things that are bigger than us. Knowing that no matter what the result is, the world will continue on and one day we will most likely look back and probably wonder why I was even freaking out in the first place. (Lol idk if that made any sense hope it helps 😇)
Kathleen, a large percentage of your audience probably deals with anxiety. I know i have. We wont fault you for it. The vast majority of us support you regardless 💙💙💙
I am praying for you. I get in the same "funks" where I just get so low that I can't even come out of it. I struggle so much with self hate, thinking I'm never gonna be enough to fill the shoes I wear. I'm a sahm of 3 and a wife and while some people wish they had what I have, I constantly struggle with feelings of overwhelm and inadequacy. My mind can be my worst enemy driving me to doubt myself and fear everything. I'm so happy that you're brave enough to open up about these things to the world. I hope you will be able to get out of this rut, and its very helpful to talk about it. I am not disappointed in you Kat, I admire you! You work hard, you are creative and funny. You bring light to many people's lives, don't let a few dark clouds weaken your shine! 🌫🌬🌞
i can 100% relate to everything you said about anxiety, and shutting down. and feeling like you’re disappointing yourself and others because you know you can do better. i completely understand, and it’s really comforting to hear that someone’s mind works the same as mine. its validating, and makes me feel like how i’ve feeling is real. thank you.
Oh my gosh this made me tear up. I have days where I feel completely miserable for no reason. I hope you start feeling like yourself again! You are amazing and thank you for all that you do for your subscribers! 💕💕
you are so consistent and so amazing. your surroundings and situation can be completely unassociated from mental health. this happens to me as well. it seems like everything is right in my life but me love you kathleen
girl i feel you with the anxiety. like people think that because you have a good family and a good life in general that its easy to be happy, but youre sooo right. our minds just dont work like that sometimes. sometimes were just sad because we really feel like that with no reason. thank you for being so honest and genuine. you are not alone, i feel like i can relate to you so much. thank you
I might be too late for you to ever see this comment, and this is the first time I’ve ever commented on a RUclips video haha, but I really wanted to say this, I had my beautiful baby 4 months ago and I have been going through postpartum depression, it is so hard because everyday I wake up to something so beautiful, and it makes me feel like how can I feel so sad when everything is going go well? But I started watching your videos at night when I would get up with my little girl, and I started playing with makeup while I was struggling with adjusting to everything else on my body looking and feeling different, and for 20 minutes its been so nice to not have to be in my own head. So thank you Kathleen. Thank you very much for doing what you do. I don’t know if I am any better at makeup yet hahaha not for lack of your teaching! But honestly, it has been something for me to pour a lot of my negative energy into and as dramatic as this sounds, it has gotten me through a lot of my hard times. Thank you.
It's so crazy, but when I have the days where I am in my low spot and dont want to get out of bed, I watch your videos! I'm glad we can do the same for you.
Kathleen; Don’t be so hard on yourself! I’m Aquarius as well - & the fact that people label Aquarian’s as NOT emotional is totally WRONG!!!!! We’re MORE sensitive/emotional.... We just aren’t as quick to put our emotional strain on others!! You’re amazing, I know it must be next to impossible, but don’t ever let the negative comments get to you. Those opinions are not relevant !!
Thank you so much for being open with us about your mental health. Talking about it really helps defeat the stigma surrounding mental health, and having anxiety or depression is no excuse. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and unwind! We’re always here. 😊
You don’t have to make us happy. You just to make yourself happy. When that happens, then we’re happy. Take your time, take time off. We’ll still be here for you! XOXO 😘
Thank you for being so vulnerable and showing us this side of you and opening up about a very hard topic. I deal with this almost daily. It is not an excuse and it doesn't matter how many amazing people and things you have in your life. Depression is a imbalance of the chemicals in your brain. We cannot help it. It is a daily struggle. Thank you for posting this and showing others they are not alone. You are one HELL of an amazing light in our lives! Never forget that and never feel bad for putting yourself first. We will always be here. We understand and love you!
These feelings are so real and so OKAY. You mental health will never undermine you success, or how your loyal subbies feel about you❤❤❤ Thank you for sharing with us, it really helped me. I love you and your channel so much!
Kathleen, thanks for sharing your story with us and please always know that your mental health should be your number 1 priority. Recently I started suffering from anxiety and panic attacks (which I've never experienced before, so that's been super exhausting and just weird in general) and I found your video about your anxiety that you've filmed years ago. It brought me to tears and helped me sooo much at the same time, just knowing I'm not alone, and that even freaking amazing people like you can have issues like this... I'm seeing my pshychiatrist and doing so much better. And you will feel better as well and you know that :) I've been subscribed to you for I'd say more than 4 years and I've never commented on your video (I just never do haha). But this time I really felt like doing so, hope it brightened your day! Love youuu
First of all, missed you! Ok, I get you totally about depression and anxiety, have dealt with and am dealing with it. It's something people don't get unless you have it. This time of year is awful for some of us, you know what,Your videos cheer me up, please know that.
as a woman who suffers and lives with anxiety, everything you say when you talk about your own experiences of anxiety resonate with me SO much. it is so hard to talk about how you feel to other people and not feel guilty!! listening to you talk about your experiences makes me feel so much less alone kathleen, love always❤️
Girl, I have Panic Disorder and I hate leaving my house, I'm too scared to learn to drive (I'm 32), I struggle with chronic pain and IBS, and I'm a stay at home mom to a 4 year old with mild cerebral palsy, and I am afraid of literally everything (like actually, everything). I FEEL YOU. The physical and emotional rollercoaster that comes alongside an anxiety disorder is exhausting. We tend to get lost in the valleys. But there are also massive peaks of self discovery and gratitude that I don't believe I would have if I didn't have anxiety. I'm grateful to learn the hard lessons (you know.. after haha) so that I can help my son to be his best, most authentic emotional self. It's always hard. But it's always cyclical. And we are ever improving and ever learning and we persist!! We open our hearts and commit to learn and grow and become more empathetic every time we claw back out of it. And we always do. Even when we can't take another 30 seconds, we ALWAYS do. Listening to you speak about your anxiety so openly reminds me never to stop talking about my own. Always share your heart. Each time we fall, we figure out how to come back a little faster, a little more clearly. Remember curiosity is the opposite of fear. Always balance your fear with genuine wonder, not concern. All my love!!
@@KathleenLights My heart is racing reading these comments and just feeling such a basic human understanding with you, and so many of the other beautiful commenters. Thank you for giving us all that gift! Feeling "normal" and "understood" is not what we specialize in haha. So, today is a good day.
I’m too scared to drive too! I know two or three other people like that. I’ve had my drivers permit three different times but I just can’t handle driving for more than at most 10 minutes. People always poke fun but I just literally cannot drive. I’m 26 btw.
Mental health is nothing you need to excuse... you need to take care of yourself and do what makes you happy. Don’t worry about us cause we just want you happy and healthy 😊 Sending you healing loves and happy thoughts and the knowledge that that blush looked STUNNING on you 😬😂
I'm having a down week myself and this video helped to remind me that I'm not alone. It's crazy how the mind works. One second you can be great, and the next, you can be wondering why things even exist. Like switching off a light! Just remember that we're all in this crazy world together. Thanks for being so open and honest with us
My bf has anxiety and I swear I will never know what goes on in his brain! He will be talking about the same thing and will take no encouragement for like days, sometimes I just wanna give up but I know something in him makes him like that, even though he doesnt want to be like that. But he always digs his way back out and the sunshine always comes back out
It feels so good to have you back here, Kat. Just know that we will always be by your side no matter what. I send you lots of love! You're so brave and authentic. You've NEVER disappointed me and you never will. xo from France to a beautiful soul ♥
We love you! And just know that when you express your feelings like this, it makes me feel normal for having anxiety too, and I just pray for you to have happiness every day! Stay positive kathleen! Don’t put so much pressure on yourself! What helps me is telling myself to be happy and get up and find something to do when I start getting depressed or anxious.
I love that you tell yourself "This too shall pass". I suffer from chronic migraines which was diagnosed in kindergarten. That is the exact same thing I would tell myself when I had a really long one and nothing would seem to help. I'd get really upset that it was lasting so long which only made the pain worse and eventually I'd just tell myself "This too shall pass." I know I'm 6 months late, but I love your positivity which shines through even when you're dealing with anxiety. Love you!
Seeing you tear up made me tear up! Just know that if you ever need to take a break, long or short, TAKE IT. We will ALWAYS be here for you and that's a promise! I also have anxiety and some days I don't even want to get out of bed but you know what helps me? Watching your videos! So as much as we do for you, you do the same for so many of us sweet girl. Just had to get that out and say we love you! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 P.S.- I know EXACTLY what you are going through. Everything you were saying I kept saying "Me too!". So just know that you're not alone 😘
There is no explanation needed. I have struggled with anxiety and depression for years. I have finally learned how to deal and face my mental struggles. It is just part of anatomy. You are not alone. It is easy to fall into the hole, but you are great. I watch your videos all the time getting ready for work. And you make my day! I am sure there are many others who agree. And as you said, you would never know. Thanks for your content
Hey Kathleen this video popped up at a great time. I’ve been extremely depressed and anxious and I haven’t been to college for 2 months. Been put on anti depressants and was in a mental health ward last month. I really appreciate your positivity and this video 🌝
It's been such a long time since I've watched one of your videos and I'm so thankful I clicked on this one. My mental health has been s h i t since I started college, I started making youtube videos because I had no friends and needed something to do while everyone else was going out. Totally agree that there's those days where you can be perfectly fine and all of the sudden just crash. Anytime any stressor is introduced that a "normal" person could handle it can completely wreck you for weeks. It's so nice to see someone that has a seemingly perfect life open up about their mental health. Especially when I'm currently in that place where I'm wondering if I'll ever feel "normal" again.
Everything you said fits me exactly. I’ve always had depression and after the baby the post partum hit me hard. Your channel not only brightened my hard days, but it also encouraged me to make a channel of my own and connect with other people that have the same passion for beauty that I do. You are truly such an inspiration and I love how professional and respectable you have stayed throughout your entire career. There are so many of us subscribers that love you so much and support you through the good times and bad 💜 Also, the essence matte bronzing powder, Ulta beauty gel eyeliner, bh cosmetics liquid lipsticks, Sephora brand lipstories (mattes and creams) - these are all incredible affordable products that no one talks about! Love you Kathleen 😘
Oh my gosh, post pardom depression is no joke. I had it like a week after giving birth and I was such a mess. I didn't realize it was that until I was feeling more like myself. ❤️
I started watching you when you were just a little under 100k subscribers, and I've commented this before, but I started watching you during a period of my life I was having suicidal thoughts and the depression was winning. You and seeing you talk about makeup helped me in ways I can't describe. I battle depression and anxiety ever since, and sometimes, just like you,it's hard to get out of bed, it's hard to function, it's hard to be ME. This is why I keep watching you and will continue to do so, because you are an incredible person that fights the same battles as I do, and seeing you being open and honest about your struggles, makes me feel closer to you and that I'm not alone. It also makes me so happy to see you win those fights, and the fact you keep trying to do better, feel better and do better, is an inspiration. Thank you so much for always being here even for me even if you don't know. I know you probably won't see this because it's been a couple of days since you uploaded the video but I just wanted to put this out there. I love you, Kathleen. You have helped more people than you know! I hope you're having better days now
Your skin looks amazing! That combo of foundation, concealer, blush, bronzer, highlight...ok the base is gorgeous. We can't always control what is going on in our mind or body. Self-care is so important. I'm in a funk too and have no idea how to come out of it but I really need to. And hormones are a b-itch!
Is there a trusted a friend or even your husband who can go through your comment section for you and delete/block any hateful comments before you see them? I hate seeing kind people get hurt by miserable people who have nothing better to do than make nasty comments to people they don't know. Just know that you're doing a great job, and I'm sorry you have to deal with any negativity you don't deserve any of that. XOXO
My beautiful queen! I know how crippling anxiety and depression is. I love you and congratulations you are almost at your *4 million subscribers* . Take care of yourself first sending so many hugs and kisses.
Hey lady, you need to give yourself permission to feel sad sometimes. With depression and anxiety, there is no palpable reason to be upset, but you are more than valid to feel that way. Just remember that this is not your baseline- your baseline is happy, and you will get back there soon enough. I’ve was diagnosed at age seven, so I’ve spent most of my life trying to understand my depression and anxiety, but the main thing I’ve learned is that it’s okay.. and that takes away a lot of the guilt that perpetuates those negative feelings. You don’t need to know HOW you will get out of your funk, you just need to have faith THAT you will get out of it. We love you mama!
Thank you so much for being real with us! I have been in a depressive episode for a few weeks now, and then I get more down and angry at myself because I have such a blessed life and no reason to be sad. Taking our time to regroup, but then going back out and rejoining the world is so important. I’m so bad about isolating myself, and I’m trying to do better about it. You talking about your anxiety and depression makes me feel not so alone, and more ready to pick up and move on out of this funk!
Hey girl! Stopped you mid video to send you a virtual hug. We are all human and we all have our days. I'm sorry your going through this tough patch but you will get through this and become tougher from it. I found you later then I wanted to because I was looking for somebody who didn't always wear falsies and was very down-to-earth and little to no drama. Thank God I found you because you are a breath of fresh air.
I got ready for work tonight before watching your video. I used very similar colors to yours and then instinctively grabbed the same Milani lip. I think that means we just became best friends.
Definitely I am super nostalgic with scents...I played in my sweet grandmother’s makeup when I was young, and she used revlon lipstick. Every time I smell that revlon lipstick smell, I miss her so! ❤️
There are excuses, and there are reasons. Your health is *never* an excuse, it's an important reason. Taking care of yourself is a necessity, not a frivolity. You're never letting us down.
Carlie H. Wow, I love this!
yes 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Very well said 👏🏻👏🏻
Carlie H. Well said I agree.
Agreed!
Your mental health is not an "excuse". Kathleen your mental health is a PRIORITY always and no matter how long it takes and no matter how long your breaks are your subscribers will always remain by your side. Love you and hope you are doing well!
i started watching you in your mississipi days because my boyfriend (now husband) was in the military and i didnt have many friends and i was always alone. but you were always my company. knowing we wanted to get married, watching you helped me a lot. i suffered in the past from anxiety and i was about to become a military wife. leaving my family behind. im hispanic and family is the world to me. i dont always comment on your videos, but i do tweet you a lot. but just know that without you, kat, i wouldnt have much. i know that sounds dramatic. but everytime you tweet or upload, i feel like my friend texted back. and when you take days off for work or vacation, i just feel like my friend is on vacation and i cant wait for her to tell me how it went. youtube is a weird place because we all have different stories behind the screen, but this is my story and i'm so glad i came across your channel. even my husband wishes he was danny's friend because they are into the literal same things lol. love you so much! and when emilia told me she told you about me (scope days) i felt like so happy to know that you have a friend like her too
sorry i poured my life out to you lol. just know that you are loved AND understood
That was such a sweet comment!! 😊 it had nothing to do with me and here I am still feeling emotional haha
@@AlexisAngelina Don't be sorry. I think this is a great place to share our stories. GOD bless, sweetie.
*me crying*
I watch you with my 3 year old daughter and we love you. She saw you were sad and kissed my phone. Loves to watch your tutorials while she plays with her makeup.
Ohhh my heart 💗💗 this is the sweetest thing. It sounds like your daughter is the sweetest little girl.
Omg that is so sweet!
She is a very sweet girl. She thinks everyone she meets or sees on tv is her best friend
Sam Moore omg that’s the cutest thing ever 💖
This is the sweetest thing!! I hope Kathleen sees your comment, that will surely lift her spirits when she's feeling down.
It’s obvious you feel bad about “complaining” about work, but don’t. Every one of your subscribers complains about their job. Just because yours is a great one, doesn’t mean that you don’t get sick of it or have issues. Even stay at home moms complain about their job, which is totally justified! You do you. We love you and it’s relatable.
Mackenzie Bates That’s true but if you don’t say it like that people are like “you’re so ungrateful” and stuff 🙄
Well said! Couldn't agree more. I complain about my job but I love being there with the kids.
I’m a stay at home mom, & we only have one car between my fiancé & I. So I’m always suck at the house. & I love love love being a stay at home mom & spending every second with my child I just hate being in the house all day. If I’m lucky I get to leave the house one a week & it’s to go to the store & I honestly get excited about that. Staying in one place for so long really can mess with your head
Chelsey Layne I’m on maternity leave right now and totally see how being home all day with no social interaction other than your baby can be draining!! I think my husband is ready to kill me bc I bombard him with questions the second he gets home haha just so excited to talk to a grown up!
Mackenzie Bates I’m the same way!! I have so much to say & he doesn’t want to talk at all from being with customers all day. It’s a horrible mixture!! Luckily I have amazing friends who are willing to help me get out of the house & they love bringing my daughter along with us!
I appreciate her CONSTANT honesty with us!
Kathleen please don’t feel like you’re somehow letting your subscribers down by having a bad day or a bad week. Dealing with depression and anxiety is hard enough without feeling like you’re disappointing others. I know it feels like you’re letting us down, but I swear we don’t actually care. And if someone is being snotty about it and leaving mean comments, it’s because they’ve personally never been there. They don’t know what you’re going through. I personally can relate to this so much. I’ve gone through horrible depression in the past and the most important thing to remember is that you’re always much harsher on yourself than anyone else will ever be. Just know that we’re here for you. We’re not judging! We just want you to feel better! Love you Kathleen!!!
To be honest with you, I'm not that interested in make up anymore and still, I watch almost every single video you post. Mostly because I can feel your passion and I love how fun and mature you are. Kathleen, you are not alone, me and millions of people can toally relate to how you feel. I just wanted to let you know that you are already helping a lot using your plattform to talk about this👏. Thank you so much Kat, for showing us how strong we are when we show our vulnerabilties without fear ❤
No no no. Honey. Anxiety is real. Depression is real. You don’t have to explain omg I almost cried when your voice broke. Sending you good vibes girl you’re doing wonderful ❤️
mysterymylovely omg same hate to see her in pain 😔
I trying to not cry too...I just want to give her a hug! It's so heartbreaking... Like watching my little sister hurt.. 😭😭
I understand your battles with anxiety, so many of us feel it too, just know we're all here for you and understand if you can't always post. Your health is number 1!
Kathleen, please do not feel like we are going to judge you on feeling like this, because we won't/aren't. At least I won't. You can have the happiest, most grateful life ever and still be depressed and have anxiety. Depression and anxiety don't need a reason to appear or make you feel like crap, they just do. Also I totally agree with you on the fact that life keeps moving on and so should you, but there is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to stay in bed a few days and cry and be sad. Being depressed isn't wrong or bad and neither is having anxiety. Now having suicidal thoughts isn't good, and if anyone is reading this comment and having suicidal thoughts or feelings contact someone to help you please. And I am not saying you have any Kathleen, or judging anyone who does. I just want you to know how much we and I love you so so much and you should never feel worried about how we will react or feel to the way you are feeling. You feel what you feel, and that's okay. I will definitely be praying for you and just remember that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. The Lord will give you strength to fight this battle, you just have to trust and believe in Him. I love you so so much Kathleen!
Well said!!
I agree with everything you said 💕 I actually came here to say the same things but I was worried that my English is not good enough to help me explain my idea so I was really happy to see your comment 💕 I know how someone could feel uncomfortable to talk about their emotions because people can very easily misunderstand them and make them feel guilty for their emotions but actually this is not how the brain work 👀 depression and anxiety have nothing to do with having great or horrible lives, it's about specific chemicals and hormones that are being produced into our brains, some people are just blessed to have less production of stress hormones it's nothing that they worked hard to have it's in there genetic sestem! That is why people are so different in their ability to get depressed and their brains are so different in the way they deal with problems and that is totally OK 💕 it just hurts me when I see someone being very hesitant and afraid to talk about emotions because the society is very judgmental 💔 I love you Kathleen and hope you feel better soon 🧡☁️
@@saghazal2033 Couldn't agree more! 💕
Thank you for saying this! I relate to this video so much ohh my goodness ugh I feel so bad for her and everyone who goes through these things... especially right now with seasonal depression setting in too, things feel so slow and never ending. Health always comes first tho and I finally learned that my process is going to be different than everyone else’s regardless of how I feel, so I’m slowly learning to embrace that and be more confident in my journey. Love you all & love you Kathleen. ❤️❤️
@@sarahkaltenecker Aww! I love this comment. Yes just slowly get better. Every journey is always a marathon, not a sprint. ❤️ Also I'm so happy that my comment blessed you. God was truly speaking to my heart and I just said what I felt, so thank you for accepting that. ❤️
This is why we love you Kathleen. You are always so real and genuine. You are one of the few youtubers that RUclips fame hasn’t really changed, you have stayed humble and genuine. People tend to forget that we are all just human. I have postpartum anxiety after having my son so I can totally relate to what you are going through. Anxiety is very real and very hard, I wake up every day thinking my baby is going to die, I know it’s irrational but when you’re going through it, you can’t tell yourself nothing. So thank you for posting videos like this and being so real and so yourself. We love you, keep your head up love! 😘❤️
Laura Love postpartum anxiety is so real and so hard. I was worried about postpartum depression when I was pregnant but never imagined that postpartum anxiety would hit me as hard as it did. Wishing you all the best.
Everyone's pain is valid, including yours Kat. I can totally relate to you, I feel like you're me. When I get overwhelmed I shut down. So take your time to heal, to relax, to feel better. Your true subscribers who love you will always be here for you, and that includes me. Sending you hugs and prayers.
SERENITY BEAUTY thank you so so much!
@@KathleenLights Oh my God! I love you so much. 😍😘❤😭😭😭
Depression & anxiety don’t discriminate. You’re such an inspiration, Kathleen!! We all love you so much! 💓
I just want to say that this video helped me a lot personally. There is power in acknowledging your feelings and living in your truth. You help validate our shared human experiences in a world where social media constantly reinforces an unrealistic standard of a being perfect. Love you Kathleen and want you to know that you are very special! 💕💕
Arielle Montague beautifully said!
I love this, thank you! This is something a lot of people need to see and you couldn't have put it better💛
Yes so beautifully said! We all have struggles and sometimes admitting and sharing those struggles is what can pull us through 💕
Kathleen, how in the heck do you get hate comments or tweets?! I think you're one of the most genuine and sweetest youtubers out there. And the effort you make into your videos reflects in the great quality of them! I can't imagine anyone having anything negative to say about you... Sending tons of love your way!
Kathleen dont cry!! I have been watching your videos since my second year of university (but never comment until today) and you are the first youtuber I ever watched and who taught me how to do my makeup and I bought a lot of the products you recommended to learn about makeup! I have told all of my friends about you and they all love your content and who you are !! It is definitely OKAY to be depressed sometimes and that is about life!! You can't be happy all the time otherwise you won't actually feel happy :) Life goes up and down and I really wanna tell you that you are an amazing person and a youtuber!!! You inspire me so much and we love you
you just spoke my mind. I have been her fan for 4 years now
Don't push yourself to hard I could automatically tell your expression on your face was so different on this video. It's totally ok to break down sometimes. It seems like your a strong person you'll be ok that's why your so liked!
She was also my very first ever to watch.. since she was in Mississippi and she is still my number one no matter what
Kathleen we are never disappointed by you and always get it if you need a mental break. The job you do is not easy and on top of running a business its totally normal to lose yourself. Don't feel like you are falling behind bcus you are doing amazing and its okay if you feel like shit sometimes but know we are always here to support you 😁💕
Alya wow thank you!!! You’re so sweet
I dont understand how anyone could a have single mean hate comment towards kathleen..like shes the sweetest ever
She is and I love her!!!
That was my exact thought. Lol
We all love you! Anxiety is so real, so debilitating, so overwhelming. A lot of us can relate. Take the time YOU need. Some people need to realize that you are a regular person, with regular things that happen. You are amazing and take care of yourself!
Girl. This is YOUR channel. It’s YOUR business. We do not make the rules. I have bad anxiety and I know what it’s like to not want to get out of bed and for other people to think you’re just being dramatic when you’re not.. so you take as much time as YOU need and we will all still be here! AM I RIGHT PEOPLE? We love you and just care about your mental health! Take care of yourself girl! ❤️
Absolutely!
Always get teary eyed when Kathleen talks about her anxiety and when she's down because I feel that so much. I love you Kathleen. Found you in 2015 when I was depressed and watched your videos and started getting into makeup and I've followed you ever since. I'm so much better now but I know that you are helping others through their bad times with your channel. You are very uplifting and inspiring even when you can't see it yourself! Will ALWAYS be here for your videos :)
Emily Johnson thank you so so much!!
@@KathleenLights love you mean it!!
Damn that hit me right in the feels when you were talking about your anxiety. I’ve been the same way and it sucks so much because people just don’t understand if they don’t have it. Just know, YOURE NOT ALONE. We all love you so much.
Love holly,
The crazy candle girl ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Ive actually noticed that a lot of people ive met have anxiety, it feels like theres a higher percentage of people who have anxiety (myself included) than people who dont
Kawen Gee what?
I love that you’re so open and honest with your subscribers about your anxiety issues. Hearing you speak on it reminds me of myself so much, and it makes me feel less alone. Watching your videos helps brighten my day when I have those “lay in bed all day” days. Thank you for being you, Kathleen. Thank you for being so genuine and for giving us great content, whether that be three times a week or three times a month. Continue doing what’s best for you!
Don’t feel bad for being anxious and depressed, anyone who cares for you and supports you will understand and that’s all that matters 👌🏻❤️
When people say “hold on. It gets better. Six months from now this won’t matter”... you wonder SIX MONTHS! HOW AM I GOING TO GET THROUGH THE NEXT SIX MINUTES!!?? We’ve all been there. It’s hard to see the light sometimes, but just know that just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it’s not there. Your lights are always there waiting for you patiently. With loyalty and love. You can get through this ❤️💕✨
Girl, my daughters friend (12 hrs old). Opened up to me about being suicidal. She doesn’t know why she feels like that, she doesn’t know why she feels lonely, she’s not getting bullied, her parents are good. Sometimes there is no reason why we feel that way, we just do. That’s why mental health issue is big right now. It’s all good, it’s good to let it out. You’re not alone.
H Hargreaves Poor baby,it sounds like she's dealing with depression😢 I've had run ins with it as an adult but I couldn't imagine going through it at such a young age😔 Please reach out to her parents and get her some help. I hope and pray that everything gets better for her💓
H Dubby hi, yes I did speak to her mom. Thank you.
It’s very likely she has depression. That’s how I am. I have a great life but there are just times where I feel like I should die. Just comfort her and if she’s comfortable with it talk to her parents.
BRB recreating this look ASAP! So in love 😍
Been going through the same thing with anxiety and being down. I’ve been on the verge of tears everyday. I’m in bed most days as long as possible just wasting the day away. Take the time you need.
When Kathleen cries I cry.....
Everytime😢
Same
Same 😞Chin Up. You’re are amazing.
i swearrrrr girl D,:
Me too..shes precious
Kathleen, depression is not sadness and I think that is why most do not understand it. You can have all the money, family, friends, materials, love, and even happiness in the world all while being so miserably depressed you do not want to get up in the morning. I have had Manic Depressive Disorder since I was 5. Do what you need to be healthy please. Anyone that truly cares for you will still be here. Your true subscribers aren't going anywhere 💜💜
Depression and anxiety don't take into account what is going fine in life. It will fine the tiniest issue and feed on that and grow! I'm a very positive person, never had any anxiety before. When i had a distance relationship with my boyfriend it was tough and i actually became depressed. But when i finally moved in with him i thought i had everything i wanted and should be happy but i cried every evening, for no reason, and felt even worse because i SHOULD have been happy. It passed after a few months but this period was terrifying and taught me that it is possible to feel crappy for no rational reason. You're not alone sweetie, it is a human feeling. Love you, you are my top favorite youtuber and if you can't film, "who cares?? " Focus on yourself, take care, nothing matters more! ❤
Girl you’re amazing! No disappointment towards you here!! I was one of those people that never really understood people with anxiety or depression but since having a baby, I 1000% understand everything you’re talking about now! It’s so real and it’s so hard to work through it especially when you can’t even explain what’s wrong. Just know you never disappoint your followers that love you!
Self care isn’t selfish! Take care of your mental health first!!! I deal with crippling anxiety and depression as well. Thank you for being raw with this. Sending good vibes that your mental health improves soon, and your anxiety disappears!!
Vee Teague I’m sending those same vibes to you!!!! It’s so so hard but we can do this
@@KathleenLights I want to kill myself 😢😢😢
You don’t have to justify your feelings! They are valid. Anxiety and depression don’t make sense. You can have the best life and still struggle with things like that. You are valid!!!
I’ve only just started binging your videos and beauty channels in general within the past few months, and as someone who has suffered from depression and anxiety my entire adult life, I adore you and how you light up so many lives as much as you can. My worst days used to occur when my life seemed “great”, so know that one thing has little to do with the other. Please know you are a literal beam of sunshine for me and equally as inspiring. And remember that you are the most important person in your head! Treat her well and take time when you need it!
I for one absolutely love and appreciate you talking open about your anxiety. I struggle with depression, anxiety, and severe panic attacks and its refreshing to see someone open and honest about these things. I love how you said "Even the happiest people can get depressed" You are so right, Kathleen. When there's no reason to be sad, but your sad... Those are the worst times. I think we all worry about things we cant change. Makeup is an escape of mine too. You should know, YOU help people with that! Your channel is such a safe and encouraging place! ❤❤❤
Your health should come first all the time and that includes mental health!! Don't worry about us too much. It's so sad that it burdens you... we all love u so much!! All the love from us♡
Kathleen, you are not full of excuses. You are human and we would love you videos or no videos. Please take it easy 💗💗💗💗💗💗
Syamim Aziz you hit the nail on the head. There are excuses, and then there are reasons, and the two are mutually exclusive. A reason is a legitimate explanation for why something has occurred, and an excuse is just dodging. We never think you are excuses. You are the most beautiful human being and we are so sorry you have been hurting. Sending you the biggest virtual hug and wishing you endless comfort in your time of frustration. Love you girlie❤️❤️❤️
I truly do understand you 100%. I've been suffering from anxiety and depression for the past 9 years. What helps me is inspirational books and self talk.
It does not matter what you post, when you post, how long it’s been since you posted - We’re going to keep coming back because we love you! Your mental health is just as important as your physical health and you have to take care of yourself first. We will always be here when you’re ready 🥰
Morgan Walters thank you so so much!!!!
KathleenLights of course 🥰
Depression isn’t always about just being sad. People who say to just move on are uneducated and have little experience. It has to do with a chemical imbalance most of the time. People can’t just turn it off and be happy. At least that is the issue with me. Just take it all day by day Kathleen! Things will get better, they always do! ❤️❤️❤️😘
Katie Wallace THANK YOU FOR THIS COMMENT I FEEL LIKE I TRY TO EXPLAIN THIS TO PEOPLE ALL THE TIME AND THEY DONT GET IT!
AGREE! AGREE! People just don't get it!!
We adore you for a billion reasons. Don’t be hard on yourself. You’re doing an amazing job at everything. I hope that you feel truly happy one day soon. Love you so fricking much xxxxxx
I have been struggling sooooo much lately. School and work and home life its all just overwhelming right now and watching your videos is an escape because of your personality, feels like talking to a friend. When you’re honest like this about your emotions it really feels like I can relate and just makes me love you and you’re channel more. Thank you Kathleen.
Depression isn't sadness. It's a chemical imbalance in your brain. A symptom can be sadness, but they also include fatigue, apathy, lack of appetite or increase in appetite, forgetfulness, being easily distracted, etc. And anxiety is the same. It's not just feeling anxious, it's a chemical imbalance in your brain. If you broke both of your arms and literally couldn't film, it would be the same thing. You have reputable illnesses. Just because they are mental illnesses doesn't make them any less valid or debilitating. Having a great life doesn't fix the chemicals in your brain. Having a great support system doesn't change the chemicals in your brain. Take care of yourself!!
I Makeup Stuff So well said!! Thank you for articulating this so well for all of us.
Well said
I agree. There is so much stigma with mental illness and so many people won't or don't get the help they need because of that.
It’s important to note that fixing anxiety and depression isn’t just about fixing a chemical imbalance. Sometimes we create habits and thought patterns that perpetuate our sadness and anxiety and these need to be tackled as well in order to heal. If we tell ourselves our day is going to be crappy everyday, this affects those balances and makes us feel crappy everyday. In therapy, you work on changing these negative thought patterns which in turn helps with the balances in your brain.
Well said! I am so agree
I have had horrible anxiety and depression my entire life and that “will I ever feel normal again” feeling is literally the most haunting thing ever. These are not excuses, these feelings are very real. Much love to you mama.
I’m exactly the same, I shut down when I get overwhelmed too, and it’s horrible and so hard to get out of it. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for around 7 years now and it doesn’t get easier. You saying it’s so hard for you to get out of, i feel exactly the same way, and I admire you so much doing everything you do while suffering. So taking a few days off is understandable. I don’t feel strong enough to do anything. I made a RUclips channel because I’m alone and want to talk to people like you do, but I haven’t been able to post because I’ve felt so crap about everything. Little things seem so much bigger than they are, and it’s so upsetting because it stops us from doing every day things... I’m rambling. I just wanna say I admire you so much
Kathleen, you have no idea how comforting it is to hear you talk about your struggle with anxiety. I'm currently in a very similar situation and have felt so lost. I did my makeup before work while watching this video and I feel so happy knowing I'm not alone. Thank you so much for sharing, we love you
Remember Kathleen: We ALL struggle. You are doing fine! Needing time to destress, to withdraw from some of the hardship and horror that goes on in the world, is perfectly normal and healthy. Crying can be very cathartic and helpful. Keep up your peptalks to yourself. Enjoy your family and your pets and your husband. Try coloring! Come back to your channel when you are ready and into it. Ignore the haters. We love you!
🗣🗣🗣🗣Influencers taking mental health breaks should be normalized !!!!!! I’m glad you’re back on the way up, happy to have you back!
SAT IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK!!!!!!!!!
You’re so unbelievable inspiring. I also get that same “shutting down” reaction when life gets too much, and it’s really hard to explain to my friends and family members why I can’t get myself going to fix the problem, and I completely relate to the feeling of needing to just push forward and push through the barriers keeping you down. I love you so much, and you’re doing so well. We’re always so happy when you upload but we understand when you don’t!! 💓
Jessica von Volkli thank you!!!!!
I truly understand what you were saying about anxiety and how it can completely disabled you. And I'm grateful to you for sharing because it really helped me to hear someone describe the low phases I go through due to stress. Thanks Kathleen. And as always, wishing you the very best. You're such a bright light. These videos are about more than just makeup....they are therapeutic. Love you
I totally understand the anxiety part girl hang in there😘, what’s been helping me is the way I force myself to start thinking whenever I start feeling super anxious and overwhelmed. I know it’s easier said than done, but I always ask myself a question, “can I alter/ change the situation in any way?” If the answer is no. Then it is out my control and everything that will proceed is not my fault bc I did my part. The universe and world will go on regardless of whatever happens, so as long as I physically did my what I could, I need to let go of the idea that I can do more and this is not enough. Things don’t always go
as planned but maybe that’s the point to learn to learn to let go of things that are bigger than us. Knowing that no matter what the result is, the world will continue on and one day we will most likely look back and probably wonder why I was even freaking out in the first place. (Lol idk if that made any sense hope it helps 😇)
Darya Yes! This way of thinking has helped me SO much!!
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Kathleen, a large percentage of your audience probably deals with anxiety. I know i have. We wont fault you for it. The vast majority of us support you regardless 💙💙💙
FreakOfNature you are right! ❤️
I am praying for you. I get in the same "funks" where I just get so low that I can't even come out of it. I struggle so much with self hate, thinking I'm never gonna be enough to fill the shoes I wear. I'm a sahm of 3 and a wife and while some people wish they had what I have, I constantly struggle with feelings of overwhelm and inadequacy. My mind can be my worst enemy driving me to doubt myself and fear everything. I'm so happy that you're brave enough to open up about these things to the world. I hope you will be able to get out of this rut, and its very helpful to talk about it. I am not disappointed in you Kat, I admire you! You work hard, you are creative and funny. You bring light to many people's lives, don't let a few dark clouds weaken your shine! 🌫🌬🌞
i can 100% relate to everything you said about anxiety, and shutting down. and feeling like you’re disappointing yourself and others because you know you can do better. i completely understand, and it’s really comforting to hear that someone’s mind works the same as mine. its validating, and makes me feel like how i’ve feeling is real. thank you.
Oh my gosh this made me tear up. I have days where I feel completely miserable for no reason. I hope you start feeling like yourself again! You are amazing and thank you for all that you do for your subscribers! 💕💕
KATHLEEN we love you! One of my favourite youtubers for a reason mwaahhh ♥️♥️♥️
you are so consistent and so amazing. your surroundings and situation can be completely unassociated from mental health. this happens to me as well. it seems like everything is right in my life but me love you kathleen
girl i feel you with the anxiety. like people think that because you have a good family and a good life in general that its easy to be happy, but youre sooo right. our minds just dont work like that sometimes. sometimes were just sad because we really feel like that with no reason. thank you for being so honest and genuine. you are not alone, i feel like i can relate to you so much. thank you
I might be too late for you to ever see this comment, and this is the first time I’ve ever commented on a RUclips video haha, but I really wanted to say this, I had my beautiful baby 4 months ago and I have been going through postpartum depression, it is so hard because everyday I wake up to something so beautiful, and it makes me feel like how can I feel so sad when everything is going go well? But I started watching your videos at night when I would get up with my little girl, and I started playing with makeup while I was struggling with adjusting to everything else on my body looking and feeling different, and for 20 minutes its been so nice to not have to be in my own head. So thank you Kathleen. Thank you very much for doing what you do. I don’t know if I am any better at makeup yet hahaha not for lack of your teaching! But honestly, it has been something for me to pour a lot of my negative energy into and as dramatic as this sounds, it has gotten me through a lot of my hard times. Thank you.
It's so crazy, but when I have the days where I am in my low spot and dont want to get out of bed, I watch your videos! I'm glad we can do the same for you.
Kathleen; Don’t be so hard on yourself! I’m Aquarius as well - & the fact that people label Aquarian’s as NOT emotional is totally WRONG!!!!! We’re MORE sensitive/emotional.... We just aren’t as quick to put our emotional strain on others!! You’re amazing, I know it must be next to impossible, but don’t ever let the negative comments get to you. Those opinions are not relevant !!
No one worth a damn will be disappointed in you taking care of yourself. 💕
Alex Sedevie wlllllllppBvcl
So random, but YOURE ALMOST AT 4MILLION!!!!!
I remember being here since 100/150k 😭❤️
Thank you so much for being open with us about your mental health. Talking about it really helps defeat the stigma surrounding mental health, and having anxiety or depression is no excuse. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and unwind! We’re always here. 😊
You don’t have to make us happy. You just to make yourself happy. When that happens, then we’re happy. Take your time, take time off. We’ll still be here for you! XOXO 😘
Thank you for being so vulnerable and showing us this side of you and opening up about a very hard topic. I deal with this almost daily. It is not an excuse and it doesn't matter how many amazing people and things you have in your life. Depression is a imbalance of the chemicals in your brain. We cannot help it. It is a daily struggle. Thank you for posting this and showing others they are not alone. You are one HELL of an amazing light in our lives! Never forget that and never feel bad for putting yourself first. We will always be here. We understand and love you!
These feelings are so real and so OKAY. You mental health will never undermine you success, or how your loyal subbies feel about you❤❤❤ Thank you for sharing with us, it really helped me. I love you and your channel so much!
Kathleen, thanks for sharing your story with us and please always know that your mental health should be your number 1 priority. Recently I started suffering from anxiety and panic attacks (which I've never experienced before, so that's been super exhausting and just weird in general) and I found your video about your anxiety that you've filmed years ago. It brought me to tears and helped me sooo much at the same time, just knowing I'm not alone, and that even freaking amazing people like you can have issues like this... I'm seeing my pshychiatrist and doing so much better. And you will feel better as well and you know that :) I've been subscribed to you for I'd say more than 4 years and I've never commented on your video (I just never do haha). But this time I really felt like doing so, hope it brightened your day! Love youuu
First of all, missed you! Ok, I get you totally about depression and anxiety, have dealt with and am dealing with it. It's something people don't get unless you have it. This time of year is awful for some of us, you know what,Your videos cheer me up, please know that.
as a woman who suffers and lives with anxiety, everything you say when you talk about your own experiences of anxiety resonate with me SO much. it is so hard to talk about how you feel to other people and not feel guilty!! listening to you talk about your experiences makes me feel so much less alone kathleen, love always❤️
Girl, I have Panic Disorder and I hate leaving my house, I'm too scared to learn to drive (I'm 32), I struggle with chronic pain and IBS, and I'm a stay at home mom to a 4 year old with mild cerebral palsy, and I am afraid of literally everything (like actually, everything). I FEEL YOU. The physical and emotional rollercoaster that comes alongside an anxiety disorder is exhausting. We tend to get lost in the valleys. But there are also massive peaks of self discovery and gratitude that I don't believe I would have if I didn't have anxiety. I'm grateful to learn the hard lessons (you know.. after haha) so that I can help my son to be his best, most authentic emotional self. It's always hard. But it's always cyclical. And we are ever improving and ever learning and we persist!! We open our hearts and commit to learn and grow and become more empathetic every time we claw back out of it. And we always do. Even when we can't take another 30 seconds, we ALWAYS do. Listening to you speak about your anxiety so openly reminds me never to stop talking about my own. Always share your heart. Each time we fall, we figure out how to come back a little faster, a little more clearly. Remember curiosity is the opposite of fear. Always balance your fear with genuine wonder, not concern. All my love!!
Jami Pollitt omfg I’m developing ibs from my anxiety and it doesn’t get talked about enough!!!! It’s so annoying and sickening
Jami Pollitt I just sobbed reading this
I'm too scared to learn how to drive too.. Right there with you! Stay strong
@@KathleenLights My heart is racing reading these comments and just feeling such a basic human understanding with you, and so many of the other beautiful commenters. Thank you for giving us all that gift! Feeling "normal" and "understood" is not what we specialize in haha. So, today is a good day.
I’m too scared to drive too! I know two or three other people like that. I’ve had my drivers permit three different times but I just can’t handle driving for more than at most 10 minutes. People always poke fun but I just literally cannot drive. I’m 26 btw.
Mental health is nothing you need to excuse... you need to take care of yourself and do what makes you happy. Don’t worry about us cause we just want you happy and healthy 😊 Sending you healing loves and happy thoughts and the knowledge that that blush looked STUNNING on you 😬😂
You need a KL POLISH named “juicy” I love the way you said that!!
I'm having a down week myself and this video helped to remind me that I'm not alone. It's crazy how the mind works. One second you can be great, and the next, you can be wondering why things even exist. Like switching off a light! Just remember that we're all in this crazy world together. Thanks for being so open and honest with us
My bf has anxiety and I swear I will never know what goes on in his brain! He will be talking about the same thing and will take no encouragement for like days, sometimes I just wanna give up but I know something in him makes him like that, even though he doesnt want to be like that. But he always digs his way back out and the sunshine always comes back out
It feels so good to have you back here, Kat. Just know that we will always be by your side no matter what.
I send you lots of love! You're so brave and authentic. You've NEVER disappointed me and you never will. xo from France to a beautiful soul ♥
We love you! And just know that when you express your feelings like this, it makes me feel normal for having anxiety too, and I just pray for you to have happiness every day! Stay positive kathleen! Don’t put so much pressure on yourself! What helps me is telling myself to be happy and get up and find something to do when I start getting depressed or anxious.
I love that you tell yourself "This too shall pass". I suffer from chronic migraines which was diagnosed in kindergarten. That is the exact same thing I would tell myself when I had a really long one and nothing would seem to help. I'd get really upset that it was lasting so long which only made the pain worse and eventually I'd just tell myself "This too shall pass." I know I'm 6 months late, but I love your positivity which shines through even when you're dealing with anxiety. Love you!
Seeing you tear up made me tear up! Just know that if you ever need to take a break, long or short, TAKE IT. We will ALWAYS be here for you and that's a promise! I also have anxiety and some days I don't even want to get out of bed but you know what helps me? Watching your videos! So as much as we do for you, you do the same for so many of us sweet girl. Just had to get that out and say we love you! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 P.S.- I know EXACTLY what you are going through. Everything you were saying I kept saying "Me too!". So just know that you're not alone 😘
Kathleen just be strong, I can totally relate and understand. :*
Hugs & kisses from Croatia. :)
Kathleen we love you, take whatever time you need and take care of yourself. You are not disappointing us whatsoever, we want a happy Kathleen
There is no explanation needed. I have struggled with anxiety and depression for years. I have finally learned how to deal and face my mental struggles. It is just part of anatomy. You are not alone. It is easy to fall into the hole, but you are great. I watch your videos all the time getting ready for work. And you make my day! I am sure there are many others who agree. And as you said, you would never know. Thanks for your content
Hey Kathleen this video popped up at a great time. I’ve been extremely depressed and anxious and I haven’t been to college for 2 months. Been put on anti depressants and was in a mental health ward last month. I really appreciate your positivity and this video 🌝
It's been such a long time since I've watched one of your videos and I'm so thankful I clicked on this one.
My mental health has been s h i t since I started college, I started making youtube videos because I had no friends and needed something to do while everyone else was going out.
Totally agree that there's those days where you can be perfectly fine and all of the sudden just crash. Anytime any stressor is introduced that a "normal" person could handle it can completely wreck you for weeks.
It's so nice to see someone that has a seemingly perfect life open up about their mental health. Especially when I'm currently in that place where I'm wondering if I'll ever feel "normal" again.
Everything you said fits me exactly. I’ve always had depression and after the baby the post partum hit me hard. Your channel not only brightened my hard days, but it also encouraged me to make a channel of my own and connect with other people that have the same passion for beauty that I do. You are truly such an inspiration and I love how professional and respectable you have stayed throughout your entire career. There are so many of us subscribers that love you so much and support you through the good times and bad 💜
Also, the essence matte bronzing powder, Ulta beauty gel eyeliner, bh cosmetics liquid lipsticks, Sephora brand lipstories (mattes and creams) - these are all incredible affordable products that no one talks about!
Love you Kathleen 😘
Oh my gosh, post pardom depression is no joke. I had it like a week after giving birth and I was such a mess. I didn't realize it was that until I was feeling more like myself. ❤️
I started watching you when you were just a little under 100k subscribers, and I've commented this before, but I started watching you during a period of my life I was having suicidal thoughts and the depression was winning. You and seeing you talk about makeup helped me in ways I can't describe.
I battle depression and anxiety ever since, and sometimes, just like you,it's hard to get out of bed, it's hard to function, it's hard to be ME. This is why I keep watching you and will continue to do so, because you are an incredible person that fights the same battles as I do, and seeing you being open and honest about your struggles, makes me feel closer to you and that I'm not alone. It also makes me so happy to see you win those fights, and the fact you keep trying to do better, feel better and do better, is an inspiration. Thank you so much for always being here even for me even if you don't know.
I know you probably won't see this because it's been a couple of days since you uploaded the video but I just wanted to put this out there. I love you, Kathleen. You have helped more people than you know! I hope you're having better days now
Your skin looks amazing! That combo of foundation, concealer, blush, bronzer, highlight...ok the base is gorgeous. We can't always control what is going on in our mind or body. Self-care is so important. I'm in a funk too and have no idea how to come out of it but I really need to. And hormones are a b-itch!
Protect her at all costs!!! At All Costs, I Say!!!!!!!! *hugs her*
This video hit so close to home... thank you for being so open & encouraging. I truly listen to you because I know you get it.. so thank you❤️
This made me really proud of her. The honesty is so brave and it's always healthy to remind people that you're only human.
Is there a trusted a friend or even your husband who can go through your comment section for you and delete/block any hateful comments before you see them? I hate seeing kind people get hurt by miserable people who have nothing better to do than make nasty comments to people they don't know.
Just know that you're doing a great job, and I'm sorry you have to deal with any negativity you don't deserve any of that. XOXO
Trish Lamour yess!!! Great idea!!!
Perfect idea.
I think she can hire someone to do this as well 🤔 I’m sure her family/friends will get defensive lol I know I would!!!
My beautiful queen! I know how crippling anxiety and depression is. I love you and congratulations you are almost at your *4 million subscribers* . Take care of yourself first sending so many hugs and kisses.
Hey lady, you need to give yourself permission to feel sad sometimes. With depression and anxiety, there is no palpable reason to be upset, but you are more than valid to feel that way. Just remember that this is not your baseline- your baseline is happy, and you will get back there soon enough. I’ve was diagnosed at age seven, so I’ve spent most of my life trying to understand my depression and anxiety, but the main thing I’ve learned is that it’s okay.. and that takes away a lot of the guilt that perpetuates those negative feelings. You don’t need to know HOW you will get out of your funk, you just need to have faith THAT you will get out of it. We love you mama!
Thank you so much for being real with us! I have been in a depressive episode for a few weeks now, and then I get more down and angry at myself because I have such a blessed life and no reason to be sad. Taking our time to regroup, but then going back out and rejoining the world is so important. I’m so bad about isolating myself, and I’m trying to do better about it. You talking about your anxiety and depression makes me feel not so alone, and more ready to pick up and move on out of this funk!
Hey girl! Stopped you mid video to send you a virtual hug. We are all human and we all have our days. I'm sorry your going through this tough patch but you will get through this and become tougher from it. I found you later then I wanted to because I was looking for somebody who didn't always wear falsies and was very down-to-earth and little to no drama. Thank God I found you because you are a breath of fresh air.
I got ready for work tonight before watching your video. I used very similar colors to yours and then instinctively grabbed the same Milani lip. I think that means we just became best friends.
Kerri Lee DUH!!!
Definitely I am super nostalgic with scents...I played in my sweet grandmother’s makeup when I was young, and she used revlon lipstick. Every time I smell that revlon lipstick smell, I miss her so! ❤️
Girl I get it. I suffer from anxiety, and I never know what the day will bring. You are not alone. I love your courage