MusicIsMyLife I know right...someone told me to NOT be depressed and I’m depressed and it hurt more than they thought it would. I can’t describe how painful being “the way I am” people don’t understand, listen, or just laugh it off.
@@stevenorkevin9367 I'm so sorry. And I guess people ask you because they're trying to get insight as to how to help you. Some people dont want you to be depressed.
@@babybird7654 who knows Don't make assumptions about it tho, maybe you're not, maybe you are 🤷♂️ Maybe go see a therapist? Or talk to your parents or friends about it?
Fairy Tail - Rakudai kishi no cavalry オパールとスカーレット Well what if you’re too young to go out on your own and you too scared to talk to your friends or family cause you trust no one. Then what do you do?
@@babybird7654 I'd say probably but if you have tendencies like no eating even when you can or your body is telling you to or wanting to that's a red flag see somebody talk to somebody
Four years ago a kid from my school killed himself because he was bullied, abused at home and had depression, anxiety and ADHD, the school baned us from talking about it and gave on assembaly about. There is now a board at the train station in his memory that has loads of writing and quotes,, but the most noticable thing that it says is "no more bad days"
The same thing happened at my school. I don’t understand why they didn’t talk about it before. Then there would have been a slight chance that maybe she wouldn’t have done it. Gladly, she is still alive. I don’t know what I’d do without her... ... they didn’t talk about drugs until kids were vaping in the bathroom... they didn’t talk about self-harm until after multiple kids were ‘told on’... they didn’t talk about suicide until she attempted it twice...
That’s how I get away with telling everyone that I want to die without them caring. They always joke about me being depressed. Oh you can’t be more depressed than her😂! I just go along with the jokes I get it everywhere. No matter where I go I find someone joking about me. I just can’t. They don’t know the truth. They don’t know that I’ve been raped, abused and bullied. They don’t know me
When someone killed themselves in my school, classes. carried on, they didn't speak of it, didn't cancel school, didn't offer help to those struggling. Some kids made fun of it. I was so heartbroken. Especially because he was my friend....
I'm so sorry hun. You're gonna be ok. I hate it when kids make fun of things like that...😔 You are not alone. Me, jesus, many other people here for you. sending love..💗💗💗💗
sorry for losing your friend. hope all is going well for you. Prayers for you and his family- say his name in remembrance and know he is not forgotten.
Depression is much worse than a lot of things since it isn’t something which is fully curable and if it isn’t visibly shown it can kill that individual ( I just want you to know I’ve been suffering with depression for 3 years straight now after constant harassment, bully, assault and feeling like I’m an outcast to society ) this short film perfectly describes how I feel
"Why do you think someone would ever take their own life?" Because the pain becomes so unbearable and the world so bleak that you see death as an escape.
I have depression. Depression makes your body tired, making you sleep almost all of the time. You also have pain. It hurts. Death, is like the best escape. But im too afraid to do it.
Same here... And I know people say that just to try and make the other person feel better, but I'm actually serious. I even learned how to tie a noose, just in case I can't take it anymore.
Thats how i feel i want to go home but im already hire i dont deserve a life any more i feel like everyone hates me i feel like everyone wants me to be perfect 24/7
I've been dealing with depression i Haven't told anyone about it i felt alone and i stopped eating i was sad all the time even at school i was in a very dark place at the time i told my friend about it thank god i told him about it but told my family and teachers i still have it everyday and i almost going to kill myself thank god i didn't I've been healing alot now I feel better now I'm happy and living my life that was in the past thank God i didn't kill myself it's isn't good or without living and breathing some people committed suicide with having depression and that's awful and heartbreaking teens adults and I've learned that killing yourself isn't healthy or Good it's scary and yeah live people and be happy not depressed i know many people have it live your life i know it's hard to get over it but be happy.
"Depression is being exhausted when you got a 8hr sleep" Nothing surprising when you waste all energy you could possible get from that time on waking up. " Laughing, smiling, even talking becomes so tiring.." Because it's a chore, to say the least.
Keanna Janae omg yes. I was saying I was tired, and got asked how long I slept for, I said 8 hours and they said it was no excuse. I’m seriously depressed and have an eating disorder so people just don’t understand. They don’t get how tiring everything gets
princeofnagano I agree. If teachers even mention it, it’s in an offhand way like “Oh, but none of you will ever have to deal with it.” 65% of my peers suffer from depression or another mental health issue, and that’s just my 1st period. One of their students, a lovely girl who has never been anything but kind to me, attempted suicide 2 months ago, and they still smile and act like it will never happen
I can talk to you about it. If you need me to drop my Instagram and for me to send u a dm so that u can talk to me if you ever are feeling down, that’s fine.
It is sad, when people say “same” is so messed up. It’s like having cancer and you say “i’m so done with chemo i should just die” and someone says “same”. It’s just messed up
@@Sassy_Bigfoot When find the love of your life everything colourful is so much more brilliant and radiant. When you lose him/her to self-deletion it's like the whole world just snapped to grayscale. Colour is but a distant memory. I recently saw a movie called Grey Eyes. Perfect depiction of what I mean.
Suicidal: -People avoid it -They are annoyed by it -They don't know what's happening. Suicide: -"I wish I could've stopped it." -"I should've listened." -"I wish they could've told me." ALWAYS LISTEN to someone who is suicidal. It's all fun and games till they actually do it. Please.
@@Lesbo.dragon I couldn't agree more. I get so much stuff in school going on no one knows about it, I cry myself to sleep and I have 1 person there for me, cause he knows what its like. This I my boyfriend and we both struggle with depression 😅😢😭
Or you could be feeling just slightly below average and something (even small) can set it off. Situational depression is really common, anyone can be depressed, even if you don’t have clinical depression
Don't know how this stupid comment got 106 likes from may I remind you 106 people. You actually start caring so much you can't anymore, there's this thing in life that scares you more than death itself. That why people take their own lives.
I mean he's literally referring to the video.And it's true,Depression is like a bag of rocks.It hurts until you don't really care about life anymore and you just want to end the suffering.
“The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see anyone else suffer the way they did.” Edit: Holy shit this comment is 4 years old
The first one I agree 50% because I'm an introvert and I don't normally talk a lot with people other than close ones. So I tent to act nice, but I can be salty too
Having depression and anxiety is like having a body that fights to live but a mind that wants to die. The amount of times I have come back to this video when I’m having a relapse is. . . I can’t even describe how emotional I get watching this video.
@@hzy_252 I’ve started to move forward in my life. It’s still hard and I’m struggling, but I’ve never felt so free in my life. Despite all of the downs I’ve had quite a few ups.
I hope you're doing okay now human. Remember to be gentle and kind to yourself. Life is a hard roller coaster sometimes, but the beautiful moments are always there.
And they don't get what they're doing because most of them are stupid and they just make it much worse than it's already ik what you mean I'm feeling the same
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I wish people actually cared. May 24th, 2022. 8:06 pm. I will never forget the day that changed my life forever. I was at home about to change after a softball game, I had just gotten home. I usually try and change right away but I was to lazy to that day. I had called my bsf right before my game, he was telling me he couldn’t make it. I got a call, it was him. I obviously answered right away. He said “hey, I just wanna say thanks for always being there. Just know, I love you. I’ve loved you since that day in 2nd grade when you talked to me and no one else did since I was the new kid. I didn’t even know what love was, but I knew what I felt with you was smthn special. I will always love you, just promise to never forget me” and hung up. I was so confused, worried. I ran over to his house, it was only a couple blocks down from where I lived. I knocked on the door and his mom answered. I asked where he was and she said in his room and asked if everything was ok. I just ran up the stairs to his room. That’s when I saw him. He was laying on the ground, fresh c*ts on his arms and an empty pill bottle next to him. I remember the scream I let out. But even worse, the scream his mom let out, I will never ever forget that. I ran to him and held him in my arms, begging him to stay with me. I told him I loved him and to keep his eyes open, begging him. I will never forget his last words “I love you, promise to never forget that” I said I love him too and I promise. His eyes closed and I could feel his body go limp. I will never forget the feeling of my heart shattering into a million pieces. The way his mom came and hugged me, the way we just sat there crying. The ambulance showed up about 10 minutes later. They tried to bring him back but we all knew he was gone. I mean, he had been clinically dead for 10 minutes. I fell to me knees, sobbing while I watched them zip up the body bag, watching the ambulance drive off. That day changed my life forever. He died just 2 days before his 14th birthday. He was supposed to be my main chambelane at my quince. Now, instead of replacing him, I’ll be dancing with a picture of him. We made a promise to each other that if we weren’t married by 30, we would marry each other. We even got each other promise rings so we could never break that promise. We’re so annoying that we even made and signed a contract. We were 11 when we made that promise, and I still stand by it. My birthdays in 17 days, I’m not ready to turn 15 without him by my side. Like, ik he will always be with me but it just sucks yk. I didn’t go to school for a week after that happened, I stayed in my room all day, crying myself to sleep every night. I fell into a deep depression. To make things worse, when I went back to school all they cared abt was all my absences. All the work I would have to make up from when I was gone. It’s like they didn’t even care that I lose my best friend, my other half, my world. I will never be the same without him, I will never have a friend just like him. True friends are hard to find, and I lost him.
Hey, I'm sure you've heard people say that it's going to be ok. I'm here to remind you that it's also ok to not be ok. You are human. You have emotions there's nothing you can do about them except talk about them. Bottling it up won't help. Trust me, I've tired. I know I'm just some random stranger on the internet, but I'm here if you need to talk. You will get past this I'm sure of it. I had a bsf die too. The school did nothing for him. I will never 100% understand what you are thinking, just know if it's anything bad there's people who love and care about you. There's also people who will listen, please talk to someone. The biggest thing to know is that talking to someone is never a burden on them, don't ever think it is. Please reach out of you need help. ❤
Bro why is this considered as inappropriate. Its basically about how to over come depression. And it tells a really good story of how ppl can conquer their depression. YT is a f**king normy
They marked it as "inappropriate" because it needs a trigger warning. Someone may accidentally click on this, and if they are considering suicide, this is the last thing they need. It's sorta like someone with an eating disorder being dragged into a video/conversation about food. It's just not good for their mental health. It could really hurt someone mentally, as everyone has a different mental state.
Well RUclips considers it inappropriate and has it flagged and marked. Did anyone else get that pop up when they clicked on this video, and then you either have to cancel it or confirm it before the video starts to play? That is marxism/facism/socialism.
@@lumiiinous I agree it does need a trigger warning. However, when you're in the darkness of depression, I consider this video is still a positive eye-opener. It gives hope that maybe by talking to someone, your burden can lessen. And that's what is needed in those moments, hope, support, knowledge.
@@sblbenleb8720 It is a good point, but I'm still standing my ground about the warning. It CAN be an eye-opener, but from my personal experiences and what could POTENTIALLY happen, it can also be bad for a person. I've struggled with cutting for the past year and a half, and when I watched cutting videos, I would think about it more, and more, and more. I even caved a couple of times. So, it can help, but in my opinion, I'd rather be safe than sorry.
I am a 13 year old German teen and the thought of suicide has been in my head for around 4 years. It all started when I first heard my parents arguing. When I heard them screaming I was scared, I didn’t know what to do. I already knew my dad had an alcoholic problem and my mom was already tired of him screaming at her for no reason. But still, I was scared. I couldn’t sleep. For many months i heard them argue EVERY NIGHT. While that happened, I just sat on the stairs, listening to them. Trying to give myself the idea of what’s going on so that I could help. I always had nightmares about my parent divorcing after that. But they stayed together for a while. While my dad’s alcohol problem got worse, my mom talked less and less. She was always doing something in the house so when I needed help with school, I had to ask my drunk dad. My dad (who also has Anger issues) obviously screamed at me when I didn’t know an answer. I feel stupid and often cried, when he asked me why I was crying, I just had to cry more. Should he know why I am crying? He is screaming at his own daughter in anger, just because she didn’t know the answer to a question? That’s where I started to feel worthless. More and more, stupid. Then, middle school started. All of the sudden, everything was fine. I found my best friend, Emilia. But shortly before 7th grade, my parents got divorced. It was heartbreaking for me, now I know it’s for The best. But at first my parents wanted to seperate me and my brother, No way! My brother was the only one I genuinely told about my feelings, who knows that I’m just not the „funny friend“. We convinced them not to eventually. But times got hard. My mom was totally unhappy, and my dad was almost broke. I just felt unhappy with life at that point, nothing really gave me joy anymore. At that point I thought about suicide the most. I didn’t want to tell my friends, I didn’t want them to feel like they weren’t good enough or that they did something wrong. I don’t want them to treat me any differently, I just want them to know. I started isolating, being „lazy“, not talking to anyone, listening to music all the time, didn’t leave my room. I was on my iPad the whole day and night. Fell asleep at 5am, woke up at 12pm. My mom called me lazy the whole time. Making me feel even more worthless, she even hit me once and then just left my room. 7th grade „finally“ started. I hated it and I still do, our classes for mixed up again. Now I was in a class full of the „cool kidz“. The ones who’d always bully you, smoke, get into fights and are just popular. I feel like they always eyed me up and down and find me annoying. I’m scared of saying anything in front of them, what If I answer a simple question wrong? What will they think? I struggled with those thoughts. Just never feeling understood, feeling like I can never tell anyone about my emotions. Feeling like I’m just overreacting, I mean, some people have it way worse than me right? Many things between that have happened as well, I try to not talk about too many details as I try to shut them out due to trauma. But now, 8th grade started. I feel more used to my class but still unhappy. Almost none of my friends are there and they all moved on and got different friends. Friends that are cooler than me. I’m distancing again, online I’m pretending to be someone who I’m not. I’m pretending who I want to be. My mom still calling me lazy, Grades going down but I’m too scared to say anything. I didn’t go to a therapist. What if they tell my mom? I don’t want her to feel bad. But sometimes I just really want to leave, have a quick ending to all of this.
Hey I hope you are doing a little better now. I am no authority on mental health but seek therapy if you need it. I personally found that talking to people is very important when dealing with this type of thoughts. If your brother understands you on other topics he will probably understand you on this one as well. He seems like a good guy. Talk to him if you feel like you are able to. Also if the depressive or suicidal thoughts get to much tell someone. You are important. People care about you. Also on the topic of overreacting: other people being in a worse situation then you does not invalidate your feelings and thoughts whatsoever. I felt like that as well. Those thoughts don‘t help at all they only made me more depressed. But talking to people really helped. At this point this sounds like an empty platitude but I mean it. People will listen. If you want you can start by telling random strangers on the internet if it helps. I figured out that this kinda eliminates the fear of being judged for me personally. I would be happy to hear from you (if part of this text didn’t make sense I am sorry, it’s getting really late)
Hey, ich hoffe du findest jemanden mit dem du sprechen könntest. Vielleicht ist bei dir die Schulsozialarbeit eine gute erste Anlaufstelle, vielleicht ist es aber auch eine Beratungsstelle oder eine Klinik (ich weiß, es klingt extrem aber ist gut um mal weg zu kommen von diesem dauerhaften „Zustand“) Ich selbst kämpfe sehr mit Suizidgedanken und auch Svv… mir persönlich hilft es sehr mit meiner Schulsozialarbeiterin darüber zu sprechen, ich habe eine sehr vertrauensvolle und verständnisvolle Schulsozialarbeiterin. Meine Eltern wissen auch nichts wirklich von meinen psychischen Problemen. Das wird sich wahrscheinlich demnächst ändern und ich hab sehr Angst vor der Reaktion und dem, wie es dannach weitergeht aber ich bin mir sicher, dass es der richtige Weg ist und dass sich was verändern muss. Ich weiß, es ist unglaublich schwer und im Kopf ist eine große Blockade, der Gedanke, dass man niemanden verletzen möchte und es einem doch gar nicht so schlecht geht und dass es Anderen doch viel schlechter geht und so weiter ABER bitte bitte bitte versuche irgendwie diese Stimme zu ignorieren und suche, wenn es irgendwie geht, nach Menschen mit denen du sprechen kannst. Sprechen hilft so viel, ich kenne dich ja nicht persönlich, deshalb kann ich dir nur ans Herz legen was mir meiner bescheidenen Erfahrung nach geholfen hat. Ich hoffe so sehr, dass du jemanden findest, dem du dich anvertrauen kannst! Wenn du möchtest, könnten wir auch weiter schreiben, ob hier in der Kommentarspalte oder über Instagram oder so :) Ich wünsche dir ganz viel Kraft und Mut auf jemanden zuzugehen, du hast diese Nachricht hier verfasst, ich bin sicher du kannst das auch schaffen :) Ich hoffe, meine Nachricht war nicht allzu komisch oder unverständlich, ich wollte nur meine Gedanken zu deiner Situation teilen
I’m not hating on this comment, I really feel for you, but people’s experiences like these are what make me feel more shitty. I live in a good house hold with good parents and lots of food, clothes, roof over my head, and religion to back everything up. So when I’m crying and feel worthless in my room I just feel like a spoiled dramatic brat and that I should be dead, but that’s just the dramatic brat part of me saying that, because I’m worthless and wanna die… it’s just a never ending cycle… 💔❤️🩹
We’ve All Heard These: “You’re Just Being *Dramatic!”* “You”re Just Faking It For *Attention!”* “Get Over It! Its Not *That Bad!”* Haha! Yeah! Because When We’re Cutting Ourselves, Feeling Like Nothing And Crying Ourselves To Sleep, We’re Just *SO* Dramatic! We Just Want *SO* Much Attention! Its Not *SO* Bad!
At this point in my mental health I am doubting that it isn't real and I am starting to make myself believe that its all for attention. I don't know what's real anymore
Even,, if it was for seeking for attention, doesn't that means there is something wrong? doesn't that mean the person seeking for attention have a problem, doesn't that mean they feel lonely, they don't feel loved, they feel useless, doesn't that mean they are just seeking, for love and care, because they are desperate, because they are alone handling that pain. People have to stop saying it is for attention, because even if it is, that means that the person, just want what everyone want, to be loved to cared for, and that is normal, and not caring about that, just judging the person, is unsensitive and stupid, i wish people would stop and help for real.
I get that. I can see everything moving so fast above the surface and at this point I've given up trying to swim to the air. It feels so hopeless and I am so far away.
JosephJellyBelly 151 E.X.A.C.T.L.Y, i put on a mask on school. Trying to keep everyone happy. And when i come home i throw the mask away and i’ll just cry
At first I thought this comparison wasn't fitting but now I think that it isn't even do far away from it (from all I know and can say). I loved the scene when he tried to change his shirt because that's really how it feels like sometimes...
Micah Bryan I'm sorry to hear that I went through depression recently and I used to cut myself aswell Suicide is wrong but certain people don't realise that Life is for living Not ending
@Hrie Eoi that's what they're trying to say. People are saying to breathe but we cant no matter how hard we try. I understand people are trying to help, but nobody truly can
@Hrie Eoi look, some people like me dont like to open up and talk to people, even knowing that it might help. For me, I know that I will never fully admit to how I feel to my parents. Maybe if it's like right before I die or something, but I'd never tell them about how I truly have been feeling. Whether they can help or not. I also have a counselor I talk to every wednesday. I dont feel comfortable telling her how I've been feeling, because she'll tell my parents. You need to understand that opening up is not easy for everyone and finding someone to help, someone that wont leave because of my mental illnesses, is even harder.
@Hrie Eoi good for you, I'm glad that you made it through your tough time. But it's hard for me to open up to literally anybody because I would open up to my ex and that's why he left me. He said I stressed him out. And I'm not mad at him for it, because I was the problem. I would always vent to him and he always said that it was fine, but I got to such a dark place that I forgot to ask how he was actually feeling, and once I did, he broke up with me. Everybody who doesnt open up has a reason. And if I could open up to people, I would. But I dont feel comfortable doing so.
I have to say that I truly liked this representation of how depression feels like. The backpacks as a symbol for all the small things that bring you more and more down and stack up to becoming the most important problem in your life. You can't logic your way out of this cruel situation, the only thing that can help you is giving all your trust to a person who loves you.❤
But opposite actions can. You have a way out! When you're ready, I'm here to pull you up from a the cliff you fell off of. I am being swung into depression. But helping you makes me feel like I'm not useless. Whatever gave you depression had to have been bad. But we need something great. PROMISE me that when coronavirus is over, we can be best friends.
I am here for you if you need a friend to talk to i go through depression too your not the only one the lord jesus christ is watching over you and will always love you and keep you safe
That's exactly what I'm going through right now. I'm always feeling down and tired and hungry. I've been sleeping horribly lately, and I already haven't gotten a good night's sleep ever in my life, even when I was a baby, according to my mom. The worst part is, however, that everything seems _worthless._ Everything I do is boring. Nothing is worth doing, I'll just screw it all up anyway. My dad said I was lazy. Thanks.
Wow! This was powerful! I'm in tears. I've struggled with depression all my life. I'm 57 years old. I attempted suicide when I was 21. It is my biggest regret that I put my mother through that. I'm so thankful I didn't succeed. I would have missed out on so much. Dear young people, if the voice in your head is telling you to end it all tell it to shut up because that voice is just a lie! You are valuable and you are worth it!
@@mintchirp4947 do it for those that will be there after you, our main purpose in life is to leave places we have been in better shape than when we got there. I charge you with this mission, and I have to apologize to someone I work with because I bullied them so I have to be the bigger person n apologize and you have to make a more nurturing environment at your school for those after you.
Pay attention to the details- Even something as small as getting dressed can be a difficult task. I love how much attention they put into this! Great work!!
@@zrdoclive92 yeah and it doesn't help that people call you lazy when you actually have a hard time trying to convince yourself to even move out of bed... honestly I ask myself what's the point every day and I still had no idea why I keep going.
When I feel depressed I dont want to talk to people or take a shower or get dressed, I want to sleep all day and think how much of a falier in life I am. So this movie was great to see.
x._.xdylanthevillan x._.x your right too i am struggling with depression and on top of that anxiety and barely able to fall asleep before 1:00am when you wake up at 6 in the morning..it’s hard. I believe in you even if I don’t believe in myself I know at least you will get through this good luck and to anyone else who struggles with depression or other mental health issues. 🙏💞 god bless you all
My school has never talked about suicide. My school has never evan talked about mental health. My school would freak out if one of the teachers evan mentioned mental health.
Once we could give tips on what subject we would get into, because we had to much time. But then we only talked about other stupid stuff and he totally avoided my tip of mental heath...
My school wouldn't talk about school shooting safety until we got two threats a day apart. My school didn't even touch the subject of suicide until it already happened... Three times, in the same year, (also the year that the threats happened).
Damaris Maas “same “but wait it’s actually true , the feeling you just want to be noticed , to people to care about you and realize that you’re not OK , to help you , in a way attempting suicide is an ultimate scream for help .......but there Are other ways to end the pain and to win the fight with depression Having said that need someone to talk with?
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
Gacha Editor Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?
@@phil5892 @Otama Mama,people with depression are fragile. They could jump off a building,shoot themselves,cut themselves,hang themselves,or overdose at any minute. And they DO need special care actually. And no,they dont need to have luxury or whatever,they just need help with their mental health. So,go do some research about it b4 u go saying stuff like this😒
Gacha Editor Well, not exactly. You’re talking about a suicidal person. While depression can lead to suicidal thoughts, depression in itself can be put quite simply: you’re depressed all the time. You’re right on how they do need special care, but treating someone with depression like they could end their life any second is bad for both people. You’re giving the depressed person unrealistic expectations. At the same moment, if they notice you are treating them differently they will just feel more ashamed.
@@phil5892 "Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?" Why do you assume that anyone, including you, should be treated as anything, but a pile of trash? Unlike you, worthless hide, they don't assume _anything._ That's why they just want to die and be done with it, because they know that no one will ever do anything good to them and being the world's punching-bag forever is physically impossible.
I think u guys who comment here dont get it.. depression means: feeling nothing. It's this feeling that will kill u. Thats why we cut ourselfs. Because we want to feel at least Something. If the world is black and white, u never can be happy, laughing or crying ur eyes out, you never feel better. Its that instant feeling of nothing that drives us crazy.
*Starts smiling* *Smile turns back into a frown instantly* *Starts crying* *Shows no signs of sadness other than crying. Empty eyes and a straight teared up* *Starts getting mad* *Madness turns into sadness then turns empty* *Tries smiling but can’t seem to*
Sadly, i cant commit the "empty" part Once youre empty its like the backpack isnt there But once youre not empty Its back Or When youre empty the backpack lightens up when youre empty
“Depression feels like having a backpack with weight in it, but only you can see the backpack, and every time something happens weight is added.” Edit: for the people who didn’t get the joke, I said this because people in the comments were saying all these quotes so I litteraly repeated what happened in the movie.
My school never cared about suicide prevention. When I was in high school I had to see someone be rolled out of the bathroom with a white sheet over them. She hung herself in the bathroom. And my first thought was “I wish that was me” I’ve attempted 3 times. I resorted to self harm as a coping mechanism. All because of bullying. But the school doesn’t care. Even this year, another suicide, 15 years old. I live by the cemetery where she was buried. My first thought was “that will be me eventually” the school won’t stop bullies, the school doesn’t care who commits suicide. The pain only ends with death
When someone asks me “what’s depression.” I reply with this: Nothing. And then they get mad, but they don’t understand.. that’s exactly what depression is. It’s nothing, it makes you feel like nothing.
To be fair, that could be confused with figurative language (for lack of better term.) like, you know when people say "MAAAAN, that test was nothing!" After someone says it's hard. You could be confused with saying depression is nothing, or saying you don't think it's real
if the person genuinely wants to know and they care then it won't kill you to give them a better answer than something as abstract and enigmatic as "nothing." That will not solve anything. But hey! The one who TRULY wants to be helped, will seek it. You cannot expect others to know what you feel if you do not COMMUNICATE. I tell you this from personal experience. But to each his own. If you are comfortable being where you are and you do not seek help then that is on you. People around you who care are not mind readers. But like i keep saying, again, it is up to you, if you want the help, care and attention.
I don't struggle with depression and I don't know why I'm watching this videos.... Maybe I want to understand depression but I don't understand why depressed people watch this stuff. Doesn't it make them feel worse? I know this story has an happy ending but some don't. Can someone explain that?
Does someone have advice for me? I think my best friend has depression. She told me she cried herself to sleep every night. I didn't know that till she told me not long ago after being friends for 3 years. She always was shy and I was her only friend and her parents always punished her for having bad marks. She sometimes said mean things to me and I just didn't see that it was because she wasn't feeling well. I was so annoyed.:(🤦♀️😣She went to therapy but wasn't diagnosed with anything. She told me she's feeling much better know but she sometimes says she is ugly and good for nothing. I always try to comfort her. What can I do to help her? Don't think anyone will read it xD
Haha I remember when I said I was suicidal to my parents.. my mom took my phone away and said it's because of social media... my dad just threw me a knife and told me to do it, to just fucking kill myself... I was literally about to do it..
When i saw when Mark's mom couldn't see the book bag i instantly knew that: Depression is like a backpack that nobody can or will see it until you speak up about it
Wow. That’s an amazing metaphor for depression. A weight on your shoulders that gets heavier and heavier, wondering why people can’t see what’s wrong even when they can tell something’s off, being able to lighten the load by talking to others, not being able to sleep because of the uncomfortable weight, and perhaps you hurt yourself trying to remove the bag from your back.
I wish I had someone to talk to without them saying: 'You're overreacting' 'You just want attention' 'You have everything you have no right to feel depressed' So if someone wants to talk to you please listen and try to understand what he/she is going through And if you have no one to talk to and listen to sad music at 2 am, same.
I'm here if you want to talk! I will listen without judging. Your feelings are valid. It's okay to not be okay. I hope you reach out and get help because you are worth it.
Soulice eciluoS idk for me i think it’s because it’s relatable. i feel like someone else is in the same situation and i feel not so alone. other times i just need to cry, hoping that it will release some of the bottled up gray emotions
@@iCraftDay this may seem cliche but live for yourself, not others. _you_ are your own person and should only ever be like that. people should only be in your life if they make you happy.
@@perill6 thanks But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts.. I think I just did not understand fully the film. I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
@@perill6 thanks But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts.. I think I just did not understand fully the film. I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
People out there said: “How can you be depressed, just cheer up. There’s a lot of good thing in life” Similar to: “How can you have asthma, just breath”
@@phil5892 well when people ask how somebody is doing and they arent doing well, they most likely will say they are fine because they dont want other people to know how they really are feeling. Humans usually dont like to show weakness or fragility around others. It's just natural instinct.
@@phil5892 I never said that it helps. Because it doesn't. I simply said that its human nature. It's hard to tell someone if you're honestly not okay. I also dont care who it was you were replying to, if you leave a comment that I want to reply to, that's exactly what I'll do.
Dude- I feel called out. *cuts my legs* My entire nervous system: *YOU’RE JUST DOING IT FOR ATTENTION! YOU’RE A STUPID MONSTER!* *I’m literally alone* ?!
@@maisie7336 sometimes are brains are weird when we suffer, especially when there is nothing specific to be upset about. For example, a gifted kid with a wonderful life and family could become depressed somehow, it happens to everyone, and then they might cut themselves. Or in Danni’s case, have panic attacks. Perhaps for feeling the need to be perfect. In that case, their mind will tell them that they’re just doing it for attention, when they aren’t. I sometimes feel like I’m doing it for attention and my pain is fake, but I also don’t know because I cry everyday. There ye go
“There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, 'There now, hang on, you'll get over it.' Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer.” ― Barbara Kingsolver
There's a huge difference between someone who feels depressed for a week compared to someone who is diagnosed as having clinical depression or the scores of other mental illnesses that cause depression. Either case, if anyone ever mentions suicide take it seriously and tell their family or a teacher, or whomever, even the police. Once the act is completed, there's no coming back
But what if u opened up to teacher partially, helplines, parents partially and they see some signs like not eating much even though I was eating way too much and like overweight just 1 month before and even crying in front of them, and even opened to school counselor and they all say to divert it to studies.
@dedipyakilari Look....I've attempted several times and ideation more times I can count....are you diagnosed with any mental health disorders???? If not, that's a great way to send a message to your family and others. Also. If you get any thoughts on suicide....or worse you have a plan...PLEASE TELL SOMEONE. Your issues could be resolved in weeks if you inform those who will listen. For some medications help a lot....try to walk or take jogging or a gym....endorphins and oxygen to the brain really helps. The best thing for all of us is a really really good therapy. Some psychiatrists do this, and some might refer you to someone. Just please take the action steps needed. If you have any questions...just ask me
What is the meaning of life?...if the meaning of life is doing everything you love but what is the things your going to love if the people around you is a poison that last for the rest of your life...
small berry The meaning of life is to make the most of it. do what you can while you still have time.. i always wonder what people see when they are dead...
At my school, if you say "I want to kill myself" there's 2 answers, 1: "so go do it" 2: "SAME!" and when you actually attempt it, no one cares they just say "I don't get suicide"
Luna S that couldnt be more true, people at our school get sent to the counsler and everyone just jokes about it. I dont get how they just ignore that they atempted
I've been dealing with depression i Haven't told anyone about it i felt alone and i stopped eating i was sad all the time even at school i was in a very dark place at the time i told my friend about it thank god i told him about it but told my family and teachers i still have it everyday and i almost going to kill myself thank god i didn't I've been healing alot now I feel better now I'm happy and living my life that was in the past thank God i didn't kill myself it's isn't good or without living and breathing some people committed suicide with having depression and that's awful and heartbreaking teens adults and I've learned that killing yourself isn't healthy or Good it's scary and yeah live people and be happy not depressed i know many people have it live your life i know it's hard to get over it but be happy.
This short film was beautiful. I’ve been suicidal for 7 years now, I have a plan and I’m going soon… but I hope everyone else out there who’s struggling makes it out.
I am sorry that it has come to that point in your life I hope you don’t do it, but it isn’t my life so I can’t tell you what to do but hopefully you have someone to stop you from doing it
please dont leave. I know it’s not something you want to read but I need to say it. I know that leaving this world may seem like the answer, but trust me it’s not. Because once you leave, the presence you have left in this world will impact everyone you know. Even if you don’t think so, there are people who care and love you to the point where they don’t want to see you leave. I know that you don’t know me and I don’t know you, but I want to try my absolute hardest to convince you not to leave. I know it’s not my place but still. It’s heartbreaking to hear about the people who have left but it’s even worse when there is someone alive who is planning on leaving and no one even notices. I noticed, and I want to help you. Please talk to me. About anything you’d like. You can vent to me or talk about your day or anything. I want to listen to your story. Please know that there is always someone out there who cares. And if you think that there is no one, then I’ll be the first one.
Telling a depressed person to not be depressed is like telling someone with cancer to heal themselves
Agreed
That’s some deep shiz right there
Ikr!
Fr 💀
MusicIsMyLife I know right...someone told me to NOT be depressed and I’m depressed and it hurt more than they thought it would. I can’t describe how painful being “the way I am” people don’t understand, listen, or just laugh it off.
"Depression is like when you're colorblind, and all the people try to explain to you how colorful the world is."
~Quote from Unknown
Well no I'm colour blind and all people ask is what I see
I'm colorblind and depressed lol
that's the perfect explanation
@@stevenorkevin9367
I'm so sorry.
And I guess people ask you because they're trying to get insight as to how to help you.
Some people dont want you to be depressed.
I’m colorblind and have depression, I never really thought of it that way but...your not wrong lol
Depression is like being in a body that tries to survive but with a Mind that is hopeless and tries to die.
And we all know the mind controls the body
So am i depressed? Because thats how i am/ feel all the time
@@babybird7654 who knows
Don't make assumptions about it tho, maybe you're not, maybe you are 🤷♂️
Maybe go see a therapist? Or talk to your parents or friends about it?
Fairy Tail - Rakudai kishi no cavalry オパールとスカーレット Well what if you’re too young to go out on your own and you too scared to talk to your friends or family cause you trust no one. Then what do you do?
@@babybird7654 I'd say probably but if you have tendencies like no eating even when you can or your body is telling you to or wanting to that's a red flag see somebody talk to somebody
"No one notices your tears, no one notices your sadness, no one notices your pains, but they all notice your mistakes."
Exactly 💯
"I got all the other questions right ,but you laugh when I mess up one?" -Albert Enstine
💗💖
Naruto
What tears?
I can't even cry unless i watch a character d!e in a movie
True
My school talked about suicide prevention. Once. *After* someone committed suicide.
jesus christ...
Damn..........
Four years ago a kid from my school killed himself because he was bullied, abused at home and had depression, anxiety and ADHD, the school baned us from talking about it and gave on assembaly about. There is now a board at the train station in his memory that has loads of writing and quotes,, but the most noticable thing that it says is "no more bad days"
The same thing happened at my school. I don’t understand why they didn’t talk about it before. Then there would have been a slight chance that maybe she wouldn’t have done it. Gladly, she is still alive. I don’t know what I’d do without her...
... they didn’t talk about drugs until kids were vaping in the bathroom... they didn’t talk about self-harm until after multiple kids were ‘told on’... they didn’t talk about suicide until she attempted it twice...
HONESTLY WTF!
I feel like half the comments don’t know the back pack is depression and that trying to get it off is suicide
Mah dudeh thaths wHAT l just sayed...
saw the backpack and i knew exactly what was going on
I know
I understand but now I want a sandwich
I didn’t comment but I thought that
We live in an era where "I want to die" has no weight, and nobody cares if your depressed. Just how it works
That’s how I get away with telling everyone that I want to die without them caring. They always joke about me being depressed. Oh you can’t be more depressed than her😂! I just go along with the jokes I get it everywhere. No matter where I go I find someone joking about me. I just can’t. They don’t know the truth. They don’t know that I’ve been raped, abused and bullied. They don’t know me
Dang, I'm really sorry to hear that @@imgayyy1032 . I really don't like that people joke around with such serious situations and labels.
WOWHugø _ thanks... but there isn’t much point in feeling bad for me. I don’t really feel much any more.
Straight facts
Everyone cares if you're depressed, it's just that nobody shows that they're depressed.
"youll never understand how deep someone has sunk till you swim in the same water they drowned in"
-a wise person
real.
was it you who made the quote?
(ngl, I made my own quote before and put "a wise person" on it lol)
Hope everyone doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️
When he said “I can’t do it anymore and everything is getting heavier”, I felt that on a whole other level
Same
Me too
Same ❤️💔😢
Yup...
Same I started crying
When someone killed themselves in my school, classes. carried on, they didn't speak of it, didn't cancel school, didn't offer help to those struggling. Some kids made fun of it. I was so heartbroken. Especially because he was my friend....
I'm so sorry hun. You're gonna be ok. I hate it when kids make fun of things like that...😔 You are not alone. Me, jesus, many other people here for you. sending love..💗💗💗💗
Damn
Jesse Walara what was his name?
sorry for losing your friend. hope all is going well for you. Prayers for you and his family- say his name in remembrance and know he is not forgotten.
I'm sorry
the backpack concept makes it easier to see and understand how depression can make a person feel. :’(
Yeah
It's like a weight on your shoulder which is hard to remove
Yea..
Agreed
I agree and I also got you 1k likes
Telling a depressed person to be happy is just the same as telling a disabled person to stand up
Exactly
They can just help them
Yes, yes they do.
Stop comparing depression to other traumas.
Depression is much worse than a lot of things since it isn’t something which is fully curable and if it isn’t visibly shown it can kill that individual ( I just want you to know I’ve been suffering with depression for 3 years straight now after constant harassment, bully, assault and feeling like I’m an outcast to society ) this short film perfectly describes how I feel
When you're depressed you don't control your thoughts. Your thoughts control you. I wish people would understand this.
Add severe PTSD and anixety to that.... That's me.
@@sagemoon640 add ptsd, ocd, anxiety disorder + psychotic disorder and other bunch of shit, that is me, tho, you got this
Trust me I do
Sage Moon i may have serve PTSD too.
I really understand this
"Why do you think someone would ever take their own life?"
Because the pain becomes so unbearable and the world so bleak that you see death as an escape.
Yes. Been through it. Rapped in school and out picked on i tried to die 5xs. Been in the hospital many times
I have depression. Depression makes your body tired, making you sleep almost all of the time. You also have pain. It hurts. Death, is like the best escape. But im too afraid to do it.
Damn, thats me...
Yep thats so true ive been there
@@ninnininni8862 im so sorry 😢❤️
“I can’t do it anymore”
That broke me because I’ve said the same things
Same here... And I know people say that just to try and make the other person feel better, but I'm actually serious. I even learned how to tie a noose, just in case I can't take it anymore.
Thats how i feel i want to go home but im already hire i dont deserve a life any more i feel like everyone hates me i feel like everyone wants me to be perfect 24/7
I've been dealing with depression i Haven't told anyone about it i felt alone and i stopped eating i was sad all the time even at school i was in a very dark place at the time i told my friend about it thank god i told him about it but told my family and teachers i still have it everyday and i almost going to kill myself thank god i didn't I've been healing alot now I feel better now I'm happy and living my life that was in the past thank God i didn't kill myself it's isn't good or without living and breathing some people committed suicide with having depression and that's awful and heartbreaking teens adults and I've learned that killing yourself isn't healthy or Good it's scary and yeah live people and be happy not depressed i know many people have it live your life i know it's hard to get over it but be happy.
Same ❤️💔
Shit bruh
Me saying, "I'm fine" is really just, "I have no clue how I feel"
Sameee
Exactly
Are you okay ?
Same 🥹
Depression is being exhausted when you got a 8hr sleep. Laughing, smiling, even talking becomes so tiring..
"Depression is being exhausted when you got a 8hr sleep" Nothing surprising when you waste all energy you could possible get from that time on waking up. " Laughing, smiling, even talking becomes so tiring.." Because it's a chore, to say the least.
I feel that everyday of my life I put on a mask around people but when I'm alone I feel like dieing
i sleep nearly 13h a day..still tired from the worlds sh*t
Keanna Janae omg yes. I was saying I was tired, and got asked how long I slept for, I said 8 hours and they said it was no excuse. I’m seriously depressed and have an eating disorder so people just don’t understand. They don’t get how tiring everything gets
Liv Myers I totally understand and I’m so sorry, please stay strong and know you’re not alone.🥺❤️
"Depression does not have hands, eyes, or legs but is still able to kill so many."
DDenzel
So do bombs, guns, and an endless amount of health complications and illnesses like a heart attack or AIDS.
@@phil5892 Nothing compares to how many humans kill. They're behind depression, bombs, guns and pretty much everything else.
Very true. But humans, of course, have hands, eyes, and legs
@@phil5892 I'm glad you agree and have sense.
It's human that killed those depressed people
It society's responsible the parents the co-student the co-worker sometimes a friend or a lover
it makes me so mad that our school doesnt even bother to teach us about mental health and suicide
princeofnagano I agree. If teachers even mention it, it’s in an offhand way like “Oh, but none of you will ever have to deal with it.” 65% of my peers suffer from depression or another mental health issue, and that’s just my 1st period. One of their students, a lovely girl who has never been anything but kind to me, attempted suicide 2 months ago, and they still smile and act like it will never happen
my school does
@@ajsjkskslala then you're lucky ig
Hannah L. One of my friends successfully committed suicide. The college let everyone know but did nothing else.
I tried to kill my self and the teacher kill
Joked around about it the next day
“If you’re depressed just don’t be depressed” has the same energy as “if you catch yourself on fire just put yourself out”
I mean you can put yourself out
@@daniellivaa8057 and @epic7783 Are you guys doing okay?
But, you CAN put yourself out 💀
@@WeeWhiz270 You are right I was not thinking that much while making that comment
If you drown in a whirlpool just make the water be normal
"Depression is living in a body that doesn't want to die , "but having a mind that wants to die"
xo.punkinxo xo this is copied
Ok spreading a message is 100% allowed
True
Learn how to use quotation marks
@UCVN2L7IoO3Lt4ERMhkch1tw its a quote you dumbass
I can't talk to anyone about wanting to die bc everyone has the same response. "same"
We just don't know what to say
I can talk to you about it. If you need me to drop my Instagram and for me to send u a dm so that u can talk to me if you ever are feeling down, that’s fine.
Same
Vikktorria Lunsford yea... I know
It is sad, when people say “same” is so messed up. It’s like having cancer and you say “i’m so done with chemo i should just die” and someone says “same”. It’s just messed up
“I can’t....I can’t do it anymore! Everything is so heavy”
I felt that.
I know I felt that before
Mood
Annabelle Kircher Gen Z
It's hard
@@janettr1533 what?
telling someone “don’t have depression life’s sos beautiful” is literally like telling someone with asthma “don’t have asthma there’s so much air”
Underrated
@@Sassy_Bigfoot When find the love of your life everything colourful is so much more brilliant and radiant. When you lose him/her to self-deletion it's like the whole world just snapped to grayscale. Colour is but a distant memory. I recently saw a movie called Grey Eyes. Perfect depiction of what I mean.
Suicidal:
-People avoid it
-They are annoyed by it
-They don't know what's happening.
Suicide:
-"I wish I could've stopped it."
-"I should've listened."
-"I wish they could've told me."
ALWAYS LISTEN to someone who is suicidal. It's all fun and games till they actually do it. Please.
Thank you and that's also why people should stop bulking!!!
Bulling sorry auto correct
I tried to drink bleach and my parents were insensitive towards it and called it “sippin’ bleach”.
@@BigGirthyRod oh damn
Sebastian Castellanos I’m sorry, you didn’t have to hear that.
“YOU LEFT THE TOILET SEAT UP... OH NO”
This caught me off guard
Yes me to i thought it was very stupid
It just played
@@hellomortal6032 thats what it was supposed to be
Honestly I was crying, after you comment I laughed and was still crying
I mean the guys not wrong
Like your gf or wife saying that you pretty much just run like sonic
Every small thing can trigger depression
Big things and small things... they really pile up
@@Lesbo.dragon I couldn't agree more. I get so much stuff in school going on no one knows about it, I cry myself to sleep and I have 1 person there for me, cause he knows what its like. This I my boyfriend and we both struggle with depression 😅😢😭
Or you could be feeling just slightly below average and something (even small) can set it off. Situational depression is really common, anyone can be depressed, even if you don’t have clinical depression
I relapsed from not cutting for a few days from being frustrated with putting laundry away.
I got depresdion from trauma
The small detail of the backpack being to heavy so he can’t sleep was really relatable and I loved it
*"Depression is a endless rollercoaster of saddness and pain."*
There is way more than sadness and pain bro
And there is only one way to get off the rollercoaster
Ur 5
@@austinanimeisreallycool2536 what if they were? Depression can happen at any age
*"Anxiety is a endless rollercoaster of worries"*
"Depression is like a bag of rocks it hurts until you dont care anymore"
Don't know how this stupid comment got 106 likes from may I remind you 106 people. You actually start caring so much you can't anymore, there's this thing in life that scares you more than death itself. That why people take their own lives.
I mean he's literally referring to the video.And it's true,Depression is like a bag of rocks.It hurts until you don't really care about life anymore and you just want to end the suffering.
@@peachyunboxing2611 why wouldn't you be able walk in the first place?
But the feel is still there, and you always worrying.
@@peachyunboxing2611 imagine getting so fucking pissed you cant spell anymore lmao
“The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see anyone else suffer the way they did.”
Edit: Holy shit this comment is 4 years old
You deserve love and like
@@fhardosoutarikt4980 Thanks!
The first one I agree 50% because I'm an introvert and I don't normally talk a lot with people other than close ones. So I tent to act nice, but I can be salty too
@@afonso.d.v.rodrigues I'm an ambivert
@@chaos6687 oh cool ( what's that? 😅 )
Having depression and anxiety is like having a body that fights to live but a mind that wants to die.
The amount of times I have come back to this video when I’m having a relapse is. . . I can’t even describe how emotional I get watching this video.
Has it gotten better?
@@hzy_252
I’ve started to move forward in my life. It’s still hard and I’m struggling, but I’ve never felt so free in my life. Despite all of the downs I’ve had quite a few ups.
I hope you're doing okay now human. Remember to be gentle and kind to yourself. Life is a hard roller coaster sometimes, but the beautiful moments are always there.
Same here, friend.
I couldn't have put this into words more accurate and clear. Thank you. Wishing you all the best bc you do deserve the best
The school thing was so accurate. Teachers always add more fuel to the fire.
you aren't edgy
You arent edgy
Steven Palomino I don’t see how this person was posing as “edgy”
@@rubys111 fuck off
And they don't get what they're doing because most of them are stupid and
they just make it much worse than it's already ik what you mean I'm feeling the same
Deppresion is like being homeless and people are telling you to buy a house
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
yea, that’s the sad truth nowadays.
❤
Homeless people: can you spare me some change?
Society: get a job
Homeless people: nobody’s hiring
Society: I don’t care, get a job
Depression is like telling a sped to be normal
When the teacher said “I’m sure YOU can answer this question” Oh my god I felt so horrible
I know right
I hate it when teachers say things like that! Like do you want me to hate myself more?!
Yrahh fuk those kinds @@coca-cora8129
yeah
I wish people actually cared. May 24th, 2022. 8:06 pm. I will never forget the day that changed my life forever. I was at home about to change after a softball game, I had just gotten home. I usually try and change right away but I was to lazy to that day. I had called my bsf right before my game, he was telling me he couldn’t make it. I got a call, it was him. I obviously answered right away. He said “hey, I just wanna say thanks for always being there. Just know, I love you. I’ve loved you since that day in 2nd grade when you talked to me and no one else did since I was the new kid. I didn’t even know what love was, but I knew what I felt with you was smthn special. I will always love you, just promise to never forget me” and hung up. I was so confused, worried. I ran over to his house, it was only a couple blocks down from where I lived. I knocked on the door and his mom answered. I asked where he was and she said in his room and asked if everything was ok. I just ran up the stairs to his room. That’s when I saw him. He was laying on the ground, fresh c*ts on his arms and an empty pill bottle next to him. I remember the scream I let out. But even worse, the scream his mom let out, I will never ever forget that. I ran to him and held him in my arms, begging him to stay with me. I told him I loved him and to keep his eyes open, begging him. I will never forget his last words “I love you, promise to never forget that” I said I love him too and I promise. His eyes closed and I could feel his body go limp. I will never forget the feeling of my heart shattering into a million pieces. The way his mom came and hugged me, the way we just sat there crying. The ambulance showed up about 10 minutes later. They tried to bring him back but we all knew he was gone. I mean, he had been clinically dead for 10 minutes. I fell to me knees, sobbing while I watched them zip up the body bag, watching the ambulance drive off. That day changed my life forever. He died just 2 days before his 14th birthday. He was supposed to be my main chambelane at my quince. Now, instead of replacing him, I’ll be dancing with a picture of him. We made a promise to each other that if we weren’t married by 30, we would marry each other. We even got each other promise rings so we could never break that promise. We’re so annoying that we even made and signed a contract. We were 11 when we made that promise, and I still stand by it. My birthdays in 17 days, I’m not ready to turn 15 without him by my side. Like, ik he will always be with me but it just sucks yk. I didn’t go to school for a week after that happened, I stayed in my room all day, crying myself to sleep every night. I fell into a deep depression. To make things worse, when I went back to school all they cared abt was all my absences. All the work I would have to make up from when I was gone. It’s like they didn’t even care that I lose my best friend, my other half, my world. I will never be the same without him, I will never have a friend just like him. True friends are hard to find, and I lost him.
i am so sorry about that. i hope you’re doing better now. rest in peace to your friend.
You and your other half and his mum deserve all of the love in the world。 ♡♡
Hey, I'm sure you've heard people say that it's going to be ok. I'm here to remind you that it's also ok to not be ok. You are human. You have emotions there's nothing you can do about them except talk about them. Bottling it up won't help. Trust me, I've tired. I know I'm just some random stranger on the internet, but I'm here if you need to talk. You will get past this I'm sure of it. I had a bsf die too. The school did nothing for him. I will never 100% understand what you are thinking, just know if it's anything bad there's people who love and care about you. There's also people who will listen, please talk to someone. The biggest thing to know is that talking to someone is never a burden on them, don't ever think it is. Please reach out of you need help. ❤
That is horrible. I hope that you are ok. It must hurt to think about him. And i hope that if you are not ok that life get better❤
I am so sorry. I feel hurt reading through ur lines. Then I am in my sense, thinking where went wrong, what led to it.
This is the best metaphor I've seen for depression yet
Same
same
@markjvp a metaphor is symbolization, stop being a fucking idiot.
Kit Post yeah, now I actually know how to explain how I feel to everyone
K
Are we not gonna talk about how his mom said "10 pages isn't that bad" the hell?!
no we're not
@@POOP3ATER oh okay
So true 😭🤣 it really is a lot, especially in such a short period of time
elijah nadu I mean he could’ve gotten more- also no lets not
If my teacher said imma write 10 pages imma do sth that he would be scared for the rest of his life!NOT KIDDING
Bro why is this considered as inappropriate. Its basically about how to over come depression. And it tells a really good story of how ppl can conquer their depression. YT is a f**king normy
They marked it as "inappropriate" because it needs a trigger warning. Someone may accidentally click on this, and if they are considering suicide, this is the last thing they need. It's sorta like someone with an eating disorder being dragged into a video/conversation about food. It's just not good for their mental health. It could really hurt someone mentally, as everyone has a different mental state.
@@lumiiinous me, with an unspecified eating disorder [like anorexia mainly] and suicidal, I can agree with that statement.
Well RUclips considers it inappropriate and has it flagged and marked.
Did anyone else get that pop up when they clicked on this video, and then you either have to cancel it or confirm it before the video starts to play?
That is marxism/facism/socialism.
@@lumiiinous I agree it does need a trigger warning. However, when you're in the darkness of depression, I consider this video is still a positive eye-opener. It gives hope that maybe by talking to someone, your burden can lessen. And that's what is needed in those moments, hope, support, knowledge.
@@sblbenleb8720 It is a good point, but I'm still standing my ground about the warning. It CAN be an eye-opener, but from my personal experiences and what could POTENTIALLY happen, it can also be bad for a person. I've struggled with cutting for the past year and a half, and when I watched cutting videos, I would think about it more, and more, and more. I even caved a couple of times. So, it can help, but in my opinion, I'd rather be safe than sorry.
Absolutely love how this film explores so many forms of depression so everyone can relate
I started crying when he said “ I can’t do it, I can’t do it anymore”
Samee
It was so relatable...
I bursted into tears when she took the knife away from him
Same
I know
"Depression is Living in body that Fights to stay alive, With a mind that just wants to died."
AHEM copyright
Sheryl X3 dumbass he put it in quotes
Plus I’ve seen it too
@@windedgalaxy1170 but did anyone ask tho 🤔🤔🤔
To die not died XD
Well true I have been struggling at age 5 still am to age 12
when she grabbed the knife from him and they hugged my heart dropped
kip isaac I don’t have a heart lol
Same I bursted into tears when I saw that scene
OMFG THAT SCENE WAS SOOOO ADORABLE
kip isaac same here
The emo kids be like ,,wHaT Is LifE"
I am a 13 year old German teen and the thought of suicide has been in my head for around 4 years. It all started when I first heard my parents arguing. When I heard them screaming I was scared, I didn’t know what to do. I already knew my dad had an alcoholic problem and my mom was already tired of him screaming at her for no reason. But still, I was scared. I couldn’t sleep. For many months i heard them argue EVERY NIGHT. While that happened, I just sat on the stairs, listening to them. Trying to give myself the idea of what’s going on so that I could help. I always had nightmares about my parent divorcing after that. But they stayed together for a while. While my dad’s alcohol problem got worse, my mom talked less and less. She was always doing something in the house so when I needed help with school, I had to ask my drunk dad. My dad (who also has Anger issues) obviously screamed at me when I didn’t know an answer. I feel stupid and often cried, when he asked me why I was crying, I just had to cry more. Should he know why I am crying? He is screaming at his own daughter in anger, just because she didn’t know the answer to a question?
That’s where I started to feel worthless. More and more, stupid. Then, middle school started. All of the sudden, everything was fine. I found my best friend, Emilia. But shortly before 7th grade, my parents got divorced. It was heartbreaking for me, now I know it’s for The best. But at first my parents wanted to seperate me and my brother, No way! My brother was the only one I genuinely told about my feelings, who knows that I’m just not the „funny friend“. We convinced them not to eventually. But times got hard. My mom was totally unhappy, and my dad was almost broke.
I just felt unhappy with life at that point, nothing really gave me joy anymore. At that point I thought about suicide the most. I didn’t want to tell my friends, I didn’t want them to feel like they weren’t good enough or that they did something wrong. I don’t want them to treat me any differently, I just want them to know. I started isolating, being „lazy“, not talking to anyone, listening to music all the time, didn’t leave my room. I was on my iPad the whole day and night. Fell asleep at 5am, woke up at 12pm. My mom called me lazy the whole time. Making me feel even more worthless, she even hit me once and then just left my room. 7th grade „finally“ started. I hated it and I still do, our classes for mixed up again. Now I was in a class full of the „cool kidz“. The ones who’d always bully you, smoke, get into fights and are just popular. I feel like they always eyed me up and down and find me annoying. I’m scared of saying anything in front of them, what If I answer a simple question wrong? What will they think? I struggled with those thoughts.
Just never feeling understood, feeling like I can never tell anyone about my emotions. Feeling like I’m just overreacting, I mean, some people have it way worse than me right? Many things between that have happened as well, I try to not talk about too many details as I try to shut them out due to trauma. But now, 8th grade started. I feel more used to my class but still unhappy. Almost none of my friends are there and they all moved on and got different friends. Friends that are cooler than me. I’m distancing again, online I’m pretending to be someone who I’m not. I’m pretending who I want to be. My mom still calling me lazy, Grades going down but I’m too scared to say anything. I didn’t go to a therapist. What if they tell my mom? I don’t want her to feel bad. But sometimes I just really want to leave, have a quick ending to all of this.
Hey I hope you are doing a little better now. I am no authority on mental health but seek therapy if you need it. I personally found that talking to people is very important when dealing with this type of thoughts. If your brother understands you on other topics he will probably understand you on this one as well. He seems like a good guy. Talk to him if you feel like you are able to. Also if the depressive or suicidal thoughts get to much tell someone. You are important. People care about you. Also on the topic of overreacting: other people being in a worse situation then you does not invalidate your feelings and thoughts whatsoever. I felt like that as well. Those thoughts don‘t help at all they only made me more depressed. But talking to people really helped. At this point this sounds like an empty platitude but I mean it. People will listen. If you want you can start by telling random strangers on the internet if it helps. I figured out that this kinda eliminates the fear of being judged for me personally. I would be happy to hear from you (if part of this text didn’t make sense I am sorry, it’s getting really late)
Hey, ich hoffe du findest jemanden mit dem du sprechen könntest. Vielleicht ist bei dir die Schulsozialarbeit eine gute erste Anlaufstelle, vielleicht ist es aber auch eine Beratungsstelle oder eine Klinik (ich weiß, es klingt extrem aber ist gut um mal weg zu kommen von diesem dauerhaften „Zustand“)
Ich selbst kämpfe sehr mit Suizidgedanken und auch Svv… mir persönlich hilft es sehr mit meiner Schulsozialarbeiterin darüber zu sprechen, ich habe eine sehr vertrauensvolle und verständnisvolle Schulsozialarbeiterin.
Meine Eltern wissen auch nichts wirklich von meinen psychischen Problemen. Das wird sich wahrscheinlich demnächst ändern und ich hab sehr Angst vor der Reaktion und dem, wie es dannach weitergeht aber ich bin mir sicher, dass es der richtige Weg ist und dass sich was verändern muss.
Ich weiß, es ist unglaublich schwer und im Kopf ist eine große Blockade, der Gedanke, dass man niemanden verletzen möchte und es einem doch gar nicht so schlecht geht und dass es Anderen doch viel schlechter geht und so weiter ABER bitte bitte bitte versuche irgendwie diese Stimme zu ignorieren und suche, wenn es irgendwie geht, nach Menschen mit denen du sprechen kannst.
Sprechen hilft so viel, ich kenne dich ja nicht persönlich, deshalb kann ich dir nur ans Herz legen was mir meiner bescheidenen Erfahrung nach geholfen hat. Ich hoffe so sehr, dass du jemanden findest, dem du dich anvertrauen kannst!
Wenn du möchtest, könnten wir auch weiter schreiben, ob hier in der Kommentarspalte oder über Instagram oder so :)
Ich wünsche dir ganz viel Kraft und Mut auf jemanden zuzugehen, du hast diese Nachricht hier verfasst, ich bin sicher du kannst das auch schaffen :)
Ich hoffe, meine Nachricht war nicht allzu komisch oder unverständlich, ich wollte nur meine Gedanken zu deiner Situation teilen
I’m not hating on this comment, I really feel for you, but people’s experiences like these are what make me feel more shitty. I live in a good house hold with good parents and lots of food, clothes, roof over my head, and religion to back everything up. So when I’m crying and feel worthless in my room I just feel like a spoiled dramatic brat and that I should be dead, but that’s just the dramatic brat part of me saying that, because I’m worthless and wanna die… it’s just a never ending cycle… 💔❤️🩹
Hey, are you doing any better?
I ain’t reading all that
“I can’t do it anymore, everything feels so heavy” 😕 that hit hard
Linkin park
@@erinmccall8843 I'm holding on why is everything so heavy?
Reagan Duke 😞
@@ryuukun8925so much more than I can carry.
“Depression is when you are blind and people ask you what color the grapes is.”
A little strange but i got the point
@@ghostygamer8604 It's not at all strange.................
I know right
We’ve All Heard These:
“You’re Just Being *Dramatic!”*
“You”re Just Faking It For *Attention!”*
“Get Over It! Its Not *That Bad!”*
Haha! Yeah!
Because When We’re Cutting Ourselves, Feeling Like Nothing And Crying Ourselves To Sleep, We’re Just *SO* Dramatic! We Just Want *SO* Much Attention! Its Not *SO* Bad!
At this point in my mental health I am doubting that it isn't real and I am starting to make myself believe that its all for attention. I don't know what's real anymore
That is why I keep it to myself and don’t say anything
Even,, if it was for seeking for attention, doesn't that means there is something wrong? doesn't that mean the person seeking for attention have a problem, doesn't that mean they feel lonely, they don't feel loved, they feel useless, doesn't that mean they are just seeking, for love and care, because they are desperate, because they are alone handling that pain. People have to stop saying it is for attention, because even if it is, that means that the person, just want what everyone want, to be loved to cared for, and that is normal, and not caring about that, just judging the person, is unsensitive and stupid, i wish people would stop and help for real.
@@heliheli4051 if a person was seeking attention through that that means they are crazy and f ing stupid bc that is very seirous
r/im14andthisisdeep: WRITE THAT DOWN! WRITE THAT DOWN!
The way that the backpack makes it harder for him to get up and get dressed is such an amazing detail
For me it's like a bag of rocks, but then also underwater. It's like I can't breathe but I can't swim to air either.
Depression is like drowning, but you can see everyone else around you breathing.
Yess
Mariah Gubler true that is so true and I feel touched
Yeppers that's depression for ya
I get that. I can see everything moving so fast above the surface and at this point I've given up trying to swim to the air. It feels so hopeless and I am so far away.
Me at shcool: funny as hell
Me at home:crying
JosephJellyBelly 151 E.X.A.C.T.L.Y, i put on a mask on school. Trying to keep everyone happy. And when i come home i throw the mask away and i’ll just cry
Same for me 😕
JosephJellyBelly 151 same
True
Me
The way he says *"I'm fine"* twice... it's like he's trying to convince himself dang bruh that hurts 😣
i have to try and convince myself that I'm fine every day
Ive been...in his shoes
@@the_end_isnt_so_scary6759 sorry to hear that :(
@@mjcoldron1864 dont even start
@@the_end_isnt_so_scary6759 sorry..
“Depression is real.. but love is real too” this made me cry 😭❤️
This video deserves attention from people... This is not an inappropriate video
Yt is silly
Its the one video that saves me and just makes me cry instead so im glad this videos here
@@jaxx6684 stay strong!
@@DiamaraldGaming thank you🖤
There don't that bc depression is a sensitive subject to some people
Depression is the backpack! Makes it hard to sleep at night, pulls you down, gets more and more heavy. I love this.
It’s probably bad that what used to remove those rocks for me was cutting but now I’m 3 months clean :D
At first I thought this comparison wasn't fitting but now I think that it isn't even do far away from it (from all I know and can say).
I loved the scene when he tried to change his shirt because that's really how it feels like sometimes...
Micah Bryan I'm sorry to hear that I went through depression recently and I used to cut myself aswell
Suicide is wrong but certain people don't realise that
Life is for living
Not ending
If depression was a backpack then I would be carrying a suitcase
This is the most heartfelt, emotional and accurate representations of depression. Brought me to tears 😭❤️ Well done. This is simply amazing...❤️💚
depression is like drowning in a pool and everyone is telling you to breathe
edit: holy shit this blew up thanks guys i’m sorry that you can relate
So true.
@Hrie Eoi that's what they're trying to say. People are saying to breathe but we cant no matter how hard we try. I understand people are trying to help, but nobody truly can
@Hrie Eoi look, some people like me dont like to open up and talk to people, even knowing that it might help. For me, I know that I will never fully admit to how I feel to my parents. Maybe if it's like right before I die or something, but I'd never tell them about how I truly have been feeling. Whether they can help or not. I also have a counselor I talk to every wednesday. I dont feel comfortable telling her how I've been feeling, because she'll tell my parents. You need to understand that opening up is not easy for everyone and finding someone to help, someone that wont leave because of my mental illnesses, is even harder.
@Hrie Eoi good for you, I'm glad that you made it through your tough time. But it's hard for me to open up to literally anybody because I would open up to my ex and that's why he left me. He said I stressed him out. And I'm not mad at him for it, because I was the problem. I would always vent to him and he always said that it was fine, but I got to such a dark place that I forgot to ask how he was actually feeling, and once I did, he broke up with me. Everybody who doesnt open up has a reason. And if I could open up to people, I would. But I dont feel comfortable doing so.
YerARavenclawEmma 13 I love this analogy
I have to say that I truly liked this representation of how depression feels like. The backpacks as a symbol for all the small things that bring you more and more down and stack up to becoming the most important problem in your life. You can't logic your way out of this cruel situation, the only thing that can help you is giving all your trust to a person who loves you.❤
my “ rocks “ can never be removed.
the stupid words will never be enough to lift the weight.
I feel you
They can...You just need to be patient...Yea patient...Just be patient...patient?
But opposite actions can. You have a way out! When you're ready, I'm here to pull you up from a the cliff you fell off of. I am being swung into depression. But helping you makes me feel like I'm not useless. Whatever gave you depression had to have been bad. But we need something great. PROMISE me that when coronavirus is over, we can be best friends.
I am here for you if you need a friend to talk to i go through depression too your not the only one the lord jesus christ is watching over you and will always love you and keep you safe
Hey 👋, if anyone needs help here don’t hesitate to ask. I’m here for you all! I’ve been through depression and I’m now out, I can help :)
Depression is like an being in an earthquake, you watch everything around u fall until ur body falls itself.
Depression starter pack: anxiety, losing interest in shit you liked, feeling empty and sleeping more/less than you used too
Well then I’m screwed...
O h
That's right
That's exactly what I'm going through right now. I'm always feeling down and tired and hungry. I've been sleeping horribly lately, and I already haven't gotten a good night's sleep ever in my life, even when I was a baby, according to my mom. The worst part is, however, that everything seems _worthless._ Everything I do is boring. Nothing is worth doing, I'll just screw it all up anyway.
My dad said I was lazy.
Thanks.
Me right there
Wow! This was powerful! I'm in tears. I've struggled with depression all my life. I'm 57 years old. I attempted suicide when I was 21. It is my biggest regret that I put my mother through that. I'm so thankful I didn't succeed. I would have missed out on so much. Dear young people, if the voice in your head is telling you to end it all tell it to shut up because that voice is just a lie! You are valuable and you are worth it!
Love you
❤
I started crying when the camera turned back at him when he had the knife to his chest because I just reminded me how depressed I used to be
Omg same
I was in a suicidal state once
@@vanellabane same
Same.. I never cry to these things tho..
@Elizabeth Shreeve Very.
I want my school to show this to everyone so people can understand
Talk to your administration and press the issue, make the changes happen that you feel are important
Yako Vladdydaddy eh I’ll only be there for 8 more days :/
@@mintchirp4947 do it for those that will be there after you, our main purpose in life is to leave places we have been in better shape than when we got there. I charge you with this mission, and I have to apologize to someone I work with because I bullied them so I have to be the bigger person n apologize and you have to make a more nurturing environment at your school for those after you.
I you did that at my school you would be laughed at
Pay attention to the details- Even something as small as getting dressed can be a difficult task. I love how much attention they put into this! Great work!!
After seeing this i rewatched the video. I noticed it thanks
From a person with depression it is. It's so hard cuase you just don't wanna do anything cuase you just don't have the energy
@@zrdoclive92 yeah and it doesn't help that people call you lazy when you actually have a hard time trying to convince yourself to even move out of bed... honestly I ask myself what's the point every day and I still had no idea why I keep going.
When I feel depressed I dont want to talk to people or take a shower or get dressed, I want to sleep all day and think how much of a falier in life I am. So this movie was great to see.
x._.xdylanthevillan x._.x your right too i am struggling with depression and on top of that anxiety and barely able to fall asleep before 1:00am when you wake up at 6 in the morning..it’s hard. I believe in you even if I don’t believe in myself I know at least you will get through this good luck and to anyone else who struggles with depression or other mental health issues. 🙏💞 god bless you all
This hit home, big time. I'm a semi colon and want to thank those who put this film together.
I thought you were roleplaying as punctuation until I remembered what being a semi-colon means.
My school has never talked about suicide. My school has never evan talked about mental health. My school would freak out if one of the teachers evan mentioned mental health.
Once we could give tips on what subject we would get into, because we had to much time. But then we only talked about other stupid stuff and he totally avoided my tip of mental heath...
Even*
BitterCup UwU the person is seriously talking about something serious and you correct his/her spelling? great timing
My school wouldn't talk about school shooting safety until we got two threats a day apart. My school didn't even touch the subject of suicide until it already happened... Three times, in the same year, (also the year that the threats happened).
My school thinks all the kids are happy go lucky and that's not true
even though you are an elementary school doesn't make everyone okay
“I’m fine, I promise.”
That’s probably the most told and the most untrue lie I’ve ever heard. And it pains me that I’ve said it myself more than once.
I'm fine= fucked up, insecure, negative, emotional.
The lie I've told: I'm doing great!.....?
Means: I'm so insucure, I'm so childish.
SIDE EYE.
@@EyeLoveLils 🤨 why you side eyeing them
The amount of times I’ve lied to people saying that
All I can think about is
“you left the toilet seat up”
“Oh no.....”
*boss music plays *
Finally something I understand
BAHAHAHAHAAADJDJWJFBBSNRKWJFKW0
bonzi buddy did this
r/ihadaseizure
Someone finally said something
“bro, just stop being depressed”
*extreme inhale*
“OH YEAH, WELL WHY DON’T YOU JUST STOP BEING BROKE???? HUH??????? that’s what i thought.”
"I know how you feel, 'cause i have a bag of rocks as well"
That hits HARD
True
I dont wanna die i just wanna rest
Damaris Maas “same “but wait it’s actually true , the feeling you just want to be noticed , to people to care about you and realize that you’re not OK , to help you , in a way attempting suicide is an ultimate scream for help .......but there Are other ways to end the pain and to win the fight with depression
Having said that need someone to talk with?
Me too now
When he said “I can’t do it anymore” , it hit me 🥺
Same here
@Heartslove 3 bro I tried so many times that shit dont work for me
Bruh I cried for literally 5 mins when he grabbed the knife and just as I calmed down, played the video, he said that and it hit me again.
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
The teacher was talking about depression,and then proceeds to scream at the top of his lungs at his student.😑
Gacha Editor
Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?
@@phil5892 @Otama Mama,people with depression are fragile. They could jump off a building,shoot themselves,cut themselves,hang themselves,or overdose at any minute. And they DO need special care actually. And no,they dont need to have luxury or whatever,they just need help with their mental health. So,go do some research about it b4 u go saying stuff like this😒
Gacha Editor
Well, not exactly. You’re talking about a suicidal person. While depression can lead to suicidal thoughts, depression in itself can be put quite simply: you’re depressed all the time. You’re right on how they do need special care, but treating someone with depression like they could end their life any second is bad for both people. You’re giving the depressed person unrealistic expectations. At the same moment, if they notice you are treating them differently they will just feel more ashamed.
@@phil5892 You're an ideal portrait of a jerk.
@@phil5892 "Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?" Why do you assume that anyone, including you, should be treated as anything, but a pile of trash? Unlike you, worthless hide, they don't assume _anything._ That's why they just want to die and be done with it, because they know that no one will ever do anything good to them and being the world's punching-bag forever is physically impossible.
Depression is the final middle finger life throws at you
I wanna cry but I cant because I'm emotionless but I actually do wanna cry, this was great
Ryan Smith hey always here to help
How did you became emotionless I want to be emotionless to... I mean bullys wanna see you sad and down and all these...
I was crying then i looked through the comments and i saw this comment and it made me laugh. Thank you.
I think u guys who comment here dont get it.. depression means: feeling nothing. It's this feeling that will kill u. Thats why we cut ourselfs. Because we want to feel at least Something. If the world is black and white, u never can be happy, laughing or crying ur eyes out, you never feel better. Its that instant feeling of nothing that drives us crazy.
i know the no crying thing i been like that since i was like 7.. its like ur numb ad nothing u do will fix it right?
*Starts smiling*
*Smile turns back into a frown instantly*
*Starts crying*
*Shows no signs of sadness other than crying. Empty eyes and a straight teared up*
*Starts getting mad*
*Madness turns into sadness then turns empty*
*Tries smiling but can’t seem to*
Thaly Waly2009 omg look how edgy i am guys 🤣🤣😳🤭🤭😧👀😥😥😌😔💀
Me
Whenever I cry I smile. Weird
Same
Sadly, i cant commit the "empty" part
Once youre empty its like the backpack isnt there
But once youre not empty
Its back
Or
When youre empty the backpack lightens up when youre empty
“Depression feels like having a backpack with weight in it, but only you can see the backpack, and every time something happens weight is added.”
Edit: for the people who didn’t get the joke, I said this because people in the comments were saying all these quotes so I litteraly repeated what happened in the movie.
Wow I never thought of that. True though.
MR. CLICKBAIT it feels worse than being clickbaited.
Miku Hatsune lol 😂
This isent a joke though
My school never cared about suicide prevention. When I was in high school I had to see someone be rolled out of the bathroom with a white sheet over them. She hung herself in the bathroom. And my first thought was “I wish that was me” I’ve attempted 3 times. I resorted to self harm as a coping mechanism. All because of bullying. But the school doesn’t care. Even this year, another suicide, 15 years old. I live by the cemetery where she was buried. My first thought was “that will be me eventually” the school won’t stop bullies, the school doesn’t care who commits suicide. The pain only ends with death
When someone asks me “what’s depression.” I reply with this: Nothing. And then they get mad, but they don’t understand.. that’s exactly what depression is. It’s nothing, it makes you feel like nothing.
TheFlameKiller its something that is made of nothing, yet makes everything go wrong, makes you numb
To be fair, that could be confused with figurative language (for lack of better term.) like, you know when people say "MAAAAN, that test was nothing!" After someone says it's hard.
You could be confused with saying depression is nothing, or saying you don't think it's real
Exactly I have exactly said this and they just don't understand.
@@catsinwonderland7473 “depression is feeling nothing and everything at the exact same time.”
if the person genuinely wants to know and they care then it won't kill you to give them a better answer than something as abstract and enigmatic as "nothing." That will not solve anything. But hey! The one who TRULY wants to be helped, will seek it. You cannot expect others to know what you feel if you do not COMMUNICATE. I tell you this from personal experience. But to each his own. If you are comfortable being where you are and you do not seek help then that is on you. People around you who care are not mind readers. But like i keep saying, again, it is up to you, if you want the help, care and attention.
as person who struggles with severe depression I can say this is one of the closest metaphors for this topic
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I don't struggle with
depression and I don't know why I'm watching this videos.... Maybe I want to understand depression but I don't understand why depressed people watch this stuff. Doesn't it make them feel worse? I know this story has an happy ending but some don't. Can someone explain that?
@@Robin07014 To have someone they relate to. Theh dont feel alone
@@3rrorinthematrix758 thank you
Does someone have advice for me? I think my best friend has depression. She told me she cried herself to sleep every night. I didn't know that till she told me not long ago after being friends for 3 years. She always was shy and I was her only friend and her parents always punished her for having bad marks. She sometimes said mean things to me and I just didn't see that it was because she wasn't feeling well. I was so annoyed.:(🤦♀️😣She went to therapy but wasn't diagnosed with anything. She told me she's feeling much better know but she sometimes says she is ugly and good for nothing. I always try to comfort her. What can I do to help her?
Don't think anyone will read it xD
8:31
“I’m fine..”
8:38
“I’m fine-“
My heart :c
His voice cracking at the end of the conversation
11:04
I feel this. The heart is breaking. How often do we say "I'm fine". It started to scare me instantly.
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@@leito_leo 4 YEARS.
the fact i started crying when he said I can’t do it anymore
Kids:*Feeling suicidal and depressed*
Parents : it's that damn phone
Edit: after three years I've come to realize it really was that damn phone.
EXACTLY like, it's their words that make us feel like this.. They are not smart.
@@Dis_Dis my mom did the same💔 its not right, they should be there for us. Unfortunately, thats not how life works..
Haha I remember when I said I was suicidal to my parents.. my mom took my phone away and said it's because of social media... my dad just threw me a knife and told me to do it, to just fucking kill myself... I was literally about to do it..
Yeah its funny but dont joke about suicide cause people have taken their lives before
@@desirodriguez9221 I'm not joking about it... It was a sarcastic "haha" sorry if it came off wrong
"We think too much and feel too little"
-Charlie Chaplin
That's. True
We don't think too much and don't feel too little.
-TheSleepyhead
When i saw when Mark's mom couldn't see the book bag i instantly knew that: Depression is like a backpack that nobody can or will see it until you speak up about it
That's what I thought too, depression is the backpack, but trying to take it off is suicide.
Momo_ Da_Hooman I did too...
Also I see that we both like Tsuyu
Wow. That’s an amazing metaphor for depression. A weight on your shoulders that gets heavier and heavier, wondering why people can’t see what’s wrong even when they can tell something’s off, being able to lighten the load by talking to others, not being able to sleep because of the uncomfortable weight, and perhaps you hurt yourself trying to remove the bag from your back.
Telling a depressed person to just be happy is like telling a person with asthma to just breathe
me having both
i have asthma and i can breathe
so whats your point?
@@-.bella.- it is very difficult to breathe sometimes. you must have mild asthma, but severe ones are awful.
"Dude I don't care if you are blind just look"
"I don't care if you are deaf, just hear me out"
"don't kill yourself, life is beautiful."
You're on the brighter side of the planet.
Easy said not done
It’s much easier said than done.
Your in the brighter side when it’s day
This quote is poor
An suicidal person will ignore it.
we can’t control what we do to ourselves we can’t control our thoughts
I wish I had someone to talk to without them saying:
'You're overreacting'
'You just want attention'
'You have everything you have no right to feel depressed'
So if someone wants to talk to you please listen and try to understand what he/she is going through
And if you have no one to talk to and listen to sad music at 2 am, same.
Music as 1:43
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I'm here if you want to talk! I will listen without judging. Your feelings are valid. It's okay to not be okay. I hope you reach out and get help because you are worth it.
Why DO we listen to sad music?
Soulice eciluoS idk for me i think it’s because it’s relatable. i feel like someone else is in the same situation and i feel not so alone. other times i just need to cry, hoping that it will release some of the bottled up gray emotions
As someone struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, this is the most accurate representation I’ve seen, great work! ❤
I still don't get it ;-;
But I will be there for people who want my presence
@@iCraftDay this may seem cliche but live for yourself, not others. _you_ are your own person and should only ever be like that. people should only be in your life if they make you happy.
@@perill6 thanks
But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts..
I think I just did not understand fully the film.
I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
@@perill6 thanks
But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts..
I think I just did not understand fully the film.
I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
People out there said: “How can you be depressed, just cheer up. There’s a lot of good thing in life”
Similar to: “How can you have asthma, just breath”
Its not that easy to just stop being depressed.
I have athma
@@Anonymous-tm4pk and apparently an online lisp (im joking don't attack me please)
Just walk it off
When u got depression and asthma
*I haven't seen the video yet, just started*
This video is apparently so sad that I got a warning from RUclips before watching. damn...
PercyGaming ye
Me three!
Same
Same
Me too
"I'm fine"
If some1 said that
there not fine
(almost everyone)
I always say I'm fine. I've lied a lot in the past few years.
It’s fine
It’s fine
It’s fine
I’m fine
No I’m not but that’s alright
I say this to my self all the time and life doesn’t get any easier
@@phil5892 well when people ask how somebody is doing and they arent doing well, they most likely will say they are fine because they dont want other people to know how they really are feeling. Humans usually dont like to show weakness or fragility around others. It's just natural instinct.
@@no_sleep_animation3707 oh god thats true 😭 and now i think it's just a wasting time by just saying "i'm fine" to myself
@@phil5892 I never said that it helps. Because it doesn't. I simply said that its human nature. It's hard to tell someone if you're honestly not okay. I also dont care who it was you were replying to, if you leave a comment that I want to reply to, that's exactly what I'll do.
I love the backpack representation, of people dealing with so much pressure so they self harm. It represents the things really well.
*mark reaches for the knife*
Me: bad idea Mark. Mark that’s a BAD IDEA. MARK NO.
RainbowSketches he’s not a dog 😂
MARK NO GOD PLZ NO
I think i have a dark humor i think. Cuz when he will then knife my mind is like Mark is Gonna make A mark
Me: is having a panic attack
My brain: your just doing it for attention.
Also me: *is alone in my room*
Ur brain needs to stfu
Dude- I feel called out.
*cuts my legs*
My entire nervous system: *YOU’RE JUST DOING IT FOR ATTENTION! YOU’RE A STUPID MONSTER!*
*I’m literally alone*
?!
I don’t get it?
@@maisie7336 sometimes are brains are weird when we suffer, especially when there is nothing specific to be upset about. For example, a gifted kid with a wonderful life and family could become depressed somehow, it happens to everyone, and then they might cut themselves. Or in Danni’s case, have panic attacks. Perhaps for feeling the need to be perfect. In that case, their mind will tell them that they’re just doing it for attention, when they aren’t. I sometimes feel like I’m doing it for attention and my pain is fake, but I also don’t know because I cry everyday.
There ye go
@@wonderstorm116 No I mean I don’t get what being alone in your room has to do with anything.
“There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, 'There now, hang on, you'll get over it.' Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer.”
― Barbara Kingsolver
"Patience has a limit, depression does not"
@@jesuly17 This is what people don’t understand, it’s so true.
Stage 4
There's a huge difference between someone who feels depressed for a week compared to someone who is diagnosed as having clinical depression or the scores of other mental illnesses that cause depression. Either case, if anyone ever mentions suicide take it seriously and tell their family or a teacher, or whomever, even the police. Once the act is completed, there's no coming back
But what if u opened up to teacher partially, helplines, parents partially and they see some signs like not eating much even though I was eating way too much and like overweight just 1 month before and even crying in front of them, and even opened to school counselor and they all say to divert it to studies.
@dedipyakilari Look....I've attempted several times and ideation more times I can count....are you diagnosed with any mental health disorders???? If not, that's a great way to send a message to your family and others. Also. If you get any thoughts on suicide....or worse you have a plan...PLEASE TELL SOMEONE. Your issues could be resolved in weeks if you inform those who will listen. For some medications help a lot....try to walk or take jogging or a gym....endorphins and oxygen to the brain really helps. The best thing for all of us is a really really good therapy. Some psychiatrists do this, and some might refer you to someone. Just please take the action steps needed. If you have any questions...just ask me
Depression: “Die.” Anxiety: “what would happen if I killed myself...” - This is what I think of everytime...
What is the meaning of life?...if the meaning of life is doing everything you love but what is the things your going to love if the people around you is a poison that last for the rest of your life...
Holy shit...
k rr what
If you think that way... I’m so sorry for you I wish I can help you... reading comments like this breaks my heart I can’t hold back tears
small berry The meaning of life is to make the most of it. do what you can while you still have time.. i always wonder what people see when they are dead...
I thought an AP psych teacher would have a little more emotional intelligence with a kid falling in sleep in class.
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At my school, if you say "I want to kill myself" there's 2 answers, 1: "so go do it"
2: "SAME!" and when you actually attempt it, no one cares they just say "I don't get suicide"
Luna S that couldnt be more true, people at our school get sent to the counsler and everyone just jokes about it. I dont get how they just ignore that they atempted
I've been dealing with depression i Haven't told anyone about it i felt alone and i stopped eating i was sad all the time even at school i was in a very dark place at the time i told my friend about it thank god i told him about it but told my family and teachers i still have it everyday and i almost going to kill myself thank god i didn't I've been healing alot now I feel better now I'm happy and living my life that was in the past thank God i didn't kill myself it's isn't good or without living and breathing some people committed suicide with having depression and that's awful and heartbreaking teens adults and I've learned that killing yourself isn't healthy or Good it's scary and yeah live people and be happy not depressed i know many people have it live your life i know it's hard to get over it but be happy.
Genesis Garcia if u need anyone to talk to I’m here and I’m pretty good at listening
@@user-zn4fs1xu5t thank you.
Genesis Garcia no problem just here to help
This short film was beautiful. I’ve been suicidal for 7 years now, I have a plan and I’m going soon… but I hope everyone else out there who’s struggling makes it out.
sending you love, you can get through this i promise
I am sorry that it has come to that point in your life I hope you don’t do it, but it isn’t my life so I can’t tell you what to do but hopefully you have someone to stop you from doing it
Yeah I understand, I’m leaving on March 27th❤
please dont leave. I know it’s not something you want to read but I need to say it. I know that leaving this world may seem like the answer, but trust me it’s not. Because once you leave, the presence you have left in this world will impact everyone you know. Even if you don’t think so, there are people who care and love you to the point where they don’t want to see you leave. I know that you don’t know me and I don’t know you, but I want to try my absolute hardest to convince you not to leave. I know it’s not my place but still. It’s heartbreaking to hear about the people who have left but it’s even worse when there is someone alive who is planning on leaving and no one even notices. I noticed, and I want to help you. Please talk to me. About anything you’d like. You can vent to me or talk about your day or anything. I want to listen to your story. Please know that there is always someone out there who cares. And if you think that there is no one, then I’ll be the first one.
@@idk-r2c I’m 18 if that’s okay, but I’ll talk to you :/ I need help