MusicIsMyLife I know right...someone told me to NOT be depressed and I’m depressed and it hurt more than they thought it would. I can’t describe how painful being “the way I am” people don’t understand, listen, or just laugh it off.
Depression is much worse than a lot of things since it isn’t something which is fully curable and if it isn’t visibly shown it can kill that individual ( I just want you to know I’ve been suffering with depression for 3 years straight now after constant harassment, bully, assault and feeling like I’m an outcast to society ) this short film perfectly describes how I feel
@@stevenorkevin9367 I'm so sorry. And I guess people ask you because they're trying to get insight as to how to help you. Some people dont want you to be depressed.
Four years ago a kid from my school killed himself because he was bullied, abused at home and had depression, anxiety and ADHD, the school baned us from talking about it and gave on assembaly about. There is now a board at the train station in his memory that has loads of writing and quotes,, but the most noticable thing that it says is "no more bad days"
The same thing happened at my school. I don’t understand why they didn’t talk about it before. Then there would have been a slight chance that maybe she wouldn’t have done it. Gladly, she is still alive. I don’t know what I’d do without her... ... they didn’t talk about drugs until kids were vaping in the bathroom... they didn’t talk about self-harm until after multiple kids were ‘told on’... they didn’t talk about suicide until she attempted it twice...
@@babybird7654 who knows Don't make assumptions about it tho, maybe you're not, maybe you are 🤷♂️ Maybe go see a therapist? Or talk to your parents or friends about it?
Fairy Tail - Rakudai kishi no cavalry オパールとスカーレット Well what if you’re too young to go out on your own and you too scared to talk to your friends or family cause you trust no one. Then what do you do?
@@babybird7654 I'd say probably but if you have tendencies like no eating even when you can or your body is telling you to or wanting to that's a red flag see somebody talk to somebody
Dude- I feel called out. *cuts my legs* My entire nervous system: *YOU’RE JUST DOING IT FOR ATTENTION! YOU’RE A STUPID MONSTER!* *I’m literally alone* ?!
@@maisie7336 sometimes are brains are weird when we suffer, especially when there is nothing specific to be upset about. For example, a gifted kid with a wonderful life and family could become depressed somehow, it happens to everyone, and then they might cut themselves. Or in Danni’s case, have panic attacks. Perhaps for feeling the need to be perfect. In that case, their mind will tell them that they’re just doing it for attention, when they aren’t. I sometimes feel like I’m doing it for attention and my pain is fake, but I also don’t know because I cry everyday. There ye go
I wish people actually cared. May 24th, 2022. 8:06 pm. I will never forget the day that changed my life forever. I was at home about to change after a softball game, I had just gotten home. I usually try and change right away but I was to lazy to that day. I had called my bsf right before my game, he was telling me he couldn’t make it. I got a call, it was him. I obviously answered right away. He said “hey, I just wanna say thanks for always being there. Just know, I love you. I’ve loved you since that day in 2nd grade when you talked to me and no one else did since I was the new kid. I didn’t even know what love was, but I knew what I felt with you was smthn special. I will always love you, just promise to never forget me” and hung up. I was so confused, worried. I ran over to his house, it was only a couple blocks down from where I lived. I knocked on the door and his mom answered. I asked where he was and she said in his room and asked if everything was ok. I just ran up the stairs to his room. That’s when I saw him. He was laying on the ground, fresh c*ts on his arms and an empty pill bottle next to him. I remember the scream I let out. But even worse, the scream his mom let out, I will never ever forget that. I ran to him and held him in my arms, begging him to stay with me. I told him I loved him and to keep his eyes open, begging him. I will never forget his last words “I love you, promise to never forget that” I said I love him too and I promise. His eyes closed and I could feel his body go limp. I will never forget the feeling of my heart shattering into a million pieces. The way his mom came and hugged me, the way we just sat there crying. The ambulance showed up about 10 minutes later. They tried to bring him back but we all knew he was gone. I mean, he had been clinically dead for 10 minutes. I fell to me knees, sobbing while I watched them zip up the body bag, watching the ambulance drive off. That day changed my life forever. He died just 2 days before his 14th birthday. He was supposed to be my main chambelane at my quince. Now, instead of replacing him, I’ll be dancing with a picture of him. We made a promise to each other that if we weren’t married by 30, we would marry each other. We even got each other promise rings so we could never break that promise. We’re so annoying that we even made and signed a contract. We were 11 when we made that promise, and I still stand by it. My birthdays in 17 days, I’m not ready to turn 15 without him by my side. Like, ik he will always be with me but it just sucks yk. I didn’t go to school for a week after that happened, I stayed in my room all day, crying myself to sleep every night. I fell into a deep depression. To make things worse, when I went back to school all they cared abt was all my absences. All the work I would have to make up from when I was gone. It’s like they didn’t even care that I lose my best friend, my other half, my world. I will never be the same without him, I will never have a friend just like him. True friends are hard to find, and I lost him.
Hey, I'm sure you've heard people say that it's going to be ok. I'm here to remind you that it's also ok to not be ok. You are human. You have emotions there's nothing you can do about them except talk about them. Bottling it up won't help. Trust me, I've tired. I know I'm just some random stranger on the internet, but I'm here if you need to talk. You will get past this I'm sure of it. I had a bsf die too. The school did nothing for him. I will never 100% understand what you are thinking, just know if it's anything bad there's people who love and care about you. There's also people who will listen, please talk to someone. The biggest thing to know is that talking to someone is never a burden on them, don't ever think it is. Please reach out of you need help. ❤
That’s how I get away with telling everyone that I want to die without them caring. They always joke about me being depressed. Oh you can’t be more depressed than her😂! I just go along with the jokes I get it everywhere. No matter where I go I find someone joking about me. I just can’t. They don’t know the truth. They don’t know that I’ve been raped, abused and bullied. They don’t know me
As a young girl who has struggled with suicidal thoughts for years, I applaud this short film because it really explains to people "outside" what it is like. Great job!
When someone killed themselves in my school, classes. carried on, they didn't speak of it, didn't cancel school, didn't offer help to those struggling. Some kids made fun of it. I was so heartbroken. Especially because he was my friend....
I'm so sorry hun. You're gonna be ok. I hate it when kids make fun of things like that...😔 You are not alone. Me, jesus, many other people here for you. sending love..💗💗💗💗
sorry for losing your friend. hope all is going well for you. Prayers for you and his family- say his name in remembrance and know he is not forgotten.
I just wanted to say that the metaphor with the rocks in the bag resembling all the negative thoughts and happenings we carry around with us is really really great.
I am a 13 year old German teen and the thought of suicide has been in my head for around 4 years. It all started when I first heard my parents arguing. When I heard them screaming I was scared, I didn’t know what to do. I already knew my dad had an alcoholic problem and my mom was already tired of him screaming at her for no reason. But still, I was scared. I couldn’t sleep. For many months i heard them argue EVERY NIGHT. While that happened, I just sat on the stairs, listening to them. Trying to give myself the idea of what’s going on so that I could help. I always had nightmares about my parent divorcing after that. But they stayed together for a while. While my dad’s alcohol problem got worse, my mom talked less and less. She was always doing something in the house so when I needed help with school, I had to ask my drunk dad. My dad (who also has Anger issues) obviously screamed at me when I didn’t know an answer. I feel stupid and often cried, when he asked me why I was crying, I just had to cry more. Should he know why I am crying? He is screaming at his own daughter in anger, just because she didn’t know the answer to a question? That’s where I started to feel worthless. More and more, stupid. Then, middle school started. All of the sudden, everything was fine. I found my best friend, Emilia. But shortly before 7th grade, my parents got divorced. It was heartbreaking for me, now I know it’s for The best. But at first my parents wanted to seperate me and my brother, No way! My brother was the only one I genuinely told about my feelings, who knows that I’m just not the „funny friend“. We convinced them not to eventually. But times got hard. My mom was totally unhappy, and my dad was almost broke. I just felt unhappy with life at that point, nothing really gave me joy anymore. At that point I thought about suicide the most. I didn’t want to tell my friends, I didn’t want them to feel like they weren’t good enough or that they did something wrong. I don’t want them to treat me any differently, I just want them to know. I started isolating, being „lazy“, not talking to anyone, listening to music all the time, didn’t leave my room. I was on my iPad the whole day and night. Fell asleep at 5am, woke up at 12pm. My mom called me lazy the whole time. Making me feel even more worthless, she even hit me once and then just left my room. 7th grade „finally“ started. I hated it and I still do, our classes for mixed up again. Now I was in a class full of the „cool kidz“. The ones who’d always bully you, smoke, get into fights and are just popular. I feel like they always eyed me up and down and find me annoying. I’m scared of saying anything in front of them, what If I answer a simple question wrong? What will they think? I struggled with those thoughts. Just never feeling understood, feeling like I can never tell anyone about my emotions. Feeling like I’m just overreacting, I mean, some people have it way worse than me right? Many things between that have happened as well, I try to not talk about too many details as I try to shut them out due to trauma. But now, 8th grade started. I feel more used to my class but still unhappy. Almost none of my friends are there and they all moved on and got different friends. Friends that are cooler than me. I’m distancing again, online I’m pretending to be someone who I’m not. I’m pretending who I want to be. My mom still calling me lazy, Grades going down but I’m too scared to say anything. I didn’t go to a therapist. What if they tell my mom? I don’t want her to feel bad. But sometimes I just really want to leave, have a quick ending to all of this.
Hey I hope you are doing a little better now. I am no authority on mental health but seek therapy if you need it. I personally found that talking to people is very important when dealing with this type of thoughts. If your brother understands you on other topics he will probably understand you on this one as well. He seems like a good guy. Talk to him if you feel like you are able to. Also if the depressive or suicidal thoughts get to much tell someone. You are important. People care about you. Also on the topic of overreacting: other people being in a worse situation then you does not invalidate your feelings and thoughts whatsoever. I felt like that as well. Those thoughts don‘t help at all they only made me more depressed. But talking to people really helped. At this point this sounds like an empty platitude but I mean it. People will listen. If you want you can start by telling random strangers on the internet if it helps. I figured out that this kinda eliminates the fear of being judged for me personally. I would be happy to hear from you (if part of this text didn’t make sense I am sorry, it’s getting really late)
Hey, ich hoffe du findest jemanden mit dem du sprechen könntest. Vielleicht ist bei dir die Schulsozialarbeit eine gute erste Anlaufstelle, vielleicht ist es aber auch eine Beratungsstelle oder eine Klinik (ich weiß, es klingt extrem aber ist gut um mal weg zu kommen von diesem dauerhaften „Zustand“) Ich selbst kämpfe sehr mit Suizidgedanken und auch Svv… mir persönlich hilft es sehr mit meiner Schulsozialarbeiterin darüber zu sprechen, ich habe eine sehr vertrauensvolle und verständnisvolle Schulsozialarbeiterin. Meine Eltern wissen auch nichts wirklich von meinen psychischen Problemen. Das wird sich wahrscheinlich demnächst ändern und ich hab sehr Angst vor der Reaktion und dem, wie es dannach weitergeht aber ich bin mir sicher, dass es der richtige Weg ist und dass sich was verändern muss. Ich weiß, es ist unglaublich schwer und im Kopf ist eine große Blockade, der Gedanke, dass man niemanden verletzen möchte und es einem doch gar nicht so schlecht geht und dass es Anderen doch viel schlechter geht und so weiter ABER bitte bitte bitte versuche irgendwie diese Stimme zu ignorieren und suche, wenn es irgendwie geht, nach Menschen mit denen du sprechen kannst. Sprechen hilft so viel, ich kenne dich ja nicht persönlich, deshalb kann ich dir nur ans Herz legen was mir meiner bescheidenen Erfahrung nach geholfen hat. Ich hoffe so sehr, dass du jemanden findest, dem du dich anvertrauen kannst! Wenn du möchtest, könnten wir auch weiter schreiben, ob hier in der Kommentarspalte oder über Instagram oder so :) Ich wünsche dir ganz viel Kraft und Mut auf jemanden zuzugehen, du hast diese Nachricht hier verfasst, ich bin sicher du kannst das auch schaffen :) Ich hoffe, meine Nachricht war nicht allzu komisch oder unverständlich, ich wollte nur meine Gedanken zu deiner Situation teilen
I’m not hating on this comment, I really feel for you, but people’s experiences like these are what make me feel more shitty. I live in a good house hold with good parents and lots of food, clothes, roof over my head, and religion to back everything up. So when I’m crying and feel worthless in my room I just feel like a spoiled dramatic brat and that I should be dead, but that’s just the dramatic brat part of me saying that, because I’m worthless and wanna die… it’s just a never ending cycle… 💔❤️🩹
Same here... And I know people say that just to try and make the other person feel better, but I'm actually serious. I even learned how to tie a noose, just in case I can't take it anymore.
Thats how i feel i want to go home but im already hire i dont deserve a life any more i feel like everyone hates me i feel like everyone wants me to be perfect 24/7
I've been dealing with depression i Haven't told anyone about it i felt alone and i stopped eating i was sad all the time even at school i was in a very dark place at the time i told my friend about it thank god i told him about it but told my family and teachers i still have it everyday and i almost going to kill myself thank god i didn't I've been healing alot now I feel better now I'm happy and living my life that was in the past thank God i didn't kill myself it's isn't good or without living and breathing some people committed suicide with having depression and that's awful and heartbreaking teens adults and I've learned that killing yourself isn't healthy or Good it's scary and yeah live people and be happy not depressed i know many people have it live your life i know it's hard to get over it but be happy.
Having depression and anxiety is like having a body that fights to live but a mind that wants to die. The amount of times I have come back to this video when I’m having a relapse is. . . I can’t even describe how emotional I get watching this video.
@@hzy_252 I’ve started to move forward in my life. It’s still hard and I’m struggling, but I’ve never felt so free in my life. Despite all of the downs I’ve had quite a few ups.
I hope you're doing okay now human. Remember to be gentle and kind to yourself. Life is a hard roller coaster sometimes, but the beautiful moments are always there.
I can talk to you about it. If you need me to drop my Instagram and for me to send u a dm so that u can talk to me if you ever are feeling down, that’s fine.
It is sad, when people say “same” is so messed up. It’s like having cancer and you say “i’m so done with chemo i should just die” and someone says “same”. It’s just messed up
Wow! This was powerful! I'm in tears. I've struggled with depression all my life. I'm 57 years old. I attempted suicide when I was 21. It is my biggest regret that I put my mother through that. I'm so thankful I didn't succeed. I would have missed out on so much. Dear young people, if the voice in your head is telling you to end it all tell it to shut up because that voice is just a lie! You are valuable and you are worth it!
"Depression is being exhausted when you got a 8hr sleep" Nothing surprising when you waste all energy you could possible get from that time on waking up. " Laughing, smiling, even talking becomes so tiring.." Because it's a chore, to say the least.
Keanna Janae omg yes. I was saying I was tired, and got asked how long I slept for, I said 8 hours and they said it was no excuse. I’m seriously depressed and have an eating disorder so people just don’t understand. They don’t get how tiring everything gets
"Why do you think someone would ever take their own life?" Because the pain becomes so unbearable and the world so bleak that you see death as an escape.
I have depression. Depression makes your body tired, making you sleep almost all of the time. You also have pain. It hurts. Death, is like the best escape. But im too afraid to do it.
I have to say that I truly liked this representation of how depression feels like. The backpacks as a symbol for all the small things that bring you more and more down and stack up to becoming the most important problem in your life. You can't logic your way out of this cruel situation, the only thing that can help you is giving all your trust to a person who loves you.❤
And they don't get what they're doing because most of them are stupid and they just make it much worse than it's already ik what you mean I'm feeling the same
princeofnagano I agree. If teachers even mention it, it’s in an offhand way like “Oh, but none of you will ever have to deal with it.” 65% of my peers suffer from depression or another mental health issue, and that’s just my 1st period. One of their students, a lovely girl who has never been anything but kind to me, attempted suicide 2 months ago, and they still smile and act like it will never happen
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Wow. That’s an amazing metaphor for depression. A weight on your shoulders that gets heavier and heavier, wondering why people can’t see what’s wrong even when they can tell something’s off, being able to lighten the load by talking to others, not being able to sleep because of the uncomfortable weight, and perhaps you hurt yourself trying to remove the bag from your back.
@@Lesbo.dragon I couldn't agree more. I get so much stuff in school going on no one knows about it, I cry myself to sleep and I have 1 person there for me, cause he knows what its like. This I my boyfriend and we both struggle with depression 😅😢😭
Or you could be feeling just slightly below average and something (even small) can set it off. Situational depression is really common, anyone can be depressed, even if you don’t have clinical depression
This short film was beautiful. I’ve been suicidal for 7 years now, I have a plan and I’m going soon… but I hope everyone else out there who’s struggling makes it out.
I am sorry that it has come to that point in your life I hope you don’t do it, but it isn’t my life so I can’t tell you what to do but hopefully you have someone to stop you from doing it
please dont leave. I know it’s not something you want to read but I need to say it. I know that leaving this world may seem like the answer, but trust me it’s not. Because once you leave, the presence you have left in this world will impact everyone you know. Even if you don’t think so, there are people who care and love you to the point where they don’t want to see you leave. I know that you don’t know me and I don’t know you, but I want to try my absolute hardest to convince you not to leave. I know it’s not my place but still. It’s heartbreaking to hear about the people who have left but it’s even worse when there is someone alive who is planning on leaving and no one even notices. I noticed, and I want to help you. Please talk to me. About anything you’d like. You can vent to me or talk about your day or anything. I want to listen to your story. Please know that there is always someone out there who cares. And if you think that there is no one, then I’ll be the first one.
“The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see anyone else suffer the way they did.”
The first one I agree 50% because I'm an introvert and I don't normally talk a lot with people other than close ones. So I tent to act nice, but I can be salty too
@@iCraftDay this may seem cliche but live for yourself, not others. _you_ are your own person and should only ever be like that. people should only be in your life if they make you happy.
@@LIZGUARD__0 thanks But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts.. I think I just did not understand fully the film. I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
@@LIZGUARD__0 thanks But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts.. I think I just did not understand fully the film. I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
Don't know how this stupid comment got 106 likes from may I remind you 106 people. You actually start caring so much you can't anymore, there's this thing in life that scares you more than death itself. That why people take their own lives.
I mean he's literally referring to the video.And it's true,Depression is like a bag of rocks.It hurts until you don't really care about life anymore and you just want to end the suffering.
I’m a survivor and I’m still struggling with depression today. I can say that it’s a really bad and sometimes scary feeling, and I feel bad for everyone else that has, will, and is struggling too…
Everything in this video I can relate to, except one thing. I have no one who checks up on me and makes sure that I’m okay.. guess I’m a great liar about how I am truly feeling.
I get that. I can see everything moving so fast above the surface and at this point I've given up trying to swim to the air. It feels so hopeless and I am so far away.
This video. I love it. When he tries to end it all with the knife, he stops and looks at his wrist, contemplating whether or not he should slit his wrists. And I LOVE its a boy portraying depression and suicidal tendencies! Most of the men in my life don’t express emotions or talk about themselves. I’m glad this video popped up on my fyp. And men, if you see this, you can always talk to people the way you feel and women too. The gays, girls and the theys❤ you’re safe with me❤
God the scene when she walks in on him with the knike to the chest is just gut wrenching. The panic in her voice, the look on his face when she sees him. Its so sad and was really well executed
watching this made a lump grow in the back of my throat if that makes sense. as someone who's attempted at a young age without anyone knowing this made me all sorts of emotions. thank you for making this
There's a huge difference between someone who feels depressed for a week compared to someone who is diagnosed as having clinical depression or the scores of other mental illnesses that cause depression. Either case, if anyone ever mentions suicide take it seriously and tell their family or a teacher, or whomever, even the police. Once the act is completed, there's no coming back
But what if u opened up to teacher partially, helplines, parents partially and they see some signs like not eating much even though I was eating way too much and like overweight just 1 month before and even crying in front of them, and even opened to school counselor and they all say to divert it to studies.
@dedipyakilari Look....I've attempted several times and ideation more times I can count....are you diagnosed with any mental health disorders???? If not, that's a great way to send a message to your family and others. Also. If you get any thoughts on suicide....or worse you have a plan...PLEASE TELL SOMEONE. Your issues could be resolved in weeks if you inform those who will listen. For some medications help a lot....try to walk or take jogging or a gym....endorphins and oxygen to the brain really helps. The best thing for all of us is a really really good therapy. Some psychiatrists do this, and some might refer you to someone. Just please take the action steps needed. If you have any questions...just ask me
JosephJellyBelly 151 E.X.A.C.T.L.Y, i put on a mask on school. Trying to keep everyone happy. And when i come home i throw the mask away and i’ll just cry
Suicidal: -People avoid it -They are annoyed by it -They don't know what's happening. Suicide: -"I wish I could've stopped it." -"I should've listened." -"I wish they could've told me." ALWAYS LISTEN to someone who is suicidal. It's all fun and games till they actually do it. Please.
This made me cry, at first I was alittle sceptical but as the bag gets heavier and he tried to get rid of it and everything he tries doesn't work, then persists to get heavier and it turns into a state of panic to get it off, the more he tries the more frustrated he gets, the harder everything becomes until breaking point. This can apply with any sort of depression and anxiety, the world can go from being amazing to being the hardest scariest thing to face. I'm pleased there is so much awareness regarding mental illness now, not just for people to understand but for people who suffer to find comfort knowing it is real, they are not alone and it's just a moment in time.
Bro why is this considered as inappropriate. Its basically about how to over come depression. And it tells a really good story of how ppl can conquer their depression. YT is a f**king normy
They marked it as "inappropriate" because it needs a trigger warning. Someone may accidentally click on this, and if they are considering suicide, this is the last thing they need. It's sorta like someone with an eating disorder being dragged into a video/conversation about food. It's just not good for their mental health. It could really hurt someone mentally, as everyone has a different mental state.
Well RUclips considers it inappropriate and has it flagged and marked. Did anyone else get that pop up when they clicked on this video, and then you either have to cancel it or confirm it before the video starts to play? That is marxism/facism/socialism.
@@lumiiinous I agree it does need a trigger warning. However, when you're in the darkness of depression, I consider this video is still a positive eye-opener. It gives hope that maybe by talking to someone, your burden can lessen. And that's what is needed in those moments, hope, support, knowledge.
@@sblbenleb8720 It is a good point, but I'm still standing my ground about the warning. It CAN be an eye-opener, but from my personal experiences and what could POTENTIALLY happen, it can also be bad for a person. I've struggled with cutting for the past year and a half, and when I watched cutting videos, I would think about it more, and more, and more. I even caved a couple of times. So, it can help, but in my opinion, I'd rather be safe than sorry.
At first I thought this comparison wasn't fitting but now I think that it isn't even do far away from it (from all I know and can say). I loved the scene when he tried to change his shirt because that's really how it feels like sometimes...
Micah Bryan I'm sorry to hear that I went through depression recently and I used to cut myself aswell Suicide is wrong but certain people don't realise that Life is for living Not ending
You know, I felt this way a lot during 2020 plus with my weight loss training and my military processing. Idk how but I've remained strong enough to not pull the trigger. You have the strength within your soul whether you feel it or not. There's always a chance to get up and fight for a better life and happiness
This film makes me want to cry, I have never watched something so relatable. My heart goes out to all who struggle with mental health, and those who have lost someone from suicide.
@@mintchirp4947 do it for those that will be there after you, our main purpose in life is to leave places we have been in better shape than when we got there. I charge you with this mission, and I have to apologize to someone I work with because I bullied them so I have to be the bigger person n apologize and you have to make a more nurturing environment at your school for those after you.
The way they portrayed this is easy to understand. It helped me to know how some people feel and maybe I now know how to help people who feel like this
Gacha Editor Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?
@@phil5892 @Otama Mama,people with depression are fragile. They could jump off a building,shoot themselves,cut themselves,hang themselves,or overdose at any minute. And they DO need special care actually. And no,they dont need to have luxury or whatever,they just need help with their mental health. So,go do some research about it b4 u go saying stuff like this😒
Gacha Editor Well, not exactly. You’re talking about a suicidal person. While depression can lead to suicidal thoughts, depression in itself can be put quite simply: you’re depressed all the time. You’re right on how they do need special care, but treating someone with depression like they could end their life any second is bad for both people. You’re giving the depressed person unrealistic expectations. At the same moment, if they notice you are treating them differently they will just feel more ashamed.
@@phil5892 "Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?" Why do you assume that anyone, including you, should be treated as anything, but a pile of trash? Unlike you, worthless hide, they don't assume _anything._ That's why they just want to die and be done with it, because they know that no one will ever do anything good to them and being the world's punching-bag forever is physically impossible.
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
My school talked about suicide and depression in 7th grade. The whole class went awkward for me, but some kids in a back were whispering about something and a few even laughed. The whole topic was unnerving for me because I was and still am struggling with these things, but it was just sad how some kids laughed during this.
My school has never talked about suicide. My school has never evan talked about mental health. My school would freak out if one of the teachers evan mentioned mental health.
Once we could give tips on what subject we would get into, because we had to much time. But then we only talked about other stupid stuff and he totally avoided my tip of mental heath...
My school wouldn't talk about school shooting safety until we got two threats a day apart. My school didn't even touch the subject of suicide until it already happened... Three times, in the same year, (also the year that the threats happened).
This film is amazing. 5/5 stars. Firstly, this is a cinematic masterpiece from an editing and acting standpoint. The music, lighting and acting. Wonderful. Of course, the acting isn’t perfect, but most of it is great. Especially the main character, Mark. You can see everyone around him, smiling, laughing, and him. Making unconvincing smiles and saying “I am fine”, like at 8:28. Being, unknowingly, depressed. At 10:29 you can see him awake in his dark room, with a smiling face on the top of his bed. This is indicating that everyone else around him wants him to be happy and thinks he’s happy. But he’s not. And next, the metaphor. The one main metaphor, the bag of rocks. Everyone has one, it is invisible to everyone but everyone can access it. Except you. I saw one comment on this video which said ‘you don’t control your thoughts, your thoughts control you.’ And that is what this bag of rocks is trying to tell you. It is what other people do that effect your emotions, whether it is putting rocks in your bag or taking them out. The best part is you can see the bag getting physically bigger and heavier, and Mark struggling even more as soon as someone says or does something to him, or even indirectly. At 8:14 you can see, these people didn’t mean to hurt his feelings but knowing he is getting replaced adds a big rock to his bag of depression. No one else notices he has a backpack. But, at the end, he realises everyone has their own. Because Dany, at the end, shows him that she has her own bag of rocks, and then he can see everyone else does, and every time someone says something nice to someone else, one more rock gets removed. At the end when they both throw down their bags, that is just saying that “I am happy. I am the happiest in my life.” And it’s true. Everyone is sad at some point, but everyone is happy at some point too. It might not be all the time, it might seem like none of the time. But whether you notice it or not, people love you. People care about you. People want to hear what you’re going through. That’s what psychologists are for. Therapists. Suicide hotline. School councillors. Schools are the main issue. Many do not talk about mental health at all. Some do, but don’t have proper resources. Others have both. But there are little who talk about the big thing. Suicide. People killing themselves. They’re afraid it’s gonna hurt the kids. Well, guess what - it’ll hurt them even more if they don’t hear it. Because talking is what matters. If you are going through anything, I encourage you to talk about it. Even if it’s just a small thing, it will grow. This is one of my favourite analogies: Once something forms in your mind, it’s like a snowball at the top of a mountain. Every day that thought stays in your mind, the ball rolls down the hill, gains more snow, more weight, more momentum. And one day, that snowball will but the bottom of the mountain with a crash. That crash is your death. Stop it while it’s early. If you talk to your loved ones even for just a few minutes a day, that ball will melt away. The sun will come over, signalling the summer, the end of the snowy period, light, hope. But if you don’t, winter will come again. The snowball will form. And the process will start all over again. So please, I know it’s not easy. I have been through it, as have many others. You might feel embarrassed, scared. That’s okay. You might think you’d be seen as weak, but in my eyes you’re the strongest person ever for talking about it. You don’t have to talk to your loved ones. Not in person. You can write letters, emails, call a support line, take online counselling, do whatever you need. But don’t do it alone. Because you can’t. And that’s okay. You’re like a stick. One measly twig will break easily. But, if you talk about it, gather supporters, add more sticks - together, you would form a big bunch of sticks, much harder to break. If you break up the snowball, those small snowballs will not hit the ground. They don’t have enough momentum. There are people out there whose job it is to ensure your safety. To listen to you. So, please, if you need it, ask for help. Otherwise, that ball might start rolling. You may not need help. But know that there are people here for you, always. You can talk to me, even. I’m not sure I would provide much support, I am not a professional, but I can provide a bit. And if that’s not enough, there are thousands, millions of people out there who can give that full support. So, my best friends, stay safe out there. And once again, really good job to BlueDog Films.
Pay attention to the details- Even something as small as getting dressed can be a difficult task. I love how much attention they put into this! Great work!!
@@zrdoclive92 yeah and it doesn't help that people call you lazy when you actually have a hard time trying to convince yourself to even move out of bed... honestly I ask myself what's the point every day and I still had no idea why I keep going.
When I feel depressed I dont want to talk to people or take a shower or get dressed, I want to sleep all day and think how much of a falier in life I am. So this movie was great to see.
x._.xdylanthevillan x._.x your right too i am struggling with depression and on top of that anxiety and barely able to fall asleep before 1:00am when you wake up at 6 in the morning..it’s hard. I believe in you even if I don’t believe in myself I know at least you will get through this good luck and to anyone else who struggles with depression or other mental health issues. 🙏💞 god bless you all
I think u guys who comment here dont get it.. depression means: feeling nothing. It's this feeling that will kill u. Thats why we cut ourselfs. Because we want to feel at least Something. If the world is black and white, u never can be happy, laughing or crying ur eyes out, you never feel better. Its that instant feeling of nothing that drives us crazy.
The ending made me cry, I love the fact, that you used the bag of rocks to make a point. It really made the subject stand out more. I'm currently making a Short Film about depression too, and I hope I can bring a massage over like you did. Keep up the great work! This subject need more talking about, sometimes more than people know.
Losing someone to suicide is horrible. 9 days marks 3 months since my friend took her life and it’s horribe. Bullying at school and online is the reason. Schools don’t do anything about bullying and it’s pissing me off
But opposite actions can. You have a way out! When you're ready, I'm here to pull you up from a the cliff you fell off of. I am being swung into depression. But helping you makes me feel like I'm not useless. Whatever gave you depression had to have been bad. But we need something great. PROMISE me that when coronavirus is over, we can be best friends.
I am here for you if you need a friend to talk to i go through depression too your not the only one the lord jesus christ is watching over you and will always love you and keep you safe
To all who is wondering, the backpack was an example of how his feelings were. The heavier the backpack got, the bigger his problems got. Eventually he fell because the backpack got way to heavy and almost took his life. But when he talked about it, the lighter the backpack got. And I just want to say to whoever is struggling with depression, PLEASE talk about it. It makes it better. Trust me
Tried to talk to my friends about it. They didn’t get it. I will never talk to my parents about it because they will start treating me like an alien, ultimately making it worse. I’m stuck in this endless cycle of judgement and pain.
It's so sad that this video described what depression feels like, at least for me. It was so accurate, my body feels physically heavy 24/7, so I know what it's like to carry a bag of rocks on my back. Just know you are never EVER alone and we'll all get through this life one way or another. Keep fighting ❤
"No one notices your tears, no one notices your sadness, no one notices your pains, but they all notice your mistakes."
Exactly 💯
"I got all the other questions right ,but you laugh when I mess up one?" -Albert Enstine
💗💖
Naruto
What tears?
I can't even cry unless i watch a character d!e in a movie
True
Telling a depressed person to not be depressed is like telling someone with cancer to heal themselves
Agreed
That’s some deep shiz right there
Ikr!
Fr 💀
MusicIsMyLife I know right...someone told me to NOT be depressed and I’m depressed and it hurt more than they thought it would. I can’t describe how painful being “the way I am” people don’t understand, listen, or just laugh it off.
"youll never understand how deep someone has sunk till you swim in the same water they drowned in"
-a wise person
real.
was it you who made the quote?
(ngl, I made my own quote before and put "a wise person" on it lol)
Hope everyone doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️
Telling a depressed person to be happy is just the same as telling a disabled person to stand up
Exactly
They can just help them
Yes, yes they do.
Stop comparing depression to other traumas.
Depression is much worse than a lot of things since it isn’t something which is fully curable and if it isn’t visibly shown it can kill that individual ( I just want you to know I’ve been suffering with depression for 3 years straight now after constant harassment, bully, assault and feeling like I’m an outcast to society ) this short film perfectly describes how I feel
"Depression is like when you're colorblind, and all the people try to explain to you how colorful the world is."
~Quote from Unknown
Well no I'm colour blind and all people ask is what I see
I'm colorblind and depressed lol
that's the perfect explanation
@@stevenorkevin9367
I'm so sorry.
And I guess people ask you because they're trying to get insight as to how to help you.
Some people dont want you to be depressed.
I’m colorblind and have depression, I never really thought of it that way but...your not wrong lol
My school talked about suicide prevention. Once. *After* someone committed suicide.
jesus christ...
Damn..........
Four years ago a kid from my school killed himself because he was bullied, abused at home and had depression, anxiety and ADHD, the school baned us from talking about it and gave on assembaly about. There is now a board at the train station in his memory that has loads of writing and quotes,, but the most noticable thing that it says is "no more bad days"
The same thing happened at my school. I don’t understand why they didn’t talk about it before. Then there would have been a slight chance that maybe she wouldn’t have done it. Gladly, she is still alive. I don’t know what I’d do without her...
... they didn’t talk about drugs until kids were vaping in the bathroom... they didn’t talk about self-harm until after multiple kids were ‘told on’... they didn’t talk about suicide until she attempted it twice...
HONESTLY WTF!
“If you’re depressed just don’t be depressed” has the same energy as “if you catch yourself on fire just put yourself out”
I mean you can put yourself out
@@daniellivaa8057 and @epic7783 Are you guys doing okay?
But, you CAN put yourself out 💀
@@WeeWhiz270 You are right I was not thinking that much while making that comment
If you drown in a whirlpool just make the water be normal
Me saying, "I'm fine" is really just, "I have no clue how I feel"
Sameee
Exactly
Are you okay ?
Depression is like being in a body that tries to survive but with a Mind that is hopeless and tries to die.
And we all know the mind controls the body
So am i depressed? Because thats how i am/ feel all the time
@@babybird7654 who knows
Don't make assumptions about it tho, maybe you're not, maybe you are 🤷♂️
Maybe go see a therapist? Or talk to your parents or friends about it?
Fairy Tail - Rakudai kishi no cavalry オパールとスカーレット Well what if you’re too young to go out on your own and you too scared to talk to your friends or family cause you trust no one. Then what do you do?
@@babybird7654 I'd say probably but if you have tendencies like no eating even when you can or your body is telling you to or wanting to that's a red flag see somebody talk to somebody
“I can’t do it anymore, everything feels so heavy” 😕 that hit hard
Linkin park
@@erinmccall8843 I'm holding on why is everything so heavy?
Reagan Duke 😞
@@ryuukun8925so much more than I can carry.
Me: is having a panic attack
My brain: your just doing it for attention.
Also me: *is alone in my room*
Ur brain needs to stfu
Dude- I feel called out.
*cuts my legs*
My entire nervous system: *YOU’RE JUST DOING IT FOR ATTENTION! YOU’RE A STUPID MONSTER!*
*I’m literally alone*
?!
I don’t get it?
@@maisie7336 sometimes are brains are weird when we suffer, especially when there is nothing specific to be upset about. For example, a gifted kid with a wonderful life and family could become depressed somehow, it happens to everyone, and then they might cut themselves. Or in Danni’s case, have panic attacks. Perhaps for feeling the need to be perfect. In that case, their mind will tell them that they’re just doing it for attention, when they aren’t. I sometimes feel like I’m doing it for attention and my pain is fake, but I also don’t know because I cry everyday.
There ye go
@@wonderstorm116 No I mean I don’t get what being alone in your room has to do with anything.
I wish people actually cared. May 24th, 2022. 8:06 pm. I will never forget the day that changed my life forever. I was at home about to change after a softball game, I had just gotten home. I usually try and change right away but I was to lazy to that day. I had called my bsf right before my game, he was telling me he couldn’t make it. I got a call, it was him. I obviously answered right away. He said “hey, I just wanna say thanks for always being there. Just know, I love you. I’ve loved you since that day in 2nd grade when you talked to me and no one else did since I was the new kid. I didn’t even know what love was, but I knew what I felt with you was smthn special. I will always love you, just promise to never forget me” and hung up. I was so confused, worried. I ran over to his house, it was only a couple blocks down from where I lived. I knocked on the door and his mom answered. I asked where he was and she said in his room and asked if everything was ok. I just ran up the stairs to his room. That’s when I saw him. He was laying on the ground, fresh c*ts on his arms and an empty pill bottle next to him. I remember the scream I let out. But even worse, the scream his mom let out, I will never ever forget that. I ran to him and held him in my arms, begging him to stay with me. I told him I loved him and to keep his eyes open, begging him. I will never forget his last words “I love you, promise to never forget that” I said I love him too and I promise. His eyes closed and I could feel his body go limp. I will never forget the feeling of my heart shattering into a million pieces. The way his mom came and hugged me, the way we just sat there crying. The ambulance showed up about 10 minutes later. They tried to bring him back but we all knew he was gone. I mean, he had been clinically dead for 10 minutes. I fell to me knees, sobbing while I watched them zip up the body bag, watching the ambulance drive off. That day changed my life forever. He died just 2 days before his 14th birthday. He was supposed to be my main chambelane at my quince. Now, instead of replacing him, I’ll be dancing with a picture of him. We made a promise to each other that if we weren’t married by 30, we would marry each other. We even got each other promise rings so we could never break that promise. We’re so annoying that we even made and signed a contract. We were 11 when we made that promise, and I still stand by it. My birthdays in 17 days, I’m not ready to turn 15 without him by my side. Like, ik he will always be with me but it just sucks yk. I didn’t go to school for a week after that happened, I stayed in my room all day, crying myself to sleep every night. I fell into a deep depression. To make things worse, when I went back to school all they cared abt was all my absences. All the work I would have to make up from when I was gone. It’s like they didn’t even care that I lose my best friend, my other half, my world. I will never be the same without him, I will never have a friend just like him. True friends are hard to find, and I lost him.
i am so sorry about that. i hope you’re doing better now. rest in peace to your friend.
You and your other half and his mum deserve all of the love in the world。 ♡♡
Hey, I'm sure you've heard people say that it's going to be ok. I'm here to remind you that it's also ok to not be ok. You are human. You have emotions there's nothing you can do about them except talk about them. Bottling it up won't help. Trust me, I've tired. I know I'm just some random stranger on the internet, but I'm here if you need to talk. You will get past this I'm sure of it. I had a bsf die too. The school did nothing for him. I will never 100% understand what you are thinking, just know if it's anything bad there's people who love and care about you. There's also people who will listen, please talk to someone. The biggest thing to know is that talking to someone is never a burden on them, don't ever think it is. Please reach out of you need help. ❤
That is horrible. I hope that you are ok. It must hurt to think about him. And i hope that if you are not ok that life get better❤
I am so sorry. I feel hurt reading through ur lines. Then I am in my sense, thinking where went wrong, what led to it.
I feel like half the comments don’t know the back pack is depression and that trying to get it off is suicide
Mah dudeh thaths wHAT l just sayed...
saw the backpack and i knew exactly what was going on
I know
I understand but now I want a sandwich
I didn’t comment but I thought that
We live in an era where "I want to die" has no weight, and nobody cares if your depressed. Just how it works
That’s how I get away with telling everyone that I want to die without them caring. They always joke about me being depressed. Oh you can’t be more depressed than her😂! I just go along with the jokes I get it everywhere. No matter where I go I find someone joking about me. I just can’t. They don’t know the truth. They don’t know that I’ve been raped, abused and bullied. They don’t know me
Dang, I'm really sorry to hear that @@imgayyy1032 . I really don't like that people joke around with such serious situations and labels.
WOWHugø _ thanks... but there isn’t much point in feeling bad for me. I don’t really feel much any more.
Straight facts
Everyone cares if you're depressed, it's just that nobody shows that they're depressed.
The small detail of the backpack being to heavy so he can’t sleep was really relatable and I loved it
telling someone “don’t have depression life’s sos beautiful” is literally like telling someone with asthma “don’t have asthma there’s so much air”
When he said “I can’t do it anymore and everything is getting heavier”, I felt that on a whole other level
Same
Me too
Same ❤️💔😢
Yup...
Same I started crying
the backpack concept makes it easier to see and understand how depression can make a person feel. :’(
Yeah
It's like a weight on your shoulder which is hard to remove
Yea..
Agreed
I agree and I also got you 1k likes
As a young girl who has struggled with suicidal thoughts for years, I applaud this short film because it really explains to people "outside" what it is like. Great job!
The teacher must’ve forgotten to study for the quiz on adolescent depression.
When someone killed themselves in my school, classes. carried on, they didn't speak of it, didn't cancel school, didn't offer help to those struggling. Some kids made fun of it. I was so heartbroken. Especially because he was my friend....
I'm so sorry hun. You're gonna be ok. I hate it when kids make fun of things like that...😔 You are not alone. Me, jesus, many other people here for you. sending love..💗💗💗💗
Damn
Jesse Walara what was his name?
sorry for losing your friend. hope all is going well for you. Prayers for you and his family- say his name in remembrance and know he is not forgotten.
I'm sorry
When the teacher said “I’m sure YOU can answer this question” Oh my god I felt so horrible
I know right
I hate it when teachers say things like that! Like do you want me to hate myself more?!
Yrahh fuk those kinds @@coca-cora8129
I just wanted to say that the metaphor with the rocks in the bag resembling all the negative thoughts and happenings we carry around with us is really really great.
I am a 13 year old German teen and the thought of suicide has been in my head for around 4 years. It all started when I first heard my parents arguing. When I heard them screaming I was scared, I didn’t know what to do. I already knew my dad had an alcoholic problem and my mom was already tired of him screaming at her for no reason. But still, I was scared. I couldn’t sleep. For many months i heard them argue EVERY NIGHT. While that happened, I just sat on the stairs, listening to them. Trying to give myself the idea of what’s going on so that I could help. I always had nightmares about my parent divorcing after that. But they stayed together for a while. While my dad’s alcohol problem got worse, my mom talked less and less. She was always doing something in the house so when I needed help with school, I had to ask my drunk dad. My dad (who also has Anger issues) obviously screamed at me when I didn’t know an answer. I feel stupid and often cried, when he asked me why I was crying, I just had to cry more. Should he know why I am crying? He is screaming at his own daughter in anger, just because she didn’t know the answer to a question?
That’s where I started to feel worthless. More and more, stupid. Then, middle school started. All of the sudden, everything was fine. I found my best friend, Emilia. But shortly before 7th grade, my parents got divorced. It was heartbreaking for me, now I know it’s for The best. But at first my parents wanted to seperate me and my brother, No way! My brother was the only one I genuinely told about my feelings, who knows that I’m just not the „funny friend“. We convinced them not to eventually. But times got hard. My mom was totally unhappy, and my dad was almost broke.
I just felt unhappy with life at that point, nothing really gave me joy anymore. At that point I thought about suicide the most. I didn’t want to tell my friends, I didn’t want them to feel like they weren’t good enough or that they did something wrong. I don’t want them to treat me any differently, I just want them to know. I started isolating, being „lazy“, not talking to anyone, listening to music all the time, didn’t leave my room. I was on my iPad the whole day and night. Fell asleep at 5am, woke up at 12pm. My mom called me lazy the whole time. Making me feel even more worthless, she even hit me once and then just left my room. 7th grade „finally“ started. I hated it and I still do, our classes for mixed up again. Now I was in a class full of the „cool kidz“. The ones who’d always bully you, smoke, get into fights and are just popular. I feel like they always eyed me up and down and find me annoying. I’m scared of saying anything in front of them, what If I answer a simple question wrong? What will they think? I struggled with those thoughts.
Just never feeling understood, feeling like I can never tell anyone about my emotions. Feeling like I’m just overreacting, I mean, some people have it way worse than me right? Many things between that have happened as well, I try to not talk about too many details as I try to shut them out due to trauma. But now, 8th grade started. I feel more used to my class but still unhappy. Almost none of my friends are there and they all moved on and got different friends. Friends that are cooler than me. I’m distancing again, online I’m pretending to be someone who I’m not. I’m pretending who I want to be. My mom still calling me lazy, Grades going down but I’m too scared to say anything. I didn’t go to a therapist. What if they tell my mom? I don’t want her to feel bad. But sometimes I just really want to leave, have a quick ending to all of this.
Hey I hope you are doing a little better now. I am no authority on mental health but seek therapy if you need it. I personally found that talking to people is very important when dealing with this type of thoughts. If your brother understands you on other topics he will probably understand you on this one as well. He seems like a good guy. Talk to him if you feel like you are able to. Also if the depressive or suicidal thoughts get to much tell someone. You are important. People care about you. Also on the topic of overreacting: other people being in a worse situation then you does not invalidate your feelings and thoughts whatsoever. I felt like that as well. Those thoughts don‘t help at all they only made me more depressed. But talking to people really helped. At this point this sounds like an empty platitude but I mean it. People will listen. If you want you can start by telling random strangers on the internet if it helps. I figured out that this kinda eliminates the fear of being judged for me personally. I would be happy to hear from you (if part of this text didn’t make sense I am sorry, it’s getting really late)
Hey, ich hoffe du findest jemanden mit dem du sprechen könntest. Vielleicht ist bei dir die Schulsozialarbeit eine gute erste Anlaufstelle, vielleicht ist es aber auch eine Beratungsstelle oder eine Klinik (ich weiß, es klingt extrem aber ist gut um mal weg zu kommen von diesem dauerhaften „Zustand“)
Ich selbst kämpfe sehr mit Suizidgedanken und auch Svv… mir persönlich hilft es sehr mit meiner Schulsozialarbeiterin darüber zu sprechen, ich habe eine sehr vertrauensvolle und verständnisvolle Schulsozialarbeiterin.
Meine Eltern wissen auch nichts wirklich von meinen psychischen Problemen. Das wird sich wahrscheinlich demnächst ändern und ich hab sehr Angst vor der Reaktion und dem, wie es dannach weitergeht aber ich bin mir sicher, dass es der richtige Weg ist und dass sich was verändern muss.
Ich weiß, es ist unglaublich schwer und im Kopf ist eine große Blockade, der Gedanke, dass man niemanden verletzen möchte und es einem doch gar nicht so schlecht geht und dass es Anderen doch viel schlechter geht und so weiter ABER bitte bitte bitte versuche irgendwie diese Stimme zu ignorieren und suche, wenn es irgendwie geht, nach Menschen mit denen du sprechen kannst.
Sprechen hilft so viel, ich kenne dich ja nicht persönlich, deshalb kann ich dir nur ans Herz legen was mir meiner bescheidenen Erfahrung nach geholfen hat. Ich hoffe so sehr, dass du jemanden findest, dem du dich anvertrauen kannst!
Wenn du möchtest, könnten wir auch weiter schreiben, ob hier in der Kommentarspalte oder über Instagram oder so :)
Ich wünsche dir ganz viel Kraft und Mut auf jemanden zuzugehen, du hast diese Nachricht hier verfasst, ich bin sicher du kannst das auch schaffen :)
Ich hoffe, meine Nachricht war nicht allzu komisch oder unverständlich, ich wollte nur meine Gedanken zu deiner Situation teilen
I’m not hating on this comment, I really feel for you, but people’s experiences like these are what make me feel more shitty. I live in a good house hold with good parents and lots of food, clothes, roof over my head, and religion to back everything up. So when I’m crying and feel worthless in my room I just feel like a spoiled dramatic brat and that I should be dead, but that’s just the dramatic brat part of me saying that, because I’m worthless and wanna die… it’s just a never ending cycle… 💔❤️🩹
Hey, are you doing any better?
I ain’t reading all that
“I can’t do it anymore”
That broke me because I’ve said the same things
Same here... And I know people say that just to try and make the other person feel better, but I'm actually serious. I even learned how to tie a noose, just in case I can't take it anymore.
Thats how i feel i want to go home but im already hire i dont deserve a life any more i feel like everyone hates me i feel like everyone wants me to be perfect 24/7
I've been dealing with depression i Haven't told anyone about it i felt alone and i stopped eating i was sad all the time even at school i was in a very dark place at the time i told my friend about it thank god i told him about it but told my family and teachers i still have it everyday and i almost going to kill myself thank god i didn't I've been healing alot now I feel better now I'm happy and living my life that was in the past thank God i didn't kill myself it's isn't good or without living and breathing some people committed suicide with having depression and that's awful and heartbreaking teens adults and I've learned that killing yourself isn't healthy or Good it's scary and yeah live people and be happy not depressed i know many people have it live your life i know it's hard to get over it but be happy.
Same ❤️💔
Shit bruh
"Depression is living in a body that doesn't want to die , "but having a mind that wants to die"
xo.punkinxo xo this is copied
Ok spreading a message is 100% allowed
True
Learn how to use quotation marks
@UCVN2L7IoO3Lt4ERMhkch1tw its a quote you dumbass
Absolutely love how this film explores so many forms of depression so everyone can relate
Having depression and anxiety is like having a body that fights to live but a mind that wants to die.
The amount of times I have come back to this video when I’m having a relapse is. . . I can’t even describe how emotional I get watching this video.
Has it gotten better?
@@hzy_252
I’ve started to move forward in my life. It’s still hard and I’m struggling, but I’ve never felt so free in my life. Despite all of the downs I’ve had quite a few ups.
I hope you're doing okay now human. Remember to be gentle and kind to yourself. Life is a hard roller coaster sometimes, but the beautiful moments are always there.
Same here, friend.
I couldn't have put this into words more accurate and clear. Thank you. Wishing you all the best bc you do deserve the best
I can't talk to anyone about wanting to die bc everyone has the same response. "same"
We just don't know what to say
I can talk to you about it. If you need me to drop my Instagram and for me to send u a dm so that u can talk to me if you ever are feeling down, that’s fine.
Same
Vikktorria Lunsford yea... I know
It is sad, when people say “same” is so messed up. It’s like having cancer and you say “i’m so done with chemo i should just die” and someone says “same”. It’s just messed up
When you're depressed you don't control your thoughts. Your thoughts control you. I wish people would understand this.
Add severe PTSD and anixety to that.... That's me.
@@sagemoon640 add ptsd, ocd, anxiety disorder + psychotic disorder and other bunch of shit, that is me, tho, you got this
Trust me I do
Sage Moon i may have serve PTSD too.
I really understand this
Wow! This was powerful! I'm in tears. I've struggled with depression all my life. I'm 57 years old. I attempted suicide when I was 21. It is my biggest regret that I put my mother through that. I'm so thankful I didn't succeed. I would have missed out on so much. Dear young people, if the voice in your head is telling you to end it all tell it to shut up because that voice is just a lie! You are valuable and you are worth it!
Love you
❤
“Depression is real.. but love is real too” this made me cry 😭❤️
Depression is being exhausted when you got a 8hr sleep. Laughing, smiling, even talking becomes so tiring..
"Depression is being exhausted when you got a 8hr sleep" Nothing surprising when you waste all energy you could possible get from that time on waking up. " Laughing, smiling, even talking becomes so tiring.." Because it's a chore, to say the least.
I feel that everyday of my life I put on a mask around people but when I'm alone I feel like dieing
i sleep nearly 13h a day..still tired from the worlds sh*t
Keanna Janae omg yes. I was saying I was tired, and got asked how long I slept for, I said 8 hours and they said it was no excuse. I’m seriously depressed and have an eating disorder so people just don’t understand. They don’t get how tiring everything gets
Liv Myers I totally understand and I’m so sorry, please stay strong and know you’re not alone.🥺❤️
"Why do you think someone would ever take their own life?"
Because the pain becomes so unbearable and the world so bleak that you see death as an escape.
Yes. Been through it. Rapped in school and out picked on i tried to die 5xs. Been in the hospital many times
I have depression. Depression makes your body tired, making you sleep almost all of the time. You also have pain. It hurts. Death, is like the best escape. But im too afraid to do it.
Damn, thats me...
Yep thats so true ive been there
@@ninnininni8862 im so sorry 😢❤️
The way that the backpack makes it harder for him to get up and get dressed is such an amazing detail
I have to say that I truly liked this representation of how depression feels like. The backpacks as a symbol for all the small things that bring you more and more down and stack up to becoming the most important problem in your life. You can't logic your way out of this cruel situation, the only thing that can help you is giving all your trust to a person who loves you.❤
The school thing was so accurate. Teachers always add more fuel to the fire.
you aren't edgy
You arent edgy
Steven Palomino I don’t see how this person was posing as “edgy”
@@rubys111 fuck off
And they don't get what they're doing because most of them are stupid and
they just make it much worse than it's already ik what you mean I'm feeling the same
it makes me so mad that our school doesnt even bother to teach us about mental health and suicide
princeofnagano I agree. If teachers even mention it, it’s in an offhand way like “Oh, but none of you will ever have to deal with it.” 65% of my peers suffer from depression or another mental health issue, and that’s just my 1st period. One of their students, a lovely girl who has never been anything but kind to me, attempted suicide 2 months ago, and they still smile and act like it will never happen
my school does
@@ajsjkskslala then you're lucky ig
Hannah L. One of my friends successfully committed suicide. The college let everyone know but did nothing else.
I tried to kill my self and the teacher kill
Joked around about it the next day
This hit home, big time. I'm a semi colon and want to thank those who put this film together.
I thought you were roleplaying as punctuation until I remembered what being a semi-colon means.
She sounds like a caring friend I never had.
This is the best metaphor I've seen for depression yet
Same
same
@markjvp a metaphor is symbolization, stop being a fucking idiot.
Kit Post yeah, now I actually know how to explain how I feel to everyone
K
Deppresion is like being homeless and people are telling you to buy a house
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
"Work"
"I cant, I didn't go to school"
"Go to school"
"I cant"
"Why"
"I don't have money"
yea, that’s the sad truth nowadays.
❤
Homeless people: can you spare me some change?
Society: get a job
Homeless people: nobody’s hiring
Society: I don’t care, get a job
Depression is like telling a sped to be normal
Wow. That’s an amazing metaphor for depression. A weight on your shoulders that gets heavier and heavier, wondering why people can’t see what’s wrong even when they can tell something’s off, being able to lighten the load by talking to others, not being able to sleep because of the uncomfortable weight, and perhaps you hurt yourself trying to remove the bag from your back.
Him cutting the backpack represents cutting yourself
And him trying to pull his neck through it is like hanging
“YOU LEFT THE TOILET SEAT UP... OH NO”
This caught me off guard
Yes me to i thought it was very stupid
It just played
@@hellomortal6032 thats what it was supposed to be
Honestly I was crying, after you comment I laughed and was still crying
I mean the guys not wrong
Like your gf or wife saying that you pretty much just run like sonic
Every small thing can trigger depression
Big things and small things... they really pile up
@@Lesbo.dragon I couldn't agree more. I get so much stuff in school going on no one knows about it, I cry myself to sleep and I have 1 person there for me, cause he knows what its like. This I my boyfriend and we both struggle with depression 😅😢😭
Or you could be feeling just slightly below average and something (even small) can set it off. Situational depression is really common, anyone can be depressed, even if you don’t have clinical depression
I relapsed from not cutting for a few days from being frustrated with putting laundry away.
I got depresdion from trauma
This short film was beautiful. I’ve been suicidal for 7 years now, I have a plan and I’m going soon… but I hope everyone else out there who’s struggling makes it out.
sending you love, you can get through this i promise
I am sorry that it has come to that point in your life I hope you don’t do it, but it isn’t my life so I can’t tell you what to do but hopefully you have someone to stop you from doing it
Yeah I understand, I’m leaving on March 27th❤
please dont leave. I know it’s not something you want to read but I need to say it. I know that leaving this world may seem like the answer, but trust me it’s not. Because once you leave, the presence you have left in this world will impact everyone you know. Even if you don’t think so, there are people who care and love you to the point where they don’t want to see you leave. I know that you don’t know me and I don’t know you, but I want to try my absolute hardest to convince you not to leave. I know it’s not my place but still. It’s heartbreaking to hear about the people who have left but it’s even worse when there is someone alive who is planning on leaving and no one even notices. I noticed, and I want to help you. Please talk to me. About anything you’d like. You can vent to me or talk about your day or anything. I want to listen to your story. Please know that there is always someone out there who cares. And if you think that there is no one, then I’ll be the first one.
@@user-fw1xz4rx5m I’m 18 if that’s okay, but I’ll talk to you :/ I need help
I love the backpack representation, of people dealing with so much pressure so they self harm. It represents the things really well.
"Depression does not have hands, eyes, or legs but is still able to kill so many."
DDenzel
So do bombs, guns, and an endless amount of health complications and illnesses like a heart attack or AIDS.
@@phil5892 Nothing compares to how many humans kill. They're behind depression, bombs, guns and pretty much everything else.
Very true. But humans, of course, have hands, eyes, and legs
@@phil5892 I'm glad you agree and have sense.
It's human that killed those depressed people
It society's responsible the parents the co-student the co-worker sometimes a friend or a lover
“The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see anyone else suffer the way they did.”
You deserve love and like
@@fhardosoutarikt4980 Thanks!
The first one I agree 50% because I'm an introvert and I don't normally talk a lot with people other than close ones. So I tent to act nice, but I can be salty too
@@afonso.d.v.rodrigues I'm an ambivert
@@chaos6687 oh cool ( what's that? 😅 )
As someone struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, this is the most accurate representation I’ve seen, great work! ❤
I still don't get it ;-;
But I will be there for people who want my presence
@@iCraftDay this may seem cliche but live for yourself, not others. _you_ are your own person and should only ever be like that. people should only be in your life if they make you happy.
@@LIZGUARD__0 thanks
But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts..
I think I just did not understand fully the film.
I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
@@LIZGUARD__0 thanks
But also I can't figure out what I meant by my previous comment, I can't remember ever struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts..
I think I just did not understand fully the film.
I really agree with living for yourself and not others, that's why I am having fun with new hobbies (skating) and education
“bro, just stop being depressed”
*extreme inhale*
“OH YEAH, WELL WHY DON’T YOU JUST STOP BEING BROKE???? HUH??????? that’s what i thought.”
"Depression is like a bag of rocks it hurts until you dont care anymore"
Don't know how this stupid comment got 106 likes from may I remind you 106 people. You actually start caring so much you can't anymore, there's this thing in life that scares you more than death itself. That why people take their own lives.
I mean he's literally referring to the video.And it's true,Depression is like a bag of rocks.It hurts until you don't really care about life anymore and you just want to end the suffering.
@@peachyunboxing2611 why wouldn't you be able walk in the first place?
But the feel is still there, and you always worrying.
@@peachyunboxing2611 imagine getting so fucking pissed you cant spell anymore lmao
Are we not gonna talk about how his mom said "10 pages isn't that bad" the hell?!
no we're not
@@aidan6021 oh okay
So true 😭🤣 it really is a lot, especially in such a short period of time
elijah nadu I mean he could’ve gotten more- also no lets not
If my teacher said imma write 10 pages imma do sth that he would be scared for the rest of his life!NOT KIDDING
I’m a survivor and I’m still struggling with depression today. I can say that it’s a really bad and sometimes scary feeling, and I feel bad for everyone else that has, will, and is struggling too…
Everything in this video I can relate to, except one thing. I have no one who checks up on me and makes sure that I’m okay.. guess I’m a great liar about how I am truly feeling.
*hug* hey, whats going on💜
I care about you and I’m so proud 💜 I may not know you but I know exactly how you feel.
For me it's like a bag of rocks, but then also underwater. It's like I can't breathe but I can't swim to air either.
Depression is like drowning, but you can see everyone else around you breathing.
Yess
Mariah Gubler true that is so true and I feel touched
Yeppers that's depression for ya
I get that. I can see everything moving so fast above the surface and at this point I've given up trying to swim to the air. It feels so hopeless and I am so far away.
when she grabbed the knife from him and they hugged my heart dropped
kip isaac I don’t have a heart lol
Same I bursted into tears when I saw that scene
OMFG THAT SCENE WAS SOOOO ADORABLE
kip isaac same here
The emo kids be like ,,wHaT Is LifE"
This video. I love it. When he tries to end it all with the knife, he stops and looks at his wrist, contemplating whether or not he should slit his wrists. And I LOVE its a boy portraying depression and suicidal tendencies! Most of the men in my life don’t express emotions or talk about themselves. I’m glad this video popped up on my fyp. And men, if you see this, you can always talk to people the way you feel and women too. The gays, girls and the theys❤ you’re safe with me❤
God the scene when she walks in on him with the knike to the chest is just gut wrenching. The panic in her voice, the look on his face when she sees him. Its so sad and was really well executed
I started crying when he said “ I can’t do it, I can’t do it anymore”
Samee
It was so relatable...
I bursted into tears when she took the knife away from him
Same
I know
*"Depression is a endless rollercoaster of saddness and pain."*
There is way more than sadness and pain bro
And there is only one way to get off the rollercoaster
Ur 5
@@austinanimeisreallycool2536 what if they were? Depression can happen at any age
*"Anxiety is a endless rollercoaster of worries"*
watching this made a lump grow in the back of my throat if that makes sense. as someone who's attempted at a young age without anyone knowing this made me all sorts of emotions. thank you for making this
There's a huge difference between someone who feels depressed for a week compared to someone who is diagnosed as having clinical depression or the scores of other mental illnesses that cause depression. Either case, if anyone ever mentions suicide take it seriously and tell their family or a teacher, or whomever, even the police. Once the act is completed, there's no coming back
But what if u opened up to teacher partially, helplines, parents partially and they see some signs like not eating much even though I was eating way too much and like overweight just 1 month before and even crying in front of them, and even opened to school counselor and they all say to divert it to studies.
@dedipyakilari Look....I've attempted several times and ideation more times I can count....are you diagnosed with any mental health disorders???? If not, that's a great way to send a message to your family and others. Also. If you get any thoughts on suicide....or worse you have a plan...PLEASE TELL SOMEONE. Your issues could be resolved in weeks if you inform those who will listen. For some medications help a lot....try to walk or take jogging or a gym....endorphins and oxygen to the brain really helps. The best thing for all of us is a really really good therapy. Some psychiatrists do this, and some might refer you to someone. Just please take the action steps needed. If you have any questions...just ask me
Me at shcool: funny as hell
Me at home:crying
JosephJellyBelly 151 E.X.A.C.T.L.Y, i put on a mask on school. Trying to keep everyone happy. And when i come home i throw the mask away and i’ll just cry
Same for me 😕
JosephJellyBelly 151 same
True
Me
Suicidal:
-People avoid it
-They are annoyed by it
-They don't know what's happening.
Suicide:
-"I wish I could've stopped it."
-"I should've listened."
-"I wish they could've told me."
ALWAYS LISTEN to someone who is suicidal. It's all fun and games till they actually do it. Please.
Thank you and that's also why people should stop bulking!!!
Bulling sorry auto correct
I tried to drink bleach and my parents were insensitive towards it and called it “sippin’ bleach”.
@@BigGirthyRod oh damn
Sebastian Castellanos I’m sorry, you didn’t have to hear that.
the fact i started crying when he said I can’t do it anymore
Thank you for this vitally important short film. Quite true that none of us who have struggled with suicidal depression are ever alone or unloved.
All I can think about is
“you left the toilet seat up”
“Oh no.....”
*boss music plays *
Finally something I understand
BAHAHAHAHAAADJDJWJFBBSNRKWJFKW0
bonzi buddy did this
r/ihadaseizure
Someone finally said something
“I can’t....I can’t do it anymore! Everything is so heavy”
I felt that.
I know I felt that before
Mood
Annabelle Kircher Gen Z
It's hard
@@janettr1533 what?
This made me cry, at first I was alittle sceptical but as the bag gets heavier and he tried to get rid of it and everything he tries doesn't work, then persists to get heavier and it turns into a state of panic to get it off, the more he tries the more frustrated he gets, the harder everything becomes until breaking point. This can apply with any sort of depression and anxiety, the world can go from being amazing to being the hardest scariest thing to face. I'm pleased there is so much awareness regarding mental illness now, not just for people to understand but for people who suffer to find comfort knowing it is real, they are not alone and it's just a moment in time.
Telling a suicidal person that “there is so much to live for” is like saying to a blind person “there is so much to see”
Bro why is this considered as inappropriate. Its basically about how to over come depression. And it tells a really good story of how ppl can conquer their depression. YT is a f**king normy
They marked it as "inappropriate" because it needs a trigger warning. Someone may accidentally click on this, and if they are considering suicide, this is the last thing they need. It's sorta like someone with an eating disorder being dragged into a video/conversation about food. It's just not good for their mental health. It could really hurt someone mentally, as everyone has a different mental state.
@@lumiiinous me, with an unspecified eating disorder [like anorexia mainly] and suicidal, I can agree with that statement.
Well RUclips considers it inappropriate and has it flagged and marked.
Did anyone else get that pop up when they clicked on this video, and then you either have to cancel it or confirm it before the video starts to play?
That is marxism/facism/socialism.
@@lumiiinous I agree it does need a trigger warning. However, when you're in the darkness of depression, I consider this video is still a positive eye-opener. It gives hope that maybe by talking to someone, your burden can lessen. And that's what is needed in those moments, hope, support, knowledge.
@@sblbenleb8720 It is a good point, but I'm still standing my ground about the warning. It CAN be an eye-opener, but from my personal experiences and what could POTENTIALLY happen, it can also be bad for a person. I've struggled with cutting for the past year and a half, and when I watched cutting videos, I would think about it more, and more, and more. I even caved a couple of times. So, it can help, but in my opinion, I'd rather be safe than sorry.
Depression is the backpack! Makes it hard to sleep at night, pulls you down, gets more and more heavy. I love this.
It’s probably bad that what used to remove those rocks for me was cutting but now I’m 3 months clean :D
At first I thought this comparison wasn't fitting but now I think that it isn't even do far away from it (from all I know and can say).
I loved the scene when he tried to change his shirt because that's really how it feels like sometimes...
Micah Bryan I'm sorry to hear that I went through depression recently and I used to cut myself aswell
Suicide is wrong but certain people don't realise that
Life is for living
Not ending
If depression was a backpack then I would be carrying a suitcase
This is the most heartfelt, emotional and accurate representations of depression. Brought me to tears 😭❤️ Well done. This is simply amazing...❤️💚
You know, I felt this way a lot during 2020 plus with my weight loss training and my military processing. Idk how but I've remained strong enough to not pull the trigger. You have the strength within your soul whether you feel it or not. There's always a chance to get up and fight for a better life and happiness
I'm really proud of you! Very well said.
This film makes me want to cry, I have never watched something so relatable. My heart goes out to all who struggle with mental health, and those who have lost someone from suicide.
I want my school to show this to everyone so people can understand
Talk to your administration and press the issue, make the changes happen that you feel are important
Yako Vladdydaddy eh I’ll only be there for 8 more days :/
@@mintchirp4947 do it for those that will be there after you, our main purpose in life is to leave places we have been in better shape than when we got there. I charge you with this mission, and I have to apologize to someone I work with because I bullied them so I have to be the bigger person n apologize and you have to make a more nurturing environment at your school for those after you.
I you did that at my school you would be laughed at
“Depression is when you are blind and people ask you what color the grapes is.”
A little strange but i got the point
@@ghostygamer8604 It's not at all strange.................
I know right
He has a raspy cracking voice that makes me wonder if he has polyps/nodes, vocal spasms or was just a late bloomer.
The way they portrayed this is easy to understand. It helped me to know how some people feel and maybe I now know how to help people who feel like this
"Depression is Living in body that Fights to stay alive, With a mind that just wants to died."
AHEM copyright
Sheryl X3 dumbass he put it in quotes
Plus I’ve seen it too
@@windedgalaxy1170 but did anyone ask tho 🤔🤔🤔
To die not died XD
Well true I have been struggling at age 5 still am to age 12
The teacher was talking about depression,and then proceeds to scream at the top of his lungs at his student.😑
Gacha Editor
Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?
@@phil5892 @Otama Mama,people with depression are fragile. They could jump off a building,shoot themselves,cut themselves,hang themselves,or overdose at any minute. And they DO need special care actually. And no,they dont need to have luxury or whatever,they just need help with their mental health. So,go do some research about it b4 u go saying stuff like this😒
Gacha Editor
Well, not exactly. You’re talking about a suicidal person. While depression can lead to suicidal thoughts, depression in itself can be put quite simply: you’re depressed all the time. You’re right on how they do need special care, but treating someone with depression like they could end their life any second is bad for both people. You’re giving the depressed person unrealistic expectations. At the same moment, if they notice you are treating them differently they will just feel more ashamed.
@@phil5892 You're an ideal portrait of a jerk.
@@phil5892 "Why does everyone assume because one has depression he should have the special care and upmost luxury of being treated as a fragile, troubled being?" Why do you assume that anyone, including you, should be treated as anything, but a pile of trash? Unlike you, worthless hide, they don't assume _anything._ That's why they just want to die and be done with it, because they know that no one will ever do anything good to them and being the world's punching-bag forever is physically impossible.
I’m constantly suicidal and I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m sorry ml. Stay strong I’m proud of you.
Stay strong. God bless.
As someone who struggles with this and has woken up from a few attempts... This REALLY speaks volumes to me. Very well done 😎👏
The way he says *"I'm fine"* twice... it's like he's trying to convince himself dang bruh that hurts 😣
i have to try and convince myself that I'm fine every day
Ive been...in his shoes
@@the_end_isnt_so_scary6759 sorry to hear that :(
@@mjcoldron1864 dont even start
@@the_end_isnt_so_scary6759 sorry..
When he said “I can’t do it anymore” , it hit me 🥺
Same here
@Heartslove 3 bro I tried so many times that shit dont work for me
Bruh I cried for literally 5 mins when he grabbed the knife and just as I calmed down, played the video, he said that and it hit me again.
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
@Heartslove 3 noooo God doesn't love at all ive been beliving in him n working for him my whole intire life but u know what i get in turn nothing i only want to die right now
15:08 it doesn’t really relate to the story, but I like how it calls back to how she found their spare keys back then.
Yeah I found that so sweet honestly😭
My school talked about suicide and depression in 7th grade. The whole class went awkward for me, but some kids in a back were whispering about something and a few even laughed. The whole topic was unnerving for me because I was and still am struggling with these things, but it was just sad how some kids laughed during this.
“I’m fine, I promise.”
That’s probably the most told and the most untrue lie I’ve ever heard. And it pains me that I’ve said it myself more than once.
I'm fine= fucked up, insecure, negative, emotional.
The lie I've told: I'm doing great!.....?
Means: I'm so insucure, I'm so childish.
SIDE EYE.
@@EyeLoveLils 🤨 why you side eyeing them
The amount of times I’ve lied to people saying that
My school has never talked about suicide. My school has never evan talked about mental health. My school would freak out if one of the teachers evan mentioned mental health.
Once we could give tips on what subject we would get into, because we had to much time. But then we only talked about other stupid stuff and he totally avoided my tip of mental heath...
Even*
BitterCup UwU the person is seriously talking about something serious and you correct his/her spelling? great timing
My school wouldn't talk about school shooting safety until we got two threats a day apart. My school didn't even touch the subject of suicide until it already happened... Three times, in the same year, (also the year that the threats happened).
My school thinks all the kids are happy go lucky and that's not true
even though you are an elementary school doesn't make everyone okay
This film is amazing. 5/5 stars.
Firstly, this is a cinematic masterpiece from an editing and acting standpoint. The music, lighting and acting. Wonderful. Of course, the acting isn’t perfect, but most of it is great. Especially the main character, Mark. You can see everyone around him, smiling, laughing, and him. Making unconvincing smiles and saying “I am fine”, like at 8:28. Being, unknowingly, depressed. At 10:29 you can see him awake in his dark room, with a smiling face on the top of his bed. This is indicating that everyone else around him wants him to be happy and thinks he’s happy. But he’s not.
And next, the metaphor. The one main metaphor, the bag of rocks. Everyone has one, it is invisible to everyone but everyone can access it. Except you. I saw one comment on this video which said ‘you don’t control your thoughts, your thoughts control you.’ And that is what this bag of rocks is trying to tell you. It is what other people do that effect your emotions, whether it is putting rocks in your bag or taking them out. The best part is you can see the bag getting physically bigger and heavier, and Mark struggling even more as soon as someone says or does something to him, or even indirectly. At 8:14 you can see, these people didn’t mean to hurt his feelings but knowing he is getting replaced adds a big rock to his bag of depression. No one else notices he has a backpack. But, at the end, he realises everyone has their own. Because Dany, at the end, shows him that she has her own bag of rocks, and then he can see everyone else does, and every time someone says something nice to someone else, one more rock gets removed. At the end when they both throw down their bags, that is just saying that “I am happy. I am the happiest in my life.” And it’s true. Everyone is sad at some point, but everyone is happy at some point too. It might not be all the time, it might seem like none of the time. But whether you notice it or not, people love you. People care about you. People want to hear what you’re going through. That’s what psychologists are for. Therapists. Suicide hotline. School councillors.
Schools are the main issue. Many do not talk about mental health at all. Some do, but don’t have proper resources. Others have both. But there are little who talk about the big thing. Suicide. People killing themselves. They’re afraid it’s gonna hurt the kids. Well, guess what - it’ll hurt them even more if they don’t hear it. Because talking is what matters.
If you are going through anything, I encourage you to talk about it. Even if it’s just a small thing, it will grow. This is one of my favourite analogies: Once something forms in your mind, it’s like a snowball at the top of a mountain. Every day that thought stays in your mind, the ball rolls down the hill, gains more snow, more weight, more momentum. And one day, that snowball will but the bottom of the mountain with a crash. That crash is your death.
Stop it while it’s early. If you talk to your loved ones even for just a few minutes a day, that ball will melt away. The sun will come over, signalling the summer, the end of the snowy period, light, hope. But if you don’t, winter will come again. The snowball will form. And the process will start all over again.
So please, I know it’s not easy. I have been through it, as have many others. You might feel embarrassed, scared. That’s okay. You might think you’d be seen as weak, but in my eyes you’re the strongest person ever for talking about it. You don’t have to talk to your loved ones. Not in person. You can write letters, emails, call a support line, take online counselling, do whatever you need. But don’t do it alone. Because you can’t. And that’s okay. You’re like a stick. One measly twig will break easily. But, if you talk about it, gather supporters, add more sticks - together, you would form a big bunch of sticks, much harder to break. If you break up the snowball, those small snowballs will not hit the ground. They don’t have enough momentum.
There are people out there whose job it is to ensure your safety. To listen to you. So, please, if you need it, ask for help. Otherwise, that ball might start rolling. You may not need help. But know that there are people here for you, always. You can talk to me, even. I’m not sure I would provide much support, I am not a professional, but I can provide a bit. And if that’s not enough, there are thousands, millions of people out there who can give that full support.
So, my best friends, stay safe out there.
And once again, really good job to BlueDog Films.
This is beautiful, thank you lovely ❤
@@aksharakale4811 No problem
I think this is one of the most powerful and well put together short film on depression I've seen.
Pay attention to the details- Even something as small as getting dressed can be a difficult task. I love how much attention they put into this! Great work!!
After seeing this i rewatched the video. I noticed it thanks
From a person with depression it is. It's so hard cuase you just don't wanna do anything cuase you just don't have the energy
@@zrdoclive92 yeah and it doesn't help that people call you lazy when you actually have a hard time trying to convince yourself to even move out of bed... honestly I ask myself what's the point every day and I still had no idea why I keep going.
When I feel depressed I dont want to talk to people or take a shower or get dressed, I want to sleep all day and think how much of a falier in life I am. So this movie was great to see.
x._.xdylanthevillan x._.x your right too i am struggling with depression and on top of that anxiety and barely able to fall asleep before 1:00am when you wake up at 6 in the morning..it’s hard. I believe in you even if I don’t believe in myself I know at least you will get through this good luck and to anyone else who struggles with depression or other mental health issues. 🙏💞 god bless you all
I wanna cry but I cant because I'm emotionless but I actually do wanna cry, this was great
Ryan Smith hey always here to help
How did you became emotionless I want to be emotionless to... I mean bullys wanna see you sad and down and all these...
I was crying then i looked through the comments and i saw this comment and it made me laugh. Thank you.
I think u guys who comment here dont get it.. depression means: feeling nothing. It's this feeling that will kill u. Thats why we cut ourselfs. Because we want to feel at least Something. If the world is black and white, u never can be happy, laughing or crying ur eyes out, you never feel better. Its that instant feeling of nothing that drives us crazy.
i know the no crying thing i been like that since i was like 7.. its like ur numb ad nothing u do will fix it right?
The ending made me cry, I love the fact, that you used the bag of rocks to make a point. It really made the subject stand out more.
I'm currently making a Short Film about depression too, and I hope I can bring a massage over like you did.
Keep up the great work! This subject need more talking about, sometimes more than people know.
Losing someone to suicide is horrible. 9 days marks 3 months since my friend took her life and it’s horribe. Bullying at school and online is the reason. Schools don’t do anything about bullying and it’s pissing me off
I’m so sorry, you’re a strong person for living through that, sorry for your loss and I hope you’re doing better now.
I started crying when the camera turned back at him when he had the knife to his chest because I just reminded me how depressed I used to be
Omg same
I was in a suicidal state once
@@vanellabane same
Same.. I never cry to these things tho..
@Elizabeth Shreeve Very.
my “ rocks “ can never be removed.
the stupid words will never be enough to lift the weight.
I feel you
They can...You just need to be patient...Yea patient...Just be patient...patient?
But opposite actions can. You have a way out! When you're ready, I'm here to pull you up from a the cliff you fell off of. I am being swung into depression. But helping you makes me feel like I'm not useless. Whatever gave you depression had to have been bad. But we need something great. PROMISE me that when coronavirus is over, we can be best friends.
I am here for you if you need a friend to talk to i go through depression too your not the only one the lord jesus christ is watching over you and will always love you and keep you safe
Hey 👋, if anyone needs help here don’t hesitate to ask. I’m here for you all! I’ve been through depression and I’m now out, I can help :)
To all who is wondering, the backpack was an example of how his feelings were. The heavier the backpack got, the bigger his problems got. Eventually he fell because the backpack got way to heavy and almost took his life. But when he talked about it, the lighter the backpack got. And I just want to say to whoever is struggling with depression, PLEASE talk about it. It makes it better. Trust me
Talked about it and got threatened to be put on the streets....
Tried to talk to my friends about it. They didn’t get it. I will never talk to my parents about it because they will start treating me like an alien, ultimately making it worse. I’m stuck in this endless cycle of judgement and pain.
It's so sad that this video described what depression feels like, at least for me. It was so accurate, my body feels physically heavy 24/7, so I know what it's like to carry a bag of rocks on my back. Just know you are never EVER alone and we'll all get through this life one way or another. Keep fighting ❤