I’m sorry for you. My cousin was abused and her mom knew. To make it worse her sister and brother blamed her all of the life that the dad paid more attention to her over them 🤦🏽♀️. She died of a heat attack from years of dealing with a broken heart:
Asha Duplessis Pray and ask God to come in and direct your next path. Remember one things you will have to is FORGIVE Those that hurt you . Only God can change everything . Faith without work is dead . It will be hard but keep your focus on him and your life will change to good . You are Love ❤️ take care . People still care .
“Moms new bf” in tooooo many stories ends in sexual abuse, physical abuse or death. It was SO scary dating when my daughter was little. I was terrified. The man I ended up with would not change my daughters diaper, bathe her, change her or allow her to sleep in between us in bed. Some ppl think it’s extreme but we wanted a clear line where no one could ever ever accuse him of anything. It took years before I left her with him alone. She was old enough to talk before I did. The bfs can be such a scary thing. Best believe I’m such a light sleeper and I would KNOW if his 6’4” 300lb ass got out of bed. And he’d be a dead man. I’d kill him. I’m so so sorry for you mamas. You’re such a brave lady.
I totally agree! I'm the same way after dating a man I grew up with silenced my son with beatings and verbal death threats because he caught him cheating on me. My baby was 6yrs old and had just buried his father. The behavior my son was displaying seemed to be from his father's death, since he told me it wasn't anything my boyfriend was doing to him. But years after our break up, my son at 14 had his 1st mental breakdown, and told me everything he did to him while I was at work! Sometimes as a mother you can do everything in your power to protect your children and bad things still happen. Bad people are everywhere, and they are and always will be the ones closest to you, family and friends.
@@joanaeneblett6941 I get it girl. Obviously you didn’t mean for that to happen and you did what you could to protect him. I just see wayyyyy too many stories where mom gets a new dead beat leech bf they’ve known for two minutes, and allows them to “watch” her children and they end up abused in all ways or dead. Even worse are the stories where the mom is a decent Mom until meeting said dead beat bf, then suddenly while he’s abusing the kids, she’s either just allowing / ignoring it or PARTICIPATING! It’s disgusting. I did everything I could to make sure that never happened. I didn’t use my bf as a babysitter for kids who weren’t his. Yes we were a team but it was YEARS of knowing and being with him before he ever watched my kids.
I'm 51 and I have never been happy until now. I went through a similar experience. I can relate to this woman so much. I found a man who is my best friend who treats me like a queen. No man ever did.
@@sourayaballew5861Souraya! I’m SO sorry this was your beginning. My heart hurts for you. 💔 would love to know if you’d be willing to share your story on my podcast. I try to make an effort to bring real life issues to light because of our ignorance. I’m so sorry. 😢💔
A burden like that should never be placed on a child. Neither the burden of protecting your lil sister, nor the burden of dealing with it on your own. The protection you have given your sister is something I'm sure you both will cherish forever. I'm amazed how well you dealt with it (although it never really goes away). I'm still dealing with mine, things keep comng back at me as my daughter grows. You're an inspiration.
They use your love for your siblings to blackmail little kids they cannot be in contact with any child but locked up permanently. This lady is so strong and absolutely fabulous, articulate and I wish her nothing but the best for her future
I can relate so much to your story and your internal conflict. Thank you so much for sharing. I feel like your last statement was just for me. May God continue to bless you.
Your mother, whose job it was to protect you and your sister, failed to do so; but you, who were a child at the time and who really had no obligation toward anyone, stayed home to protect your little sister who would otherwise have falled prey to someone awful. You seem like a wonderful, wonderful person. I would have been proud of a child like you.
Until i watched your story i never realized how hurt my soul and spirit was about the things that happened to me as a child and at 41 years of age there is so much anger and frustration in my heart and in my life. I know now that there are a lot of women who have been through similar situations as myself and have over come. I feel now that there is hope in overcoming such heartbreak and heartache. Its time for me to grow and not regress. Thank you for sharing your story
Souraya - Your story is very similar to mine. I'm 61 and just fully healing from abuse that began at age 4 by a female baby sitter...family friend for years and multiple attempted rapes. Until last year I didn't realize how resentful, unforgiving and judgmental I'd become. I realized today that although I've achieved thing in life I haven't been mindful...just coping with and skating through internal pain. God used an accident a couple years ago as the catalyst for me to heal other areas that were toxically rooted from immense trauma. I PRAISE Him because am clean, free, whole and like you desire to use my story to empower others. My experience has worked for His greater purpose for me. God bless you, Dear. Keep shining.
Yes, how can a woman not know that a man is leaving her bed?? Women normally do a nightly check on the kids and the house before they go to sleep rt? My cousin went through the same thing but with her own biological father. We found out her mother actually knew. My cousin struggled with this all of her life well into her 40’s. She always struggled with her relationship with her dad and wanted to forgive him. She loved the Lord and I told her healing would come from God not her biological father. My cousin died of a heart attack at 44yrs old still struggling with the memories of sexual abuse. RIP Denise Anderson ❤️ my cousin had a beautiful heart but a broken spirit.
I hope Souraya Pinkston can read this. Souraya, I cried when I watched this. I cried tears of joy as well as tears of sadness for you. In you, I've found myself, as well, and cried for that little girl, all little girls and you...tears of sadness and then, joy. I love you! Thank you! Stay strong!
Child sexual abuse has been here since the beginning of time. Unfortunately most children are afraid to tell. I never told because the mother I had would have blamed me and tried to blackmail my abuser for money. Id have been told not to tell my dad. The worst part is she put me in the situations for the shit to happen. I trust no one around my grandchildren who I am raising. They don't understand why I don't allow them to go into their friends home's at all. I simply tell them "I don't know what they do in their home's. KID'S aren't safe beyond your watchful eye's. God protect and Bless our children.
You're so right...arrested development when sexual abuse occurs in childhood and isnt addressed. I also went the promiscuous route in high school. Im so thankful God has comforted me and helped me become a better person. Hopefully one day I will be healed 100%. Thank you for sharing your story.
So true. Perpetrators are murderers. Those victims are never the same. It changes your programming and you will never be the same. Thank you for sharing your story.
This gave me goosebumps (Godbumps). You are truly an inspiration and bless you for using your experience for helping others. You are special, strong and loved!
I loved and hated this story. Your words pulled my memory out from the shadows. I had already begun to self preserve and unfurl all the pain I carried within myself from my childhood into my adult life. It took me a lot of years to stop blaming myself, To stop asking myself “why me?”...”what is so special about me, that this predator chose me over anyone else”. And put the blame at who it belongs...the predator. There were many years I felt marked, and struggled with terrible esteem issues. Over the course of years, I realized that I am an adult now, and that unlike myself as a child that I can fight back. I can protect myself. I am still struggling to find my “happiness”, but I am getting closer. Thank you for sharing your story.
These stories are very powerful and eye opening. I am very thankful that I came across these stories. It's something I believe Heavenly father guided me here at this very moment to witness. Maybe one day I'll share my story. This is one brave lady. This story has shown me all that I've been through in my own life. And forgiveness. I don't have to forget but I can forgive to free myself. What a weight off my shoulders that I've carried for so long. Love, peace & forgiveness.
This world is very small. Her (eldest) daughter was a friend of mine back in high school. I always thought they had a perfect life (outer appearances). Hearing Souraya’s story brings clarity to the phrase “You never know what someone has been through”. This was very interesting. I’m so sorry you had to go through this, Souraya!
God Bless You , I am happy that you healed and found your happiness.. May God Bless You 💕 All these stories are very life giving & inspirational,THANK YOU
You're courageous for telling your story. I want parents, particularly, to talk to their children about abuse: what it is, what it looks like and what to do if it happens. We can't afford to ignore that abuse happens. We need to protect children.
I didn’t feel happy until I was 31 and was put on an antidepressant. I remember exactly where I was and where I was standing when I first felt true joy.
Her cousin was being sexually abused, too. Children are curious about each other's bodies, but they don't know about sex acts. They mostly learn them by being sexually abused, and they, in turn, go and do it to others. Of course, you have television now, but children who abuse other children so systematically have been abused themselves, either by adults or other children who've been abused by adults. It always goes back to an adult abusing children.
Your story and finding God has me bawling 😭 I've had that weight lifted experience. God is so good and forgiveness is for us, not for the other person 💗🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing such a touching story. Many boys and girls goes through this traumatic experience and never get over it. The prisons are full them. The classrooms are full of them . The drug pushers and off-licence thrive off them. Thank God you are able to survive and make something of your life.
Thank you for sharing you said everything I couldn't & haven't been able to say since I was a child ..I've been through some of the same things you've been through molestation, rape, & by people who was suppose to protect me & love me...I was also very promiscuous I thought that was love but in I knew it wasn't... I now know I was and I still am mentally, emotionally, and spirituality messed up and I'm fighting something inside of me I can't explain ... I'm in my 30's and I feel like a failure, seems like I hurt or sabotage everything I touch... At 37 I'm been so damaged inside I don't even know where to begin the healing process or pick up the pieces... I have so much hurt, and anger inside of me it has taken over my whole life... It's affected the decisions I've made in life, the way I feel about people, the way i treat them or let them treat me, my relationships fail because I haven't truly faced my issues or delt with them properly...what kills me inside is that I'm I don't know how to be happy, I feel I don't even know who I am and I haven't felt real happiness because I don't love myself... I say i do but honestly I don't... what is my purpose is in life... I asked God is my life always going to be a battle...when will my peace come Lord... Im tired of always fighting to make it lord i need a breakthrough...I ask the Lord to change me make me whole...take this thing that I feel out of me cause I do feel like it's a good side/ bad side in me and they are at war...I feel that thing's have happened to me cause I brought them on myself...I blame me...it began with the molestation I should have told someone...I was a little girl I felt like i would b get trouble and i didnt want to get him in trouble...i didn't want to hurt aunt...i don't know....i just know I'm hurting and I'm so tired of feeling this pain. I don't what to do anymore... Please pray for me cause I feel so lost...
Your comment about future abuses “going into the pot is spot on”. I have gone through the levels of hating and avoiding people because I did not trust them. I can relate so much.
A truly amazing saying, “Not forgiving is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die from it” Wow, so true and so succinct. Thank you for sharing
I’m so sorry you had to suffer through that. You didn’t deserve any of it. You were damaged at an early age and sadly it shaped your whole view of yourself. People minimize the damage this causes a child, when it never goes away. I mourn the person I could’ve been had it not happened to me. God bless you.
I soo love her honesty and her truthfulness...I'm thankful to hear her testimony because I've actually been through soo much in my life as up to this day that I don't know if I'm happy or depressed sometimes...I pray that I get well mentally and physically in the future and let go of my past....🙏
I pretty much had decided that I had dealt with my violation myself. I don’t know for sure. Every time I hear survivor stories I sob my heart out. I was eight years old and had tried to tell my mother and she blew me off. It was hard at 8 years old to realize that the mother that was supposed to protect me, didn’t. I think she was afraid of what people would think of her. It was also complicated by the fact that the abuser was my middle sisters husband.
Gladys Addington i went through a VERY similar situation.i was about 9/10 yr old and it was my only sister's husband.I think back on it now and feel even if they did believe they refused to admit because of what everyone would thing,that being my sisters husband and financial savior and most of all if my parents admitted it happened to themselves the weight of what that actually meant about THEM was more than they could handle.both of my parents have died.ive forgiven my father (sadly we never spoke about it when he was alive) but I don't know just yet about my mom.I love her but have yet to forgive.my sister...I haven't fully forgiven her for serving me up on a platter
hailey grey I haven’t told my sister because she thought he was a great guy. He’s passed away and I don’t know if I’ll ever tell her. She doesn’t have a lot to do with me. She always thought I was stupid. I have since decided it’s her loss. At least I never thought what happened was my fault. What happened is a part of me I guess,but I won’t let it identify me. Take care Hailey.
@@gracielou4075 it's never the victims fault, not ever! I was 16 when someone touched me. This person was in a position of authority over me. Which is why he did it, and why I was powerless to stop him.
Thank you for sharing your story and hope you can continue to heal.. I can relate to your situation due to the fact it has happened to me, both molestation and rape..As an adult I am still getting professional help and meds to help me cope with life in general.. Unfortunately, I do not trust men and do not desire a serious relationship..It is sad, however, my dramatic experiences has molded me. Continue to grow mentally, emotionally and spiritually. You are a brave soul.
Bria Barrows ..Respect. I’m upset at the man. He should never have touched This Child..Period. We blame Women & Give passes to men and this is why they do not take responsibility nor ownership of Their actions.
This is crazy because the same exact thing happed to me with a female cusin and my step dad. I had the same question for my mother how did she not know. I belive she did know and as a mother my slef now makes me belive she never loved me truly because even after i told her and he addmitted it she never called the cops blamed me said it was my fault and even stayed with him for 2 years after that untill i moved out with my boyfriend now husband who is a angel my hero who saved me from them. Not only was i sexually abused but my mother allowed him to beat me with belts smack me in the face push me down steps make me stand in the corner for hours on my tipy toes brake everything in my room. belittle me make fun of me call a stupid bitch Holding the fact that he payed bills on a shitty trailer over my head. i wasn't alound to have friends. They constaly said my father the only one who ever cared about me was the bad person. My mother would put him in jail for not paying child suport because she would make him lose every job he had but wouldnt put the man who hurt her own child in jail. Now shes dating his cusin btw. Im on the path of healing now trying to forgive instead of wanting revenge. You are so strong and inspiring thank you. I needed to hear this.
Your words toward the end (among all others in your story) really touched me. Your message can really apply to pretty much anyone who is or has gone through something that difficult in life. I am so happy that you found your happy!!! This life is hard so having people like you who are willing to give advice and tell their stories will always be what the world needs.
Bless all the children who have survived this. Thanks dear for sharing your story. Seems like alot go on to survive and thrive with despite this damage. You are a great person.
I can't stand a child abuser they are sick disgusting animals but God don't sleep I ask my two kids daily did anyone touch you and if anyone ever touch you tell me because I love you I will always believe you and protect you no matter what I pray you keep growing God bless you
Sharing your story with the world is without a doubt helping so many people. You are so brave. Telling is the hardest thing. I told my parents on my uncle when I was 13 and he's been in prison for almost 20 years. Maybe one day I'll be able to tell my whole story and help others.
I had very, very similar situations in my childhood. Mine was my step cousin, female, a few years older than me. I was 4. It's one of my 1st memories. Plus everything else you said - everything - was my life as well. I'm just blown away right now. Thank you so much for sharing your story!!!!! I'm so glad you've found peace and happiness. I'm working on that myself.
I struggle with that as well how can you not know when a man leaves your bed and come and sneak you out of your bed I struggle with that still chew today why didn't she know
It was really hard for me to get through the 1st part of this story... I was so very angry. This is the reason why I don't trust hardly anyone around my children & I don't understand women who feel comfortable leaving their children alone with their boyfriends. I believe that I am single for a reason, because God knows that I'd be locked up for murder before I let some fool violate mines!
Beautiful woman. Her words resonate s purely.Thank goodness God loves those who have been abused, and he does. Slowly but surely we are given revelations into our behaviour. This lady's honesty is appreciated so much.
Thank God, He send his Angles to help you, He steps in when the Time was right, All the tears 😭 that you cried that day in Church, was the beginning of letting go, and for you too start believing that it was not your fault, and for you too smile that beautiful smile of yours, Sometimes is better too be happy later in life, because you become stronger and find it easier too Cope, and protect your Children 👶 from what you went through.....Stay happy and safe....🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🌹
@@jennyjones4875 I debate myself with this In Prayer because I agree God knew before the Grandma but still aloud his child to experience such things ... where was the protection where was the justice & why allow the healing to come so late? 😣 God knows! BUT HE MIGHT NOT BE EARLY BUT HE NEVER COMES LATE... she cried & God made the mum open her eyes or react out of embarrassment but it finally got the man out.
I'm still struggling with saying no!. I know to others that might sound stupid and weak. Sometimes, (even tho im healing) when i say no to others i feel like a bad person
@@laurenm9563 I relate strongly to that. And if we're being honest saying no carries it's own consequences..... Women are harmed whether they say yes or no. The power comes when women decide that they have a voice and the RIGHT to say no
Thanks for your courage and your strength. You protected your sister from an abuser. Sadly some mothers just don't get it and honestly don't deserve the children that they are given. I would be single for the rest of my life to protect my children from all people not just men but women too. People are sick as crap. Some "mothers" always wanting to bring people into their homes like what the hell your home should be your safe place it cant be safe if your bringing crap into it. People talking about taking trips nope I aint leaving my kids with no one. I would rather have what people call "no life" than to subject my kids to the bs that comes with people.
Beautiful story! Praise God! He really is able to turn any bad things into good things. I pray that you are able to be a blessing to many many people. Thank you for sharing this!
I’m so disgusted and sad that you endured what you did. You are a AMAZING woman. You deserve to be loved and find an amazing person that touches your heart
I’m so sorry all that bad stuff happened to you. You seem like such a kind and nice person. I can’t picture you not liking people like you said you used to be like. God bless you for sharing your story and helping others. ps. I love your earrings!
This is exactly what I am going through now. People don't understand how trauma from your childhood affects your adult life and relationships
Asha Duplessis me too, I tell my family all the time I act this way because how you guys treated me growing up and now
I’m sorry for you. My cousin was abused and her mom knew. To make it worse her sister and brother blamed her all of the life that the dad paid more attention to her over them 🤦🏽♀️. She died of a heat attack from years of dealing with a broken heart:
I know you want forget your childhood abuse, but may you find peace and strength!
Asha Duplessis you are not alone lovely. I went through it as well.
Asha Duplessis Pray and ask God to come in and direct your next path. Remember one things you will have to is FORGIVE Those that hurt you . Only God can change everything . Faith without work is dead . It will be hard but keep your focus on him and your life will change to good . You are Love ❤️ take care . People still care .
Stop leaving your kids with people you don't know
Even some people you know are predators
jasmine lamb I was just about to say that. I just don't understand people
Most sexual predator's are family or close friend of the family.
I have 2 boys. I never let them stay with my ex. You'd think you could trust a firefighter. Her cousin was no doubt molested herself.
THIS
“Moms new bf” in tooooo many stories ends in sexual abuse, physical abuse or death. It was SO scary dating when my daughter was little. I was terrified. The man I ended up with would not change my daughters diaper, bathe her, change her or allow her to sleep in between us in bed. Some ppl think it’s extreme but we wanted a clear line where no one could ever ever accuse him of anything. It took years before I left her with him alone. She was old enough to talk before I did. The bfs can be such a scary thing. Best believe I’m such a light sleeper and I would KNOW if his 6’4” 300lb ass got out of bed. And he’d be a dead man. I’d kill him. I’m so so sorry for you mamas. You’re such a brave lady.
Thank you!!! Especially if he not using the restroom then where TF is he in the middle of the night!!!!? Smdh
Just Me Ashley 😂😂
...”6’4”, 300lb ass got out of bed..”
Sorry. Sad topic, but your words cracked me up
Just Me Ashley totally agree with everything u said 💯
I totally agree! I'm the same way after dating a man I grew up with silenced my son with beatings and verbal death threats because he caught him cheating on me. My baby was 6yrs old and had just buried his father. The behavior my son was displaying seemed to be from his father's death, since he told me it wasn't anything my boyfriend was doing to him. But years after our break up, my son at 14 had his 1st mental breakdown, and told me everything he did to him while I was at work! Sometimes as a mother you can do everything in your power to protect your children and bad things still happen. Bad people are everywhere, and they are and always will be the ones closest to you, family and friends.
@@joanaeneblett6941 I get it girl. Obviously you didn’t mean for that to happen and you did what you could to protect him. I just see wayyyyy too many stories where mom gets a new dead beat leech bf they’ve known for two minutes, and allows them to “watch” her children and they end up abused in all ways or dead. Even worse are the stories where the mom is a decent Mom until meeting said dead beat bf, then suddenly while he’s abusing the kids, she’s either just allowing / ignoring it or PARTICIPATING! It’s disgusting. I did everything I could to make sure that never happened. I didn’t use my bf as a babysitter for kids who weren’t his. Yes we were a team but it was YEARS of knowing and being with him before he ever watched my kids.
I'm 51 and I have never been happy until now. I went through a similar experience. I can relate to this woman so much. I found a man who is my best friend who treats me like a queen. No man ever did.
Taylor Fausett I am so happy for you! This gives me hope.
@@donnaryan3162 just about to say... I hope God is watching & gives us a honest reason to smile from soul again🙏☝😇
God blessings upon you and your mate...
Congratulations on founding him!
Souraya, you are elegant and articulate! Thank you for your service to humanity!!!
Susan Bookman and beautiful
Ones Ones wtf does being white have to do with anything.
Elegant!!!!! Perfect word to describe her. Isn’t she lovely.
Thank you ❤️
@@sourayaballew5861Souraya! I’m SO sorry this was your beginning. My heart hurts for you. 💔 would love to know if you’d be willing to share your story on my podcast. I try to make an effort to bring real life issues to light because of our ignorance. I’m so sorry. 😢💔
A burden like that should never be placed on a child. Neither the burden of protecting your lil sister, nor the burden of dealing with it on your own. The protection you have given your sister is something I'm sure you both will cherish forever. I'm amazed how well you dealt with it (although it never really goes away). I'm still dealing with mine, things keep comng back at me as my daughter grows. You're an inspiration.
INDEED!
Same here gamer mom.
They use your love for your siblings to blackmail little kids they cannot be in contact with any child but locked up permanently. This lady is so strong and absolutely fabulous, articulate and I wish her nothing but the best for her future
I could not stop staring at my computer screen. You can just tell she is a beautiful soul. God Bless
Thank you, Ruth ❤️❤️
Thank you guys!
Souraya Christine your story is so close to mine. Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry that happened to you. God is good.
Souraya Christine
You are a beautiful woman inside and out! God bless 💓💓💓💓💓💓
I can relate so much to your story and your internal conflict. Thank you so much for sharing. I feel like your last statement was just for me. May God continue to bless you.
Souraya, your willingness to be open and honest is and has helped others. Thank you for your bravery.
I hope one of these day i could be as strong as you and tell my story but i definitely want to help others.
Just pray for me!!🙏🙏🙏
Your mother, whose job it was to protect you and your sister, failed to do so; but you, who were a child at the time and who really had no obligation toward anyone, stayed home to protect your little sister who would otherwise have falled prey to someone awful. You seem like a wonderful, wonderful person. I would have been proud of a child like you.
She really sacrificed much for your sister. You are Brave and Strong!
OMG her story is so close to mine. Thank you for sharing.
You are speaking my story mine stopped when I was 12 and I ran away from home to my grandmother
Bernadette are you from Brooklyn. I feel like I know you from Cypress. Contact me if this is you. Peace
I’m so sorry. I need healing still age 51. We have to come to terms with what happened to us. Then we can heal and help others 🙌🏼
I hope your grandmother helped you. I have granddaughters and nobody will hurt them as long as I am alive and able to protect them
You are a brave woman.
Until i watched your story i never realized how hurt my soul and spirit was about the things that happened to me as a child and at 41 years of age there is so much anger and frustration in my heart and in my life. I know now that there are a lot of women who have been through similar situations as myself and have over come. I feel now that there is hope in overcoming such heartbreak and heartache. Its time for me to grow and not regress. Thank you for sharing your story
I'm right there with you Joy. We can do this 🙂
Souraya - Your story is very similar to mine. I'm 61 and just fully healing from abuse that began at age 4 by a female baby sitter...family friend for years and multiple attempted rapes. Until last year I didn't realize how resentful, unforgiving and judgmental I'd become. I realized today that although I've achieved thing in life I haven't been mindful...just coping with and skating through internal pain. God used an accident a couple years ago as the catalyst for me to heal other areas that were toxically rooted from immense trauma. I PRAISE Him because am clean, free, whole and like you desire to use my story to empower others. My experience has worked for His greater purpose for me. God bless you, Dear. Keep shining.
I can't believe how candid you've been. So brave. Hope you're ok.
You touched my heart. You are beautiful. God bless you!
Yes, how can a woman not know that a man is leaving her bed?? Women normally do a nightly check on the kids and the house before they go to sleep rt? My cousin went through the same thing but with her own biological father. We found out her mother actually knew. My cousin struggled with this all of her life well into her 40’s. She always struggled with her relationship with her dad and wanted to forgive him. She loved the Lord and I told her healing would come from God not her biological father. My cousin died of a heart attack at 44yrs old still struggling with the memories of sexual abuse. RIP Denise Anderson ❤️ my cousin had a beautiful heart but a broken spirit.
Your story reminds me of my own in many ways. I’m in my 40’s and finally working on healing all the trauma. You give me hope 💕
I need something before 40, I don't have children yet & ⏱time is ticking😣
very heart warming from a cold heart. I'm 50yrs. and still haven't found my happiness or peace. I am glad and proud of you.
Souraya you are a beautiful and inspiring woman. Thank you for telling your story. ❤❤❤❤❤
R u a survivor too?
I hope Souraya Pinkston can read this. Souraya, I cried when I watched this. I cried tears of joy as well as tears of sadness for you. In you, I've found myself, as well, and cried for that little girl, all little girls and you...tears of sadness and then, joy. I love you! Thank you! Stay strong!
Thank you, Shannon!! I’m just now reading this but I finally did!! I appreciate you ❤️ much love to you as well.
Your so strong for telling your story I’m sure this will help so many people
I'm sitting here gobsmacked! Your story literally almost exactly mirrors mine God bless you sister. Wow, just wow.
Child sexual abuse has been here since the beginning of time. Unfortunately most children are afraid to tell. I never told because the mother I had would have blamed me and tried to blackmail my abuser for money. Id have been told not to tell my dad. The worst part is she put me in the situations for the shit to happen. I trust no one around my grandchildren who I am raising. They don't understand why I don't allow them to go into their friends home's at all. I simply tell them "I don't know what they do in their home's. KID'S aren't safe beyond your watchful eye's. God protect and Bless our children.
She has such a beautiful spirit. I wish her all the best in her healing journey!
Put their Names out there! Please. These men had no shame on what they did. Do not have shame. Kids are Innocent!
Monica Morrow ❤️
Amen!
It was a female cousin
Exactly! Shame them!
Yep
You're so right...arrested development when sexual abuse occurs in childhood and isnt addressed. I also went the promiscuous route in high school. Im so thankful God has comforted me and helped me become a better person. Hopefully one day I will be healed 100%. Thank you for sharing your story.
So true. Perpetrators are murderers. Those victims are never the same. It changes your programming and you will never be the same. Thank you for sharing your story.
This gave me goosebumps (Godbumps). You are truly an inspiration and bless you for using your experience for helping others. You are special, strong and loved!
Still amazes me that sexual abuse, molestation, and assaults get very LITTLE jail time but the effect is FOREVER!
Thank you mom we love you to the moon and back,and my sister and I grew up with a very happy child hood.
Your mom knew what was going on. She didn't WANT to know, but she knew. And you are 100% right, your mom said not respond properly.
I loved and hated this story. Your words pulled my memory out from the shadows. I had already begun to self preserve and unfurl all the pain I carried within myself from my childhood into my adult life. It took me a lot of years to stop blaming myself, To stop asking myself “why me?”...”what is so special about me, that this predator chose me over anyone else”. And put the blame at who it belongs...the predator. There were many years I felt marked, and struggled with terrible esteem issues. Over the course of years, I realized that I am an adult now, and that unlike myself as a child that I can fight back. I can protect myself. I am still struggling to find my “happiness”, but I am getting closer. Thank you for sharing your story.
These stories are very powerful and eye opening. I am very thankful that I came across these stories. It's something I believe Heavenly father guided me here at this very moment to witness. Maybe one day I'll share my story. This is one brave lady. This story has shown me all that I've been through in my own life. And forgiveness. I don't have to forget but I can forgive to free myself. What a weight off my shoulders that I've carried for so long. Love, peace & forgiveness.
Wow she is so courageous talking about this..I can't even imagine the pain she went through..God bless her
Beautiful strong woman, thank you so much for sharing your story! You really are helping those who need it most.
This world is very small. Her (eldest) daughter was a friend of mine back in high school. I always thought they had a perfect life (outer appearances). Hearing Souraya’s story brings clarity to the phrase “You never know what someone has been through”. This was very interesting. I’m so sorry you had to go through this, Souraya!
❤ thank you for sharing your story... healing for me
God Bless You , I am happy that you healed and found your happiness.. May God Bless You 💕 All these stories are very life giving & inspirational,THANK YOU
You're courageous for telling your story. I want parents, particularly, to talk to their children about abuse: what it is, what it looks like and what to do if it happens. We can't afford to ignore that abuse happens. We need to protect children.
I didn’t feel happy until I was 31 and was put on an antidepressant. I remember exactly where I was and where I was standing when I first felt true joy.
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Her cousin was being sexually abused, too. Children are curious about each other's bodies, but they don't know about sex acts. They mostly learn them by being sexually abused, and they, in turn, go and do it to others. Of course, you have television now, but children who abuse other children so systematically have been abused themselves, either by adults or other children who've been abused by adults. It always goes back to an adult abusing children.
Your story and finding God has me bawling 😭 I've had that weight lifted experience. God is so good and forgiveness is for us, not for the other person 💗🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing such a touching story. Many boys and girls goes through this traumatic experience and never get over it. The prisons are full them. The classrooms are full of them . The drug pushers and off-licence thrive off them. Thank God you are able to survive and make something of your life.
Thank you for sharing your BLESSED story. U allowed me to take a min & look back & then re-direct with a new found understanding. Thank u sister!!
Thank you for sharing you said everything I couldn't & haven't been able to say since I was a child ..I've been through some of the same things you've been through molestation, rape, & by people who was suppose to protect me & love me...I was also very promiscuous I thought that was love but in I knew it wasn't... I now know I was and I still am mentally, emotionally, and spirituality messed up and I'm fighting something inside of me I can't explain ... I'm in my 30's and I feel like a failure, seems like I hurt or sabotage everything I touch... At 37 I'm been so damaged inside I don't even know where to begin the healing process or pick up the pieces... I have so much hurt, and anger inside of me it has taken over my whole life... It's affected the decisions I've made in life, the way I feel about people, the way i treat them or let them treat me, my relationships fail because I haven't truly faced my issues or delt with them properly...what kills me inside is that I'm I don't know how to be happy, I feel I don't even know who I am and I haven't felt real happiness because I don't love myself... I say i do but honestly I don't... what is my purpose is in life... I asked God is my life always going to be a battle...when will my peace come Lord... Im tired of always fighting to make it lord i need a breakthrough...I ask the Lord to change me make me whole...take this thing that I feel out of me cause I do feel like it's a good side/ bad side in me and they are at war...I feel that thing's have happened to me cause I brought them on myself...I blame me...it began with the molestation I should have told someone...I was a little girl I felt like i would b
get trouble and i didnt want to get him in trouble...i didn't want to hurt aunt...i don't know....i just know I'm hurting and I'm so tired of feeling this pain. I don't what to do anymore... Please pray for me cause I feel so lost...
Your comment about future abuses “going into the pot is spot on”. I have gone through the levels of hating and avoiding people because I did not trust them. I can relate so much.
You're an excellent speaker.
A truly amazing saying,
“Not forgiving is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die from it”
Wow, so true and so succinct.
Thank you for sharing
I’m so sorry you had to suffer through that. You didn’t deserve any of it. You were damaged at an early age and sadly it shaped your whole view of yourself. People minimize the damage this causes a child, when it never goes away. I mourn the person I could’ve been had it not happened to me. God bless you.
You Go Girl!!!!! You figured it all out and rose above it!!!! God is so good and he heals all wounds!!!
I soo love her honesty and her truthfulness...I'm thankful to hear her testimony because I've actually been through soo much in my life as up to this day that I don't know if I'm happy or depressed sometimes...I pray that I get well mentally and physically in the future and let go of my past....🙏
Thank you for sharing your story.
I pretty much had decided that I had dealt with my violation myself. I don’t know for sure. Every time I hear survivor stories I sob my heart out. I was eight years old and had tried to tell my mother and she blew me off. It was hard at 8 years old to realize that the mother that was supposed to protect me, didn’t. I think she was afraid of what people would think of her. It was also complicated by the fact that the abuser was my middle sisters husband.
I hope you're doing OK Gladyd...
Debra Lucas I’m doing better than I imagine some others are. Thank you Debra.
Gladys Addington i went through a VERY similar situation.i was about 9/10 yr old and it was my only sister's husband.I think back on it now and feel even if they did believe they refused to admit because of what everyone would thing,that being my sisters husband and financial savior and most of all if my parents admitted it happened to themselves the weight of what that actually meant about THEM was more than they could handle.both of my parents have died.ive forgiven my father (sadly we never spoke about it when he was alive) but I don't know just yet about my mom.I love her but have yet to forgive.my sister...I haven't fully forgiven her for serving me up on a platter
hailey grey I haven’t told my sister because she thought he was a great guy. He’s passed away and I don’t know if I’ll ever tell her. She doesn’t have a lot to do with me. She always thought I was stupid. I have since decided it’s her loss. At least I never thought what happened was my fault. What happened is a part of me I guess,but I won’t let it identify me. Take care Hailey.
@@gracielou4075 it's never the victims fault, not ever! I was 16 when someone touched me. This person was in a position of authority over me. Which is why he did it, and why I was powerless to stop him.
An amazing recovery story! A very intelligent person and a special soul.
Thank you for sharing
I know how she feels I was raped by my mom's boyfriend when I was 12 years old, never leave your children with people you don't know
My heart breaks for these children and all the others who have suffered ! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🥺🥺❤️❤️
She is so strong it encourages me in every fiber of my being!
Excellent!
Thank you for sharing your story and hope you can continue to heal.. I can relate to your situation due to the fact it has happened to me, both molestation and rape..As an adult I am still getting professional help and meds to help me cope with life in general.. Unfortunately, I do not trust men and do not desire a serious relationship..It is sad, however, my dramatic experiences has molded me. Continue to grow mentally, emotionally and spiritually. You are a brave soul.
i'm upset at her mom. like you let a man in your house, with your child.
Bria Barrows ..Respect. I’m upset at the man. He should never have touched This Child..Period. We blame Women & Give passes to men and this is why they do not take responsibility nor ownership of Their actions.
This is crazy because the same exact thing happed to me with a female cusin and my step dad. I had the same question for my mother how did she not know. I belive she did know and as a mother my slef now makes me belive she never loved me truly because even after i told her and he addmitted it she never called the cops blamed me said it was my fault and even stayed with him for 2 years after that untill i moved out with my boyfriend now husband who is a angel my hero who saved me from them. Not only was i sexually abused but my mother allowed him to beat me with belts smack me in the face push me down steps make me stand in the corner for hours on my tipy toes brake everything in my room. belittle me make fun of me call a stupid bitch Holding the fact that he payed bills on a shitty trailer over my head. i wasn't alound to have friends. They constaly said my father the only one who ever cared about me was the bad person. My mother would put him in jail for not paying child suport because she would make him lose every job he had but wouldnt put the man who hurt her own child in jail. Now shes dating his cusin btw. Im on the path of healing now trying to forgive instead of wanting revenge. You are so strong and inspiring thank you. I needed to hear this.
Your words toward the end (among all others in your story) really touched me. Your message can really apply to pretty much anyone who is or has gone through something that difficult in life. I am so happy that you found your happy!!! This life is hard so having people like you who are willing to give advice and tell their stories will always be what the world needs.
Hugs. Thank u for sharing. 💗
Bless all the children who have survived this. Thanks dear for sharing your story. Seems like alot go on to survive and thrive with despite this damage. You are a great person.
what neat lady. God bless you darlin'. You are truly someone special.
You are a beautiful being who is well spoken....thank you for sharing your experiences.....
your amazing...God is good. So happy you turned to Him.
I can relate well.
Praise God... He is our healer🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
So Very Sorry This Happened Beautiful. God Bless You For Using Your Story For Our Father’s Glory. Men/Women stop abusing Innocent Children. Period.
I can't stand a child abuser they are sick disgusting animals but God don't sleep I ask my two kids daily did anyone touch you and if anyone ever touch you tell me because I love you I will always believe you and protect you no matter what I pray you keep growing God bless you
So sorry. Thank you for sharing your story.
Sharing your story with the world is without a doubt helping so many people. You are so brave. Telling is the hardest thing. I told my parents on my uncle when I was 13 and he's been in prison for almost 20 years. Maybe one day I'll be able to tell my whole story and help others.
you are a strong beautiful person. continue your task to heal the world.
beautiful lady...God always comes through for us...ALWAYS!!
I had very, very similar situations in my childhood. Mine was my step cousin, female, a few years older than me. I was 4. It's one of my 1st memories. Plus everything else you said - everything - was my life as well. I'm just blown away right now. Thank you so much for sharing your story!!!!! I'm so glad you've found peace and happiness. I'm working on that myself.
Such a brave, beautiful queen! I salute!
Ms. Pinkston I hear you. Thank you...💕
I struggle with that as well how can you not know when a man leaves your bed and come and sneak you out of your bed I struggle with that still chew today why didn't she know
NEWSFLASH: Her Mother knew. However, fireman usually have hot bodies, good salaries and great benefits - like plenty of time off to...whatever.
So many of our stories. That is almost as bad as the violation itself.
Bernadette Butler right I bet you they know when they man sneaks out to go see the side chick 😏😒
@@tilabryant2948 ikr
Thank you. You remind me of my daughter. May God bless you for telling your story.
Thank you so much for telling your story
What an intelligent, beautiful soul.
When I was 15 I was in a relationship with an adult I swear I’m affected by it I hope I will heal one day too
It was really hard for me to get through the 1st part of this story... I was so very angry. This is the reason why I don't trust hardly anyone around my children & I don't understand women who feel comfortable leaving their children alone with their boyfriends. I believe that I am single for a reason, because God knows that I'd be locked up for murder before I let some fool violate mines!
Her mother was either a person who wanted a babysitter or someone who knew what he was about and overlooked it Or a combination of both so sad.
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Beautiful woman. Her words resonate s purely.Thank goodness God loves those who have been abused, and he does. Slowly but surely we are given revelations into our behaviour. This lady's honesty is appreciated so much.
Thank God, He send his Angles to help you, He steps in when the Time was right, All the tears 😭 that you cried that day in Church, was the beginning of letting go, and for you too start believing that it was not your fault, and for you too smile that beautiful smile of yours, Sometimes is better too be happy later in life, because you become stronger and find it easier too Cope, and protect your Children 👶 from what you went through.....Stay happy and safe....🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🌹
Angels*
God stepped in when the time was right?!? You are disgusting! Glad i left the church. That monster should have never been allowed to touch her EVER!
Her grandmother stepped in not god. God knew from day 1
@@jennyjones4875 I debate myself with this In Prayer because I agree God knew before the Grandma but still aloud his child to experience such things ... where was the protection where was the justice & why allow the healing to come so late? 😣 God knows! BUT HE MIGHT NOT BE EARLY BUT HE NEVER COMES LATE... she cried & God made the mum open her eyes or react out of embarrassment but it finally got the man out.
THE FEAR OF SAYING NO is so big for survivors. Phew.
I'm still struggling with saying no!. I know to others that might sound stupid and weak. Sometimes, (even tho im healing) when i say no to others i feel like a bad person
@@laurenm9563 I relate strongly to that. And if we're being honest saying no carries it's own consequences..... Women are harmed whether they say yes or no. The power comes when women decide that they have a voice and the RIGHT to say no
I felt this. Powerful testimony, thank you.
Thanks for your courage and your strength. You protected your sister from an abuser. Sadly some mothers just don't get it and honestly don't deserve the children that they are given. I would be single for the rest of my life to protect my children from all people not just men but women too. People are sick as crap. Some "mothers" always wanting to bring people into their homes like what the hell your home should be your safe place it cant be safe if your bringing crap into it. People talking about taking trips nope I aint leaving my kids with no one. I would rather have what people call "no life" than to subject my kids to the bs that comes with people.
Your story help me tremendously!
Thanks
You are so strong!! God has plans for you and YOU🌼ARE🌺A🌼SURVIVOR🌺
Beautiful story! Praise God! He really is able to turn any bad things into good things. I pray that you are able to be a blessing to many many people. Thank you for sharing this!
Such a very honest telling of your story. Thank you.
Thank you for your testimony, God bless , you are an inspiration to me from SA.
I’m so disgusted and sad that you endured what you did. You are a AMAZING woman. You deserve to be loved and find an amazing person that touches your heart
You are so sweet and precious..God bless you sister..please say a prayer for my daughter who is 37..I am 62
Thank you fir sharing your story. Peace sis
I’m so sorry all that bad stuff happened to you. You seem like such a kind and nice person. I can’t picture you not liking people like you said you used to be like. God bless you for sharing your story and helping others.
ps. I love your earrings!