These are dynamics of those of us who were born into alcoholic/drug dependency families. Also, depending on your birth order children naturally fall into the super responsible , the clown , and the lost child. Adult children of alcoholics carry characteristics that were important for survival.. Healing is a journey and understanding the patterns and the influence of dysfunctional behaviors , is a big step in our growth.
This is unexpected. You perfectly expressed THE void of my life that I didn’t even know that I didn’t know. I am a bit beside myself right now in emotions of anger, sadness, fear and despair. I guess I’ve been totally shut down and haven’t felt these emotions in a long while, it feels like you opened a release valve. I want to run away but I’ve come far too far and I know it is indeed time. This is going to be a tough one. Thank you, you’re quite empowered to be able to bring forth such a message. I’m inspired and feel hope is realistic to have. Thanks again ❤. My deepest love to all who this resonates with this.
This hits home HARD. I love humans but I’ve been in isolation for 6 years. For awhile I wondered if I’ve lost the ability to love and connect with people. I have a long distance online relationship who wants to close the gap and I’m ready to be in union with him too, but as wonderful as he is from afar, part of me is prepared for him to turn out to be like all the others. I’ve given so much of my time, love, money, and personal servitude to so many people I now have a very short fuse for all that and get resentful quickly when I find myself giving more than I receive in relationships. I know I have to heal this before coming into union with my twin or I’ll end up pushing him away for no reason. We’ve been friends for years before things got serious, and I can’t avoid union forever. He’s been super patient and loving with me but it’s time to either do this or let it go and I’m not willing to let my fears keep me alone forever so I’m doing the inner work around this. This video helped clarify the issue very precisely and helps more than you can know. Thank you Namaste🙏🏾💜✨
This hit hard 😮…made so much sense. Currently ended everything in my life after a traumatic event that unlocked something in me. Starting again at 50 with a whole new perspective but now with understanding. Thank you for putting into words my experience 🙏🏼
Who told you about me? I was the survival instinct First daughter Parenting my sibling and parents 💙 It’s tiring I need to heal myself for the rest of my life because of that The trauma was not fun but… what can we do Just trying to stay alive and look for better days
Exactly, I feel like connection isn't something I need. I easily abandon friendships, family, and even jobs. I feel comfortable being alone. I feel at ease in hermit mode. Connections make me feel overwhelmed. People like to be around me, and some even seem obsessed with my presence, but I always push them away or run. People enjoy being in my company, but I don’t feel the same way. Deep down, I wish I could be normal. I’d like to find someone I feel comfortable being around, but right now, it’s hard for me.
Absolutely on point. My momma is soo much worse than I realized. She has munchousen biproxy and all my life she made my life a living hell. I thought she was a covert narcissist only to realize she is actually a female sociopath. I was guided by another reading to look it up and that’s my mother to a tee. I was diagnosed with CPTSD from systematic abuse over and over and over until this very day. I don’t understand why she feels I deserved this treatment. I really don’t.
Well that surprisingly kicked in with a fly in my face, i think i definitely needed this, thank you for breaking this science and psycological point part down
This is soooooooo my mind the last two months. I have been weeping asking like why? What is the point of connection?? I don’t get it! I don’t get the game. Thank you so much for this channel.: I am daydreaming of my knight in shining Armor.. I am moving forward into the new ❤
Thank you Sarah. It is wonderful to have you show up. Connecting to the divine is my passion. Most people cannot be trusted. Few reciprocate an equal energy. ❤ infinite blessings
Great message 🙏🌹❤️💫I stand firm in my faith, trusting God's plan. Grateful for blessings, I thank Him for prosperity. My family's happiness is restored, and retirement brings unexpected abundance, $67k weekly returns, a life transforming miracle after past struggles.
I’ve raised up to 660k trading with her l no longer pay rent, I own two apartments, a car and a farm factory in the state. Myself and my family we are extremely happy🙏❤️
Oh Sarah….you have just described my entire life! I’m so glad I found this channel! IT IS TIME…I AGREE…I do deserve stability, balance, connections & love the way I’ve loved! ❤️💚
The inner child always understands why she gives more then others are possibly incapable of giving. There is a formula geometry that understands how to keep peace between fellow citizens who might not understand what inner peace truly means in the Truth of matter, just be honest and transparent. If I understand what everyone else’s energy is all about. Then the first thing I would do it warn those in danger. Help protect the innocent people lives . Without using people for only personal gain. . That might help everyone to raise up to the occasion of ascension ❤
Jai Shree Ram Jai Shree Krishna Radhey Radhey thankyou thankyou Ma'am God bless you and your family thankyou thankyou Ma'am God bless you stay always blessed you are too too good too too Asome Ma'am God bless you thankyou thankyou
Wow!!!! I did not know I needed to hear this but you are spot on with what you said and it’s exactly what I’ve been doing to myself. And in turn I attract men who breadcrumb me. I recently felt my heart block and where I’m not allowing myself to be vulnerable. More work to do but it’s ok! Thank you for explaining it the way you did, it was very helpful. ❤❤❤
❤ I was forced to be this way. Parts of my brain were purposely tampered with by the birth portal to seemingly shut down my wants, needs, emotions and was told that my only role was to sacrifice and serve the narcissistic immature birth portal and entitled disrespectful flying monkey siblings. It's a lifetime of abuse since a baby. Daily abuse. I'm connected to Source and animals and nature are my besties.
Whoa…so I had an NDE September 16,2020…it’s a crazy story but I got myself into a situation where I had to swim across a lake and I drowned about halfway but was “pulled out” by something higher…made it to the other side. Found out I wasn’t afraid of death but not “finished” and later that night at home I was asking why? What’s left? And the answer was “to experience real love” and I am still trying to understand what that means and how it’s supposed to go. At times I feel bitter…like why didn’t I get that magical NDE experience where everything makes sense suddenly?! 😂
I need a hug…. I did breadcrumb. I I’ve been so desperate for human connection and I have been getting so annoyed at everybody just being users. I have done a lot of work on myself, though ketamine helped with neuropathways. I’m still terrified of connection. On the upside, I just went through the dark night of the soul… and boom! All of a sudden I have hey Divine masculine that I just found out about. I haven’t met him, but it was revealed who he was and confirmed a dozen times. And it will absolutely 100% force me to be extraordinarily vulnerable and move out of state but giant abundance. I’m manifested like crazy on 888 and 1111 and apparently all of my blessings are coming in after a shit show relationship with covert abuse I need to find a retreat lol! OUT OF CONTROL! Thank you for the reading amazing confirmation You should offer mini retreats 😉😉
I have tried. Every one has betrayed me. I developed BPD by my mid thirties because I saught connection. I very sincerely believe the entire purpose of my life is to see what it feels like to live an entire life without love. It’s either that or there is nothing beyond the 3D. Either way I can’t wait to die.
Honestly though, I wish humans would figure it out for themselves and leave me alone. I had to do it through sheer willpower, on my own for myself. It almost is like I am teasing the world with their own saving. Like an older brother yoinking something out of reach of their younger sibling while they jump and cry for it. "Do ya want it? Do ya reaaaally want it? I did it entirely in my own head for the sake of the entire world and you all didnt even ask me how I was doing the entire tiiiiime" I know its petty, but i kind of find it funny to be able to say to myself "I have saved the entirety of creation through the refinement of my own soul", while people try to talk to me about garbage on the television. Its basically a "Come and get it if you really want it" to the entire world, but the entire world overlooks me and therefore will never take their prize. The motto "It takes two to tango" has never been more relevant. I will even lead in the dance.
I have blocked my mother on my phone because she is emotionally abusive. Not because she is unaware that she does it. Since yeara i've tried to make her understand like explaining it to a child why some of her treatment of me is worse than insensitive. She has called my father's worker to invite me for christmas. I wish i was overreacting.
I’m only 12 minutes in, but you’re on point sweetheart hopefully by the end you can teach me how to fix it lol but that’s really not funny. This is serious.
this reading is literally for me, a person who has aquarius (including the moon) 12th house stellium, with gemini sun in the 4th house.. which is crazy cause i have a cancer stellium in the 5th house as well 😭
💛🌺"Im truly enjoying your videos but I'm having difficulty finding the meditations you're referring to. Would someone be able to assist me with this?Thank you. "
this is the FINAL TRUTH I GOT FOR MYSELF I don't need human relationships I don't need a relationship with God I don't need my existence im sick of the eat shit cycle never asked to be here my biggest burden is God who keeps forcing me another useless day to eat n shit while every night I tell him to get me tf out of here all about his will I look back at my life n human relationships n it's all stupid drama to create meaning but the is no meaning all in vein u die at the end n u know what even king Salomon got to this point God can't accept he got nothing to offer me that I give a fuck. All my existence is by force never asked for it nor want it. I'm sick of one thing only - God who locked me in a reality I don't need or want. it's like a nightmare I try to run from but it's impossible.
Your so unfair. Again nobody has known this about me. Your correct though. I'm asking now what if your the one I haven't met yet. Because i feel that someone who knows me could be the one
I feel so happy being alone because people only need my energy but don’t care about what I go through or have to say
These are dynamics of those of us who were born into alcoholic/drug dependency families. Also, depending on your birth order children naturally fall into the super responsible , the clown , and the lost child. Adult children of alcoholics carry characteristics that were important for survival.. Healing is a journey and understanding the patterns and the influence of dysfunctional behaviors , is a big step in our growth.
Thanks for your honesty and telling us like it is. "Let's fuckin go!" ❤
This is unexpected. You perfectly expressed THE void of my life that I didn’t even know that I didn’t know. I am a bit beside myself right now in emotions of anger, sadness, fear and despair. I guess I’ve been totally shut down and haven’t felt these emotions in a long while, it feels like you opened a release valve. I want to run away but I’ve come far too far and I know it is indeed time. This is going to be a tough one. Thank you, you’re quite empowered to be able to bring forth such a message. I’m inspired and feel hope is realistic to have. Thanks again ❤. My deepest love to all who this resonates with this.
❤
Alan Watts: *What did you forget?*
SAME. Well said 💓 Good luck on your journey 💫
Oh LORD😅 I feel EVERYTHING TOO😮
😢
This hits home HARD. I love humans but I’ve been in isolation for 6 years. For awhile I wondered if I’ve lost the ability to love and connect with people. I have a long distance online relationship who wants to close the gap and I’m ready to be in union with him too, but as wonderful as he is from afar, part of me is prepared for him to turn out to be like all the others. I’ve given so much of my time, love, money, and personal servitude to so many people I now have a very short fuse for all that and get resentful quickly when I find myself giving more than I receive in relationships. I know I have to heal this before coming into union with my twin or I’ll end up pushing him away for no reason. We’ve been friends for years before things got serious, and I can’t avoid union forever. He’s been super patient and loving with me but it’s time to either do this or let it go and I’m not willing to let my fears keep me alone forever so I’m doing the inner work around this. This video helped clarify the issue very precisely and helps more than you can know. Thank you Namaste🙏🏾💜✨
This hit hard 😮…made so much sense. Currently ended everything in my life after a traumatic event that unlocked something in me. Starting again at 50 with a whole new perspective but now with understanding. Thank you for putting into words my experience 🙏🏼
OMG.. this too personal ❤.. Thanks
Who told you about me? I was the survival instinct First daughter
Parenting my sibling and parents 💙
It’s tiring
I need to heal myself for the rest of my life because of that
The trauma was not fun but… what can we do
Just trying to stay alive and look for better days
This was scary accurate… thank you..! 💛
THANK YOU FOR THE READING ❤❤❤
Exactly, I feel like connection isn't something I need. I easily abandon friendships, family, and even jobs. I feel comfortable being alone. I feel at ease in hermit mode. Connections make me feel overwhelmed. People like to be around me, and some even seem obsessed with my presence, but I always push them away or run. People enjoy being in my company, but I don’t feel the same way. Deep down, I wish I could be normal. I’d like to find someone I feel comfortable being around, but right now, it’s hard for me.
You make me understand me
Yes but am doing good 👍 I really want my new beginnings so am doing it
As the primogenite daughter, I became the parent, the protector, the healer.
You are the only person who has been able to understand what happened to me
I agree 😅
😢
Isn’t it sad
Thats why i love animals more than humans 😅
Absolutely on point. My momma is soo much worse than I realized. She has munchousen biproxy and all my life she made my life a living hell. I thought she was a covert narcissist only to realize she is actually a female sociopath. I was guided by another reading to look it up and that’s my mother to a tee. I was diagnosed with CPTSD from systematic abuse over and over and over until this very day. I don’t understand why she feels I deserved this treatment. I really don’t.
Jesus Christ this is the story of my life.
Well that surprisingly kicked in with a fly in my face, i think i definitely needed this, thank you for breaking this science and psycological point part down
This is soooooooo my mind the last two months. I have been weeping asking like why? What is the point of connection?? I don’t get it! I don’t get the game.
Thank you so much for this channel.: I am daydreaming of my knight in shining Armor.. I am moving forward into the new ❤
Thank you Sarah. It is wonderful to have you show up. Connecting to the divine is my passion. Most people cannot be trusted. Few reciprocate an equal energy. ❤ infinite blessings
When ur thriving there is no danger in connection ❤
Great message 🙏🌹❤️💫I stand firm in my faith, trusting God's plan. Grateful for blessings, I thank Him for prosperity. My family's happiness is restored, and retirement brings unexpected abundance, $67k weekly returns, a life transforming miracle after past struggles.
Hello please how do you make such weekly?? Please I really need assistance financial.
@@babytruca02Wendy Lisa Kidd I really appreciate her efforts and transparency…
God has used her to save so many families financially. I remember when I met her at the bank, she was indeed a good woman…
I remember giving her my first savings $20000 and she opened a brokerage account for me it turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me…
I’ve raised up to 660k trading with her l no longer pay rent, I own two apartments, a car and a farm factory in the state. Myself and my family we are extremely happy🙏❤️
I shouldn’t be sayin this but, I HAVE TOO! You are stunningly beautifully and I love your energy ❤ 🙏 for the time and reads
Oh Sarah….you have just described my entire life! I’m so glad I found this channel! IT IS TIME…I AGREE…I do deserve stability, balance, connections & love the way I’ve loved! ❤️💚
I hate to admit it, but that reading was for me.
The inner child always understands why she gives more then others are possibly incapable of giving. There is a formula geometry that understands how to keep peace between fellow citizens who might not understand what inner peace truly means in the Truth of matter, just be honest and transparent. If I understand what everyone else’s energy is all about. Then the first thing I would do it warn those in danger. Help protect the innocent people lives . Without using people for only personal gain. .
That might help everyone to raise up to the occasion of ascension ❤
This is sooo on point
This resonates sooo much, thank you❤
Jai Shree Ram Jai Shree Krishna Radhey Radhey thankyou thankyou Ma'am God bless you and your family thankyou thankyou Ma'am God bless you stay always blessed you are too too good too too Asome Ma'am God bless you thankyou thankyou
Finally opened my heart and soul completely got hurt deeply and completely
18:30
I am now in The ether and my spirit is complete. My soul is content. My body doesn't know which end is up.
Oh sh!t 😖 I wasn't expecting that one 😭 that hit deep
Ok u just blew my mind with a beautiful perspective. I will still n always prefer the nature n animal realm😊Much Gratitude🎉
❤ yes and amen to God be the glory.❤
You’ve described me perfectly! I have even called my channel creating connections in my never ending search for answers!
WOW Love it, Love it Love it❤ O Jin my answers are found, ADONAI Bless me
First child
I've recently found out I was adopted and my original parents are dead.. So yes, the description of my foster parents are pretty much accurate
0:42 literally my thoughts today
❤❤ Yes LetsFn Go 🌈💫✨️🌞🌍thank you thank you appreciate 🙏 resonates & claiming 🙌 luv & lite 💫
Wow!!!! I did not know I needed to hear this but you are spot on with what you said and it’s exactly what I’ve been doing to myself. And in turn I attract men who breadcrumb me. I recently felt my heart block and where I’m not allowing myself to be vulnerable. More work to do but it’s ok! Thank you for explaining it the way you did, it was very helpful. ❤❤❤
❤ I was forced to be this way. Parts of my brain were purposely tampered with by the birth portal to seemingly shut down my wants, needs, emotions and was told that my only role was to sacrifice and serve the narcissistic immature birth portal and entitled disrespectful flying monkey siblings.
It's a lifetime of abuse since a baby. Daily abuse. I'm connected to Source and animals and nature are my besties.
Love your energy ✨️ claim it have a good night.
Whoa…so I had an NDE September 16,2020…it’s a crazy story but I got myself into a situation where I had to swim across a lake and I drowned about halfway but was “pulled out” by something higher…made it to the other side. Found out I wasn’t afraid of death but not “finished” and later that night at home I was asking why? What’s left? And the answer was “to experience real love” and I am still trying to understand what that means and how it’s supposed to go. At times I feel bitter…like why didn’t I get that magical NDE experience where everything makes sense suddenly?! 😂
Thank you Sarah ❤ God bless you 🙏🏾
Give in every way yes
Yes you got it
I need a hug…. I did breadcrumb. I I’ve been so desperate for human connection and I have been getting so annoyed at everybody just being users.
I have done a lot of work on myself, though ketamine helped with neuropathways. I’m still terrified of connection.
On the upside, I just went through the dark night of the soul… and boom! All of a sudden I have hey Divine masculine that I just found out about. I haven’t met him, but it was revealed who he was and confirmed a dozen times.
And it will absolutely 100% force me to be extraordinarily vulnerable and move out of state but giant abundance. I’m manifested like crazy on 888 and 1111 and apparently all of my blessings are coming in after a shit show relationship with covert abuse
I need to find a retreat lol!
OUT OF CONTROL!
Thank you for the reading amazing confirmation
You should offer mini retreats 😉😉
14:23 😢 thank u have helped god oh so much ❤
Sheesh..speechless and grateful✨
Yes I got promised you be happy next video
Powerful reading...hit home. Thank you❤❤❤
Word!
This resonates but my goodness I want to have my win by myself first! I don’t ask God for too much but this one thing 😂
Exacto...fui, cariños desde Chile! 😘😘😘
Thank you
I was stronger and smarter and I could see what they need and I gave never received
Wow...spot on..😮
I have tried. Every one has betrayed me. I developed BPD by my mid thirties because I saught connection. I very sincerely believe the entire purpose of my life is to see what it feels like to live an entire life without love. It’s either that or there is nothing beyond the 3D. Either way I can’t wait to die.
Yes I was it resonates
I needed this.
Thank you ❤
thank youuuuu!!!! 💕💕💕
Omggg saraaaaaahhhhhhhh - what’s dis why is this so accurate 🥹🙏
Thankyou
But It's made me very very strong
Yes🎉🎉🎉❤
Yep 😮💨😒 well I'm 40 still wishing for real friends or real love 🥺😢
Honestly though, I wish humans would figure it out for themselves and leave me alone. I had to do it through sheer willpower, on my own for myself. It almost is like I am teasing the world with their own saving. Like an older brother yoinking something out of reach of their younger sibling while they jump and cry for it.
"Do ya want it? Do ya reaaaally want it? I did it entirely in my own head for the sake of the entire world and you all didnt even ask me how I was doing the entire tiiiiime"
I know its petty, but i kind of find it funny to be able to say to myself "I have saved the entirety of creation through the refinement of my own soul", while people try to talk to me about garbage on the television.
Its basically a "Come and get it if you really want it" to the entire world, but the entire world overlooks me and therefore will never take their prize.
The motto "It takes two to tango" has never been more relevant. I will even lead in the dance.
Every time I open to connect people play in my face laugh end then they disconnect
Superficial relationships are okay, as long as I can run away. Though I am healing that, scary as f**k. Oh my gosh. 😊
❤ Tq & Gbu
Am second one but the first end the other two were more love I am the black sheep
Damn!
I have blocked my mother on my phone because she is emotionally abusive. Not because she is unaware that she does it. Since yeara i've tried to make her understand like explaining it to a child why some of her treatment of me is worse than insensitive. She has called my father's worker to invite me for christmas. I wish i was overreacting.
Don't think I haven't tried!!
I am just in a really bad space.
I am working on my relationship issues, but it's not that easy.
Ding ding ding ding ding ding
You told me that I have the strongest partner coming
I’m only 12 minutes in, but you’re on point sweetheart hopefully by the end you can teach me how to fix it lol but that’s really not funny. This is serious.
Wow……but no 8th house sun Jupiter mercury in 12th.wow😊
Absent father
I have Saturn in Aquarius 8th house and I hate humanity. I tried to love them but I can’t. And I’m done trying.
this reading is literally for me, a person who has aquarius (including the moon) 12th house stellium, with gemini sun in the 4th house.. which is crazy cause i have a cancer stellium in the 5th house as well 😭
thank you 💗
Hi... Thank u for the guidance.. is it possible to get in touch please?
💛🌺"Im truly enjoying your videos but I'm having difficulty finding the meditations you're referring to. Would someone be able to assist me with this?Thank you. "
I can’t find any of the links you mentioned. I am a bit tech illiterate, but can everyone else see them?
How on earth do you know all this?
I am the 1st child and became the target of all my parents' abuse.
💯‼️🎯♥️
66th like conformation 😅🫰🏼✨
Am doing in ma
💖😊
I feel like my mind has been read.
🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤😊😊😊
📌💯🥲
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this is the FINAL TRUTH I GOT FOR MYSELF I don't need human relationships I don't need a relationship with God I don't need my existence im sick of the eat shit cycle never asked to be here my biggest burden is God who keeps forcing me another useless day to eat n shit while every night I tell him to get me tf out of here all about his will I look back at my life n human relationships n it's all stupid drama to create meaning but the is no meaning all in vein u die at the end n u know what even king Salomon got to this point God can't accept he got nothing to offer me that I give a fuck. All my existence is by force never asked for it nor want it. I'm sick of one thing only - God who locked me in a reality I don't need or want. it's like a nightmare I try to run from but it's impossible.
I pick the wrong person get hurt
You are so smart its sexy. ❤
Your so unfair. Again nobody has known this about me. Your correct though. I'm asking now what if your the one I haven't met yet. Because i feel that someone who knows me could be the one
Not true I am going to meet my love spirit is making it happen