It was all just a bad dream
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- Опубликовано: 30 июл 2024
- I have felt too many emotions which I should not feel.
It was all too early, I wish I could wake up from it and get my time back.
Teenage Dreams 🌙
[00:00 - 01:25] Salvia Palth - (dream)
[01:25 - 04:45] Alicks - A Time to Wait
[04:45 - 07:50] Bonjr - If it's real, then I'll stay
[07:50 - 11:00] Daniel.mp3 - Green to Blue
[11:00 - 13:30] Øneheart & Reidenshi - Snowfall
[13:30 - 15:45] Antent - October
[15:45 - 19:30] Analog_Mannequin - Milk Cassette x.mp3
[19:30 - 21:00] Antent - In Your Arms
[21:00 - 22:30] Leadwave - Memories
[22:30 - 24:00] Other Nothing - Ww
[24:00 - 25:59] Øneheart - Apathy
Salvia Palth
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Alicks
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Bonjr
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/ bonjr
Daniel.mp3
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/ daniel-mp3
Øneheart
/ iamoneheart
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/ %c3%b8neheart
Reidenshi
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/ reidenshi
Antent
/ antent
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/ antent
Analog_Mannequin
/ user-206997033-754142298
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/ analog-mannequin
Leadwave
/ leadwave
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/ leadwave
Other Nothing
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/ other-nothing
Arici (I am logged off most of the time)
/ arici
Picture is from "Your Lie in April" written by Naoshi Arakawa and published by Kōdansha.
Anime (2014) is produced by A-1 Pictures. 
Видеоклипы
next collection/playlist bringing me back to childhood memories started in march 2024 :)
ruclips.net/video/Q02wMvloAcw/видео.htmlfeature=shared
"it was all just a bad dream" *on spotify*
open.spotify.com/playlist/01rucOjRBpgy0UtXP5qJbY?si=45d5a9202d2641a1
thank you for sharing your experiences, emotions and good words
could not wish for a better comment section
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yours, Arici
Thank you!
@@allcyone I thank everyone of you too
this gave me the resonance I was looking for
What is the gif that you used for the video?
@@_Aricithanks
@@Mod1
We sometimes take steps, albeit unknowingly, to create a road so difficult and dangerous that it is only reasonable to surrender. Don’t be your own worst adversary, your own antagonist..
Guts..
hits man
I believe I been feeling it 😢 to
U said that in such a beautiful way usually saying don’t be ur worst enemy or whatever yak it’s just a common saying but when u say it like that it hits it makes me wanna think about treating myself better
@@xiayu6098 Could not wish for a better comment section and interactions :)
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I have someone who loves me.
He is the shadow in the corner of my room, and he acts more human than I ever could. When I wake up from a bad dream, he's there. He smiles and says that my next dream will be a good one, and that he would never let my dreams actually hurt me.
He is the darkness in my house at night and the expanse of space above me. I used to be scared of the dark, but now it's warm.
In his mind, I am his star in the outer space that he is. He makes me feel loved.
Peace is not the absence of turmoil, but the calm in its midst. Find it within. 🌪⛱🕊
thank u
imagine waking up and your in elementary and again and everything was just a dream, you could literally redo everything again but this time with no mistakes
It’s funny because the older generations always try and lecture us when we are kids and they try and warn us because they made the same mistake however we never listen we need to learn for ourselves, simply telling us the stove is hot isn’t enough, we need to burn our hands to learn
uh huh sound good
True, I cannot take an advice unless it's from my own experience. Maybe that's a part of growth.
This is so perfect for my mood right now. Wish I could lay where she is and just stare at the sky... Praying for peace. 😊
_Staring at the stars_
_Skies are turning dark_
if i could turn back time, i would stop myself from ever reaching out to her, she didnt deserve my dumbass
You dont want the peace this anime character received. Poor Kaori.
@@Psylent shes dead, right?
@@OliverFlinnyes
i wish i'd wake up in 2019 and find that this was all just a bad dream and then make all my mistakes never happen
Keep fighting y’all. We’re human, it’s what we do.
💗
ive faced so much trauma, idk how to even function. my anxiety has been off the chain. i wish people understood that i do not feel as fine as i appear. i face severe depressive episodes, and have social anxiety so bad that going up to people and making friends alone has literally caused me to choke up and break down into tears when they finally notice me and start trying to talk to me. i'm neurodivergent, and i feel like i dont belong in the real world because the world around me keeps worsening. I just wish it was all a bad dream, that my memory would stop deleting itself, and that i could feel fine again. my memory problems are a big problem, im only 15 and trauma has made my memories into shreds. it feels like my mind is a room and about 55% of it is made of missing textures. i hate it. i wish it was all a bad dream.
Sounds very hard. I hope you will find peace someday. Remember that you have no enemies in this world. Always remember just this one sentence: you have no enemies. It may sound unreal but it's really not and when you start to believe it, life begins to be much easier
That's rough man.
Hey, just know that no matter how hard it gets, just know that you are a great person and you deserve to have a happy life. Start things slow and find happiness. Just know one thing (this might sound cringey), you have no enemies after knowing that kindness will come to you.
proud of the answers the community is offering
you can only be understood better, if you open yourself
it's necessary to show a glimpse of vulnerability, it's a step towards receiving compassion and moving forward
it's okay if your fucked in the head were all fucked too. your already complete it's only a problem if you say it is there's always workarounds just one thing at a time drop all the stories. Shotgun approach
As a child, I would stare up at the ceiling for hours imagining being able to walk on it and having to step over the tops of the doorway to move between rooms
Sometimes, I wonder if I'm still there dreaming a terrible dream
Random but where is the art from ur pfp from, it’s beautiful
@@khadija2739 It's a painting by Francesca Càndito
I won't say these are certain fixes for whatever turmoil may exist within you, but they may help you as they did me.
1. Psychedelic assisted therapy. Based on my research and experience, it seems like the most surefire form of therapy. Not only that but drugs like psilocybin have been proven to heal brain damage, strengthen neurons, ect.
If you don't live in or can't get to Oregon or Colorado where the practice of PAT is legal (not entirely in Colorado, but it's decriminalized) I would recommend finding a ketamine clinic near you and going.
If you don't seem like a cop, you may find a revolutionary soul there willing to administer proper PAT (the dosages of ketamine they allow are so small and do nothing for many people).
If nobody offers proper PAT, I recommend inquiring on a piece of paper (if you ask out loud they may suspect that you're wearing a wire)
2. Holotropic breathing/ Tibetan yoga. Wim Hof and the scientific proof backing him explain the benefit and science behind these practices better that I ever could.
All that said, I hope you find peace and contentedness.
Shalom my brudda
Astral Projection - seems like you're a sensitive human :)
@@_Arici I would agree with you
Sometimes, it feels like I see things nobody else does
Recently, I have been feeling anxious, stressed, and a little depressed.
I have been trying to adjust to being an adult. I feel like I am stranded with no help and advice from close ones or family. My parents are trying to decide how my life is going to play out, and what to do, and they have become too dependent on me for the bare minimum.
Whenever I get stressed or irritated, they tell me that it's my fault or that it's a mental issue that I need to control because I "get too stressed too easily".
The reason is, it's because I have not stopped and taken the time to tend to my own needs, but if I do, it's wrong, or I'm being lazy.
My problem is that I procrastinate too much. That has been a serious problem for me for a long time.
I often find refuge in places like these on the internet, somewhere to let go and let the music do the healing.
I have hope that I will get out of this rut, I'm currently revising my resume and adding some final touches, hopefully, I'll land myself a good job that will take me out of the house and I can finally move out.
If you have read this far, thank you for taking the time to hear me out. Sometimes all we want is to be heard and have someone level down and listen to our problems. God bless you and may you continue pushing through.
Thank you, i hope you the best, i think you deserve it
I hope you made it, I know how hard it is to live like that, you don’t have a problem, don’t ever let anyone disrespect your natural times. I wish you the best.
Usually I don't vent but I had to break up with my boyfriend about 1½ months ago. I guess I was surpressing the feelings because school had occupied my life, but now that I'm on break I'm really starting to wish that it was all just a bad dream. Man, my life was beautiful with him.
If anybody else is going through something like this, you're like the strongest person ever man. Be patient with yourself, you don't have to run from the hurt. It's all gonna turn out alright.
Every year I get fired or am manipulated to quit my job because people just don’t seem to want me. Even now this year I am jobless again, but I saw it coming. I don’t really have a place to live, I’m like a nomad. One day, I’ll wake up from this bad dream and live in stability and peace I hope.
if I may recommend you three books:
the alchemist by Paulo Coelho
the why cafe by John Strelecky
ego is the enemy by Ryan Holiday
perhaps there will be sth u like, if u have a (public) library in ur town, there should be one or two of them available to borrow
I love the Alchemist. I would also personally recommend The Four Agreements. Short but profound read.
I believe the love we are lacking is the love we lack for ourselves. Look in the mirror today and tell yourself “I love you.” Straight in the eyes. I think you’d be surprised at how it makes you feel. God speed friends. ❤
Don't please them and quit... Be strong and do the opposite, stay in that place and endure. You can do whatever you want! Don't let others decide for you. God bless you! I hope you can find stability by doing what you want.
this playlist literally makes me feel the emotions that i would feel if all bad things that happended to me would be only a bad dream.
It’s okay to tell yourself it was all a bad dream 🖤 Sometimes a little delusion is nice
putting it together was also a relief for me
even though it opened a gate for emotions to arise which were asleep
a playlists that revives me and makes me feel alive.
to whoever is reading this, i know that whatever it is that you are going through, it will pass and *everything will be okay* .
i wish you a happy and blissful life, just know that life is a rollercoaster, you may feel scared, excited, thrilled, and happy. Remember that rollercoasters always have an end to them.
What you give you get in the end
It all comes full circle
Thanks for your good energy, my boy Zenitsu
/_ \ thanks
The last part with the rollercoaster was unexpected but it's perfect. One day, we'll probably feel nothing so we might aswell make the most out of the ride. The scary parts and the exciting ones.
I wish I could wake up to 4 years back when I still did not take engineering out of peer pressure. Now I have shit tons of back logs it hurts deeply
please this is only a nightmare
everything is falling into pieces
it might be night right now, but the sunrise is inevitable. just a little more
This anime broke my heart.
when i moved towns, i lost all my friends. it was in the covid-19 era and i couldnt find any new friends even if i tried. time past and i still didnt find any, i was quite sad knowing that im reaching my 20s and it will get much harder to bond with people. but then i realized i have a very close and loving family. not everyone has that luxury, so now i try to spend as much time with my family as i can. Sometimes we have to realize that what we're looking for has been here all along ♡
most valuable, family is what remains
nurture it as long as you have the chance ♡
We have this Festival called "Dashian","Tihar" which has few days gap between them. I've liked this festival since I was a kid(mainly because we used to get about a month long holiday from school, haha peace!). And this specific time frame, had chilly mornings, with warm sun rays afterwards and sometimes cold breeze of wind throughout the day, which allowed us to fly kites. THIS particular feeling has always stuck with me. And every year during this festival, I get the same feelings, I can not describe it but listening to this music, with this particular visual, I experience the same feeling. I don't know if I am making any sense at all. Anywho, hope everyone is happy and doing alright. Let's make this day another good one!
Sounds like an experience which will give you a warm feeling when reminiscing about it
glad this place could bring you back to it :)
I lived through a nightmare.
And this playlist perfectly reflects the feelings of liberation, you suddenly stopped experiencing pain and everything that happened was like a bad dream, as if nothing had happened.
it was an escape for me to
even though it made conscious what was unconscious and gave form to what I couldn't articulate
Sometimes when you know your heading into a dark tunnel the best thing is to just close your eyes
The last few months have been too stressful for me. My exams, going to college, betrayal of a loved one, falling in love and constantly worrying about a person in a dangerous situation ... And also a lot of responsibilities that I have to fulfill no matter how I feel. I became distracted, I feel like a burden, paranoia appeared. The world around me is collapsing, and I am right at the epicenter of many global problems. I know that this will end someday, because I consider myself a positive person and I understand that everything will get better soon. But for now, I just feel like I want to lie on the grass, forgetting about all the hardships and not thinking about anything ...
Im so tired bro. Ive been through so much and I survived and overcame. I grew up too fast and now I cant relate to anyone else my age. Its so isolating, so lonely. I just want a good respectable friend and it seems that doesnt exist.
just because your tree grew bigger, does not mean that one can't find a place to rest underneath you bro - you can be a place of peace :) and also, your views reach farther, enjoy the breeze, no one sees the sunset the way you do
but don't be too strict towards yourself and your surroundings, don't let grief grow
How old are you? I’m 15 and I started feeling this way since I was 7. Maybe we could be friends.
I’m so lonely. To be honest, I know a lot of people, but none of them feel like friends. I have no friends. I just wish for one person who truly understands me, and will ride or die with me.
@@88xxx Im 19, thats a pretty big age gap tbh. Also, being friends might be hard since it may be fairly forced if that makes sense. ITs hard to meet people online when it doesnt happen in a natural way, such as in a video game. I am open to talking tho, i cant promise ill be an amazing friend or anything but I can try to be there to some extent at the very least. I really hope you find good people to surround urself with bro, just keep getting through each day and things will change!
I live in Russia and although I do not know why this video appeared in my recommendations, but it seems that RUclips wants to tell me something with this video...
Damn
Сэйм бро
Rest in peace, Kaori.
Это самое лучшее и сложное лето... Школа закончилась, начинается реальная жизнь. Как и большинство, не знаю на кого поступать. Я ведь никогда не интересовался и не занимался чем-нибудь. Максимум играл в игры к которым начал остывать.
Но всё же я знаю чего хочу от жизни... У меня есть какая-либо надежда на то что всё когда нибудь наладится. Начал пытаться рисовать, вдохновляясь некоторыми художниками;) Не уверен в этом, но буду поступать на программиста. Вот начинаю в джаве разбираться.
У меня ведь даже никаких хобби раньше не было...
Надеюсь я избавлюсь от моей небольшой социофобии и найду друзей с похожими интересами;)
Если это кто-то читает, желаю тебе удачи)
I also wish you good luck :)
Perhaps you will find "freecodecamp" useful if you are just beginning to code - just to grasp an idea of different topics
And yes, you will find your place and way - keep your mind open
I am going through the exact same thing. Everyone goes through this if they live long enough. Find comfort in how free you are able to be but cherish your time on earth with new experiences. if you’ll make it a habit now then life later on will get easier.
I have VERY vivid dreams and sometimes when i waking up i cant remember reality. Sometimes i cant believe that was just a dream.
I think i am a dreamwalker like Lovecraft's Carter. Not always i can walk but with time my dreams are more vivid and longer.
It's different from theme of this vid but...
Some dreams are nightmares of course and they are bright as day too. I dont fear them at all. I can even just fully merge with nightmare creatures and feel fear as all my cells feared too. And nothing bad really happens. The last time i was bored in my nightmare and just walk in another dream.
But in real life i sometimes just cant ask someone to do something with me.
sometimes i wish this was all one big dream
in a way where i can reset, try again, maybe get a little more lucky. a way to leave this world without feeling guilty for the ones i left behind.
You are loved, I know you made it through, ups and downs, but you will always find your way.
Such a calming playlist. 10/10
😊
I love dream so much. It reminds me of a midwestern gothic theme, two runaway teens, coming of age, getting to know the world. Its very beautiful.
interesting scenery for perhaps a short movie, with the music in the background following and underlining the story
Daamn these are really good. Feel emotional, unlike most the chill playlists
Did my best - was listening to my heart and looked for harmonizing pieces
But most likely it turned out so well because I was in deep feellings while putting it together
@@_AriciYou did a wonderful job with all of it, this video connects to the me that I left alone so long ago. The kid I used to be. He thanks you.
@@meh3083 I hope I am able to gently connect you again - part 2 out :)
@@_Ariciwill listen!
Something so painful yet so sweet about that relief you feel after a real bad dream or nightmare
Kaori was a very compelling & sad character. She hears you all.
This gif is from an anime? Oh please give me the name the colors are so beautiful
@@kxlotp5852 thank you so much :)
@@kxlotp5852I can't decide if you telling him the name was the right thing or not.
I guess it was able _to reach you_ and _live inside your heart_
@@kxlotp5852you shouldn't have told him :/ I was depressed for 2 weeks after watching that anime 😢
This playlist came out at the perfect time, thank you.
Literally my mood, this hits right at home when I need it most. Stare into the night sky and wonder what even is life
Take your time
I've genuinely lost my confidence... Everything that has gone on, the physical abuse I've endured. Family passing away. People who I used to care about, just leaving and never speaking to me again. It's broken me down to a formal shell of myself. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. For the first time in my life. I'm afraid for my future. I just want to feel like myself again. I miss being so sure of myself. But now? I'm always doubting myself. I'm scared... And that alone worries me more than anything else. What the hell has happened to me? I used to march forward through anything and bounce back. But lately, I can't even be bothered anymore.
I just stare at my ceiling, looking back at all the better times. I feel numb and exhausted, and I want to be left alone... But I also want to be around people. It's all just confusing to me at this point.
same exact thing here
I found it just when i needed this most. Thanks to you for this superior playlist, it will help me so many times, I know it for real already.
I'm tired AF and I don't want sympathy from a stranger I just want friends
wanna be my friend?
Me too. Can we be friends?? Do y’all have discord
These are really good for the mood I’ve been in. Heard two of them but the rest are great! Better than most chill/ relax playlists
and in those halls forever echoes the children we used to be, hoping for a future that we didn’t know wouldn’t come.
But I promise you this. We really did love.
Echoes of the past
I also drift away from time to time
where is this from
@@Cro1232cro i wrote it, i tried to capture my feelings in these words
Yes, it made me think about my echoes. Took me back in my time too.
@@_Arici Always a pleasure to return the favor.
to find peace in chao , to find masterpiece in bunch of mess. i found your song. thank you❤
Heaven is a place within yourself
It has been cloudy for me too
To help u find a little peace is what I wanted with this mix - happy it could reach your heart
Be something just wake up and it’s all just been a dream
This isn't really happening. It's only a bad dream. - Kent Mansley, The Iron Giant (1999)
Maybe your dreams are trying to tell you something. - Wanda, The Fairly OddParents - Dream Goat!
We can't ignore these dreams. - Jacob, Joseph: King of Dreams (2000)
So incredibly peaceful 😇😇😇
Okay, then i take your soul...now you go with me
This mix really helped me to see my self destructive behavior. I am taking steps to better my wellbeing. Thank you.
Compare yourself to who you were yesterday, you got it - evolute, Simon :)
Glad you found this on your way
not everything, there were things that couldn't have been better... a true dream, a true perfect dream
this is so precisely what i needed
All I could offer
I luv the title. It's what stuck out to me the most and the audio is helping me to reset my mind right now 😄
come back as many times as you need
happy it gave you the same peace
This has so much meaning for me. This scene inspired my own art the year that anime debuted. It was a year so much went wrong with a retched person that essentially did not care that i was dying. I brushed with death, the kind that makes you survive but just barely. Maybe they said I faked everything so you could see, so you could see the real me. Maybe it was a cry for help. I didnt like it at all.
But now its all just a bad dream feels like a calming response to all that hell. Its over and in its place, is someone new, that i have a similar creative connection with. Someone who cannot recall my face, but still i know with no doubt at all that they still got love for me.
Is that Kaori?
The music choices in this playlist are immaculate. You have officially sent me to a different dimension. Thank you.
people like you are the reason I put so much care into it
I am curious to know whether part 2 and part 3 (coming this friday) are able to gift you the same experience
let me know when its out this friday, Angelika :)
great playlist, i've been looking for vibe like that
More to come hopefully - see you soon
Please... pleasee.. let it be a dream
This is an extraordinary composition of beautiful tracks! Thank you
soon
This is one of my fav playlists rn
Honored to welcome producers to the channel too
You're welcome, bro
_I know it's been hard_
Thank you for this playlist
thank you for appreciating it
Ready to journey to the dark abyss, my destiny a bad dream. Drift away in darkness.
Trees grow into heaven when their roots reach down to hell
Lessons are nightmares most times
Once you wake up, you will be greeted by light hopefully
the gif suits perfectly…
feels good when people see what I saw in it
Иногда кажется, что пока я стараюсь найти друзей и порадовать близких, у меня не остается силы на саму себя, и вопросы по типу "Кто я? А что я хочу от жизни?" уходят в долгий ящик.
Да ладно, листок бумаги и ручка могут решать такие вопросы за пару часов. Надо только дать им шанс.
@@iamdozerq Не могут.
@@eyjele только в психиатрических случаях
@@iamdozerq за пару часов это поможет только если ты конченный долбоёб, который не в состоянии сделать то же самое в голове.
its so peaceful
everything I wanted
goated mix i love it
Thank you - more to come
Hope you stay around :)
It's crazy that this beauty of a playlist has only 272 likes on spotify, what a pleasure to listen to
Appreciate your words
in life we dream sometimes, afterlife we dream all the time.
I'm a simple person, I see Kaori so I click
hope you found an atmosphere, a reason to dwell in the moment
@@_Arici Helpful advice
Favorite playlist
thank you :)
Thank you for this playlist ❤ Ive been having very negative thoughts within these past few weeks, and this playlist just made me unwind, relaxed my mind, I was able to think of things that made me happy…my family,friends..god has given so much to me but i tend to look at the other side sometimes, so thank you.
incredible - to wake up what is hidden inside of you, to help you find focus - dwell into your heart is all I was wishing for with this series
majestic playlist
More to come
thank you for support 💙💙💙
appreciate ur positive response for being on here ♥️
To be in my head and battle these memories telling myself I’ll make better ones my life still has way more chapters and I’m awaiting the next in anticipation
Every moment you are alive you get to live your life. Truly use your time for what is highest to you
I wish that it was but nah. I'm here, sitting with the mistakes I've made. But it's fine, I'll be alright, just gotta keep pushing through
Man, I just wish I could've.
what genre would this be considered? very cool, kinda like chill lofi or dreamverb without drums
Needed this
If it brought you comfort, it's all I wanted
now it's all ok
Sounds like the playlist was a lullaby for you 🌙
I wish it was just a bad dream but I cant seem to wake up from this dream and they are realy gone😢
I know all these songs in this playlist. Gj putting it together.
I listened to Alicks songs during a hard Time so when I heard One of his songs again One Tear left me xd
Echoes of the past
Reminiscing from a place of more peace it seems
I wish that all the complications that I am having with my life is just a bad dream
We had to put my dog to sleep 2 weeks ago, he was 14, I got him when I was 10, he was my best friend and even more, he was my reason for living, it often feels like it was just a dream and that he is still here with me, sometimes when I go to sleep I tell myself that my dream is now my reality where I am together with my dog again and all the people that I love and aren’t there anymore, this music conveys this whole vibe and feeling
I rly wish it was all nothing but a bad dream man
I dont have money for any medication or therapy. I am alone. I wish i had someone to say goodbye to.All i know is i am tired and will go in a short while, and that i am spending my time listening to nice things. I hope these days will be gentle for me.
This is amazing
More to come hopefully, thank you
I guess Shinji would also listen to it
@@_Ariciyeah haha, I think that too
Damn you youtube for showing me this kind of stuff. Beautiful..
Y’all let’s all agree we can use more hugs and complements so this year I will do those things more
What you give you get in the end
Noble attitude you have, sharing value
You have time. Go. Now.
my friend very nice mix🥰
appreciate you
Fascinating
appreciate you
for some reason, this girl in the background describes my condition at the moment in this way
Her name is Kaori. Anime is named “Your Lie in April”. A musical anime. Very tragic but beautiful show.
Dont lose hope, this life is really tough, but its not the only one you can experience. Meet shifting ;] you wont regret it
shhhhhh....hope ? I threw it away a long time ago
Made in heaven
i wonder how many times iv rewatched this or looped it...
Never thought I could achieve that - thank you
@@_Arici achieve what? I'm sorry?
Achieving that people listen to it for several times - hearing that you like the mix feels like achieving a goal to me :)
letting my thoughts go on here as I have no one else to speak with. i can’t explain this aching feeling inside of me but I know I don’t deserve any of it. I’ve brought light to people’s lives , held them high and kept them still. in return , I get brought back down. I don’t understand any of it. this has happened way to much 2 me and I just want peace. i honestly just wanna be held and to be told it’s okay. that everything will be okay & that all my doings are for a purpose. I’m losing the light in my life and im struggling to see the road ahead of me. am I really unlovable ? am I really that replaceable. I have no one. no one to turn too when things get rough. I wish I had a bestfriend. I wish I had a lot of things. I find peace in being alone , but not feeling alone. I’m just tired of feeling. I’m just tired in general. I say I’m strong , but a human can’t be this strong. there’s so much weight on my shoulders and it feels like a boulder. screaming for help or for someone to notice but I’m just a blind spot.
i simply just, just, feel the same…
Alicks ❤️
Либо впотьмах не видно, либо на свете, но ощущение, тонущего или плавающего, прям под или над поверхностью. в середине где либо, вот дух заблудился, поискаем после утихает буря.
indeed it was
Kaori in the background looks beautiful
You truly like the Anime :)
@@_Arici yeah
I hope so...
Gosh dangit its kaori *flashbacks*
I wonder if I'll be able to wake up from this life... I am tired of this nightmare.
this stresses me out it is too soothing.
i don't know why but when i hear this my heart speeds up and it's hard to breathe.
i feel u... it is a panic
why do i panic?@@wellawoods1660