I am a former police officer in recovery from PTSD, drug, and alcohol abuse. The emergency tone heard in this video is a panic or emergency signal that is still familiar. Strangely, I still get a little dopamine rush when I hear a tone like this. I have mixed feelings about my career and life. I was just “wired” to serve, wear a uniform, and wrestle with the darkness. However, I was not immune to the plight and suffering of the people I served…..even those I arrested. One moment earlier in my career I was sitting in my patrol car thinking, “wow, this is a dream come true, this is what I was meant to do”. Years later I was using alcohol and then drugs to bury feelings and pain that men are not allowed to talk about. There are images of violence and death that will never leave me. My chosen profession made me sick. It’s time I can’t get back. Leaves me bitter sometimes. However, I can’t tell you how much I miss it when a patrol car goes by me as it barrels down the road, howling at the night. I can’t go back though. In truth, a piece of me was sacrificed when I put on the uniform and I think it was the right thing to do to give that piece away. It comes down to a matter of honor for me. God just had a different plan for my life. Deus vult (a Latin phrase traditional Catholics use to mean, “God wills it”, I was baptized Catholic and Jesuit educated).
@@scottleppard288I have many dea and police that live in my neighborhood- I see them leaving for work and after this video I say a prayer 🙏🏻 for them all
i have dea agents and police in my neighborhood- whenever i see them leaving for work- i now say “ god bless.. and ty”.. after seeing this. my only interaction with police in 58 years was speeding ticket… i never dreamed of this!!🥲😢🥲😢😢
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I am a former police officer in recovery from PTSD, drug, and alcohol abuse. The emergency tone heard in this video is a panic or emergency signal that is still familiar. Strangely, I still get a little dopamine rush when I hear a tone like this. I have mixed feelings about my career and life. I was just “wired” to serve, wear a uniform, and wrestle with the darkness. However, I was not immune to the plight and suffering of the people I served…..even those I arrested. One moment earlier in my career I was sitting in my patrol car thinking, “wow, this is a dream come true, this is what I was meant to do”. Years later I was using alcohol and then drugs to bury feelings and pain that men are not allowed to talk about. There are images of violence and death that will never leave me. My chosen profession made me sick. It’s time I can’t get back. Leaves me bitter sometimes. However, I can’t tell you how much I miss it when a patrol car goes by me as it barrels down the road, howling at the night. I can’t go back though. In truth, a piece of me was sacrificed when I put on the uniform and I think it was the right thing to do to give that piece away. It comes down to a matter of honor for me. God just had a different plan for my life. Deus vult (a Latin phrase traditional Catholics use to mean, “God wills it”, I was baptized Catholic and Jesuit educated).
May God keep you in the palm of his hand ❤️🙏🏻🤦♀️
@@Nasdaqbaby Thanks.
We get in looking, we leave by seeing. 25 years.
02/07/1997, then there was one. See you boys soon, 43:18, Lep.
If you have never served, please don't ask why we punch our fallen brethren's casket.
It would be good for citizens to know
@@Nasdaqbaby Yes, Ma'am
It's a rite of passage, ma'am. Coveted in the blue line.
@@scottleppard288I have many dea and police that live in my neighborhood- I see them leaving for work and after this video I say a prayer 🙏🏻 for them all
Thank you, ma'am@@Nasdaqbaby
Respect 😢
Post the Video When i Just get Back Lmao Maybe you where waiting for me to get back lmao *Nice Video btw Great Job and Keep up the Greatt Work Man*
Lol OF COURSE!! And thank you😂
Great job mate!
Thanks thanks
nice video
Thank you, it's hard to establish a clear line of communication when this stuff goes down. God bless you, Lep
Panic room+
i have dea agents and police in my neighborhood- whenever i see them leaving for work- i now say “ god bless.. and ty”.. after seeing this. my only interaction with police in 58 years was speeding ticket… i never dreamed of this!!🥲😢🥲😢😢