@@user-tp3vw6uz7s nope, I took too much marijuana and had a panic attack my first time and now have dpdr and chronic disassociation, I want to feel REAL again
today i had a mental health class and my teacher said that being on your phone for long periods of time can mean that your mental health might not be as well. At first i didn't wanna believe him but today i realized that after i put my phone down and it was just me and my thought i soon understood what he had meant now. the endless pit in my mind reminded me that i'm still alone.
11:40 (23:40) August 13, 2022 Saturday Sometimes; I wonder what it's like to have someone who cares... and to know that they care, without that little voice in the back of my mind telling me that I'm not actually worth the time, or energy for someone to care... I wonder what it's like to feel free to talk to someone without the worry of jugement, without fear that it can be used as a weapon... I wonder what it's like to sit down and talk to someone about life, about... anything really... I wonder what it's like to not have to put on a mask/smile everyday, and be genuinely happy... I wonder what it's like to have someone who I can call mine, to spend my days with, to do things with... I wonder why it's so hard for me to express my genuine feelings... I wonder if she actually likes me... I wonder why i've held on for so long... why i'm still here... why I still try... why I care...
you're worth someones time,love,care and energy, don't give up, once you find it or once it finds you, it'll be the most amazing feeling. trust me, i've gotten it once, take care of the relationship like you would take care of a plant. water it,give it sunlight, give it effort,show affection,give time to eachother. and never, never take your partner for granted , don't make the same mistake i did , I'm living full of regret but i hope sharing this tiny bit helps you and others,
i promise someone out there needs and deserves your love. and in turn will love you unconditionally. stay true to your values, and continue on despite the overwhelming facts of existence. even the most insignificant things have a purpose in life and your being is just as important as everything else that is here. thanks for your comment, to remind myself that i’ve grown from where i was, and you to can grow. it just takes someone to believe in you, and i believe in you.
You've held on for so long because you had hope, you're still here because you have hope, you still try because you have hope, you care and I care because WE have hope. The thing is, people only see the storm before the calm or the storm after it, but there will always be both of them, just try to learn from each phase. As much shit you're going through right now, there will be good things in your life too eventually. Keep going, even if you have to walk the whole hell without seeing your path clearly. You'll eventually get rid of that and will become the strongest guy the world has ever seen, trust me. I believe in you.
I wish I could see how many times Ive listen to this. The only reason I am able to keep studying and keep going is putting this on repeat and just thinking. Ive always found peace in this and hopefully everyone else found it too.
Just listening to this makes me happy I’ve been sad and sad because of my dad’s death even tho he’s been dead for a while but listening to this just put all that past me and now I’m am easy with his going and hope one day I can see him again
Man I feel this,last night I did the same thing and it felt like my problems swept away for the time being. It’s great that just vibrations can make such a beautiful sound🤍💯
I’m seeing myself in a crystal ball, knowing most answers to all of my problems , I understand my moms true feelings about wanting to visit her family, only staying with him because of her daughters, I never knew my dad, neither did my brother, so she’s sacrificing her happiness for her daughters, she wants to be free and I’m the only one who can get her away from all this but in my arrogance, I choose my temporary safe spot every single time over my own mother. Why can’t I fucking move. I’m staring at this crystal ball and I can’t break into it. I can’t break out of my laziness, anger, regrets, my obsession with my childhood past, what could’ve been and what should’ve been. All I can do is see my reflection off the crystal ball and watch it spin.
...this is my mom...lullabying me to sleep...in her arms...just me and her staring at each other...feeling her fingers run thru my hair...feeling her warm body...her heart beating to the rythm of her soft humming...soooo peaceful soo perfect ..soo soft...soo loving....thank you mom for always being there. ❤
My gf left me 2 days ago,i just can't move on,i lost my hope,my soul, I don't know what to do,i Dont wanna live again,when i hear this,i started crying,cause i love her so much
It’s painful I know exactly how you feel. Mine left me 6 months ago but it feels like it’s only been yesterday. It hurts the pain doesn’t go away but always remember you were happy before she ever came into your life. I’m trying to find that happiness now. It might take awhile .stay strong king 🤴
keep your head up king. it’s almost a year since my gf of 4 years decided she got bored and left. i still think about her everyday and cry a lot of nights, but i know in the future i will find a happiness that i’ve never felt before and so will you. we got this
There’s no need to be worried about death it’s inevitable and when you embrace that fact You can go 2 ways Realise there is no meaning to everything and that we are all on a perpetual self destructive March into extinction Or that you have on average 80 years to make the rest of time remember your name and cement yourself in the history books Listening to this song makes my mind conflict with itself and tbh I don’t know what side I’m on anymore (This song is beautiful no Ill feelings towards this song at all)
The belief that there's no meaning and it's just decay and destruction is, in fact, meaningful. Making things mean nothing is just more meaning. Inherent meaning may not exist, but what does that matter?
I agree with your view and the ways in which we can go but disagree that there’s only 2, I believe there’s endless ways. E.g. Feeling the moment/now is all meaning and the present is all that matters. Or that the memory you leave on others / impact you have on others lives is true meaning. Or that we pass and the things we’ve built or destroyed is all meaning. Or all of the above or none. In truth meaning I’d foremost personal, it can be whatever you make it. Who is to tell you otherwise. Much love and hope you are well x.
As I lie in my bed at night I fantasy about what could have been and what I truly wanted for us, to grow, to be happy, start a family, grow old together, but through it all to also be in love with the most amazing women in my life. As I lie here I come to realization that can be no longer be the case as situations happen, arguments happen and life happens. As I lie here I become sad as the person I wanted everything with is no longer here, no longer talking to me, no longer caring for me. as I lie here reminiscing about the most amazing time I had with my special person who gave me so much love that I had never experienced before. As I lie here I think about everything and I start to become sad again but I come to realization that you won’t come back. As I lie here I try not to be sad that it ended but to be happy that it happened. As I lie here…as I lie here…I try until the next night where the cycle continues as I lie in my bed.
"All I ever wanted was to make everyone smile, but for some reason I was always set aside. I tried, and I tried to impress so many but it never worked. It took me so long to realize that I was trying so hard to make the wrong people happy, and never myself."
It’s not coincidence you’re reading this… *_____________________________* Accept Jesus & His sacrifice. *_____________________________* Jesus is calling you to repent from your current life, turn to His face & submit to His presence, to the Father’s Will, to that conviction in your heart… It isn’t a call for the perfect, it’s a call to the sinner. He has chosen you, so will you come into His presence? Will you read His Word? Will you submit to the Holy Spirit?
Today I thought about what the world would be like without me. I thought about all the people that I would leave behind, but only for a moment. A very short lived moment. In a hundred years; hell, in ten years when no one remembers me life will move on. Without me. It always does. Today I thought about how small I truly am. How big the universe is. How in the blink of an eye everything rushed by. I thought about how I wanted it to slow down. How desperately I wanted it to slow down. Desperately. Today I begged to no one to slow down. I thought about how the sun set on yesterday & every yesterday before that. Today I thought about dying. Not unlike so many days before this one. I thought about how it would feel, what it would be like, if I’d even know it happened or understand what I’d come to know. I thought about what’s on the other side of this. Today I thought. The rain fell & the world continued to rush by; never slowing for anyone or anything. Unrelenting & unceasing. Today I thought about how many have felt these exact feelings & thought these exact thoughts that I think here now; but only for a moment. A very short lived moment.
Damn y'all ok? Love yourself, believe in yourself, don't let others define your worth. God, who gifted you with life, calls you His. You are amazing, one of a kind, beautiful in His eyes. Sinful humans do not define you. Be strong. You CAN get through it
" I must say in the start it was easy and fun but the more you got to end everything starts to change everything gets hard and frustrating but in the end it nothing because you have your memory to live off of you see just gotta let go on what's holding you and take a step in to the future and see yourself thrive into this world into something for you can't stay the same forever if you do something cause sometimes things change a lot and we can't do anything but lets just say we all the same ending even though we don't see eye to eye but the ending won't be wonderful or bad it will just perfect in the way you want but some we will experience it".
i know it's not great to just,, dump stuff on here but i genuinely need it. especially since i can't even get therapy. i had to watch my dog die, and i'm extremely traumatized by it. my parents act like i'm not traumatized and my grandparents don't even care. we got two new dogs to deal with the death of our dog and the giving away of the two dogs that killed her. i can't even be around them without being triggered, but im the person who takes care of all the dogs we have (we have five), so no one really thinks about my ptsd. i relapsed a month ago, and no one even noticed. i made a stupid choice to make it noticable, and while i dont like people seeing my relapses, i was at such a low point i kinda wished someone would ask me, but no one did. it's starting to heal up now, but it's discolored. i have one on my hand from the death of my dog. i got a girlfriend a few days ago after questioning my sexuality for a long time. it was extremely rushed and i feel bad. i feel bad because she's in love with me and i don't know how to feel. i should've just said i wasn't interested but now i can't just tell her because it'll hurt her and i don't want to be an asshole. i'm in a dark place now too (it's resurfaced), and sometimes i think she doesn't care about me. i'm happy with her, but i'm just so confused. i want to tell her im in a bad place but i can't, because i have the mindset of "if they cared, they'd notice and they'd ask" and i can't just dump everything on her. my parents don't know how much i want to leave my home. i would, but i can't. i have senior dogs, and i can't just leave them when they're so close to dying. they've been with me my whole life. i'm preparing for the day but i know i'll never be ready. i can't let them go. it's going to be so hard. no one really knows that i can't imagine a future for myself, but that's okay because they don't really need to know. i might come back and delete this later, but i'm not sure. i just needed to get this off my chest. i hope everyone is having a great day
Heh reminds me of simpler times when we were young enough to not know what politics or anything else when we were not sad but we were old enough to make friends and have a wonderful time. Damn it real makes me sad.
Yeah.. I miss being a kid, I’m 23 now with no dedication or motivation to be me anymore. I’m obsessed with my past, even tho I didn’t have a crazy luxury childhood or Teen hood like many of my peers growing up but I appreciate the small things I had with my first childhood friends, unfortunately we grew apart over some stupid drama and one of them passed away, he drowned. The other friend… well I don’t blame him for removing me from his life since I blamed him for our friends death. Rest easy Ezekiel, I’d do anything to go back
I’m sitting here thinking of back in the summer that one trip and how much I wish I could go back my family doesn’t understand how happy I am there I wish I could believe people when they say they love me I wish they could love me and I wish I could believe it and I wish I could cry in there arms as they tell me it’s all ok and that they’ll always be there for me and they could kiss me on my forehead hug me and say it’s ok I’m here you don’t need to be alone anymore
R.I.P Little Guy..You were only 6 months old lil pup...curiosity got the best of you but you're now at peace and not suffering, Ill miss you a lot. 4/08/2021-10/11/2021
Sometimes I wonder where we would be if he still loved me..if he didn’t meet her..then replace me with her..I feel like I wasn’t enough, like maybe its because I wasn’t there physically..and she was..I don’t miss him..I miss who I thought he was and how he made me feel, I hate her for interrupting what we had..now it’s like I was never part of his life and it bothers me,he was was why I woke up in the morning and actually looked forward to that day..I just give on this love stuff..I want someone to love me forever and not just another phase for someone..I would put so much love and effort into these people and now, I honestly feel so broken inside that I’ve lost hope for finding this “love” and finding my person..
@@colinreeter777 just press the "three dot" option next to the caption button and you can find "loop video". If it wasn't there, maybe you haven't update your youtube app
I don’t know why but when I listen to this I automatically think of her. I miss her so bad. We didn’t even last 2 months. We broke up exactly a week before 2 months. I blame myself. I could have done more. I tried making her as happy as I could but in the end I never was or am enough.
There’s a certain feeling you gain from enough experience and failures. Until one day you are pushed to the limits of regret and unfulfillment. You aren't sure what lies ahead of you anymore, everything becomes dull and boring to you. Ironically the people who do care about you only care once you say something, but in the end, they go back to saving themselves. After all, they do get to live as well. Somehow you still ask yourself if you're living or not. You start to compare, start to negotiate your own thoughts into pretending it’s all ok, but you can’t because it’s too late. This feeling lives on with you forever. no matter where you go. until one day you are so desperately numb that it all goes away somehow. you become free and out of character with the norm. Is this freedom. Or is it just loneliness...?
This Audio Sounds Like If You Were To Buy Your Crush Flowers Cause You We’re Gonna Ask Her Out, You Walk Towards Her With Flowers In Hand and Smile On Your Face Then A Random Guy Comes Out Of Nowhere and Puts His Hand Around Her Waist and Pulls Her In For Kiss… and You Watch As Your Smile Slowly Fades and Your Heart Continues To Break With Every Touch Of Their Lips Then You Decide To Walk Away, And This Audio Plays While Everything Happens In Slow Motion…
She broke up with me almost a month ago.... I'm hurt, I'm lost, I'm sad, I dont't know what to do with myself anymore... Reza if you ever read this. Please come back... I will do whatever it takes... 😭😭💔
i Listened to this just now, while writing little notes for my gf, if i should still call her my gf..rough times..i hope the cute notes work..this song hits the feels hard..i miss her, i miss the laughs.
I don't get why people chase money, love, or fame . I just feel trapped cause I know I'll just cease to exist in the end so really what's the point. Theirs's not really a point in anything unless you believe in a religion that can't be proven. We as humans are so vile and yet so simple, I don't wanna die and yet I see no point in even continuing.
My dad is drunk and hits me and my mom I don't know what I did to deserve this but ig I do I never asked to be born I never asked to be perfect all I wanted was too be loved for ones I'm about ready to give up
I hope that things are better for you now, but if they aren't, please know that you didn't do anything to deserve it, and it won't be forever. It won't be forever. There will be love in your life, just like you deserve, and you'll leave this chapter in time in the past and move forward into a life of your own. I know I'm just an internet stranger, but if you ever want to talk, I'd be glad to
You don’t deserve it, you will find love, the hardest part is not letting those scars affect you and that love youll find, please take it from me if you ever see this. Don’t let who people try to make you get in the way of your happiness, don’t hurt the people around you. It’s almost impossible but don’t bring what that awful person gave you into the future
@@_Spider-Man_420 life hasnt hit the same since 2018-19. like prime fortnite days the days when you were excited for the next morning and wanted to stay up for aslong as you could playing and not wanting to just get the day done and over with ://
I'll be that comment, I miss her... so much and yet as one guides me to a future where the memories lingere and the pain is still.. -llSincerelyll Twitter^
Not doing dis for attention seeking but I kinda jus wanna end it all, the pain. Drugs aren’t helping me out no more n Idk wat to do…. I jus don’t see the point of life no more. If y’all got sum tips for me, pls lmk wat I can do:/
Hi, I'm really sorry you're feeling such unbearable pain. I don't know what's happened to you in your life but things do change. It's life's only constant. Sometimes though the changes are really small. Any small thing you can do for yourself can have great lasting impact, whether it be taking more walks, working up a sweat doing something physical with your body, drinking more water or tea, eating a nice meal, journaling, sitting and listening to music, saying hi to friends, family or even strangers, reading, talking to yourself out loud, or any other small action that can help you feel more embodied or in touch with your emotions. I'm not licensed in any way to give medical advice, but it'd also be good if you had someone on the outside you can talk to. It'll be easier to heal if you have others to help you, and therapy is one way to get help. Try your best not to give up on yourself. You are valuable, and you are capable. And if you want something inspiring to watch, I recommend The OA on Netflix. It's my favorite piece of cinema and I go back to it whenever I feel lost or without purpose. I believe in you.
Enjoy life bro, go play basketball and listen to music, go laugh with your friends and go to parties, stay home and game, you have a whole life of things you can do.
Dude I felt the same way. Maybe I do sometimes but change isn't gonna come to you,you have to go to change and create your own path. The thing I did to get depression off my mind was a new friend group. Getting stoned while with your friends is amazing.
Hey kid, don’t become obsessed with your past like I am now, you’re going to be stuck in a loophole which will devour your happiness, an empty endless void. I’m not saying to forget your past but appreciate what you have/had.
Hey kid I graduated almost two years now. I used to say that but becoming an adult is also a beautiful thing. You still have high school to go through. Live it to the fulliest trust me it’s worth it your gonna miss your childhood so much but there is so much in life to come. Keep your head up high
Oi Andei procurando palavras para te dizer. Lembra quando a gente terminou pela primeira vez? Quando o nosso amor impossível, o nosso amor cheio de desejos era um fogo quase infinito. Quando construimos a nossa primeira base para um m re
tengo problemas en casa, desde pequeño los problemas familiares siempre han estado, por eso la inseguridad, miedo y el temor crece, mis amenazas son que no me llevo bien con mi mamá, mi papá me dejó, y mis debilidades son las inseguridades el miedo y mucho más, soy muy cerrado, trato de que no salga nada, yo solo me lo guardo todo, me devoró a mi mismo
so peaceful
thanks for doing this amazing piece of art. love
yeah dude keep it up, I listen to your songs when im lonely and nostalgic, mostly, so thanks, it helps. :)
The goat speaks
Bonjr idol🛐
Living legend here
I don’t feel like I’m here when I listen to this. The music transports me to an easier time and gives me an escape.
Should try drugs
@@user-tp3vw6uz7s nope, I took too much marijuana and had a panic attack my first time and now have dpdr and chronic disassociation, I want to feel REAL again
It’s the loneliness I get everytime I look into someone’s eye and you get that feeling they ain’t real or some. Being alone sucks
today i had a mental health class and my teacher said that being on your phone for long periods of time can mean that your mental health might not be as well. At first i didn't wanna believe him but today i realized that after i put my phone down and it was just me and my thought i soon understood what he had meant now. the endless pit in my mind reminded me that i'm still alone.
11:40 (23:40) August 13, 2022 Saturday
Sometimes; I wonder what it's like to have someone who cares... and to know that they care, without that little voice in the back of my mind telling me that I'm not actually worth the time, or energy for someone to care... I wonder what it's like to feel free to talk to someone without the worry of jugement, without fear that it can be used as a weapon... I wonder what it's like to sit down and talk to someone about life, about... anything really... I wonder what it's like to not have to put on a mask/smile everyday, and be genuinely happy... I wonder what it's like to have someone who I can call mine, to spend my days with, to do things with... I wonder why it's so hard for me to express my genuine feelings... I wonder if she actually likes me... I wonder why i've held on for so long... why i'm still here... why I still try... why I care...
you're worth someones time,love,care and energy, don't give up, once you find it or once it finds you, it'll be the most amazing feeling. trust me, i've gotten it once, take care of the relationship like you would take care of a plant. water it,give it sunlight, give it effort,show affection,give time to eachother. and never, never take your partner for granted , don't make the same mistake i did , I'm living full of regret but i hope sharing this tiny bit helps you and others,
My brother you are not alone, I hope all is well and wish you all the best in life 🙏
i promise someone out there needs and deserves your love. and in turn will love you unconditionally. stay true to your values, and continue on despite the overwhelming facts of existence. even the most insignificant things have a purpose in life and your being is just as important as everything else that is here. thanks for your comment, to remind myself that i’ve grown from where i was, and you to can grow. it just takes someone to believe in you, and i believe in you.
Keep ya head up G
You've held on for so long because you had hope, you're still here because you have hope, you still try because you have hope, you care and I care because WE have hope. The thing is, people only see the storm before the calm or the storm after it, but there will always be both of them, just try to learn from each phase. As much shit you're going through right now, there will be good things in your life too eventually. Keep going, even if you have to walk the whole hell without seeing your path clearly. You'll eventually get rid of that and will become the strongest guy the world has ever seen, trust me.
I believe in you.
This song make me let out the pain I’ve been holding in for so long
I wish I could see how many times Ive listen to this. The only reason I am able to keep studying and keep going is putting this on repeat and just thinking. Ive always found peace in this and hopefully everyone else found it too.
Just listening to this makes me happy I’ve been sad and sad because of my dad’s death even tho he’s been dead for a while but listening to this just put all that past me and now I’m am easy with his going and hope one day I can see him again
I fell asleep with this on, thank you. I got the best sleep I have had in months. This made me feel safe again❤️
Man I feel this,last night I did the same thing and it felt like my problems swept away for the time being. It’s great that just vibrations can make such a beautiful sound🤍💯
Hits diffrent at 3 am
lmao, that picture with this song. So beautiful and serious.
What did you feel when you heard this music?
This music made me remember the sweet and beautiful days, the friends dear to my heart and those I lost
keep fighting the good fight ! im proud of you , all the highs and lows and your still kicking you strong bastard!
Thank you so much i needed someone to tell me that sooo bad
it'll get better. you can't have lows without some highs.
you're a little confused, but you got the spirit lmao
@@faiez2539 well it works both ways so not really haha
I read it as "without some thighs" forgive me
@@Lofi.z34 well you aint wrong
Been waiting for a good day since January
I’m seeing myself in a crystal ball, knowing most answers to all of my problems , I understand my moms true feelings about wanting to visit her family, only staying with him because of her daughters, I never knew my dad, neither did my brother, so she’s sacrificing her happiness for her daughters, she wants to be free and I’m the only one who can get her away from all this but in my arrogance, I choose my temporary safe spot every single time over my own mother. Why can’t I fucking move. I’m staring at this crystal ball and I can’t break into it. I can’t break out of my laziness, anger, regrets, my obsession with my childhood past, what could’ve been and what should’ve been. All I can do is see my reflection off the crystal ball and watch it spin.
wow... this hits deep...
i hope you get better
that's what I need rn.
same /:
...this is my mom...lullabying me to sleep...in her arms...just me and her staring at each other...feeling her fingers run thru my hair...feeling her warm body...her heart beating to the rythm of her soft humming...soooo peaceful soo perfect ..soo soft...soo loving....thank you mom for always being there. ❤
I feel like I could fall out of existence without even knowing it.
its so peaceful, that i cried
This makes me feel so alone but so peaceful and relaxed with life . I have never felt this way at all just at once
My gf left me 2 days ago,i just can't move on,i lost my hope,my soul, I don't know what to do,i Dont wanna live again,when i hear this,i started crying,cause i love her so much
It's ok, You're ok
It’s painful I know exactly how you feel. Mine left me 6 months ago but it feels like it’s only been yesterday. It hurts the pain doesn’t go away but always remember you were happy before she ever came into your life. I’m trying to find that happiness now. It might take awhile .stay strong king 🤴
@@hentaisama1614 you too man,keep healthy,keep strong,and we'll find that happiness, thanks
@@tremoxo okay
keep your head up king. it’s almost a year since my gf of 4 years decided she got bored and left. i still think about her everyday and cry a lot of nights, but i know in the future i will find a happiness that i’ve never felt before and so will you. we got this
There’s no need to be worried about death it’s inevitable and when you embrace that fact
You can go 2 ways
Realise there is no meaning to everything and that we are all on a perpetual self destructive March into extinction
Or that you have on average 80 years to make the rest of time remember your name and cement yourself in the history books
Listening to this song makes my mind conflict with itself and tbh I don’t know what side I’m on anymore
(This song is beautiful no Ill feelings towards this song at all)
The belief that there's no meaning and it's just decay and destruction is, in fact, meaningful. Making things mean nothing is just more meaning. Inherent meaning may not exist, but what does that matter?
Memento Mori
I agree with your view and the ways in which we can go but disagree that there’s only 2, I believe there’s endless ways. E.g. Feeling the moment/now is all meaning and the present is all that matters. Or that the memory you leave on others / impact you have on others lives is true meaning. Or that we pass and the things we’ve built or destroyed is all meaning. Or all of the above or none. In truth meaning I’d foremost personal, it can be whatever you make it. Who is to tell you otherwise.
Much love and hope you are well x.
"Life is not guaranteed, so make the most out of it "
Or seek Jesus so you have meaning
As I lie in my bed at night I fantasy about what could have been and what I truly wanted for us, to grow, to be happy, start a family, grow old together, but through it all to also be in love with the most amazing women in my life. As I lie here I come to realization that can be no longer be the case as situations happen, arguments happen and life happens. As I lie here I become sad as the person I wanted everything with is no longer here, no longer talking to me, no longer caring for me. as I lie here reminiscing about the most amazing time I had with my special person who gave me so much love that I had never experienced before. As I lie here I think about everything and I start to become sad again but I come to realization that you won’t come back. As I lie here I try not to be sad that it ended but to be happy that it happened. As I lie here…as I lie here…I try until the next night where the cycle continues as I lie in my bed.
"All I ever wanted was to make everyone smile, but for some reason I was always set aside. I tried, and I tried to impress so many but it never worked. It took me so long to realize that I was trying so hard to make the wrong people happy, and never myself."
its always 3AM
Jeez, i really miss her
this is beautiful. thank you
It’s not coincidence you’re reading this…
*_____________________________*
Accept Jesus & His sacrifice.
*_____________________________*
Jesus is calling you to repent from your current life, turn to His face & submit to His presence, to the Father’s Will, to that conviction in your heart…
It isn’t a call for the perfect, it’s a call to the sinner.
He has chosen you, so will you come into His presence?
Will you read His Word?
Will you submit to the Holy Spirit?
This is very helpful for relaxation
This makes me feel like I’m not in school anymore
Love this dude thank you 🙏🏼
this is nice it’s keeps me safe bc I feel like nobody has rejected me but irl… they did..
Today I thought about what the world would be like without me. I thought about all the people that I would leave behind, but only for a moment. A very short lived moment. In a hundred years; hell, in ten years when no one remembers me life will move on. Without me. It always does. Today I thought about how small I truly am. How big the universe is. How in the blink of an eye everything rushed by. I thought about how I wanted it to slow down. How desperately I wanted it to slow down. Desperately. Today I begged to no one to slow down. I thought about how the sun set on yesterday & every yesterday before that. Today I thought about dying. Not unlike so many days before this one. I thought about how it would feel, what it would be like, if I’d even know it happened or understand what I’d come to know. I thought about what’s on the other side of this. Today I thought. The rain fell & the world continued to rush by; never slowing for anyone or anything. Unrelenting & unceasing. Today I thought about how many have felt these exact feelings & thought these exact thoughts that I think here now; but only for a moment. A very short lived moment.
damn that was deep
tysm for making this.
So beautiful yet so sad…. 💗
This is so peaceful man. The tune makes me relax and my mind always surfs through my childhood, both sad and happy moments in my life. i just love it.
Damn y'all ok? Love yourself, believe in yourself, don't let others define your worth. God, who gifted you with life, calls you His. You are amazing, one of a kind, beautiful in His eyes. Sinful humans do not define you.
Be strong. You CAN get through it
Only through Jesus Christ✊🏽
“I am not scared to die” -grandma
Peaceful
" I must say in the start it was easy and fun but the more you got to end everything starts to change everything gets hard and frustrating but in the end it nothing because you have your memory to live off of you see just gotta let go on what's holding you and take a step in to the future and see yourself thrive into this world into something for you can't stay the same forever if you do something cause sometimes things change a lot and we can't do anything but lets just say we all the same ending even though we don't see eye to eye but the ending won't be wonderful or bad it will just perfect in the way you want but some we will experience it".
i know it's not great to just,, dump stuff on here but i genuinely need it. especially since i can't even get therapy.
i had to watch my dog die, and i'm extremely traumatized by it. my parents act like i'm not traumatized and my grandparents don't even care. we got two new dogs to deal with the death of our dog and the giving away of the two dogs that killed her. i can't even be around them without being triggered, but im the person who takes care of all the dogs we have (we have five), so no one really thinks about my ptsd.
i relapsed a month ago, and no one even noticed. i made a stupid choice to make it noticable, and while i dont like people seeing my relapses, i was at such a low point i kinda wished someone would ask me, but no one did. it's starting to heal up now, but it's discolored. i have one on my hand from the death of my dog.
i got a girlfriend a few days ago after questioning my sexuality for a long time. it was extremely rushed and i feel bad. i feel bad because she's in love with me and i don't know how to feel. i should've just said i wasn't interested but now i can't just tell her because it'll hurt her and i don't want to be an asshole. i'm in a dark place now too (it's resurfaced), and sometimes i think she doesn't care about me. i'm happy with her, but i'm just so confused. i want to tell her im in a bad place but i can't, because i have the mindset of "if they cared, they'd notice and they'd ask" and i can't just dump everything on her.
my parents don't know how much i want to leave my home. i would, but i can't. i have senior dogs, and i can't just leave them when they're so close to dying. they've been with me my whole life. i'm preparing for the day but i know i'll never be ready. i can't let them go. it's going to be so hard.
no one really knows that i can't imagine a future for myself, but that's okay because they don't really need to know.
i might come back and delete this later, but i'm not sure. i just needed to get this off my chest.
i hope everyone is having a great day
One of the saddest things I’ve ever heard. 💔🥀🥃🚬.
It's currently raining and I'm listening to this.
Still a masterpiece.
Peace❤️
this
Heh reminds me of simpler times when we were young enough to not know what politics or anything else when we were not sad but we were old enough to make friends and have a wonderful time. Damn it real makes me sad.
Yeah.. I miss being a kid, I’m 23 now with no dedication or motivation to be me anymore. I’m obsessed with my past, even tho I didn’t have a crazy luxury childhood or Teen hood like many of my peers growing up but I appreciate the small things I had with my first childhood friends, unfortunately we grew apart over some stupid drama and one of them passed away, he drowned. The other friend… well I don’t blame him for removing me from his life since I blamed him for our friends death. Rest easy Ezekiel, I’d do anything to go back
I’m sitting here thinking of back in the summer that one trip and how much I wish I could go back my family doesn’t understand how happy I am there I wish I could believe people when they say they love me I wish they could love me and I wish I could believe it and I wish I could cry in there arms as they tell me it’s all ok and that they’ll always be there for me and they could kiss me on my forehead hug me and say it’s ok I’m here you don’t need to be alone anymore
10/10
R.I.P Little Guy..You were only 6 months old lil pup...curiosity got the best of you but you're now at peace and not suffering, Ill miss you a lot. 4/08/2021-10/11/2021
You deserve a follow 💯
It's called a sub, but yeah..
Giving me Minecraft vibes ⛏💎
Sometimes I wonder where we would be if he still loved me..if he didn’t meet her..then replace me with her..I feel like I wasn’t enough, like maybe its because I wasn’t there physically..and she was..I don’t miss him..I miss who I thought he was and how he made me feel, I hate her for interrupting what we had..now it’s like I was never part of his life and it bothers me,he was was why I woke up in the morning and actually looked forward to that day..I just give on this love stuff..I want someone to love me forever and not just another phase for someone..I would put so much love and effort into these people and now, I honestly feel so broken inside that I’ve lost hope for finding this “love” and finding my person..
When you love her but she dosnt love you back 😢
So much to discuss.
Wish there was a 5 hour version of just the original
Fyi, You can now loop the original video on the phone and listen it all day
@@drivilz how do you loop on phone ?
@@colinreeter777 just press the "three dot" option next to the caption button and you can find "loop video". If it wasn't there, maybe you haven't update your youtube app
@@drivilz I don’t use the app lmao
@@thegrinningreaper8016 Right click the video and you'll see the loop option-
when i listen this song why everytime the clock 3 damn thats a really lost feeling
Im not at Peace but I’m glad people are happy in the world i might not be but im happy for everybody that’s happy
(hyper)postmodern version of stars of the lids "goodnight", good job both u and bonjr
I don’t know why but when I listen to this I automatically think of her. I miss her so bad. We didn’t even last 2 months. We broke up exactly a week before 2 months. I blame myself. I could have done more. I tried making her as happy as I could but in the end I never was or am enough.
There’s a certain feeling you gain from enough experience and failures. Until one day you are pushed to the limits of regret and unfulfillment. You aren't sure what lies ahead of you anymore, everything becomes dull and boring to you. Ironically the people who do care about you only care once you say something, but in the end, they go back to saving themselves. After all, they do get to live as well. Somehow you still ask yourself if you're living or not. You start to compare, start to negotiate your own thoughts into pretending it’s all ok, but you can’t because it’s too late. This feeling lives on with you forever. no matter where you go. until one day you are so desperately numb that it all goes away somehow. you become free and out of character with the norm. Is this freedom. Or is it just loneliness...?
This Audio Sounds Like If You Were To Buy Your Crush Flowers Cause You We’re Gonna Ask Her Out, You Walk Towards Her With Flowers In Hand and Smile On Your Face Then A Random Guy Comes Out Of Nowhere and Puts His Hand Around Her Waist and Pulls Her In For Kiss… and You Watch As Your Smile Slowly Fades and Your Heart Continues To Break With Every Touch Of Their Lips Then You Decide To Walk Away, And This Audio Plays While Everything Happens In Slow Motion…
She broke up with me almost a month ago.... I'm hurt, I'm lost, I'm sad, I dont't know what to do with myself anymore... Reza if you ever read this. Please come back... I will do whatever it takes... 😭😭💔
"if we're all alone, we're all together in that too"
This sounds like the song that would play as you are going to heaven.
listen to this at night and thinking about her, hits diff.
missing her lately
Sad....
Jesus Christ is the truth reach out, nothing but respect.
i Listened to this just now, while writing little notes for my gf, if i should still call her my gf..rough times..i hope the cute notes work..this song hits the feels hard..i miss her, i miss the laughs.
❤️
Do what makes you feel good
I don't get why people chase money, love, or fame . I just feel trapped cause I know I'll just cease to exist in the end so really what's the point. Theirs's not really a point in anything unless you believe in a religion that can't be proven. We as humans are so vile and yet so simple, I don't wanna die and yet I see no point in even continuing.
My dad is drunk and hits me and my mom I don't know what I did to deserve this but ig I do I never asked to be born I never asked to be perfect all I wanted was too be loved for ones I'm about ready to give up
I hope that things are better for you now, but if they aren't, please know that you didn't do anything to deserve it, and it won't be forever. It won't be forever. There will be love in your life, just like you deserve, and you'll leave this chapter in time in the past and move forward into a life of your own. I know I'm just an internet stranger, but if you ever want to talk, I'd be glad to
@@gee1011 ty :)
You don’t deserve it, you will find love, the hardest part is not letting those scars affect you and that love youll find, please take it from me if you ever see this. Don’t let who people try to make you get in the way of your happiness, don’t hurt the people around you. It’s almost impossible but don’t bring what that awful person gave you into the future
I just spent 4 hours looking for the name of this
So much views..why didnt they like?
♡
She ghosted me today...this is one of the things I resort to...
for when life dont be hitting the same
It hasn’t for so long for me
@@_Spider-Man_420 life hasnt hit the same since 2018-19. like prime fortnite days the days when you were excited for the next morning and wanted to stay up for aslong as you could playing and not wanting to just get the day done and over with ://
Anybody finds this song relaxing and unlocks your mature self and well uh use it for "making love" music
hooo hoo oooo
there exists, multiple versions of yourself. is it, the one that you see yourself, or the one that everyone else sees?
🌻😘
you have reached the end of reality
Tired of being alone in an empty room full of people
I'll be that comment,
I miss her... so much and yet as one guides me to a future where the memories lingere and the pain is still..
-llSincerelyll
Twitter^
the rain adds alot to be completely honest
Pepe sad🥺
I came here from a short that said “if you could tell your 13 yr old self anything, what would it be…”
bro....
Is there anything to live for when you grow up. Still havent found my reason to be here
Breakups suck, what did I do wrong
Post more :(
😢
Not doing dis for attention seeking but I kinda jus wanna end it all, the pain. Drugs aren’t helping me out no more n Idk wat to do…. I jus don’t see the point of life no more. If y’all got sum tips for me, pls lmk wat I can do:/
Hi, I'm really sorry you're feeling such unbearable pain. I don't know what's happened to you in your life but things do change. It's life's only constant.
Sometimes though the changes are really small. Any small thing you can do for yourself can have great lasting impact, whether it be taking more walks, working up a sweat doing something physical with your body, drinking more water or tea, eating a nice meal, journaling, sitting and listening to music, saying hi to friends, family or even strangers, reading, talking to yourself out loud, or any other small action that can help you feel more embodied or in touch with your emotions.
I'm not licensed in any way to give medical advice, but it'd also be good if you had someone on the outside you can talk to. It'll be easier to heal if you have others to help you, and therapy is one way to get help. Try your best not to give up on yourself. You are valuable, and you are capable.
And if you want something inspiring to watch, I recommend The OA on Netflix. It's my favorite piece of cinema and I go back to it whenever I feel lost or without purpose.
I believe in you.
Enjoy life bro, go play basketball and listen to music, go laugh with your friends and go to parties, stay home and game, you have a whole life of things you can do.
Stay strong bro
Learn something new you need changes in your life ✌🏼
Dude I felt the same way. Maybe I do sometimes but change isn't gonna come to you,you have to go to change and create your own path. The thing I did to get depression off my mind was a new friend group. Getting stoned while with your friends is amazing.
I hate that I’m in 8th grade and I don’t want to grow up. I still want to be a kid…
Hey kid, don’t become obsessed with your past like I am now, you’re going to be stuck in a loophole which will devour your happiness, an empty endless void. I’m not saying to forget your past but appreciate what you have/had.
Hey kid I graduated almost two years now. I used to say that but becoming an adult is also a beautiful thing. You still have high school to go through. Live it to the fulliest trust me it’s worth it your gonna miss your childhood so much but there is so much in life to come. Keep your head up high
🐳🐙👌
I'm so lonely,Alone
Oi
Andei procurando palavras para te dizer. Lembra quando a gente terminou pela primeira vez? Quando o nosso amor impossível, o nosso amor cheio de desejos era um fogo quase infinito. Quando construimos a nossa primeira base para um m re
Bro most sites do this, like this is how you make money ? Your supposed to a hacker
tengo problemas en casa, desde pequeño los problemas familiares siempre han estado, por eso la inseguridad, miedo y el temor crece, mis amenazas son que no me llevo bien con mi mamá, mi papá me dejó, y mis debilidades son las inseguridades el miedo y mucho más, soy muy cerrado, trato de que no salga nada, yo solo me lo guardo todo, me devoró a mi mismo
F.O.D.O
I’m very tired.