especially when they had a very positive effect on you. my BF, a few months ago, was forced to break up with me, please don't ask why, after helping to basically repair me from the damages of what was basically a passive-aggressive babysitter with an agenda against my mom.
I am tired. Tired of school Tired of being so lonely Tired of social anxiety that make me live through awful situations Tired of being treat like shit by my « friends » Tired of being disrespected Tired of trying Tired of hoping Tired of living It’s always my fault and it always going to be that way I can’t do it anymore Its so hard to take all my failures I’m a failure
I feel the same way but I know it won’t bring any comfort knowing another is suffering the same thing. Still let’s try to see another day okay? I won’t assure that it would get better but we can look forward for trivial forms of comfort like food, pets or anything that you would find slightly less painful. Let’s do so. Just breathing is an achievement and I’m proud of us for still being able to do so. Sending virtual hugs 🫶🏻
Same, but im taking sleeping pills wich is making me sleepy, BUT still not sleeping the may i should. Hope to every human who has depression, anxiety, adhd etc. not to give up on their dreams..❤🩹
"Are you okay?” “Yeah just tired from studying!” *Im tired of not being able to sleep properly* *Im tired of being a second choice* *Im tired of people* *Im tired of feeling so hollow* *Im tired of hardly being able to get out of bed* *Im tired of being tall* *Im tired of being ugly* *Im tired of being fat* *Im tired of trying my hardest but it not being good enough* *Im tired of not being good enough* *Im tired of thinking I’m a disappointment* *Im tired of crying myself to sleep* *Im tired of having panic attacks every day* *Im tired of having anxiety attacks every day* *Im tired of having social anxiety* *Im tired of not liking to talk* *Im tired of getting stabbed in the back* *Im tired of my trust issues* *Im tired of not being “perfect”* *Im tired of existing* *Im tired of not getting the perfect grades* *Im sorry for sweating* *Im sorry for being human* *Im sorry for liking to stay in my room* *Im sorry for liking video games* *Im sorry for liking movies* *Im sorry for “faking” my sadness* *Im sorry for actually being sad* *Im sorry for being annoying* *Im sorry for having my issues* *Im sorry for being lazy* *Im sorry for being quiet* And I’m so, so sorry for being me and not someone else “Are you sure that you’re okay?” “Mhmm. Just studying...”
for those who are struggling in the comments: you are beautiful; you are worth more than you think; don’t give up; life will get better i promise; it’s okay to vent to people; it’s okay to cry; you. are. worth it i promise.
TW for: - Eating Disorder - Sleeping Problems - Child on Child Sexual Assault - Pedophilia - Grooming - Toxic Relationships - Depression - Suicide Thoughts - Self Harm - Runaway Thoughts - Overdose Thoughts - basically lots of shit and also the abused to abuser scenario I'm literally so fucking tired of everything. Just everything. And I bet everyone else is tired of me too. I hate the way I am. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I talk. I hate just everything about me or which is connected with me, except the things that bring me actual joy (like watching my comfort animes or writing) I'm 5'7 and I used to be 56kg, but then it got up to 60kg and my mom basically treated it like it was the end of the world. I hate how skinny I am. This is also why I start binge eating in the late evening. I rarely eat on the day, but in the night, I'm active with eating while watching movies and I literally hate it so much. And my father complains of how much I am eating. I want to gain weight so that I don't feel so skinny and even though I know it's not good to overeat, I still do it. It's really bad when I'm awake in night, lying in bed, feeling my stomach still being hungry, but I'm starving myself. I also hate my freckles, they are a big insecurity of mine. I constantly stay awake at night because of how much I can't fall asleep and I hate it. I sleep 6 hours, usually, a human needs to sleep 8 hours. Right now for an example, while I am writing this, I'm awake and it's around 11:00 pm, one hour before midnight. And then, I'm honestly wondering why I'm so tired. I got sexually abused by my cousin when I was 8, he was 13 and a few months ago, I remembered it. My mom knew something was off so he told me to say no and luckily, he left me alone and then stopped. I told my mom how I remembered it. I cut contact, blocked and reported him, but even though my mom cares about me, she's says he has a mental disorder which makes him think differently, but still, it doesn't excuse the trauma which he gave to me. My father literally tries to spend time with me and thanks to my stupid cousin, I think that he wants something from me. My uncle once touched my thigh out of accident and I immediately thought he was going to harass me. My lil brother literally smirks at me and I think he wants something from me. There are not so many males in my family which I feel comfortable around. I also hate my physics teacher. He's a fucking pedophile. He looks at the beasts of his female student while smirking and is distracted by the way a girl in our class dresses because she dresses "too revealing" (before anyone comments, don't worry, the parents are trying to fire him because of other reasons (they don't know he's a pedophile, only some people noticed)) He even once tried to look at my breasts. I get attempted to get groomed multiple times, especially in a time like this. I know what grooming is and I know I can pick up it's signs but I almost still fell for it, because I'm craving the affection which no one is willing to give me. I almost fell for a trick which I knew and I was fully aware of how dangerous it is, yet, I still fell for it. I have big depression which is the reason why I'm missing so many classes. I lie about being sick (some times I'm actually sick, one time I skipped school with some friends). My grades worsened and despite people caring for me and worrying why I'm away, it slowly gets turned into a running gag. And I'm asking myself, how many times are you gonna ignore the fucking signs? I've missed like third of the school year and people still don't recognize that there's a special reason behind it. They rather shame me for it then rather asking if I'm okay. Even the teachers notice it, but they just don't care about my mental health, they want me to make me able to work again for my "future". My teachers, my parents and some of my friends are trying to help me, but in the end, I just know that they are gonna spit me out when I'm able to work again for my so called future and for school and all that shit. They don't care about me myself. They care about my so called future, but I know damn well that this is a lie too. My mom and my dad try to help me but after I seem to get better, they fall back into their old ways and make jokes about me just to get a chuckle out of the person in front of them. And when I talk back, they say I should give them respect. Where's the logic in that? My father knows very well that I'm depressed and yet, he forces me to do things like making my bed and talks to me down like a dog or a rabbit or a dumbass or that shit. My dad is also that kind of guy to give you physical affection and doesn't respect my boundaries. My mother does that too. And they tease me for my tiredness. I have an image around the people I know. The stupid, yet somehow intelligent, quiet girl. And people use me as their therapy. Or run over me or insult me or laugh at me, because, hey it's okay, she's not gonna fight back. I especially have this imagine in class. I appear to be happy, yet I'm crying for help, but no one notices, since they are too distracted by themselves or by finding too much comfort in me, their beloved therapy. There's this one guy in class which I sort of have a crush on. It's a complicated and very long story. Basically, people thought I had a crush on him, and that's why we distanced. He used to be my male best friend. I never cared about love, but now I sort of do. He flirts with me sometimes and tries to get my attention. I don't want to go into this too deeply, it's basically a Stolitz type of relationship with me being Blitz and him being Stolas. Or turned around, it works in both ways. I also have an other guy. I love both of them with all of my heart, but I don't want to ruin both of them with my mental problems. Everyone seriously fucked me up to be honest. I'm the victim but also the problem in some cases. Like in this one case, where I treated a friend horribly after focusing too much on my now best friend. It's that type of trios don't work scenario. Also, something where I also sort of carry the fault is my old friend group falling apart. I also slut shamed my hypersexual boy obsessed friend with daddy issues. Instead of slut shaming there, I should have been there for her. She's an other story for now, but the guilt of all these things eats me up til this day and it will probably do so forever. I somehow always manage to ruin things. It's always my fault. I'm also vandalizing my class with my bestie. We throw books in toilets. Because that's the only way I know a way out of the situation in which I am finding myself in currently. I'm slowly turning from abused to abuser. My sadness turns into anger. My depression into wrath. That's why I'm doing what I'm doing. I want to stop, but I can't. It's better than suicide and actually gives me back the thrill in life which I'm missing and I hate myself for it. I also feel like my trauma isn't valid enough. I know people which have suffered much more worser. I also have a friend. My best friend. She's nice and I love her, but she's aggressive and full of negative energy and influenced me. And instead of motivating me, she tells me how stupid I am and doesn't help me. But despite that, she helped me to be more confident even though she clearly influenced me. Even I don't feel safe around her anymore. I hate me and the mistakes which I made. I hate how I can easily be used, taken advantage of and manipulated. Or influenced. People come and fuck with my head, leaving me confused. My mom keeps me dragging through my suffering, saying it will be better but I don't believe this bullshit at all but somehow, there's a stupid spark of hope which makes me believe her lies. My mom generally is a little bit mental abusive towards me. Everyone always carries the fault, except her. I'm tied and depending on her because of something in the past I don't wanna mention. She loves me of course and I love her, but I feel like she uses every psychological trick to keep me with her. It's motherly, yet she drags me through my suffering. She acts like she's the only person I could trust. Because of the thinking she installed into me, I lost many friends. She also seems to use HER trauma as an excuse and to get pity. Of course, she had to go through more than me, but it's just annoying. Whenever I talk about myself, she talks about her or her trauma. It's draining me out. We have a deal. Until 1st March she has time to make me feel happy again. If she doesn't, I'm allowed to run away. It's fucked up, but I have freedom then. Happiness. I feel like I'm jailed in here, really. I can't be around people, yet I hate to be lonely. I just wanna kill myself. Hanging. Overdosing. Run away. Why keep suffering if you can just end it all? Why be sad if you can be gone? I don't wanna be saved. I don't deserve it. (Sorry for the long, long vent, I just needed to get some things out. By the way, I found so much comfort in your playlist
This is something that scares most people and the fact that you are still here now shows how strong you are and yes it may not feel like it at the moment, but most people and I are so proud of how far you have come, and this was something I felt as though I had to read, I don't mind reading long paragraphs. I completely understand how you feel, and you have been through a whole fucking lot, but you know what something or someone will be there in the future, and it will change you or change your life for the better we all need to be patient with how we feel and how things are and stick it out . All of this is normal human emotions that were given to us. We can't control how we feel about certain things it only destroys you when you don't let it out. You don't know me, and I don't know you but I'm proud of you and I hope this means something.❤❤🩹
All these comments are so painful to read but all I can say is that we are all here at this playlist for a reason and dear lord I really hope you bless these people with a damn miracle because they really need it. Love for all of ya'll. 🙏❤🩹❤
The worst feeling in my opinion, is that, you want to cry, scream and let it out, but you can't even sob, because you know that, with the least sound, they will hear you...
Vent:// I've been clean for around 4-6 months... My friends are all happy and that but they don't know how close I've been in the last week to do it again. So tired of the temptations. Schools so much worse than last year, expecting me to study and I do. I do study, but whatever I do I don't feel good enough. Sometimes it's 4-10 after school... Other days I don't do any work for a week. I don't wanna ask for help from anyone. I don't want a stupid councilor who just triggers everything, I get attached to teachers because of my home life so I don't want to risk that. That hurt me more than my suicidal thoughts, depression etc. My parents are either too protective or just don't care about me, it's too much fuss. They don't know about my 5 past attempts from this year, or my sh, or even how severe my panic attacks got. My friends have chosen me as the 2nd or 3rd option, they all have a best friend and I'm just left. My own best friend has another best friend. Whenever I feel like shit she simply tells me to 'woman up' which is helpful until I can't help but have a complete breakdown. My other friends aren't the same and worry too much. I only rlly have my 2 Internet friends but I don't speak to one of them as much and the other is currently in hospital for her mh. I really want my learning mentor back. She went on maternity leave and she's due back next year. I miss her so so much, she never told anyone what I said and was my ideal councilor. I enjoy sessions with her and she is so nice to me, I have her til the end of next year luckily. Idk what to do, even she's only for anxiety but I don't want everyone to know like teachers and parents so I can't really tell her...
Hey, sometimes it's ok to be like that, it's just teaching you that you should focus more in yourself and don't care that much about others. Yeah, maybe I'm wrong, but in this world, you get betrayed by the ones that supposed to be beside you from the start. Trust me, take a deep breath, go for a long walk and don't think that much, everything will go for you eventually.
@@laurentiulupu9264 thank you! This may seem like a bad idea but I'm trying to get closer with both my learning mentor and some of teachers just incase it gets really bad. The temptations are still happening daily but they're fading away in intensity x
@@rubysutton8960 hey… i know things are rough right now. I have been in some shitty situations and did things i now think back to and wonder what was going through my mind… its gonna be okay. Work on yourself, exercise(i know it sounds stupid but genuinely try!) and know you will get out of this cause at the end of the day you have gotten this far… ❤️
My friends always ask why im always listening to music and i say its because its calming. In reality its because it distracts me for a bit and takes me out of my head, it helps me focus more on the lyrics not my thoughts, it calms me and helps me stay relaxed. This playlist is distracting me more than i thought it would and im very thankful for that.
My anxiety is eating me alive. I’m so scared of failing that I keep thinking my parents will not want me around anymore. I’m scared of losing everything and end up having nowhere to go.
Hey I know your probably going through a lot but I just wanted to let you know your strong and beautiful and you will find healing you got this 💪💖and I’m so sorry your going through that
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
The hate i feel for myself is returning, the bad eating habits, the dehydration, the numbness, the unhygienic-ness, the bad sleep schedule, the thoughts and urges to hurt myself. It's all returning so fast, I've been doing so good for 6 months, hyping myself up and keeping myself going but I feel myself reaching my limit again. The constant negativity around me is taking its toll again and I'm completely alone this time
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
I want someone to ask if I'm ok But at the same time I know I'll just lie... It's easier to Fake a smile Till it's not. The camera takes a photo, catching you off guard. A frown instead of a grin. "Hey are you ok?" a smile, quickly covering the pain "I'm fine, just tired" So, so tired Too tired Too tired to keep trying. I'm sorry Shut up "Hey just checking in, you ok?" Stare, gulp, smile, nod "Yup, just need an early night" Crisis averted
A tip if you see anything thats toxic or selfish or any red flags end it or you’ll be here sitting and thinking its ur fault and that ur stupid and that he’s right while its not
You know your broken when you stop feeling everything and even if u can't feel it you know it hurts more then when you could feel it and all you can think about is "would anybody care if I just ended it would they cry for me would or would they ignore it"? Is all that goes through my head and the worst part is that I DO NOT feel anything at all I can't even cry anymore
tw : after like 2 months of being clean, i relapsed , in so angry with myself i don’t even know why i did it, ig i missed the feeling and yea i’m just pissed with myself atm xx but j hope everyone else is doing well xx
am sick sick of me sick of them sick of school sick of love that i never had sick of being alone sick of having no friends and just want some time to recover
I’ve been fighting a chronic illness since I was 9 years old… now I’m 16. It’s been bad on my mental health but I’m fighting each day, (writing this before surgery) love y’all remember it does get better
People don't understand when i say "I'm tired" they respond with just go to sleep you'll feel better in the morning but they dont realize that its a bone deep exhaustion that i dont want to deal with anymore. i love my friends but sometimes they aren't enough to keep me a float anymore i just want to go to sleep for a few years and wake up again when everything is fixed and i dont have to worry about any of it anymore. i dont want to be an adult!! i want to be a kid where Christmas was a time of joy and spending break playing in the snow but now i dread it because i have to spend time with my mother and have to socialize with people who always say "i haven't seen you since you were a baby!". i hate the holidays so fuckin much i just want to live my life without so much pain. i didn know that life hurt so much.
Losing 3 of the people you care about the most in a matter of days breaks you. The worst is knowing that they're still physically part of life but just doesn't care like they said they did.
The most painful part of life is when the person that gave birth to you gave you the deepest mental and physical scars. It hurts to know they don't love you the way they should...
I felt like it for so long and still do but I’m getting happier and eventually it does get better and I never thought it would and never believed it would but I got my best friends and my boyfriend by my side and there’s no stopping me well except my anxiety but that only gets set off in school and my best friend well I call him my brother came and he skipped school just to come and calm me down and get me out of school, these are the people I want in my life forever and I truly hope they stay forever ❤
I've been having a lot of mental health issues lately, but rn I'm here because I'm tired of never being plan A, or even B actually, always last choice and I can't stand it anymore.
Crazy to think that strangers on the Internet understand me more than my own family... I just feel like ending it all everyday. I try and try but everything that has brought me the most happiness was just taken away in a heartbeat. I'm trying Lord... You know Im trying😭😭
Maybe one day, when i'm covered in dirt, or burned to ashes. Maybe then i'll be happy, maybe then i won't feel alone anymore, maybe then i'll be surrounded by warm people and experience a true friendship that i've always wanted. Maybe then i would be more social and leave behind my fears... Maybe then i'll shed no tears....
(venting when I should be studying lol) I'm stuck. I've been stuck with those feelings for a few years now. Sometimes it gets a bit better, but it doesn't last long, and I come back to that state of numbness. I find myself a hobby or something that I like to do, and I will be 100% into it for a little while, and it'll make me feel soooo good. But then again, it won’t last long. I'll soon lose all interest in that hobby. The same goes with people, I'll be the most clingy and affectionate person with a certain someone and then, one day, I'll start ignoring their notifications and putting my phone on silent mode. I feel like even if I wanted to, I will never be able to get better. I'm constantly lying to everyone, including me. I'm pushing myself away from the people I like, or at least used to like. The only moment I feel comfortable is when I'm asleep, but lately I've been drinking more energy drinks than what's recommended as daily doses, just to not fall asleep because nighttime is the only moment I can be at peace while reading to escape reality. I know I'm lucky cause i have friends even virtual friends that care for me but i don't want them to cause i don't even care for myself at this point, i don't want them to like me cause i don't even like myself, i don't want them to remember me when ill be gone because that's the only thing I really want. I want to go. But I'm too weak. I tried already and got nothing but more problems. Im at a point where I feel like having nothing. I don't remember the last time I truly smiled. I don't know who I am. I never really knew who I was. Will I ever know ? Do I really want to ? No. Anyways spring is showing the tip of its nose and my roses are starting to bloom, slowly but they are. Oh how much I wish I was a rose. Not the type that is cut off and put in a vase on a table before being thrown away two days later. The one that is in the garden of an elderly couple, they take care of me every weekends with their grandchildren while the dog is trying to eat my leaves. I want to be a flower that is loved and being taken care of. As a reward ill be the most beautiful flower they've ever seen, ill be strong and ill make them smile. lll make them want to search what the meaning of my species and color is. I want to be a rose even if it means dying ever winter to bloom the following spring more beautiful and brave than the last one. If you read all this you surely had a crazy lots of time to lose. Like me rn haha. I like you, I don't like myself but I'm sure together we could've been the most dazzling roses. I just hope you didn't struggle too much to understand all that text cause I'm really bad at english grammar and I wrote all of this without checking if I made any mistakes and with Grammarly off lmao
POV you’re the type of person that tries to make people happy when you’re sad deep down inside and some people try and make you worse so you become numb
Tonight I texted a friend from school. Someone who you’d meet and thought they had enough confidence to rule the world. But then when I texted them tonight, they broke down. Calling them selves fat and ugly and no one will ever love them. I didn’t know how to respond. I told them they were lying. After all of that. They texted me a thank you. And called me kind. They opened up about every feeling they’ve had this past year. I couldn’t believe how much they had suffered. You could never tell. I love them more than they could ever know now. They are so beautiful and don’t need to change. I’m at a mental low too. But they are even farther. This thing reminds me of them. Their home life is messed up. They finally opened up tonight. I can’t believe it. I love you ❤❤
Some things iv been working on this year is learing to let people go. Don't ask for answers. Don't look for closure. And sometimes just say fuck it. I'm going to do me and you do you. That's what iv been up to this year.
try fighting everyone, but just find out myself soft hearted... try do my best at school , but just find out myself useless... try doing my best in every competition , but just find out myself loss everytime... try stopping to hurt , but just find out myself broken hearted... try my best in this life , but just find out i the biggest lier...
All of these people how listening to this now aren't feeling ok I hope you be ok don't worry if there is no one loves you Iisten Iam here for you I love you so much don't forget 💓
I'm sorry for everyone thats going through something rn but please be patient. Nothing stays the same, not even us. One thing that has helped was getting a relationship with God. I truly truly recommend trying to read the Bible with an open mind. I didnt use to have faith and I used to be so skeptical and hateful towards it. It was only because I didnt understand it. Gods love is everlasting and amazing and will fill you up with everything you're looking for. I really hope no one takes this as pushing it down anyones throat, but I do hope God fills your life with light.
I am in a bad enough space today to have reached out to someone about my mental exhaustion. He was really sweet and helpful and supportive and I hope you all find a freind like that. I can't fix my mental health but I can remind myself that I am not a burden I am beautiful even if I can't see it Worthy of love, even when I make mistakes Strong enough to keep fighting for my freinds and family And that if you leave you might be the only person who could prevent someone else from following For anyone who hasn't heard that there you go, keep on fighting soldiers and know that a stranger loves you and wishes you the best💙
I've been struggling lately fighting my addictions but it seems each week's a different relapse. I'm exhausted pretending I'm fine to my wife and family overseas. Quite frankly I'm tired. I'm tired picking myself up just to find a new low. Everything I wanted to avoid ended up happening anyway. It's not worth it anymore
But.. All of YOU are the Light! You feel these things bc the dark ones are trying to bring us down & keep our gift of Light from the world! Your strength will grow You'll learn to take care of YOU first. You have to...this is how it is now. Be the Light.
I help and i help. I help friends with their issues. I helped my brother with his break up. I cant seem to find someone to love me for me. I love them for who they are but they take advantage. They toy with me. Im struggling to fit in. I need someone to run towards me and hug me so tight and not let me go. I dont know if its too much to ask.. but PLEASE i beg. I want comfort. I want comfort so bad. I need a hug so so bad i need it right now
It is, you need to believe that you are the light to someone else, maybe you haven't found them yet, maybe they already found you and you don't know. The point is that not every single thing will be alright, I'd be lying if I say this, but believe in yourself, maybe not today, but you'll find your peace.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
School is just so much more worse then last year. All of my friends are fake. I only have 2-3 friends now. My best friend is starting to ditch me again. All I do every day now is read. I finished a book in 2 days. 187 pages. I read for 8 hours once. I can’t cry cause my body is to used to me crying a lot. Some times a cry is good. But school is when I can’t think about anything but one person who is always on my mind. They make me so happy. It’s just I can’t do anything with them cause I only see them after school. Even tho people are going to be happy to leave school, I’m not. One of my best friends are going to 1st grade. I get it might be weird if I’m friends with a kindergartner, but there just adorable. I’m gonna miss everyone so much. All of my friends are going to a different school I might be going to. I’m gonna miss then all so so much. 💔
I have a similar story last October I found out my friends were fake and just used me but now I only got a few friends and some of them are going to a different college than me and I'm gonna miss my best friend but just so you know there are gonna be better people you will meet ahead in life ❤
Tired of living Tired of hoping Tired being disrespected Tired of being lonely Tired of having fake friends Tired of being picked on The main reason tired of our parents not not understanding us not agreeing that were doing were best
I just discovered that I'm transgender ( fem to masc ) and since I grew up in an entirely transphobic family I know I can't tell anyone cause I'll get kicked out. I came out to my girlfriend about 30 minutes ago and she was super supportive but Im so worried that my mum is gonna find out. I don't know what I'll do if she does cause I'm only 15 so there's nowhere I can go if she kicks me out. I'm so scared and idk what to do so I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep while I listen to this beautiful playlist xx
Just come here to sleep 😴 and wake up and continue to live until the end of the world. Why? Because of the faith that someone will say " I need YOU in my life" 🙂 to that one person who doesn't belong anywhere in life. So please 🥺 do them a favor and continue living.
I feel empty. It's better than pain But I don't feel anything anymore either, I noticed that because my father died and I feel the same as always. sorry for the bad english, i'm russian
I don't want to see comments like "It'll get better." "you're doing amazing." The only reason for this being there empty compliments and empty promises. You don't know if It's going to get better, it gets so much worse for some. A person cannot be doing amazing, it is in fact impossible especially if they're watching this, I beg to wonder why someone says "Keep on going!" when they clicked on this video because of circumstance I can't bear to think of. You are not inclined to try to boost someone up going through something yourself. You are not inclined to try to boost someone up with empty words. And yes, it may be better hearing some of this from a stranger, but "It'll get better over time" doesn't fix their mood in the long run. I find it better to keep it truthful. "I can't tell you it will get better, cause I don't know if it will. But I hope it does." maybe something like that, I don't know. I'm just tired of seeing comments like that. srry.
Yeah ik how it feels life just sucks most the time nothing gets better and life just goes downwards but some people find it easier for some people to say "you can do this!" "It gets better" they just need reassurance but others just dont work like that and thats just how it is, i hope people will understand how others can feel in times where everything could seem great but your really falling apart, but remember someones been where you are and they either got better or they didnt either way they moved forward, i just hope others can understand how people can look happy but are just so broken 🫶
im lonely im sad im deppressed im tired of waking up in 4 30 tired of school tired of studying every day isn t good day im struggling im forgeting about my childhood i cant calm i hide my emotions my rest is thinking about sad i cant breath good i dont know why im tired of not sleeping i have good grades but no one cares all my friends left me that s my life with 10 years... 😥😭
Yes..but it'll go away..we trust, love & 🙏 & we never give up..we BELIEVE things will go better always..it can't be worst, it can't be always that bad☝️🕊🙌🫶
My father was everything to me. Even when i repeated grades due to their bias cox they want me to excel in their own language which is bahasa melayu they made me repeat grades. I repeated every entrance exam making it twice. My father would always encourage me even if im repeating, he had always taught me valueable lesson. But now that his gone I'm literally lost, I've repeated again changing school coz after he passed away i had to go back to philippines with my mother. My life sucks here for being different and knowing im 5 years older than them makes me odd one out alot. I've seen my previous so-called friends are living the life they always wanted meanwhile I'm very left behind. Idk what else am I suppose to do except survive right? I've lost every will to live but yet i cant just leave
When your sick of school because your so stressed but you get out and you fall into a depression because you miss your friends when you tell yourself you have the motivation but you go to do something and cant bring yourself to do it when your only comfort becomes a blade that pierces your skin you want to live but at the same time living is to much when you have a good friend group finally but you miss your old group when you see your old friends together and you think what about me even though you moved on when you are the luckiest girl having a supportive gf but your worried about losing them and being back at square one you want to do everything at once but also curl in your bed people don't realize how much depression destroys a person on the inside we say were fine, but inside we want someone to hug us and say i know your not "its hard to turn the page when someone won't be in the next chapter, but the story must go on" "Good people are like candles, they burn themselves up to give others light" "pain changes people, some become rude, and some become silent" When someone opens up to you, cherish them, because they were brave enough in all their pile of shit to trust you enough to tell them. Its hard to trust people when your at your lowest because your constantly worried about them turning and using that information against you.
-Already Gone- You know it's actually really sad, and depressing to think that we all try to make an impression on this earth, and yet we all die and turn to ash in the end. It's like all we did meant nothing...nothing at all. Every day we woke up feeling the same, like nothing...like nohing mattered anymore. But we knew we had to keep pushing not for ourselves, but for others, others that we love, that we dont know, that we might know in the future. Because if we lost hope in that one thing that mattered in our life, the people who care about us. we'd just end it, we'd jump off that cliff, put the light out. So we didnt have to feel anything anymore.
the worst of all is when your best friends with somebody with 5+ years and you just start to notice they are toxic to you and only kind when their friends are there... Then you realise that they were just using your mental health for their own happyness
hate feeling like this i just hurt those around me and cant even tell my bsf cause im too closed off everything and it sucks but i cant do much cause this times is worse than the last
Estoy tan cansada, muy cansada Pero todos dicen: ¿Cansada de qué? Si no haces nada.. Si, estoy cansada de la monotonia, cansada de estar tan sola, sin amigos, con ansiedad que no se la he podido contar a nadie, cansada de siempre estar desconforme con la vida social que tengo.. no pude lograr tener esa adolescencia que la mayoria tiene, divertida, con amigos, noviazgos... Mi adolescencia se me esta terminando y no de la manera que esperaba... no tengo ningun sueño, estoy completamente desconectada de todo... Espero poder salir adelante, por mis hermanitos
It's not getting worse, it is worse because where I am now I have no one just music and a facade that I wear whenever I go outside. I had friends, I had a best friend that was like a brother to me but now we don't talk at all. So many memories but no one to share anything with now. I guess it won't get better but that's ok, it's a part of everything now so I just have to find a way to live with it and I don't maybe just survive because living isn't what this is...
My ex asked me if I was upset or if I was gonna cry when she broke up with me and all I said was you can't cry if you have no tears to shed and if I cried everytime someone eat I wouldn't stop
im tired. that one person who helped me when I needed it, is now a stranger again, this time with memories… it hurts me walking past him, head down, and not running to him to say hi..
Look your regular viewer is back... Again... Everything seems fine for few days then again back to this abyss... Back to choking not to make a sound when breaking down... I just wish this loop will end soon
It's true am in a period where it's getting worse again after thinking that am done with it forever but...yeah ...I don't known what to believe in anymore..every time I think that am going to finally find the happiness in what am doing it just shows me that am wrong.
Everything was going great. Everything was turning out amazing. Why is it crashing now? Why do I feel so god damn heavy all of a sudden? Everything is still fine, perfect..? Why does it feel like something BAD is about to happen? Fear. Anxious? Is there a difference? I can't tell. Something's wrong. What is it? Everythings FINE? Whats 𝑊𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔?
I’m not ready to be an adult. They all are just like throwing me out, “ you are 17 get a damn job and stop laying in bed all day!” I am trying. I am trying to fight my social anxiety to go outside and talk to someone but I can’t, I can only talk to strangers online, that’s how far I can go. My parents won’t listen, my only irl friend is staring to distancing herself from me with the excuse “I wanted to do something with my bf, we can meet up soon I promise” “I am drinking with some other friends I’m sorry next time you can come too” I don’t want to, I want to walk around and talk, but when I get the chance Idk I’m just like “everything is fine dw” Why can’t I just not have anxiety and start doing things by myself instead of waiting for others? Why can’t it all just be simple? Why does everyone have high hopes on me I’ll just disappoint everyone. Alright I’m done thanks for listening :)
Dam this hit me in the feels. I just brokedown. Things haven't been going great for me I get what u mean with anxiety I'm on backlash from not toping up my meds caz I was to anxious to call dr but got worse longer I procrastinate lmao. Eh got it fixed till Feb at least. My social life is dead. I've left school (im18) and it's like ppl just fade you out when you thought u were good. So yeah I have no one to share moments with and it sad but also not one of heveyest problems I'm deal with curently which sad as hell now I've typed it out load. Oh yeah I just broke up from 10month relationship and feel more relaxed now that it's over which also is fucked now I think bout it. I um dont know why I'm typing. Or if I'll even post it I usually just lurk in comment section tbh. I eh just want to let you know your heard and I can hella relate to you right now :') But hey at least we can brake down to a good playlist wherever we are both in the world
I understand the feeling 🥲 I hope it gets better for you. My life is going downhill rn so it's hard to be happy when all I can think about is the negative thoughts hopefully it goes away. Have a great day!
Are you okay? Yea it Just tired Tired of being ignored by him Tired of feeling hurt because he chose her over me Tired of being alone Tired of being a therapist friend and no-one caring how I feel Tired of feeling bad about myself when I try to talk about my problems Tired of having my heart broken So yea I'm fine, just tired Mkay, you sure? Yea ig
I think we are very similar Elizabeth. Don’t forget your worth, you are enough and loved. And you will find those that value you more than you can imagine. I promise. I don’t know you yet I feel a Love for you, stay strong. I know you can do it
it's been ten years and i've kept going and i don't know how because everyday keeps getting worse and worse and worse somehow it's really hard for me to not just end it all but i have to mask it all up for my friends because if i'm not i'm a good friends won't be and i've built myself completely different at school than at home and at school i'm ALWAYS so happy so i can't be any different and it's really hard and mentally and physically and emotionally draining and exhausting
Why I listen to music? Cause I feel too much. It's a simple answer really, but as I recently realized I feel too much, I'm an empath and I feel what those around me feel, their emotions their distress and it gets me tired. Tired of living this life, and as a reader I just wanna live in another world, I want to escape. That what music is, and I wish to create music and I don't know how. This is why I hope some day I'll make people feel okay through my singing
What I am tried of: :People judging my body :Parents fighting :Yelling :Anxiety :Sadness :Crying all night :People making comments about me :Mean bullies :So many people in my family passing away all at once :My crush not knowing who I am :Losing all my friend's since they are doing really bad things :get blamed for everything :My dad always being drunk :To many bad things If things you as well I am sorry and I hope it get's better
I wish it was all over. My head and heart have aches. Life is slowly getting worse. Pain is increasing. Toleration for hurtful people is adjusting wrongfully. Hate is growing. Personality is changing. Lying is normal. No sleep is usual. Music is my only true friend. Makeup is needed. The school system is $h1T. I'm getting more burnt out. My parents think I am heartless. Friends are drifting past me ever so easily. Sadness is di Friday ectly cutting into life all together.
I feel you. But, don’t. Hang on to the things you love and think about how happy they make you. I know your probably tired of hearing this but It WILL get better. It doesn’t matter If it takes 1 day, 2 days, 8 days, and so on. It just matters to stay here. Let it out. That’s the best thing to do. Try to talk to somebody about it all. Doesn’t matter who. I wan5 it to end too but I keep fighting for my family. If I didn’t have them, then, you know… keep trying.❤
Mom died in 2021. 3 aunts in 2021. Uncle in 2021. Grandfather 2021. Other grandfather in 2022. Last grandmother 2023. Broke my neck in 2023. Holding on as long as I can but it’s tough
It's balasore train accident many people died 500+ someone lost his brother his father her mother her sis and someone's whole family died just crying for them....... 💔
Am I the only one that suffers so much pain but hide it every day like nothing happen... Am I the only one that's tired of getting yelled at by my parents and teachers and friends and over think every thing of what they think about you cause they act like I don't exist and thanks for my pillow it just let's me let all the pain out but next day with same pain behind a smile again and again
So I had an F almost all year in math and my family would always be down my throat about it and when I tell my cousin I got a 65% D now she’s still disappointed in me and she’s like “that’s still not passing even if it is passing now it wasn’t when I was your age” like I’m going to be 14 I’m not perfect and I never will be… and then my mom ever even told me good job or I’m proud of you, I knew you could do it… and it just like I’ll never be enough for them. I would end it but I still have a life to live, dreams to chase, find love, my family (the ones who are actually proud of me) and my friends I have to live for them just a little while longer…
The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you the best memories is now a memory
Fr
especially when they had a very positive effect on you.
my BF, a few months ago, was forced to break up with me, please don't ask why, after helping to basically repair me from the damages of what was basically a passive-aggressive babysitter with an agenda against my mom.
Ik the feeling
:(
I’ve got the same now, but i got the idea that i need to live for a new things in my life (i know it’s two month later)
I am tired.
Tired of school
Tired of being so lonely
Tired of social anxiety that make me live through awful situations
Tired of being treat like shit by my « friends »
Tired of being disrespected
Tired of trying
Tired of hoping
Tired of living
It’s always my fault and it always going to be that way
I can’t do it anymore
Its so hard to take all my failures
I’m a failure
u r perfect in ur own way... u r no failure. its not ur fault
@@alexphillips3721 ❤❤❤
I feel the same way but I know it won’t bring any comfort knowing another is suffering the same thing. Still let’s try to see another day okay? I won’t assure that it would get better but we can look forward for trivial forms of comfort like food, pets or anything that you would find slightly less painful. Let’s do so. Just breathing is an achievement and I’m proud of us for still being able to do so. Sending virtual hugs 🫶🏻
SAME!!
You got I know it is hard I am dealing with the same plz do better then me
10 hours of studying.
No breaks.
Barely eating.
Not sleeping.
Trying my best.
And I’m still not good enough for my father.
I love you ❣️
first be enough for yourself, then everything else, ily
Same, but im taking sleeping pills wich is making me sleepy, BUT still not sleeping the may i should.
Hope to every human who has depression, anxiety, adhd etc. not to give up on their dreams..❤🩹
Been there! I swear it works out in the end, just keep going and working on yourself 🤞🏻
can freaking relate
My mental is getting worse and worse...but I'm still trying to fight it...
you got this ≤3
You got this Nicole I believe in you!
@@adumbthing4504 lin is that you
@@MayNicole123 Yep 👍
@@adumbthing4504 eeeee!🤭🤭
3 years later and im still constantly fighting the urge to ending it all.
Hopefully everything will get better soon. Just takes time
Me too I just had a relapse about 15 minutes ago and I did something
@@abbychilton1052 oh no. Hope you are ok
Lmao same
I am too it gotten so bad
"Are you okay?”
“Yeah just tired from studying!”
*Im tired of not being able to sleep properly*
*Im tired of being a second choice*
*Im tired of people*
*Im tired of feeling so hollow*
*Im tired of hardly being able to get out of bed*
*Im tired of being tall*
*Im tired of being ugly*
*Im tired of being fat*
*Im tired of trying my hardest but it not being good enough*
*Im tired of not being good enough*
*Im tired of thinking I’m a disappointment*
*Im tired of crying myself to sleep*
*Im tired of having panic attacks every day*
*Im tired of having anxiety attacks every day*
*Im tired of having social anxiety*
*Im tired of not liking to talk*
*Im tired of getting stabbed in the back*
*Im tired of my trust issues*
*Im tired of not being “perfect”*
*Im tired of existing*
*Im tired of not getting the perfect grades*
*Im sorry for sweating*
*Im sorry for being human*
*Im sorry for liking to stay in my room*
*Im sorry for liking video games*
*Im sorry for liking movies*
*Im sorry for “faking” my sadness*
*Im sorry for actually being sad*
*Im sorry for being annoying*
*Im sorry for having my issues*
*Im sorry for being lazy*
*Im sorry for being quiet*
And I’m so, so sorry for being me and not someone else
“Are you sure that you’re okay?”
“Mhmm. Just studying...”
I think you are clinically depressed, plzz help your self
This is everything in one message I understand you
Same. Literally same.
𝖂𝖊 𝖆𝖗𝖊 2( o̴̶̷᷄ ·̫ o̴̶̷̥᷅ )
❤️
for those who are struggling in the comments: you are beautiful; you are worth more than you think; don’t give up; life will get better i promise; it’s okay to vent to people; it’s okay to cry; you. are. worth it i promise.
The older you get the harder life gets
But i dont feel that way and the one person i feel that i finally connected to doesnt feel that way
Appreciate ur comment 🙏🙏
No I am fine
F-forgot how to fell
I-I am struggling
N-not ok
E-every day is hard
So I am “fine”
TW for:
- Eating Disorder
- Sleeping Problems
- Child on Child Sexual Assault
- Pedophilia
- Grooming
- Toxic Relationships
- Depression
- Suicide Thoughts
- Self Harm
- Runaway Thoughts
- Overdose Thoughts
- basically lots of shit and also the abused to abuser scenario
I'm literally so fucking tired of everything. Just everything. And I bet everyone else is tired of me too. I hate the way I am. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I talk. I hate just everything about me or which is connected with me, except the things that bring me actual joy (like watching my comfort animes or writing)
I'm 5'7 and I used to be 56kg, but then it got up to 60kg and my mom basically treated it like it was the end of the world. I hate how skinny I am. This is also why I start binge eating in the late evening. I rarely eat on the day, but in the night, I'm active with eating while watching movies and I literally hate it so much. And my father complains of how much I am eating. I want to gain weight so that I don't feel so skinny and even though I know it's not good to overeat, I still do it. It's really bad when I'm awake in night, lying in bed, feeling my stomach still being hungry, but I'm starving myself. I also hate my freckles, they are a big insecurity of mine.
I constantly stay awake at night because of how much I can't fall asleep and I hate it. I sleep 6 hours, usually, a human needs to sleep 8 hours. Right now for an example, while I am writing this, I'm awake and it's around 11:00 pm, one hour before midnight. And then, I'm honestly wondering why I'm so tired.
I got sexually abused by my cousin when I was 8, he was 13 and a few months ago, I remembered it. My mom knew something was off so he told me to say no and luckily, he left me alone and then stopped. I told my mom how I remembered it. I cut contact, blocked and reported him, but even though my mom cares about me, she's says he has a mental disorder which makes him think differently, but still, it doesn't excuse the trauma which he gave to me. My father literally tries to spend time with me and thanks to my stupid cousin, I think that he wants something from me. My uncle once touched my thigh out of accident and I immediately thought he was going to harass me. My lil brother literally smirks at me and I think he wants something from me. There are not so many males in my family which I feel comfortable around.
I also hate my physics teacher. He's a fucking pedophile. He looks at the beasts of his female student while smirking and is distracted by the way a girl in our class dresses because she dresses "too revealing" (before anyone comments, don't worry, the parents are trying to fire him because of other reasons (they don't know he's a pedophile, only some people noticed)) He even once tried to look at my breasts.
I get attempted to get groomed multiple times, especially in a time like this. I know what grooming is and I know I can pick up it's signs but I almost still fell for it, because I'm craving the affection which no one is willing to give me. I almost fell for a trick which I knew and I was fully aware of how dangerous it is, yet, I still fell for it.
I have big depression which is the reason why I'm missing so many classes. I lie about being sick (some times I'm actually sick, one time I skipped school with some friends). My grades worsened and despite people caring for me and worrying why I'm away, it slowly gets turned into a running gag. And I'm asking myself, how many times are you gonna ignore the fucking signs? I've missed like third of the school year and people still don't recognize that there's a special reason behind it. They rather shame me for it then rather asking if I'm okay. Even the teachers notice it, but they just don't care about my mental health, they want me to make me able to work again for my "future".
My teachers, my parents and some of my friends are trying to help me, but in the end, I just know that they are gonna spit me out when I'm able to work again for my so called future and for school and all that shit. They don't care about me myself. They care about my so called future, but I know damn well that this is a lie too.
My mom and my dad try to help me but after I seem to get better, they fall back into their old ways and make jokes about me just to get a chuckle out of the person in front of them. And when I talk back, they say I should give them respect. Where's the logic in that? My father knows very well that I'm depressed and yet, he forces me to do things like making my bed and talks to me down like a dog or a rabbit or a dumbass or that shit. My dad is also that kind of guy to give you physical affection and doesn't respect my boundaries. My mother does that too. And they tease me for my tiredness.
I have an image around the people I know. The stupid, yet somehow intelligent, quiet girl. And people use me as their therapy. Or run over me or insult me or laugh at me, because, hey it's okay, she's not gonna fight back. I especially have this imagine in class. I appear to be happy, yet I'm crying for help, but no one notices, since they are too distracted by themselves or by finding too much comfort in me, their beloved therapy.
There's this one guy in class which I sort of have a crush on. It's a complicated and very long story. Basically, people thought I had a crush on him, and that's why we distanced. He used to be my male best friend. I never cared about love, but now I sort of do. He flirts with me sometimes and tries to get my attention. I don't want to go into this too deeply, it's basically a Stolitz type of relationship with me being Blitz and him being Stolas. Or turned around, it works in both ways. I also have an other guy. I love both of them with all of my heart, but I don't want to ruin both of them with my mental problems.
Everyone seriously fucked me up to be honest. I'm the victim but also the problem in some cases. Like in this one case, where I treated a friend horribly after focusing too much on my now best friend. It's that type of trios don't work scenario. Also, something where I also sort of carry the fault is my old friend group falling apart. I also slut shamed my hypersexual boy obsessed friend with daddy issues. Instead of slut shaming there, I should have been there for her. She's an other story for now, but the guilt of all these things eats me up til this day and it will probably do so forever.
I somehow always manage to ruin things. It's always my fault. I'm also vandalizing my class with my bestie. We throw books in toilets. Because that's the only way I know a way out of the situation in which I am finding myself in currently. I'm slowly turning from abused to abuser. My sadness turns into anger. My depression into wrath. That's why I'm doing what I'm doing. I want to stop, but I can't. It's better than suicide and actually gives me back the thrill in life which I'm missing and I hate myself for it.
I also feel like my trauma isn't valid enough. I know people which have suffered much more worser. I also have a friend. My best friend. She's nice and I love her, but she's aggressive and full of negative energy and influenced me. And instead of motivating me, she tells me how stupid I am and doesn't help me. But despite that, she helped me to be more confident even though she clearly influenced me.
Even I don't feel safe around her anymore.
I hate me and the mistakes which I made. I hate how I can easily be used, taken advantage of and manipulated. Or influenced. People come and fuck with my head, leaving me confused. My mom keeps me dragging through my suffering, saying it will be better but I don't believe this bullshit at all but somehow, there's a stupid spark of hope which makes me believe her lies. My mom generally is a little bit mental abusive towards me. Everyone always carries the fault, except her. I'm tied and depending on her because of something in the past I don't wanna mention. She loves me of course and I love her, but I feel like she uses every psychological trick to keep me with her. It's motherly, yet she drags me through my suffering. She acts like she's the only person I could trust. Because of the thinking she installed into me, I lost many friends. She also seems to use HER trauma as an excuse and to get pity. Of course, she had to go through more than me, but it's just annoying. Whenever I talk about myself, she talks about her or her trauma. It's draining me out. We have a deal. Until 1st March she has time to make me feel happy again. If she doesn't, I'm allowed to run away. It's fucked up, but I have freedom then. Happiness. I feel like I'm jailed in here, really.
I can't be around people, yet I hate to be lonely.
I just wanna kill myself. Hanging. Overdosing. Run away.
Why keep suffering if you can just end it all?
Why be sad if you can be gone?
I don't wanna be saved.
I don't deserve it.
(Sorry for the long, long vent, I just needed to get some things out. By the way, I found so much comfort in your playlist
hey girl . give me your ig or your snapchat to talk . im here for you!
My love 🥺 all I can say is everything is going to be Okay. I wanna be there for you ?❤️
I’m am so sorry that happened to you I hope your okay I hope you feel better and your strong and I hope you know you got ths😊💖🫶💪
Hey, everyone. I kindly want to tell you that I appreciate all the support
This is something that scares most people and the fact that you are still here now shows how strong you are and yes it may not feel like it at the moment, but most people and I are so proud of how far you have come, and this was something I felt as though I had to read, I don't mind reading long paragraphs. I completely understand how you feel, and you have been through a whole fucking lot, but you know what something or someone will be there in the future, and it will change you or change your life for the better we all need to be patient with how we feel and how things are and stick it out . All of this is normal human emotions that were given to us. We can't control how we feel about certain things it only destroys you when you don't let it out. You don't know me, and I don't know you but I'm proud of you and I hope this means something.❤❤🩹
All these comments are so painful to read but all I can say is that we are all here at this playlist for a reason and dear lord I really hope you bless these people with a damn miracle because they really need it. Love for all of ya'll. 🙏❤🩹❤
The worst feeling in my opinion, is that, you want to cry, scream and let it out, but you can't even sob, because you know that, with the least sound, they will hear you...
Vent://
I've been clean for around 4-6 months... My friends are all happy and that but they don't know how close I've been in the last week to do it again. So tired of the temptations.
Schools so much worse than last year, expecting me to study and I do. I do study, but whatever I do I don't feel good enough. Sometimes it's 4-10 after school... Other days I don't do any work for a week.
I don't wanna ask for help from anyone. I don't want a stupid councilor who just triggers everything, I get attached to teachers because of my home life so I don't want to risk that. That hurt me more than my suicidal thoughts, depression etc. My parents are either too protective or just don't care about me, it's too much fuss. They don't know about my 5 past attempts from this year, or my sh, or even how severe my panic attacks got. My friends have chosen me as the 2nd or 3rd option, they all have a best friend and I'm just left. My own best friend has another best friend. Whenever I feel like shit she simply tells me to 'woman up' which is helpful until I can't help but have a complete breakdown. My other friends aren't the same and worry too much. I only rlly have my 2 Internet friends but I don't speak to one of them as much and the other is currently in hospital for her mh.
I really want my learning mentor back. She went on maternity leave and she's due back next year. I miss her so so much, she never told anyone what I said and was my ideal councilor. I enjoy sessions with her and she is so nice to me, I have her til the end of next year luckily. Idk what to do, even she's only for anxiety but I don't want everyone to know like teachers and parents so I can't really tell her...
Hey, sometimes it's ok to be like that, it's just teaching you that you should focus more in yourself and don't care that much about others. Yeah, maybe I'm wrong, but in this world, you get betrayed by the ones that supposed to be beside you from the start. Trust me, take a deep breath, go for a long walk and don't think that much, everything will go for you eventually.
@@laurentiulupu9264 thank you! This may seem like a bad idea but I'm trying to get closer with both my learning mentor and some of teachers just incase it gets really bad. The temptations are still happening daily but they're fading away in intensity x
if u dont mind me asking clean from what
Ask sincerely Jesus for help. I guarantee you, he will destroy your bad thoughts.
@@rubysutton8960 hey… i know things are rough right now. I have been in some shitty situations and did things i now think back to and wonder what was going through my mind… its gonna be okay. Work on yourself, exercise(i know it sounds stupid but genuinely try!) and know you will get out of this cause at the end of the day you have gotten this far… ❤️
My friends always ask why im always listening to music and i say its because its calming. In reality its because it distracts me for a bit and takes me out of my head, it helps me focus more on the lyrics not my thoughts, it calms me and helps me stay relaxed. This playlist is distracting me more than i thought it would and im very thankful for that.
so true if you ever need someone to talk to im here
@@keyannahutson same goes to u 😊
@@BillyShowalter169 you wanna talk ill give you my email and we can talk
@@keyannahutson im sorry for not answering sooner man
I thought it was getting better.
The problems are trying to come up again,and they do make me cry.
My anxiety is eating me alive. I’m so scared of failing that I keep thinking my parents will not want me around anymore. I’m scared of losing everything and end up having nowhere to go.
Hey I know your probably going through a lot but I just wanted to let you know your strong and beautiful and you will find healing you got this 💪💖and I’m so sorry your going through that
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
The hate i feel for myself is returning, the bad eating habits, the dehydration, the numbness, the unhygienic-ness, the bad sleep schedule, the thoughts and urges to hurt myself.
It's all returning so fast, I've been doing so good for 6 months, hyping myself up and keeping myself going but I feel myself reaching my limit again.
The constant negativity around me is taking its toll again and I'm completely alone this time
Bruhh just know that you not alone Heyy. If ever you need someone to talk to. I'm here❤️
@@jamaldipako5595 thanks man, drop a social and we can text sometime
@Danny Dolan I don't even know what's that mate
@Danny Dolan nahh don't you have WhatsApp ?
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
Music is keeping me alive
So many things that stress me out, but when I hear a song everything changes ❤️
I want someone to ask if I'm ok
But at the same time
I know I'll just lie...
It's easier to Fake a smile
Till it's not.
The camera takes a photo, catching you off guard.
A frown instead of a grin.
"Hey are you ok?"
a smile, quickly covering the pain
"I'm fine, just tired"
So, so tired
Too tired
Too tired to keep trying.
I'm sorry
Shut up
"Hey just checking in, you ok?"
Stare, gulp, smile, nod
"Yup, just need an early night"
Crisis averted
Do u wanna join my server
I like u
U will find that someone, trust me 🙏
This world is beautiful, i found this after loving someone
yes and am still waiting for that one to love me and i well post the same comment
@@madaman2634 i will be rooting for you
A tip if you see anything thats toxic or selfish or any red flags end it or you’ll be here sitting and thinking its ur fault and that ur stupid and that he’s right while its not
When your favorite person is also smile at you but when their with someone sees your favorite person happier it feels...hurt..
You know your broken when you stop feeling everything and even if u can't feel it you know it hurts more then when you could feel it and all you can think about is "would anybody care if I just ended it would they cry for me would or would they ignore it"? Is all that goes through my head and the worst part is that I DO NOT feel anything at all I can't even cry anymore
tw : after like 2 months of being clean, i relapsed , in so angry with myself i don’t even know why i did it, ig i missed the feeling and yea i’m just pissed with myself atm xx but j hope everyone else is doing well xx
I’m so sorry you’re going through that I hope you feel better I hope you know how proud I am of you stay strong you got this 🫶😊
But keep in mind you went two months without it
am sick
sick of me
sick of them
sick of school
sick of love that i never had
sick of being alone
sick of having no friends
and just want some time to recover
I’ve been fighting a chronic illness since I was 9 years old… now I’m 16. It’s been bad on my mental health but I’m fighting each day, (writing this before surgery) love y’all remember it does get better
U will get better ✊ ur thoughts can cure you
You got this! I believe in you! Hope your surgery went well!!!!!!!!
keep on fighting you got this
@@Soapy_09 Aw thanks my guy! I really appreciate it
@@proud_hoooman Hell yeah! My surgery went a little bit weird BUT it overall went well
People don't understand when i say "I'm tired" they respond with just go to sleep you'll feel better in the morning but they dont realize that its a bone deep exhaustion that i dont want to deal with anymore.
i love my friends but sometimes they aren't enough to keep me a float anymore i just want to go to sleep for a few years and wake up again when everything is fixed and i dont have to worry about any of it anymore. i dont want to be an adult!! i want to be a kid where Christmas was a time of joy and spending break playing in the snow but now i dread it because i have to spend time with my mother and have to socialize with people who always say "i haven't seen you since you were a baby!".
i hate the holidays so fuckin much i just want to live my life without so much pain.
i didn know that life hurt so much.
Losing 3 of the people you care about the most in a matter of days breaks you. The worst is knowing that they're still physically part of life but just doesn't care like they said they did.
I live each moment
as if its
our last.
The most painful part of life is when the person that gave birth to you gave you the deepest mental and physical scars. It hurts to know they don't love you the way they should...
I kinda get it but she gave me trust issues and abandonment issues because she left when i was two.. But I'm sorry for you
I felt like it for so long and still do but I’m getting happier and eventually it does get better and I never thought it would and never believed it would but I got my best friends and my boyfriend by my side and there’s no stopping me well except my anxiety but that only gets set off in school and my best friend well I call him my brother came and he skipped school just to come and calm me down and get me out of school, these are the people I want in my life forever and I truly hope they stay forever ❤
I've been having a lot of mental health issues lately, but rn I'm here because I'm tired of never being plan A, or even B actually, always last choice and I can't stand it anymore.
if you need to talk to someone i would love to help or even listen
Crazy to think that strangers on the Internet understand me more than my own family... I just feel like ending it all everyday. I try and try but everything that has brought me the most happiness was just taken away in a heartbeat. I'm trying Lord... You know Im trying😭😭
It will get better again bro 🙏🙏
I feel the same too, we can get through this all together. You are loved ♥️
The urge to end it all is getting stronger, I can't leave them but the fight is draining me I don't think I can do this anymore
Stay storng
You'll never be right for the wrong person. Push through this, I believe in you
Maybe one day, when i'm covered in dirt, or burned to ashes. Maybe then i'll be happy, maybe then i won't feel alone anymore, maybe then i'll be surrounded by warm people and experience a true friendship that i've always wanted. Maybe then i would be more social and leave behind my fears... Maybe then i'll shed no tears....
It only gets better guys! Keep fighting please. Don’t give up. I know it’s hard but we all have a reason. Keep pushing please. I love you guys
thank you that means a lot and also if you are struggling im here to talk
love you too
hi, i'm italian. I think that this playlist is very lonely i really like this song, it's perfect to think about the memories and to cry on
(venting when I should be studying lol)
I'm stuck. I've been stuck with those feelings for a few years now. Sometimes it gets a bit better, but it doesn't last long, and I come back to that state of numbness. I find myself a hobby or something that I like to do, and I will be 100% into it for a little while, and it'll make me feel soooo good. But then again, it won’t last long. I'll soon lose all interest in that hobby. The same goes with people, I'll be the most clingy and affectionate person with a certain someone and then, one day, I'll start ignoring their notifications and putting my phone on silent mode. I feel like even if I wanted to, I will never be able to get better. I'm constantly lying to everyone, including me. I'm pushing myself away from the people I like, or at least used to like. The only moment I feel comfortable is when I'm asleep, but lately I've been drinking more energy drinks than what's recommended as daily doses, just to not fall asleep because nighttime is the only moment I can be at peace while reading to escape reality.
I know I'm lucky cause i have friends even virtual friends that care for me but i don't want them to cause i don't even care for myself at this point, i don't want them to like me cause i don't even like myself, i don't want them to remember me when ill be gone because that's the only thing I really want. I want to go. But I'm too weak. I tried already and got nothing but more problems. Im at a point where I feel like having nothing. I don't remember the last time I truly smiled. I don't know who I am. I never really knew who I was. Will I ever know ? Do I really want to ? No.
Anyways spring is showing the tip of its nose and my roses are starting to bloom, slowly but they are. Oh how much I wish I was a rose. Not the type that is cut off and put in a vase on a table before being thrown away two days later. The one that is in the garden of an elderly couple, they take care of me every weekends with their grandchildren while the dog is trying to eat my leaves. I want to be a flower that is loved and being taken care of. As a reward ill be the most beautiful flower they've ever seen, ill be strong and ill make them smile. lll make them want to search what the meaning of my species and color is. I want to be a rose even if it means dying ever winter to bloom the following spring more beautiful and brave than the last one.
If you read all this you surely had a crazy lots of time to lose. Like me rn haha. I like you, I don't like myself but I'm sure together we could've been the most dazzling roses.
I just hope you didn't struggle too much to understand all that text cause I'm really bad at english grammar and I wrote all of this without checking if I made any mistakes and with Grammarly off lmao
POV you’re the type of person that tries to make people happy when you’re sad deep down inside and some people try and make you worse so you become numb
thats true and thats me i wish i could talk to someone abt it
Tonight I texted a friend from school. Someone who you’d meet and thought they had enough confidence to rule the world. But then when I texted them tonight, they broke down. Calling them selves fat and ugly and no one will ever love them. I didn’t know how to respond. I told them they were lying. After all of that. They texted me a thank you. And called me kind. They opened up about every feeling they’ve had this past year. I couldn’t believe how much they had suffered. You could never tell. I love them more than they could ever know now. They are so beautiful and don’t need to change. I’m at a mental low too. But they are even farther. This thing reminds me of them. Their home life is messed up. They finally opened up tonight. I can’t believe it. I love you ❤❤
Some things iv been working on this year is learing to let people go. Don't ask for answers. Don't look for closure. And sometimes just say fuck it. I'm going to do me and you do you. That's what iv been up to this year.
try fighting everyone, but just find out myself soft hearted...
try do my best at school , but just find out myself useless...
try doing my best in every competition , but just find out myself loss everytime...
try stopping to hurt , but just find out myself broken hearted...
try my best in this life , but just find out i the biggest lier...
All of these people how listening to this now aren't feeling ok I hope you be ok don't worry if there is no one loves you Iisten Iam here for you I love you so much don't forget 💓
I'm sorry for everyone thats going through something rn but please be patient. Nothing stays the same, not even us. One thing that has helped was getting a relationship with God. I truly truly recommend trying to read the Bible with an open mind. I didnt use to have faith and I used to be so skeptical and hateful towards it. It was only because I didnt understand it. Gods love is everlasting and amazing and will fill you up with everything you're looking for. I really hope no one takes this as pushing it down anyones throat, but I do hope God fills your life with light.
My step-mom was my everything until she passed away. My dad left me with the twins named Jay and May. But I'm now 20
Hey man I’m sorry to hear that
It's fine I'm just glad my siblings are okay
I am in a bad enough space today to have reached out to someone about my mental exhaustion. He was really sweet and helpful and supportive and I hope you all find a freind like that. I can't fix my mental health but I can remind myself that
I am not a burden
I am beautiful even if I can't see it
Worthy of love, even when I make mistakes
Strong enough to keep fighting for my freinds and family
And that if you leave you might be the only person who could prevent someone else from following
For anyone who hasn't heard that there you go, keep on fighting soldiers and know that a stranger loves you and wishes you the best💙
Yess ✊
this playlist is just special
Agreed
I've been struggling lately fighting my addictions but it seems each week's a different relapse. I'm exhausted pretending I'm fine to my wife and family overseas. Quite frankly I'm tired. I'm tired picking myself up just to find a new low. Everything I wanted to avoid ended up happening anyway. It's not worth it anymore
I’m sorry you are going through what your going through your strong and I hope you feel better and that you find happiness you got this 💪💖🫶😊
But..
All of YOU are the Light!
You feel these things bc the dark ones are trying to bring us down & keep our gift of Light from the world!
Your strength will grow
You'll learn to take care of YOU first.
You have to...this is how it is now.
Be the Light.
I help and i help. I help friends with their issues. I helped my brother with his break up. I cant seem to find someone to love me for me. I love them for who they are but they take advantage. They toy with me. Im struggling to fit in. I need someone to run towards me and hug me so tight and not let me go. I dont know if its too much to ask.. but PLEASE i beg. I want comfort. I want comfort so bad. I need a hug so so bad i need it right now
😊 it hurt so much sometimes and other days it gets worst, let's do our best to hold on 😊
maybe I should just end everything , im so tired and I can't believe ppl when they say its going to get better...
DONT GIVE UP MOON!!
It is, you need to believe that you are the light to someone else, maybe you haven't found them yet, maybe they already found you and you don't know. The point is that not every single thing will be alright, I'd be lying if I say this, but believe in yourself, maybe not today, but you'll find your peace.
@@MayNicole123 I.. I won't ... I'm trying
@@rosavit thank you... that's sweet to say of u..
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
I can’t man this hurts so bad we made the best memories and now your a memory I don’t think I can do this anymore I love you goodbye
hey are you ok if you need someone to talk to im here
I've been hiding my emotions because of being bullied for the past 5 years I forgot how to cry properly
Hey it'll get better iv'e been bullied my whole life ever single year and it gets better life still sucks but it slowly gets better
Move to a new city 🙏 it will bring u a fresh perspective on life
School is just so much more worse then last year. All of my friends are fake. I only have 2-3 friends now. My best friend is starting to ditch me again. All I do every day now is read. I finished a book in 2 days. 187 pages. I read for 8 hours once. I can’t cry cause my body is to used to me crying a lot. Some times a cry is good. But school is when I can’t think about anything but one person who is always on my mind. They make me so happy. It’s just I can’t do anything with them cause I only see them after school. Even tho people are going to be happy to leave school, I’m not. One of my best friends are going to 1st grade. I get it might be weird if I’m friends with a kindergartner, but there just adorable. I’m gonna miss everyone so much. All of my friends are going to a different school I might be going to. I’m gonna miss then all so so much. 💔
I have a similar story last October I found out my friends were fake and just used me but now I only got a few friends and some of them are going to a different college than me and I'm gonna miss my best friend but just so you know there are gonna be better people you will meet ahead in life ❤
Tired of living
Tired of hoping
Tired being disrespected
Tired of being lonely
Tired of having fake friends
Tired of being picked on
The main reason tired of our parents not not understanding us not agreeing that were doing were best
This is where all the lonely and tired souls linger. We have nowhere else to hide; they all belong to someone else anyways.
I am just going to keep keeping it all to myself so no one is bother by my problems and pretend like everything is good just like I have been doing
I just discovered that I'm transgender ( fem to masc ) and since I grew up in an entirely transphobic family I know I can't tell anyone cause I'll get kicked out. I came out to my girlfriend about 30 minutes ago and she was super supportive but Im so worried that my mum is gonna find out. I don't know what I'll do if she does cause I'm only 15 so there's nowhere I can go if she kicks me out. I'm so scared and idk what to do so I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep while I listen to this beautiful playlist xx
Just come here to sleep 😴 and wake up and continue to live until the end of the world. Why? Because of the faith that someone will say " I need YOU in my life" 🙂 to that one person who doesn't belong anywhere in life. So please 🥺 do them a favor and continue living.
I feel empty. It's better than pain But I don't feel anything anymore either, I noticed that because my father died and I feel the same as always. sorry for the bad english, i'm russian
I don't want to see comments like "It'll get better." "you're doing amazing." The only reason for this being there empty compliments and empty promises. You don't know if It's going to get better, it gets so much worse for some. A person cannot be doing amazing, it is in fact impossible especially if they're watching this, I beg to wonder why someone says "Keep on going!" when they clicked on this video because of circumstance I can't bear to think of. You are not inclined to try to boost someone up going through something yourself. You are not inclined to try to boost someone up with empty words. And yes, it may be better hearing some of this from a stranger, but "It'll get better over time" doesn't fix their mood in the long run. I find it better to keep it truthful. "I can't tell you it will get better, cause I don't know if it will. But I hope it does." maybe something like that, I don't know. I'm just tired of seeing comments like that. srry.
Yeah ik how it feels life just sucks most the time nothing gets better and life just goes downwards but some people find it easier for some people to say "you can do this!" "It gets better" they just need reassurance but others just dont work like that and thats just how it is, i hope people will understand how others can feel in times where everything could seem great but your really falling apart, but remember someones been where you are and they either got better or they didnt either way they moved forward, i just hope others can understand how people can look happy but are just so broken 🫶
im lonely
im sad
im deppressed
im tired of waking up in 4 30
tired of school
tired of studying
every day isn t good day
im struggling
im forgeting about my childhood
i cant calm
i hide my emotions
my rest is thinking about sad
i cant breath good i dont know why
im tired of not sleeping
i have good grades but no one cares
all my friends left me
that s my life with 10 years...
😥😭
Yes..but it'll go away..we trust, love & 🙏 & we never give up..we BELIEVE things will go better always..it can't be worst, it can't be always that bad☝️🕊🙌🫶
My father was everything to me. Even when i repeated grades due to their bias cox they want me to excel in their own language which is bahasa melayu they made me repeat grades. I repeated every entrance exam making it twice. My father would always encourage me even if im repeating, he had always taught me valueable lesson. But now that his gone I'm literally lost, I've repeated again changing school coz after he passed away i had to go back to philippines with my mother. My life sucks here for being different and knowing im 5 years older than them makes me odd one out alot. I've seen my previous so-called friends are living the life they always wanted meanwhile I'm very left behind. Idk what else am I suppose to do except survive right? I've lost every will to live but yet i cant just leave
I’m slowly giving up on everything. But when I need /want to cry i can’t🥺💔
im here if you want to talk
When your sick of school because your so stressed
but you get out and you fall into a depression because you miss your friends
when you tell yourself you have the motivation
but you go to do something and cant bring yourself to do it
when your only comfort becomes a blade that pierces your skin
you want to live
but at the same time living is to much
when you have a good friend group finally
but you miss your old group
when you see your old friends together
and you think what about me even though you moved on
when you are the luckiest girl having a supportive gf
but your worried about losing them and being back at square one
you want to do everything at once
but also curl in your bed
people don't realize how much depression destroys a person on the inside
we say were fine, but inside we want someone to hug us and say i know your not
"its hard to turn the page when someone won't be in the next chapter, but the story must go on"
"Good people are like candles, they burn themselves up to give others light"
"pain changes people, some become rude, and some become silent"
When someone opens up to you, cherish them, because they were brave enough in all their pile of shit to trust you enough to tell them. Its hard to trust people when your at your lowest because your constantly worried about them turning and using that information against you.
-Already Gone-
You know it's actually really sad, and depressing to think that we all try to make an impression on this earth, and yet we all die and turn to ash in the end. It's like all we did meant nothing...nothing at all. Every day we woke up feeling the same, like nothing...like nohing mattered anymore. But we knew we had to keep pushing not for ourselves, but for others, others that we love, that we dont know, that we might know in the future. Because if we lost hope in that one thing that mattered in our life, the people who care about us. we'd just end it, we'd jump off that cliff, put the light out. So we didnt have to feel anything anymore.
the worst of all is when your best friends with somebody with 5+ years and you just start to notice they are toxic to you and only kind when their friends are there...
Then you realise that they were just using your mental health for their own happyness
hate feeling like this i just hurt those around me and cant even tell my bsf cause im too closed off everything and it sucks but i cant do much cause this times is worse than the last
Estoy tan cansada, muy cansada
Pero todos dicen: ¿Cansada de qué? Si no haces nada..
Si, estoy cansada de la monotonia, cansada de estar tan sola, sin amigos, con ansiedad que no se la he podido contar a nadie, cansada de siempre estar desconforme con la vida social que tengo.. no pude lograr tener esa adolescencia que la mayoria tiene, divertida, con amigos, noviazgos...
Mi adolescencia se me esta terminando y no de la manera que esperaba... no tengo ningun sueño, estoy completamente desconectada de todo...
Espero poder salir adelante, por mis hermanitos
It's not getting worse, it is worse because where I am now I have no one just music and a facade that I wear whenever I go outside. I had friends, I had a best friend that was like a brother to me but now we don't talk at all. So many memories but no one to share anything with now. I guess it won't get better but that's ok, it's a part of everything now so I just have to find a way to live with it and I don't maybe just survive because living isn't what this is...
I thought it was gone, but it comes back and it's getting worse
I’m okay
Over it all
Keening after 8 yrs
Awful
Years of emptyness
I’m fine
Feeling burnt
I’m done with everything
Not wanted
Everyone’s over me :)
My ex asked me if I was upset or if I was gonna cry when she broke up with me and all I said was you can't cry if you have no tears to shed and if I cried everytime someone eat I wouldn't stop
😢😢
im here if you need to talk
i never knew what i had until it was gone i miss you mom
May she rest in peace and hope you and you family get better soon ♥️
im tired. that one person who helped me when I needed it, is now a stranger again, this time with memories… it hurts me walking past him, head down, and not running to him to say hi..
My mental health has been decaying worse every single day but I try to still be happy even if I am hurting
Look your regular viewer is back... Again... Everything seems fine for few days then again back to this abyss... Back to choking not to make a sound when breaking down... I just wish this loop will end soon
It's true am in a period where it's getting worse again after thinking that am done with it forever but...yeah ...I don't known what to believe in anymore..every time I think that am going to finally find the happiness in what am doing it just shows me that am wrong.
This is the best cover playlist ever🥰🥰🥰
Unique 😍
thank you for the music it stopped me from doing something very stupid
Yo you said this only 2 hours ago you good?
I hope your still here
Hey, hope you're good, it's okay to make mistakes or feel tired
Don't give up
Everything was going great. Everything was turning out amazing. Why is it crashing now? Why do I feel so god damn heavy all of a sudden? Everything is still fine, perfect..? Why does it feel like something BAD is about to happen? Fear. Anxious? Is there a difference? I can't tell. Something's wrong. What is it? Everythings FINE? Whats 𝑊𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔?
Its part of life, it gets better later 🙏
I’m not ready to be an adult.
They all are just like throwing me out, “ you are 17 get a damn job and stop laying in bed all day!”
I am trying.
I am trying to fight my social anxiety to go outside and talk to someone but I can’t, I can only talk to strangers online, that’s how far I can go.
My parents won’t listen, my only irl friend is staring to distancing herself from me with the excuse “I wanted to do something with my bf, we can meet up soon I promise” “I am drinking with some other friends I’m sorry next time you can come too”
I don’t want to, I want to walk around and talk, but when I get the chance Idk I’m just like “everything is fine dw”
Why can’t I just not have anxiety and start doing things by myself instead of waiting for others? Why can’t it all just be simple?
Why does everyone have high hopes on me I’ll just disappoint everyone.
Alright I’m done thanks for listening :)
Dam this hit me in the feels. I just brokedown. Things haven't been going great for me I get what u mean with anxiety
I'm on backlash from not toping up my meds caz I was to anxious to call dr but got worse longer I procrastinate lmao.
Eh got it fixed till Feb at least. My social life is dead. I've left school (im18) and it's like ppl just fade you out when you thought u were good. So yeah I have no one to share moments with and it sad but also not one of heveyest problems I'm deal with curently which sad as hell now I've typed it out load. Oh yeah I just broke up from 10month relationship and feel more relaxed now that it's over which also is fucked now I think bout it.
I um dont know why I'm typing. Or if I'll even post it I usually just lurk in comment section tbh. I eh just want to let you know your heard and I can hella relate to you right now :')
But hey at least we can brake down to a good playlist wherever we are both in the world
@@drawingfreek4615 life sucks but I hope it’ll get better for you and me🫶
I’m so sorry that happened to you I hope you know you got this and I believe in you 😊🫶
I understand the feeling 🥲 I hope it gets better for you. My life is going downhill rn so it's hard to be happy when all I can think about is the negative thoughts hopefully it goes away. Have a great day!
Are you okay?
Yea it
Just tired
Tired of being ignored by him
Tired of feeling hurt because he chose her over me
Tired of being alone
Tired of being a therapist friend and no-one caring how I feel
Tired of feeling bad about myself when I try to talk about my problems
Tired of having my heart broken
So yea I'm fine, just tired
Mkay, you sure?
Yea ig
I think we are very similar Elizabeth. Don’t forget your worth, you are enough and loved. And you will find those that value you more than you can imagine. I promise. I don’t know you yet I feel a Love for you, stay strong. I know you can do it
it's been ten years and i've kept going and i don't know how because everyday keeps getting worse and worse and worse somehow it's really hard for me to not just end it all but i have to mask it all up for my friends because if i'm not i'm a good friends won't be and i've built myself completely different at school than at home and at school i'm ALWAYS so happy so i can't be any different and it's really hard and mentally and physically and emotionally draining and exhausting
Im sorry to hear that but keep holding on ✊ life gets better
I JUST WANT TO SCREAM I JUST WANT TO CRY I JUST WANT TO LEAVE THIS BOX I CANT BREATH FUCK ... why do I have to be traped..
I feel like I relapse right when it seems it’s getting good again
i know how that feels if you need to talk im here
100% not why this was made, but i found it's nice to fall asleep to
Same here 😂
Why I listen to music?
Cause I feel too much. It's a simple answer really, but as I recently realized I feel too much, I'm an empath and I feel what those around me feel, their emotions their distress and it gets me tired. Tired of living this life, and as a reader I just wanna live in another world, I want to escape. That what music is, and I wish to create music and I don't know how. This is why I hope some day I'll make people feel okay through my singing
It was always bad even if i try to get better mby im delusional idk...... i just know this feeling is a part of me rn forever and ever.
What I am tried of:
:People judging my body
:Parents fighting
:Yelling
:Anxiety
:Sadness
:Crying all night
:People making comments about me
:Mean bullies
:So many people in my family passing away all at once
:My crush not knowing who I am
:Losing all my friend's since they are doing really bad things
:get blamed for everything
:My dad always being drunk
:To many bad things
If things you as well I am sorry and I hope it get's better
I relate to most of these points
I wish it was all over.
My head and heart have aches.
Life is slowly getting worse.
Pain is increasing.
Toleration for hurtful people is adjusting wrongfully.
Hate is growing.
Personality is changing.
Lying is normal.
No sleep is usual.
Music is my only true friend.
Makeup is needed.
The school system is $h1T.
I'm getting more burnt out.
My parents think I am heartless.
Friends are drifting past me ever so easily.
Sadness is di Friday ectly cutting into life all together.
it’s getting harder to keep fighting everyday…😭😭 i just want to give up i want the pain to stop.
I feel you. But, don’t. Hang on to the things you love and think about how happy they make you. I know your probably tired of hearing this but It WILL get better. It doesn’t matter If it takes 1 day, 2 days, 8 days, and so on. It just matters to stay here. Let it out. That’s the best thing to do. Try to talk to somebody about it all. Doesn’t matter who. I wan5 it to end too but I keep fighting for my family. If I didn’t have them, then, you know… keep trying.❤
It’s 03:25 and I can’t get sleep This is the only thing
helping me
I'm here after know the noticias about Moonbin.. i can't believe.. i can't😭😭
Mom died in 2021. 3 aunts in 2021. Uncle in 2021. Grandfather 2021. Other grandfather in 2022. Last grandmother 2023. Broke my neck in 2023. Holding on as long as I can but it’s tough
Wow that is tough i hope you can recover fully! Whishing only the best for you, hang in there!
It's balasore train accident many people died 500+ someone lost his brother his father her mother her sis and someone's whole family died just crying for them....... 💔
I reacently realised how bouring life is it’s the same thing over and over again only smalls things happen now it’s less exciting……..help
Am I the only one that suffers so much pain but hide it every day like nothing happen...
Am I the only one that's tired of getting yelled at by my parents and teachers and friends and over think every thing of what they think about you cause they act like I don't exist and thanks for my pillow it just let's me let all the pain out but next day with same pain behind a smile again and again
I do the same shit bro I understand
Never been more broken in my life then rn
I do the same I hope you know that your strong and you are amazing and I hope you feel better and you got this stay strong 🫶😊💖💪
So I had an F almost all year in math and my family would always be down my throat about it and when I tell my cousin I got a 65% D now she’s still disappointed in me and she’s like “that’s still not passing even if it is passing now it wasn’t when I was your age” like I’m going to be 14 I’m not perfect and I never will be… and then my mom ever even told me good job or I’m proud of you, I knew you could do it… and it just like I’ll never be enough for them. I would end it but I still have a life to live, dreams to chase, find love, my family (the ones who are actually proud of me) and my friends I have to live for them just a little while longer…