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Sorry... my 3rd comment: When you were talking about diet I was surprised when you added meat because many videos people emphasis plant based or vegan which is a difficult transition for me. Or uncomfortable. Just trying to figure this out.
The extent of damage done to your body/being by these drugs/our medical system, met by your ability over time to endure, perservere, accept, overcome and come out the other side is truly mind-blowing. I'm so sorry for the torment you suffered and so appreciative of your testament to survival with good character and spirit intact. Thank you for your living proof. I hope things continue to improve for you.
Congratulations! ❤ You did in good time. Was prescribed clonazepam 2mg for 17 years for nausea and stomach pain, now off for 10 months and feeling much better.
@FinHammer It took about 2 months. When I started to feel better I quit an SNRI, Cymbalta, as well. I've lived with "waves and windows" since then, some days much better and some worse. Like Jess in the video says, 3 steps forward, 2 backward etc. I've been sensitive to food since then. So I started to investigate what could cause my nausea and stomach issues to begin with, and found histamine intolerance and MCAS (mast cell activation syndrome) really interesting since a H1 histamine antagonist always has had a good effect on me. I have recently started to treat MCAS with Dao (an enzyme that breaks down histamine after digestion) supplements, vitamine C @FinHammer It took about 2 months. When I started to feel better I quit an SNRI, Cymbalta, as well. I've lived with "waves and windows" since then, some days much better and some worse. Like Jess in the video says, 3 steps forward, 2 backward etc. I've been sensitive to food since then. So I started to investigate what could cause my nausea and stomach issues to begin with, and found histamine intolerance and MCAS (mast cell activation syndrome) really interesting since a H1 histamine antagonist always has had a good effect on me. I recently started to treat MCAS with Dao (an enzyme that breaks down histamine) after digestion (interesting histamine becomes 4-imidazoline acid which is a GABA agonist) , qeurcetin (found naturally in apples etc.) and vitamin C to stabilize overactive mast cells, and it works 👍.
A huge part of AA is turning your problems over to the hand of something other than yourself. Belief unshackles oneself from being responsible for everything. Blessed is the journey.
You have helped me so much. I am 2 months off my year long taper. I needed to hear everything you had to say, very validating. Your voice is much needed. Happy you are doing so well.❤Lots of love to you!
@@jrman413 Thanks for asking. In many ways I am doing better. I still feel very injured though. Some days my symptoms are better than others. It takes time to heal from this beast.
Thank you, Jess. Your testimony is encouraging. You are brave and I am proud of you. I am in the midst of withdrawing now. It has recently gotten a little easier. Holding onto hope. Doing the positive things I know to do as I listen, learn, grow. I am 60 years old.
I've been on K for 15years and I am probably jumping off next month. This journey has been incredibly hard and I thank you for bringing us knowledge and wisdom. We will need that and I wish everyone good luck on their journeys. We will heal!
@Nomoreboosters Yes I have, at least most of it. Everyone who battles with these pills should. Btw. I jumped off 3days ago and already feel it. Wish me luck 😬
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm 29 months off cold turkey. Your experience definitely resonates with the healing journey that I am on. Best wishes to you and everyone that is going through this same process.
👏👏 29 months off... Cold Turkey ! ? Well done, this is an amazing achievement, you're a star ! As is Jess who is sharing her affliction right HERE & now! I myself too hope to share a positive "kick up the backside to the DEMON that is ALL things Benzo related!" Sadly not yet for me.. One day 🙏🙏
How are you doing really? I'm 35 months off cold turkey klonopin withdrawal, always taken as directed, for almost 29 years. Last few years before stopping, I had major anxiety, insomnia again, major migraines, lack of focus...lost my neurosurgery hospital job, then my home! All doctors I saw then never suspected the benzo at all. In 2020 I happened to hear a video from Jordan Peterson describing his benzo withdrawal nightmare, which I'd never heard was even a possibility before, had been in medical profession since 1973. Docs only told me at the beginning to "not take it more often than directed" which I never did. I called PCP asking to stop, all she said was "okay, stop" and I've never taken another pill since then 35 months ago. I hid in my apartment away from my adult children. My PCP wouldn't respond to my portal messages for help (couldn't speak well on phone and talking to people freaked me out then). Saw her 6 months later when I was able to drive again, she rolled her eyes and changed the subject when I tried to tell her about it. I'm a senior and have never been a drinker, smoker, drug taker except for what she gave me, but she didn't believe my symptoms when I told her. During the worst of it, I desperately wanted to end it by throwing myself in front of a truck on busy street outside my apt, but talked myself out of that. Many horrible symptoms of heart pounding panic, crying, hyperventilating, writhing on floor, migraines, jaw clenching, scratching til I bled, cramping, vomiting, couldn't be still, zapping electrical pain/burning, couldn't think, racing thoughts, felt a burning agitation under my skin, ears ringing, couldn't swallow well...of course I wasn't driving. Amazon delivered food when I could finally order it. I'm improved over then, but far from normal. Still wake 3-4 times a night with burning pain in back, arms, feet, groin, and get 2-4 migraines a week. I sleep with ice bags, which numbs it a bit. Are you having any of this? I'm now diagnosed with "small fiber peripheral polyneuropathy"...sure didn't have this before. Still have severe jaw clenching when trying to sleep, have cracked all molars even with night guard. Constantly paying off newest crown.
@@duka1.660 The day will come for you, just as it will for me… I have only recently discovered the dangers of psych meds and replacement opioids (which are also very addictive!) The info came up on RUclips a couple of days ago, and I was horrified! But I must do what I have to do when I find a Dr or someone who can assist me in withdrawing from all 3 medications. I’ve actually already been in withdrawal for probably a year already, but without knowing that what I’ve been experiencing is withdrawal symptom. The Drs all say there is nothing wrong with me… I guess they say that to all of us who are having these bizzare ‘illnesses’. I wish you the best for when you decide to begin the journey, and pray for you that it will be better at the end, than before you even started taking medications 🙏
I already commented. I just want to say that I hope you know that God loves you and that you are beautiful and precious. Peace be with you, in Christ Jesus. ❤
I never had any of these symptoms until the Xanax stopped working after 25 years. The bad symptoms only began when I started tapering. It’s been a nightmare. Absolutely amazing you continued to work after going cold turkey. A lot can continue to work if doing a proper taper.
Same thing for me. Was perfectly fine until went into tolerance withdrawal after 24 years on xanax. Took me two years to heal. Scary thing is it sets your body up for So many sensitivities. Year ago had to take a lot of antibiotics and steroids to clear an ear infection and still having eaves and windows from this set back. At this point just praying I will one day not be so sensitive going forward in my life.
@@Sears111 I took a fluoroquinolone, I think it was Cipro. This is supposedly one of the most dangerous classes of antibiotics. I had taken it years prior to my withdrawal and did fine on it but like I said earlier, your body doesn’t react to things the same after withdrawal as it did before. Be very vigilant in taking any benzo for any surgical procedure. Some people say it didn’t bother them but I would be very cautious having had the effect I had taking an antibiotic or any strong medicine for that matter.😬
Beautiful story, Jess. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm so sorry for the years of torture you endured. I'm helping my mother through this dark tunnel and stories are wisdom. So glad you feel greatly recovered.
Hey girl, you are amazing! I don’t usually make comments but after the second time I watched this video I decided I should. This is so very helpful to me for I am in the thick of it. This has been and still is a living hell! I’ve been trying to get my work going again and I get slammed by a bad case of Covid. Of course that flares up everything else! What you say about how the healing is not on a certain linear time schedule is so true. Another big one for me is how so many people think I’m exaggerating or they just flat out don’t believe me. I’m so glad you put this video out. Yours and other videos have been very helpful to me! Thank you so much and God bless you!
After my Dr convinced me to take Xanax extended release I started sleeping a lot and kept having to increase the dose because my anxiety kept getting worse. Then my insurance wud only pay for the generic. My Dr really started increasing the dose because my anxiety skyrocketed. That's when I read that prolonged benzo use can lead to dementia. I was so angry with my Dr I switched Dr's and weaned off. Since then I lost most of my memories, especially long term memories. Most of my hair fell out and isn't growing back. The worst is that my body is literally drying out. I don't sweat my skin is SO oily. My gums have receded so much I'm in excruciating pain. I don't know how this stuff can still be on the market or why nobody has sued the makers yet.
Thank you for courageously sharing and continued healing to you in your journey. I could definitely relate to so much and will talk (zoom) with my nurse practitioner about weaning off Ativan and hopefully some day the other anti depressants including the newer type called Latuda for bipolar. I just dot think the medical field knows of their efficacy and possible long term emotional or physical harms. What was the moving meditation you recommended called?
Those are some pretty crazy side effects. I don’t have those I didn’t know people could have those and I’ve been on them for 22 years but if your anxiety is still bad, your hair will fall out. PRAY ASK GOD TO HELP YOU. God is the only reason I’m still alive.
That sounds like me when I quit pain meds. I have never liked benzodiazepine medication but I haven’t been able to sleep since getting off pain meds so I stupidly started taking them. Doc gave me temazepam for sleep and Xanax for anxiety etc. I haven’t been taking them long so I may just stop and quit while im ahead but they do help me get some sleep so idk if it’s best to just stay on them so I can sleep. Plus I get muscle spasms and stiffness etc and it helps With that. I have oily as skin and hair, facial hair growth and high testosterone and androgens etc. Look into pcos or adrenal or tumors down below etc. It can cause high androgen and that can cause pain and health issues cos women are not meant to have high male hormones and low estrogen etc.
I do not know your whole story, just scrolling through videos, but can plainly see how much better you are. All you say here is true to the core! Let’s just just say I have experience with addiction, this is how I know what you are saying is true, fact even! Feeling brighter is such a good feeling. You have had a hell of a time it sounds, but look at you now! There’s no stopping you! I wish you all the best of everything now and always.
Thank you so much for sharing your story it truly does inspire hope for everyone that is going through the same thing. Everyone should watch this video even if you've never had to use benzos. They're prevalent enough in our society today that everyone should learn more about them.
I told everyone around me. I tried sending them all the resources I could find for years. They don't care 😞 The only people that helped me were strangers on the internet.
You got this, Jess. Thank you for sharing your story. Never heard of movement meditation. I will search about this. I am another one in the path of getting off benzos... I have been cutting off this terrible med for 6 months, having many withdraw symptoms (tolerable, but still annoying). I hope to completely be off of benzos by the end of this year (2023). Had been on benzos for 11 years, prescribed for Vertigo (did help with that), but gave me many many many other mental disorders. Xo
Thank you for your courage and perseverance. You are empowering all of us ! I was 25 years klonopon cold turkeyed... 6 years off, still battling paws....
Hey Jess, Been on Benzo’s for 3 years I wanna congratulate you. Just getting off them now. It’s been life changing. Started taking a supplement and it’s helping me a ton.
I take NAC and Alpha Lipoic Acid for their antioxidant properties. I had surgery on my tongue on a Monday by Wednesday it was completely healed and the stiches fell out. It was amazing. Nac helps me breathe and ALA helps my neuropathy pain a lot. @@davefisch-y1t
Thanks for sharing this insightful video. ❤ I thought the benzos were still helping me when they had actually stopped working. I thought I would be much worse off if I were to stop taking them. So I continued my Ativan for several years. I eventually stopped taking them. I was going through the hell of withdrawal only to be prescribed them again to help. (I didn’t know it was withdrawal that I was going through). It’s been a long hard struggle. Diet (meat based keto) and mega dosing thiamine and high dose d3 with k2 has eased my symptoms. Especially my painful nerve endings. (I was also diagnosed with fibromyalgia but actually i feel my pain was/is from benzos). I feel you absolutely have to be your own advocate. Do your research. There’s a lot of information out there and you have to sort through what works for you. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. If not from family and friends, talk to this wonderful community.
Withdrawaling from alprazolan/xanax was by far the worst days of my life. The dr had me on it for over 3 years. I didnt have it for 5 days and i was never able to fall asleep those 5 days. Imagine being that tired and your mind is constantly going but you can't fall asleep. That was a living hell. I wanted my life to end on about the 2nd day. I'm so happy I'm off that garbage. That stuff should only be given to cancer patients. Or for a very short time. My body was so used to it by going that long without it was insane. I've heard that xanax Withdrawal is as bad or even worse then heroin. Once my dr weened me off of it she put my on buspar. I was on that for a year. Then i was able to get off of that. I think by going through those 5 nights with no sleep it told me that i can get through any anxiety. If i survived those 5 nights i should feel no anxiety anymore.
@@informedconsent2023 I take 500 mg magnesium glycinate. (I’m looking to add Malate (muscle health) and Threonate (cognition health)) I take 5000 IU D3 and 180 mcg K2 (sold as one together) twice a day. As for B1 -Thiamine I take Benfotiamine because it’s better absorbed. But I follow Elliot Overton’s Mega dose protocols. (OENutrition here on RUclips) I seriously haven’t felt this good in 30 years. Best wishes to you and congratulations on searching and being an advocate for yourself.
@@JohnDoe-ns9yo unfortunately there was no taper for me. The medical dr said I needed to see a psychiatrist for further refills. This was in 2020 with offices closed. There’s a good bit to this horror “story”. But to answer the question, no. I’ve been seriously looking into self help for years because no one or nothing was helping. Once I got my nutrition under control (4 years keto) I decided to look into supplements and deficiencies that can cause anxiety, depression, fibromyalgia nerve pain and other symptoms but those are the top three. I was able to find good information from professionals that included studies on RUclips.
Why doesnt anyone talk about the other horrific symptoms. Some of us are more severe, havimg psychotic breaks, dissociation severely upon waking up. Not sleeping, jolting awake, screaming, running out, getting naked from the agony. And more horrific things that have to do with perception, thougts, feelimgs and even mental images.
Thank you, thank you, Jess for sharing. I feel so alone. 6 months off benzos and struggling with tingling (toes, fingers, lips), pain in joints, depersonalisation, sensitivity to light etc. Thank you for reminding me that healing is not linear. Much love.
Informedconsent... how are you doing now? I am one month off xanax after tapering for 6 months. But feeling intense head pressure, foggy, dizzy head, unbearable upside down feeling like some bad toxic is filled, did you feel like this after coming off?
I’m doing a taper right now have been taking klonipin for almost 15 years. Was taking 2 .5 a day got down to 1 now I’m at 1/8 of a .5 and I’ve been experiencing every symptom she is speaking of is very difficult to get off this I’m getting close can’t wait 🙏
Although it is difficult to listen to this kind young woman due to her sing-song speaking voice inflection, she has a lot to say that I relate to regarding my now 35 month long benzo withdrawal, cold turkey after almost 29 years as directed. Her heart is clearly in the right place and I truly appreciate her story. She mentioned micro-dosing with psilocybin, something i keep hearing about lately. Anyone else hear anything about psilocybin?
I tried to taper off clonazepam one day yes one day no of taking it. I started not being able to sleep and after about 3 weeks I got a TIA (small stroke). I’m 67 years old so started taking them on a daily basis again and now I’m afraid of even trying to get off. 😔
You have to taper off of them to where you cut the pills in tiny pieces until you don't need them anymore. Start with 1 pill. Then go to 3/4, 1/2, 1/4 and so forth until you realize you don't need them. That's exactly what I did. Now I've been off for 6 years and never looked back.
I did this taper in 2001. I was finished in 2003, My panic returned with a vengeance in 2006. I have been on Klonipin since. 1mg I found a Dr to help me use the Ashton manual again. I had insane left side issues from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. I am now suffering all these symptoms on the right side, severe exhaustion that swings into severe insomnia. I might sleep two hours at a time a lot of muscle pain and threats of seizure. Thank you so much for sharing. I know that I will complete this it is just extremely difficult to do so.
Wow Dan😱How on earth did you survive the symptoms, especially in detox🥴Thanks for giving me hope with sharing your story as always. I especially like what you shared about the hibernation phase. I’m in the first months right now and amidst the pain I’m trying to find things to help me heal. Am having revelations about what does and doesn’t. Life lessons…..Blessings
Sorry you had to go threw that tho. Ive been goimg threw it hard for almost 2 years now. I feel bad for anyone that had to go threw this. Are you doimg ok good still?
What worked for me was: An animal based paleo diet without dairy or any allergy foods No nightshades No grains No dairy No gluten No drugs No caffeine Even eggs can set people off , no leafy greens or nuts unless it’s macadamia nuts Cut out all seed oils , no seeds or seed oils Taking magnesium Taking taurine Walking / strength training Read DARE Read hope and help for your nerves Read The body keeps the score Read Radical Acceptance You’re welcome ☺️
iv been sick for the last few years and unfortunately it was caused by only 2 weeks of lorazepam use. I had a lot of healing the first year but because of ignorance I took supplements and drank beer a few times which made me a lot worse and now I'm not seeing much healing. hopefully we can spread the word and make people think twice about even short term use.
How do you know you can’t get withdrawals from 2 weeks? What makes you so sure? You sound like the doctors who think they have benzos all figured out. Benzos are unpredictable. I dint sleep for 5 days when I stopped, Iv had head tightness, headache, anxiety, akathisia, stomach cramps, stomach tremors, muscle tremors/tightness, breathing problems, palpitation/pvcs, brain fog, sleep starts, high gravity/heaviness sensation, balance/dizziness, joint pain/cracking. I’m very sick all day every day, don’t function at all. I’m a lot worse than I was back in 2018 when it started, but like I said, I made it worse. I was a normal guy, but I tired low carb and landed myself in the hospital with low electrolytes and my first panic attack and they gave me my one and only prescription. What a waste of my life, garbage.
I've been on 2 mg/day for at least 8 years. I weaned to only 1/2 mg but my doctor asked me why? I immediately broke down and went back to Xanax at 2 mg/day. My weaning i dropped 1/2 mg/day weekly and it didn't bother me. But I've been watching programs that quitting is the first step and problems after is starting to scare me. May my doctor understand the problem and help me.
I have the opportunity to do the ashton method. Been on 2 mg ativan for a year ambient 12 years prior to that. I take my dose at n8ght for sleep so im curious as to how the crossover to valium works? I work a full time job and dont see how i can split these doses up during the day for the i tial crossover to the valium. Any thoughts are appreciated 🙏
I crossed over from Xanax 3 mg for 12-15 yrs Valium 30 mg just all at once . The transition was hard but only for like 2 weeks then by 30 days ( as it takes Valium that long ) I felt zero anxiety HOWEVER a year now on Valium I’m more emotional lazy and depressed but it’s unknown if it’s just the Valium causing it . I’m eventually going to use the Ashton
What a fantastic video, Jess! Our stories are very similar. I’m 4 years in and about 60% heald, but for the first 2-2.5 years I suffered immensely on an inhumane level. When you mentioned food sensitivities, did you have histamine issues?
Nobody should have to go through this ever...over a little blue pill called xanax. Ive been in withdrawals for 30 days now. Ill compare this to food poisoning, having the flu, and the feeling of extreme grief and depression that never stops. I just want this to be over with
I was cold turkeyed off of cymbalta. Not my choice. My world came crashing down. It’s the worst thing in the world. Running to ending my life was the only way to escape Akathisia. I stopped caring about my kids. At this point it was almost over. Laying on the ground with My husband in the floor screaming and having panic attacks. I was forced to lithium. It’s been 3 years. I’m still not ok. I don’t think I can do this without a dreadful end. . I can’t do this. It’s like I have been through this but can’t do it again. I have tried all sorts of meditations. Seven years. I can’t do this. Kudos to 😊.
I have anxiety and panic and was doing ok for decades and after caring for mom and dad ie they both died ..mim just 5 months ago….I ended up getting ptsd and severe anxiety and panic and depression ….and non functional and suicidal being all alone …so I’m trying Klonopin and pristiq and getting side effects and trying to wait to see if they work…I hate meds and feel like I dint have a choice since I’m close to being hospitalized …and I run marathins meditate eat well etcetcetc
I was on Xanax for 13 years and now I am so sick, have been off of it for 6 months and my body doesn’t know what to do. My neurological system and immune system and body pain and just being plain sick…😢
Ive been on xanax for 12 years. I started off on .5 milligram a day and got up to 3 millgrams a day. 10 months ago i started winning myself off the meds. Im at 1.5 milligrams a day now and still working to get off theys meds. I wish i never started on them.
Hope you are doing well. These medicines are very addictive and dangerous. Never harm yourself or others. Dont stop or increase dosage abruptly. Bcos they dont work and make patients feel worse like hell, many stop taking cold turkey or abruptly. Patients feel fine at first bcos the medicines are still in the blood. As the meds are excreted out of the body, patients will experience more and more withdrawal symptoms until so horrible that they may commit suicides. Many did and you can read them in the newspaper so often. Conversely, patients may increase dosage themselves, thinking that more meds will work. They dont and patients can go into psychosis or maniac, kill others and then kill themselves. You read these news so often in the newspapers in USA. Or they may end up in ER. Suicides are so preventable if docs/pdocs tell their patients on the dangers of the meds and what they should and should not do. Pdocs like to switch patients on different meds but they are all the same. They dont work but make life hell. When you are told to switch meds abruptly, you may experience horrible withdrawal symptoms. Most pdocs dont know what they are doing bcos they have never taken these meds. Are you tapering according to Ashton Manual? To be successful with minimum withdrawal symptoms, you must cross over from xanax to equivalent valium dose in 3 or more weeks, then taper off the valium in 24 or more weeks at the rate of 10% for 1st 50%, then reduce to 5% reduction per week until zero .g 10 mg of valium. 1st 50% reduction, reduce 1 mg per week for 5 weeks until 5 mg. Then slow down to reduce 5% or 0.25mg per week for 19 weeks until zero. Do a slow and proper taper to minimize withdrawal symptoms and to allow the brain to heal so you dont have protracted withdrawal symptoms . If you are also on AD, then taper off the AD straight off (no need to cross over to another AD) at the same time as the benzo will give you a buffer. I got addicted to benzo in 2 to 3 days. I came off all benzo and AD in 2006 after 1 year on them with minimum withdrawal symptoms after 2nd attempt using Ashton Manual. If you need someone to look over your shoulder, who understand you or you want to share your journey, join FB group, New BenzoIsland, using a proper withdrawal plan, food as medicine, no meds, no synthetics.
During lockdowns - I got off. 90 days. Couldn’t leave the house and when I did I would freak out. Went right back on. I was also injured at the time, and didn’t know it. 3 years later - I have got worse (bulging disk, neck problems, etc) so I’m still on them ONLY this time - if I decide to taper off - I have to deal with back, spine, neck, and feet problems
I’ve been doing a taper for 3 years, this is my 4th time doing a benzo taper, the first and only successful time was when i was tapered off of Klonapin at the same time a suboxone. Then I took a Klonipe and went into a full blown 6 year crack, booze and Klonipne bender, over the last 3 years I have failed twice because of my other drug use, now I’m sober and have weened down to 1 mg of diazepam, I feel like I’ve been in full blown withdrawals for months and I’m just over this drug now, the first time I feel like my withdrawals lasted 2 months and then i was just better, I’m wondering if anybody has any success stories or tips on what or how it’s feels when the taper is over
You have to stop drinking entirely. That is like a relapse and will start the process all over again. Look into amanitas. Amanita dreamer talks about this, specifically to get off benzos.
Im day 7 cold Turkey. I don’t even know how I am here. Suicidal watch and I just want my life to end. Can you comment? On more of your withdrawal symptoms? I need help 😢
Anyone out there that's reading this and has recoverd but now craving benzos again, use molly or ketamine instead of you absolutely feel like you need to use...these two compounds will have you looking at your addiction through a different perspective. Also mushrooms can to this as well along with most pchys
I take a lot of benzos from many many years and I function better than many people around me. I am scared to quit, I am scared to become a vegetable. I hope not.
When you mentioned, "breaking the habit" sounds like you may have been referring to Dr Joe Dispenza's meditations? If so, they have been helping me tremendously w/ tolerating the withdrawal process.
2 years straight, are you serious! I know it lasts a long time, and I've been through it more than once, from multiple different things but two years at it's worst that it could get is a long time and hard to believe. Hard to believe that it was at its worst for 2 years at least.
@@ikedorsey I was crazy sick for 1 year off of suboxone (methadone previously), took several years to recover. The doctors will tell you it only lasts 2 weeks. They don't know anything, it's pathetic.
Itself a journey. These drugs are a live saver at some point, and they became a menace when users which them out. Either, be resolute and make it happen with a plan.
Not worth it, it's just asking for trouble. You'll end up getting rebound anxiety and then you'll justify twice a week, three times, etc. Don't even mess with it. Whatever panic or anxiety you feel, just be glad it's not 100x that because of these things. It can be MUCH worse.
@@Fanfan30303 I don't think they should be available to anybody. There are better options, i mean try ketamine, I got super addicted to it at one point mine wasn't prescribed. But it really does work, and other than some memory issues im no worse for the wear. I was HEAVILY abusing. If you get it in tablets or something from the doctor I don't think they give you an amount that you could really abuse anyway. Give that a try.
I skipped the symptoms part, because I don’t want that to get in my head. I don’t mind telling people mine though. A lot of doctors think I have: en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somatic_symptom_disorder 😒. And I live in Florida. Awful healthcare. I’m gonna have to move back to the South or somewhere not as stimulating - to get the help I need.
I’m in Fl too and literally a rehab tapered me in one week and landed in the psych unit . There’s a rehab in cali called oro recovery they use the Ashton manual look it up
@@kendrakinard7580 my psychiatrist won’t prescribe me Valium for the taper off Xanax. I asked her why - she said - I just don’t. But she’ll prescribe me Klonopin. 😒
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Sorry... my 3rd comment:
When you were talking about diet I was surprised when you added meat because many videos people emphasis plant based or vegan which is a difficult transition for me. Or uncomfortable. Just trying to figure this out.
They should stop calling it withdrawal and call it injury.
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The extent of damage done to your body/being by these drugs/our medical system, met by your ability over time to endure, perservere, accept, overcome and come out the other side is truly mind-blowing. I'm so sorry for the torment you suffered and so appreciative of your testament to survival with good character and spirit intact. Thank you for your living proof. I hope things continue to improve for you.
7 years tomorrow, with no clear end in sight. Thank you for sharing, you give me hope..
It will happen. Don't lose hope 🙏
Stay focused stay strong 🙌🏼👊🏻🙏🏻
I wonder if it’s going to happen for me, too.
6 years for me in November. Bloody nightmare.
What r ur symptoms @@sandywhat2429
Congratulations! ❤
You did in good time.
Was prescribed clonazepam 2mg for 17 years for nausea and stomach pain, now off for 10 months and feeling much better.
How long did it take to feel better and did the pain come back and nausea aswell when you quit?
@FinHammer It took about 2 months. When I started to feel better I quit an SNRI, Cymbalta, as well.
I've lived with "waves and windows" since then, some days much better and some worse. Like Jess in the video says, 3 steps forward, 2 backward etc.
I've been sensitive to food since then.
So I started to investigate what could cause my nausea and stomach issues to begin
with, and found histamine intolerance and MCAS (mast cell activation syndrome) really interesting since a H1 histamine antagonist always has had a good effect on me.
I have recently started to treat MCAS with Dao (an enzyme that breaks down histamine after digestion) supplements, vitamine C @FinHammer It took about 2 months. When I started to feel better I quit an SNRI, Cymbalta, as well.
I've lived with "waves and windows" since then, some days much better and some worse. Like Jess in the video says, 3 steps forward, 2 backward etc.
I've been sensitive to food since then.
So I started to investigate what could cause my nausea and stomach issues to begin
with, and found histamine intolerance and MCAS (mast cell activation syndrome) really interesting since a H1 histamine antagonist always has had a good effect on me.
I recently started to treat MCAS with Dao (an enzyme that breaks down histamine) after digestion (interesting histamine becomes 4-imidazoline acid which is a GABA agonist) , qeurcetin (found naturally in apples etc.) and vitamin C to stabilize overactive mast cells, and it works 👍.
U stopped cold turkey?
@@magnusthoren3852Hi! Could you please tell me what Dao is. Is it short for something?
Thanks. 😊
I found Jesus when I was in the thick of it. I know it sounds generic but finding a connection with the Creator was the biggest help.
I wouldn't have survived if not for Jesus.
Amen 🙌
Congratulations! Whatever works.
A huge part of AA is turning your problems over to the hand of something other than yourself. Belief unshackles oneself from being responsible for everything. Blessed is the journey.
How does God allow this to happen?
You have helped me so much. I am 2 months off my year long taper. I needed to hear everything you had to say, very validating. Your voice is much needed. Happy you are doing so well.❤Lots of love to you!
How are you now?
@@jrman413 Thanks for asking. In many ways I am doing better. I still feel very injured though. Some days my symptoms are better than others. It takes time to heal from this beast.
@@judyrandall9756 How long did you take the poison?
@@judyrandall9756how is ur low energy symptoms please answer
Hope u are doing more better🙏
Thank you, Jess. Your testimony is encouraging. You are brave and I am proud of you.
I am in the midst of withdrawing now. It has recently gotten a little easier. Holding onto hope. Doing the positive things I know to do as I listen, learn, grow.
I am 60 years old.
I've been on K for 15years and I am probably jumping off next month. This journey has been incredibly hard and I thank you for bringing us knowledge and wisdom. We will need that and I wish everyone good luck on their journeys. We will heal!
Do it. Before your bladder quits. !!
What is k?
@@allfacts19 Klonopin (Clonazepam).
Have you read the Ashton Manual?
@Nomoreboosters Yes I have, at least most of it. Everyone who battles with these pills should. Btw. I jumped off 3days ago and already feel it. Wish me luck 😬
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm 29 months off cold turkey. Your experience definitely resonates with the healing journey that I am on. Best wishes to you and everyone that is going through this same process.
👏👏 29 months off... Cold Turkey ! ? Well done, this is an amazing achievement, you're a star ! As is Jess who is sharing her affliction right HERE & now!
I myself too hope to share a positive "kick up the backside to the DEMON that is ALL things Benzo related!"
Sadly not yet for me..
One day 🙏🙏
How are you doing really? I'm 35 months off cold turkey klonopin withdrawal, always taken as directed, for almost 29 years. Last few years before stopping, I had major anxiety, insomnia again, major migraines, lack of focus...lost my neurosurgery hospital job, then my home!
All doctors I saw then never suspected the benzo at all.
In 2020 I happened to hear a video from Jordan Peterson describing his benzo withdrawal nightmare, which I'd never heard was even a possibility before, had been in medical profession since 1973. Docs only told me at the beginning to "not take it more often than directed" which I never did.
I called PCP asking to stop, all she said was "okay, stop" and I've never taken another pill since then 35 months ago.
I hid in my apartment away from my adult children. My PCP wouldn't respond to my portal messages for help (couldn't speak well on phone and talking to people freaked me out then). Saw her 6 months later when I was able to drive again, she rolled her eyes and changed the subject when I tried to tell her about it. I'm a senior and have never been a drinker, smoker, drug taker except for what she gave me, but she didn't believe my symptoms when I told her.
During the worst of it, I desperately wanted to end it by throwing myself in front of a truck on busy street outside my apt, but talked myself out of that. Many horrible symptoms of heart pounding panic, crying, hyperventilating, writhing on floor, migraines, jaw clenching, scratching til I bled, cramping, vomiting, couldn't be still, zapping electrical pain/burning, couldn't think, racing thoughts, felt a burning agitation under my skin, ears ringing, couldn't swallow well...of course I wasn't driving. Amazon delivered food when I could finally order it.
I'm improved over then, but far from normal. Still wake 3-4 times a night with burning pain in back, arms, feet, groin, and get 2-4 migraines a week. I sleep with ice bags, which numbs it a bit.
Are you having any of this?
I'm now diagnosed with "small fiber peripheral polyneuropathy"...sure didn't have this before. Still have severe jaw clenching when trying to sleep, have cracked all molars even with night guard. Constantly paying off newest crown.
@@duka1.660
The day will come for you, just as it will for me…
I have only recently discovered the dangers of psych meds and replacement opioids (which are also very addictive!)
The info came up on RUclips a couple of days ago, and I was horrified! But I must do what I have to do when I find a Dr or someone who can assist me in withdrawing from all 3 medications. I’ve actually already been in withdrawal for probably a year already, but without knowing that what I’ve been experiencing is withdrawal symptom. The Drs all say there is nothing wrong with me… I guess they say that to all of us who are having these bizzare ‘illnesses’.
I wish you the best for when you decide to begin the journey, and pray for you that it will be better at the end, than before you even started taking medications 🙏
How are you doing these days?
I already commented. I just want to say that I hope you know that God loves you and that you are beautiful and precious. Peace be with you, in Christ Jesus. ❤
god is always there in your life you just need to talk to him and ask his help he always listens im not religious but this worked for me truly
I never had any of these symptoms until the Xanax stopped working after 25 years. The bad symptoms only began when I started tapering. It’s been a nightmare. Absolutely amazing you continued to work after going cold turkey. A lot can continue to work if doing a proper taper.
Same thing for me. Was perfectly fine until went into tolerance withdrawal after 24 years on xanax. Took me two years to heal. Scary thing is it sets your body up for So many sensitivities. Year ago had to take a lot of antibiotics and steroids to clear an ear infection and still having eaves and windows from this set back. At this point just praying I will one day not be so sensitive going forward in my life.
@@kathydowns7559 What type of antibiotic did you take?
@@Sears111 I took a fluoroquinolone, I think it was Cipro. This is supposedly one of the most dangerous classes of antibiotics. I had taken it years prior to my withdrawal and did fine on it but like I said earlier, your body doesn’t react to things the same after withdrawal as it did before. Be very vigilant in taking any benzo for any surgical procedure. Some people say it didn’t bother them but I would be very cautious having had the effect I had taking an antibiotic or any strong medicine for that matter.😬
Hey God Bless you❤
@@kathydowns7559Tolerance w/d for me after 19 years. Out of nowhere. The worst kind of suprise. Will be 5 years free on 12/23. ❤️🩹
Beautiful story, Jess. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm so sorry for the years of torture you endured. I'm helping my mother through this dark tunnel and stories are wisdom. So glad you feel greatly recovered.
Hey girl, you are amazing! I don’t usually make comments but after the second time I watched this video I decided I should. This is so very helpful to me for I am in the thick of it. This has been and still is a living hell! I’ve been trying to get my work going again and I get slammed by a bad case of Covid. Of course that flares up everything else! What you say about how the healing is not on a certain linear time schedule is so true. Another big one for me is how so many people think I’m exaggerating or they just flat out don’t believe me. I’m so glad you put this video out. Yours and other videos have been very helpful to me! Thank you so much and God bless you!
I applaud you on your healing journey along with good advice. Stay well!
I'm so happy for you that you've made it through this harrowing experience and that you give hope to others dealing with this ordeal.❤
After my Dr convinced me to take Xanax extended release I started sleeping a lot and kept having to increase the dose because my anxiety kept getting worse. Then my insurance wud only pay for the generic. My Dr really started increasing the dose because my anxiety skyrocketed. That's when I read that prolonged benzo use can lead to dementia. I was so angry with my Dr I switched Dr's and weaned off. Since then I lost most of my memories, especially long term memories. Most of my hair fell out and isn't growing back. The worst is that my body is literally drying out. I don't sweat my skin is SO oily. My gums have receded so much I'm in excruciating pain. I don't know how this stuff can still be on the market or why nobody has sued the makers yet.
Thank you for courageously sharing and continued healing to you in your journey. I could definitely relate to so much and will talk (zoom) with my nurse practitioner about weaning off Ativan and hopefully some day the other anti depressants including the newer type called Latuda for bipolar. I just dot think the medical field knows of their efficacy and possible long term emotional or physical harms.
What was the moving meditation you recommended called?
Corporate capture
Those are some pretty crazy side effects. I don’t have those I didn’t know people could have those and I’ve been on them for 22 years but if your anxiety is still bad, your hair will fall out. PRAY ASK GOD TO HELP YOU. God is the only reason I’m still alive.
That sounds like me when I quit pain meds. I have never liked benzodiazepine medication but I haven’t been able to sleep since getting off pain meds so I stupidly started taking them. Doc gave me temazepam for sleep and Xanax for anxiety etc. I haven’t been taking them long so I may just stop and quit while im ahead but they do help me get some sleep so idk if it’s best to just stay on them so I can sleep. Plus I get muscle spasms and stiffness etc and it helps With that. I have oily as skin and hair, facial hair growth and high testosterone and androgens etc. Look into pcos or adrenal or tumors down below etc. It can cause high androgen and that can cause pain and health issues cos women are not meant to have high male hormones and low estrogen etc.
@@rainej7013
Same here!!
Absolutely tell your symptoms. It helps those who are deceived by their own symptoms trying to overlook the drug damage.
I do not know your whole story, just scrolling through videos, but can plainly see how much better you are. All you say here is true to the core! Let’s just just say I have experience with addiction, this is how I know what you are saying is true, fact even! Feeling brighter is such a good feeling. You have had a hell of a time it sounds, but look at you now! There’s no stopping you! I wish you all the best of everything now and always.
Thank you. Such an authentic and helpful share. Blessings to you!
Thank you for sharing . I find it very helpful .
Thank you so much for sharing your story it truly does inspire hope for everyone that is going through the same thing. Everyone should watch this video even if you've never had to use benzos. They're prevalent enough in our society today that everyone should learn more about them.
I told everyone around me. I tried sending them all the resources I could find for years. They don't care 😞 The only people that helped me were strangers on the internet.
You got this, Jess. Thank you for sharing your story. Never heard of movement meditation. I will search about this. I am another one in the path of getting off benzos... I have been cutting off this terrible med for 6 months, having many withdraw symptoms (tolerable, but still annoying). I hope to completely be off of benzos by the end of this year (2023). Had been on benzos for 11 years, prescribed for Vertigo (did help with that), but gave me many many many other mental disorders. Xo
Thank you for your courage and perseverance. You are empowering all of us ! I was 25 years klonopon cold turkeyed... 6 years off, still battling paws....
Jess, this was a beautiful testimonial. Thank you for this deeply thoughtful sharing of your experience healing. God bless!
She is gorgeous
Thanks for your story Jess going through this right now but with antidepressants
Stay strong. You are amazing. Keep self-nurturing, so important, and very easy to forget sometimes. Well done. Keep sharing.
So true
Hey Jess,
Been on Benzo’s for 3 years I wanna congratulate you. Just getting off them now. It’s been life changing. Started taking a supplement and it’s helping me a ton.
What supplement?
@@Chevrotainify NAC
@@Chevrotainify reverses all the side effects of the benzodiazepines started taking it. It’s helped tremendously Benzos were absolutely terrible.
I take NAC and Alpha Lipoic Acid for their antioxidant properties. I had surgery on my tongue on a Monday by Wednesday it was completely healed and the stiches fell out. It was amazing. Nac helps me breathe and ALA helps my neuropathy pain a lot. @@davefisch-y1t
@artspark7697 Hi what is NAC?
Incredible testimony thank you for sharring.
Thanks for sharing this insightful video. ❤
I thought the benzos were still helping me when they had actually stopped working. I thought I would be much worse off if I were to stop taking them. So I continued my Ativan for several years. I eventually stopped taking them. I was going through the hell of withdrawal only to be prescribed them again to help. (I didn’t know it was withdrawal that I was going through). It’s been a long hard struggle. Diet (meat based keto) and mega dosing thiamine and high dose d3 with k2 has eased my symptoms. Especially my painful nerve endings. (I was also diagnosed with fibromyalgia but actually i feel my pain was/is from benzos). I feel you absolutely have to be your own advocate. Do your research. There’s a lot of information out there and you have to sort through what works for you. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. If not from family and friends, talk to this wonderful community.
Withdrawaling from alprazolan/xanax was by far the worst days of my life. The dr had me on it for over 3 years. I didnt have it for 5 days and i was never able to fall asleep those 5 days. Imagine being that tired and your mind is constantly going but you can't fall asleep. That was a living hell. I wanted my life to end on about the 2nd day. I'm so happy I'm off that garbage. That stuff should only be given to cancer patients. Or for a very short time. My body was so used to it by going that long without it was insane. I've heard that xanax Withdrawal is as bad or even worse then heroin. Once my dr weened me off of it she put my on buspar. I was on that for a year. Then i was able to get off of that. I think by going through those 5 nights with no sleep it told me that i can get through any anxiety. If i survived those 5 nights i should feel no anxiety anymore.
Magnesium has helped the muscle spasms but painful nerve endings is a big issue. What dose Thiamine, D3 and K2 are you taking?
@@informedconsent2023 I take 500 mg magnesium glycinate.
(I’m looking to add Malate (muscle health) and Threonate (cognition health))
I take 5000 IU D3 and 180 mcg K2 (sold as one together) twice a day.
As for B1 -Thiamine I take Benfotiamine because it’s better absorbed. But I follow Elliot Overton’s Mega dose protocols. (OENutrition here on RUclips)
I seriously haven’t felt this good in 30 years. Best wishes to you and congratulations on searching and being an advocate for yourself.
@ckimmey2578 did you take this during your taper?
@@JohnDoe-ns9yo unfortunately there was no taper for me. The medical dr said I needed to see a psychiatrist for further refills. This was in 2020 with offices closed. There’s a good bit to this horror “story”. But to answer the question, no.
I’ve been seriously looking into self help for years because no one or nothing was helping. Once I got my nutrition under control (4 years keto) I decided to look into supplements and deficiencies that can cause anxiety, depression, fibromyalgia nerve pain and other symptoms but those are the top three.
I was able to find good information from professionals that included studies on RUclips.
So happy for you. Sending love ❤
Thank you for sharing your story. 🙏
Why doesnt anyone talk about the other horrific symptoms. Some of us are more severe, havimg psychotic breaks, dissociation severely upon waking up. Not sleeping, jolting awake, screaming, running out, getting naked from the agony. And more horrific things that have to do with perception, thougts, feelimgs and even mental images.
Yep
All of this!!!!!
yes i have that, are u improving?
@@laurenwallace861 are u improving?
@@germainedenon311 yes I am. I’m Ct off 9 months. Improving everyday.
Great vid! It’s crazy I got the same withdrawal symptoms from alcohol. Almost to a tee
Thank you for the inspiration.
Pure courage and guts
It's insane Dr s keep pushing this evil drug.
Thank you, thank you, Jess for sharing. I feel so alone. 6 months off benzos and struggling with tingling (toes, fingers, lips), pain in joints, depersonalisation, sensitivity to light etc. Thank you for reminding me that healing is not linear. Much love.
Informedconsent... how are you doing now? I am one month off xanax after tapering for 6 months. But feeling intense head pressure, foggy, dizzy head, unbearable upside down feeling like some bad toxic is filled, did you feel like this after coming off?
You will get through this 🙏
Thank you so very much. Your story will help thousands, and for today, its helping me!
I’m doing a taper right now have been taking klonipin for almost 15 years. Was taking 2 .5 a day got down to 1 now I’m at 1/8 of a .5 and I’ve been experiencing every symptom she is speaking of is very difficult to get off this I’m getting close can’t wait 🙏
You got this 💪
Although it is difficult to listen to this kind young woman due to her sing-song speaking voice inflection, she has a lot to say that I relate to regarding my now 35 month long benzo withdrawal, cold turkey after almost 29 years as directed. Her heart is clearly in the right place and I truly appreciate her story.
She mentioned micro-dosing with psilocybin, something i keep hearing about lately.
Anyone else hear anything about psilocybin?
Jeeez and where would one even get a safe dose if they wanted? I don't think doctors prescribe it(?)
Sing song speaking voice? Whats that even mean?
Congratulations, your doing an amazing job. I'm months in and I want to say that I'm healing fast but sometimes I'm getting a lot of brain fog ect..
I tried to taper off clonazepam one day yes one day no of taking it. I started not being able to sleep and after about 3 weeks I got a TIA (small stroke). I’m 67 years old so started taking them on a daily basis again and now I’m afraid of even trying to get off. 😔
You have to taper off of them to where you cut the pills in tiny pieces until you don't need them anymore. Start with 1 pill. Then go to 3/4, 1/2, 1/4 and so forth until you realize you don't need them. That's exactly what I did. Now I've been off for 6 years and never looked back.
I did this taper in 2001. I was finished in 2003, My panic returned with a vengeance in 2006. I have been on Klonipin since. 1mg I found a Dr to help me use the Ashton manual again.
I had insane left side issues from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. I am now suffering all these symptoms on the right side, severe exhaustion that swings into severe insomnia. I might sleep two hours at a time a lot of muscle pain and threats of seizure. Thank you so much for sharing. I know that I will complete this it is just extremely difficult to do so.
You will get through this 🙏
@Azzizz8888 how r u? Did ur left sided issues go away? If so how?
Wow Dan😱How on earth did you survive the symptoms, especially in detox🥴Thanks for giving me hope with sharing your story as always. I especially like what you shared about the hibernation phase. I’m in the first months right now and amidst the pain I’m trying to find things to help me heal. Am having revelations about what does and doesn’t. Life lessons…..Blessings
Lol dude she's not dan ..... Lol wrong comment in wrong stomach watching too much benzo videos
Lol. HOw you doing now brother?
Sorry you had to go threw that tho. Ive been goimg threw it hard for almost 2 years now. I feel bad for anyone that had to go threw this. Are you doimg ok good still?
The way you talk .. i need to speed up so much .. thanks for the info
What worked for me was:
An animal based paleo diet without dairy or any allergy foods
No nightshades
No grains
No dairy
No gluten
No drugs
No caffeine
Even eggs can set people off , no leafy greens or nuts unless it’s macadamia nuts
Cut out all seed oils , no seeds or seed oils
Taking magnesium
Taking taurine
Walking / strength training
Read DARE
Read hope and help for your nerves
Read The body keeps the score
Read Radical Acceptance
You’re welcome ☺️
iv been sick for the last few years and unfortunately it was caused by only 2 weeks of lorazepam use. I had a lot of healing the first year but because of ignorance I took supplements and drank beer a few times which made me a lot worse and now I'm not seeing much healing. hopefully we can spread the word and make people think twice about even short term use.
What symptoms do you have left?
And are you on any other meds?
Two weeks? Highly, highly unusual if not unheard of.
You won’t get withdrawals from two weeks use.
How do you know you can’t get withdrawals from 2 weeks? What makes you so sure? You sound like the doctors who think they have benzos all figured out. Benzos are unpredictable. I dint sleep for 5 days when I stopped, Iv had head tightness, headache, anxiety, akathisia, stomach cramps, stomach tremors, muscle tremors/tightness, breathing problems, palpitation/pvcs, brain fog, sleep starts, high gravity/heaviness sensation, balance/dizziness, joint pain/cracking. I’m very sick all day every day, don’t function at all. I’m a lot worse than I was back in 2018 when it started, but like I said, I made it worse.
I was a normal guy, but I tired low carb and landed myself in the hospital with low electrolytes and my first panic attack and they gave me my one and only prescription. What a waste of my life, garbage.
It's criminal you had to endure years in that state. So glad you've healed now, thanks for sharing this success story.
Thank You so much for sharing Beautiful!!
I've been on 2 mg/day for at least 8 years. I weaned to only 1/2 mg but my doctor asked me why? I immediately broke down and went back to Xanax at 2 mg/day. My weaning i dropped 1/2 mg/day weekly and it didn't bother me. But I've been watching programs that quitting is the first step and problems after is starting to scare me. May my doctor understand the problem and help me.
Bless your heart, health and life beautiful lady.
Thanks
Benzodiazepines= The one who takes all.
💔
“Gift” that keeps on taking. Agreed. ❤️🩹
@@donna6165 🤝
❤❤❤ ty
I have the opportunity to do the ashton method. Been on 2 mg ativan for a year ambient 12 years prior to that. I take my dose at n8ght for sleep so im curious as to how the crossover to valium works? I work a full time job and dont see how i can split these doses up during the day for the i tial crossover to the valium. Any thoughts are appreciated 🙏
I crossed over from Xanax 3 mg for 12-15 yrs Valium 30 mg just all at once . The transition was hard but only for like 2 weeks then by 30 days ( as it takes Valium that long ) I felt zero anxiety HOWEVER a year now on Valium I’m more emotional lazy and depressed but it’s unknown if it’s just the Valium causing it . I’m eventually going to use the Ashton
Hope.
What a fantastic video, Jess! Our stories are very similar. I’m 4 years in and about 60% heald, but for the first 2-2.5 years I suffered immensely on an inhumane level. When you mentioned food sensitivities, did you have histamine issues?
Hi i start next week building down ativan 7 mg a day. Also in morfine for pain. But first the lorazepam.
Nobody should have to go through this ever...over a little blue pill called xanax.
Ive been in withdrawals for 30 days now. Ill compare this to food poisoning, having the flu, and the feeling of extreme grief and depression that never stops. I just want this to be over with
It will pass. You will get through this 🙏
Your story is important for anyone going through it. Thank you for sharing.
I was cold turkeyed off of cymbalta. Not my choice. My world came crashing down. It’s the worst thing in the world. Running to ending my life was the only way to escape Akathisia. I stopped caring about my kids. At this point it was almost over. Laying on the ground with
My husband in the floor screaming and having panic attacks. I was forced to lithium. It’s been 3 years. I’m still not ok. I don’t think I can do this without a dreadful end. . I can’t do this. It’s like I have been through this but can’t do it again. I have tried all sorts of meditations. Seven years. I can’t do this. Kudos to 😊.
Ty ❤
I have anxiety and panic and was doing ok for decades and after caring for mom and dad ie they both died ..mim just 5 months ago….I ended up getting ptsd and severe anxiety and panic and depression ….and non functional and suicidal being all alone …so I’m trying Klonopin and pristiq and getting side effects and trying to wait to see if they work…I hate meds and feel like I dint have a choice since I’m close to being hospitalized …and I run marathins meditate eat well etcetcetc
How are u doing?
13:02 I am only upto this point in your battle... But i applaud you Jess 👏🙏
I was on Xanax for 13 years and now I am so sick, have been off of it for 6 months and my body doesn’t know what to do. My neurological system and immune system and body pain and just being plain sick…😢
1 year. You doing a little better now?
Ive been on xanax for 12 years. I started off on .5 milligram a day and got up to 3 millgrams a day. 10 months ago i started winning myself off the meds. Im at 1.5 milligrams a day now and still working to get off theys meds. I wish i never started on them.
Hope you are doing well. These medicines are very addictive and dangerous. Never harm yourself or others. Dont stop or increase dosage abruptly. Bcos they dont work and make patients feel worse like hell, many stop taking cold turkey or abruptly. Patients feel fine at first bcos the medicines are still in the blood. As the meds are excreted out of the body, patients will experience more and more withdrawal symptoms until so horrible that they may commit suicides. Many did and you can read them in the newspaper so often. Conversely, patients may increase dosage themselves, thinking that more meds will work. They dont and patients can go into psychosis or maniac, kill others and then kill themselves. You read these news so often in the newspapers in USA. Or they may end up in ER. Suicides are so preventable if docs/pdocs tell their patients on the dangers of the meds and what they should and should not do. Pdocs like to switch patients on different meds but they are all the same. They dont work but make life hell. When you are told to switch meds abruptly, you may experience horrible withdrawal symptoms. Most pdocs dont know what they are doing bcos they have never taken these meds. Are you tapering according to Ashton Manual? To be successful with minimum withdrawal symptoms, you must cross over from xanax to equivalent valium dose in 3 or more weeks, then taper off the valium in 24 or more weeks at the rate of 10% for 1st 50%, then reduce to 5% reduction per week until zero .g 10 mg of valium. 1st 50% reduction, reduce 1 mg per week for 5 weeks until 5 mg. Then slow down to reduce 5% or 0.25mg per week for 19 weeks until zero. Do a slow and proper taper to minimize withdrawal symptoms and to allow the brain to heal so you dont have protracted withdrawal symptoms . If you are also on AD, then taper off the AD straight off (no need to cross over to another AD) at the same time as the benzo will give you a buffer. I got addicted to benzo in 2 to 3 days. I came off all benzo and AD in 2006 after 1 year on them with minimum withdrawal symptoms after 2nd attempt using Ashton Manual. If you need someone to look over your shoulder, who understand you or you want to share your journey, join FB group, New BenzoIsland, using a proper withdrawal plan, food as medicine, no meds, no synthetics.
Are you going to become a coach?
Thank you for bringing up using plant medicine to heal. It has helped me too and I don’t see many people talking about it.
Keep these videos going. We already can't get pain meds. Benzos are next due to ppl not taking responsibility for their own medications.
I got off it in 2020. Absolute hell. When they first give it to you think it's an absolute wonder drug. Kind of like all roads to hell I guess.
During lockdowns - I got off. 90 days. Couldn’t leave the house and when I did I would freak out. Went right back on. I was also injured at the time, and didn’t know it. 3 years later - I have got worse (bulging disk, neck problems, etc) so I’m still on them ONLY this time - if I decide to taper off - I have to deal with back, spine, neck, and feet problems
For those 90 days - I felt I was floating in a boat or in a wave pool.
@@nostalgiaman6816 How did the bulging disk and neck problems originate? How about the spine and feet problems?
@@marketrader1972Nerve damage it’s doing the same for me
@@nostalgiaman6816 How would withdrawal cause a bulging disc?
Can I ask what your dose was when you quit Xanax .
Where is your 5 year update?
I’ve been doing a taper for 3 years, this is my 4th time doing a benzo taper, the first and only successful time was when i was tapered off of Klonapin at the same time a suboxone. Then I took a Klonipe and went into a full blown 6 year crack, booze and Klonipne bender, over the last 3 years I have failed twice because of my other drug use, now I’m sober and have weened down to 1 mg of diazepam, I feel like I’ve been in full blown withdrawals for months and I’m just over this drug now, the first time I feel like my withdrawals lasted 2 months and then i was just better, I’m wondering if anybody has any success stories or tips on what or how it’s feels when the taper is over
You have to stop drinking entirely. That is like a relapse and will start the process all over again. Look into amanitas. Amanita dreamer talks about this, specifically to get off benzos.
Can topical steroids aggravate the withdrawal symptoms of benzos? Will they fade away after we stop applying them ?
Im day 7 cold Turkey. I don’t even know how I am here. Suicidal watch and I just want my life to end. Can you comment? On more of your withdrawal symptoms? I need help 😢
How are you feeling now?
@@Leptyzz I have waves a windows last month I had two good weeks. This week not so much.
@@laurenwallace861 Stay strong you're not alone 💪
Anyone out there that's reading this and has recoverd but now craving benzos again, use molly or ketamine instead of you absolutely feel like you need to use...these two compounds will have you looking at your addiction through a different perspective. Also mushrooms can to this as well along with most pchys
I take a lot of benzos from many many years and I function better than many people around me. I am scared to quit, I am scared to become a vegetable. I hope not.
When you mentioned, "breaking the habit" sounds like you may have been referring to Dr Joe Dispenza's meditations? If so, they have been helping me tremendously w/ tolerating the withdrawal process.
2 years straight, are you serious! I know it lasts a long time, and I've been through it more than once, from multiple different things but two years at it's worst that it could get is a long time and hard to believe. Hard to believe that it was at its worst for 2 years at least.
It can go on much longer than that.
I can't believe anyone has gotten through it in just 2 years.
@@ikedorsey I was crazy sick for 1 year off of suboxone (methadone previously), took several years to recover. The doctors will tell you it only lasts 2 weeks. They don't know anything, it's pathetic.
@@Pax_Mayn3yeah it's crazy how little these doctors know about benzos. They get taught by big pharma that's why. There beimg decieved.
How much Xanax did you take that it took 7 yrs to withdraw?
To endure BIND *
It’s taking me 7 years to withdraw from taking,4 mg of Clonazepam for 38 years.& quit CT .😝
Dam dude. You cold turkeyed after 38 yesrs? Its. MIracle your still alive.
Itself a journey. These drugs are a live saver at some point, and they became a menace when users which them out. Either, be resolute and make it happen with a plan.
Huh? I'm not understanding , are you blaming users for withdrawal scenarios like hers?
Thank you 💕 thank you! You are a love&light on that road to hell...
Wired head bangin 😮
What if u use them prn like once a week?
It’s ok if you only take it like that
I would only use it for emergencies. But you should be fine as long as it’s not daily
Not worth it, it's just asking for trouble. You'll end up getting rebound anxiety and then you'll justify twice a week, three times, etc. Don't even mess with it. Whatever panic or anxiety you feel, just be glad it's not 100x that because of these things. It can be MUCH worse.
@@Pax_Mayn3 good point
@@Fanfan30303 I don't think they should be available to anybody. There are better options, i mean try ketamine, I got super addicted to it at one point mine wasn't prescribed. But it really does work, and other than some memory issues im no worse for the wear. I was HEAVILY abusing. If you get it in tablets or something from the doctor I don't think they give you an amount that you could really abuse anyway. Give that a try.
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No need to use expletives!
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Its quite awful.
I skipped the symptoms part, because I don’t want that to get in my head. I don’t mind telling people mine though. A lot of doctors think I have: en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somatic_symptom_disorder 😒. And I live in Florida. Awful healthcare. I’m gonna have to move back to the South or somewhere not as stimulating - to get the help I need.
I’m in Fl too and literally a rehab tapered me in one week and landed in the psych unit . There’s a rehab in cali called oro recovery they use the Ashton manual look it up
@@kendrakinard7580 my psychiatrist won’t prescribe me Valium for the taper off Xanax. I asked her why - she said - I just don’t. But she’ll prescribe me Klonopin. 😒