Something has to change . . . Channel Update
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00;00:00 - Channel Update
00:00:45 - Conflicted
00:01:56 - Concern & Dropped Balls
00:03:47 - Life Update & ADHD
00:05:26 - 100 Hours a Week
00:06:10 - Games are not worth it . . .
00:07:18 - Team Update (Shira, West, Evan)
00:08:37 - Finding Balance
00:10:30 - Good Changes
00:11:41 - Doing it Alone
00:14:30 - ADHD, Dopamine, & RUclips
00:15:55 - Quit RUclips?
00:17:40 - What's Next for Quackalope
00:18:15 - Backing away from Kickstarter
00:19:14 - Deep Content (KDM, Root, Dune, etc)
00:21:15 - Cult of the New
00:22:32 - Patreon
00:24:38 - Looking for Work
00:26:08 - $834.34 a Month
00:26:55 - What type of Work?
00:28:55 - Long Term Funding
00:29:38 - Selling my Collection
00:32:45 - Wrapping Up (How I talk)
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AMA: I will be responding to every comment on this video. The Good, Bad, Kind, and Cruel.
Yeah, not true 😀
@@nuuqbgg . . . Working through comments still. I did a few hours of them on day one and have kept going back and chipping away at them since then. When i respond - the person gets an email. So, I don't have to do them all within the first few hours of the video going live.
@@Quackalope makes sense.
Everyone should have a comment now.
I have empathy for your mental health struggles, but...There have been a lot of questionable decisions in the last year, questionable commitments, and woe is me videos. I came back to see whether there has been growth months after leaving due to the last major drama...and what do I see, more drama. More narcisisim. Its harsh, but true.
Go swallow a hamster. 🐹
You can see and read whatever you want. This is not drama. This is an honest update. I’m not a narcissist and calling me one does absolutely nothing to help the conversation or move things forward. There is enough hate and bullying on the internet as it is. You don’t need to add to it.
@@Quackalope get over yourself dude. And you display all the classic behavior of a narcissist. Hence my comment. "go swallow a hamster"...jesus, is this middle school?
@@Quackalope I think this is a prime example of why your channel died. I remember watching your videos along with BoardgameCo and you had a much entertaining personality. However, after the fallout, you could have honestly ridden it out, if you just had taken a step back. But instead, all the videos you made addressing the channel issues just made the channel worse and worse. Your reactions in all honesty came across a bit narcistic and insincere. Go back and read all the comments saying those exact two things. The fallout knocked you down, but you dug your own grave by how you made the situation worse and destroyed the brand and good loyalty. You might not realize it now how you came across but in 10-15 years when you look back you would probably see you could have definitely survived if you had handled things much differently. Cheers
@@Titanicus_ dude has lost his way sadly. Seems to expect youtube to be his motivational speaker, and collective cheerleader. Regardless of his mistakes. Plenty of content creators out there without the bi monthly pity party. I am sure he will retain a crowd, channel went way of the rails though. Shame.
The regularly scheduled "something needs to change" video.
The perfectly timed "do board games board game boy" comment.
Jesse I still love you my man but I'm not sure running this channel isn't ruining your enjoyment of the hobby and games in general. If stable income is a concern, I suggest you get a regular job and turn this channel into something that really complements your enjoyment of the hobby. I think it really does not have to be more than that. Play games, love games and share your love with us at the rate that is compatible with your life. Those die hard friends and fans will stick around but the pressure to make this channel something, grow and have it be a source of income is perhaps not what you should be pursuing? Whatever you chose to do good luck and most importantly I hope you enjoy it!
Hey! You are correct in some ways and wrong in others! I know with how Quick this comment was posted you have not watched the full video yet (I do get into this topic in the update)
Running this channel and making content is a full time job. 100+ hours a week for 5 years. Even now, learning, playing, filming, editing, posting, and keeping up to date is 40+ hours a week for just a few videos. If I want to keep the channel going and the quality high - it has to provide income in some form. This time last year Quackalope had 4 full time employees and was brining in around 15k a month in consistent income. Instead of saving that money - I was investing in growing the team, brining in guests, and expanding our filming space. With the ATO drama 11 months ago and the lies spread across the internet we lost a lot. Compounding the initial loss of clients the last 8 months have been a growing and learning process for me. Leading to the ADHD diagnosis 3 months ago. I am doin well - but I have been unable to stabilize and keep the channel going on my own. At the moment Quackalope's only stable income is RUclips and Patreon ($800). We often get a contract or two a month on top of that at around $500-800 each. So, we make something - but it can't keep us afloat at the moment.
I am looking for work outside of the channel. The big question is - what will that mean for my time and my ability to create content. We don't know yet. Each video takes an average of 6-8 hours of production time - not including learning and playing before filming.
Finally, I am making changes to the content we make in a effort to move forward. I want to enjoy the channel, have fun filming, and re-build the community. So, we are moving away from crowdfunding. Going deep on a limited number of titles. Selling piles of games and KDM upgrades to hopefully buy us some time to adjust.
Your judgment is correct. The question is more - is running the channel that way sustainable.
@@Quackalope Really sorry to hear that you’re struggling Jesse. Horrific to see how badly the Into the Unknown drama has impacted you, the fact that they can’t take valid criticism speaks volumes about the individuals in management positions at the company.
@@salt7598 It's been quite the year :)
@@user-lg2yq6de2y Adding religion to this channel was its downfall; it's completely antithetical to the previous coomer-culture KDM branding. Both of these things are horrible. You and Shira are too young to be religious and you're too old for that coomer bullshit. Get rid of both and rebrand with a new channel.
@@Quackalope "The lies spread across the internet" you mean the screenshots of an email interaction? Followed by the laughably standard RUclipsr non-apology apology video? Nothing has changed, Jesse, and this proves it.
I wish I could see you have the passion and fun that you had back when you did the Vast tutorials with Jan. Paying the bills is stressful. Do whatever you need for yourself and your family. I’m glad to see you’re considering photography as a large source of income. You have the skills. You can do it.
I hope to get back there. I just don't have the same free time to invest.
As someone in a similar boat - I absolutely recommend treating this more as a hobby and less of a job. Focus on work outside of RUclips - and come here when you WANT to. It'll lead to a more satisfying process. If that means deep dives, or focusing on the games that you LOVE - then so be it! I cover lots of games, but I focus on games like Star Wars Armada with a very heavy emphasis because content like that makes me happy. And I'm always adjusting too - don't ever be afraid to shake things up! Stay strong and when you DO make content - make it great! You've always had incredible production quality - keep that up when you can!
The cost of time is the big question. If I made nothing from the channel- I could not keep it going. I just don't have the wealth needed to survive a month - let alone years without solid stable income for myself and my family.
I'll say that the direction the content went in was not to my liking, that doesn't have to be a 'you' problem, tastes differ. BUT... There has been way, way too much drama which hurt the channel (and all the people involved). One thing you mentioned is the 'car salesman' thing and that is for me an 'ah-ha!' moment. There was a time where you sold me on your enthusiasm for a game and at some point it felt like you tried to sell me on a game, the next new thing or kickstarter. I think that has to do with a transformation from something you did as a hobby to something you did for money (aka. business).
I think we need to recognize that during the last 4 years we had more time to do things then we normally did (lockdowns), I've been seeing more and more people keep doing the stuff they did during the pandemic AND try to do everything they did before the pandemic. Most of us don't have the time and/or the mental/emotional bandwidth to do everything. We need to make choices, we need to set priorities. The last few years were a mess that borked our choices and priorities...
I think you can make awesome content! But I think doing it as a business isn't the best thing for either you or your viewers. Making your hobby your work is a really bad choice for many of us! After having run almost a decade a webstore for pnp rpg games as a side business, I realized, I never ever want to run that as the main/fulltime business. It doesn't pay well, it's frustrating like heck, is very risky, and takes up oodles of time you could be spending better.
My advise: Get a well paying main job and do this as a hobby and treat it like a hobby. Don't follow the views, do videos about things you're passionate about and don't do videos when you don't feel like it. Well paying main job: I've seen some very well paid photographers/videographers, so maybe develop further in there. Might also be compatible with the ADHD, I've seen that an office job often doesn't work well with people that have ADHD, I've threatened to duct tape people to their office chair... ;) A well paying job (hours vs money) could mean you could spend less time working and more time doing the things you like, with the people you care about.
I have a friend who got massive debt from studio equipment. Sounds like your credit card debt is at LEAST $25,000-30,000 given the specifics you mentioned about "being eaten alive by interest rates". But video equipment is very expensive so you could have easily spent twice or 3 times that after studio, salary and other things. Good luck getting debt free
Working hard at getting out of it :) hopefully we are able to soon and can move forward confidently!
Excited for the good news and hope you can find the balance and possibly a job that allows you to continue to produce content you love. Appreciate you!
Man it’s been a ride. I remember finding your channel with root and watching and developing a community alongside you. I hope life has an upswing for you :) I hope you can get the support financially you need with some stability. I feel the need for that myself XD daycare has been eating my shirt something fierce. It’s always been an awesome time hanging out and being a part of the community and I hope to continue that adventure, whether here or whether when I’m in the area again. I wish you nothing but the best 😊
We will be around :) . . . just, been quite the journey. ADHD is a good explanation for why I am at times fully engaged and around and then at other can't find the time or ability to jump into and out of Discord. Hope it at least gives some context. It has for me.
Tough decisions for sure. I couldn't find the balance with Board Game Closet and had to step away. I miss creating the content but I don't miss the hustle that never seemed to end. Wish you the best as you figure out what is next for you!
Yep, I see a lot of people struggling to find that right balance. It asks a lot and often gives very little back.
I wish I was in the area. I would jump on that opportunity in a heart beat. Hopefully you find someone good to help and grow again. Keep it up
I would love to find a co-host. Long term - it might be the only sustainable option.
@@Quackalope That would be an awesome opportunity for someone!!!
Would love to find someone willing and able!
@@Quackalope Wish I lived closer, I would 100% apply
My favorite videos are the ones where you talk about things/topics/games that you're genuinely excited about, or things that you feel are important to talk about, rather than the videos that are there because a check is being sent. I have to feel like long term, the former will build better and stronger community (and hopefully grows more financially alongside), even though shorter term it won't generate as much. That said, I totally get that paying the bills is mission critical, and it's important to find the right balance. I'm really excited about seeing more deep dives and in depth series around games that you enjoy, even if the games aren't the new kickstarters or the new hotness, and I imagine others are as well. New games may get eyeballs, but it's short lived, while evergreen games (and content around them) will continue to draw interest from board gamers forever. Just an idea off the top of my head, as far as I can tell, there are no big name content creators that make serious content around board game strategy. Those are the kinds of videos I would binge watch if it was about games I was already interested in and wanting to get better at.
The hope is to get back to only talking about the nonsense I like. :)
Following your channel since years now and listening to you, I get echoes from the past, hearing myself from twenty years ago (and more recently also). There would be so much to say about it, and thinks that can't be just written in some social media comment, lacking tone, silences, rephrasing, ... at the end of the day it's like being round and trying, again and again, every minute of every day, to find a way to, at last, fit into a square world, often without even understanding why it's not working, and getting exhausted and depressed by the process. Maybe I'm all wrong here. But I can relate to your words, your state of mind (at least the one you're exposing). I wish you all the best.
sounds good and well thought out..setting your goals/plan is a good way to go forward!.i wish you every success..
>3 thank you
You're a perfect example of someone who needs to walk away from RUclips and live your life out of this medium. You seem like you'll be happier without this burden on your family. Play games for fun, not for profit. There's no way you're making money based on your views number. I'm also not sure you'll ever get over the baggage you created that damaged your channel. Just being honest.
Thanks for the uppdate, hope everything works out for you. Really loved the vibe you and Alex had when doing content together. You could really feel the love for the hobby through the screen. i could probably try to say some constructive words but i won´t since you probably had your fair share already and im no expert. I hope to see some fun top tens and top fives in the future, those are the ones i like the most :) Also hope you find your back to enoying the hobby and creating, love from Sweden
I hope we can find a solid co-host one day :)
I think your plan is sound, thanks for the update!
I found you a couple of years ago to learn ROOT. Love how you covered it and the excitement you show toward games. You should be proud. Most don’t look at balance of family, mental health and work. Will follow regardless!
Working on that balance every day now :)
Hey Jesse! Been watching since the early Root gameplays! Loved the Right For You Pax Pamir vid as well. Do you think Jan might ever come by like the old days of you guys (and the gang) gaming together? Those seemed like joyous times. Truly wishing you all the best. I think the path you've outlined - focusing on certain games rather than the new hotness - will be great for the most important things in your life: your family and your mental health. Beyond that, if the channel grows, great. But if not, at least you had some fun, and played some games. Cheers 👍🏾
Hope we can bring back some of those old feelings :)
So where is West? Does he do videos somewhere still or did he get out if that entirely?
He works for Addax games now. Not much content. We had to let him go along with everyone else during the fallout 11 months ago. It cost us quite a lot this last year.
@@Quackalope that was probably my favorite part of the channel, hope you guys can get back to making some videos together some day
@@Quackalope 11 months already is crazy
Best of luck on whatever your path forward. FWIW, I stumbled on your channel just a few months ago because I saw Noli on sale for cheap on Amazon, and you were one of the few channels that had an older, clear playthrough of it. (Figured I'd share in case that helps support your decision not to be chasing "the latest game on kickstarter".😎)
Welcome aboard! I think, in the long term, moving away from the cult of the new is the best call :)
Good to hear you taking new steps on the channel my friend, sometimes I also think about just focucing on a few games, think it might be good for you :)
That's the plan!
As someone who just got diagnosed with adhd at the age of 38 I can confirm that it is eye opening to understand how the lack of dopamine being absorbed by my brain has driven my decision making. One of the things that changed for me is the chase for something to give me enough dopamine to feel it. Buying and playing board games was one of those things and without that need my consumption of games and channels like yours have decreased dramatically. It’s a real pivot, it is life altering, I wish I knew how I was different when I was younger and didn’t have years of habits to untangle. You’re not alone figuring it out!
You don’t get to take anything with you when you leave this world the only thing that stays is the investment you made in others. Do what’s best for your family.
Where could I find some info about this behavior pattern in people with ADHD?
It has been one of the most mind blowing 4 months in my life. Still working through the imiapact of the ADHD, meds, and what it means for me going forward!
Always cherish the magical window in time that was the last several years of your life. It may never be the same again but that doesn't mean it can't still be great.
I wish you and your family joy and peace as you navigate forward.
Oh, I’m extremely grateful and would not change anything :) the personal growth, relationships, and ADHD diagnosis is well worth everything.
Just now asking the question about where to go next :) life is good.
Good luck with finding balance and ultimately peace with all of the competing priorities. It sounds like a tough road to navigate, but, you I am sure, will figure it out.
Gotta know, is your Tuesday gaming group called the Duck Pond?😊
Haha, no - but it should be :)
Support! Focus on a few games is a good choice; there are always too many games.
Thanks! I hope so :)
Thanks for sharing the updates! Personally I have taken a step back from board game RUclips content and just enjoying the hobby of playing games with friends. I’m hoping this will recharge my love for the hobby.
Makes sense to me :)
My wife and I are driving across the U.S. this summer and will be driving through Ohio. We would love to do a game night or even just go out to dinner.
Let’s make it happen :) email me and we can connect.
Where in Ohio are you, Jesse?
Good luck man. It’s tough, you’re doing it. Keep going, consistency and promises kept are what brings the reward.
Take your time and take care about yourself. Your health is the most important thing in the world! I am struggling with mental health issues myself and that was the most important lesson I had to learn. Trust your friends and family. Those are the most important people in the world for you.
Been with the channel this the beginning on and off.
I feel like you are putting off the inevitable, I’m not here to put you down but at the minute I think the focus is in the wrong place.
You said yourself you are “soul” searching and trying to find a balance. You have accumulated debt, investing into the channel trying to recreate the spark which was lost from the drama.
15k a month is an extreme amount to lose and trying to pump more time and effort into a channel which isn’t providing the outcome will just put more of a strain on you and your family.
I myself decided to change career 5 years ago, doing so I created a large amount of debt. I have board games stacked unplayed but my focus now is to stabilise my financial situation. I’m lucky my new career pays very well so there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but without this focus you are only treading water.
I’m not saying let the channel die but the focus has to shift, I wish you all the best and again will go back into the background.
Hey, thanks for the comment and feedback. Your correct - a lot of what this video is about or intended to be about is that “change”
Where we are going next.
It’s not going to die. However, I am and have been trying to figure out how to adapt.
Good luck to you and Shira! I wonder if that's also happening to many of your viewers, that they have less time because of other things in their lives (as we're all growing older).
I think our industry has a way of burning us all out. :)
Jesse, I keep my eye on Quackalope but am not a regular. I wanted to let you know that there was something that you created that I thought had significant value. An audio podcast where you interviewed Cole Wehrle a few years ago was a great piece of work, probably the most interesting content I've seen on board games. That was nice piece and I'm grateful that you did it.
Thanks for sharing :) we might get back to interviews one day!
Yeah man! Pour into gameplays instead of previews, reviews, top 10s, and all the others short term content! Gameplays have always been my favorites on the channel. It's how I found your channel.... all my best memories with the channel were gameplays. Hopefully, gameplays can be also low investment timewise and money wise to help strike a fulfilling work-life balance.
Good to know! We hope to have a lot of Gameplay content :) however, much harder to do without some others to film with. At the moment - I am a solo creator.
The hard part with Gameplays . . . they take more time to film and edit, get less views, and often have rules mistakes that people tear apart :). So, we would be relying on Patreon or sponsorship if gameplays was our cornerstone.
Mmm, that's very fair!
I suspect if you want to get back to 180k a year again, you either need to be (very) patient during growth or you might need to rebrand. I value your opinion personally and think you produce the highest quality content, but it is hard to ignore that your current brand is damaged.
I think in the short term, you may want to consider doing local video production and editing or video advertisements. You have very strong talent in visual design and I think that is an area in which you could capture the fastest revenue. You may also want to consider putting yourself on fiver or reach out to offer to edit videos for other youtubers. Being in the dc area, it may even be possible for you to get work in political promotion/campaign videos.
Whatever you wind up doing I sincerely wish you and your family the greatest success.
Hey, I'm a bit of a lurker and actually got to your channel while researching KDM! I hope you find the peace and balance you need to be able to continue balancing mental health, family, and hobby all in one. I'm also an orthodox Jew (raised as one) and can definitely emphathize on how big of a life transition that can be. Just navigating the new schedules of Shabbat and holidays must be very difficult while trying to maintain a channel with higher quality production value.
Hey! Thanks so much for the comment (If you ever come through Cleavland let us know - I would love to have you for Shabbat). Judaism is the most important, defining element of my life - and at the same time probably the most challenging to keep well. I love Shabbat, I love the holidays, and I love the community. The daily routine of prayer, learning, sleep, and growth however - is challenging. With my newly understood ADHD, I have really been struggling to build habits that let me keep Orthodoxy. I am getting there - but I still have a lot of work to do. Every one of those habits (like getting up in the morning to Daven) takes a lot of my mental and even physical energy.
G-d willing I will keep growing and finding my way forward. Even, if at times, I feel totally incapable & overwhelmed.
Jesse, I wish you well. Best of luck!
-Toby
Thnaks Toby!
You're doing the right thing Jesse, being there and providing for your family.
Take a steady side job that creates a stable financial situation, and take a step back from the RUclips "hobby". I personally would love you to do a few deep, detailed and high quality video's about Kingdom Death a month. Honestly, I think that would set you apart from all the other boardgames channels that basically cover the same things. I'd even get a Patreon sub for it....
Would it give you less viewers? Yes, most likely. But you're not completely making a living out it anymore so it doesn't really matter. Besides that, you can still do the things you like most, which is having more time with the family, producing and playing KDM.
Best of luck man! Don't be to hard on yourself.
Thanks, in the long run the balance of time invested VS money is going to be a major factor. Since spending free time with the wife, learning, or investing in my local community might be more valuable than making content for RUclips.
The hope is I can transition the content and the channel and find enough support to maintain everything as at least a part time job.
Eventually, in a year or so if I can’t find a balance I might have to adjust even more.
I think the concern from a viewer perspective is the trustworthiness. When a board game channel goes from reviewing from a customer perspective to reviewing from a business perspective, its tough to trust what you say. We've seen what appears to be the industry agreements regarding paid content. And its always to make the game look and sound amazing. Heck, the ones I've seen specifically prevent any negative views, criticism or even comparing the game to others similar games. Ones you lose your audience's trust, its over because now you are not looking out for the consumer, your in bed with the industry. I get it from a content creators view, I really do. The money the companies pay for sponsored content is huge. But we, the RUclips audience, don't care about that. We want 100% honest and critical reviews. I made a similar comment on Board Game Co's channel the other day. He's the company now and I stopped watching his videos months ago. Good luck Jessie! You seen like a good dude, but as long as you're tied to the companies, we will simply go somewhere else for content because you're no longer one of us. God bless!
Maybe we can build things back with time :)
nice to see you post again. Life has a way of slipping by if you do not take some time out and enjoy the sheer beauty of it. Like an old friend, people will still be here for you.
Hi Jesse, thx for your openness and honesty! Life is all about love, communication and respect. And with that all about family, spirituality, health and just being balanced as a person.
Life is too short do to stuff which is no fun or exhausting. Enjoy life to the fullest, support your family in a way which works for you, continue (or not) the channel in a way that works for you and is fun.
And always and especially have fun playing games and just be you!
I will do my very best! Every challenge in life has a opportunity for growth, reflection, and good.
Thanks for sharing. I’ve wondered for a while if there’s a high comorbidity between ADHD and the boardgame hobby.
Certainly could be. High imagination, a need for stimulation / dopamine, a smart but easily distracted brain (that loves puzzles and stories), and a feeling of disconnection from the wider non divergent society.
@@Quackalope Same here... I have so many things on my plate, want to do so many things that it's overwhelming.. . . .then I end up taking a nap and do nothing
Hahaha I have had those “stress induced” naps so many times.
Boardgame is a hobby - not life itself. Good thing you want to find balance!
Remember: if you don't depend on the channel for your living, then you're free to do pretty much whatever you want with it! There are too few channels that aim for depth and not quantity. You can simply find a new niche for your channel!
The hope moving forward is to change my relationship with the channel. We need to make something to justify the time invested . . . but, it can't be my only option.
As someone who delt with ADHD and who hasn't taken medicine in about 9 years, I find when I need to focus, instrumental music really helps me focus. Highly recommend El Ten Eleven, Giraffes? Giraffes!, Polyphia, Intervals, animals as leaders, Chon and Strawberry girls for some music. But you'll learn to cope in your own way.
It’s funny - I used to say POGO the artist matched my brain :) when I had it playing I could focus better and get more work done. It calmed me down . . . The music is anything but calming :)
Changes are great! Good luck and בהצלחה!
Growth is essential :)
You're gonna get every possible permutation of advice from a video like this, but thanks for sharing and I wish you and your family the best! I think one of the reasons you gravitate towards KD:M is that you're a very emotionally-motivated person, and when you see passion projects you get excited and connect. If so, I can relate - though unfortunately in my experience this passion provides only illusory benefits when trying to establish a sustainable, lucrative profession. The people who can pay you are usually looking for a reliable, low-risk transaction, not an unreliable superfan. The alternative is having a big audience, but i don't think that's healthy for any person, let alone someone who is tempted to read every comment. All those observations aside though, at the end of the day you do whatever you want to do - the world has a way of helping you course correct, and your prior experiences will somehow be useful whether the channel grows back to sustainable business size or you end up focusing on other things. I see nothing worth admonishment in your plans and think you're making some quality decisions. Good luck!
The hard part will be not following any of it XD
I think your reading of myself and the situation is accurate. I am driven by relationship and passion over any other force. For instance. I actually cared about a notable publisher I worked closely with . . . went out of my way to make unique content for free, hosted them in my house, and loved diving into their new games. The relationship came first.
Since the ATO drama . . . they made a "business choice" and have never once messaged or reached out to me. Even worse . . . they have visited my city multipole times to film with others. The "we can't hire for a bit you due to drama" is a conversation I am fine with . . . the empty, vapid, silence from people in the community I invested in and still care for. Hurts. It was and never will be about the money for me. Money just let's me invest in those around me and spend more of my time learning and growing.
@@Quackalope It does suck to lose connection with prior work colleagues when you put so much emotional energy into your work! It's a big bummer and I'm still working through a couple similar situations. Things tend to work best when we find new relationships to be excited about (and eventually, some of the old relationships will re-activate), but it can take more time than we'd like... You've done a great job with your work in the past, and this reset is in large part caused by factors out of your control, but it'll also open you up to cool new things. There are very few people who go through their professional careers without a few "hard restarts". Even though you currently get silence from people you used to be in close contact with, it doesn't invalidate your previous experiences, and it won't prevent you from trying to contact them when you feel the time is right. People remember their good experiences with you, and you've left a chain of work on the internet for the board game community to enjoy for years to come. And hey, if you were still going 100% full speed with no speed bumps, you wouldn't have this time to re-evaluate and re-orient yourself in quite the same way. There's always a silver lining and it's worth dwelling on it from time to time. Here's hoping you build great new personal and professional contacts in the near future, as it seems you've already got a handle on the higher priorities.
The forced break has been for our benefit . . . just, wish it did not leave so much tread on the driveway in the process!
You are great, you give us something that we enjoy and look forward to no matter when and where. You have to do what is right for you and your family, happiness is exactly that. I dont comment but i do watch everything you put out. You are part of the reason why i love boardgames and especially Kingdom Death Monster. Keep playing infront of the camera but also off the camera, enjoy the games
i changed my life style from board game to solo ttrpg book and very happy with it
Thanks for sharing the update. Good luck with your future plans. I can't wait to see what follows.
Thanks so much!
I love the channel and all the great things you do ....thank you for you honesty and courage as a person that has had 2 heart attacks and a a few strokes i understand when you say people and relationships are the most important thing .its refreshing to hear someone say that in this space . thank you for all you do
Some things in life are worth everything. Most things in life are worth nothing. For some reason we often give up everything just to grab onto nothing.
@@Quackalope It's kinda like the 80/20% theory.. . . Having 80% of everything a person needs but constantly feel that 20% missing.. ...so they go on the search for that 20% while giving up or losing the 80%..
Yep, it’s wild.
Hey, man, take your time. Board gaming is about spending time with people you love doing something good for the mind and spirit. I saw a lot of great content creators in our hobby backing away from channels because of burnout. Don't let it be your case. Live life lighty. See you in th future.
Here for any content you create. People get busy. We understand, you do you and hopefully you get to drop content when you can.
Totally understand everything you're going through Jesse. As we get older it gets harder and harder to find people with the same schedule/hobbies as you. Especially if they have families, full time jobs and other things going on. One thing is I've always admired your work at Quackalope. The quality of the content and filming is just top tier and really impacted the industry during Covid and beyond. When I go to other channels I look for this type of quality and sometimes it might be unfair to them but your background in filmography and lighting shows. I've always wanted to make a channel like yours someday and have an audience I can talk to and relate to about boardgames but never got the courage to do what you do. And also starting now just feels too late. In addition, why would I make content when there are so many other better creators out there putting out so much quality stuff already. In regards to helping with the channel I always wanted to help and work with you someday but I'm up in Canada haha so there was never any way that was going to happen :(..Anyway, suffice to say you are amazing and I know its a little hard right now but just know you're amazing and I always look forward to your content. God bless to you and your fam and hope everything gets better
Thanks so much. I really enjoy and seek to make high quality content that I would watch myself! Just . . . the time sink is significant.
If you ever come through the area let me know and we can get a game in!
Yeah I get that haha. Your hard work shows though.
Sounds good to me haha. Never know when I'll ever be there but if I ever am sounds like a good time bro :) @@Quackalope
Mostly I just want to say how happy I am for you that you're taking steps to care for yourself, your mental health, and your relationships. If you've got that going in the right direction, the rest will follow. I don't know if there will ever be a point where you end up reconnecting with Alex or West (it's unclear from the video whether you two are still in touch) or your other former collaborators, but even if it's not with an intent to make content with them, I'm curious if your diagnosis and other personal efforts would serve as a bridge to rebuild and strengthen relationships with people you had been close to in the past. Sometimes folks just move on, but sometimes self care can be a step towards mutual care, too.
What about combining photography mixed with your board game passions? Tim Chuon does awesome videography and photography for board games, so maybe something in that way? Do companies pay for professional photos and videos for their games? Just a thought.
We have done this to a degree - building up that side of the business takes time however. Something I am running out of more and more!
I know I am just another random guy on the internet. I have been following you for a long time, and you are the main reason why I ended getting into Kingdom Death Monster, it was your series of why you will like it and why you will not like it.
Life really takes turn to places that wowzer damn, are crazy, and one thing I've learned over the years (and thanks to a few sessions with a therapy is the 3 circles of control, #1 is direct control of things, #2 semi control or influence of things, and #3 no control at all. I know you are trying to do good for you and your family, and I am sorry to hear about selling some of your collection to try to stay up, but please, be kind to yourself, and always remember that some stress is not really worth it, even commenters here. It is the internet, for good and bad, it gives people the ability to communicate.... good and bad things.
I don't know you guys, and despite of the things that happened, I think you are good people. Take care of yourselves.
Didn't even make it six months before throwing yourself another pity party? Liquidate your games, put the channel on haitus, and focus on stabilizing your life. You've burned a huge amount of good will through your past actions, and there is a sentiment across the board that these update videos do more harm than good. Times are tough for everyone. If you don't have the time, drive, and desire to make passionate well produced content, then don't make it and move on. Checking your subscriber count every 5 minutes is absolutely not healthy my dude. It really sounds like you'd be better off completely off the internet.
Interesting that you see this as a "pity party" for me, it is very much another forward step and an attempt to honestly and fully communicate with the community I have built, supported, and care about. Life is good.
The "checking my subscriber count every 5min" is a reference to how my brain operated before the ADHD diagnosis. Clearly, there was something not healthy there . . . that's one of the points of the update.
One day, maybe :)
Hey man, thanks for the update. If you’re looking for something deep to sink your teeth into, Arcs is almost on the way!
I have a copy heading to me! :)
Thanks for sharing Jesse! Transparency and vulnerability are tough in the world we live in so kudos to you man. Tune out the haters as much as possible and cling to the reality which is that you are doing what is best for your relationship with God, your wife, your family and yourself. I'll be praying that you find some peace and clarity with the decisions ahead. He's your Shephard. You've got nothing to worry about. =0)
I find that being open and honest - while leads to some hating you and hurting you - is the only way I can operate.
Forgive me if I missed this in a previous video but what happened to West?
Jesse. You are on a journey right now, and I can see you trying to untangle how to make this fun again. I’d say, don’t rush it, or push it. If I was in your shoes, I’d probably aim for a job with more structure and less adhoc. As you continue to learn how to better take control of your day, maybe gig work and the channel would make a lot of sense. But for now, find something stable, that is lower stress (e.g. not a bunch of hustling, advertising and scheduling required on your part).
Yea, we will see where I end up! If I could make some good money for a summer doing yard work or construction I would take it :) . . . something without my mind being engaged would be nice.
Dyslexia - - book: The Dyslexic Advantage (get the second edition, it's light blue - or audio version)
On my reading list! Working through one now on the science of it and diagnostic traits in a adult (I have and have had every single box checked for my whole life)
@@Quackalope I would be interested in knowing what book you are talking about.
If you want a mutual friend to connect us Austin with IV.
The Dyslexic Advantage book is by two Doctors who view the root cause as a specific thing in the brain, so there are traits, yet focusing on the strengths you might have (often unknown to you that they are rally are strengths compareded to a vast majority of people) is the approach I like.
The Dyslexia Guide for Adults is the one I am going through now. I have found it to be very well written and informative.
Happy to connect! Austin can give you my number or you can email me - Quackalope (at) Gmail
@@Quackalope emailed you
Are you going to be posting a list of games you're offering here or on Patreon? I don't have interest in the KDM stuff, but maybe there's something else interesting in your archives. Would you also accept donations, or is that what the Patreon is for?
Hey,
I will probably just film a video and have people message or email me. As far as donations - I am not officially asking for them at the moment. Would they help - sure. I just don't think the community is interested or willing to financial support the channel at the moment.
Awww man I love the Quack and even the alope. Your Root videos brought me so much joy and got me to buy like everything for it, still one of my favorite games. I watch the channel for you and your commentary. I’ll be here to watch whatever you produce and if I find myself on your coast I’ll Dm you for a game night invite =P
More root to come - hopefully we will get back to some of those good old times!
I've enjoyed your content for quite a while. Your passion and enjoyment behind each video was a big draw. The fun and excitment during playthroughs seemed very genuine. You could definitely see some of that passion and enjoyment start to wane over time.
As someone who has had to step back from some of my own passions when mental health concerns were taking over, I can assure you it was an amazing decision in the end. I hope that by taking some pressure off the channel, you are able to continue to grow your life outside of it and grow your passion and enjoyment for board games again.
I look forward to seeing more of that passion in your future content. Here are somethings I think you could potentially film with your hopes of airing more established games and having more focus on less games overall.
1. X rules often misunderstood
2. Fun house rules to change things up
3. Deeper dives into asymmetric characters, factions, or whatever a game has.
4. Strategies
5. How does a game stand up to x amount of plays
Best of luck going forward 😊
Your list matches up with a lot of what we have planned!
Hope we can make the transition!
1 KDM video a week is fine.
And 1 game day a week without cameras! Just have fun!!
Figuring it out :)
Only recently discovered your channel and love your ROOT videos. Only recently got into this hobby with my wife and genuinely it's partly down to you and your videos. So mate please put your family and health first and your fans will show up for the fun content you produce in the future. Remember this activity is to be enjoyed don't let it become a chore. Thank you.
I have a lot of kdm resins, might be able to pick up more. Do you have a list up anywhere?
I’ll have a video with them all and if you email me happy to get a list!
I live 1.5 hours from Cleveland... wish I was a little closer for Tuesday game night. I've been desperate to get a consistent weekly game group together haha Also, I've been a long time subscriber and I truly think you need to do what you love with the channel. When it's a job, I would imagine it adds more stress to pleasing every body. Do what you love... use your love and talent of photography for income and do the channel for fun. Appreciate your content and good luck!
Come hangout for a game night :)
I would love to sometime!
I did one video and deceided it was not for me, took way too long and i dont have the time...
Negative comments are like weeds; they sprout unexpectedly, overshadow the positives, and are ever-present. However, investing in wholesome seeds like relationships, spirituality, and marriage will invariably be rewarding and fruitful. Don't fret over weeding its exhausting; simply sow good seeds, and they will eventually outgrow the undesirable ones.
Have you ever thought about creating content on games that have been overlooked due to corporate marketing hype? I'm always on the lookout for underdog games; they're often just as good and don't cost much. Speaking of past games, I recently discovered one called 'Shark,' an intense and thrilling economic game that is very cutthroat. Not many RUclips channels showcase games from the past or talk about the less popular ones, and frankly, I'm tired of the hype surrounding new release games.
Ultimately, you don't have ADHD or dyslexia; what you do have is a wife who loves and supports you, and with that, you can conquer a kingdom.
The internet loves to hear itself talk :) w all interact as if its imaginary and then all go home feeling worse and less connected.
For older (nonhype) games - the hard part is the algorithm and the audience don't reward that content. We have and will continue to try - but they just don't get seen or watched as much as evergreen or hype driven stuff.
My comment got deleted 😢
Did it or did you post something that youtube flagged as inappropriate?
@@Quackalope I just said it's time to take a break, no one wants to see you suffer
Old friend here Jessie. My advice is to cut bait from the industry. Several of the things you described (watching your subscriber numbers every 5 mins), is exactly how I felt watching my own Kickstarter numbers or social media metrics. Or comparing myself to others in the space. It stopped being fun, and started being way too stressful. I’ll always cherish the time I’ve had in the industry, but I realized jt was time to step back and treat as nothing more than one small hobby in my life of which there are many. Focus on your family and yourself, get a full time salary job so you don’t have to stress every day about keeping a steady influx of contractual work. You’re way too talented to be struggling financially. I’m sure countless marketing agencies or video production companies would love to have you. Anyway man, keep your head up and take care of home base - that’s so much more important than all of this other stuff. See ya!
you're too obsessed with the numbers and im in the camp of the Vlogs not only turn off your fans but fuel your detractors. Ive followed you since your first interview with poots and i think your heart and soul in is in deepers dives of games you love like Root and KDM. organizing root tournaments and even doing a lets play of KDM simulator or the Root PC game could spice things up. its a matter of getting back to the basics and being less TMI in my opinion.
We will see if we can make that shift and keep the channel healthy enough to survive!
Hi Jesse. Been enjoying most of your videos for a while now, but I do sometimes refer to you as Waaaaahkalope. You never quite know which Jesse will come out: the energetic game lover, the promoter or the guy relaying his woes. I really hope you get back on track financially and find the success you deserve after all of your hard work on the channel.
Haha maybe that is the ADHD from the past . . . lack of sleep, excitement, or deadline driven focus :)
I will say this . . . everything I am on the channel - I am in real life as well. The good and bad I guess.
Just an assumption based on watching RUclips for too long...
It seems the best route would be individual videos about individual aspects of certain games.
For example, have a video based around a specific faction in ROOT, explaining how they interact with other factions, tips, etc.
In our market that’s harder than you would think - our biggest problem is the space is small and the content wide. Instead of going deep on one thing “like Magic or dnd” we talk about all the games - or at least a wide number of them :)
@Quackalope, your point makes total sense.
My comment, I was thinking about it from a casual consumer's angle, anecdotally: what are the common areas of confusion or curiosity for newcomers, and how can these be addressed in a quick, digestible format within 10-15 minutes? Beyond the initial run-through, what aspects would players want to delve deeper into?
In my limited experience, learning complex games can be daunting, and convincing others to join in without a quick start guide adds another layer of challenge. However, once players overcome the initial learning curve and grasp the game's depth, they often become hooked. For instance, I've only managed to get Root to the table a few times due to its perceived complexity, but those who stuck with it eventually found themselves engrossed.
I should note, I'm more of a casual board gamer myself, which is why I gravitated towards your channel. I was seeking to understand intricate games without having to sift through pages of rules beforehand to determine if they were worth the time investment.
Hi Jesse,
I really wish things would have turned differently for you and the channel. I wish all the best to Shira and yourself.
Since I subscribed to your channel I've spent more money on board games than I would ever have figured. KDM being my latest purchase.
If you are ever in Israel again, would love to meet you and play some games!
Glad to see you are zen about your current events. I really hope you find the balance that makes you and your family happy. Hello to Shira too.
No offense man but this video comes off incredibly selfish. You're upset your hobby isn't doing as great anymore? A lot of us don't have that. If you have to stop this channel for a while and stabilize your life then do that. Nobody needs this channel but your wife needs you to step up and not make videos about your missteps and insecurities. Some of this info should have stayed personal. Not everything needs to be exposed. If you can make a video then do it and I'll watch it, but if you cant then that's life. Or figure out a way to make these updates without sounding so somber and sad. It's not a good look but I'll keep supporting ese
. . . It is kinda like you did not watch the video.
I am not upset my "hobby" is not working out anymore. Quackalope has been my full time job and income for the past 3+ years. It was the a full time job for 3 other people. So, my "hobby" is fine - however my career that I spent 5+ years building is nearly gone.
Second - having a open and honest conversation about ADHD, Dyslexia, Depression, and Work is something I have done on my channel since the very beginning. Just because you are such a strong brave man who never cries and has the best job, wife, and family ever . . . (sarcasm) does not mean that being open and honest about myself, my journey, and what I am working on is a negative thing. Simply put - conversations about mental health and unseen disabilities only help connect people.
300 bucks a month in youtube money with your subs? That's criminal. Thanks for totally getting the idea our ad revenue will ever pay anything out of MY head. I always thought it would get better. 300 bucks more a month if we got to your platform level is so not worth the effort it would take.
Yep, the balancing act and time invested is hard to figure out. For us to survive long term we have to have support, sponsorship, or funding.
@@Quackalope And that in itself is hard to find, especially to the levels needed to float a channel.
As a family man and dad of two boys, I'll just echo how much more important those things are to me compared to just about everything else I do or encounter in life. Work, hobbies, etc. all become less fulfilling in comparison, and work especially serves only being able to spend more time with family and friends. I think for most of us this is a natural transition as we get older and hopefully wiser (haha). A new experience like having a child for example, enters the picture and quite a few things I assumed were super important before then got tossed to the side. Lean into those things that give you and your family joy, and as hard as it can be mentally sometimes, it's ok to let go of all which feels more like squeezing a stone for very little joy in return. Everyone has to evaluate those moments and choices all the time as we age. I wish you luck on your journey.
@@Quackalope I know the feeling. I'm also surprised at how naturally I just let things go if it is only adding stress at my age.
XD Right
I think listening to this video it proves one thing. The capitalist economic system is in crisis. Even more now than ever with this corporate greed/inflation crisis. I think the other thing it highlights the effects of social media in society. We need to remember the social media is just a company and a product. These companies can shut up shop cancel their products and go at anytime. Don't get too bogged down with things. Yes life is important but there are other aspects to life also. Good luck with finding a job. Keep up the solo gaming videos and keep up the great work. Fight on!
Social media is harmful to society as a whole. There are positives - but for myself and my family - we are creating more and more distance between ourselves and it, I don’t have it on my phone, I stay offline most of the week, I try not to scroll or watch anything useless. It’s hard to make it a positive in your life / it can be done - but the consequences might not be worth the risk.
I thought u got rid of root?
Nah, we have it - we just don't table it much.
Hey man, sounds like you need a break from this for an extended period of time. No shame in that, perhaps explore the job market and see what interests you. In terms of content, perhaps switching to live streaming might be easier since there is less editing so it can save you time on processing. You can live stream play sessions and even reviews. Good luck to you and wherever you end up, it will work out.
The rigorous and consistent schedule needed on live stream content makes it harder for me! The ADHD makes keep a hard start and stop time almost impossible (even on meds).
Still working on my executive functioning skills :)
More KDM content please. Adam Poots online interview. Resin collection unboxing etc etc.
Yep, KDM is on the way again. It’s just extremely time consuming to produce.
Jesse - been here since the beginning. Just keep trying to find work life balance. If the channel brings you joy just keep it as a side gig. If that is one video a week then that it what it is. Don’t make it be your income. Make it be a joy. Be you and cover what you love. From what you have said and shared you have the right vision.
I will say that there might ve aome misunderstanding on my end about your situation here, but how haave you been able to survive making these videos over the last 5 years and them taking over 40 hours a week to complete? The math, from whay ive heard you talk about, just doesn't make any sense to me.
Each well produced video averages 8-12 hours to produce. We had at one point a team, we have always had people help with learning the games, and we worked 80+ hours a week for years to keep it going.
@@Quackalope I mean I know you worked long and hard on the videos, but I am going to guess that you didn't have time for a significant outside source of income with that schedule. I do not know how someone can go that long making less money than it takes to make rent anywhere in the US for 5 years.
I was expecting something like this, but it’s still notable to see/watch. I’m sure you will figure out a way to reorient, although I don’t see the clicks for evergreen games. It’s sad, but true.
My choice is based off a bit of logic and data :) not just emotion. The best preforming content on the channel over the years has been the evergreen stuff - it just take longer to grow. So in theory - a focus on it should be an investment in the future of the channel as opposed to the immediate clicks.
I’m sure. I can just say that I don’t watch many gameplays - I’d rather play. So as far as evergreens go, if it’s a game I know/have/love, I might be drawn in my a strategy discussion. If it’s a game I want, maybe a review or rules teach. If it’s a game I can’t afford to get into, like KDM, I skip.
Loss of gaming friends, even if you get new friends, is rough.
People are more important than things, so priorities that support that are good.
Dealing with changing mental health is also rough. Please ignore & don't finish reading negative comments from internet strangers. Avoiding uncaring negativity is better for your emotional health.
Gaming content for $ seems a different goal than gaming videos for fun. And maybe the former is no longer workable? But if you are having fun, then that is a certain kind of success that might be worth pursuing. $ follow fun, or not. But less stress.
Can you livestream game playing? No editing needed, so a video goes up with less roadblocks.
I guess I'd be surprised if selling a few big or rare games could generate significant income. Selling to declutter seems a more achievable goal. But even selling takes time.
Also, promise less. Public goals unmet just feel guilty. Just do what you can, and people will see & respond to what is done. If you still need goals, keep them private. Goals are different from a status update, and updates like this do help fans see where you are in life. Whether that is worth sharing or not, I can see arguments for and against. I might have the attitude of letting your content videos, however many there are, speak for you. OTOH, listen to your patreons.
Would Ko-fi give you a higher % of donations than Patreon? Adam of ShelfClutter did a video breaking down some of the hidden fees.
Eh my 2 cents. Hope that you find the path for you.
We will keep adjusting our approach and hopefully find a system that works for us! Time invested in the biggest question at the moment - we don't have much of it and so whatever we do needs to be justified.
Take a break from the channel for a year. I unsubscrbed but find myself drawn back from the good ol times. Which is a testament to what can be done from this channel. You need to find your spark again. These videos where you talk about your life only detract from what everyone wants. I met you at Gen con last year and congratulated you on your marriage. I think youre a reasonable person that has peaked in the youtube world .... for now. Take a break dude.
We will do our best to bring back some good times :)
You gonna have awesome kids man! Totally happy if there's +2 good parents in the world.
Quack :)
Perhaps it’s time to hand the channel off to someone that can do it justice. Perhaps be a contributor. But leave someone else to run and own the channel. None of this, i want to supervise and make sure that new person does it right. Hand it off to someone you trust and let them run it as they see fit. Doesn’t mean you can’t collaborate. But you obviously dont have the time. You’ll always micromanage unless you completely separate from it. Sell it if you will. But dont step away as a way to sell it and make a quick buck. If you sincerely like the channel and the hobby, then hand it off for the right reasons.
Thanks for the comment and the thoughts :) it’s not quite how RUclips works and not something I’m in a position to do. West was going to be that guy. We were handing content over to him the whole month before the drama went down with ATO.
At the moment - it’s either I do the channel, or the channel does not get done. I would love to have a collaborator who I could start handing things over to.
RUclipsrs sell and trade channels all the time. You can hand the keys over and passwords and accounts over to someone. But i get the sense that you would want to maintain control somehow. Perhaps it’s a personality issue, perhaps it’s a legitimate love for the channel that you’d want it to land with someone who would do it justice. Or perhaps you honestly dont know how to handle it off. Either way, it can be done. But like i said, it doesn’t seem like you want to. It seems like you want to maintain control. And possibly have it as passive income which som done else making the content. But i get it, I wouldn’t want to give up something that was such a big part of my life. But i always go back to the original rule of RUclips, dont do it for the money. Do it for the passion. Once it’s about the money, then it is 100% about the money. 24/7 id love for something to live on if I couldn’t maintain it myself. I’d hand it off for someone to do it justice. For the hobby. Not for the money. Perhaps it’s time for a 9-5…..
Seems like a wild thing to do and something that would not be a positive for the community, channel or myself.
I would be surprised if anyone actually wanted to buy it without me remaining as the host.
You do you. What makes you happy now? Getting more into your health and religion and having more of a family? That will take your time. YOU must decide what is your most important part of YOUR life FOR YOU, right now.
And do it. If it means less time online, then that is so. Don't make content just to make content.
If you can film a game session, and everybody has fun, then film it and do it.
If it's not fun anymore, and is more work, then maybe back off a bit.
You. Do. YOU.
Working on doing me :)
I think you would be great in sales ! (this isn't meant as a mean comment you are very personable)
Hahah I probably would be :)
Thanks for sharing. Why don't you try doing a KS like the dicetower and see what it brings in. It can't hurt to try.
At the moment I don’t think it would bring in much support. I need to establish the channels direction and content before I ask for help.
Also, I have promos :)
@@Quackalope I agree you need to.figure out your direction. Content can be linked to stretch goals so you can put your wishlist and see what happens
The reality is if you do content videos some people will love them, some will be indifferent and some will hate them.
Some will say you brought this on yourself with the events of some months ago, some will say you didnt deserve the fallout, and again thats the way it goes when doing videos like yours.
If your financial well being depends on your channel then you need to concentrate on that 100%... personal beliefs do NOT pay the bills and support your family, they wont keep the wolves from the door or put food on the table, and if they are supportive then your church leaders will understand that.
If you have patreon supporters who 'pay' you each month then you need to uphold your end of that bargain and produce content for their support.
Basically you need to decide what 'you' want to with the channel, and if it cant support you and your family, then you need to diversify into something else to do that.
The questions you are asking yourself when you sit down to do a video, is no different to many when they go to work every day.
I wish you luck for the future,
Hopefully we can rebuild and reshape the content we make.
@@Quackalope hopefully so
Hi love the Idear of turning away from Cult of the New, towards intensive Gameplay and deep dive into fewer Games! This could really make you more unique, sometimes it seems most CC doing more or less the same, imo. You got to find your space. Maybee integrate live videos with live voting for Games or Idears.
I also hope you find someone new and inspiring to work with and maybe even find one or more Superfans to sell too.
We two had the discussion before, but maybee, you see it differently in the mean time, but if this Change of focus for the Channel is substantial enough for you, what about Renaming, it? 😉 Just saying, no offense, it’s yours. Even in the Bible People getting new Names for new Identities, sorry for repeating my arguments. No offense, i stay regardless what you decide, or think about my opinion. I am curious and excited to see the change and really wish you the best!
Hope to make that shift this next week!
Enjoy your content man. Life happens. I had to step away from the hustle and grind. I have an amazing wife and 3 beautiful kids and a lot of life hit my family in the past 4 years. Honestly, I’m so thankful for the amazing people I’ve met in this hobby, I’m thankful for all the lifelong friends I’ve made because of my channel activities…. It was worth it. If life ever permits, maybe I’ll come back to it, but it would to be a calling from the Lord at this point lol. Jehovah Jireh definitely called me to quit for now.
Find your rest. Enjoy life. It’ll be worth it.
Still figuring out the right steps forward. This year has been amazing for personal growth . . . but crushing in other ways!
Ha! I would hire you if you were not 3 1/2 hrs away lol. As I have shared with you in email, I have my own seasonal business that is my families only income. I tolerate it and enjoy it enough. But if you told me 20 years ago I would doing what I am currently doing I would of laughed. My background is very different then what I am doing now. And my life has unfolded very differently then I though it would at mid-life. Not badly though! I have never been happier! I say this because it's not uncommon for us to constantly adapt! Sometimes it's painful, scary, but nesscary and many times we end up somewere better mentally,physically, financially. If it's time for a change it's better to do it like ripping of a band-aid. Quackelope got hit my a phenomenon of nature (cancel mob) unfairly. Obviously a misunderstanding. I have no idea how you have kept tge channel going after that. I would of never been able to mentally handle it. You have to think of it like a tornado that hit your house. You can yell at the sky but it's faster to start rebuilding. And sometimes you build something different.
First and foremost get out of your head man. Moving things forward means taking a step (or multiple) forward and the analysis paralyses of mental debates helps NO ONE. If you don't have time to edit do lives, shorts, unboxing of new stuff or just do a 3 minute review of anything (in 1 or 2 takes). If you are worried about negative comments...turn off the comments. Just don't stop...the first step/getting the ball rolling again is the hardest part.
I am at the point now of taking another step forward. I have certainly fallen victim to the "stuck in my own mind" trap often enough. The procrastination along side ADHD makes that cycle more complicated.