Cocaine addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder, got diagnosed with OCD. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
My addiction started innocently enough-just a weekend thing, a party drug with friends. But soon, I was buying it for myself, using it alone. I stopped going out, not because I didn’t want to party, but because I didn’t want to share. Slowly, I began neglecting everything that mattered-my relationships, my responsibilities, my life. When my cousin passed away, instead of facing the grief, I drowned in cocaine. I spiraled out of control, and eventually and understandably, my girl dumped me. What followed was a two-year bender that consumed everything-my time, my money, my friendships. I was stuck in a cycle of destruction, unaware of how much I was losing with each passing day. Then one morning, I woke up and realized: two years of my life were gone, spent chasing a high that gave me nothing but emptiness in return. The damage was done. But today, I stand here, one year clean-rebuilding, healing, and finally learning how to live again.
I find the scariest part of the addiction is when you come to the realisation that you’re addicted. Horrible feeling of just feeling trapped like there’s no way out.
I know the feeling. I stopped two of my addictions cold turkey. It's been 3 weeks and I've managed to stay completely off one. The other I've done twice since then, but I feel I have more control over it. I used to do it together and it's actually not that interesting on its own.
I'm an addict of 3.5+ per day and I'm terrified of quitting but I hate myself when I use. I'm starting my first 24hrs of getting sober, it's time. Thank you for all your videos to give others confidence to be sober.
@@palatialslumlord4938 I think opioid addicts are more admitting to their addiction it's just they become so hopeless they don't even care. I agree coke addicts more usually don't admit or even realize they're addicts. Alcohol would be somewhere in the middle only because it's so socially acceptable it's easier to rationalize.
I realized I was an addict I was doing it more days a week than I wasn’t doing it. When it goes from a weekend thing to a weekday thing you are now an addict.
Coke makes me feel like I have a halfway charged battery to light the universe but when it's gone I feel like a fool .. that rush makes u feel like your a genuine intellectual being. Until it's time to recover.. you don't even wanna be seen 😢
I’m just over 10 months sober from cocaine. Thank you for sharing and making me feel less alone when I needed it the most. Appreciate your content and spreading awareness.
I secretly used it heaviky for 15 years an haven't touched it for 6months when i eventually realised i had a priblem. Cant stop thinking about it. Its constantly there. Everywhere i go, i seem to bump in2 a dealer i know. How long was it b4 them thoughts go. Losing my mind.
@@User-5amk1m0 when my friends who also participated realized I was taking it WAY too seriously far they said I should slow down, I was doing 2 grams a day at the time and slowly worked down to a half gram a day. One day I had to go to work without any and I broke down to my boss (talk about awkward) he ended up helping me get time off work and I had to go stay with my grandma away from everything and also have zero access to getting coke. I also saw an addiction therapist for the first year and a half once a week to help keep me on track which was a good outlet. I’m currently almost 2.5 years sober from cocaine and I still think about it almost daily but I just remind myself that is 100% not worth it and I will absolutely take it way to far again if I ever try it again. Take it one day at a time and remind yourself that you are worth it and that shit is dangerous and stops you from being true to yourself. Best of luck to you and anyone struggling.
@@User-5amk1m0 my friends who also participated in doing cocaine noticed I had a problem and was taking it to the extreme. I was doing 2 grams a day and they suggested I start to taper down, so I got down to a half gram a day. One day I had to go to work and didn’t have a bag and my boss noticed I was acting strange and I broke down to him about everything and he was kind enough to help get me time off work. I did coke one last time the next day and the following day I left to go stay with my grandma where I couldn’t get my hands on any coke and to just get away from everything. That week was rough and I slept as much as possible but took it day by day. I also ended up seeing an addiction counselor a few times a month which definitely helped me stay on track. Currently I am almost 2.5 years sober and everyday I am so thankful I quit but I do still think about doing it. But gotta remind myself I am worth being clean from coke. I think the biggest thing to take from this is ASK FOR HELP. It will be very hard todo it alone, let people in and let them help. Be kind to yourself. Take it one day at a time. You got this and you are worth it.
Thank you for your videos I’m an addict of 8 years I’ve tried everything to stop with no luck I hate the drug but just can’t stop your videos are inspiring though you’ve been through a lot so that gives me hope I’d love a coke free life sorry to hear everything you’ve been through but well done on becoming the man you are a true hero to some
There's literally no difference between cocaine and alcohol. If you're an alcoholic, it will ruin your life in the same way cocaine addiction will. The only reason is the legality status.
@@palatialslumlord4938used to be like that, disciplined af - onet raunatizing experience made me do every drug I could get my hands on except psychedelics and opioids
@@palatialslumlord4938 You'll be surprised how little discipline means in the realm of true addiction. You can be the most upstanding person beaming with willpower in every area of your life and then fall into an addiction and you have no control.
I just ended a 3-year relationship with a drug addict he was a functioning Coke addict work everyday even though he was not toxic so we did not argue but I got tired of The 3-6 week disappearing act inconsistencies and nothing but broken promises
Mine would always start an argument with me out of nowhere! He would accuse me of things, want to argue with me alllll night about it, even got physical with me a few times. Than would want to have sex with me when he was coming down from it. It was awful.
Once you prevent taking that first line youre on your way to success. After doing the first line the second, third, 5th, 20th will follow. Get yourselves in a new routine and keep your head held high! There's way more to live than cocaine highs, porn and sleepless nights with fucked up noses.
I’m struggling right now. I first did coke about a year ago. Didn’t buy a bag until a few months ago. I thought a had control, but the way you put in the video. This is exactly how I’m feeling now. I think the fact I’m looking these videos up, I’m definitely ditching coke. Too much money, I’ve been starting to have anxiety attacks because of it. Thank you for the inspiration ❤ I got this ❤
Me too, I have anxiety for it. Then when I take it it seems to call me down? But isn't the drug supposed to Hype you up and not have anxiety? To me it's like having five Red Bulls. Just like James Brown said. Cocaine's a wonderful drug. And I'm starting to second-guess myself.
Kindly reach out to a psychedelic experienced doctor I got some guidelines and psilocybin mushrooms from, he got all pyschedelic stuffs and more. I got better from my anxiety also helped in exploration of my human psyched.
100%. Wake up never wanting to do it again, then evening rolls around and it's the only thing you can think about. Fucking insidious, so tired of this.
@@lukestadther1218you’ve just described my life, I’m starting tomorrow turning my phone off shutting myself off from everyone and getting over this filthy drug.
I was very bad on it in my early to late 20s very early 30s and I was obsessed, it’s all I ever talked about and I’d be obsessed in different batches, trying so many different dealers coke and I was obsessed in points of the grams, always had nose problems, I played competitive sport and there were times I thought I’d have a heart attack as I was not always in a fit state to be playing sport or doing intense exercise and scariest thing is I wasn’t even scared at the time, I only cared about doing more coke, I hardly ever slept but eventually I’d get run down and slept for hours and hours to recover .. got in loads of debt. In the end I lost all my false confidence on coke it was no longer a party like it was originally and id lay in my bed, no tv, no music, nothing just on my own sniffing lines after lines binging on it and my body would be shaking - in the end it took my confidence away it didn’t give me it anymore … thankfully I’m good now and have been alcohol free for over a years which also helps
If you cant say no, then you are an addict. If you cannot stop, you are an addict. Things become much better when you just ACCEPT and ACT. Life is beautiful in sobreity. I never was spiritual. Keep moving on with your life in recovery. dont fear. You dont need to know all the answers and you dont need the assurance from anyone that you will be able to get through this. Just keep going, withdrawals first drained me, but then they gave me the strength and confidence that I live my life with. Trust me, spirituality will catch up with you.
I Don’t do coke everyday. But every Weeknd I do partake. And I do about a ball a week or every other week, I’m trying to stop, I feel like my addiction is getting out of hand. The come down is such a bitch 😩
I hope you are doing well with this, the come down is a bitch. Just lost my job and girlfriend over it, kept going on benders drinking and doing coke. Disappearing for multiple days. In my first few days of sobriety right now.
Great awareness and you are right to be concerned. But honestly, only doing it at the weekend isn't too far gone what so ever. That is though, how it starts..
Been on and off 10 years. From 8 ball benders on weekends to being able to work on it. Had a kid stopped. Then did grams alone at night when the wife went to bed and felt like a zombie hearing the birds in the am. Built a company sold it, have a wonderful wife n kid but if I continue I know I will fuck everything up. Still doing half grams daily and it’s not fun but it’s hard to stop. Hard truth is before it was fun to do. Now it’s just coke and porn….like bruh I have a pretty wife that I chose to ignore some nights just to sniff in silence and jackoff. I feel so ashamed of myself.
Try slowly replacing it with a good cannabis and your central nervous system will hopefully start to relax and want to welcome back the bud instead. Worked for me, and I don’t miss 10 years on/off off of high anxiety and constant worry of heart attack, especially now with fentanyl running rampant. Be safe, reconnect with your loved ones, especially sexually with your wife. Porn is a whole other beast but easier w/out blow and not by yourself. You got this!
You have described my life exactly.I'm a huge sniffer and my life has panned out vitually the same as yours and I do what you are describing.I can work when high and I never feel depressed or down after a session.I wish I did because it may help me.I feel more than ever that the time to stop is now.Good luck to you all.
I believe my friend is a coke addict and I’m scared for him and of him most times. It just makes me so sad to see all the comments from you all and think that his future of crashing out is near. I’ve tried my best to be patient and understanding. Even go out of my way to show him different things and that life is good without drugs. But he just lies continuously about it then he becomes so mean and evil. Idk. I’m not even sure why I’m writing this comment. I feel helpless because I cant help him😔 I feel terrible
I'm surprised people say you can't get addicted to cocaine, first time I did cocaine I knew exactly what I was doing and that helped me a lot to realize that was just a time were I experimented a lot, the thing is that's a thin line and you can get lost or die. Education helps to avoid additions but it doesn't really worth doing it while you spend a lot of money damage your body and having the risk of die suddenly.
I have a friend she hid her use she uses everyday. It's hard because I'm so imperfect and I look up to her. I just hope she will get better because whatever she's going through inside to be doing this has to be way harder then the pain I feel watching her.ive been sober since 2019. Life made me quite it's easier to get help first
I’ve been struggling with crack on and off for a few years now. My last relapse sent me into a very bad depression (I was borderline suicidal). My cravings have been very bad lately. I’m 50/50 about quitting though. I know there’s a lot of fentanyl out there, which is also scary. I’m able to be sort of “functional” in that I’m able to keep my job and a roof over my head. I just hate the mood swings that come with it… and having no money to get more sucks 😩😒
It’s always the first time experience which has the primary call back. The first step is identifying the many downsides and compare to the minimal upsides it makes it a lot easier when one is truly honest about this truth then walking away becomes the logical choice. Learn to hate the drug and everything it represents
So it’s hard to admit but I’ve an addict to this drug. I am aware I need help. And I want to stop. But when I have it I can’t stop, I have to do it all. And I’m really struggling now with my working life and my social life. I’m tired, loosing weight, not eating and I’m so exhausted. I used to be happy and fun. And now I’m not okay. So to anyone thinking about trying it. DONT! Because I have huge regrets! Be safe ❤
Friend of mine keeps asking to get it for her, and even begging me to pay for it. Always promising it's the last time. Worst is that when she does it, she becomes aggressive and won't shut up.
Eric can you do a avideo on the steps you took to get out of coke addiction and how you stay away . Also how long have you had clean ? Im unfortunately an addict myself and am struggling with the same thing , but i think something is calling me trying to let me know it needs to stop … its been causing massive paranoid delusions and is no way to live . I get clean for months then i forget and relapse . How do i prevent this . Every relapse is hell .
i need to get away right now im on 5g a day sometimes i shoot intravenous, im from eu and we have flood of coke last two years, gram cost about 80 to 100euros. but is suprisingly pure. im thinking of moving for now im stuck. i work and have money dont know for how long. god help me.
Hey, you’re gonna do it! Things are really bad now, but you can always do it. Search for help immediatly. You gotta admit you were defeat by coke. Don’t try to fight it! Not by yourself. You need help, try narcotics anonymous, therapy, etc. I wish for you what I wish for me: to be released from this slavery and reach freedom to live and search for peace. If u can, tell me how u doing. You’re important for me and for everyone who is struggling against addiction. We need u to be fine, so we can also do that
Kindly reach out to a psychedelic experienced doctor I got some guidelines and psilocybin mushrooms from, he got all pyschedelic stuffs and more. I got better from my anxiety also helped in exploration of my human psyched.
Coke is mostly just fun for me right now. Never felt like I need it. Alcohol on the other hand, that is the vice I can't kick. I don't need it every day but at least 3-4 times a week.
I have been sober 4+ months. My addiction started with cocaine as well, I really enjoyed it. But my addiction completely flew off the rails once I found crack - the more instant and intense version of the cocaine high. Way more expensive, way shorter lasting high, it made me crazy. I was truly obsessed. I tried to manage it every day and it only kept getting worse. The phenomenon of craving for an addict is always there - our "allergy" as described in AA.
Agree. Cravings are always always there. There is no point in trying once because some of us just don't know how to stop for good. There's nothing like one drink or one line or one pill
A not so fun fact - rats in isolation had 2 water spouts to choose from and always chose 1 dropper with cocaine. Didn’t eat, just drank and drank, became agitated and aggressive. Take the same rat, add more rats, ie a social environment and it never drank the cocaine water again. We as people start doing it in social settings then isolate ourselves...
Very interesting observation. I knew about the rat experiment but it's interesting thinking about how we start certain drugs in social environments then go into isolation due to them. But... I don't believe the social environments of cocaine is exactly genuine meaningful ones... People are likely isolated and in empty company in the first place.
Dont do cocaine ever in your life i have hit the rock bottom with it I was doing 3 days non stop taking more than 30 grams in this 3 days rest one day and start again I am in the fourth month that I have stopped and I thank good evry day that I have not die and I have the chance to live again life is amazing beautiful I love life but with coco I was thinking to kill my self I hated my self I hated the person that cocaine make me I have just say it I don’t want it anymore stop meeting people that do coco and I have find the peace don’t let this shit stupid horrible thing to take you life you worth more you have life to live take care of your self
I wish it was easy for people to get of it tho I never tried it, the feeling it gives you try to act like you do when your on coke. I believe you can replicate any high any drug gives you manifest that feeling when your sober
Very easy to become addicted to this stuff living in Liverpool literally half of my mates I went to school with took the wrong path and started selling this along with other drugs. It’s literally so easy to get your hands on
My divine God lead me to your page I’m recovery light worker and I’ve been talking about getting peoples light back from the spiritual realm. I lost touch of teaching about it to the addiction realm. Thank u
I did c. Multiple times. Mostly on my own. the purest one in South America. What I don’t understand is that people are talking about c. Only about the confidence and how invisible it makes you, but what about the down side. Honestly, I was a bit disappointed because for me the downside is much bigger than the upside. You Are high for 20 minutes AND then for the next hours you will tell Like shit If you dont do it again. It makes you feel much worse than better I think. But please let me understand where I am missing the point.
I only sniff blow at work and I have trouble speaking when talk too. I won’t never spend all I have on it because I know how hard I worked to make a living tbh I’ll prefer eating a great big meal. My advice to those who struggle mentally do enough of it in one night were you feel it’s not doing nothing to you anymore
Any advice ? Not a raging coke head (hope at least) I started using at the age of 21 (23 now) and only mainly used it to keep up with work but now everytime I try to stop I feel like I can’t do my job and feel slower.
I started when I was 18 I’m 34 now and I’m 7 months clean. I started a little at a time and i turned into a raging coke head . It’s all in your head. You’re in control you gotta control it don’t let it control you. But if you really want to stop you got to mean it.
A cocaine addict being prescribed adderall is the same thing as an opiate addict being on methadone. You're still using but you're just doing it legally.
Respectfully - this is not factual or scientifically true. If someone has medically diagnosed ADHD, they physically have less dopamine. Adderal or other stimulants can level those individuals and make them like the “average person chemically.” This is no different than medication for someone who has diabetes. This is shown on brain scans from medical professionals - it’s not an excuse. If you take stimulants on the right therapeutic dose, and truly need them/don’t abuse them, it’s not like methadone. It actually can prevent addiction, stress, mental health conditions, diseases, etc.
I searched for this video and ive done cocaine a handful of times in my life never more than a night with friends. Im 38 and haven't touched it for about 4 years. I dont think everyone who searched this video is an addict. Some if us are interested in people and how addiction can have people in such a strong grip. I dont judge. I wish each and every person thats commented here exposing themselves and there addiction all the luck in the world and im amazed at how many people have the courage to openly admit there struggles. Some really brave people here who just need help
It’s dangerous when you’re an alcoholic, first you do some lines when you’re drunk , next thing you know every time you drink your need to get a bag too… pretty soon alcohol and coke or one in the same
same for me but with xanax :( it’s like any time my inhibitions are down my default thought is cocaine. and honestly just all the time. this shit has ruined me
I ruined video games for myself due to my coke addiction. It started out Me and my friend would buy a bag (like a g to a half ball.) on Friday night and hang out have a few beers and play cod or whatever was new at the time. 1 or 2 am would come around and we still had the ability at that time to call it a night when the coke was gone…. It got worse and worse and worse over the next couple years to the point where we would buy a ball on Friday night be locked in on whatever game we were playing and kill the entire ball by 6 or 7 am before the last of the first ball was gone one of us was already blowing up every dealer we knew at 6:30 in the morning lmfao for them to come deliver the second ball that we would also destroy while playing g video games all day Saturday by like midnight 1 am on saturday night the second ball would be gone. To which another bag would be ordered… we were legit every weekend for a good few months starting Friday night and with no sleep, nothing to drink other than beer and no food whatsoever… playing video games for 3 fdays straight…
There were many times where I know for sure I was on the brink of dying to that time period too. People who have gone on multiple day venders with no sleep will understand what I mean there.
THIS IS GROSS !!! But I am seriously curious abd worried about gigantic coke boogers. Some get so big they are almost 2 big to cime out. There arent sny videos on it really. Is this normal? How long can you shoot those out?! Is that my flesh as well??
yeah the clogged nose is a bitch. and yes it is your skin i’ve been on the shit two year and i have a hole straight through my nose i can literally fit my pointer finger through.
Sobriety is the rule and being high on ck is rather an exception + ability to not take it from any day and for several months. Is this enough to be considered not addicted?
Next week I'm going to start a you tube thingee, so I can make money off of all my bad things I did in life, or say I did. Explain without looking it up ,how do your cells react without?
I’m on a 3 day bender… I wouldn’t say I’m an addict but I feel it pulling me in I’m starting my 24hrs tomorrow! Thanks for the video man hope all of you nothing but blessings
All it does to me is make me loss appetite I went from 64 to. 4 in jeans but it doesn’t make me go like people do but I believe bars makes u crazy coke don make me chase it
This makes me think about my addiction to alcohol and nicotine. I can get alcohol and nicotine less than a mile from my house. I never though of that before.
I stopped smoking, it costs a lot and it destroys your body. After i quit smoking my taste came back like 10 times better, i can smell and taste things like i never did before. And your skin looks 10 times better and you dont have any worry about any smoked related issues anymore.
what funny tho is weed is almost as expensive as coke now. at $30-50 a gram. in CA more like 30 but still its almost the same but the weed is addictive too people just dont admit it. if you stop you dont eat for a month. dont sleep, nausea, anxiety panic attacks. Its just as bad, especially after a decade or 2 of use.
You an tell you’re still obsessed w/ coke because you’ve made 1,000,000 videos on it. It has defined your existence it seems. Very sad from a viewing experience
Cocaine addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder, got diagnosed with OCD. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
My addiction started innocently enough-just a weekend thing, a party drug with friends. But soon, I was buying it for myself, using it alone. I stopped going out, not because I didn’t want to party, but because I didn’t want to share. Slowly, I began neglecting everything that mattered-my relationships, my responsibilities, my life. When my cousin passed away, instead of facing the grief, I drowned in cocaine. I spiraled out of control, and eventually and understandably, my girl dumped me. What followed was a two-year bender that consumed everything-my time, my money, my friendships. I was stuck in a cycle of destruction, unaware of how much I was losing with each passing day. Then one morning, I woke up and realized: two years of my life were gone, spent chasing a high that gave me nothing but emptiness in return. The damage was done. But today, I stand here, one year clean-rebuilding, healing, and finally learning how to live again.
I find the scariest part of the addiction is when you come to the realisation that you’re addicted.
Horrible feeling of just feeling trapped like there’s no way out.
I know the feeling. I stopped two of my addictions cold turkey. It's been 3 weeks and I've managed to stay completely off one. The other I've done twice since then, but I feel I have more control over it. I used to do it together and it's actually not that interesting on its own.
I'm an addict of 3.5+ per day and I'm terrified of quitting but I hate myself when I use. I'm starting my first 24hrs of getting sober, it's time. Thank you for all your videos to give others confidence to be sober.
in time you will learn to hate it
I’ve tried coke 4 times and each time I’ve hated it but my older brother got into it and relapsed again this year best of luck bro
Good luck I’m on a 3 day bender I’m 21… not a good look for me I’m gonna start my first 24 hrs sober tomorrow
@@OGKei- I’m 20, in the same situation after work I partake ❄️
Done q eating it snifffing trying top
Myself idk how explain don't enjoy it At all idek why done it
People who admit they were/are cocaine addicts are way more rare than coke addicts themselves.
Interesting
it's true
That's true for any abused substance or people
@@palatialslumlord4938 I think opioid addicts are more admitting to their addiction it's just they become so hopeless they don't even care. I agree coke addicts more usually don't admit or even realize they're addicts. Alcohol would be somewhere in the middle only because it's so socially acceptable it's easier to rationalize.
I’m committed not addicted but it keep controlling me
I realized I was an addict I was doing it more days a week than I wasn’t doing it. When it goes from a weekend thing to a weekday thing you are now an addict.
The worst is when you run out. That feeling is one of the worst feelings ever. And that’s what stops me using cocaine now
True and how did you quit ?
honestly if it’s to the point where you’re doing it alone and all the time you have a problem
Even if you „just“ do it on weekends when drinking you get addicted. Know a lot of people where it started like that (including myself)
I only do it while writing but I consider it a problem
Yeah
I am absolutely obsessed right now. I tell myself all kinds of stupid shit to justify my addiction. Thank you for the wake up call
What do u tell yourself?
Coke makes me feel like I have a halfway charged battery to light the universe but when it's gone I feel like a fool .. that rush makes u feel like your a genuine intellectual being. Until it's time to recover.. you don't even wanna be seen 😢
That's pathetic
It’s spot on how I feel too. I did an ounce a week. Now 1 month sober. Can’t believe what I’ve done
I’m just over 10 months sober from cocaine. Thank you for sharing and making me feel less alone when I needed it the most. Appreciate your content and spreading awareness.
I secretly used it heaviky for 15 years an haven't touched it for 6months when i eventually realised i had a priblem. Cant stop thinking about it. Its constantly there. Everywhere i go, i seem to bump in2 a dealer i know. How long was it b4 them thoughts go. Losing my mind.
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How did you do it? What was your method?
@@User-5amk1m0 when my friends who also participated realized I was taking it WAY too seriously far they said I should slow down, I was doing 2 grams a day at the time and slowly worked down to a half gram a day. One day I had to go to work without any and I broke down to my boss (talk about awkward) he ended up helping me get time off work and I had to go stay with my grandma away from everything and also have zero access to getting coke. I also saw an addiction therapist for the first year and a half once a week to help keep me on track which was a good outlet. I’m currently almost 2.5 years sober from cocaine and I still think about it almost daily but I just remind myself that is 100% not worth it and I will absolutely take it way to far again if I ever try it again. Take it one day at a time and remind yourself that you are worth it and that shit is dangerous and stops you from being true to yourself. Best of luck to you and anyone struggling.
@@User-5amk1m0 my friends who also participated in doing cocaine noticed I had a problem and was taking it to the extreme. I was doing 2 grams a day and they suggested I start to taper down, so I got down to a half gram a day. One day I had to go to work and didn’t have a bag and my boss noticed I was acting strange and I broke down to him about everything and he was kind enough to help get me time off work. I did coke one last time the next day and the following day I left to go stay with my grandma where I couldn’t get my hands on any coke and to just get away from everything. That week was rough and I slept as much as possible but took it day by day. I also ended up seeing an addiction counselor a few times a month which definitely helped me stay on track. Currently I am almost 2.5 years sober and everyday I am so thankful I quit but I do still think about doing it. But gotta remind myself I am worth being clean from coke. I think the biggest thing to take from this is ASK FOR HELP. It will be very hard todo it alone, let people in and let them help. Be kind to yourself. Take it one day at a time. You got this and you are worth it.
Thank you for your videos I’m an addict of 8 years I’ve tried everything to stop with no luck I hate the drug but just can’t stop your videos are inspiring though you’ve been through a lot so that gives me hope I’d love a coke free life sorry to hear everything you’ve been through but well done on becoming the man you are a true hero to some
don't even try doing any drugs folks, it will destroy.
There's literally no difference between cocaine and alcohol. If you're an alcoholic, it will ruin your life in the same way cocaine addiction will. The only reason is the legality status.
Unless you're a person with discipline.
@@Biohazard1999coke‘s probably even worse for your body and it ruins you a lot more coz of the money
@@palatialslumlord4938used to be like that, disciplined af - onet raunatizing experience made me do every drug I could get my hands on except psychedelics and opioids
@@palatialslumlord4938 You'll be surprised how little discipline means in the realm of true addiction. You can be the most upstanding person beaming with willpower in every area of your life and then fall into an addiction and you have no control.
I just ended a 3-year relationship with a drug addict he was a functioning Coke addict work everyday even though he was not toxic so we did not argue but I got tired of The 3-6 week disappearing act inconsistencies and nothing but broken promises
Hopefully you will get better soon
The drug will ALWAYS come first!
Mine would always start an argument with me out of nowhere! He would accuse me of things, want to argue with me alllll night about it, even got physical with me a few times. Than would want to have sex with me when he was coming down from it. It was awful.
Once you prevent taking that first line youre on your way to success. After doing the first line the second, third, 5th, 20th will follow. Get yourselves in a new routine and keep your head held high! There's way more to live than cocaine highs, porn and sleepless nights with fucked up noses.
Damn that hit deep
I was a coke addict as well. No one in my family ever did that. But I am sober for 5 + years now and I have to stay away from it.
Congratulations on your soberness!
Glad that you survived and recovered. ❤
I’m struggling right now. I first did coke about a year ago. Didn’t buy a bag until a few months ago. I thought a had control, but the way you put in the video. This is exactly how I’m feeling now. I think the fact I’m looking these videos up, I’m definitely ditching coke. Too much money, I’ve been starting to have anxiety attacks because of it. Thank you for the inspiration ❤ I got this ❤
Same here. You got this. 32 days in for me.
Me too, I have anxiety for it. Then when I take it it seems to call me down? But isn't the drug supposed to Hype you up and not have anxiety? To me it's like having five Red Bulls. Just like James Brown said. Cocaine's a wonderful drug. And I'm starting to second-guess myself.
Kindly reach out to a psychedelic experienced doctor I got some guidelines and psilocybin mushrooms from, he got all pyschedelic stuffs and more. I got better from my anxiety also helped in exploration of my human psyched.
He's on Instagrams and Telegram as
chequefibs1√√
I'm tired of it why do I keep doing it
100%. Wake up never wanting to do it again, then evening rolls around and it's the only thing you can think about. Fucking insidious, so tired of this.
It is tough, you think just one line, a bit of laugh.. next thing and it is 7 in the morning and you are looking is there is any line left
@@lukestadther1218you’ve just described my life, I’m starting tomorrow turning my phone off shutting myself off from everyone and getting over this filthy drug.
I was very bad on it in my early to late 20s very early 30s and I was obsessed, it’s all I ever talked about and I’d be obsessed in different batches, trying so many different dealers coke and I was obsessed in points of the grams, always had nose problems, I played competitive sport and there were times I thought I’d have a heart attack as I was not always in a fit state to be playing sport or doing intense exercise and scariest thing is I wasn’t even scared at the time, I only cared about doing more coke, I hardly ever slept but eventually I’d get run down and slept for hours and hours to recover .. got in loads of debt. In the end I lost all my false confidence on coke it was no longer a party like it was originally and id lay in my bed, no tv, no music, nothing just on my own sniffing lines after lines binging on it and my body would be shaking - in the end it took my confidence away it didn’t give me it anymore … thankfully I’m good now and have been alcohol free for over a years which also helps
If you cant say no, then you are an addict. If you cannot stop, you are an addict. Things become much better when you just ACCEPT and ACT. Life is beautiful in sobreity. I never was spiritual. Keep moving on with your life in recovery. dont fear. You dont need to know all the answers and you dont need the assurance from anyone that you will be able to get through this. Just keep going, withdrawals first drained me, but then they gave me the strength and confidence that I live my life with. Trust me, spirituality will catch up with you.
I was an alcohol addict. It took me 3 years to become sober. ❤
I Don’t do coke everyday. But every Weeknd I do partake. And I do about a ball a week or every other week, I’m trying to stop, I feel like my addiction is getting out of hand. The come down is such a bitch 😩
If you do cocaine you’re a cocaine addict
I hope you are doing well with this, the come down is a bitch. Just lost my job and girlfriend over it, kept going on benders drinking and doing coke. Disappearing for multiple days. In my first few days of sobriety right now.
Yeah bro I feel that
Great awareness and you are right to be concerned. But honestly, only doing it at the weekend isn't too far gone what so ever. That is though, how it starts..
Been off the cocaine for 10 years. It really is a powerful drug.
Been on and off 10 years.
From 8 ball benders on weekends to being able to work on it.
Had a kid stopped. Then did grams alone at night when the wife went to bed and felt like a zombie hearing the birds in the am.
Built a company sold it, have a wonderful wife n kid but if I continue I know I will fuck everything up.
Still doing half grams daily and it’s not fun but it’s hard to stop.
Hard truth is before it was fun to do. Now it’s just coke and porn….like bruh I have a pretty wife that I chose to ignore some nights just to sniff in silence and jackoff.
I feel so ashamed of myself.
Try slowly replacing it with a good cannabis and your central nervous system will hopefully start to relax and want to welcome back the bud instead. Worked for me, and I don’t miss 10 years on/off off of high anxiety and constant worry of heart attack, especially now with fentanyl running rampant. Be safe, reconnect with your loved ones, especially sexually with your wife. Porn is a whole other beast but easier w/out blow and not by yourself. You got this!
@@Issy585 yeah I don’t think more drugs is the answer… & I do not think you’re a doctor…
@@RonaldRagn LOL just stop
You have described my life exactly.I'm a huge sniffer and my life has panned out vitually the same as yours and I do what you are describing.I can work when high and I never feel depressed or down after a session.I wish I did because it may help me.I feel more than ever that the time to stop is now.Good luck to you all.
Sounds like my ex-husband😔
I believe my friend is a coke addict and I’m scared for him and of him most times. It just makes me so sad to see all the comments from you all and think that his future of crashing out is near. I’ve tried my best to be patient and understanding. Even go out of my way to show him different things and that life is good without drugs. But he just lies continuously about it then he becomes so mean and evil. Idk. I’m not even sure why I’m writing this comment. I feel helpless because I cant help him😔 I feel terrible
Why does he takes it ?
I’m in the exact same boat with a friend of mine 😣
I'm surprised people say you can't get addicted to cocaine, first time I did cocaine I knew exactly what I was doing and that helped me a lot to realize that was just a time were I experimented a lot, the thing is that's a thin line and you can get lost or die. Education helps to avoid additions but it doesn't really worth doing it while you spend a lot of money damage your body and having the risk of die suddenly.
You can stop. I believe in you
i finally recognized i am an addict but i cant stop
I have a friend she hid her use she uses everyday. It's hard because I'm so imperfect and I look up to her. I just hope she will get better because whatever she's going through inside to be doing this has to be way harder then the pain I feel watching her.ive been sober since 2019. Life made me quite it's easier to get help first
I’ve been struggling with crack on and off for a few years now. My last relapse sent me into a very bad depression (I was borderline suicidal). My cravings have been very bad lately. I’m 50/50 about quitting though. I know there’s a lot of fentanyl out there, which is also scary. I’m able to be sort of “functional” in that I’m able to keep my job and a roof over my head. I just hate the mood swings that come with it… and having no money to get more sucks 😩😒
I’m on cocaine rn. I keep a log of when I use it in order to reference patterns and quantity usage
Still a cocaine addict
He's on Instagrams and Telegram as
chequefibs1√√
Day 3 detox for me PRAY FOR ME
May god bless your soul and confidence you’ve got this
Stay strong ,stay focused, and hate what it's done to you ! YAHUAH BLESS YOUR SOUL
Always makes me laugh when someone says they do drink but not 'drugs' alchahol is a drug...And a bad one..
It’s always the first time experience which has the primary call back. The first step is identifying the many downsides and compare to the minimal upsides it makes it a lot easier when one is truly honest about this truth then walking away becomes the logical choice. Learn to hate the drug and everything it represents
It’s starting to be all I think about, starting to scare me I can’t fight the urge
Me too 😟😞😔☹️☹️ and they encourage me to keep doing it my mind
So it’s hard to admit but I’ve an addict to this drug. I am aware I need help. And I want to stop. But when I have it I can’t stop, I have to do it all. And I’m really struggling now with my working life and my social life. I’m tired, loosing weight, not eating and I’m so exhausted. I used to be happy and fun. And now I’m not okay. So to anyone thinking about trying it. DONT! Because I have huge regrets! Be safe ❤
Friend of mine keeps asking to get it for her, and even begging me to pay for it. Always promising it's the last time. Worst is that when she does it, she becomes aggressive and won't shut up.
It's one addiction I struggle to get, the withdrawals are none existent/moderate and you can genuinely remove your access to it
Eric can you do a avideo on the steps you took to get out of coke addiction and how you stay away .
Also how long have you had clean ?
Im unfortunately an addict myself and am struggling with the same thing , but i think something is calling me trying to let me know it needs to stop … its been causing massive paranoid delusions and is no way to live . I get clean for months then i forget and relapse . How do i prevent this .
Every relapse is hell .
It is bro I feel u but I feel the best thing is to just stop I don't see no other way out but death and how have you been 🙏
God bless you brother!! Stay strong!! You are better than all of this!!
i need to get away right now im on 5g a day sometimes i shoot intravenous, im from eu and we have flood of coke last two years, gram cost about 80 to 100euros. but is suprisingly pure. im thinking of moving for now im stuck. i work and have money dont know for how long. god help me.
Hey, you’re gonna do it! Things are really bad now, but you can always do it. Search for help immediatly. You gotta admit you were defeat by coke. Don’t try to fight it! Not by yourself. You need help, try narcotics anonymous, therapy, etc. I wish for you what I wish for me: to be released from this slavery and reach freedom to live and search for peace. If u can, tell me how u doing. You’re important for me and for everyone who is struggling against addiction. We need u to be fine, so we can also do that
Kindly reach out to a psychedelic experienced doctor I got some guidelines and psilocybin mushrooms from, he got all pyschedelic stuffs and more. I got better from my anxiety also helped in exploration of my human psyched.
He's on Instagrams and Telegram as
chequefibs1√√
Stop. Pure evil @@Reellife-rb3yn
Coke is mostly just fun for me right now. Never felt like I need it. Alcohol on the other hand, that is the vice I can't kick. I don't need it every day but at least 3-4 times a week.
I have been sober 4+ months. My addiction started with cocaine as well, I really enjoyed it. But my addiction completely flew off the rails once I found crack - the more instant and intense version of the cocaine high. Way more expensive, way shorter lasting high, it made me crazy. I was truly obsessed. I tried to manage it every day and it only kept getting worse. The phenomenon of craving for an addict is always there - our "allergy" as described in AA.
1st dynamite hit is all it takes, chasing , didnt even realize the day is gone and its dark outside
Agree. Cravings are always always there. There is no point in trying once because some of us just don't know how to stop for good. There's nothing like one drink or one line or one pill
I think I’m becoming addicted to this substance, one thing I notice is that alcohol is the catalyst of bringing up coke to the table.
A not so fun fact - rats in isolation had 2 water spouts to choose from and always chose 1 dropper with cocaine. Didn’t eat, just drank and drank, became agitated and aggressive. Take the same rat, add more rats, ie a social environment and it never drank the cocaine water again. We as people start doing it in social settings then isolate ourselves...
Very interesting observation. I knew about the rat experiment but it's interesting thinking about how we start certain drugs in social environments then go into isolation due to them. But... I don't believe the social environments of cocaine is exactly genuine meaningful ones... People are likely isolated and in empty company in the first place.
Dont do cocaine ever in your life i have hit the rock bottom with it I was doing 3 days non stop taking more than 30 grams in this 3 days rest one day and start again I am in the fourth month that I have stopped and I thank good evry day that I have not die and I have the chance to live again life is amazing beautiful I love life but with coco I was thinking to kill my self I hated my self I hated the person that cocaine make me I have just say it I don’t want it anymore stop meeting people that do coco and I have find the peace don’t let this shit stupid horrible thing to take you life you worth more you have life to live take care of your self
1st day trying to get sober 17 yrs old been using every weekend for the past couple Months need to stop
I wish it was easy for people to get of it tho I never tried it, the feeling it gives you try to act like you do when your on coke. I believe you can replicate any high any drug gives you manifest that feeling when your sober
That has to be one of the dumbest things I have ever heard.
You can replicate shit, what yout talking about ?
My ex always did coke and I didn’t. I couldn’t take it anymore. It ruined our relationship.
Very easy to become addicted to this stuff living in Liverpool literally half of my mates I went to school with took the wrong path and started selling this along with other drugs. It’s literally so easy to get your hands on
My divine God lead me to your page I’m recovery light worker and I’ve been talking about getting peoples light back from the spiritual realm. I lost touch of teaching about it to the addiction realm. Thank u
I did c. Multiple times. Mostly on my own. the purest one in South America. What I don’t understand is that people are talking about c. Only about the confidence and how invisible it makes you, but what about the down side. Honestly, I was a bit disappointed because for me the downside is much bigger than the upside. You Are high for 20 minutes AND then for the next hours you will tell Like shit If you dont do it again. It makes you feel much worse than better I think. But please let me understand where I am missing the point.
hey i just started cocaine.. im only 20 i’ve been on it everyday for about a week am i an addict ?
I only sniff blow at work and I have trouble speaking when talk too. I won’t never spend all I have on it because I know how hard I worked to make a living tbh I’ll prefer eating a great big meal. My advice to those who struggle mentally do enough of it in one night were you feel it’s not doing nothing to you anymore
Any advice ? Not a raging coke head (hope at least) I started using at the age of 21 (23 now) and only mainly used it to keep up with work but now everytime I try to stop I feel like I can’t do my job and feel slower.
I started when I was 18 I’m 34 now and I’m 7 months clean. I started a little at a time and i turned into a raging coke head . It’s all in your head. You’re in control you gotta control it don’t let it control you. But if you really want to stop you got to mean it.
You used it for many years yet you didn’t develop chest pains (angina )??
Did it make you break out when you used booze and blow together?
Damn bro that shit wild. Stevie Nicks was addicted and so was Robin Williams. Both of which share the same personality type as me.
:0 omg im also an enfp addict
A cocaine addict being prescribed adderall is the same thing as an opiate addict being on methadone. You're still using but you're just doing it legally.
Respectfully - this is not factual or scientifically true. If someone has medically diagnosed ADHD, they physically have less dopamine. Adderal or other stimulants can level those individuals and make them like the “average person chemically.” This is no different than medication for someone who has diabetes.
This is shown on brain scans from medical professionals - it’s not an excuse. If you take stimulants on the right therapeutic dose, and truly need them/don’t abuse them, it’s not like methadone. It actually can prevent addiction, stress, mental health conditions, diseases, etc.
Also I talked to CG kid and he said he doesn’t want to be your friend anymore
But love oneself more for the healthy shift of thought
Taking a shot while watching this
If you searched for and clicked on this video your probably addicted💀,if this video came on randomly well we learn something new everyday I guess.😂😭
I searched for this video and ive done cocaine a handful of times in my life never more than a night with friends. Im 38 and haven't touched it for about 4 years. I dont think everyone who searched this video is an addict. Some if us are interested in people and how addiction can have people in such a strong grip. I dont judge. I wish each and every person thats commented here exposing themselves and there addiction all the luck in the world and im amazed at how many people have the courage to openly admit there struggles. Some really brave people here who just need help
Just had a line while watching this 😮
It’s dangerous when you’re an alcoholic, first you do some lines when you’re drunk , next thing you know every time you drink your need to get a bag too… pretty soon alcohol and coke or one in the same
same for me but with xanax :( it’s like any time my inhibitions are down my default thought is cocaine. and honestly just all the time. this shit has ruined me
You can be addcited to anything. We havs 1 reward centre in the brain....
if i can go days doing it but then wait a whole day and feel fine then am i really an addict ?
I ruined video games for myself due to my coke addiction. It started out Me and my friend would buy a bag (like a g to a half ball.) on Friday night and hang out have a few beers and play cod or whatever was new at the time. 1 or 2 am would come around and we still had the ability at that time to call it a night when the coke was gone…. It got worse and worse and worse over the next couple years to the point where we would buy a ball on Friday night be locked in on whatever game we were playing and kill the entire ball by 6 or 7 am before the last of the first ball was gone one of us was already blowing up every dealer we knew at 6:30 in the morning lmfao for them to come deliver the second ball that we would also destroy while playing g video games all day Saturday by like midnight 1 am on saturday night the second ball would be gone. To which another bag would be ordered… we were legit every weekend for a good few months starting Friday night and with no sleep, nothing to drink other than beer and no food whatsoever… playing video games for 3 fdays straight…
Literally blowing like $600-$700 of coke every weekend between two people
There were many times where I know for sure I was on the brink of dying to that time period too. People who have gone on multiple day venders with no sleep will understand what I mean there.
@jasondriscoll9507
Absolutely know what your saying
I dont care for the high, i just wanna get skinny
Good excuse😆
Exercise and be intentional about what you eat? Comes with a lot less risk than doing cocaine..
I was 9 months clean sober until last month. Very pointless drug for only a high up to 15-30min
i'll share my story with you pne day
I definitely relate to the lays potato chips addiction xd
I haved tried a couple things/drugs and for me the worst is nicotine and cocaine , weed is nothing compared too that .
THIS IS GROSS !!! But I am seriously curious abd worried about gigantic coke boogers. Some get so big they are almost 2 big to cime out. There arent sny videos on it really. Is this normal? How long can you shoot those out?! Is that my flesh as well??
yeah the clogged nose is a bitch. and yes it is your skin i’ve been on the shit two year and i have a hole straight through my nose i can literally fit my pointer finger through.
Sobriety is the rule and being high on ck is rather an exception + ability to not take it from any day and for several months. Is this enough to be considered not addicted?
Next week I'm going to start a you tube thingee, so I can make money off of all my bad things I did in life, or say I did.
Explain without looking it up ,how do your cells react without?
Me: “UH OH!😓🥺”
I’m on a 3 day bender… I wouldn’t say I’m an addict but I feel it pulling me in I’m starting my 24hrs tomorrow! Thanks for the video man hope all of you nothing but blessings
just came off a 4 day bender
How are you guys now?
@@krista9852dead
I'm I'm okay until I get paid Friday every weekend repeat wanna quit but it seems like every payday I grab even when telling myself no
All it does to me is make me loss appetite I went from 64 to. 4 in jeans but it doesn’t make me go like people do but I believe bars makes u crazy coke don make me chase it
were you already taking adderall before you became addicted to cocaine?
This makes me think about my addiction to alcohol and nicotine. I can get alcohol and nicotine less than a mile from my house. I never though of that before.
I stopped smoking, it costs a lot and it destroys your body. After i quit smoking my taste came back like 10 times better, i can smell and taste things like i never did before. And your skin looks 10 times better and you dont have any worry about any smoked related issues anymore.
Is there a way to get rid of the horrible nose feeling like the burning nose and stuffy nose
You dont use any drugs with your nose for a while and it goes away.
Try nasal irrigation
Yeah, it's called sobriety
Vaseline
i use affrin
what funny tho is weed is almost as expensive as coke now. at $30-50 a gram. in CA more like 30 but still its almost the same but the weed is addictive too people just dont admit it. if you stop you dont eat for a month. dont sleep, nausea, anxiety panic attacks. Its just as bad, especially after a decade or 2 of use.
Divorse in early 20’s??? Wtf????
Same here. I got married at 22 and divorced at 24
More and more and more and more
I only do cocaine when I start drinking and smoking cigarettes alcohol is the biggest gate way drug
Colombian marching powder and the Devil’s dandruff.
Does doing cocaine for breakfast within the first 10 minutes of waking up everyday, qualify you?
Again, who tf says that cocaine ain’t addictive 😂😂😂
God bless
Can a cocaine addict really live his family?
I don't even really care for cocaine, I just like the smell of it
Bro that smells so bad
Everyone is weak here 😅😅go to gym
I get a gram or two for one night every month, been doing this for about three years now and every next high feels better than the last one.
For now. Until it doesn’t. I wish for your strength and clarity against the drug.
Coke is such crap these days. Used to be awesome
Nancy Reagan was right, just say no
Well first doing cocaine makes you an cocaine addict so good to admit
You an tell you’re still obsessed w/ coke because you’ve made 1,000,000 videos on it. It has defined your existence it seems. Very sad from a viewing experience