Not sure if its right My dog just ran away and Im feeling pretty bad I've been sneaking out at night and my parents are real mad I've been taking lots of drugs cause they teach me not to care Yeah I guess that's how you cheat because life doesn't play fair My brother told me that he's gonna kill himself tonight With a whole bottle of Prozac Or a shiny kitchen knife He said that when he's dead I'll have his Nintendo 64 And I can play it all I want it sitting On the basement floor My girlfriend told me that she doesn't love me anymore And I wish I didn't care but I thought she was really cool So I drank a ton of liquor then I threw up in her sink She said next time use the toilet then she offered me a drink We past an old man bleeding on the side of the street So I got out of the car and I helped him on his feet His breath smelled like whiskey He was crying like a man When I helped him stand up straight I got his blood all on my hands He said he said "I need a ride home because I got into a fight" He said "I should've seen the other guy but he didn't see my point" He said his house was all the way in the the other side of town So we left him in the road and said we wouldn't turn around
my brother is currently in a coma with pneumonia after an overdose of wellbutrin and zoloft. i love alex g but had never heard this track before; due to the context in my life rn i feel like that verse physically shot me through the heart ,,, especially considering my lil bro had a special interest in mario growing up and still has our nintendo 64
@@huwuwhatsthis9213 im happy to say he's gotten better after some physical therapy and mental health care. i am grateful that I can spend time w him again !!! thank you for asking !!
this song is by far one of the saddest songs ive ever heard. the apathy of the speaker shown in the lyrics combined with the saddness of the instrumental and the tone of the singer's voice (almost sounding like he's about to cry) is just perfect. i would sell my soul to hear this song for the first time again.
@@alexgstruelove 1:) liking unpopular things doesn't make you better than anyone. i'm glad you have an artist you're passionate about but hating on other people for also enjoying it makes me think that you don't care as much about the music as you do about feeling different from other people. i had a similar mindset for a while and it's isolating and childish. 2:) i've listened to a lot of alex g both before and since i've left this comment. i still like this song, although i wouldn't consider it my favorite song or even my favorite of his. my favorite alex g songs are Soaker, Waiting for You, Trash, Know Now, and Track 5 :) 3:) what does total drama have to do with it? i'm not even that big of a fan of it anymore tbh i made this my pfp over a year ago and was too lazy to change it >:D
Listened to this on one of my lonliest birthdays and cried my eyes out. I remember that was my first introduction to Alex G's music. Bad start but as time passed, his music became moreso like the background noise to my adolesence. This and Mary both bring such vivid memories that I look through a happier lense. I am happy in this moment. Love u Alex
"My brother told me that he's gonna kill himself tonight With a whole bottle of Prozac Or a shiny kitchen knife He said that when he's dead I'll have his Nintendo 64 And I can play it all I want it sitting On the basement floor" When I hear this verse, I always think of how my sister would feel if I were gone.
This song always seems to cheer me up whenever I’m down. Alex G’s music has helped me through it. I was first introduced to Alex’s music in 2020 with the song “Treehouse” and I’ve listened to Alex since then
@@DelicateStoriesI get what they mean how I feel when listening just depends on my mood the instrumental aspects of Alex’s songs are so damn groovy but the lyrics r so so sad 😭😭 that’s why his musics so good 2 me tho 😞🙏🏽
knowing this was one of his earlier projects is crazy bc u can see how much his music has evolved vs listening to his newer stuff. both is amazing. love it
my older brother was disabled and felt like a burden because of it. He smoked a lot and even took a place in the cemetery with a bench near the grave. He died in a car accident (he could drive and move his legs but could not walk) trying to dodge another car that drove into the oncoming one. He died of internal bleeding on his birthday. I'm afraid to forget his voice ( srry if there are mistakes in my text, I wrote this with google translator)
My brother was struggling alot last year, he almost ended himself by jumping off a bridge and into traffic. When he talked about this to his therapist, he said that the only reason he didnt jump was because of me. He didnt want me to suffer, and also because my quinceañera would in 2025 while this happened in December. I thank God thats hes alive and better, but this song hit me in the gut because my brother has always told me that I can have his ps4 when he doesnt need it anymore. I love you, bro.
My older brother has chronic depression. He reacts really badly to difficult situations out of his control. I get really afraid of him killing himself when I go to sleep. In 2 years, he is gonna move to another city, Im scared of staying away from him. I love him, I can’t lose him.
I’ve got chronic depression too. I’m 19. My whole life was like that. I kept switching and I think I finally found anti depressants that work for me. Even when things are bad I never feel as desperate as I used to. I promise your brother can get there too.
Yo! Im 14 and ive been having those thoughts recently to, but i know everythings gonna get better eventually, hope your doing better and if you need to talk, I'm a good listener :) Have a good day
I remember my older brother and I would go over to his friends house for sleepovers(it was far but that made it a special occasion). I remember always asking him to play Majora’s Mask on n64. I just loved how it looked. He rarely did because that game takes a certain level of dedication. Really nostalgic memories. There was a lot of Banjo Kazooie as well. I’m almost 23, for context. My family was always very neat and had nice furniture from the mid-century(not rich. My dad is just a thrift shop picker) so going to this friend’s cozy down to earth one story house was pretty special. Anyway, I felt like sharing. Hope y’all are holding up well. God bless.
hey guys my names mac ive lost family to addiction so i just need anyone who is struggling to know that i love you and it gets better edit: i’m so proud of each and everyone of you fighting to stay here 💗 know that this little sister loves you so much
My dog just ran away And I am feeling pretty bad I've been sneaking out at night And my parents are real mad I've been taking lots of drugs Cause they teach me not to care Yeah, I guess that's how you cheat Because life doesn't play fair My brother told me That he's gonna Kill himself tonight With a whole bottle of Prozac Or a shiny kitchen knife He said that when he is dead I'll have his Nintendo 64 And I can play all it night long Sitting on the basement floor My girlfriend told me that She doesn't love me anymore And I wish I didn't care but I thought she was really cool So I drank a ton of liquor Then I threw up in her sink She said next time use the toilet Then she offered me a drink We passed an old man bleeding on the side of the street So I got out of the car and I helped him on his feet His breath smelled like whiskey He was crying like a man When I helped him stand up straight I got his blood all on my hands He said "I need a ride home because I got into a fight" Said "I should've seen the other guy but he didn't see my point" He said his house was all the way on the other side of town So we left him in the road and said we wouldn't turn around
Man it hurts when you’ve felt this way and you’ve had people in your life actually do these things to themselves. The “I guess that’s why you cheat because life’s never fair.” hits a chord in my soul. My heart aches for the collective pain we all go through.
0:53 is why i haven’t kms yet bc it would remind me of how my older sister would sound if I did, I can’t do that to my family. I can’t hurt them like that. That’s the only reason why I’m still here. If anyone can relate I’m so so sorry and please remember it gets better and you are loved🫶🏼
that second verse strikes me like a bullet. ive attempted 3 times and im confused on how im still alive. i feel reallt selfish about it. i cant imagine what my sister would think, i love her so much. maybe one day ill get better. EDIT: IVE MADE IT. IM BETTER. EVERYTHING IS SO GREAT RAAAAA
this song sits in the back of my head everyday because its unreleased i cant shake that i will never have it on spotify and theres nothing i can do its one of if not my favourite Alex g song and i have no idea why he wouldnt release it but life doesnt play fair i guess
My brother was in the hospital for a week due to an overdose, and in his will he gave me his iPad. Thankfully he’s doing ok now, but whenever I hear this song, I just remember how much I have to be grateful for
my friend almost died but texted me, she's fine and i helped the best i could, i hugged her so tight when i saw her the day after this song makes me think of her, she's strong so i can only hope she doesn't attempt and succeed
i remember when i first heard this song i cried really hard. at multiple hard parts of my life i'd often write in my notes that i wanted my little brother to have my video game consoles, so this song makes me very emotional haha
maybe he think this lyrics is too heavy and sad at the same time to put out on a mature album today, as well some others songs unreleased (but would he can change the lyrics a little bit, just preserving the melodie and harmony) :)
This song is just radiating with so much energy. I couldn’t possibly explain it. I’ve always had thoughts, and it’s so hard to get rid of. I don’t know why I feel so dull, but I’ve been feeling so dull since some point of time. Since elementary, dating all the way back to 5th grade, I’ve been through some crazy things, but nothing major. Then 7th grade made me question everything. Every night I would ache in bed and cry until I got a headache. And the worst part is, my life is so good. I’m so lucky, and blessed to have such an understanding group of people around me. But then there’s just so many other things I feel guilty for, and I’m there questioning again. It’s a cycle and it hurts, but I’m doing my best to improve. I feel bad for the people who have to witness me like this because I’m aware that it might be hurting them. At the end of the day, I’m just here. Walking around. And that’s all I can say . But anyway, love Alex g!
currently going through a lot as I'm losing myself in school, socializing, health, eating, sleeping, family, and sports. I've recently joined a travel ball team for softball and everything was pretty good. practices were different and difficult. I had to push myself. I met new ppl that I absolutely love. recently I had my first game, went well, lost 1 won 1. even though I was doing great my leg has started hurting. I've been wearing a knee brace but it isn't working. my parents don't believe I'm that hurt but they said tmr if my leg hurts at my games I have to take a break off for a few weeks and that's scary. a break for me could be the end. I could go into a worse slump then what I'm doing in general. I have no one to talk to as nobody gets it. my friends say that my sport is stupid and boring but I love it. it's difficult as I'm not a strong batter and my fav person has taken my fav position and replaced me. idek if they'll play me anymore. I joined to get better not be out played by better ppl. I'm honestly scared and praying for myself.
Lyrics. My dog just ran away and I'm feeling pretty bad I've been sneaking out at night and my parents are real mad I've been taking lots of drugs, 'cause they teach me not to care Yeah, I guess that's how you cheat because life doesn't play fair My brother told me that he's gonna kill himself tonight With a whole bottle of Prozac or a shiny kitchen knife He said that when he's dead I'll have his Nintendo 64 And I could play it all night long, sitting on the basement floor. My girlfriend told me that she doesn't love me anymore And I wish I didn't care but I thought she was really cool So I drank a ton of liquor then I threw up in her sink She said next time use the toilet then she offered me a drink. We passed an old man bleeding on the side of the street So I got out of the car and I helped him on his feet His breath smelled like whiskey, he was crying like a man When I helped him stand up straight I got his blood all on my hands He said he said "I need a ride home because I got into a fight" He said "I should've seen the other guy but he didn't see my point" He said his house was all the way in the the other side of town So we left him in the road and said we wouldn't turn around.
My brother just drunk two bottles of vodka and hes only 17. It was so horrible seeing him throwing up, not responding and not being able to stand. I dont know if he did it on purpose to yk. I really hope hes okay. I really need him and i love him.
I just realized I didn’t get the full version on my Spotify local files and now I need to go to RUclips every time I listen to it cause that last part is crucial to the song
hey i know this comment was posted 3 years ago and you might not even see this, but even if i don't know your story, i think just the fact that you can look back on the things you did and regret them to this point is a reason you should stay. this sounds super weird but i think you can do awesome things if you can accept that you made mistakes (which, at least at the time of your comment, you were actively doing. that's so radical) also you're an alex g listener and that instantly makes u cool stay safe and i hope you're doing well
this song hits really hard for me. i feel like the brother in this story, ive said/felt similar. saying that when i'm gone, everyone can have my stuff. but...i don't know, this song is really depressing to most people. but somehow, it makes me feel hopeful.
i don’t have any siblings which makes this song hurt worse for me somehow. knowing I had my mom and dad both leave when I was 12 with no one 2 understand.. feeling so alone and like I failed at the age of 12 which led me to so many attempts and hospital stays that I lost count of. i wish I could say things got better but this song comforts the sadness in me and makes me feel like my sadness is valid somehow
I remember one night me and my older brother were sitting in the libing room when i was abt 11, we were joking around and i told him to khs, he stopped laughing and yelled at me, 'Ive already fucking tried'. Still think abt it. I am so gratetful hes still alive
All this song makes me think of is having to talk my older sister down when she had knife to her neck. She was 14, she didn't deserve to end like that and im happy she didn't. But god does that night still haunt me.
This song helped me through really hard times. I finally got to see Alex g live not too long ago he was great. This song always reminded me of Sally Face and Larry.
I basically made up like a new verse for this song randomly: My father was asleep and I took his car for a drive I had crashed into a store and was surprised I was alive The owner then called the police and they asked me for my age And I told them I was 14 and they went into a rage
this song makes me really sad. it’s because i pretend that im the brother in this song (despite the fact that i’m a woman) and the sibling is my actual brother irl. i just imagine his reaction when i kms since i’ve been having suicidal thoughts lately. this is one of the things that’s convincing me to not. anyways thanks for reading this if you did
I lost my brother 2 years ago to suicide, this song always makes me think about him. He'd be 17 soon if he were still here, but unfortunately I'll be older than him in less than a month
for some reason i always listen to this on repeat when i feel numb and depressed, and then i get sick of the song….but i always listen to it over and over again. god, i relate to this song sm. i always think this is how my brother would feel if i did commit.
I wish that maybe there could have been another way they could have tried so that there could have been a chance to save them. I hope everybody in this comment section heals from their traumas and memories. Don't use a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
it's very true. I almost did it, but my cousin came to the bathroom and started crying when she saw me. She started screaming that she can't lose me and threatened me that if I die, she will die too. I always think about that day and I always feel sorry.
A close friend of mine for 10 years hung himself infront of me a few days ago, I’m going to his funeral today one thing I can’t get out of my head is the look in his eyes, we kept eye contact from start to end I feel like I’ll never be the same, I feel like it was my fault I didn’t know he wanted to do end himself when I was his closest friend, I wasn’t there for him when he needed me most, I do like Alex g though me and him used to listen to him when we were sad or just missed eachother, I feel like I shouldn’t stop listening to him because when I do listen I feel like he is there with me.
alex g is just a reflect on all my emotions and feelings. one day it feels like candy then it could feel like mis or break, 16 mirrors and so on. i am so happy i found alex g's music.
My bro committed suicide. He first attempted by taking all his pills and then again and got stomach pumped and then a couple years later poisoned himself 2 weeks after our friend slit his throat. Rip to my bro 😓 was just two years ago. I love Alex G and got to meet him in my small hometown in NY 😎🏴☠️ and he signed my banjo! 🖤👍🏴☠️✌️🖤
I don't exactly have an older brother, but I do have a younger one. Not by blood, but we see each other as brothers. A month ago I remember that I tried to commit suicide since I could no longer bear all the pain and the burden of guilt, every time I listen to this song, I feel like it is my little brother's pov in the moment I told him I was going to commit suicide. In my case it was not an n64, but rather, there were several accounts of different games and a Nintendo 3Ds. You don't know how grateful I am right now that the overdose didn't happen to me.
if your wondering to play this on guitar you need to play 056 frets twice then 057 once and then back too 057 frets twice then you move too a 999 and the down to a 11 12 11 thats how you play the verse on guitar i hope this helps if you find this comment
I had depression and i did not know it would hit this hard i listened to this song alot during those times and damn holy sh.t dude. It's scary it gives me chills i never wanna go back to those crappy times everything felt so grounded, closed, and miserable.
i’m in the hospital trying to visit my brother in the psych ward , listening to this song outside a panera because they won’t let me see him, i really wish he never started doing drugs, it ruined his life
Not sure if its right
My dog just ran away and Im feeling pretty bad
I've been sneaking out at night and my parents are real mad
I've been taking lots of drugs cause they teach me not to care
Yeah I guess that's how you cheat because life doesn't play fair
My brother told me that he's gonna kill himself tonight
With a whole bottle of Prozac
Or a shiny kitchen knife
He said that when he's dead I'll have his Nintendo 64
And I can play it all I want it sitting
On the basement floor
My girlfriend told me that she doesn't love me anymore
And I wish I didn't care but I thought she was really cool
So I drank a ton of liquor then I threw up in her sink
She said next time use the toilet then she offered me a drink
We past an old man bleeding on the side of the street
So I got out of the car and I helped him on his feet
His breath smelled like whiskey
He was crying like a man
When I helped him stand up straight I got his blood all on my hands
He said he said "I need a ride home because I got into a fight"
He said "I should've seen the other guy but he didn't see my point"
He said his house was all the way in the the other side of town
So we left him in the road and said we wouldn't turn around
block perce ya probably right
i think its literally both
i thought it was "I said 'I should've seen the other guy' but he didn't see my point"
numberguts I’m glad I wasn’t the first person who thought of this. I played it in a car with a couple friends and they thought the same haha.
I think it’s “i can play it all night long sitting on the basement floor”
my brother is currently in a coma with pneumonia after an overdose of wellbutrin and zoloft. i love alex g but had never heard this track before; due to the context in my life rn i feel like that verse physically shot me through the heart ,,, especially considering my lil bro had a special interest in mario growing up and still has our nintendo 64
hope all is well
I feel very sorry.How is he now ?
How your brother doing now? I hope he’s recovered so you two can can play games together again :)
@@huwuwhatsthis9213 im happy to say he's gotten better after some physical therapy and mental health care. i am grateful that I can spend time w him again !!! thank you for asking !!
How's your little brother doing now? I hope he is better
this song is by far one of the saddest songs ive ever heard. the apathy of the speaker shown in the lyrics combined with the saddness of the instrumental and the tone of the singer's voice (almost sounding like he's about to cry) is just perfect. i would sell my soul to hear this song for the first time again.
Pov: never heard of midwest emo
bro i'm just saying i like the song 😭😭😭 i know the style of vocals can be compared to that of midwest emo
@@cereal_snake good for you enjoy it have a good day
you saying this as a tdi fan 8 months ago 😭 you probably can’t name 10 songs made by alex that aren’t popular lmao
@@alexgstruelove
1:) liking unpopular things doesn't make you better than anyone. i'm glad you have an artist you're passionate about but hating on other people for also enjoying it makes me think that you don't care as much about the music as you do about feeling different from other people. i had a similar mindset for a while and it's isolating and childish.
2:) i've listened to a lot of alex g both before and since i've left this comment. i still like this song, although i wouldn't consider it my favorite song or even my favorite of his. my favorite alex g songs are Soaker, Waiting for You, Trash, Know Now, and Track 5 :)
3:) what does total drama have to do with it? i'm not even that big of a fan of it anymore tbh i made this my pfp over a year ago and was too lazy to change it >:D
Listened to this on one of my lonliest birthdays and cried my eyes out. I remember that was my first introduction to Alex G's music. Bad start but as time passed, his music became moreso like the background noise to my adolesence. This and Mary both bring such vivid memories that I look through a happier lense. I am happy in this moment. Love u Alex
I hope you’re doing better now
i will forever hate everyone for making mary and sarah popular, they were so good but now they’re overused
@@alexgstruelovehow much a song is played doesn’t matter in the long term, if anything it brought more people to his music
Whenever your birthday is, happy birthday ❤
@@alexgstruelove genuinely who gaf it helps people cope like this commenter so why do u care
"My brother told me that he's gonna kill himself tonight
With a whole bottle of Prozac
Or a shiny kitchen knife
He said that when he's dead I'll have his Nintendo 64
And I can play it all I want it sitting
On the basement floor"
When I hear this verse, I always think of how my sister would feel if I were gone.
She'd be fucking devastated, stick around man. It's mostly shit but the few nuggets of good make it worth it. Oh and tell your sister you love her.
@@RustyNealVODS edgy
@@RustyNealVODS im calling you edgy, dont be.
@@RustyNealVODS theres no funny
quite the addition to the conversation coming from SHREK’S CRINGE COMPILATION jesus christ dude its not 2014 anymore
i will always listen to the extended version cuz the last verse rlly adds something
Really adds to the sense of apathy the song has
The sewerslvt pfp... marry me
@@Ness4300 real
Its fr the best part
same
This song always seems to cheer me up whenever I’m down. Alex G’s music has helped me through it. I was first introduced to Alex’s music in 2020 with the song “Treehouse” and I’ve listened to Alex since then
I’m sorry but This song cheers you up it makes me sad 😭
@@DelicateStoriesI get what they mean how I feel when listening just depends on my mood the instrumental aspects of Alex’s songs are so damn groovy but the lyrics r so so sad 😭😭 that’s why his musics so good 2 me tho 😞🙏🏽
I found him in 2023 from treehouse
Same!!!
knowing this was one of his earlier projects is crazy bc u can see how much his music has evolved vs listening to his newer stuff. both is amazing. love it
I always find myself coming back to this song
hope you are doing okay today :)
i've seen you comment on a couple of alex g's songs, i really hope ur going well :)
I am well thank you :)
I'm doin alright :)
Here I am again
I always come back here when I want to cry
still hurts as much as when i first heard it
same
I hope that all the Alex g fans find a best friend that will be with you till the end
thank you for this
this.
This is such a sad song... I didn't think I'd like it but oh man does it hit you with feeling like being 20-something and lost.
Cassidy Reynolds me rn
Truth
Anybody who claims they arent lost cannot be right
Me rn
19 and lost
"I guess thats how you cheat because life doesnt play fair"is so real, stan alex g
my older brother was disabled and felt like a burden because of it. He smoked a lot and even took a place in the cemetery with a bench near the grave. He died in a car accident (he could drive and move his legs but could not walk) trying to dodge another car that drove into the oncoming one. He died of internal bleeding on his birthday. I'm afraid to forget his voice ( srry if there are mistakes in my text, I wrote this with google translator)
that’s terrible i’m so sorry, hope your doing ok.
Im sorry that happened
You are the strongest person I know, if that happened to me i. Don't know what I'd do
My brother was struggling alot last year, he almost ended himself by jumping off a bridge and into traffic. When he talked about this to his therapist, he said that the only reason he didnt jump was because of me. He didnt want me to suffer, and also because my quinceañera would in 2025 while this happened in December. I thank God thats hes alive and better, but this song hit me in the gut because my brother has always told me that I can have his ps4 when he doesnt need it anymore.
I love you, bro.
so sad but sweet 😔❤
I hope everything will be fine with you and your brother.🙏❤
My older brother has chronic depression. He reacts really badly to difficult situations out of his control. I get really afraid of him killing himself when I go to sleep. In 2 years, he is gonna move to another city, Im scared of staying away from him. I love him, I can’t lose him.
Hey I hope your okay how is your brother?
i hope he stays strong n safe ❤
I’ve got chronic depression too. I’m 19. My whole life was like that. I kept switching and I think I finally found anti depressants that work for me. Even when things are bad I never feel as desperate as I used to. I promise your brother can get there too.
You need to tell him that
I don't know how things have changed for you but you're a very good sibling for noticing these things
no one ever gets the help they need and its no ones fault. its just a sad reality
Alex is our help
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHI
i’m 15, and suicide crosses my mind every single day. i have a older brother, i can’t imagine how he’d feel if i leave him alone forever.
please dont do it talk to me in these replies if you need
Yo! Im 14 and ive been having those thoughts recently to, but i know everythings gonna get better eventually, hope your doing better and if you need to talk, I'm a good listener :) Have a good day
My little brothers the only reason I'm still here. Don't do it. If my brother did that I wouldn't stop crying.
@@sane_143yo i’m feel better after 1 year, i’ve been through some shits in 2023
@@felixxxcoffeee i don’t wanna kms rn
I remember my older brother and I would go over to his friends house for sleepovers(it was far but that made it a special occasion). I remember always asking him to play Majora’s Mask on n64. I just loved how it looked. He rarely did because that game takes a certain level of dedication. Really nostalgic memories. There was a lot of Banjo Kazooie as well. I’m almost 23, for context. My family was always very neat and had nice furniture from the mid-century(not rich. My dad is just a thrift shop picker) so going to this friend’s cozy down to earth one story house was pretty special. Anyway, I felt like sharing. Hope y’all are holding up well. God bless.
god bless you too
that second verse always makes me ugly cry. i've attempted before and it hurts me to think about if i succeeded. i love my little sister a lot.
hey guys my names mac ive lost family to addiction so i just need anyone who is struggling to know that i love you and it gets better
edit: i’m so proud of each and everyone of you fighting to stay here 💗 know that this little sister loves you so much
I love you too
thanks , needed this
I’ve hurt my family and lost myself to addiction and can relate with the big bro heavily and my little bro with Alex. Hurt.
love you too mac
I hope you’re feeling better ❤
My dog just ran away
And I am feeling pretty bad
I've been sneaking out at night
And my parents are real mad
I've been taking lots of drugs
Cause they teach me not to care
Yeah, I guess that's how you cheat
Because life doesn't play fair
My brother told me
That he's gonna
Kill himself tonight
With a whole bottle of Prozac
Or a shiny kitchen knife
He said that when he is dead
I'll have his Nintendo 64
And I can play all it night long
Sitting on the basement floor
My girlfriend told me that
She doesn't love me anymore
And I wish I didn't care but
I thought she was really cool
So I drank a ton of liquor
Then I threw up in her sink
She said next time use the toilet
Then she offered me a drink
We passed an old man bleeding on the side of the street
So I got out of the car and I helped him on his feet
His breath smelled like whiskey
He was crying like a man
When I helped him stand up straight I got his blood all on my hands
He said "I need a ride home because I got into a fight"
Said "I should've seen the other guy but he didn't see my point"
He said his house was all the way on the other side of town
So we left him in the road and said we wouldn't turn around
Man it hurts when you’ve felt this way and you’ve had people in your life actually do these things to themselves. The “I guess that’s why you cheat because life’s never fair.” hits a chord in my soul. My heart aches for the collective pain we all go through.
0:53 is why i haven’t kms yet bc it would remind me of how my older sister would sound if I did, I can’t do that to my family. I can’t hurt them like that. That’s the only reason why I’m still here. If anyone can relate I’m so so sorry and please remember it gets better and you are loved🫶🏼
I don’t think that it does get better and no I’m not loveable
@@yogev8348it does get better. I promise dear, you are so deserving of love.
I've been crying for an hour reading the comments under these videos, god, please no one kill yourself😭
@@IsabellaAnderson-sv6plI’m sorry but I’ve been struggling for 2+ years… it’s only gotten worse :(
that second verse strikes me like a bullet. ive attempted 3 times and im confused on how im still alive. i feel reallt selfish about it. i cant imagine what my sister would think, i love her so much. maybe one day ill get better.
EDIT: IVE MADE IT. IM BETTER. EVERYTHING IS SO GREAT RAAAAA
You seem like such a loving sibling and I bet your sister loves you so much too, stay strong!
@@elysiagray572 thank you, you too :)
Thanks, I really needed that too :)
hey bro, do you have discord?
if you do, next time youre feeling like shit, hit me up, ill do my best to help and comfort you
Proud of you for still being here. One day at a time.
this song sits in the back of my head everyday because its unreleased i cant shake that i will never have it on spotify and theres nothing i can do its one of if not my favourite Alex g song and i have no idea why he wouldnt release it but life doesnt play fair i guess
you can use local files!! look up a tutorial, it should work :)
to get it on spotify i mean
I remember screaming for this at my first Alex show and getting some weird looks. I’ve gotten older and wiser since then lol
@@dylanvibing8148 I used local files I don’t like the archive he didn’t put them on Spotify for a reason
@@itsmanoli8720 I'm going to my first alex show in March and I'm not old and wise yet so I will scream for him to play it 😎
My brother was in the hospital for a week due to an overdose, and in his will he gave me his iPad. Thankfully he’s doing ok now, but whenever I hear this song, I just remember how much I have to be grateful for
my friend almost died but texted me, she's fine and i helped the best i could, i hugged her so tight when i saw her the day after
this song makes me think of her, she's strong so i can only hope she doesn't attempt and succeed
you’re a really good friend
When I told my friend they literally didn't beileve me so your friend is so lucky to have someone like you
im so mad this wasnt released this is by far my favourite alex g song :(
I appreciate its contribution to diy music subculture 🤔or something maybe I dunno..you're right
i remember when i first heard this song i cried really hard. at multiple hard parts of my life i'd often write in my notes that i wanted my little brother to have my video game consoles, so this song makes me very emotional haha
i will always come back to this song. at every point in my life, its been here. and it always will be.
this one of my favorite Alex G songs, thanks for uploading dude
i hope that everyone who looks at this comment finds a best friend who'll be there for them at their worst and their best.
I'm so lonely so thanks.
@@iidentifyasayoutubertoday7025 me too pal ✌️
@@iidentifyasayoutubertoday7025 I'm sorry to hear that mate. I hope that changes for you
@@iidentifyasayoutubertoday7025 yall are awesome!!
Thanks for the good vibes. Still looking.
why are the best alex g songs not on any of the professionally released albums ???
hes an enigma
maybe he think this lyrics is too heavy and sad at the same time to put out on a mature album today, as well some others songs unreleased (but would he can change the lyrics a little bit, just preserving the melodie and harmony) :)
hes said they dont represent him anymore
@@daisychainsawso what it represents me so i wanna hear it
@@pussy2849fr. I get it though, but still
i think this is the saddest song i ever heard , but at the same time this is so beatiful . Idk i just feel sad listening to this , but in a good way
Been feeling this song for months and god I don't know what to do.
it’ll be okay man we’ll be ikay
I hope you’re ok right now
this song has a special place in my heart
Thats a great profile picture I must say
This song is the only thing I've felt in 3 years
This song is just radiating with so much energy. I couldn’t possibly explain it. I’ve always had thoughts, and it’s so hard to get rid of. I don’t know why I feel so dull, but I’ve been feeling so dull since some point of time. Since elementary, dating all the way back to 5th grade, I’ve been through some crazy things, but nothing major. Then 7th grade made me question everything. Every night I would ache in bed and cry until I got a headache. And the worst part is, my life is so good. I’m so lucky, and blessed to have such an understanding group of people around me. But then there’s just so many other things I feel guilty for, and I’m there questioning again. It’s a cycle and it hurts, but I’m doing my best to improve. I feel bad for the people who have to witness me like this because I’m aware that it might be hurting them. At the end of the day, I’m just here. Walking around. And that’s all I can say . But anyway, love Alex g!
it’ll be okay bro ❤
Listening to this while venting in your notepad>>>>>>>>>>>
currently going through a lot as I'm losing myself in school, socializing, health, eating, sleeping, family, and sports. I've recently joined a travel ball team for softball and everything was pretty good. practices were different and difficult. I had to push myself. I met new ppl that I absolutely love. recently I had my first game, went well, lost 1 won 1. even though I was doing great my leg has started hurting. I've been wearing a knee brace but it isn't working. my parents don't believe I'm that hurt but they said tmr if my leg hurts at my games I have to take a break off for a few weeks and that's scary. a break for me could be the end. I could go into a worse slump then what I'm doing in general. I have no one to talk to as nobody gets it. my friends say that my sport is stupid and boring but I love it. it's difficult as I'm not a strong batter and my fav person has taken my fav position and replaced me. idek if they'll play me anymore. I joined to get better not be out played by better ppl. I'm honestly scared and praying for myself.
Lyrics.
My dog just ran away and I'm feeling pretty bad
I've been sneaking out at night and my parents are real mad
I've been taking lots of drugs, 'cause they teach me not to care
Yeah, I guess that's how you cheat because life doesn't play fair
My brother told me that he's gonna kill himself tonight
With a whole bottle of Prozac or a shiny kitchen knife
He said that when he's dead I'll have his Nintendo 64
And I could play it all night long, sitting on the basement floor.
My girlfriend told me that she doesn't love me anymore
And I wish I didn't care but I thought she was really cool
So I drank a ton of liquor then I threw up in her sink
She said next time use the toilet then she offered me a drink.
We passed an old man bleeding on the side of the street
So I got out of the car and I helped him on his feet
His breath smelled like whiskey, he was crying like a man
When I helped him stand up straight I got his blood all on my hands
He said he said "I need a ride home because I got into a fight"
He said "I should've seen the other guy but he didn't see my point"
He said his house was all the way in the the other side of town
So we left him in the road and said we wouldn't turn around.
My brother just drunk two bottles of vodka and hes only 17. It was so horrible seeing him throwing up, not responding and not being able to stand. I dont know if he did it on purpose to yk. I really hope hes okay. I really need him and i love him.
I'm so sorry x I hope everything gets better for you and your brother x
I just realized I didn’t get the full version on my Spotify local files and now I need to go to RUclips every time I listen to it cause that last part is crucial to the song
remember listening to this song in middle school, I totally forgot this exists
Its so sad I feel so sad today
I hope you're feeling better now❤
the good things that come of me not being around anymore is something i do think about, this song captures it really well
hey i know this comment was posted 3 years ago and you might not even see this, but even if i don't know your story, i think just the fact that you can look back on the things you did and regret them to this point is a reason you should stay. this sounds super weird but i think you can do awesome things if you can accept that you made mistakes (which, at least at the time of your comment, you were actively doing. that's so radical)
also you're an alex g listener and that instantly makes u cool
stay safe and i hope you're doing well
cannot let gang know i fw this
I’m so nostalgic for an adolescence I didn’t live
I'll trade yours for an adolescence of alcoholism, coke addiction, heartbreak after heartbreak and making okay music :^)
yo what's up merzbow i like your album hybrid noisebloom. the rest of your discograpy is fine too i guess.
Gay
totally feel this, this song's got a line about that ruclips.net/video/wcz4FMxwWxo/видео.html
For sure. I've always felt that in relation to the n64. Even though I wasn't alive when it was out it still feels nostalgic for it
the absolute monster i'd become if this was on apple music
I want to feel alive instead of feeling like killing myself every day
i know how you feel. im so sorry
im sorry
Honestly bro, cant keep moving this actually might be my last day literally.
Hope you’re still here, and I hope you feel better soon.
i love you lucy please respond
hey man, its been 8 months, but i hope you're doing better now if you're alive
back here to listen to it again, this shit never gets old
Same
this song hits really hard for me. i feel like the brother in this story, ive said/felt similar. saying that when i'm gone, everyone can have my stuff. but...i don't know, this song is really depressing to most people. but somehow, it makes me feel hopeful.
art disturbs the comfortable and comforts the disturbed
i don’t have any siblings which makes this song hurt worse for me somehow. knowing I had my mom and dad both leave when I was 12 with no one 2 understand.. feeling so alone and like I failed at the age of 12 which led me to so many attempts and hospital stays that I lost count of. i wish I could say things got better but this song comforts the sadness in me and makes me feel like my sadness is valid somehow
This resonates with me deeply.
wow this is legendary
Domonic Renee yes dom
i only revisit this when I have the urge to end it, just so I can recall to myself that I'd never leave my little brother alone on this planet
DAMN, this is great
this song means so much to me
I remember one night me and my older brother were sitting in the libing room when i was abt 11, we were joking around and i told him to khs, he stopped laughing and yelled at me, 'Ive already fucking tried'. Still think abt it. I am so gratetful hes still alive
All this song makes me think of is having to talk my older sister down when she had knife to her neck. She was 14, she didn't deserve to end like that and im happy she didn't. But god does that night still haunt me.
I DIDNT KNOW THIS EXISTED
I don’t know why but this reminds me of listening to Neutral Milk Hotel for the first time when I was 15. I’m 31 now.
This song helped me through really hard times. I finally got to see Alex g live not too long ago he was great. This song always reminded me of Sally Face and Larry.
I basically made up like a new verse for this song randomly:
My father was asleep and I took his car for a drive
I had crashed into a store and was surprised I was alive
The owner then called the police and they asked me for my age
And I told them I was 14 and they went into a rage
YOU ATE THAT UPP
@@erm_paola WAESRDTFYGTGT THANK YOU SM
bro this is so good.
@@TheberryY THANK YOU SM SFIIGIH
W verse
top 5 alex g songs for sure, love this so much :)
if we were in the late 20th century, alex would be a legend (he is to me)
sxdncss just say the 90s. We all know you mean the 90s lol
Im not here anymore but atleast im still alive
This song hits different. Its so underrated.
this song makes me really sad.
it’s because i pretend that im the brother in this song (despite the fact that i’m a woman) and the sibling is my actual brother irl. i just imagine his reaction when i kms since i’ve been having suicidal thoughts lately. this is one of the things that’s convincing me to not.
anyways thanks for reading this if you did
second verse really hits hard, these thoughts just cant leave my brain but what would my family think if i really did commit
I lost my brother 2 years ago to suicide, this song always makes me think about him. He'd be 17 soon if he were still here, but unfortunately I'll be older than him in less than a month
for some reason i always listen to this on repeat when i feel numb and depressed, and then i get sick of the song….but i always listen to it over and over again. god, i relate to this song sm. i always think this is how my brother would feel if i did commit.
I love Alex g so much no one will ever understand ever
song isnt the same after my brother killed himself.
It gets better and easier with time in so sorry for your loss
I hope that everything would be okey for you with time it would be fine :)
so sorry for you man
this song broke my heart
can’t wait until i get my heart broken so i can listen to this n crrrry
scarypotter777 just eat more ramen bro itll be okay ❤️
Spoke too soon
Spoken way too soon
lmao ive been in this routine for 5 months now
My ex reffered me to this song so I relate to this comment
I wish that maybe there could have been another way they could have tried so that there could have been a chance to save them. I hope everybody in this comment section heals from their traumas and memories. Don't use a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
This song is so sad but it really hits home
it's very true. I almost did it, but my cousin came to the bathroom and started crying when she saw me. She started screaming that she can't lose me and threatened me that if I die, she will die too. I always think about that day and I always feel sorry.
i just don't feel like being present anymore. im so physically and mentally tired
alex g is therapy
Me too, hope you’re doing ok
Are you doing better now?
Am i the only one whi cries listening to this song because you imagine what it would be like if one of your siblings actually said this to you...?
a blessing to be able to play and sing this
A close friend of mine for 10 years hung himself infront of me a few days ago, I’m going to his funeral today one thing I can’t get out of my head is the look in his eyes, we kept eye contact from start to end I feel like I’ll never be the same, I feel like it was my fault I didn’t know he wanted to do end himself when I was his closest friend, I wasn’t there for him when he needed me most, I do like Alex g though me and him used to listen to him when we were sad or just missed eachother, I feel like I shouldn’t stop listening to him because when I do listen I feel like he is there with me.
alex g is just a reflect on all my emotions and feelings. one day it feels like candy then it could feel like mis or break, 16 mirrors and so on. i am so happy i found alex g's music.
My bro committed suicide. He first attempted by taking all his pills and then again and got stomach pumped and then a couple years later poisoned himself 2 weeks after our friend slit his throat. Rip to my bro 😓 was just two years ago. I love Alex G and got to meet him in my small hometown in NY 😎🏴☠️ and he signed my banjo! 🖤👍🏴☠️✌️🖤
one of my favourite alex g song, and is what brought me to the alex g stuff
I don't exactly have an older brother, but I do have a younger one. Not by blood, but we see each other as brothers.
A month ago I remember that I tried to commit suicide since I could no longer bear all the pain and the burden of guilt, every time I listen to this song, I feel like it is my little brother's pov in the moment I told him I was going to commit suicide. In my case it was not an n64, but rather, there were several accounts of different games and a Nintendo 3Ds. You don't know how grateful I am right now that the overdose didn't happen to me.
Ima overdose on Prozac
O M G. I was gonna overdose, but not on Prozac, cuz in my house, WE DON'T GOT PROZAC, but we got Levothyroxine and pain killers 😉
That bottle of Prozac line hit hard
this song makes me cry, my older brother has had suicidal thoughts and it scares me. this song comforted me when he was in a mental health facility.
This song keeps me from leaving my brother all alone. I couldn’t do this to him
It says long version but it feels so short! Goes too fast, I love this song.
Hits different when you’re the brother
It really does
if your wondering to play this on guitar you need to play 056 frets twice then 057 once and then back too 057 frets twice then you move too a 999 and the down to a 11 12 11 thats how you play the verse on guitar i hope this helps if you find this comment
boosting this comment
this hit like a truck, im making my family sad
I had depression and i did not know it would hit this hard i listened to this song alot during those times and damn holy sh.t dude. It's scary it gives me chills i never wanna go back to those crappy times everything felt so grounded, closed, and miserable.
i’m in the hospital trying to visit my brother in the psych ward , listening to this song outside a panera because they won’t let me see him, i really wish he never started doing drugs, it ruined his life
Made seven years ago 😮 i was told this is a great song and he was right it is. I have listened to it on repeat for the past like hour❤
This song is so beautiful