You're never alone, Jason. Never allow yourself to think otherwise. You are loved by all of us. You've helped cure a lot of people's depression, my own included. We all help lift each other up and we will do what we can to lift you back up to where you would love to be.
I'm incredibly proud of you for making this video, Jason. Your progress with mental battles and your ability to keep it open with us viewers has been wonderful these past few months, years even. Getting to know you and having such genuine conversations on streams or through our drumming sessions has been one of the greatest things for me, as mental battles have been tough for myself as well. Being able to share my struggles with somebody else and beat some plastic instruments together has been the biggest stress reliever, and what I would happily call a friendship. I've genuinely looked up to you for years and continue to do so each and every day. We love who you are, and I'm proud to be a good pal of yours. -Tyler
You´re amazing! I grew up watching you and trust me, you are an inspiration for a lot of us. If you want someone to talk to, here i am Jason, love you bro!!!
I didn’t know what kind of stuff you were going through but I’m happy that you’re being so open here, man, take care of yourself and we’ll be with you every step of the way
Man, I'm here with you on this - so much. Similar battle and thoughts about everything 😞. You've made me smile on so many occasions with your content and streams, and I just hope that you are placed at the top of that metaphorical bowl of marbles soon. Much love ♡
I, too, have ADHD and perhaps some form of depression, so I sort of get where you're coming from. It's hard as hell, especially when trying to focus on things. Take care, my dude. 🧡
Dude, it would be an understatement to say I want to be there with you. I know I might a be some random dude behind a screen to you, but just as Rohin Williams and Chester were idols to you, you and Jerod have been idols to me. I remember discovering your channels about a month apart from each other at the age of 14 and loving the watch you guys get to have fun playing along to stuff that I was to afraid to play because I thought it was silly. But you two shoes me that it was ok to be yourself and enjoy thing even if they are a bit silly. So to say I wish I could be there to just give you a big hug if anything is an understatement, because you and jerod helped me through time when I had the very same problem you are currently dealing with. I remember saying such negative thing about myself because I wasn’t doing something perfectly on the first try. So please, even though there is a chance you might never see this comment I still will say my piece in hopes it can help. Also, I don’t know if your religious or not but I still will pray for God to by your side because he can be a light that will a path through the tunnel. So please be safe and remember you’ll never be alone because you all of us to help you.
Yo? Clone Hero drum charts soon? Let's goooooo!!! Can't wait to see more of your content, Jason. We've missed seeing your stuff. Stay strong and remember, we all love you, bro! Don't listen to the haters 😁
Pretty new and didn't know what happened, but take the time you need, stay strong, and though i can't speak for everyone; I'll be waiting here patiently
Dude your story with the late ADHD diagnosis/poor coping strategies/depression sounds EXACTLY like mine!! I'm so proud of you for taking care of yourself
I love music. I used to play drums in a bar band back in the 80's, if you remember me telling you on stream. It's because of you that I am enjoying music again when I first saw your videos here on RUclips, and you got me into playing Clone Hero when I subscribed to your Twitch channel and watched you play. You have made me very happy, and I have tried to do the same by giving you subs and bits. I do want to let you know that you helped another ADHD person ( and right now a cancer patient ) by showing me a way to rekindle my love for music. With that said, I also want to tell you that I will always love you and pray that you can deal with your mental battles better that I have to. You are a great person and a wonderful friend.
Dude, no matter what, we're here for you. Always have been. Always will be. We're so, so proud of you, and so, so glad that you felt comfortable enough to share your struggles and get support. You're a good guy.
I know exactly how you feel... Thankfully, I was diagnosed in seventh grade, but even with medicine I barely made it through high school. Medication definitely quiets the noise and helps you create better coping mechanisms and helps with not having such poor impulse control, but it's still a LONG and difficult road. I hope things start going well for you. It's such a nightmare sometimes. My ADHD, anxiety, and depression all feed off of each other. And those feed off of my chronic pain. It's super fun. Would definitely recommend trying that out.
I managed to scrape by until I was 25 and failed out of college before I was diagnosed with ADHD. Getting that diagnosis was a big step in figuring everything out and trying to get my life in order. But here I am, 34 years old, unemployed, and depressed. The biggest lesson I've learned is just to keep getting back up and trying again, no matter what life throws at you. One of these days something is finally going to work out. It might not be tomorrow, it might not be next year. But one of these days I will finally be able to say I'm doing ok, and that knowledge alone is enough to keep me going.
@@Bobbias If you are like me, HealthyGamerGG, AKA Dr.K has helped me a lot with figuring out stuff and listening to other people's interviews about their struggles. I would highly recommend it if that stuff interests you.
Thanks for being vulnerable Jason. I can 100% relate, my battle with depression is different yet similar. For me it's this overwhelming feeling of antipathy and lack of momentum to get things started or get things finished, coupled with anxiety where i have fear of failure it's difficult to ask for help. But hearing your story does give me hope, and i wish you well and whatever you choose to do content-wise i am looking forward to it.
Dude, hearing you talk about your idols, especially Chester... really hit me. I guess your videos were/are also some kind of coping mechanism for what I've felt. Thank you so much for all the laughs and happiness you brought me. Keep fighting the bad thoughts and find happiness in the small and big things in your life.
Thanks for being so honest. A lot of what you said resonated with me. Especially the part about Chester - it’s so hard to hear him sing about his own demons knowing they ultimately broke him when he got you through harder times of your own. I wish you all the best.
Thank you Jason, I can pretty confidently say I wouldn't still be alive if I hadn't found your channel when I did, and you have continued to help me ever since both with the amazing community and normal stream content, and with the more serious, open discussions like this one. I really can not thank you and Courtney enough for everything over the years
Today marks the fifth year I know you, and these last months were so hard on me... Lost my father and my depression came like a steamroller again... Your old videos made me smile more than anything on these challenging times... And you are not alone! Love from Brazil!! AND BY THE LOVE OF FRANK SEARCH DANKPODS AND HIS CHANNELS, HE CAN HELP YA WITH YOUR DRUM GIG!! And have fun with other nugget shenanigans!
Before you were taking time off, I remember you that you were playing Guitar Hero and just enjoying the heck out of it. Ever since then I tried to understand what each and every disability does and how it affected the people. Since you were fallen down and wanted time off, I actually was thinking about you and how I'm going to make you feel yourself again. so I just came with a memes videos at first, and make you smile and laughing was my target, I'm so glad it is not just me, but THE whole community will help you get you back on your feet. Ever since then that I was in your community, I became more mature, understanding your side of ADHD, and getting to know your good taste in music. I noticed that you don't really upload RUclips as much but that being said I just support you as much as I can anyway, being there in twitch, seeing from Guitar Hero guitar controller player, into drum Hero makes me so happy and proud of you Jason and how far you came to show your limit. I'm also super proud that you also posted this video explaining how hard has depression hit you. It is not easy, but as I am part of a community we are here to make sure that whatever you feel like doing, we just go along with it and rock out. Rock On Jason, and here to the loving community will help and guide you.
It's good to see you back and being more honest with yourself. You do not walk this path alone. You are an amazing person and I hope you continue to heal.
Whenever I see someone that I look up to struggling with depression, or mental issues in general, I'm never really sure what to say. Most of the time I don't say anything, because I end up thinking that it'd sound cliche or dull; However... right now, I think I know what I want to say. First: Thank you. For opening up like this, for constantly fighting the dark thoughts, and for genuinely trying to better yourself. I know this takes guts, especially if your 'media persona' is completely different, and I'm glad you managed to find yourself in a good enough spot to speak up. But even more importantly: Keep on going. Even if that bowl turns out to be steeper than it seemed; even if the bad thoughts come back with double, triple, ten times the strength, never stop trying to overcome them; because as long as you're in the fight, you can still win, and your friends can support you. I might be just a dude on the internet, who just happens to watch your streams sometimes; you don't know my face, even though I'm very familiar with yours. I imagine that my words are just that: a few 1's and 0's on whatever device you're reading this on. But at the same time, you as a person have influenced my life a lot; Aside from introducing me to at least 15(!) different bands, some of which are my absolute favourites to this day, you've also made me realise a lot of things about myself: That I really should keep delving into music-related hobbies, that I still want to learn how to play drums... that I also suffer from ADHD, although thankfully in mild way. In a way, your streams have been a catalyst for my own self-discovery, for which I'll never be able to properly thank you. Right now, though? It's time to help yourself. You know best how to go about that, so I'll just shut up and spread that love and hype your way for once.
I always come back to your videos, especially your meme chart walkthroughs. These videos made me laugh so many times and even helped me through some troublesome times in my life. I find myself coming back to them so often because I just enjoy watching them so much. You rock dude!
I needed this. I needed this so bad. I needed to hear these words. All I can say is... Thank You. Glad to see you made it back around and you really helped me today. Thank you
Jason, I know exactly how you feel. Trying to fight for the success and stuff really didn't make me happy. It took me a long time to realize that I need to do what truly makes me happy and avoid the pressure of trying to always be "first." Big hugs, man!
Happy to hear from you again Jason! I've been battling with the exact same things and have also been trying to work through it, so hang in there! Good to us both, my friend. :)
Making this video is perhaps one of the most important steps in the path towards dealing with the issue. You acknowledge that part of yourself: the negativity, bad traits, etc. Also a good psychiatrist is important indeed, I can understand it as I've had one that made the situation worse as well. I am thankful you now have an idea of how to battle your issues, I am in thought with you as it sounds similar to the issues I've battled. Still love your videos and rewatch bOne(r) every now and then. I will patiently await when the next video comes out, you lovely fellow!
Dude that so well done! As someone who also has ADHD and struggles with depression every so often I kinda understand what you are dealing with! But as others have said you are Never alone! For the record, I probably watch your confusion volume 1-3 video once a month because it always makes me laugh and your reactions are hilarious! Keep doing what you are doing man!
Same dude... same. Robin Williams, Chester, Chris Cornell, Layne Staley... "River of Deceit" really hit me hard. I was glad I got help when I could, wish I could afford more. Its all about balance man, you gotta do things for yourself, its not selfish. Learned drums myself starting with RB1~ Glad to hear youre having fun with em!
You are practically a large part of my childhood, and getting me to places that I've never though I would be before, dont stress yourself about anything, you're popular in our hearts.
For what it's worth, those essays were fuckin' GOLD. Your insights are second to none, and I'm very glad we still have you around. From one clinically depressed boi to another, I'm glad you're taking time to heal and be honest to yourself. You deserve to feel good things about yourself, and I know how much of a struggle that can be. Keep rockin', man. You're doing fantastic, no matter what that little voice behind your brain says.
I am proud of you for being brave enough to be open and honest with us. It is making me feel like it is ok to be more open. I am struggling hard, not able to work, and waiting for my ADHD evaluation to begin soon. It is going slow but I am also learning through daily failures. Unprocessed emotion is a big one to tackle when I have been distracting myself for years and not had the EQ to notice how I feel, alexithymia is real. I am grateful for getting a good psychologist my first time, can't imagine how I would feel if I got told I was acting. Stay strong Jason, your honesty and journeyis helping more people than you think.
Also, I recommend HealthyGamerGG on youtube for those searching for answers and like to research and understand themselves and life issues. Dr.K has helped me a lot and many Twitch streamers so it is pretty official! He has a lot of content on ADHD!
I hope you feel better, and dont worry we have tones of your old videos and other youtubers like acai to keep us company until you get back to normal 😎👍⚔️
Best way to reach out. Good job! I’m happy you’re getting better man. I still remember going to highschool and watching your vids on the busride to school, with some kind of test waiting for me, barely awake. And yet in my headphones was you laughing your ass off. That was a lot of fun! I’m also happy you picked drums up, been doing that myself for at least 11 years now. If ya need help with that, let me know!
On a lighter note, I'm totally in agreement with you about rhythm game drums. I learned how to play drums through Rock Band drums, because the gameplay is the most like the real thing. It teaches you the limb independence and hand-eye co-ordination to play increasingly complex beats.
Connecting with others who can be a positive influence, or being that positive influence for others is amazing when it's reciprocal. Be positive, everybody; that same positivity will make its way back.
I'm proud of your inner strength to bring it out and talk about it. I am fighting depressions for years now and sharing your experience, your thoughts and feelings just helped me pretty far just as your funny videos helped me over the time. Thank you so much for beeing you, keep going. Greetings from Germany
I find myself at the same point mentally. Finding it hard to experience joy when all life seems to give me is disappointments and setbacks. But know that just like I am learning right now, you deserve the world. You deserve love. You deserve to have fun. And most importantly, you deserve to be YOU. You'll get through this, and we'll help you, Jason. Opening up like this is a huge step in the best direction. Here's a hug❤️ Never give up ❤️
Hey Jason, I just want to let you know you've brought me a lot of joy over the years. We're all with you, especially in your time of need. If you haven't already, please seek help again. I had gone through similar stuff, the same mindset, the drive to work so hard to fill the void or keep away the demons. The biggest thing that helped me was seeking counselling. That helped a massive amount. It didn't fix my problems, but knowing what my problems were made them much more manageable and surmountable. I also "positively disintegrated" recently and it was the best thing to happen to me. Stay strong man, we love you
I am so glad to hear you're doing better. And yes, you should give yourself credit. A lot of it. I am so proud of you, for how much you're growing. And the fact that you took this problem hands on, ready to tackle it. We all appreciate you, and if you ever wanna just vent or talk, we will be here to help you out and listen to you. And I'd love to see your progress on drumming, would be really fun to see!
I'm currently trying to learn how to paint in a specific style, so I very much relate to the wanting to do it perfectly the first time around, -- as well as the general struggling against your brain. You're not alone in this, and I think it's good to know that. You won't get any overdramatic "you cured my depression" from me, so best I can tell you is I enjoy your content. You don't have to be perfect, and you're more than good enough for this random person on the internet.
It's hard stuff. Depression, Anxiety, and ADHD myself. Still figuring a lot of stuff out. Lord knows whenever someone big who I looked up to ends up ending their own life something gets in my head for a time that says "What chance do I have?" Sometimes I need to remind myself that I've made it this far and that's a big deal. I'm glad you're getting things figured out. Depression is a pain in the ass, and it's always good to see someone get through it in spite of the lies their brains are telling them. I hope you're proud of yourself to put this out there.
I've missed seeing your videos, and depression is hard. No matter if you feel like you're getting past a hard spot, it hits you even harder. I'm proud of you for making this video. Here's to a good year for you Jason
Jason I have watched you for a long time since the old days of years when. Always look after yourself and take breaks when you need to. Seeing your streams or videos always make me smile keep being you Jason 💜🤟
Jason, I wanted to thank you for something you probably did not intend to make me think. I have been struggling for over 15 years now with very similar issues, but this might be the first time I actually heard someone else open up their heart and mind on this matter; someone with actual, direct experience instead of theories from medical books. I have been trying for over a decade to find a coping mechanism through art, and constantly failing to achieve even the first, smallest stepping-stone to actually get acknowledged as an artist did take its toll on me. It often takes a lot of effort to keep reminding myself that I ought to be creative for myself; find something that makes me happy instead of trying to please some thick-skulled businessmen who do not want art, only products. Hearing you talk about the importance of just... being yourself... no matter how vulnerable it makes survivors like us feel... those words reached places few other did. Those words were not hollow as my own words of reason are towards myself. For what it is worth, I thank you. And I want you to know that you are not alone. There are people who understand and are accepting of these struggles. As you said: you are enough as you are. Take care.
Depression can be one of the hardest things to talk about, but we are glad that you are opening up about it. It takes a lot of courage. Depression can be a rather volatile illness at times. But overall, it makes you feel as if there's no way out, that there's no way you will get better. I'm really sorry to hear about the experience with your previous therapist. I've heard of some awful things that therapists have told their clients before, and what she said to you about "acting" was completely out of line. I sincerely hope you feel better. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy.
jason, back in 2018 is when i first came across your videos and which brought me back into the light of plastic guitars. from then, your videos brought me joy and in the first half of this video you almost had me crying, to see someone ive idled for so long to be struggling, felt like a part of me broke, but towards the end of the video a smile was brought back to my face to hear youre getting better. jason, if it wasnt for you all those years ago, somehow stumbling across my recommended, i dont know where i would be. you indirectly introduced me into this community and its been the best thing to ever happen to me, from just casually playing clone hero, to helping develop for Fret Smasher, and now to be one of the lead devs for Downbeat, its been a blessing, and i can say for both games, im glad youve been the one to share light on things i, and others have worked hard for. you have brought more joy to others than you may think.
Really appreciate you Jason best of luck to you moving forward Show the world what a Strong Open and Lovable Goofball you wanna be and we'll stand behind ya all the way Wonder what Jerod thinks of you picking up drums I'm sure it's alot of fun
Dont know if this is of any help but your wrestling streams and your lovely community helped so much to get over one of the darkest times I ever had because of the pandemic. I was at my very low not knowing if i would have a job (I work in clubs) after the virus or if i wasted years of blood n sweat to build a career. Your streams gave me a reason to giggle, laugh and not think about all the shit going on. So a big massive thank you!! The "downside" now that I'm back at my job is that I'm not abel to join your streams anymore. But you and your community will always have a special place in my heart.
Thanks for helping destigmatize these discussions. I've been through these dark places and the trend toward talking openly about them (when comfortable doing so) has been such a positive one.
Yeah, adhd can be a pain. I was diagnosed around a year and a half ago and looking at some of your oldest and most viewed vids, I could definitely see it once I understood what it was. You’ll learn to work around it, just take things one step at a time rather than thinking you have to face it all at once. Helps me on a daily basis. Stay Strong Brother 💪 ❤
Thank you for making this video. As a fan I have thoroughly enjoyed your content and this is a glimpse into the man behind the product. You will persevere and you will make it through this. You have people who care about you even if they may not know you on a personal level. Keep on keeping on Jason!
I have those problems where I wake up and feel like I don't want to and I want to be put into a coma, since COVID hit and I was in senior year at the time, just of depression and me being bipolar and my problems with my ADHD, my Autism, and my severe anxiety. Watching your videos, beforehand, Jason, it changed my life and I thought: hey, maybe, I could just let people know about me, then I don't need to hide much longer. Your videos inspired me to do that and I will never forget that at all. Love you, bro
I've been peripherally following your content, popping in now and again for a good binge of music and laughs. But I absolutely love this video. So many people, myself included, struggle with many of the same things you're addressing and it's nice to hear that no one is ever as alone as their meat controller makes them think they are. Gld to hear you are getting into a better place.
I’ve taken a few days to mull over what you said here and what I wanted to say. Almost two years ago, I wrote a comment saying that hearing you talk about your struggles gave me hope for the future and that still rings true today. As someone who has ADHD and depression as well, a lot of what you said here really resonated with me; I have been and still am in a situation like this. Your openness (and, dare I say, bravery) in sharing your struggles has helped me feel like what I’m going through isn’t unique to me. Jason, I want you to know that you and your content have deeply affected me and my hobbies. If it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have rediscovered GH and I wouldn’t have been introduced to the likes of Helvian, Pluffaduff, Neil Cicierega, BandiPat, and Cosmic Latte. If it wasn’t for the videos you made, I wouldn’t have started making mashups as a hobby, something that I deeply enjoy doing. I hope that I can make something polished enough that I can confidently give it to you to play on (or off) stream someday. You said that you like Linkin Park, so I was wondering if you have one song you like in particular? I was thinking that maybe I could try making a mashup with it as a way of showing my appreciation for you. Granted, I’m still learning the ropes, but I’ll give it my all. Thanks for everything you’ve done, Jason. I hope things get better for you soon. 💜
Opening up and being vulnerable is a very difficult thing to do. I've been doing it myself recently. Mainly since Linkin Park released that track. I listened to that song over and over again. The lyrics are powerful, especially with knowing what happened to Chester. And it helped me realize how stuck I was. And that I needed to try something new. To be vulnerable to those close to me. To look at the things that are holding me back and asking for help. I've been depressed. I got out of it, but it's still been a journey to keep moving forward. To find my way out of the woods and not allow it to take me back. And talking about it is one of the best tools. You are not alone. You are loved.
Thank you, Jason. Experiencing my own struggles with depression, knowing how invisible it can be, hearing someone talk about it open and earnestly is refreshing. And something that should be done more, to help people feel more able and welcome to communicate their own challenges with mental health.
I feel you. I've been set back on my studies due to ADHD, and I kept coming back to procrastinating by watching youtube instead of trying to figure out why I was being set back. You're not alone on that.
JasonParadiseLost. But in all seriousness, do whatever you need to do to make sure YOURE ok. You can't do what you love if you don't take the time to take care of yourself. The rest of the world can always wait
We've all been there man. Stay strong. Just gotta take a deep breath and view life in a new way. A new perspective. A new sense of direction. Can proudly say I've been happy since 2013 after some life changing experiences. I knew a guy who went through the same thing who also made music about it. A dear friend of the Pokemon community. His name is Shizzy, also known as VI Seconds. He's a rapper. Now I'm not one for rap, not sure if you are either, but still, I would recommend checking out his song "5:30am", and then check out the song "I'm Sorry" which is the follow up to that first song. He went through the same pain and is also coping by opening up publicly about it. Beautiful to see. Anyways, stay strong Jason! Don't be afraid to be yourself! Live life to the fullest. When you get to the end of your life, you gotta ask yourself the questions: "Did I live a good life? Did I accomplish what I wanted to? Is there anything I regret NOT doing?" And that's why you gotta just give it your all.
As someone who has been through much of the same herself ... you're not alone, I know how hard it is to talk about these things ... be open ... or even admit it to oneself ... Thanks for sharing this, we appreciate it, we always have your back
Depression sucks ass. Lotta us feel ya bro. I got the ADHD, my mom's got depression. The ADHD's not so bad if you know how to work with it, but depression's an immensely harsh bitch of a disorder. We love ya my dude, we gotchu homie. It might not be much, might not even help... But know this- we care about you as a person, as an artist, and as a memelord. We wish the best for you Jason. If you need a break, take one. If you need help, help is out there if you seek it. We'd be devestated to lose you. Here's hoping you heal from this... May God be with you on your journey through these hard times.
I've been there man, depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I still have them, but can deal with them a bit better now. I have bad coping mechanisms, too mostly over eating, I hope to lose weight soon, small steps at a time Good to see you Jason and thanks for the video
Jason, You have taken a MONUMENTALLY HUGE step. Getting to this point in recognizing and confronting and being open about your depression is NO SMALL FEAT…. And your community- your FRIENDS- love you for getting to this point. Society has spent so long telling men that we can’t talk about our feelings, ask for help, or be vulnerable. And you’re right - it’s completely garbage. Keep on keeping on, my dude!
Dude, I've been there and still am to a large degree. Been dealing with depression for much longer than I'd like to admit and it's no fun. Whatever it is you're going through, we'll all be there to back you up. Weird to think I've been watching your stuff for nearly five years now. I can't keep up with the streams due to scheduling conflicts, but I'll always take the time to watch one of your videos when I'm feeling down. Take care of yourself Jason. Rock on!
Chester's lyrics in the song 'Heavy' resonates with me - "I'm holding on. Why is everything so heavy? Holding on, so much more than I can carry. I keep dragging around what's bringing me down, If I just let go, I'd be set free." - I always look back and wonder if those lyrics were a kind of cry for help by Chester, help that either didn't come or just wasn't enough. I may have only recently discovered you Jason, but you seem like a genuinely decent guy. Your path going forward is yours to walk however you choose. The whole journey is one where you're totally free to choose the route. I may only be one person but I'm sure most other people would also agree that you owe nothing to us. You do what you want to do going forward. Massive respect to you for this video, massive props to you for the battles you've been fighting your way through over the years, and best of luck to you for the future. Much love
Back when I first found out about your channel it was because of all the meme charts like "through the tables and the memes" and "B(one)r", but you made me want to learn guitar throughout highschool, and it helped a lot with trying to vent my creativity during a period in my life where creativity was considered of little importance. I don't play guitar as often because of a lack of time and motivation but for what it's worth, you helped me when I didn't know I needed it, and I think it's high time we offered to help you, because I know that every single person who keeps coming back to your channel on both platforms have had their lives changed for the better because of it. You've got one big family of nerds, musicians and whatever is in between, so I hope that let's you see that you don't have to be alone with how you feel and what you're going through, and that it's okay to be transparent about what's going on if you think it will improve your quality of life. You're an amazing person and an amazing creator, and thank you for getting the help you needed
This video just got splooshed into my recommendations and damn. Frankly I've only seen a few videos of you. First was Through the tables and the memes. Like you said we always saw you as the funny meme guy who plays guitar hero. And hearing this now is like damn. Why did it have to be that way. But enough of that. It's really nice to hear that life goes and continues to go your way now. I hope that you will keep on pushing yourself into the way that you can feel even more proud of what you are doing, what you did and what you look forward to do. Best wishes from this random guy from Austria.
We all love you Jason! Ever since I discovered your meme videos 5+ years ago, I've been a big fan ever since! YOU yourself helped introduce me and got me into some bands I've never listened to before thanks to your Meme/FC vids! I started watching your videos in college right before class because your humor/memes/ and just overall laugh as well helped keep me a moment of cheer and made me feel relaxed right before a stressful day of classes! For that, I want to thank you, you helped make my college experience just a bit easier for me! Again, we all love you and support you in everything you do! Keep being rad
Hey Jason, Ol' Allster108080 from twitch here. I had battled ol' Depresso Expresso for a while, especially when I was in the military a while back. I pray that you recover, brother. You are more than just loved by this community that you've gathered. Heck, I still look back at the days where I would ask chat if I should donate another set of 50 subs just to give you a good startle, and I want to see that genuine happiness again.
I have a personal playlist of your memes and mashups open in another tab. I enjoy it for the music sure. I keep coming back to it because its a great mix, but when I listen to those songs in their original uploads it doesn't satisfy, because its missing the reaction. Your reaction. You added to what is now my most replayed playlist. I've dealt with depression. 'Get better' isn't really the right thing to say, but... Find yourself. Find who you want to be; who you need to be. And... _be._
Aw I'm sorry dude ❤️ I came here because one of your videos sounded funny and I ended up subbing because of your personality. You are a great dude ❤️ never change. I know you won't, but I just wanted to remind you 😊 I'm glad you're in therapy and getting help. I'm also glad you're streaming different things you like. That'll help keep you happy and portray what we've always known you as: the happy guitar Jesus dude!
I'm here for you man, been watching your content ever since your first crash bandicoot meme chart. Your an amazing person I hope life gets better for you all the way!
As someone who's been dealing with depression and ADHD for most of my life (undiagnosed until I was 25), I completely understand what you're talking about. It's a difficult journey, and I'm still not out of the woods myself. I'm 34, I've lost years of my life where I've done effectively nothing productive thanks to my depression. I'm unemployed and trying to find a job in programming with no formal education. It heartens me to hear that you seem to be finding a way to deal with things. Depression is a bitch, but as long as you can find the strength to get back up when it knocks you down, you're already winning.
I am so unbelievably glad to hear that you're doing better, and have reached the point where you're able to identify that the things depression tries to tell you are patently false. As someone who has struggled with depression in the past, and in some ways still am doing so, I know very well that it's an insidious, creeping darkness that can make even the act of reaching out a Sisyphean task. Your FC videos have led me to so many new musical discoveries that I might never have found otherwise, and your meme videos have given me many a laugh, especially in times when I needed a laugh most. You're a wonderful man, Jason and I truly and fervently hope that you continue to do well, and that you achieve everything you set out to do.
Dude. I understand depression very well. You gave a front but now ya are starting to understand yerself. It is a long road but I am always liked the content because of you. No what how long pause there is. Yer contented helped me to get some joy in my brain and I always come to listen you.
i have depression too, Jason. i relate to a lot -- no, almost ALL of what you said here. this was actually really inspiring to watch, thank you for sharing this with us. there's a lot more i could say but you basically covered it all in the video. but i can say, i don't judge you at all for opening up like this or having these emotions. on the other hand, i very harshly judge those who made you feel like this was shameful. it isn't. keep it up man. we can do this. we can get there.
Im hoping that things get better for you man. You are a great person and you have thousands that love and support you and I want you to know that sometimes when I need a cheering up I’ll yell “TABLES” because the next thing I hear in my head is you laughing like a lunatic ❤
You are not alone, Jason. I have ADHD, autism and depression it hurts it feels like crap, but I am always here for you. Your videos made me laugh in my worst days and I am so thankful. You are inspirational. ❤ stay strong my friend! 👍
Jason, I’m so glad you made this. I love your content and your personality. Mental health is extremely important. We are all here for you no matter what. Depression is a hard battle but you got it! We all love you, Jason. If you ever need to take a break please do so.
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You're never alone, Jason. Never allow yourself to think otherwise. You are loved by all of us. You've helped cure a lot of people's depression, my own included. We all help lift each other up and we will do what we can to lift you back up to where you would love to be.
Hugs for Jason. Depression sucks compounded with ADHD is such a challenge.
I'm incredibly proud of you for making this video, Jason. Your progress with mental battles and your ability to keep it open with us viewers has been wonderful these past few months, years even. Getting to know you and having such genuine conversations on streams or through our drumming sessions has been one of the greatest things for me, as mental battles have been tough for myself as well. Being able to share my struggles with somebody else and beat some plastic instruments together has been the biggest stress reliever, and what I would happily call a friendship. I've genuinely looked up to you for years and continue to do so each and every day. We love who you are, and I'm proud to be a good pal of yours. -Tyler
We understand, take care yourself. To me you've always been the wholesome toy guitar dude!
Good to be open!
And we're here for you, bro. Take breaks if needed. We're right behind you.
You´re amazing! I grew up watching you and trust me, you are an inspiration for a lot of us. If you want someone to talk to, here i am Jason, love you bro!!!
I didn’t know what kind of stuff you were going through but I’m happy that you’re being so open here, man, take care of yourself and we’ll be with you every step of the way
Man, I'm here with you on this - so much. Similar battle and thoughts about everything 😞. You've made me smile on so many occasions with your content and streams, and I just hope that you are placed at the top of that metaphorical bowl of marbles soon. Much love ♡
ADHD and depression/ anxiety is a horrible combination you aren't alone Jason we are all here for you
I, too, have ADHD and perhaps some form of depression, so I sort of get where you're coming from. It's hard as hell, especially when trying to focus on things. Take care, my dude. 🧡
Dude, it would be an understatement to say I want to be there with you. I know I might a be some random dude behind a screen to you, but just as Rohin Williams and Chester were idols to you, you and Jerod have been idols to me. I remember discovering your channels about a month apart from each other at the age of 14 and loving the watch you guys get to have fun playing along to stuff that I was to afraid to play because I thought it was silly. But you two shoes me that it was ok to be yourself and enjoy thing even if they are a bit silly. So to say I wish I could be there to just give you a big hug if anything is an understatement, because you and jerod helped me through time when I had the very same problem you are currently dealing with. I remember saying such negative thing about myself because I wasn’t doing something perfectly on the first try. So please, even though there is a chance you might never see this comment I still will say my piece in hopes it can help. Also, I don’t know if your religious or not but I still will pray for God to by your side because he can be a light that will a path through the tunnel. So please be safe and remember you’ll never be alone because you all of us to help you.
Yo? Clone Hero drum charts soon? Let's goooooo!!! Can't wait to see more of your content, Jason. We've missed seeing your stuff. Stay strong and remember, we all love you, bro! Don't listen to the haters 😁
Pretty new and didn't know what happened, but take the time you need, stay strong, and though i can't speak for everyone; I'll be waiting here patiently
Dude your story with the late ADHD diagnosis/poor coping strategies/depression sounds EXACTLY like mine!! I'm so proud of you for taking care of yourself
You’re very brave for talking about yourself this way Jason. Stay strong mate, and take care of yourself 💙
It's hard to believe, that a person has to be strong and brave to Talk about feelings, they make us human.
I love music. I used to play drums in a bar band back in the 80's, if you remember me telling you on stream. It's because of you that I am enjoying music again when I first saw your videos here on RUclips, and you got me into playing Clone Hero when I subscribed to your Twitch channel and watched you play. You have made me very happy, and I have tried to do the same by giving you subs and bits. I do want to let you know that you helped another ADHD person ( and right now a cancer patient ) by showing me a way to rekindle my love for music. With that said, I also want to tell you that I will always love you and pray that you can deal with your mental battles better that I have to. You are a great person and a wonderful friend.
Dude, no matter what, we're here for you. Always have been. Always will be. We're so, so proud of you, and so, so glad that you felt comfortable enough to share your struggles and get support. You're a good guy.
I know exactly how you feel... Thankfully, I was diagnosed in seventh grade, but even with medicine I barely made it through high school.
Medication definitely quiets the noise and helps you create better coping mechanisms and helps with not having such poor impulse control, but it's still a LONG and difficult road.
I hope things start going well for you. It's such a nightmare sometimes. My ADHD, anxiety, and depression all feed off of each other. And those feed off of my chronic pain. It's super fun. Would definitely recommend trying that out.
I've got Adhd and depression before. Still do now. As of a few years ago, I had gotten therapy, and I can confirm that it was a terrible combination
I managed to scrape by until I was 25 and failed out of college before I was diagnosed with ADHD. Getting that diagnosis was a big step in figuring everything out and trying to get my life in order. But here I am, 34 years old, unemployed, and depressed.
The biggest lesson I've learned is just to keep getting back up and trying again, no matter what life throws at you. One of these days something is finally going to work out. It might not be tomorrow, it might not be next year. But one of these days I will finally be able to say I'm doing ok, and that knowledge alone is enough to keep me going.
@@Bobbias If you are like me, HealthyGamerGG, AKA Dr.K has helped me a lot with figuring out stuff and listening to other people's interviews about their struggles. I would highly recommend it if that stuff interests you.
I feel called out, the moment you mentioned you had a kofi I instantly checked the description for it just before you said you weren’t linking it
Thanks for being vulnerable Jason. I can 100% relate, my battle with depression is different yet similar. For me it's this overwhelming feeling of antipathy and lack of momentum to get things started or get things finished, coupled with anxiety where i have fear of failure it's difficult to ask for help. But hearing your story does give me hope, and i wish you well and whatever you choose to do content-wise i am looking forward to it.
Dude, hearing you talk about your idols, especially Chester... really hit me.
I guess your videos were/are also some kind of coping mechanism for what I've felt.
Thank you so much for all the laughs and happiness you brought me.
Keep fighting the bad thoughts and find happiness in the small and big things in your life.
Thanks for being so honest. A lot of what you said resonated with me. Especially the part about Chester - it’s so hard to hear him sing about his own demons knowing they ultimately broke him when he got you through harder times of your own. I wish you all the best.
Thank you Jason, I can pretty confidently say I wouldn't still be alive if I hadn't found your channel when I did, and you have continued to help me ever since both with the amazing community and normal stream content, and with the more serious, open discussions like this one.
I really can not thank you and Courtney enough for everything over the years
It's all good, RUclips and all of us will be here when you're ready to go again
A comment for the algorithm, and some hugs for you as well Jason. 💕
Well said. So glad you're doing better. Can't wait to see your new stuff
Today marks the fifth year I know you, and these last months were so hard on me...
Lost my father and my depression came like a steamroller again... Your old videos made me smile more than anything on these challenging times...
And you are not alone! Love from Brazil!!
AND BY THE LOVE OF FRANK SEARCH DANKPODS AND HIS CHANNELS, HE CAN HELP YA WITH YOUR DRUM GIG!! And have fun with other nugget shenanigans!
Before you were taking time off, I remember you that you were playing Guitar Hero and just enjoying the heck out of it. Ever since then I tried to understand what each and every disability does and how it affected the people. Since you were fallen down and wanted time off, I actually was thinking about you and how I'm going to make you feel yourself again. so I just came with a memes videos at first, and make you smile and laughing was my target, I'm so glad it is not just me, but THE whole community will help you get you back on your feet.
Ever since then that I was in your community, I became more mature, understanding your side of ADHD, and getting to know your good taste in music. I noticed that you don't really upload RUclips as much but that being said I just support you as much as I can anyway, being there in twitch, seeing from Guitar Hero guitar controller player, into drum Hero makes me so happy and proud of you Jason and how far you came to show your limit.
I'm also super proud that you also posted this video explaining how hard has depression hit you.
It is not easy, but as I am part of a community we are here to make sure that whatever you feel like doing, we just go along with it and rock out.
Rock On Jason, and here to the loving community will help and guide you.
Glad you're back brother.
It's good to see you back and being more honest with yourself. You do not walk this path alone. You are an amazing person and I hope you continue to heal.
Whenever I see someone that I look up to struggling with depression, or mental issues in general, I'm never really sure what to say. Most of the time I don't say anything, because I end up thinking that it'd sound cliche or dull; However... right now, I think I know what I want to say.
First: Thank you. For opening up like this, for constantly fighting the dark thoughts, and for genuinely trying to better yourself. I know this takes guts, especially if your 'media persona' is completely different, and I'm glad you managed to find yourself in a good enough spot to speak up.
But even more importantly: Keep on going. Even if that bowl turns out to be steeper than it seemed; even if the bad thoughts come back with double, triple, ten times the strength, never stop trying to overcome them; because as long as you're in the fight, you can still win, and your friends can support you.
I might be just a dude on the internet, who just happens to watch your streams sometimes; you don't know my face, even though I'm very familiar with yours. I imagine that my words are just that: a few 1's and 0's on whatever device you're reading this on. But at the same time, you as a person have influenced my life a lot; Aside from introducing me to at least 15(!) different bands, some of which are my absolute favourites to this day, you've also made me realise a lot of things about myself: That I really should keep delving into music-related hobbies, that I still want to learn how to play drums... that I also suffer from ADHD, although thankfully in mild way. In a way, your streams have been a catalyst for my own self-discovery, for which I'll never be able to properly thank you.
Right now, though? It's time to help yourself. You know best how to go about that, so I'll just shut up and spread that love and hype your way for once.
We are here for your skill and your infectious ass laugh. You are worthy and you are enough.
I always come back to your videos, especially your meme chart walkthroughs. These videos made me laugh so many times and even helped me through some troublesome times in my life. I find myself coming back to them so often because I just enjoy watching them so much. You rock dude!
I needed this. I needed this so bad. I needed to hear these words. All I can say is... Thank You. Glad to see you made it back around and you really helped me today. Thank you
Jason, I know exactly how you feel. Trying to fight for the success and stuff really didn't make me happy. It took me a long time to realize that I need to do what truly makes me happy and avoid the pressure of trying to always be "first." Big hugs, man!
Happy to hear from you again Jason! I've been battling with the exact same things and have also been trying to work through it, so hang in there! Good to us both, my friend. :)
Making this video is perhaps one of the most important steps in the path towards dealing with the issue.
You acknowledge that part of yourself: the negativity, bad traits, etc.
Also a good psychiatrist is important indeed, I can understand it as I've had one that made the situation worse as well.
I am thankful you now have an idea of how to battle your issues, I am in thought with you as it sounds similar to the issues I've battled.
Still love your videos and rewatch bOne(r) every now and then.
I will patiently await when the next video comes out, you lovely fellow!
Dude that so well done! As someone who also has ADHD and struggles with depression every so often I kinda understand what you are dealing with! But as others have said you are Never alone! For the record, I probably watch your confusion volume 1-3 video once a month because it always makes me laugh and your reactions are hilarious! Keep doing what you are doing man!
Same dude... same. Robin Williams, Chester, Chris Cornell, Layne Staley... "River of Deceit" really hit me hard.
I was glad I got help when I could, wish I could afford more. Its all about balance man, you gotta do things for yourself, its not selfish.
Learned drums myself starting with RB1~ Glad to hear youre having fun with em!
You are practically a large part of my childhood, and getting me to places that I've never though I would be before, dont stress yourself about anything, you're popular in our hearts.
For what it's worth, those essays were fuckin' GOLD. Your insights are second to none, and I'm very glad we still have you around. From one clinically depressed boi to another, I'm glad you're taking time to heal and be honest to yourself. You deserve to feel good things about yourself, and I know how much of a struggle that can be. Keep rockin', man. You're doing fantastic, no matter what that little voice behind your brain says.
I am proud of you for being brave enough to be open and honest with us.
It is making me feel like it is ok to be more open. I am struggling hard, not able to work, and waiting for my ADHD evaluation to begin soon. It is going slow but I am also learning through daily failures.
Unprocessed emotion is a big one to tackle when I have been distracting myself for years and not had the EQ to notice how I feel, alexithymia is real.
I am grateful for getting a good psychologist my first time, can't imagine how I would feel if I got told I was acting.
Stay strong Jason, your honesty and journeyis helping more people than you think.
Also, I recommend HealthyGamerGG on youtube for those searching for answers and like to research and understand themselves and life issues. Dr.K has helped me a lot and many Twitch streamers so it is pretty official! He has a lot of content on ADHD!
I hope you feel better, and dont worry we have tones of your old videos and other youtubers like acai to keep us company until you get back to normal 😎👍⚔️
Best way to reach out.
Good job!
I’m happy you’re getting better man.
I still remember going to highschool and watching your vids on the busride to school, with some kind of test waiting for me, barely awake.
And yet in my headphones was you laughing your ass off.
That was a lot of fun!
I’m also happy you picked drums up, been doing that myself for at least 11 years now.
If ya need help with that, let me know!
Life has it's ups and downs. Right now your climbing out of the trough heading for the peaks and we are with you for the journey!
On a lighter note, I'm totally in agreement with you about rhythm game drums. I learned how to play drums through Rock Band drums, because the gameplay is the most like the real thing. It teaches you the limb independence and hand-eye co-ordination to play increasingly complex beats.
Connecting with others who can be a positive influence, or being that positive influence for others is amazing when it's reciprocal. Be positive, everybody; that same positivity will make its way back.
Having been in your shoes before I'm glad you're doing better, big hugs.
I'm proud of your inner strength to bring it out and talk about it. I am fighting depressions for years now and sharing your experience, your thoughts and feelings just helped me pretty far just as your funny videos helped me over the time.
Thank you so much for beeing you, keep going. Greetings from Germany
I find myself at the same point mentally. Finding it hard to experience joy when all life seems to give me is disappointments and setbacks.
But know that just like I am learning right now, you deserve the world. You deserve love. You deserve to have fun. And most importantly, you deserve to be YOU.
You'll get through this, and we'll help you, Jason. Opening up like this is a huge step in the best direction.
Here's a hug❤️
Never give up ❤️
Hey Jason, I just want to let you know you've brought me a lot of joy over the years. We're all with you, especially in your time of need. If you haven't already, please seek help again. I had gone through similar stuff, the same mindset, the drive to work so hard to fill the void or keep away the demons. The biggest thing that helped me was seeking counselling. That helped a massive amount. It didn't fix my problems, but knowing what my problems were made them much more manageable and surmountable. I also "positively disintegrated" recently and it was the best thing to happen to me.
Stay strong man, we love you
I am so glad to hear you're doing better. And yes, you should give yourself credit. A lot of it. I am so proud of you, for how much you're growing. And the fact that you took this problem hands on, ready to tackle it. We all appreciate you, and if you ever wanna just vent or talk, we will be here to help you out and listen to you. And I'd love to see your progress on drumming, would be really fun to see!
I'm currently trying to learn how to paint in a specific style, so I very much relate to the wanting to do it perfectly the first time around, -- as well as the general struggling against your brain. You're not alone in this, and I think it's good to know that. You won't get any overdramatic "you cured my depression" from me, so best I can tell you is I enjoy your content. You don't have to be perfect, and you're more than good enough for this random person on the internet.
It's hard stuff. Depression, Anxiety, and ADHD myself. Still figuring a lot of stuff out.
Lord knows whenever someone big who I looked up to ends up ending their own life something gets in my head for a time that says "What chance do I have?" Sometimes I need to remind myself that I've made it this far and that's a big deal.
I'm glad you're getting things figured out. Depression is a pain in the ass, and it's always good to see someone get through it in spite of the lies their brains are telling them. I hope you're proud of yourself to put this out there.
I've missed seeing your videos, and depression is hard. No matter if you feel like you're getting past a hard spot, it hits you even harder. I'm proud of you for making this video. Here's to a good year for you Jason
Jason I have watched you for a long time since the old days of years when. Always look after yourself and take breaks when you need to. Seeing your streams or videos always make me smile keep being you Jason 💜🤟
Jason, I wanted to thank you for something you probably did not intend to make me think. I have been struggling for over 15 years now with very similar issues, but this might be the first time I actually heard someone else open up their heart and mind on this matter; someone with actual, direct experience instead of theories from medical books. I have been trying for over a decade to find a coping mechanism through art, and constantly failing to achieve even the first, smallest stepping-stone to actually get acknowledged as an artist did take its toll on me. It often takes a lot of effort to keep reminding myself that I ought to be creative for myself; find something that makes me happy instead of trying to please some thick-skulled businessmen who do not want art, only products. Hearing you talk about the importance of just... being yourself... no matter how vulnerable it makes survivors like us feel... those words reached places few other did. Those words were not hollow as my own words of reason are towards myself.
For what it is worth, I thank you. And I want you to know that you are not alone. There are people who understand and are accepting of these struggles. As you said: you are enough as you are.
Take care.
Depression can be one of the hardest things to talk about, but we are glad that you are opening up about it. It takes a lot of courage.
Depression can be a rather volatile illness at times. But overall, it makes you feel as if there's no way out, that there's no way you will get better.
I'm really sorry to hear about the experience with your previous therapist. I've heard of some awful things that therapists have told their clients before, and what she said to you about "acting" was completely out of line.
I sincerely hope you feel better. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy.
jason, back in 2018 is when i first came across your videos and which brought me back into the light of plastic guitars. from then, your videos brought me joy and in the first half of this video you almost had me crying, to see someone ive idled for so long to be struggling, felt like a part of me broke, but towards the end of the video a smile was brought back to my face to hear youre getting better.
jason, if it wasnt for you all those years ago, somehow stumbling across my recommended, i dont know where i would be. you indirectly introduced me into this community and its been the best thing to ever happen to me, from just casually playing clone hero, to helping develop for Fret Smasher, and now to be one of the lead devs for Downbeat, its been a blessing, and i can say for both games, im glad youve been the one to share light on things i, and others have worked hard for. you have brought more joy to others than you may think.
Really appreciate you Jason best of luck to you moving forward
Show the world what a Strong Open and Lovable Goofball you wanna be and we'll stand behind ya all the way
Wonder what Jerod thinks of you picking up drums I'm sure it's alot of fun
Dont know if this is of any help but your wrestling streams and your lovely community helped so much to get over one of the darkest times I ever had because of the pandemic. I was at my very low not knowing if i would have a job (I work in clubs) after the virus or if i wasted years of blood n sweat to build a career. Your streams gave me a reason to giggle, laugh and not think about all the shit going on. So a big massive thank you!!
The "downside" now that I'm back at my job is that I'm not abel to join your streams anymore. But you and your community will always have a special place in my heart.
Thanks for helping destigmatize these discussions. I've been through these dark places and the trend toward talking openly about them (when comfortable doing so) has been such a positive one.
Yeah, adhd can be a pain. I was diagnosed around a year and a half ago and looking at some of your oldest and most viewed vids, I could definitely see it once I understood what it was. You’ll learn to work around it, just take things one step at a time rather than thinking you have to face it all at once. Helps me on a daily basis. Stay Strong Brother 💪 ❤
Hey man it’s all good glad to see you are okay and talking about it
Thank you for making this video. As a fan I have thoroughly enjoyed your content and this is a glimpse into the man behind the product. You will persevere and you will make it through this. You have people who care about you even if they may not know you on a personal level. Keep on keeping on Jason!
Do what ya gotta to get better.
Your fans stand by you.
I have those problems where I wake up and feel like I don't want to and I want to be put into a coma, since COVID hit and I was in senior year at the time, just of depression and me being bipolar and my problems with my ADHD, my Autism, and my severe anxiety. Watching your videos, beforehand, Jason, it changed my life and I thought: hey, maybe, I could just let people know about me, then I don't need to hide much longer. Your videos inspired me to do that and I will never forget that at all. Love you, bro
So much courage and honesty! Nothing but love from me Jason, take care of your self!
I've been peripherally following your content, popping in now and again for a good binge of music and laughs. But I absolutely love this video. So many people, myself included, struggle with many of the same things you're addressing and it's nice to hear that no one is ever as alone as their meat controller makes them think they are. Gld to hear you are getting into a better place.
I’ve taken a few days to mull over what you said here and what I wanted to say. Almost two years ago, I wrote a comment saying that hearing you talk about your struggles gave me hope for the future and that still rings true today. As someone who has ADHD and depression as well, a lot of what you said here really resonated with me; I have been and still am in a situation like this. Your openness (and, dare I say, bravery) in sharing your struggles has helped me feel like what I’m going through isn’t unique to me.
Jason, I want you to know that you and your content have deeply affected me and my hobbies. If it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have rediscovered GH and I wouldn’t have been introduced to the likes of Helvian, Pluffaduff, Neil Cicierega, BandiPat, and Cosmic Latte. If it wasn’t for the videos you made, I wouldn’t have started making mashups as a hobby, something that I deeply enjoy doing. I hope that I can make something polished enough that I can confidently give it to you to play on (or off) stream someday.
You said that you like Linkin Park, so I was wondering if you have one song you like in particular? I was thinking that maybe I could try making a mashup with it as a way of showing my appreciation for you. Granted, I’m still learning the ropes, but I’ll give it my all. Thanks for everything you’ve done, Jason. I hope things get better for you soon. 💜
Opening up and being vulnerable is a very difficult thing to do. I've been doing it myself recently. Mainly since Linkin Park released that track. I listened to that song over and over again. The lyrics are powerful, especially with knowing what happened to Chester. And it helped me realize how stuck I was. And that I needed to try something new. To be vulnerable to those close to me. To look at the things that are holding me back and asking for help. I've been depressed. I got out of it, but it's still been a journey to keep moving forward. To find my way out of the woods and not allow it to take me back. And talking about it is one of the best tools. You are not alone. You are loved.
Love you Jason! Been subscribed since the GH: Live days. Stay happy and healthy, friend! \m/
Thank you, Jason. Experiencing my own struggles with depression, knowing how invisible it can be, hearing someone talk about it open and earnestly is refreshing. And something that should be done more, to help people feel more able and welcome to communicate their own challenges with mental health.
I feel you. I've been set back on my studies due to ADHD, and I kept coming back to procrastinating by watching youtube instead of trying to figure out why I was being set back. You're not alone on that.
JasonParadiseLost. But in all seriousness, do whatever you need to do to make sure YOURE ok. You can't do what you love if you don't take the time to take care of yourself. The rest of the world can always wait
We've all been there man. Stay strong. Just gotta take a deep breath and view life in a new way. A new perspective. A new sense of direction. Can proudly say I've been happy since 2013 after some life changing experiences. I knew a guy who went through the same thing who also made music about it. A dear friend of the Pokemon community. His name is Shizzy, also known as VI Seconds. He's a rapper. Now I'm not one for rap, not sure if you are either, but still, I would recommend checking out his song "5:30am", and then check out the song "I'm Sorry" which is the follow up to that first song. He went through the same pain and is also coping by opening up publicly about it. Beautiful to see. Anyways, stay strong Jason! Don't be afraid to be yourself! Live life to the fullest. When you get to the end of your life, you gotta ask yourself the questions: "Did I live a good life? Did I accomplish what I wanted to? Is there anything I regret NOT doing?" And that's why you gotta just give it your all.
As someone who has been through much of the same herself ... you're not alone, I know how hard it is to talk about these things ... be open ... or even admit it to oneself ...
Thanks for sharing this, we appreciate it, we always have your back
Depression sucks ass. Lotta us feel ya bro.
I got the ADHD, my mom's got depression.
The ADHD's not so bad if you know how to work with it, but depression's an immensely harsh bitch of a disorder.
We love ya my dude, we gotchu homie. It might not be much, might not even help... But know this- we care about you as a person, as an artist, and as a memelord.
We wish the best for you Jason. If you need a break, take one. If you need help, help is out there if you seek it.
We'd be devestated to lose you. Here's hoping you heal from this... May God be with you on your journey through these hard times.
I've been there man, depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I still have them, but can deal with them a bit better now.
I have bad coping mechanisms, too mostly over eating, I hope to lose weight soon, small steps at a time
Good to see you Jason and thanks for the video
Jason,
You have taken a MONUMENTALLY HUGE step. Getting to this point in recognizing and confronting and being open about your depression is NO SMALL FEAT…. And your community- your FRIENDS- love you for getting to this point.
Society has spent so long telling men that we can’t talk about our feelings, ask for help, or be vulnerable. And you’re right - it’s completely garbage.
Keep on keeping on, my dude!
Dude, I've been there and still am to a large degree. Been dealing with depression for much longer than I'd like to admit and it's no fun. Whatever it is you're going through, we'll all be there to back you up.
Weird to think I've been watching your stuff for nearly five years now. I can't keep up with the streams due to scheduling conflicts, but I'll always take the time to watch one of your videos when I'm feeling down. Take care of yourself Jason. Rock on!
Chester's lyrics in the song 'Heavy' resonates with me - "I'm holding on. Why is everything so heavy? Holding on, so much more than I can carry. I keep dragging around what's bringing me down, If I just let go, I'd be set free." - I always look back and wonder if those lyrics were a kind of cry for help by Chester, help that either didn't come or just wasn't enough. I may have only recently discovered you Jason, but you seem like a genuinely decent guy. Your path going forward is yours to walk however you choose. The whole journey is one where you're totally free to choose the route. I may only be one person but I'm sure most other people would also agree that you owe nothing to us. You do what you want to do going forward. Massive respect to you for this video, massive props to you for the battles you've been fighting your way through over the years, and best of luck to you for the future. Much love
Back when I first found out about your channel it was because of all the meme charts like "through the tables and the memes" and "B(one)r", but you made me want to learn guitar throughout highschool, and it helped a lot with trying to vent my creativity during a period in my life where creativity was considered of little importance. I don't play guitar as often because of a lack of time and motivation but for what it's worth, you helped me when I didn't know I needed it, and I think it's high time we offered to help you, because I know that every single person who keeps coming back to your channel on both platforms have had their lives changed for the better because of it. You've got one big family of nerds, musicians and whatever is in between, so I hope that let's you see that you don't have to be alone with how you feel and what you're going through, and that it's okay to be transparent about what's going on if you think it will improve your quality of life. You're an amazing person and an amazing creator, and thank you for getting the help you needed
This video just got splooshed into my recommendations and damn. Frankly I've only seen a few videos of you. First was Through the tables and the memes. Like you said we always saw you as the funny meme guy who plays guitar hero. And hearing this now is like damn. Why did it have to be that way. But enough of that. It's really nice to hear that life goes and continues to go your way now. I hope that you will keep on pushing yourself into the way that you can feel even more proud of what you are doing, what you did and what you look forward to do. Best wishes from this random guy from Austria.
I am proud of you Jason
We all love you Jason! Ever since I discovered your meme videos 5+ years ago, I've been a big fan ever since! YOU yourself helped introduce me and got me into some bands I've never listened to before thanks to your Meme/FC vids! I started watching your videos in college right before class because your humor/memes/ and just overall laugh as well helped keep me a moment of cheer and made me feel relaxed right before a stressful day of classes!
For that, I want to thank you, you helped make my college experience just a bit easier for me! Again, we all love you and support you in everything you do! Keep being rad
Love you my friend. I know that those feels and I am so happy to hear that you've gotten a diagnosis that gave you some perspective and clarity.
Hey Jason, Ol' Allster108080 from twitch here. I had battled ol' Depresso Expresso for a while, especially when I was in the military a while back. I pray that you recover, brother. You are more than just loved by this community that you've gathered. Heck, I still look back at the days where I would ask chat if I should donate another set of 50 subs just to give you a good startle, and I want to see that genuine happiness again.
I have a personal playlist of your memes and mashups open in another tab. I enjoy it for the music sure. I keep coming back to it because its a great mix, but when I listen to those songs in their original uploads it doesn't satisfy, because its missing the reaction. Your reaction. You added to what is now my most replayed playlist.
I've dealt with depression. 'Get better' isn't really the right thing to say, but... Find yourself. Find who you want to be; who you need to be. And... _be._
Aw I'm sorry dude ❤️ I came here because one of your videos sounded funny and I ended up subbing because of your personality. You are a great dude ❤️ never change. I know you won't, but I just wanted to remind you 😊 I'm glad you're in therapy and getting help. I'm also glad you're streaming different things you like. That'll help keep you happy and portray what we've always known you as: the happy guitar Jesus dude!
God did I felt that whole 17mins video hitting hard in my core. Get well my dude, I'm wishing you the best!
I'm here for you man, been watching your content ever since your first crash bandicoot meme chart. Your an amazing person I hope life gets better for you all the way!
As someone who's been dealing with depression and ADHD for most of my life (undiagnosed until I was 25), I completely understand what you're talking about.
It's a difficult journey, and I'm still not out of the woods myself. I'm 34, I've lost years of my life where I've done effectively nothing productive thanks to my depression. I'm unemployed and trying to find a job in programming with no formal education.
It heartens me to hear that you seem to be finding a way to deal with things. Depression is a bitch, but as long as you can find the strength to get back up when it knocks you down, you're already winning.
I am so unbelievably glad to hear that you're doing better, and have reached the point where you're able to identify that the things depression tries to tell you are patently false. As someone who has struggled with depression in the past, and in some ways still am doing so, I know very well that it's an insidious, creeping darkness that can make even the act of reaching out a Sisyphean task.
Your FC videos have led me to so many new musical discoveries that I might never have found otherwise, and your meme videos have given me many a laugh, especially in times when I needed a laugh most. You're a wonderful man, Jason and I truly and fervently hope that you continue to do well, and that you achieve everything you set out to do.
Dude. I understand depression very well. You gave a front but now ya are starting to understand yerself. It is a long road but I am always liked the content because of you. No what how long pause there is. Yer contented helped me to get some joy in my brain and I always come to listen you.
i have depression too, Jason. i relate to a lot -- no, almost ALL of what you said here. this was actually really inspiring to watch, thank you for sharing this with us. there's a lot more i could say but you basically covered it all in the video. but i can say, i don't judge you at all for opening up like this or having these emotions. on the other hand, i very harshly judge those who made you feel like this was shameful. it isn't. keep it up man. we can do this. we can get there.
We’re all here for you Jason! I’ve struggled with similar things in the past, and if I can do it god damn it so can you!
Im hoping that things get better for you man. You are a great person and you have thousands that love and support you and I want you to know that sometimes when I need a cheering up I’ll yell “TABLES” because the next thing I hear in my head is you laughing like a lunatic ❤
You are not alone, Jason. I have ADHD, autism and depression it hurts it feels like crap, but I am always here for you. Your videos made me laugh in my worst days and I am so thankful. You are inspirational. ❤ stay strong my friend! 👍
Jason, I’m so glad you made this. I love your content and your personality. Mental health is extremely important. We are all here for you no matter what. Depression is a hard battle but you got it! We all love you, Jason. If you ever need to take a break please do so.