Christina, I appreciate your commitment dedication and energy! Thank you for helping others on a path to more freedom love and positivity. Sometimes I find it hard to follow your videos because of how fast you speak. Is there a way to slow down the audio? Thanks!
I would LOVE to hermit it up!! unfortunately I share a child with a borderline woman. Would love to just have some help for once in my life and go live somewhere in the Caribbean.
As hungry as a bear the whole time. 😅I'm starving and it seems no amount of food is ever enough. I had it checked with my doctor too and everything is normal he said. Hungry, exhausted and dumbfounded most of the time. I can't see my future anymore. It's as if I'm walking in the void these days. I hope it's all over soon.
Yes, me too! I also have a large presence of Jupiter in my astrological chart. Jupiter can mean overindulgence but it is a lucky planet and watches over me.
The solar plexus empties??? 😮 I 100% confirm these 6 symptoms. Lately, I was feeling sad about not feeling confident and cool in my old style of clothes anymore. Looking forward to finding a new one after 4 years of being a hermit 😅 grateful for this content 🙏🏽
I get it. I have been isolating badly, going thru a real identity crisis. Am “older midlife crisis”. What i am finding is a whole new version on me. The real me
Omg this is what's happening to me. Yesterday I looked up at the sky and just repeated over and over "just kill me or help me, I don't care which one" I feel alone, I feel crazy, I feel like I don't deserve to be happy, and I definitely feel like hurting myself. I'm so glad I know why. Thank you 🙏🙏🙏
Your not alone, i have said this to Creator so many times, either help me or let me die now, Since saying this im not joking so much has healed in my life, i dont Prayer to nobody outside of myself, i Prayer to the God within my Heart. Hope you feel better soon, Stay strong.
I’m in year 2 of my hermit phase and I can say from that this is a pivotal time in my life. It’s difficult not knowing what is next, but it’s freeing to open myself to the possibilities.
I’ve been in this four years…. Discovering maybe I wasn’t bipolar andADD but autistic. I feel like I’m not alive and will never comeback even though the Mr that was here wasn’t me
I can think of two friends who took their lives in the last two years. Bright lights of love, gone. The grief that ripples out has been devastating. Now I know why. Their awakening/ego death needed this video.Thank you ❤
Hey everyone, I just wanna share how I’m feeling and just feel heard . My hole life I was so insecure, I felt ugly and I’ve never felt good enough. I was always afraid to shine and show myself to the world. I felt like this because in my house there was a violent energy at my house. My parents used to beat my big brother, and I was always really quiet. I was scared of them kindof. Last year I moved from my house to the other part of the world (I’m from Argentina) and there were no boundaries, I felt like I was able to be whoever I wanted to be. I think I’ve never felt so happy and free in my life. 6 months ago I came back to my house in Argentina due to a difficult situation, and for some reason I feel like a mixture of those two personalities. And for some reason I can’t let go off the past. It’s been a really hard time here, leaving with my mum again and I just don’t know what to do. I just wanna feel happy again. :( . Thanks for listening
Sometimes I feel you can see me... like we have an invisible connection. Every time I have a major question, you post something that gives me the clarity I neex! You are a blessing on this earth, Christina❤
When an innocents essence - no matter what age - is intentionally stolen - from an External synthetic source, and now leaving only empty stares from a seemingly now purposeless state_ Creates transparent masks of adaptive unknowns_ of cold separations _ 'Cept to kind animals 'They are Pure _ ntbg.
Im on that stage Now ,i don't know myself at all ,i have changed so much in a short time.. ,,being a scapegoat of the family. ,,it thrown me to spiritual Awkenning But i didn't know it's not honey & sugar,, ,I've been a truth teller & worrier A scapegoat & a surviver. ,,& dealing with so much toxicity ,,& still on my Intigrity & Authenticity ,but abit lost with so much i have changed,, ,I've been isolating,,it's not me at all .im a Saggitarius out doors expanding exploring,, ,,but in a different way now . ,,I'm shocked with myself, ,from Australia Love & light ❤❤❤
I feel the same exact thing. Scares the crap outta me I want to break the chains and free myself from this pain. I'm desperately trying to to stop this, let go of all the past, pain, forgive, make amends with myself even... Does anyone have any tips on HOW to "let go" of everything so I can move on?! I'm having a problem with this bc I say, think and I'm almost sure I "let go" of everything and then poof one hr later I am on my knees crying again and throwing a big fit in my room and talking to myself like wtf is wrong with me forreal I NEED to let it ALL go NOW I'm so ready!
@@alycewhitworth1259your purging all the past pain it’s part of the process not pleasant at all just allow yourself to feel your feelings don’t feel guilty for being angry sad crying etc
Whoa! "Observe" Whoa! "Hermit" .... This has been a 3 year process... Ive observed it happening exactly as you have described. Fortunately, my patience and faith in future existence endured... as i also turned 60 (surprise!) January 25th, (how'd i ever get this age!!!???) Even tho i experienced sooooo sooooo many losses, material (home, posessions, income) relationship w my 3 young adult children testing autonomy..(a mothers pain, even tho it means you did well raising them!) inauthentic friendships, (funny how they disappear when you are in need instead of being a resource for theirs) emotional and even my memory suffered. For 6 months i honestly felt like my life-force was waning! Hermitting in one form or another for over a year now, i see the faint hues of rose and amber diluting the periwinkle sky of the dawn of my mystery future days! Oh where will i go? COSTA RICA? Puravida! Namaste! Much Gratitude Christina! Bliss and Blessings, 'til we meet, or meld, someday! Susie
Same!!! Lost everything, ego death, kundalini awakening, twin flame, definitely rollercoaster! But I’m finally realizing if I’m patient and I believe god is preparing me for something bigger! I’m excited 💕💕but yes, lots of pain, confusion, exhaustion, feeling lost, hermit mode for almost 2 yrs now. I reassure u all it gets better and peace comes in. Protect it with your life😌🔥
Yes its a journey. Been in the hermit stage for going on 2 yrs now. I'm grateful so much good content on RUclips to help me thru this. I'm doing better with patience and trusting of the process now. I'm grateful I'm not clueless.❤❤
hermit phase was making me go crazy with everything seeming so meaningless and neutral for a year now - this video was a good reminder and to go with the process.
You are describing the last 3 years of my life. But recently, maybe a couple of months ago, I started feeling at peace with the ideia of not knowing who I am. I am being more acceptant of parts of myself I always felt should not come to surface (speacialy the ones that said no, established limits). I was raised to be quiet and accept all injustices around me. Now I am being more vocal, more honest with myself and everyone.
It is so comforting/validating that others who have gone through a spiritual awakening had similar symptoms. Not being surrounded by other spiritually inclined people makes me feel very lonely and honestly crazy at times. There have been many times within the past year that I did not recognize myself in the mirror. My therapist diagnosed me with existential OCD, Derealization & Depersonalization (dissociative disorder).
do not listen to them, you will overcome the loneliness, I thought I never would, but I spent time alone until I did, love yourself unconditionally and spend time alone, all you need is within you-heart hugs you will be ok
Yes during my first dark night of the soul I was sooo anxious but now I actually enjoy when it happens because I’m so excited to see what’s gonna happen next
I have evolved from my hermit life that lasted over two years. I have started to fully enjoy my new life and it is so wonderful. You have been of great use to me in my understanding of my life and spiritual awakening. GOD is my guide and you are my comfort. Thank You! Larry
I lost my sense of self after a car accident, I never looked at life the same way again, then I exoerienced an ego death in 2012, and after that I still am very much confused and detached from thus world, but I keep meditating and surrendering to Source and it's getting better. Thank you 💜🦋☀️✨
Wow. I am speechless. I feel like I learned more in this video than I have from my therapist or those who know me inside out. I cannot thank you enough. I've been praying to God every day for clarity to help me understand whats going on and felt called to your channel today. Side-note: I also noticed I suppress my spiritual beliefs often as I was raised to be a part of a very cynical, logical family. I'd love to connect with people like me in terms of spirituality and their faith helping them throughout hard times, I notice I feel a lot of guilt and shame for it. 🙏 Take care all, we're not alone in this.
I’ve never had a sense of self. Now at 67 years old, I live alone. I only feel I’m “me” when I’m alone. When having family visiting there are so many personalities I feel I jump into one, then another leaving me to feel indecisive and unsure. Thank you for helping me understand!❤
This began happening when I was 6. I’m 38 now and never knew why this happens/would happen to me. It held me back my entire life. I’ve lived in fear afraid to look at myself because I didn’t know what was happening. When I was younger it terrified me. Literally thought I would float away. Everyone brushed me off so I struggled, internally trying to dodge this for nearly 30 years. I’ve recently began adjusting, but this information would have change the world around me in a positive way 😢
I might add I’ve felt alone my entire life, never lonely, but all alone. ‘Something’ is certainly starting to make sense, but still have no idea.. about anything really! Thank you for these videos though. Guidance is a gift, thank you again
@@timdavis601I completely feel you on the feeling alone. That something you’re feeling is that gift inside that only some of us possess. I hope you’re able to find your way soon. Just keep being as open as possible, working on yourself and cutting out distractions and negative people and things (aka news, social media, etc.)
@@greyjade5501 🙏 Thank you my friend. I love getting advice from those who have this kind of understanding. I’m from a tiny town so resources for guidance is scarce! Thank you again!
It's me again Saggitarius Sydney Australia. & going true my spiritual Awkenning. Was shocking to me how much i have change. ,,i went from a very confident person. To a not confident person At all , ,,with a change in short time,, , my face features Changed,, I saw it & looks like it's to stay. ,,people noticed it,,& instead of saying you have changed .they ask me if i lost weight,, ,,i haven't lost any weight,, ,,out the sudden i age,, ,,it made me fell Sad,, ,,one of you videos that i have listened,, Made me understand this changed, But it not pleasant But working on it & accepting wathever it's coming along ,,it's death of the Ego.. Very emotional ,,i was isolating Abit embarrassed of this change,, , love & light ❤❤❤
I feel like this at 26 years old. I’ve been having to take a lot of comfort for myself, feeling like idk where I’m going next because I desire different than what my parents, family and friends have or want for me. I tried the regular way after college and it didn’t work. I am just so optimistic to keep posting my content on here n sharing my story. This gave me hope I will flourish out of my situation and be freed physically, emotionally and spiritually
Thank you this is exactly what I needed I am going through everything you mentioned and it’s been really challenging all I can do to keep me going is to keep my faith and trusting in God. Thank you Christina sending you so much love 💕 😘
I am in this phase. I feel like I don't know anything anymore. I feel very lost. I'm a teacher and wanted to be a teacher since I was a kid. Lately, I feel very unmotivated and I feel like I'm meant to do something else but I don't know what. I reunited with my high school sweet heart. He swept me off my feel, we married, blended our family...and then I got to meet his abusive side. I didn't even realize I was in an emotionally abusive relationship until I was out. I just felt so depleted. All of me. My soul, mind, body, spirit...was all so extremely depleted and exhausted. Instead of getting angry, I cried out all the stress and anxiety and sadness. I cried almost daily for about a year. It was a release and it helped me feel more regulated. I leaned on God more than ever before too. It has all changed me. In my opinion, for the better. I'm a better mom to my daughter. More loving and more patient. But I find more peace spending time with my daughter and my parents...and that's about it. I find myself wanting to hibernate a lot and just be in my own peaceful space. This hibernating or hermitting phase has been my most favorite part. It's not always easy so I treasure it. I feel like I don't recognize myself in the mirror these days too...
Been in this phase for 4 going on 5 years 😅 it’s not pleasant. Thoughts about “just go back to your old ways- it was easier” periodically run through my mind. But, I quickly get disgusted and shut it down. Not sure where I’m supposed to go from here. I’m just being. And trying to stay patient with the process. ❤
I literally NEVER comment on videos, but for THIS video I HAD TO because this video is perfect for me and popped up on my RUclips feed at literally the perfect time
Thank you SO much for this. I had an awakening on Feb 28 of this year, and Id been clean from heroin for yeeeeeears. Only recently have i begun feeling nostalgia for the days of using and running the streets with no responsibilities. It made me feel tough, in a way, that I kept myself alive and somewhat well, in an extremely distorted way. Anyway, i had to shake my head to break through those thought clouds, because REALLY? ROMANTICIZING ADDICTION AND HOMELESSNESS?😂 I felt the grief of my identity, and now the last, stickiest, ickiest bits are hanging on, but I am aware now. I appreciate the medical lens through which you explain spirituality. It's my jam! And youre so beautiful to watch! Thanks again!❤❤❤
I'm going through this now. 😭 Believe me it's not exciting. It's actually very stressful. It's my birthday next week which is ironic. I'm very angry at the universe.
divorce? I was mad at the universe at one time myself, one day you will look back and be grateful, you're in a tough place right now though, might not be divorce, that is what did it for me, and now I am profoundly grateful for what I learned from the experience, it was a living nightmare in so many ways, I thought I was losing my mind, but in the end it was good for me, if it would not have been for that traumatizing experience I would not have learned things that are still with me today and I did not like it one bit but it was worth it
THANKS 💖 Now I have a clue to what my solar plexus is showing me! For some time now I have worked on my energy senters and I have to admit that I have been sad and confused when my sola plexus has been empty and silent.... I haven't found any clues...... Until I heard your video last night. Now I can meet my "empty" solar plexus with excitement and look forward to what my soul wishes to fill it up with 💖💖💖
wow! thank you for posting this video, so I'm not the only one in hermit mode, we have all been going through this the last few years, think about how amazing that is, we are all in this together, peace and love everyone, you are my kind of people
Wow totally sounds like what i went through due to severe suffering from coming off of a benzo ,which damaged my brain and nervous system. I lost all ego and sense of self. I also had to close myself into my room in order to survive the severe suffering because the slightest sounds/sights made the symptoms million times worse for me. I'm almost out of it 8 years later but still not fully back to normal yet. I had a very protracted long horrific withdrawal from them and couldn't even read/talk/watch tv or anything for many years. I am def a totally different person now
Although I didn’t experience quite what you did, I experienced something very similar. I was put on a very powerful antidepressant, against my will when I was 13 years old, for a diagnosis of depression that never existed. It took away my life in my teenage years aswell as a large portion of my 20’s. And because I was so numb to the world around me, I made some very bad choices and put myself in horrible, dangerous situations. I struggled to get off of them for 20 years, with many many attempts. I remember the first, longest time that I came off, I truly felt like I was dying. What I came to also realize is that I had no idea who I was. It’s like I was starting back again at 13 years old, trying to learn who I was. I’m 4 years fully antidepressant free, and I finally feel like I know who I am. It also triggered a spiritual awakening, so there’s that too. 😂 Anyways, sorry for my long winded comment. Just wanted to say that I see you. Sending love! 🩷
What a tough situation. It's even harder when people close to you don't understand. I've been going through something similar with antidepressants. You have my love.
I'm reading a book about controlling the ego, and finding/following your truth right now, and at the exact moment this comes up? Confused as always with the timing, but greatful for the synchronicities that come to confirm the right path is around the corner. 😊 Thanks Christina
This is exactly what I am going through!!! It does make me feel like I’m losing my mind!! I don’t know what I want I don’t know who I am anymore facing dark shadow is heavy & more!! Thank you so much for sharing❤❤❤❤
It’s like I’m feeling the synchronicities the past few days. Hope they keep coming and I don’t forget about them. I feel like before I would realize then totally forget, which happened a few times to me now. So hopefully I can continue to understand and be open
I have been experiencing all of these symptoms since the total eclipse on 8th of April. Thank you so much for making this video. Much information clearly resonated with me. 🙏❤️
Thanks for this video, specially point number 5. Finally I got the clarity because I have been saying NO and obviously the rage was obvious from such people. 👏🙏🏼
Nelson Mandela transformation is beautiful. Loss of self, ego, and solar plexus. I wish I could go back to younger self sometimes. I thought the symbolic ego death was my spirit warning I would die soon. Hermit-ting a lot. Educator. Out for summer. I have been avoiding people, reduced church gatherings, sick off and on, and staying home and to myself. Eating less. I would like to know when I will start to act and come out of hermit mode. I am not sure I know who I am yet. I still have similar aspects of past, but want new self to come forth. It is weird. I feel like I am watching another person go through this life or process. I am observing or acknowledging without judgement. I just observe and let go. I am not feeling much. I see and move forward. I just thought I was going through menopause symptoms alone. I am tired or extreme fatigue and brain fog a lot. Weird though I have no hot flashes or night sweats. I just hope I am coming out of this process soon. Almost 2 years of sickness and keeping to myself.
I just found your channel after my meditation. I am so grateful and happy to have found your channel! It’s amazing and informative. My spiritual awakening began in January 2023 and wow, what a journey it’s been!I’m happy to have buried my ego, but even happier to be seeing this video. Thank you so much for sharing and educating us. Continued success to you.🙏🏾💐✨
From Eckhart to you,i find it increasingly possible to change,to find my self,to overcome the ego.I have still to overcome but,i have a feeling i will, in not too distance a future.Thankyou.
When I was in law school, I couldn’t afford to color my hair, and it went gray for three years. I remember looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing myself. I decided that I am not a gray haired person (was only 39-41 at the time). Now I am blonde so that it blends better with the gray and doesn’t give me that jarring sense. But now that I’m 50 and having peri/menopause symptoms, I notice changes in my skin, etc. I am in the process of accepting that my identity is changing.
I think and observed that spirituality is like a luxary without time, space , money first. normally we are changing us constantly, life is panta rhei . Aging and dying will give us the most challenging times with mirror or mediation or without. .then we will understand fully what we are or wanting or going forward.
You know what's the scary thing?! Every time one of Christina's videos appears on my RUclips, it seems to be exactly what I'm going through. It scares the sh@t out of me!
Lovely Christina, words can't express my gratitude & appreciation to you for this video 💖💖💖 All resonates with me specially the last stages for the past 2 months, I was like stucking in a cocoon, dark, void, death. Not easy, this spiritual awakening journey ✨✨✨ thank you sooooooooo much again 💎💎💎✨✨✨💜💜💜
I’m not normally spiritual but recently I’ve fallen into a deep depression where I’m questioning everything. The point of existence, what I value now e.g drinking with my friends, I don’t have the energy for that at the moment. It’s almost like what I used to value, doesn’t fulfil me anymore. My friend said they were growing pains but they’re hard to differentiate from general mental health issues as I have been battling depression. Had a lot of dark thoughts about not wanting to be here anymore so very scary. Basically a very confusing time. 😢
I feel like this too, not being fulfilled by things that used to be fun. Even music, movies, food, etc. life is getting much simpler and sometimes I literally do nothing and it feels great. Really there is nowhere to go and the promise of those things to actually satisfy us was a lie we were told by culture and then internalized. Society and friends "see" this as depression, but I feel like I am just enjoying the moment now, there's nothing wrong. Purposefully distracting myself now with alcohol or weed or tv, podcasts, food feels so violent
@@Bow-die sounds like you’ve come a long way on journey. I’m glad to hear you’ve found some level of comfort and I hope that continues. I’m still working through my feelings of challenging experiences over the last year and although I’m not always in the mood to do things I enjoy like listening to music which I used to do all the time. I feel like some progress is being made but it’s slow.
Thank you so much for your guidance. Your words have given me great hope and courage to see this through. The self harm thoughts got strong and loud which was so frightening. Now I know to observe without judgement. Also the hermit phase is such a joy after the extreme rushing white water world. ❤
I am going through exactly this, my solar plexus is just vomiting out all the information I ever had. And I am blank, my brain is light and I feel disconnected. But the good thing is, I am learning a new language and piano. It is so fun 🤩
Oh yeah when I turned 38 myself was gone. And it happens so slowly and gradually you don’t even notice it until you do and when you do it’s the weirdest feeling ever. I feel like a stranger. Memories of some other person
Feeling this so much. In and out of 3rd 4th and 5th. I just want to stay in the higher state. Every single time I think I’ve got it… boom… pattern shows up again. Process process process. I have no clue what I’m doing. Absolutely NO clue. Going to live with one of my older daughters and her wife. I was guided to quit my job in order to become my authentic self. I am purging constantly. Crying all the time, depressed, I’ve even thought of suicide. I wouldn’t do it, just hurt so bad I thought it would be better to end the suffering. I’ve literally thought I WAS dying. This is insanity!!!! I was activated by my twin flame. That is even more insane. I am a hermit and don’t want to really be around anyone. It’s very isolating.
Thank you, Christina, as always. Going through it, too. People I know say that I'm totally different from what I was even 8 months ago ... calmer, more grounded, more powerful! And during my reiki sessions I feel a LOT of activity in my solar plexus area.
Thank you Christina. Needed this today. Been going through a tough time, lots of changes & not really understanding what was happening, then I get guided to this video & it all makes sense. The insecurity part resonated so deeply, I am struggling with food at the moment, don’t know what I want to eat for dinner anymore as I don’t like the previous food I was eating, so trying to navigate what my body now wants, it’s a pain as I feel so overwhelmed & need to nourish my body, lots of anxiety surrounding this, I’ve asked for guidance around it so please god all changes soon for the better ❤❤❤ your videos are like a warm hug
I understood the reason / value for pushing towards coexistence even with people that seem vile. Once I saw the connection of karma, the collective trauma (which has unfortunately grown so much, now needs healing for all, more than ever.), similar to there collective well that we all drink from needs to be maintained for all, and anger unkindness needs to be tamed back. We need to put out what we want to see in the world, reprimand others how we might want to receive reprimanding, with the will to uplift the whole. Thanks for bringing this message forward.
I truly appreciate you Christina, seriously this video could not have come to me at a better time! Grateful for you & thank you for self sacrificing to the obedience of your call. 🙏🏾
I have been in this awakening journey for 7 years now. Major identity crisis people pleasing, sabior seeking, adaptive and survival tactics from dysfunctional childhood spilling over into adulthood. I suppose we have to lose ourself to find our self. But as the layers are peeled back so liberating!!
I am sooooo happy to be newly renewed and filling my solar plexus back up. I cant lie i definitely had my face to face interactions with death. This is such beautiful confirmations. I was a hermit for almost a year. It was wild. Thank you for posting this.
Thank you thank you thank you. This resonated with me so deeply. I feel like I've lost myself and am full of doubt and fear. This helped explain it a little.
Love this video..... I needed this 8 years ago 😅 If I may just share.......IMO people watching this who can relate, especially those who are in the thick of it, may be feeling very fragile, alone and vulnerable. Could we not use such morbid terms like ego death, the old self dying etc etc..... I'm just concerned if it may exacerbate the pain they may already be dealing with.... From personal experience, I think a healthier way of describing the journey would be to call it an evolution, a transformation, a recalibration, a reinvention of the self, softening of the ego, dissolution of the identity....... And also lets emphasize the crucial aspects such as grace, gratitude, acceptance, compassion, not just for the self, but also for others who do not understand and simply cannot provide the support one needs on this journey..... And lastly, the only way out is through, and the only way through is surrender and acceptance to allow this process to completely take over and run its course to the ideal outcome, through divine grace, in a natural, organic way. Don't rush it, because you can't. When you get there, you get there.
Ooohhh this hit home. I felt like this for a good year. Just now coming out of it. I am feeling more renewed. The emotions and greif of self is sooo real.
I’m walking this void and I’m open to it all but what I do not understand is I was entirely happy/ grateful / spiritually connected / living an abundant joyful life . Which I worked on. I couldn’t have loved myself more. After another Kundalini rising that person was destroyed. I am like let’s go with it but also ….. now I feel empty and disconnected. 🤷🏻♀️ I don’t feel whatever this is to be high vibrational / connected to divinity at all. It’s been 6 months so I’ll keep you posted. 🙈 Obviously I signed up for it but …..
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Christina, I appreciate your commitment dedication and energy! Thank you for helping others on a path to more freedom love and positivity. Sometimes I find it hard to follow your videos because of how fast you speak. Is there a way to slow down the audio? Thanks!
I would LOVE to hermit it up!! unfortunately I share a child with a borderline woman. Would love to just have some help for once in my life and go live somewhere in the Caribbean.
"The loss of identity is temporary. It means your soul, mind, and body are preparing you for a more expanded version of yourself."
Has anyone else been super hungry with the change in their energy?
As hungry as a bear the whole time. 😅I'm starving and it seems no amount of food is ever enough. I had it checked with my doctor too and everything is normal he said. Hungry, exhausted and dumbfounded most of the time. I can't see my future anymore. It's as if I'm walking in the void these days. I hope it's all over soon.
I do. My appetite has changed big time. I crave for those that I had avoided for many years.
@@parisaforoutan I am feeling the same way, but I think it's Long Covid. That's what I have and I feel exactly like that.
Yes, me too! I also have a large presence of Jupiter in my astrological chart. Jupiter can mean overindulgence but it is a lucky planet and watches over me.
I seem to cycle through times of feeling ravenous and then times of less appetite & feeling nauseous.
The solar plexus empties??? 😮 I 100% confirm these 6 symptoms. Lately, I was feeling sad about not feeling confident and cool in my old style of clothes anymore. Looking forward to finding a new one after 4 years of being a hermit 😅 grateful for this content 🙏🏽
I get it. I have been isolating badly, going thru a real identity crisis. Am “older midlife crisis”. What i am finding is a whole new version on me. The real me
Omg this is what's happening to me. Yesterday I looked up at the sky and just repeated over and over "just kill me or help me, I don't care which one" I feel alone, I feel crazy, I feel like I don't deserve to be happy, and I definitely feel like hurting myself. I'm so glad I know why. Thank you 🙏🙏🙏
Stay strong, we are all experiencing the same thing ❤
Your not alone, i have said this to Creator so many times, either help me or let me die now, Since saying this im not joking so much has healed in my life, i dont Prayer to nobody outside of myself, i Prayer to the God within my Heart. Hope you feel better soon, Stay strong.
How you doing now?
@@Darryl-x4b thank you ❤️ sending love
@@PaulaWilson444 I'm glad you've been making progress. It really is important to put your energy into yourself and not outside of yourself ❤️
I’m in year 2 of my hermit phase and I can say from that this is a pivotal time in my life.
It’s difficult not knowing what is next, but it’s freeing to open myself to the possibilities.
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Same here...
I’ve been in this four years…. Discovering maybe I wasn’t bipolar andADD but autistic. I feel like I’m not alive and will never comeback even though the Mr that was here wasn’t me
When you walk your whole life as someone you thought you would be then one day you WAKE UP. It's breathtaking.
I can think of two friends who took their lives in the last two years. Bright lights of love, gone. The grief that ripples out has been devastating. Now I know why. Their awakening/ego death needed this video.Thank you ❤
Hey everyone, I just wanna share how I’m feeling and just feel heard .
My hole life I was so insecure, I felt ugly and I’ve never felt good enough. I was always afraid to shine and show myself to the world.
I felt like this because in my house there was a violent energy at my house. My parents used to beat my big brother, and I was always really quiet. I was scared of them kindof.
Last year I moved from my house to the other part of the world (I’m from Argentina) and there were no boundaries, I felt like I was able to be whoever I wanted to be.
I think I’ve never felt so happy and free in my life.
6 months ago I came back to my house in Argentina due to a difficult situation, and for some reason I feel like a mixture of those two personalities. And for some reason I can’t let go off the past. It’s been a really hard time here, leaving with my mum again and I just don’t know what to do. I just wanna feel happy again. :( .
Thanks for listening
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Sometimes I feel you can see me... like we have an invisible connection. Every time I have a major question, you post something that gives me the clarity I neex! You are a blessing on this earth, Christina❤
So true, I feel the same .
Exactlyyy!!!
Synchronicity
Me too... I m going through this exactly at this moment
Same for me
7:44
1️⃣Insecurity
2️⃣Fear
3️⃣Feeling insane
4️⃣Confronting death
5️⃣Easily influenced
6️⃣Nostalgia
13:13 2 powerful trips
1️⃣No resistance
2️⃣To hermit then act 14:26
When an innocents essence - no matter what age - is intentionally stolen - from an External synthetic source, and now leaving only empty stares from a seemingly now purposeless state_ Creates transparent masks of adaptive unknowns_ of cold separations _ 'Cept to kind animals 'They are Pure _ ntbg.
Yep. Been in all the ese
Im on that stage
Now ,i don't know myself at all
,i have changed so much in a short time..
,,being a scapegoat of the family.
,,it thrown me to spiritual Awkenning
But i didn't know it's not honey & sugar,,
,I've been a truth teller & worrier
A scapegoat & a surviver.
,,& dealing with so much toxicity
,,& still on my Intigrity
& Authenticity
,but abit lost with so much i have changed,,
,I've been isolating,,it's not me at all .im a Saggitarius out doors expanding exploring,,
,,but in a different way now .
,,I'm shocked with myself,
,from Australia
Love & light ❤❤❤
I feel the same exact thing. Scares the crap outta me I want to break the chains and free myself from this pain. I'm desperately trying to to stop this, let go of all the past, pain, forgive, make amends with myself even... Does anyone have any tips on HOW to "let go" of everything so I can move on?! I'm having a problem with this bc I say, think and I'm almost sure I "let go" of everything and then poof one hr later I am on my knees crying again and throwing a big fit in my room and talking to myself like wtf is wrong with me forreal I NEED to let it ALL go NOW I'm so ready!
@@alycewhitworth1259your purging all the past pain it’s part of the process not pleasant at all just allow yourself to feel your feelings don’t feel guilty for being angry sad crying etc
I feel like a new person after i hit my mid 50's. I saw the change at the same time my mother passed. I was devastated . Now i feel refreshed
Losing your old and traumatised self is the only way to align to your true and authentic self.
It is not about losing anything. It's about healing and transmuting...
How do I do this?
@@annmarieknapp you let go of learnt behaviour/old patterns that no longer serve you.
Whoa! "Observe"
Whoa! "Hermit"
....
This has been a 3 year process...
Ive observed it happening exactly as you have described.
Fortunately, my patience and faith in future existence endured... as i also turned 60 (surprise!) January 25th, (how'd i ever get this age!!!???)
Even tho i experienced sooooo sooooo many losses, material (home, posessions, income) relationship w my 3 young adult children testing autonomy..(a mothers pain, even tho it means you did well raising them!)
inauthentic friendships, (funny how they disappear when you are in need instead of being a resource for theirs) emotional and even my memory suffered. For 6 months i honestly felt like my life-force was waning!
Hermitting in one form or another for over a year now, i see the faint hues of rose and amber diluting the periwinkle sky of the dawn of my mystery future days!
Oh where will i go?
COSTA RICA?
Puravida!
Namaste!
Much Gratitude Christina!
Bliss and Blessings,
'til we meet, or meld, someday!
Susie
I’ve been in hermit mode for a couple of years and it’s done tough, painful work. Still in it. Still rebuilding. It’s a journey!
Same!!! Lost everything, ego death, kundalini awakening, twin flame, definitely rollercoaster! But I’m finally realizing if I’m patient and I believe god is preparing me for something bigger! I’m excited 💕💕but yes, lots of pain, confusion, exhaustion, feeling lost, hermit mode for almost 2 yrs now. I reassure u all it gets better and peace comes in. Protect it with your life😌🔥
Oh same 😴💩😔🤯🤪🥴😍
Yes its a journey. Been in the hermit stage for going on 2 yrs now. I'm grateful so much good content on RUclips to help me thru this. I'm doing better with patience and trusting of the process now. I'm grateful I'm not clueless.❤❤
it;s been 3 for me and I feel that it has done me a lot of good
hermit phase was making me go crazy with everything seeming so meaningless and neutral for a year now - this video was a good reminder and to go with the process.
You are describing the last 3 years of my life. But recently, maybe a couple of months ago, I started feeling at peace with the ideia of not knowing who I am. I am being more acceptant of parts of myself I always felt should not come to surface (speacialy the ones that said no, established limits). I was raised to be quiet and accept all injustices around me. Now I am being more vocal, more honest with myself and everyone.
It is so comforting/validating that others who have gone through a spiritual awakening had similar symptoms. Not being surrounded by other spiritually inclined people makes me feel very lonely and honestly crazy at times. There have been many times within the past year that I did not recognize myself in the mirror. My therapist diagnosed me with existential OCD, Derealization & Depersonalization (dissociative disorder).
do not listen to them, you will overcome the loneliness, I thought I never would, but I spent time alone until I did, love yourself unconditionally and spend time alone, all you need is within you-heart hugs you will be ok
Yes during my first dark night of the soul I was sooo anxious but now I actually enjoy when it happens because I’m so excited to see what’s gonna happen next
I have evolved from my hermit life that lasted over two years. I have started to fully enjoy my new life and it is so wonderful. You have been of great use to me in my understanding of my life and spiritual awakening. GOD is my guide and you are my comfort. Thank You! Larry
I lost my sense of self after a car accident, I never looked at life the same way again, then I exoerienced an ego death in 2012, and after that I still am very much confused and detached from thus world, but I keep meditating and surrendering to Source and it's getting better. Thank you 💜🦋☀️✨
Ego death is caused by having abusive parents while growing up. When the ego dies, narcissism takes its place.
@@melisentiapheiffer3034BS!
@@melisentiapheiffer3034🙄
Wow. I am speechless.
I feel like I learned more in this video than I have from my therapist or those who know me inside out.
I cannot thank you enough.
I've been praying to God every day for clarity to help me understand whats going on and felt called to your channel today.
Side-note: I also noticed I suppress my spiritual beliefs often as I was raised to be a part of a very cynical, logical family.
I'd love to connect with people like me in terms of spirituality and their faith helping them throughout hard times, I notice I feel a lot of guilt and shame for it.
🙏 Take care all, we're not alone in this.
Yes hermit mode is needed to relearn a new self!!
I’ve never had a sense of self. Now at 67 years old, I live alone. I only feel I’m “me” when I’m alone. When having family visiting there are so many personalities I feel I jump into one, then another leaving me to feel indecisive and unsure. Thank you for helping me understand!❤
This began happening when I was 6. I’m 38 now and never knew why this happens/would happen to me. It held me back my entire life. I’ve lived in fear afraid to look at myself because I didn’t know what was happening. When I was younger it terrified me. Literally thought I would float away. Everyone brushed me off so I struggled, internally trying to dodge this for nearly 30 years. I’ve recently began adjusting, but this information would have change the world around me in a positive way 😢
I might add I’ve felt alone my entire life, never lonely, but all alone. ‘Something’ is certainly starting to make sense, but still have no idea.. about anything really! Thank you for these videos though. Guidance is a gift, thank you again
@@timdavis601I completely feel you on the feeling alone. That something you’re feeling is that gift inside that only some of us possess. I hope you’re able to find your way soon. Just keep being as open as possible, working on yourself and cutting out distractions and negative people and things (aka news, social media, etc.)
@@greyjade5501 🙏 Thank you my friend. I love getting advice from those who have this kind of understanding. I’m from a tiny town so resources for guidance is scarce! Thank you again!
It's me again Saggitarius Sydney Australia.
& going true my spiritual Awkenning.
Was shocking to me how much i have change.
,,i went from a very confident person.
To a not confident person
At all ,
,,with a change in short time,,
, my face features
Changed,,
I saw it & looks like it's to stay.
,,people noticed it,,& instead of saying you have changed .they ask me if i lost weight,,
,,i haven't lost any weight,,
,,out the sudden i age,,
,,it made me fell
Sad,,
,,one of you videos that i have listened,,
Made me understand this changed,
But it not pleasant
But working on it & accepting wathever it's coming along
,,it's death of the Ego..
Very emotional
,,i was isolating
Abit embarrassed of this change,,
, love & light ❤❤❤
I feel like this at 26 years old. I’ve been having to take a lot of comfort for myself, feeling like idk where I’m going next because I desire different than what my parents, family and friends have or want for me. I tried the regular way after college and it didn’t work. I am just so optimistic to keep posting my content on here n sharing my story. This gave me hope I will flourish out of my situation and be freed physically, emotionally and spiritually
Thank you this is exactly what I needed I am going through everything you mentioned and it’s been really challenging all I can do to keep me going is to keep my faith and trusting in God. Thank you Christina sending you so much love 💕 😘
I am in this phase. I feel like I don't know anything anymore. I feel very lost. I'm a teacher and wanted to be a teacher since I was a kid. Lately, I feel very unmotivated and I feel like I'm meant to do something else but I don't know what. I reunited with my high school sweet heart. He swept me off my feel, we married, blended our family...and then I got to meet his abusive side. I didn't even realize I was in an emotionally abusive relationship until I was out. I just felt so depleted. All of me. My soul, mind, body, spirit...was all so extremely depleted and exhausted. Instead of getting angry, I cried out all the stress and anxiety and sadness. I cried almost daily for about a year. It was a release and it helped me feel more regulated. I leaned on God more than ever before too. It has all changed me. In my opinion, for the better. I'm a better mom to my daughter. More loving and more patient. But I find more peace spending time with my daughter and my parents...and that's about it. I find myself wanting to hibernate a lot and just be in my own peaceful space. This hibernating or hermitting phase has been my most favorite part. It's not always easy so I treasure it. I feel like I don't recognize myself in the mirror these days too...
Been in this phase for 4 going on 5 years 😅 it’s not pleasant. Thoughts about “just go back to your old ways- it was easier” periodically run through my mind. But, I quickly get disgusted and shut it down. Not sure where I’m supposed to go from here. I’m just being. And trying to stay patient with the process. ❤
I literally NEVER comment on videos, but for THIS video I HAD TO because this video is perfect for me and popped up on my RUclips feed at literally the perfect time
This sounds like “dark night of the soul” stuff. Your descriptions and suggestions are truly appreciated♥️
Thank you SO much for this.
I had an awakening on Feb 28 of this year, and Id been clean from heroin for yeeeeeears.
Only recently have i begun feeling nostalgia for the days of using and running the streets with no responsibilities. It made me feel tough, in a way, that I kept myself alive and somewhat well, in an extremely distorted way.
Anyway, i had to shake my head to break through those thought clouds, because REALLY?
ROMANTICIZING ADDICTION AND HOMELESSNESS?😂
I felt the grief of my identity, and now the last, stickiest, ickiest bits are hanging on, but I am aware now.
I appreciate the medical lens through which you explain spirituality. It's my jam!
And youre so beautiful to watch!
Thanks again!❤❤❤
I'm going through this now. 😭
Believe me it's not exciting. It's actually very stressful. It's my birthday next week which is ironic. I'm very angry at the universe.
divorce? I was mad at the universe at one time myself, one day you will look back and be grateful, you're in a tough place right now though, might not be divorce, that is what did it for me, and now I am profoundly grateful for what I learned from the experience, it was a living nightmare in so many ways, I thought I was losing my mind, but in the end it was good for me, if it would not have been for that traumatizing experience I would not have learned things that are still with me today and I did not like it one bit but it was worth it
THANKS 💖
Now I have a clue to what my solar plexus is showing me!
For some time now I have worked on my energy senters and I have to admit that I have been sad and confused when my sola plexus has been empty and silent....
I haven't found any clues...... Until I heard your video last night. Now I can meet my "empty" solar plexus with excitement and look forward to what my soul wishes to fill it up with 💖💖💖
wow! thank you for posting this video, so I'm not the only one in hermit mode, we have all been going through this the last few years, think about how amazing that is, we are all in this together, peace and love everyone, you are my kind of people
Wow totally sounds like what i went through due to severe suffering from coming off of a benzo ,which damaged my brain and nervous system. I lost all ego and sense of self. I also had to close myself into my room in order to survive the severe suffering because the slightest sounds/sights made the symptoms million times worse for me. I'm almost out of it 8 years later but still not fully back to normal yet. I had a very protracted long horrific withdrawal from them and couldn't even read/talk/watch tv or anything for many years. I am def a totally different person now
Thank you for sharing your story, this is helpful for others. Sending you love ❤
Although I didn’t experience quite what you did, I experienced something very similar. I was put on a very powerful antidepressant, against my will when I was 13 years old, for a diagnosis of depression that never existed. It took away my life in my teenage years aswell as a large portion of my 20’s. And because I was so numb to the world around me, I made some very bad choices and put myself in horrible, dangerous situations. I struggled to get off of them for 20 years, with many many attempts. I remember the first, longest time that I came off, I truly felt like I was dying. What I came to also realize is that I had no idea who I was. It’s like I was starting back again at 13 years old, trying to learn who I was. I’m 4 years fully antidepressant free, and I finally feel like I know who I am. It also triggered a spiritual awakening, so there’s that too. 😂 Anyways, sorry for my long winded comment. Just wanted to say that I see you. Sending love! 🩷
@@greyjade5501 Sorry you had to go through that too! Glad you were able to escape them!
What a tough situation. It's even harder when people close to you don't understand. I've been going through something similar with antidepressants. You have my love.
@@ryans3729 You got that right! I'm sorry you're experiencing something like this too. I hope it gets better for you soon
I'm reading a book about controlling the ego, and finding/following your truth right now, and at the exact moment this comes up? Confused as always with the timing, but greatful for the synchronicities that come to confirm the right path is around the corner. 😊 Thanks Christina
This is exactly what I am going through!!! It does make me feel like I’m losing my mind!! I don’t know what I want I don’t know who I am anymore facing dark shadow is heavy & more!! Thank you so much for sharing❤❤❤❤
I do not know who I am or where I am going, and that is making me free.
It’s like I’m feeling the synchronicities the past few days. Hope they keep coming and I don’t forget about them. I feel like before I would realize then totally forget, which happened a few times to me now. So hopefully I can continue to understand and be open
Nobody tell me hai story more detailed like u that's why I love u
I have been experiencing all of these symptoms since the total eclipse on 8th of April. Thank you so much for making this video. Much information clearly resonated with me. 🙏❤️
I have had low self esteem feeling highly sensitive,I’m awakening
Thanks for this video, specially point number 5. Finally I got the clarity because I have been saying NO and obviously the rage was obvious from such people. 👏🙏🏼
Nelson Mandela transformation is beautiful. Loss of self, ego, and solar plexus. I wish I could go back to younger self sometimes. I thought the symbolic ego death was my spirit warning I would die soon. Hermit-ting a lot. Educator. Out for summer. I have been avoiding people, reduced church gatherings, sick off and on, and staying home and to myself. Eating less. I would like to know when I will start to act and come out of hermit mode. I am not sure I know who I am yet. I still have similar aspects of past, but want new self to come forth. It is weird. I feel like I am watching another person go through this life or process. I am observing or acknowledging without judgement. I just observe and let go. I am not feeling much. I see and move forward. I just thought I was going through menopause symptoms alone. I am tired or extreme fatigue and brain fog a lot. Weird though I have no hot flashes or night sweats. I just hope I am coming out of this process soon. Almost 2 years of sickness and keeping to myself.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR BEINGNESS 🌹❤🙏😇🙏 Keep up with the enlightenment of others 🌎 WORLDWIDE 🌍
Observe without judgement
Christina you have guided me for all this path for last 4 years. Thank you so much, again, you are explaining what I need to hear right now 🙏
I'm in hermit mode, but I'm still working on myself, and I'm enjoying it. I Love this Journey. Thank you Christina! 🙏 ❤✨️🫂🫂
I just found your channel after my meditation. I am so grateful and happy to have found your channel! It’s amazing and informative. My spiritual awakening began in January 2023 and wow, what a journey it’s been!I’m happy to have buried my ego, but even happier to be seeing this video. Thank you so much for sharing and educating us. Continued success to you.🙏🏾💐✨
From Eckhart to you,i find it increasingly possible to change,to find my self,to overcome the ego.I have still to overcome but,i have a feeling i will, in not too distance a future.Thankyou.
When I was in law school, I couldn’t afford to color my hair, and it went gray for three years. I remember looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing myself. I decided that I am not a gray haired person (was only 39-41 at the time). Now I am blonde so that it blends better with the gray and doesn’t give me that jarring sense. But now that I’m 50 and having peri/menopause symptoms, I notice changes in my skin, etc. I am in the process of accepting that my identity is changing.
Awesome breakdown of the spiritual journey through identity loss! Your insights really shed light on navigating those deep transitions. 😁
I think and observed that spirituality is like a luxary without time, space , money first. normally we are changing us constantly, life is panta rhei . Aging and dying will give us the most challenging times with mirror or mediation or without. .then we will understand fully what we are or wanting or going forward.
You know what's the scary thing?! Every time one of Christina's videos appears on my RUclips, it seems to be exactly what I'm going through. It scares the sh@t out of me!
I know!!!
Beautiful synchronization ❤
Perfect alignment. ✨
Me too! But it makes me feel SAFE & totally guided by God! Hare Krishna everyone ❤❤
I think I say this every time but whenever I am having trouble with something you post a video about it ❤
Lovely Christina, words can't express my gratitude & appreciation to you for this video 💖💖💖 All resonates with me specially the last stages for the past 2 months, I was like stucking in a cocoon, dark, void, death. Not easy, this spiritual awakening journey ✨✨✨ thank you sooooooooo much again 💎💎💎✨✨✨💜💜💜
I’m not normally spiritual but recently I’ve fallen into a deep depression where I’m questioning everything.
The point of existence, what I value now e.g drinking with my friends, I don’t have the energy for that at the moment.
It’s almost like what I used to value, doesn’t fulfil me anymore.
My friend said they were growing pains but they’re hard to differentiate from general mental health issues as I have been battling depression.
Had a lot of dark thoughts about not wanting to be here anymore so very scary.
Basically a very confusing time. 😢
I feel like this too, not being fulfilled by things that used to be fun. Even music, movies, food, etc. life is getting much simpler and sometimes I literally do nothing and it feels great. Really there is nowhere to go and the promise of those things to actually satisfy us was a lie we were told by culture and then internalized. Society and friends "see" this as depression, but I feel like I am just enjoying the moment now, there's nothing wrong. Purposefully distracting myself now with alcohol or weed or tv, podcasts, food feels so violent
@@Bow-die sounds like you’ve come a long way on journey. I’m glad to hear you’ve found some level of comfort and I hope that continues.
I’m still working through my feelings of challenging experiences over the last year and although I’m not always in the mood to do things I enjoy like listening to music which I used to do all the time.
I feel like some progress is being made but it’s slow.
Im crying.. i was praying and asking for help from god and I found this video spontaneously.. it speaks to me
Going through this now, am grateful, you always meet me where I am. Thank you for this teaching. I feel relieved the moment I watch.
I really appreciate and value how clear and genuine your guidance is. Blessings beautiful soul ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much for your guidance. Your words have given me great hope and courage to see this through. The self harm thoughts got strong and loud which was so frightening. Now I know to observe without judgement. Also the hermit phase is such a joy after the extreme rushing white water world. ❤
There's NO going back!
Thank you for what you are doing. Perfect timing! Your video came when i needed most ❤❤❤
In Pure Gratitude 🙏💖✨
I am going through exactly this, my solar plexus is just vomiting out all the information I ever had. And I am blank, my brain is light and I feel disconnected. But the good thing is, I am learning a new language and piano. It is so fun 🤩
Oh yeah when I turned 38 myself was gone. And it happens so slowly and gradually you don’t even notice it until you do and when you do it’s the weirdest feeling ever. I feel like a stranger. Memories of some other person
Feeling this so much. In and out of 3rd 4th and 5th. I just want to stay in the higher state. Every single time I think I’ve got it… boom… pattern shows up again. Process process process. I have no clue what I’m doing. Absolutely NO clue. Going to live with one of my older daughters and her wife. I was guided to quit my job in order to become my authentic self. I am purging constantly. Crying all the time, depressed, I’ve even thought of suicide. I wouldn’t do it, just hurt so bad I thought it would be better to end the suffering. I’ve literally thought I WAS dying. This is insanity!!!! I was activated by my twin flame. That is even more insane. I am a hermit and don’t want to really be around anyone. It’s very isolating.
Thank you, Christina, as always. Going through it, too. People I know say that I'm totally different from what I was even 8 months ago ... calmer, more grounded, more powerful! And during my reiki sessions I feel a LOT of activity in my solar plexus area.
Thank you Christina. Needed this today. Been going through a tough time, lots of changes & not really understanding what was happening, then I get guided to this video & it all makes sense. The insecurity part resonated so deeply, I am struggling with food at the moment, don’t know what I want to eat for dinner anymore as I don’t like the previous food I was eating, so trying to navigate what my body now wants, it’s a pain as I feel so overwhelmed & need to nourish my body, lots of anxiety surrounding this, I’ve asked for guidance around it so please god all changes soon for the better ❤❤❤ your videos are like a warm hug
Same here and i want to exercise and work out but dont know what i want to eat
I had to pause this at 16:29. Thank you! This video found me right then I was losing hope. ❤
this so explains my body's process in my spiritual awakening, thank you so much xx
I understood the reason / value for pushing towards coexistence even with people that seem vile. Once I saw the connection of karma, the collective trauma (which has unfortunately grown so much, now needs healing for all, more than ever.), similar to there collective well that we all drink from needs to be maintained for all, and anger unkindness needs to be tamed back.
We need to put out what we want to see in the world, reprimand others how we might want to receive reprimanding, with the will to uplift the whole.
Thanks for bringing this message forward.
Ok, I'm not crazy, I feel much better.... Thank you ❤
You have saved my life a number of times.
I truly appreciate you Christina, seriously this video could not have come to me at a better time! Grateful for you & thank you for self sacrificing to the obedience of your call. 🙏🏾
Your videos got me through a Kundalini awakening, and this video is just as timely. Thank you.
Omg always on time . Gorever thankful to Christina, guiding me through my spiritual awakening ❤
I have been in this awakening journey for 7 years now. Major identity crisis people pleasing, sabior seeking, adaptive and survival tactics from dysfunctional childhood spilling over into adulthood. I suppose we have to lose ourself to find our self. But as the layers are peeled back so liberating!!
I am sooooo happy to be newly renewed and filling my solar plexus back up. I cant lie i definitely had my face to face interactions with death.
This is such beautiful confirmations. I was a hermit for almost a year. It was wild.
Thank you for posting this.
Really useful video, thank you
Wow! This message is coming to me at the most appropriate time. Thank you, Christina! ❤
Thank you thank you thank you. This resonated with me so deeply. I feel like I've lost myself and am full of doubt and fear. This helped explain it a little.
Love this video..... I needed this 8 years ago 😅
If I may just share.......IMO people watching this who can relate, especially those who are in the thick of it, may be feeling very fragile, alone and vulnerable. Could we not use such morbid terms like ego death, the old self dying etc etc.....
I'm just concerned if it may exacerbate the pain they may already be dealing with....
From personal experience, I think a healthier way of describing the journey would be to call it an evolution, a transformation, a recalibration, a reinvention of the self, softening of the ego, dissolution of the identity....... And also lets emphasize the crucial aspects such as grace, gratitude, acceptance, compassion, not just for the self, but also for others who do not understand and simply cannot provide the support one needs on this journey.....
And lastly, the only way out is through, and the only way through is surrender and acceptance to allow this process to completely take over and run its course to the ideal outcome, through divine grace, in a natural, organic way. Don't rush it, because you can't. When you get there, you get there.
Ooohhh this hit home. I felt like this for a good year. Just now coming out of it. I am feeling more renewed. The emotions and greif of self is sooo real.
I’m walking this void and I’m open to it all but what I do not understand is I was entirely happy/ grateful / spiritually connected / living an abundant joyful life . Which I worked on. I couldn’t have loved myself more. After another Kundalini rising that person was destroyed. I am like let’s go with it but also ….. now I feel empty and disconnected. 🤷🏻♀️ I don’t feel whatever this is to be high vibrational / connected to divinity at all. It’s been 6 months so I’ll keep you posted. 🙈 Obviously I signed up for it but …..
Oh my god it exactly what is happening to me😮 I felt crazy because I had feeling I dont have energy in my solar plexus
Thank you very much for this!
You're a gift to us. Much Love & appreciation! 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Sincere heartfelt appreciation for this enlightening message. ❤️🌸🙏
I was happy to see this. Going through it now, nice to know it’s not just me. Less lonely
YES! I've thought many times recently, maybe I should just stop this path. It would be so much easier to just turn back.
Christine love you...all the best❤
Yeah this loss feels harmful.God has kept me alive
This is so timely for me. Thank you. 🙏🏻
Wow Christina!! Thank you for bringing clarity and comfort and thank you for being a trail blazer for us!
You are so inspirational, lady
thank you so much for this video it's exactly what I needed , i was so confused and couldn't understand what was happening to me
I am so grateful for these videos, I couldn’t understand what was going on with me, but I am excited for these changes that are happening in me ❤