Hey Michelle! Fantastic interview and thank you for doing this. I do have one question, though. Do you notice your constant movements. I was curious if you ever heard of akathisia. It's a side effect from AP(Anti Psychotic) medications they treat people with your diagnose with. It's a restlessness where the person cannot quit moving or sit still. Have you looked into that?
Just watched this video. It’s so good. Both me and my fiancé have mental issues issues and we are trying to spread awareness on it on our channel and on instagram and TikTok. Keep up the good work 👍👍
It's nice to see so many Advocates for Schizophrenia who show we're not just these crazy monsters. We're people too, many of us living normal lives. It is a part of us, but it doesn't define who we are.
I was acquainted with a man with schizophrenia last year. He's a poet. I invited him to a Shakespeare festival and he enjoyed it very much, found much inspiration in watching MacBeth.
@@Em_Elizabeth I’m glad to hear! I find it difficult to go to events. I went to Insomnia Game festival recently with some friends and if was difficult but it was nice to not think about being ill for a couple of days. Its nice when people treat us like any other person :)
JOIN OUR ONLINE PEER SUPPORT COMMUNITY Schizophrenia Peer Support Community: www.schizophreniapeersupport.com General Mental Illness Peer Support Community: www.onlinepeersupport.com
I love when you collaborate with Michelle. I to am an artist, and it seems as though people like to attribute my artistic talent to my mental illness. I was an artist before I got schizophrenia, I’m still an artist I just make sure to add my personal experience to my work. Being schizophrenic does not automatically make you a “good” artist😅
Michelle, I just wanted to say I don't think you give yourself enough credit for what you actually are drawing and the art that you produce. I'm an artist I happen to have a mental illness. I'm a painter and you were ripping through that book in the beginning like they were just nothing. Your drawings are so intricate and so gorgeous. My work is very large and cathartic and raw kind of the opposite of the very detailed work that you do. I am absolutely blown away at the beauty of your work. and I do not think that anybody can just take a pen and start producing some quality art. Yes they might have fun, it might be an enjoyable self-expression but it doesn't mean it's going to be art. Or that it is going to be something other people would appreciate or purchase or things like that. I think you're extremely talented and I'm really moved by your work, it has nothing to do with your schizophrenia I just love your work. I don't usually like detailed work but there's a big dance going on within your pieces. I just thought.... well, I'll send you an email I have a place you might want to send some of your work, some images and get them out there on a big scale. Thank you so much for sharing your story and you just seem like a highly energetic very raw artist and you also seem to have a nomadic Spirit about you. I don't know if you do but I get that feeling from you. I traveled around America in a motorhome for 20 years selling my art. So, thanks again I really appreciate getting to know you. And Lauren thank you for bringing on Michelle. you asked really good questions. They were very insightful and very important as well.. You are awesome.
Yes!! I love this woman! I feel the same about using art and creativity as an absorbing occupation and get away from what's in my head. It is also so cool that she is able to sell her art. Lauren, thank you!
Absolutely wonderful to see and hear how you turned to art and made it work for you. I am only ever at ease when I am designing or making something myself.
This is another thing, she's constantly animated and can't sit still, her energy makes me nervous. She rocks fore and aft, brings up topics in rapid succession, and btw at 08:00 she mentions Van Gogh and then defines Michael Angelo as "not crazy" yet he wouldn't bathe, was unkempt, argued with everyone, and insulted so many people that they couldn't be around him. DeVinci had issue with Michael Angelo. They were genius artists, but not at all socially normal. Art is an outlet, I'm also a painter, it helps me get outside my head. But if I can't calm down and talk to potential buyers it doesn't help me. Plus I can become so emotionally connected to my work that it's impossible to part with it. I fixate and connect too intimately. At 11:19 again, the whole idea is to remove color so you're left with form, why? Because colors have an emotional impact and can alter the perception of form and can solicit an emotional response. That's why they use black and white in order to remove that "trigger". "Don't be paranoid you look great" I just don't get that at all and now I'll fixate as to why I don't get it? YOU are profoundly calming for me to watch and listen to, Michelle is the polar opposite and telegraphs her nervousness right at me. I also wanted to change the color of her hat adjustment band to anything but white. I know, this is my problem, not hers.
Communication warts are real. Halo antenna on military scout vehicle is a communication wart. There are books at library about communication warts. I would read them all.
I don't have schizophrenia, but I've been struggling mental health wise for over a year and I do often get inspiration from my painful feelings, but I see it more as making the best out of a bad situation. If I had good mental health I'd probably be drawing more often actually, and definitely a lot more happy uplifting things like pokemon or something haha
As someone with depression and anxiety I love art and it’s very therapeutic. Anyone can do this. Get markets, pencil colors, or crayons. It’s really fun
I've been following each of you online for a few years and I'm so delighted to see you together finally! You're both so inspiring and generous with yourselves and your experience. You've helped me gain empathy and greater understanding for my loved one living with a chronic MI that is similar to schizophrenia. Love your videos and Michelle's artwork! Thank you.
Her art is wonderful. Thank you again, Lauren, for showcasing people with a mental health challenge in such a wonderful and respectful and helpful way.
Lovely interview! I adore the work you and Michelle are doing by breaking down stigma and showing that we are in fact, very human and not monsters. I also very much appreciated that you guys covered the “schizophrenic artist” troupe. I also am an artist that lives with Schizoaffective disorder and I often am subjected to that stereotype.
Great to hear from an awesome fellow artist like Michelle! I have schizoaffective disorder, write poetry, and make music so it was interesting to hear how schizophrenia impacts art and dismantling some of the tropes of the mad genius!
I loved this dialogue between the two of you. It resonates with me on many levels. It has given me courage to begin drawing. Thank you for your advocacy and for your channel.
This is a particularly compelling episode. As an artist I find that what SchizophrenicNYC has to say here is quite relevant to any independent artist - particularly in the NYC environment, but her insight is invaluable here. There is no doubt that creativity and schizophrenia (as well as other neuro-atypical conditions) can easily (or perhaps, uneasily) exist on the same plane. It’s marvelous to see you cover this Lauren. NYC’s work is a joy to behold. A glimpse into the inner mind and - yes, the outer limits. But that’s Art for ya’ … You’re the greatest kiddo - be happy..!
This channel inspired me to live healthy eccentric artist side. Working towards having a job a peer specialist because everyone is all in. Mental health workers are telling me and everyone with support. They want me to be one of them. There is pills and surgery for illness for the body; yet the mind and soul are the hardest one to do treatment on the root cause. I can use my mess ups as knowledge of perspective, and I have (High Function Schizophrenia) schizoaffective disorder (Bi-polar) and PTSD. I take meds and not ashamed, Those Disorders and Schizophrenia enhances my art. Use your wise mind and DBT skills.
I love Art since I was 10 years old. When my sister comes to live with me in 2020 ,because she suffering from schizophrenia lives with dilution, I engaged her in art and painting, stitching, knitting, all the art and painting helps her to live in better life and reality. Art always was the best things saved me in difficult times
Ever since I got my first psychosis in 1997, I noticed after getting my meds (back then Zyprexa) that people didn’t wanna notice me or speak with me anymore. At the same time, I was supposed to start seriously studying! Those were very difficult times for me and I never graduated from that polytechnic and finally it all ended for me with a really big psychosis, many months in the mental in Helsinki. Because I didn't take my meds for about half a year before that big psychosis. Talk about easy young years for me...
As an artist this conversation is most productive. I’m not schizophrenic but depressed. To me some part of me is rooted in the depression and I draw upon that. I get you are trying to say we aren’t defined by stereotypes of what divergent cognition we live with. I’m just saying by embracing who I am it has been joyful. I compare that to being down, and I feel better about all of what I live with. You’re work is wonderful helping all of us to live openly and accepting of what we live with.
I love the title of today,am a writer but didn't publish any of my poems yet but a doctor told me that creativity got to do with madness,the reason I keep my schizophrenia silent is because the media portray most mass shooters as mental ill patient so people can thing the world is safe with out monsters but schizophrenic are not violence people,let me say creativity is a gift that lives in creative people,some people's body are weak to the creativity gift and the body is weak and the have to take medication so they are body can cope with the creative gift that why some artist got mental illness,search in history most poets was considered neurotic
There is a big study did in Iceland that discovered an indirect relation between artistic creativity and schizophrenia, basically that relatives of schizophrenic people are more likely to become accomplished or famous specially in arts field, in which non-schizophrenic relatives tend to share some psychosis spectrum related-traits but expressed in more moderate ways. But i think there are some disproportion of highly talented people who experience psychosis thought. I'm not saying the disease may make people more creative but that some specific traits can help a lot in contribution with others.
Now I've decided I will try to get a pension from the state of Finland because of being uncapable to work anymore. It's wiser than being forever on unemployment benefit. I don't think I will get a job from my homecountry anymore... thank you for this lovely artist interview! ❤
That's a great suggestion about buying cheap art supplies at Walmart. I used to paint with nice canvases, brushes, and oil paints but it was an expensive hobby and there was so much pressure on me to paint a masterpiece. I went years without painting, and then one day I saw art supplies at the dollar store and bought them on a whim. It was so fun and pressure-free that I haven't put the brush down since then. I feel like there's no pressure when your supplies don't cost an arm and a leg, and if you scan your artwork it's all digital in the end anyway. I've also started keeping a sketchbook after giving up on sketching and journaling a lifetime ago because my parents would raid my room and read my journals to embarrass and humiliate me.
Even though I follow your videos, the last couple haven’t appeared in my feed on the homepage. Each time, I had to click “subscriptions” to know that there was a new video.
Art. I used to draw, paint, sculpt wood. When I had my first episode I wanted to make something to ease my torment so I took a slab of black cherry hardwood and carved an angel. I was in a hurry because I was hallucinating hard, but it turned out beautiful, like an M.C. Escher angel or something. I went to the hospital finally because I couldn't sleep for 45 days and was in a war zone in my mind. When I got out of the hospital ten days later I wanted to do another angel. Well, the Risperdal did something to my skills. I carved an angel, but it was all sad and depressed and looked like the character in the Edward Munch painting The Scream. I finished the carving in a few days, but it was so depressing to look at I hid it away in my room. I occasionally do a drawing now, or try to paint or do a small carving, but can not seem to finish anything. The only time I feel inspired to do art now is if I get some good bud, but that's very rare. That mad angel was the last carving I completed in hardwood. That was 26 years ago and I don't know what has happened to my life. I got old.
I’m still an artist/graphic designer and I used to live in nyc and got fired a lot also, it freakin sucked. Anyway, I’m trying to start my own thing to reward myself, I can’t believe how fulfilling making art has been since my recent hospitalization for a bullshit attempted suicide. So, be happy everyone🤩. Born in Hollywood🎭.
Hey Michelle! Fantastic interview and thank you for doing this. I do have one question, though. Do you notice your constant movements. I was curious if you ever heard of akathisia. It's a side effect from AP(Anti Psychotic) medications they treat people with your diagnose with. It's a restlessness where the person cannot quit moving or sit still. Have you looked into that?
I'm schizophrenic my dad's always saying there's something out there I could do myself to make money... More importing and selling from the garage or something than art... My arts music (maybe it will sell one day) but wish I had the skill and business know how like Michelle to do what she does!
Um highly creative people are known to have lots of dopamine like schizophrenics, there is a strong tie, as well as with creative bipolar people. It’s a spiritual and mystical state [ with high dopamine] that propels them and allows them to create. Saying it’s just chemicals, is nonsense, it’s like saying love is nothing more than a dopamine rush, when we know it’s far more complicated. I dreamt of my soulmate in detail for four years before I met him in 2016, I knew how he looked, that he played bass. To say everything is just chemicals is to miss the sacred component.
I love her explanation that all of us as kindergarteners will say we are artists... Then by 8th grade only three in a class will say that they are artists.👨🎨👩🎨
I feel that about the 9-5 thing. I'm not schizophrenic, I'm schizoid, but I'm obviously weird and I suck at office politics so any time I had a regular job the politickers picked me for their scapegoat to rally their coworkers against and increase their own political clout in the office. And any time I've been anywhere that I can be relatively invisible, I've observed those same kind of people pick the next-weirdest person to dog on and destroy to make themselves feel better.
Absolutely no criticism intended, but just wondering. Are you naturally sort of manic or do your meds hype you? Or were you nervous for the interview? I LOVE your artwork!!
Don't quote me on this, but it looks like autistic stimming to me. It's usually done to try to calm down when overstimulated or anxious. I usually do finger and hand movements. Don't use that for a diagnosis, I don't know if it's associated with other mental disorders or if neurotypicals stim occasionally too.
can you do a vid on how vivid some hallucination are i have identical diagnosis and they have become very real, so real i have trouble noticing the difference only when they seem absurd.
Hi Michelle...My big dream is to start a website that gets artistic supplies to give to people struggling with schizophrenia...like an entire set/kit of items needed to do paint by numbers or drawing kits that might include the sketch book, good pencils, a sharpener eraser and maybe a set of colored pencils. Art has truly made a huge impact on my mental well being and I want so badly to share that with people who might find it very therapeutic. I am in the beginning stages but I already have 50 paint by numbers kits promised I just don't know what to do next. I don't know how to navigate the internet very well yet but I will try to contact you. I am hoping you might have some ideas for me.
There certainly are some people with Schizophrenia who are talented artists, but people without it that are also gifted. Of course there are many mediocre/lousy artists too, some have Schizophrenia and some who don't. So there doesn't seem to be a strong correlation.
Your a true artist because you like to create art 1st, you leverage your life's attributes in the creation of such endeavors and you aim to sustain your existence from its creation. By the way your art is "Taped In" and this is just my opinion just 7:45 min in to this video.
I too am an artist suffering with schizophrenia. Consequently I was invited to attend art therapy with a crowd of untalented, dysfunctional loud-mouths who had no concept of the art-form. And the instructor was always distracting me with manual labor.
But then again people can have schizophrenia when someone Psychologically hypnotized them by a negative way. Hypnotized a person and created other negative identity in his mind that can cause a lot suffering and mental illness.
Thank you for having me!
Just subscribed to your channel.
I can relate to you so much.
Art and nature have gotten me through life and stay positive.
Loving your artwork. 💛
I am an artist too. I think my mental illness helps me be more creative but I was a good artist even before I got sick.
I like your art alot!
Hey Michelle! Fantastic interview and thank you for doing this. I do have one question, though. Do you notice your constant movements. I was curious if you ever heard of akathisia. It's a side effect from AP(Anti Psychotic) medications they treat people with your diagnose with. It's a restlessness where the person cannot quit moving or sit still. Have you looked into that?
@@juliannewman8720 yes I have had that before
Just watched this video. It’s so good. Both me and my fiancé have mental issues issues and we are trying to spread awareness on it on our channel and on instagram and TikTok. Keep up the good work 👍👍
It's nice to see so many Advocates for Schizophrenia who show we're not just these crazy monsters. We're people too, many of us living normal lives. It is a part of us, but it doesn't define who we are.
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"It is a part of us but it doesn't define who we are." Absolutely true. Actions define a person not a diagnoses.
I was acquainted with a man with schizophrenia last year. He's a poet. I invited him to a Shakespeare festival and he enjoyed it very much, found much inspiration in watching MacBeth.
@@Em_Elizabeth I’m glad to hear! I find it difficult to go to events. I went to Insomnia Game festival recently with some friends and if was difficult but it was nice to not think about being ill for a couple of days. Its nice when people treat us like any other person :)
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I love when you collaborate with Michelle. I to am an artist, and it seems as though people like to attribute my artistic talent to my mental illness. I was an artist before I got schizophrenia, I’m still an artist I just make sure to add my personal experience to my work. Being schizophrenic does not automatically make you a “good” artist😅
Haha true
I like Michelle! I like her energy and her art.
Omg I love this interview! I really relate with Michelle sooo much about work! 🤗 ❤️ I'm just not as artistic unfortunately 😆
Michelle, I just wanted to say I don't think you give yourself enough credit for what you actually are drawing and the art that you produce. I'm an artist I happen to have a mental illness. I'm a painter and you were ripping through that book in the beginning like they were just nothing. Your drawings are so intricate and so gorgeous. My work is very large and cathartic and raw kind of the opposite of the very detailed work that you do. I am absolutely blown away at the beauty of your work. and I do not think that anybody can just take a pen and start producing some quality art. Yes they might have fun, it might be an enjoyable self-expression but it doesn't mean it's going to be art. Or that it is going to be something other people would appreciate or purchase or things like that. I think you're extremely talented and I'm really moved by your work, it has nothing to do with your schizophrenia I just love your work. I don't usually like detailed work but there's a big dance going on within your pieces. I just thought.... well, I'll send you an email I have a place you might want to send some of your work, some images and get them out there on a big scale. Thank you so much for sharing your story and you just seem like a highly energetic very raw artist and you also seem to have a nomadic Spirit about you. I don't know if you do but I get that feeling from you. I traveled around America in a motorhome for 20 years selling my art. So, thanks again I really appreciate getting to know you. And Lauren thank you for bringing on Michelle. you asked really good questions. They were very insightful and very important as well.. You are awesome.
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Yes!! I love this woman! I feel the same about using art and creativity as an absorbing occupation and get away from what's in my head. It is also so cool that she is able to sell her art. Lauren, thank you!
Forgot to say, that art is one way I deal...I also try to connect with people online. Especially around missing children.
Her art is very interesting, I know in my
own life, playing guitar and flute, and
photography is the best therapy
Thank you for interviewing advocators, it's helping me out figuring my diagnosis with schizophrenia. I am grateful for this.
Absolutely wonderful to see and hear how you turned to art and made it work for you. I am only ever at ease when I am designing or making something myself.
This is another thing, she's constantly animated and can't sit still, her energy makes me nervous. She rocks fore and aft, brings up topics in rapid succession, and btw at 08:00 she mentions Van Gogh and then defines Michael Angelo as "not crazy" yet he wouldn't bathe, was unkempt, argued with everyone, and insulted so many people that they couldn't be around him. DeVinci had issue with Michael Angelo. They were genius artists, but not at all socially normal. Art is an outlet, I'm also a painter, it helps me get outside my head. But if I can't calm down and talk to potential buyers it doesn't help me. Plus I can become so emotionally connected to my work that it's impossible to part with it. I fixate and connect too intimately. At 11:19 again, the whole idea is to remove color so you're left with form, why? Because colors have an emotional impact and can alter the perception of form and can solicit an emotional response. That's why they use black and white in order to remove that "trigger". "Don't be paranoid you look great" I just don't get that at all and now I'll fixate as to why I don't get it? YOU are profoundly calming for me to watch and listen to, Michelle is the polar opposite and telegraphs her nervousness right at me. I also wanted to change the color of her hat adjustment band to anything but white. I know, this is my problem, not hers.
Communication warts are real. Halo antenna on military scout vehicle is a communication wart. There are books at library about communication warts. I would read them all.
I don't have schizophrenia, but I've been struggling mental health wise for over a year and I do often get inspiration from my painful feelings, but I see it more as making the best out of a bad situation. If I had good mental health I'd probably be drawing more often actually, and definitely a lot more happy uplifting things like pokemon or something haha
As someone with depression and anxiety I love art and it’s very therapeutic. Anyone can do this. Get markets, pencil colors, or crayons. It’s really fun
❤
I've been following each of you online for a few years and I'm so delighted to see you together finally! You're both so inspiring and generous with yourselves and your experience. You've helped me gain empathy and greater understanding for my loved one living with a chronic MI that is similar to schizophrenia. Love your videos and Michelle's artwork! Thank you.
Her art is wonderful. Thank you again, Lauren, for showcasing people with a mental health challenge in such a wonderful and respectful and helpful way.
I love every word that came out of Michelle, saying this being an artist and living with Schizophrenia. Thank you for spreading awareness
Lovely interview! I adore the work you and Michelle are doing by breaking down stigma and showing that we are in fact, very human and not monsters. I also very much appreciated that you guys covered the “schizophrenic artist” troupe. I also am an artist that lives with Schizoaffective disorder and I often am subjected to that stereotype.
Thank you
Love this! Creativity is for everyone 😌
Great interview with Michelle who is a wonderful advocate and a very talented artist.
Great to hear from an awesome fellow artist like Michelle! I have schizoaffective disorder, write poetry, and make music so it was interesting to hear how schizophrenia impacts art and dismantling some of the tropes of the mad genius!
Michelle is wonderful! I love her energy!
I loved this dialogue between the two of you. It resonates with me on many levels. It has given me courage to begin drawing. Thank you for your advocacy and for your channel.
Thank you Lauren.
You have the most amazing and creative guests.
Love your channel 💖
This is a particularly compelling episode. As an artist I find that what SchizophrenicNYC has to say here is quite relevant to any independent artist - particularly in the NYC environment, but her insight is invaluable here.
There is no doubt that creativity and schizophrenia (as well as other neuro-atypical conditions) can easily (or perhaps, uneasily) exist on the same plane. It’s marvelous to see you cover this Lauren. NYC’s work is a joy to behold. A glimpse into the inner mind and - yes, the outer limits. But that’s Art for ya’ …
You’re the greatest kiddo - be happy..!
I love this, I'm schizoaffective and I make, compose songs and play piano.
If anyone is intrested, I can link my soundcloud.
Same I make music videos and want to make video games
This channel inspired me to live healthy eccentric artist side. Working towards having a job a peer specialist because everyone is all in. Mental health workers are telling me and everyone with support. They want me to be one of them. There is pills and surgery for illness for the body; yet the mind and soul are the hardest one to do treatment on the root cause. I can use my mess ups as knowledge of perspective, and I have (High Function Schizophrenia) schizoaffective disorder (Bi-polar) and PTSD. I take meds and not ashamed, Those Disorders and Schizophrenia enhances my art. Use your wise mind and DBT skills.
I love Art since I was 10 years old. When my sister comes to live with me in 2020 ,because she suffering from schizophrenia lives with dilution, I engaged her in art and painting, stitching, knitting, all the art and painting helps her to live in better life and reality.
Art always was the best things saved me in difficult times
Ever since I got my first psychosis in 1997, I noticed after getting my meds (back then Zyprexa) that people didn’t wanna notice me or speak with me anymore. At the same time, I was supposed to start seriously studying! Those were very difficult times for me and I never graduated from that polytechnic and finally it all ended for me with a really big psychosis, many months in the mental in Helsinki. Because I didn't take my meds for about half a year before that big psychosis. Talk about easy young years for me...
Love your latest interviews Lauren
Michelle is really talented, I love the intricacies of her artwork, really beautiful.
Loved this!!!
Curious why the interview was ended after 15 minutes...Michelle is awesome and honest and raw
Omg I love you both and to see you have a conversation is so thrilling!! 💗
Thanks so much for this video! I found it very relatable and educational being a schizophrenic artist myself.
As an artist this conversation is most productive. I’m not schizophrenic but depressed. To me some part of me is rooted in the depression and I draw upon that. I get you are trying to say we aren’t defined by stereotypes of what divergent cognition we live with. I’m just saying by embracing who I am it has been joyful. I compare that to being down, and I feel better about all of what I live with. You’re work is wonderful helping all of us to live openly and accepting of what we live with.
Creating is self soothing & gratifying...it's a cognitive zone that requires focus & relaxing..it's perfect
Lyme dis ase can cause or trigger schizo, I'm serious.
I love the title of today,am a writer but didn't publish any of my poems yet but a doctor told me that creativity got to do with madness,the reason I keep my schizophrenia silent is because the media portray most mass shooters as mental ill patient so people can thing the world is safe with out monsters but schizophrenic are not violence people,let me say creativity is a gift that lives in creative people,some people's body are weak to the creativity gift and the body is weak and the have to take medication so they are body can cope with the creative gift that why some artist got mental illness,search in history most poets was considered neurotic
This is an Awesome channel! -- Thank You Lauren!
Love the interviews.
There is a big study did in Iceland that discovered an indirect relation between artistic creativity and schizophrenia, basically that relatives of schizophrenic people are more likely to become accomplished or famous specially in arts field, in which non-schizophrenic relatives tend to share some psychosis spectrum related-traits but expressed in more moderate ways. But i think there are some disproportion of highly talented people who experience psychosis thought. I'm not saying the disease may make people more creative but that some specific traits can help a lot in contribution with others.
Now I've decided I will try to get a pension from the state of Finland because of being uncapable to work anymore. It's wiser than being forever on unemployment benefit. I don't think I will get a job from my homecountry anymore... thank you for this lovely artist interview! ❤
That's a great suggestion about buying cheap art supplies at Walmart. I used to paint with nice canvases, brushes, and oil paints but it was an expensive hobby and there was so much pressure on me to paint a masterpiece. I went years without painting, and then one day I saw art supplies at the dollar store and bought them on a whim. It was so fun and pressure-free that I haven't put the brush down since then. I feel like there's no pressure when your supplies don't cost an arm and a leg, and if you scan your artwork it's all digital in the end anyway. I've also started keeping a sketchbook after giving up on sketching and journaling a lifetime ago because my parents would raid my room and read my journals to embarrass and humiliate me.
Even though I follow your videos, the last couple haven’t appeared in my feed on the homepage. Each time, I had to click “subscriptions” to know that there was a new video.
Art. I used to draw, paint, sculpt wood. When I had my first episode I wanted to make something to ease my torment so I took a slab of black cherry hardwood and carved an angel. I was in a hurry because I was hallucinating hard, but it turned out beautiful, like an M.C. Escher angel or something. I went to the hospital finally because I couldn't sleep for 45 days and was in a war zone in my mind. When I got out of the hospital ten days later I wanted to do another angel. Well, the Risperdal did something to my skills. I carved an angel, but it was all sad and depressed and looked like the character in the Edward Munch painting The Scream. I finished the carving in a few days, but it was so depressing to look at I hid it away in my room.
I occasionally do a drawing now, or try to paint or do a small carving, but can not seem to finish anything. The only time I feel inspired to do art now is if I get some good bud, but that's very rare. That mad angel was the last carving I completed in hardwood. That was 26 years ago and I don't know what has happened to my life. I got old.
@Name Hey, thanks.
Love it!
Great to see you here Michelle!!! 🤗
I’m still an artist/graphic designer and I used to live in nyc and got fired a lot also, it freakin sucked. Anyway, I’m trying to start my own thing to reward myself, I can’t believe how fulfilling making art has been since my recent hospitalization for a bullshit attempted suicide. So, be happy everyone🤩. Born in Hollywood🎭.
Such a good interview and collab!
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Great video. Great advocacy Michelle. Great artwork.
Hey Michelle! Fantastic interview and thank you for doing this. I do have one question, though. Do you notice your constant movements. I was curious if you ever heard of akathisia. It's a side effect from AP(Anti Psychotic) medications they treat people with your diagnose with. It's a restlessness where the person cannot quit moving or sit still. Have you looked into that?
Gifted thank you for sharing
Your videos are a godsend
I'm schizophrenic my dad's always saying there's something out there I could do myself to make money... More importing and selling from the garage or something than art... My arts music (maybe it will sell one day) but wish I had the skill and business know how like Michelle to do what she does!
Thank you so much
1 in 5 🤔 what does that say about New York city
It says they have public transport
Um highly creative people are known to have lots of dopamine like schizophrenics, there is a strong tie, as well as with creative bipolar people. It’s a spiritual and mystical state [ with high dopamine] that propels them and allows them to create. Saying it’s just chemicals, is nonsense, it’s like saying love is nothing more than a dopamine rush, when we know it’s far more complicated. I dreamt of my soulmate in detail for four years before I met him in 2016, I knew how he looked, that he played bass. To say everything is just chemicals is to miss the sacred component.
Love hard energy and the stimming rocks
Inspiring
i love you chanel im a sychotic rap producer and i tryed to ween of meds when you recently did and failed but im ok with it.
I love her explanation that all of us as kindergarteners will say we are artists... Then by 8th grade only three in a class will say that they are artists.👨🎨👩🎨
I feel that about the 9-5 thing. I'm not schizophrenic, I'm schizoid, but I'm obviously weird and I suck at office politics so any time I had a regular job the politickers picked me for their scapegoat to rally their coworkers against and increase their own political clout in the office. And any time I've been anywhere that I can be relatively invisible, I've observed those same kind of people pick the next-weirdest person to dog on and destroy to make themselves feel better.
Thanks!
Thnk you
More AWARENESS YES!
Thank you....
Michelle's art is beautiful! I can believe people buy it!
Absolutely no criticism intended, but just wondering. Are you naturally sort of manic or do your meds hype you? Or were you nervous for the interview? I LOVE your artwork!!
I had a ton of coffee. Lol. I’m glad you like my artwork! Thank you!
i rock like she does what does it mean
Don't quote me on this, but it looks like autistic stimming to me. It's usually done to try to calm down when overstimulated or anxious. I usually do finger and hand movements. Don't use that for a diagnosis, I don't know if it's associated with other mental disorders or if neurotypicals stim occasionally too.
I make alternative electronic music and im schizo effective
can you do a vid on how vivid some hallucination are i have identical diagnosis and they have become very real, so real i have trouble noticing the difference only when they seem absurd.
Get people talking and stop the sigma.
I have schizophrenia so thanks for help
I need help. .I need to rent a room in america, hopefully I can get ssi , don't want to be homeless. Ty
Hi Michelle...My big dream is to start a website that gets artistic supplies to give to people struggling with schizophrenia...like an entire set/kit of items needed to do paint by numbers or drawing kits that might include the sketch book, good pencils, a sharpener eraser and maybe a set of colored pencils. Art has truly made a huge impact on my mental well being and I want so badly to share that with people who might find it very therapeutic. I am in the beginning stages but I already have 50 paint by numbers kits promised I just don't know what to do next. I don't know how to navigate the internet very well yet but I will try to contact you. I am hoping you might have some ideas for me.
Nice! Now Cecilia McGough!
There certainly are some people with Schizophrenia who are talented artists, but people without it that are also gifted. Of course there are many mediocre/lousy artists too, some have Schizophrenia and some who don't. So there doesn't seem to be a strong correlation.
You should review Wilfred
And one more thing, is homosexuality is the cause of scizophernia.
I'm beautiful too
Love me
I'll dream with you please
I'll see you more often with noise of silence
Your a true artist because you like to create art 1st, you leverage your life's attributes in the creation of such endeavors and you aim to sustain your existence from its creation. By the way your art is "Taped In" and this is just my opinion just 7:45 min in to this video.
Punk Rock
I lost my whole creative ability. What should I do about it?
Start small.
@@Catlily5 how? I can't seem to do anything so what is your example of small?
@@ALC77787 Have you tried doodling?
@@Catlily5 What do you mean exactly? I can draw flowers and a house.
@@ALC77787 That is cool. Sounds like you are getting creative if you can do that.
people with schizophrenia are more likely to develop Parkinson's in later life.
can you make video on this topic
Everyone is an artist, if you get one hundred people to sweep a room, not one will do it exactly like another.
aw my name is michelle:)
✌inspiring 😁
I too am an artist suffering with schizophrenia. Consequently I was invited to attend art therapy with a crowd of untalented, dysfunctional loud-mouths who had no concept of the art-form. And the instructor was always distracting me with manual labor.
Love it:) Let's connect?
I wish my family would understand that schizoaffective doesn't go away.
I think schizophrenia symptoms are produced with technology too. Some of us are victims of these technologies
How are you
I see you blinking a lot,
Last time you we're experiencing symptoms
But then again people can have schizophrenia when someone Psychologically hypnotized them by a negative way.
Hypnotized a person and created other negative identity in his mind that can cause a lot suffering and mental illness.
It's my life
I've been having multiple of delusional thought again.
Can those delusions which you never truly recover from but you get past hamper us
Luckily it makes me very good at math 🤓💛🖖