I met cee in a program a while back. She is nothing less that a fucking amazing women. One of the sweetest women I have encountered. She helped me so much by listening to me vent when I was going through an abusive relationship. whenever you’re ready you know you have so many people that love you in the program ❤.
I've been through a lot of shit in life myself but my therapist said the other day that just because you might not think that someone's else's trauma is not that bad does not mean it was not the worst thing that they thought the have been through. Be kind to everyone, everyone around us is going through something big or small! ♥
I just learned this exact Quote other day it made me think about my siblings on fentynal their trauma never seemed that bad compared to mine so thought it was excuse I'm learning it's a disease my approach to my siblings is alot better no judgment and understanding
@Broskisnowski This poor girl lost her twin babies two weeks before their due date because she was beaten so badly by her boyfriend and you heartlessly say "what trauma, All of it was self inflicted". I don't agree. Even if you think it's her fault, that doesn't take away the terrible pain and loss of having your unborn babies murdered. FFS!!!
She is pretty self aware and well spoken. That just goes to show addiction is not rational. I hope she is able to get sober. I see so much potential in her. ❤
@@ma3stro681 yeah. A lot of people who have been through hell wouldn’t change a thing because it made them who they are in the positive aspects, such as how resilient they are in comparison to someone who has had an easy life. It doesn’t mean she isn’t self aware. It’s clear you’ve had a pretty easy life and can’t relate. So your opinion isn’t really valid on someone who has been through experiences you could never comprehend. 🤷🏻♀️
The physical assault by her partner and loss of her children is utterly heartbreaking. I'm tired of seeing the same thing over and over: women are abused and then fall through the cracks. I'm tired of it. This culture devours woman.
@@baublesanddolls Why would you even say that? She definitely sounded very truthful to me. I've watched hundreds of these interviews, been a fan ever since this channel first started. In my experience the people who are just talking shit and making it all up are very obvious, to the point of being obnoxious (I'm talking to you Coyote!) and this woman doesn't seem like she's lying whatsoever. I wish she was with a story as sad as hers is.
Cee- I've lost a baby too, but there's still time for you... That pain would be handed over to your Dad if he loses you, especially to this. You're one of the luckier ones too. You have the support and opportunities many out there are dying for. Please do it❤
That's exactly it. You either grow from something or let it destroy you. For every person that had something tragic happen, there's someone that overcame it and moved on
@@Mukanimou Um.. I did. No, it wasn't easy. I should be dead, too.. that's why I posted this and hope Cee can find what I have now because of loving family (we don't all have) and personal strength that we all have until we die.
8 and 1/2 months pregnant and having their father beat you so severely that it kills your children is as contemptuous and evil as it gets. It was not the first time he beat her. It's always going to be hard for her, always.
Cee, you will get sober, Please reach out! you can’t do it alone. I will pray for you .. I love you, You matter 💪🏻💪🏻✝️💋💋🙏🏻🙏🏻👼🏼👼🏼♥️angela from australia
Mark, Ive watched many of your videos on this channel. Some out of pure interest and some for the wrong reasons. But this video touched me deeply. My daughter has been struggling with addiction for years and is very close to Cee's age. I have been the one giving her money when she needs it, cars when she doesn't have one but now, I'm cutting her off for the most part. Emotionally never. I pray for her, and I still talk to her, but I won't finance her, if that makes sense. But, through the tears and talking to her, I thought I understood her and what she deals with until now. Seeing Cee's story has opened my eyes to my daughter's situation. To perhaps how she feels when she struggles. What makes her go back to the drugs when she's doing good and beginning to get on her feet. In your own video Mark, you mention about how people want to help your interviewees financially but there are people in our own community that are the same way. Thank you Mark for doing this interview. I pray for Cee and others like her.
Never give up. 😢 I lost my 18 yr old daughter on Christmas eve 2011. She wasn't an addict but was in the experimental stage. Cause of death was undetermined but she was somewhere she didn't belong. What I wouldn't give to know what happened to her. 😢 love your daughter thru it all but don't finance. I'm praying for beautiful Cee Cee & your daughter.
@@blueskiesmom1323I'm so so so sorry for your loss. My baby Gia was born into heaven this February and I have 0 answers as to why. Praying for you my friend ❤🙏 I pray to her because I know she is in heaven, she never sinned so she MUST be closer to God than I ever will be. Can't wait to be with her again.
Watching this channel has erased even the last drop of judgement I’ve ever had. Her story is heartbreaking and the smile she ends the interview with is even more heartbreaking 💔 I wish you only the best. You’re a beautiful person.
Yes, she is! When she speaks, I hear a beautiful and intelligent soul, still striving to find purpose, while going through things that would break a lot of people. Many thanks to Mark, as well, for devoting his life to this important journalistic project! I am so glad it is opening hearts and minds. People I knew, in addiction, are the most principled and compassionate people I have known, when in recovery. They often had a remarkable sensitivity before addiction, also, which caused them to suffer more from the trauma that is part of life, for so many. They have experienced more than their share of trauma, also! ❤
She has such awareness of the fact that her “brain” doesn’t want to give up the addiction. That “it’s” not ready yet. Her consciousness/soul is so aware of the fact that her body/brain is not responding to what she might want deep down inside. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression all my life leading to a life filled with rumination and negative thoughts. Doesn’t matter how many affirmations i say or how much I go to therapy, meditate, eat right or workout. Which I’ve been doing for over a decade. There is still an underlying imbalance going on. My soul has been begging to be set free from the mental turmoil since the age I was 16.. I’m now 26. It’s like being a prisoner in your own body. You have dreams and aspirations but your own mental illness holds you back. Which is exactly what Cee must be going through since it’s manifesting as an addiction for her. I pray for God to heal her brain so that she is no longer captive to the addictive thought patterns.
This is heartbreaking. She has so much goodness and potential in her. I don't think she needs chefs and pools in a private rehab but one decent therapist she clicks with and some basic life stability and safety. I wish her healing and a good life.
I've watched for over 3 yrs. Seen every interview. This one changed my life. What a dark world we live in. Reality check. I've watched this 4 times now...Cee it's not ur fault, you are not a bad person for trying to medicate the pain. Cancer, losing your babies,domestic violence, drug addiction, but still standing and stunningly beautiful, articulate, classy and a sweet soul. I think about your interview everyday multiple times. Thank you for the reality check. ♡♡love and light to you my sister❤😢
Man, I really have to stop complaining about my life lol. I am the same age as her and can't even imagine going through this much trauma and tragedy already. Wish you the best.
Rock bottom is a somewhat fictitious line we apply to everyone. My father was an addict. Once he cleaned up he ran a halfway house for addicts. Once, while I was making an excuse for why my sister couldn't quit her 20 year heroin and crack addiction because she didn't have the perfect setting, he said "you can get clean behind a dumpster, if you want it you'll do it. Rock bottom for some people is death". Stuck with me.
Hey Cee. It’s Ariel from San Rafael. I know things got kinda weird with the situation before you moved. I just want to say sorry and I’ve always admired how well you speak. You’ve always been so nice. You are smart and you know how sobriety works and how to get it when you are ready. Just keep being honest and the rooms are waiting for you when you are ready. Please try to stay safe in the meantime. ❤
There comes a point you get tired. Tired of being tired Being 67 i can assure you...WE DO RECOVER. I used heroin over 30 yrs. 11-20-23 I'll have 6yrs. I pray you get it soon before they find you laying somewhere on Skid row dead😢Prayers for you 💪🙏 Dig deep and see you deserve so much more.
Cee- I lost my twin boys at 37 weeks pregnant for no rhyme or reason my boys stopped breathing in the womb 7 years ago and I was the same age as you, 26. Thinking about you ❤
Cee you are the chosen one to break your family curse. Your soul is strong and will only get stronger from all you’ve experienced. You can do it, I believe in you!
This gal has been through shit that would crush the average person and she's still staying with a sweetness inside. You got this! 20 years from now you will watch this and be proud. Best wishes
Mark hit the nail on the head when he asked if she had a self destructive streak. We can all see her potential but I don’t have a great feeling about the next few years for her…I hope I’m wrong but…crack and Fentanyl 🤷🏼♀
I’m so sorry you lost your precious babies. 😢😢 they are looking down on you always. I hope you find the love and light in yourself again, and get sober again. You are so bright and seem so kind. Be well
Cee, please surround yourself with sober people and one day at a time you can build up a new life. You're golden and have much to give. Please reach out to help that is available.
the front full on still camera reveals such a palpable tension in so many of these interviews. Its a powerful medium, and actually brings the viewer to an immense sense of compassion for those being interviewed. I hope she finds the peace she humanly deserves: I have a very good friend who has been sober for 12 years now after a decade long crack and alcohol addiction. He went to intense 6 month in house rehab and religiously went to NA meetings. He has breakthrough addictions like sugar and social media, but he has never used again. There is hope. For the light within you, never give up.
It's always interesting to hear people's ideas of a good childhood. A parent's provisioning of tangible necessities alone does not make a good childhood. Emotional nurturing does. I've seen people who, as children, lived in poverty, missed meals, homeless for a time, and they say how wonderful their childhoods were because they had solid loving parents. It's arguably the most vital necessity of all.
Stay strong and I pray you get through this. As a father of a two year old and four year old, my wife and I give them the world like your parents did. I have bad dreams all the time of them growing up and going down the wrong path because of external forces and not anything my family can control. This world has become a cruel place to be for our children. I am only 38 but grew up in a different time with no cell phones as a kid and just a few toys.. humbling and not a lot of external forces to worry about. This world has changed so much for our children.
All I see is an intelligent woman...that could accomplish anything. I am rooting for you. You have it in you to have a wonderful, sober life. You have been through a lot and I can't relate with that or understand your pain but you have gotten back up everytime. You've got this!! ❤
Cee you are absolutely beautiful and gorgeous. I really hope that you become ready again, I have been sober for almost a year now and feel where you are coming from. You have the strength to do it. Lots of love 💗
She s absolutely gorgeous....Reminds me of the French actress Marion Cotillard....And not just beautiful but also very honest and humble. Good head on her shoulders. Nice interview!
Cee- I had a baby at 30 after losing an ovary at 19 for a non-cancerous tumor. I then went on to conceive another with less than a whole ovary due to a tumor on the other ovary years earlier. I lost that child after she lived for 10 days due to a complication in pregnancy. I now have a 15 month old baby in addition to my 8 year old. All that to say, you can definitely still conceive with one ovary and you can move on from (but never forget) the loss of a child. Stay strong
Cee i totally relate to what your going through. I was heavily addicted to crack, fentanyl and meth for almost 20 years, right up until getting arrested in 2021. I never thought i could get past my addictions, and im still a work in progress, but you can definately beat this. Your still young and pretty and you are obviously really smart and creative. You just need to stay strong and survive through this chaos and eventually trust me youll get tired of doing drugs again and things will get better. Its true that if you arent ready to get sober theres no point in trying to beat sobriety into your head because it wont work. Just keep your head up and trust your instincts, they will save you in the worst situations youll face. I hope the best for you, i believe in you. Your a survivor, no doubt about that.
@@PrettyFLY4aWiFi. Awww thanks homie 👐 I really enjoyed your interview. As I said I really related to so much of what you had to say. I wish you the very best lovely Cee ☺️💗🙏
@@jungjeru3348 Thank you..out of all the comments yours caught my attention. I really dont like the way I live and this interview really got my thinking about it.
She is an intelligent and articulate person. She will eventually figure it out and get the demons off of her back. She is not even close to completely broken or gone yet. Good luck girl and please turn your back on this lifestyle.
Thank you for your thoughtful and honest interview, Cee. I’m soo deeply sorry for the loss of your children and I hope the future offers hope for you. Many blessings
O. M. G. 2 minutes in and this poor woman has grabbed my heart 😢. To have that much personal loss and devastation in a lifetime is crazy, but before the age of 25 is unimaginable. My heart absolutely goes out to her.
I’m so emotional watching her. She’s so beautiful inside and out and super intelligent with so much insight. She’s been through sooooo much and like she says she keeps getting back up. I hope she gets through this and gets everything she wants and needs in life. She’ll be a beautiful strong mother one day and she’ll keep away from the stuff because of her children. She’ll show them what you can do with your life when you have such a kind strong heart and soul. She’ll also make a brilliant drug therapist she has so much integrity and empathy. And what insight !! I’m 51 and still don’t have half the insight she has. She’s a beautiful soul. Good luck strong lady you’ll be great x
Mark: if you could do something with your life what would it be? Cee: i want to help people. Me: your story is helping and touching more people than you could ever know! I lost my brother 4 months ago, the pain of losing him is unreal. I never judged him, in fact I loved him more no matter what he was doing. Hearing your story gives me a glimpse of what he may have went through. Im rooting for you cee! Your strong, smart and brave girl... you can do this and as a human being i love you and thank you for sharing and saving a life or two!
It’s sad that she said she didn’t have trauma in life and then glazed over her losing her children bc of an an abusive relationship. She moved on so fast from that and didn’t return to that pain. Until she is ready to heal from that immense loss she won’t be able to stay sober.
Mark, this brings me back to 1990 when my wife and I lost twins....please pass on to Cee, she will emerge, and can get sober and stay clean. The trauma of losing a child, or God forbid, twins, is underappreciated by most, and leaves deep scars which must be faced. But Cee, you are strong and so beautiful inside, I see that you have the strength to get there. Please keep trying and don't give up. You WILL be ready on your own time, but look for a mentor and support network. You have a gift in knowing Mark and having parents who love you.
Ya she did. But she separates them in her mind. I think it would be better put, maybe, that she wants to be in a position where she can help people, instead of being in "need" . I don't excuse her behavior, but I think I get this aspect.
I feel like im watching myself in this interview. The way i can relate to her in grave detail is horrific yet comforting to know someone understands some of the same things I've been through even though i dont know her at all. This has definitely been my favorite person youve interviewed by far. I hope she finds herself again because time passes by so quick when you are in active addiction and before you know it you dont know the person staring back at you in the mirror anymore.
Mental obsession. So real. I def had the physical issues with my d.o.c but it still is the thoughts and mental that gets us. Sending you healing. You got this!
I had a hysterectomy when I was young because of cancer. The year before, I lost my sister, my only sibling and best friend. If I was grieving so much from the loss of my sister, the cancer probably would have really sunk in. Our choice in coping mechanisms is why we have different outcomes.
What do u mean? Do you think your cancer was worse because you were grieving or it wasn’t as bad because you were grieving? Just curious.. and I’m sorry for the loss of ur sister ❤
@@BIGLON-cf1ulone of my coping mechanisms is smoking-I smoke when I’m happy, sad, mad, after I eat, when I wake up etc. It causes shortness of breath and I’m highly aware that it will kill me. Yet I continue to impulsively smoke. A healthy coping mechanism I use is meditation.. it causes me to be more aware, calm and content. It also makes my future self happier. Healthy coping skills lead to a healthy life
Poor lady, she seems so wonderful. She didn't have a difficult childhood but then had an absolute horrible run of bad luck in her early adulthood. The poor thing.
I resonated with her talking the way she talked about the type of addiction for her with crack. I haven’t done crack or any other hard drugs but something about the way she described how the difference between physical addiction and mental where the thoughts keep coming back, and it being so hard to deal with that, spoke to me. For me it’s like that with mental health, depression anxiety, and now even addictions to things like eating, porn, or gaming. I feel like I used to be a lot stronger mentally, but since the pandemic my will and discipline just isn’t there like it used to be. Thoughts, compulsions and feelings will overrun me.
Imo, everyone who doesn’t understand addiction should see this video. It so effectively dispels many of the assumptions and judgements that people tend to have.
oh wow.. i keep seeing so many people that i was in treatment with just a few years ago in socal. last time i saw cee she had just celebrated a year clean.. praying for her 💗
That smile at the end though. It felt like all her potential, her greatness & her innocence came through the screen in those last seconds of the interview and slapped me in the face. What she lost with her babies is heartbreaking and I can't imagine the pain she must feel inside but then Her smile came through all that darkness of her past and for those seconds every bit of hope for the bright future she/we all deserve was right there waiting for her to run with it. I am also a struggling addict and many of these interviews I have no ability to relate to, this one was different for me. I really hope she can rise from this low and live a happy life in whatever way she will be the most content. Cee, whatever you do - don't stop smiling.
I didnt start using drugs until "later in life" either. I also lost a child (not as late in the pregnancy as yours and just 1 child not 2). The only thing that has kept me from using that hardcore stuff was my 3 other kids at home that literally have no one if they don't have me. My past use never led to any addiction but it came damn close. Sending lots of ❤ to you girl!
When asked if she could live her life over again, would she have done anything differently, she replied NO. Evidently she hasn't learned from her mistakes.
Cee I'm so sorry for your loss. You can do this I promise especially because your family is there for you my familynever gave up on me and I'll never understand why but I'm so grateful they didn't and after ayear Ithink they thought I'd relapse cause that was my mo detox tx relapse but.you definitely have to be ready I'm 53 years old and just got clean at 50 and if I could do it all over again I would have done it years ago. Your so young love and have your whole life ahead of you. I believe in you your prettyvery well spoken and it's so true you never know what someone else is going through so be kind and nice cause you dk what a person is going through and honestly it's so much easier to be kind and nice being mean and nasty takes up too much energy. I'm praying 🙏 for you to go through rehab and get your life together ❤. Great interview as always
Such a helpless feeling for all when someone is hell-bent on self destruction. Cee is just going to have to go through it and hope she’s still alive in the end.
Omg she has been through so much 😭 god bless you 🙏🤞❤️ hope you can find the strength to turn your life around ❤❤❤❤ please get sober settle down and work for the future 🙏 🙏🙏🙏
Its hard to pick interviews now because i dont choose based on title but on the way they speak. Shes so smart i hope she gets out and helps others with her experience shes definitely here for a reason. Praying for your safety Cee! ❤😊
Cee, I lost my daughter at birth…it was the most traumatizing. I drank myself to sleep everyday, worked out 3 hours a day everyday because I couldn’t shut my brain down. Please get sober, you are not only smart and beautiful but capable and still so young! Do not give those streets another year of your life please. I am now in a wonderful relationship with a two year old beautiful son, and I thought my life was over, please don’t give up…if you ever read this know that you will never forget what happens to you but you can and will heal. I hope you’ve made the right decision
I know her. We were friends. My heart is broken. I am from NJ. I know she got sober and moved to Cali. But didn’t know she’s using again on skid row until this video. Idk so sad. And she is still posting on Facebook.
Cee reminds me of my cousin and my niece. They were Cee's age, basically good families that loved them, although not without trauma, but they "tried" desperately to get them help but they weren't ready. And the families had to sadly accept that. They were surviving any way they could but the day came and they were gone. Here one day, gone the next. We still grieve the loss of those beautiful young women who had so much life and vibrancy in them when they were kids. It was heartbreaking to watch. Cee's vibrancy is still there even though her heart grieves. I hope Cee's will get ready soon.
Common misconception "this is no withdrawal from crack". The withdrawal is there but it happens really fast and it's why people start to shake and need more as they come down. My drug abuse counselors told me there was no withdrawal, which is why I decided to start using it. Boy were they wrong
When she said she robs people who is she robbing? I like her interview. I feel very bad for her but I can't get over the fact that she said that she robs people. And then she made the statement that people put their purses away when she walks by. I really hope that she uses her insurance while she's still has it and get some help. She seems like a really smart person. She's really pretty so she's probably going to be a target down there.
I truly hope she uses that insurance also to try and get some help. Shes been through alot yes. Tbh alot of us have had horrible life experiences!! I get y she numbing herself. Thankfully she has a partner hopefully he is her security.
Cee……I wish you loved yourself as much as we all love you. You are so amazingly beautiful (those eyes!), intelligent, well spoken and aware. Losing your babies the way you did was not fair and very tragic. I can tell you have what it takes to dig deep down and pull yourself out of this! If you find a good therapist to help you through your traumas and who can give you some tools to help you love yourself again, and a comfortable rehab program that you vibe with, it would really help you become the ‘you’ that you are gifted to be. You are here for a reason. You can really offer people a lot of wisdom. I can totally see you becoming a substance abuse counselor one day…..and a very good one. You are kind and compassionate and you genuinely care about people. I believe in you. And I know many others that watch this interview believe in you too. I want to see a follow up soon. I want to see the real Cee…..living her best life and helping others live theirs. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽. I KNOW you can do this. Hugs.
Cee I know how hard it can be, my 12month old son died Dec.23.2020 I lost myself in San Francisco as well ended up in jail and eventually the sutter home for a suicide attempt. I will pray for you. Im currently 27 yr old I’m not 100% sober I drink occasionally but no longer drinking or doing drugs to black out or die so baby steps for me.. I’m so grateful for my family and my daughter who I had last year. It hurts bad going to bereavement groups helped me a lot I hope you can find a support group ❤
This young woman has been through a lot. You can see how A causes B etc. But she’s also really insightful and says some damn smart things. She has a lot of potential and I love her honesty. She’s got a lot more integrity than most sober people
Wow. Same exact age. 26 in October. Suffering in my addiction but not as grateful as I should be for my life. I wish the very very best for you, cee. ❤️
This didn't start with the babies. It started with Cee's parents who were emotionally unavailable. It is one thing, to go through such tragedy. It's another to go through it all by yourself. The love and support a mother could give was not there and rather available in drugs. I'm so sorry Cee. You deserve so much better. You are a wonderful soul. I hope so much things will change in and for you ❤
I agree. People tend to look at finances only and call someone privileged but all kinds of neglect and abuse happen for years behind the wealthy doors too and it can probably terrorize someone more than if they were in a financially modest but caring home. ❤️🩹
THANK YOU MARK FOR ALL THESE GREAT INTERVIEWS WITH REAL PEOPLE,,NO 1 IS PERFECT. N THERE COMES A TIME WHEN YOU WILL GET TIRED OF ALL THE BS...waking up sick...i can say methadone saved my life 15 yrs ago,,im still on the methadone but i m clean. Ps. I will agree with her about the brain wanting crack. I used that also way b4 i started the H,, I really love to show your videos with my 96 yrold grandmom
@windwhisprz yeah shes quite a good women she isnt surprised but i am surprised,,in how she grew up. When i was born she was the age i am now. I hope i can say ive only lived half my life...but she was a little hustler back in the day...crazy what i know now she had never even wanteda french kiss til she married my Gpop. I would like to take her on Marks interview...recovering granddaughter , n thr 96 yr old hustler b4 children came...would love it.
Cee- I'm so sorry about your losses. Please don't undermine your trauma 😞. I just wanted to say that I can relate with you(on many fronts)& in that I would let my emotions take over and drive me.. meditation and yoga is saving my life. I just wanted to gently put that out there... I'm learning to observe rather than react. We are all here just trying to get by.. calm the"citta-vritti" or chatter in the mind. I wish you well ❤️💕🙏safety and sobriety. You seem(to me)to want it. Even tho you're speaking something different- I feel the opposite 💯. Go for it you got it
I appreciate this video so much coming on my feed this particular moment in my life. She’s pretty insightful and self aware. I’m having a range of emotions and thoughts that are overwhelming me but I hope her the best. I feel inspired by her and have a better understanding of myself
My prayers go to you today Cece. This young woman most certainly didn’t receive the emotional support she needed in her younger life. The systems that we trust that look good on the surface are responsible for this horror. American culture is disconnected from the things that are most important, good healthy food, strong compassionate family systems, a thriving local economy, cultural celebrations based on the land under our feet. Too many people these days so deeply misguided and fried by economic instability.
So much bad has come from the USA - global warfare, feminism, social media, celebrity worship, corporate greed, gun culture, drug epidemics, Hollyweird etc etc. It’s now all karmically coming home to roost …
I can relate to her addiction Problem a lot. You’re fine and all and suddenly it comes Into your head and you just have to get high, almost impossible saying no then. Im rooting for her she’s so self reflective and I hope to see an update ❤
@@BIGLON-cf1ul Its surreal because i talked to her often in high school. She was valedictorian of the class above me. She didn’t use drugs in high school. It was a alternative school called Holmstead. I have her on my social medias. And i never thought shed end up on skid row. thats why its surreal (also being interviewed by SWU)
Your family must be heart broken and devastated. I hope you get the help you need. Mark has posted videos of people who have used for years and their deterioration is horrendous. Hope you find your way before it's too late.
I second that we need a follow up on this young lady, Cee, wow that interview really hit me, I hope you find peace and safety. It took me over 20 years and a brain injury but my God I am so so soooooooooooooooooo thrilled to be clean & sober over 3 years now through the Grace of God go I. I wish you the best Cee.🤗🙏
It's interesting that she mentions that as being homeless that you can't hide. I was homeless for a while. Everyone see's you. People who never looked at me when I had a job and money in my pocket looked at me. Everyone is always weary of you and everyone has come to some negative judgement about you inside their head, even if they know absolutely nothing about your situation. It's a very uncomfortable feeling to know that you are always being judged just for existing to the best of your ability. None of my friends (who knew me before it happened and knew that I always worked and took care of myself and knew that it wasn't my fault that I was homeless) ever looked at me the same again. When I got back on my feet they never came by to hang out with me ever again. It ruined me socially. I've been an anti social shut in ever since. I have no trust in people. I learned that your value to others is somehow based on monetary standing, even if they don't stand to make any money from you. Once you lose that status, you can't recover in their eyes. You've been written off. It's truly disturbing how we view homeless people. The mental effect of being treated that way has long lasting effects. I'm still trying to sort it out for myself.
I met cee in a program a while back. She is nothing less that a fucking amazing women. One of the sweetest women I have encountered. She helped me so much by listening to me vent when I was going through an abusive relationship. whenever you’re ready you know you have so many people that love you in the program ❤.
The loss of those babies broke her. I really hope she finds some peace and healing.
Just an excuse
@@OrangeDiamond33 disgusting of you to say...
@@haliesjewelryandcrafts I’d put another one in her if that’ll help though.
@@OrangeDiamond33there is something seriously wrong with you
@@alexcanning5383 😀
I've been through a lot of shit in life myself but my therapist said the other day that just because you might not think that someone's else's trauma is not that bad does not mean it was not the worst thing that they thought the have been through. Be kind to everyone, everyone around us is going through something big or small! ♥
Perfectly said 💯. You never know what someone is going through so it's so much easier to be kind and nice rather than being mean and nasty 😊
I just learned this exact Quote other day it made me think about my siblings on fentynal their trauma never seemed that bad compared to mine so thought it was excuse I'm learning it's a disease my approach to my siblings is alot better no judgment and understanding
Truth ❤
Truer words have never been spoken.
@Broskisnowski This poor girl lost her twin babies two weeks before their due date because she was beaten so badly by her boyfriend and you heartlessly say "what trauma,
All of it was self inflicted". I don't agree. Even if you think it's her fault, that doesn't take away the terrible pain and loss of having your unborn babies murdered. FFS!!!
She is pretty self aware and well spoken. That just goes to show addiction is not rational. I hope she is able to get sober. I see so much potential in her. ❤
You couldn’t have said this any better!! Thank you!!
Self aware?? She said she wouldn’t change a thing … 🤯
@@ma3stro681 yeah. A lot of people who have been through hell wouldn’t change a thing because it made them who they are in the positive aspects, such as how resilient they are in comparison to someone who has had an easy life. It doesn’t mean she isn’t self aware. It’s clear you’ve had a pretty easy life and can’t relate. So your opinion isn’t really valid on someone who has been through experiences you could never comprehend. 🤷🏻♀️
Pointing out she’s self aware or well spoken comes across like your surprised…many addicts are rational, educated and professional people with talents
💯
The physical assault by her partner and loss of her children is utterly heartbreaking. I'm tired of seeing the same thing over and over: women are abused and then fall through the cracks. I'm tired of it. This culture devours woman.
@@baublesanddolls true. We're always choosing to suspend to or remain in disbelief re these anecdotes. My last point stands however.
We haven’t been able to win by loving and educating others…we need something MORE.
Sadly, this is so true.
@@baublesanddollssounded truthful to me.
@@baublesanddolls Why would you even say that? She definitely sounded very truthful to me. I've watched hundreds of these interviews, been a fan ever since this channel first started. In my experience the people who are just talking shit and making it all up are very obvious, to the point of being obnoxious (I'm talking to you Coyote!) and this woman doesn't seem like she's lying whatsoever. I wish she was with a story as sad as hers is.
Cee- I've lost a baby too, but there's still time for you... That pain would be handed over to your Dad if he loses you, especially to this. You're one of the luckier ones too. You have the support and opportunities many out there are dying for. Please do it❤
That's exactly it. You either grow from something or let it destroy you. For every person that had something tragic happen, there's someone that overcame it and moved on
@@erich1380 truth!
@@Mukanimou Um.. I did. No, it wasn't easy. I should be dead, too.. that's why I posted this and hope Cee can find what I have now because of loving family (we don't all have) and personal strength that we all have until we die.
8 and 1/2 months pregnant and having their father beat you so severely that it kills your children is as contemptuous and evil as it gets. It was not the first time he beat her. It's always going to be hard for her, always.
Cee, you will get sober, Please reach out! you can’t do it alone. I will pray for you .. I love you, You matter 💪🏻💪🏻✝️💋💋🙏🏻🙏🏻👼🏼👼🏼♥️angela from australia
Mark, Ive watched many of your videos on this channel. Some out of pure interest and some for the wrong reasons. But this video touched me deeply. My daughter has been struggling with addiction for years and is very close to Cee's age. I have been the one giving her money when she needs it, cars when she doesn't have one but now, I'm cutting her off for the most part. Emotionally never. I pray for her, and I still talk to her, but I won't finance her, if that makes sense. But, through the tears and talking to her, I thought I understood her and what she deals with until now. Seeing Cee's story has opened my eyes to my daughter's situation. To perhaps how she feels when she struggles. What makes her go back to the drugs when she's doing good and beginning to get on her feet. In your own video Mark, you mention about how people want to help your interviewees financially but there are people in our own community that are the same way. Thank you Mark for doing this interview. I pray for Cee and others like her.
Shes gonna die, cause theres no hitting the bottom now, fentanyl simply kils..
Never give up. 😢 I lost my 18 yr old daughter on Christmas eve 2011. She wasn't an addict but was in the experimental stage. Cause of death was undetermined but she was somewhere she didn't belong. What I wouldn't give to know what happened to her. 😢 love your daughter thru it all but don't finance. I'm praying for beautiful Cee Cee & your daughter.
@@blueskiesmom1323I’m so sorry for ur loss. 😔Sending my condolences 🙏🏼❤👼💫
They always find a way to support the bad habits, All we can do as parents is teach them not to use drugs I wouldn't support the habit
@@blueskiesmom1323I'm so so so sorry for your loss. My baby Gia was born into heaven this February and I have 0 answers as to why. Praying for you my friend ❤🙏 I pray to her because I know she is in heaven, she never sinned so she MUST be closer to God than I ever will be. Can't wait to be with her again.
Watching this channel has erased even the last drop of judgement I’ve ever had. Her story is heartbreaking and the smile she ends the interview with is even more heartbreaking 💔 I wish you only the best. You’re a beautiful person.
Yes, she is! When she speaks, I hear a beautiful and intelligent soul, still striving to find purpose, while going through things that would break a lot of people. Many thanks to Mark, as well, for devoting his life to this important journalistic project! I am so glad it is opening hearts and minds. People I knew, in addiction, are the most principled and compassionate people I have known, when in recovery. They often had a remarkable sensitivity before addiction, also, which caused them to suffer more from the trauma that is part of life, for so many. They have experienced more than their share of trauma, also! ❤
We’re going to need a follow up on this young lady. We’re all rooting for you, Cee!!
May you be safe!
I’m tired of rooting for these ppl. Somebody root for me.
@@sheilaboland6285 IM ROOTIMG FOR YOU, Sheila!! May you be happy!!
@@sheilaboland6285 I’m rooting for you!
@@sheilaboland6285say dat shit again bro 💯🙏🏾❗️
She has such awareness of the fact that her “brain” doesn’t want to give up the addiction. That “it’s” not ready yet. Her consciousness/soul is so aware of the fact that her body/brain is not responding to what she might want deep down inside. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression all my life leading to a life filled with rumination and negative thoughts. Doesn’t matter how many affirmations i say or how much I go to therapy, meditate, eat right or workout. Which I’ve been doing for over a decade. There is still an underlying imbalance going on. My soul has been begging to be set free from the mental turmoil since the age I was 16.. I’m now 26. It’s like being a prisoner in your own body. You have dreams and aspirations but your own mental illness holds you back. Which is exactly what Cee must be going through since it’s manifesting as an addiction for her. I pray for God to heal her brain so that she is no longer captive to the addictive thought patterns.
U literally Ave to eat and poop life not hard
this is so real
have depression in a young age is really hard, I know how it is, stay strong, love yourself and think about better days.
THIS ....
@@sadhu7191 .. Some people think to much, that is true. But it's not always that simple.
This is heartbreaking. She has so much goodness and potential in her. I don't think she needs chefs and pools in a private rehab but one decent therapist she clicks with and some basic life stability and safety. I wish her healing and a good life.
I've watched for over 3 yrs. Seen every interview. This one changed my life. What a dark world we live in. Reality check. I've watched this 4 times now...Cee it's not ur fault, you are not a bad person for trying to medicate the pain. Cancer, losing your babies,domestic violence, drug addiction, but still standing and stunningly beautiful, articulate, classy and a sweet soul. I think about your interview everyday multiple times. Thank you for the reality check. ♡♡love and light to you my sister❤😢
Man, I really have to stop complaining about my life lol. I am the same age as her and can't even imagine going through this much trauma and tragedy already. Wish you the best.
It’s all relative. Let these videos make you grateful, don’t let them dismiss your own personal problems. At least that’s what I tell myself
Looking at other people's issues and being like, well I'm not that bad!!! Shouldn't be relieving because that just leads to complacency
@@erich1380 that was a great big ol r/woooooosh for you, wasn't it?
@@naelyneurkopfen9741 no not at all
@@erich1380 Way to completely miss the point of what I was saying.....
Rock bottom is a somewhat fictitious line we apply to everyone. My father was an addict. Once he cleaned up he ran a halfway house for addicts. Once, while I was making an excuse for why my sister couldn't quit her 20 year heroin and crack addiction because she didn't have the perfect setting, he said "you can get clean behind a dumpster, if you want it you'll do it. Rock bottom for some people is death". Stuck with me.
Yep, so many weak people with so many excuses in the West …
“Rock bottom for some people is death.” Damn, if that ain’t the truth. Wise, hard words.
Hope your sister finds the way to defeat this
Hey Cee. It’s Ariel from San Rafael. I know things got kinda weird with the situation before you moved. I just want to say sorry and I’ve always admired how well you speak. You’ve always been so nice. You are smart and you know how sobriety works and how to get it when you are ready. Just keep being honest and the rooms are waiting for you when you are ready. Please try to stay safe in the meantime. ❤
Such a shame to see such a wonderful and beautiful person struggling so much. I wish her the best in her life!!!
There comes a point you get tired. Tired of being tired Being 67 i can assure you...WE DO RECOVER. I used heroin over 30 yrs. 11-20-23 I'll have 6yrs. I pray you get it soon before they find you laying somewhere on Skid row dead😢Prayers for you 💪🙏 Dig deep and see you deserve so much more.
Congratulations on your sobriety! Praying for you and wishing you lots of health
Cee- I lost my twin boys at 37 weeks pregnant for no rhyme or reason my boys stopped breathing in the womb 7 years ago and I was the same age as you, 26. Thinking about you ❤
Cee you are the chosen one to break your family curse. Your soul is strong and will only get stronger from all you’ve experienced. You can do it, I believe in you!
This gal has been through shit that would crush the average person and she's still staying with a sweetness inside. You got this! 20 years from now you will watch this and be proud. Best wishes
Ibe been through worse. Smirks
Mark hit the nail on the head when he asked if she had a self destructive streak. We can all see her potential but I don’t have a great feeling about the next few years for her…I hope I’m wrong but…crack and Fentanyl 🤷🏼♀
I’m so sorry you lost your precious babies. 😢😢 they are looking down on you always. I hope you find the love and light in yourself again, and get sober again. You are so bright and seem so kind. Be well
Cee, please surround yourself with sober people and one day at a time you can build up a new life. You're golden and have much to give. Please reach out to help that is available.
the front full on still camera reveals such a palpable tension in so many of these interviews. Its a powerful medium, and actually brings the viewer to an immense sense of compassion for those being interviewed. I hope she finds the peace she humanly deserves: I have a very good friend who has been sober for 12 years now after a decade long crack and alcohol addiction. He went to intense 6 month in house rehab and religiously went to NA meetings. He has breakthrough addictions like sugar and social media, but he has never used again. There is hope. For the light within you, never give up.
this hit way too close to home - literally. thank you for sharing your story. I believe in you
Yep..
It's always interesting to hear people's ideas of a good childhood.
A parent's provisioning of tangible necessities alone does not make a good childhood.
Emotional nurturing does.
I've seen people who, as children, lived in poverty, missed meals, homeless for a time, and they say how wonderful their childhoods were because they had solid loving parents. It's arguably the most vital necessity of all.
Losing 2 babies is a terrible traumatic event! I pray that you find peace!
This is so sad. She has resources to get her out of this situation. I hope things change for her.
Stay strong and I pray you get through this. As a father of a two year old and four year old, my wife and I give them the world like your parents did. I have bad dreams all the time of them growing up and going down the wrong path because of external forces and not anything my family can control. This world has become a cruel place to be for our children. I am only 38 but grew up in a different time with no cell phones as a kid and just a few toys.. humbling and not a lot of external forces to worry about. This world has changed so much for our children.
All I see is an intelligent woman...that could accomplish anything. I am rooting for you. You have it in you to have a wonderful, sober life. You have been through a lot and I can't relate with that or understand your pain but you have gotten back up everytime. You've got this!! ❤
Cee- You seem like a pretty cool person I hope all works out for you in life. I'm so sorry for your loss🙏🏻
Cee you are absolutely beautiful and gorgeous. I really hope that you become ready again, I have been sober for almost a year now and feel where you are coming from. You have the strength to do it. Lots of love 💗
She s absolutely gorgeous....Reminds me of the French actress Marion Cotillard....And not just beautiful but also very honest and humble. Good head on her shoulders. Nice interview!
Cee- I had a baby at 30 after losing an ovary at 19 for a non-cancerous tumor. I then went on to conceive another with less than a whole ovary due to a tumor on the other ovary years earlier. I lost that child after she lived for 10 days due to a complication in pregnancy. I now have a 15 month old baby in addition to my 8 year old. All that to say, you can definitely still conceive with one ovary and you can move on from (but never forget) the loss of a child. Stay strong
As a guy that makes my stomach hurt
Cee i totally relate to what your going through. I was heavily addicted to crack, fentanyl and meth for almost 20 years, right up until getting arrested in 2021. I never thought i could get past my addictions, and im still a work in progress, but you can definately beat this. Your still young and pretty and you are obviously really smart and creative. You just need to stay strong and survive through this chaos and eventually trust me youll get tired of doing drugs again and things will get better. Its true that if you arent ready to get sober theres no point in trying to beat sobriety into your head because it wont work. Just keep your head up and trust your instincts, they will save you in the worst situations youll face. I hope the best for you, i believe in you. Your a survivor, no doubt about that.
Thank you for your message sweetie..Cee
@@PrettyFLY4aWiFi. Awww thanks homie 👐 I really enjoyed your interview. As I said I really related to so much of what you had to say. I wish you the very best lovely Cee ☺️💗🙏
@@jungjeru3348 Thank you..out of all the comments yours caught my attention. I really dont like the way I live and this interview really got my thinking about it.
Keep up the good work!
@@christianprice9832 The work has just started but thank you :)
This interview touched me in a way your others haven’t. I hope she gets help. Thank you Mark for the awareness.
She is an intelligent and articulate person. She will eventually figure it out and get the demons off of her back. She is not even close to completely broken or gone yet. Good luck girl and please turn your back on this lifestyle.
She needs to get clean NOW. If she doesn't she'll be selling her who-ha on the streets.
Ahhh I feel for this girl. She was hurting so bad for her twins that she didn’t wanna feel that hurt anymore.
I hope she is doing better. ❤️
Wow her story touched my heart.. "I thought I hit rock bottom, then theres a trap door" Powerful words...
Thank you for your thoughtful and honest interview, Cee. I’m soo deeply sorry for the loss of your children and I hope the future offers hope for you. Many blessings
O. M. G. 2 minutes in and this poor woman has grabbed my heart 😢. To have that much personal loss and devastation in a lifetime is crazy, but before the age of 25 is unimaginable. My heart absolutely goes out to her.
I’m so emotional watching her. She’s so beautiful inside and out and super intelligent with so much insight. She’s been through sooooo much and like she says she keeps getting back up. I hope she gets through this and gets everything she wants and needs in life. She’ll be a beautiful strong mother one day and she’ll keep away from the stuff because of her children. She’ll show them what you can do with your life when you have such a kind strong heart and soul.
She’ll also make a brilliant drug therapist she has so much integrity and empathy. And what insight !! I’m 51 and still don’t have half the insight she has. She’s a beautiful soul. Good luck strong lady you’ll be great x
Mark: if you could do something with your life what would it be?
Cee: i want to help people.
Me: your story is helping and touching more people than you could ever know! I lost my brother 4 months ago, the pain of losing him is unreal. I never judged him, in fact I loved him more no matter what he was doing. Hearing your story gives me a glimpse of what he may have went through. Im rooting for you cee! Your strong, smart and brave girl... you can do this and as a human being i love you and thank you for sharing and saving a life or two!
You have to do a follow up with her 6 months from now, I hope her life gets better, bless her.
It’s sad that she said she didn’t have trauma in life and then glazed over her losing her children bc of an an abusive relationship. She moved on so fast from that and didn’t return to that pain. Until she is ready to heal from that immense loss she won’t be able to stay sober.
Mark, this brings me back to 1990 when my wife and I lost twins....please pass on to Cee, she will emerge, and can get sober and stay clean. The trauma of losing a child, or God forbid, twins, is underappreciated by most, and leaves deep scars which must be faced. But Cee, you are strong and so beautiful inside, I see that you have the strength to get there. Please keep trying and don't give up. You WILL be ready on your own time, but look for a mentor and support network. You have a gift in knowing Mark and having parents who love you.
Wait! Did she say that she robs people in the same conversation where she says that she wants to help people?
I think so
Ya she did. But she separates them in her mind. I think it would be better put, maybe, that she wants to be in a position where she can help people, instead of being in "need" . I don't excuse her behavior, but I think I get this aspect.
What a fighter. You’re stronger than me, Cee. Keep getting back up. Wishing you the absolute best
You are only in your 20s.. give it time and the lifestyle will wear you down
I feel like im watching myself in this interview. The way i can relate to her in grave detail is horrific yet comforting to know someone understands some of the same things I've been through even though i dont know her at all. This has definitely been my favorite person youve interviewed by far. I hope she finds herself again because time passes by so quick when you are in active addiction and before you know it you dont know the person staring back at you in the mirror anymore.
Mental obsession. So real. I def had the physical issues with my d.o.c but it still is the thoughts and mental that gets us. Sending you healing. You got this!
I had a hysterectomy when I was young because of cancer. The year before, I lost my sister, my only sibling and best friend. If I was grieving so much from the loss of my sister, the cancer probably would have really sunk in. Our choice in coping mechanisms is why we have different outcomes.
Can you elaborate on what you mean specifically about coping mechanism s with different outcomes?
What do u mean? Do you think your cancer was worse because you were grieving or it wasn’t as bad because you were grieving? Just curious.. and I’m sorry for the loss of ur sister ❤
@@BIGLON-cf1ulone of my coping mechanisms is smoking-I smoke when I’m happy, sad, mad, after I eat, when I wake up etc. It causes shortness of breath and I’m highly aware that it will kill me. Yet I continue to impulsively smoke.
A healthy coping mechanism I use is meditation.. it causes me to be more aware, calm and content. It also makes my future self happier.
Healthy coping skills lead to a healthy life
@@TaShaBeNz85 I've always been skeptical of meditation, but maybe I should try it.does it really help? honestly? Tell me the truth!
@@BIGLON-cf1uloh absolutely. Meditation saved my life and really even helped with physical stuff I was well down the multiple surgery route with
Poor lady, she seems so wonderful. She didn't have a difficult childhood but then had an absolute horrible run of bad luck in her early adulthood. The poor thing.
Hopefully she doesnt rob you
Young woemen need strong fathers to chose their partners, otherwise this continually happens. Nice job, feminism …
@ma3stro681 great job blaming the victim not the abuser. Typical braindead RUclipsr
What a intelligent, beautiful young woman.
I believe with all my heart that she can do this.
Wishing you forever the best❤.
You are in my prayers.
Im watching these perfect timing every morning at 6 am
That means Mark is posting them at 3am!
Same!
Ok
yup! right before work
@@lpe655they’re set for auto uploading at 3 AM pacific time
I resonated with her talking the way she talked about the type of addiction for her with crack. I haven’t done crack or any other hard drugs but something about the way she described how the difference between physical addiction and mental where the thoughts keep coming back, and it being so hard to deal with that, spoke to me. For me it’s like that with mental health, depression anxiety, and now even addictions to things like eating, porn, or gaming. I feel like I used to be a lot stronger mentally, but since the pandemic my will and discipline just isn’t there like it used to be. Thoughts, compulsions and feelings will overrun me.
Imo, everyone who doesn’t understand addiction should see this video. It so effectively dispels many of the assumptions and judgements that people tend to have.
It says uploaded four minutes ago. Thank you mark for uploading even though RUclips makes it hard
He uploads at the same time every day. The man never sleeps!!!lol!!!!
oh wow.. i keep seeing so many people that i was in treatment with just a few years ago in socal. last time i saw cee she had just celebrated a year clean.. praying for her 💗
That smile at the end though. It felt like all her potential, her greatness & her innocence came through the screen in those last seconds of the interview and slapped me in the face. What she lost with her babies is heartbreaking and I can't imagine the pain she must feel inside but then Her smile came through all that darkness of her past and for those seconds every bit of hope for the bright future she/we all deserve was right there waiting for her to run with it. I am also a struggling addict and many of these interviews I have no ability to relate to, this one was different for me. I really hope she can rise from this low and live a happy life in whatever way she will be the most content. Cee, whatever you do - don't stop smiling.
For someone addicted to crack she looks remarkably well, taking good care of herself as well.
Yes, she seemed to indicate the crack habit is newer, so this is scary sad.
I didnt start using drugs until "later in life" either. I also lost a child (not as late in the pregnancy as yours and just 1 child not 2). The only thing that has kept me from using that hardcore stuff was my 3 other kids at home that literally have no one if they don't have me. My past use never led to any addiction but it came damn close. Sending lots of ❤ to you girl!
I hope you get clean Cee, you got so much light in you. You’re self aware. All the things that can you out of where your at. I hope you do! Hugs. ❤
When asked if she could live her life over again, would she have done anything differently, she replied NO. Evidently she hasn't learned from her mistakes.
Strange - why would anyone want to lose their babies again? Perhaps avoid conceiving them?
She will look 40 within 3 years if she doesn’t overdose. Sad
Cee I'm so sorry for your loss. You can do this I promise especially because your family is there for you my familynever gave up on me and I'll never understand why but I'm so grateful they didn't and after ayear Ithink they thought I'd relapse cause that was my mo detox tx relapse but.you definitely have to be ready I'm 53 years old and just got clean at 50 and if I could do it all over again I would have done it years ago. Your so young love and have your whole life ahead of you. I believe in you your prettyvery well spoken and it's so true you never know what someone else is going through so be kind and nice cause you dk what a person is going through and honestly it's so much easier to be kind and nice being mean and nasty takes up too much energy. I'm praying 🙏 for you to go through rehab and get your life together ❤. Great interview as always
Such a helpless feeling for all when someone is hell-bent on self destruction. Cee is just going to have to go through it and hope she’s still alive in the end.
Omg she has been through so much 😭 god bless you 🙏🤞❤️ hope you can find the strength to turn your life around ❤❤❤❤ please get sober settle down and work for the future 🙏 🙏🙏🙏
Its hard to pick interviews now because i dont choose based on title but on the way they speak. Shes so smart i hope she gets out and helps others with her experience shes definitely here for a reason. Praying for your safety Cee! ❤😊
Same ! 🎉😮
I used to hang out with her. She was in my school
Cee, I lost my daughter at birth…it was the most traumatizing. I drank myself to sleep everyday, worked out 3 hours a day everyday because I couldn’t shut my brain down. Please get sober, you are not only smart and beautiful but capable and still so young! Do not give those streets another year of your life please. I am now in a wonderful relationship with a two year old beautiful son, and I thought my life was over, please don’t give up…if you ever read this know that you will never forget what happens to you but you can and will heal. I hope you’ve made the right decision
Mental obsession with drugs can be a huge problem
I see her somewhere in the future. And she's doing a helluva lot better than she's doing right now. She's gonna win!
I know I see that too! Not many people on here have it but I just know this girl has got the potential of healing herself.
I know her. We were friends. My heart is broken. I am from NJ. I know she got sober and moved to Cali. But didn’t know she’s using again on skid row until this video. Idk so sad. And she is still posting on Facebook.
Cee reminds me of my cousin and my niece. They were Cee's age, basically good families that loved them, although not without trauma, but they "tried" desperately to get them help but they weren't ready. And the families had to sadly accept that. They were surviving any way they could but the day came and they were gone. Here one day, gone the next. We still grieve the loss of those beautiful young women who had so much life and vibrancy in them when they were kids. It was heartbreaking to watch. Cee's vibrancy is still there even though her heart grieves. I hope Cee's will get ready soon.
Common misconception "this is no withdrawal from crack". The withdrawal is there but it happens really fast and it's why people start to shake and need more as they come down. My drug abuse counselors told me there was no withdrawal, which is why I decided to start using it. Boy were they wrong
When she said she robs people who is she robbing? I like her interview. I feel very bad for her but I can't get over the fact that she said that she robs people. And then she made the statement that people put their purses away when she walks by. I really hope that she uses her insurance while she's still has it and get some help. She seems like a really smart person. She's really pretty so she's probably going to be a target down there.
I truly hope she uses that insurance also to try and get some help.
Shes been through alot yes. Tbh alot of us have had horrible life experiences!! I get y she numbing herself. Thankfully she has a partner hopefully he is her security.
Cee……I wish you loved yourself as much as we all love you. You are so amazingly beautiful (those eyes!), intelligent, well spoken and aware. Losing your babies the way you did was not fair and very tragic. I can tell you have what it takes to dig deep down and pull yourself out of this! If you find a good therapist to help you through your traumas and who can give you some tools to help you love yourself again, and a comfortable rehab program that you vibe with, it would really help you become the ‘you’ that you are gifted to be. You are here for a reason. You can really offer people a lot of wisdom. I can totally see you becoming a substance abuse counselor one day…..and a very good one. You are kind and compassionate and you genuinely care about people. I believe in you. And I know many others that watch this interview believe in you too. I want to see a follow up soon. I want to see the real Cee…..living her best life and helping others live theirs. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽. I KNOW you can do this. Hugs.
Mark almost got 5m subscribers, congrats. You've got the attention of millions of people across the world, youre doing something right.
Cee I know how hard it can be, my 12month old son died Dec.23.2020 I lost myself in San Francisco as well ended up in jail and eventually the sutter home for a suicide attempt. I will pray for you. Im currently 27 yr old I’m not 100% sober I drink occasionally but no longer drinking or doing drugs to black out or die so baby steps for me.. I’m so grateful for my family and my daughter who I had last year. It hurts bad going to bereavement groups helped me a lot I hope you can find a support group ❤
I'm so sorry you lost your baby boy. I wish only blessings for your future.
@@crazycatladyjo2688 thank you
What an intelligent, authentic, real woman. I think this girl has charisma and could seriously go places if she got clean! Wishing you the best.
The fact is that the struggle is with our demon inside... 😢
This young woman has been through a lot. You can see how A causes B etc. But she’s also really insightful and says some damn smart things. She has a lot of potential and I love her honesty. She’s got a lot more integrity than most sober people
Wow. Same exact age. 26 in October. Suffering in my addiction but not as grateful as I should be for my life. I wish the very very best for you, cee. ❤️
This didn't start with the babies. It started with Cee's parents who were emotionally unavailable. It is one thing, to go through such tragedy. It's another to go through it all by yourself. The love and support a mother could give was not there and rather available in drugs. I'm so sorry Cee. You deserve so much better. You are a wonderful soul. I hope so much things will change in and for you ❤
I agree. People tend to look at finances only and call someone privileged but all kinds of neglect and abuse happen for years behind the wealthy doors too and it can probably terrorize someone more than if they were in a financially modest but caring home. ❤️🩹
Fentanyl is a hard drug to get off of. I got off, but got on Subutex now I have a fatty liver. He said it’s probably because of the pills.
THANK YOU MARK FOR ALL THESE GREAT INTERVIEWS WITH REAL PEOPLE,,NO 1 IS PERFECT. N THERE COMES A TIME WHEN YOU WILL GET TIRED OF ALL THE BS...waking up sick...i can say methadone saved my life 15 yrs ago,,im still on the methadone but i m clean.
Ps. I will agree with her about the brain wanting crack. I used that also way b4 i started the H,,
I really love to show your videos with my 96 yrold grandmom
Would love to experience your grandma's reactions to these videos. It's nice you can share these together.
@windwhisprz yeah shes quite a good women she isnt surprised but i am surprised,,in how she grew up. When i was born she was the age i am now. I hope i can say ive only lived half my life...but she was a little hustler back in the day...crazy what i know now she had never even wanteda french kiss til she married my Gpop.
I would like to take her on Marks interview...recovering granddaughter , n thr 96 yr old hustler b4 children came...would love it.
@@Caretakerh that would be a great interview, you should look into it.
@@Caretakerh congrats on your recovery!
What an AMAZING AMAZING Woman.. you are strong… you are capable.. you can do this, i’m sending you hills strength girl ❤🙏🌟💫
Cee- I'm so sorry about your losses. Please don't undermine your trauma 😞. I just wanted to say that I can relate with you(on many fronts)& in that I would let my emotions take over and drive me.. meditation and yoga is saving my life. I just wanted to gently put that out there... I'm learning to observe rather than react. We are all here just trying to get by.. calm the"citta-vritti" or chatter in the mind. I wish you well ❤️💕🙏safety and sobriety. You seem(to me)to want it. Even tho you're speaking something different- I feel the opposite 💯. Go for it you got it
How quick she said no she wouldn’t have done things differently. She truly is so far from being ready 🫤
I appreciate this video so much coming on my feed this particular moment in my life. She’s pretty insightful and self aware. I’m having a range of emotions and thoughts that are overwhelming me but I hope her the best. I feel inspired by her and have a better understanding of myself
There is an underlying theme in Mark’s videos, the negative effects of childhood trauma. Terrible things happen to minors and they pay a huge price.
This new gen is screwed, zero morals in homes or very lil from past gens
@@losbrooklyn8861Single mother generation …
My prayers go to you today Cece. This young woman most certainly didn’t receive the emotional support she needed in her younger life. The systems that we trust that look good on the surface are responsible for this horror. American culture is disconnected from the things that are most important, good healthy food, strong compassionate family systems, a thriving local economy, cultural celebrations based on the land under our feet. Too many people these days so deeply misguided and fried by economic instability.
So much bad has come from the USA - global warfare, feminism, social media, celebrity worship, corporate greed, gun culture, drug epidemics, Hollyweird etc etc. It’s now all karmically coming home to roost …
I can relate to her addiction Problem a lot. You’re fine and all and suddenly it comes Into your head and you just have to get high, almost impossible saying no then.
Im rooting for her she’s so self reflective and I hope to see an update ❤
I like her…very intelligent with so much to give. I hope you find what it is you’re looking for, Cee. Sending love
I went to High school with this girl in NJ wtf this is surreal
What's up with Indirectmishap? Story behind that title/name?
I dated her for awhile in highschool. She used to be a dime piece. I hate seeing her like this
@@Last_Chance. O-dawg? that you? Or Trees?
What does surreal mean? Was she already using when she was in high school? Or how well did you know her when you went to high School with her?
@@BIGLON-cf1ul Its surreal because i talked to her often in high school. She was valedictorian of the class above me. She didn’t use drugs in high school. It was a alternative school called Holmstead. I have her on my social medias. And i never thought shed end up on skid row. thats why its surreal (also being interviewed by SWU)
Your family must be heart broken and devastated. I hope you get the help you need. Mark has posted videos of people who have used for years and their deterioration is horrendous. Hope you find your way before it's too late.
I second that we need a follow up on this young lady, Cee, wow that interview really hit me, I hope you find peace and safety. It took me over 20 years and a brain injury but my God I am so so soooooooooooooooooo thrilled to be clean & sober over 3 years now through the Grace of God go I. I wish you the best Cee.🤗🙏
ur too good for this girl!! sendng u strength and hoping for ur safety out there. u r seen all the way in australia xx
Thank you for the interview Cee and SWU
It's interesting that she mentions that as being homeless that you can't hide. I was homeless for a while. Everyone see's you. People who never looked at me when I had a job and money in my pocket looked at me. Everyone is always weary of you and everyone has come to some negative judgement about you inside their head, even if they know absolutely nothing about your situation. It's a very uncomfortable feeling to know that you are always being judged just for existing to the best of your ability. None of my friends (who knew me before it happened and knew that I always worked and took care of myself and knew that it wasn't my fault that I was homeless) ever looked at me the same again. When I got back on my feet they never came by to hang out with me ever again. It ruined me socially. I've been an anti social shut in ever since. I have no trust in people. I learned that your value to others is somehow based on monetary standing, even if they don't stand to make any money from you. Once you lose that status, you can't recover in their eyes. You've been written off. It's truly disturbing how we view homeless people. The mental effect of being treated that way has long lasting effects. I'm still trying to sort it out for myself.