Most have it wrong. This is about someone on their high horse acting as if they've never wronged people in their lives they've never accounted for. Specifically their partners and they recall their nasty thoughts and behaviors as others fault to keep their angelic image.
@@the1andonlypop Actually, ya..but no. The song was written after a close "friend" to the band, or specific members passed due to losing their personal battle with addiction. The "point" being made, and more that well done, is how sometimes those that reform, or get "clean" tend to be self righteous and condecending. (sp?) This hit some nerves with Maynard.. hence making amends, and "recalling demons as if they are someone elses etrociousness" (sp?)... I can relate as my ex husband was an addict/alcoholic. He did choose to get "sober" after I finally was fed up..however hes def. a "dry drunk" in accordance with Alwanon, which is why this resonates with my soul.. he made ammends to every single person but me..and then hated me b/c I left him
@@nataliehanna5639 he never made amends to himself. I'm struggling with it myself. I'd think he cant forget/forgive. But I'm sure you know that. Shit is hard as hell.
Three years after my divorce, my ex-wife murdered a man. It was a couple of years before this song came out. I visited her once. She looked well. But I knew then, that the surface was an illusion. She did 15 years for voluntary manslaughter. She was released in 2016 and lives alone. She once came to me attempting to bridge the gap of our past. I took her out for karaoke. I sang this song as if it were mine. I paid our tab and walked out the door. Leaving her with her charm. I've seen her a few times since and am happy to say that she got the message. Thanks Maynard.
This song is just simply amazing. It reminds me so much of my addiction and recovery. The message I get is don't place yourself on a "pink cloud." I am not better than anybody else. Remember who you once were and never forget. No-one will ever be fully recovered, so don't act like you are. I am 31 days clean and I am just as vulnerable to pick up as someone with 3 years clean. Stick to your family and to the people you can trust. One step, one day at a time, we can all get better.
So it's been 11 years since this comment was placed I see at this point in my life after losing my birth father from heroin and now the man that adopted me at 5 years of age and raised me till now 36 at the time of this comment he is in Orlando hospital having a triple bypass heart surgery I never needed this comment more now than I ever did back then I am an alcoholic and my family and God is all I got and as a rigorous honest man I haven't been able to stop drinking daily please pray for me and my father as I'm not ready to loose him God bless the person who wrote this comment 11 years ago it was needed #7:30amsomewhereinflorida
@js767458 it's been eleven years. I think I speak for anyone who saw this comment, especially those who read it right when they most needed to (which, of course, is more often than can be written off as coincidence): how are you doing nowadays? how has this last decade been for you? not gonna lie, it's been pretty rough for a lot of us out here especially since the fentanyl hit. you left that comment at a real vulnerable time, just a hair over a month sober. I hope things worked out. and by that I don’t mean I hope you stayed sober, not at all. I hope you're healthy - both mentally and physically. I hope you're comfortable and you don’t have to worry about what you're gonna eat or where you'll sleep. I hope all the people that matter to you, friends and family, are in your life. I hope you never had to deal with the out of control justice system (I guess assuming youre american). I just hope you're doing ok, and the only thing I care about regarding the substances you use is whether you do your best to minimize the potential harm - physically, mentally, and socially - other than that it's nobody's business but your own and I hope you remember that
words. his halo is the absence of knowledge concerning(what damage they might have- TOOL.. ) .His words being self destructive for reasons he will come to know wernt known only to him if his "halo" does end up coming down. it's a song to provoke a murder to adopting a identifying characteristic.or not . you all desire.
It's about people who have overcome an addiction and acted as if they were saints afterwards. As though the person they were was a completely different entity. Its basically saying "I'm glad you're better, but you still did things that can't be forgiven. Don't act superior, that's bullshit."
it reminds me of the some of the old timers I see in NA that treat white chippers like dirt. they pretend they have there shit so together and nothing can touch them. oh, how the mighty will fall...
***** wrong. The entire album is about addiction. Thats why its called the thirteenth step. See the connection now? I mean why would he be asking his paralyzed mother how shes going to make ammends to the dead? I feel you may hsve jumped the gun on this one friend
you are right about the song judith being about his mother, however this song is not about his mother even in the slightest way. maynard has said it himself that this song is about people who beat an addiction and think that it somehow makes them superior or just a better version of themselves and think the past has no sway upon their future. if you knew of maynard's work and how he expresses himself you would know that a song about his mother wouldn't have such a sad feeling to it. and furthermore, this song sounds sad because he actually feels sad for the people this song pertains to, he pities their ignorance the same way i pity yours.
This song gives me chills whenever I hear it. My uncle who served said that when he was in Iraq, this song was playing in the chopper as him and his team touched down into a combat zone. He took lead for his country and lived to tell me the tale. He's my hero and this song makes me think of him. He brought me here.
+wjye I'm sorry, but I'm sure that Maynard would be angry of reading this. In fact, I think soldiers fit perfectly: "How you're planning to go about making your amends to the dead?" You should listen to Emotive album.
+wjye sorry to say this, but your uncle took lead for the Corporate Fascist States of America. There were no national interests that were defended in Iraq, it was a pure crusade taken on false pretext (the massive lie about Sadam's WMD).
Thank your uncle for me for servicing this country. It is so sad reading these hateful comments. Men and woman putting their lives on the line for ignorant comments and hatred.
I sure hope no one you love serves this country in the military. Because if you said that to their face I am sure they would have some choice words for you.
this song is just so perfect in every way shape and form. his relaxing voice, the gentle beats, and the message of the song just fit so perfectly together
I can’t believe that this point in my life when all is completely lost, I now find a song worth the time to listen to and make me just slightly want the need to live
Love it. Kinda like "measure twice, cut once". I also like the saying, "God gave us two ears & one mouth. So we ought to listen twice as much as we speak". :) And finally, your comment reminded me of the *best* one, imho.. "Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." ~ Lao Tzu
I like the part where he sings "I'm more than just a little curious how are you plan on making you're amends to the Dead". That line gets to me cuz week by week I sit around a table of recoving addicts who have there halo over there heads, with there 10+ years of sobriety. then we get someone new in and there is no acceptance for the new person. so then when that new person goes out a relapse and they die, I asked myself how did they go about making their amends? this kid came to us for help and very few made time to help. Why be a part of something that stands for nothing anymore. We all need to stand for something.
Maybe someone needs to remind them that once upon a time they were in that spot too. Memories fade over time and I am sure they want to forget. A little reminder couldn't hurt.
Real fukn shit right there! Just messed up. People get clean and look down on the ones that aren't. I tried to help once I got clean i got 3 friends clean. 3 friends that didn't die
This is about a friend of Maynards who came out of rehab and said that people get self richeous after rehab, and they shouldn't let their halo fall around their neck and choke them. That's what he said on a dvd a while ago.
I relate to this song every time I read the lyrics. I was a horrible addict & would steal money from my aunt & she thought she was losing her mind. One day she confronted me & as all addicts I denied stealing it. The night before she died she told me “I was killing her w/ my behavior & addiction & when she dies everyone would know the reason why she died”. I’ve been sober ten years, I attend church every week, I believe in walking in the footsteps of Jesus but will I be truly saved when I die? I loved this woman & have so much regret to this day. This song always makes me think of my Auntie Jo. Sometimes people aren’t acknowledged for their miracles & this woman should be a saint. Because I’m a different person now.
That was a shitty thing for her to say, that was guilt-trip to the max, I could never love someone like that... sorry.. but thats sick to say that to someone.
I was there too bro. I'll tell you what you can do. There are other addicts just like us and there out there right now. They don't think anyone will ever come for them. They feel like no one will ever love them. But both you and I, and others like us, know this pain. And even though we can't resurrect the dead, maybe we can prevent others from dying. It's hard work because you have to show them infinite patience. But it will give your life purpose and meaning. I'm 42 years old and I've been sober for 11 years now. You and I share this pain in our hearts. That makes us brothers. And it makes you someone who knows perfectly what people like us need. Peace, love, and prosperity to you and your loved ones.
Same! I was an addict for 15 yrs. Did everything I could to get my next fix. My nanny (she raised me from birth) died right in front of me heart failure. Her 1 dying plea for me was to get clean because she knew once she was gone I'd literally spiral out of control worse than I already was. That was in 2013 and for about 4 months after she died I did spiral out big time. The guilt ate me up. But I've been clean since, I just wish she could've seen it.. so I completely understand!!
love seeing how others are seeing the song in their minds so many people argue about the meaning of songs and they can mean a lot of different things to different people
This song is amazing. Very deep, depressing lyrics. I tend to stick to music that wont make me feel down in the dumps, but I cant help but listen to this masterpiece every now and then.
This is why I love his songs. His songs have deep meaning both in Tool and A Perfect Circle. People can relate to his songs. And he has kickass vocals. ;)
Billy Howerdel writes the lyrics as well as the sick guitar tracks... He is the one that is to thank for the magnificent lyrics on Mer De Noms and 13th Step.... Check out his other band Ashes Divide. He gets overshadowed by Maynard. But he has ten times the talent.... And to Scott Sargent. Puscifer is a joke. A big joke on all of the useful idiots. They probably make those mindless records in a week, or less.
This guy has such a insight on things. I had nine years clean in NA and been through the steps. Perception is different for people but this song speaks to me about recovery. I can never undo what I have done but try to make amends and not do it again. I'll never be perfect and the only time I should look down on someone is to lift them up. My Halo slippen down.
I kno right, I find from tool to perfect circle to Puscifer( all bands where Maynard wrote n sung the songs) it always translates to my soul! And even the same song will translate different ways at times. He has always been on a whole nother level of epicness since day one! ;)
+Dark Mythos This song was played at my best friends funeral this past Nov, he died of an OD =( When the song started playing, part of me died as well. This song has many meanings for many people, for me the loss of a friend from addiction.
+The B Mo I'm so sorry for your loss😔 really I am...I can really relate to that because I'm a recovering addict and my best friend and love, is an addict that still can't get his shit straight. My heart goes out to you and your friend. I think I would be a mess of a crying wreck if I heard this song at a funeral.esp one with the circumstances of your best friend. But it's good to let those cries out. Many peaceful positive vibes to you and i really do think people who pass away, are in a much better place. Don't have any idea what n If any songs will be played at my funeral,lol but anything Maynard is a good choice ;)
Jennacide Jinx Thank you Very Much doll, your kind words mean more than you know. I wish You & Yours nothing but the best! And much Respect to you for your recovery, i know its hard. Even worse if you have to see it. Ive been there. So i feel you it takes a lot of will power ! So sending You Positive Energy in the battle for your Love. Love is Worth it & Love Heals all. Much Love =) Mo
The number of times Maynard has brought me to tears is ridiculous. Every once in a while I get something of his in my head and I have to go play the song before it will leave... but first, first I have to hear the song and remember the words. If I'm not crying for myself, I'll cry for someone else. Never fails.
I just love the "more than just a little curious" flow in this song. Not sure if that's the right word, or how to describe it- it's just so smooth. Beautiful!
Guilt and regret leads to stress, which eventually leads to cancer.. Rise to a higher plane than the one you were on when you committed the action which caused you to regret. #surfsup
I had it on repeat while i got my shit together...Got me through a lot really. I do my best to share APC with friends/family and especially those who are struggling with addiction
Maynard will tell you, his songs have meaning for everyone. Just because the words he wrote meant something to him, it will mean something else to someone else. I can appreciate people trying to figure out what Maynard was getting at, but I find those who find their own meaning, not only in Maynard's words, but any music, extremely more admirable.
Whatever song you listen too, & love. The meaning of the song is what you feel the song is about in whatever way it touches you. It doesn't have to be bad or good. If it touches your soul then that's what it's about. It's art.
This song is so beautiful, it's almost as if the words become weightless, unintentional, and I enjoy not the syllables, but the sounds, each intwining and blending flawlessly.
Music is subjective. Albeit IMO, THIS is just one example of the pulls of the voices and the melodies, and the each and every other thing necessary to say that what you are listening to, IS in fact, a work of breathtaking awe; wonder and artistic mastery - Vocally and harmonically.
We all have that significant other who was just so evil & then claimed to be reborn! But we know the truth evil evil evil evil I love the overlaying lyrics at the end
Every time, Every single time I listen to one APC's songs, I feel the strange need to jump off of a high cliff at night and just fall. I love Maynard, he is a lyrical genius and has the voice of a thousand angels. Thanks Maynard for your Music.
I have such mixed feelings towards this song and this narrative. I love and hate it and find it both honest and harmful. I love how unique the perspective is and at the same time it breaks my heart. I don’t know who I relate with more: the addict who knows they were wrong and wants to move on or the family member/friend/significant other who can’t forget what they did. I think it’s a beautifully written and heartbreaking part of a complex situation.
Wow. You wrote the words I have been having difficulty expressing. I am the person who won't forgive the addict...ever. I have my reasons, please don't judge. I appreciate your words✌️
I felt the same way before my own experiences with addiction and recovery gave me a new interpretation - the one who needs forgiveness is the same as the one who can’t give it, this is an introspection
first time listening to a perfect circle & all i can say is wow. im 18, shipping out to the army in a few months & just had my heart broken. listening to sad music while being sad makes you happy for some odd reason. even tho this is about addiction (i think) i can definitely feel this in my soul
my ex who cheated on me and wanted me to come so he could make me dinner and give me flowers to apologize, and I told him I heard a song that reminded me of him by perfect circle. And he said what's it about and I said its about a halo. And he thought I meant it in a good way, and when I left I sent this song to him! Seriously a great moment!
Listening to this song 6 years after I got clean is quite surreal. My ex played this to me when I was still using and now here I am.. and the lyrics are rather accurate .. Stay safe x
You need to give yourself credit for something you overcame. If you attribute your victory to God, then what will happen if for some reason you lose faith in Him? You stopped the substance abuse, no one did it for you.
A friend on Facebook shared this on her feed. I'm so glad she did. I have been looking for an artist such as this. I love the melancholy feeling this song conveys.
Love Maynards eargasmic voice for 23yrs now someday my husband and I shall meet him we have grown old listening to that voice creating life to that voice
+Dolls4infinity I'm here coz our Radio Jockey (RJ Arunima) has awesome music taste. (Radio Foorti, Dhaka, Bangladesh time 2pm-5pm everyday) you can hear her using "Radio Foorti" app on iOS or Android Play Store
One of my favorite songs of all time...after reading everyone's comments, some are confused...this song is about recovering and congratulating the person for being reborn. However, just because you went through hell to recover, doesn't mean you are stronger than anyone now!!! You have to return the favor that you did recover and able to continue living again, but now how are you going to spend your time helping others instead of wasting it on doing whatever you want and stepping right over everyone to get to where YOU just want to be!!!! I went through 10 years of recovery and worked my way to now be a SA and MH counselor, but I will never quit thanking everyone who helped me get to where I am and now I am going to help others get through recovery as well since I understand what others are going through....however, it doesn't matter how much you pay me, because I am doing it for THEM, not me!!!! 12 steps of recovery, 13th step is to help others and not kick others aside to do anything I want!!!
This is a powerful song but really it's telling you theres no hope! We humans have CHOICE as in FREE WILL there is a reason music like this resonates with us we don't know about morality.We access these dark relms of our psychology and come to no conclusion. All im saying is choose life!
I Climbed a 100ft radio tower without any equipment to this song.. I got down took the headphones out and started shaking rapidly. Put 'em back in and I was fine. Thank You awesome music
Correction to lyrics of the first verse for those of poor ears: So glad to see you have Overcome them Completely silent now With heaven's help You've cast your demons out
everything has its time man. I loved that song once. Depends what your life has been like. If i hadnt been fucked over (not literally :P) then i might have stayed with micheal jackson
Jackson McCutcheon ROFLMFAO! after growing up listening to stuff like 10 years and Killswitch Engage, my ex girlfriend made me listen to Candyland by BOTDF. I immediately ran and listen to either this or Never Regret by Here Comes The Kraken. i dont remember but either way i know what u mean ;PPPP
You wanna hear something awesome? The way that serene, hollow "peace of mind" riff ends the song with a barely-noticeable little slide down the neck that beautifully disappears into the panicked reality of the next track, "Blue"
I was clean for 14 years and relapsed in 2010. I've been struggling since then matter of fact I'm on my 4th day locked in a hotel room now. This music is all I have.
omar ramirez I’m in the exact same boat brother, only not having the 10 years clear, only 9 months for me. I can’t go out and look at the world. I swear I’m trapped in dope houses and motel rooms for eternity
My sister showed me this song and at first I was a bit creeped out and not really interested, but I listened to it a few more times and now I'm obsessed with the song xD it's so melancholy yet.....wonderful :3 I sing to it like crazy~!
I loved this song 20 years ago, I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and it means even more now. Probably not what the songs meant to be but it's how it speaks to me.
Pandora brought it to me on my system of the down channel. So i'm grateful to fate and programs for sharing.Glad to reconnect with Perfect Circle through your post. Thanks. Adios
You're mildly correct. It's about anyone who has overcome their addictions, but no matter what they've done they can never change the hardships and pain they caused themselves and others.
Got me weak 🥲 I used to listen to this album all the time as a child, during addiction and now. How is it a song I've heard a million times still makes me weak? Maynard has a way with everything I swear
Same actually, a guy I've been dating recently has amazing taste in music and has introduced me to this band and bunch of others. I'm so glad to have him and now this music in my life.
when I first began listening to this album trying to analyze and understand the lyrics I wondered who might be at the receiving end of such a scathing song. whether it's a real person and what they might think about being so perfectly morally indicted for their sanctimonious attitude. years later, after going through a difficult recovery from several years of heroin addiction I listened to these songs again and I knew this one was written about himself.
All of your comments are correct for the most part. The underlying condition of the subject of the track could be any number of issues that many of us have been victim to, or even more sadly...the perpetrators thereof. Long live orchestral metal.
My dad loves a perfect circle and this was playing in his truck yesterday as we were going home and I had forgot about this song, because I used to really like it when I was about 9, so I decided to listen to it today. I think I'm hooked 😂
I don't wanna sound like a dick but women aren't the only ppl who suffer from depression and anxiety and certain addictions And yes I am aware this song is about life after addiction Truly a beautiful song
it was a speech he heard to recovering addicts. it was to acknowledge their achievement for overcoming addiction, and they should be proud. But dont let this victory make you forget about all the pain you caused to yourself and, more importantly, others
Ah, been years since I listened to this song. Crazy that when I heard "noose" while I was playing a video game I suddenly remembered a song, typed in "the noose" and here I am. Brings back memories.
It's crazy letting the lyrics sink in as an adult . I used to sing along as a clueless child . Who would've known I would have grown up to be an addict in recovery who now needs to make my amends to the dead.
***** I never got interviewed for that. I'm sure you never took a poll either. Nor has turtle person. Just pointing out that statistics like that are always false, because they test only certain people on earth. not everyone takes part. I've never believed internet statistics because of that. Just my opinion bro, take care.
+Keith Emery 1. You can be depressive without attempting suicide 2. statistics show more girls attempt suicide but comparatively more guys are actually succesful (i.e. they genuinely want to die rather than using it as a cry for help)
I am also an addict in and out of recovery and this is a song I always felt deeply. I never thought before of the meaning - reading the comments now it’s funny that it resonated with me
Clean 5 1/2 years off heroin and I think he's singing this about me lmao. I don't act superior but I'm just a totally different person now and want nothing to do with my past self. I generally keep my past a secret and only tell close people about it. Grateful for the strength and wisdom my past self gave me fucking things up so bad though.
I am currently battling that Monkey on my back. Gets a little easier each day. You’re right, I feel like he’s singing to me. Congrats on all that you’ve accomplished. It’s not easy.
@@jessical578 Its actually weird I don't even think about it much anymore. It's like a past life. That me is dead. Thank you so much I am proud that I survived what would've killed most.
This song can also mean that a person done another person wrong in life and they made them feel dead inside. Something that can never be repaired. And yet the one who caused harm or hate walks around like they never done anything wrong.
I thank the person who made this..i sometimes forget that the video was done by a person..you created something using ur feelings and had Maynard s words..you should appreciate the gift you have..
Definitely one of the most powerful songs ever written. Lyrics, Maynard's delivery, the instrumentals. EVERYTHING about this song is perfection 💜
It speaks my life AND possibly death!
Totally agree
Awesome song definitely. Powerful. But I disagree.
Why dontcha just go drink wine out of his asshole then
(I say wine bc if you were a true Maynard fan you'd know he owns a winery)
Just a beautiful song, never forget where you have been in order to get where you are now. Every saint has a past and every sinner a future.
Exactly
Most have it wrong. This is about someone on their high horse acting as if they've never wronged people in their lives they've never accounted for. Specifically their partners and they recall their nasty thoughts and behaviors as others fault to keep their angelic image.
@@the1andonlypop Actually, ya..but no. The song was written after a close "friend" to the band, or specific members passed due to losing their personal battle with addiction. The "point" being made, and more that well done, is how sometimes those that reform, or get "clean" tend to be self righteous and condecending. (sp?) This hit some nerves with Maynard.. hence making amends, and "recalling demons as if they are someone elses etrociousness" (sp?)... I can relate as my ex husband was an addict/alcoholic. He did choose to get "sober" after I finally was fed up..however hes def. a "dry drunk" in accordance with Alwanon, which is why this resonates with my soul.. he made ammends to every single person but me..and then hated me b/c I left him
Well said, friend
@@nataliehanna5639 he never made amends to himself. I'm struggling with it myself. I'd think he cant forget/forgive. But I'm sure you know that. Shit is hard as hell.
Three years after my divorce, my ex-wife murdered a man. It was a couple of years before this song came out. I visited her once. She looked well. But I knew then, that the surface was an illusion. She did 15 years for voluntary manslaughter. She was released in 2016 and lives alone.
She once came to me attempting to bridge the gap of our past. I took her out for karaoke. I sang this song as if it were mine.
I paid our tab and walked out the door. Leaving her with her charm. I've seen her a few times since and am happy to say that she got the message.
Thanks Maynard.
Y'all are crazy
@@tessscherb 😂
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In high school I'd listen to this album on repeat and never got tired of listening to it. About 15 years later and I do not get tired of it.
I love you hon
Same
2024 anyone?? Always coming back to Maynard’s voice!!!
Always ❤
2024 coming back cause this is one of the most perfect and poignant songs ever recorded....2025 we gonna be here too...
@@konstantinepope yes we will
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@@konstantinepope absolutely will be here 2025!! Come back at least once a month if not more lol 😂
This song is just simply amazing. It reminds me so much of my addiction and recovery. The message I get is don't place yourself on a "pink cloud." I am not better than anybody else. Remember who you once were and never forget. No-one will ever be fully recovered, so don't act like you are. I am 31 days clean and I am just as vulnerable to pick up as someone with 3 years clean. Stick to your family and to the people you can trust. One step, one day at a time, we can all get better.
Hope you stayed the path.🙏
Amen
You can fully recover don’t act like everyone is the same you junkie
So it's been 11 years since this comment was placed I see at this point in my life after losing my birth father from heroin and now the man that adopted me at 5 years of age and raised me till now 36 at the time of this comment he is in Orlando hospital having a triple bypass heart surgery I never needed this comment more now than I ever did back then I am an alcoholic and my family and God is all I got and as a rigorous honest man I haven't been able to stop drinking daily please pray for me and my father as I'm not ready to loose him God bless the person who wrote this comment 11 years ago it was needed
#7:30amsomewhereinflorida
@js767458
it's been eleven years.
I think I speak for anyone who saw this comment, especially those who read it right when they most needed to (which, of course, is more often than can be written off as coincidence):
how are you doing nowadays? how has this last decade been for you? not gonna lie, it's been pretty rough for a lot of us out here especially since the fentanyl hit.
you left that comment at a real vulnerable time, just a hair over a month sober. I hope things worked out.
and by that I don’t mean I hope you stayed sober, not at all. I hope you're healthy - both mentally and physically. I hope you're comfortable and you don’t have to worry about what you're gonna eat or where you'll sleep. I hope all the people that matter to you, friends and family, are in your life. I hope you never had to deal with the out of control justice system (I guess assuming youre american).
I just hope you're doing ok, and the only thing I care about regarding the substances you use is whether you do your best to minimize the potential harm - physically, mentally, and socially - other than that it's nobody's business but your own and I hope you remember that
I wish this song was a hour longer..
TheGuyWhoBeatThatHooker Martin i wish your mom waa 30 years younger
Great Dragon I wish I was 20 years younger
Amen
words. his halo is the absence of knowledge concerning(what damage they might have- TOOL.. ) .His words being self destructive for reasons
he will come to know wernt known only to him if his "halo" does end up coming down. it's a song to provoke a murder to adopting a identifying characteristic.or not . you all desire.
Try putting the song on loop silly.
It's about people who have overcome an addiction and acted as if they were saints afterwards. As though the person they were was a completely different entity.
Its basically saying "I'm glad you're better, but you still did things that can't be forgiven. Don't act superior, that's bullshit."
It blinds! Ding Ding Ding!!!!!!!! We have a winner. I cant believe you are the only person on here who can see that.
it reminds me of the some of the old timers I see in NA that treat white chippers like dirt. they pretend they have there shit so together and nothing can touch them. oh, how the mighty will fall...
***** wrong. The entire album is about addiction. Thats why its called the thirteenth step. See the connection now? I mean why would he be asking his paralyzed mother how shes going to make ammends to the dead? I feel you may hsve jumped the gun on this one friend
you are right about the song judith being about his mother, however this song is not about his mother even in the slightest way. maynard has said it himself that this song is about people who beat an addiction and think that it somehow makes them superior or just a better version of themselves and think the past has no sway upon their future. if you knew of maynard's work and how he expresses himself you would know that a song about his mother wouldn't have such a sad feeling to it. and furthermore, this song sounds sad because he actually feels sad for the people this song pertains to, he pities their ignorance the same way i pity yours.
Maynard said he wrote this after attending an AA meeting!
The end when he sings "..to choke you now.", gives me chills every damn time. Fucking love Maynard.
YES!!!!
This song gives me chills whenever I hear it. My uncle who served said that when he was in Iraq, this song was playing in the chopper as him and his team touched down into a combat zone. He took lead for his country and lived to tell me the tale. He's my hero and this song makes me think of him. He brought me here.
Semper Fi. This song played a few times over in Afghanistan and this why I fucking love the Marine Corps!! but I feel you about hearing this song.
+wjye I'm sorry, but I'm sure that Maynard would be angry of reading this. In fact, I think soldiers fit perfectly: "How you're planning to go about making your amends to the dead?" You should listen to Emotive album.
+wjye sorry to say this, but your uncle took lead for the Corporate Fascist States of America. There were no national interests that were defended in Iraq, it was a pure crusade taken on false pretext (the massive lie about Sadam's WMD).
Thank your uncle for me for servicing this country. It is so sad reading these hateful comments. Men and woman putting their lives on the line for ignorant comments and hatred.
I sure hope no one you love serves this country in the military. Because if you said that to their face I am sure they would have some choice words for you.
this song is just so perfect in every way shape and form. his relaxing voice, the gentle beats, and the message of the song just fit so perfectly together
I can’t believe that this point in my life when all is completely lost, I now find a song worth the time to listen to and make me just slightly want the need to live
Only a lad is an album I hope you check out and enjoy.
Different but maybe what your looking for
Never lost. Listen to the whole album, beginning to end! It's a story af salvation, redemption, survival!
Live a humble life. Listen more than you speak, think more than you act.
Monk-material.
Love it. Kinda like "measure twice, cut once". I also like the saying, "God gave us two ears & one mouth. So we ought to listen twice as much as we speak". :)
And finally, your comment reminded me of the *best* one, imho..
"Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny."
~ Lao Tzu
and play magic xD
***** if everyone is listening twice as much as they speak, then who is doing the talking? ;)
Ben jammin ME!!
*rubs hands together evil-y* Muhahahaha..
>:)
I've barely heard of A Perfect Circle and now i'm hooked. They have great songs and this one in particular is one I can definitely relate to.
***** definitely due to the lyrics
Judith is an epic one as well. Weak and Powerless...Sleeping beauty...Passive...3 libras....Jesus. All of them. End of story lol
Counting Bodies Like Sheep :)
orestes!
charis bruce I am obsessed. I listen to APC or Tool or Puscifer Daily...hes my fave....and Id die for some of his wine lol
I like the part where he sings "I'm more than just a little curious how are you plan on making you're amends to the Dead". That line gets to me cuz week by week I sit around a table of recoving addicts who have there halo over there heads, with there 10+ years of sobriety. then we get someone new in and there is no acceptance for the new person. so then when that new person goes out a relapse and they die, I asked myself how did they go about making their amends? this kid came to us for help and very few made time to help. Why be a part of something that stands for nothing anymore. We all need to stand for something.
Mandy Gorney Exactly! "If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything."
Mandy tell me something, what if someone starts to mix drugs and sex for meditation and spiritual growth, rather than temporarily escaping mind?
Maybe someone needs to remind them that once upon a time they were in that spot too. Memories fade over time and I am sure they want to forget. A little reminder couldn't hurt.
Real fukn shit right there! Just messed up. People get clean and look down on the ones that aren't. I tried to help once I got clean i got 3 friends clean. 3 friends that didn't die
Right on
This song is pure death. As soon as it begins, it brings such a coldness. Pure melodic depression. This song is brillaint
You do know what death is right?
This is about a friend of Maynards who came out of rehab and said that people get self richeous after rehab, and they shouldn't let their halo fall around their neck and choke them. That's what he said on a dvd a while ago.
that sounds like a 12 step saying for sure.
I think that's mostly what 12 step groups are for - generating quippy sayings.
I relate to this song every time I read the lyrics. I was a horrible addict & would steal money from my aunt & she thought she was losing her mind. One day she confronted me & as all addicts I denied stealing it. The night before she died she told me “I was killing her w/ my behavior & addiction & when she dies everyone would know the reason why she died”.
I’ve been sober ten years, I attend church every week, I believe in walking in the footsteps of Jesus but will I be truly saved when I die? I loved this woman & have so much regret to this day. This song always makes me think of my Auntie Jo. Sometimes people aren’t acknowledged for their miracles & this woman should be a saint. Because I’m a different person now.
I'll pray for you. Godspeed, brother in Christ!
That was a shitty thing for her to say, that was guilt-trip to the max, I could never love someone like that... sorry.. but thats sick to say that to someone.
@@paulv5260
When you get desperate and feel like nothing else you say is working, stuff like this gets said. I’ve heard similar.
I was there too bro. I'll tell you what you can do. There are other addicts just like us and there out there right now. They don't think anyone will ever come for them. They feel like no one will ever love them. But both you and I, and others like us, know this pain. And even though we can't resurrect the dead, maybe we can prevent others from dying. It's hard work because you have to show them infinite patience. But it will give your life purpose and meaning. I'm 42 years old and I've been sober for 11 years now. You and I share this pain in our hearts. That makes us brothers. And it makes you someone who knows perfectly what people like us need. Peace, love, and prosperity to you and your loved ones.
Same! I was an addict for 15 yrs. Did everything I could to get my next fix. My nanny (she raised me from birth) died right in front of me heart failure. Her 1 dying plea for me was to get clean because she knew once she was gone I'd literally spiral out of control worse than I already was. That was in 2013 and for about 4 months after she died I did spiral out big time. The guilt ate me up. But I've been clean since, I just wish she could've seen it.. so I completely understand!!
love seeing how others are seeing the song in their minds so many people argue about the meaning of songs and they can mean a lot of different things to different people
For me this song represents me overcoming self harm, and narcotic abuse.
This song is amazing. Very deep, depressing lyrics. I tend to stick to music that wont make me feel down in the dumps, but I cant help but listen to this masterpiece every now and then.
This is why I love his songs. His songs have deep meaning both in Tool and A Perfect Circle. People can relate to his songs. And he has kickass vocals. ;)
check out his other act puscifer
Billy Howerdel writes the lyrics as well as the sick guitar tracks... He is the one that is to thank for the magnificent lyrics on Mer De Noms and 13th Step.... Check out his other band Ashes Divide. He gets overshadowed by Maynard. But he has ten times the talent.... And to Scott Sargent. Puscifer is a joke. A big joke on all of the useful idiots. They probably make those mindless records in a week, or less.
obeyvirtues I think some of the songs are great. But I agree mostly
Yea, stinkfist has a deep meaning.
Like shoulder deep
This guy has such a insight on things. I had nine years clean in NA and been through the steps. Perception is different for people but this song speaks to me about recovery. I can never undo what I have done but try to make amends and not do it again. I'll never be perfect and the only time I should look down on someone is to lift them up. My Halo slippen down.
One of the best pieces of art of all time. Poetry to my ears.
This song repaired a friendship of 35 yrs that was almost completely broken, before I pass from cancer at 50. Gratitude ❤
Talk about emotions and feelings translated through sound...
I kno right, I find from tool to perfect circle to Puscifer( all bands where Maynard wrote n sung the songs) it always translates to my soul! And even the same song will translate different ways at times. He has always been on a whole nother level of epicness since day one! ;)
+Dark Mythos This song was played at my best friends funeral this past Nov, he died of an OD =(
When the song started playing, part of me died as well. This song has many meanings for many people, for me the loss of a friend from addiction.
+Jennacide Jinx I want Pusifers 'The Humbling River' played at my funeral for my son =)
+The B Mo I'm so sorry for your loss😔 really I am...I can really relate to that because I'm a recovering addict and my best friend and love, is an addict that still can't get his shit straight. My heart goes out to you and your friend. I think I would be a mess of a crying wreck if I heard this song at a funeral.esp one with the circumstances of your best friend. But it's good to let those cries out. Many peaceful positive vibes to you and i really do think people who pass away, are in a much better place. Don't have any idea what n If any songs will be played at my funeral,lol but anything Maynard is a good choice ;)
Jennacide Jinx Thank you Very Much doll, your kind words mean more than you know. I wish You & Yours nothing but the best! And much Respect to you for your recovery, i know its hard. Even worse if you have to see it. Ive been there. So i feel you it takes a lot of will power ! So sending You Positive Energy in the battle for your Love.
Love is Worth it & Love Heals all.
Much Love =)
Mo
this song is deep. The lyrics were very well thought out and the instrumental is so astonishing.
This song gives me goose bumps...
Fuck yes it does
The number of times Maynard has brought me to tears is ridiculous. Every once in a while I get something of his in my head and I have to go play the song before it will leave... but first, first I have to hear the song and remember the words. If I'm not crying for myself, I'll cry for someone else. Never fails.
I just love the "more than just a little curious" flow in this song. Not sure if that's the right word, or how to describe it- it's just so smooth. Beautiful!
Found out my cousin passed this morning and I kept singing this in my head so I had to come listen. Amazing job by MJK!
A Prefect Circle has
saved my ass for years bless u Maynard
Good Shit aSir
Damn this is an amazing song! Been listening to MJK since i was 13, 21 years later and his music still stirs up emotions I never knew I had before.
I've had this song on repeat the entire year.
I have #noregrets
do you mind telling us why?
Guilt and regret leads to stress, which eventually leads to cancer.. Rise to a higher plane than the one you were on when you committed the action which caused you to regret. #surfsup
Intresting thought. Thank you for sharing
When I bought the album I would play it for days on end
I had it on repeat while i got my shit together...Got me through a lot really. I do my best to share APC with friends/family and especially those who are struggling with addiction
one of my favourite A Perfect Circle tracks.... great melody and the drums sound amazing with a good sound system.
2020 anyone else?⚰🖤🤘
right here...... is that Paz in the beginning?
sure mate! :D all time fav
Here
Yessir
👋✌
After i got sober and thought of myself so high this song pulled me back down to earth and its what i needed
This is one of the songs I learned on the drums when I was a teenager. This was my favorite band. Don't mind me, just remembering.
Maynard will tell you, his songs have meaning for everyone. Just because the words he wrote meant something to him, it will mean something else to someone else. I can appreciate people trying to figure out what Maynard was getting at, but I find those who find their own meaning, not only in Maynard's words, but any music, extremely more admirable.
I couldnt have said it better myself
Whatever song you listen too, & love. The meaning of the song is what you feel the song is about in whatever way it touches you. It doesn't have to be bad or good. If it touches your soul then that's what it's about. It's art.
This song is so beautiful, it's almost as if the words become weightless, unintentional, and I enjoy not the syllables, but the sounds, each intwining and blending flawlessly.
Music is subjective. Albeit IMO, THIS is just one example of the pulls of the voices and the melodies, and the each and every other thing necessary to say that what you are listening to, IS in fact, a work of breathtaking awe; wonder and artistic mastery - Vocally and harmonically.
Well said
Where the 2023 gang at? This is a level of ingenuity that I cant even begin to fathom. His voice is so haunting and beautiful.
Absolutely powerful, great song to lean on through my own recovery. Well done with the video!
We all have that significant other who was just so evil & then claimed to be reborn! But we know the truth evil evil evil evil I love the overlaying lyrics at the end
ahhh maynard.. how i love you
Just as gorgeous as your picture..
Every time, Every single time I listen to one APC's songs, I feel the strange need to jump off of a high cliff at night and just fall.
I love Maynard, he is a lyrical genius and has the voice of a thousand angels.
Thanks Maynard for your Music.
I have such mixed feelings towards this song and this narrative. I love and hate it and find it both honest and harmful. I love how unique the perspective is and at the same time it breaks my heart. I don’t know who I relate with more: the addict who knows they were wrong and wants to move on or the family member/friend/significant other who can’t forget what they did. I think it’s a beautifully written and heartbreaking part of a complex situation.
Wow. You wrote the words I have been having difficulty expressing. I am the person who won't forgive the addict...ever. I have my reasons, please don't judge. I appreciate your words✌️
I felt the same way before my own experiences with addiction and recovery gave me a new interpretation - the one who needs forgiveness is the same as the one who can’t give it, this is an introspection
I’m no wordsmith. Maynard gave me life MANY times. I’m grateful and full of respect.
God! This is my ALL TIME favourite song of theirs! Please play this in Portland!!! 😁
first time listening to a perfect circle & all i can say is wow. im 18, shipping out to the army in a few months & just had my heart broken. listening to sad music while being sad makes you happy for some odd reason. even tho this is about addiction (i think) i can definitely feel this in my soul
The lyrics are so amazing. I love the sound of his voice and the music!
my ex who cheated on me and wanted me to come so he could make me dinner and give me flowers to apologize, and I told him I heard a song that reminded me of him by perfect circle. And he said what's it about and I said its about a halo. And he thought I meant it in a good way, and when I left I sent this song to him! Seriously a great moment!
This song leaves me breathless.
this song is downright ugly
Listening to this song 6 years after I got clean is quite surreal. My ex played this to me when I was still using and now here I am.. and the lyrics are rather accurate ..
Stay safe x
Maynards voice is beautiful!such a masterpiece.
do not fear the critics. embrace them. this is the way forward for you.
As a life long abuser of any substance I could get my hands on, I thank GOD 4victory!!! It is nothing I have done without HIS HELP!!
Troy Williams God isn't real.. You overcame that on your own.
This dude clearly didn’t bother to try and understand this song...at all
You need to give yourself credit for something you overcame. If you attribute your victory to God, then what will happen if for some reason you lose faith in Him? You stopped the substance abuse, no one did it for you.
@@tcswed yes i did it by myself after 25 years heroine and cocaïne ,,,,tool eulogy
A friend on Facebook shared this on her feed. I'm so glad she did. I have been looking for an artist such as this. I love the melancholy feeling this song conveys.
wow its been a while since I listened to this song. I feel like I have fallen in love all over again!
I listen to it at least 3 times a day (or more)!!! LOVE!!!! 😊
+Jen Cooley How can you not, ha ha. It is "A MUST" listen to!! Kind thoughts to you!
You love me too
Love Maynards eargasmic voice for 23yrs now someday my husband and I shall meet him we have grown old listening to that voice creating life to that voice
I'm here cuz my brother has awesome music taste
+Dolls4infinity Welcome Dolls, and welcome YOUR newfound awesome music taste.
+Dolls4infinity I'm here coz our Radio Jockey (RJ Arunima) has awesome music taste. (Radio Foorti, Dhaka, Bangladesh time 2pm-5pm everyday) you can hear her using "Radio Foorti" app on iOS or Android Play Store
+Dolls4infinity Same!
The guy that writes the lyrics and the sick guitar tracks also has a band called Ashes Divide. Check'em out.
same.
One of my favorite songs of all time...after reading everyone's comments, some are confused...this song is about recovering and congratulating the person for being reborn. However, just because you went through hell to recover, doesn't mean you are stronger than anyone now!!! You have to return the favor that you did recover and able to continue living again, but now how are you going to spend your time helping others instead of wasting it on doing whatever you want and stepping right over everyone to get to where YOU just want to be!!!! I went through 10 years of recovery and worked my way to now be a SA and MH counselor, but I will never quit thanking everyone who helped me get to where I am and now I am going to help others get through recovery as well since I understand what others are going through....however, it doesn't matter how much you pay me, because I am doing it for THEM, not me!!!! 12 steps of recovery, 13th step is to help others and not kick others aside to do anything I want!!!
This is a powerful song but really it's telling you theres no hope! We humans have CHOICE as in FREE WILL there is a reason music like this resonates with us we don't know about morality.We access these dark relms of our psychology and come to no conclusion. All im saying is choose life!
Like the song gravity
I Climbed a 100ft radio tower without any equipment to this song.. I got down took the headphones out and started shaking rapidly. Put 'em back in and I was fine. Thank You awesome music
Correction to lyrics of the first verse for those of poor ears:
So glad to see you have
Overcome them
Completely silent now
With heaven's help
You've cast your demons out
recall the deeds as if there're all someone else's atrocious stories, now you stand before us all, so glad to see you well
I had to come here immediately after making the mistake of listening to Blood On The Dance Floor.
everything has its time man. I loved that song once.
Depends what your life has been like. If i hadnt been fucked over (not literally :P) then i might have stayed with micheal jackson
Jackson McCutcheon ROFLMFAO! after growing up listening to stuff like 10 years and Killswitch Engage, my ex girlfriend made me listen to Candyland by BOTDF. I immediately ran and listen to either this or Never Regret by Here Comes The Kraken. i dont remember but either way i know what u mean ;PPPP
2 Monster Punches mcr is great
2 Monster Punches mcr is actually good tho lol
You wanna hear something awesome?
The way that serene, hollow "peace of mind" riff ends the song with a barely-noticeable little slide down the neck that beautifully disappears into the panicked reality of the next track, "Blue"
I was clean for 14 years and relapsed in 2010. I've been struggling since then matter of fact I'm on my 4th day locked in a hotel room now. This music is all I have.
omar ramirez I’m in the exact same boat brother, only not having the 10 years clear, only 9 months for me. I can’t go out and look at the world. I swear I’m trapped in dope houses and motel rooms for eternity
omar ramirez I hope you are still fighting your best
Hope you found your way back
Cause you basically commit suicide doing them clean 25 years , it's my song to the dealers
I'm good, I've been clean for 1 year and a half.
My sister showed me this song and at first I was a bit creeped out and not really interested, but I listened to it a few more times and now I'm obsessed with the song xD it's so melancholy yet.....wonderful :3 I sing to it like crazy~!
2023 still singing this
I loved this song 20 years ago, I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and it means even more now. Probably not what the songs meant to be but it's how it speaks to me.
Still recovering and it's hell. I know the type he's singing about, they act so holier than thou. I hate it
Hang in there.
Power and love to you!
Pandora brought it to me on my system of the down channel. So i'm grateful to fate and programs for sharing.Glad to reconnect with Perfect Circle through your post. Thanks. Adios
Lyric's that have to be lived to be understood properly!!
You're mildly correct. It's about anyone who has overcome their addictions, but no matter what they've done they can never change the hardships and pain they caused themselves and others.
If we all had holo’s everyone would be wearing a necklace
Got me weak 🥲 I used to listen to this album all the time as a child, during addiction and now. How is it a song I've heard a million times still makes me weak? Maynard has a way with everything I swear
I'm here because the guy I started dating a few weeks ago has great music taste
put a ring on it
definitely should
I'm here because I have always had a great taste in music.
Still dating him :)
Same actually, a guy I've been dating recently has amazing taste in music and has introduced me to this band and bunch of others. I'm so glad to have him and now this music in my life.
when I first began listening to this album trying to analyze and understand the lyrics I wondered who might be at the receiving end of such a scathing song. whether it's a real person and what they might think about being so perfectly morally indicted for their sanctimonious attitude.
years later, after going through a difficult recovery from several years of heroin addiction I listened to these songs again and I knew this one was written about himself.
I'm here because *I* have great taste in music
All of your comments are correct for the most part. The underlying condition of the subject of the track could be any number of issues that many of us have been victim to, or even more sadly...the perpetrators thereof. Long live orchestral metal.
one of my favs!!!
My dad loves a perfect circle and this was playing in his truck yesterday as we were going home and I had forgot about this song, because I used to really like it when I was about 9, so I decided to listen to it today.
I think I'm hooked 😂
I don't wanna sound like a dick but women aren't the only ppl who suffer from depression and anxiety and certain addictions
And yes I am aware this song is about life after addiction
Truly a beautiful song
This is a great song for younger individuals to use as a way of self healing.
yes that's true dick so why state the obvious?? We Know this already!! Dork!
@@barbiechai2386 maybe he's saying that women get treated for mental illness much better then men do. Yet men commit suicide much more then women.
fuck off fabbot
I fell in love with this song at 17. It was the heroin addiction, probably
it was a speech he heard to recovering addicts. it was to acknowledge their achievement for overcoming addiction, and they should be proud. But dont let this victory make you forget about all the pain you caused to yourself and, more importantly, others
The noose... Still....December 2017
Had this as an alarm when getting up in the morning. The best way to wake up EVER.
2024 anyone?
Me 😊
Me too
Everyone!
Was
@c😢helle4356
Ah, been years since I listened to this song. Crazy that when I heard "noose" while I was playing a video game I suddenly remembered a song, typed in "the noose" and here I am. Brings back memories.
i LOVE A Perfect Circle and Tool and Maynard. i just wanted you to know that XD
Thank you for sharing over the net, now we know. I feel a personal need to appreciate and reciprocate : I do too.
If you love Maynard, dont forget puscifer. Seems too many of yuns do lol
One of my favorites songs of all time!!! Moral of the song is to stay humble!!!
oh
my
god
It's crazy letting the lyrics sink in as an adult . I used to sing along as a clueless child . Who would've known I would have grown up to be an addict in recovery who now needs to make my amends to the dead.
Not all depressed people are girls
luckylemonturtle2 And not all have the time or motivation to take hipster selfies
***** I never got interviewed for that. I'm sure you never took a poll either. Nor has turtle person. Just pointing out that statistics like that are always false, because they test only certain people on earth. not everyone takes part.
I've never believed internet statistics because of that.
Just my opinion bro, take care.
+luckylemonturtle2 my exact first thought
you are wrong. do at least a little research before you go making yourself look dumb.
+Keith Emery 1. You can be depressive without attempting suicide 2. statistics show more girls attempt suicide but comparatively more guys are actually succesful (i.e. they genuinely want to die rather than using it as a cry for help)
I am also an addict in and out of recovery and this is a song I always felt deeply. I never thought before of the meaning - reading the comments now it’s funny that it resonated with me
Clean 5 1/2 years off heroin and I think he's singing this about me lmao. I don't act superior but I'm just a totally different person now and want nothing to do with my past self. I generally keep my past a secret and only tell close people about it. Grateful for the strength and wisdom my past self gave me fucking things up so bad though.
I am currently battling that Monkey on my back. Gets a little easier each day. You’re right, I feel like he’s singing to me. Congrats on all that you’ve accomplished. It’s not easy.
@Moon Empress - That is a HUGE accomplishment!! You should be very proud.
Good to have you here still, Moon and Nathan. Love it all and don’t look back
@@nathanbutturini9768 Thank you and congrats to you too! When you find your passion in life it definitely helps. Stay strong!
@@jessical578 Its actually weird I don't even think about it much anymore. It's like a past life. That me is dead. Thank you so much I am proud that I survived what would've killed most.
Reminds me of all that have come and gone through my life.Maynard is a lyrical genius.🤘
This song can also mean that a person done another person wrong in life and they made them feel dead inside. Something that can never be repaired. And yet the one who caused harm or hate walks around like they never done anything wrong.
I thank the person who made this..i sometimes forget that the video was done by a person..you created something using ur feelings and had Maynard s words..you should appreciate the gift you have..