The exhaustion due to being inauthentic I absolutely resonate with (I’m guessing the egoic side in a philosophical discussion would be the inauthentic parasitic side using your energy up). I’m finding more and more my body becoming heavy when I’m heading in a direction that’s inauthentic (my wife suffered with chronic fatigue when doing her career work in psychology, her body had enough of the BS and could no longer carry on doing that line of work, she was very well paid but her body wasn’t having any of of it), I’ve literally left my job because it feels like I’m dying and I just simply have to follow the faith in what I’m receiving within (quite scary yet I feel spirit is forcing it’s hand and so me and my wife are surrendering. I’ve taken down the videos of me talking and left my art videos on my channel due to the feeling of simply having to pursue the vision that’s wanting to come through and anything about me (probably my ego wanting to claim it owns some sort of opinion or idea) is simply pushed to the back).
This is a big synchronicity! I was wondering why you had taken down those videos. I then make this video that answers that question. The thing that is most remarkable is that this video was completely spontaneous. I sat down, hit record, and just started talking. After a couple of minutes, this is what came out. I had not been thinking about this prior and had no plans to make a video about it. Interesting I've had to recalibrate a few times in making these videos. I've had to stop and ask myself why I am making these videos. I think it is a form of spiritual autolysis (Jed Mckenna). I'm just trying to find out what is true. And when I make a video, I am then able to let go it. I am then free to see what comes up next. I wanted to see some of your other videos, but I understand your decision to take them down.
@@laservius how funny, I say funny because you popped in my head and I also suddenly thought you might be wondering why I took down some of my videos (seemed such a random thought) then I randomly felt like watching this specific video that made me leave the comment I left. Synchronicities I believe show a hidden network in this world similar to the mycelium network that’s hidden underground but this is a universal organic network that pervades throughout reality, like we are literally living in a giant organic body. I reckon by shifting our attention inward we are actually increasing/expanding our awareness (a kind of withness or wholeness perspective), and then as we open our eyes and move about we go back to a very local and separate awareness (quite necessary for staying alive but not great to be constantly in such a state hence the importance of being in a harmonic and balanced environment so one can pay attention within).
@@jamesskinnercouk I like the idea of something like a mycelium network, that is alive, connecting us all. There seems to be a movement between separation and connection. I think that is the purpose of sleep. We need to reconnect and lose our separateness each night or we go insane and die.
@@laservius I think that’s literally true that we go insane and die if we don’t sleep. I also wonder if intelligence is beyond the brain but actually by being in communication with the collective universal subconscious via sleep (like being part of a greater mind or something beyond mind).
@@jamesskinnercouk I definitely think that is the case. The most intelligent things that I say or do are when "I" get out of the way and allow "intelligence" of go/spirit/reality/etc. come through. "I" have never done anything really intelligent.
The exhaustion due to being inauthentic I absolutely resonate with (I’m guessing the egoic side in a philosophical discussion would be the inauthentic parasitic side using your energy up). I’m finding more and more my body becoming heavy when I’m heading in a direction that’s inauthentic (my wife suffered with chronic fatigue when doing her career work in psychology, her body had enough of the BS and could no longer carry on doing that line of work, she was very well paid but her body wasn’t having any of of it), I’ve literally left my job because it feels like I’m dying and I just simply have to follow the faith in what I’m receiving within (quite scary yet I feel spirit is forcing it’s hand and so me and my wife are surrendering. I’ve taken down the videos of me talking and left my art videos on my channel due to the feeling of simply having to pursue the vision that’s wanting to come through and anything about me (probably my ego wanting to claim it owns some sort of opinion or idea) is simply pushed to the back).
This is a big synchronicity! I was wondering why you had taken down those videos. I then make this video that answers that question. The thing that is most remarkable is that this video was completely spontaneous. I sat down, hit record, and just started talking. After a couple of minutes, this is what came out. I had not been thinking about this prior and had no plans to make a video about it. Interesting
I've had to recalibrate a few times in making these videos. I've had to stop and ask myself why I am making these videos. I think it is a form of spiritual autolysis (Jed Mckenna). I'm just trying to find out what is true. And when I make a video, I am then able to let go it. I am then free to see what comes up next.
I wanted to see some of your other videos, but I understand your decision to take them down.
@@laservius how funny, I say funny because you popped in my head and I also suddenly thought you might be wondering why I took down some of my videos (seemed such a random thought) then I randomly felt like watching this specific video that made me leave the comment I left.
Synchronicities I believe show a hidden network in this world similar to the mycelium network that’s hidden underground but this is a universal organic network that pervades throughout reality, like we are literally living in a giant organic body. I reckon by shifting our attention inward we are actually increasing/expanding our awareness (a kind of withness or wholeness perspective), and then as we open our eyes and move about we go back to a very local and separate awareness (quite necessary for staying alive but not great to be constantly in such a state hence the importance of being in a harmonic and balanced environment so one can pay attention within).
@@jamesskinnercouk I like the idea of something like a mycelium network, that is alive, connecting us all.
There seems to be a movement between separation and connection. I think that is the purpose of sleep. We need to reconnect and lose our separateness each night or we go insane and die.
@@laservius I think that’s literally true that we go insane and die if we don’t sleep. I also wonder if intelligence is beyond the brain but actually by being in communication with the collective universal subconscious via sleep (like being part of a greater mind or something beyond mind).
@@jamesskinnercouk I definitely think that is the case. The most intelligent things that I say or do are when "I" get out of the way and allow "intelligence" of go/spirit/reality/etc. come through. "I" have never done anything really intelligent.