Just a suggestion Leah, you can have one of Lucas’s shirts made into a teddy bear. There is lots of places that do it, or you can get a pattern and do it. Have fun in your trip!
I was just hiking in Arizona for a few weeks. Flat Iron mountain was amazing. I took a mindfulness book called 30 Days to Stop Giving a Sh*t by Corin Devaso and did some exercises from it while on hikes, it was a great time. The sunsets and cacti are mystifying, beautiful.
I’m hoping the weather cooperates! It might rain our first day there. Might need to pack a rain coat! I’ll have to tell my family about flat iron mountain. I’m sure they would be up for the adventure. I hope to see some beautiful sunsets while I’m there ☺️
You know what actually helps with my anxiety? Listening to you talk lol. You have a calming, soothing presence. From an outward perspective, you don’t seem like an anxious person. Anyway, have fun in AZ - Jake
Thank you, I’m happy to hear that! It’s so weird to me that people can’t tell I have anxiety but in reality, my heart rate is always in the 100’s, always sweaty and feel like can’t get the right words out. I made it to Arizona! Such a beautiful trip so far ☺️
I just love this,. I'm SO like you , I could NEVER make a video lol. And to see you come SO far, it's just AMAZING. You have overcame a fear, faced it head on and conquered it. I really think you doing these videos will help with your anxiety too. You can see the change from your first video to this one, ( and of course grieving makes it extremely hard, and the first one was right in the beginning of grief).
I have made so many improvements and had to take time to adjust to so many changes. It’s still hard but I do have a lot to look forward to which has been helpful. In every video, I have the worst anxiety. It does seem to be a little easier now but I’m still not 100% confident about it. I’ll get there with time.
You could have some of Lucas's ashes put in a necklace so he's always right near your heart ❤️. They have so many like glass, or tiny urns, and so many others. ( Also I LOVE your tatts, so beautiful)
9:00 'self care" seee!!! See!! Yes & boundaries too only let others into your life who support & protect your boundaries & that you mutually know ! You inspire us so much today with this amazing work. have a great trip. You are handling all these things exceptionally well as a Viking I would know :) Happy NYE!!
6:00 organic cold coffee prevents bad acid & supposedly cuts down on anxiety it is the only coffee I drink - Don Francis's organic cold coffee amazon 4 pots 8 pouches it is fun to make too like gingerbread houses I add soy which is really good for you & honey it is so nutty & yummy like a Thai iced coffee I grew up with but healthy
@@lifewithleahrue1247 I do not eat sugar I eat honey & yes I use Don Francis's organic cold coffee amazon 4 pots 8 pouches & spring water & 1/4th a bottle of honey & it lasts two three days & it is extremely mild compared to instant. I have instant in case of emergency or a climate emergency but I always feel super hopped up whereas the cold coffee is mellow & nutty & wakes me up & energizes me without the crash. Let me know what you think jr! - Your Viking mentor Amy
12:00+ I lost someone & they are still around I dont know how but they are & he is watching over you & wants eternal happiness & love for you & that is all he is doing & he is just around you to help he will probably bring even more people into your life he would be so proud of you right now for letting yourself be free in the worst time in human history & panning your future & growing & healing in such a dark time He loves you so much we never leave this planet quantum science will hopefully advance & help us all understand why all this is happening in general & remember out is okay to have anxiety but also it is just as true that some people try to make you anxious & by using private trial & error you wil often realize that is what someone is doing You probably can tell when someone is doing that already but I am giving you permission as someone with the life experience that supports your vision & the vision of those like ours (mostly scientists) that as part of your self care it is okay so be a behavioral scientist & be smart & know & be able to prove when a woman or man is manipulating you these are valuable skills for high paying jobs .. right :D yup dont let any weirdos or criminals convince you other wise
1:00 + I literally did just that the other day: I paid to get something locked out open it is documented at my strava, only the second time in my whole entire life the last time when I was traveling (ironically again)
When I was in Detox years ago, I used a smoking patch and those are awesome. I had no desire to smoke at all. When I got out of there I continued smoking which was dumb but maybe you can try the patch. Many states have free programs for them. Hopefully yours does. Have fun in AZ and watch out for rattlesnakes.
I have never tried the patch. Might have to give it a try! I’ve tried lozenges which were helpful to an extent but they made me feel nauseous at times. Thank you and I sure hope I don’t run into a rattlesnake! I didn’t know they had them there!!
2:00 the best part of your resolution you already know is you are ahead of the curve (!!!) you were built to last (your are a baby!!so young :) so yes time to act better than later) in the new year self care will keep Taylor-ing (Swift lol) to the top the list I think Once you get it out of your system you will be mentally on all the time even more than ever & become an even better healer & mutualist formalist arbitrar-ialist
Hi Leah! I've recently watched some of your videos and I wanted to say how proud I am of you for opening up and being so vulnerable. It really is so awesome to see you making these videos and hearing your stories/thoughts. Wishing you all the best always ❤️ Bria
Hi Bria! I’m so glad you were able to watch some of my videos. That makes me happy to hear!! It’s been hard to open up but I feel so much better after I do. It’s helped me so much after loosing my boyfriend 🥺 hope you are doing well 🤍
@@lifewithleahrue1247 grief is an odd thing. Some days are bad and some days are great. Allow yourself to feel it all and know it's okay. It takes time, but time heals all. I'm sorry you are going through all of this and I'm happy doing this helps you!
@@lifewithleahrue1247 You have inspired me to try to evaluate if there are any risks associated with my caffeine consumption :/ :D :)* Yes moderation is a good start -- you are right YET AGAIN omg cheers :D :)* as they say in swedish Skol!
Hi Leah! Sending positive vibes your way! Keep your head up, try not to over think too much and BREATHE! You'll be ok. I never wrote down you ig and I couldn't go back and watch the live. Sorry. I will keep an eye out for your next live or video. ❤
4:00+ you are an athlete that makes sense me too leggings, like you & all the rest of us I often double up with two pairs base & leggings on top in the cold too you need free range of movement yoga etc yes
@@lifewithleahrue1247 like you movement is central to to my life I used to horse back ride you look like a rider do you ride horses? Have a blast. I love mentoring you & I am glad that you can see that you are free to end up at this point in your life where I am very health focused responsible creative & a healer, a conditioned person. You are just trying to regulate what it is to be conditioned because you are intelligent conditioning focused person any way but you have suffered massive trauma & slowly regulating back to balance... The healer that you are is a great & normal thing to want to be obviously because you are a conscious example for others & they can consciously follow your lead & improve consciously as well, you know that. I think your producing will take off & I'd love to see Caleb City & you in something one day :) Maya Deren made amazing films & I see some creative experiments in your future you are so smart! Have a great NYE angel!! Du ar vacker och underbara Leah & I'm glad you know your BF loves you he will keep bringing more people into your life your husband one day maybe.
3:47 I love my Patagonia coat too just genius design essential layer it has a female armor design on the shoulders & a moody stormy blue purple black its in my insta posts hes my hero we need more recycled clothing companies with the same level of design
This is a great example you set for your audience 5:00 me neither & I know you know that even fashion trends are headed that way (Gigi sportswear, Adidas, Nike all the brands even Kanye & his wife is like almost naked but she looks cool they help everyone be like "you know what ill look how the fuck I want" ) I see more & more people outside wearing gear & body revealing gear of all ages even to the store base layers & gear it is the fashion now to be be conscientiously athletic & healthy yes that is your nature mine too like even cool grandpas here in blue bases & pink hats & leather moccasins & they look good & comfy on our path here
Yes :) it is really important that now you know you have CalebCity (RUclips :) chops as yet another one of your pre-existing, & genetic skills (I could easily see you two making skits together super easily) & strengths. & yes you have only just begun, you are a child as yet but a baby (lol rolfmao) for real! SO- now you know you have production magic & talent over time = $ @@lifewithleahrue1247 You have 'it' we will all watch you grow. Yup..
Would love to touch base and ask your opinion about how Lucas would feel about someone who means well and looks after the communtiy but sells cannabis to them. Is this a conflict of interest? Is this wrong?
I guess I’m not really sure how to answer that. For some in recovery, I’ve heard that it can be helpful. For me, it only makes me feel worse and haven’t smoked in years.
@@lifewithleahrue1247 Thank you. That's kinda where it feels cannabis lands, helpful for some, and not so much for others. Still navigating the ethics though. Thanks for responding.
@@hiddengemzgamer5149 no problem! I also feel like it depends on where you live as well. In Minnesota, it’s legal. But selling it is a different thing obviously. It’s different for everyone but it might help some people stay away from other drugs!
8:40 Burberry is nice !! I think you would love DS & Durgas perfumes & also Persian shafayat by attar bazaar they are strong amber earth spice honey desert moon sun scents -- but intelligently, intelligently hypnotic so anyone around you cant act like a douche or a bitch you know I mean?? lol these are "KEEP YOUR SHIT IN CHECK" perfumes I shit you not ivebeen buying them my whole life
8:24 you have a very cool California 1960s young woman look a very Thomas Pynchon gravity rainbow look a v very dated Jim Morrison thing going on its really smart you wear big T-shirts like 60a shifts you just make them look that way There is a movie with Angela landfall called CQ or something she sports that look I too- yes me :) am good at that look art 6 foot I too am a mod
Hey Leah, I was wondering if there's a way to get in touch with you? I'm not a total weirdo 😄 don't worry. I just wanted to chit chat and get more personal. Also, do you have a PO box? Because I'd love to make you something! Much love 🤍 and thanks for the video ☺️
I do have a PO Box! If you’d like to send something I would write it to buffalo Speedway attention Leah Smith, PO Box 317 buffalo, mn 55313. You can add me on instagram if you’d like to chat! My instagram is shhleahh!
Ah! =D Lastly "2024 Leah being even- more- 100%-- right-- about shit than EVER before--- because these are the skills people want for the highest paying jobs." bingo Hej hej gott nytt ar engel! (I'm swedish your viking friend)
7:29 well you are also a brilliant content producer who would be awesome teaming up with @CalebCity imo id love to see you make some skits like that based off of your ideas
Just a suggestion Leah, you can have one of Lucas’s shirts made into a teddy bear. There is lots of places that do it, or you can get a pattern and do it. Have fun in your trip!
That’s a really good idea, might have to look into that! Thank you 🙏💕
I was just hiking in Arizona for a few weeks. Flat Iron mountain was amazing. I took a mindfulness book called 30 Days to Stop Giving a Sh*t by Corin Devaso and did some exercises from it while on hikes, it was a great time. The sunsets and cacti are mystifying, beautiful.
I’m hoping the weather cooperates! It might rain our first day there. Might need to pack a rain coat! I’ll have to tell my family about flat iron mountain. I’m sure they would be up for the adventure. I hope to see some beautiful sunsets while I’m there ☺️
Have fun girl ❤
Thank you! Going to try and make the best of this experience!
have fun on your trip! ✈
Thanks Emily!! 🤍 wish you could come with!
Love you girl ❤
🤍🤍
Hi Leah, Rue and Tux
Hi! Hope all is well 🤍
You know what actually helps with my anxiety? Listening to you talk lol. You have a calming, soothing presence. From an outward perspective, you don’t seem like an anxious person. Anyway, have fun in AZ
- Jake
Thank you, I’m happy to hear that! It’s so weird to me that people can’t tell I have anxiety but in reality, my heart rate is always in the 100’s, always sweaty and feel like can’t get the right words out. I made it to Arizona! Such a beautiful trip so far ☺️
I just love this,. I'm SO like you , I could NEVER make a video lol. And to see you come SO far, it's just AMAZING. You have overcame a fear, faced it head on and conquered it. I really think you doing these videos will help with your anxiety too. You can see the change from your first video to this one, ( and of course grieving makes it extremely hard, and the first one was right in the beginning of grief).
I have made so many improvements and had to take time to adjust to so many changes. It’s still hard but I do have a lot to look forward to which has been helpful. In every video, I have the worst anxiety. It does seem to be a little easier now but I’m still not 100% confident about it. I’ll get there with time.
You could have some of Lucas's ashes put in a necklace so he's always right near your heart ❤️. They have so many like glass, or tiny urns, and so many others. ( Also I LOVE your tatts, so beautiful)
I have thought about doing this!! Would be a great idea!
I really wanted to get a tattoo of a small skateboard with wings 🥺
9:00 'self care" seee!!! See!! Yes & boundaries too only let others into your life who support & protect your boundaries & that you mutually know ! You inspire us so much today with this amazing work. have a great trip. You are handling all these things exceptionally well as a Viking I would know :) Happy NYE!!
Have a safe trip . Hopefully we will get some footage of your vacation ❤❤
Thanks Becky! I will try to make a few videos while I am there and would love to share them with everyone ☺️
6:00 organic cold coffee prevents bad acid & supposedly cuts down on anxiety it is the only coffee I drink - Don Francis's organic cold coffee amazon 4 pots 8 pouches it is fun to make too like gingerbread houses I add soy which is really good for you & honey it is so nutty & yummy like a Thai iced coffee I grew up with but healthy
I should give organic coffee a try!
@@lifewithleahrue1247 I do not eat sugar I eat honey & yes I use Don Francis's organic cold coffee amazon 4 pots 8 pouches & spring water & 1/4th a bottle of honey & it lasts two three days & it is extremely mild compared to instant. I have instant in case of emergency or a climate emergency but I always feel super hopped up whereas the cold coffee is mellow & nutty & wakes me up & energizes me without the crash. Let me know what you think jr! - Your Viking mentor Amy
@@lifewithleahrue1247 btw your plant is just a dream I have some huge plants too I LOVE HUGE PLANTS :D caps!! lol..
12:00+ I lost someone & they are still around I dont know how but they are & he is watching over you & wants eternal happiness & love for you & that is all he is doing & he is just around you to help he will probably bring even more people into your life
he would be so proud of you right now for letting yourself be free in the worst time in human history & panning your future & growing & healing in such a dark time
He loves you so much
we never leave this planet
quantum science will hopefully advance & help us all understand why all this is happening in general
& remember out is okay to have anxiety but also it is just as true that some people try to make you anxious
& by using private trial & error you wil often realize that is what someone is doing You probably can tell when someone is doing that already but I am giving you permission as someone with the life experience that supports your vision & the vision of those like ours (mostly scientists) that as part of your self care it is okay so be a behavioral scientist & be smart & know & be able to prove when a woman or man is manipulating you these are valuable skills for high paying jobs .. right :D yup dont let any weirdos or criminals convince you other wise
1:00 + I literally did just that the other day: I paid to get something locked out open it is documented at my strava, only the second time in my whole entire life the last time when I was traveling (ironically again)
When I was in Detox years ago, I used a smoking patch and those are awesome. I had no desire to smoke at all. When I got out of there I continued smoking which was dumb but maybe you can try the patch. Many states have free programs for them. Hopefully yours does. Have fun in AZ and watch out for rattlesnakes.
I have never tried the patch. Might have to give it a try! I’ve tried lozenges which were helpful to an extent but they made me feel nauseous at times. Thank you and I sure hope I don’t run into a rattlesnake! I didn’t know they had them there!!
This is timely, needed this badly because Christmas season is stressing me. You have a calming energy, thank you friend.
The holiday season can be so stressful and exhausting. Glad you came across this video 🤍
2:00 the best part of your resolution you already know is you are ahead of the curve (!!!) you were built to last (your are a baby!!so young :) so yes time to act better than later) in the new year self care will keep Taylor-ing (Swift lol) to the top the list I think
Once you get it out of your system you will be mentally on all the time even more than ever & become an even better healer & mutualist formalist arbitrar-ialist
Hi Leah! I've recently watched some of your videos and I wanted to say how proud I am of you for opening up and being so vulnerable. It really is so awesome to see you making these videos and hearing your stories/thoughts. Wishing you all the best always ❤️
Bria
Hi Bria! I’m so glad you were able to watch some of my videos. That makes me happy to hear!! It’s been hard to open up but I feel so much better after I do. It’s helped me so much after loosing my boyfriend 🥺 hope you are doing well 🤍
@@lifewithleahrue1247 grief is an odd thing. Some days are bad and some days are great. Allow yourself to feel it all and know it's okay. It takes time, but time heals all. I'm sorry you are going through all of this and I'm happy doing this helps you!
5:20 "day 4 no caffeine" way ahead of me I drink organic cold coffee I really love it I dont know what im gonna so jealous of you lol
I caved today and had a cup of coffee this morning. So back to day 1 tomorrow!
@@lifewithleahrue1247 You have inspired me to try to evaluate if there are any risks associated with my caffeine consumption :/ :D :)* Yes moderation is a good start -- you are right YET AGAIN omg cheers :D :)* as they say in swedish Skol!
Hi Leah! Sending positive vibes your way! Keep your head up, try not to over think too much and BREATHE! You'll be ok. I never wrote down you ig and I couldn't go back and watch the live. Sorry. I will keep an eye out for your next live or video. ❤
Thank you Brian!! I saw you messaged me on instagram. I have been so busy and apologize for not getting back to you sooner.
4:00+ you are an athlete that makes sense me too leggings, like you & all the rest of us I often double up with two pairs base & leggings on top in the cold too you need free range of movement yoga etc yes
Leggings are my life! I don’t own a pair of jeans. I just like to be comfortable. And yes! They are great for yoga 🧘
@@lifewithleahrue1247 like you movement is central to to my life I used to horse back ride you look like a rider do you ride horses? Have a blast. I love mentoring you & I am glad that you can see that you are free to end up at this point in your life where I am very health focused responsible creative & a healer, a conditioned person. You are just trying to regulate what it is to be conditioned because you are intelligent conditioning focused person any way but you have suffered massive trauma & slowly regulating back to balance... The healer that you are is a great & normal thing to want to be obviously because you are a conscious example for others & they can consciously follow your lead & improve consciously as well, you know that. I think your producing will take off & I'd love to see Caleb City & you in something one day :) Maya Deren made amazing films & I see some creative experiments in your future you are so smart! Have a great NYE angel!! Du ar vacker och underbara Leah & I'm glad you know your BF loves you he will keep bringing more people into your life your husband one day maybe.
Also Jr as you are aware the compression in the leggings support our joints giving them longevity ive always worn them yup @@lifewithleahrue1247
Try the “easy way to quite vaping “ book! My husband actually quit 3 days ago after he read the book.
I will give it a read! I’m hoping to quit by the new year!
@@lifewithleahrue1247 he has adhd and can’t read but did the Audiobook and that worked !
@@lifewithleahrue1247 well he cannnn read but it’s rly hard for him 😂
3:47 I love my Patagonia coat too just genius design essential layer it has a female armor design on the shoulders & a moody stormy blue purple black its in my insta posts hes my hero we need more recycled clothing companies with the same level of design
With peace and love, you cute. 😊
🙏
Ways to reduce anxiety - sounds like this vid was made for me! Heh. You and both suffer with severe anxiety. Watching now!
Anxiety sucks so bad 😞 I wish there was a way to magically take all of our anxiety away. I’m glad you were able to watch the video 💕
Was that Luke’s purple shirt?
Yes 💔 I saved a few clothing of his. His purple shirt was my favorite. He looked great in that color 🥺
This is a great example you set for your audience 5:00 me neither & I know you know that even fashion trends are headed that way (Gigi sportswear, Adidas, Nike all the brands even Kanye & his wife is like almost naked but she looks cool they help everyone be like "you know what ill look how the fuck I want" ) I see more & more people outside wearing gear & body revealing gear of all ages even to the store base layers & gear it is the fashion now to be be conscientiously athletic & healthy yes that is your nature mine too
like even cool grandpas here in blue bases & pink hats & leather moccasins & they look good & comfy on our path here
0:49 you are a new time traveling pov self gaming charecter from the matrix that just suddenly appeared
I totally forgot to delete the second clip 😭😭 it kinda look cool tho 🤷🏼♀️
Yes :) it is really important that now you know you have CalebCity (RUclips :) chops as yet another one of your pre-existing, & genetic skills (I could easily see you two making skits together super easily) & strengths. & yes you have only just begun, you are a child as yet but a baby (lol rolfmao) for real! SO- now you know you have production magic & talent over time = $ @@lifewithleahrue1247 You have 'it' we will all watch you grow. Yup..
6:22 "Starbucks cold brew so strong" don franciscos is less strong ive had that fr
I love the cold brew with the sweet cream foam but after I drink it, it feels like my heart is going to beat out of my chest.
Would love to touch base and ask your opinion about how Lucas would feel about someone who means well and looks after the communtiy but sells cannabis to them. Is this a conflict of interest? Is this wrong?
I guess I’m not really sure how to answer that. For some in recovery, I’ve heard that it can be helpful. For me, it only makes me feel worse and haven’t smoked in years.
@@lifewithleahrue1247 Thank you. That's kinda where it feels cannabis lands, helpful for some, and not so much for others. Still navigating the ethics though. Thanks for responding.
@@hiddengemzgamer5149 no problem! I also feel like it depends on where you live as well. In Minnesota, it’s legal. But selling it is a different thing obviously. It’s different for everyone but it might help some people stay away from other drugs!
8:40 Burberry is nice !! I think you would love DS & Durgas perfumes & also Persian shafayat by attar bazaar they are strong amber earth spice honey desert moon sun scents -- but intelligently, intelligently hypnotic so anyone around you cant act like a douche or a bitch you know I mean?? lol these are "KEEP YOUR SHIT IN CHECK" perfumes I shit you not ivebeen buying them my whole life
I absolutely love my Burberry perfume. You only need one spritz and your good for the day 😊
@@lifewithleahrue1247 yes people forget what an awesome social tool perfume is :) not us!! :D
8:24 you have a very cool California 1960s young woman look a very Thomas Pynchon gravity rainbow look a v very dated Jim Morrison thing going on its really smart you wear big T-shirts like 60a shifts you just make them look that way
There is a movie with Angela landfall called CQ or something she sports that look
I too- yes me :) am good at that look art 6 foot I too am a mod
Hey Leah, I was wondering if there's a way to get in touch with you? I'm not a total weirdo 😄 don't worry. I just wanted to chit chat and get more personal.
Also, do you have a PO box? Because I'd love to make you something!
Much love 🤍 and thanks for the video ☺️
I do have a PO Box! If you’d like to send something I would write it to buffalo Speedway attention Leah Smith, PO Box 317 buffalo, mn 55313. You can add me on instagram if you’d like to chat! My instagram is shhleahh!
Ah! =D Lastly "2024 Leah being even- more- 100%-- right-- about shit than EVER before--- because these are the skills people want for the highest paying jobs." bingo Hej hej gott nytt ar engel! (I'm swedish your viking friend)
Hello , I'd like to update the thumbnails for your RUclips channel. Hopefully, this will help increase your click-through rate. How can I reach you?
7:29 well you are also a brilliant content producer who would be awesome teaming up with @CalebCity imo id love to see you make some skits like that based off of your ideas