@@steventay5834 Steven... the only thing that's really keeping me alive is worrying about my two dogs. What will happen to them? Who will care for them? Hang in there, Steven... You're not alone in this fight. We're brothers. Just remember; this is a one-way street. There's no turning back. Don't do anything "for spite"; beause, in the long run, no one really cares. No one understands this battle we are fighting. No one but us.
@debbiethibault9846. Hi. I too. Was very active and always on the go. ! Now... I've lost interest in everything. Hobbies, activities.. friends etc. I'm like disabled! Mentally I can't find words to describe depression. Im stuck? In ruminating negativity? I had multiple traumatic events that I couldn't handle.. and I lost it.
I have chronic depression including ASD/ADHD raised in a narc home suffering, I believed people had it worse. Depression is valid to every individual and should be treated better instead of invalid gaslit ❤
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Oh yes! and when seeking help for these &/or any other awful things, there's the fact that most doctors (they're actually TAUGHT to be this) are narcissists. 🤔😑
As someone who suffers with extreme severe anxiety I can totally relate to her. I would stop eating for days at a time as a punishment. I worry a lot about my life, everyone around me and pleasing everyone. It's absolutely crippling, so glad she got the help she needed, lovely young lady it's so sad that society has 1 in 3 people suffering mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about how mushrooms and psychedelics treats anxiety, but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, Doctor Greg Mushrooms he is a great man of God who has the great insight on psychedelic and mushroom. He will guide you on how to use mushrooms to get good trip.
I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with bipolar. Spent my whole life fighting bipolar. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I’m so sorry- I’m experiencing a very similar situation- I’ve been here several times in the past- I just keep relying on my past experiences. It does get better. Please don’t give up 🌻
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
It's hard. They never tell you how to take care of basic human bathroom needs! I lost everything from a broken lumbar and mold toxicity. I survived struggled but now... Covid secondary health issues made me wish I were in my past situation. I wish you safety and self belief. I hope you find truth in your struggles are more accepting than the lies that could make you feel worse.
@@tawnisboxtalk I lost my housing twice during the pandemic. It's been a struggle ever since. Especially with rents and cost of living skyrocketing like they did. It just makes it that much more difficult. In addition to trying to function and maintain my hygiene while out on the streets. I find myself dumping my urine jugs in parking lots, and dragging myself to the gym every few days for a shower. If I can even pay the gym membership bill. I'm just falling apart.
I have had 3 major depressions in my life starting at age 19. I have also had many years of high functioning depression. I was recovering from the 3rd depression when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I’ve had a year of treatment and am fine now. I’ve learned that depression was harder for me than cancer. When you have a physical illness people sympathize. When you have a mental illness, you hide it and people don’t know how to help. Insurance in the US doesn’t provide good coverage.
Very well spoken. Chronic post traumatic stress disorder is real and it is horrible. I've never really gotten any better. I wish you the best. Congrats on overcoming breast cancer. Blessings from a Kentucky grandma🙏
I always have said I'd rather have a physical disability rather than depression because at least then people could at least understand why I'm struggling to do anything 😢
@karamedley6229 I've been thinking this way also... I would rather be all broken up, .. at least I know I'll be fine .. that this all will heal, and I'll be able to continue living. This depression is so crippling mentally, it's destroyed my life, and my character. I'm so unable to do simple things, and with anhedonia,... there's no pleasure, or desire. It's taken the human out of me. Do you feel this way also?
I started to research mushrooms. Amazing! I've started growing, cooking small amounts of lions mane mushroom. It's easy from grow kits. It truly works. Can get it in powder and tincture form. Research it.
I can relate to all of these. After my infant son died, and his father,and my daughter's father I completely fell apart. I always suffered from depression and anxiety, but after the death's it became out of control. People think I'm just lazy, but I know it's not being lazy. Most don't understand. I'm happy to see I'm not alone or crazy through the comment section here.
People who never experienced depression/anxiety, cannot understand what a person is going through. They become judgmental against family members or others who suffer from depression.
@Diana-yn2ho Very true., I tried to explain, it's upsetting ,.. I can't just get over it. I'm suffering so horribly. Only the 988 calls, they understand. I've called too many times. I don't know if I can survive this torture
@@klanderkal - I feel bad for what you are going through. There so much discrimination against people who are suffering due to depression and other mental/emotional illnesses. Others who have never experienced this, think that it is just something a person is making up in order to gain the sympathy or attention of others or as an excuse. They also come up with this "low self-esteem" nonsense. They are equating the feeling of tiredness and weakness associated with depression as "low self-esteem". Incredible!
@Diana-yn2ho Thank you so much. Your words explain this very well. Thank you for caring about me 🙏 ... I tried so hard to go out... and buy food. I was so uncomfortable and felt fear in the store. I had to leave,.. as I was so indecisive. Also, I have horrible insomnia and hadn't slept in 3 days. It's so horrible.. to have anxiety, insomnia, and depression.!!! It's so unbearable. I try to act normal. You really can't explain in any words the dread.
@@klanderkal - I hope I have lifted up your spirit dear, and I will be praying for you and others like in your situation so that their lives may improve and can get help. Please take care of yourself and I wish you the best. 🤎🙏 Everything will work out, you'll see.
I am a 60 year old orthopedic surgeon and mine is a very demanding job.It all started when I was 17 along with OCD.Am glad that I made it this far but boy it is an every second battle.At times one feels totally drained .Continue fighting it out mates .Don't give up.Take care
My first 30 years were great, now I'm 55 and pretty much housebound due to depression and anxiety. I am actually trying to get disability right now because I cannot work. I have a lawyer helping me. I used to snow ski, skydive, play golf, and bowling. Now a big accomplishment for me is going to the store. By the time I'm done I'm usually so worn out I just go back to bed. My wife doesn't understand why. I've tried to explain to her that I have very little control over myself right now. And then the guilt kicks in.
I'm 36 and homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Happened to me at exactly 30 years old too...overwhelming anxiety mixed with depression. I'm 62 and am still trying to outwit the symptoms every damn day - it's exhausting.
@@Diana-yn2ho I just need housing... But all they want to do is stick me into a shelter full of alcoholics and drug addicts without any privacy. I've been begging for help for years since the pandemic but I'm just stuck going crazy out here.
I have been battling major chronic depression, anxiety and borderline traits for my entire life. I am now numb, I have no positive emotions left. I have a lot of support from psychiatrist, social worker and my family doctor. I have completed cognitive behavioral therapy at least 6 times . I have been on almost every anti-depressant medications and combinations. Nothing works. I am so tired. I have made it to 61 years, pretty sure this is as far as I go.
sorry you're struggling as well. but ya same here. I'm 48 and I am tapped out being there for everyone else with no one ever there for me, I'm just drained. I have barely anything left for myself at this point.and I am so tired(not physically) but In every other way, I don't have the energy, will or care to get up anymore. Dealing with the same illnesses, and also with the anhedonia, I'm absolutely void of any good, joy, or happy feelings, like no motivation at all, it's unbearable. I have no friends, no family that can bother to be bothered to listen or even be around. I just stay home alone, all day, barely existing at this point. I don't even have a pet. existing is exhausting. I'm just so done with everything at this point. ugh :(
Existing is indeed exhausting, as the earlier commenter said... And for me too, the available options of drugs are going closer to zero, so I bought powdered Psylocybe to take in micro/mini dosing (0.2 - 1 gram), thank goodness it’s not prohibited in my country (yet). My psychiatrist asked me to wait coz there’s still options for me to try, but I’m tired of this frightening rollercoaster of emotions. Wishing us all good luck.
I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was a child. I was adopted, SAed by my adopted dad repeatedly, was put into foster care and group homes and some were legit nightmares.I have been medicated since age 12.I'm also a type one diabetic. I've been on disability for 8 years. Depression is very real.I have little to no support system. I try to take life on a day to day basis.
I definitely have been feeling all these Symptoms. I’m 60. Losing my job / business has made it worse. I think keeping busy or having tasks to complete can help. After years of letting my house go down hill I’ve recently started cleaning and organizing everything. It is helping. Sometimes you have to start small and not get overwhelmed. Take breaks when you get tired. Focus on one area at a time. Also I’m cutting way back on alcohol. I want to feel like I used to. I’m committed to feeding normal again.
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
You're not crazy. I feel the same way. If you think you're crazy, you're not crazy. You have a disease called depression, as I do. I know it's miserable.😢
No, you're not crazy. Depression does not fit within the normal framework of an illness that medical people understand. I am not sure what that means, but my wife, a pharmacist, agrees. It isn't like an infection. People who call it an illness sit back and wait for a pill to come along. I call mine a disability, and like other disabled people, I go on with my life to the full extent that my condition permits. There isn't much that I cannot do at all.
Me too. My family and some friends just think I'm lazy. I have one family member who thinks all these symptoms make me incompetent and incapable of living on my own.
Watching this video l was reminded of some of the things l found hard. I could not tidy up, cooking was difficult, my personal hygiene was poor. I was single parent alone with no support from my family. Its easy to say reach out for help but l just couldn't do it. It was a horrible frightening time l will save this video to refer to if l suspect l am getting depressed again.
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Would not wish it on my worst enemy. Love to all those who have posted on here and wishing you healing. Had it myself in the past and had many years free of it. Always vulnerable to it again but no major episodes thank God.
I check off all these boxes. It feels a bit comforting finally putting a name to how I've been feeling. I was able to get up today, shower myself twice today, go to the gym, run errands, & clean. For those suffering with depression, that was such a huge accomplishment for me and all I can I do is thank God for the small wins. Currently battling w/ depression and anxiety after having to quit my toxic career. I dont regret my decison at all, in fact im much happier now but for some reason this depression has a grip on that I cant seem to shake off. Internally, I want to get up to do things & take care of myself but it like a "freeze". Going for long drives in my car & reading my bible everyday is how i've been coping.
WELL SAID 💯:!!!!! 👁️ STRONGLY believe that the LORD puts people in each other's paths for reasons that vary, WELL, 👁️'VE CROSSED WITH YOU , THAT SEEM TO HAVE , UMMM... 👁️ GUESS , SOME TYPE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT FOR ME !!! 👍🏽 THANK YOU!!! p. S. You now have'1 FOLLOWER & SUBSCRIBER PURPLE 💜 GIRL DETROIT MICHIGAN
This video is 100% true! I have so many days that I don't even want to answer the phone and only eat quick stuff just because I'm hungry, showering really is a daunting task too, and don't even get me started on even simple chores!
I could say the same about myself.! Exactly. I'm so unable to do anything at all,... or go anywhere. I don't want visitors, calls, or texts. My physical health has declined horribly. I only eat PBJ, or easy snacks. Personal hygiene ..? Shower etc... its like you said. It's like being mentally paralyzed, with no desires. Are you like this as well? 😢
"If this is how you want to live your life," was a statement made to me. No, this is not how I want to live my life. This is what severe depression is. It's not fun. That statement almost pushed me over the edge, as I have suicidal ideations as well. We all have to remember that most people can't understand mental health issues. I still have that friend, and I trust her a lot less. And that is sad.
@@pamlucas7694 That's exactly what I said. It frustrated me to hear that for someone I loved, and I thought they loved me, too. It makes you wonder why you are alive. I pray you don't have to hear this. Take care and talk back to me if you want to.
@LtRee96se I agree with you. It's Not how I want to live. It's really not living. It's torture. I too have to same feeling... my own brother. Makes me feel 100x worse. He sees im mentally disabled, unable to leave the apt., extremely unhappy, distressed, ... and knows I lost everything including my career job. Still no empathy. I hate it, when they say Snap out of it, move on... etc. I have no words to say.... that they could understand.. 😩
@pamlucas7694 exactly.!! I kept hearing that from those who have no idea. Trying to explain, just made me feel so much worse... It's humiliating... to me. Do you get the, let it go, move on? Also.
Yes, all 8 of these items are sure signs of long- time depression. I can say this because I have lived all these things for 76 years and I recognize myself clearly. I read constantly, everything I see, I read. But I’ve never seen this list before now.
I dunno anymore. This video describes my life to a tee yet the life I lead is ok. By that I mean, I've accepted myself for being myself and whether or not I'm depressed or not doesn't matter. My house is a mess, untidy and cluttered and needs a good clean and I've long since given up ideas about having a career and a family... sounds bad but I've come to accept that over the years. I know it'd be too much for me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't berate myself for not being able to do the so-called 'normal' things most people take for granted as described in this video. I've found a way to live with depression and even hold down a job even though I know I could do more with my life if I felt well enough. But that's the real problem, feeling empty inside and feeling tired. That's what drags me down and makes life seem like a real struggle at times. Anyway, that's my experience of it.
Chris I so relate your not alone …wish there was a way we could help each other… meds are useless for me I don’t sleep but like you I have resigned myself as I have a special needs daughter who will be alone if I die sending you hugs and prayers
Since ive stopped seeing my friends my mental health went upward so fast. Now i can do what i like, at the places i like. Watch what i like and listen to what i like. Spent 25 years doing what everybody around me wanted to do. The next 25 is going to be about what i want to do and love. Friends can de deadly.
Depression , anxiety, CPTSD has ruined me. I cant work or have relationships at all. I have suffered all my life with these ailments. Now i have stage 3 kidney disease which makes it worse. Was diagnosed in 2021 with it from contracting Covid.
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
At one time I showered every day. At the time of this writing I literally cannot remember the last time I showered; I think it has been at least a couple of months.
All of the above. It’s been a rugged two years for me. I went from being a neat freak to one of the biggest slobs around. I do not eat like I should and it is starting to affect me badly. I seem to be coming out of it bits at a time now. This video helped me to see things a little clearer. Thank you.
I have depression and OCD which I’m getting help with. But what I hate is people telling me what I need to do to get over it such as go for a walk. Seriously I don’t have the energy to brush my teeth. What makes you think I have the energy to go for a walk?
@dianabrinco, at 64 I don't feel like I have any close friends right now either. I live near my older brother, his wife and their 2 daughters, but I basically just see or talk to my brother and a niece who lives about 200 miles from me, we talk about once a week. I also have 2 small dogs that are companions to me. I have to take them for a walk at least twice a day and feed them. They are better companions to me right now than a person would be. People seem to irritate me at times. Being older I have got to enjoy my solitude more at times and I probably spend too much time on RUclips writing or reading comments. Hang in there, life to me is like a teeter totter with its ups & downs. Prayer & reading the Bible help me and I listen to videos like this one.
@@Jensen1959 Very well said. I'm older than you; I'm 84. I'm in the nineth inning of this ol' ball game. I share your feelings completely. I have two dogs. They are my "purpose in life" right now. I much prefer the company of dogs (in general) to that of people. Especially, those folke who "have all the answers". Stay well and stay safe, my friend... Marty
Depression, worry, my husband and dad died on the same day 3 hours apart a few months ago. My uncle and Godfather passed last month. I am in a wheelchair and cannot work as an ICU RN, for the last 2 years. Desperately awaiting disability approval. You save someone else's life and strangers lives for 24 years at work and you can't get anybody to help save your own. Soon we'll have nowhere to live, they already took our cars away I have no income and two teenage girls I physically can't walk or stand so I have to ask for everything from my kids and it is not fair to them. I basically don't leave the bedroom anyway so you need any advice on any of the above I'm here to tell you, sadness, the grief Cloud that always seems to rain every day out of my eyes, and pain 24/7, has taken my life and my soul away
Oh my bless your heart! Hopefully somehow things can turn around for u. I can't imagine dealing with all of that. I have depression n I don't think my husband really understands but he is a very good man n has always treated me good. At least I have him.❤
Depression is very difficult to endure. I had a stressful event, that caused insomnia and insomnia. The Stress escalated, and I made very bad decisions... I lost my career job,... I feel into depression,.. it's so horrible. 😢
IVE noticed you feel like there's no hope when ever I lesson to Gospel music I can pull myself out of the rut washing dishes while lessoning to Gospel music praising Him helps me 😊❤God Bless Everyone Amen
@Thenogomogo-zo3un Having no family is better than having wealthy family with all the free time in the world, yet you get no support from them, only bragging about how great their lives are. Adds insult to injury, I just want to tell them to shut the hell up.
6:52 Thanks for sharing. I am 64 years old and have been taking anti- depressants for at least 20 years. I have dealt with death, moving & divorce in the past 10 years. After my sister & best friend died in 2020 & 2022 of COVID-19 I have felt tired & non energetic.My doctor is young and didn't want to increase the dosage of my anti-depressant medication. I work part-time and my employer has been good to me since my sister died with taking time off from work. I have had insomnia along with depression so I have a difficult time getting up in the mornings.If I do sleep I wake up feeling tired and like I have brain fog. My doctor scheduled me to have a sleep study in case my tiredness might be caused from not getting a restful sleep. The suggestion of being patient & kind to myself during the times I have trouble functioning is a good one. Especially when it comes to missing work. Thanks for this video. It helped me put things in a better perspective.
I'm suffering in many ways as you. I'm 62. After the sad divorce,. I lost my home. Then I lost all my family members and 2 close friends. I was filled with so much grief. I wasn't functioning well. I made a crucial mistake at my workplace,....and lost my career job. It was all I had left! I had panic attacks, and kept collapsing. Psychiatrist said I really was in bad shape. Ptsd, severe anxiety, chronic insomnia, and severe depression. I don't enjoy living anymore. I don't move... like as if I'm in shock. I don't have interest in anything at all. .... I don't like being like this anymore
I have suffered chronic, moderate to severe depression since puberty. For many years I self medicated, only making the depression worse. I have found if I wait until I begin feeling better to do the things you list, I remain in a downward spiral of depression and isolation. I have to "act as if," just tell my depression to get in the back seat, we are going anyway. When I act enthusiastic about doing healthy activities, guess what? I begin changing my mood. For me, the number one treatment of my chronic depression is achieved through diet, exercise and spirituality. To excuse my staying in bed watching meaningless t.v. as part of my illness, only keeps me depressed. One old person's opinions only.
I agree with you on not waiting to do something until you feel like. Once I start to do something the motivation will be there. But I have to start. . .
@@jeffstepp-ou8re seriously. That's all doctors would do for me as well. Just medicate me into oblivion. I have this fantasy of actually sleeping through the night and waking up rested and excited to see another day. It hasn't happened in 43 years. I feel like I'm just waiting to die.
@@shadowfax9177 I wonder what that would feel like myself, life is so precious, but right now I couldn't care less about living. I take 4 different meds for anxiety and depression. Spent 6 months going to a therapist. All she wanted me to do is eat better and do homework.
I struggle with depression. I hate cleaning, but eventually I get tired of looking at the mess and decide to do something about it. It feels good afterwards and gives me some self worth
Only too well do I understand what you're dealing with. I'm living in a horrible, cluttered mess right now. No energy or ambition to do anything about it.
@@Lorrainecats Hello "Lorrainecats"... I hope you have kitty cats and I hope they bring you some measure of happiness. I have two dogs and they are my world. They are both spoiled-rotten...
It is the same old same old story. If we can sit down quietly and look around at what's going on in our world. There is so much pain and suffering which is unbearable. We only look at ourselves and say poor me. Together with a priest or pastor search for answers. Sincere prayers has never let you down. It gives you a reason and a purpose to take each day as it comes. Reach out to people in need whatever it is. It can give you so much joy you forget your own problems. There's lots of lonely people in institutions. Old people and even orphans. No matter what I face each day the moment I put Gospel TV on for hours I'm a new person and everything else is forgotten. God is Good. I am 72 years old and I live alone. But never lonely. God bless.
I have been dealing with Depression since I was 12 years old. I am High Functioning and I can complete all 8 of these, though sometimes sluggishly or with some procrastination. There are so many different levels of Depression, so those of you viewing this vid, don't believe you don't have depression if you can still complete the tasks listed.
I've lost many good opportunities in my adolescence due to depression, but I can't just sit down and cry. I'm going to be 18 in a few months, so I just want to enjoy the time I have left with my friends and the ones I love. One important thing I've learned too is to not take life and stuff so seriously. Really, we live everyday, life is just one and can end today or maybe in like 50 years. For everyone who struggle too, try to see an possibility in everything, set goals, but don't try so hard, it's all part of a process. Someday you look back and see that things have changed, maybe you're gonna laugh, maybe you're gonna cry, but what matters most is that you're still here fighting for something!!! Keep on people, were gonna make it one day
I have the most severe form of depression. I have been on different medications for almost 20 years. I'm currently on 2 antidepressants and medication for anxiety and insomnia and this is where I get the least amount of support because everyone else thinks that I am on too much medication. My therapist says that I don't have to explain my medication but I tell people that it's like telling someone that they should stop taking insulin for their diabetes. The medicine I am on is keeping me from harming myself. I also need emotional support animals I had 2 cats but lost one of them to cancer and it has not been easy for me losing him. So now I have situational depression on top of my clinical depression. Life sucks but I am not my diagnosis, I am still a person but I'm learning to deal with my limits. If you read this know that life is better with all of us in it and the pain you feel today will be less on some days and more on others. Never be afraid to reach out to someone if you are feeling overwhelmed or more sad or hurting more than usual.
I'm hurting suffering horribly from depression. Caused by multiple traumatic events... then under overwhelming stress, I made very bad decisions/mistakes... and I lost my career job of 20yrs.! I'm so devastated. I've called 988. I don't want to go on anymore! How can you handle for s long? 😢🫶
@@klanderkal it hasn't been easy. I struggle every day. I have been passively suicidal in the past and attempted to kill myself twice while in a dissociative state. Until I understood what was happening with me, like the dissociations, I didn't know how to ask for help. I didn't know that I could ask for help. I also have had some great therapists and a great doctor. So in my 20 year battle, I identified what my diagnosis is ( major depressive disorder, PTSD with suicidal ideation), I learned my triggers and I learned coping mechanisms to help keep me grounded and then if I felt like harming myself I would have to look at myself in the mirror and rate from 0 to 10(0 being not worth it to 10 being worth it) on whether or not it was worth losing my job, my home, my family and friends to cause myself harm or commit suicide and my answers were usually no it wasn't worth it. We all have ways that help us cope. Some journal( I can't because I write like someone is going to read it and end up censoring myself), some join church, some people write songs or poetry, listening to music and having a good cry every now and then helps me. Check your area for mental health services to see if you can find a therapist that meets your needs, if you are unable to work you can apply for disability from SSI, I did that for a while until I could return to work. Find 1 or 2 people who you can contact anytime day or night if you start feeling like you want to end it so they can help talk you through what you are feeling. Anxiety and depression feed off each other and can create a vicious cycle of unwanted thoughts and feelings of worthlessness so it's important to find what works for you to make it stop. The world would be made the less by your loss, stay with us ❤️
@restlessrespiratorytherapi7921 Thank you so much for caring,...and your reply. ... I have reached out. Bit, they're too.. having difficulty with my situation. I have lost SO much... not only my career job I loved. , but my family as well, 4 last members of my family past, the same month as my job loss. I just lost my life savings from an investment crash,.. and my home as well. I had recently gone through a heartbreaking divorce.... I was barely hanging on.... but, loosing my career job, was too much. I'm so upset with myself, as it was my fault. It could have been prevented.... I just blew it, and want to blame everyone. I've been having suicide thoughts all the time. I'm in contact with 988, and VA crisis, and Here Tomorrow suicide counseling. I have that ptsd,... the severe anxiety and depression. I don't sleep, and I have no joy of living. I have hobbies and interests... but, depression ( anhedonia).. stole them as well..
My family told me recently that depression is not real, they don't believe in it, and it doesn't exist. That I should draw on my inner strength. Just talk myself out of it. Wow, lots of family support there. I was shocked when they told me that, and was down hearted and now I'm worse off than I was.
@@feline501 - They don't know because they never experienced it. Instead of being understanding and doing some research on depression, they blame the individual. People like to put others down because in reality they are the ones with the inferiority complex. They like to trample on other people to make themselves look good.
@@feline501- I feel bad for people who suffer from depression. Those who never experienced it cannot understand what the person is going through. Some people interpret it as a lack of self esteem and similar hogwash. I hope you and Steven (the other poster) can get counseling to overcome your depression.
I have found having years of deprssion and still going through it , that the ones who should be supporting you the most are the ones that support you the least . And that makes life all the more harder .
I wish the SSA would quickly recognize severe depression as an actual debilitating condition... I've been out of work for 4 years now, surviving on $400/month from state insurance. I was homeless for 2 years, living in my car...and even so, they decided I wasn't "as disabled as" I thought I was. Now I'm waiting another 2+ years after re-applying for them to make another decision, hopefully in my favor. No one wants to be dead broke and not functional for years! I paid into SSA for nearly 40 years, and for what...?!
Much of my depression stems from an extremely traumatic childhood that involved all forms of abuse, especially sexual and emotional. I have a tendency to blame myself especially when others are being manipulative.
I try to clean up, or cook, but I get over whelmed. I am good at taking care of myself, except forgetting to eat.. I still love music, but nothing else
I have all these difficulties except for parenting cause I'm single. I can add several points on the list, such as: can't make even a simple plan, don't want to go outdoors, feel no emotions at all, obsessed with useless information such as time/temperature/humidity/weather, can't tolerate any noise/human voices... the list would go on and on.
People need to know that the fatigue can come from a physiological reason (not a mindset issue at all) - there actually is a neurotransmitter that enables people to take action, and it can decline. There are also hormonal issues that can cause depression, thyroid in particular. Be sure your doctor uses the European scale to measure the results on tests of thyroid function, it is more accurate (thanks, insurance companies). If you can manage to walk, it's much better to walk outside (see SAD study by University/WA Seattle) because being outside gives the body what it urgently needs to correct itself, exposure to the Schumann Resonances (they don't go through walls into houses). If you can walk barefoot or in moccasins without rubber in the bottoms, you will feel even better. The longer the depression continues, the more your blood flow decreases to the higher cortical areas, so you may increasingly have trouble thinking well, so please reach out to friends and family to ask for help with all these things. It may feel embarrassing, but nobody feels embarrassed to ask for help with other health issues, and this counts - you matter!!
I been dealing with bipolar disorder, though in the past few decades, it's been more of depression. I also have always dealt with being learning impaired and dealing with ADD and OCD. With problems like these, where there is only so much mone can do, it makes for a long miserable life, no matter what. As far as the "self blaming", I admit to some of that, but it has mostly been everyone else blaming me. I'd be blamed for "being stupid", "slow", "lazy", and so many other things that I couldn't and still can't get a handle on. My moods are always going to cycle, regardless of medication and therapy. Diet, exercise, healthy sleep patterns and constantly self checking my attitude toward life, helps me some. But all in all, I really am my worst critic about things. For things that I am the best at, I am my worst hardest coach and critic. That being said, to make my life less overwhelming, I focus on being the best musician that I can be, even if I still never took my talent anywhere. This way, I slack in other areas of my life, but focus on what is most important to me. I can't only concentrate on so much in my life. I struggle to stay focused on things too, even music. I have to keep taking breaks so I don't get burnt out and then ultimately discouraged enough to leave it alone and give up for months at a time if I'm not cautious enough. It's sucks when others always seem to be around when I screw up, but no one ever sees what I do well. Between all these things and tons more, not to mention traumatic events, all my life long, and severe rheumatoid arthritis, I have amounted to nothing. It's almost like, I'm just waiting to die. The Good Lord above can take me home whenever he wants. I hope it's soon. I'm done with this stint.
Me as well. I have obligations. Maybe if you have a lot of money or someone else who can bring an income in to pay the bills, you can stay at home and recover. I think that the descriptions are very accurate but so e of the advice isn't practical.
@lisanidog8178 I simpasise and agree with you both. I'm so unable to do anything at all,.. just the thought is exhausting. I've never looked so bad.... person hygiene no longer is priority. I just hate the anhedonia. Not being able to feel pleasure in anything I used to... depression is just so horrible... only those with it understands. 😔
i was diagnosed with chronic depression about 25 years ago. I take 2 antidepressants, but they don't seem to be working as well as they should. People who don't deal with depression don't understand how frustrating it is and how people feel about themselves. My husband passed 2 years ago from Parkinson's Disease. Grief is unending and losing a spouse is especially traumatic. I don't like being around people like I used to and I don't go many places. I do volunteer at the local humane shelter, and this actually is the only thing that makes me happy.
I understand what it's like. Been chronically & majorly depressed ever since my dad died when I was 3. My last dog was the only one who brought me pure love & joy for 17 years. I'm hoping to volunteer/work at animal shelters/rescues someday soon. Animals are the most AMAZING thing God created! 💕🐕🐈🌈🌞🙏
I don’t like the term depression but I’ve struggled with these things since watching my 44 year old wife suffer and die from a four month struggle with cancer nearly two years ago Grief is hard
I remember I was depressed once. I would never kill myself, but during that depression I was indifferent to life. Life seemed to hold nothing left worth experiencing, and while I might not take my life, I wouldn’t have cared if I had died. It would have almost seemed welcome🥀 and I am a person whose life has been filled with optimusm and joy (except those few months). I will offer this; ehil death might seem like a welcone respite, it isn’t and….sooner or later, you’ll come out on the other side. If you’re not on psyc dope, don’t start. Ride it out. You got this!
Chronic depression has no cure it can only be treated,I know this from personal experience as a person who has lived with this psychiatric illness for over 25 years,you will never quote on quote "recover" from depression,unless you never had it to begin with,were misdiagnosed,or had a temporary type of depression called situational depression,for example,situational depression would be if your dog died,or your gf broke up with you,or you lost your job,these are things that you can recover from with a good support group,therapy,time and maybe even medication,chronic lifelong depression however,is a completely different beast,one that you will struggle with for the rest of your life,there is no recovering from that type of depression,no matter what you do and to say you can "recover" from lifelong chronic depression is absolutely ludicrous and insulting to those of us who live with life long chronic depression
With my depression I did not rest enough. Even though I could hardly do much, I kept trying and that in itself was overdoing and working against my recovery. Also I had developed ME/CFS just before the depression and PEM was mistaken for more depression. Now I know and practice radical rest.
Many times I feel like something inside me is dead and tired from deep inside......I hate to love myself and just waking up in the morning and waiting for night to come so that I can sleep and again one day of my life is gone and aging waiting for another day to pass by. I have not been living just my body is living...I have tried things to heal but bad days really make me more worst
I like your comment. It describes me in a way. I had extreme losses , trauma, deaths, and my career job loss... I just lost it. I collapsed. Diagnosed with ptsd, anxiety, insomnia and severe depression. It's as if my life has ended. I don't want to be alive anymore. I just suffer. I've never known,.. how devastating mental illnesses are. Depression is unbearable. I've called 988 many times. .. do you also? .. im not handling this well.
@shiwanibhattarai1376 I read your comment again today... It really represents me exactly. ... I also have insomnia.. so I don't hardly slept at all.... but those 1-2 hrs.. are the only time living that's not torture. What do you do?... every day? ... I don't do anything anymore 😕
Hummm @@klanderkal life is hard....I too wake up some days just to wake and eyes are open but deep delving there is extreme tiredness. I have been trying some breathing nowadays though it is hard to keep up......
@shiwanibhattarai1376 if I sleep,.. I awaken into a horrible panic. I have horrible anxiety, from loosing my career job. I cannot accept my life without it. I just can't move on. That's why I sunk into severe depression. All the activities I did before work, like the coffee shops, the gym., the beach run/swim I did every day before work,.. now have no meaning or purpose. It's like my reasons for living have completely died. It's like my life has ended. I don't want to live like this anymore. Im helplessly watching my mind, body, health decline, and im mentally paralyzed to do anything.... It's bad. Are you this way also... ?
I get depression once a year with SAD. For years it has fortunately only lasted two days each time. I have so much empathy for those who suffer all the time. I had no idea until I had the SAD.
You didn't mention suicidal ideation. I deal with most of those other symptoms, but sometimes I just wish I could let go and leave everything behind. It's not something I can discuss with my family, only with my therapist who in turn changes or increases my meds. And changes like that can take months to have an effect.
@@sharminiserasinghe3293that's a good answer. I too feel the same. I've called 988 too many times. It's so unbearable in so many ways. Just existing... is unbearable
I am cooking for myself. I eat a balanced diet. I wash the dishes thats it what i can do for myself. Other things, i cannot do. It is all true! 😢😢😢😢😢 it is a cery bad feeling. Good luck to everyone to overcome this feeling and feel better. LOL❤❤❤❤❤
When the lockdowns tookmy job away. At 70years old...lost my house ans car...moved to my daughter..I couldn't do anything. I went right down....now when I listen to music I cry...I was a musician and teacher..
I, too, lost my job and everything else. It was so crushing. It was everything to me. I didn't ask for anxiety and depression.! ... its do disturbing I just stress terribly. Caused insomnia... I don't sleep anymore... I just suffer. I don't even want to watch TV.
@patriciacestare232 Those are my exact words. I've been saying. You really understand. ... you know, no matter what anyone, the psychologist, friends/ neighbors, pastor's, suicide 988 counselors say.. it doesn't bring back what you've lost. Verbal comforting only bandades my torn apart heart and life. *When you're life, is taken away There's no way you are the same. ..
@patriciacestare232 I'm sorry for your situation and the suffering you are experiencing. Loosing your job, can take so much away from a person. It can completely destroy you. You really enjoyed your music, but nolonger feel it's enjoyment as before... im sorry that's happened to you. I too, lost my passion for working out, swimming and working on my VW. It's as if my life was taken from me. I too went down after loosing my job. I really loved it, and the coworkers and friends. Depression is like quicksand. It's so unbearable for me... T.Y. for sharing, I'm not the only one devastated from loosing their job. ⚘️💙🙌
Aww I feel for ya. Maybe you could give free lessons on line and it might lead to something. I feel guilty when I listen to music cos I'm not doing it!
You have to work to keep a roof over your head, especially if you are alone. I suffer from depression had a stroke and wasn't able to work. Followed by brain surgery. Wasn't able to pay mortgage and home was going into foreclosure.
My depression wafted away after someone prayed for me. My encouragement came from knowing that even if nobody else understood how ill I was, God himself did. (I am a person of faith anyway, which helped me through it). That was enough for the healing process to start. And it started with first writing down how I felt, after that I began to take an interest in cooking, and cooking tasty meals from a few healthy ingredients that didn't cost a lot was a huge bonus. After six months I was well enough to start working part-time. It also helped that I worked with one person who saw the value in what I could do and encouraged me. All in all, answers to prayer!
I don’t blame myself I was made to feel useless was called useless no matter how much I tried I wasn’t good enough they my parents and husband never appreciated me
Out of everything mentioned, the video saving money for me was actually easy when I got depressed because all I did was sleep wake up go to work go to bed right after and not do anything and I would stack up lots of money without even realizing it
I wish I had found this video earlier. And I wish some people would watch it and could understand what more and more people have been struggling with. The worst thing is that you want to do or manage your life as you previously did (happily) but you cannot. You would need to lean on persons who emotionally support you but sometimes you find total incomprehension instead. 😢 *Sorry for my English*
What? I can't be bothered to tidy my room, cook my own food, and deal with the challenge called life that EVERYONE is born into and has to deal with so .. give me free money. Jeez, everything that's wrong with the modern world.
Yep, I've made the decision to stay alone because drepression always makes it harder when someone else is in your life. Cleaning up, going out and meeting people and especially cooking. I used to make really good meals (Nothing like it sounds you're capable of though), and then depression comes and even remembering or following a recipe becomes impossible. Then even the slightest criticism drives you even further into depression. Being alone, you do criticise yourself a bit, but it's more bearable because there isn't another person relying on you. I hope you get though this and get to start making those awesome dinners again!
I have depression myself. I just got around to vacuuming my room, today, even though it needed it a few days earlier. I also struggle with the whole meeting people thing.
At least you have a room. I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
@@chantelcuddemi7646 It's nearly impossible to function and be reliable or consistent like this. Everyday is a struggle just to survive and stay sane and out of trouble. Plus, every little thing is extra difficult and/or expensive, since I don't have running water or electricity, and constantly have to drive around to different places just to maintain my hygiene. Then sometimes people wake me up in my car when I'm trying to sleep.
Well done for vacuuming your room! I know that felt better. Yes it was a hard thing to do, but some days you can do hard things. You just proved it. 😊 As a former sufferer, I can say that gardening was a big help in my recovery.
That's funny in North Carolina, I have not found a friend in an apartment complex of 450 apartments. I have lived here for 5 years. Not for lack of trying.
My son suffers from depression and anxiety, he hasn’t had a job for years now, he is 57 years old, it breaks my heart, but I don’t know how to help him. He refuses to see a doctor to get some help, and seems to blame the world for everything wrong in his life.😢
It all comes down to a root cause...no one is born that way its because of certain aspects of the person's life that no one will ever understand but if they try they know they will be beaten down as weak because they know what is about to unfold but can't stop the fall out when it happens
The hardest part is trying to explain it to others. The people who used to be supportive and kind turn away sometimes. They get frustrated and move on because they don't understand our need for peace and quiet and for "not wanting to engage" in activities we used to enjoy.
There should be a number 9- Not meeting or calling family after a family death. My father in law passed away last year and I have not talked or seen him this past year,except for 1 day. My husband has 1 sister and 1 brother. We keep in regular touch with my sister in law so there is no problem there. My brother in law feels like he was not a good brother to my husband and his sister and he deeply regrets not spending time with his dad before he died. Since money and travel distance was a big part of coming down to visit his father, he feels like a complete failure. We are kind of in the same boat as my husband is the older brother. I told him that after my own mother died, he should make the time to be with his dad as much as possible. There were times my husband went over and just sat in his house to talk to him and other times my husband did what his father wanted to do. And I have to say that going over there multiple times in a month was pretty expensive for the gas, but he has ABSOLUTELY no regrets on spending time with his dad. I know that my brother in law HIGHLY regrets this and through this depression still doesn’t keep in contact with us at all. I do pray for his mental health as well as his connection with his siblings. Hopefully when we have our annual Christmas party, he and his family will be able to come to it.
Unfortunately, I suffered from Agoraphobia for 7 yrs in my 40s -50s plus Major Depression & anxiety. Therapy, friends, meds helped. In my 70s now, just ok,only meds now. Friends died,but bounce along as well as I can.
Brought a friend that was going through a bad divorce to a Zumba class. She couldn't do it. U have to feel a little good to dance she didn't know she couldn't until she was there
Always I say that the most tragic event in life is not death, instead the tragedy in life is what dies inside while we are alive.
I'm an old man. (84) I've dealt with depression most of my adult life. Now, I'm just waiting to die...
@@martyham10 Same. I am waiting to die peacefully in my sleep
@@steventay5834 Steven... the only thing that's really keeping me alive is worrying about my two dogs. What will happen to them? Who will care for them? Hang in there, Steven... You're not alone in this fight. We're brothers. Just remember; this is a one-way street. There's no turning back. Don't do anything "for spite"; beause, in the long run, no one really cares. No one understands this battle we are fighting. No one but us.
Good call!
@@Tinyteacher1111 Thank you for replying to me... This "illness" stinks!
The worst feeling when you finally wanna do stuff but still have no energy 😢
I’ve never been one to just sit around and now that’s all I do. I’ve lost all interest in everything.
@debbiethibault9846. Hi. I too. Was very active and always on the go. !
Now... I've lost interest in everything. Hobbies, activities.. friends etc.
I'm like disabled! Mentally
I can't find words to describe depression. Im stuck? In ruminating negativity?
I had multiple traumatic events that I couldn't handle.. and I lost it.
Is that why you stalk & harass people to feel like you made it in life 😂😂 are you depressed looking for an escape? Makes sense
You don't need energy to get busy, when you get busy you get energy.
@@debbiethibault9846 same here
Depression , anxiety , diabetes , stress , dealing with narcissistic individuals make life difficult .
I have chronic depression including ASD/ADHD raised in a narc home suffering, I believed people had it worse. Depression is valid to every individual and should be treated better instead of invalid gaslit ❤
I hear ya ,ex wife is all that n bipolar with multiple personality disorder
Getting raised in narc or dysfunctional family might cause constant depressions during your entire lifetime
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Oh yes! and when seeking help for these &/or any other awful things, there's the fact that most doctors (they're actually TAUGHT to be this) are narcissists. 🤔😑
As someone who suffers with extreme severe anxiety I can totally relate to her. I would stop eating for days at a time as a punishment. I worry a lot about my life, everyone around me and pleasing everyone. It's absolutely crippling, so glad she got the help she needed, lovely young lady it's so sad that society has 1 in 3 people suffering mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help
People need to realise that people with anxiety disorders have oversensitised nerves, it's not a simple case of manning up and getting over it.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about how mushrooms and psychedelics treats anxiety, but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, Doctor Greg Mushrooms he is a great man of God who has the great insight on psychedelic and mushroom. He will guide you on how to use mushrooms to get good trip.
Please, how do I reach doctor Greg?
He’s on the internet
My heart goes out to those with depression. I am so sorry.
Don't. And don't listen to this nonsense. And never believe a psychiatrist or therapist. Take this from experience. This is all BS.
Summers make me even more depressed……I love dark, stormy, rainy and snowy days. Depression is a thief, it has robbed many of us of a real life.
Finally one of most realistic and non cliche video on depression
My thoughts exactly!
Mine too
Excellent advice I've not seen elsewhere. Don't be around people and rest. 👍
It's a shame none of it is true.
I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with bipolar. Spent my whole life fighting bipolar. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I used to love music and was always reading crafting cooking now it’s all gone
Anhedonia. I am sorry.
I can relate 😢
I’m so sorry- I’m experiencing a very similar situation- I’ve been here several times in the past- I just keep relying on my past experiences. It does get better. Please don’t give up 🌻
Me too music was thing 😢
Ne except on u tube thats the only way I 🎶 😢
Every thing you said is ME!! I’m so tired of putting on the mask. 💔💔💔
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
I'm truly sorry
You're a beast mate. Fair play to you!
I hope your situation improves soon x
It's hard. They never tell you how to take care of basic human bathroom needs! I lost everything from a broken lumbar and mold toxicity. I survived struggled but now... Covid secondary health issues made me wish I were in my past situation. I wish you safety and self belief. I hope you find truth in your struggles are more accepting than the lies that could make you feel worse.
@@tawnisboxtalk I lost my housing twice during the pandemic. It's been a struggle ever since. Especially with rents and cost of living skyrocketing like they did. It just makes it that much more difficult. In addition to trying to function and maintain my hygiene while out on the streets. I find myself dumping my urine jugs in parking lots, and dragging myself to the gym every few days for a shower. If I can even pay the gym membership bill. I'm just falling apart.
I have had 3 major depressions in my life starting at age 19. I have also had many years of high functioning depression. I was recovering from the 3rd depression when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I’ve had a year of treatment and am fine now. I’ve learned that depression was harder for me than cancer. When you have a physical illness people sympathize. When you have a mental illness, you hide it and people don’t know how to help. Insurance in the US doesn’t provide good coverage.
Very true.
Very well spoken. Chronic post traumatic stress disorder is real and it is horrible. I've never really gotten any better. I wish you the best. Congrats on overcoming breast cancer. Blessings from a Kentucky grandma🙏
I always have said I'd rather have a physical disability rather than depression because at least then people could at least understand why I'm struggling to do anything 😢
@karamedley6229 I've been thinking this way also...
I would rather be all broken up, .. at least I know I'll be fine .. that this all will heal, and I'll be able to continue living. This depression is so crippling mentally, it's destroyed my life, and my character. I'm so unable to do simple things, and with anhedonia,... there's no pleasure, or desire. It's taken the human out of me. Do you feel this way also?
I started to research mushrooms. Amazing! I've started growing, cooking small amounts of lions mane mushroom. It's easy from grow kits. It truly works. Can get it in powder and tincture form. Research it.
Perfectly said
Many dont understand
Whoever reads this I understand and I wish you well 🙂
Same to you, spacebound. 🙂
@@CocoVonKokonut thank you. 🙂
Yep, it can be really hard, especially when your best friend is a ball of energy and a ray of sunshine.
All depends on the person. I keep doing all the same things I do everyday. Although I'm fighting it inside
I can relate to all of these. After my infant son died, and his father,and my daughter's father I completely fell apart. I always suffered from depression and anxiety, but after the death's it became out of control. People think I'm just lazy, but I know it's not being lazy. Most don't understand. I'm happy to see I'm not alone or crazy through the comment section here.
People who never experienced depression/anxiety, cannot understand what a person is going through. They become judgmental against family members or others who suffer from depression.
@Diana-yn2ho Very true.,
I tried to explain, it's upsetting ,.. I can't just get over it. I'm suffering so horribly. Only the 988 calls, they understand. I've called too many times. I don't know if I can survive this torture
@@klanderkal - I feel bad for what you are going through. There so much discrimination against people who are suffering due to depression and other mental/emotional illnesses. Others who have never experienced this, think that it is just something a person is making up in order to gain the sympathy or attention of others or as an excuse. They also come up with this "low self-esteem" nonsense. They are equating the feeling of tiredness and weakness associated with depression as "low self-esteem". Incredible!
@Diana-yn2ho Thank you so much. Your words explain this very well. Thank you for caring about me 🙏
... I tried so hard to go out... and buy food. I was so uncomfortable and felt fear in the store. I had to leave,.. as I was so indecisive. Also, I have horrible insomnia and hadn't slept in 3 days. It's so horrible.. to have anxiety, insomnia, and depression.!!! It's so unbearable. I try to act normal.
You really can't explain in any words the dread.
@@klanderkal - I hope I have lifted up your spirit dear, and I will be praying for you and others like in your situation so that their lives may improve and can get help. Please take care of yourself and I wish you the best. 🤎🙏 Everything will work out, you'll see.
I am a 60 year old orthopedic surgeon and mine is a very demanding job.It all started when I was 17 along with OCD.Am glad that I made it this far but boy it is an every second battle.At times one feels totally drained .Continue fighting it out mates .Don't give up.Take care
You're a doctor; so, if anybody understands this horrible affliction, it's you. Hang in there, brother... I'm right there with you.
Well done with your job though.
All jobs are demanding And we all feel drained at times. I have major bouts of depression. But I still cook and clean and go on with life.
@@tommac21 You've got the right "altitude"...
My first 30 years were great, now I'm 55 and pretty much housebound due to depression and anxiety. I am actually trying to get disability right now because I cannot work. I have a lawyer helping me. I used to snow ski, skydive, play golf, and bowling. Now a big accomplishment for me is going to the store. By the time I'm done I'm usually so worn out I just go back to bed. My wife doesn't understand why. I've tried to explain to her that I have very little control over myself right now. And then the guilt kicks in.
I'm 36 and homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Don't feel guilty. Depression, anxiety is something no one has control over, unfortunately.
Happened to me at exactly 30 years old too...overwhelming anxiety mixed with depression. I'm 62 and am still trying to outwit the symptoms every damn day - it's exhausting.
It could be worse though, you have a wife, imagine if you felt like you do and lived alone, it would be worse then
@@Diana-yn2ho I just need housing... But all they want to do is stick me into a shelter full of alcoholics and drug addicts without any privacy. I've been begging for help for years since the pandemic but I'm just stuck going crazy out here.
I have been battling major chronic depression, anxiety and borderline traits for my entire life. I am now numb, I have no positive emotions left. I have a lot of support from psychiatrist, social worker and my family doctor. I have completed cognitive behavioral therapy at least 6 times . I have been on almost every anti-depressant medications and combinations. Nothing works. I am so tired. I have made it to 61 years, pretty sure this is as far as I go.
Micro mushrooms?
Find the Lord Jesus Christ and find comfort.
@@aganton4977that is part of the problem!
sorry you're struggling as well. but ya same here. I'm 48 and I am tapped out being there for everyone else with no one ever there for me, I'm just drained. I have barely anything left for myself at this point.and I am so tired(not physically) but In every other way, I don't have the energy, will or care to get up anymore. Dealing with the same illnesses, and also with the anhedonia, I'm absolutely void of any good, joy, or happy feelings, like no motivation at all, it's unbearable. I have no friends, no family that can bother to be bothered to listen or even be around. I just stay home alone, all day, barely existing at this point. I don't even have a pet. existing is exhausting. I'm just so done with everything at this point. ugh :(
Existing is indeed exhausting, as the earlier commenter said... And for me too, the available options of drugs are going closer to zero, so I bought powdered Psylocybe to take in micro/mini dosing (0.2 - 1 gram), thank goodness it’s not prohibited in my country (yet). My psychiatrist asked me to wait coz there’s still options for me to try, but I’m tired of this frightening rollercoaster of emotions. Wishing us all good luck.
I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was a child. I was adopted, SAed by my adopted dad repeatedly, was put into foster care and group homes and some were legit nightmares.I have been medicated since age 12.I'm also a type one diabetic. I've been on disability for 8 years. Depression is very real.I have little to no support system. I try to take life on a day to day basis.
I hope you will soon find emotional support in your life.
You're worthy of love, Kathy. Jesus loves you. I have had similar abuse. It's difficult being an elder orphan.
God bless you Kathy. I will be praying for you for your recovery and healing and mine as well ❤
So so sorry
I definitely have been feeling all these Symptoms. I’m 60. Losing my job / business has made it worse. I think keeping busy or having tasks to complete can help. After years of letting my house go down hill I’ve recently started cleaning and organizing everything. It is helping. Sometimes you have to start small and not get overwhelmed. Take breaks when you get tired. Focus on one area at a time. Also I’m cutting way back on alcohol. I want to feel like I used to. I’m committed to feeding normal again.
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Thank you - I have all of these symptoms to some degree. Your pointing them out makes me feel a little less crazy
You're not crazy. I feel the same way. If you think you're crazy, you're not crazy. You have a disease called depression, as I do. I know it's miserable.😢
No, you're not crazy. Depression does not fit within the normal framework of an illness that medical people understand. I am not sure what that means, but my wife, a pharmacist, agrees. It isn't like an infection. People who call it an illness sit back and wait for a pill to come along. I call mine a disability, and like other disabled people, I go on with my life to the full extent that my condition permits. There isn't much that I cannot do at all.
Me too. My family and some friends just think I'm lazy. I have one family member who thinks all these symptoms make me incompetent and incapable of living on my own.
You are not crazy and you are not alone x
All true. This is what dépression is all about. IT sucks.
I have had it my whole life and its still here and I was born in 1969 on inauguration day
Neither of you have ever had depression. This video is all wrong.
Watching this video l was reminded of some of the things l found hard. I could not tidy up, cooking was difficult, my personal hygiene was poor. I was single parent alone with no support from my family. Its easy to say reach out for help but l just couldn't do it. It was a horrible frightening time l will save this video to refer to if l suspect l am getting depressed again.
You are not alone. I have been going through this for almost 14 years. One day at a time is what gets me by. Hope you feel good all the time🎉
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Would not wish it on my worst enemy. Love to all those who have posted on here and wishing you healing. Had it myself in the past and had many years free of it. Always vulnerable to it again but no major episodes thank God.
I check off all these boxes. It feels a bit comforting finally putting a name to how I've been feeling. I was able to get up today, shower myself twice today, go to the gym, run errands, & clean. For those suffering with depression, that was such a huge accomplishment for me and all I can I do is thank God for the small wins. Currently battling w/ depression and anxiety after having to quit my toxic career. I dont regret my decison at all, in fact im much happier now but for some reason this depression has a grip on that I cant seem to shake off. Internally, I want to get up to do things & take care of myself but it like a "freeze". Going for long drives in my car & reading my bible everyday is how i've been coping.
WELL SAID 💯:!!!!!
👁️ STRONGLY believe that the LORD puts people in each other's paths for reasons that vary, WELL, 👁️'VE CROSSED WITH YOU , THAT SEEM TO HAVE , UMMM...
👁️ GUESS , SOME TYPE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT FOR ME !!! 👍🏽 THANK YOU!!!
p. S.
You now have'1 FOLLOWER & SUBSCRIBER
PURPLE 💜 GIRL
DETROIT MICHIGAN
This video is 100% true! I have so many days that I don't even want to answer the phone and only eat quick stuff just because I'm hungry, showering really is a daunting task too, and don't even get me started on even simple chores!
I could say the same about myself.! Exactly. I'm so unable to do anything at all,... or go anywhere. I don't want visitors, calls, or texts. My physical health has declined horribly. I only eat PBJ, or easy snacks. Personal hygiene ..? Shower etc... its like you said.
It's like being mentally paralyzed, with no desires.
Are you like this as well? 😢
"If this is how you want to live your life," was a statement made to me. No, this is not how I want to live my life. This is what severe depression is. It's not fun. That statement almost pushed me over the edge, as I have suicidal ideations as well. We all have to remember that most people can't understand mental health issues. I still have that friend, and I trust her a lot less. And that is sad.
Like u can just snap out of it
@@pamlucas7694 That's exactly what I said. It frustrated me to hear that for someone I loved, and I thought they loved me, too. It makes you wonder why you are alive. I pray you don't have to hear this. Take care and talk back to me if you want to.
@LtRee96se I agree with you. It's Not how I want to live. It's really not living. It's torture. I too have to same feeling... my own brother.
Makes me feel 100x worse. He sees im mentally disabled, unable to leave the apt., extremely unhappy, distressed, ... and knows I lost everything including my career job. Still no empathy.
I hate it, when they say
Snap out of it, move on... etc.
I have no words to say.... that they could understand.. 😩
@pamlucas7694 exactly.!! I kept hearing that from those who have no idea. Trying to explain, just made me feel so much worse...
It's humiliating... to me. Do you get the, let it go, move on? Also.
All of these resonate with me so much. This is how I’ve felt lost days for years now.
Yes, all 8 of these items are sure signs of long- time depression. I can say this because I have lived all these things for 76 years and I recognize myself clearly. I read constantly, everything I see, I read. But I’ve never seen this list before now.
Sux, right?
Damn that's harsh 😔 and for that Long
I'm really far down in this rabbit 🥕hole and I'm not saying that lightly
Same and 73 now.
@@dutchess1st62 we nearly have it beat! Dutchess…what a GREAT name!
I dunno anymore. This video describes my life to a tee yet the life I lead is ok. By that I mean, I've accepted myself for being myself and whether or not I'm depressed or not doesn't matter. My house is a mess, untidy and cluttered and needs a good clean and I've long since given up ideas about having a career and a family... sounds bad but I've come to accept that over the years. I know it'd be too much for me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't berate myself for not being able to do the so-called 'normal' things most people take for granted as described in this video. I've found a way to live with depression and even hold down a job even though I know I could do more with my life if I felt well enough. But that's the real problem, feeling empty inside and feeling tired. That's what drags me down and makes life seem like a real struggle at times. Anyway, that's my experience of it.
Chris I so relate your not alone …wish there was a way we could help each other… meds are useless for me I don’t sleep but like you I have resigned myself as I have a special needs daughter who will be alone if I die sending you hugs and prayers
Since ive stopped seeing my friends my mental health went upward so fast. Now i can do what i like, at the places i like. Watch what i like and listen to what i like. Spent 25 years doing what everybody around me wanted to do. The next 25 is going to be about what i want to do and love. Friends can de deadly.
I have had all of these symptom's for over 25 years! I have no one to turn too. I am so tired of how my life turned out.
I totally get it. Been living this for 63 years. I have no family. I am alone for hours on end. Not fun anymore. Hang in.
Get help, let me me to I'm out of it, I you can't get out yourself
You need Jesus.
The truth about depression at last.
Hope you feel better soon. I have sleep issues too.
Depression , anxiety, CPTSD has ruined me. I cant work or have relationships at all. I have suffered all my life with these ailments. Now i have stage 3 kidney disease which makes it worse. Was diagnosed in 2021 with it from contracting Covid.
I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
Sending hope and prayers 🙏❤️🤗
At one time I showered every day. At the time of this writing I literally cannot remember the last time I showered; I think it has been at least a couple of months.
@@edwardlynch9973 it’s awful I’m same just barely hanging on
All of the above. It’s been a rugged two years for me. I went from being a neat freak to one of the biggest slobs around. I do not eat like I should and it is starting to affect me badly. I seem to be coming out of it bits at a time now. This video helped me to see things a little clearer. Thank you.
I have depression and OCD which I’m getting help with. But what I hate is people telling me what I need to do to get over it such as go for a walk. Seriously I don’t have the energy to brush my teeth. What makes you think I have the energy to go for a walk?
Preeeach ‼️💯
True
You got that right.
Well said!
Exactly right now I can't even do the simple things like tidy my home or even get dressed
I am feeling this but I’m just lonely because I have no friends.
@dianabrinco, at 64 I don't feel like I have any close friends right now either. I live near my older brother, his wife and their 2 daughters, but I basically just see or talk to my brother and a niece who lives about 200 miles from me, we talk about once a week. I also have 2 small dogs that are companions to me. I have to take them for a walk at least twice a day and feed them. They are better companions to me right now than a person would be. People seem to irritate me at times. Being older I have got to enjoy my solitude more at times and I probably spend too much time on RUclips writing or reading comments. Hang in there, life to me is like a teeter totter with its ups & downs. Prayer & reading the Bible help me and I listen to videos like this one.
@@Jensen1959 Very well said. I'm older than you; I'm 84. I'm in the nineth inning of this ol' ball game. I share your feelings completely. I have two dogs. They are my "purpose in life" right now. I much prefer the company of dogs (in general) to that of people. Especially, those folke who "have all the answers". Stay well and stay safe, my friend... Marty
I have kids, no need for friends. Too busy consenting to their needs.
You have situational depression,which you can recover from
ruclips.net/video/gCiRrsmy_Po/видео.html
Depression, worry, my husband and dad died on the same day 3 hours apart a few months ago. My uncle and Godfather passed last month. I am in a wheelchair and cannot work as an ICU RN, for the last 2 years. Desperately awaiting disability approval. You save someone else's life and strangers lives for 24 years at work and you can't get anybody to help save your own. Soon we'll have nowhere to live, they already took our cars away I have no income and two teenage girls I physically can't walk or stand so I have to ask for everything from my kids and it is not fair to them. I basically don't leave the bedroom anyway so you need any advice on any of the above I'm here to tell you, sadness, the grief Cloud that always seems to rain every day out of my eyes, and pain 24/7, has taken my life and my soul away
Oh my bless your heart! Hopefully somehow things can turn around for u. I can't imagine dealing with all of that. I have depression n I don't think my husband really understands but he is a very good man n has always treated me good. At least I have him.❤
Depression is very difficult to endure. I had a stressful event, that caused insomnia and insomnia. The Stress escalated, and I made very bad decisions... I lost my career job,... I feel into depression,.. it's so horrible. 😢
IVE noticed you feel like there's no hope when ever I lesson to Gospel music I can pull myself out of the rut washing dishes while lessoning to Gospel music praising Him helps me 😊❤God Bless Everyone Amen
I have no family support
I have no family. Dont know which is better or worse for that matter.
Look after yourself best you can ❤
Buy a jockstrap 👍
Same
@Thenogomogo-zo3un Having no family is better than having wealthy family with all the free time in the world, yet you get no support from them, only bragging about how great their lives are. Adds insult to injury, I just want to tell them to shut the hell up.
@@warthog473 They will eventually. For the time being, if you can, just walk away.
6:52 Thanks for sharing. I am 64 years old and have been taking anti- depressants for at least 20 years. I have dealt with death, moving & divorce in the past 10 years. After my sister & best friend died in 2020 & 2022 of COVID-19 I have felt tired & non energetic.My doctor is young and didn't want to increase the dosage of my anti-depressant medication. I work part-time and my employer has been good to me since my sister died with taking time off from work. I have had insomnia along with depression so I have a difficult time getting up in the mornings.If I do sleep I wake up feeling tired and like I have brain fog. My doctor scheduled me to have a sleep study in case my tiredness might be caused from not getting a restful sleep.
The suggestion of being patient & kind to myself during the times I have trouble functioning is a good one. Especially when it comes to missing work. Thanks for this video. It helped me put things in a better perspective.
I'm suffering in many ways as you. I'm 62. After the sad divorce,. I lost my home. Then I lost all my family members and 2 close friends. I was filled with so much grief. I wasn't functioning well. I made a crucial mistake at my workplace,....and lost my career job. It was all I had left! I had panic attacks, and kept collapsing. Psychiatrist said I really was in bad shape. Ptsd, severe anxiety, chronic insomnia, and severe depression.
I don't enjoy living anymore. I don't move... like as if I'm in shock. I don't have interest in anything at all. .... I don't like being like this anymore
This world is what makes ME depressed. That and my life in general.
I have suffered chronic, moderate to severe depression since puberty. For many years I self medicated, only making the depression worse. I have found if I wait until I begin feeling better to do the things you list, I remain in a downward spiral of depression and isolation. I have to "act as if," just tell my depression to get in the back seat, we are going anyway. When I act enthusiastic about doing healthy activities, guess what? I begin changing my mood. For me, the number one treatment of my chronic depression is achieved through diet, exercise and spirituality. To excuse my staying in bed watching meaningless t.v. as part of my illness, only keeps me depressed. One old person's opinions only.
I agree with you on not waiting to do something until you feel like. Once I start to do something the motivation will be there. But I have to start. . .
Story of my life. Complex ptsd is killing me.
It's so hard. It feels like life is just passing by, my Dr keeps giving me pills that don't help at all. But yet I keep going on.
@@jeffstepp-ou8re seriously. That's all doctors would do for me as well. Just medicate me into oblivion. I have this fantasy of actually sleeping through the night and waking up rested and excited to see another day. It hasn't happened in 43 years. I feel like I'm just waiting to die.
@@shadowfax9177 I wonder what that would feel like myself, life is so precious, but right now I couldn't care less about living. I take 4 different meds for anxiety and depression. Spent 6 months going to a therapist. All she wanted me to do is eat better and do homework.
CPTSD has already killed me.
Cptsd never goes away. I hate it 😔🙏💔😭
I struggle with depression. I hate cleaning, but eventually I get tired of looking at the mess and decide to do something about it. It feels good afterwards and gives me some self worth
Only too well do I understand what you're dealing with. I'm living in a horrible, cluttered mess right now. No energy or ambition to do anything about it.
Me too
@@Lorrainecats Hello "Lorrainecats"... I hope you have kitty cats and I hope they bring you some measure of happiness. I have two dogs and they are my world. They are both spoiled-rotten...
It is the same old same old story. If we can sit down quietly and look around at what's going on in our world. There is so much pain and suffering which is unbearable. We only look at ourselves and say poor me. Together with a priest or pastor search for answers. Sincere prayers has never let you down. It gives you a reason and a purpose to take each day as it comes. Reach out to people in need whatever it is. It can give you so much joy you forget your own problems. There's lots of lonely people in institutions. Old people and even orphans. No matter what I face each day the moment I put Gospel TV on for hours I'm a new person and everything else is forgotten. God is Good. I am 72 years old and I live alone. But never lonely. God bless.
Your explanation was correct. I have watched a lot and you hit the nail on the head. You gave an excellent explanation ❤Thank you ❤❤❤
I have been dealing with Depression since I was 12 years old. I am High Functioning and I can complete all 8 of these, though sometimes sluggishly or with some procrastination. There are so many different levels of Depression, so those of you viewing this vid, don't believe you don't have depression if you can still complete the tasks listed.
Agree
I've lost many good opportunities in my adolescence due to depression, but I can't just sit down and cry. I'm going to be 18 in a few months, so I just want to enjoy the time I have left with my friends and the ones I love. One important thing I've learned too is to not take life and stuff so seriously. Really, we live everyday, life is just one and can end today or maybe in like 50 years. For everyone who struggle too, try to see an possibility in everything, set goals, but don't try so hard, it's all part of a process. Someday you look back and see that things have changed, maybe you're gonna laugh, maybe you're gonna cry, but what matters most is that you're still here fighting for something!!! Keep on people, were gonna make it one day
Wishing you better days ahead you are very smart and kind 🤗🙏❤️
Blessings 🙏
I have the most severe form of depression. I have been on different medications for almost 20 years. I'm currently on 2 antidepressants and medication for anxiety and insomnia and this is where I get the least amount of support because everyone else thinks that I am on too much medication. My therapist says that I don't have to explain my medication but I tell people that it's like telling someone that they should stop taking insulin for their diabetes. The medicine I am on is keeping me from harming myself. I also need emotional support animals I had 2 cats but lost one of them to cancer and it has not been easy for me losing him. So now I have situational depression on top of my clinical depression. Life sucks but I am not my diagnosis, I am still a person but I'm learning to deal with my limits. If you read this know that life is better with all of us in it and the pain you feel today will be less on some days and more on others. Never be afraid to reach out to someone if you are feeling overwhelmed or more sad or hurting more than usual.
I'm hurting suffering horribly from depression. Caused by multiple traumatic events... then under overwhelming stress, I made very bad decisions/mistakes... and I lost my career job of 20yrs.! I'm so devastated. I've called 988. I don't want to go on anymore! How can you handle for s long? 😢🫶
@@klanderkal it hasn't been easy. I struggle every day. I have been passively suicidal in the past and attempted to kill myself twice while in a dissociative state. Until I understood what was happening with me, like the dissociations, I didn't know how to ask for help. I didn't know that I could ask for help. I also have had some great therapists and a great doctor. So in my 20 year battle, I identified what my diagnosis is ( major depressive disorder, PTSD with suicidal ideation), I learned my triggers and I learned coping mechanisms to help keep me grounded and then if I felt like harming myself I would have to look at myself in the mirror and rate from 0 to 10(0 being not worth it to 10 being worth it) on whether or not it was worth losing my job, my home, my family and friends to cause myself harm or commit suicide and my answers were usually no it wasn't worth it. We all have ways that help us cope. Some journal( I can't because I write like someone is going to read it and end up censoring myself), some join church, some people write songs or poetry, listening to music and having a good cry every now and then helps me. Check your area for mental health services to see if you can find a therapist that meets your needs, if you are unable to work you can apply for disability from SSI, I did that for a while until I could return to work. Find 1 or 2 people who you can contact anytime day or night if you start feeling like you want to end it so they can help talk you through what you are feeling. Anxiety and depression feed off each other and can create a vicious cycle of unwanted thoughts and feelings of worthlessness so it's important to find what works for you to make it stop. The world would be made the less by your loss, stay with us ❤️
@restlessrespiratorytherapi7921 Thank you so much for caring,...and your reply.
... I have reached out. Bit, they're too.. having difficulty with my situation.
I have lost SO much... not only my career job I loved. , but my family as well, 4 last members of my family past, the same month as my job loss. I just lost my life savings from an investment crash,.. and my home as well. I had recently gone through a heartbreaking divorce.... I was barely hanging on.... but, loosing my career job, was too much. I'm so upset with myself, as it was my fault. It could have been prevented.... I just blew it, and want to blame everyone.
I've been having suicide thoughts all the time. I'm in contact with 988, and VA crisis, and Here Tomorrow suicide counseling. I have that ptsd,... the severe anxiety and depression. I don't sleep, and I have no joy of living. I have hobbies and interests... but, depression ( anhedonia).. stole them as well..
My family tries to understand me but they just end up getting mad at me… making me feel worse and the depression gets worse 😢
My family told me recently that depression is not real, they don't believe in it, and it doesn't exist. That I should draw on my inner strength. Just talk myself out of it. Wow, lots of family support there. I was shocked when they told me that, and was down hearted and now I'm worse off than I was.
@@feline501 - They don't know because they never experienced it. Instead of being understanding and doing some research on depression, they blame the individual. People like to put others down because in reality they are the ones with the inferiority complex. They like to trample on other people to make themselves look good.
depressed teens are weird. @@feline501
I understand as I am suffering like you
@@feline501- I feel bad for people who suffer from depression. Those who never experienced it cannot understand what the person is going through. Some people interpret it as a lack of self esteem and similar hogwash. I hope you and Steven (the other poster) can get counseling to overcome your depression.
I have found having years of deprssion and still going through it , that the ones who should be supporting you the most are the ones that support you the least . And that makes life all the more harder .
All of these symptoms are familiar to me.
I wish the SSA would quickly recognize severe depression as an actual debilitating condition... I've been out of work for 4 years now, surviving on $400/month from state insurance. I was homeless for 2 years, living in my car...and even so, they decided I wasn't "as disabled as" I thought I was. Now I'm waiting another 2+ years after re-applying for them to make another decision, hopefully in my favor. No one wants to be dead broke and not functional for years! I paid into SSA for nearly 40 years, and for what...?!
I have lived a life of depression. Medication made me very unbalanced.
Much of my depression stems from an extremely traumatic childhood that involved all forms of abuse, especially sexual and emotional. I have a tendency to blame myself especially when others are being manipulative.
I try to clean up, or cook, but I get over whelmed. I am good at taking care of myself, except forgetting to eat.. I still love music, but nothing else
I have all these difficulties except for parenting cause I'm single. I can add several points on the list, such as: can't make even a simple plan, don't want to go outdoors, feel no emotions at all, obsessed with useless information such as time/temperature/humidity/weather, can't tolerate any noise/human voices... the list would go on and on.
Yes, noise is a big one for me.
People need to know that the fatigue can come from a physiological reason (not a mindset issue at all) - there actually is a neurotransmitter that enables people to take action, and it can decline. There are also hormonal issues that can cause depression, thyroid in particular. Be sure your doctor uses the European scale to measure the results on tests of thyroid function, it is more accurate (thanks, insurance companies). If you can manage to walk, it's much better to walk outside (see SAD study by University/WA Seattle) because being outside gives the body what it urgently needs to correct itself, exposure to the Schumann Resonances (they don't go through walls into houses). If you can walk barefoot or in moccasins without rubber in the bottoms, you will feel even better. The longer the depression continues, the more your blood flow decreases to the higher cortical areas, so you may increasingly have trouble thinking well, so please reach out to friends and family to ask for help with all these things. It may feel embarrassing, but nobody feels embarrassed to ask for help with other health issues, and this counts - you matter!!
I been dealing with bipolar disorder, though in the past few decades, it's been more of depression. I also have always dealt with being learning impaired and dealing with ADD and OCD. With problems like these, where there is only so much mone can do, it makes for a long miserable life, no matter what.
As far as the "self blaming", I admit to some of that, but it has mostly been everyone else blaming me. I'd be blamed for "being stupid", "slow", "lazy", and so many other things that I couldn't and still can't get a handle on. My moods are always going to cycle, regardless of medication and therapy. Diet, exercise, healthy sleep patterns and constantly self checking my attitude toward life, helps me some. But all in all, I really am my worst critic about things. For things that I am the best at, I am my worst hardest coach and critic. That being said, to make my life less overwhelming, I focus on being the best musician that I can be, even if I still never took my talent anywhere. This way, I slack in other areas of my life, but focus on what is most important to me. I can't only concentrate on so much in my life. I struggle to stay focused on things too, even music. I have to keep taking breaks so I don't get burnt out and then ultimately discouraged enough to leave it alone and give up for months at a time if I'm not cautious enough.
It's sucks when others always seem to be around when I screw up, but no one ever sees what I do well. Between all these things and tons more, not to mention traumatic events, all my life long, and severe rheumatoid arthritis, I have amounted to nothing. It's almost like, I'm just waiting to die. The Good Lord above can take me home whenever he wants. I hope it's soon. I'm done with this stint.
Wish we all lived close and could have a support group or do something besides living alone.
Well said.
I go through depressions and I force myself to do things.
Me as well. I have obligations. Maybe if you have a lot of money or someone else who can bring an income in to pay the bills, you can stay at home and recover. I think that the descriptions are very accurate but so e of the advice isn't practical.
@@dianacurry8195 Good point.
Mee too. It sucks going through life having to force yourself to do pretty much everything. It’s exhausting.
@@MrStrocube that’s exactly the right word. Exhausting.
@lisanidog8178 I simpasise and agree with you both. I'm so unable to do anything at all,.. just the thought is exhausting. I've never looked so bad.... person hygiene no longer is priority. I just hate the anhedonia. Not being able to feel pleasure in anything I used to... depression is just so horrible... only those with it understands. 😔
i was diagnosed with chronic depression about 25 years ago. I take 2 antidepressants, but they don't seem to be working as well as they should. People who don't deal with depression don't understand how frustrating it is and how people feel about themselves. My husband passed 2 years ago from Parkinson's Disease. Grief is unending and losing a spouse is especially traumatic. I don't like being around people like I used to and I don't go many places. I do volunteer at the local humane shelter, and this actually is the only thing that makes me happy.
I understand what it's like. Been chronically & majorly depressed ever since my dad died when I was 3. My last dog was the only one who brought me pure love & joy for 17 years. I'm hoping to volunteer/work at animal shelters/rescues someday soon. Animals are the most AMAZING thing God created! 💕🐕🐈🌈🌞🙏
@@kimgb8248 Volunteering at the shelter will be the greatest. The animals love the attention and love, and they deserve it so much. Good luck.
I don’t like the term depression but I’ve struggled with these things since watching my 44 year old wife suffer and die from a four month struggle with cancer nearly two years ago
Grief is hard
You're not alone. Have you looked for support groups?
I suffer everything mentioned except for going long periods without showering and post-partum depression. Thank you for this video.
I remember I was depressed once. I would never kill myself, but during that depression I was indifferent to life. Life seemed to hold nothing left worth experiencing, and while I might not take my life, I wouldn’t have cared if I had died. It would have almost seemed welcome🥀 and I am a person whose life has been filled with optimusm and joy (except those few months). I will offer this; ehil death might seem like a welcone respite, it isn’t and….sooner or later, you’ll come out on the other side. If you’re not on psyc dope, don’t start. Ride it out. You got this!
Chronic depression has no cure it can only be treated,I know this from personal experience as a person who has lived with this psychiatric illness for over 25 years,you will never quote on quote "recover" from depression,unless you never had it to begin with,were misdiagnosed,or had a temporary type of depression called situational depression,for example,situational depression would be if your dog died,or your gf broke up with you,or you lost your job,these are things that you can recover from with a good support group,therapy,time and maybe even medication,chronic lifelong depression however,is a completely different beast,one that you will struggle with for the rest of your life,there is no recovering from that type of depression,no matter what you do and to say you can "recover" from lifelong chronic depression is absolutely ludicrous and insulting to those of us who live with life long chronic depression
With my depression I did not rest enough.
Even though I could hardly do much, I kept trying and that in itself was overdoing and working against my recovery.
Also I had developed ME/CFS just before the depression and PEM was mistaken for more depression. Now I know and practice radical rest.
Many times I feel like something inside me is dead and tired from deep inside......I hate to love myself and just waking up in the morning and waiting for night to come so that I can sleep and again one day of my life is gone and aging waiting for another day to pass by. I have not been living just my body is living...I have tried things to heal but bad days really make me more worst
I like your comment. It describes me in a way. I had extreme losses , trauma, deaths, and my career job loss... I just lost it. I collapsed. Diagnosed with ptsd, anxiety, insomnia and severe depression.
It's as if my life has ended. I don't want to be alive anymore. I just suffer. I've never known,.. how devastating mental illnesses are. Depression is unbearable. I've called 988 many times. .. do you also?
.. im not handling this well.
@shiwanibhattarai1376 I read your comment again today...
It really represents me exactly.
... I also have insomnia.. so I don't hardly slept at all.... but those 1-2 hrs.. are the only time living that's not torture.
What do you do?... every day?
... I don't do anything anymore 😕
Hummm @@klanderkal life is hard....I too wake up some days just to wake and eyes are open but deep delving there is extreme tiredness. I have been trying some breathing nowadays though it is hard to keep up......
@shiwanibhattarai1376 if I sleep,.. I awaken into a horrible panic. I have horrible anxiety, from loosing my career job. I cannot accept my life without it. I just can't move on. That's why I sunk into severe depression. All the activities I did before work, like the coffee shops, the gym., the beach run/swim I did every day before work,.. now have no meaning or purpose. It's like my reasons for living have completely died. It's like my life has ended. I don't want to live like this anymore. Im helplessly watching my mind, body, health decline, and im mentally paralyzed to do anything....
It's bad. Are you this way also... ?
I get depression once a year with SAD. For years it has fortunately only lasted two days each time. I have so much empathy for those who suffer all the time. I had no idea until I had the SAD.
You didn't mention suicidal ideation. I deal with most of those other symptoms, but sometimes I just wish I could let go and leave everything behind. It's not something I can discuss with my family, only with my therapist who in turn changes or increases my meds. And changes like that can take months to have an effect.
Depression & anxiety feels like a life sentence with no parole.
Is your therapist able to give meds ?I have suicidal ideation every day
@@sharminiserasinghe3293that's a good answer. I too feel the same. I've called 988 too many times. It's so unbearable in so many ways. Just existing... is unbearable
The only reason i go on is for my granddaughter. Shes almost 3 and loves her grandpa.
I am cooking for myself. I eat a balanced diet. I wash the dishes thats it what i can do for myself. Other things, i cannot do. It is all true! 😢😢😢😢😢 it is a cery bad feeling. Good luck to everyone to overcome this feeling and feel better. LOL❤❤❤❤❤
When the lockdowns tookmy job away. At 70years old...lost my house ans car...moved to my daughter..I couldn't do anything.
I went right down....now when I listen to music I cry...I was a musician and teacher..
I, too, lost my job and everything else. It was so crushing. It was everything to me. I didn't ask for anxiety and depression.! ... its do disturbing I just stress terribly. Caused insomnia... I don't sleep anymore... I just suffer. I don't even want to watch TV.
When your life has been taking away..its no way you are the same
@patriciacestare232 Those are my exact words. I've been saying.
You really understand.
... you know, no matter what anyone, the psychologist, friends/ neighbors, pastor's, suicide 988 counselors say.. it doesn't bring back what you've lost.
Verbal comforting only bandades my torn apart heart and life.
*When you're life, is taken away
There's no way you are the same.
..
@patriciacestare232 I'm sorry for your situation and the suffering you are experiencing. Loosing your job, can take so much away from a person. It can completely destroy you. You really enjoyed your music, but nolonger feel it's enjoyment as before... im sorry that's happened to you.
I too, lost my passion for working out, swimming and working on my VW. It's as if my life was taken from me. I too went down after loosing my job. I really loved it, and the coworkers and friends.
Depression is like quicksand.
It's so unbearable for me...
T.Y. for sharing,
I'm not the only one devastated from loosing their job.
⚘️💙🙌
Aww I feel for ya. Maybe you could give free lessons on line and it might lead to something. I feel guilty when I listen to music cos I'm not doing it!
You have to work to keep a roof over your head, especially if you are alone. I suffer from depression had a stroke and wasn't able to work. Followed by brain surgery. Wasn't able to pay mortgage and home was going into foreclosure.
😢
My depression wafted away after someone prayed for me. My encouragement came from knowing that even if nobody else understood how ill I was, God himself did. (I am a person of faith anyway, which helped me through it). That was enough for the healing process to start.
And it started with first writing down how I felt, after that I began to take an interest in cooking, and cooking tasty meals from a few healthy ingredients that didn't cost a lot was a huge bonus. After six months I was well enough to start working part-time. It also helped that I worked with one person who saw the value in what I could do and encouraged me. All in all, answers to prayer!
Compassionate. Thank you.
I don’t blame myself I was made to feel useless was called useless no matter how much I tried I wasn’t good enough they my parents and husband never appreciated me
Ditto😢
Out of everything mentioned, the video saving money for me was actually easy when I got depressed because all I did was sleep wake up go to work go to bed right after and not do anything and I would stack up lots of money without even realizing it
Wow this is 100% accurate it’s so hard for me 😢
Thank you for this. It describes my situation perfectly
It's vicious cycle especially when you add alcohol to the equation
Yes, this has been my struggle. Sometimes I get so acclimated to laziness that I lose interest in getting better.
My husband died 6mths ago on top of long term depression. Dont know how to go on.
I wish I had found this video earlier. And I wish some people would watch it and could understand what more and more people have been struggling with.
The worst thing is that you want to do or manage your life as you previously did (happily) but you cannot. You would need to lean on persons who emotionally support you but sometimes you find total incomprehension instead. 😢 *Sorry for my English*
Well said. You cannot manage,.and you want to be as you were. Depression just totally kills your whole life and existence. I'm unable to go anywhere.
All these should be eligible conditions for disability assistance 💯💯💯
What? I can't be bothered to tidy my room, cook my own food, and deal with the challenge called life that EVERYONE is born into and has to deal with so .. give me free money. Jeez, everything that's wrong with the modern world.
I used to make extravagant dinners but during depression I literally only made grilled cheese and tomato soup
Yep, I've made the decision to stay alone because drepression always makes it harder when someone else is in your life. Cleaning up, going out and meeting people and especially cooking. I used to make really good meals (Nothing like it sounds you're capable of though), and then depression comes and even remembering or following a recipe becomes impossible. Then even the slightest criticism drives you even further into depression. Being alone, you do criticise yourself a bit, but it's more bearable because there isn't another person relying on you.
I hope you get though this and get to start making those awesome dinners again!
@@jamiewilliamson3161 I was depressed in 2016 It has gotten better
Profound psychomotor retardation, a common symptom.
@@klanderkal on the plus side it helps your budget
@@klanderkal do you take anything for sleep?
I have depression myself. I just got around to vacuuming my room, today, even though it needed it a few days earlier. I also struggle with the whole meeting people thing.
At least you have a room. I'm homeless and don't even have a kitchen to cook in, and have to run to the gym everytime to shower... Which just makes functioning with depression THAT much harder 😢
@Network126 I am so sorry, I had no idea. As a blind person, I've never experienced homelessness.
@@chantelcuddemi7646 It's nearly impossible to function and be reliable or consistent like this. Everyday is a struggle just to survive and stay sane and out of trouble. Plus, every little thing is extra difficult and/or expensive, since I don't have running water or electricity, and constantly have to drive around to different places just to maintain my hygiene. Then sometimes people wake me up in my car when I'm trying to sleep.
Well done for vacuuming your room! I know that felt better. Yes it was a hard thing to do, but some days you can do hard things. You just proved it. 😊
As a former sufferer, I can say that gardening was a big help in my recovery.
Thank you, thank you 🥺
That's funny in North Carolina, I have not found a friend in an apartment complex of 450 apartments. I have lived here for 5 years. Not for lack of trying.
My son suffers from depression and anxiety, he hasn’t had a job for years now, he is 57 years old, it breaks my heart, but I don’t know how to help him. He refuses to see a doctor to get some help, and seems to blame the world for everything wrong in his life.😢
It all comes down to a root cause...no one is born that way its because of certain aspects of the person's life that no one will ever understand but if they try they know they will be beaten down as weak because they know what is about to unfold but can't stop the fall out when it happens
I have anxiety and my healing was finding the root. It took me like 8 months to do that (but the struggle was many years long)...
Very informative and helpful. Thank you x
Just lifting one arm can be exhausting
The hardest part is trying to explain it to others. The people who used to be supportive and kind turn away sometimes. They get frustrated and move on because they don't understand our need for peace and quiet and for "not wanting to engage" in activities we used to enjoy.
There should be a number 9- Not meeting or calling family after a family death. My father in law passed away last year and I have not talked or seen him this past year,except for 1 day. My husband has 1 sister and 1 brother. We keep in regular touch with my sister in law so there is no problem there. My brother in law feels like he was not a good brother to my husband and his sister and he deeply regrets not spending time with his dad before he died. Since money and travel distance was a big part of coming down to visit his father, he feels like a complete failure. We are kind of in the same boat as my husband is the older brother. I told him that after my own mother died, he should make the time to be with his dad as much as possible. There were times my husband went over and just sat in his house to talk to him and other times my husband did what his father wanted to do. And I have to say that going over there multiple times in a month was pretty expensive for the gas, but he has ABSOLUTELY no regrets on spending time with his dad. I know that my brother in law HIGHLY regrets this and through this depression still doesn’t keep in contact with us at all. I do pray for his mental health as well as his connection with his siblings. Hopefully when we have our annual Christmas party, he and his family will be able to come to it.
Unfortunately, I suffered from Agoraphobia for 7 yrs in my 40s -50s plus Major Depression & anxiety. Therapy, friends, meds helped. In my 70s now, just ok,only meds now. Friends died,but bounce along as well as I can.
Have fun, smile? I am completely miserable
Brought a friend that was going through a bad divorce to a Zumba class. She couldn't do it. U have to feel a little good to dance she didn't know she couldn't until she was there
You can't dance or zumba depression away though