Nikolai Gogol And The Conflict Of Freedom
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- Опубликовано: 5 фев 2025
- In this video, I analyse Nikolai Gogol from BSD/Bungo Stray Dogs and his relationship with Fyodor (Fyolai canon). I talk about his fight with freedom, his internal conflict and his character design in the manga and anime.
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4:10 I believe you mean the Orthodox church? Or did the Catholics condemn him too?
Great video as always, thank you for your analysis!
Yes, I’m really sorry about that! Mykola himself was believed to be Catholic, but the church was orthodox! Thank you for correcting me
Can we talk about how smart Nikolai is? This mf managed to be Vice Justice Minister's secretary for HALF A YEAR!! Amazing actor. Plus he saved Sigma by using his ability to circulate blood. Which means he knows biology/meds/cardiology/cardiovascular system to some degree. This makes me wonder how Nikolai's life used to be before he became the Nikolai we know today.
Real i wrote a Paragraph about this in the comment section. He is underrated
@Fyodor_able Imma go and search for it
Ikr he is so smart but his intelligence is underrated af
Yeaa
Nikolai deserves an Oscar
Regular Cash, editor Cash, Cashout Cash, fashion designer Cash...
Are getting our own Cashverse?
We all hate fashion designer cash, they suck 🙄
@Cashexists hey😡 fashion designer Cash is cool. Don't bully my pookie🥺
I HEAR BLACK SORROW IN THE BACK YOU'RE NOT SLICK
SAME
REAL
OML I JUST REALIZED
WAS JUST ABOUT TO COMMENT THIS I WAS LIKE HOLD UP
I WAS WONDERING WHY IT SOUNDED SO FAMILIAR OMG
I hope everyone can calm down now that the nikolai video has been released. Istg I lowkey got annoyed at how many people were nagging at cash for one acting like Cash also doesn’t have their own life
Lol, I think it comes with the package when you post yourself as a content creator. But it makes me happy knowing some people are more empathetic to my time than others 😭
this
As a fyolai shipper who’s spent wayyy too much time researching the irl Mykola and who’s had way too many realizations that fyolai is completely one sided and would be an incredibly unhealthy irl relationship THIS WAS AMAZING AND SO INTERESTING!!! Nikolai is such a fascinating character and your analysis was incredible. I’m so glad that you research the irl authors and their works cause I’ve barely seen anyone else do it! Nikolai is so silly and this analysis rlly does him justice, you fr cooked w/this one
PUTTING BLACK SARROW IN THE BACKGROUND WHILE TALKING ABOUT NIKOLAI IS CRAZY CASH (especially knowing when talking about his relationship with Fyodor…I’m coming for you)
FINALLY SOMEONE GOT WHY I DID ITTTTTT
This is the best Nikolai Gogol analysis I've ever seen. I agree with litterally everything you said. At this point I'm dying for him to come back in the manga.
Agreed.
Also one thing: (you may be talked about this but i didnt completely watch the video so)
"Nikolai isnt smart"
He is smart,he just pretends to be dumb. Here is an explanation:
He was a secretary for a politician for 6 months. For that, you need to speak fluent Japanese and have a lot of knowledge about communication, math,social studies(?) and some like that.
He also saved Sigma when he fell down from the casino with circling Sigma's blood. You need to have a good understanding of biology and the human body to do something like that. Meaning he has some doctor knowledge. And his memory may be very good too. Not every human is capable of doing that.
He also broke into the most secured jail. I think that's really impressive,since it is the "most secured" jail. Nikolai also stole that potion and the medicine; for that, he probably did a lot of research to know where and how to find that, and he'd probably also have some knowledge about potion and torture methods because of what he did with Dazai and Fyodor and when killing all those people to get the ADA attention.
And the thing/plan he did with his ability when he got slashed from middle/abdomen was impressive too.
And him being watered down to "Thicc thigh gay man" is shame. He is more than that and has a interesting personality/interesting to analyse.
And one thing: İs that he rather cares about the "idea" of Fyodor than Fyodor hinself. Because being unruled and free is like a heaven to him,"probably". He also thinks Fyodor understands him,but no. Fyodor just manipulated him. A bad fate for a good and interesting character.
(english isnt my main language so there may be some mistakes.)
Wonderful video,by the way.
@@Fyodor_able hehe I found it😈
What do you think about it? İ think its a right analysis but seeing other peoples opinion helps me to improve it at some times@@witchbetelgeuse
I clicked on the 'show more' thing expecting it to be just a few more words and ended up getting jump scared 😭😭
@@Luchacha555 lol😭
İ love doing analysis. Sometimes my analysises are long
@@Fyodor_able It's amazing. Though there are some parts that I have different opinions. For example Nikolai isn't pretending to be dumb. He is rather acting confusing and joking around. This misunderstanding is caused by the fact that BSD fandom simplifies duos as brain and brawn. Dazai is brain, Chuuya is brawn. Fyodor is brain, Nikolai is brawn. This simplification also causes many to think Chuuya is stupid. Which he is not. Both Nikolai and Chuuya are smart characters. It's just Dazai and Fyodor happens to be way more smart than average.
About mersault, it had no much to with his intelligence. It was rather his ability. Again chainsaw trick was also his ability and maybe some magic performance skill involved.
About the murders he used poisons, torture methods (sewing bodies etc) those were symbollic and I think ordered by Fyodor to do it that way.
I don't think there is not "idea" of Fyodor in his head. Fyodor genuinely understood what kind of a person Nikolai is. Nikolai didn't interpret this as something else. Therefore there is no tragedy of loving idealized version of someone. Or else we would see a kind of arc where Nikolai realizes Fyodor wasn't the person who he thought he was. But instead we got a Nikolai mourning after Fyodor's death.
Lastly you wrote "He thinks Fyodor understands him but no Fyodor just manipulates him." Well I disagree. Because Fyodor understanding Nikolai isn't something just in Nikolai's head. Fyodor understands Nikolai AND manipulates him. I think you meant emphaty or relating to someone here. Because yeah Fyodor isn't relating to Nikolai. Understanding someone doesn't mean you will emphatize with them and wont to anything bad to them.
Other these disagreements of mine it's a good analysis. I love reading these paraghraphs long analysis'
I was never good when it comes to figuring out the meanings hidden within subtle gestures, analogies and such. I keep on watching bungou stray dogs despite the people i know saying it's a confusing anime to them, it was confusing at first and i was planning to drop bsd after finishing the anime. But one of the many braincells i had submitted a suggestion to make bsd a hyperfixation of mine to my brain and MY BRAIN ACCEPTED IT. My sister keeps saying it's useless to buy the light novels and manga but what am i if i'm not stubborn? These type of videos has helped me alot, I've always had a knack for complex in-depth characters and it's such a sad thing for me to be unable as i previously said - the ability to SEE, as one might say it as observing.
Thank you cashexist for helping many people - including me with these type of analysis. The video "How to succesfully ruin an anime adaptation" was such a big factor of me reading the manga from the start instead of rewatching the anime (since i've only watched the anime and the anime sucks AHH) and oh my god now i cannot live without thinking bungou stray dog for a second.
I am amazed by how cool people are in this fandom when it comes to observing things and I was never a literature person to begin with,
so thank you again cashexists for making bungou stray dog videos. Have a nice day and goodbye
This was super intriguing to listen to! I'm sadly not very media literate so a lot of BSD's hidden messaging flies right over my head. (Partly because I haven't read the manga or light novels, I would like to someday but college is very time consuming and honestly draining🙏) I'm glad I was able to actually understand your analysis
You should read 55 Minutes first
We should get an award for being the fandom w the most miscaracteration of characters
I know right, the BSD fandom is either corrupted with insane mischaracterization or people who truly analyze and do research and not spread misinformation. I'm afraid the latter is quite less common.
when cash uploads my day immediately becomes better
I LOVE NIKOLAI NIKOLAI MENTIONED NIKOLAI GOGOL OH MYV GOSHH
Why is the author and character both so relatable this hurts
another edit but he's so ETHEREALLLLLL SO UNIQUEEE I CANT DO THIS I LOVE HIM I WANT HIM TO APPEAR AGAIN PLEASEEEEE IM BEGGING ATP
Cash, it was so nice of you to include the part about Mykolai being Ukrainian and even calling him by his Ukrainian name, not many people do that. thank you for not just reading a Wikipedia article and calling it a day (many English Wiki articles call people who lived in the Russian Empire russians even if those people were very vocal about their nationality). as someone who was obsessed with Hohol in high school(like, I even had a framed picture of him on my wall), I love the thorough analysis of his character and how it was represented in BSD.
by the way, fun fact: Mykola's surname (Гоголь) in English has the same transliteration as one of the names (now considered derogatory and is used as an insult) the russian government gave Ukrainians (хохол). fun fact №2: Mykolai called himself a hohol when talking about his nationality.
Reading up on Nikolai was such a wonderful eye opener as it was upsetting to see his treatment in modern Russia. I loved reading how extraverted he was with his fellow Ukrainians and how in touch he was with his heritage and culture. The erasure is so horrible to see, but I adore how many people have learned about him and are giving me more info I didn’t even know prior to your comments :)
I’m really glad you made this considering Nikolai is one of my favorite characters as he’s so unique (Imo)!
This is also really helpful considering I’m writing an AU and Nikolai in particular has been a bit hard to write for a few reasons, so this explanation video is a big help! :3
Thanks for this video, Cash !!
I LOVE Nikolai's character so much, I really appreciate you taking the time to do this analysis, because it allowed me to understand Nikolai much better, and identify more with him as a character.
I also loved how you explained the detail of the card of his eye and his design being a clown or a jester, it is something that I had noticed but never knew how to express.
Your videos best, keep up the good work !
I really adore how you spoke about his character ☹️You’re honestly so well spoken and give such intelligent interpretations, it’s so refreshing !!
off the back of your point at 15:31, about how if Fyodor had lived he would continue his fight for freedom, but because, to Nikolai’s knowledge, Fyodor died he questions his his true desires in life, I wanted to ask your opinion on how he’d act if he discovered Fyodor really is alive? would he still question himself, or would he forget about his previous doubts and just continue with his original fight for true freedom ?
I sort of doubt that the manga will show this, but I’ve heard both sides of the argument and wanted a properly informed opinion ^^
I don't truly know what projects you have for the near future, but one thing i know for certain. I love your content. It made me appreciate the characters i already loved and love the ones i thought i hated before i stumbled upon your content. Your analysis on Mori and the bsd web of abuse were to put it simply what this fanbase needed.
I love how you add a few jokes in between, helps me focus without losing interest.
I‘ve been so excited for this omg. You always have really well-thought and eloquent analyses that help me understand a lot more about BSD, and Nikolai is one of my favorite characters because he‘s really fascinating :) I that hope people bothering you about this wasn‘t too stressful though!
NIKOLAI ANALYSIS DROPPED THIS IS SO PEAKK I LOVE IT I LOVE NIKOLAI I LOVE HIM SM ASSHHD
I think another work of note while addressing Nikolai's character is the real life work, The Overcoat. It follows a mild mannered man who after acquiring a new Overcoat has a whole new zeal to him, so when it is snatched from him, he becomes sickly and passes away and his spirit now wants revenge for the sake of his Overcoat.
Now what is very interesting about the Overcoat is the use of descriptions of the protagonist's feelings towards it. The Overcoat makes him feel acknowledged, fulfilled. He feels different, happier. His repressed emotions and sexuality are now bared, even surprising him as he never experienced before. Even though he is isolated, the Overcoat feels like a companion. His behavior towards it possessive but gentle. It's as if he has gained a lover. Even though it's simply a non-sentient and unexpressive Overcoat, it is so beautiful to him, it becomes everything to him
Since BSD characters are more focused on the protagonist of the novels and Nikolai is supposed to be Akaky, Fyodor probably represents his Overcoat.
Babe wake up!
Nikolai analysis droped!
One question left over from the video is why Fyodor doesn’t understand Nikolai as Cash said. Overall great video, goodnight or good day to whoever might read this. And bye-bye! ☀️🌑
Finally I’m not the only one who thinks their relationship is one sided. I’ve never even did too much digging to come to that conclusion.
The way i inspired to study the real biography of Mykola because of BSD. I don't remember much now, but the conflict of interests, origin and morals broke my heart.
bsd AND alnst 😞😞💔 queen ily
I definitely need to reread bsd from scratch since I literally didn't know anything about Nikolai (sorry I forgot everything I read even though I'm caught up
I really love Nikolai's character, he is really important to the plot, just like any other character as they're all linked together as you said. people need to understand that to get a story going there WILL be characters used to make another one shine, but it doesn't make them any less important if it's done correctly! Also I did some research on the author as well because I want to start reading his works sooner or later, and maaan there's really interesting things I found, it was fun, I recommend anyone who even thought of doing it just do it it's worth it, it's useful, it's fun, it's smash, I promise.
Man I want to read about other authors too, there's so much to do, I love bsd
ILY CASH GREAT VID
22:56…I feel u 😭..my friend asked me to do a Decay of Angels analysis (they r new to bsd but I yap so much abt the organization that they know almost everything abt DOA) and while yapping abt each individual character i had to catch myself before i made a gay joke every 0.1 seconds abt Fyolai 😭🙏
TY CASH FOR UPLOADING YET ANOTHER AMAZING VIDEO 🤩🤩🤩
Before watching this video, I would have never thought I would end up kinning Nikolai even a LITTLE bit, SO STOP MAKING ME KIN HIM A LITTLE BIT. Still an amazing video!
Also could u maybe kinda eventually do a video on Ranpo? please? Ik u have a life and everything, so u don’t have to, but ranpo’s my favorite character, and the very light search I did for Ranpo analyses didn’t yield any results. Again, u don’t have to, so u can just take this as a suggestion or smth?
Giggling swinging my feet, I love to watch these cause for the life of me I suck at understanding things and I need someone to explain everything to me
I was so tired and was literally thinking about how I hope Cash releases a new video soon and how cool it would be if I opened RUclips and there it was
Its 12:30 AM and I have school tomorrow, this video saved me from crying at school
Maybe
Probably
HOPEFULLY
Oh thank god, I was just about to beg for a video on my favourite clown. This has made my day.
Edit: watched the video and agree with every word of it, my uncle humours me when i read books from his collection and talks to me about the ideas i may have missed and commentary on society through comedy has always been an interesting topic. Gogol is a wonderfully written character and this documentation of his splendour brings me great joy.
AAA I LIVE THIS SO MUCH NIKOLAI IS MY FAV EVER THANK YOU
I appreciate how you took this seriously. Mwah, love you, I only watched two videos so far but sub 💜💜💜💜
TYSM CASH!!! But please make sure to rest well, and prioritize your mental health and life over posting, we all want you to be ok! (I think so)
I haven't fully watched this video yet but i wanted to say thank you...for the money you're about to make me lose 😂. As an older anime fan I finally had some time to watch BSD and realized something had to be missing or out of context in the show. I am familiar with a lot of the literary names in the show and their works, and was confused with the lack of depth in the show. Those names come with HEAVY works and themes and I doubted the mangaka would do so flippantly.
Then I found you, and you pretty much confirmed exactly what I had been bothered by. Knowing me, I will love the manga and BUY IT ALL 😅😢. I adore mundane moments, telling looks, and reading between the lines. And I love learning about new literary works through some of the names I looked up.
I see manga as genuine literary works that have something to say. These mangaka do research to create full works that are though provoking. It's not just pictures and fights. Japan has a culture with thousands of years of folklore and history infused in anime that makes me such a fan.
I knew about Danzai and his work. That's what intrigued me into watching the show. But I'm excited to look into Mori now ( cause what he said and did contradict, his character intrigued me.)
I finished season 5 and I enjoyed it most, but it confirmed to me that so much had to be cut out. The themes were vast with everyone's differing motivations but cut short for it to be cohesive imo.
I got on RUclips to not just see edits or reactions, but think pieces and I found you. I have eaten up all your vids and have enjoyed them. I don't know how old you are, but keep at it! As an introverted, niche driven "weirdo" in their 30s, I still value being me more than fitting in. And honestly i have gotten people into things because I talk about what I genuinely enjoy. So keep up the great work and the rants🎉. I'll keep watching. Take care!
THANK YOU I WAS LOOKING FOR THIS!!!
Help, why do I always feel like an entirely new being after watching your videos-
Anyways, amazing analysis, I really should go pick up a few books and do some research. However, I need time and willpower for that (which I definitely don't have, considering that we have like 3 tests in the same week (send help. 💀)).
I felt this on a spiritual level, good-luck on the tests
i miss nikolai
In 1852, after confessing his homosexuality to a fanatical priest, he was told to renounce literature, which prompted Gogol to burn the nearly completed manuscript of the Dead Souls sequel. The priest also said that to cure his “abomination” and cleanse his “inner filth” Gogol should abstain from food and sleep. Several days later he died of starvation at age 43.
(So, I'm.. conmfused)
That’s blatant misinformation, as I said. The info you’re getting is from a surface level Wikipedia page. As I said in the video, I linked actually accurate articles, so please refer to those
@@Cashexists omg, thanks you sm for answering, and yeah I'll check those out
guys i think cash likes nikolai (ty cash your videos go really well when opening and separating pomagranates)
it's a good day when cash uploads (saved my soul from the crushing depression from Brett Cooper's comeback)
the fart sound when tachihara appeared killed me 😭, also awesome video and I hope your doing well!!
AHHH U POSTED IM SO EARLY I WILL BE EATING THIS NOW 😋😋
i hear black sorrow in the background or am i tweaking..
I’m gonna swallow this video
@ too real it’s articulated amazingly
Ooo when u said you were doing Nikolai i didnt think it would be soon :0 Cant wait to watch this when i get back from school!:D
I HAVE AN IDEA FOR YOUR NEXT VID! YOU SHOULD ANALYZE ALL THE DIFFERENT SOUKOKU’S AND HOW THEY CONNECT AND STUFF, LIKE OLD SKK SKK AND SSKK. JUST AN IDEA THO U DONT HAVE TO DO IT, (NIKOLAI MY D
FAV CHARACTER TY FOR MAKING THIS, I HATE WHEN PEOPLE JUST MAKE HIM THE “SILLY CLOWN THATS INLOVE WITH FYODOR” YOU DID HIM JUSTICE.)
I was waiting for this video ngl
Nikolai is my favourite character solely because he interests me so much and how I personally struggle to understand him fully though relate to a lot of his ideals and motivations.
I also just really like morally complex characters (Nikolai and Fyodor in particular)
I feel so educated rn, thank you cash
CASH DO AN ANALYSIS ON VERLAINE AND MY LIFE IS YOURS😭😭😭😭😭
I love this video so much and I love Nikolai a lot but this video also made me think of the vocaloid Fukase who looks really similar to Nikolai and has a similar personality based on what the whole fandom headcannons. Also I love the black sorrow in the bg
YAYAY NIKOLAI ANALYSIS DROPPED
THE BLACK SORROW IN THE BACKGROUND.I'M GOING CRAZY..BRO ICAN'T FUCKING ESCAPE ALIEN STAGE
Yey! You did a vid on my kin :)
NIKOLAIIIIIII NIKOLAI NIKOLAI NIKOLAI
Praying u do a Higuchi Ichiyo analysis
Peak just dropped 😼
This made me cry.
i was just reading the manga rn i lowk dont wanna get spoiled but its a cash vid so i have to watch it
This man is a bloody genius. Great vid, but I'm curious as to your take on the orphanage and the direction of the story in general, ie. the god-like powers.
WE LOVE YOU CASH!
NEW BSD ESSAY WHOOOOO
9:04 i refuse to believe tom nook saying understood the moment cash says understood wasnt times
ALIEN STAGE MUSIC SPOTTED
wait wait, wtf is the conflict about Nikolai being a clown or a jester? oh god, this makes so much sense considering the fandom. Did i hear a cover of black sorrow in the background? Thank you for the Nikolai video, i love the guy and he's the reason why i'm reading dead souls!!!!
Hi cash, may I ask you some questions?
How do you analyze and what are the things you research most when analyzing/theorizing someone or something? I just need tips on analyzation and how to get better on it if you have some, thank you! Love your videos, I hope to be a great analyst like you someday!
If you want to analyse, the first thing I ask you to do is read the light novels and mangas from the beginning! There are many pdfs available online so it’ll be easy for you to get your hands on those. As for irl authors, there are many articles available online about them that I use, but it’s always good to ask around for more resources!
sobbing because i zoned out about 20 times but enjoyed every second of it
NEW CASH BIDEO DROPPED YAUOOO
9:32 justice for fashion designer cash they didn’t deserve the hate 😔
THANK YOU
ANOTHER CASH BANGER HOW DO THEY DO IT ?!?! i'm saying this again even though it pains me but fyodor's relationship with nikolai is exponentially more toxic and manipulative than his relationship with ivan... ALSO HOLY SHIT I JUMPED WHEN THE ANOMALOCARIS SHOWED UP LMAO
little known fact the stripes on nikolai's pants are actually the straight flag /j (good video 👍i liked it)
Omg I've been dying for Nikolai content, there is literally nothing abt him
Absolute CINEMA. Also i believe Fyodor and Nikolai are kind of similar to Jesus and Judas but I could just be tweaking
Hey cash,
Can you do a character analysis of Edgar Allan Poe he is one of fav character but he became my favourite because I kinda have bias for him since he is one of my favourite authors and from fanfiction in which he has personality but I think in canon i can define his personality in 2 words 'Ranpo Edogawa'
I have my own opinion regarding this character i would love to have you insight on this.
Since I really love Character analysis.
Open for criticism and disscusion
no..how dare you! no stay away stay away AAAAAGGHHH *turns into ash baby as nikolai enters my list of favorite characters against my will /j*
In all seriousness though this is excellent. When I first read BSD I thought Nikolai would be one of my favorites because I thought the premise of a character being so obsessed with freedom to the point that they lose sight of why freedom is important in the first place and therefore sabotage themselves was one of the most novel, tragic things I've seen in a piece of media (granted I do live under a rock and don't consume a lot of original fiction media). I can't say exactly why I ended up lowk dismissing him after the initial intrigue wore off, but this essay has definitely sent me right back into my original view of him (with domain expansion bc of the analysis and new information ofc!)
Also this might be a silly thought but in the middle of the video it occurred to me that Nikolai's view of his body and mind and feelings and such things preventing him from achieving true freedom. and tying him down feels similar to earlier christian ideas that basically viewed the body as a deplorable thing because it tethered people to the material world and prevented them from being able to achieve full connection with god and spirituality or smth
Also the credits were real as hell I too would have struggled greatly to not say "Fyolai canon" every 5 seconds if I had the script that you did.
Black sorrow in the backgrounf is amazing to me
BLACK SORROW AND FYOLAI!?!?!??!
Black Sorrow Playing in the back is crazy
WOAHA, i knew i kinned Nikolai But i didn't think i kinned him THIS MUCH🧍🏻♂️
We are literally the same, it's so crazy... How...how...Is this Karma?
Also I would like it if you can do something with sigma because I would like to see what would happen in the future for him because I am wondering what will happen with him while he is in his mind, and I would also like for your take about who is sigma as a whole.
I HEAR THE ALIEN STAGE IN THE BACKGROUND 15:10 BLACK SORRROWWWWWWWWW
0:00 already screaming I’m so excited
2:40 WAIT HES NOT?? FR??!? bro I’ve been lied to so many times, and not just by BSD people
6:19 that hurts. that hurts so bad. oh god.
7:35 AHHHHH
8:28 oh I get it the clown nose is cause he’s a clown like how the blue tie was for Kunikida I get it I get it
9:34 hey no I liked Fashion Designer Cash. Regular Cash you have to be nice to people, including yourself, ok?
12:48 not unlike Dazai tbh
19:55 he’s going to die isn’t he
24:35 oh or not that works too. sure.
Nikolai is lk one of the best side characters I’ve seen in any story tbh.
Finally someone who brings up how the characters NOT inspired by the authors but rather by their works
AAAAAAAAAA VIDYOLARIN OKADAR IYI KI SANA ANATAMAM! HEPSINI TEK TEK IZLEDIM BIR GÜNDEEEE! BU MUHTEŞEM VIDYOLARI YAPTIĞIN IÇIN SANA NE KADAR SEVDIĞMIĞ ANATAMAM (BU ARADA TÜRKÇE YAZMAM OKADAR IYI DEĞIL ÇUNKU TÜRKIYE DE YAŞAMIYOM OYUZDAN HIÇBIR TÜRK OKUYOSA BUNU ÇOK ÖZUR DILERIM D:)
THE BLACK SORROW IN THE BACKROUND? CASH IS ALIEN STAGE FAN REAL???
My love for nikolai will never be understood to study.
Omg, this is the first time I come this early😗
Is that… black sorrow in the background?🥺🥺🥺
Very random but at the beginning around 2:52 I registered the da CT that the background was Black Sorrow from Alien stage.
((CRINGE ALERTT !!SELF INSERT OC AHEAD!!))
Soo...I can't really write but i have a bsd oc that i feel like Nikolai can kinda relate to and they'd be friends? If someone sees this lmk what you think? So I haven't got the full lore yet but her name is Yu Long (her name does have a meaning, it means "Light after Rain" and her ability is called "Secret Garden" and it's basically chemical manipulation of the plants) basically she was in the pm with oda and they were together and they wanted to basically just live a normal life (but of course he... yeah) and then she left Dazai a few of her and Oda's things before faking her death and disappearing (but she left a few clues for Dazai that she was still alive because it made her sad thinking Dazai might spiral because he's lost yet another person) And dresses like a mourner (except extremely extravagantly) but adds a little white on it. (This is where the possible Nikolai friendship comes in) She's not just mourning Oda and the kids. She's mourning all of society. In her eyes, every single person in society is a slave. She wants to be free. She wants to finally see the sun after the suffocating rain. But she never will. She joins the decay of angels to attempt to tear down society. Make everyone else free too. Key word. Everyone else. In her eyes, the only real way to be free..is to die. But she wears some white too. She has a black and white mentality but... sometimes she just.. can't decide if what she's doing is right. She's always torn. Between self exit or tearing down society. Self exit because well..A body is the imprisonment of the mind. It's limiting. She only wants to tear society down for the people who want to live.. people like Nikolai. And..herself. At a time. A tine long past. Oh and i forgot to say, she did recognize Dazai in Mersult and she nearly cried.
this is a gorgeous video, thank you cash for enlightening us !!
ALSO FYOLAI CANON !!!!!!
Nikolai yeayyyyyyyyyy
5:15 No he was. I dreamt it
Umm.. Why do I hear Black sorrow in the background?? 😀😀😦🤨