I was homeless for many years.. the last 8 months i lived behind a cemetery inside of a tent by myself.. bcuz my exgf chose drugs over me... That was my last searching moment. But the area was spooky at first but then a sense of peace ..where i was visited by animals such as red birds, owl, and random cats on moonlight nights. This is where I found self. 💜🕉️☯️🧿☯️🕉️💜 Chris 🕉️
part of me has an intuition that what you are saying is true and really wants to ''surrender''. another part of me says there is happiness in objects and experiences and meditation does not seem to go anywhere meaningful. i don't know what to do, but i will keep watching. i had a paranormal experience when i was 19 so i wonder if there is some kind of other world. i think suffering creates friction that might help me go on.
it's so mysterious ! at the beginning it feels that we are chasing spirituality, until we get this weird feeling that in fact it is chasing us, and there is literally "nowhere" to hide...until the word "spirituality" means nothing anymore. everything is seen as clearly meaningless. at the beginning of the search it feels like we are going to improve the character with some special knowledge and abilities that will finally make us special. Until the very existance of the character is questionned. it reminds me a quote i heard : "if you look long enought into the abyss, the abyss is looking back into you" (or something like that). what is found is lightyears from what was expected to be found. it is so disarming that it feels like total despair. there is no thing thats means nothing anymore. it feels like a mental check mat. life goes "sorry ! no more moves for you !". no more books to read, no more magic piece of knowledge to add to the collection. but the person is still apparently present. and then we are left with what is..witch is total unknowing and mystery. with zero freewill, zero control, zero power. just waiting for the void to swallow us once for all.
The Dhammapada, as translated by Glenn Wallis, contains some notes that are resourceful. Summary- The Mind is a sensory organ and thoughts are objects sensed. Just as the nose is not the fragrance and the ear is not the music, the mind is not the thought. If an individual had this accurate perception of "mind as sensory organ", the dissolution of culturally conditioned identity would occur more effectively, leading to "enlightenment, unbinding, nirvana, awakening".
Thank you, I felt several emotions watching this video. I brought to mind an anology of The Heroes Journey. There is enjoyment in the journey but it can't be completed until the final confrontation with I.
Going through those painful patters and narratives of the person, over and over again, is so uncomfortable and painful. It is like the disgust of being human is slowly being released. Like thats all there is. Even while the knowing that those states aren't truth. What did this look like for you when the apparent 'you' was fading away?
it now comes from love, from inspiration and already wholeness. instead of desiring because you’re not complete. desiring winning the lottery vs doing things that make you a lot of money because you LOVE doing that thing in the moment itself. without goal, without means to an end. probably there’s less planning less imagining what to say: it just arises spontaneously
It feels like a video journal that she can go back to - watch again or multiple times to see if and how our perception changes over "time"....I can feel the "peeling away" and the stuff we try to fill the "void within me"...as we SEE a whole new world as that perception is Gone. Done. And Freedom arises as my actual reality. Full and empty without any separation (energetically)♡
If its enough of the in trip, it should be refreshing to take the out trip. I find it was enough of the in when I started sleeping light. I gave up the in for months at a time and found myself better just walking. At 64 yrs of age I still find the in trip helps sometimes.
Suzanne, after your last video, a new story came out. And yes you are right. Spiritual communities say "person" is the problem but actually "I" is the problem. Korean Zen monks have been saying "drop I, drop I, drop I" over and over past thousands of years but I didn't quite understand what they really meant. Identification/Beliefs are nothing but a "I" sense stored in the body combined with "I" story. It doesn't matter whether "I" is person or pure awareness or Buddha or Jesus. Now problem I'm facing is how can I drop "I"? Quite paradoxical! LoL
So I caught your warning video a day or so ago plus a few more. Ughm and that video was like the third warning signs it seems ive been given lately. I had been reading Angelo Dilullos book and watching his videos. So I have a question im assuming after one is fully relized one would no longer choice to be married? If thats the case Ive stepped away from this before. I want to make sure I can step away again and not just pop into being IT with out me fully choosing to so.
Someone commented in a previous video that Suzanne says something at the end of her video that is in a different accent, almost like it's someone else speaking through her or its her speaking from some other place. I didn't really take it seriously but again in this video it happens, near the end when she says "it is impossible". What is going on there?
And how do you know that the illusion of life or the seeking won't appear for you again? What makes you so sure that you are "done" now and that this isn't just another temporary glimpse/peak of non-duality? Would be happy to get a reply :)
I am Mr Cream and i have found all the answers (i think) to the questions of souls. There was ONE ETHERNALLY EXISTING SOUL in the begining of the universe, And this GROW OUT WITH THE UNIVERSE GROWING into an angel, AND IT MULTIPLYED, The copies are principially identical just sizes vary (at least temporarily) and these souls watch all the matter there is continiously and they create initiated souls such as you and me, and help them reincarnate. So two types of souls, ANGELIC souls helping our souls, AND normal souls. There is but heaven on the other world. and there is a reincarnation when there is a body available for a soul (one brain, one soul). OH and the other world is right here, on masses of planets or stars. No matter gets annihilated and no soulmatter gets annihilated either, there is just transformation of souls and normal matter doesn't even transform other then its temporary shape deformations as it bounces.
if you really want to realise the map is not he territory . try the toad but be prepared for a non dual rebirth . it goes beyond all intellectual rationalisation
Just randomly stumbled upon your videos. I have one question, why don’t almost any video of yours have any context in the beginning? It feels like you just start talking about random stuff which only you have idea about. It would be nice to understand what you were trying to talk about in the beginning.
I was homeless for many years.. the last 8 months i lived behind a cemetery inside of a tent by myself.. bcuz my exgf chose drugs over me... That was my last searching moment. But the area was spooky at first but then a sense of peace ..where i was visited by
animals such as red birds, owl, and random cats on moonlight nights. This is where I
found self. 💜🕉️☯️🧿☯️🕉️💜 Chris 🕉️
Soo Beautiful 😍!!
The trees kinda look like they are tombstones too. They ARE pretty.
What a great background for this message.
A graveyard
It is Amazingly clear what you touches here, thanks very much for sharing, Suzanne, love you, take care 🙂🙃.
Thank you Jan
part of me has an intuition that what you are saying is true and really wants to ''surrender''. another part of me says there is happiness in objects and experiences and meditation does not seem to go anywhere meaningful. i don't know what to do, but i will keep watching.
i had a paranormal experience when i was 19 so i wonder if there is some kind of other world. i think suffering creates friction that might help me go on.
it's so mysterious ! at the beginning it feels that we are chasing spirituality, until we get this weird feeling that in fact it is chasing us, and there is literally "nowhere" to hide...until the word "spirituality" means nothing anymore. everything is seen as clearly meaningless.
at the beginning of the search it feels like we are going to improve the character with some special knowledge and abilities that will finally make us special. Until the very existance of the character is questionned.
it reminds me a quote i heard : "if you look long enought into the abyss, the abyss is looking back into you" (or something like that).
what is found is lightyears from what was expected to be found. it is so disarming that it feels like total despair.
there is no thing thats means nothing anymore.
it feels like a mental check mat. life goes "sorry ! no more moves for you !". no more books to read, no more magic piece of knowledge to add to the collection. but the person is still apparently present.
and then we are left with what is..witch is total unknowing and mystery. with zero freewill, zero control, zero power.
just waiting for the void to swallow us once for all.
It's Neitzsche - "when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you"
its only despair/nothing from the point of view of the mind. what you really are is pure unbound infinite love
I share your feelings about the big Truth. Thanks for sharing your time with us....
The Dhammapada, as translated by Glenn Wallis, contains some notes that are resourceful. Summary- The Mind is a sensory organ and thoughts are objects sensed. Just as the nose is not the fragrance and the ear is not the music, the mind is not the thought. If an individual had this accurate perception of "mind as sensory organ", the dissolution of culturally conditioned identity would occur more effectively, leading to "enlightenment, unbinding, nirvana, awakening".
Beautiful words
Thank you, I felt several emotions watching this video. I brought to mind an anology of The Heroes Journey. There is enjoyment in the journey but it can't be completed until the final confrontation with I.
Going through those painful patters and narratives of the person, over and over again, is so uncomfortable and painful. It is like the disgust of being human is slowly being released. Like thats all there is. Even while the knowing that those states aren't truth.
What did this look like for you when the apparent 'you' was fading away?
Please take this in a sincere tone of curiosity… if we loose all desires, wants….what causes you, Suzanne, to want to create RUclips videos?
Also curious. In a sincere tone of curiosity. Thanks!
I also wonder this.
it now comes from love, from inspiration and already wholeness. instead of desiring because you’re not complete. desiring winning the lottery vs doing things that make you a lot of money because you LOVE doing that thing in the moment itself. without goal, without means to an end. probably there’s less planning less imagining what to say: it just arises spontaneously
It feels like a video journal that she can go back to - watch again or multiple times to see if and how our perception changes over "time"....I can feel the "peeling away" and the stuff we try to fill the "void within me"...as we SEE a whole new world as that perception is Gone. Done. And Freedom arises as my actual reality. Full and empty without any separation (energetically)♡
Maybe her "body" wants it so she goes with the flow
Thank you. Nice spot, btw 😌
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If its enough of the in trip, it should be refreshing to take the out trip. I find it was enough of the in when I started sleeping light. I gave up the in for months at a time and found myself better just walking. At 64 yrs of age I still find the in trip helps sometimes.
Suzanne, after your last video, a new story came out. And yes you are right. Spiritual communities say "person" is the problem but actually "I" is the problem. Korean Zen monks have been saying "drop I, drop I, drop I" over and over past thousands of years but I didn't quite understand what they really meant. Identification/Beliefs are nothing but a "I" sense stored in the body combined with "I" story. It doesn't matter whether "I" is person or pure awareness or Buddha or Jesus. Now problem I'm facing is how can I drop "I"? Quite paradoxical! LoL
oh forgot to mention! According to the investigation story this body has been receiving, "I" is nothing but a concept. It's not reality.
So I caught your warning video a day or so ago plus a few more. Ughm and that video was like the third warning signs it seems ive been given lately.
I had been reading Angelo Dilullos book and watching his videos.
So I have a question im assuming after one is fully relized one would no longer choice to be married?
If thats the case Ive stepped away from this before.
I want to make sure I can step away again and not just pop into being IT with out me fully choosing to so.
3:39 Friend :D
Hey
Someone commented in a previous video that Suzanne says something at the end of her video that is in a different accent, almost like it's someone else speaking through her or its her speaking from some other place. I didn't really take it seriously but again in this video it happens, near the end when she says "it is impossible".
What is going on there?
Did you take dmt
Would you say you are dead?
And how do you know that the illusion of life or the seeking won't appear for you again? What makes you so sure that you are "done" now and that this isn't just another temporary glimpse/peak of non-duality? Would be happy to get a reply :)
I am Mr Cream and i have found all the answers (i think) to the questions of souls.
There was ONE ETHERNALLY EXISTING SOUL in the begining of the universe, And this GROW OUT WITH THE UNIVERSE GROWING into an angel, AND IT MULTIPLYED, The copies are principially identical just sizes vary (at least temporarily) and these souls watch all the matter there is continiously and they create initiated souls such as you and me, and help them reincarnate.
So two types of souls, ANGELIC souls helping our souls, AND normal souls.
There is but heaven on the other world. and there is a reincarnation when there is a body available for a soul (one brain, one soul). OH and the other world is right here, on masses of planets or stars.
No matter gets annihilated and no soulmatter gets annihilated either, there is just transformation of souls and normal matter doesn't even transform other then its temporary shape deformations as it bounces.
if you really want to realise the map is not he territory . try the toad but be prepared for a non dual rebirth . it goes beyond all intellectual rationalisation
Just recognise you are already.
Two into one. Why?
Just randomly stumbled upon your videos. I have one question, why don’t almost any video of yours have any context in the beginning? It feels like you just start talking about random stuff which only you have idea about. It would be nice to understand what you were trying to talk about in the beginning.