Final hours of my best friend

This was my best friend of 5 years that I lost on August 11th due to cancer. It came as a sudden shock to all of us especially my 13 year old son and 19 year daughter. She died within 4 hours after this movie was made and laid to rest shortly there after. I miss her so much as she spent most of her time directly under foot because she could never get close enough to anyone to show all the love she had to offer. This memo may sound like I am nuts but when you have a friend die you lose part of your everyday being and this is no different. My dog was around me every second of every day and when she died a hugh portion of my being went her. During the filming I began to cry and it seemed it would never stop. Its been two months now and I cry about as much as I did the day I made this film but I am able to see the fun she had and tried to look past as the negative and guilt I felt wondering why I did not catch the pain sooner and why I made her suffer as long as I did. I have to keep telling myself I would never do anything to hurt her because I will always love her as SHE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE MY LITTLE "GIRLY GIRL" and my best friend. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE MY FIREND!