Its Amazing To See You Active With The Community, Since Most People Who Write Songs Like These, Dont Really Focus On What The People Who Watch It, How They React.
@@XxKillerWolfxXGJake and the members of citizen soldier are truly kind people they don't do it for the fame or money I can tell they do it to help to get people threw the struggles they truly are a amazing representation of what music is for
Amazing sing and much needed message Jake and everyone else thx keep rocking guys still plan on doing those covers just going going threw a tough time myself tbh🖤🖤🖤🤘
@CitizenSoldier Love the song! It’s a song that you cannot listen to with the music half way up, it has to be blasted and busting the speakers, the lyrics are very real!
I know the feeling. I first heard it when I was 17 when I was on the phone with my band director. He said that he and my percussion teacher were so proud of me... when I got off the phone with him, I literally just started crying
oh yes. Nowasays my father sometimes says it to me and I have very lovly friends, but there are few who see how touth life can be with all this skeletons in demons in our heads. Its a fight, its tough and we SOULD be proud. Its now simple matter to be alive and a world with so much crazy and scary things in it... and a world with a head full of horrors.
Citizen Soldier literally saved my life. If anyone, anywhere, needs to talk. I’m here. Go to the comments and let’s talk. You are not alone. To all our veterans, even those outside my home country of Canada, thank you for your service. If you’re still with us; I hope you have people in your life you can reach out to in your dark times.
Citizen Soldier writes almost exclusively very meaningful, hard-hitting songs like this one. I can't recommend them enough. This new song hits hard. Thank you for reacting to it and being so open and vulnerable with your ptsd and mental health struggles. I'm proud of you. I personally know how hard it is when you have to support yourself and pull yourself out of it all alone.
I just got through a toxic relationship with the father of my kids and he doesn't want me to see my kids and yesterday I felt like killing myself when I heard this song it hit home I cried and it represented how I was feeling at the time
@@uchihaarakashi Oh dear, I hope it got a little bit better. Getting through a split when there are loved kids involved is such a hard and difficult thing. I also hope you can see them now, because I think, that for you very importan and also for them. soul hug 🖤
This song describes depression perfectly. I have battled it most of my life and I almost ended at one point. My reason to live in that moment (knife in hand) was thinking of my little brothers going through life without me. I was their protector and their hero. I couldn't go through with it. That reason kept me alive for years until I found another reason to live. Eventually, I stopped looking for a reason because the thoughts stopped. This song is perfect.
I have faced more death then I care to admit and we will have to agree to disagree because you are very much worth it … if you need someone to talk to , I will be here…. I know what it’s like to go through darkness alone and I wouldn’t wish it on my worse enemy…. I will leave my email address if you ever change your mind and email you my phone number … just say the word I’m on it and one more thing, you’re worth it !! Xo
I survived childhood cancer and too cut a long story short I wonder why I survived. Don’t wanna bore you with the long version which i do have written 😅. In any event good day to you all.
@Shadele1969 hello, thank you for this. How do you cope with aniexty? Mine is becoming chronic. I am.afaird I am burdening my friends with all my panic attacks and I dont want to cause a burn out.
Absolutely everyone who is struggling needs to hear this song and other songs by Citizen Soldier, their the best, they helped me and helped others with mental health. ❤️
Hey man. I just wanted to say a couple things. Firstly, thank you for serving and protecting our freedom. I know doing that is hard and it can leave you in a dark place, and it can leave you broken, not just physically... We all have our demons and our darkness. Some are able to fight them better than others, and you talking to us and giving us the messages you have through this video helps. You told us to reach out if we ever need to talk, and i want to give you that same opportunity. If you see this comment and ever need someone, im here for you.
Love you man. As a veteran with PTSD and only one leg, it was hard to ask for help. I still have my moments and it sucks when your group walks away. Even had family that have not talked to me in a decade. Still love them but I have chosen my new family. Family is not always biological.
If possible.... If you don't mind I would love to draw your unit(s) flag if you're comfortable that is. I love doing that for our vets. Thank you for your sacrifices you made. ❤❤❤❤ lots of love.
@@TormentedVet_Reactions Just sent it sorry for it being late RUclips notifications didn't even notify me you made a comment just that you left a heart.
I had a bad childhood full of pain and abuse even after it stopped. For years it kept happening in my head. I cteied to commit suicide but it didnt work. Before i could try it again, Queesryche came out with their first full album "the warning". Every song spoke to my heart and mind. They gave me hope and inspiration. I dont know why but i wrote down every memory i could remember from childhood- good and bad- all the way to the current time in my life. I was 16. When i finished writing everything down in about 2 weeks. I read it and threw it away. At that moment i started living my life brand new. I thank God for that idea to write everything and throw it away and i also thank God for the music of Queensryche. Their following 4 albums also spoke to me and showed me i was not alone. My past is now a testimony that people can make it out of every situation with God.
Hearing that "I'm proud of you", hit me so hard. I wasn't expecting it and didn't realize how badly I needed to hear it. Thank you! I'm so happy to have run across your channel.
I resonate with so much of what you're saying. I'm 19 years old and most of the time when I told people that I was struggling, they simply thought that I was seeking attention and that there were bigger problems than those a person my age could ever have. I've spend nights where I had to cry to actually be able to fall asleep and the best dreams I had were where I wasn't around anymore, but I grew too scared to actually tell people of how far I had sunken. I told the person I thought was my best friend and that, 3 years ago, was the last time I ever spoke to her. Trying to reach out to the people, but also being scared of them knowing. I just thought that it was easier to fake it all and pretend like I was doing alright, but then last year I crashed. I just couldn't handle faking anymore and what hurt most was that the people who did stick around only asked me why I was acting weird or different. They told me how I used to smile and talk all the time and it just felt like it didn't matter how I was really feeling, as long as I was pretending to be okay, it was fine. Every moment I spend being near someone I was afraid to just break down, afraid that they would see the real me. So whenever I could I would just lock myself in my bedroom, crying my eyes out to Citizen Soldier and trying to make sure no one could hear me cry. I've had to deal with anxiety and depressions since I was 10 years old and ever since then I've felt like I had to do things on my own, I thought nobody would care as long as I pretended to be fine. But over the last few months I've been fighting to actually be honest because I've come to realize that if people don't want the real me than they don't deserve the fake me. It's a fight I'm stil fighting, but listening to Citizen Soldier and listening to the reactions people post on their music actually help me so much. You have helped me so much. Just knowing that even if we feel alone, there are always people who understand what you're feeling and going through. We're not alone. Even in our darkest moments when we wish we just wouldn't wake up anymore. You have nearly 9K subscribers now, which means there are at least that many people who DO care and who DO believe you are worth living. Even if it might feel like it, you're not alone. When all signs point towards one direction, you can choose to go another way. We define us. And you don't live for the people around you, you live for you. Because YOU are worth each and every bit of light and happiness that life has to offer. Without darkness there wouldn't be light and without sadness there wouldn't be happiness. But fighting through only makes you stronger. The darkness will probably never fully leave, but I choose to believe that in that, light can only grow.
Oh sweetness, thanks for your great and open words. You are so right. Its important to be true to ourselfes. I faked and smiled to a point where my body gots hurt. Don't recomand that path to anyeone. It will help noone and can get very scary bad. Try to be authentic, where you feel save for it, where you can stand your ground. And peolple and places where you only liked, when you are fake...go away from them. They are worthy beeing for themselfes but at the same time, you are YOUR worthy beeing so you have every right to protect yourselfe from they misbeaviours. They don't know better but when they don't wan't to learn, they don't derserve your presence.
I cannot express how fucking much this song gets me, there are about a hand full of songs that can break a man! An this is one of them, the lyrics are so damn powerful! I listen to it over an over full volume. Unexplainable feeling to this song, makes me angry but also a feeling of relief knowing you don’t walk the dark path alone in life!
I am proud of you for being able to allow yourself to be vulnerable to help someone else. That takes inner strength and compassion. I have constant pain in my head, had brain surgery and am scheduled for a CT scan to make sure my brain hasn't shifted. The nurse kept saying over and over she was so sorry I was in so much pain everyday and I told her not to be sorry because if this was happening to someone else that person might not be able to do it and might do themselves in. She must not have heard that before because she got quiet for a few seconds. To everyone who is riding the struggle bus. I am on the same bus. You are not alone.
Can't get any more real than this. Thank you for sharing your message and keeping the light on for others. I am proud of you. Reaching back so you also know that truth. You are not alone. We are never alone. Love from a fellow veteran sister. ⚓️
Hey bro, I’m a stranger on the streets but a brother in arms and harms way. Seems like we sometimes find the best message even when we don’t want to hear it. Subscribed to help you help me and everyone who needs it. Thanks bro, SEMPER FI.
Preach it man. Army for 10 1/2 years 3 deployments. 5 months after being medically retired I lost my oldest son. It was so dark for a while. It's been 7 years but my children have helped me stay here. Glad your still here and hopefully soon I'll find out about trying to be a peer counselor with the VA.
i've loved citizen soldier for awhile know, but you're reaction brought tears to my eyes again like hearing it for the first time. Thank you for your service and keep up the positivity on life
citizen soldiers entire catelog is outstanding. so any of them are great reactions. EDIT: just saw no one said a thing to your post. i no longer suggest listening to their catalog i demand it. starting with would anyone care. cuz they do care about those of us that struggle day in and day out.
This is a great band, I remember the first song I heard from them was called "Would Anyone Care" and that song couldn't have came up at a better time. I'm not military, I'm fire department, struggling with PTSD/anxiety and I remember that night when I first time I heard that song, I was in a really dark place, probably the darkest place I've been in, I felt like no one could pull me out. I was tired of not being able to serve and protect my community anymore as well as just tired of the PTSD/anxiety. Not being able to do everyday tasks. I was ready to throw it, ready to check out then that song came on. I listened to it, I really focused on those words and I had that thought of "I still need to be here, my community still needs me, and I know who is showing up to that call, I can't do that to the guys I served with. They're my second family, they're my brothers and sisters." Its still not easy, but I'm still putting up that fight, I still want to get back to doing what I was trained to do. I'm not ready to hang up that uniform yet. The part in the video when you're talking about anger and crowded places, I get that. I got the same issue to an extent and still trying to figure out how not to go off on someone when they get too close to me. It can take me 1-2 hours just to get 1-3 items and I always get angry at myself after. There are some stores I still won't walk into. I still got issues sleeping, but then again I'm FD and I had a LT tell me recently "we're built that way" so it could be that as well. Great video sir, thank you for your service. I just subbed to your channel.
Nobody is born to deal with the things that y’all deal with and I believe you weren’t successful because you’re needed here for some reason…. You’re here to help someone with your story… I wondered for years why my attempts didn’t work… I figured it out and I’ve accepted it … don’t give up !!!
@@2eREPPARA Its been a year almost 2 years now, and I still see faces of the people we couldn't save as well. Sometimes I'll see people that looked like the people I lost as I try to walk through the store and it never fails to scare me to death. I'm glad you're still here.
" I'm so proud of you for getting this far." this lyrics made me cry I'm a suicide survivor I've tried to end my life so many times. I'm mentally disabled and I feel like nobody cares about me. I have autism, anxiety, ADHD, OCD, and learning disability. My father and I don't have a good relationship he barely even notices me or even tell me that he's proud of me. There was some days where I just stay in my room and not eat or sleep because of my own father. every single night it's like I'm getting closer to the edge I was 14 the first time I tried to commit suicide. I wasn't proud of it and still ain't, fast forward I was 16 the second time I tried to commit. I'm 22 now still battling with depression but I'm slowly getting better. I'm also bisexual and my father he doesn't support me being bisexual but hearing " I'm so proud of you for getting this far." hit me hard I haven't heard those words in a while thank you citizen solider 💙
oh dear, big soul hug to you too. In our world, its so difficult to live, when you have a mind, that works in other ways, than teh mayority. I hope you get a home, where you can feel safe to be yourselfe! Not so scared of judging that you doesn't leave the room. I am glad you survived and I hope, it while get better. I elapse sometimes but with my 37 years and after 16 years of theraphie where some very good people helped me, its better. Its no easy task, but I hope deeply, you fight. You have a fantastic fascinating brain and mind, for sure. Its worth to survive. You ARE worthy of love of hope and to be proud also for yourselfe. 🖤
I just found you and i love your reaction to this song. Citizen soldier has helped me immensely. I was in a deep dark place that i had to pull myself out of just a few weeks ago. Thank you sir
Mental pain is the worst pain anyone can go through! You can't explain it to a person who's never experienced it, and if they were to experience it, it would be devastating for them, and they would not be able to handle it! The only way I could explain my pain would be if you were wounded laying on the ground on The Verge of Death, and you're screaming at people for help but they constantly just walk by and ignore you. No matter what you do, they never help you!! It just hurts so much, and you can never imagine it! Thanks to Citizen Soldier, they helped me climb out of that hole and I'm doing better than ever!
I feel this song, a lot. I know what its like to be in that darkness and having what seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Then I figured out that there are good people out there who are there for you to help you and be that anchor, that hope to hold on. I love the message in this song and the way you elaborated on it sir. Keeo up the great work. And if you ever need someone....Im here. I might take a little while to respond because I'm busy frequently and don't always have access to technology...but i will respond as soon as i get a chance...I promise that. That goes for EVERYONE AND EVERYBODY HERE.
Dude I'm sorry for what you're going through, but I'm proud you're still here, I'm proud of you for being strong but still sharing your vulnerability because that takes real strength, I'm proud of you for serving your country, I'm proud of you for everything that you're doing and proud that you can help spread the message of mental illness with your experience you are such a great human being that has been through so much that you didn't deserve. You're a great person, man, father, and soldier. I know it's late since you've been home for a while but even so I'd still like to say welcome home soldier. 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Thank you for sharing your pain with us. And thank you and all veterans out there not just for their service, but their sacrifice. You’ve given up a life that we taken for granted to secure that life for us. There are no words to describe how much it means.
It’s true, I have dealt with depression. Really bad sometimes but I’m thankful for the one person I have in my life to be there for me when I need them. He himself has dealt with depression too. I’m thankful for him, because if it wasn’t for him I probably wouldn’t be here today..
Amazing song, and it’s definitely gotten a review that’s worthy for the message the songwriters have given. There were times I’ve come so close to giving up and this song would come up on my radio station. The message reminded me that I wasn’t alone and that there were other people who were going through a tough time like I have. There has been so many times this song has helped to stop me from harming myself. I’m not alone and neither are any of you. Reach out to someone and talk to them if anyone is going through a difficult time. There’s bound to be someone that cares for you and I promise you, you won’t regret reaching out. Thanks for the review of one of my favorite songs.
I feel you, brother. Anytime i listen to Citizen Soldier, it lifts a little of the pain i bear. I love their music. and your reaction is very pure. New Subscriber. Bless you, Thank you for your service my brother.
If you like this song check out Tattoos by Citizen Soldier. That one hits hard too but it's amazing. It empowers you and gives hope. I love Citizen Soldier!!
I found Citizen Soldier recently. They're the only ones who seem to get it. I have PTSD, Schizoaffective disorder, Anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, and so many other problems. I can't work, don't qualify for disability, and have so much uncertainty, I'm still trying to find a reason to live that isn't based on who i'd leave behind if didn't.
Sir I want to thank you for your service. And wow i am about to cry again. not for the first time hearing this song. Yep I had to write another comment.
I fight every day to get out and stay out of the dark. I’m a Navy 02 OEF vet, you have a different struggle and story than I, but I’m proud of you brother!
After watching this, I struggled to find the right words... dealing with everything that we've been through, physically and mentally, is never easy and it does get exhausting. The best we can do is find that reason to keep going and surround ourselves with those who truly care and are able to help in one way or another. While I personally have not served (and can't for medical reasons), I support those who have, so I thank you for your service from the bottom of my heart. I also want to wish you a happy men's mental health month.
@Tormented Vet....im about to write a novel but think you need to hear this. I happened to run across your channel a couple months ago and have liked a lot of your reactions but im the type to never comment on youtube videos but like you said in the video this one hits hard....i just recently married my husband last april and hes an 8 year military vet and has a lot of the same issues you are dealing with i.e. night terrors, issues with crowds, PTSD etc. Hes had several failed marriages and past relationships before we got together. Ive also known him for 13 years before us getting married. Ive been through it with him thick and thin even before tying the knot. Hes had his service dog help him and ive seen so much change for the better. Thank you for your service. Veterans need our help. Got your 6!
I love this song. my roommate is totally a fan girl of this band. while i love some of there other music, this song hits home. She says the lead singer is a therapist. She is on there discord and everything. She is awesome in her own way i just couldn't handle all her issues and she couldn't handle mine and all our stuff fell down around us.
Me, happy you made it out of the dark tunnel. You see, we reach a point in our life where being desperate for anything positive can give you a ride through hell. Any veteran gets my gratitude. Thank you. Never give up that fight. I got out by writing and creating my own music, so after reaching the lowest point in my life, I made it through that hell that I mentioned. Battered, bruised, and empty, mentally. But after you get out. You get better
You're a kind hearted person and I really love that about you, sir. I respect that and you have another follower :) I'm happy found you and to anybody out there, never give up, look for that light even when all is lost, there's a warrior in us all❤️
A book I read once stated that there are 2 kinds of secrets 1. The Secrets of the Mouth 2. The Secrets of the Heart The book said that the second type is much- almost impossible to share because the longer it's there the heavier it gets.
Im surrounded by people and i feel like im the only one here. I used to be athletic played sports hiked hunted camped. Done yard work fixed things now i cant walk through my house without suffocating. It bothers me enough i cant do what i used to. Then i have my wife and her family putting me down calling me names and its effecting me very negatively. All i do is stay in my room sleep when i can i have bad insomnia. Ive fought demons a long time fought them off many times but im falling again and i dont know if i can fight anymore. If noone else cares why should i i feel alone and im tired of fighting a losing battle alone.
Between loss, grief, and depression, i'm constantly in and out of that hole. And i pretend to be okay enough to keeo going, but i am only alive because i feel like i'm a coward...
It was 3 am on a Monday about a month ago. Insomnia was preventing me from sleeping. A few months ago I had a rollover accident and suffered both a compression fracture in my spine and a Traumatic Brain Injury. I have had medical issues since childhood and have lived in pain for years. That night I felt I'd finally had enough. I was so tired of my life. I tried to think about my future and didn't like what I saw. With my TBI I don't know what I'll be able to do for work. I live alone and it was so quiet. I put some music on just for some noise. I kept trying to justify to myself why suicide was my best option. I finally made my decision and sat back and tried to decided the best way to do it. But the next song that came on showed me the pain that the artist still carried with him from a friend's suicide years earlier. At that moment I realized how much pain I would cause my friends and loved ones. I wept as I realized I couldn't do it that night. I still wish that accident had killed me. Yes my loved ones would still grieve, but it would be a different grief. Thinking about my future is so devastating. There is only pain and hardship to come. I so badly want to finally be out of pain. I so badly wish there was a way to end my life without transferring all my pain to everyone I love.
This song has really really healed me. This band is so beautiful and im so glad I've discovered them when i did. Ps. This is my first vid seeing you and such and im so proud of you sir. Id love to shake your hand or even hug you if that's better. Hugs help me too. ❤
First, if I knew you in 2009, i would have reached out to that post. How dare people be so selfish to ignore such a thing. Your reaction showed me that you needed to hear this. Jake writes these song to help others. A great song for any survivor is Tattoos, it relates to all of us.
Im not a vet but I understand the nightmares that wake you up at night bearly breathing sick to your stomach. I was having a really bad day and just found your channel. I love their music so many good songs. Thanks just being you. The last few lines of this song always gets me.
Thank you for sharing your experience. As someone very close to an active duty marine and a retired marine, I can understand more deeply what my own loved ones in my life are going through by this commentary. One of the before mentioned men felt like ending things at one point. I can say today, that talking to the people you are close to, and getting help medically is one of the greatest, most brave, and strongest things anyone can do. This is not only for themselves, but for their loved ones, and anyone else who could be dealing with a similar situation. I have personally seen the changes in someone dealing with PTSD, and it's hard at times to try to understand what they have gone through, but trust me being there to listen is their starting point. Thank you again for this video!
You are never alone and know that we the members of your channel are like a family at least this is how I feel about it. If you need an ear or someone to talk to I'm here just reply to this comment and let me know together we are strong and we don't stand alone
Just found your channel. Citizen Soldier is a great band i don't think they have a bad song. Great reaction video can't wait to go back and watch some of your older ones. I'm sure you probably hear this a lot and if you don't i sincerely hope i'm just one of many to come but i wanted to say thank you for your service sir. I don't think a lot of people realize freedom isn't free. It's fought for by brave men and women who go out and keep our country free even the first responders in our communities. I'm extremely greatful for all of our military and first responders active or not. If anyone has made it this far in this comment i hope you're all having a good day/night and sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them🤗🤗🤗🤗
Thank you for sharing so much vulnerability and telling your truths. I hate that no one reached out to you in a time of need💔I am so glad you are still with us because I believe you are reaching a lot of people. This was so powerful. PTSD is real and I wish all people would learn about it and understand as well as speaking their truths! God Bless You! You have a purpose in doing this you tube. Much love and thanks for ALL you have done and continue to do. I always let my friends and family members know I am thinking of them and I always have an ear. ~
While my emotional/mental health issues are not military related, I can so 100% relate to this song. I lost my husband last year after an almost 10 year battle with cancer. As a younger widow I'm in my mid-forties, it's hard to find someone to relate. There are days I have no desire to live anymore. I have 2 grand-blessings that keep me going. THANK you for sharing your story and for sharing this song.
Citizen soldier is both the best and the worst band to listen too when dealing with mental health issues. The best because the feeling of people understanding and having someone put into words the things you cant say for yourself is so cathartic. The worst because there music doesnt let you hide. It will put directly infront of you your issues and the causes for them and make you face those things whether you are ready to do it or not. I love this band so much and i really hope they just keep getting bigger and bigger.
I'm in the dark place. I'm an Iraqi vet. I have been suffering with chronic combat Ptsd, major depressive anxiety and major depression since 2007. Since then, I've attempted suicide 2 times. My wife of 12 years decided she wanted a divorce back in May of this year. couple weeks afterwards I put a gun to my head. I've sank so far into the darkness that I can't get out. hearing your story brother, I really could use some understanding how or what helped you pull yourself out. I've cut myself off from family and friends. I'm still going through this divorce, and I can't get out of this darkness.
This song hit hard as i sit here crying I've been there more than once lately picked myself up and fell flat on my face again. I've been a Paramedic & 911 dispatcher for most of most of my lifetime not now, i dispatched on 9/11 not knowing if I'd be coming home we were a target on the chatter lines due to the nuke plant in our county i still on that day go off alone. Due to an on the present job i can no longer work my husband told me he fucking he hated me & spends times with another I've picked up my medication several times not wanting to go on but do guess i just weak. Thank you for your channel can you please do HARDY song Screen for me please & thank you so much
You got a new sub 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 I'll always support our vets. They deserve the world. After all the shit they go through and seeing how civilians and the government treat them hurts me. I'm not sure when but one day I'll make a comic surrounding a vet superhero and all the profits will go towards helping homeless vets and helping pay their medical bills and therapy etc. The way the government ignores their cries hurts and angers me. If they won't help our vets then as God is my witness I will help them..
I'm a suicide survivor I've tried to end my life so many times. I'm mentally disabled and I feel like nobody cares about me. I have autism, anxiety, ADHD, OCD, and learning disability. My father and I don't have a good relationship he barely even notices me or even tell me that he's proud of me. There was some days where I just stay in my room and not eat or sleep because of my own father. every single night it's like I'm getting closer to the edge I was 14 the first time I tried to commit suicide. I wasn't proud of it and still ain't, fast forward I was 16 the second time I tried to commit. I'm 23 now still battling with depression but I'm slowly getting better. I'm also bisexual and my father he doesn't support me being bisexual but hearing " unbreak the broken unsay these spoken words not ready to die not yet." hit me hard thank you James Arthur 💙
Here are some citizen soldier songs you should listen to Always December Would anyone care Still breathing Stronger than my storm Face to face Scarecrow Golden weather Tattoos Madhouse My own miracle Broken like me Through hell Afterlife Wanted Run away from myself Pretend my pain away Gunshot lullabies First blood Limit Never ending nightmare This is your sign Monster made of memories Let me let go
I'm 27 years old and I'm diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and schizophrenia... I got plenty of others but Im not gonna continue to disclose too much of that information.. I've been battling suicidal thoughts and severe depression because of a mistake that happened a couple of months ago... Lots of people I've known for years just turned their backs on me and I haven't felt more alone in my 27 years of living.. I'm a suicide survivor and an ex addict of drugs and alcohol.. 4 years old clean off drugs and I'm working on the alcoholism.. but I really don't have anyone to confide and let them in through the walls I have builded around my heart.. I'm terrified to get out the house and go to events.. I just wear a mask and crack jokes and laugh and make everyone's day by making them smile and that's the only thing keeping me going besides my 2 year old son... If it wasn't for Citizen Soldier coming into my life a year and half ago I would've giving up on that hope of believing that there's someone that has been in the place I am in my head everyday... If you're reading this citizen soldier thank you so much!!! I'm proud of you as well!!! You have no idea how much your music means to me! And also TormentedVet thank you for your service and I'm proud of you too!!!
Hey man, I love your reaction, I hope you are doing well, i know that this video was posted 7 months ago but if you liked this song i think you will be interested in hearing Citizen Soldier - Strong For Somebody Else, keep up the good work motivating people and inspiring them
I know compared to what you experienced my experiences is probably nothing but I was abused and neglected for 20 to 22 years and now I have so mental health problems and health problems that I would never want others to deal with because I know I have to go to therapy and take pills every day so that I can just keep existing. Sad to say that I am not living yet, still trying to live, but I am existing.
"some pain is too much to talk about" i believe thats why we have art. To more properly paint a picture of the actual pain people go through, and the actual happiness people can go through/feel. Cuz when i get a lil feely, its so hard to find the words for it. I dont like it. Words are not enough to properly paint a picture. Relying on music would be easier but maybe the "easy way out" Sidenote: sometimes its a different kind of love to give people a chance to say yes and no to listen to ur problems. Its absolutely horribly hard though, but-
Apologies if this is long, but I'm getting another silent mental breakdown and need to vent again I can't believe in encouraging words, no matter how hard I look at them, I just can't believe in them. If I don't learn to believe that this will change, then death is inevitable. I went into this song thinking it'd give me a wakeup call, but I felt no different. It genuinely makes me worry that I'll never get out of this if I can't believe I can. I'm glad you were able to recover, because I probably never will
I'd recommend checking out some of Citizen Soldier's other songs. A lot of them really hit hard and have helped me. I hope they can do the same for you
@@TormentedVet_Reactions I was In Baghdad most of my tour on camp tiger land it changes names after we left it was camp blackjack when we got there and we changed it for our brigade
I apologize because I have not been threw what you have been through. But when you make The Choice to keep your thoughts in, you deny The Choice for somebody who is willing to listen. And unfortunately not everyone can handle it, but the ones that can, Will have made that Choice to be there for you! Don't be afraid to give someone a choice!
I went through the same thing in 2012 I got clean from my past cause I was messed up from not having anyone Round at the time when I went through my divorce after having two kids with her and all
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Thank you so much for making such great and resonating song!!!
Its Amazing To See You Active With The Community, Since Most People Who Write Songs Like These, Dont Really Focus On What The People Who Watch It, How They React.
@@XxKillerWolfxXGJake and the members of citizen soldier are truly kind people they don't do it for the fame or money I can tell they do it to help to get people threw the struggles they truly are a amazing representation of what music is for
Amazing sing and much needed message Jake and everyone else thx keep rocking guys still plan on doing those covers just going going threw a tough time myself tbh🖤🖤🖤🤘
@CitizenSoldier Love the song! It’s a song that you cannot listen to with the music half way up, it has to be blasted and busting the speakers, the lyrics are very real!
The “ I’m proud of you “ line hit me pretty hard because I can’t ever recall hearing it
I know the feeling. I first heard it when I was 17 when I was on the phone with my band director. He said that he and my percussion teacher were so proud of me... when I got off the phone with him, I literally just started crying
oh yes. Nowasays my father sometimes says it to me and I have very lovly friends, but there are few who see how touth life can be with all this skeletons in demons in our heads. Its a fight, its tough and we SOULD be proud. Its now simple matter to be alive and a world with so much crazy and scary things in it... and a world with a head full of horrors.
Citizen Soldier literally saved my life.
If anyone, anywhere, needs to talk. I’m here. Go to the comments and let’s talk. You are not alone.
To all our veterans, even those outside my home country of Canada, thank you for your service. If you’re still with us; I hope you have people in your life you can reach out to in your dark times.
@@jibrilamvs hey
@@Failingatlife69 hey
Citizen Soldier writes almost exclusively very meaningful, hard-hitting songs like this one. I can't recommend them enough. This new song hits hard. Thank you for reacting to it and being so open and vulnerable with your ptsd and mental health struggles. I'm proud of you. I personally know how hard it is when you have to support yourself and pull yourself out of it all alone.
I just got through a toxic relationship with the father of my kids and he doesn't want me to see my kids and yesterday I felt like killing myself when I heard this song it hit home I cried and it represented how I was feeling at the time
@@uchihaarakashi Oh dear, I hope it got a little bit better. Getting through a split when there are loved kids involved is such a hard and difficult thing. I also hope you can see them now, because I think, that for you very importan and also for them. soul hug 🖤
This song describes depression perfectly. I have battled it most of my life and I almost ended at one point.
My reason to live in that moment (knife in hand) was thinking of my little brothers going through life without me. I was their protector and their hero. I couldn't go through with it. That reason kept me alive for years until I found another reason to live. Eventually, I stopped looking for a reason because the thoughts stopped.
This song is perfect.
Just hearing "I'm so proud of you" got me breaking down
Seriously if anyone ever needs to talk…. Please let me know in the comments…. I will be there for you ❤
I have faced more death then I care to admit and we will have to agree to disagree because you are very much worth it … if you need someone to talk to , I will be here…. I know what it’s like to go through darkness alone and I wouldn’t wish it on my worse enemy…. I will leave my email address if you ever change your mind and email you my phone number … just say the word I’m on it and one more thing, you’re worth it !! Xo
I survived childhood cancer and too cut a long story short I wonder why I survived. Don’t wanna bore you with the long version which i do have written 😅. In any event good day to you all.
@Shadele1969 hello, thank you for this. How do you cope with aniexty? Mine is becoming chronic. I am.afaird I am burdening my friends with all my panic attacks and I dont want to cause a burn out.
Absolutely everyone who is struggling needs to hear this song and other songs by Citizen Soldier, their the best, they helped me and helped others with mental health. ❤️
Hey man. I just wanted to say a couple things. Firstly, thank you for serving and protecting our freedom. I know doing that is hard and it can leave you in a dark place, and it can leave you broken, not just physically... We all have our demons and our darkness. Some are able to fight them better than others, and you talking to us and giving us the messages you have through this video helps. You told us to reach out if we ever need to talk, and i want to give you that same opportunity. If you see this comment and ever need someone, im here for you.
Thank you so much!
Love you man. As a veteran with PTSD and only one leg, it was hard to ask for help. I still have my moments and it sucks when your group walks away. Even had family that have not talked to me in a decade. Still love them but I have chosen my new family. Family is not always biological.
love you to brother.
If possible.... If you don't mind I would love to draw your unit(s) flag if you're comfortable that is. I love doing that for our vets. Thank you for your sacrifices you made. ❤❤❤❤ lots of love.
Send me an email at Tormentedvet@outlook.com I may have something for ya
@@TormentedVet_Reactions Just sent it sorry for it being late RUclips notifications didn't even notify me you made a comment just that you left a heart.
I had a bad childhood full of pain and abuse even after it stopped. For years it kept happening in my head. I cteied to commit suicide but it didnt work. Before i could try it again, Queesryche came out with their first full album "the warning". Every song spoke to my heart and mind. They gave me hope and inspiration. I dont know why but i wrote down every memory i could remember from childhood- good and bad- all the way to the current time in my life. I was 16. When i finished writing everything down in about 2 weeks. I read it and threw it away. At that moment i started living my life brand new. I thank God for that idea to write everything and throw it away and i also thank God for the music of Queensryche. Their following 4 albums also spoke to me and showed me i was not alone. My past is now a testimony that people can make it out of every situation with God.
Hearing that "I'm proud of you", hit me so hard. I wasn't expecting it and didn't realize how badly I needed to hear it. Thank you! I'm so happy to have run across your channel.
I resonate with so much of what you're saying. I'm 19 years old and most of the time when I told people that I was struggling, they simply thought that I was seeking attention and that there were bigger problems than those a person my age could ever have. I've spend nights where I had to cry to actually be able to fall asleep and the best dreams I had were where I wasn't around anymore, but I grew too scared to actually tell people of how far I had sunken. I told the person I thought was my best friend and that, 3 years ago, was the last time I ever spoke to her. Trying to reach out to the people, but also being scared of them knowing. I just thought that it was easier to fake it all and pretend like I was doing alright, but then last year I crashed. I just couldn't handle faking anymore and what hurt most was that the people who did stick around only asked me why I was acting weird or different. They told me how I used to smile and talk all the time and it just felt like it didn't matter how I was really feeling, as long as I was pretending to be okay, it was fine. Every moment I spend being near someone I was afraid to just break down, afraid that they would see the real me. So whenever I could I would just lock myself in my bedroom, crying my eyes out to Citizen Soldier and trying to make sure no one could hear me cry. I've had to deal with anxiety and depressions since I was 10 years old and ever since then I've felt like I had to do things on my own, I thought nobody would care as long as I pretended to be fine. But over the last few months I've been fighting to actually be honest because I've come to realize that if people don't want the real me than they don't deserve the fake me. It's a fight I'm stil fighting, but listening to Citizen Soldier and listening to the reactions people post on their music actually help me so much. You have helped me so much. Just knowing that even if we feel alone, there are always people who understand what you're feeling and going through. We're not alone. Even in our darkest moments when we wish we just wouldn't wake up anymore. You have nearly 9K subscribers now, which means there are at least that many people who DO care and who DO believe you are worth living. Even if it might feel like it, you're not alone. When all signs point towards one direction, you can choose to go another way. We define us. And you don't live for the people around you, you live for you. Because YOU are worth each and every bit of light and happiness that life has to offer. Without darkness there wouldn't be light and without sadness there wouldn't be happiness. But fighting through only makes you stronger. The darkness will probably never fully leave, but I choose to believe that in that, light can only grow.
Oh sweetness, thanks for your great and open words. You are so right. Its important to be true to ourselfes. I faked and smiled to a point where my body gots hurt. Don't recomand that path to anyeone. It will help noone and can get very scary bad. Try to be authentic, where you feel save for it, where you can stand your ground. And peolple and places where you only liked, when you are fake...go away from them. They are worthy beeing for themselfes but at the same time, you are YOUR worthy beeing so you have every right to protect yourselfe from they misbeaviours. They don't know better but when they don't wan't to learn, they don't derserve your presence.
I cannot express how fucking much this song gets me, there are about a hand full of songs that can break a man! An this is one of them, the lyrics are so damn powerful! I listen to it over an over full volume. Unexplainable feeling to this song, makes me angry
but also a feeling of relief knowing you don’t walk the dark path alone in life!
These guys are life changing, Thank you for taking the time to listen. Been there right along with you.
I am proud of you for being able to allow yourself to be vulnerable to help someone else. That takes inner strength and compassion. I have constant pain in my head, had brain surgery and am scheduled for a CT scan to make sure my brain hasn't shifted. The nurse kept saying over and over she was so sorry I was in so much pain everyday and I told her not to be sorry because if this was happening to someone else that person might not be able to do it and might do themselves in. She must not have heard that before because she got quiet for a few seconds. To everyone who is riding the struggle bus. I am on the same bus. You are not alone.
Can't get any more real than this. Thank you for sharing your message and keeping the light on for others. I am proud of you. Reaching back so you also know that truth. You are not alone. We are never alone. Love from a fellow veteran sister. ⚓️
Hey bro, I’m a stranger on the streets but a brother in arms and harms way. Seems like we sometimes find the best message even when we don’t want to hear it. Subscribed to help you help me and everyone who needs it. Thanks bro, SEMPER FI.
Preach it man. Army for 10 1/2 years 3 deployments. 5 months after being medically retired I lost my oldest son. It was so dark for a while. It's been 7 years but my children have helped me stay here. Glad your still here and hopefully soon I'll find out about trying to be a peer counselor with the VA.
Thank you for your service and thank you for sharing your story of struggle.
i've loved citizen soldier for awhile know, but you're reaction brought tears to my eyes again like hearing it for the first time. Thank you for your service and keep up the positivity on life
citizen soldiers entire catelog is outstanding. so any of them are great reactions. EDIT: just saw no one said a thing to your post. i no longer suggest listening to their catalog i demand it. starting with would anyone care. cuz they do care about those of us that struggle day in and day out.
This is a great band, I remember the first song I heard from them was called "Would Anyone Care" and that song couldn't have came up at a better time. I'm not military, I'm fire department, struggling with PTSD/anxiety and I remember that night when I first time I heard that song, I was in a really dark place, probably the darkest place I've been in, I felt like no one could pull me out. I was tired of not being able to serve and protect my community anymore as well as just tired of the PTSD/anxiety. Not being able to do everyday tasks. I was ready to throw it, ready to check out then that song came on. I listened to it, I really focused on those words and I had that thought of "I still need to be here, my community still needs me, and I know who is showing up to that call, I can't do that to the guys I served with. They're my second family, they're my brothers and sisters." Its still not easy, but I'm still putting up that fight, I still want to get back to doing what I was trained to do. I'm not ready to hang up that uniform yet. The part in the video when you're talking about anger and crowded places, I get that. I got the same issue to an extent and still trying to figure out how not to go off on someone when they get too close to me. It can take me 1-2 hours just to get 1-3 items and I always get angry at myself after. There are some stores I still won't walk into. I still got issues sleeping, but then again I'm FD and I had a LT tell me recently "we're built that way" so it could be that as well. Great video sir, thank you for your service. I just subbed to your channel.
Nobody is born to deal with the things that y’all deal with and I believe you weren’t successful because you’re needed here for some reason…. You’re here to help someone with your story… I wondered for years why my attempts didn’t work… I figured it out and I’ve accepted it … don’t give up !!!
@the w w2 girl….nobody is built that way in my opinion and if you ever need a friend I’m here for you ♥️
@@2eREPPARA Its been a year almost 2 years now, and I still see faces of the people we couldn't save as well. Sometimes I'll see people that looked like the people I lost as I try to walk through the store and it never fails to scare me to death. I'm glad you're still here.
@@Shadele1969 I still have a lot left to give to my community and I think that's why I'm still here. I still plan on going back on those front lines,
@@2eREPPARA Thanks. I hope so as well. I'm only 20, almost 21 and I feel that way at times as well. You stay safe out there too.
Thank you for your service bud! You're not alone...
" I'm so proud of you for getting this far." this lyrics made me cry I'm a suicide survivor I've tried to end my life so many times. I'm mentally disabled and I feel like nobody cares about me. I have autism, anxiety, ADHD, OCD, and learning disability. My father and I don't have a good relationship he barely even notices me or even tell me that he's proud of me. There was some days where I just stay in my room and not eat or sleep because of my own father. every single night it's like I'm getting closer to the edge I was 14 the first time I tried to commit suicide. I wasn't proud of it and still ain't, fast forward I was 16 the second time I tried to commit. I'm 22 now still battling with depression but I'm slowly getting better. I'm also bisexual and my father he doesn't support me being bisexual but hearing " I'm so proud of you for getting this far." hit me hard I haven't heard those words in a while thank you citizen solider 💙
oh dear, big soul hug to you too. In our world, its so difficult to live, when you have a mind, that works in other ways, than teh mayority. I hope you get a home, where you can feel safe to be yourselfe! Not so scared of judging that you doesn't leave the room. I am glad you survived and I hope, it while get better. I elapse sometimes but with my 37 years and after 16 years of theraphie where some very good people helped me, its better. Its no easy task, but I hope deeply, you fight. You have a fantastic fascinating brain and mind, for sure. Its worth to survive. You ARE worthy of love of hope and to be proud also for yourselfe. 🖤
Thank you for your Service 🇺🇸
I just found you and i love your reaction to this song. Citizen soldier has helped me immensely. I was in a deep dark place that i had to pull myself out of just a few weeks ago. Thank you sir
Thank you so much for your kind words. It is awesome to see that you were able to crawl out of that dark place. Much love!
Citizen soilder has saved my life so many times😢 there songs have such strong meaning
Mental pain is the worst pain anyone can go through! You can't explain it to a person who's never experienced it, and if they were to experience it, it would be devastating for them, and they would not be able to handle it! The only way I could explain my pain would be if you were wounded laying on the ground on The Verge of Death, and you're screaming at people for help but they constantly just walk by and ignore you. No matter what you do, they never help you!! It just hurts so much, and you can never imagine it! Thanks to Citizen Soldier, they helped me climb out of that hole and I'm doing better than ever!
I feel this song, a lot. I know what its like to be in that darkness and having what seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Then I figured out that there are good people out there who are there for you to help you and be that anchor, that hope to hold on.
I love the message in this song and the way you elaborated on it sir. Keeo up the great work. And if you ever need someone....Im here. I might take a little while to respond because I'm busy frequently and don't always have access to technology...but i will respond as soon as i get a chance...I promise that. That goes for EVERYONE AND EVERYBODY HERE.
Wow that song truly does hit hard. Thanks for this reaction ❤❤
Dude I'm sorry for what you're going through, but I'm proud you're still here, I'm proud of you for being strong but still sharing your vulnerability because that takes real strength, I'm proud of you for serving your country, I'm proud of you for everything that you're doing and proud that you can help spread the message of mental illness with your experience you are such a great human being that has been through so much that you didn't deserve. You're a great person, man, father, and soldier.
I know it's late since you've been home for a while but even so I'd still like to say welcome home soldier. 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Thank you for sharing your pain with us. And thank you and all veterans out there not just for their service, but their sacrifice. You’ve given up a life that we taken for granted to secure that life for us. There are no words to describe how much it means.
It’s true, I have dealt with depression. Really bad sometimes but I’m thankful for the one person I have in my life to be there for me when I need them. He himself has dealt with depression too. I’m thankful for him, because if it wasn’t for him I probably wouldn’t be here today..
Amazing song, and it’s definitely gotten a review that’s worthy for the message the songwriters have given. There were times I’ve come so close to giving up and this song would come up on my radio station. The message reminded me that I wasn’t alone and that there were other people who were going through a tough time like I have. There has been so many times this song has helped to stop me from harming myself. I’m not alone and neither are any of you. Reach out to someone and talk to them if anyone is going through a difficult time. There’s bound to be someone that cares for you and I promise you, you won’t regret reaching out. Thanks for the review of one of my favorite songs.
I feel you, brother. Anytime i listen to Citizen Soldier, it lifts a little of the pain i bear. I love their music. and your reaction is very pure. New Subscriber. Bless you, Thank you for your service my brother.
Hang in there man I'm struggling and your not alone either
If you like this song check out Tattoos by Citizen Soldier. That one hits hard too but it's amazing. It empowers you and gives hope. I love Citizen Soldier!!
I have CPTSD from constant childhood bullying since the age of 5 years old and have dealt with some evil people as well.
I found Citizen Soldier recently. They're the only ones who seem to get it. I have PTSD, Schizoaffective disorder, Anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, and so many other problems. I can't work, don't qualify for disability, and have so much uncertainty, I'm still trying to find a reason to live that isn't based on who i'd leave behind if didn't.
Sir I want to thank you for your service. And wow i am about to cry again. not for the first time hearing this song. Yep I had to write another comment.
I fight every day to get out and stay out of the dark. I’m a Navy 02 OEF vet, you have a different struggle and story than I, but I’m proud of you brother!
Thank you so much for this video. I desperately needed to see this and now know I’m not alone. I love y’all
Thanks!
You are very much welcome and thank you as well!!!
After watching this, I struggled to find the right words... dealing with everything that we've been through, physically and mentally, is never easy and it does get exhausting. The best we can do is find that reason to keep going and surround ourselves with those who truly care and are able to help in one way or another. While I personally have not served (and can't for medical reasons), I support those who have, so I thank you for your service from the bottom of my heart. I also want to wish you a happy men's mental health month.
Thank you for your kind words and support!
@@TormentedVet_Reactions Any time. 🙂
Since my wife passed im just waiting for my tomorrow that never comes!!!
Thank you for this video! ❤ God Bless
@Tormented Vet....im about to write a novel but think you need to hear this.
I happened to run across your channel a couple months ago and have liked a lot of your reactions but im the type to never comment on youtube videos but like you said in the video this one hits hard....i just recently married my husband last april and hes an 8 year military vet and has a lot of the same issues you are dealing with i.e. night terrors, issues with crowds, PTSD etc. Hes had several failed marriages and past relationships before we got together. Ive also known him for 13 years before us getting married. Ive been through it with him thick and thin even before tying the knot. Hes had his service dog help him and ive seen so much change for the better. Thank you for your service.
Veterans need our help. Got your 6!
I love this song. my roommate is totally a fan girl of this band. while i love some of there other music, this song hits home. She says the lead singer is a therapist. She is on there discord and everything. She is awesome in her own way i just couldn't handle all her issues and she couldn't handle mine and all our stuff fell down around us.
I feel you brother I’m still in my dark place still fighting to get out
We are all here to help my friend! Just reach out!
Me, happy you made it out of the dark tunnel. You see, we reach a point in our life where being desperate for anything positive can give you a ride through hell. Any veteran gets my gratitude. Thank you. Never give up that fight. I got out by writing and creating my own music, so after reaching the lowest point in my life, I made it through that hell that I mentioned. Battered, bruised, and empty, mentally. But after you get out. You get better
You're a kind hearted person and I really love that about you, sir. I respect that and you have another follower :) I'm happy found you and to anybody out there, never give up, look for that light even when all is lost, there's a warrior in us all❤️
Thank you so much!
A book I read once stated that there are 2 kinds of secrets
1. The Secrets of the Mouth
2. The Secrets of the Heart
The book said that the second type is much- almost impossible to share because the longer it's there the heavier it gets.
Im surrounded by people and i feel like im the only one here. I used to be athletic played sports hiked hunted camped. Done yard work fixed things now i cant walk through my house without suffocating. It bothers me enough i cant do what i used to. Then i have my wife and her family putting me down calling me names and its effecting me very negatively. All i do is stay in my room sleep when i can i have bad insomnia. Ive fought demons a long time fought them off many times but im falling again and i dont know if i can fight anymore. If noone else cares why should i i feel alone and im tired of fighting a losing battle alone.
Between loss, grief, and depression, i'm constantly in and out of that hole. And i pretend to be okay enough to keeo going, but i am only alive because i feel like i'm a coward...
thank you for your service
It was 3 am on a Monday about a month ago. Insomnia was preventing me from sleeping. A few months ago I had a rollover accident and suffered both a compression fracture in my spine and a Traumatic Brain Injury. I have had medical issues since childhood and have lived in pain for years.
That night I felt I'd finally had enough. I was so tired of my life. I tried to think about my future and didn't like what I saw. With my TBI I don't know what I'll be able to do for work.
I live alone and it was so quiet. I put some music on just for some noise. I kept trying to justify to myself why suicide was my best option. I finally made my decision and sat back and tried to decided the best way to do it. But the next song that came on showed me the pain that the artist still carried with him from a friend's suicide years earlier. At that moment I realized how much pain I would cause my friends and loved ones. I wept as I realized I couldn't do it that night.
I still wish that accident had killed me. Yes my loved ones would still grieve, but it would be a different grief. Thinking about my future is so devastating. There is only pain and hardship to come. I so badly want to finally be out of pain. I so badly wish there was a way to end my life without transferring all my pain to everyone I love.
Just leaving a comment for the algorithm... Thank you for your reaction to this
This song has really really healed me. This band is so beautiful and im so glad I've discovered them when i did.
Ps. This is my first vid seeing you and such and im so proud of you sir. Id love to shake your hand or even hug you if that's better. Hugs help me too. ❤
Great reaction, bro. Love how authentic you are.
First, if I knew you in 2009, i would have reached out to that post. How dare people be so selfish to ignore such a thing. Your reaction showed me that you needed to hear this. Jake writes these song to help others. A great song for any survivor is Tattoos, it relates to all of us.
Thank you my friend!!!
@@TormentedVet_Reactions I subscribed with all notifications turned on. And I meant every word.
Im not a vet but I understand the nightmares that wake you up at night bearly breathing sick to your stomach. I was having a really bad day and just found your channel. I love their music so many good songs. Thanks just being you. The last few lines of this song always gets me.
I love citizen soldier and I love your videos ❤
Thank you!!!
Thank you for sharing your experience. As someone very close to an active duty marine and a retired marine, I can understand more deeply what my own loved ones in my life are going through by this commentary. One of the before mentioned men felt like ending things at one point. I can say today, that talking to the people you are close to, and getting help medically is one of the greatest, most brave, and strongest things anyone can do. This is not only for themselves, but for their loved ones, and anyone else who could be dealing with a similar situation. I have personally seen the changes in someone dealing with PTSD, and it's hard at times to try to understand what they have gone through, but trust me being there to listen is their starting point. Thank you again for this video!
You are never alone and know that we the members of your channel are like a family at least this is how I feel about it. If you need an ear or someone to talk to I'm here just reply to this comment and let me know together we are strong and we don't stand alone
It’s a good good song. I’ve lost several to suicide. But I loved what you said to prove they care by actions. I need that abd I might use that
Your words moved me to subscribe (and like). Keep up the great work.
Love yeah bro! I appreciate your channel. Gives me a sense of being ok.
Thank you bro! Very humbling to know I’m reaching people and am able to help.
Just found your channel. Citizen Soldier is a great band i don't think they have a bad song. Great reaction video can't wait to go back and watch some of your older ones. I'm sure you probably hear this a lot and if you don't i sincerely hope i'm just one of many to come but i wanted to say thank you for your service sir. I don't think a lot of people realize freedom isn't free. It's fought for by brave men and women who go out and keep our country free even the first responders in our communities. I'm extremely greatful for all of our military and first responders active or not. If anyone has made it this far in this comment i hope you're all having a good day/night and sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them🤗🤗🤗🤗
You got this! 💯 your a hero 💪
Thank you for sharing so much vulnerability and telling your truths. I hate that no one reached out to you in a time of need💔I am so glad you are still with us because I believe you are reaching a lot of people. This was so powerful. PTSD is real and I wish all people would learn about it and understand as well as speaking their truths!
God Bless You! You have a purpose in doing this you tube. Much love and thanks for ALL you have done and continue to do. I always let my friends and family members know I am thinking of them and I always have an ear. ~
While my emotional/mental health issues are not military related, I can so 100% relate to this song. I lost my husband last year after an almost 10 year battle with cancer. As a younger widow I'm in my mid-forties, it's hard to find someone to relate. There are days I have no desire to live anymore. I have 2 grand-blessings that keep me going. THANK you for sharing your story and for sharing this song.
Citizen soldier is both the best and the worst band to listen too when dealing with mental health issues. The best because the feeling of people understanding and having someone put into words the things you cant say for yourself is so cathartic.
The worst because there music doesnt let you hide. It will put directly infront of you your issues and the causes for them and make you face those things whether you are ready to do it or not. I love this band so much and i really hope they just keep getting bigger and bigger.
I'm in the dark place. I'm an Iraqi vet. I have been suffering with chronic combat Ptsd, major depressive anxiety and major depression since 2007. Since then, I've attempted suicide 2 times. My wife of 12 years decided she wanted a divorce back in May of this year. couple weeks afterwards I put a gun to my head. I've sank so far into the darkness that I can't get out. hearing your story brother, I really could use some understanding how or what helped you pull yourself out. I've cut myself off from family and friends. I'm still going through this divorce, and I can't get out of this darkness.
Brother please join my discord so we can talk link to join is in the description. otherwise you can find my email on my about page
This song hit hard as i sit here crying I've been there more than once lately picked myself up and fell flat on my face again. I've been a Paramedic & 911 dispatcher for most of most of my lifetime not now, i dispatched on 9/11 not knowing if I'd be coming home we were a target on the chatter lines due to the nuke plant in our county i still on that day go off alone. Due to an on the present job i can no longer work my husband told me he fucking he hated me & spends times with another I've picked up my medication several times not wanting to go on but do guess i just weak. Thank you for your channel can you please do HARDY song Screen for me please & thank you so much
Your not the only one who has been there we just have to fight thru it
You got a new sub 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 I'll always support our vets. They deserve the world. After all the shit they go through and seeing how civilians and the government treat them hurts me. I'm not sure when but one day I'll make a comic surrounding a vet superhero and all the profits will go towards helping homeless vets and helping pay their medical bills and therapy etc.
The way the government ignores their cries hurts and angers me. If they won't help our vets then as God is my witness I will help them..
You're amazing ❤
I'm a suicide survivor I've tried to end my life so many times. I'm mentally disabled and I feel like nobody cares about me. I have autism, anxiety, ADHD, OCD, and learning disability. My father and I don't have a good relationship he barely even notices me or even tell me that he's proud of me. There was some days where I just stay in my room and not eat or sleep because of my own father. every single night it's like I'm getting closer to the edge I was 14 the first time I tried to commit suicide. I wasn't proud of it and still ain't, fast forward I was 16 the second time I tried to commit. I'm 23 now still battling with depression but I'm slowly getting better. I'm also bisexual and my father he doesn't support me being bisexual but hearing " unbreak the broken unsay these spoken words not ready to die not yet." hit me hard thank you James Arthur 💙
react to more of citizen soldier! this was overall a very touching video and im curious to see what you have to say on more of their songs.
Here are some citizen soldier songs you should listen to
Always December
Would anyone care
Still breathing
Stronger than my storm
Face to face
Scarecrow
Golden weather
Tattoos
Madhouse
My own miracle
Broken like me
Through hell
Afterlife
Wanted
Run away from myself
Pretend my pain away
Gunshot lullabies
First blood
Limit
Never ending nightmare
This is your sign
Monster made of memories
Let me let go
Thank you
You got us man
thank you for your serves sir
Thank you for your support!
@@TormentedVet_Reactions no problem I was rased that way and I hame milatarry in my famaly its the least I could do
I'm 27 years old and I'm diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and schizophrenia... I got plenty of others but Im not gonna continue to disclose too much of that information.. I've been battling suicidal thoughts and severe depression because of a mistake that happened a couple of months ago... Lots of people I've known for years just turned their backs on me and I haven't felt more alone in my 27 years of living.. I'm a suicide survivor and an ex addict of drugs and alcohol.. 4 years old clean off drugs and I'm working on the alcoholism.. but I really don't have anyone to confide and let them in through the walls I have builded around my heart.. I'm terrified to get out the house and go to events.. I just wear a mask and crack jokes and laugh and make everyone's day by making them smile and that's the only thing keeping me going besides my 2 year old son... If it wasn't for Citizen Soldier coming into my life a year and half ago I would've giving up on that hope of believing that there's someone that has been in the place I am in my head everyday... If you're reading this citizen soldier thank you so much!!! I'm proud of you as well!!! You have no idea how much your music means to me! And also TormentedVet thank you for your service and I'm proud of you too!!!
Hey man, I love your reaction, I hope you are doing well, i know that this video was posted 7 months ago but if you liked this song i think you will be interested in hearing Citizen Soldier - Strong For Somebody Else, keep up the good work motivating people and inspiring them
Thank you for you kind words and support man
I know compared to what you experienced my experiences is probably nothing but I was abused and neglected for 20 to 22 years and now I have so mental health problems and health problems that I would never want others to deal with because I know I have to go to therapy and take pills every day so that I can just keep existing. Sad to say that I am not living yet, still trying to live, but I am existing.
I’m really glad to see you’re still here!
You should do a Reaction to Give up to Ghosts! By Citizen Soldier!
It’s one he wrote for People with PTSD!
"some pain is too much to talk about" i believe thats why we have art. To more properly paint a picture of the actual pain people go through, and the actual happiness people can go through/feel.
Cuz when i get a lil feely, its so hard to find the words for it. I dont like it. Words are not enough to properly paint a picture. Relying on music would be easier but maybe the "easy way out"
Sidenote: sometimes its a different kind of love to give people a chance to say yes and no to listen to ur problems. Its absolutely horribly hard though, but-
hearing you in this reaction ,I just got to say I care.
I know what it feels like to feel invisble 😢
I’m sorry you have ever had to feel that way. It’s definitely not the greatest feeling in the world.
Apologies if this is long, but I'm getting another silent mental breakdown and need to vent again
I can't believe in encouraging words, no matter how hard I look at them, I just can't believe in them. If I don't learn to believe that this will change, then death is inevitable. I went into this song thinking it'd give me a wakeup call, but I felt no different. It genuinely makes me worry that I'll never get out of this if I can't believe I can.
I'm glad you were able to recover, because I probably never will
I'd recommend checking out some of Citizen Soldier's other songs. A lot of them really hit hard and have helped me. I hope they can do the same for you
The call by Matt kennon. I think that based on what I have seen from your reactions is a song that would resonate with u
You should try Amigo the Devil. "Cocaine and Abel" or "Another Man's Grave."
Brother I understand 100% I was in OIF III 04-05. If you ever need anyone please reach out brother
Where were you at?
@@TormentedVet_Reactions I was In Baghdad most of my tour on camp tiger land it changes names after we left it was camp blackjack when we got there and we changed it for our brigade
@@castorcreekcustoms9722 small world I was right up the road in Balad on Camp Anaconda.
I apologize because I have not been threw what you have been through. But when you make The Choice to keep your thoughts in, you deny The Choice for somebody who is willing to listen. And unfortunately not everyone can handle it, but the ones that can, Will have made that Choice to be there for you! Don't be afraid to give someone a choice!
Got ya
I went through the same thing in 2012 I got clean from my past cause I was messed up from not having anyone Round at the time when I went through my divorce after having two kids with her and all
You should check out the song unbreakable by citizen soldier.i think you'd really like it.