This is so real to me I'm 62 years old and I am still in total disbelief that I have had a traumatic brain injury for this many years two of them not one two of them and the entire time up until recently it was always always said to be a mental issue because of my chronic pain for 30 years well certainly I'm depressed certainly I'm anxious I've been in chronic pain for 30 years but no one ever thought about the two times that I was knocked unconscious for long periods of time throughout my life that were always dismissed dismissed doctor says dismissed Dr says again dismissed it's your mental it's your mental it's your mental well then why have I been through 50 or more types of antidepressants and none of them work now you're asking questions that are really good and that's where I began I go to a neurosurgeon who says I see indication of traumatic brain injury all over your medical paperwork here why didn't anyone else see it over the last 30 years it's so disheartening to think of the people that deal with what I deal with in my age group with my condition for so long and chronic pain generally you're in the top statistics of suicide but I choose not to even think of that and a lot of times they will try and try to convince me that's what I'm thinking of I've never been self-harming I've never been suicidal I have too much to live for I have a 7-year-old grandson I do not want that to be his grandfather's legacy but once again they kept on and kept on You know the old saying If someone tells you long enough that it's nothing but it's mental it's in your head then after a while maybe it does become in your head because someone is telling you that If you're locked away and put in a cage without mirrors and fed food all day long 7 days a week and you become very obese and very fat because you have overeating they will tell you since you don't have a mirror oh you're not fat you're not overeating you're not obese you're mentally ill I am so sick of this it makes me absolutely get worse by the day just because these people don't understand this is nothing to do with my serotonin or my whatever whatever or perhaps it is to do with it because I haven't had it for so long due to the part of my brain that's injured that probably doesn't allow me to even think of that I have one traumatic brain injury where I was hit by a tree directly over my right eye which cause massive amounts of stitches in sutures to sew me up and never checked once for any type of brain injury not one time That was in 2009 imagine that it's ridiculous thank you for your show your show is so informative and so truthful some days I'm stupid some days I'm not some days it's mental some days it's not I am so confused over all of this crazy stuff and then I've been seeing mental therapist forever and all of my mental therapists will say I don't see any indication of self-harm I don't see any indication of suicidal ideals so why are the medical doctors the one insisting that I'm mentally ill and keep giving me answer the person after antidepressant after antidepressant and I usually take them cuz trust me I want to get better I want my brain to get better but after taking another one after another one after another one I would say after a while I'm probably intolerant to them they don't work for me and they don't they are a waste of my time as a matter of fact I have been in my deepest darkest moments while on trial for a new antidepressant or an existing antidepressant let's just you was on 10 mg I'm going to bump you up to 30 mg but weight doctor weight doctor I don't need an antidepressant I'm not depressed oh yes you're depressed I promise you are depressed here take 30 mg but doctor the side effects of 10 mg are making me want to jump off of a building I'm shaky I'm nervous I don't feel well as a matter of fact I feel much worse than I did before you put me on your antidepressants no no no it's your it's your mind it's your your very depressed We need to put you on a different type of antidepressant and we'll put you on two supplements this time with it so we'll give you three answers depressants per day and they'll work excuse me doctor sir You antidepressants are not working again Dr Huff Puff Huff Puff Huff and puff no I've told you I'm the doctor you are mentally ill it has nothing to do with your chronic pain issues that you have 100% proof of severed spinal cord cervical neck issues nerve issues along with peripheral neuropathy all types of interactions inside of me that are shutting down my organs due to peripheral neuropathy not mental illness wow where do I go from here any ideas
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I really appreciate the title of this episode. It helps give me some encouragement that rebuilding is possible.
This is so real to me I'm 62 years old and I am still in total disbelief that I have had a traumatic brain injury for this many years two of them not one two of them and the entire time up until recently it was always always said to be a mental issue because of my chronic pain for 30 years well certainly I'm depressed certainly I'm anxious I've been in chronic pain for 30 years but no one ever thought about the two times that I was knocked unconscious for long periods of time throughout my life that were always dismissed dismissed doctor says dismissed Dr says again dismissed it's your mental it's your mental it's your mental well then why have I been through 50 or more types of antidepressants and none of them work now you're asking questions that are really good and that's where I began I go to a neurosurgeon who says I see indication of traumatic brain injury all over your medical paperwork here why didn't anyone else see it over the last 30 years it's so disheartening to think of the people that deal with what I deal with in my age group with my condition for so long and chronic pain generally you're in the top statistics of suicide but I choose not to even think of that and a lot of times they will try and try to convince me that's what I'm thinking of I've never been self-harming I've never been suicidal I have too much to live for I have a 7-year-old grandson I do not want that to be his grandfather's legacy but once again they kept on and kept on You know the old saying If someone tells you long enough that it's nothing but it's mental it's in your head then after a while maybe it does become in your head because someone is telling you that If you're locked away and put in a cage without mirrors and fed food all day long 7 days a week and you become very obese and very fat because you have overeating they will tell you since you don't have a mirror oh you're not fat you're not overeating you're not obese you're mentally ill I am so sick of this it makes me absolutely get worse by the day just because these people don't understand this is nothing to do with my serotonin or my whatever whatever or perhaps it is to do with it because I haven't had it for so long due to the part of my brain that's injured that probably doesn't allow me to even think of that I have one traumatic brain injury where I was hit by a tree directly over my right eye which cause massive amounts of stitches in sutures to sew me up and never checked once for any type of brain injury not one time That was in 2009 imagine that it's ridiculous thank you for your show your show is so informative and so truthful some days I'm stupid some days I'm not some days it's mental some days it's not I am so confused over all of this crazy stuff and then I've been seeing mental therapist forever and all of my mental therapists will say I don't see any indication of self-harm I don't see any indication of suicidal ideals so why are the medical doctors the one insisting that I'm mentally ill and keep giving me answer the person after antidepressant after antidepressant and I usually take them cuz trust me I want to get better I want my brain to get better but after taking another one after another one after another one I would say after a while I'm probably intolerant to them they don't work for me and they don't they are a waste of my time as a matter of fact I have been in my deepest darkest moments while on trial for a new antidepressant or an existing antidepressant let's just you was on 10 mg I'm going to bump you up to 30 mg but weight doctor weight doctor I don't need an antidepressant I'm not depressed oh yes you're depressed I promise you are depressed here take 30 mg but doctor the side effects of 10 mg are making me want to jump off of a building I'm shaky I'm nervous I don't feel well as a matter of fact I feel much worse than I did before you put me on your antidepressants no no no it's your it's your mind it's your your very depressed We need to put you on a different type of antidepressant and we'll put you on two supplements this time with it so we'll give you three answers depressants per day and they'll work excuse me doctor sir You antidepressants are not working again Dr Huff Puff Huff Puff Huff and puff no I've told you I'm the doctor you are mentally ill it has nothing to do with your chronic pain issues that you have 100% proof of severed spinal cord cervical neck issues nerve issues along with peripheral neuropathy all types of interactions inside of me that are shutting down my organs due to peripheral neuropathy not mental illness wow where do I go from here any ideas