this is prolly the best description of this version. i personally like the original better; it envokes all the pent up emotions and leaves you with them as the song fades out, but this one just rids you of all of those negative feelings to where theres nothing left but yourself in your empty mind.
лидия хз let that fuel you. This world needs more hate and you got this! Also quit listening to people that’s your biggest flaw. Not what you look like. We’re all imperfect that’s what makes us perfect
@@never_unsealed You have some shitty friends if they do that. I have a couple of good friends and I know for a fact they are legit and would be there for me no matter what. Finding new circles isn't necessarily a bad thing, if your friend finds new people maybe try and make them mutuals. It's how social circles expand by introducing new people to each other.
To the person who read this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
This song will always remind me of when my dad died and I had a total mental breakdown, on tons of different drugs hallucinating staying awake for like 10 days straight. My girlfriend is the only one who knows what I did over those days, I don't have any memories of it (until she begins to tell me hers, then mine flood back and terrify me), but one episode she says i chased her around the house with a loaded rifle, trying to force her to watch me end myself. It's not fair. I found love. It made me say that, get back. You'll never see daylight if I'm not strong, it just might....
None of you fuckin idiots really know what real depression is! You’re just a little sad, which is normal or you crave the attention that comes with the trend of pretending to have depression. Or maybe some of you have actually convinced yourselves you’re depressed. What’s really sad is the amount of people my age that listen to “depressing songs” because they’re “depressed” when really it’s just vibe and trend. Explained horribly but the moral of the story is, it’s normal to be sad sometimes, you don’t have depression or any mental illness, deep down you know you just want to follow the trends. Why else would you be here telling everyone your story about how depressed you are if you’re not wanting attention??? Anyone above the mental age of 10 knows what’s going on here with my generation.
Same, and people say I'm just another 'fake depressed' 13 year old but though I am yes 13 and there are alot of fake depressed kids my age wich pisses me off to see well I am generally struggling so bad and idk why it started but it started in October or maybe before I cant remeber but I went really suicidal and one point to and everything and I sh ect and I do like billie eilish yes wich ppl say is fake depressed BUT I dont listen to her music anymore bc I like these songs since I have gotten worse and I'm still a fan of billie because she actually did save my life since I was about to end it I thought about how I I woudnt get to meet her ever and she had helped me alot bc I knew she was one point about to DO IT and I know she personally went through alot of shit she keeps to herself and stuff but people think jm fake depressed because of it but waw I'm really not like fr ppl say I'm fake depressed bc my phone was probs taken away and it pisses me off because it's not and I'm generally struggling so bad like fr
yeah makes me feel numb and cold in the heart but then when i get mental breakdowns and cry i wanna die but always laugh for one second cause i want the demons gone
Intro: Butterfly Boucher] It's not fair, I found love It made me say that get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might It's not fair, I found love It made me say that get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might [Verse 1: Ruby da Cherry] They figure me a dead motherfucker But I'm just a motherfucker that wanna be dead $now Leopard with the lead in his head, turnin' me into a sweater Bitches use me as their fucking bedspread I be the silhouette of a sunset Smoke a cigarette while I compress my depression Stare into the violet fluorescent lights, makes me violent I'm tryna get the highest I can get before I overdose and die My ribs are nothing but an empty cage, black hole in my chest Big bang, Yung Plague on the tip of a wave In my head, I feel like I'm a guest, so I'ma throw it all away Because when I am dead, I will be nothing decomposin' in a grave I'm matter, but I don't matter I can feel my skull shatter from the dull chatter Brain splattered on the wall Grey stains won't dissolve, gonna have to paint it all [Bridge: Butterfly Boucher] It's not fair, I found love It made me say that get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might [Verse 2: $lick $loth] Always boasting my emotions on how I'm so fucking broken Think I'm joking when I'm talkin' about blowing my head open 'Til the moment you walk in and find my body motionless Wrists slit, thoughts of $licky falling in an open pit, shit Always burn my bridges 'cause I'd rather fall in ditches If life's a game of inches, then my dick has been the biggest And my goal's to fuck the world until that motherfucker's twitchin' Lane switchin', same mission, to die and blame my addiction, bitch [Outro: Butterfly Boucher] It's not fair, I found love It made me say that get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might
Do people really think I want to feel like this? Everyone thinks depression is some sort of trend... now if people felt what I felt then they would understand why it's so serious... yes I'm diagnosed and take medication for my depression... I dont want to die I just want relief...
Keep it together brother, and talk to people, sooner or later you find someone that actually helps you. And letting it all out is just the biggest relief...
i know right i fucking hate when people say "oh ur not actually depressed u just want attention" or some shit. maybe they'll realize how wrong they were when im fucking dead
People like that are a *part* of the reasons I listen to music like this, (btw i reccomend Ghostmane if you like screamy depressing rap) I always repeat the one line "Heard some motherfucker saying they are tired of me saying I'd rather be dead, but that is why you can't comprehend"... sorry for dumping this shit, I just feel normal here for once....
I feel like "edgy" 13 yr olds made a reputation for suicide boys, Billie and Lil Peep. Like honsetly. Billie isn't a depressing artist she just has that kind of vibe to her. Like I listen to billie,lil tracy, lil peep and suicide boys. Not bc their "emo" just cause that's the music I listen to.
Me cool Continue like that until you find something real trust me, nowadays nobody is loving fr, nobody wants a serious relationship. Sometimes its better to be alone than with a fake one:’)
You ever just feel so alone no matter how many people say they are there for you. You ever just sit at a party and watch everyone socialise and have fun and get along but you just say to yourself what am I doing here. I’m surrounded by so many people but I still feel so alone.
I love these slowed versions mostly for the ability to hear all the different layers of music way better. It's so easy to split each layer in my head in versions like this. Really shows how locked into 4/4 the A strain is. Also easy to count measures
Listening to depressing music helps get through tough shit, and honestly try not to listen to the people who say that you’re looking for attention. You can’t help what your going through.
It's not fair, I found love It made me say to get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might It's not fair, I found love It made me say to get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might They figure me a dead motherfucker But I'm just a motherfucker that wanna be dead $now Leopard with the lead in his head, turning me into a sweater Bitches use me as their fucking bedspread I be the silhouette of a sunset Smoke a cigarette while I compress my depression Stare into the violet fluorescent lights, makes me violent I'm tryna get the highest I can get before I overdose and die My ribs are nothing but an empty cage, black hole in my chest Big bang, Yung Plague on the tip of a wave In my head, I feel like I'm a guest, so I'ma throw it all away Because when I am dead, I will be nothing decomposing in a grave I'm matter, but I don't matter I can feel my skull shatter from the dull chatter Brain splattered on the wall Grey stains won't dissolve, gonna have to paint it all It's not fair, I found love It made me say to get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might Always boasting my emotions on how I'm so fucking broken Think I'm joking when I'm talking about blowing my head open 'Till the moment you walk in and find my body motionless Wrists slit Thoughts of $licky falling in an open pit, shit Always burn my bridges 'cause I'd rather fall in ditches If life's a game of inches, then my dick has been the biggest And my goal's to fuck the world until that motherfucker's twitching Lane switching, same mission, to die and blame my addiction, bitch It's not fair, I found love It made me say to get back You'll never see daylight If I'm not strong, it just might
Just remember suicide doesn't take away your pain it just passes it to the ones who love you. There's always light at the end of a tunnel. Even when life seems at its worst you just have to hang in there. Talk to someone, no matter what know that there isn't anything wrong with asking for help. You're loved.
I am 22 and this song reminds me of à refuge girl that asked me to be her friend in high school 6 years ago and I said yes... she came from Palestine we became the best friends ever her mom was Algerian so she had the right to stay on her country Algeria... she told me how awful it is to feel the broken glass cut the skin after explosions... after one year of friendship we found out that we are very far sibbilings but from the same family with time family did separate ... her father was not found till the last month and she is going back there to meet him and I really sad to loose her in many ways
That’s good I am Palestinian too I saw kids getting killed and saw my cousins house getting bombed it still traumatized me i cry every night I hide my feelings I just can’t anymore I have had such a tough life but I cant do anything I’m nothing compared to them
Asuka you can’t believe those things you are strong enough it is time to get through this for you have a clear mindset and have a tea and think about your professions and try to get better at them. You’ve got this 😀
Not saying you don’t have depression, but music and depression don’t mean shit. I’ve been diagnosed, and the music I listen to hardly reflects that unless I’m in a really deep episode.
Remember y'all. Use depressing music to get yourself through hard times. You're not alone. Don't let bad situations go down like that. I trust you. You're more than what you think. And soon or later, people will appreciate that. I love you. Keep scrolling and enjoy the song♡
Hey anon, I know you are having a real bad time, but suicide is not the answer. Use the songs to numb the pain, and push through it, it will get better I promise, hang in there I love you!
Idk what is this feeling... It's not depression but songs like that make me contemplate my whole life and make me feel that nothing really matters..... sadness..... curiosity.......emptiness.....
Ok ok imagine this. Midnight, pitch black. This song in sound cancelling headphones, full volume. Star gazing alone, in the middle of an empty field with freshly cut grass. Somehow Surrounded by dark purple led lights. Close your eyes and just imagine. Magical.
Fuck.. what a fantasy... just thinking abt a bunch of people who feel the same way, all listening to their own beat.. We dont gotta say anything.... just be there....its a real comforting thought that others feel the same or at least close to the same..... Thanks for writing this comment..
Anyone else to the point in life where they can’t cry anymore, I try, but I all that happens is I tear up but then the tears go away before they even have the chance to fall.
When you're truly broken, actually TRULY broken. This song will hit you hard. As hard as it has it me. I scream these lyrics at myself in the mirror at 12 am
I get what you're trying to say... its really tough when you doubt doubting yourself.. or just overthink overthinking..... or at least thats what I understand abt this comment..
For anyone who’s reading this...I don’t know what You’re going through atm but I truly hope it gets better for you and trust me someday it will get better, it may take some time but just don’t give up for a little longer you got this.
Best version yet, we to SB concert last week n right before this one ruby ask if anybody like slowed music n said they should check this song out SLOWED down
My depression has depression after this.
😫🔫
Hey bro same, im boitta go smoke some shit to deal with this stupid ass shit bro
Severe depression?
acabei de achar um brasileiro de cultura
I got tears In my eyes and lead In My head
You listen to this version after your anger fades and you’re just empty
I get strong feelings of anger when he talks about fucking the world, can't really explain it
this is prolly the best description of this version. i personally like the original better; it envokes all the pent up emotions and leaves you with them as the song fades out, but this one just rids you of all of those negative feelings to where theres nothing left but yourself in your empty mind.
Accurate to this exact moment
лидия хз let that fuel you. This world needs more hate and you got this! Also quit listening to people that’s your biggest flaw. Not what you look like. We’re all imperfect that’s what makes us perfect
Israel Hernandez thank you so much.. i really needed this thank you
you know a song hits hard when youtube gives you a link to a suicide prevention line
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"hits hard"? They're literally just trying to make sure people don't off themselves TO this song.
@@ImTrippy25 not that deep. and usually the heavier the topic of song, the better it tends to be because it holds more meaning for many people.
Does that for Skin by X as well
FACTS I SAJD THAT TO MY MOM YESTERDAY LMAO
Why does the slowed version hit harder
Cuz u can understand what it feels like
Indeed imagine that I got over the first version
slowing a song is like zooming up on a photograph. you can see and hear all of the tiny, perfect details.
@@wyattmckean1339 thanks itachi, i hope you dont do anything bad to ur family. Idk why i said that i just have a feeling
Solarash 黒い月 felt cute might kill my entire clan later idk ;)
This song is pretty old but still my all time favourite from Suicideboys.
same
Same 💯
True but like why does this make the song 1000 times sadder then it really is..
Same
Same ❣️
Billie Eilish : I make the sadest songs on the planet.
Suicide Boys : Hold our depression
when the fuck she said that lmaooo
@@none-f06probably its just a joke m8
@@none-f06 its a joke fool
@@ytpancho when did i said the otherwise? i was just curious for real fool 😐
@@none-f06 relax b it aint deep like that
When ur homie makes ur crush laugh
Soo....painfull
Felt dis
💔
NanoBytes naw more like when ur crush goes live with another girl in ig 😪
That’s true it hurts 💔
when the animation is literally you..
Agreed... 5am...still awake
3AM here and I can confirm
@@joaovitorxxd 2:33 atm
Looks like 3 am to me.
@@depressedthoughts Awful isn't it
I just realized something-
I have a friend. A single friend. And he actually cares about me. It feels awesome to know somebody cares about you
it is awesome
Yes, it feels...
u lucky as fuck
@@never_unsealed You have some shitty friends if they do that. I have a couple of good friends and I know for a fact they are legit and would be there for me no matter what.
Finding new circles isn't necessarily a bad thing, if your friend finds new people maybe try and make them mutuals. It's how social circles expand by introducing new people to each other.
Quarantine feels like this
Yeah I miss my friends and now to make things worse we cant celebrate my cousin's birthday on may the 4th
It just makes it worse.
quarantine is my daily life lol
Do some drugs. You'll all be fine. It only get's worse 😂
My friend passed away about a week ago, he killed himself.
Imagine going for a drive with a sweet car at night and then you blast this song in the car
blasting lofi??? never heard that before
That was all the motivation i needed
yeah playing the bullshit version instead of the good version
Then running it off of a bridge into a river once it finishes...
play the og song hell yeah
To the person who read this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years.
I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
you're an angel
mans just wright a hole paragraph
thank you so much. sending you love and light. may you have a blessed day
We shall continue saying precious things..
Thank you honestly much love frfr
is it just me who notices how much sadder they get the closer their birthday gets i don’t understand why
Astrxcat XIII agree
your fucking right bro
@vyeknv have a happy birthday anyway
Astrxcat it’s my birthday tomorrow and absolutely yes
@vyeknv happy late birthday!😔
This song will always remind me of when my dad died and I had a total mental breakdown, on tons of different drugs hallucinating staying awake for like 10 days straight. My girlfriend is the only one who knows what I did over those days, I don't have any memories of it (until she begins to tell me hers, then mine flood back and terrify me), but one episode she says i chased her around the house with a loaded rifle, trying to force her to watch me end myself.
It's not fair. I found love. It made me say that, get back. You'll never see daylight if I'm not strong, it just might....
I hope this bird never stops flying, stay strong man
This got me chills, hope you’re ok now
Hih?
Something like this happened to someome in my family but he didn't get through it
pls b alive)):
"aways boastin' my emotions on how I'm so fuckin' broken think I'm jokin' when I'm talkin' about blowin' my head open" that shit hit harddd
14 yr old girls that listen to Billie Eillish: You don't know what depression is like.
Me:
None of you fuckin idiots really know what real depression is! You’re just a little sad, which is normal or you crave the attention that comes with the trend of pretending to have depression. Or maybe some of you have actually convinced yourselves you’re depressed. What’s really sad is the amount of people my age that listen to “depressing songs” because they’re “depressed” when really it’s just vibe and trend. Explained horribly but the moral of the story is, it’s normal to be sad sometimes, you don’t have depression or any mental illness, deep down you know you just want to follow the trends. Why else would you be here telling everyone your story about how depressed you are if you’re not wanting attention??? Anyone above the mental age of 10 knows what’s going on here with my generation.
bruhh stop pitting ppl against eachother
See that's where you're wrong kid
James Sid actually most people I know that claim it actually have been diagnosed with it including me and my father but ok:)
Kaitlin Monk yeah, sure. Good luck with that.
at this point i don’t care about tomorrow or the next coming days I’m just waiting for the end.
You aint the only one
Same, and people say I'm just another 'fake depressed' 13 year old but though I am yes 13 and there are alot of fake depressed kids my age wich pisses me off to see well I am generally struggling so bad and idk why it started but it started in October or maybe before I cant remeber but I went really suicidal and one point to and everything and I sh ect and I do like billie eilish yes wich ppl say is fake depressed BUT I dont listen to her music anymore bc I like these songs since I have gotten worse and I'm still a fan of billie because she actually did save my life since I was about to end it I thought about how I I woudnt get to meet her ever and she had helped me alot bc I knew she was one point about to DO IT and I know she personally went through alot of shit she keeps to herself and stuff but people think jm fake depressed because of it but waw I'm really not like fr ppl say I'm fake depressed bc my phone was probs taken away and it pisses me off because it's not and I'm generally struggling so bad like fr
That makes two of us :/
LPS-Mad-world Creator *please stay strong, you are loved don’t ever forget that❤️*
I'm waiting too already
I’d kill to hear this song for the first time again 😔🖤
Same this is the best song ever created
@@Stay_Massive first time i heard this song it blew my mind
@@merked- hell yea i heard it the first time on normal 3 years ago i liked it then i listened to slowed 2 years ago thats when my mind blew up
Depression is not an aesthetic
Nah man. We out here depressed for real.
Sam Frias depression isn’t defined by a song. If ur actually depressed go see a therapist.
Whatisthisshit you don’t know what I go through. Nor at this point do you need to. Nothing but a troll.
Sam Frias didnt say ur faking it.
Stalin R. Chemical imbalances in the brain cause depression.. drugs prob works but since its in the brain physiological treatment is a must.
You ever just sit there unable to cry and just sit there empty? idk this what this songs makes me feel like. But then again I always feel kinda empty
yeah... I’m there now. I’ve cried all my tears. I’m empty now. I feel the sadness, the loneliness and darkness but I can no longer express it.
Exactly u wanna cry so hard but nothing comes out
My ribs are nothing but an empty cage. Black hole in my chest
yeah makes me feel numb and cold in the heart but then when i get mental breakdowns and cry i wanna die but always laugh for one second cause i want the demons gone
I hope everyone who replied is doing better 🥺
Helping one person wont change the world, but it will change the world for that one person.
I've never liked a slowed & reverb song like this
for real. most sound like ass. this gave me goosebumps.
check this out: /watch?v=XMEXKXSuxYw
One thing I don’t like is when he says get back bc it’s doesn’t sound good
If you like x you should listen to kill me slower and reverbed
20 min
Hey, person scrolling through the comments
Be safe ok ?
Why did this comment make me happier
@@tayyarn9843 :>
Ok
nope
chloe rice didn’t ask
I can’t explain how much I love this song-
When you're 22 have 0 friends and probably going to die alone...
be safe .
Same
Same
we are the same :)))
I’m feeling it from now
Intro: Butterfly Boucher]
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
[Verse 1: Ruby da Cherry]
They figure me a dead motherfucker
But I'm just a motherfucker that wanna be dead
$now Leopard with the lead in his head, turnin' me into a sweater
Bitches use me as their fucking bedspread
I be the silhouette of a sunset
Smoke a cigarette while I compress my depression
Stare into the violet fluorescent lights, makes me violent
I'm tryna get the highest I can get before I overdose and die
My ribs are nothing but an empty cage, black hole in my chest
Big bang, Yung Plague on the tip of a wave
In my head, I feel like I'm a guest, so I'ma throw it all away
Because when I am dead, I will be nothing decomposin' in a grave
I'm matter, but I don't matter
I can feel my skull shatter from the dull chatter
Brain splattered on the wall
Grey stains won't dissolve, gonna have to paint it all
[Bridge: Butterfly Boucher]
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
[Verse 2: $lick $loth]
Always boasting my emotions on how I'm so fucking broken
Think I'm joking when I'm talkin' about blowing my head open
'Til the moment you walk in and find my body motionless
Wrists slit, thoughts of $licky falling in an open pit, shit
Always burn my bridges 'cause I'd rather fall in ditches
If life's a game of inches, then my dick has been the biggest
And my goal's to fuck the world until that motherfucker's twitchin'
Lane switchin', same mission, to die and blame my addiction, bitch
[Outro: Butterfly Boucher]
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
Thank you :)
ok
Gg
Fucking love it
mein bruda
Hey random Person in the comments.
Keep your Head up even if it‘s hard.
You matter!
I love you !
If u ever have have bad thoughts just remember I’d rather listen to ur story than attend ur funeral.
You thicc bastered
Bapple YT you talking about your mum?
Vladimir Putin lets be honest Putin is thiccer
Thanks vlad
Thanks Vlady
Do people really think I want to feel like this? Everyone thinks depression is some sort of trend... now if people felt what I felt then they would understand why it's so serious... yes I'm diagnosed and take medication for my depression... I dont want to die I just want relief...
Hey if you’re still here you could talk to me if you want to.
@Dark Feelz 🤚🙄 I wish
Keep it together brother, and talk to people, sooner or later you find someone that actually helps you. And letting it all out is just the biggest relief...
i know right i fucking hate when people say "oh ur not actually depressed u just want attention" or some shit. maybe they'll realize how wrong they were when im fucking dead
People like that are a *part* of the reasons I listen to music like this, (btw i reccomend Ghostmane if you like screamy depressing rap) I always repeat the one line "Heard some motherfucker saying they are tired of me saying I'd rather be dead, but that is why you can't comprehend"... sorry for dumping this shit, I just feel normal here for once....
I feel like "edgy" 13 yr olds made a reputation for suicide boys, Billie and Lil Peep. Like honsetly. Billie isn't a depressing artist she just has that kind of vibe to her. Like I listen to billie,lil tracy, lil peep and suicide boys. Not bc their "emo" just cause that's the music I listen to.
Agree
Same
I mean, Billie was really depressed for a period. Shes improved her mental health though
“edgy” 13 year olds don’t know suicide boys exist. only x and billie. let’s keep it that way
@@klareecearldt6505 LMFAO CHSHSHSHDHSHDHCHXH
It’ll be okay man. You’ll get through it and find someone better.
i have no any girl friend nor ex
Me cool Continue like that until you find something real trust me, nowadays nobody is loving fr, nobody wants a serious relationship. Sometimes its better to be alone than with a fake one:’)
Yes...thank you
@@mecool8769 pathetic
@@azil17 ;-(
i’m not alone. i just need someone to talk to rn,
*It just might*
No
No
ToxicRayanZ yeth
lol same
$uicideboy$ is saving me. Literally every song I hear helps so much
When your Girlfriend spawns on your best friend bed
Rip
I felt this
😭😭😭😔😪
Lmao
damn
A few days feeling like the girl in the vid
Stop assuming the gender u bigot
cobatron 633 If you’re serious then I have no hope left for humanity
Luiis Torrez yeah but you can’t cry you just lay there
@@cobey6338 wdym?
@@RubyXIII it's like u already knew it
You ever just feel so alone no matter how many people say they are there for you. You ever just sit at a party and watch everyone socialise and have fun and get along but you just say to yourself what am I doing here. I’m surrounded by so many people but I still feel so alone.
yup
:(
When your depression adds another infinity stone :/ *fuck cancer*
So anyway I started blasting
Hahahaha so true -_-
Yet, in the end those infinity stones will be used by the good guys ;)
i listen to $uicideboys to drown out the sound of my parents yelling✌︎✌︎✌︎
I hope it gets better
Same
That hit harder than my mom
Things will get better eventually - If you keep believing in yourself. That is the catch, that is the difficult part. Wishing you luck.
same here.
i used to listen to this filled with rage, now it's just emptiness.
It’s not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back ☹
You'll never see day light
If I'm not strong it just might
@@niilo8332 they figure me a dead motherfucker but I'm just a motherfucker that wanna be dead
$now lepered with lead in his head turning me into a $weater bitches use me as their bedspread
Heartbroken gang 👋💔
gang gang 😪
Now and always 💔
Dude I’m heartbroken and in a relationship
@@codymartinez3087 💔💋
@sheepy boy 💔-💔
I love these slowed versions mostly for the ability to hear all the different layers of music way better. It's so easy to split each layer in my head in versions like this. Really shows how locked into 4/4 the A strain is. Also easy to count measures
Relax My friend, just chill.
But I'm not okay
@@mikemcelroy570 im here for you
its hard..
...
You ever get that feeling where you're so sad it feels like you're falling? Just me? Okay.
who doesnt ?
@@tayyarn9843 true
Alexandra if you are greek u will get it better. It feels like falling in a void while watching happy and sad memories of ur life
Dude everyone watching this video has depression
yea it feels like i’m slowly sinking tho like in a cold dark ocean 😍🧎🏻♀️💕
The fact that this song is so sad they put a suicide prevention hotline...might give it a call
Listening to depressing music helps get through tough shit, and honestly try not to listen to the people who say that you’re looking for attention. You can’t help what your going through.
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say to get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say to get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
They figure me a dead motherfucker
But I'm just a motherfucker that wanna be dead
$now Leopard with the lead in his head, turning me into a sweater
Bitches use me as their fucking bedspread
I be the silhouette of a sunset
Smoke a cigarette while I compress my depression
Stare into the violet fluorescent lights, makes me violent
I'm tryna get the highest I can get before I overdose and die
My ribs are nothing but an empty cage, black hole in my chest
Big bang, Yung Plague on the tip of a wave
In my head, I feel like I'm a guest, so I'ma throw it all away
Because when I am dead, I will be nothing decomposing in a grave
I'm matter, but I don't matter
I can feel my skull shatter from the dull chatter
Brain splattered on the wall
Grey stains won't dissolve, gonna have to paint it all
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say to get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
Always boasting my emotions on how I'm so fucking broken
Think I'm joking when I'm talking about blowing my head open
'Till the moment you walk in and find my body motionless
Wrists slit
Thoughts of $licky falling in an open pit, shit
Always burn my bridges 'cause I'd rather fall in ditches
If life's a game of inches, then my dick has been the biggest
And my goal's to fuck the world until that motherfucker's twitching
Lane switching, same mission, to die and blame my addiction, bitch
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say to get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
Not depressed, Just enjoying a Nice song
same
Just remember suicide doesn't take away your pain it just passes it to the ones who love you. There's always light at the end of a tunnel. Even when life seems at its worst you just have to hang in there. Talk to someone, no matter what know that there isn't anything wrong with asking for help. You're loved.
I see so many of these and all I think of is I try so hard to keep everyone happy around me ,why can't I finally make myself happy
@@willowclowry7894 its not fair if you’re not making yourself happy
good pass it to them. They made my life a living hell anyways
listen to that while you crying to cry even more ...
*Yeah that the life i choose*
Holy crap, the music was much deeper, there was even a warning about life valuation against Suicide, but I'm not depressed. (Sorry my bad English)
Please...don't forget that you're a beautiful person
i’m not..
@@sarahguillot20 you are
@@sarahguillot20 you are
@@sarahguillot20 you definitely are
facts i look good af
When the homies don't kiss me goodnight 😔...
That's sus unless they got socks on
😿😿😿😿
*™*
champagne but without the cham...
I feel the pain
I am 22 and this song reminds me of à refuge girl that asked me to be her friend in high school 6 years ago and I said yes... she came from Palestine
we became the best friends ever her mom was Algerian so she had the right to stay on her country Algeria...
she told me how awful it is to feel the broken glass cut the skin after explosions...
after one year of friendship we found out that we are very far sibbilings but from the same family with time family did separate ...
her father was not found till the last month
and she is going back there to meet him and I really sad to loose her in many ways
That’s good I am Palestinian too I saw kids getting killed and saw my cousins house getting bombed it still traumatized me i cry every night I hide my feelings I just can’t anymore I have had such a tough life but I cant do anything I’m nothing compared to them
I am really sorry to hear that it is really depressing😭
"think I'm joking when i talk about blowing my head open" damn I felt that
When all your friends all said they couldn’t hang out earlier and you see them together an hour later on their stories.
😔
everytime honestly.
Those aren't friends.
true
@@tayyarn9843 Junior H😉
Whoever made it here I love you
ily too stay strong bro
I’ve done this meaning just lyin in bed staring at the ceiling listening to music thinkin about the past and the future but mostly the past
Same but it's a process of
Lonely and sad-meat beat-lonely and sadder-thoughts-anxiety-ptsd-go to work with no sleep-and repeat
*Get back*
Nostalgia gang
😞
No one cares. Get a life dunce
Pappy what is your problem. No one told you to read the comment
We can make it through this, together.
I'm not strong enough, sorry...
Nah i dont think so ill just want die
Asuka That's it *yes you are*
@@01919 Stop lying
Asuka you can’t believe those things you are strong enough it is time to get through this for you have a clear mindset and have a tea and think about your professions and try to get better at them.
You’ve got this 😀
This is me every day
yo guys have ability to cry, i have gone too far, and dont have it anymore
*Emotional numbness*
felt this hella,, fuck
And then when the urge come you still suppress it. It’s so rare I cry about anything real anymore, and if I do you’d have to break me hard.
i was like that for a decade, now ive started to cry everyday, trust me i wish i could go back to feeling nothing this is so much worse
Me: I have depression
People:no u don't
People: checks my playlist
My playlist:
U don't have lol
What do you mean bro
@@juliangalvan523 I was searching for a playlist in your profile but sadly I couldn't find anything.
Songs don’t matter
Not saying you don’t have depression, but music and depression don’t mean shit. I’ve been diagnosed, and the music I listen to hardly reflects that unless I’m in a really deep episode.
Remember y'all. Use depressing music to get yourself through hard times. You're not alone. Don't let bad situations go down like that. I trust you. You're more than what you think. And soon or later, people will appreciate that. I love you. Keep scrolling and enjoy the song♡
Thank you so much
♥️
Hey anon, I know you are having a real bad time, but suicide is not the answer. Use the songs to numb the pain, and push through it, it will get better I promise, hang in there I love you!
Omg this song memories flooding back
YO you mastered this perfectly R.I.P DJ SCREW
Idk what is this feeling... It's not depression but songs like that make me contemplate my whole life and make me feel that nothing really matters..... sadness..... curiosity.......emptiness.....
To whoever may read this, I hope you get better.
Suicide isn't the answer, trust me I know all too well.
My depression is depressed.
How is that possible
Finally i can keep up with the lyrics xD
This song will always remind me when I got bullied , when I got my ❤️ broken 2 times, This song reminds me of everything bad that has happened to me 💔
Ok ok imagine this.
Midnight, pitch black. This song in sound cancelling headphones, full volume. Star gazing alone, in the middle of an empty field with freshly cut grass. Somehow Surrounded by dark purple led lights.
Close your eyes and just imagine. Magical.
That truly does sound magical
I think that's the moment I may let out a few tears, tbh ..
Fuck.. what a fantasy... just thinking abt a bunch of people who feel the same way, all listening to their own beat.. We dont gotta say anything.... just be there....its a real comforting thought that others feel the same or at least close to the same.....
Thanks for writing this comment..
I can't imagine
Anyone else to the point in life where they can’t cry anymore, I try, but I all that happens is I tear up but then the tears go away before they even have the chance to fall.
i heard that the more you cry from being sad the less emotions you'll have, and yes, yes i do.
A solid vibe even 5 years later 🖤
I lost the person that i loved the most
Yo it hurts so bad ...
Last year I heard this song at work and I had to get off my machine and cry in the bathroom for like 20 minutes because I began to think of it again
I was sad, now while now listening it.... Omg my mind feels like will blow up some moments.
I have no were else to cry so Ithe shower is were I shed my tears without anyone judging me cuz I have no room
This is the worst song to listen to depressed, it will put some dark thoughts in your head.
When your father laughs at you after you told him the only friend you had killed herself...
Damn.
you all good?
@@TobosscoG you finna be honest or if i give you the :) or 😁 im ok am i dying inside ? Who knows and I'm close to "it" the world may never know :/\
I had the goosebumps after reading this. I hope u are ok
you deserve better, wish you all the best on your path
I don’t suppose they’d play this at my funeral🖤🤫
they slowed and reverbed a song with a sample that is already slowed and reverbed but its still good lol.
I swaer i loved her more than everything
The animation is literally me everyday i go back home after School !!
My fav from $uicideboy$
Incrível como essa música consegue levar qualquer um a depressão pqp
realmente kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Hm menos eu
Pls never stop doing those vids im falling in love rightnow
This just made me cry all night long 🖤💔
for weeks
When people hear me listen to this music, they think I’m depressed. But actually I’m the opposite, I just love this type of music.
A man does not cry because he is week he cry’s because he have been strong for to long-itachi uchiha
I got obsessed with this.
When you're truly broken, actually TRULY broken. This song will hit you hard. As hard as it has it me. I scream these lyrics at myself in the mirror at 12 am
I do have a few reason to live, but they seem to become every day less relevant and dumb
Let's be my friend @pcixopatiko
I wonder what happened to you.
They probably were all along
Just Some Imposter with a mustache
I’m still here, not happy all the time about it but still alive for now
wow.
me: your not depressed, you laughed today! your so selfish.
Only cause the laughed doesn't mean they are not depressed
@@joslynnsmith3011 i know...i made this comment to represent what I think. its called overthinking .
I get what you're trying to say... its really tough when you doubt doubting yourself.. or just overthink overthinking..... or at least thats what I understand abt this comment..
@@socialwizard1949 i know..its so hard. but i know i have to keep trying! so do you. thank you.
A fase ruim é só um fase🎭
For anyone who’s reading this...I don’t know what You’re going through atm but I truly hope it gets better for you and trust me someday it will get better, it may take some time but just don’t give up for a little longer you got this.
getting the shivers from this song is a different feeell
This gives me the chills everytime
Best version yet, we to SB concert last week n right before this one ruby ask if anybody like slowed music n said they should check this song out SLOWED down
Me in quarantine be like:
Right. same here
Laying in bed hoping this would end
Not many people truly feel this way keep that in mind some truly do and I know one person who does