GROWING UP IN SCIENTOLOGY & Fear of Abandonment
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- Опубликовано: 7 сен 2024
- Today I talk about fear of abandonment and a little breakthrough I had with regards to growing up in Scientology.
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Jenna your ability to tell your truths is very brave and I’m sorry that you had to endure this experience in your childhood and it breaks my heart as a mom and grandmother, that loves them so much, I can’t fathom the pain and trauma, that your having to heal and I now know why we all see a very strong young woman ❤ Your super smart in your analysis of it all and thank you for sharing your story. You’re a true blessing in my opinion and many blessings to you and your beautiful family🙏🏻……
You are so kind, thank you. My love to you and your family as well 💖
Through trauma we learn how to come up with some awful coping mechanisms that spill into every area of our lives. Especially relationships. 😭
You’re very strong and hearing you talk about this, made me realize just how much woman feel that it’s not okay to be emotional, but it’s not emotional, it intertwined with intelligence and empathy; our world unfortunately is also full of men that are full of themselves. Don’t ever doubt or apologize for being you. I repeat don’t apologize, be yourself and be empathetic and be emotional when you want. I say this because it’s important to surround yourself with people that appreciate and respect, but also recognize your amazing person, your soul.
Aw thank you ❤ I think many people consider being emotional the opposite of being logical which is not the case. It took me a while to realize this.
@@JennaMiscavige Totally not the case agreed. I work in Tech and it’s an industry full of men and zero empathy. I have found that over the years I have had to be tough like a robot, almost with no feelings. But, it’s also made me to realize that we are all human and it’s important to give people the ability to express their own thoughts and opinions, but I still have that little voice telling me to just deal with it. I want more woman in STEM, so we can bring that voice and empathy for clients.
Jenna is WONDERFUL ❤❤❤ . She spoke out and she's a hero. I look up to you my Dear.
The flowers are beautiful. I admire someone that can produce that type beauty. “Green thumb!” You are soooo beautiful, too. Inside and out. Thank you for sharing your story.
I think that it would be more shocking if the ranch kids didn’t have abandonment issues in relationships. I think the fact that most of you have all gone on to have the amount of success and the loving spirit we see is proof of the strength of character Scientology tried to get rid of but couldn’t.
Loved your stream again, thanks jenna.
Sweet Jenna I’m so sorry for everything you went through as a child. You have grown so much and you’re continuing to grow as you realise things and the difference is now you’re facing them head on. You are such a strong woman and you’re more than enough and don’t you forget it. I totally get where you’re coming from on the abandonment issues. Sending you ❤ from Hervey Bay Australia. ❤🦘🇦🇺
Thank you Jenna for sharing these very real and personal emotional observations ❤ I grew up inside Jehovahs Wittnesses and have big time Fear of Abandonment which made relationships difficult. It gets better over time. Check out Gabor Maté and his take on Normalcy and Trauma. It hits the spot. Love from Austria! ❤
You are not the first person to mention him! I will definitely look him up ❤
💔 Sweet Jenna, I'm so sorry that happened to you. As a Mom & (former) teacher, it breaks my heart AND infuriates me the way that the people (robots) in $ci treated the kids & young adults. It's so unhealthy & dangerous. Thankfully, you're away from all of that, remarkably resilient, and free to thrive! You have such a strong sense of the beautiful & caring person that you are. So celebrate that, and continue to do all that you're doing, especially with your own kids (who are clearly lucky to you you as their Mom). What a powerful video. 🌸💖🌸
Aw thank you so much. You are so kind as always ❤️
@@JennaMiscavige You did the most important things: You got yourself out of $ci. You spoke out so that others would know. You made sure your kids were not raised in a cult / high control situation. You are parenting & providing the love you ALWAYS deserved. 💖
Wow, I came to say exactly this! Jenna, I am so sorry your new original development and instincts were damaged. You can build these new neuro pathways! I will be praying for you and your continued growth in your beautiful “new” life. I am loving these videos and your beautiful and artsy intros. Keep up the good work! 😊
Hi Jenna, Most trauma therapists say that we all reenact our unmet needs from childhood in our adult relationships. It is so normal and now that you are aware, you can move towards healing those unmet needs within you. I am so proud of you 😍
Oh my goodness this is so true! Thank you 💕
Great video thx JENNA. I’ve done so much psychotherapist, I became one. Abandonment and understanding how HIGHLY TRIGGERING it can become in my daily life has help me change my behaviour to be more inline with my values. ❤
Hello Jenna, I loved the intro! You are so wise. I really appreciate your candor.
Years ago, I was a very social person. I used to laugh a lot, I used to be a fun person. But over the years, I have increasingly become less social, less outgoing, I bottle up my emotions most of the time, I am quiet, and these days, I feel awkward. To make matters worse, these changes in my personality caused good friends to drift away. Fear of being alone or being rejected makes this provlem even worse. Fear can make people less social. It is something I am trying to overcome, now that I am retired.
When I think back on my life, I really think these changes to my personality came from trauma and seeing some of the worst crimes and violence in society. Who knows, maybe I have PTSI and I don't realize it.
Being brought up and conditioned in Scientology made things very difficult for you. The abuse and isolation you endured in Scientology made it even worse. Is it possi le you have PTSI? If you have not done so, seeing a therapist or even a psychiatrist may help. You make your own decisions, and you would not have to accept any medications if a doctor tried to prescribe them. Some doctors prescribe SSRI medications like its candy, so do what you think is best for you. There is NO shame in seeking help. A simple therapist or psychologist is worth it, but you may have to try a few different ones before you find one that fits.
Thank you so much for opening up to me. I totally relate to you.
I understand how it feels to sort of watch yourself become a different person and for it to be hard to get back to your old and more free version of yourself.
I have had some therapy but the therapist wasn’t a psychologist so was more of a life coach. So while it was very helpful and needed, it may not have been addressing the underlying causes directly.
I am glad that we have each other in this community and we can all learn from each other and heal. Thank you for your kindness and wisdom, I am grateful you are here ❤️
SirCrepitus I had no idea you struggled!! Therapy has helped me immensely, but I still struggle sometimes! Sending "mom" hugs from Vancouver ❤❤
Jenna, you are an amazing young woman! With every video you post I feel a close "connection" to you.
When I was 14, and a scrawny kid, I got into a fight with my dad! I have no idea where the sheer rage came from, but I hit him over the head with a mirror and ran like hell! Everything felt like it was in slow motion! I did everything to get away from the beating I KNEW was coming including pushing a ladder over on him. When he caught me and grabbed me as I tried to run up the stairs. He grabbed me by the leg and flipped me upside down giving me the "opportunity" to sink my teeth I to his leg and drawing blood. I remember EVERYTHING I did to defend myself, but, although I got a real beating, I have absolutely no recollection of it! I think it was because I took back my power! Our dad never hit any of us after that day! So, really, I WON!
Wow! You are a fighter! And a fellow biter🤣 All joking aside, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I appreciate you being here, listening, sharing, asking great questions and being here so very much ❤
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Oh my, my heart goes out to you! I had a similar incident with my dad at 14, except I didn't attempt to fight back and as he pressed his knee on my neck while threatening to kill me I was made to beg for my life to make him stop.This abuse happened because I asked why my twin and I had to weed a fellow church member's garden (Jehovah's Witness cult) for the 3rd day in a row at high humidity/90 degree temps in the blazing sun for hours without help from their very able grandsons of a similar age. I wish I could say the physical abuse stopped at that point but that didn't happen until my twin and I were 17. Our dad went to attack my sister for voicing a complaint that she wanted to talk to our sister when she called from out of state with news about our beloved neice who was 2-1/2 years old. He trapped my sister in her bedroom and she grabbed a small TV and threated to smash it over his head if he dared touch her. That day he saw something in her eyes that stopped him in his tracks--and he never hit either of us again. We left home the day we turned 18.
Our relationship was spotty and rocky over the next 15 years. Until the day I drove from Ohio to North Carolina to visit my parents for a weekend. They took this opportunity to ask why we weren't close and I tried to avoid the painful conversation that would ensue--but my dad insisted that he wanted to know. When I gave them example after example of beatings and mental abuse by both of them my dad had no memory of it and my mom denied it ever happened. But the truly amazing thing is my father sincerely apologized and cried in shame at his actions. I forgave him instantly--we mended the fences and built a loving friendship over the next 14 years until he passed away. It's transformational what taking responsibility for one's actions will do for a deeply wounded child in an adult's body. All these years later I continue to talk to my dad and I feel his presence watching over me. I wish everyone who has experienced abandonment and abuse could recieve a similar apology. HUGS and love to you and Jenna.🫂❤
Julie
@@JennaMiscavigeI definitely am a fighter😅 despite the trauma, or maybe because of it, I've been able to help kids in bad situations. At 72, most of them are still part of the family❤❤
@@SisterOfTheFireflies181I'm so sorry you had to deal with that😢 I had the advantage of having both parents take responsibility for the harm they did! Dads been gone for close to 20 years and moms been gone for 13.❤❤ sending hugs❤
@@merrileeheard3889 That's wonderful to hear, glad to know you were valued and respected in time. Thanks for taking care of those in need, you are a special person! 🫂
Hello Jenna … thanks for sharing your breakthrough…hope you have many more in your healing journey…❤
You never lost your voice. That is gold..
LRH has done so much damage. 😡 And it continues
Sending hugs💜💜💜
Such a fascinating video. It’s given me a lot of food for thought. Thank you for being so open. 🧡
Thank you for listening 💖
I admire your determination to stick with an emotionally challenging insight in order to deal with it. The channel I have come back to the most is the Crappy Childhood Fairy.
ooh I will check it out! Thank you 💖
Interesrting and helpfull ! Thanks Jenna ❤❤❤❤
You’re doing a great job Jenna… constantly evolving and changing, as new challenges arise and past traumas heal💕
And your flowers are sublime🌷
Jenna what you said about abandonment is so true. I’m sure ex scientos are more experienced with it.
So insightful and honest! I admire your vulnerability. It's such a process to self evaluate, but then share it with the world. Whew! Thank you for sharing! ~Lorraine
Very insightful Jenna!
You are such a sweetheart, Jenna! ❤ I’m so amazed with the personal introspection you are experiencing; it will only be a wonderful gift as you move forward! ‼️
I’m really impressed with the level of healing you are doing. You are headed to a wonderful life❤️❤️
Loving your videos Jenna and your getting so comfortable! ❤
Jenna you are so brave and so intelligent. I can't believe all you have survived and how hard you work on yourself.
❤❤❤ Jenna, you have a beautiful heart & soul. Give yourself Grace, you deserve it❤❤❤
Jenna thanks again for sharing. It is nice seeing how the healing process works after leaving such a horrible cult. Peace and love to you
Hi Jenna, maybe as a never-in I should have made this connection? But uhhh, no. I had not. So you gave me my own revelation. I’m so sorry for the terrible trauma you were trapped in while in the cult. I think you are super talented and you come across so together, loving, and strong.
Thank you ❤ Glad it was helpful to you!
Jenna, I see you and I hear you..and I really wanted to meet you at Tony’s luau..maybe next time. I am so impressed with your youtube content and so glad you are back and contributing your knowledge and expertise about scientology. Your video today was very telling and I want to send you a big virtual hug, You deserve all the best in life! ~Moon Shadow
Hugs to you too!
I have figured out over the last two years that I lash out at my husband when I'm sad or mad about a situation. I'm learning to ask myself what is bothering me. I go to my husband and apologize and talk to him about what is bothering me whether it's him or an outside source. Our marriage is the best it has ever been.
From the trauma of your childhood small things are big. That you have seen it is a great start to healing 💖
I love u so so much Jenna u r a beautiful soul
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I love your lipstick color!! Very interesting topic too!
Thank you!!!
Great video! It was very thought provoking
Trauma is so hard, and effects so many parts of our lives. Thanks for sharing your story. Love the flowers and plants!
Very relatable!
Hooray!!!!!!
Hi Barb!!
You're so brave in the way you're dealing with your emotions, great work Jenna!
Great content and thanks for sharing I didn’t realize I do the same as does my daughter. Generational trauma is such a big issue
Very insightful video. Jenna, I am so sorry that you had to grow up this way. So emotionally damaging. But I’m glad to see that you are working through all this. It’s a process, I’m sure. Your children are lucky to have such a loving mother. They won’t be emotionally abandoned. You seem so much more comfortable in front of the camera now. I love your intro., by the way. Despite it all, you keep moving forward. Congratulations! Sending love and respect from Texas.❤
You are so sweet 🥲 thank you
Oh wow. Emotional abandonment is tough. I’m so very sorry you had to go through that. It’s awful that COS teaches that in such a prominent way. Hugs to you and congrats on peeling back another piece of that onion of healing. ❤
I was an adult. I rejected child rejection. I left and never accepted that all dynamics could live in harmony, but...
Every Being has their own reality. Holy crazy crap.
Hi Jenna, missed the live. Yes we do fear abandonment as never-ins. Bless your soul for what you have been through in your life. By the grace of God, you are an amazing person. Prayers for your journey to healing and wellness.
Jenna, I totally relate to what you’re saying. I was emotionally abandoned by my father and I had the same problem in relationships.
I look forward to your videos! I hardly catch lives and I’m glad you are starting to heal 💜
Appreciate your honesty on this point. I have never been involved with Scientology but I was raised in a cult.
What you’re talking about, how you put abandonment issues on others is really common with cult survivors. We develop it because the only way to get needs met as kids was via stealth.
It’s really hard to admit/realize, but the fact that you are is a great sign you’re healing. Really insightful stuff, thanks for sharing.
❤ insightful as always. Love your videos jenna
This was amazing! I think we all do this on some level. I love how you are making yourself aware so that you can be the best version of you! ❤
Thank you Jenna for all of your insights and truths.
I realized four years ago that I have fear of abandonment. I have for a different reason. This year I reread your book. I though I recognized the fear of abandonment in your book when Dallas was separated from you.
Great one, Jenna.
Wow. That opened something in me. Thanks for sharing all that you do, Jenna. You are appreciated xx
Jenna, you are an incredibly brave person that went through a lot with much grace. You deserve to be loved and supported by your companion, and now that you have discovered this issue, I 'm sure you both can work on it so it doesn't take too much space in your relationship.
I have a question for you: have you ever had an open conversation with your parents about your childhood and abandonment issues?
Sending much love from Paris, France.
Great video. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve been trying to find this guy! Thank you so much for the link. I’m doing my own trauma work and looking for resources. This is so helpful.
No emotional support. Probably no physical show of love and caring. You can't raise children like robots. Thanks for sharing and getting a lot of that crud off your chest. God Bless.
Very interesting ❤
The intro. is so uplifting and creative!
Jenna love all your intros, so creative! The Dahia’s are stunning, just so beautiful, thanks for sharing your thoughts and experiences!!
Hi Jenna, missed the live. Yes we do fear abandonment as never-ins.
If you have a merch shop, could you do some of your beautiful flowers?
I love your intro! And your camera is amaaazing crisp and clear.! ❤️ 😊
QUESTION: Is there anything you do to actively make sure you show emotions? Or have your emotions come back on their own? Love you ❤
Hi again! Great question, I will think on it 🌻
@@JennaMiscavigeThank you Jenna❤
@@KeilahMcDonald 😘
There is nothing wrong in expecting different things from a romantic partner as you do of your friends. You know you would do anything you could to support your partner and it's hurtful when you come to find that the same level of support isn't always reciprocated. Sorry totally random and off topic but I think you would be good at counciling people that have suffered trauma. You seem to have a natural calming empathetic presence about you. At least I find your videos very calming, anyway. 😂
For the algorithm ✌🏼
Thanks for the comments. Staff members inside Scientology are attacked constantly and belittled. I can see why you would feel that at least your spouse should be on your side, since no one else is. Also, if your family and all your friends are in Scientology, you would have a deep fear of any punishment from the church. The church could, for almost any reason, send you to the RPF or declare you suppressive and then your friends cannot talk to you and neither will your family. If you have to leave the church you will no money, no car, no job and no real job experience. Total abandonment. I do have a question for you, if you would like to answer someday: How did you learn to trust wogs? Since you were raised in Scientology you must have been taught that anyone outside of Scientology was a potential trouble source and had no ethics. After you left Scientology you must have had to trust somebody. You must have learned that wogs were not really so bad after all.
Great insight and self discovery Jenna. Keep working!
$cientology teaches you how to be a narcissist in many ways. And in many relationships. You are trying to break the cycle. Keep at it. It isn't easy, but you CAN DO THIS!
OMG so sorry
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Great conversation you just had with us on a different note. I love your setting. I love hearing the birds. I’m curious is this a porch?
Hey Jenna How are you ❤
Hi! Thanks for being here 💓
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I'm first! ❤
So close!!!
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You are the person that can stop that. Growing up is lonely.. people are not the way you think they need to be in this world no one is in tiled to anything you are really sick in the mind.. grandiose. In titlement. Is it name of it
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