I bet you can’t guess what I’m gonna say lol. . . I’m so very proud of you!!! That was a lot of challenging in a day and you took it in stride. It is always just so nice to hear joy in your voice. ❤❤❤ as if you don’t already know. . . You are doing amazing!!!!
You are doing amazing, Fi!!! You seem so much happier and you have this amazing new outlook, you’re glowing! You should be so proud of yourself! And remember, we all have off days, recovery is not linear. That’s completely normal 💜
Thankyou so much for your kind words :') I feel that too, slow and steady is paying off. Thankyou so much for that reminder. I think it can be so easy to focus on what I still want to achieve and wanting it to be 'perfect' that I forget to see how far I've come, or even just let myself ride those waves of good and less good days! Thankyou
I'm getting caught up on everything I've missed being insanely busy, but I'm in TEARS over your victories. I'm so happy for you. Your confidence, your smile, you laughter is AMAZING to hear. I'm just absolutely proud of you, this is EVERYTHING you've been fighting for!
Aww hey Courtney!!! Thankyou my love :') I love this because it actually made me stop and think back to where I was when I did this one... a lot has changed since even then :') Thankyou for being so kind as ever Courtney
this is the happiest video of yours yet. i've never seen you so happy, and i've never felt so happy too after watching it. go fi, you deserve all the happies. keep fighting for them. you're a champion. x
Can we just appreciate the picture on the wall. It's so beautiful and you can almost get lost in it and feel like you're actually there (well I can)!! Lol
It’s so good to see you are slowly but surely gaining in confidence . I totally understand you’re reasons for finding this increase more difficult but well done you for never giving in and for keep powering through. You have this fi and I’m sure you must feel proud of how far you have come and that you are now able to,go back to university. Is you’re university close by so you can stay at home rather than on campus? I struggled with anorexia through college and was difficult living away from home whilst battling anorexia. I wish you welll and know you will do great either way. I believe you will meet your goal of taking the dogs for you’re 1 hour walk. That’s awesome. A very big well done fi xx
Hey Joanna! Thankyou so much for your comment :) Certainly so much has changed, and I think I am feeling more proud of myself for it! I am staying at home for uni, it's really close to my house and allows my support to remain the same whilst going through all that uni is, happens! Thankyou for being so kin, it means a lot to me. Sending so much love your way xxx
Bless you. It’s amazing how far you’ve come and how accepting you are. You have so much insight which is great and thank you for talking about rules and also the bloating. I know it’s tough going and when I’ve said I feel bloated it’s always ignored but you made me see it’s a real thing and it’s part of the process. Keep going the mischief and happiness in your voice is beautiful to hear xx
Oh Helen :') Thankyou so much for this kind comment. Bloating is tricky and uncomfortable, but I just keep on reminding myself that it is temporary. Thankyou
This video made MY day!! We are all SO FREAKING PROUD of you Fi!! And yes, the part about the rules that you make to navigate the world around you DOES make sense because many people on the spectrum struggle with ambiguity, or things that are abstract. So making "rules" probably helps things seem more "concrete" for you. If I'm wrong, please tell me. Lol. But that's the way I interpreted it.
Sheena! Thankyou so much for this comment. I’m so glad it made sense, I was worried I didn’t explain it very well. It is just my way of navigating the world, and what you say makes sense too. I struggle with ambiguity, so rules help me to make sense of things. ThankYOU! Xxx
Thank you for sharing about rules!! I also have rules for every. single. thing. in my life and it can be so paralyzing. But you said it so well, not all rules are necessarily bad or need to be changed, they are just the way we navigate the world. But your strategy for "upruling" the eating disorders rules is so helpful!!
Oh Fi I’ve been watching your videos for so long, I took an internet break for a bit and I’ve come back and you are just flourishing and I am so so so proud of you. You are so strong even when it’s so hard and watching you glow in this video just makes my heart swell with overwhelming joy. Keeping fighting on Fi, seeing you happy is my favorite ❤
This Italian once more wholeheartedly approves. Pizza, chocolate, fun food days, we are definitely related. Best part of this video was not just that you conquered but that proud smile on you is SO great to see. You were practically giddy talking about your accomplishment and deservedly so. Hi-five from across the big pond for you, my pasta sis. Brava Fi, brava. All the hugs.
Aww Kena, I'm so glad! Haha oh bless you, you're so right. It makes a difference from earlier in the year when I was trying them. Big steps forwards. It always helps knowing I have my pasta sis across the pond sending high fives :') So much love Kena xxx
i am actually mindblown! smiled throughout the whole video!! fi, seeing you laugh in such a genuine and honest way just fills my heart with joy. you are doing so incredibly well & i don't think i've ever felt so proud of someone i do not even know in person?! you are an absolute gem, we are all rooting for you!!
Aww lotte! Thankyou so much :’) this made me smile so much!!! Thankyou for being there and believing in me, because it really does mean an awful lot ❤️❤️❤️
The joy on your face is beautiful 😍 You also described your ASD very well and I love how you are reprogramming your brain with new rules!!! You even did a tiny happy dance as you enjoyed your pizza!!! So overjoyed for you!!!!
XXX Keep on fighting! You ' re inspiring and I watched your Start ! I tried choclate in my Porridge, too! I saw it you doing and it looks delicious and I trief: and woooww! I do it nie every day thanks 💕
I am so proud of you! I've been watching your videos for a few months now and seeing the life come back into your eyes makes me so happy! I cried happy tears for you today watching this one! You are amazing! I actually use some of your motivational quotes with my children. When my daughter(shes only 3) is struggling with a task I tell her she can do hard things and that has helped her so much! She's started saying it to others! Thanks for sharing your journey.
Hey Jordanne! What a lovely lovely lovely comment, thankyou so much :') I feel the sparkle coming back... and it feels truly wonderful. I'm so glad the quotes can help your children too, that means so much to me :') Thankyou, for being you
I too do the rules with everything and I also naturally like to do the same thing over and over again. What I am starting to learn is that my food is the area I have to go against the rules because that's the bit that's nearly killed me. X
Literally SO proud!!!! Also I can say, as a person who doesn't have an Ed, this is really inspirational ❤️ if you can fight an awful dieases, I can fight my battles and appreciate my healty and body even more. Keep going Fi 💪
I hadn't seen you in a while, but the difference in the amount of life you have now is amazing. You have personality and I feel good watching you and feeling your energy. The last time I saw you on tik tok, I could tell that you were a lovely person, but you seemed like a shadow of yourself. I wish you the absolute best
Aww my love! Thankyou so much. Certainly a lot has changed! Most of all though, I am feeling stronger which feels lovely to be able to say. Thankyou for your kind words
I’m sorry things have been rough. But it pleases me to see you so happy.you totally give me strength when I have rough days. Your hair is beautiful.High five and hugs. You are a rockstar.
WELL DONE FI💜🦙 Watching your face listening to what you're saying was just sheer joy today. When your smile goes all the way to your eyes it's transforming it is amazing! You have grown so much, The information that you give regarding the anorexia recovery that you’re going through as well as how in affects your autism and how your autism affects anorexia is brilliant. I have two beautiful grandchildren that are on the spectrum both in very different places but when you said that about the rules touched my heart in a way I cannot explain thank you. Fi you’re a BRIGHT BLESSINGS. Sending much love and care your way and again thank you for sharing your story in your life and your struggles and your tramps I’m so happy I’m along for the ride
Aww my love, thankyou :') certainly a lot has changed, which feels really lovely to be able to say. I'm really glad it made sense, I was a little worried it wasn't making sense at all! Thankyou so much for such a kind comment :') xxx
I was watching this and my thoughts were "do we have the same brain" my autism has so many rules which don't make sense to anyone else but me and watching this made me feel less alone. Proud of you!!
Ah I'm so glad it made you feel less alone! It can be so tricky navigating it, but for me, the more I understand it helps me better make sense of it. So much love Siara
Love to see you so excited over fun food Friday. Sounds like a great way to complete the week and have some downtime. Your ability to talk out your doubts and anxiety is huge and shows so much forward progress. Well done Fi!!
Hey Candice! Aww thankyou so much! It was really good, really fun! Thankyou so much, there are so many little things I've noticed as progress recently and that feels... really really really lovely. Tight hugs being sent your way! xxx
Hi Fi 💜,so lovely to watch your 'fun food Friday ' video.Congratulations on all of your increases..wow! It's inspiring to see you enjoy your new foods.I am a rule maker too,so I don't feel so alone when I heard you explain how you manage food challenges. It's fantastic to see you smile so much,and to share the excitement of your upcoming trip & return to University. So incredibly proud of you Fi; sending love & support 💖🐾
Hey Catherine! Aww thankyou! It's not been easy, but so worth it. I'm glad it made some sort of sense! Thankyou my lovely, I re-start tomorrow!!! Excited, a little nervous but mostly excited! So much love xxx
Hi Fi! You took the words out of my mouth! Being in doubt with ourselves definitely causes guilt and anxiety. eating larger amounts of something, or a dessert for example does cause us to feel in doubt. you are doing great, and you continue to be a huge inspiration. feeling cold all the time can get quite uncomfortable. im cold all the time, and winters are the worst! Im so proud of you,and look forward to seeing you all the time! Love,loren
Hey Loren! Aww bless you, thankyou so much :') Doubt I'm learning, is very powerful. But once I recognised it, I've been able to face it much more successfully. Ah going back into winter, I am welcoming the cooler weather! I love wrapping up in big jumpers :') Lot's of love Loren xxx
I just found your channel not even a week ago and watched so many of your videos. The validation I have felt along the way is indescribable. You have such a way with words and expressing your very relatable thoughts. I really appreciate you putting yourself out there. I almost never comment on videos but this one I needed to say that. Because I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way. You’ve come so far and I know it’s not an easy journey. You’ve made a difference. Thank you. I wish nothing but the best for you. Let’s keep moving mountains, Fi!
Aww hello my love! Thankyou for being here and your support :') I'm so glad they can help you in any way, honestly that means more to me than I can explain. Thankyou so much for your kind comment, it really has made me smile :') xxx
You go glen coco!! (Hope you have seen mean girls) This was an incredible day to watch, thank you for letting us be part of it. The days when you aren’t ok, that is also ok 🥰
Fi you are rocking recovery, girl! Pizza was a fear food for me as well. But I try to challenge it regularly! It’s great to see the real you coming back. You have an incredible personality! Much love
Aww thankyou so much Allie! It can be scary... but also delicious! And it'll only become more manageable the more we face is, so face it we shall! So much love
I’m so glad to hear that I’m not the only one who struggles with colour and flavour rules . I think I’m going to start doing a fun food Friday so I can break out of the eating disorder a little more and try new things . Thank you for sharing this has been really helpful. You can do this and I can too , just one breath at a time 💗
Hey Sarah! It can be so difficult, I find those rules almost harder because there is just no meaning behind them and they seem invisible but can take up so much headspace. Let me know how fun food friday goes! It fills my heart with joy when I hear others doing these things too :') So much love
@@Finding_Fi Yes these rules in particular are really frustrating and can sometimes cause the most panic for me . I tried a new dessert and protein bar on Friday and they both went okay ! Lots of love 💕
The excitement on your face now whenever you are talking about food that you like or challenges that you have overcome is amazing to watch. You should be so proud of yourself with how far you have come already! 💚
@@Finding_Fi It’s wonderful that you can feel the shift. I was in a similar place around 6 years ago and something just switched in my head one day and thankfully hasn’t switched back yet. Feeling stronger and less tired became a new focus and it is such an amazing feeling whenever you notice it in yourself! You are smashing it! 💚 You have had me on a wild goose chase up here in Scotland for some of your bars! Haha where on earth can I buy them? The biscoff chocolate cups from todays video looked incredible!!!! 🤤
Well done! So lovely to see a genuine happy smile on your face at the end. It’s all really coming together. You are working so hard and consistently. I can tell your mindset is changing too.
This whole video made me smile so much. So lovely to see you more relaxed, chatty, motivated, funny and EXCITED by food!! Fun food Friday sounds like such a helpful thing to do!!! I love how you felt so proud of yourself for managing this challenge despite the struggles you've had with the latest increases in your meal plan 💪❤️ Glad you managed to figure out what thoughts were making it feel more difficult . Having insight and understanding is a key part of recovery (I think )!! It sounds like you had great reasons for introducing the meal plan changes. Going back to Uni, going on holiday, having longer walks, as you say.... Also why put off recovery? It's a good idea to change the meal plan before going through all of those added external factors. Definitely a good way to reduce overwhelm by everything changing at once. Thank you for answering the questions you did and talking about the ASD rules and how they impact your Ed and how you tackle this by creating a new healthy rule instead 🙌❤️💪🌈 I really hope that you have an amazing holiday. You and your family totally deserve it ❤️ Sooo lovely to see you sharing the pizza and split pot with your dad. That's how life should be. This video has spurred me on so much as was in a bit of a slump but this has cheered me up and reignited that desire to push myself forwards again and not remain stuck. Thanks Fi, we will get there 💪💪💪🌈🌈🌈❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜 keep going, keep breaking the rules and keep smiling 😊x
Hello my love! Aww I always love your comments :') You're so right, I do feel a shift in attitude in how I approach food and food challenges! Insight doesn't cure anything, but it does give you the understanding to be able to try to change how you react to things. Those were my thoughts exactly... why postpone recovery? Why put off the inevitable? Thankyou so much for being so kind and supportive, as ever. It really does mean so much to me xxxxxxxxx
I am so proud! You’re glowing😍 No matter how hard my day is, when i watch your video you give me so many reasons to just keep going and to keep taking it step by step. Thank you so much❤️
Aww thankyou so much my love! I'm sorry to hear you had a hard day. Sending gentle hugs your way, and I'm so glad that this video helped in any way :') xxx
I had my assessment with the eating disorders team this morning i hope i can do even just half as well as youve doing.Your such a inspiration to watch. Thank you. X
What a joyful video! And no wonder, pizza is truly a food of joy! I personally love a pizza with pineapple or mushrooms, but pepperoni is a classic that never fails! So happy for you, hope to see many other pizzas in future videos (and now I want to have one!).
Aww thankyou so much my love! Pizza really is, I forgot how good it was! Argh I can't do pineapple, but I do love mushrooms! I hope you managed to get your pizza too :') xxx
I was smiling through this whole video !! 😁 You did so good Fi! Fun food Friday is a great idea ! That ✨ sparkle in your eyes says it all ! ❤️ Much love !
I don’t have autism but I also struggle with the “rules” often as I have OCD. I struggle with orthorexic thinking so I often have rules around certain foods I can or can’t have on certain days. They’re hard to break!
It can be so challenging! I've struggle with 'rules' my whole life, sometimes, as I said, they're okay, but some can be very time consuming and controlling. It takes time, but I know with consistency they will become more manageable. I hope you are okay my love, sending gentle hugs your way xxx
That pizza 🍕 yummy not had ones in ages !! Think I know what’s for tea tonight 😃 I’ve been following your journey for a while Fi !! So proud of you xxx
Fighting anorexia is like walking into a burning house. Just keep going en you will get out of it. Stay strong you are doing great. Greetings from Holland.
What an amazing day for you!! Wow, I am smiling SO much here 😀 I eat those chocolate waffle things. I have 2 at once, I peel them both open, eat the slice of chocolate, then roll them up together to make one plump waffle 😁 And you didn't apologise once!!!! So, so, SO proud of how you're getting on xxx
Morgaine!!! Thankyou so much :') Ah that sounds amazing!!! I can't remember having a chocolate waffle in my time, but something I will look into!!! So much love
u are doing amazing, you are such an inspiration for everyone, so proud of you💞, btw where did u buy the heart shaped bowl of the minute 1:42? or someone who knows where can i find it
So good to see you looking and sounding so bubbly and full of life! Forgive me if this is triggering in any way (I'm not experienced in autism or EDs so find it hard to know) but I wonder if you would care to comment a bit more about how some of the changes you're experiencing that are objectively good - e.g. Your hair growing back so well - make you feel. Do they worry you at all or add to noise in your head, or are you instead able to just see them positively? Thank you as always for your insights
Hey Elisa! They make me feel good to be honest. It feels like my hard work paying off! They were things I became very self-conscious of when I was really struggling and have been huge motivators in getting well again. So yes, I actually feel good about them! xxx
Thank you for giving us a small insight into what Autism is like for you. I can understand the bit about the calorie rule, because I had/still have rules myself but saying you create opposite rules is actually helpful to me and I'm going to try it for myself. Also grateful you mentioned the fact your body temperature is now running alot higher all of the time. I've recently developed this issue (got a fan on now!) But I've only read about night sweats inregards to temp increase due to your metabolism in ED recovery. I actually thought I might be ill or maybe my hormones were kicking back in, didnt cross my mind it could be due to my body functioning better. I dont know about others but my temp used to run so low, I'd get readings as low as 32.4 (on 3 different thermometers) these temps used to make me feel so ill.
Hey Paula! It can be so tricky (calorie rules), but I think I have found that way to challenge it. It seems to work too! Argh it can be so tricky when your body temp soars! Especially when used to being cold. I know it'll settle in time though. Also, going into winter I hope will help! Gosh 32.4 is low! I hope you have a big blanket when it is that low! Sending (warm) hugs your way xxx
First came the blatant Rule Breaking, now we have Going Rogue Fun Food Friday and you’re giggling and smiling about it. Wow! She’s really doing this! And then comes the “Good Food Wiggle.” Good Grief! What kind of mischief will she get into next!?!
Absolutely LOVE this!!! ❤️ Really enjoyed hearing about your rules and how you overcome them, you explained that so well, it's great to get more of an insight into your world. Your whole vibe in this video was so happy and positive, love hearing the excitement in your voice and you so deserve the happiness and all of the joy 😍 This was such a pleasure to watch because you're so much more confident and you seem to be sparkling which you absolutely deserve!! You absolutely smashed those rules and your food day looked amazing, I'd 100% enjoy that as a day. So glad you enjoyed your pizza, would love to see more fun food Fridays! Do you think pineapple belongs on pizza? 😉😂 Personally I do! Xx
Aww Chloe! Thankyou so much my love! I'm so glad it made sense, I was worried I wasn't making much sense at all :D It was suchhh a good food day, it really was! Haha NO! I'm actually allergic to pineapple, so wouldn't have it any way. But no way should it be on pizza! But each to their own :p xxx
Thank you for sharing how you think around it ♥️ I’m wondering if you could explain the difference (for you) between the rules that you explain are part of your autism, and rules that would pertain to OCD, for instance? Curious as I’m navigating my own neurodivergence ☺️ very amazed at your progress and your courage, keep up the good work!
Thankyou so much Noemi. That is a good question, still something I am trying to work out. I always think if a rule doesn't really have a motivation behind it (i.e. I just always do it that way), it is the autism. If I'm doing something because of something, usually to relieve anxiety, it is more related to compulsions or the ED. I hope this helps lovely! Thankyou for being so kind
@@Finding_Fi sorry that I had missed your answer, and thank you for taking the time ♥️ your explanation makes sense, definitely interesting points. Sending you hugs and strength!!
Where are your fork and knife from that you used at dinner?!! I have been wanting to ask for some for Christmas (mainly a fork and spoon). Any link or website suggestions?
@@Finding_Fi Also, I meant to comment that you are doing so so so great!! So many new changes and challenges and I feel you girl. I recently made some last week (even though I was soooooo scared. Like so so scared) and I just forced them. A few tears and anger and feeling like it's not fair, etc. (I just want to feel strong again, but doing the work to get there is uhhh, both physically but also mentally of course when the ed thoughts pop up. So while yes I DO want changes, change also scares the crap outta me! So it's like a mix. lol). So with some of the changes I made last week, I am like WOW Fi is doing amazing! She is so strong. And I myself am going about recovery alone this time...no more my parents doing FBT (we tried... did it for years actually. And 2 years ago my parents went FULL FORCE. They were so so motivated to get me FULLY well once and for all. They did EVERYTHING, from implementing so many rules, 'life stops until you eat', no missing any meals or snacks, all foods must be eaten, no talk about food, no wifi, no food shows or magazines, strict daily routine for meals and snacks like in hospital, no questions about what is in the meal or food, not allowed in the kitchen EVER (we even stopped eating at our table... We moved to in the family room and watched shows lol). If they didn't see me eat something then it was as if I didn't eat it and would have to eat it again, ex. couldn't have my snack out with friends. Of course I COULD have something out with friends, but it would be on top of my original meal or snack and wouldn't replace anything else I would have that day. But so much happened during that time and things got bad relationship wise and well... it didn't turn out. Even though my parents said they were not going to stop until I was well again, they were so so strong about this. It made me so mad. But now it's me. On my own. Of course my parents are somewhat there (my dad more than my mom, which is strange. But she is the one that had to let go as it was too much for her) for support and help if I go to them. I know what they were doing to get me well, aka all the things they added to my meals and snacks to make them calorie dense, so I have all the knowledge. I just have to do it myself... Which is both freeing, what I finally wanted. But scary, because I have to push myself. (Which I do! and it does surprise me haha). Anyways!! All that to say, you are a true fighter!! Keep going because the future you want is coming. xx Also, is your full name Fiona or something similar? Or is Fi just a fun nickname or your full name? Sorry I am sort of new here lol.
@@Finding_Fi Oh and I LOVE the saying 'if not now when?' Like its so so true!!! We can keep waiting and planning out the perfect time and all. But why? Why not just do things NOW. We have this one life to live. Life doesn't stop for us. Today will go by. So while yes life isn't a race, it's also not something that will wait. So let's DO life now! Let's get over our fears so we can fully live now! What will really be different in 20 years? If anything it will just be even harder to challenge the food or behavior. So like my dad keeps saying 'Just do it!'. Like it's a job. It basically is. A daily job. Let's get well, strong and free again! no more waiting or putting it off. If you want something now, ALLOW yourself to eat it. There is no such things as too much food. Impossible! ALL food is allowed and in any amount! (Ofc I mean having ENOUGH too haha).
@@eb9436 Hey lovely, I'm so glad to hear you're managing those changes. I know it can be scary but it'll be worth it long term! I'm glad that style of FBT worked for you! We tried it, it was a disaster for us. I disagree with a lot of it, especially the life stops til you eat, because it just doesn't. It caused far too much friction and was awful on our relationship. But we've found a new way of working together now, we are still doing FBT but with a different style (I forget the acronym for it... something like SS something something something :D). It's not easy doing it by yourself, but also an important step. I think the most important thing about that step is learning you can still ask for and get support when you need it! I'm really glad to hear you're finding a way forward though, it'll always be different for everyone! Haha yeah my full name is Fiona! :) xxx
Hello Fi! You may remember me from past comments. I have a sister that has been newly diagnosed with high-functioning autism. (No worries if you don’t remember though. You have lots of fans! 😉) I have a question about your autism. For a reason we’re not yet sure about, my little sister who is 11 tends to have meltdowns, not only when we do something that trigger her, but also when she is bored and/or when we are just sitting in a room being quiet. She seems to have to be constantly entertained and once one thing finishes, we have to quickly get her occupied with something else. But if we wait too long, when we do suggest she do something else, she refuses and just sits there doing nothing, getting more and more into a meltdown until we do one little thing and then she flips into a meltdown. An example would be after lunch when we’re done eating but still sitting at the table. If we don’t jump to the next thing immediately, she gets into the state of a meltdown and refuses anything we suggest that she do and then she sits there doing nothing and spirals into a meltdown. It just has me very confused because I’ve heard of people with autism getting overwhelmed by noise or things happening, but I’ve never heard anything about people melting down when they’re bored or when it’s quiet. Does that happen to you? Do you know why being quiet and doing nothing triggers her so much? Is it the transition from eating lunch to doing something else? Or something completely different? Should we try to occupy her or will that overwhelm her causing a meltdown? Should we just stay quiet? Answer whenever you get the chance, or don’t answer at all if you don’t want to. I know autism is quite versatile and this may be hard for you to answer. Or even wait to answer this question in your separate video about autism. Either way is totally ok. But if you are able to answer, I would be extremely grateful. My sister‘s meltdowns really scare me and I just want to be able to understand her and to be able to do things that will help her maybe not feel so overwhelmed and meltdown. Amazing job today! Fun Food Friday it’s an absolutely wonderful idea! I’m so excited to see what else you challenge on upcoming Fridays. And though I do not completely understand, since I am not autistic, all the rules and routines you have and have to challenge just in case it might be part of the eating disorder, I do understand from the point of view of a person who experiences it in another person. My sister has a lot of rules that seem so small to me, though she doesn’t have an eating disorder, but I need to remember that that is just how she is. It’s autism and those rules and routines keep her from feeling overwhelmed. So thank you for explaining that and helping me see the point of view from her. I will try to work with her with her routines instead of being annoyed with them. If you say is true, if you are really making meal increases and challenging yourself, i’m so proud of you! I completely agree with you about not waiting until you have to make a meal increase. Why do it later when you can do it now! Later and now could be a difference between getting better quicker or drawing it out longer. and we all want you to get better as quick as possible! No one said this would be an easy road, but the thing that matters is what you’re doing right now. And increasing is the right thing to do right now even though it may be hard. I know it’s easier said than done, so cry as much as you want! Let it out! Butt from experience, because I am recovering from anorexia right now too, things will get better. And the harder it is, the more you know that this is the right thing to do. The first time is always the hardest. Even the second third and fourth time! But the more you challenge it, the easier it will get and the closer you are to having full food freedom. Reminder: You are Worthy. You are Beautiful. You are Loved! 💗
Hello lovely Nora! I do indeed remember you my love! I hope things have been as okay as possible. It can be tricky to know, as I'm sure you know, everyone with autism will experience it differently. It could be due to the change in activity, or perhaps something that is visually not obvious is causing the distress? Possibly 'typical' things like changes in mood, which can be more difficult to manage, or maybe she finds certain times of the day more chalelnging? I'm sorry I don't have the answer. I don't know her so I couldn't say, nor do I know your relationship, but maybe if you feel able to ask her, that might help? Thankyou so much my love. Those were exactly my thoughts. There is no point dragging this out, I know where I want to be and what I want my life to look like... so it's time to make it happen! Not easy in the short term, but an innvestment in long-term Fi! Thankyou for being so kind, as ever! xxx
@@Finding_Fi Thank you so much for answering! I really really appreciate the time you took to think about my question and for answering the best you can. Your answer is perfect! I understand that autism is different in everyone and I really appreciate your examples such as mood changes, the transition to a different activity, or just certain times of the day being more challenging. I will try to ask her and see if she knows how she feels. Thank you so much! 💗
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I bet you can’t guess what I’m gonna say lol. . . I’m so very proud of you!!! That was a lot of challenging in a day and you took it in stride. It is always just so nice to hear joy in your voice. ❤❤❤ as if you don’t already know. . . You are doing amazing!!!!
Andrea :') thankyou so much my lovely! It was a challlenging day... but a successful one! Thankyou, always, for just being you
Your whole attitude is soooo different, Fi! You’re radiating positivity, and I’m SO happy and proud of you.
Aww Maddie! Thankyou for seeing it, I feel it too. So much love
You are doing amazing, Fi!!! You seem so much happier and you have this amazing new outlook, you’re glowing! You should be so proud of yourself! And remember, we all have off days, recovery is not linear. That’s completely normal 💜
Thankyou so much for your kind words :')
I feel that too, slow and steady is paying off. Thankyou so much for that reminder. I think it can be so easy to focus on what I still want to achieve and wanting it to be 'perfect' that I forget to see how far I've come, or even just let myself ride those waves of good and less good days! Thankyou
I'm getting caught up on everything I've missed being insanely busy, but I'm in TEARS over your victories. I'm so happy for you. Your confidence, your smile, you laughter is AMAZING to hear. I'm just absolutely proud of you, this is EVERYTHING you've been fighting for!
Aww hey Courtney!!! Thankyou my love :') I love this because it actually made me stop and think back to where I was when I did this one... a lot has changed since even then :')
Thankyou for being so kind as ever Courtney
This made me so incredibly happy. Your soul is shining and it’s beautiful. You’re a warrior, so strong, such an inspiration!
Aww Brandi Thankyou so much lovely 🥹 this really made me smile! ❤️
this is the happiest video of yours yet. i've never seen you so happy, and i've never felt so happy too after watching it. go fi, you deserve all the happies. keep fighting for them. you're a champion. x
Aww thankyou Olivia! I've noticed a shift recently :')
So much love xxx
Can we just appreciate the picture on the wall. It's so beautiful and you can almost get lost in it and feel like you're actually there (well I can)!! Lol
It’s so good to see you are slowly but surely gaining in confidence . I totally understand you’re reasons for finding this increase more difficult but well done you for never giving in and for keep powering through. You have this fi and I’m sure you must feel proud of how far you have come and that you are now able to,go back to university. Is you’re university close by so you can stay at home rather than on campus? I struggled with anorexia through college and was difficult living away from home whilst battling anorexia. I wish you welll and know you will do great either way. I believe you will meet your goal of taking the dogs for you’re 1 hour walk. That’s awesome. A very big well done fi xx
Hey Joanna!
Thankyou so much for your comment :)
Certainly so much has changed, and I think I am feeling more proud of myself for it!
I am staying at home for uni, it's really close to my house and allows my support to remain the same whilst going through all that uni is, happens!
Thankyou for being so kin, it means a lot to me. Sending so much love your way xxx
It’s not just in your eyes that there’s sparkle, so much more energy and light in your voice 💖🥰👏x
Aww thankyou for seeing it Susannah, I feel it too :') xxx
Smiling watching this as I see you smile. The positivity and happiness that comes from your voice is so lovely and spreads so much joy. 💜
Agree 💯💯💯
Aww Amy! Thankyou
Bless you. It’s amazing how far you’ve come and how accepting you are. You have so much insight which is great and thank you for talking about rules and also the bloating. I know it’s tough going and when I’ve said I feel bloated it’s always ignored but you made me see it’s a real thing and it’s part of the process. Keep going the mischief and happiness in your voice is beautiful to hear xx
Oh Helen :')
Thankyou so much for this kind comment. Bloating is tricky and uncomfortable, but I just keep on reminding myself that it is temporary.
Thankyou
This video made MY day!! We are all SO FREAKING PROUD of you Fi!! And yes, the part about the rules that you make to navigate the world around you DOES make sense because many people on the spectrum struggle with ambiguity, or things that are abstract. So making "rules" probably helps things seem more "concrete" for you. If I'm wrong, please tell me. Lol. But that's the way I interpreted it.
Sheena! Thankyou so much for this comment.
I’m so glad it made sense, I was worried I didn’t explain it very well. It is just my way of navigating the world, and what you say makes sense too. I struggle with ambiguity, so rules help me to make sense of things. ThankYOU! Xxx
Thank you for sharing about rules!! I also have rules for every. single. thing. in my life and it can be so paralyzing. But you said it so well, not all rules are necessarily bad or need to be changed, they are just the way we navigate the world. But your strategy for "upruling" the eating disorders rules is so helpful!!
Oh Fi I’ve been watching your videos for so long, I took an internet break for a bit and I’ve come back and you are just flourishing and I am so so so proud of you. You are so strong even when it’s so hard and watching you glow in this video just makes my heart swell with overwhelming joy. Keeping fighting on Fi, seeing you happy is my favorite ❤
Oh Allison
You are an amazing Person!! So very happy that You're figuring out what works best for Your recovery. It's great to see You so happy!!
Aww thankyou so much Beth! I feel like I am getting there, slowly but surely :) xxx
This Italian once more wholeheartedly approves. Pizza, chocolate, fun food days, we are definitely related. Best part of this video was not just that you conquered but that proud smile on you is SO great to see. You were practically giddy talking about your accomplishment and deservedly so. Hi-five from across the big pond for you, my pasta sis. Brava Fi, brava. All the hugs.
Aww Kena, I'm so glad!
Haha oh bless you, you're so right. It makes a difference from earlier in the year when I was trying them. Big steps forwards. It always helps knowing I have my pasta sis across the pond sending high fives :') So much love Kena xxx
i am actually mindblown! smiled throughout the whole video!! fi, seeing you laugh in such a genuine and honest way just fills my heart with joy. you are doing so incredibly well & i don't think i've ever felt so proud of someone i do not even know in person?! you are an absolute gem, we are all rooting for you!!
Aww lotte! Thankyou so much :’) this made me smile so much!!! Thankyou for being there and believing in me, because it really does mean an awful lot ❤️❤️❤️
This has given me the biggest smile! Proud of you doesn’t even seem strong enough! You are the bravest girl, and all of us are just cheering you on!
Aww thankyou so much my love! Your support means a lot to me
Great work Fi, you are gaining confidence every week!
Aww thankyou so much my love :')
Was so satisfying to be the 500th like 🤣. So pleased for you and the journey you're enabling. You've absolutely got this. You deserve to have this!
Haha oh I love moments like that! Thankyou so much Chelsey
You are strong! Beautiful! Keep going lady!!! You are doing so great!! 🥰🥰🥰
Aww thankyou so much Margarita! :') xxx
The joy on your face is beautiful 😍
You also described your ASD very well and I love how you are reprogramming your brain with new rules!!! You even did a tiny happy dance as you enjoyed your pizza!!! So overjoyed for you!!!!
Aww Allison :') thankyou so much my love! Ah I suppose I am, re-programmming underway!
Haha I wondered who would notice that :p
Sending hugs my love
XXX Keep on fighting! You ' re inspiring and I watched your Start ! I tried choclate in my Porridge, too! I saw it you doing and it looks delicious and I trief: and woooww! I do it nie every day thanks 💕
Hey Lou! Aww thankyou so much :') I'm so glad you're also enjoying chocolate porridge, it is the best!
Sending hugs to you
I am so proud of you! I've been watching your videos for a few months now and seeing the life come back into your eyes makes me so happy! I cried happy tears for you today watching this one! You are amazing! I actually use some of your motivational quotes with my children. When my daughter(shes only 3) is struggling with a task I tell her she can do hard things and that has helped her so much! She's started saying it to others! Thanks for sharing your journey.
Hey Jordanne! What a lovely lovely lovely comment, thankyou so much :') I feel the sparkle coming back... and it feels truly wonderful.
I'm so glad the quotes can help your children too, that means so much to me :') Thankyou, for being you
Fun food Friday, I love it ! Well done Fi, you've met a lot of challenges head on in this video and it's great to see you so happy 😊💕
Hey Nicola! Ah it was such a good day, challlenging but good! Thankyou so much Nicola ❤️❤️❤️
I too do the rules with everything and I also naturally like to do the same thing over and over again. What I am starting to learn is that my food is the area I have to go against the rules because that's the bit that's nearly killed me. X
Yes! I’m going to keep reminding myself of this :)
It can be difficult, but when used in a positive way can also really help me! That is a really good insight to have! xxx
Your voice sounds so much stronger since I started following your journey earlier this year. Love seeing your updates.
Aww JEan! Thankyou so much. I am feeling stronger too, it feels good. Thankyou for being so kind
Literally SO proud!!!! Also I can say, as a person who doesn't have an Ed, this is really inspirational ❤️ if you can fight an awful dieases, I can fight my battles and appreciate my healty and body even more. Keep going Fi 💪
Aww Jasmina! Thankyou so much my love
FI YOU’RE DOING IT YOU’RE DOING SO WELL!!!!! WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!!! GOOOOO FI!!!!
Aww thankyou so much Sarah!!! :') xxx
I haven’t seen you videos in soo long. It’s great to see you! ❤️. Proud of you kiddo!
Aww thankyou so much Caron! :') xxx
I hadn't seen you in a while, but the difference in the amount of life you have now is amazing. You have personality and I feel good watching you and feeling your energy. The last time I saw you on tik tok, I could tell that you were a lovely person, but you seemed like a shadow of yourself. I wish you the absolute best
Aww my love! Thankyou so much. Certainly a lot has changed! Most of all though, I am feeling stronger which feels lovely to be able to say. Thankyou for your kind words
So happy to see you smile and being happy.
Aww thankyou :') xxx
I love these updates. Your eyes and smile just keep getting brighter. Enjoy your Holiday. I hope you get some time at the ocean
Aww thankyou so much Tina! xxx
I'm so incredibly proud of you! You've worked so hard and it shows. There's light in your eyes and your hair is so beautiful! I'm so happy for you xx
Aww thankyou so much Ali :') xxx
I’m sorry things have been rough. But it pleases me to see you so happy.you totally give me strength when I have rough days. Your hair is beautiful.High five and hugs. You are a rockstar.
Aww thankyou so much Jackie! High fives and hugs back to you
WELL DONE FI💜🦙 Watching your face listening to what you're saying was just sheer joy today. When your smile goes all the way to your eyes it's transforming it is amazing! You have grown so much, The information that you give regarding the anorexia recovery that you’re going through as well as how in affects your autism and how your autism affects anorexia is brilliant. I have two beautiful grandchildren that are on the spectrum both in very different places but when you said that about the rules touched my heart in a way I cannot explain thank you. Fi you’re a BRIGHT BLESSINGS. Sending much love and care your way and again thank you for sharing your story in your life and your struggles and your tramps I’m so happy I’m along for the ride
Aww my love, thankyou :') certainly a lot has changed, which feels really lovely to be able to say.
I'm really glad it made sense, I was a little worried it wasn't making sense at all!
Thankyou so much for such a kind comment :') xxx
I love to see you smile! To see you talk about food this way made me giggle. You are amazing ❤️
Aww thankyou so much lovely! Haha I was very excited on this day! :D xxx
I was watching this and my thoughts were "do we have the same brain" my autism has so many rules which don't make sense to anyone else but me and watching this made me feel less alone. Proud of you!!
Ah I'm so glad it made you feel less alone! It can be so tricky navigating it, but for me, the more I understand it helps me better make sense of it. So much love Siara
You look so happy, beautiful smile! Keep being brave ❤
I'm getting there :') thankyou so much Danielle
I can see you enjoying that pizza! Bless you for pushing forward and breaking these rules. The joy you have is overflowing! Bless you dear one.
Aww thankyou lovely! It really was so tasty!!!
So much love xxx
Love to see you so excited over fun food Friday. Sounds like a great way to complete the week and have some downtime. Your ability to talk out your doubts and anxiety is huge and shows so much forward progress. Well done Fi!!
Hey Candice! Aww thankyou so much! It was really good, really fun!
Thankyou so much, there are so many little things I've noticed as progress recently and that feels... really really really lovely.
Tight hugs being sent your way! xxx
Fi, that is AMAZING!!! I’m
So so proud of you for breaking many of your food rules AND managing the pizza & Cadbury split pot xx
Hey Rosie! Aww Thankyou so much my love! They were absolutely delicious 😋 xxx
Finding it hard is normal. Having anxiety is normal Keep pushing thru 💕
It is, sometimes I need to remind myself of that! Thankyou
Hi Fi 💜,so lovely to watch your 'fun food Friday ' video.Congratulations on all of your increases..wow!
It's inspiring to see you enjoy your new foods.I am a rule maker too,so I don't feel so alone when I heard you explain how you manage food challenges. It's fantastic to see you smile so much,and to share the excitement of your upcoming trip & return to University. So incredibly proud of you Fi; sending love & support 💖🐾
Hey Catherine! Aww thankyou! It's not been easy, but so worth it.
I'm glad it made some sort of sense!
Thankyou my lovely, I re-start tomorrow!!! Excited, a little nervous but mostly excited! So much love xxx
Hi Fi! You took the words out of my mouth! Being in doubt with ourselves definitely causes guilt and anxiety. eating larger amounts of something, or a dessert for example does cause us to feel in doubt. you are doing great, and you continue to be a huge inspiration. feeling cold all the time can get quite uncomfortable. im cold all the time, and winters are the worst! Im so proud of you,and look forward to seeing you all the time! Love,loren
Hey Loren! Aww bless you, thankyou so much :')
Doubt I'm learning, is very powerful. But once I recognised it, I've been able to face it much more successfully.
Ah going back into winter, I am welcoming the cooler weather! I love wrapping up in big jumpers :')
Lot's of love Loren xxx
Your explanation of autism and the clash with the ED part of your brain is fascinating and also really well explained! Well done Fi x
Charlotte, thankyou so much for this! I'm so glad it made some kind of sense. Lots of love! xxx
the happiness in your voice is so AwEsOmE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aww thankyou so much :') xxx
I just found your channel not even a week ago and watched so many of your videos. The validation I have felt along the way is indescribable. You have such a way with words and expressing your very relatable thoughts. I really appreciate you putting yourself out there. I almost never comment on videos but this one I needed to say that. Because I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way. You’ve come so far and I know it’s not an easy journey. You’ve made a difference. Thank you. I wish nothing but the best for you. Let’s keep moving mountains, Fi!
Aww hello my love! Thankyou for being here and your support :')
I'm so glad they can help you in any way, honestly that means more to me than I can explain.
Thankyou so much for your kind comment, it really has made me smile :')
xxx
You go glen coco!! (Hope you have seen mean girls)
This was an incredible day to watch, thank you for letting us be part of it.
The days when you aren’t ok, that is also ok 🥰
Haha yes I've seen mean girls (what a film!) :D
Thankyou so much Rebecca
Fi you are rocking recovery, girl! Pizza was a fear food for me as well. But I try to challenge it regularly! It’s great to see the real you coming back. You have an incredible personality! Much love
Aww thankyou so much Allie! It can be scary... but also delicious! And it'll only become more manageable the more we face is, so face it we shall! So much love
I’m so glad to hear that I’m not the only one who struggles with colour and flavour rules . I think I’m going to start doing a fun food Friday so I can break out of the eating disorder a little more and try new things . Thank you for sharing this has been really helpful. You can do this and I can too , just one breath at a time 💗
Hey Sarah!
It can be so difficult, I find those rules almost harder because there is just no meaning behind them and they seem invisible but can take up so much headspace.
Let me know how fun food friday goes! It fills my heart with joy when I hear others doing these things too :')
So much love
@@Finding_Fi Yes these rules in particular are really frustrating and can sometimes cause the most panic for me . I tried a new dessert and protein bar on Friday and they both went okay ! Lots of love 💕
The excitement on your face now whenever you are talking about food that you like or challenges that you have overcome is amazing to watch. You should be so proud of yourself with how far you have come already! 💚
Aww Louise, thankyou! I've noticed a shift recently too. Thankyou so much :') xxx
@@Finding_Fi It’s wonderful that you can feel the shift. I was in a similar place around 6 years ago and something just switched in my head one day and thankfully hasn’t switched back yet. Feeling stronger and less tired became a new focus and it is such an amazing feeling whenever you notice it in yourself! You are smashing it! 💚 You have had me on a wild goose chase up here in Scotland for some of your bars! Haha where on earth can I buy them? The biscoff chocolate cups from todays video looked incredible!!!! 🤤
Well done! So lovely to see a genuine happy smile on your face at the end. It’s all really coming together. You are working so hard and consistently. I can tell your mindset is changing too.
Thankyou so much Rebecca
This whole video made me smile so much. So lovely to see you more relaxed, chatty, motivated, funny and EXCITED by food!! Fun food Friday sounds like such a helpful thing to do!!! I love how you felt so proud of yourself for managing this challenge despite the struggles you've had with the latest increases in your meal plan 💪❤️
Glad you managed to figure out what thoughts were making it feel more difficult . Having insight and understanding is a key part of recovery (I think )!! It sounds like you had great reasons for introducing the meal plan changes. Going back to Uni, going on holiday, having longer walks, as you say.... Also why put off recovery? It's a good idea to change the meal plan before going through all of those added external factors. Definitely a good way to reduce overwhelm by everything changing at once.
Thank you for answering the questions you did and talking about the ASD rules and how they impact your Ed and how you tackle this by creating a new healthy rule instead 🙌❤️💪🌈
I really hope that you have an amazing holiday. You and your family totally deserve it ❤️
Sooo lovely to see you sharing the pizza and split pot with your dad. That's how life should be. This video has spurred me on so much as was in a bit of a slump but this has cheered me up and reignited that desire to push myself forwards again and not remain stuck. Thanks Fi, we will get there 💪💪💪🌈🌈🌈❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜 keep going, keep breaking the rules and keep smiling 😊x
Hello my love! Aww I always love your comments :')
You're so right, I do feel a shift in attitude in how I approach food and food challenges!
Insight doesn't cure anything, but it does give you the understanding to be able to try to change how you react to things.
Those were my thoughts exactly... why postpone recovery? Why put off the inevitable?
Thankyou so much for being so kind and supportive, as ever. It really does mean so much to me xxxxxxxxx
The going above x calories is so relateable!!
:') xxx
I am so proud! You’re glowing😍 No matter how hard my day is, when i watch your video you give me so many reasons to just keep going and to keep taking it step by step. Thank you so much❤️
Aww thankyou so much my love!
I'm sorry to hear you had a hard day. Sending gentle hugs your way, and I'm so glad that this video helped in any way :') xxx
It's so lovely to see you so positive and happy 😊 x
Ah Louise! Thankyou so much
You are glowing xxx
Thankyou Jo Jo! xxx
So proud and amazed what youre doing, truly an inspiration 💝🌟👏
Aww thankyou so much lovely! xxx
I had my assessment with the eating disorders team this morning i hope i can do even just half as well as youve doing.Your such a inspiration to watch. Thank you. X
You can, we all can - it’s just a lot of hard work. You got this ☺️
@@natashaj4113 thanks 🙂
I really hope it went okay my love?
Thankyou so much! xxx
What a joyful video! And no wonder, pizza is truly a food of joy! I personally love a pizza with pineapple or mushrooms, but pepperoni is a classic that never fails! So happy for you, hope to see many other pizzas in future videos (and now I want to have one!).
Aww thankyou so much my love! Pizza really is, I forgot how good it was! Argh I can't do pineapple, but I do love mushrooms!
I hope you managed to get your pizza too :') xxx
I’m excited for you too!! That’s amazing 🎉❤
Aww thankyou lovely! xxx
23:05 made me smile so much! x
So much love Sophie :') xxx
Great video!! Can’t wait to see your vacation videos! Your doing so great 🥰❤️🇨🇦
Aww thankyou Mary! The next one should be out very shortly :') xxx
you are doing so well!!!
Thankyou lovely! xxx
Have a wonderful holiday you have done so well
Thankyou Suzy xxx
Your so welcome xxxx
YOU LOOK AMAZING!!
Aww thankyou! xxx
I was smiling through this whole video !! 😁 You did so good Fi! Fun food Friday is a great idea ! That ✨ sparkle in your eyes says it all ! ❤️ Much love !
Aww Lisa! Thankyou so much :') haha It was so much... fun!!! Sending tight hugs your way xxx
I don’t have autism but I also struggle with the “rules” often as I have OCD. I struggle with orthorexic thinking so I often have rules around certain foods I can or can’t have on certain days. They’re hard to break!
It can be so challenging! I've struggle with 'rules' my whole life, sometimes, as I said, they're okay, but some can be very time consuming and controlling. It takes time, but I know with consistency they will become more manageable. I hope you are okay my love, sending gentle hugs your way xxx
That pizza 🍕 yummy not had ones in ages !! Think I know what’s for tea tonight 😃 I’ve been following your journey for a while Fi !! So proud of you xxx
Sooo tasty!!! YAY! Did you get one?!!
Thankyou so much Annette! xxx
@@Finding_Fi Yes we did 👏
Flipping marvellous xxxx💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
Thankyou Kate! xxx
Thank you for all your explanation about the rules.
I'm glad it made some sort of sense :)
Oh my goodness I remember those crepes! I used to eat them exactly the same too
Ahh they're so tasty! The best way to eat them :p
@@Finding_Fi I agree
You are doing amazing! 😃💪🏻 xx
Aww thankyou Samantha! xxx
I’m so happy for you!!
Aww thankyou so much Leslie! xxx
The happiness just shines ☀️
Aww thankyou Kate! :') xxx
Fighting anorexia is like walking into a burning house. Just keep going en you will get out of it. Stay strong you are doing great. Greetings from Holland.
It really is. It is, it really is. Thankyou so much
You are abously amazing. 😌 so very proud of you 🙃
Aww thankyou so much Beth! xxx
What an amazing day for you!! Wow, I am smiling SO much here 😀
I eat those chocolate waffle things. I have 2 at once, I peel them both open, eat the slice of chocolate, then roll them up together to make one plump waffle 😁
And you didn't apologise once!!!! So, so, SO proud of how you're getting on xxx
Morgaine!!! Thankyou so much :')
Ah that sounds amazing!!! I can't remember having a chocolate waffle in my time, but something I will look into!!!
So much love
u are doing amazing, you are such an inspiration for everyone, so proud of you💞, btw where did u buy the heart shaped bowl of the minute 1:42? or someone who knows where can i find it
Hey lovely! I got mine from B&M :) xxx
You've got this!!!
thankyou Christy! xxx
I'm so soo proud of you❤❤❤
Aww thankyou Hannah! xxx
Those Co-op Pizza's are so good 💙 so glad you enjoyed it 🍕
They really are! Thankyou love
Yas finally I have a word to describe how it feels otherrr than guilty, my nurse is gonna love you 🙇🙇
Aww I'm so glad for you! Sending lots of love your way
So good to see you looking and sounding so bubbly and full of life! Forgive me if this is triggering in any way (I'm not experienced in autism or EDs so find it hard to know) but I wonder if you would care to comment a bit more about how some of the changes you're experiencing that are objectively good - e.g. Your hair growing back so well - make you feel. Do they worry you at all or add to noise in your head, or are you instead able to just see them positively? Thank you as always for your insights
I think if you’re worried about being triggering it’s prob best to not ask - just in case 🙂
Hey Elisa!
They make me feel good to be honest. It feels like my hard work paying off! They were things I became very self-conscious of when I was really struggling and have been huge motivators in getting well again. So yes, I actually feel good about them! xxx
Thankyou for caring Natasha
Thank you for giving us a small insight into what Autism is like for you. I can understand the bit about the calorie rule, because I had/still have rules myself but saying you create opposite rules is actually helpful to me and I'm going to try it for myself.
Also grateful you mentioned the fact your body temperature is now running alot higher all of the time. I've recently developed this issue (got a fan on now!) But I've only read about night sweats inregards to temp increase due to your metabolism in ED recovery.
I actually thought I might be ill or maybe my hormones were kicking back in, didnt cross my mind it could be due to my body functioning better.
I dont know about others but my temp used to run so low, I'd get readings as low as 32.4 (on 3 different thermometers) these temps used to make me feel so ill.
Hey Paula!
It can be so tricky (calorie rules), but I think I have found that way to challenge it. It seems to work too!
Argh it can be so tricky when your body temp soars! Especially when used to being cold. I know it'll settle in time though. Also, going into winter I hope will help!
Gosh 32.4 is low! I hope you have a big blanket when it is that low! Sending (warm) hugs your way xxx
Hope your ok😍
First came the blatant Rule Breaking, now we have Going Rogue Fun Food Friday and you’re giggling and smiling about it. Wow! She’s really doing this! And then comes the “Good Food Wiggle.” Good Grief! What kind of mischief will she get into next!?!
🤣😅🥰🤗🤭 such a cute comment ❤️
This comment :') Ah I love it. Thankyou :') Screenshotted this!!! xxx
I agree!!! xxx
Absolutely LOVE this!!! ❤️ Really enjoyed hearing about your rules and how you overcome them, you explained that so well, it's great to get more of an insight into your world. Your whole vibe in this video was so happy and positive, love hearing the excitement in your voice and you so deserve the happiness and all of the joy 😍 This was such a pleasure to watch because you're so much more confident and you seem to be sparkling which you absolutely deserve!! You absolutely smashed those rules and your food day looked amazing, I'd 100% enjoy that as a day. So glad you enjoyed your pizza, would love to see more fun food Fridays! Do you think pineapple belongs on pizza? 😉😂 Personally I do! Xx
Aww Chloe! Thankyou so much my love! I'm so glad it made sense, I was worried I wasn't making much sense at all :D
It was suchhh a good food day, it really was!
Haha NO! I'm actually allergic to pineapple, so wouldn't have it any way. But no way should it be on pizza! But each to their own :p xxx
You are doing amazing!! I’ve got A question, how do You voor with eating alone? I find it really hard to have the exactly right amounts then
Aww thankyou!
It can be tricky, but we're bridging the gap. I facetime my parents to help :)
Thank you for sharing how you think around it ♥️ I’m wondering if you could explain the difference (for you) between the rules that you explain are part of your autism, and rules that would pertain to OCD, for instance? Curious as I’m navigating my own neurodivergence ☺️ very amazed at your progress and your courage, keep up the good work!
Thankyou so much Noemi. That is a good question, still something I am trying to work out. I always think if a rule doesn't really have a motivation behind it (i.e. I just always do it that way), it is the autism. If I'm doing something because of something, usually to relieve anxiety, it is more related to compulsions or the ED. I hope this helps lovely!
Thankyou for being so kind
@@Finding_Fi sorry that I had missed your answer, and thank you for taking the time ♥️ your explanation makes sense, definitely interesting points. Sending you hugs and strength!!
Now i want a double pepperoni pizza 😆
Hahaha so happy for you! 💕
It was SO tasty!!! Thankyou love
I can't eat fruit at all because of the 'full' feeling and feeling pretty sick.
It can be difficult, it really can. Sending gentle hugs your way xxx
Where are your fork and knife from that you used at dinner?!! I have been wanting to ask for some for Christmas (mainly a fork and spoon). Any link or website suggestions?
They're from Esty, from Lana's basket (she is so lovely!) xxx
@@Finding_Fi Oh alright! Yes I have checked out Etsy hehe :). Did you order any custom design ones or are these all ones that she created?
Thanks!
@@Finding_Fi Also, I meant to comment that you are doing so so so great!! So many new changes and challenges and I feel you girl. I recently made some last week (even though I was soooooo scared. Like so so scared) and I just forced them. A few tears and anger and feeling like it's not fair, etc. (I just want to feel strong again, but doing the work to get there is uhhh, both physically but also mentally of course when the ed thoughts pop up. So while yes I DO want changes, change also scares the crap outta me! So it's like a mix. lol). So with some of the changes I made last week, I am like WOW Fi is doing amazing! She is so strong. And I myself am going about recovery alone this time...no more my parents doing FBT (we tried... did it for years actually. And 2 years ago my parents went FULL FORCE. They were so so motivated to get me FULLY well once and for all. They did EVERYTHING, from implementing so many rules, 'life stops until you eat', no missing any meals or snacks, all foods must be eaten, no talk about food, no wifi, no food shows or magazines, strict daily routine for meals and snacks like in hospital, no questions about what is in the meal or food, not allowed in the kitchen EVER (we even stopped eating at our table... We moved to in the family room and watched shows lol). If they didn't see me eat something then it was as if I didn't eat it and would have to eat it again, ex. couldn't have my snack out with friends. Of course I COULD have something out with friends, but it would be on top of my original meal or snack and wouldn't replace anything else I would have that day. But so much happened during that time and things got bad relationship wise and well... it didn't turn out. Even though my parents said they were not going to stop until I was well again, they were so so strong about this. It made me so mad.
But now it's me. On my own. Of course my parents are somewhat there (my dad more than my mom, which is strange. But she is the one that had to let go as it was too much for her) for support and help if I go to them. I know what they were doing to get me well, aka all the things they added to my meals and snacks to make them calorie dense, so I have all the knowledge. I just have to do it myself... Which is both freeing, what I finally wanted. But scary, because I have to push myself. (Which I do! and it does surprise me haha). Anyways!! All that to say, you are a true fighter!! Keep going because the future you want is coming. xx
Also, is your full name Fiona or something similar? Or is Fi just a fun nickname or your full name? Sorry I am sort of new here lol.
@@Finding_Fi Oh and I LOVE the saying 'if not now when?' Like its so so true!!! We can keep waiting and planning out the perfect time and all. But why? Why not just do things NOW. We have this one life to live. Life doesn't stop for us. Today will go by. So while yes life isn't a race, it's also not something that will wait. So let's DO life now! Let's get over our fears so we can fully live now! What will really be different in 20 years? If anything it will just be even harder to challenge the food or behavior. So like my dad keeps saying 'Just do it!'. Like it's a job. It basically is. A daily job. Let's get well, strong and free again! no more waiting or putting it off. If you want something now, ALLOW yourself to eat it. There is no such things as too much food. Impossible! ALL food is allowed and in any amount! (Ofc I mean having ENOUGH too haha).
@@eb9436 Hey lovely, I'm so glad to hear you're managing those changes. I know it can be scary but it'll be worth it long term!
I'm glad that style of FBT worked for you! We tried it, it was a disaster for us. I disagree with a lot of it, especially the life stops til you eat, because it just doesn't. It caused far too much friction and was awful on our relationship. But we've found a new way of working together now, we are still doing FBT but with a different style (I forget the acronym for it... something like SS something something something :D).
It's not easy doing it by yourself, but also an important step. I think the most important thing about that step is learning you can still ask for and get support when you need it!
I'm really glad to hear you're finding a way forward though, it'll always be different for everyone!
Haha yeah my full name is Fiona! :) xxx
Haha I'm also a nightmare for not wearing my glasses 🤓🙈🤣
Haha don't worry at all my love! xxx
I’m doing a cheerleader dance! Go Fiona!
Aww thankyou Autumn! xxx
Tenaciously Fi
:') xxx
Wauw!! Super👏❤
Thankyou Carin! xxx
Hello Fi!
You may remember me from past comments. I have a sister that has been newly diagnosed with high-functioning autism. (No worries if you don’t remember though. You have lots of fans! 😉) I have a question about your autism.
For a reason we’re not yet sure about, my little sister who is 11 tends to have meltdowns, not only when we do something that trigger her, but also when she is bored and/or when we are just sitting in a room being quiet. She seems to have to be constantly entertained and once one thing finishes, we have to quickly get her occupied with something else. But if we wait too long, when we do suggest she do something else, she refuses and just sits there doing nothing, getting more and more into a meltdown until we do one little thing and then she flips into a meltdown. An example would be after lunch when we’re done eating but still sitting at the table. If we don’t jump to the next thing immediately, she gets into the state of a meltdown and refuses anything we suggest that she do and then she sits there doing nothing and spirals into a meltdown. It just has me very confused because I’ve heard of people with autism getting overwhelmed by noise or things happening, but I’ve never heard anything about people melting down when they’re bored or when it’s quiet.
Does that happen to you? Do you know why being quiet and doing nothing triggers her so much? Is it the transition from eating lunch to doing something else? Or something completely different? Should we try to occupy her or will that overwhelm her causing a meltdown? Should we just stay quiet?
Answer whenever you get the chance, or don’t answer at all if you don’t want to. I know autism is quite versatile and this may be hard for you to answer. Or even wait to answer this question in your separate video about autism. Either way is totally ok. But if you are able to answer, I would be extremely grateful. My sister‘s meltdowns really scare me and I just want to be able to understand her and to be able to do things that will help her maybe not feel so overwhelmed and meltdown.
Amazing job today! Fun Food Friday it’s an absolutely wonderful idea! I’m so excited to see what else you challenge on upcoming Fridays.
And though I do not completely understand, since I am not autistic, all the rules and routines you have and have to challenge just in case it might be part of the eating disorder, I do understand from the point of view of a person who experiences it in another person. My sister has a lot of rules that seem so small to me, though she doesn’t have an eating disorder, but I need to remember that that is just how she is. It’s autism and those rules and routines keep her from feeling overwhelmed. So thank you for explaining that and helping me see the point of view from her. I will try to work with her with her routines instead of being annoyed with them.
If you say is true, if you are really making meal increases and challenging yourself, i’m so proud of you! I completely agree with you about not waiting until you have to make a meal increase. Why do it later when you can do it now! Later and now could be a difference between getting better quicker or drawing it out longer. and we all want you to get better as quick as possible! No one said this would be an easy road, but the thing that matters is what you’re doing right now. And increasing is the right thing to do right now even though it may be hard. I know it’s easier said than done, so cry as much as you want! Let it out! Butt from experience, because I am recovering from anorexia right now too, things will get better. And the harder it is, the more you know that this is the right thing to do. The first time is always the hardest. Even the second third and fourth time! But the more you challenge it, the easier it will get and the closer you are to having full food freedom.
Reminder: You are Worthy. You are Beautiful. You are Loved! 💗
Hello lovely Nora!
I do indeed remember you my love! I hope things have been as okay as possible.
It can be tricky to know, as I'm sure you know, everyone with autism will experience it differently.
It could be due to the change in activity, or perhaps something that is visually not obvious is causing the distress? Possibly 'typical' things like changes in mood, which can be more difficult to manage, or maybe she finds certain times of the day more chalelnging?
I'm sorry I don't have the answer. I don't know her so I couldn't say, nor do I know your relationship, but maybe if you feel able to ask her, that might help?
Thankyou so much my love. Those were exactly my thoughts. There is no point dragging this out, I know where I want to be and what I want my life to look like... so it's time to make it happen! Not easy in the short term, but an innvestment in long-term Fi!
Thankyou for being so kind, as ever! xxx
@@Finding_Fi Thank you so much for answering! I really really appreciate the time you took to think about my question and for answering the best you can. Your answer is perfect! I understand that autism is different in everyone and I really appreciate your examples such as mood changes, the transition to a different activity, or just certain times of the day being more challenging. I will try to ask her and see if she knows how she feels. Thank you so much! 💗
I love pizza we make our own pizza so nice
So tasty!
In fact we have pizza dough made for this Friday as we started making homemade pizza during lockdown