@@ClxtchFlacko Shut the hell up!! It's not funny! These things are freaking serious! Take your cruel insults to yourself! How would you like it? These are terrible things to say..I can't someone would just joke like this..
I wish I wasn’t such a narcissist I wish I didn’t really kiss The mirror when I’m on my own Oh god I’m gonna die alone Adolescences didn’t make sense A little loss of innocence The ugliness of being a fool Ain’t youth meant to be beautiful? *God those lyrics get me... every damn time*
I remember when I felt suicidal and had depressive episodes, I listened to this. Memories (Update, June 2020- so my depression, it’s not like it went away, ever. I’m not gonna get into detail but I’m struggling, badly this year. Though I picked up new hobbies and got into fandoms, so at least I somehow keep myself alive. Times are currently hard- I hope everyone is well and safe.)
I used to listen to this song when i was falling into an ED. I was 155 pounds when i started my diet and 5’2. I looked in a mirror and i knew that i needed a change. So i started eating 1200 calories a day and exercising. Things were going well until the 4th month of dieting. At that point i was up to 130 pounds, i looked in the mirror and kept crying about how fat i was. I started eating less and less and exercising like crazy. I was listening to this song to motovate myself to keep loosing weight. I went to 125, 120, 115, 110 and i was super miserable. My family was telling me that i dont look healthy and that i need to enjoy life and eat whatever i want. The thing that got me out of it was when i went on vacation and started eating normal again. Now im up to 135 pounds, happy and enjoying my life! ❤️ edit: ita very unhealthy to diet like i did at my age, im 14 years old and trust me, if you want to loose weight just dont eat junk food and candy, exercise. I stopped having my period for 7 months, got it back when I was eating normal again. When you’re a teenager your body is still developing, so you need all the nutrients ❤️
Minix // thanks for sharing your story, although people may not realize it but many people need to hear this. You really are strong, I’m so proud of you. Being healthy is what matters
Desaree Bromberg // ED doesn’t always mean underweight, it can be a mental thing where you’re never happy with your weight. Although I can’t speak for their experience, they might’ve had a mindset to ultimately be underweight. I’ve heard that ED’s are different for everyone, and it’s not always by the numbers.
I remember being 13 singing this laughing at myself cuz i wasn't 16 yet... and its nuts cuz now I'm 16 and like, I relate to the song even more and ngl its kinda scary. Its like some of those songs that mention an age kind of put me on a disconnect, like, how can I relate if I'm not that old yet, but as the years pass faster, "the wasted youth" is hitting hard.
I know exactly how you feel. I’m 16 now too and it feels weird how much this song relates to me, when I was 13 I thought “wow I can’t wait until I’m 16 I’ll be so old and mature :)” but little did I know I’d actually attempt suicide multiple times when I was 15. Crazy huh
THIS!! like i was 13 and was like huh i know ppl who can relate but i don't really get it, i enjoy growing up. but i hadn't lost my innocence at that point, i wasn't really growing up. and now oh my god it hits different at 16
I'm almost 21, and felt the lyrics since the released date... yet I felt that before she drop the song, I always felt that, didn't live my childhood nor my teenage... just looked away from life and being miserable of the ppl around me and how they suffocate me and I can't run away to start *a life* a worth living life
Love this song so much because my sister just passed away. She loved your music. We played this one at her funeral. She loves your channel so much. I’m 10 now. She missed my 10th birthday but I still play this song in memory of her. RIP sis
So sorry about your loss. When I was about 11 (I'm 15 now) my sister had passed away and I listened to this song a lot to cope with the grief. May your sister rest in peace ❤
Nawww this is so sad xd But why passed you sister away?(you don't have to answer this question ,I just wanted to know why) [pls ignore my bad english :')]
while electra was just a character marina didn't make her out of thin air. She has said electra was like the condensed form of herself, her coquettishness, fears, greed, and love, so laden with superlatives that it was her antithesis. She still sang from her expereinces.
Ahh your music taste is always on point. Hope you had a wonderful day! Remember that even if today was a bad day tomorrow is always a brand new sheet of paper. You choose if your attitude is going to be good or bad❤️
this makes me think about my teenage years. i wanna live my teen years to the fullest but i dont want to regret anything. This songs really makes me think about my life.
this hits hard when your forced to grow up faster than usual and you end up missing out on normal child/teenage things so now you just sit here wondering what u did back then
Bro im 15 and i feel like i cant enjoy things like i used too like i get instrusive thoughs and health anxiety everyday, its awful when yu live in a house with narcissiST who arent capable of caring for others, other than themselves and the cops dont care, its likea repeating hell of not etting help andyou like go to school and everythings supposed to just be okay or something, like you get harrassed and abused and nobody can know its like a hell, i did try my best to enjoy it but now i feel like 15 is older than it actually is, atleast i realize it in time to stop it but now i have to like figure out how old 15 rlly is, i never read the comments down here but it helps alot. :) if only i culd stop worry an thinking about bad things and people and just enjoy living school just ended and im dragging myself through these past 4 years, the abuse if 6 or 7 yrs no but at least im older so now its died down than rather being a kid and having nacs pcik on you. Thanks alot for this its actually very helpful, reaized people view this song 2 different ways, i was just enjoying it but it can resonate in anotherway. Deep
A couple years ago, I was really obsessed with perfection and I hated everything about myself. I fell really badly into depression and I had to see therapists but, I've already had seven years of intensive therapy. I felt like giving up and I'd never be "perfect". I used to listen to this song on repeat when things got bad. But, now, a few years later, I'm healthier and I'm learning to get better and coping, and this song has a completely different meaning to me than it did before. If you're struggling and feel like giving up, please know it does get better. I know it's easier said than done but you're doing so well and it will be okay.
Same, I wanted to be perfect too. But that made me just see the bad in me and I never thought of how good, strong and pure I actually was. I never thought I could destroy myself like that, where I was just trying to "make me better". What a waste of youth, I could have been so different now...
I wanna be a bottle blonde I don't know why but I feel conned I wanna be an idle teen I wish I hadn't been so clean I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super, super suicidal The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive I wanna be a virgin pure A twenty-first century whore I want back my virginity So I can feel infinity I wanna drink until I ache I wanna make a big mistake I want blood, guts, and angel cake I'm gonna puke it anyway Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super, super suicidal The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive Come alive, I've come alive Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh I wish I wasn't such a narcissist I wish I didn't really kiss The mirror when I'm on my own Oh God, I'm gonna die alone Adolescence didn't make sense A little loss of innocence The ugliness of being a fool Ain't youth meant to be beautiful? Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super, super suicidal The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive Only to find, I've come alive Only to find, I've come alive All our lives (Feeling super, super, super) (Feeling super, super, super) (Feeling super, super, super) All our lives
The first time I paid attention to the lyrics of this song I started crying because it reminded of myself when I was a teenager. I feel that the best years of my life were wasted because I hated myself and couldn't think about anything else than killing myself. I wish I had understood - and people around me too - that teens are grown up kids and are still vulnerable. I wish those years had been different because I would have a way better mental health but at least now I know that I wasn't as a bad person as I thought I was. I didn't need to change to become someone who I was not.
i remember being 11 listening to this song, i wasn’t fairly popular, lived through the internet and wanted this. so badly had i wanted this. next thing you know it, i had become friends with the most popular femme clique in school. they treated me mainly as an accessory but that’s when my eating disorder started. it ended before it got too out of hand and for that i’m very lucky but everyday i had to act like someone i wasn’t and even when i was envied and got what i wanted i wasn’t happy. it’s been months since i destroyed my way out of that social monarchy and although i’m happy i got out of it i feel nostalgic and i cherish that part of my life so much.
This is what being depressed without reason feels like. When you have everything but you still cant be happy, then you feel like a bad person because others have it worse. So you convince yourself your faking it but it gets worse.
And people still make fun of slowed down music (not talking about this video but in general) but how can you not like it after hearing how beautiful this is
I've always loved this song, it's the second song I ever heard by Marina (the first one was "Lies", it's great too) and I was like 12 at that time and didn't understand the lyrics, english is not my first language so I still had to learn a lot. But years later this song became soo much more to me, I really relate to it in a way, struggling daily with mental illness and life, we all know it's not easy at times. For me, this song always made me feel like I'm supposed to be someone else, similar to what Marina is singing, it made me feel like wanting to go back in time and do things differently. As if I was supposed to do the opposite of what I actually did. I still love the song with all my heart today, especially because it helped me in my hard times. I am now in a much better place mentally but so glad I found this version, sounds amazing 💜 (sorry for my little story time lmao)
When I was seven, I was accelerated by a year in school, and another year when I was eight. This meant I was two years younger than all of my classmates, and although I could keep up academically, I couldn't cope socially. I was still a child, I loved horseplay and the others looked down on me for this. It was so hard to make friends because their taste was slightly more mature than mine. So I was 13 and all my peers were 15 or 16, and they'd listen to songs like this. So I decided to follow suit, in the hope of making any friends. My parents told me I was worshipping the devil by listening to these kinds of songs, especially this one. So I had no means to find common ground with my classmates, and my resentment towards my family grew and grew. I was so alone. Unfortunately, I don't have a good ending like most of these comments. Yes, I can listen to these songs now, but not without feeling any guilt or anger. My parents and I are cool, but I'd be lying if I said that I didn't think they went overboard. I still have trouble talking to my peers. I'm only 15 and they're all 17 or 18, and next year, I'm going to college. I'm terrified. Tldr: acceleration is not as cool as people think it is.
Once you are out of high school everyone forgets age is a thing. I'm 19 and at college, my closest friends are two 23 year olds, a 21 year old and a 27 year old. Maturity and age are completely different and both are overrated. I guarantee you some people dont even know you are 2 years younger.
I guess I know what you mean, but it was a different situation with me. I always wanted to be myself and do things my way. I don't mean that I wasn't cooperative but I felt like there was noone who understands me and is slightly like me. I guess I was somehow more mature than others because I had to face a lot of responsibility back then. But that destroyed me. Although I tried to stay true to myself and didn't really wanna do something with the others, because I really didn't like them and the way they are, what they did, how they talked, how they acted, deep inside me I hated being alone. I mean I want just one to talk to somehow, not even about deep stuff, just about my interests. In the end I can't blame them, they were just normal kids, but I was wrong there, I thought and worked differently. Slowly I went crazy and wasn't myself anymore especially when someone talked to me, because I thought noone would like me like that. I lost myself and now I see the others being better than me, more complete and confident, and I'm still searching for the lil great boy I used to be, I want to be me again, but I'm getting crazy as soon I'm around other people. And now, I don't know what will happen, I lost control.
This song reminds me a lot of Veronica from Heathers, personally, like how she always just wanted to fit in and go through her life unbothered, but (Spoiler warning, I guess, for anyone who hasn't seen the movie or musical) Getting involved with the Heathers and JD practically ruined her entire life. The "I wish I wasn't such a narcissict, I wish I didn't really kiss" line reminded me of her a LOT- lol.
tw pov of a young model: toxic. I walk with books on my head, a glittery dress, be perfect. perfect. I eat the cake, just to throw it up in the bathtub. perfect. they love you- for your body. perfect. "you have blond hair, what else could you ask for?" perfect. no one will know, I take the pill. perfect?
I love it when people do daycore versions of songs, especially Marina's because they're all a bit too high for me to reach at certain points of the song, and I want to train my voice to be lower since I'm trans FTM. Maybe that's a weird use of daycore songs, but I really appreciate this, and bonus points for including the lyrics in the description
I used to listen to this all the time when i went through a whole year in a very bad mental state and suicidal even though I was only like ten. no one noticed what a bad mental state i was in, and tbh i think that made it worse, although it was partially my fault as i never said anything. it's been a few years, and im doing much better, and im glad i stayed around
Hey, i don't know you, But i just want to let you know that you're an amazing person and that you shouldn't give up 🥰💖 I am counting on you to become a great and happy person! i love you 💕
I wish I wasn't such a narcissist 😩, I wish I didn't really kiss💋, the mirror when I'm on my own😓, oh God I'm gonna die alone 😫😓 Adolescence didn't make sense 😫 A little loss of innocence, the ugly years of being a full 😓 ain't you meant to be beautiful ?
Im obviously a bit late but since this is my favorite song and this was uploaded on my birthday, i will come back here every year on my birthday for as long as i can remember :)
*cries in everyone near my age is so much more pretty and they say it’s cause they wear makeup but i’m always too scared to try cause i’ll mess it up like everything else and give up*
just found out i failed 2 subjects i gave my best and still failed... im in middle of class just wanting to not fail the year,and that my mom understands that i gave my best.. i just want a hug..
you dont have to read this or whatever i just want to share my story: so basically i relate to this song so much, im a blonde with blue eyes, tall and skinny whose popular in school, so people naturally thought of me to be "perfect". i suffered from an eating disorder (thankfully ive overcome it now) as i was scared to loose my position in school. now that i look back i wasnt even overweight, i was just pressed to be a certain way. just know that your perfect the way you are and beauty is on the inside! dont feel pressured to be a certain way and if you need someone to talk to about eating disorders then feel free to ask me your all perfect and dont let anything change that
so proud of you! i want you to know you are not how you look like you are the things you love the book, the quotes, the flowers, the emotions you feel the memories and dreams you have. and here is a quote that i love; "you are not the heaviness sitting inside you. you are not the battlefield where bodies fall, and you are not the sound of cannons breaking the sky open. yo are what happens after the war. the surviving the healing the rebuilding."... - Y.Z, for the bad nights
I’ll be 20 in September. When I was little, I used to think all teenagers did was go shopping and have parties with their friends, I thought high school was just gossip and crushing on people who wouldn’t notice you. Instead I spent most school days crying in the school toilets, trying to make myself throw up, and if that didn’t work, I’d scratch my arms until they were raw. Then on weekends I’d stay in my room, hiding because I didn’t know what kind of mood my dad was in.
To me, this songs is of course about the American teen dream, but I also feel like it’s about religious/childhood trauma in which the singer is now struggling in teenager years
i don’t know if it’s just me that listens to this because i’m a teen but i have never experienced it though . i just sit there depressed in my room while everyone else is getting boyfriends , going to parties , hanging fun with friends and i’ve never even had my first kiss
This is really melancholic. I love it slowed down like this!
Hi pickle satan- *cough* monaca
Mysterium Puppeteer we're two
same here
@@shsl5584 MAKI
oh look a -the game that's -*-mega-*- gay- danganronpa fan!
The fact that she's saying the line "feeling super suicidal" In a happy voice reminds me of myself being hysterical some nights
Nerdy
@@ClxtchFlacko don't be rude
@@ClxtchFlacko Shut the hell up!! It's not funny! These things are freaking serious! Take your cruel insults to yourself! How would you like it? These are terrible things to say..I can't someone would just joke like this..
@@ClxtchFlacko?
“I wanna stay inside all day, i want the world to go away”
*me everyday*
one of the biggest moods ever
Thats me too lol im a antisocial wierdo lol
Mood t47
@@evlysian7670 You must be quirky and special, definitely not like the other girls.
Me in a nutshell lol
I wish I wasn’t such a narcissist
I wish I didn’t really kiss
The mirror when I’m on my own
Oh god I’m gonna die alone
Adolescences didn’t make sense
A little loss of innocence
The ugliness of being a fool
Ain’t youth meant to be beautiful?
*God those lyrics get me... every damn time*
:/
I start crying at “Ain’t youth meant to be beautiful?” every time ;(
They definitely hit different slowed too...
Time stamp?
@@lovesick5230 2:51
I remember when I felt suicidal and had depressive episodes, I listened to this.
Memories
(Update, June 2020- so my depression, it’s not like it went away, ever. I’m not gonna get into detail but I’m struggling, badly this year. Though I picked up new hobbies and got into fandoms, so at least I somehow keep myself alive.
Times are currently hard- I hope everyone is well and safe.)
Šhïvâ
🥺❤️
i’m sorry love.
same man... old times
Šhïvâ can highly relate
Still Going through that. I wanna end it all sometimes.... Everytime im awake its more mistake full sins and mistakes i make.
"I want blood, guts and angel cake. Im gonna puke it anyway" that hit different
ik
Ikr
Same sometimes idk how i hold in chocolate cake with more chocolate
Yeah :(
Mia gang
ahh yes, yet another song added my 'red' playlist
Periodt
What’s that? sorry I’m dumb lmao
This song slowed down gives me more purple vibes lol
Alexadorbs
noo you’re not dumb! i have a playlist on my channel that have mostly slowed reverbs with red thumbnails. (:
Iliana i do have a playlist with purple too haha
My favorite song
My favorite artist
Slowed down
The day before my birthday
By my favorite channel that slows things down
*My life is complete*
ik i'm 4 months late but happy very very belated birthday!
5 months later. Happy bday tho! :DD
Evanthegamergirl ayyyeee thank you :D
8 months late but happy bday
a whole ass year late but happy bday!!!
I used to listen to this song when i was falling into an ED. I was 155 pounds when i started my diet and 5’2. I looked in a mirror and i knew that i needed a change. So i started eating 1200 calories a day and exercising. Things were going well until the 4th month of dieting. At that point i was up to 130 pounds, i looked in the mirror and kept crying about how fat i was. I started eating less and less and exercising like crazy. I was listening to this song to motovate myself to keep loosing weight. I went to 125, 120, 115, 110 and i was super miserable. My family was telling me that i dont look healthy and that i need to enjoy life and eat whatever i want. The thing that got me out of it was when i went on vacation and started eating normal again. Now im up to 135 pounds, happy and enjoying my life! ❤️ edit: ita very unhealthy to diet like i did at my age, im 14 years old and trust me, if you want to loose weight just dont eat junk food and candy, exercise. I stopped having my period for 7 months, got it back when I was eating normal again. When you’re a teenager your body is still developing, so you need all the nutrients ❤️
Minix // thanks for sharing your story, although people may not realize it but many people need to hear this. You really are strong, I’m so proud of you. Being healthy is what matters
alexa Thank you so much
110 and 5”2 isnt underweight
Desaree Bromberg // ED doesn’t always mean underweight, it can be a mental thing where you’re never happy with your weight. Although I can’t speak for their experience, they might’ve had a mindset to ultimately be underweight. I’ve heard that ED’s are different for everyone, and it’s not always by the numbers.
Minix thanks for sharing your story as a person with a Ed trying to recover it hard trying not to relapse how did you do it?
I remember being 13 singing this laughing at myself cuz i wasn't 16 yet... and its nuts cuz now I'm 16 and like, I relate to the song even more and ngl its kinda scary. Its like some of those songs that mention an age kind of put me on a disconnect, like, how can I relate if I'm not that old yet, but as the years pass faster, "the wasted youth" is hitting hard.
I know exactly how you feel. I’m 16 now too and it feels weird how much this song relates to me, when I was 13 I thought “wow I can’t wait until I’m 16 I’ll be so old and mature :)” but little did I know I’d actually attempt suicide multiple times when I was 15. Crazy huh
SAME I WAS SINGING ABOUT DEPRESSION when i was 13 and complaining about my shitty life BUT DAMN did I KNEW 3 years later it will get worse
THIS!! like i was 13 and was like huh i know ppl who can relate but i don't really get it, i enjoy growing up. but i hadn't lost my innocence at that point, i wasn't really growing up. and now oh my god it hits different at 16
@@stelskii im so glad youre alive
I'm almost 21, and felt the lyrics since the released date... yet I felt that before she drop the song, I always felt that, didn't live my childhood nor my teenage... just looked away from life and being miserable of the ppl around me and how they suffocate me and I can't run away to start *a life* a worth living life
I listen to cope with PTSD and when i was homeless at 13.
The Pastel Plane hope things are better. Sending my support ❤️❤️
@@eveyaspaas3667 thank you
like the other person said i hope you have things easier and that there's some light in your life.
how you were homless at 13?
@@basia7149 it's personal..
I have been listening to Marina before tik tok, and I am proud of it
Same
The 1st song I heard of her was how to be a heart breaker. I listened to it like a religion
Same
same 😔👍
Same
marina , lana del rey and melanie martinez make me feel so safe and their music is just so meaningful
Yess mel don't even get me started 😭
Love this song so much because my sister just passed away. She loved your music. We played this one at her funeral. She loves your channel so much. I’m 10 now. She missed my 10th birthday but I still play this song in memory of her.
RIP sis
I’m very sorry for your loss❤️❤️
Keira Fogwell thank you so much ♥️
So sorry about your loss. When I was about 11 (I'm 15 now) my sister had passed away and I listened to this song a lot to cope with the grief. May your sister rest in peace ❤
Nawww this is so sad xd
But why passed you sister away?(you don't have to answer this question ,I just wanted to know why)
[pls ignore my bad english :')]
Fake!!!!
ahh yes, going straight to my 'songs to cry alone to' playlist :))
Imagine being able to cry
@@lillyvogel1456 you probably can cry you just wanna be cool
@@vioulet_x ah I wish that is the case I haven't cried in about two years but sure let's just keep saying that I want to be "cool"
guys please don’t have eating disorders over this song, it’s a character that marina made. it’s not coming from her heart.
while electra was just a character marina didn't make her out of thin air. She has said electra was like the condensed form of herself, her coquettishness, fears, greed, and love, so laden with superlatives that it was her antithesis. She still sang from her expereinces.
She’s singing about trying to cope with an eating disorder. That’s why she struggles with getting better and says “I’m just going to puke it away.”
No one’s gonna give themself an eating disorder over a song💀
Omg I’m gonna cry I haven’t heard this song in years, I listened to it when I was in my mid anorexia stage, good song, bad times.
Ahh your music taste is always on point. Hope you had a wonderful day! Remember that even if today was a bad day tomorrow is always a brand new sheet of paper. You choose if your attitude is going to be good or bad❤️
this makes me think about my teenage years. i wanna live my teen years to the fullest but i dont want to regret anything. This songs really makes me think about my life.
Ikr :t you wanna do everything but dont wanna make mistakes
this hits hard when your forced to grow up faster than usual and you end up missing out on normal child/teenage things so now you just sit here wondering what u did back then
literally me
Bro im 15 and i feel like i cant enjoy things like i used too like i get instrusive thoughs and health anxiety everyday, its awful when yu live in a house with narcissiST who arent capable of caring for others, other than themselves and the cops dont care, its likea repeating hell of not etting help andyou like go to school and everythings supposed to just be okay or something, like you get harrassed and abused and nobody can know its like a hell, i did try my best to enjoy it but now i feel like 15 is older than it actually is, atleast i realize it in time to stop it but now i have to like figure out how old 15 rlly is, i never read the comments down here but it helps alot. :) if only i culd stop worry an thinking about bad things and people and just enjoy living school just ended and im dragging myself through these past 4 years, the abuse if 6 or 7 yrs no but at least im older so now its died down than rather being a kid and having nacs pcik on you. Thanks alot for this its actually very helpful, reaized people view this song 2 different ways, i was just enjoying it but it can resonate in anotherway. Deep
PLEASE do it with “Summer bummer” 🇧🇷🇧🇷
Lorena Sousa I was literally gonna listen to that right now but I wanted to listen to this first
summer boomer
@@jillie_boe_legweak2487 LMAO
Happily my parents dont understand English...🥀
Same 😊 where are you from?
@@getjinxed9392 Russia, but we live in Austria
@@ily-mh4cd I'm from Austria too!
@@miloo6206 Boah geil
@@ily-mh4cd Haha, ja stimmt. Du bist wienerin, oder? 😂
Listening to this on headphones, full volume.. hits different
a lot of depression and mental disorders in the comments 😳
what did you expect?
Zaul Bot true lmao
Because this song is about depression and bulimia lol
A couple years ago, I was really obsessed with perfection and I hated everything about myself. I fell really badly into depression and I had to see therapists but, I've already had seven years of intensive therapy. I felt like giving up and I'd never be "perfect". I used to listen to this song on repeat when things got bad. But, now, a few years later, I'm healthier and I'm learning to get better and coping, and this song has a completely different meaning to me than it did before.
If you're struggling and feel like giving up, please know it does get better. I know it's easier said than done but you're doing so well and it will be okay.
Same, I wanted to be perfect too. But that made me just see the bad in me and I never thought of how good, strong and pure I actually was. I never thought I could destroy myself like that, where I was just trying to "make me better". What a waste of youth, I could have been so different now...
I wish this was on Spotify. Really beautiful 👌🏻
it is on spotify
edgy watermelon This version?😱 please share it to me!
@@cam06av oh you mean the slowed version ahh:( thren im sorry youre right its not there
I wanna be a bottle blonde
I don't know why but I feel conned
I wanna be an idle teen
I wish I hadn't been so clean
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake
I wanna be a real fake
Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle
Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible
Feeling super, super, super suicidal
The wasted years, the wasted youth
The pretty lies, the ugly truth
And the day has come where I have died
Only to find, I've come alive
I wanna be a virgin pure
A twenty-first century whore
I want back my virginity
So I can feel infinity
I wanna drink until I ache
I wanna make a big mistake
I want blood, guts, and angel cake
I'm gonna puke it anyway
Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle
Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible
Feeling super, super, super suicidal
The wasted years, the wasted youth
The pretty lies, the ugly truth
And the day has come where I have died
Only to find, I've come alive
Come alive, I've come alive
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
I wish I wasn't such a narcissist
I wish I didn't really kiss
The mirror when I'm on my own
Oh God, I'm gonna die alone
Adolescence didn't make sense
A little loss of innocence
The ugliness of being a fool
Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?
Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle
Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible
Feeling super, super, super suicidal
The wasted years, the wasted youth
The pretty lies, the ugly truth
And the day has come where I have died
Only to find, I've come alive
Only to find, I've come alive
Only to find, I've come alive
All our lives
(Feeling super, super, super)
(Feeling super, super, super)
(Feeling super, super, super)
All our lives
I wanna be a bottle
same
I am a BrEaDed!!!!!
Same
*slorp*
It’s 2 am and you know what? Me too. Let’s all be bottles
I was 12 or 13 when I was listening to this and let me tell you, this song never gets old. ☺♫♥
I vibed to this in a crowded room but managed to block everything out and appriciated this song by myself.
The first time I paid attention to the lyrics of this song I started crying because it reminded of myself when I was a teenager. I feel that the best years of my life were wasted because I hated myself and couldn't think about anything else than killing myself. I wish I had understood - and people around me too - that teens are grown up kids and are still vulnerable.
I wish those years had been different because I would have a way better mental health but at least now I know that I wasn't as a bad person as I thought I was. I didn't need to change to become someone who I was not.
i remember being 11 listening to this song, i wasn’t fairly popular, lived through the internet and wanted this. so badly had i wanted this. next thing you know it, i had become friends with the most popular femme clique in school. they treated me mainly as an accessory but that’s when my eating disorder started. it ended before it got too out of hand and for that i’m very lucky but everyday i had to act like someone i wasn’t and even when i was envied and got what i wanted i wasn’t happy. it’s been months since i destroyed my way out of that social monarchy and although i’m happy i got out of it i feel nostalgic and i cherish that part of my life so much.
*"I'm gonna puke it anyway"*
LIKE U DIDN'T HAVE TO ATTACK ME LIKE THAT
I hope you‘re ok🥺
@@n9019 ty heehee
Are u ok now?🥺
@@yourereadingthisinyourhead7184 Tyyy,I'm still bulimic but I'm kinda fine now ty
Aw, hope you're okay, I have emetophobia so I don't really know how you feel. But I suffered with somewhat anorexia. I hope you're doing well. ^^
Satans girlfriend be like 💀
girlfriends* ;)
I am offended
aurora nightz ;)
jokes on you, i’m not 💀
And boyfriends
This is what being depressed without reason feels like. When you have everything but you still cant be happy, then you feel like a bad person because others have it worse. So you convince yourself your faking it but it gets worse.
And people still make fun of slowed down music (not talking about this video but in general) but how can you not like it after hearing how beautiful this is
Omg you're here hii! :D
Heathers in a nutshell
ruclips.net/video/YuCux-Dtk-0/видео.html 👀👀👀
The wasted youth is the thing that got me
My first word that I said when I first heard this was YASSSSS MY GIRL MARINA
I remember listening to this when I was bullied so bad in school and I would cry.
I've always loved this song, it's the second song I ever heard by Marina (the first one was "Lies", it's great too) and I was like 12 at that time and didn't understand the lyrics, english is not my first language so I still had to learn a lot. But years later this song became soo much more to me, I really relate to it in a way, struggling daily with mental illness and life, we all know it's not easy at times. For me, this song always made me feel like I'm supposed to be someone else, similar to what Marina is singing, it made me feel like wanting to go back in time and do things differently. As if I was supposed to do the opposite of what I actually did. I still love the song with all my heart today, especially because it helped me in my hard times. I am now in a much better place mentally but so glad I found this version, sounds amazing 💜 (sorry for my little story time lmao)
when she squeezed the rose, i felt that
I feel emotionally connected to this song
When I was seven, I was accelerated by a year in school, and another year when I was eight. This meant I was two years younger than all of my classmates, and although I could keep up academically, I couldn't cope socially. I was still a child, I loved horseplay and the others looked down on me for this. It was so hard to make friends because their taste was slightly more mature than mine. So I was 13 and all my peers were 15 or 16, and they'd listen to songs like this. So I decided to follow suit, in the hope of making any friends. My parents told me I was worshipping the devil by listening to these kinds of songs, especially this one. So I had no means to find common ground with my classmates, and my resentment towards my family grew and grew. I was so alone.
Unfortunately, I don't have a good ending like most of these comments. Yes, I can listen to these songs now, but not without feeling any guilt or anger. My parents and I are cool, but I'd be lying if I said that I didn't think they went overboard. I still have trouble talking to my peers. I'm only 15 and they're all 17 or 18, and next year, I'm going to college. I'm terrified.
Tldr: acceleration is not as cool as people think it is.
Once you are out of high school everyone forgets age is a thing. I'm 19 and at college, my closest friends are two 23 year olds, a 21 year old and a 27 year old.
Maturity and age are completely different and both are overrated. I guarantee you some people dont even know you are 2 years younger.
I didn't skip a grade, but holy cow this is so relatable it hit me like a truck. None of my friends like my childish games. I feel so alone.
I guess I know what you mean, but it was a different situation with me. I always wanted to be myself and do things my way. I don't mean that I wasn't cooperative but I felt like there was noone who understands me and is slightly like me. I guess I was somehow more mature than others because I had to face a lot of responsibility back then. But that destroyed me. Although I tried to stay true to myself and didn't really wanna do something with the others, because I really didn't like them and the way they are, what they did, how they talked, how they acted, deep inside me I hated being alone. I mean I want just one to talk to somehow, not even about deep stuff, just about my interests. In the end I can't blame them, they were just normal kids, but I was wrong there, I thought and worked differently. Slowly I went crazy and wasn't myself anymore especially when someone talked to me, because I thought noone would like me like that. I lost myself and now I see the others being better than me, more complete and confident, and I'm still searching for the lil great boy I used to be, I want to be me again, but I'm getting crazy as soon I'm around other people. And now, I don't know what will happen, I lost control.
Interesting to know. I always wanted to skip a grade when I was younger. Wished I was some child genius or something.
Even after a while now I still listen to this knowing it’s gonna trigger me :/
felt
this video was very important to me at a horrible time in my life and i feel like shit again and I'm so glad its still after these years
thanks for making this both aesthetic, and more depressing.
do lolita by lana del rey 🍒💄👠
That would be 👌👌👌
YAS KWEEN
i'm sorry
I'm not crying because of how much I relate to this song, you are
Man this song makes me cry everytime
This brings so much memories...
you really know how to treat a lady. Thanks for posting this
This song reminds me a lot of Veronica from Heathers, personally, like how she always just wanted to fit in and go through her life unbothered, but (Spoiler warning, I guess, for anyone who hasn't seen the movie or musical)
Getting involved with the Heathers and JD practically ruined her entire life. The "I wish I wasn't such a narcissict, I wish I didn't really kiss" line reminded me of her a LOT- lol.
YO SAME! there's literally a heathers animatic with this song
And here's the link for anyone who wants it:- ruclips.net/video/YuCux-Dtk-0/видео.html
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pov of a young model:
toxic.
I walk with books on my head, a glittery dress, be perfect.
perfect.
I eat the cake, just to throw it up in the bathtub.
perfect.
they love you- for your body.
perfect.
"you have blond hair, what else could you ask for?"
perfect.
no one will know, I take the pill.
perfect?
My ears have been blessed
Why doesn’t my blood look like cordial
well there goes my happiness
I've never thought this song can be sadder BUT it can. Always cry while listening to it
I love it when people do daycore versions of songs, especially Marina's because they're all a bit too high for me to reach at certain points of the song, and I want to train my voice to be lower since I'm trans FTM. Maybe that's a weird use of daycore songs, but I really appreciate this, and bonus points for including the lyrics in the description
This audio is so good! I appreciate you for making this, :)
This song is soo true, it Literally tells about teens everyday life and what we think about but still putting up a fake face
*This song has a very deep meaning on it. You can feel the emotions if this song. I hope the writer of this song is ok..*
she is, she's grown
The original made me cry a river. This made me cry an eighth ocean
I used to listen to this all the time when i went through a whole year in a very bad mental state and suicidal even though I was only like ten. no one noticed what a bad mental state i was in, and tbh i think that made it worse, although it was partially my fault as i never said anything. it's been a few years, and im doing much better, and im glad i stayed around
Stay strong
1:12 I always though this line said “only to find a girl who lied.” I don’t know how I heard that,
Does this mean something--
The line is actually " To only find I've come alive"
This has been my favorite song for way too long 😭
this song hits different with strict parents :(
FR
Yep. "The wasted years, the wasted youth".
I can't do anything because of them
Hey, i don't know you, But i just want to let you know that you're an amazing person and that you shouldn't give up 🥰💖 I am counting on you to become a great and happy person! i love you 💕
2:50 i was really looking forward to this part 🥰
I wish I wasn't such a narcissist 😩, I wish I didn't really kiss💋, the mirror when I'm on my own😓, oh God I'm gonna die alone 😫😓
Adolescence didn't make sense 😫
A little loss of innocence, the ugly years of being a full 😓 ain't you meant to be beautiful ?
Why can I imagine juice wrld pulling off this part, but only true fans would understand
AHHHHH I LOVE THIS SONG
Damn that song slowed down is beautiful
i remember listening a long time ago when i was in a very bad place mentally
it does get better guys ❤️
This makes me feel 14 again when I heard this for the first time. So nostalgic💖
Im obviously a bit late but since this is my favorite song and this was uploaded on my birthday, i will come back here every year on my birthday for as long as i can remember :)
*cries in everyone near my age is so much more pretty and they say it’s cause they wear makeup but i’m always too scared to try cause i’ll mess it up like everything else and give up*
Hits different on your 16th
“I wanna stay inside all day, i want the world to go away”
QUARANTINE VIBES
My favourite song is amazing
just found out i failed 2 subjects i gave my best and still failed... im in middle of class just wanting to not fail the year,and that my mom understands that i gave my best..
i just want a hug..
"pretty lies, the ugly truth..."
there is point in everything, oh
I love watching that hand with a rose as blood flows from it and falls down ..
YESSS Marina getting the attention she deserves! This is great!
I’m listening to this song now just thinking of all the times I had to be happy and now I’m here crying under blankets
this song hits so hard
nostalgia hitting hard. my sister&i would listen to marina all the time
you dont have to read this or whatever i just want to share my story:
so basically i relate to this song so much, im a blonde with blue eyes, tall and skinny whose popular in school, so people naturally thought of me to be "perfect". i suffered from an eating disorder (thankfully ive overcome it now) as i was scared to loose my position in school. now that i look back i wasnt even overweight, i was just pressed to be a certain way. just know that your perfect the way you are and beauty is on the inside! dont feel pressured to be a certain way and if you need someone to talk to about eating disorders then feel free to ask me
your all perfect and dont let anything change that
so proud of you!
i want you to know you are not how you look like
you are the things you love
the book, the quotes,
the flowers, the emotions you feel
the memories
and dreams you have.
and here is a quote that i love;
"you are not the heaviness sitting inside you.
you are not the battlefield
where bodies fall,
and you are not the sound of cannons
breaking the sky open.
yo are what happens after the war.
the surviving
the healing
the rebuilding."...
- Y.Z, for the bad nights
I’ll be 20 in September.
When I was little, I used to think all teenagers did was go shopping and have parties with their friends, I thought high school was just gossip and crushing on people who wouldn’t notice you.
Instead I spent most school days crying in the school toilets, trying to make myself throw up, and if that didn’t work, I’d scratch my arms until they were raw. Then on weekends I’d stay in my room, hiding because I didn’t know what kind of mood my dad was in.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. :( I hope you're doing better now..
This song helps me calm down in quarantine, it helps block out the arguments and siblings, and just feels like I'm in a parallel universe for a bit.
This is a song in my "Slytherin Prince" playlist. Honestly a vibe.
this song hits different at 3 am i stg
this song is such a mood.
THANK YOUU OML
This is one of the two songs i most relate to. Beatiful but really depressive song :'D
*don’t cry* *don’t cry* *don’t cry*
To me, this songs is of course about the American teen dream, but I also feel like it’s about religious/childhood trauma in which the singer is now struggling in teenager years
Takes me back to when I was in a dark place
if i ever need to make myself cry, i'll just listen to this, it never fails to do the job
"I wanna stay inside all day, I want the world to go away"
*kenma be like*
Yes. Please keep these up they're always so beautiful 💖
i don’t know if it’s just me that listens to this because i’m a teen but i have never experienced it though . i just sit there depressed in my room while everyone else is getting boyfriends , going to parties , hanging fun with friends and i’ve never even had my first kiss
POV: you’re watching this after you recover, proud of how far you’ve come