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When I was little, everybody always asked me what I wanted to do when I grow up. I just turned 74 years old last week. Unfortunately I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up. But everyone who asked me that question is dead now. So I guess I don't really need to have an answer now.
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
"The right decision is one that is right emotionally and rationally... It speaks to that inner goodness. It takes years of mistakes. Be patient listen close and don't be to hard on yourself. Nobody really knows what they're doing anyways."
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
"Because sometimes these surprises can be good. Holding on too tightly might lead you to missing out." True. The daunting results of living too fearful of risks, too afraid of negative outcomes. I think a lot of people are trained to live life like that though, unfortunately. Not impossible to break the habit, but it can be challenging.
Watching this soon after making a pretty life changing decision to change my uni course to better align with my principles and my heart... thank you for this
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
I genuinely have no idea anymore, I think im just going progressively more insane by the day Edit: while still true, hope you are all having a good day, remember to get some sun and stop doomscrolling
Your videos always put me in a state of awe, without fail it always surprises me how beautifully crafted your videos are. Thank you for putting so much effort into these
Can i say that during the process of healing from complex trauma your videos have given me a different perspective of different facets of being human. Thanks a bunch for being you @Sisyphus55
I feel like allowing yourself to feel in the moment, and actually respond like a normal human being is harder nowadays. We see so much in the media, and I feel like it's one bad thing and then the next. You have very little to no time to process. It's a constant cycle that keeps you exhausted. This is of course not an excuse to be ignorant or anything, but I feel as though we must care about everything all the time, even if we don't have the emotional capacity to do so. I think there's a balance between being passionate for a cause, and emotionally exhausting yourself to the point where it's harmful.
It's one of the reasons why I quit most social media months ago, and I have to say that I have noticed a big improvement in my life as I don't find myself constantly worrying about everything that happens in the world even when those things are not relevant or don't affect me. Maybe now I'm more ignorant to what happens around the world but I'm definitely happier (I still read news every now and then). I can definitely recommend disconnecting a bit.
The sponsored segments in your video feel so alienating because they kind of act as an reminder of the society we are living. While the rest of your videos always feel like an escape from all the stress and pressure to give a moment of peace. Thanks for that Sisyphus
How this is exact the curriculum of the minor I’m following and also what I’m struggling with right now is… surreal. This does motivate me to study for my exam though.
Better than trying absolutely nothing. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
None of us actually decided to start living in the first place, we never wanted to be here in the first place, we're here just because of the decision of someone else who brought us here.
That's completely true. But it's also a fact that you have the choice to make the best of it. Think of enjoying this life as much as you can - a way of rebelling.
@@69thApostleOfShindoL I find it hard to enjoy living as i see human life as struggle and antagonism, with no higher meaning or purpose. I developed in the womb through biological mechanism, instigated by sexual desire devoid of contraceptive planning because my parents wanted a child. Now, I must struggle to secure my bodily needs and comfort (or suffer greatly), all while aging towards an inevitable death. Life has its moments, sure, but these all occur in a structurally negative context that even the best of lives can not compensate for. Nobody escapes aging or death, and everybody suffers personal tragedies or struggles. Let's say that (if) i reach old age... then I will likely experience a moment of introspection in which my mortality is not an intangible abstract, but a looming terrifying reality. Perhaps senility would be a kinder fate. The truth is the best course of action was to never been born to begin with. Someone else's decision brought us here and now we must endure a life of painful experiences with brief moments of enjoyment. Nah, not worth it. Suicide is not an option as i dont have te balls to do it and a failed attept woud makes my life even more miserable than it already is. I think i'll hope to reach the stage of senility then.
To give birth or to conceive someone is an act of love. More deeply its an act of Selfish Love (Miyavi fans anywhere?) as there is an innate desire within us to shape those new lives into something we desire to see in the world, subconsciously or otherwise. And if you follow Sapolsky's view on human behavior through the lens of neuroscience, choice doesn't really exist, its more that we are just reacting from one moment to the next based on environmental cues and internal biome states. I believe however, through small acts of "guided intention" we can create recursive feedback cycles in our environment that can help to facilitate change in ways that genuinely appear to be a result of choice. And these cycles can be positive or negative (think the idea of falling into addiction vs. self improvement routines). Whatever you want to believe will apply to you as there isn't an inherent benefit to one perspective or the other. Life is life.
I did decide to start living again tho. Not that long ago I thought I’d didn’t make it into my twenties and didn’t really live. I’ll turn 22 in less then half a year. Life is good.
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
I think of it as using the turn signal as a grand gesture to accommodate the rest of society. Instead of determining whether or not to use it, using it reflexively when I decide to change lanes, make a turn etc, makes me more adept at responding to other people needs. I also do a lot of judging people to be inconsiderate when they are less than accommodating. Offering to return someone else's shopping cart when I'm walking across the parking lot is another one society accommodating grand gestures.
Ben I really hope you are right about nobody knowing what they're doing anyway... Sometimes it feels impossible to believe my lack of direction or meaning is a shared experience. Wonderful video once again!
I don't feel like appearing in my exams which start after a week. I need help. I have suffered with alienation and loneliness for a year and I don't like anyone around me. I am not the same girl I used to be. I need to regain my life for me. I will count on you people always. Love always ❤
go to your exams for you. maybe the person you are right now doesn't want to. maybe you feel lost. but if there's one thing you can do it for, it's yourself. either the past you, the child who has hopes and dreams of being something. or maybe the future you, who will look back at this time and be grateful that you decided to follow through on your exams. regardless, do it for you
If I can help one person, just one, then my goal of "changing the world" would be met. Let's keep the goals realistic, folks: You'll be far happier, trust me.
thank you ben, this video came in to recommended right as I was angry and trying to decompress some complicated relationships. I feel much more at peace hope you are finding peace yourself.
Probably the hardest thing in my life is knowing that I come off and appearing as something that I'm not. I am too introvert and too scared to interact with people and colleagues, that I just keep to myself all the time at home and as much as I can at work. I try my hardest to avoid interacting and avoid to look at people unless I really have to when its unavoidable. This is all because I have such low self esteem and as a result I just want to avoid people, to do both them and I a favor because it's only awkward if I'm around or engage. But to come back to why this is so hard, is because I know that I come off as this pompous, arrogant, asshole, because I keep away from people, or I just walk past. They think its because I'm better than them or something and can't be bothered or whatever. But that's not the truth. And its a vicious circle because I can't find bravery to change and every day seems to get worse. And it's been this way for a little over twenty years since graduating high school. I don't even know why the hell I keep doing this. I lost every chance at a normal life and it's really too late I feel to change. The shame I feel, to my younger self who would look at me now, is almost too much.
Ehh first I think you need to get something right- There's absolutely- ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with being introverted and reserved. So don't beat your self about that. If people really do think about you the way you said, then let them but also understand that what you think they're thinking is a reflection of what you think of yourself. Your perception of people is a reflection of mind. You think they think that way because you think you appear that way to them. I'm not trying to downplay your "problem" but rather acknowledging it and giving advice based on my experience (I'm just 20 tho lol) So I forgot the other things I wanted to add but basically- 1.) There's nothing wrong with being the way you are as long as it doesn't cause you or others harm in any "wrong" way. 2.) If they do think what you said about you, then why bother so much? Let them. You are you so why worry about what others think YOU ARE? 3.) Just keep trying to make connections. Your hard work will pay off. Mine did and honestly it's a real confidence boost 😀
Hey man, it’s never too late to change. “The best time to have planted a tree was 20 years ago, the 2nd best time is today” Just start smiling at people when you walk by, just say hi. But nothing wrong with being shy
I dealt with this very same thing in my teens and twenties. Hate to break it to you but you are being arrogant. This is a coping mechanism it doesn't make you a bad person it's just a faulty learned behavior. The reason you are being arrogant is because you think you're so special and exceptional that no one could possibly understand you or get you. That is indeed a type of narcissism. I had to figure this out the hard way. Your ego narrative is that you just have low self esteem so you feel sorry for yourself and feel justified. Again I went through this same thing. Victim thinking is inherently self centered. What I did was start by making friends with animals and growing my empathy. I started to see I'm very relatable and very human. It's never too late. It's just about creating better patterns. One trick I often still use when socializing is seeing everyone as my child and they don't scare me anymore and it makes me feel more nurturing. Or I just tell myself well everyone poops lol no one is better than anyone everyone has the divine spark etc. Then get out of your head and get grounded. But yeah you just gotta find what works for you. Life is an entire experiment.
I agree. I redownloaded instagram after 2years and after 3months I noticed it makes my day worse when I use it. The dumbness and disgusting stuff that insta keeps showing me makes me disgusted and sometimes even sad Social media is one of the worst invention of the 21st century
I don’t know who needs to hear this but the idea that one’s “choices” or “decisions” are the primary determinant of one’s life is bunk. Even if you don’t take the position of Sapolsky and others that free will does not exist at all, there’s much evidence that one’s circumstances-socio-economic, geographic, hereditary, and so on are far more powerful factors, and render individual choice irrelevant for all but the privileged few.
Still working on my opus. Every day it makes a little more sense, but the gap between my opus and the world around me is widening. When I reference scientific thought it seems that every figment of my perception is a controlled hallucination. Colors, dimensions, smell, taste, all just being approximate symbols that get the job done. The moon in the sky is the moon in my mind, but the being outside of my mind is incomprehensible. I suppose, in a sense, I should look at morality the same way, like Mozi. Or at least how this video frames him, because I only just heard of him. I want to live a good life, to be ethical, to result in positive things... but here I am left with only approximates. I have to make my best guess and go full bore, or else it's nothing. What determines whether or not I get undermined by a threat isn't whether or not I know there is a threat, but whether or not I feel there is a threat. It's the same reason why bright yellow and red colors grab our eyes so quickly in all of our art, because of poisonous snakes and frogs many years ago. To think we were willing to look at blind bats that evolved echolocation, and blind worms that function largely on touch alone, and say that evolution gave them an approximate system of knowing what was going on before giving up the moment that it allowed them to survive... and then look at ourselves as some kind of exception to that. That the human brain grew too large to fit through our hips, and yet that was somehow enough... It's all feeling, and it's all emotion. All a lack of emotion is, is just a feeling of lack of emotion. We're assigning hallucinations to things in hopes of profit that we can only perceive through symbolic representation. Feelings come with the package of consciousness, and we've evolved to be attracted to people that hallucinate in similar ways because it improves our ability to communicate with one another. We are special because we see what isn't there, and sometimes we can see what isn't there in a way that changes what's really there. Creativity, or whatever you might want to call it. The smell of a rose by any other name would be just as sweet. It doesn't matter what collection of symbols we see, just that they get the job done. Let's hope it's the right job at least.
This is definitely one of the Great Questions. I can't believe you're talking about the heart -mind, which is basically something that Ram Das some about used the same language! Very validating and helpful in my public health promotion work
@@OGreenWorId brother, I am pursuing a degree in computer science with a minor in philosophy. Currently writing an essay about the link between Becker's hero systems and a Kierkegaardian leap of faith. I'm really not sure why you're on 55's channel if you view philosophy in that light. Obviously I was just making an offhanded joke comment but your response was so odd I had to reply.
I'm behind on two essays, a test, and 6 assignments. What am i doing with my life? everything just feels hopeless, because everyone elses worst seems to be the best i can do. So i just burn myself out, like now, and don't see the point of going forwards, because is it really progression if all i'm doing is failing? I know any action is better than inaction, but i just don't know what to do . at all . everything is just blurring together at this point
are you interested in what you are learning right now? if not, that's ok. If you are, start small, focus on getting a few specific assignments done, whichever seem the most interesting, and you will see your progress. If not, I recommend looking at what you can do with your life and finding something that seems like you would enjoy it, and even if it's hard you will want to do it. And it doesn't have to be alone, find support in other people who can help you learn! If switching like that isn't an option right now, just give yourself small goals, and find something fun that you can work on on the side and see improvement in, could be as simple as gardening or origami or something. Seriously, I just want to end this by saying you're doing amazing, because you have kept on going. If you start small, you're going to see a difference. Trust me, there are many people in your situation who aren't even aware of it, but you're here, and I can tell you want to change. I'm just a random person on the Internet though, if I interpreted this completely wrong, I'm sorry, wishing you the best
It sounds dumb but keep thinking positive. I was severaly depressed after life just keept hitting me with bad stuff. Once I started to think "It could be worse" or "it gets better" my mood drastically improved
It's a good question, and I have been asking myself recently. I have accomplished the things in life I always wanted to. I became the person I desired to become. I have children, and am old enough now that my children are having children. But, at age 48, I am not so old as to be decrepit. However, more and more, and especially since my son graduated with his college degree, I have felt increasingly unmoored and despondent. What more is there to do when I have already fulfilled my purpose? Do I really want to see what the last 20 years of life is going to be like? The slow and inexorable decline of my mind and body? I'm really not sure. Last week I wrote the best song I believe it is possible for me to write. My ultimate creation after more than three decades of trying. If that isn't a fitting epitaph, I don't know what is.
I don’t know what I’m going to do for source of income in my future, I’m only 17 but feel so stuck bc I dropped out due to personal problems and my depression makes me feel desireless in everything. But I’ll listen close and be patient till future me figures shit out. This video feels very warm.
Please make the sponsored sections of the video explicit so that they are easier to skip. Some creators have a countdown timer or a progress bar which I really appreciate.
Loved it, Ben. For more on heart-mind, read "Faith in Heartmind" (sometime trans. as "Faith in Mind") by the 4th patriarch of Chan (Chinese Zen), Seng Ts'an (or Seng Can). Its a poem, maybe 3 pages, there are at least a dozen English translations, some free online. Its one of the most highly esteemed teachings, from the golden age of Chan, in the Zen tradition.
This was uploaded after my girlfriend broke up with me. I sort of used her as an excuse to stay comfortable with the life I have when I had multiple opportunities to do something better. I am still unsure where life is leading me but I am here for each experience.
I've failed an exam that I was most certainly supposed to clear. I am good at art, and I knew this, I still know it but something happened, and I have failed. Life is literally in shambles because the only other college I have is right next door, I've taken a gap year already, this was the last straw, most likely I will be going to this college and living with my parents. I had left highschool for an openschooling model, but much of this wasn't my choice, when me and my father realized what a horrific mistake we had made, he somewhat pushed all the responsibility on me, that I was the one who chose this, I simply didn't, I just went along with it because I thought he was correct (I wanted a different model for schooling) due to this, my highschool end report was so horrible I literally passed by one percent. I did not choose this, but I am now stuck here, the only other option was to pursue arts and design, and the only school worth going to rejected me today. There's a lot of issues, I dont want to stay at home because I know that 3 year of homeschooling have changed me and my parents and they view me differently now, I wanted out and I believed this would be it. It would be too cynical to blame everything on everybody else, I dont think they are, but I dont think I am solely the reason why my life is the way it is.
Why must you push me into another existential crisis. The honest answer is I've been avoiding making the changes i should be making because I'm afraid of leaving my comfort zone, even though I'm miserable there.
aaah, good old misery. always there for us. our most loyal friend. the strongest foundation in life. always there for us, no matter how many times we do our best, find some strength and start building a house on top. only for it to collapse and burn, over and over again. the foundation will still be there for us
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
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Ending song my wise man.
Edit: found it
When I was little, everybody always asked me what I wanted to do when I grow up.
I just turned 74 years old last week.
Unfortunately I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up.
But everyone who asked me that question is dead now.
So I guess I don't really need to have an answer now.
This is so powerful to a 24yo like me 😮
Every circle begins with its end.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
😂🙌
Thanks for the tip
Needed to hear this today. Thank you 😊
Beautiful as always, Ben. Life is not a problem to be solved, rather a mystery to be lived
Every circle begins with its end.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
"The right decision is one that is right emotionally and rationally... It speaks to that inner goodness. It takes years of mistakes. Be patient listen close and don't be to hard on yourself. Nobody really knows what they're doing anyways."
Every circle begins with its end.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
The mystery of life isn't a problem to solve, but a reality to experience.
I remember Jamis
If so id like the experience to end please.
Meditation really hammers this home (I imagine)
@@thesaddestdude3575 agreed.
@@thesaddestdude3575 NOOO, TABOO ANSWER, BAN THIS THOUGHT CRIMINAL IMMEDIATELY!!!
Ah shit here we go
again
again
Yooo it’s Ghost our Host 🫡
@@chihiro____Again
Why does this man upload everytime I AM IN DIRE NEED OF ADVICE?
Yet another proof that God exists, obviously
FR. Like bro knows when we need him the most
Sisyphus55 is your shadow self
"Because sometimes these surprises can be good. Holding on too tightly might lead you to missing out." True. The daunting results of living too fearful of risks, too afraid of negative outcomes. I think a lot of people are trained to live life like that though, unfortunately. Not impossible to break the habit, but it can be challenging.
It's 2am and I'm drinking millers watching Sisyphus. What do YOU think I'm doing with my life?
its 640pm here. Hope you're having a good evening.
@@Walls2008 thank you and cheers. 🍻
Living your best life, that's whay
sounds like you're living it! haha
Living the philosopher king's life 🍻 cheers!
Wait, my life consists of the decisions I make? Me? That guy is unreliable.
Unreliable but can you hate the dude? He's trying his best aint he?
@@69thApostleOfShindoLis he though? There’s always room to improve.
I'm with you bro
@@samuelwhiting8117 for sure. But acknowledge and appreciate what you've done so far. That's the first step to improvement
I was just watching a bunch of your videos
It seems like you have a video for every situation in life
Pretty cool
Watching this soon after making a pretty life changing decision to change my uni course to better align with my principles and my heart... thank you for this
Every circle begins with its end.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
I genuinely have no idea anymore, I think im just going progressively more insane by the day
Edit: while still true, hope you are all having a good day, remember to get some sun and stop doomscrolling
fr
Good! Have fun!
It’ll be alright
So real
@@MatthewTheWanderer 😬👍
Your videos always put me in a state of awe, without fail it always surprises me how beautifully crafted your videos are. Thank you for putting so much effort into these
"never be too hard on yourself, nobody really knows what they're doing anyways." man you always post just when needed
Can i say that during the process of healing from complex trauma your videos have given me a different perspective of different facets of being human. Thanks a bunch for being you @Sisyphus55
I feel like allowing yourself to feel in the moment, and actually respond like a normal human being is harder nowadays. We see so much in the media, and I feel like it's one bad thing and then the next. You have very little to no time to process. It's a constant cycle that keeps you exhausted. This is of course not an excuse to be ignorant or anything, but I feel as though we must care about everything all the time, even if we don't have the emotional capacity to do so. I think there's a balance between being passionate for a cause, and emotionally exhausting yourself to the point where it's harmful.
It's one of the reasons why I quit most social media months ago, and I have to say that I have noticed a big improvement in my life as I don't find myself constantly worrying about everything that happens in the world even when those things are not relevant or don't affect me. Maybe now I'm more ignorant to what happens around the world but I'm definitely happier (I still read news every now and then). I can definitely recommend disconnecting a bit.
Maa this friggin stickman guy is making me have an existential crisis again
The sponsored segments in your video feel so alienating because they kind of act as an reminder of the society we are living.
While the rest of your videos always feel like an escape from all the stress and pressure to give a moment of peace.
Thanks for that Sisyphus
How this is exact the curriculum of the minor I’m following and also what I’m struggling with right now is… surreal. This does motivate me to study for my exam though.
Failing at everything.
same
Better than trying absolutely nothing.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
None of us actually decided to start living in the first place, we never wanted to be here in the first place, we're here just because of the decision of someone else who brought us here.
That's completely true. But it's also a fact that you have the choice to make the best of it.
Think of enjoying this life as much as you can - a way of rebelling.
@@69thApostleOfShindoL I find it hard to enjoy living as i see human life as struggle and antagonism, with no higher meaning or purpose. I developed in the womb through biological mechanism, instigated by sexual desire devoid of contraceptive planning because my parents wanted a child. Now, I must struggle to secure my bodily needs and comfort (or suffer greatly), all while aging towards an inevitable death. Life has its moments, sure, but these all occur in a structurally negative context that even the best of lives can not compensate for. Nobody escapes aging or death, and everybody suffers personal tragedies or struggles.
Let's say that (if) i reach old age... then I will likely experience a moment of introspection in which my mortality is not an intangible abstract, but a looming terrifying reality. Perhaps senility would be a kinder fate.
The truth is the best course of action was to never been born to begin with. Someone else's decision brought us here and now we must endure a life of painful experiences with brief moments of enjoyment. Nah, not worth it. Suicide is not an option as i dont have te balls to do it and a failed attept woud makes my life even more miserable than it already is. I think i'll hope to reach the stage of senility then.
To give birth or to conceive someone is an act of love. More deeply its an act of Selfish Love (Miyavi fans anywhere?) as there is an innate desire within us to shape those new lives into something we desire to see in the world, subconsciously or otherwise. And if you follow Sapolsky's view on human behavior through the lens of neuroscience, choice doesn't really exist, its more that we are just reacting from one moment to the next based on environmental cues and internal biome states.
I believe however, through small acts of "guided intention" we can create recursive feedback cycles in our environment that can help to facilitate change in ways that genuinely appear to be a result of choice. And these cycles can be positive or negative (think the idea of falling into addiction vs. self improvement routines).
Whatever you want to believe will apply to you as there isn't an inherent benefit to one perspective or the other. Life is life.
The egg theory is probable bc thr universe only makes sense in the context of and depending on life. You need consciousness for Existence to, "exist"
I did decide to start living again tho. Not that long ago I thought I’d didn’t make it into my twenties and didn’t really live. I’ll turn 22 in less then half a year. Life is good.
You're one of the few people who inspired me to make a RUclips channel, great video as always sisyphus :)
"Life shrinks or expands according to one's courage."
Fearing death and feeling the need to “appreciate” it out of fear and not genuine fascination.
Every circle begins with its end.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
I think of it as using the turn signal as a grand gesture to accommodate the rest of society. Instead of determining whether or not to use it, using it reflexively when I decide to change lanes, make a turn etc, makes me more adept at responding to other people needs. I also do a lot of judging people to be inconsiderate when they are less than accommodating. Offering to return someone else's shopping cart when I'm walking across the parking lot is another one society accommodating grand gestures.
I have no idea why I'm still here, besides fear of pain, guilt and regret
Ben I really hope you are right about nobody knowing what they're doing anyway... Sometimes it feels impossible to believe my lack of direction or meaning is a shared experience. Wonderful video once again!
It’s getting annoying every day I wake up I feel like a different person
Same
I don't feel like appearing in my exams which start after a week. I need help.
I have suffered with alienation and loneliness for a year and I don't like anyone around me.
I am not the same girl I used to be. I need to regain my life for me.
I will count on you people always. Love always ❤
go to your exams for you. maybe the person you are right now doesn't want to. maybe you feel lost. but if there's one thing you can do it for, it's yourself. either the past you, the child who has hopes and dreams of being something. or maybe the future you, who will look back at this time and be grateful that you decided to follow through on your exams. regardless, do it for you
@@crunchy2981 thank you
@@Catwoman2379 did you make it?
bro gotta put me in a state of crisis on 3 am 😢😢😢
How is that that yours videos comes to me when I most needed it
If I can help one person, just one, then my goal of "changing the world" would be met. Let's keep the goals realistic, folks: You'll be far happier, trust me.
thank you ben, this video came in to recommended right as I was angry and trying to decompress some complicated relationships. I feel much more at peace hope you are finding peace yourself.
Probably the hardest thing in my life is knowing that I come off and appearing as something that I'm not.
I am too introvert and too scared to interact with people and colleagues, that I just keep to myself all the time at home and as much as I can at work.
I try my hardest to avoid interacting and avoid to look at people unless I really have to when its unavoidable. This is all because I have such low self esteem and as a result I just want to avoid people, to do both them and I a favor because it's only awkward if I'm around or engage.
But to come back to why this is so hard, is because I know that I come off as this pompous, arrogant, asshole, because I keep away from people, or I just walk past. They think its because I'm better than them or something and can't be bothered or whatever. But that's not the truth.
And its a vicious circle because I can't find bravery to change and every day seems to get worse. And it's been this way for a little over twenty years since graduating high school.
I don't even know why the hell I keep doing this.
I lost every chance at a normal life and it's really too late I feel to change. The shame I feel, to my younger self who would look at me now, is almost too much.
This sounds like c-ptsd although I'm not sure because still learning about it myself. Some things you mentioned really link in with it
Ehh first I think you need to get something right-
There's absolutely- ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with being introverted and reserved. So don't beat your self about that.
If people really do think about you the way you said, then let them but also understand that what you think they're thinking is a reflection of what you think of yourself. Your perception of people is a reflection of mind.
You think they think that way because you think you appear that way to them.
I'm not trying to downplay your "problem" but rather acknowledging it and giving advice based on my experience (I'm just 20 tho lol)
So I forgot the other things I wanted to add but basically-
1.) There's nothing wrong with being the way you are as long as it doesn't cause you or others harm in any "wrong" way.
2.) If they do think what you said about you, then why bother so much? Let them. You are you so why worry about what others think YOU ARE?
3.) Just keep trying to make connections. Your hard work will pay off. Mine did and honestly it's a real confidence boost 😀
Hey man, it’s never too late to change. “The best time to have planted a tree was 20 years ago, the 2nd best time is today”
Just start smiling at people when you walk by, just say hi. But nothing wrong with being shy
I dealt with this very same thing in my teens and twenties. Hate to break it to you but you are being arrogant. This is a coping mechanism it doesn't make you a bad person it's just a faulty learned behavior. The reason you are being arrogant is because you think you're so special and exceptional that no one could possibly understand you or get you. That is indeed a type of narcissism. I had to figure this out the hard way. Your ego narrative is that you just have low self esteem so you feel sorry for yourself and feel justified. Again I went through this same thing. Victim thinking is inherently self centered. What I did was start by making friends with animals and growing my empathy. I started to see I'm very relatable and very human. It's never too late. It's just about creating better patterns. One trick I often still use when socializing is seeing everyone as my child and they don't scare me anymore and it makes me feel more nurturing. Or I just tell myself well everyone poops lol no one is better than anyone everyone has the divine spark etc. Then get out of your head and get grounded. But yeah you just gotta find what works for you. Life is an entire experiment.
@@Ouranos369 interesting approach!
Hey sisyphus!! Been subscribed to you for a couple years now, so happy to see you grow and adapt your channel! ❤️ congrats on 1 million my brother 😁
I was just thinking about a similar topic. This is weird that this popped up right when I had it on my mind. Nice video, Sisyphus
Avoiding social media as much as possible
I agree. I redownloaded instagram after 2years and after 3months I noticed it makes my day worse when I use it. The dumbness and disgusting stuff that insta keeps showing me makes me disgusted and sometimes even sad
Social media is one of the worst invention of the 21st century
I don’t know who needs to hear this but the idea that one’s “choices” or “decisions” are the primary determinant of one’s life is bunk. Even if you don’t take the position of Sapolsky and others that free will does not exist at all, there’s much evidence that one’s circumstances-socio-economic, geographic, hereditary, and so on are far more powerful factors, and render individual choice irrelevant for all but the privileged few.
Still working on my opus. Every day it makes a little more sense, but the gap between my opus and the world around me is widening. When I reference scientific thought it seems that every figment of my perception is a controlled hallucination. Colors, dimensions, smell, taste, all just being approximate symbols that get the job done. The moon in the sky is the moon in my mind, but the being outside of my mind is incomprehensible. I suppose, in a sense, I should look at morality the same way, like Mozi. Or at least how this video frames him, because I only just heard of him. I want to live a good life, to be ethical, to result in positive things... but here I am left with only approximates. I have to make my best guess and go full bore, or else it's nothing.
What determines whether or not I get undermined by a threat isn't whether or not I know there is a threat, but whether or not I feel there is a threat. It's the same reason why bright yellow and red colors grab our eyes so quickly in all of our art, because of poisonous snakes and frogs many years ago. To think we were willing to look at blind bats that evolved echolocation, and blind worms that function largely on touch alone, and say that evolution gave them an approximate system of knowing what was going on before giving up the moment that it allowed them to survive... and then look at ourselves as some kind of exception to that. That the human brain grew too large to fit through our hips, and yet that was somehow enough...
It's all feeling, and it's all emotion. All a lack of emotion is, is just a feeling of lack of emotion. We're assigning hallucinations to things in hopes of profit that we can only perceive through symbolic representation. Feelings come with the package of consciousness, and we've evolved to be attracted to people that hallucinate in similar ways because it improves our ability to communicate with one another. We are special because we see what isn't there, and sometimes we can see what isn't there in a way that changes what's really there. Creativity, or whatever you might want to call it. The smell of a rose by any other name would be just as sweet. It doesn't matter what collection of symbols we see, just that they get the job done. Let's hope it's the right job at least.
This video changed my life for the better thank you. It helped me see the part of me I couldn’t see.
This is definitely one of the Great Questions. I can't believe you're talking about the heart -mind, which is basically something that Ram Das some about used the same language! Very validating and helpful in my public health promotion work
living with no reason
no reason is the exact reason
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@@dylaannwhen I’m 11 and think this is deep
@@OGreenWorId having existential crisis at 11 must be crazy
@@OGreenWorId brother, I am pursuing a degree in computer science with a minor in philosophy. Currently writing an essay about the link between Becker's hero systems and a Kierkegaardian leap of faith. I'm really not sure why you're on 55's channel if you view philosophy in that light. Obviously I was just making an offhanded joke comment but your response was so odd I had to reply.
I'm behind on two essays, a test, and 6 assignments. What am i doing with my life?
everything just feels hopeless, because everyone elses worst seems to be the best i can do. So i just burn myself out, like now, and don't see the point of going forwards, because is it really progression if all i'm doing is failing?
I know any action is better than inaction, but i just don't know what to do . at all . everything is just blurring together at this point
are you interested in what you are learning right now? if not, that's ok. If you are, start small, focus on getting a few specific assignments done, whichever seem the most interesting, and you will see your progress. If not, I recommend looking at what you can do with your life and finding something that seems like you would enjoy it, and even if it's hard you will want to do it. And it doesn't have to be alone, find support in other people who can help you learn! If switching like that isn't an option right now, just give yourself small goals, and find something fun that you can work on on the side and see improvement in, could be as simple as gardening or origami or something. Seriously, I just want to end this by saying you're doing amazing, because you have kept on going. If you start small, you're going to see a difference. Trust me, there are many people in your situation who aren't even aware of it, but you're here, and I can tell you want to change.
I'm just a random person on the Internet though, if I interpreted this completely wrong, I'm sorry, wishing you the best
It sounds dumb but keep thinking positive. I was severaly depressed after life just keept hitting me with bad stuff. Once I started to think "It could be worse" or "it gets better" my mood drastically improved
I am in the exact same place right now. And we arent alone. That helps a little bit
Bruh I’m further behind. Catch up while you still can! This shit is expensive!
Your vids always come at the right time. Thank you.
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It's a good question, and I have been asking myself recently. I have accomplished the things in life I always wanted to. I became the person I desired to become. I have children, and am old enough now that my children are having children. But, at age 48, I am not so old as to be decrepit.
However, more and more, and especially since my son graduated with his college degree, I have felt increasingly unmoored and despondent.
What more is there to do when I have already fulfilled my purpose? Do I really want to see what the last 20 years of life is going to be like? The slow and inexorable decline of my mind and body? I'm really not sure.
Last week I wrote the best song I believe it is possible for me to write. My ultimate creation after more than three decades of trying. If that isn't a fitting epitaph, I don't know what is.
these always hit so close to my current struggle
I don’t know what I’m going to do for source of income in my future, I’m only 17 but feel so stuck bc I dropped out due to personal problems and my depression makes me feel desireless in everything. But I’ll listen close and be patient till future me figures shit out. This video feels very warm.
03:35 to skip the in video ad.
its after 3 am and im vaping and watching sisyphus
I'm a thoughtocoaster. I'm a conun-drummer in a band called Life Puzzler
love your conclusion listened to it twice n will prob listen to it again after posting. always wise words n iconic visuals thx for the video 🙇☮
Watching tik toks
Love your honesty 😍
The best advice in the world I ever got was what I gave my myself.
To love myself I have to stop letting an algorithm decide what I consume.😊
real
Peak humour
@@abhinandanmad idgaf bro get some peakhoes
Enjoying it while I still can
loved that ending, especially the definition of personal growth with this context
I'm just trying to eat some good Mexican food..
Simple answer: I don't know and nothing ❤
Please make the sponsored sections of the video explicit so that they are easier to skip. Some creators have a countdown timer or a progress bar which I really appreciate.
Hey I love your videos!! Do you think you could maybe think about doing a video on ADHD? I think it would be very interesting
Loved it, Ben. For more on heart-mind, read "Faith in Heartmind" (sometime trans. as "Faith in Mind") by the 4th patriarch of Chan (Chinese Zen), Seng Ts'an (or Seng Can). Its a poem, maybe 3 pages, there are at least a dozen English translations, some free online. Its one of the most highly esteemed teachings, from the golden age of Chan, in the Zen tradition.
You can't deny the Taoist influence on the development of Zen after reading this. It's awesome, have fun 😊
Ah yes decision fatigue
The question should be rephrased as: "What are you allowed to do with your existence?"
Just existing atp,not really living or knowing what i wan to do, I'm just alive atp😕but I've accepted it as it is
Living is the art of dancing with the chaos we call life
Making it up as I go,
So have fun,
Keep everyone safe,
Love y’all,
Bye!
❤
This was uploaded after my girlfriend broke up with me. I sort of used her as an excuse to stay comfortable with the life I have when I had multiple opportunities to do something better. I am still unsure where life is leading me but I am here for each experience.
Why not also a video on "once the wrong decision has already been made"?
nah, there are people that are just evil at their core.
People like...*big breathe* meeeeeeeeeee.
Where do you get those vintage-styled videos? They give off such fitting vibes for your videos and it's awesome
I've failed an exam that I was most certainly supposed to clear. I am good at art, and I knew this, I still know it but something happened, and I have failed. Life is literally in shambles because the only other college I have is right next door, I've taken a gap year already, this was the last straw, most likely I will be going to this college and living with my parents. I had left highschool for an openschooling model, but much of this wasn't my choice, when me and my father realized what a horrific mistake we had made, he somewhat pushed all the responsibility on me, that I was the one who chose this, I simply didn't, I just went along with it because I thought he was correct (I wanted a different model for schooling) due to this, my highschool end report was so horrible I literally passed by one percent. I did not choose this, but I am now stuck here, the only other option was to pursue arts and design, and the only school worth going to rejected me today.
There's a lot of issues, I dont want to stay at home because I know that 3 year of homeschooling have changed me and my parents and they view me differently now, I wanted out and I believed this would be it. It would be too cynical to blame everything on everybody else, I dont think they are, but I dont think I am solely the reason why my life is the way it is.
Bro housecat music is so good
everybody is just winging it anyways, don't worry about if You are behind in life
Well that depends on what you mean by “what” and “am” and “I” and “doing” and “with” and “my” and “life”- Chaos Lobster
Why must you push me into another existential crisis.
The honest answer is I've been avoiding making the changes i should be making because I'm afraid of leaving my comfort zone, even though I'm miserable there.
aaah, good old misery. always there for us. our most loyal friend. the strongest foundation in life.
always there for us, no matter how many times we do our best, find some strength and start building a house on top. only for it to collapse and burn, over and over again. the foundation will still be there for us
Godamit Sisyphe, you've done it again
Loved the video! I love thinking about topics like this all the time
Apparently knowing yourself is just that simple
im a back up for when more talented people pass away
I needed this right now, thanks.
Good question
Thank you
I am suffering.
Hitting "like" and subscribing to your channel. Peace and greetings to you all!
1:46 right on the money
Building the perfect Goon-cave
Probability does not exist, only insecurity.
I'm up playin with my worm
Ben! You are amazing!
Jaws poster💀
omg i want the song at the end (its literally in the end end, thanks)
Then I Felt Strange - Housecat, ruclips.net/video/JC1YpkReqC8/видео.html
I will forever be a fan of this channel
Life is unpredictable. That's a hard pill to swallow.
Every circle begins with its end.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
Great vid. Thank you
I'm drinking, thanks for asking, I hope it all be over soon.
How people say the joyed the video when it’s 9 minutes long and the videos only been uploaded for 3 xD
Do whatever. Just remember, life is way too short to take anything seriously.
Do 'Nothing' with your life. Don't want anything. You'll be Happier
Waiting for the next Sisyphus 55 video!
Great video! Love the existential dread videos
Spring break is killing me