[UTAU Original] Liebesliedchen feat. Theresa -Vintage- CVCV German β

Lyrics and English translation are at the bottom of the desc.
If the beginning gets boring cause your attention span is as tiny as mine, skip to the exciting part.
Happy Pride Month, enjoy this lesbian love song.
This song was riping on my PC for such a long time and I mean the literally. I was starting it before Leeres Nichts and than ignored it for a long time. I just didn't know what topic to smash on that instrumental.
Later I found it and was like: Well, why not comprise my current situation and yell random shit in the background?
So I made this. Now you might wonder, what is that shit about?
Well, I will drop a few things that might help understanding:
I'm gay and grew up catholic. (See the text "Die Regeln des Lebens" I took out of my dairy.)
I got serverly mentally ill last year and compared it to purgatory (cause I thought I will die and go to hell for my sins and this suffering initiates my death).
I was praying several times a day for my illness to stop but nobody cared.
Also, you know how the music you listen to influences the music your write?
At the end, I was listening to Masa, Slayer, Daijoubu-P, and some random Punk/Avandegard stuff.
You shouldn't expect much lol.
I gave satan streched lobes cause my family hates them and thinks they are scary. But he's slaying. Kinda makes me wanna strech my lobes or some shit.
If you sing it at 3am in front of a mirror, I will appear behind you and give you an autogram.
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Hope you have a nice day and thanks for watching.
If you like, please tell me what you think about the tuning, PV and actually everything because I was experimenting (and putting a lot of work into it) and I need feedback.
UST and Instrumental: www.mediafire....
SoundCloud: soundcloud.com...
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As promised - here are the lyrics
Sah deine Augen,
sah deine Haare
Und dein niedliches Gesicht.
Sprich nur ein Wort,
es wird mich entflammen.
Mein brennendes Herz
das liebt dich.
Ich - die Puppe an den Fäden -
Muss nur schaffen, darf nicht reden.
Was ich mein nenne - dieses Leben -
Gehört denen, die’s mir gegeben.
Schmerz statt Liebe, weil ich’s nicht besser weiß.
Ritze auf die Arm und Seele (arme Seele) dein.
Ich drehe mich, ich drehe mich im Kreis.
Ich war’s allein, ich war ganz allein.
ALLEIN ALLEIN ALLEIN
Der Boden öffnet sich und zeigt mir das Purgatorium.
Satan sucht nach Sukkuben, die niemanden mehr lieben können.
Das Feuer in meinem Herzen wandelt sich zum Inferno.
Seit Tag 1 Gefallener, schon zur Geburt war ich verloren.
Hat das Fegefeuer dich, dann gibt es keinen Weg zurück.
Es frisst mir die Haut vom Körper, Gott ich glaube ich werde verrückt.
Eigentlich will ich nicht sterben, mir ist aber selbst bewusst.
Dass ich für all meine Sünden ewig in die Hölle muss!
Ich habe versucht, dich nicht zu begehren.
Dann hab ich auch versucht, mich zu ändern.
Zehnmal flehe ich dich an, dass es aufhört.
Doch keinen Gott hat das alles je gestört!
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I saw your eyes,
saw your hair,
And your adorable face.
Just say a word,
it will ignite me.
My burning heart
loves you.
I - the puppet on strings -
Must only perform, not speak.
What I call mine - this life -
Belongs to those who gave it to me.
Pain instead of love, because I don't know any better.
I cut open your arms and soul (your poor soul).
I spin, I circle.
It was me alone, I was all alone.
ALONE ALONE ALONE
The ground opens up and shows me purgatory.
Satan searches for succubi who can't love anyone anymore.
The fire in my heart turns into an inferno.
Since day one a fallen one (ref. fallen angel), already forsake by birth.
If purgatory has you, there's no way back.
It devours the skin from my body, God, I think I'm going insane.
I don't actually want to die, but I'm aware
that I must go to hell forever to pay off my sins!
I tried not to desire you.
Then I also tried to change myself.
Ten times I beg you to make it stop.
But no god has ever cared about all of this!
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Stock footage used:
• Spooky Eye
• Neon Light Heart Shape...
• Video