Most of the NSFL/gore community is literally like: *brown kid dies* "Damn that's sick. Did you see the way his head split open?" *white kid dies* "That's so sad. Guys let's be respectful here"
You are the only content creator in this genre I trust not to fuck me up, you are very talented at walking people through some of the saddest most disturbed moments in human history
@@brigade7678 i personally disagree, she mentioned a few times about the russian brick video and i watched the iceberg video where he covered it and he played it within seconds with barely any heads up beyond "if you think im not gonna play the clip too bad". he can be pretty bad and tonedeaf with the reaction warnings imo
@@superjchamma Yea, I almost wiped my party in my MMORPG because I in a panic alt tabbed to stop Plague's video, never went back to his videos ever again. It was the second video of his I ever watched.
One of my ex-girlfriends (still friends, because lesbians) is schizophrenic. She hallucinates birds following her and talking to her. She assumed it was normal and not even something to bring up until she went to college and took a psychology class. I guess it hadn't occurred to her because she grew up on a farm and you don't go to the doctor unless you are literally dying in many rural communities. There's cultures still where the concept that hallucinations=bad haven't spread enough to effect their hallucinations. Basically, the very concept that one isn't supposed to see things that aren't there can cause more distressing sensory experiences to those who experience hallucinations. Don't know what the solution is other than destigmatize, because some people do genuinely suffer as a result of such conditions, like those with paranoid delusions. Anyway, weird rant done. You and another trans friend of mine both have schizophrenia.
And, in fact, this is actually a documented scientific fact about how culture effects mental illness! Psychologists have found that, in cultures like ours where seeing or hearing things is seen as a bad thing, those who do often report it as a negative experience and often as strangers yelling or judging them, but, in cultures where hearing and seeing things is seen as a positive thing like many shamanistic cultures, those who do report it as a positive and reassuring experience and often perceive it as loved ones and ancestors reassuring them and giving them advice. It truly is fascinating!
@@StCrimson667 it makes me wonder how some traits may have been perceived differently a long time ago as well. Someone with paranoid schizophrenia (delusions of being watched and followed is the stereotypical idea we have of that today). Someone like that in a hunter gatherer tribe wouldn't be seen as paranoid, because when there's cave lions, dire wolves, giant hyenas, bears, and who knows what else right outside the cave, the paranoid guy isn't paranoid, he's right. There's things out there that want to get you. It's truly fascinating when considering what would be considered negative in modern culture that was probably useful at some point in the past.
@@OhThatNK mostly, yeah. Although she did explain that some of the birds were mean. Ravens and crows were always nice, but blue birds would peck at her insecurities, no pun intended. Occasionally when she would get overwhelmed, the birds would sort of 'take over' her vision, like a collage of birds filling a screen. However, she still considers it just another thing she has and is in fact mostly positive. (She just ignores the blue birds).
@@cathycat4989 My professor in university had a really great way of putting it. She said that, nowadays, if you told someone that you saw thing that no one saw and hear things that no one else heard, they'd put you on anti-psychotics, throw you in the psych ward, and put you in therapy to make you act normal. 2000 years ago, if you told someone you saw things no one else saw and heard things that no one else heard, they'd call you a shaman or an oracle or a seer and society would have a place for you and a very, very important place at that. Society had a place for people like that whereas we don't have places for people like that any longer.
The aftermath of Bianca Devins case was absolutely terrifying. Incels were spreading the pictures to every kind of communities that they disliked (mainly ones by women) and basically telling them "ur next" and spreading all sorts of mean spirited rumours about Bianca. I remember seeing one of the photos of her on twitter right under a tweet by one of her family members explaining the situation because no one really knew what was going on. I cant imagine what they went through at that time. That whole situation made me realize how scary incels really are.. They see a photo of a clearly dead nearly decapitated young girl and say "this is right" because women wont date them. Some said she was asexual, others said she was sleeping with a lot of men and some said she was just mean, all to justify her getting killed.. Absolutely disgusting
it's fucked up. some of my online friends knew her and at one point we followed each other on IG. I remember sending her tiktoks to my friends bc I was jealous of how pretty she was. I for the life of me cannot get that god damn picture of her out of my head. I hardly knew her but god damn. also the fact that she was killed for not requiting a man's obsession with her hits way too close to home. it's so triggering seeing true crime vids about her pop up in my recs
Shit like all of what you described, honestly makes me lose lots of respect for cis dudes. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully 100% trust most of them.
her death really sticks with me to this day. i was the same age as her when she died, and was also involved in the alt scene. her death, and the way people dehumanized her, repeatedly just calling her an "egirl", it sickens me. she was a young girl, she was only seventeen, a KID. i vividly remember seeing a 4chan thread the day she died with the picture, and the comments were all "wow, she was my ideal type". it disturbed me so deeply because i wondered if i had died in a similar way, would that be how people treat me? objectified even in death. to this day people on 4chan say disgusting things about her. it's truly terrifying to be a teenage girl
Bianca's case is horrorifying both in the brutality of the murder as well as the aftermath of misinformation being widespread. Also the slut shaming of Bianca after her death. When as far as I'm aware she was not only ace but also very much being preyed on by more than one creep. It's just sad all in all. I recommend Dreading's video on her since he is the only person that has covered her case accurately and respectively.
I have a really bad spiral I go into where I get temporarily addicted to nsfl videos. I can't stop watching the content and looking for more, and it spirals me into a depression and paranoia, so many emotions. I feel bad for looking at the stuff, feel bad for the people, get worried about things happening to loved ones/imagine it happening to them, while also being completely fascinated and watching closely. It usually ends with a mental breakdown and me swearing off of them, but the spiral always happens again. I feel like this video helps me not look them up, just listening about them feels like a good way to get myself off the weird addiction. I wish I could just stop but like, I'm seriously just addicted to these stupid gore vids.
I think often what we crave most is someone to talk us through the trauma as a friend. no one really ever wants to talk to people about their pain so we all end up suffering alone.
I had the same thing but like for 6 or 7 years straight from 15 to like early 20s. I have watched some of the most depraved content and honestly I felt numb to all of it and I just kept subjecting myself to worse and worse shit. In retrospect I feel like it was me self harming due to past trauma. I was a very sensitive child and one day through all the abuse I went through I just went numb. I tried watching one of the videos I saw when I was young (a video of a pow getting beheaded with a steak knife) and I had to stop it within seconds, I was sobbing and nauseous, I have no idea how I could stomach that shit before.
I’d place a Vegas wager that anyone who regularly consumes real gore content has probably experienced severe emotional trauma in their life. I base this on my own history but when I get in a rut where I obsessively watch disturbing films and real gore it’s because I’m wallowing in unimaginable despair because of the severe abuse I faced at home as well as at school starting in my earliest childhood. People who watch this shit are very rarely violent themselves. In my case seeing this stuff makes me feel less like shit about my life because something worse happened to someone else. On the other hand, though, I do still have empathy and feel bad the people in these videos are being hurt but I still have the fascination. I hope if any of you are watching these things because you’ve experienced trauma that you can pull yourself out of the dark pit you’ve found yourself in and find some light.
@@12Tecpatl I’m not sure if you are talking to me, but if you are, thank you. My partner, friends, and therapist are all working tirelessly to keep me afloat mentally. I’m going to be okay, I just have a lot of repressed memories (I don’t have but a handful of memories from my childhood) and some have recently bubbled to the surface and they’re hard to deal with. So, blah, blah, blah I’ll be fine. Thank you for caring. I hope you’re doing well, too.
Took me years to realize that watching nslf content was a form of extreme self harm for me. I was making myself absolutely agonize over the pain of others and it would cause me to spiral and catastrophize.
i did something similar when i was extremely depressed. i would watch this one documentary that is incredibly heartbreaking in order to feel some form of emotion. im glad you've noticed this, and i hope you've gotten help if you can.
Is that what it is? Gah damn, I've been falling back into the NSFL rabbit hole lately since my life had been a bit dogshit lately. I considered it as a toxic coping mechanism but never really thought of it as self harm. Just sort of... Desensitization, as awful as that sounds. But now that I think about it, that pretty fucked and it's absolutely some form of SH.
maybe im just overly emotional, but hearing you say you have schizophrenia genuinely made me burst into tears. im schizo myself and it can be a nightmare to live with a lot of the time, so finding out that someone else is "like me" in that regard is very comforting. your videos(despite their very morbid subject matter) have probably changed my way of thinking for the better, i remember especially watching the last part of your disturbing movies iceberg when it came out and it having a huge impact on me. love ur videos they mean a lot 2 me
Same over hear but about C-PTSD. I mostly see people associate PTSD with stuff like war veterans. So it's already not always easy being taken seriously, because your trauma wasn't """traumatic enough""". And then there's C-PTSD, where people in my country are even more ignorant about it than PTSD. So many people think it's the exact same thing and just a name to seem like a special snowflake. Anyways! Hearing Nyx saying she has C-PTSD rather casually made me feel less alone as well. Plus it makes me feel better when content creator with any mental illness/disorder normalize their existence. C-PTSD, PTSD, Schyzophrenia, and anything else needs to be adressed as something very common and that exists. It doesn't have to be taboo.
regarding 1 guy 1 jar, the guy didn't actually like bleeding out his cavities. he would usually fill the jars with water which is why they didn't break, this time his family was outside so he didn't want to make any noise! he ended up just stuffing his cavity with gauze and going to work later that day. all this information is from whang's video btw
When i was a child, I saw a documentary about a transwoman and the medical process of it (though i looked away during most of the surgery parts) and it didn't make me be against trans folk. It just made me understand that that's just something that exists and I was glad the woman's surgery was succesful and she felt happy about it. I'm glad I saw it as a kid cause it grew my understanding of other people's lives.
I think I saw that same documentary when I was really young on PBS! I felt really happy for her. :3 Took me a hell of a long time to realise I was trans myself, though, but then non-binary gender took a bit more time to enter the greater public consciousness…
I remember watching that controversial South Park episode (showing IRL footage) as my “intro video” to one form of bottom surgery 💀 Thankfully, it wasn’t my introduction to trans people in general, so I just got an idea of the process and could watch with moreso fascination/neutrality than anything else.
Oh wow, I vaguely remember watching something like that with my mom, I just remember them explaining the procedure of bottom surgery. She used to watch a lot of medical shows like that, still does but not as often.
Oh. My dad was an aircraft engineer and that involved crash analysis and such. I've heard so many black boxes when my dad was working in his home office that was next to my bedroom. So many people panic and get so calm in the last 20-30 seconds. The most striking was a male pilot apologizing to his wife. I forgot what exactly it was, but he did something wrong and he said she and his family were right. He cried for about...idk...a few seconds. Then he prayed the rosary with his (assumed) catholic co-pilot before the plane crashed. His last word was the name of one of his children. Also there was the blackbox recording of when a female co-pilot was accidentally decapitated while boarding into a helicopter. The pilot screamed for a solid five minutes. That was one my dad was on-site for and had to help in the cleanup. If I was a worse person, I'd probably upload it all if his PC is still functional. But it upset me then...can't imagine what it would do to someone now.
I have a lot of sympathy for your dad, but I'm also sorry you had to experience that. No child should be exposed to things like that (fuck, adults don't need it either.) Hope you're doing ok
@@workchannel8053 to be fair to him, I was a morbidly curious kiddo and I'd sit outside his office door and listen. It's not like he was blasting it through the house. When I got older he just gave up trying to keep me out of/away from his office.
Michael’s is very good. I used to work there and I am very openly queer, heavily tattooed and pierced. Not only was the management chill but so we’re the customers even though most of them were older people. Don’t support Hobby Lobby and their misogyny and queerphobia, give your money to Michael’s even if you have to drive a little farther.
@PishP0n I loved working there but my health wouldn’t allow for me even to stand working part time but it’s a good place. I felt completely safe being myself there and I worked at one in East Texas. If I happen upon anyone who shops at Hobby Lobby I try to convert them to shopping at Michael’s. 😂 If nothing else Michael’s has kick ass sales all the time, they price match and at least at the one I worked at if someone was wanting to buy something we had a coupon for but the customer didn’t have the coupon on them we had the sales ads at the registers and we’d use the coupon for them regardless. The town I worked in had a Hobby Lobby, too but since we price matched most people would just shop with us and if Hobby Lobby was selling something cheaper we’d match it and snipe their customers away. 😂
I really appreciate your kindness about Bianca. That is so hard to find online. That case is so disturbing to me as someone who grew up terminally online, like that could’ve been anyone. It’s so scary to see people say that was in anyway her fault.
RE: the subject of cancellation, you're so right about it being directed primarily towards marginalized people. It's impossibly fucked up that Chappelle has made a career pivot off of being "cancelled" when trans people like the ones he is publicly hateful towards are the ones that can truly have their lives and wellbeing ruined by online mobs (ie Isabel Fall). Good video, might not be able to finish it. Schizos forever.
Now, I really want a Jay Sherman-style cardboard cutout of May holding her book and repeatedly shouting, "Buy my book! Buy my book!" But then every fourth time or so, she throws in a, "Joseph Stalin killed Dave Chapelle!"
One of my best friends in high school was super edgy and when we had computer class, once we were done with our work, we could play on the internet for awhile. So once he was done, he would look up gore, car crash videos, horrible accidents etc. And he would show me, like "look at how sick this shit is!" So I saw and heard a lot of stuff I never wanted to see and I started having nightmares. Then one of the other people he showed the gore and horrible videos to told her mother because she started having nightmares too and her mom contacted the school and the guy got suspended and when he came back, he had to have the teacher stand behind him through the whole class to make sure he didn't look up more gore and expose vulnerable people to it.
Ha we had one of these types in my class at school too. Obviously our school seriously needed to up their parental controls. Though I don't think he managed to harm anyone else with it because the first person who saw him doing this shit loudly announced it to the class and the teacher. I cannot imagine how mortified his parents were. Of all the things to be called into the heads office for.
I was on a Plagued Moth binge, he's always excellent about describing content without showing it. I was downloading pirated games on one tab not really paying attention, went to the RUclips tab and was legitimately distressed by the brick video for a good couple days. Glad I wasn't alone.
the absolute wildest NSFL viewing experience ive had was when i got re-certified on the forklift and before the instructor showed us the official Company Training Video he pulled up a couple of LiveLeak videos he had DOWNLOADED on his laptop of people just getting absolutely WRECKED in forklift accidents. they didn't show any gore but you just Knew those people were dead.
Last year I got my first Certificate to operate Forklifts, and yeah, got to see some stuff as well. I believe Shock Media does not work on everyone, but they certainly get to the point quick. To me, they work exceedingly well! And yeah, most of the deaths by Forklifts are not gory do to the cause of death being Crushing, but then again you dont see the aftermath and cleaning process.
i love how this phenomenon has fully breached containment of the logistics community, like you can just say forklift training video and most people will already be cringing. kind of brilliant, at least within the context of "some people will inevitably fuck around with dangerous machinery if they don't get the most graphic warning possible"
The Russian lathe machine video sure has me respecting the hell out of anything that's rapidly spinning. So yeah, maybe nsfl videos can actually be very practical for safety instruction.
I appreciate May’s insistence on engaging in this topic in as safe a way as possible, given the subject matter. Thanks May :) didn’t watch beyond minute 8
I love how Mae/May (I can’t remember how she spells it) like really discourages people from looking further into these tragedies and just to like, go have a nice hobby like knitting or crafting. She’s really thoughtful ❤️💕✨
as a latino, thank you so much for bringing attention to the school of the americas and all the shit that people in latam have had to go through for it. most people really don't care
I really liked plaquemoth's videos, but I stopped watching him because he was talking about the "brick through the windshield" video, and without warning cut to it. I enjoy hearing about and learning about these things, but I don't want to randomly get PTSD from some youtube vid i have on while playing videogames.
I absolutely adore his videos but he also has a habit of blurring gore but not really that well, one of his more recent videos came on autoplay and my lord I did not need to see a barely censored shotgun blast to the face at 7am on a monday morning.
Same, but I watched his the russian lathe incident video. I was shooked how poorly blurred it was. You could still see this poor dude's guts flying around. Now I'm doing my best not to visit his channel anymore but this sort of content is pretty addictive for me.
39:53 idk something about “tried to show me this to make me less trans but it didn’t work. I’m still here” like i know it’s not scripted, I’m sure, but I like that it’s not “I’m still trans” it’s just “I’m still here” implied transness. I have no way to explain my feelings, Im just trans and I’m like. Fuck yeah. Still here. The trans is implied bc I’m alive and well. Couldn’t be that if I wasn’t openly trans. Fuck yeah.
Also I have to argue that the Mandela Catalogue is NSFL bc I’m psychotic and it made my life feel not safe. Those mfers still haunt my psychotic episodes
Also Plagued Moth just PLAYING the audio out of nowhere was really bad for me too. I have intrusive thoughts and pure-O from OCD, so hearing the sound was something I never wanted to have rattle around in my brain for hours. I was really pissed because I’d known of that video for years and he just slipped it in, which was NOT cool oof.
When I was in high school I started an AP studio art project about our tolerance for sex and intolerance of violence. I spent a few months searching through crime scene photos and gore sites, looking for images with decent composition. I was laying out a 6 page spread as if in an art history textbook straining the importance of censoring your sexual content with violence. I hit a point where any time I closed my eyes I saw grotesque, fantastical, and ever-changing wounds. As my depression got worse over the years suicidal ideation became a big part of my daily life. I _feel_ the injuries much more than i see them and it sucks. Now I have a hard time hearing or seeing gore in movies and film, even goofy gore I used to enjoy. Fucking stile project ruined me
"I find people enjoying other people's death as some kind of spectacle to be kind of shit tier behavior" With good reason, too (I mean obviously lol but yeah), because also like, that's what lynching was. Lynching. It was out in the open, people were invited to watch, the entire town would come out. It was like entertainment to them. Because they had dehumanized their victims so thoroughly, in their minds.
I too was traumatized by the Russian brick video via plaguedmoth and it completely put me off his content entirely lmao that and he called Steve Irwin's death "lame" and yeah definitely one of my first exposures to true crime people that relish in the spectacle of people's suffering and play the one-up game of voluntarily rotting their brain through traumatic imagery
I have beef with plagued moth and it delights me to see other people do too. Btw Disturbed Reality does content similar to PM except his content is 1000x more respectfully presented, and super well researched too.
stumbled upon this video by chance, and i'm immediately captivated by your compassionate, calm and open vibe. i really appreciate how you approach this stuff, as i'm a very anxious and also self-destructive person who used to watch gore around the age of 18 as a form of mental punishment just for... being alive? no clue why i did that in hindsight. it follows me to this day, and i had no clue i needed someone to talk about this in a way that's approachable and open. cheers! new sub ♡
Yo I work in an anime warehouse and I just been blaring your icebergs on the PA while packing orders. Needless to say, I'm entertained and the truck repairmen next door now need therapy.
Also, as someone who grew up completely post-9/11 and in the internet era, it's insane how normalized it all is. I wouldn't have considered footage of the suicides, etc as NSFL but they totally are, and we watched documentaries about specifically that in like elementary school.
Very glad I'm at a point in my life now where the thought "Let me pull up tabs to look into some of these further" and my next thought is "All it's going to do is maybe satisfy a minuscule amount of curiosity but overall make your day really shitty. So yeah let's not do that". I had several periods in my life where it took me a bit to realize that looking these things up was a form of self harm for me. Very rarely do I listen to literal audio or watch real disturbing vids anymore thankfully. I'm a genuinely morbid person and always have been so it's never been realistic for me to try to totally shut off that curiosity. But I just stick to fucked up movies and if I feel like the content that I'm engaging with is too dark too often then I examine that. Also I got your book in the mail finally and love what I've heard so far of your new album!
As a human being you remind me of a thing Socrates used to say, "The wise man seeks death all his life, for this reason, death is not terrifying to him" I feel like this content fits into the part of my brain that is just trying to cope with death. It is useful for a human being using it to unpack and deal with the weirdness of death. Only if we understand death can we truly be ready for it ourselves and all that.
i have a morbid curiosity about this kind of thing so it’s helpful that you provide content without showing anything explicit, i feel weirdly safe on your channel lol
I live in Puerto Rico and we are going through a hurricane right now...and I'm here without electricity and with my 20% battery life watching this video and loving it before regretting it an hour later. (Honestly May entertained me so much during this hurricane!) And I would LOVE to read your book, I have it on my wish list, can't wait to read it eventually.
Bloody well love you. Plagued Moth traumatised a lot of people no doubt. Your perspective on fucked up shit is very enlightening. You are like the lil sister I never had who is annoyingly way more intelligent ❤️
Killer video May. This is one time when "Show, don't tell" can only lead to trauma so thanks for telling.... not showing. Also, Mandela Catalogue has no place on this list like you said but if you explore more internet content, do you think you might ever tackle the Analog Horror iceberg?
I really enjoy your videos and thank you so much for not putting the footage in the video but rather explaining it xD Probably spares me a lot of trauma
"Some people have really weird hobbies." It seems like hyperbole or a humorous oversimplification but it's a surprisingly insightful way of explaining why some people do what they do.
plagued moth actually mentioned me in the video he did on this as a "goretuber", which is weird cuz like. i'm not really on here reviewing gore content. i'm desensitized to fucked up content so sometimes i watch mixtapes and describe what's in it and sometimes i talk about weird fucked up movies and internet videos. i was kinda uncomfortable with him mentioning my channel like that?? idk it was just weird. i also got a bunch of subscribers from him who didn't really like me being queer and a girl and talking about fucked up shit and also like, really enjoy making fat jokes about me and would criticize me for like y'know not saying slurs and it genuinely put me off creating any sort of content.
I think you're probably the first person I've seen acknowledge how fucked the brick video is. People seem to think it's on the tamer side since you don't see anything, but as someone who tends to fall down these types of nsfl rabbit holes, that's probably the thing that messed me up the most. I was already scared of driving (thanks The Descent, for doing that to me as a child!), but that one did a number on me, . Also, hey hey, we have similar reoccurring nightmares! I think mine looks more like one of those photobooth filters that distorts the face into a swirl, though. Funny how that works.
The brick video horrifies me because something really similar almost happened to my boyfriend and his mom a few years ago. A giant wood plank flew out of the car in front of them and it cracked the windshield REAL bad, had it gone through it wouldve directly hit his mom in the face and i assume she either wouldve needed some serious reconstruction surgery or at worst she couldve died. Basically i learned to never drive behind a car that has wood/bricks/furniture/anything that can fly out and f*cking murder me
as someone newly diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder who's been keeping it a secret from nearly everyone, thank you for being open and casual about your diagnosis❤
for such an upsetting topic, this is such a cozy video. like i feel like im talking about horrible stuff with a goofy friend* while hanging out in her room *i hope this doesn't sound weird coming from a stranger ajdksk i just mean this vid has such a comfortable, casual vibe yknow?
For the racism against Natives in the Gore community, I absolutely agree that it's not talked about enough. As a native myself, when I first got into the goretuber community I was shocked at the amount of cultural appropriation and casual racism thrown around. It really felt like I wouldn't be accepted much in any fanbases.
@@winglessfairy564 yeah, it's mainly to satiate grim curiosity or to help someone cope with the thought of a tragic death. Or people that are interested in finding out backstories to gore videos :]
this video handles this topic much better than goretuber folks do. i unfortunately fell down that rabbit hole of watching these people and i’m so glad i’ve opened my eyes to how bad they are but this video is very well made and the way you emphasize how BAD it is to glorify or meme these things , is so important. thank you.
I have ocd and get stuck in rabbitholes sometimes. Used to be completely obsessed with gore content in earlier internet days and it made my anxiety so much worse. Love hearing your perspective on this stuff!
I have OCD too and have kept myself away from gore videos thankfully, but I get a bit too invested in hearing about NSFL content because it’s morbid curiosity about all my worst fears coming to life. But then I get a bunch of intrusive thoughts and things stick with me :(
Hearing you mention schizophrenia and schizo posting was really fun and relatable to me! I am and have been really into this sort of thing for a lot of my life and recently started thinking about my mental state and how I might also have schizophrenia in some way (runs in my family from my parents) and it's hard to find people mention it casually or see it depicted as normal people with issues. This comment might make no sense and will totally get lost but idk, it made me as a struggling woman feel not so alone just to hear you mention it casually like that. Thank you for being yourself ♡
The brick video singlehandedly made me stop watching NSFL material for good. I can never unhear those screams. That video traumatized me more than any gore video ever could have.
I’ve always been scared and reluctant to mention my schizophrenia, even in passing or as an explanation so seeing you just kinda mention it and move on really gave me pause and, well, hope. That was really rad. Also your music slaps!
honestly a lil healing to hear someone else also was traumatized by plagued moth autoplaying the russian brick video in his iceberg sorry u had to go thru that also, shit sucks!!
your perspective on the concept of nsfl honestly made me far more willing to partake than normal. i tend to dislike this style of content but with the talk of perspective and contexts given it gives it nuance.
i’ve already fallen in love with your personality over a couple long videos and hearing “so get ready- here comes a schizopost” and then you laughing. as someone who deals with psychosis. sent me absolutely soaring oh my god i was trying to draw and just kept giggling
i like that you actually stop to explain why stuff on this list was not only fucked up for the victims but for spectators just minding their own business who saw these things whether they wanted to or not. nobody talks enough about what it was like in the last 20 or 30 years (?) to suddenly be subjected to so much nsfl stuff. ive always wanted to talk about my experience as a kid and teen in those early days but i haven't found a good excuse to do so i guess also on mr.plaguedmoth he's alright - i don't really know what to think about gore reaction videos but i do appreciate that he'll tell the other gore enjoyers things like "i don't care if you think im a pussy- this is terrible" that said those videos could use a wee bit more warning
wait, people send footage of people getting operated on to trans people to "own" them? How does that make sense, every operation is super gross and nasty, a person is literally getting cut into! Do these people know what happens during a birth and how gross that shit is??
May just went down my childhood internet history almost chronologically and my drunk narcissist of a mother wonders why I'm in therapy and was once a heroin addict.
If I may offer a point of correction, the guy in the jar video didn't intend to have the jar break. He basically is just a giant size queen from my knowledge and he usually would fill the jars with water to prevent breakage but because he (now, I got be wrong, don't take me for gospel but I know that Whang has an interview and that's what I'm recalling from) wanted to do an impromptu session he didn't bother with the water in the jar in case it arose suspicion from his family. And what's even gnarlier is that instead of going to a hospital he just picked out the shards and shoved himself full of cotton balls and somehow made a full recovery 😵😵
I’ve seen a lot of bad shit, but the only medical shit I’ve seen that really upset me were horrific traumas being treated. The cleanness and precision of surgery, while it does body-horror tickle me from time to time, it’s never particularly shocking to me.
God this is horrible but the bit where you were talking about your recurring nightmare made me SCREAM laugh until I cried. That imagery is so scary and I just find that too hilarious.
Found my new favorite person on RUclips. Incredibly well spoken, hilarious, wonderful pacing, wide range of topics, and plenty of new info for me to research. My ONLY gripe is that she didn’t put the spellings of some topics on screen. Would have made my research a little easier, but even with that being said, solid 9.5/10 and I can’t wait for more videos.
40:00 funny enough, on the subreddit r/morbidreality, one of the top sorted posts is someone getting top surgery (that or SRS, I can’t remember the specifics) - and all of the top comments were actually super nice and respectful for once lmao. It was nice to see on a gore subreddit of all things.
it's funny that ppl talk about how trans surgery is gross or whatever. because ALL SURGERY IS GROSS. are you going to say that someone shouldn't get a life-saving organ transplant because it's "gross??"
Got recommended part 2 cuz my algorithm knows I can’t help myself, listened to one minute and knew I had to come to part 1 for the full experience. You’re a phenomenal presenter
For me my “Baby’s first gore/traumatizing video” wasn’t Budd Dwyer’s suicide it was the body cam footage of the death of Bryan Wells. Essentially a pizza delivery driver died from a collar bomb detonating on his neck. I ended up watching the Netflix doc with my mom and she was kinda shocked that I wasn’t spooked like she was due to the fact I had seen it before.
The one of these that just hit me hardest is the one about graverobbing. I agree that it sounds like a student film, but earlier this summer, as a seasonal employee at a cemetery (doing preservation work on historic monuments), my coworker and I accidentally dug up the skeletal remains of a man who was much, MUCH closer to the surface than he was supposed to be (we suspect tree roots pulled him up). We managed to sift through the dirt we'd already dug up and get all of him reburied, and the rest of the work on his monument went fine, but I'm still processing it months later, and I keep going between it being incredibly funny to me and incredibly disturbing. I hadn't thought about him in a few days. I really hope that's a student film. I'm not sure what else my point is here except maybe try to avoid unexpectedly having to hold human remains? idk
It feels important to me to mention that his name was Albert. Maybe thats sentimental of me to think its important to humanize him in a RUclips comment on this kind of video, but yeah, his name was Albert, he was in the Navy when he died in 1853, and his obituary said he was easy to get along with and he loved science.
People Showing SRS Videos And Being Like "Still Fancy That Surgery?!???" Is So Weird. Imagine Doing That To Literally Anyone Else Who Is Getting Surgery
Yeah, it's the appeal to disgust fallacy. Literally every surgery, from wisdom tooth removal to brain surgery, is gross. That has no bearing on whether or not it is a good thing to do. People need to stop thinking that just because something grosses them out, that it must therefore be a bad thing.
I have trauma with plagued moth for another reason. I had a bad experience with him in his server. When I was 18. I got access to the nsfw channels (I showed ID and everything) And then he told me 2 months later, my ID was fake and that I was underage. Then he went to twitter and called me a predator. And it was a traumatic experience.. All because I looked younger than my age..
i’m so glad you mention that the obsession with cartel killings/other acts of violence that happen to occur in “developing” countries is racist. it really feels like a lot of ⚪️ people get off on watching the torment and trauma of black and brown people as a roundabout way of feeling good about their own privileged lives in the global north
I think you can learn alot from true crime. I started watching documentaries about murder when I was about 12 and they have taught me alot about what kind of men I should stay clear of if I don't wanna die a gruesome death
@@sashathedonut Yeah, but those "Blessed images" don't have as extreme an effect as rekt content does. Whenever I stumble across a work accident clip or a street fight gone wrong, it ruins my day. It's stuck in my head for weeks. I've never seen a video that was so good that it made me do the same thing. The good things in life or momentary, the bad are eternal.
I had to stop the video after the subscribe incident to laugh uncontrollably. It's almost like they were going "Yeah, beheddings! This is the content I subscribe for." despite you not actually being live at the time and they had no way of knowing. Much needed after the topics so far.
I think the reason that I like your content and engaging with it, even when I disagree with you, is because I feel like no other channel really opens up these discussions on internet related traumas and tragedies with the focus and care you give it. I experienced seeing a lot of things on the internet i really should not have and its nice i guess to have someone online openly discuss and open up a conversation about that stuff, both in terms of giving the trauma inducing content context as well as analyzing how seeing that stuff online at a young age can hurt your brain real bad. I know you said that you often have to seek out the internets many wonderful horrors, but in my experience it feels like they found me instead, so having the ability to open a dialog about these literal pieces of my and i assume many other zoomers' trauma is comforting i guess? Honestly watching your videos makes me feel like almost sick to my stomach but in a way that i need to feel so i can move on, if that makes any sense. Im sorry if that sounds like an insult, i swear its not
Every year on 9/11 when I was in high school, all of my teachers in every class I had that day would forgo any actual schoolwork and instead just show us footage of 9/11. Not tributes or anything like that, just footage of the event itself. The towers collapsing, people jumping off of the buildings, things of that nature. And I graduated high school before I turned 18, so I was the ages of 14-17 being shown videos of people jumping off of the towers and losing their lives in my school lol. I remember one time in specific where we were shown a video of a guy recording the event on his phone from the streets below one of the towers. He caught one of the planes striking the building in his video, and he reacted (pretty justifiably) with a "OH SHIT!". The teacher immediately scrambled to turn the video off, and then apologized to us because the guy swore as if that was the disturbing thing that the class was witnessing
so i just looked at plaugemoths channel and.... i think the music at the beginning and ending of some of his videos completely undermines any claim about wanting to "show the reality" of the world, or "garner attention for victims" if he really cared he wouldnt have a fucking intro AND outro song (that he produced!) on a video of a 17 year old girl being dismembered, talking about this shit like its cool or edgy or whatever. its pretty blatent that his channel is exploitative of these events and he offer a "safer" way of consuming this kind of content. there is absolutely no need to show censored versions of the content he talks about, but he does it anyways because what people really get out of him and his channel is a satiation of their morbid curiosity, and entertainment from the """thrilling""" nature of even thinking about these kinds of things. the outro song on the video is so disgusting, the lyrics are literally like "i get home and watch gore videos, pretty young thing, long blonde hair, real fucking shame shes strapped to a chair. you should see the look in her eyes when they bring out all the knives. shes screaming "she'll get out alive" but i paid to watch her die" all while disturbing inagrey and simulated murder are shown on screen. he isn't doing anything but making "spooky edgy content" from these tragedies and everything else is just a justification for it. every goreposter has their own moral justification but deep down we all know its BS, his viewers (and gore seekers in general) just like to see people die and be tortured bc it stimulates strong fear, rage, or disgust reactions. it provides a dopamine hit and a satisfaction of our fascination with the salacious. at the very least he should be honest with himself and others about what his channel is- exploitation of victims for entertainment and furthering of his "OmG iM sO fUc*eD uP DoOd" emo myspace kid aesthetic
I used to watch nsfl/gore stuff on LiveLeak when I was younger (late teens-mid twenties), but nowadays I’m just like “Naaah, I’d rather not see a man get half his head blown off irl.”
Im so glad I wasn't the only one who was hurt by plaguedmoth just playing the Russian brick vid.. I .Ilisten to yt vids at work and it was very scary for me to try and skip past. Thanks for not playing the vids in this tier list.
One of the Zooier than thou podcasts host's identities was exposed by the furry fandom last year and unfortunately it's someone in my city that I'd actually ran into before. Can confirm, his poor pitbull showed many physical signs of abuse back when I unwittingly visited their home in 2014.
I've seen a lot of these iceberg videos. Most of them, no matter the genre, are exploitative or vague. I didn't expect much coming here, but your explanations are witty, succinct, and convey the information in a really good way. Your second NSFL iceberg video had a section around 1 dot 08 dot 00 talking about self-harm. I'm also trans and face a lot of issues (depression, self-harm, etc.). The "everything will get better! Keep your chin up!" argument has never worked on me, and when resources like phone lines are pushed, I always feel ashamed that I am displacing my pain on others. This isn't the same video, but I started from Part 2 and just gathered my thoughts. Thank you for everything you said about self-harm and trauma. It's the only thing that's spoken to me in a long time.
Another similarity between Abe and 9/11 is the fact that generations of political, religious and capitalist issues led up to it. The assassin’s motives were linked to Abe’s connection to a Korean cult that brainwashed, manipulated and financially abused hundreds of people and for some reason had significant influence over the Japanese centre right including Abe. But most people, especially outside of East Asia just saw “important Japanese politician man dead” and reacted accordingly. Not to justify a man’s murder, it was horrific. It’s just that it’s a complexity that very few people considered bc people got enough baggage from their own political traumas in the west.
I've been on the Internet for a long time and I've managed to avoid most nsfl stuff, the only exception I can recall is a video of a trans woman pleasuring herself with a rotting horse head Edit: watched more of the vid, yep, putrid sex object.
Here’s the thing, May, and you know this too. We are just like you. We know we don’t need to watch this video. Most of us probably already know what’s going to be listed here. Some of us are in recovery from our old habit of watching every horrible thing on the internet just to feel something only to “oh fuck oh no, I didn’t mean for this thing to stay with me for the rest of my life.” So we know. You know. And yes, we ARE going to watch this video and revisit those things. But what I LOVE about you, is that you represent those of us that have a conscience about it. Those of us who, through our cynicism about EVERYTHING, wish we weren’t this way. But accept it.
39:35 i absolutely love watching medical procedures, so dope the way humans figured that shit out. I remember at school I'd be one of the only ones intently watching the screen whenever it was something medical related lmao
As someone on the psychosis spectrum, hearing you casually refer to having schizophrenia and then moving on was really comforting. Thanks for that
yeah I thought that too.
Agreed! I really appreciated May sharing that in the way she did
Aww, hey psychosis fam!
This reminds me of the time she casually mentioned being autistic and it made me so happy
@@finnigancrunch7778 omg I remember that!!! It made me happy too :)
Most of the NSFL/gore community is literally like:
*brown kid dies* "Damn that's sick. Did you see the way his head split open?"
*white kid dies* "That's so sad. Guys let's be respectful here"
Jfc i noticed that too
Fucking horrible....
Shit. I thought it was fair game.
You are the only content creator in this genre I trust not to fuck me up, you are very talented at walking people through some of the saddest most disturbed moments in human history
Big agree. When she mention this came from PM, I cringed a little, but, felt better when she mentioned her alterations.
@@xer0signal why cringe? I always feel like he gives tons of warning before anything ever plays, even describing it first.
@@brigade7678 i personally disagree, she mentioned a few times about the russian brick video and i watched the iceberg video where he covered it and he played it within seconds with barely any heads up beyond "if you think im not gonna play the clip too bad". he can be pretty bad and tonedeaf with the reaction warnings imo
Chaotic good plagued moth. Subbed
@@superjchamma Yea, I almost wiped my party in my MMORPG because I in a panic alt tabbed to stop Plague's video, never went back to his videos ever again. It was the second video of his I ever watched.
One of my ex-girlfriends (still friends, because lesbians) is schizophrenic. She hallucinates birds following her and talking to her. She assumed it was normal and not even something to bring up until she went to college and took a psychology class. I guess it hadn't occurred to her because she grew up on a farm and you don't go to the doctor unless you are literally dying in many rural communities. There's cultures still where the concept that hallucinations=bad haven't spread enough to effect their hallucinations. Basically, the very concept that one isn't supposed to see things that aren't there can cause more distressing sensory experiences to those who experience hallucinations. Don't know what the solution is other than destigmatize, because some people do genuinely suffer as a result of such conditions, like those with paranoid delusions. Anyway, weird rant done. You and another trans friend of mine both have schizophrenia.
Your ex was really living life as a Disney princess and that's incredible.
And, in fact, this is actually a documented scientific fact about how culture effects mental illness! Psychologists have found that, in cultures like ours where seeing or hearing things is seen as a bad thing, those who do often report it as a negative experience and often as strangers yelling or judging them, but, in cultures where hearing and seeing things is seen as a positive thing like many shamanistic cultures, those who do report it as a positive and reassuring experience and often perceive it as loved ones and ancestors reassuring them and giving them advice. It truly is fascinating!
@@StCrimson667 it makes me wonder how some traits may have been perceived differently a long time ago as well. Someone with paranoid schizophrenia (delusions of being watched and followed is the stereotypical idea we have of that today). Someone like that in a hunter gatherer tribe wouldn't be seen as paranoid, because when there's cave lions, dire wolves, giant hyenas, bears, and who knows what else right outside the cave, the paranoid guy isn't paranoid, he's right. There's things out there that want to get you.
It's truly fascinating when considering what would be considered negative in modern culture that was probably useful at some point in the past.
@@OhThatNK mostly, yeah. Although she did explain that some of the birds were mean. Ravens and crows were always nice, but blue birds would peck at her insecurities, no pun intended. Occasionally when she would get overwhelmed, the birds would sort of 'take over' her vision, like a collage of birds filling a screen. However, she still considers it just another thing she has and is in fact mostly positive. (She just ignores the blue birds).
@@cathycat4989 My professor in university had a really great way of putting it. She said that, nowadays, if you told someone that you saw thing that no one saw and hear things that no one else heard, they'd put you on anti-psychotics, throw you in the psych ward, and put you in therapy to make you act normal. 2000 years ago, if you told someone you saw things no one else saw and heard things that no one else heard, they'd call you a shaman or an oracle or a seer and society would have a place for you and a very, very important place at that. Society had a place for people like that whereas we don't have places for people like that any longer.
The aftermath of Bianca Devins case was absolutely terrifying. Incels were spreading the pictures to every kind of communities that they disliked (mainly ones by women) and basically telling them "ur next" and spreading all sorts of mean spirited rumours about Bianca. I remember seeing one of the photos of her on twitter right under a tweet by one of her family members explaining the situation because no one really knew what was going on. I cant imagine what they went through at that time. That whole situation made me realize how scary incels really are.. They see a photo of a clearly dead nearly decapitated young girl and say "this is right" because women wont date them. Some said she was asexual, others said she was sleeping with a lot of men and some said she was just mean, all to justify her getting killed.. Absolutely disgusting
it's fucked up. some of my online friends knew her and at one point we followed each other on IG. I remember sending her tiktoks to my friends bc I was jealous of how pretty she was. I for the life of me cannot get that god damn picture of her out of my head. I hardly knew her but god damn. also the fact that she was killed for not requiting a man's obsession with her hits way too close to home. it's so triggering seeing true crime vids about her pop up in my recs
i don't know what happened for so many men to just... give up their humanity like that so quickly. maybe it was the internet, maybe trauma, who knows.
Shit like all of what you described, honestly makes me lose lots of respect for cis dudes. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully 100% trust most of them.
her death really sticks with me to this day. i was the same age as her when she died, and was also involved in the alt scene. her death, and the way people dehumanized her, repeatedly just calling her an "egirl", it sickens me. she was a young girl, she was only seventeen, a KID. i vividly remember seeing a 4chan thread the day she died with the picture, and the comments were all "wow, she was my ideal type". it disturbed me so deeply because i wondered if i had died in a similar way, would that be how people treat me? objectified even in death. to this day people on 4chan say disgusting things about her. it's truly terrifying to be a teenage girl
Bianca's case is horrorifying both in the brutality of the murder as well as the aftermath of misinformation being widespread. Also the slut shaming of Bianca after her death. When as far as I'm aware she was not only ace but also very much being preyed on by more than one creep. It's just sad all in all. I recommend Dreading's video on her since he is the only person that has covered her case accurately and respectively.
I have a really bad spiral I go into where I get temporarily addicted to nsfl videos. I can't stop watching the content and looking for more, and it spirals me into a depression and paranoia, so many emotions. I feel bad for looking at the stuff, feel bad for the people, get worried about things happening to loved ones/imagine it happening to them, while also being completely fascinated and watching closely. It usually ends with a mental breakdown and me swearing off of them, but the spiral always happens again. I feel like this video helps me not look them up, just listening about them feels like a good way to get myself off the weird addiction. I wish I could just stop but like, I'm seriously just addicted to these stupid gore vids.
I think often what we crave most is someone to talk us through the trauma as a friend. no one really ever wants to talk to people about their pain so we all end up suffering alone.
I had the same thing but like for 6 or 7 years straight from 15 to like early 20s. I have watched some of the most depraved content and honestly I felt numb to all of it and I just kept subjecting myself to worse and worse shit. In retrospect I feel like it was me self harming due to past trauma. I was a very sensitive child and one day through all the abuse I went through I just went numb. I tried watching one of the videos I saw when I was young (a video of a pow getting beheaded with a steak knife) and I had to stop it within seconds, I was sobbing and nauseous, I have no idea how I could stomach that shit before.
I’d place a Vegas wager that anyone who regularly consumes real gore content has probably experienced severe emotional trauma in their life. I base this on my own history but when I get in a rut where I obsessively watch disturbing films and real gore it’s because I’m wallowing in unimaginable despair because of the severe abuse I faced at home as well as at school starting in my earliest childhood. People who watch this shit are very rarely violent themselves. In my case seeing this stuff makes me feel less like shit about my life because something worse happened to someone else. On the other hand, though, I do still have empathy and feel bad the people in these videos are being hurt but I still have the fascination. I hope if any of you are watching these things because you’ve experienced trauma that you can pull yourself out of the dark pit you’ve found yourself in and find some light.
Hey pal i hope you can talk through your emotions with someone or get some counseling. There's more people in your life that care than you think.
@@12Tecpatl I’m not sure if you are talking to me, but if you are, thank you. My partner, friends, and therapist are all working tirelessly to keep me afloat mentally. I’m going to be okay, I just have a lot of repressed memories (I don’t have but a handful of memories from my childhood) and some have recently bubbled to the surface and they’re hard to deal with. So, blah, blah, blah I’ll be fine. Thank you for caring. I hope you’re doing well, too.
Took me years to realize that watching nslf content was a form of extreme self harm for me. I was making myself absolutely agonize over the pain of others and it would cause me to spiral and catastrophize.
i did something similar when i was extremely depressed. i would watch this one documentary that is incredibly heartbreaking in order to feel some form of emotion. im glad you've noticed this, and i hope you've gotten help if you can.
Tension, pain/pleasure, feel of release. Like shoplifting. We all have our facets of addictions.
Same here, well said 👍
Is that what it is? Gah damn, I've been falling back into the NSFL rabbit hole lately since my life had been a bit dogshit lately. I considered it as a toxic coping mechanism but never really thought of it as self harm. Just sort of... Desensitization, as awful as that sounds. But now that I think about it, that pretty fucked and it's absolutely some form of SH.
maybe im just overly emotional, but hearing you say you have schizophrenia genuinely made me burst into tears. im schizo myself and it can be a nightmare to live with a lot of the time, so finding out that someone else is "like me" in that regard is very comforting. your videos(despite their very morbid subject matter) have probably changed my way of thinking for the better, i remember especially watching the last part of your disturbing movies iceberg when it came out and it having a huge impact on me. love ur videos they mean a lot 2 me
Same over hear but about C-PTSD. I mostly see people associate PTSD with stuff like war veterans. So it's already not always easy being taken seriously, because your trauma wasn't """traumatic enough""". And then there's C-PTSD, where people in my country are even more ignorant about it than PTSD. So many people think it's the exact same thing and just a name to seem like a special snowflake.
Anyways! Hearing Nyx saying she has C-PTSD rather casually made me feel less alone as well. Plus it makes me feel better when content creator with any mental illness/disorder normalize their existence. C-PTSD, PTSD, Schyzophrenia, and anything else needs to be adressed as something very common and that exists. It doesn't have to be taboo.
regarding 1 guy 1 jar, the guy didn't actually like bleeding out his cavities. he would usually fill the jars with water which is why they didn't break, this time his family was outside so he didn't want to make any noise! he ended up just stuffing his cavity with gauze and going to work later that day. all this information is from whang's video btw
When i was a child, I saw a documentary about a transwoman and the medical process of it (though i looked away during most of the surgery parts) and it didn't make me be against trans folk. It just made me understand that that's just something that exists and I was glad the woman's surgery was succesful and she felt happy about it. I'm glad I saw it as a kid cause it grew my understanding of other people's lives.
I think there's a video like that on RUclips if I remember correctly saw it when I was ten
I think I saw that same documentary when I was really young on PBS! I felt really happy for her. :3 Took me a hell of a long time to realise I was trans myself, though, but then non-binary gender took a bit more time to enter the greater public consciousness…
I remember watching that controversial South Park episode (showing IRL footage) as my “intro video” to one form of bottom surgery 💀
Thankfully, it wasn’t my introduction to trans people in general, so I just got an idea of the process and could watch with moreso fascination/neutrality than anything else.
@Borsalino Kizaru cry about it
Oh wow, I vaguely remember watching something like that with my mom, I just remember them explaining the procedure of bottom surgery. She used to watch a lot of medical shows like that, still does but not as often.
Oh. My dad was an aircraft engineer and that involved crash analysis and such. I've heard so many black boxes when my dad was working in his home office that was next to my bedroom. So many people panic and get so calm in the last 20-30 seconds. The most striking was a male pilot apologizing to his wife. I forgot what exactly it was, but he did something wrong and he said she and his family were right. He cried for about...idk...a few seconds. Then he prayed the rosary with his (assumed) catholic co-pilot before the plane crashed. His last word was the name of one of his children.
Also there was the blackbox recording of when a female co-pilot was accidentally decapitated while boarding into a helicopter. The pilot screamed for a solid five minutes. That was one my dad was on-site for and had to help in the cleanup.
If I was a worse person, I'd probably upload it all if his PC is still functional. But it upset me then...can't imagine what it would do to someone now.
God, I hope your dad's okay
@@beanjm9773 he committed suicide in 2013.
I cleaned it.
@@tibicenlinnei4014
I'm so sorry
I have a lot of sympathy for your dad, but I'm also sorry you had to experience that. No child should be exposed to things like that (fuck, adults don't need it either.) Hope you're doing ok
@@workchannel8053 to be fair to him, I was a morbidly curious kiddo and I'd sit outside his office door and listen. It's not like he was blasting it through the house. When I got older he just gave up trying to keep me out of/away from his office.
Michael’s is very good. I used to work there and I am very openly queer, heavily tattooed and pierced. Not only was the management chill but so we’re the customers even though most of them were older people. Don’t support Hobby Lobby and their misogyny and queerphobia, give your money to Michael’s even if you have to drive a little farther.
@PishP0n I loved working there but my health wouldn’t allow for me even to stand working part time but it’s a good place. I felt completely safe being myself there and I worked at one in East Texas. If I happen upon anyone who shops at Hobby Lobby I try to convert them to shopping at Michael’s. 😂 If nothing else Michael’s has kick ass sales all the time, they price match and at least at the one I worked at if someone was wanting to buy something we had a coupon for but the customer didn’t have the coupon on them we had the sales ads at the registers and we’d use the coupon for them regardless. The town I worked in had a Hobby Lobby, too but since we price matched most people would just shop with us and if Hobby Lobby was selling something cheaper we’d match it and snipe their customers away. 😂
One guy at my local Michael's has a giant bold "BORN THIS WAY" tattoo on his forearm. And I was like right on dude
When I worked at Michaels, many a gay worked there, including myself.
@@kssykssygg many a gay 🌈🌈🌈
I really appreciate your kindness about Bianca. That is so hard to find online. That case is so disturbing to me as someone who grew up terminally online, like that could’ve been anyone. It’s so scary to see people say that was in anyway her fault.
RE: the subject of cancellation, you're so right about it being directed primarily towards marginalized people. It's impossibly fucked up that Chappelle has made a career pivot off of being "cancelled" when trans people like the ones he is publicly hateful towards are the ones that can truly have their lives and wellbeing ruined by online mobs (ie Isabel Fall). Good video, might not be able to finish it. Schizos forever.
Now, I really want a Jay Sherman-style cardboard cutout of May holding her book and repeatedly shouting, "Buy my book! Buy my book!" But then every fourth time or so, she throws in a, "Joseph Stalin killed Dave Chapelle!"
I think about that scene every time someone talks about their own book.😂Not enough people talk about The Critic.
@@societycrumbles Preach!
One of my best friends in high school was super edgy and when we had computer class, once we were done with our work, we could play on the internet for awhile. So once he was done, he would look up gore, car crash videos, horrible accidents etc. And he would show me, like "look at how sick this shit is!" So I saw and heard a lot of stuff I never wanted to see and I started having nightmares. Then one of the other people he showed the gore and horrible videos to told her mother because she started having nightmares too and her mom contacted the school and the guy got suspended and when he came back, he had to have the teacher stand behind him through the whole class to make sure he didn't look up more gore and expose vulnerable people to it.
Ha we had one of these types in my class at school too. Obviously our school seriously needed to up their parental controls. Though I don't think he managed to harm anyone else with it because the first person who saw him doing this shit loudly announced it to the class and the teacher. I cannot imagine how mortified his parents were. Of all the things to be called into the heads office for.
Okay miss 2am upload 💅
I was on a Plagued Moth binge, he's always excellent about describing content without showing it. I was downloading pirated games on one tab not really paying attention, went to the RUclips tab and was legitimately distressed by the brick video for a good couple days. Glad I wasn't alone.
I also like his videos, glad to see other people who also enjoy this type of content and who are curious :)
@@Unluckq Disturbed Reality is MVP in my books
@@ChrisMeadows1992 yep
Yeah. Him and Disturbed Reality are some of the few gore reviewers who don't have weird hang ups about Native Americans and LGBTQIA peeps.
@@luxuscarnage4828 it helps that plagued is an active ally for LGBTQIA
May: get some beads
Me (threading beads on a friendship bracelet at this very moment): 🙂
Haha I've just ordered some for my macrame plant hangers, everyone needs beads to mess with, she's not wrong
the absolute wildest NSFL viewing experience ive had was when i got re-certified on the forklift and before the instructor showed us the official Company Training Video he pulled up a couple of LiveLeak videos he had DOWNLOADED on his laptop of people just getting absolutely WRECKED in forklift accidents. they didn't show any gore but you just Knew those people were dead.
That's a way to get the point across I get
@@shauntoler9216 YEAH like it was certainly effective i guess but i certainly did not expect to see that in my corporate mandated forklift training
Last year I got my first Certificate to operate Forklifts, and yeah, got to see some stuff as well.
I believe Shock Media does not work on everyone, but they certainly get to the point quick. To me, they work exceedingly well!
And yeah, most of the deaths by Forklifts are not gory do to the cause of death being Crushing, but then again you dont see the aftermath and cleaning process.
i love how this phenomenon has fully breached containment of the logistics community, like you can just say forklift training video and most people will already be cringing. kind of brilliant, at least within the context of "some people will inevitably fuck around with dangerous machinery if they don't get the most graphic warning possible"
The Russian lathe machine video sure has me respecting the hell out of anything that's rapidly spinning. So yeah, maybe nsfl videos can actually be very practical for safety instruction.
Finally, some family friendly content.
Everything is family friendly when you have enough money for the therapy
I appreciate May’s insistence on engaging in this topic in as safe a way as possible, given the subject matter. Thanks May :) didn’t watch beyond minute 8
I love how Mae/May (I can’t remember how she spells it) like really discourages people from looking further into these tragedies and just to like, go have a nice hobby like knitting or crafting. She’s really thoughtful ❤️💕✨
It's May! And I agree, she's amazing
as a latino, thank you so much for bringing attention to the school of the americas and all the shit that people in latam have had to go through for it. most people really don't care
I really liked plaquemoth's videos, but I stopped watching him because he was talking about the "brick through the windshield" video, and without warning cut to it.
I enjoy hearing about and learning about these things, but I don't want to randomly get PTSD from some youtube vid i have on while playing videogames.
I absolutely adore his videos but he also has a habit of blurring gore but not really that well, one of his more recent videos came on autoplay and my lord I did not need to see a barely censored shotgun blast to the face at 7am on a monday morning.
Same, but I watched his the russian lathe incident video. I was shooked how poorly blurred it was. You could still see this poor dude's guts flying around. Now I'm doing my best not to visit his channel anymore but this sort of content is pretty addictive for me.
39:53 idk something about “tried to show me this to make me less trans but it didn’t work. I’m still here” like i know it’s not scripted, I’m sure, but I like that it’s not “I’m still trans” it’s just “I’m still here” implied transness. I have no way to explain my feelings, Im just trans and I’m like. Fuck yeah. Still here. The trans is implied bc I’m alive and well. Couldn’t be that if I wasn’t openly trans. Fuck yeah.
Also I have to argue that the Mandela Catalogue is NSFL bc I’m psychotic and it made my life feel not safe. Those mfers still haunt my psychotic episodes
Also Plagued Moth just PLAYING the audio out of nowhere was really bad for me too. I have intrusive thoughts and pure-O from OCD, so hearing the sound was something I never wanted to have rattle around in my brain for hours. I was really pissed because I’d known of that video for years and he just slipped it in, which was NOT cool oof.
Even cropped or blurred images become intrusive thoughts for me :,(
When I was in high school I started an AP studio art project about our tolerance for sex and intolerance of violence. I spent a few months searching through crime scene photos and gore sites, looking for images with decent composition. I was laying out a 6 page spread as if in an art history textbook straining the importance of censoring your sexual content with violence. I hit a point where any time I closed my eyes I saw grotesque, fantastical, and ever-changing wounds. As my depression got worse over the years suicidal ideation became a big part of my daily life. I _feel_ the injuries much more than i see them and it sucks. Now I have a hard time hearing or seeing gore in movies and film, even goofy gore I used to enjoy. Fucking stile project ruined me
"I find people enjoying other people's death as some kind of spectacle to be kind of shit tier behavior" With good reason, too (I mean obviously lol but yeah), because also like, that's what lynching was. Lynching. It was out in the open, people were invited to watch, the entire town would come out. It was like entertainment to them. Because they had dehumanized their victims so thoroughly, in their minds.
I too was traumatized by the Russian brick video via plaguedmoth and it completely put me off his content entirely lmao that and he called Steve Irwin's death "lame" and yeah definitely one of my first exposures to true crime people that relish in the spectacle of people's suffering and play the one-up game of voluntarily rotting their brain through traumatic imagery
fr it’s irritating to see ppl hype him up right now too :/ glad i’m not the only one who isn’t a fan of him
Nah fr like you a grown man stop tryna be so edgy and cool. Great you watch beheading videos you want a medal or smthn?
I have beef with plagued moth and it delights me to see other people do too.
Btw Disturbed Reality does content similar to PM except his content is 1000x more respectfully presented, and super well researched too.
Thank god someone calls him out. I hate how exploitive he is
i also hate his whole pretentious “lol im offending ppl” remarks. hes so fucking annoying and such a dickhead
stumbled upon this video by chance, and i'm immediately captivated by your compassionate, calm and open vibe. i really appreciate how you approach this stuff, as i'm a very anxious and also self-destructive person who used to watch gore around the age of 18 as a form of mental punishment just for... being alive? no clue why i did that in hindsight. it follows me to this day, and i had no clue i needed someone to talk about this in a way that's approachable and open. cheers! new sub ♡
Yo I work in an anime warehouse and I just been blaring your icebergs on the PA while packing orders. Needless to say, I'm entertained and the truck repairmen next door now need therapy.
anime warehouse?? tell me where they're manufacturing the catboys right now
WHERE ARE THE CATBOYS, TELL US NOW
Also, as someone who grew up completely post-9/11 and in the internet era, it's insane how normalized it all is. I wouldn't have considered footage of the suicides, etc as NSFL but they totally are, and we watched documentaries about specifically that in like elementary school.
Very glad I'm at a point in my life now where the thought "Let me pull up tabs to look into some of these further" and my next thought is "All it's going to do is maybe satisfy a minuscule amount of curiosity but overall make your day really shitty. So yeah let's not do that". I had several periods in my life where it took me a bit to realize that looking these things up was a form of self harm for me. Very rarely do I listen to literal audio or watch real disturbing vids anymore thankfully. I'm a genuinely morbid person and always have been so it's never been realistic for me to try to totally shut off that curiosity. But I just stick to fucked up movies and if I feel like the content that I'm engaging with is too dark too often then I examine that. Also I got your book in the mail finally and love what I've heard so far of your new album!
As a human being you remind me of a thing Socrates used to say,
"The wise man seeks death all his life, for this reason, death is not terrifying to him"
I feel like this content fits into the part of my brain that is just trying to cope with death. It is useful for a human being using it to unpack and deal with the weirdness of death. Only if we understand death can we truly be ready for it ourselves and all that.
i have a morbid curiosity about this kind of thing so it’s helpful that you provide content without showing anything explicit, i feel weirdly safe on your channel lol
Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am...Then I go down memory lane, and remember that I was raised by the internet and stuff makes sense again.
I witnessed the original pain Olympics at....I think 13?
I swear I'm okay.
@@tibicenlinnei4014 Dude we sent those videos to eachother via IR in highschool... growing up in the early internet days was wild
I live in Puerto Rico and we are going through a hurricane right now...and I'm here without electricity and with my 20% battery life watching this video and loving it before regretting it an hour later.
(Honestly May entertained me so much during this hurricane!)
And I would LOVE to read your book, I have it on my wish list, can't wait to read it eventually.
espero que vos y tu familia estén bien!! y tmb ojalá q el huracán se calme.. stay safe! ♡
Ain’t nothin’ like watching a May video while eating at your favorite diner in the middle of the night.
Bloody well love you.
Plagued Moth traumatised a lot of people no doubt.
Your perspective on fucked up shit is very enlightening. You are like the lil sister I never had who is annoyingly way more intelligent ❤️
Killer video May. This is one time when "Show, don't tell" can only lead to trauma so thanks for telling.... not showing.
Also, Mandela Catalogue has no place on this list like you said but if you explore more internet content, do you think you might ever tackle the Analog Horror iceberg?
I really enjoy your videos and thank you so much for not putting the footage in the video but rather explaining it xD
Probably spares me a lot of trauma
"Some people have really weird hobbies."
It seems like hyperbole or a humorous oversimplification but it's a surprisingly insightful way of explaining why some people do what they do.
My first NSFL experience was Challenger exploding on the TV in my kindergarten class.
Same.
mine was when my mom showed me a video of a man being electrocuted to death to prove to me that it isnt a good idea to stick my finger in the toaster
@@sashathedonut that's effective parenting
plagued moth actually mentioned me in the video he did on this as a "goretuber", which is weird cuz like. i'm not really on here reviewing gore content. i'm desensitized to fucked up content so sometimes i watch mixtapes and describe what's in it and sometimes i talk about weird fucked up movies and internet videos. i was kinda uncomfortable with him mentioning my channel like that?? idk it was just weird. i also got a bunch of subscribers from him who didn't really like me being queer and a girl and talking about fucked up shit and also like, really enjoy making fat jokes about me and would criticize me for like y'know not saying slurs and it genuinely put me off creating any sort of content.
I think you're probably the first person I've seen acknowledge how fucked the brick video is. People seem to think it's on the tamer side since you don't see anything, but as someone who tends to fall down these types of nsfl rabbit holes, that's probably the thing that messed me up the most. I was already scared of driving (thanks The Descent, for doing that to me as a child!), but that one did a number on me, .
Also, hey hey, we have similar reoccurring nightmares! I think mine looks more like one of those photobooth filters that distorts the face into a swirl, though. Funny how that works.
The brick video horrifies me because something really similar almost happened to my boyfriend and his mom a few years ago. A giant wood plank flew out of the car in front of them and it cracked the windshield REAL bad, had it gone through it wouldve directly hit his mom in the face and i assume she either wouldve needed some serious reconstruction surgery or at worst she couldve died. Basically i learned to never drive behind a car that has wood/bricks/furniture/anything that can fly out and f*cking murder me
as someone newly diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder who's been keeping it a secret from nearly everyone, thank you for being open and casual about your diagnosis❤
for such an upsetting topic, this is such a cozy video. like i feel like im talking about horrible stuff with a goofy friend* while hanging out in her room
*i hope this doesn't sound weird coming from a stranger ajdksk i just mean this vid has such a comfortable, casual vibe yknow?
For the racism against Natives in the Gore community, I absolutely agree that it's not talked about enough. As a native myself, when I first got into the goretuber community I was shocked at the amount of cultural appropriation and casual racism thrown around. It really felt like I wouldn't be accepted much in any fanbases.
I’m sorry, gore community? There’s a whole gore community out there?! Goodness…..
@@winglessfairy564 yeah, it's mainly to satiate grim curiosity or to help someone cope with the thought of a tragic death. Or people that are interested in finding out backstories to gore videos :]
@@pyro8283 I guess every community has lore nerds
this video handles this topic much better than goretuber folks do. i unfortunately fell down that rabbit hole of watching these people and i’m so glad i’ve opened my eyes to how bad they are but this video is very well made and the way you emphasize how BAD it is to glorify or meme these things , is so important. thank you.
and also i’m glad that you talk abt bianca in a more respectful way. so many people miss the mark on this and continue to.
I have ocd and get stuck in rabbitholes sometimes. Used to be completely obsessed with gore content in earlier internet days and it made my anxiety so much worse.
Love hearing your perspective on this stuff!
I have OCD too and have kept myself away from gore videos thankfully, but I get a bit too invested in hearing about NSFL content because it’s morbid curiosity about all my worst fears coming to life. But then I get a bunch of intrusive thoughts and things stick with me :(
as somebody who probably hasn’t seen maybe almost all of these videos, this is great cause it just reminds me of why i shouldn’t see them ever, either
same
Hearing you mention schizophrenia and schizo posting was really fun and relatable to me! I am and have been really into this sort of thing for a lot of my life and recently started thinking about my mental state and how I might also have schizophrenia in some way (runs in my family from my parents) and it's hard to find people mention it casually or see it depicted as normal people with issues. This comment might make no sense and will totally get lost but idk, it made me as a struggling woman feel not so alone just to hear you mention it casually like that. Thank you for being yourself ♡
The brick video singlehandedly made me stop watching NSFL material for good. I can never unhear those screams. That video traumatized me more than any gore video ever could have.
I’ve always been scared and reluctant to mention my schizophrenia, even in passing or as an explanation so seeing you just kinda mention it and move on really gave me pause and, well, hope. That was really rad. Also your music slaps!
honestly a lil healing to hear someone else also was traumatized by plagued moth autoplaying the russian brick video in his iceberg
sorry u had to go thru that also, shit sucks!!
the queen is dead???? no, the queen is back.
your perspective on the concept of nsfl honestly made me far more willing to partake than normal. i tend to dislike this style of content but with the talk of perspective and contexts given it gives it nuance.
i’ve already fallen in love with your personality over a couple long videos and hearing “so get ready- here comes a schizopost” and then you laughing. as someone who deals with psychosis. sent me absolutely soaring oh my god i was trying to draw and just kept giggling
i like that you actually stop to explain why stuff on this list was not only fucked up for the victims but for spectators just minding their own business who saw these things whether they wanted to or not. nobody talks enough about what it was like in the last 20 or 30 years (?) to suddenly be subjected to so much nsfl stuff.
ive always wanted to talk about my experience as a kid and teen in those early days but i haven't found a good excuse to do so i guess
also on mr.plaguedmoth he's alright - i don't really know what to think about gore reaction videos but i do appreciate that he'll tell the other gore enjoyers things like "i don't care if you think im a pussy- this is terrible" that said those videos could use a wee bit more warning
Babe wake up, our queen has dropped a new video
Coming back here after the Plagued Moth drama to watch an NSFL iceberg from someone who isn't pure evil.
it is 4 am and I am watching an iceberg video about horrifying things that'll fuck my brain.
I think I have made great life choices.
wait, people send footage of people getting operated on to trans people to "own" them? How does that make sense, every operation is super gross and nasty, a person is literally getting cut into! Do these people know what happens during a birth and how gross that shit is??
May just went down my childhood internet history almost chronologically and my drunk narcissist of a mother wonders why I'm in therapy and was once a heroin addict.
If I may offer a point of correction, the guy in the jar video didn't intend to have the jar break. He basically is just a giant size queen from my knowledge and he usually would fill the jars with water to prevent breakage but because he (now, I got be wrong, don't take me for gospel but I know that Whang has an interview and that's what I'm recalling from) wanted to do an impromptu session he didn't bother with the water in the jar in case it arose suspicion from his family. And what's even gnarlier is that instead of going to a hospital he just picked out the shards and shoved himself full of cotton balls and somehow made a full recovery 😵😵
Bloody hell (literally) that’s bad ass (literally)
Your delivery is so entertaining I’m subscribing
I’ve seen a lot of bad shit, but the only medical shit I’ve seen that really upset me were horrific traumas being treated. The cleanness and precision of surgery, while it does body-horror tickle me from time to time, it’s never particularly shocking to me.
God this is horrible but the bit where you were talking about your recurring nightmare made me SCREAM laugh until I cried. That imagery is so scary and I just find that too hilarious.
Body horror on a large scale, depending on everyone, can be either horrifying or plain ridiculous tbh lmao
@@sacha9957 true, i find body horror funny and horrifying, it just depends what mood im in.
Found my new favorite person on RUclips. Incredibly well spoken, hilarious, wonderful pacing, wide range of topics, and plenty of new info for me to research. My ONLY gripe is that she didn’t put the spellings of some topics on screen. Would have made my research a little easier, but even with that being said, solid 9.5/10 and I can’t wait for more videos.
The vibes of these iceberg videos are always an immaculate type of unhinged and I love it
40:00 funny enough, on the subreddit r/morbidreality, one of the top sorted posts is someone getting top surgery (that or SRS, I can’t remember the specifics) - and all of the top comments were actually super nice and respectful for once lmao. It was nice to see on a gore subreddit of all things.
it's funny that ppl talk about how trans surgery is gross or whatever. because ALL SURGERY IS GROSS. are you going to say that someone shouldn't get a life-saving organ transplant because it's "gross??"
Got recommended part 2 cuz my algorithm knows I can’t help myself, listened to one minute and knew I had to come to part 1 for the full experience. You’re a phenomenal presenter
For me my “Baby’s first gore/traumatizing video” wasn’t Budd Dwyer’s suicide it was the body cam footage of the death of Bryan Wells. Essentially a pizza delivery driver died from a collar bomb detonating on his neck. I ended up watching the Netflix doc with my mom and she was kinda shocked that I wasn’t spooked like she was due to the fact I had seen it before.
I'm 9 minutes into the video and i feel like dante being guided by vergil into hell. could not ask for a better companion for this journey
The one of these that just hit me hardest is the one about graverobbing. I agree that it sounds like a student film, but earlier this summer, as a seasonal employee at a cemetery (doing preservation work on historic monuments), my coworker and I accidentally dug up the skeletal remains of a man who was much, MUCH closer to the surface than he was supposed to be (we suspect tree roots pulled him up). We managed to sift through the dirt we'd already dug up and get all of him reburied, and the rest of the work on his monument went fine, but I'm still processing it months later, and I keep going between it being incredibly funny to me and incredibly disturbing. I hadn't thought about him in a few days. I really hope that's a student film. I'm not sure what else my point is here except maybe try to avoid unexpectedly having to hold human remains? idk
It feels important to me to mention that his name was Albert. Maybe thats sentimental of me to think its important to humanize him in a RUclips comment on this kind of video, but yeah, his name was Albert, he was in the Navy when he died in 1853, and his obituary said he was easy to get along with and he loved science.
@@sadielappin8862 I hope Albert has a front row seat to science demonstrations in heaven
People Showing SRS Videos And Being Like "Still Fancy That Surgery?!???" Is So Weird. Imagine Doing That To Literally Anyone Else Who Is Getting Surgery
If they think SRS is "gross" wait till they hear about open heart surgery lmao.
Yeah, it's the appeal to disgust fallacy. Literally every surgery, from wisdom tooth removal to brain surgery, is gross. That has no bearing on whether or not it is a good thing to do.
People need to stop thinking that just because something grosses them out, that it must therefore be a bad thing.
I have trauma with plagued moth for another reason. I had a bad experience with him in his server.
When I was 18. I got access to the nsfw channels (I showed ID and everything)
And then he told me 2 months later, my ID was fake and that I was underage. Then he went to twitter and called me a predator. And it was a traumatic experience..
All because I looked younger than my age..
I'm so sorry that's pretty horrible
i’m so glad you mention that the obsession with cartel killings/other acts of violence that happen to occur in “developing” countries is racist. it really feels like a lot of ⚪️ people get off on watching the torment and trauma of black and brown people as a roundabout way of feeling good about their own privileged lives in the global north
Love it when May does disturbing stuff
"So scary you'll need a cookie" is now a part of my media analysis vernacular
I think you can learn alot from true crime. I started watching documentaries about murder when I was about 12 and they have taught me alot about what kind of men I should stay clear of if I don't wanna die a gruesome death
Why is there no NSFD (Not Safe For Death) footage? Why is there no footage that's so good and wholesome that it makes me shake in absolute bliss?
there is, it just doesnt go by an NSF(LETTER) acronym, its called "blessed images"
@@sashathedonut Yeah, but those "Blessed images" don't have as extreme an effect as rekt content does. Whenever I stumble across a work accident clip or a street fight gone wrong, it ruins my day. It's stuck in my head for weeks. I've never seen a video that was so good that it made me do the same thing.
The good things in life or momentary, the bad are eternal.
I had to stop the video after the subscribe incident to laugh uncontrollably. It's almost like they were going "Yeah, beheddings! This is the content I subscribe for." despite you not actually being live at the time and they had no way of knowing. Much needed after the topics so far.
I think the reason that I like your content and engaging with it, even when I disagree with you, is because I feel like no other channel really opens up these discussions on internet related traumas and tragedies with the focus and care you give it. I experienced seeing a lot of things on the internet i really should not have and its nice i guess to have someone online openly discuss and open up a conversation about that stuff, both in terms of giving the trauma inducing content context as well as analyzing how seeing that stuff online at a young age can hurt your brain real bad. I know you said that you often have to seek out the internets many wonderful horrors, but in my experience it feels like they found me instead, so having the ability to open a dialog about these literal pieces of my and i assume many other zoomers' trauma is comforting i guess? Honestly watching your videos makes me feel like almost sick to my stomach but in a way that i need to feel so i can move on, if that makes any sense. Im sorry if that sounds like an insult, i swear its not
Every year on 9/11 when I was in high school, all of my teachers in every class I had that day would forgo any actual schoolwork and instead just show us footage of 9/11. Not tributes or anything like that, just footage of the event itself. The towers collapsing, people jumping off of the buildings, things of that nature. And I graduated high school before I turned 18, so I was the ages of 14-17 being shown videos of people jumping off of the towers and losing their lives in my school lol. I remember one time in specific where we were shown a video of a guy recording the event on his phone from the streets below one of the towers. He caught one of the planes striking the building in his video, and he reacted (pretty justifiably) with a "OH SHIT!". The teacher immediately scrambled to turn the video off, and then apologized to us because the guy swore as if that was the disturbing thing that the class was witnessing
so i just looked at plaugemoths channel and.... i think the music at the beginning and ending of some of his videos completely undermines any claim about wanting to "show the reality" of the world, or "garner attention for victims"
if he really cared he wouldnt have a fucking intro AND outro song (that he produced!) on a video of a 17 year old girl being dismembered, talking about this shit like its cool or edgy or whatever. its pretty blatent that his channel is exploitative of these events and he offer a "safer" way of consuming this kind of content. there is absolutely no need to show censored versions of the content he talks about, but he does it anyways because what people really get out of him and his channel is a satiation of their morbid curiosity, and entertainment from the """thrilling""" nature of even thinking about these kinds of things.
the outro song on the video is so disgusting, the lyrics are literally like "i get home and watch gore videos, pretty young thing, long blonde hair, real fucking shame shes strapped to a chair. you should see the look in her eyes when they bring out all the knives. shes screaming "she'll get out alive" but i paid to watch her die" all while disturbing inagrey and simulated murder are shown on screen.
he isn't doing anything but making "spooky edgy content" from these tragedies and everything else is just a justification for it. every goreposter has their own moral justification but deep down we all know its BS, his viewers (and gore seekers in general) just like to see people die and be tortured bc it stimulates strong fear, rage, or disgust reactions. it provides a dopamine hit and a satisfaction of our fascination with the salacious.
at the very least he should be honest with himself and others about what his channel is- exploitation of victims for entertainment and furthering of his "OmG iM sO fUc*eD uP DoOd" emo myspace kid aesthetic
I used to watch nsfl/gore stuff on LiveLeak when I was younger (late teens-mid twenties), but nowadays I’m just like “Naaah, I’d rather not see a man get half his head blown off irl.”
Im so glad I wasn't the only one who was hurt by plaguedmoth just playing the Russian brick vid.. I .Ilisten to yt vids at work and it was very scary for me to try and skip past. Thanks for not playing the vids in this tier list.
There's an alternate universe where May is a Twitch streamer and goes by the gamertag May1337z
One of the Zooier than thou podcasts host's identities was exposed by the furry fandom last year and unfortunately it's someone in my city that I'd actually ran into before. Can confirm, his poor pitbull showed many physical signs of abuse back when I unwittingly visited their home in 2014.
Only 5 minutes in but I love your sense of humor and I’m definitely subbing.
I've seen a lot of these iceberg videos. Most of them, no matter the genre, are exploitative or vague. I didn't expect much coming here, but your explanations are witty, succinct, and convey the information in a really good way.
Your second NSFL iceberg video had a section around 1 dot 08 dot 00 talking about self-harm. I'm also trans and face a lot of issues (depression, self-harm, etc.). The "everything will get better! Keep your chin up!" argument has never worked on me, and when resources like phone lines are pushed, I always feel ashamed that I am displacing my pain on others.
This isn't the same video, but I started from Part 2 and just gathered my thoughts. Thank you for everything you said about self-harm and trauma. It's the only thing that's spoken to me in a long time.
Another similarity between Abe and 9/11 is the fact that generations of political, religious and capitalist issues led up to it. The assassin’s motives were linked to Abe’s connection to a Korean cult that brainwashed, manipulated and financially abused hundreds of people and for some reason had significant influence over the Japanese centre right including Abe. But most people, especially outside of East Asia just saw “important Japanese politician man dead” and reacted accordingly. Not to justify a man’s murder, it was horrific. It’s just that it’s a complexity that very few people considered bc people got
enough baggage from their own political traumas in the west.
I've been on the Internet for a long time and I've managed to avoid most nsfl stuff, the only exception I can recall is a video of a trans woman pleasuring herself with a rotting horse head
Edit: watched more of the vid, yep, putrid sex object.
Why did you go back and watch more of it
@@alicethemad1613 I think they meant more of this video, confirming it’s on the iceberg
Oh Jesus, I thought I had just dreamed that up. I had literally blocked seeing that from my memory but now it's back. Rip my mind.
@@snakesonaframe2668 yeah, that's what I meant
@PishP0n yes
I read the title as "The NFL Iceberg Explained" LOL. I much prefer what this actually was. Unless there IS some weird NFL iceberg.
It’s funny you say that because I got an NFL ad right before the video 😂
Here’s the thing, May, and you know this too. We are just like you. We know we don’t need to watch this video. Most of us probably already know what’s going to be listed here. Some of us are in recovery from our old habit of watching every horrible thing on the internet just to feel something only to “oh fuck oh no, I didn’t mean for this thing to stay with me for the rest of my life.” So we know. You know. And yes, we ARE going to watch this video and revisit those things. But what I LOVE about you, is that you represent those of us that have a conscience about it. Those of us who, through our cynicism about EVERYTHING, wish we weren’t this way. But accept it.
39:35 i absolutely love watching medical procedures, so dope the way humans figured that shit out. I remember at school I'd be one of the only ones intently watching the screen whenever it was something medical related lmao
Way less exploitive than any other NSFL content i've seen online. Great video