being a directioner was never a phase!! mourning liam & my teenhood

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  • Опубликовано: 3 дек 2024

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  • @DailinyCastro
    @DailinyCastro Месяц назад +49

    I regret not going to their concert so bad 😭😪 but once a directioner always a directioner like it truly was never a phase!!

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +7

      awe i wish you could’ve gone 🥺 we had nose bleeds but still was such a core memory!! never a phase 🫶🏻

    • @graceriley1621
      @graceriley1621 Месяц назад

      ​@@lifewithjordanleosame

    • @AishaMendoza02
      @AishaMendoza02 Месяц назад

      I couldn’t go to a concert bcuz my parents said I was too young 😭 I was 10 at the time

  • @leahh9
    @leahh9 Месяц назад +13

    i love this video! man i woke up to the news of liam dying and i just could'nt believe it, days prior to it i was thinking of their possible reunion- maybe few years down the lane and how i could be attending that but i guess life had other plans. the news of his death was just so "sudden". never in my wildest dreams had i imagined of losing him or any of the members so suddenly, or should i say early?
    he was 31, so young and he just died. i know the days leading upto his final moments were full of hate and misery making him feel as if his existence didn't matter to anyone out there but it did, im pretty sure many out there have j realised the impact he had on us and one direction. there wouldn't be a one direction without him, he was a core member of that group and now i hear their songs i get reminded of his death every now and then, that he is not here with us anymore.
    i know it was a parasocial relationship, i did not know the dude at all but his passing hit me so hard. i wish people treated others with kindness, i wish they thought atleast once about commenting vile things on the internet about someone.
    liam was a part of my childhood and losing him made me feel like i lost this part of my childhood and its never coming back. he was so talented and he had sm potential but the world did not do him right, the music industry is fucked up as it is but yeah man we lost him
    rip liam, we'll miss you
    edit: typos

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +4

      thank you for watching! totally get it, we’re not alone in these heavy feelings ❤️‍🩹 there’s no one direction without liam and it’s truly painful

  • @BucketGoggles
    @BucketGoggles Месяц назад +10

    This was such a comforting/validating video to watch thank you so so much.
    I’m 19 now so I was like 6-9 years old for their years together and they were ALL I listened to for those years, up all night was the first album I ever asked my mom to buy for me, and I didn’t even have social media or a phone because I was so young so it was really just me listening to the songs all day and occasionally watching RUclips on the computer. Zayn leaving really left a sour taste for me and also being a straight dude I was always kind of embarrassed about how much I loved their music so as time went on I kind of buried that part of me. So this death was just a lot because it killed a part of me that I had basically forgot existed, so it was kinda like a two birds one stone thing and it hit me like a fucking bus. I say all that to say it’s been really fucking depressing these past couple days and you’re not alone in that, so thank you for making us feel less alone as well. This was a really sweet and wholesome video that’s helped me process everything and I hope you’re doing better everyday 🙏🏼.

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад

      thank you! and i hope you’re doing okay too ❤️‍🩹 i really enjoyed reading your comment, thanks for sharing with me.

  • @reinadumalisile3812
    @reinadumalisile3812 Месяц назад +7

    The thing that has hit me the hardest is the realisation that I didn't know Liam as much as I thought I did because I never paid him special attention, I've always looked at him as part of the group. Now that I'm watching the videos back and looking just at him, I see so much more in him, and it's too late. I'm grief-stricken but I feel like an imposter.. I wish I had followed his solo career more and liked more than just a handful of his solo music, listened more. . because now I'm too late
    I also feel guilt; guilt because he gave us so much when we were growing up(when I think about how intense it was for them during those years and how they still gave with their whole beings. Also how he's kept closely engaging with fans over the years, giving still) and we couldn't make him feel loved enough, good enough, seen enough and save him. sucks, just sucks. Also, with how things were going for him online the weeks before this, it just hurts.
    I am able to listen to all their songs, but there's this performance by Liam, He performed HISTORY, he's wearing black and white and that just makes me bawl. . .
    Lastly, another this that has been making mee feel guilty is that I have lost people in my life, my granddad who was my father all my life and my great grandmom but I have never felt this much grief. . I think I just don't know how to feel grief when it's so close to me, but this, I am feeling so deeply, it's insane.

  • @A_Proud_Directioner_
    @A_Proud_Directioner_ Месяц назад +10

    Hey!! You're not alone!! I woke up for school on the 17th to the worst news finding out my childhood favourite person died. I cried at school. I'm only 12 but it really hit me hard. I was a fan ever since I came out of the womb. My fav.member was always liam. Ppl in my class laughed at me when I cried. I felt alone when I found out of his tragic passing. This video helped me big time. Thank you. I went to my after school on Friday and we did a talent show. me and my friend did it I could fly. I sang and she did a lyrical dance. We won first place but I burst into tears after. I'm autistic so my coping mechanisms are differen t.

  • @joyzzo
    @joyzzo Месяц назад +4

    You are not alone, I’ve listened to them since Up all night, they became such an important part of my life, I have so many good memories from those years listening to them, and losing that is heartbreaking. I also still listen to them regularly because their music always makes me feel happier when I need it, and I’ve been listening to them a lot these days and I get you, it’s a weird feeling but I don’t want to lose that happiness their music has always given me. I think a lot about Walking in the wind specially the part that does “we had some good times, didn’t we?” Cause yes, we did have some good times so I’m just trying to be happy for all the good memories I have, all the friends I made, all those nights singing and dancing to their songs and it makes me feel so grateful I got to be part of this

  • @binalyoguesh
    @binalyoguesh Месяц назад +8

    Hey, I just wanted to say thank you for this video. I know that I'm not alone on how this news affected me and the world. I've always been a quiet fan of bands and musicians, never got the posters or merchandise of anyone, heck only after 23 I started going to concerts of few artists who came here to Lisbon, Portugal (got to see 5SOS live last year🥺), I never admitted being a directioner, but this tragic news had me in shock for quite few days, I thought it wouldn't have affected me so much and I would have just moved on with my life without thinking much of it, but then I started to tear up reading all of the boys statements, and his sisters, and everyone's tribute to Liam.
    Then it just hit me hard, made me realize that time between 2010-2016, literally my middle school years, that was a special time, it was something else, there's no way of explaining it, it was simple.
    The internet was an escape of the real world, all the new platforms of social media were getting big at that time, and we felt closer to artists then ever before through a screen.
    Still remember when "What makes you beautiful" came out, all the girls in school were singing it, but I never joined because I didn't want to be made fun of. Always saw One Direction's new music videos, so they were part of my escape. They were so big in such a short period of time. When each started to release their solo projects is when I started being a fan, and supported in everything they put out. But there was always a small part of me that just wanted to see them, all 5 boys, together once, even through a screen.
    And to think we lost one of the members and that there are only 4 members now it just hurts my heart.
    I think the grief over Liam's passing that I feel is not only the sadness of losing him in such tragic way and at such a young age, but is also mourning a small piece of that period of our lives. Literally when I heard the news I was in denial, and when a boys put out a statement it got real and the first thing that came to my mind was Liam's young face when he started in 1D, I was mourning that boy.
    This year I really felt like we were going to finally see Liam through his music, I was excited for him. Knowing we might never hear what he was working on also makes me sad.
    What breaks my heart even more is when I think about his son Bear, because we all knew how much Liam loved Bear and being his father, and a comment that I saw that said "We've grown up with him for longer than his son ever will..." literally just broke me.
    But also it's been beautiful to see the one direction community coming together for the memorials all over the world, my 'for you' page is full of it, it does make me cry but it's also a beautiful wholesome moment, and I hope Bear when he grows up can see how loved his dad was. It's nice to see that there are people out there who understand this grief, this sadness we feel and that we are not alone.
    I will miss Liam forever, and I pray he is in piece now.🤍

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +1

      thanks for sharing your comment 🥺 i love this community and am glad we all have each other during this tough time

  • @SaraSummer
    @SaraSummer Месяц назад +4

    walking in the wind has a totally different meaning now, so hard to listen to so many songs and not cry. I don't know if it will ever be the same. the heartbreak will always be there

    • @DroomoOkailey
      @DroomoOkailey 29 дней назад +2

      I listened to it more than 5 times today ,you are very relatable ,I hope you are able to move on ,I haven't though😢🫀🧠💔😭😭😭

    • @georginaCsweeting
      @georginaCsweeting 14 дней назад +1

      The song is forever tainted now, so sad

  • @Amy-dr9fk
    @Amy-dr9fk Месяц назад +3

    I understand you loosing liam I feel so empty I was luckily enough to see them in concert in 2015 my first concert actually.. The days are going by so quick I miss him so much 😢

  • @GeorgiaWinstanleyOfficial
    @GeorgiaWinstanleyOfficial Месяц назад +7

    I cant stop crying about Liam been a fan since like 10 or 11, now I'm 23. :(

  • @dingdong1223
    @dingdong1223 Месяц назад +9

    i was literally told “normal people won’t be sad about an abuser dying” and that’s literally the worst thing to say to someone mourning .. like i didn’t even know liam in person obviously but i was a directioner since i was 6 (im 18 now), when zayn left i kind of distanced myself from the boys but i still loved them so much. i think it’s pretty normal to mourn someone you’ve “known” for that long even if they were an abuser.

  • @Sturniolofann
    @Sturniolofann Месяц назад +4

    I was never a fan of 1D cause that was more of my older sister’s era but I do love their songs and I remember watching the Carpool Karaoke video almost 9 years ago on December 16th, 2015 when i was just 8 years old. I’m now 17 years old and hearing the news about Liam makes me so sad. I was watching edits a few nights ago and I had literal tears going down my face.

  • @SnapeArgento
    @SnapeArgento Месяц назад +4

    this hits home to me, I was so privileged to have been a 1d stan and they made being a teen less difficult to me, I felt like home with them and now home is not the same, it's like I now need to grow up and the stuff in my life also makes me feel like I'm forced to start all over again, 10 years ago I was on stan twitter and was about to start high school and was so scared, now I'm more scared than back then

  • @1DLP4life
    @1DLP4life Месяц назад +6

    I've always been a liam girl since 2011, i was 14 at the time🥺 it truly was never a phase, i was still hoping for a reunion at some point and so was liam, but never thought it would be in my fav member's funeral. The fact that he died, hits me the hardest, my whole teenage years was revolved around him, now that part of me is broken forever and never be healed. Rip our handsome king, payno😔💔

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +1

      i’m so sorry ❤️‍🩹 it hurts, i get it :/

  • @mayatheswiftie5108
    @mayatheswiftie5108 Месяц назад +4

    I was in preschool when i first heard WMYB, and I've loved them ever since 😅

  • @heidevanness2788
    @heidevanness2788 Месяц назад +5

    You're not alone. This is so heartbreaking. The world is crying for Liam. Thank you for sharing. 💔

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад

      thanks for watching! ❤️‍🩹 it’s nice to not mourn alone

  • @kitkat88816
    @kitkat88816 Месяц назад +2

    Liam was my favourite from the first time saw him on xfactor I was blown away by his voice and how sweet he was. Over the years I adored him more and more watching the movies & reading their books & watching him matures as a adult when having his baby and seeing him do silly videos for social media I loved following him though out his journeys watching him learn to paint & his singing videos & showing of his OOTD everything. I understand he had struggles with drugs and alcohol he was very open to it so it shocks me people thought he was hiding it as in almost all his interviews he would comment on it and mental health/ alcohol addiction for the last 10+ years. When he did the Lp live show during Covid it was such a great experience it’s on RUclips still i have watched it so many times he really was so thoughtful in helping others lots of charity work and being kind to every fan no matter what. He was a special man & No one will ever replace him. It so heart breaking to see the media bash him before his death and then post such horrible things about him after his death lots of rumours and misinformation. There is clips of his mum and dad crying from the movies saying they missed him when he was on tour and every single day since his passing those clips replay in my mind I can’t imagine how much pain they are going though. His sister found out online that he passed away before she was told by anyone I pray she didn’t see the photos that were leaked after 22 minutes him being dead. I feel so heart broken for his son bear who only 7 and would say to his dad ‘thank you for being happiness’ 💔💔 it’s such a terrible tragedy all round and he was so young. All he ever wanted was to re connect with his brothers not even to tour but just to be all together again I can’t imagine the guilt they are feeling but they weren’t to know, reading zayn post about Liam I think he been hit the hardest 😢 I hope they can all reconnect as friends in private as life has proven it to short to not see the people we love

  • @graceriley1621
    @graceriley1621 Месяц назад +4

    I always been a 1D fan ever since 2013

  • @georginaCsweeting
    @georginaCsweeting 14 дней назад

    Thank you for sharing! I never saw them live which is my biggest regret, I am the same age as them and it was ‘uncool’ to like them so I never outwardly expressed my love for 1D 😫
    I appreciate how well balanced your discussion was. It’s strange to grieve so hard yet know he did some bad things.

  • @tr0ubledl0ve
    @tr0ubledl0ve Месяц назад +3

    ouch the way this strcuk my fuckin heart i love that you touched on the abuse aspect of it all thats what really got to me ugh i needed this video ty for making it my fellow directioner 💗

  • @dingdong1223
    @dingdong1223 Месяц назад +4

    just when i thought i had made it through the video without crying, I started crying the last minute, time to listen to best song ever 😭

  • @evied407loveC.b
    @evied407loveC.b 27 дней назад +2

    💔liam payne ❤!

  • @kitkat88816
    @kitkat88816 Месяц назад +4

    If anyone interested he has a charity top which he hand painted a picture of 1D it’s the last chance to buy ever on everpress it’s called Liam Payne x choose love. It’s a beautiful painting of him and his brothers it’s only got 8 days left. I ordered one and all the funds goes to a charity Liam loved.

    • @georginaCsweeting
      @georginaCsweeting 14 дней назад +1

      Mine is being shipped as we speak, I think it’ll really help with the grief ❤

    • @kitkat88816
      @kitkat88816 14 дней назад

      @@georginaCsweeting same i can't wait hope you enjoy yours

  • @sakuraphillips3283
    @sakuraphillips3283 Месяц назад +9

    Thinking about One Direction is not the same anymore

  • @CarlieMaria28
    @CarlieMaria28 Месяц назад +2

    I've never lost family or a close friend but lost two celebs before age 25 and many many friendships.

  • @匿名的-1
    @匿名的-1 Месяц назад +2

    I get you. I wasn't even a fan. I'm not sure if Maya is actually for real, as the physical evidence is lacking, and allegations can ruin people's lives, so I'd prefer to stay away from that and not to comment on Liam as a person but as an artist. I kind of got obsessed with him somehow in the last two weeks. Like wanting to copy his style and stuff like that (I'm a guy and I don't know where I stand in fashion) and I guess I just got interested in the guy as a whole. He had such an interesting life and I something drags me towards him for some reason, but to be fair, he's not my first weird and unexplainable "obsession". His death effectively marks the end of an era. An era, that I always held dear to my heart. I'm obsessed with songs from the early-mid 2010s as they remind me of less stressful and happier times. Naturally, One Direction has made a lot of songs, that are basically known by anyone and they have been an incredibly iconic part of the music scene of that era. Afterall they are the most recognized boyband in history. Times were different, better and of course easier, since I was just a kid. I miss those day and I'll keep holding onto every sweet memory I got from those times. So yea, I wasn't even that close to the fandom as you were, but I feel it as well. The passing of 1D members were something we wouldn't have been surprised to hear like 40 years from now on, but to hear one of them die so early and in such a horrible way is utterly disturbing and shows the general wellbeing and toxicity of an industry that plays such a crucial role in our lives, yet we're all oblivious about what's going on behind the scenes. You shouldn't blame yourself for it, a lot people feel the same as you do.

  • @fairyzelgraceperalta7243
    @fairyzelgraceperalta7243 Месяц назад

    Thank you for this video! Just exactly what I needed. ❤❤❤

  • @ekaterinashatalova2206
    @ekaterinashatalova2206 Месяц назад +2

    just thank you!

  • @ACWhoCares2
    @ACWhoCares2 Месяц назад +4

    Brave of you to film you, I am not Christian (albeit am on paper) but the last times, death of so called Artists - celebrities hurt me I liked to lit a candle for their soul and all the colleagues - friends (and familiy if known) they left back "alone". Given that am intrested in a lot of things where my age on ID isn't the targeted audience I felt a bit asahemd doing stuff like this after my Teens. So, I appreciate it greatly that people who may have been through it, are going through it with you see it's "Okay to do something to mourn someone, (or even if you've to take people off the mental pedistol)" to let them in the past.
    So why I have never been a Directioner, I think that was just a long comment to say "I get it, been there done that, more or less" and I'm afraid the last and current won't be the last either.
    I calculate having to take people of the pedistol just as a fact of life now but actually dying is always going to make me cry no matter how less we claim to not care about "celebrities" anymore.

  • @esthiluv7894
    @esthiluv7894 Месяц назад +3

    It hurts so bad just because you know it wasn’t an accident. You know it was intentional. Somebody hurt him and they even stole his Rolex that hotel needs to be shut down immediately. They are so corrupt.

  • @speakntv
    @speakntv Месяц назад +1

    I cried😢😢😢

  • @nillyk5671
    @nillyk5671 Месяц назад +8

    How do you know he is an abuser? Did Maya put forward any proof of what she claims? Any screenshots that corroborate what she says? Call logs? Why are we quick to believe what she says when she has been contradicting herself in her own statements? Tbh she comes across as very narcissistic and vindictive. Normally, people who are like that are very skillful when it comes to gaslighting, deceiving and blaming the other party while also making sure that others believe them and not the party they are focused on destroying.

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +1

      i’m just choosing to believe victims!

    • @powsvalentine
      @powsvalentine Месяц назад +3

      That’s how it always is now. Guilty until proven innocent.

    • @carabeck
      @carabeck Месяц назад

      ​@@lifewithjordanleounless she comes out with proof instead of just saying I won't believe it, she mocked him when he told her he wouldn't be around much longer.

  • @xerilaun
    @xerilaun Месяц назад +5

    I’ve cried a lot too like everyday and all week I’ve been listening to only 1D 🥲 I wish I got to see them live as 5💔 thank you for this video

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +1

      thank you for watching! i wish you got to see all 5 too 🥺❤️‍🩹

  • @sadiedurham4058
    @sadiedurham4058 Месяц назад +2

    😢😢😢💔💔💔

  • @Dandontlie
    @Dandontlie Месяц назад +2

    Wait... Are you like 22?? 😮

  • @victoria-jt6rk
    @victoria-jt6rk Месяц назад +3

    You say Liam Payne was an abuser!? Really!? Have you proof? Receipts? It's quite a thing to say

    • @lifewithjordanleo
      @lifewithjordanleo  Месяц назад +8

      just believing maya henry and other victims. i still loved liam and am deeply saddened by his passing, but it’s also hard to ignore what’s come out about him. this situation is allowed to have nuance. i just will always listen to victims bc it’s hard to come out and talk about abuse.