Grieving while Celebrating and Why I Flew Home to Canada Alone | December Vlog
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- Grieving while Celebrating and Why I Flew Home to Canada Alone | December Vlog
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December was an intense month. On one hand I was mourning the unexpected loss of my Nana and on the other I was celebrating my son's first Christmas. Some of the month I spent in Canada (I didn't film), but most was spent in Hong Kong where I tried to keep things light and joyous. Thank you for letting me share with you, through this vlog and all of my vlogs this past year. May 2023 be good to us all!
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Can we just take a moment for Tom being such a supportive partner! I'm so glad you were able to have time with your grandmother before she passed. ❤
I remember her grandma...oh, will miss her!
My aunt said something to me a while ago which has stuck with me - “Life is relentless. That doesn’t mean it is always bad, but it is relentless.” Basically just the idea that things never stop happening in life; there is no ‘perfect’ or ‘easy’ time. Which inevitably means we have periods where we grieve and celebrate together. It is hard but it is part of life. Wishing lots of happiness, holiday cheer, and healing to you Taylor!
Thank you. I needed to hear this today.
That's a very good way of describing it. My family is going through a "relentless" period right now, and this gave me peace.
your anut is a smart woman. ty for advice, as a perfectionist it means a lot to me.
"To live is to suffer"
“Butter the toast, eat the toast, shit the toast, god life is relentless”-peep show
I love that the woman who worked with you after you had Levi has become a part of the family, it really is heartwarming to see. I hope all of you have a wonderful 2023 ♥
Wow Taylor I'm in tears right now. The fact your grandma sent you a message thinking she wasn't going to see you and then she did is just amazing. I'm so sorry this happened, may she rest in peace.
Our friend passed in October 2020. We had our other friend over that year for Xmas. We didn't decorate. We just watched movies and spent time together trying to keep ourselves afloat. Last year I lost 3 people. Aunt, gran and great uncle(his wife passed on Friday). Christmas was hard. I can't deny I had a wobble, I cried my eyes out for an hour missing those who didn't make it
That is really heartbreaking. I’m so sorry
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I’m so very sorry for the losses of your family members. This goes out to everybody too.
Sending so much love❤❤❤
I love watching your little family. Levi is so so handsome 😍
I love you both! Wonderful content creator mommas.
#Skyfam here!!
@@junsjulywonpilsyonpilchany5241 i don't like some of them they didn't give birth to a baby girl bc they trolled us with a baby boy not a baby girl
We missed you! I'm manifesting for a great 2023 for you, Taylor!
Back at you! May it be a great year for us all!
My last living grandmother passed away last year (well August 2021 and it is one of the worst days of my life. Back then I took confort in seeing how much you tried to soak up your precious days with your family. It is just precious and beautiful when people are close with their families Sadly the death of my grandparents literally fragmented my family and turned every member against each other. It was the most painful thing ever. I hope your family can heal and remain united
Taylor! Sorry for your loss! Lots of well wishes from Norway ♥
Thank you ❤️
My 29 year old son passed away in 2017 and I didn’t feel like doing anything . My youngest daughter was turning 10 in ten days and we still celebrated her birthday and all of the other holidays that year. They are bittersweet times. I know my son would have wanted us to continue on.
Jazz, more strength to you!
I've watched your channel for like 7 or 8 years now and when I watch your vlogs and I see your family I feel like I'm watching the most beautiful wholesome movie, I get teary eyes every time I see cute Levi smiling and laughing
Levi’s toothy smile and little kicks on Christmas morning 😍❤️
Such a beautiful nana. To think your nana took the time to post a video to you. I’m so happy you made it home for those final, important, loving talks. You and your family are loved and appreciated ❤❤❤❤
You are the most honest influencer ever! I love that you don't hide the chaos behind the scenes. You two are such awesome parents. He is a very happy baby.
How has Levi already gotten so big and grown up, you can really see his features changing and he seems so confident. I am so proud of you, you are doing amazing and got this. Also I am so jealous of the oven, still in Japan with no oven :( Also Bisto we use in the UK and I get it shipped to Japan as so good, if you mix it using the water you use for the vege's and put in some meat juice makes it amazing
It was definitely better not to take Levi to Canada for Christmas. We were dealing with all sorts of viruses over the holidays. Everyone got sick. Plus that snowstorm canceled flights like crazy. Your celebrations ended up being so cute and wholesome 😊
My grandma, who raised me since I was a baby, passed away last Christmas day, at 9:01 in the morning. It was so hard to celebrate Christmas this year. It's even hard to watch this video, but I love what you say about 'you can celebrate and grieve at the same time.' I will remember that for next year!
Baby fever is definitely hitting after watching this! Levi is so adorable 🥰
You're a great mom! And it was so heartwarming to know Tom was/is so considerate and without hesitation told u to go reunite with ur nana❤
I’m so grateful for him ❤️
Tip for next Christmas roast - you can use the drippings from the turkey pan to make your gravy - it’s absolutely delicious! You just add wine and flour to the pan and then either water or stock (which can be where the bisto comes in). Your meal looked amazing though, so happy the turkey was a success finally!
Levi is the cutest with such a sweet cheesy grin! Thank you for sharing your holiday with us, even though it wasn't what you were originally hoping for. And so sorry about your nana.
My grandfather passed on December 23, 2022. My family and I were baking our traditional Christmas cookies and receiving the news was a very traumatic experience due to it being an unexpected death. It’s already so hard loosing someone you love, but loosing someone during the holidays makes it harder. I’m so sorry about the passing of your nana. But I am happy you were able to find some sort of balance of grieving and celebrating. I’m sure it wasn’t easy. You are a strong and wonderful mother and I’m sure your nana is so proud of you! Sending lots of love ❤
I’m so sorry about the passing of your nana! My mom died December 9th last month so you can imagine the month was just… wow. It was a whirlwind.
I love how close you are to your family and know you have amazing memories with nana/as many people in your family as possible and that’s a beautiful thing!
There’s this game I was watching playthroughs of that touched multiple times on grief, and one of the quotes was “to grieve deeply is to have loved fully.”
Couldn’t agree more.
Sending blessings to you and your ENTIRE family in the new year ♥️
My grandma passed away last year a week after Christmas. The grieving process never really ends. Things will suddenly remind you of her, especially the next holiday season, but grieving her is still keeping her alive in a way
We’re glad to see you back, Taylor. We all hope you and your family receive more blessings along the way. We will always support you no matter what,
Thank you ❤️
Levi is the absolute cutest and happiest baby I think I’ve ever seen! How blessed and lucky he is to be surrounded by so much love! ❤
Missed you so much Taylor.. ❤️❤️your videos provide so much comfort
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you guys are pretty wealthy for your way of living in Hong Kong nice big house.
The hardest part about life is that we all must grieve at some point and that is always difficult. I was so very sorry when I heard about your grandmother as I know you were close. I am so pleased you got to have some time with her because that does make a difference in the healing process. I follow you here and on IG and have done so probably since day one and I am always happy with how life is going for you. You are an awesome MOM and Tom is a lovely husband, you are blessed.
You are rich. You can do and don't whatever you want! SAOPKSAPOSKAPOSK
Very beautiful video ☺👍🌸
Hello nice family 💕💘😺
Your son look so very cute
I hope always happy and have nice day 💗💗💗💗
Full watched here Friend'
We missed you Taylor!
I am very sorry for your Nana. I lost my last grandmother just before Christmas in 2019 and it was tough, but things get easier with time.
You got yourself surrounded with beautiful and caring family and friends, I wish you all the best for 2023!
I’m so sorry to hear about your nana. I always loved watching the two of you and your relationship.
Im on my third round of IVF and I always watch your fertility journey videos for strength and I was watching this video and was already crying about your grandma when you said the thing about feeling like a kid again and reliving all of these moments with Levi and started 😭 all over. It’s so precious and special! It’s all I want!
Oh, Taylor… I am so very sorry for your loss. I no longer have any living grandparents, and it’s especially hard during the holidays. I have a lot of guilt around their passings since I’d distanced myself from all of them because of what I felt was abandonment/betrayal, so it hits me especially hard. It does get a little easier with time, but there are still moments where it hits so hard even years later.
I wish I could have been there to say goodbye. I wish I hadn’t let all my pain and emotions cost us so many years together. I wish I had them back. I wish I could be a kid again and experience all the good times again. I’m very glad you had a good relationship with your Nana and got to spend time with her, because not having that really makes it harder.
I went through a similar situation decades ago. Don’t feel guilty. Everything happens for a reason. I know it’s hard to wish you could go back, but whatever happened has made you who you are today. The only thing you can do is go forward as the best person you can be every day. Never perfect, but always learning. No more guilt! Just valuable lessons learned. Happy new year cheers to a great 2023
@@Emzzz78 Thank you so much. I will try my best to let go of the guilt moving forward. I know they wouldn’t want me to feel that. At least it has taught me to appreciate the relationships I have going forward. It hasn’t helped my relationship with my father (his choice at this point), but it has definitely helped my relationship with my mother. So some good has come from it. :)
You are a great mom! I love how you look after Rosie as well as Levi, btw. Levi is SOOOOOO CUTE!!!! Such a darling, gorgeous boy!! 😮🤗🤗 I am very sorry about your beloved nana. 😢
The close up on Levi on his little car suddenly smiling at the camera, oh my god how cute was that !!!
Celebrating while grieving is hard indeed, I hope the celebrating part alleviated a little bit your mood ♡ sending love and peacefulness your way, always
Ohhh, the part where you mentioned how your son has made you feel reignited with christmas and everything, got me SO emotional. I applaud Tom for being so thoughtful with the birthday cake too!!! You have such a beautiful family.
Those little human mistakes like buying the wrong pan size/not checking your oven and sending your husband out for pick-up when you paid for delivery are so nice to see. Might sound a little funny, but we're all just doing our best out here!
I always enjoy watching your videos. always be happy❤
Terribly sorry to hear about your nana Taylor. ❤ It’s going on 4 years since my grandfather passed, and in the beginning it was the most rocky ride ever. I’m so glad you got to spend that time with her though, that is absolutely invaluable. Grief is so complex and everyone goes through it in a completely different way. After a little while, people naturally stop checking in, but your grief will still be there. Don’t hesitate at all to reach out to your loved ones for support even if it’s one year or two years from now and you’re still feeling it.
Aside from that, I know we only see what you want us to see but don’t forget that you’re strong and you can handle whatever comes your way. ❤ I hope you and your family have a great year for 2023 and make new memories!
Levi is so adorable, Taylor!! That smile of his after the bath made my day! Your Christmas looked wonderful and happy which is just what your nan would want for you. It’s so hard to celebrate and grieve at the same time.
Thank you for introducing Tom to the day after Turkey sandwich with French fries and gravy. Such a Canadian thing. I’m also a Canadian, but live in the USA. I love those little traditions that are so different outside of Canada. Thank you for sharing with us! Happy new year! It’s going to be a great one
thank you for sharing with us your December! through the ups and downs
It looks like Levi liked his first Christmas celebration in his life.
Then, sorry to hear about the loss of your Nana, Miss Taylor. I hope you can get everything settled during and after spent your time with your family back in Canada.
I nearly lost my baby girl this December due to the viruses. Influenza, pneumonia and strep A. And a lot, a lot of kids were sick in general in Canada. Levi is so tiny. Staying home safe was the good decision! ♥
So nice to be able to watch an update. Nana will be missed & I am happy you had the chance to say goodbye in person and hug her once again. That cake Tom got for you is just ❤🎉🥺
Hong Kong doesn't have RSV?
Mid December our 4 year old daughter got Croup. Then right after Xmas, we all got sick. Spent New year sick and then Jan 3rd all 3 of us were diagnosed with Flu A. And it was terrible. Worst flu I have ever had in my 41 years. We said it was way worse than when we had C (and I even had C and c pneumonia). This winter the US and Canada has had a ton of illnesses and its seemed worse than usual.
I am so sorry about nana, she reminded me a lot of my nana. You seem to really have all your ducks in a row, I’m happy for you, you deserve it. I know I’m a bit late, but I wanted to say I have been having to focus more on my family lately, we are having a hard time.
im obsessed with his lil laugh
I'm so sorry for your loss. It makess me so relieved you got to see her before she went on to the next adventure; from what you have shared with all of us it is such a beautiful relationship. It makes me miss my grandma that I think knew I was autistic long before I did, and didn't treat me like other family members did. I got to see her before she left us too, but I get the feeling she's watching every so often. Happy New Year
Ooof i know those flights were expensive AF. We wanted to go to China to see my husband's family before they locked down again but tickets were already so expensive. They're starting to come down now. Glad you're feeling better and got to see your family. I like watching yours and Meghan's video's. They're so calming and remind me there's still wholesomeness and peace to be enjoyed in this world.
Thank you for always being so real and kind
Levi's face meeting Santa 😆😆😆😆😆😆 At least he didn't cry. I love that you have maintained a relationship with Carol.
Taylor your son is so precious and adorable! His smile makes me smile ❤
My grandma is currently dieing of cancer and only has what we think a few days possible weeks left and i also live in a different country to my family. Its one of the most difficult things I've experienced making me wonder if I should move back home. Loves and support to you Taylor 💖
I was literally just thinking about how I wanted u to upload ! No joke that’s weird!! Haha.
So sorry about your grandma. 🥹Also, happy late holidays !🥳
So sorry for your loss. Sending so much love! Also, Tom’s birthday cake idea was so thoughtful!! Hope you all had a beautiful holiday!
Hello everyone!
Amazing video ever seriously it's so So Amazing hats off great video ever 👋
I just discovered your vlogs and I'm so totally hooked. Huhu! Starting to do a marathon!
9:38 he was telling you it wasnt gonna fit 😂😂 i wouldve said back “what do you mean i did it wrong??” 😂😂
I lost my grandma three weeks after my IVF baby was born in 2022 as well. The mix of joy and grief is such a weird feeling. I am so sorry you went through it!
My condolences for your loss. I lost my grandma in 2021, and unfortunately, I had to say goodbye over the phone because of covid. However, I did get to have a long talk with her beforehand, and I'm very appreciative of that!!
All to say, I hope you and your family are doing well! Thank you for the videos, and happy 2023 💓
Like you Taylor we lost a family member just before Christmas but like you we had to celebrate for our child. My condolences to you. OMG levi is such a beautiful little boy. He is getting so big. Your looking amazing. Love the cake Tom got you. You guys are adorable parents to Levi. He is one lucky little boy. Look after yourself. Big hugs ♥
So sorry about your Nana. Your family is sweet. Thank you for sharing these moments ❤
My condolences to you Taylor. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
Levi and Rosie fighting for your lap T.T Hope this year turns for the better for you and your family, sending hugs!
Just know, you get to always cherish those memories. I never got those memories, I never had any family. When I’ve lost a pet it feels like the end of the world, but the memories make up for it. So sorry for your loss ❤ I can’t imagine
You went through a very difficult road. You have gone through difficult paths both as a family and as a woman. I see you overcome them. I wish you happiness❤ I hope Allah bless your family, you and your baby.
Really beautiful family 👪
Levi looks like such a happy baby.
His little laughes were absolutely everything, and they made my heart happy and gave me a little smile. 😊 I'm so sorry for your loss. Even though I am 42, and my Grandma is 87, this is honestly my worst nightmare. Even though I moved about 5 years ago to a place that, let's just say I never wanted to live, to be here for my Grandma, and my Momma. We live in the same house right now, and I still worry. Even while I am so close to them. It is still my worst nightmare, and I am here with them every day! I can't imagine the sadness that you have felt while still trying to be there for your partner and your son. Much love to you! ❤ I have never lived in a different country from my family, but I did live in California for about 6 years, while most of my family was back in Ohio, Alabama, and Texas. Even that was super hard! So I can only imagine. Once again, I'm sorry for you and your family's loss. Huge big hugs to you all!!! 🤗 keep being awesome, girlie!❤
Oh Taylor I'm so sorry for your loss! I've been watching you for Years and have always loved seeing you make Vlogmas videos with your nana! She was such a light! And so funny, especially when she'd tell you to get your camera out of her face 😅 I'm so glad you have all those memories to look back on. And that you shared them with us as well ❤️ But I'm extra glad that you got to spend the week with her! May she rest in peace.
I love how when you had your baby, you didn't forget about your first baby, Rosie.
I'm so sorry for your loss Tay.🥰 It's ok, our christmas didn't go exactly to plan either but we still had a nice day anyway. I loved seeing this video of Levi enjoying his first christmas. He's such a handsome little guy and seeing the pure joy on his face when he was with you is everything. You're doing such a great job, I'm sure I speak for all your subscribers when I say we are all so proud of you and how far you have come🥰
Levi is truly adorable!❤
so happy for you and your family.. and sorry to hear bout your grandma.. i also lost my grandma last oct 2021 :(
I love how you treat Rosie like another baby, she truly is a member of your family ❤
The most wholesome youtuber/family.
I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor! I've been watching for years and years so I've got to witness your relationship with your nana through your videos. You and her seem to have had an amazing relationship, I'm so relieved that you got to go spend time with her before she passed.
Also, how is Levi already so big! His personality is shining through! Do you think he's more like Tom or you personality wise? From what I have seen it looks like he might be a perfect little blend of both of you. 😍
Thank you for sharing your life with so many, I'm sure it's not always easy.
im so sorry for yout loss taylor ♥♥ my grandma passed away about two months ago and unfortunately because of passport issues me and my sister were unable to see her before she died. by the time we got there, we missed most of the important rituals as well as the cremation. not being there while the rest of my family was grieving together in another country was probably the hardest part..
going through old photos has helped me the most. it helps me keep her in my memory and remember the happy times. anyways, hope the coming year is amazing for you and your family! things always get easier with time...
You are so sweet and beautiful. You are such a good mom. Levi is adorable and seems like such a happy baby. Also it makes my heart happy to see that you make an effort to keep including your first baby, Rosie!
"sailor moon holding Levi and I am taking pictuuuuures!"
Really cracked me up. I loved seeing that as part of your relationship.
I also lost my grandpa last year. It was hard but now it is slowly better ... We can't do anything.
Curently I don't know who will be next. I feel like this year I will lost my grandma and my dog. But I am a little more prepared now. This is life, it will be sunshine and clouds... And we can face it.
I don't usually comment on YT videos, but this one really tugged at my heart as I lost 2 grandparents within 6 months while living a continent away. The first was my grandma, and she passed 5 days before Thanksgiving, which the rest of my family had planned to spend with her. Her funeral was postponed a week because of the holiday, which is the only way I was able to attend. My grandpa on the other side of my family passed away 6 months later in the height of early Covid-19, and I was unable to come home for the funeral. I would not wish watching a funeral via Skype on anyone. It's just awful; I never felt so alone. It's been 3 years, and I still miss them daily, but I also have to allow myself the grace to celebrate the happy moments that have happened since their passing.
Levi is so cute and handsome! And very smart! Love seeing you guys together. My condolences to you and your family sweetheart. I hope this new year is filled with beautiful chapters and memories, best wishes from Puerto Rico ❤️🇵🇷🫂. BTW love that Montessori house, if I have a baby I will buy it for sure!
I feel this , my grandfather passed in Dec also and we had our third child in July of the same year so it was hard to let myself be happy and celebrate with the kids while grieving the loss of a grandparent.Happy you got to spend a few days with her and Sorry for your loss !
They never really leave us ❤ You'll pass on her wisdom and stories to Levi and he'll pass them on too. It's harder during the holidays but we all know how strong you two are and just keep going 🥰 Much 💕from the US.
Watch your first Christmas brought back so many memories of both my kids first ones. It’s such a special time. Love seeing you all play and giggle. Many hugs. So sorry for the passing of your nana. ❤
Okay! So Levi's cuteness is over the roof 😍😍😍....good job Taylor ✌🏽✌🏽, u're an amazing Mama
Sending you love! I lost my aunt on Christmas this year. Grieving while celebrating is so hard and is such a complicated mix of emotions.
I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️
I love the harmony between baby and doggy. They just seem to get along so well and take turns cuddling you ☺️
Next month will be a year since my grandfather past away ... I miss him so much but I'm gratefull for all the years I have him in my life ❤️
Lots of love and blessings to you and your family ✨️
I lost my grandma(fathers side) late on new year's eve 2019. It was the worst start to the year..... I and my family got to know 00.34 after we came back in from looking at the fireworks.
It was the first time I have lost a grandparent, and I had just gotten out of a really bad depressive episode just in time for Christmas.
It will get better it just takes some time, love and good wishes from sweden❤
I’m sorry for your loss ❤
Ps, I really love the idea of a Santa photo where the kids don’t have to sit on a stranger’s lap! That’s a great setup
man that baby gonna be set for life
Thanks for posting while going through such a hard time, sending you love
Omg Levi has the most cutest smiles and laugh, my heart is melting!! ❤
im so sorry taylor, i remember losing my nana.. it was rough. Im glad you got those memories honey. Youre such a good mama, you really motivate me to do better as a mom. also Happy Birthday doll!
My next day turkey meal is A tyrkey pot pie, w homemade crust. As far as im concerned its the only option for leftover turky other than Thanksgiving egg rolls w the cranberry sauce.
I’m sorry to here about your Nana! Prayers and love going out to you and yours! Levi is the most adorable baby! He is just too darn cute!
I’m sorry for your loss, but glad you got to have that time with your grandma.. also.. Baby laughter is literally the purest sound in the world lol. Levi’s Laugh made me light up ❤