Firstly - Thank you so much everyone for your kind words, and all the stories you've shared of your pain too. I haven't had a chance to read them all yet, or even start replying, and I'm afraid my replies won't do justice to the words you've written, but please know I am so grateful to each and everyone of you that has watched and supported me. Secondly - I am NOT leaving RUclips, I will still be posting regularly, the only difference is I have shifted my focus from weight loss to my mental health at the moment.
Believe it ir not qorking on mental health all goes together with weight there is a program called noom and i looked at and its seams they work with thoughts have u had third checked please don't get upset u know we watch u but we have some problems like u and some not but if u need to take break then go for it hang in there
Yes ... Just forget about weight loss for some time Holly and just show us new workouts ... We love to do it with u .. be happy and nvr think about ur weight just keep smiling coz ur my sweetheart u hve inspired me a lot .. I was Soo lazy to do workouts and as u know thr are lot of workouts in RUclips but when I started seeing ur video I got a positive vibe and started ... Soo like I said don't stress urself mentally and thr are many like me here who has been inspired from u .... 😘
Truly lovely honest lady, Well done on going to see a therapist, sometimes it will be tough, but you will come through it, a stronger , happier lady, I wish you well xxx
Lots of love to you Holly! Take care, good luck with the therapy, happy healing! Thank you so much for your honesty & strength!!! It takes a lot of balls to do what you do lady!!! Lots of hugs!!!
Holly, I am 70 years old and just found you. Let me tell you this is a life- long struggle. I have the same issues. I just try, sometimes for a day.... sometimes longer. Sometimes I quit, It has never gotten easier. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are human! I love what I see in you. Come back when you are ready. It looks like you have as wonderful group of loyal followers who love you. 💙💙💙💙
Oh, deary. I feel your pain, I feel your vulnerability. We need real women like you here. I know you're embarrassed & ashamed. I'm sure you'll get haters & people talking down to you. But you have way more supporters! I'm new to your channel & it's quickly become one of my favorites. If you need a break, please take it. I do hope you don't go away forever. I had to take a social media break for my mental health & it did wonders. Anyway, you do you, but please know we appreciate you & care about you. Many of us understand. Stay strong, girl! We got you! 💜
Dear Holly, I just recently bumped into one of your workout videos and to say you are AMAZING doesnt do you justice. I am 62 years old have fibromyalgia, non alcoholic fatty liver disease, extremely high triglycerides, high blood pressure, sleep apnea and depression. I'm always tired and have led a very sedentary lifestyle for the last few years. I need to start moving and exercising for my health and yes lose some weight. You inspired me! I loved the way I felt after your video so that now I want to do all your workout videos! There is something about you that I can't explain that gave me what I needed to want to move again. You are beautiful! I wish you success in everything you do. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Love ya!
Same here, and what a relief to find Holly’s videos - workouts I can actually do that women here are saying actually work. It’s the middle of the night or I’d get started this minute.
I think ur amazing it is so hard to lose weight, portion control, cutting out drinking 🤪that’s one of my problems too I enjoy it I love food so maybe if we all support each other instead of being judgmental and self centered I wish you the best
By confronting your issues, you are making the first step to being healthy both physically and mentally. Yes, love your body! Keep sharing your story to help others!
I just started watching you today as I have gotten huge over the last 10years and I have literally not a soul in this world to talk to. I am so encouraged by the videos I have seen so far and especially this video is inspiring for me. Thank you for sharing.
Holly You’ve called this, “I Quit” I wanna sit you down for coffee and compassion. What I see is in reality ‘I reassess.’ I have had to be realistic recently too and learn to reassess and readjust my expectations. That’s life and it’s a very important skill. The pain of disappointment is real and so are you. I once thought that I would get back to my pre-disability mobility weight and energy levels. Hah!! 😜 My body, however, disagrees. I have fought the long fight with very little gain. But it’s gain despite some relapses and much emotional turmoil and physical pain. I stopped weighing. I stopped wanting to turn back time - it only flows one way (life’s not sci-fi 😆) I’m getting better at looking at what is rather than what isn’t or might have been. Now I try to look as good as I can and accept what I see - to love and respect me. I’m sick of keto...but I dread the way I feel without it. I don’t measure but eat to satisfied and then stop. No sugar, 25g carbs (total) no processed or ready made food, (still some cravings but no binges or carb insanity). Diabetes gone. Weightloss tediously slow. But I can now walk a mile and not just struggle to get across the room. Changing my mindset to health and fitness really works for me (providing i nail the sugar and carbs). Empathy and hugs Holly and thanks again for your help and hard work.
!!!!!! Holly, I admire your honesty, you showed up authentically and it is purely beautiful. Let me help you. I am a holistic health coach and Master herbalist and Medicine Woman. I offer free help. With the use of natural herbal teas, I will make for you, and holistic mind coaching, you can get another shot at this goal. Your goal was maybe not realistic and too big. Also with physical healing, heart, and soul healing need to occur at the same time. That is why you didn't succeed this time around. I can help you to love yourself more and divide a big goal into doable pieces you WILL accomplish with my help. I will be your friend overall. king. Herbs will help you with emotional ease with binge eating or drinking. I will do it with you, all along. This will slow and enjoyable journey that will heal your heart, soul, and eventually, the body will follow naturally.
You just need support, sweetheart. Doing this “alone” is a big deal, and during a pandemic when our mental health can be hard-hit has been brutal. There is a comment on here from an herbalist offering free help. And there are many of us here who are also finding our way. Your workouts help. Sending love! S.
Thank YOU for your naked honesty! You opened my eyes. I too have been chasing and am still chasing the notion that weight loss equals happiness as I just had weight loss surgery. So even though I am now physically forced to eat less I am still mentally suffering from body dysmorphia and wanting to eat. I am now going to research a therapist. You are a rockstar in my eyes.
Whether you’ve made progress or not, you’re trying and doing something about it! You’re a motivation and I love your videos and personality. Losing weight is very difficult. My journey started in May of this year and to date I have lost 20 pounds, but shedding more pounds past the 20 has been even more difficult! Nonetheless, I find motivation in your videos, as well as other videos and from family and friends. I hope you continue to try your best, and as you say, love yourself!
Similar situation here! Once I hit 30lbs, it’s been difficult to really make progress past it. I got into a really negative headspace about it so I’m taking a step back and trying to readjust.
@@sarahm6690 I hope you find your way out of that negative space! Step1) congratulate yourself on -30! Thats amazing. Step 2) recognize that plateaus are always bound to happen, your body got used to what you were doing, so now its time to mix it up, im not sure of your diet habits or your workout routine, but definitely consider new methods of work outs, im not sure if you have heard of carb cycling but that could also work. Dont give up, just find a new approach and you go this!
Just curious, I've been counting calories and lost 5 lbs. Are you both counting calories, working out? Why do you believe you've stalled. I would like some tips before I get there.
@Desert Love Desert Love I do not count calories. I just go by weight. I usually workout 7 days a week (skip a day or two if I feel my body needs to recover). I have also changed my eating habits - smaller portions, more vegetables and grains, and no soda, juice, or coffee whatsoever. On average I have been losing 4-5 pounds per month, but it’s almost 3 weeks and I am stuck at 20 pounds.
@Sarah M I have felt discouraged at times too, but luckily my friends and family keep me motivated. In 2018, I had lost 15 pounds, but could not figure out how to keep going so I quit then - regained the weight afterwards. It is tough, but will not quit this time. I hope you find the confidence and motivation to keep going. Any progress is a huge achievement!
Wow, probably the most raw video I've seen in awhile. My only issue is that you said "I WAS beautiful" and I have to disagree. You ARE beautiful. You left out a word when you said Binge Eating, it has one more word at the end, Disorder. Many of us, including me, have BED and it's not something you can just snap away or get over. You're doing it right by going to therapy and getting your lifestyle under control. You're on the right track, keep your head up and keep moving forward. Weight-loss and health living isn't a linear journey. If I may suggest, go check out John from Obese to Beast and see if his videos can help you along.
Thank you 🥺. Weirdly it's kind of a relief to face up to my trauma. Our journeys are not linear, and this is just part of my journey. I'm still going to keep going 💪 Yes, I follow ObesetoBeast, I don't always agree with some of his criticism/opinions, but I think he can offer great advice.
I’m so proud of you!!! If it was that easy we would all be fit and trim. But we’re not because it’s not easy. I thank you so much for your inspiration! I love that you are so transparent. So glad that you don’t just show the ups, but you show the downs as well (Reality). Please don’t stop.
You are so many of us, so many who have shed the same tears. Don't give up, Everyday is a new day. On my walks I pass a church and the Billboard says "Grace changes everything" you got this and do I.
From someone who had a seriously traumatic childhood I’m here to tell you that you are not broken Holly. You are not damaged. I will not say that I did not benefit from therapy in the past but what we think and do NOW is far more important. We already know what happened in the past. We can remember it if we want to but we do not actually need to open ourselves up to all that pain again. What purpose does it serve? Bad stuff happened to you. Bad people hurt you. But I repeat - you are not broken. You are not damaged. We have been encouraged to think that we’ve locked it away, buried it. And we have because we could not function at all otherwise. It’s the HEALTHY thing to do. You are not your body Holly. You are so much more than just a body but your body IS the most amazing, wonderful, miraculous thing. It deserves to be appreciated, loved and cared for for itself.
You could not lose a pound and still be an inspiration! You’re moving and improving and such a role model. Love the bikinis on Instagram! You are a delight!
You are so brave being so honest so openly. You are a wonderful inspiration. Whatever you decide to do, I wish you every success and happiness. Thank you so much for what you've shared and given us.
Never, never quit. Your story is my struggle, spread over most of my 65 years. Every day is a new day. Forgive yourself EVERY DAY . Push forward every day. Eating healthy and regular exercise will keep you mentally and physically positive.
If it was easy there wouldn't be a multi billion pound industry around it Holly. You show real life. You do you. If you enjoy doing this do it..if not, just stop. It's your business and journey. No one else's. I think your vids are brilliant. Keep smiling sweetie.
I mean, the industry also wants profit rather than to promote health so they aren't exactly invested to help people to lose body fat. Ensue vicious circle.
You have only lost if you quit. Every obstacle is a stepping stone to the next stage. It’s better to be trying than not. Think where you would be without all the exercise you’ve done! Nothing worthwhile is easy, and believe me, you have inspired SO MANY people! It breaks my heart to see you so upset after all you have achieved. Take a breather, because you’re alive and kicking, and that’s a pretty good start! Lots of love and support! xxx
Thank you for your transparency Holly. What you shared on this video is not easy. Looking deep inside is very difficult, more less sharing what you have begun to discover. You are not alone in this struggle, I share this journey with you and am sure many others do as well. I believe I understand how you are feeling and what you are becoming aware of. It's big - it's huge - it's scary and dealing with it and working thru it will take continued courage along with some help from a licensed professional. Keep in mind that sometimes it is required to meet with different providers before you find a good fit so be patient with that part. It's okay to shop around so to speak to find that connection or a love connection as I share with the patients I speak with daily. I work in behavioral health and hear the cries of many in this area of care so "we" are not alone. I am 57 years old, former gastric bypass patient. Began at 298# and dropped down to 147#. Surgery was in 2008 and we are now in the beginning of 2022 and I'm up to 190#. I love food - unhealthy, high calorie food. I eat in the sneak and many times not in the sneak and carry a very rebellious attitude about it so nobody would dare address it with me. I'm on a boat load of psychiatric meds to treat depression, anxiety, PTSD *childhood trauma (a lot of it) along with childhood sexual assault that very few know about. I've been married 3 times. Two divorces, one that consisted of DV and was very difficult to get out of safely. I have 3 beautiful daughters from 3 different men. I am married for the 3rd time and although he is amazing, loving, caring and giving, I still find myself "not okay". I love him and am aware that something is holding me back from giving him my best. Partially because I don't really know what my best is. I wish the process of surgical weight loss focused so much more on one's mental health than it does. I believe now that it may possibly be the core to my years of unhappiness and personal - relational turmoil. In typing this, I realized it is a good idea for me to copy this and send it to the therapist I have been working with for anxiety and depression as this is not a topic I have brought up and will need to. I trust her and perhaps all of our visits needed to occur for me to feel comfortable allowing myself to imagine being vulnerable with her in this area. I hear an accent when you speak and don't know if you live in the USA or not. I would however, continue to correspond with you if possible. I'm fairly uneducated with RUclips except for videos I stumble across. If you know of a way for us to touch base off-line I'd love to. Perhaps my email may help with that. livelovelaugh1964@gmail.com
You know what, it's honestly refreshing to hear someone who genuinely struggles with the same issues so many of us do. You see all these workout videos of perfectly toned, skinny women, who don't seem to be 'real' enough. They do not see the hardships of being severly overweight or obese and think weight loss is easy. I have a very difficult relationship with food too and have lost and gained my whole 20's and even though I'm now making progress, it's only through an unhealthy relationship with food again ( crash dieting quite extremely ) I related so much to your experiences in not eating in front of people. I did exactly the same for the very same reasons thinking that everyone would look at me and think what a pig I was! I'm only just starting to overcome that and I'm now 33! So can totally understand how that can create a secret binging type of habit. Stay strong and good luck in the new path of your journey ❤️
As a so called "skinny person" as you put it, I don't think weight loss is easy. It takes work and effort. It takes consistency . It takes eating quality food that nourishes your body. The journey is different for everyone . However, it is possible for everyone to do. What is most important to to be healthy. What you look like doesn't matter. Your weight does not determine your worth. What matters is your health.
I’ve gained a few kg since a 20kg weight loss and it’s making me feel terrible about yourself. Seeing your workouts helps me feel really motivated. Keep doing what you’re doing!
I don’t know if your reading this but you are the most honest fitness person I’ve ever seen and I’m not just saying that I cried seeing this cuz being a big person not easy you can do this I love the workouts cuz nobody understands your weight like the people of your weight we got this!! Please don’t give up this truly inspired me even this has respect because it’s real and honest
I've seen such a change in your body and strength. You are inspiring. Of all the fitness channels I decided to subscribe to yours because you are real. You are doing your part but you need to reach out to a professional if you feel that your eating is disordered. Don't be angry at yourself. You are a role model. I exercise with you and my 82 year old mother does also.♥️
Accidentally stumbled upon your wonderful exercise video for the first time today. I have to say how refreshing to see someone in my shoes who really understood how hard it is to find the strength to share and to also show us that you don't have to be a cheerleader to lead the wonderful workout you've shared with all of us. You are a true inspiration. Please don't give up!! YOU are worth every bit of it!!!
I completely relate and understand how you're feeling. Its a constant struggle. There seems to be 2 sides, weight loss side and body positive sides. Everyone forgets there is a middle ground. Stop beating yourself up. Love yourself no matter what your size but also work on being healthier. There are plenty of people that are of ''normal weight'' and still are unhealthy because a number on a scale does NOT define who you are or how healthy or unhealthy you are. Please just do what you need to do to be mentally and physically healthy, happy and love yourself. Much love to you. 💜💜💜💜💜
Just thought I'd share a story that my cousin was hospitalized because his blood pressure and cholesterol was so high he was getting woozy and nearly fainted while driving. He is skinny (same age as me) while I am fat, even obese. But my test numbers (BP, Blood sugar, heart rate, cholesterol) were better than him. Please, Holly dear. Don't put pressure on yourself over scale weight and body size. Just keep living a healthy lifestyle and get your blood checks once in a while. Getting slim is just a side quest! Love from Indonesia. 🌟💝
As someone that just found your RUclips channel, I just want to say thank you. It's so hard watching skinny, ripped people work out and make moves that people our size cannot do. It's NOT easy for people our size to just do it as they say. There are mental barriers we have to break down also. I've been struggling with my weight for the last 13 years since I started having children. Thank you for sharing your journey. Your videos (all of them) can help people at every stage of their journey.
Holly you’re human! Please be kind to yourself, Don’t quit we need you ❤️❤️❤️ I wasn’t working out at all until I started your videos. Support is key and your viewers support you. I was in such a bad mental state but your videos bring me light 💡
Oh Holly, unfortunately in this world there are so many people who feel they know what you should do for this or that but they do not live your life or walk in your shoes or have your history. You have motivated so many people to just get up and move. This is so important for mental health not just to make the clothes fit better. Joining you on your videos has made my effort to move more so much more enjoyable. The message I receive from you every video I watch is that I can be stronger. Viewing it as stronger rather than slimmer is so much more motivating for me. So thank you Holly, truly thank you. Also thank you for being so open, I know how scary that can be. Lastly, I am so glad to hear you are going to put yourself and your well being and healing first. Please know that is the most important thing you could ever do for yourself.
Oh please don't give up! I came a crossed you for the first time today when I needed a workout for a bigger woman. I'm struggling with severe depression and started working out today. I'm going to be doing this with the help of your videos. I hope you continue videos and good luck to you!
I found your channel in May, and I have not made any progress in losing weight. The progress I’ve made is in my confidence. Also I have less pain over all I have fibromyalgia, and your videos have helped me so much. Thank you! Don’t ever stop you’re doing great! As long as you don’t stop you are making progress.
Oh sweet lady- you’re brave for putting yourself in the public eye and for inspiring others. We are all real, just like you- the struggle is so real. We love you and are grateful for you.
As you spoke I looked at most of the comments! Girl you are held up in so much love. Thank you for your vulnerability. You change of direction is wise. Thankyou for all you do to inspire others
Your genuine kindness and open sincerity will take you through your next journey. You’re a delight! My best to you. We’ll be pulling for you all the way.
I just discovered your workouts last week, and yesterday did one finally- and loved it! It got my heart pumping, it got me moving for 30 minutes, and that’s what I needed! I’m currently about the same size as you, and at 32 I realized I don’t want to have high blood pressure, and I don’t want to be winded so easily, and that I need a better relationship with food. You’ve really helped me see that as a bigger person, you can still move! That I don’t need the excuse of the gyms being closed, my ass can sweat at home watching your videos! That making 30 minutes of my day dedicated to exercise needs to me a lifelong priority- not a well once I’m thinner this won’t be a concern. THANK YOU, for being real about the struggle, for showing you’re a real person, and sharing with us you’re seeking help. I sincerely hope you continue to upload frequently, because you’re seriously hilarious. And I’m happy to follow along for the ride 💜
I'm with you all the way Holly. You are a real woman. Remember one thing darling. You have small kids so you have to be healthy and strong for them. Do it for them and forget about yourself and whoever else. After all I feel they made a contribution to you reaching the size you are. At least you know what your weaknesses are. Don't worry - we all have to always strive to be better people. You are not alone my dear girl. Think of your kids.
Loving yourself is so much more important than anything a scale says. I’m so happy you’re taking the time to heal yourself from the inside. Hearing your story broke my heart, but just know that you have our 100% our full support. We love you Holly!
Yes YeS YES!! Everything you said could be a mirror image of my life. All we can do is to try our best everyday to love ourself and to choose happy. We sometimes need to hear from others to know that we are not alone in the struggles. You are not alone and you do deserve much more then you give yourself credit for. I hope that you find the acceptance you are looking for and that therapy helps. Thank you for your video and confirming for me that I am not alone and I deserve much more then I give myself credit for. xoxoxo
Do not judge yourself, science behind this which tells how hard to lose weight. I am also struggling to lose I am doing a course where all very well explained, it’s not your fault at all, lovely lady!!! Do not give up. You are on the right path! You you feel better since you were recording with this video! Sending hugs
Bless your heart! I think you speak of things that so many of us feel in our hearts. You have a ton of support behind you as we're all cheering you on.
This exact struggle has been my life for the past few years. I commit to making a big change, and then I fall back into terrible habits. I think the best thing that anyone can do especially during the pandemic is to be kind to yourself. And being kind can mean working out, it can mean not beating yourself up over a particularly rough night or stretch of days.
Just found your channel...im 15 years old, about 5'4 and weigh 189 lbs...it has me really down on myself most of the time to where i get terrible anxiety even going out to stores or hanging out with the people closest to me...its like im always self aware of how i perceive myself physically and it just sucks and I've been thinking abt starting to work out..I've done it before and stopped when i feel too self conscious but now i realize that i don't owe it to anyone to look what the world sees as "perfect" or "beautiful"... Im slowly learning to love myself and im going to start working out again but for a different reason this time.. Im gonna do it because i do love myself but i still want to work on me for me and there is nothing wrong with that being my form of self care because i know im beautiful in my own unique way and so are all of you gorgeous people❤ Also ik this is late but you making this content is really awesome...a lot of people don't understand how hard this topic is to talk about and i seriously look up to you in your journey of self love both mentally and physically...even if you fall back which happens to everyone, you are an inspiration and don't forget it!!
Don't get upset I'm totally on this journey with you 😞 I too am struggling and am now pre-diabetic 😣, but watching and joining in with you is a real help. It's NOT EASY....... ITS NOT! 😘❤️💕
Holly, Inspiring people isn't about being perfect! It's about helping people to see their potential! You've done that! You've inspired so many people, myself included, and showed us that we CAN do something to improve our health and fitness! People who might otherwise give up after seeing some of the other 'beginner' workouts on youtube can find your videos and say "Wait! I CAN TOTALLY DO THIS!". It's normal in the course of any major undertaking that you're going to think you can't do it, you're going to want to give up, but doing what you need to do to take care of yourself, and finding a way to push forward, or reassessing and finding another path to meet your goal, that's honestly the most courageous and amazing thing! That's how you learn and become better and better. Constant learning and figuring out how to make it all work, that's what gives life meaning, IMO. Anyways, I know I probably sound like some goofy motivational speaker, but these are my true feelings, and I want you to know how many people are rooting for you
My dear, sweet Holly. I am SO happy that you have realized the true meaning of your journey. No one needs to let their life revolve around weight loss, as it is only 1 part of who you are. A healthy LIFEstyle, mind - body - soul, is vital to your happiness and security and you are SO WORTH IT!!! You are worthy of a happy, healthy life -- in whatever form it comes. NEVER let the scale set the tone for your success. It is merely ONE measurement of success and is never as important as the NSV's (non scale victories). Just know, you are fearfully and wonderfully made and you were created for a purpose. NEVER put the keys to your happiness in someone else's hands. Your journey is for you to discover. Thank you for sharing it with all of us and I pray that your journey to discovering Your Purposeful Healthy Life well help you realize that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!!! 💖
Ooo girl your not alone. Its so hard! And You got 2 small kids, thats a work to. Life changing goals need so so mutch work. Keep loving your self. You are a Great rollmodel for me and so many more.
We love your candor. You are not alone. I have tried so many things that i “say” don’t work, but the truth is I don’t do the programs like i should. Have wasted so much time and money but i know there is something in me that keeps me from finishing what i start. You are a real inspiration in that you are exposing to the world who you really are. We love you.
I can completely relate to everything you have said. I have been using your videos to be healthier and fitter rather than for losing weight. Thank you for keeping to so real and stay strong xxx
Just discovered you today. Just want to say I'm glad you didn't quit. There are so many conflicting pressures out there but ultimately you speak my language, you are real and you have got me moving for the first time in over a year. Thank you. Keep going x
I love you so much! Not only do you inspire me but I can't tell how much I appreciate having workout routines that are good for us big beautiful women. I understand what you're going through I workout 3 or 4 days a week mostly now I do your videos you know I try and eat well but there are times that I will just binge and I feel like The Biggest Loser afterwards because why can't I control this one thing. Sweetheart you're not alone and you're so brave for putting it out there and the hell with anybody who questions or criticizes your methods. You keep doing you you're a beautiful strong amazing woman and We All Fall Down but it's how we get back up that defines our character.
I've just started following you and I can already tell you're a beautiful soul inside and out. Your struggles are SO common with a lot of women, myself included. I started putting on weight after my grandpa died in 2003 when I was 13 years old. From then, I've never been at a healthy weight. It got worse when my aunt that I was closest to passed away shortly after my grandpa in 2006. I'm just now starting a weight loss journey myself and I know I need to see someone about all the grief I have that I've never actually delt with as people I've been close to have passed away and have just put all of that into eating. You're not alone! Please remember that and know that no matter what your weight is, you're special. You were put on this Earth for a reason and I think that reason is sharing your story with us on RUclips. Whether that be weight loss or your body positivity goals. You're making a difference to so many people and I can't wait to continue to see you grow this next year!
WE LOVE YOU!!!! We are ALL on this journey with you.❤️ You have INSPIRED more people than you realize. Never worriy about what others think. You have given us a beautiful gift. You gave us YOU! Your Positivity, your honesty, your encouragement. Keep shining your beautiful bright light 💐❤️🙏🏽
You’re not alone lovely. you are putting yourself out there and trying to help others as well as yourself. Take a break, refocus. Don’t ever give up. We are behind you girl 😊❤️❤️❤️
Oh my lovely girl most of us reach a point in life where outside help is needed I'm glad you made that choice now while you are still young. Your food issues are related to past traumas things that happen in childhood have very severe repercussions for the adult you become. With help you can work your way through that and the rest will fall into place. You are not a failure you are a beautiful person inside and out and you deserve to be happy you are still on a journey to that. Sending positive thoughts your way xx
Don't feel bad! This is the truth that all of us over weight ppl feel! I know personally. I have been through this! Time and time again! It's not easy!
More LOVE AND POWER to you! I feel the need to tell you that all these things you've shared whole heartedly, I have been feeling the same way and just requires so much courage to actually put it out in words. You choosing you and your mental health over everything is an encouragement for so many of us! ❤️ Huge thanks to you for sharing this. We are here for you. I myself, have been inspired by you and have been struggling with the same thoughts. Feel better soon! We love you and what you've brought to us for this past year! ❤️
I wanna hug you SO HARD, same here sister, i started therapy a month ago and now i started to do a little for mysel, like do your routine, but mental health comes first, if the brain is good, the body too, be strong, love you
I'm sad to hear that you are feeling broken hearted. As you know weight loss is a journey, not a race. On our journey we learn about ourselves. Don't be so hard on yourself. 2020 has and continues to produce very many challenges on top of the normal challenges we face. I am listening to you pour your heart out. You are insightful and I think it is a very good idea for you to talk to a professional therapist. Sounds cheesy, but I am sending you a big hug, wrap your arms around yourself and squeeze.... xoxo
So many wonderful and kind people on this thread. I’ve struggled with my weight all my life. I’ve lost and I’ve gained. I would work out great for awhile and I would stop working out for awhile. I feel like this pandemic has made me focus on myself more. So many great videos like yours on RUclips for fitness and mental health. I feel so good just taking care of myself. Please everyone take care of yourselves. You can’t help anyone if you don’t take care of yourself. Do not worry about the number on the scale.
Please don’t go! I love your exercise videos. I’m just getting started again and struggle with motivation. I’m still only able to do half of one of your sit down videos. It’s encouraging for me to watch your videos because your like me and are working towards a goal and are struggling just like me. ♥️
Hi. Don't be sad. You have come further than many people for at least trying. Much appreciation for you being honest about your struggles. Keep your head up. Things will get better 🌞🤗
Holly, pls don’t say I Quit..... pls never give up on positive things in life. You were an inspiration to me. Thanks for inspiring me. Love you and may God Bless you always 🙏
Hi Holly! I just found you today! Your videos are perfect for me to get started on my weight loss journey. I’m so excited to do more of your workouts so don’t quit! I know it is not easy but we can all do this together! ❤️
Coming across your videos is what got me started and motivated! I haven’t been able to do workouts like someone who is in better shape. I was feeling discouraged. I saw your workout and I said, okay, I can do this. I can start here. Finally, here is someone who knows what I am going through. Progress is slow, but it is still progress. This is a journey. I can relate to you so much! Don’t stop inspiring. You got this. I got this. Let’s keep going.
Holly, I just happened to land on one of your videos last week for the first time, and first of all, I just want to say THANK YOU for hearing the call and responding to it by creating workout videos for "people like us". I spent the week doing your 6-minute HIIT video, and just felt really seen and understood. Today I decided to try one of your longer videos, and found myself just grinning during one of your longer videos, enjoying how real you were--funny, inspiring, confident, and even a little self-deprecating (like we all are). It made me want to keep exploring your videos. ...And then I came across this one. Well, holy buckets if you aren't the realest, coolest, most admirable angel in the world! I too have gone up and down with my weight, and up and down with my gung-ho attitude about it being about "weight loss". Three years being driven by the numbers going in my mouth through calories and out on the scale in pounds. I too reached a point where I never wanted to set foot on a scale. People don't often realize the emotional toll that comes with chasing weight loss, and the realization that essentially what it does is uncovers traumas we've covered up with food over the course of years, maybe decades. As a therapy advocate, I just wanted to pop on (almost a year later, I realize), and give you the biggest virtual hug and congratulate you for recognizing your desire to change your focus from weight loss to loving yourself, and I have no doubt that if you're still on that journey, it's been a roller coaster in itself. Therapy isn't a straight line, just like weight loss. There's tears, heartache, anger, and everything else that comes along with finding joy. So girl, congratulations, you're officially an icon to me, and if there's any advice I could give, it's this: Change the damn title of this video...you didn't quit anything! You're not a quitter...in fact, that's the exact opposite sentiment I got from you! You're driven as hell. You just shifted what you're driving toward. You're loving YOU. And that's the only way any of us are going to get through this world smiling inside. Be you, my hero.
It’s so difficult being there for others while trying to be there for ourselves. Your beauty is in your ability to be who you truly are and share that so honestly. Thank you for that. As for your goals, they are yours. You are where you need to be today, in order to get you to where you want to be. Your 1st responsibility is to you and that’s what you are prioritizing now! Thank you for that lesson we all need to hear! Big hugs to you.
Everything you said is so incredibly relatable Holly and it's so true about the struggle to both be positive about the body you have and want to achieve goals, while struggling with WHY we have the relationship with food we do.
I've been working through the same thing you're going through and I'm sending love to you for being vulnerable and admitting what's going on. It's not an easy journey to overcome, but I hope you can reach a healing place, especially mentally. xx
It was really horrible to say it out loud, but also a weight off my shoulder (not the scale, lol). Glad to hear there are more people like me. I'm still on this journey.
Your honesty is golden. You have inspired me greatly this year. It’s all about the journey. If you rewatch one of your videos, make it this one. Focus on health and happiness. Wise words. 🌈
It is so refreshing to see someone that understands the struggle. I am a binge eater and an emotional eater. I have abused my body for years. I just want you to know that I appreciate you. I appreciate you putting yourself out there like this. I need this right now. You are an inspiration.
Hi, please don't ever give up on anything. Its hard because its challenging. I have never seen anyone before trying to lose weight and help people at the same time who is not already thin. Its hard putting yourself out there but that's what I love about you. Your real. You put everything out there. How you feel is how most people feel. You are encouraging, positive, not sure and that's beautiful. Your honesty towards your goals, your feelings etc. I love looking at your youtube channel. You are an inspiration.
I LOVE your focus on body positivity!!! I'm going to join you there, thank you. YET AGAIN you inspire me. One can accept one's body 100% and also move for the joy of moving and for health, not for "weight loss." XO
You are a beautiful person inside and out. There is no shame in reaching out for help, I am very grateful that you have put yourself out there! Just keep in mind that we are often hardest on ourselves. What you think others are thinking / feeling is often "just" a manifestation of our own demons.
My heart was breaking as I watched this video. I had just found your channel and was so excited to find a workout by someone who looked like me. I'm old by comparison and gave up on losing weight a long time ago. (not acceptance, just resignation) However, as I get closer to retiring, I find that I need a better fitness level to do the things I want to do. I think your videos will be able to help me. I hope that you find what you need to be healthy both inside and out.
Oh Holly, you wonderful person you, I am saddened by all this but you are absolutely doing the right thing. I will still keep watching your exercise videos over and over because they really are helping me in my weight loss. I wish you every success and hope you get the help and support you need. Then one day we can see you back on our screens. You will really be missed xxx Tina
Firstly - Thank you so much everyone for your kind words, and all the stories you've shared of your pain too. I haven't had a chance to read them all yet, or even start replying, and I'm afraid my replies won't do justice to the words you've written, but please know I am so grateful to each and everyone of you that has watched and supported me. Secondly - I am NOT leaving RUclips, I will still be posting regularly, the only difference is I have shifted my focus from weight loss to my mental health at the moment.
Believe it ir not qorking on mental health all goes together with weight there is a program called noom and i looked at and its seams they work with thoughts have u had third checked please don't get upset u know we watch u but we have some problems like u and some not but if u need to take break then go for it hang in there
You're welcome! And I am happy you will still be here for us! We need you!
Yes ... Just forget about weight loss for some time Holly and just show us new workouts ... We love to do it with u .. be happy and nvr think about ur weight just keep smiling coz ur my sweetheart u hve inspired me a lot .. I was Soo lazy to do workouts and as u know thr are lot of workouts in RUclips but when I started seeing ur video I got a positive vibe and started ... Soo like I said don't stress urself mentally and thr are many like me here who has been inspired from u .... 😘
Truly lovely honest lady, Well done on going to see a therapist, sometimes it will be tough, but you will come through it, a stronger , happier lady, I wish you well xxx
Lots of love to you Holly! Take care, good luck with the therapy, happy healing! Thank you so much for your honesty & strength!!! It takes a lot of balls to do what you do lady!!! Lots of hugs!!!
This is real life to a lot women. Please stay and don‘t give up. I love your authenticity. We need more people like you. Sending you lots of hugs.
Very well said!
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I agree to 100%
You are so right, I have struggled with my weight all my life.
This helps me I’m not a-writer but it just makes me think no magic bullet. Real true confessions.
"Your weight does not equal your worth in this world" I need that constantly in my face so I don't forget.
Christine Kern 💯
Holly, I am 70 years old and just found you. Let me tell you this is a life- long struggle. I have the same issues. I just try, sometimes for a day.... sometimes longer. Sometimes I quit, It has never gotten easier. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are human! I love what I see in you. Come back when you are ready. It looks like you have as wonderful group of loyal followers who love you. 💙💙💙💙
I am 74, and I say, “amen!”.
Oh, deary. I feel your pain, I feel your vulnerability. We need real women like you here. I know you're embarrassed & ashamed. I'm sure you'll get haters & people talking down to you. But you have way more supporters! I'm new to your channel & it's quickly become one of my favorites. If you need a break, please take it. I do hope you don't go away forever. I had to take a social media break for my mental health & it did wonders. Anyway, you do you, but please know we appreciate you & care about you. Many of us understand. Stay strong, girl! We got you! 💜
Dear Holly, I just recently bumped into one of your workout videos and to say you are AMAZING doesnt do you justice. I am 62 years old have fibromyalgia, non alcoholic fatty liver disease, extremely high triglycerides, high blood pressure, sleep apnea and depression. I'm always tired and have led a very sedentary lifestyle for the last few years. I need to start moving and exercising for my health and yes lose some weight. You inspired me! I loved the way I felt after your video so that now I want to do all your workout videos! There is something about you that I can't explain that gave me what I needed to want to move again. You are beautiful! I wish you success in everything you do. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Love ya!
Same here, and what a relief to find Holly’s videos - workouts I can actually do that women here are saying actually work. It’s the middle of the night or I’d get started this minute.
Holly, you’re doing the right thing. You are beginning a journey of self healing. We are on your side.
I think ur amazing it is so hard to lose weight, portion control, cutting out drinking 🤪that’s one of my problems too I enjoy it I love food so maybe if we all support each other instead of being judgmental and self centered I wish you the best
@@lavellealfarano7718 you just do what makes you happy thanks for just be real
She is getting therapy. That’s what addicts do.
By confronting your issues, you are making the first step to being healthy both physically and mentally. Yes, love your body! Keep sharing your story to help others!
No one is judging you, were all too concerned about ourselves. Too much pressure for you. We like you as is. We like you as is.
I just started watching you today as I have gotten huge over the last 10years and I have literally not a soul in this world to talk to. I am so encouraged by the videos I have seen so far and especially this video is inspiring for me. Thank you for sharing.
You’re beautiful make sure you NEVER EVER forget that!
Holly You’ve called this, “I Quit” I wanna sit you down for coffee and compassion. What I see is in reality ‘I reassess.’ I have had to be realistic recently too and learn to reassess and readjust my expectations. That’s life and it’s a very important skill. The pain of disappointment is real and so are you. I once thought that I would get back to my pre-disability mobility weight and energy levels. Hah!! 😜 My body, however, disagrees. I have fought the long fight with very little gain. But it’s gain despite some relapses and much emotional turmoil and physical pain. I stopped weighing. I stopped wanting to turn back time - it only flows one way (life’s not sci-fi 😆) I’m getting better at looking at what is rather than what isn’t or might have been. Now I try to look as good as I can and accept what I see - to love and respect me. I’m sick of keto...but I dread the way I feel without it. I don’t measure but eat to satisfied and then stop. No sugar, 25g carbs (total) no processed or ready made food, (still some cravings but no binges or carb insanity). Diabetes gone. Weightloss tediously slow. But I can now walk a mile and not just struggle to get across the room. Changing my mindset to health and fitness really works for me (providing i nail the sugar and carbs). Empathy and hugs Holly and thanks again for your help and hard work.
!!!!!! Holly, I admire your honesty, you showed up authentically and it is purely beautiful. Let me help you. I am a holistic health coach and Master herbalist and Medicine Woman. I offer free help. With the use of natural herbal teas, I will make for you, and holistic mind coaching, you can get another shot at this goal. Your goal was maybe not realistic and too big. Also with physical healing, heart, and soul healing need to occur at the same time. That is why you didn't succeed this time around. I can help you to love yourself more and divide a big goal into doable pieces you WILL accomplish with my help. I will be your friend overall. king. Herbs will help you with emotional ease with binge eating or drinking. I will do it with you, all along. This will slow and enjoyable journey that will heal your heart, soul, and eventually, the body will follow naturally.
You just need support, sweetheart. Doing this “alone” is a big deal, and during a pandemic when our mental health can be hard-hit has been brutal. There is a comment on here from an herbalist offering free help. And there are many of us here who are also finding our way. Your workouts help. Sending love! S.
Thank YOU for your naked honesty! You opened my eyes. I too have been chasing and am still chasing the notion that weight loss equals happiness as I just had weight loss surgery. So even though I am now physically forced to eat less I am still mentally suffering from body dysmorphia and wanting to eat. I am now going to research a therapist. You are a rockstar in my eyes.
Whether you’ve made progress or not, you’re trying and doing something about it! You’re a motivation and I love your videos and personality. Losing weight is very difficult. My journey started in May of this year and to date I have lost 20 pounds, but shedding more pounds past the 20 has been even more difficult! Nonetheless, I find motivation in your videos, as well as other videos and from family and friends. I hope you continue to try your best, and as you say, love yourself!
Similar situation here! Once I hit 30lbs, it’s been difficult to really make progress past it. I got into a really negative headspace about it so I’m taking a step back and trying to readjust.
@@sarahm6690 I hope you find your way out of that negative space! Step1) congratulate yourself on -30! Thats amazing. Step 2) recognize that plateaus are always bound to happen, your body got used to what you were doing, so now its time to mix it up, im not sure of your diet habits or your workout routine, but definitely consider new methods of work outs, im not sure if you have heard of carb cycling but that could also work. Dont give up, just find a new approach and you go this!
Just curious, I've been counting calories and lost 5 lbs. Are you both counting calories, working out? Why do you believe you've stalled. I would like some tips before I get there.
@Desert Love Desert Love I do not count calories. I just go by weight. I usually workout 7 days a week (skip a day or two if I feel my body needs to recover). I have also changed my eating habits - smaller portions, more vegetables and grains, and no soda, juice, or coffee whatsoever. On average I have been losing 4-5 pounds per month, but it’s almost 3 weeks and I am stuck at 20 pounds.
@Sarah M I have felt discouraged at times too, but luckily my friends and family keep me motivated. In 2018, I had lost 15 pounds, but could not figure out how to keep going so I quit then - regained the weight afterwards. It is tough, but will not quit this time. I hope you find the confidence and motivation to keep going. Any progress is a huge achievement!
I still binge eat when I am stressed and emotional. You are not alone and none of us are sitting in judgement of you!!
Sometimes we need outside help to be our best. This is a powerful message.
I’ll
Wow, probably the most raw video I've seen in awhile. My only issue is that you said "I WAS beautiful" and I have to disagree. You ARE beautiful. You left out a word when you said Binge Eating, it has one more word at the end, Disorder. Many of us, including me, have BED and it's not something you can just snap away or get over. You're doing it right by going to therapy and getting your lifestyle under control. You're on the right track, keep your head up and keep moving forward. Weight-loss and health living isn't a linear journey. If I may suggest, go check out John from Obese to Beast and see if his videos can help you along.
Thank you 🥺. Weirdly it's kind of a relief to face up to my trauma. Our journeys are not linear, and this is just part of my journey. I'm still going to keep going 💪
Yes, I follow ObesetoBeast, I don't always agree with some of his criticism/opinions, but I think he can offer great advice.
James, you are the best, I am glad you said she is beautiful.
I’m so proud of you!!!
If it was that easy we would all be fit and trim. But we’re not because it’s not easy.
I thank you so much for your inspiration! I love that you are so transparent. So glad that you don’t just show the ups, but you show the downs as well (Reality). Please don’t stop.
You are so many of us, so many who have shed the same tears. Don't give up, Everyday is a new day. On my walks I pass a church and the Billboard says "Grace changes everything" you got this and do I.
Yes, we do.
From someone who had a seriously traumatic childhood I’m here to tell you that you are not broken Holly. You are not damaged. I will not say that I did not benefit from therapy in the past but what we think and do NOW is far more important. We already know what happened in the past. We can remember it if we want to but we do not actually need to open ourselves up to all that pain again. What purpose does it serve? Bad stuff happened to you. Bad people hurt you. But I repeat - you are not broken. You are not damaged. We have been encouraged to think that we’ve locked it away, buried it. And we have because we could not function at all otherwise. It’s the HEALTHY thing to do.
You are not your body Holly. You are so much more than just a body but your body IS the most amazing, wonderful, miraculous thing. It deserves to be appreciated, loved and cared for for itself.
I’m just seeing this, and I pray you have gotten yourself in a good place mentally and physically! Thinking of you lovey.❤
You could not lose a pound and still be an inspiration! You’re moving and improving and such a role model. Love the bikinis on Instagram! You are a delight!
You are so brave being so honest so openly. You are a wonderful inspiration. Whatever you decide to do, I wish you every success and happiness. Thank you so much for what you've shared and given us.
Never, never quit. Your story is my struggle, spread over most of my 65 years. Every day is a new day. Forgive yourself EVERY DAY . Push forward every day. Eating healthy and regular exercise will keep you mentally and physically positive.
If it was easy there wouldn't be a multi billion pound industry around it Holly. You show real life. You do you. If you enjoy doing this do it..if not, just stop. It's your business and journey. No one else's. I think your vids are brilliant. Keep smiling sweetie.
I mean, the industry also wants profit rather than to promote health so they aren't exactly invested to help people to lose body fat. Ensue vicious circle.
You are human. You are a QUEEN!please never give up on you. Thank you for being real. We got this☮️💟
You have only lost if you quit. Every obstacle is a stepping stone to the next stage. It’s better to be trying than not. Think where you would be without all the exercise you’ve done! Nothing worthwhile is easy, and believe me, you have inspired SO MANY people! It breaks my heart to see you so upset after all you have achieved. Take a breather, because you’re alive and kicking, and that’s a pretty good start! Lots of love and support! xxx
I agree. She can love and accept herself while still striving for health. If binge eating is the issue that's what needs to be worked on x
Thank you for your transparency Holly. What you shared on this video is not easy. Looking deep inside is very difficult, more less sharing what you have begun to discover. You are not alone in this struggle, I share this journey with you and am sure many others do as well. I believe I understand how you are feeling and what you are becoming aware of. It's big - it's huge - it's scary and dealing with it and working thru it will take continued courage along with some help from a licensed professional. Keep in mind that sometimes it is required to meet with different providers before you find a good fit so be patient with that part. It's okay to shop around so to speak to find that connection or a love connection as I share with the patients I speak with daily. I work in behavioral health and hear the cries of many in this area of care so "we" are not alone. I am 57 years old, former gastric bypass patient. Began at 298# and dropped down to 147#. Surgery was in 2008 and we are now in the beginning of 2022 and I'm up to 190#. I love food - unhealthy, high calorie food. I eat in the sneak and many times not in the sneak and carry a very rebellious attitude about it so nobody would dare address it with me. I'm on a boat load of psychiatric meds to treat depression, anxiety, PTSD *childhood trauma (a lot of it) along with childhood sexual assault that very few know about. I've been married 3 times. Two divorces, one that consisted of DV and was very difficult to get out of safely. I have 3 beautiful daughters from 3 different men. I am married for the 3rd time and although he is amazing, loving, caring and giving, I still find myself "not okay". I love him and am aware that something is holding me back from giving him my best. Partially because I don't really know what my best is. I wish the process of surgical weight loss focused so much more on one's mental health than it does. I believe now that it may possibly be the core to my years of unhappiness and personal - relational turmoil. In typing this, I realized it is a good idea for me to copy this and send it to the therapist I have been working with for anxiety and depression as this is not a topic I have brought up and will need to. I trust her and perhaps all of our visits needed to occur for me to feel comfortable allowing myself to imagine being vulnerable with her in this area. I hear an accent when you speak and don't know if you live in the USA or not. I would however, continue to correspond with you if possible. I'm fairly uneducated with RUclips except for videos I stumble across. If you know of a way for us to touch base off-line I'd love to. Perhaps my email may help with that. livelovelaugh1964@gmail.com
You know what, it's honestly refreshing to hear someone who genuinely struggles with the same issues so many of us do. You see all these workout videos of perfectly toned, skinny women, who don't seem to be 'real' enough. They do not see the hardships of being severly overweight or obese and think weight loss is easy. I have a very difficult relationship with food too and have lost and gained my whole 20's and even though I'm now making progress, it's only through an unhealthy relationship with food again ( crash dieting quite extremely ) I related so much to your experiences in not eating in front of people. I did exactly the same for the very same reasons thinking that everyone would look at me and think what a pig I was! I'm only just starting to overcome that and I'm now 33! So can totally understand how that can create a secret binging type of habit.
Stay strong and good luck in the new path of your journey ❤️
As a so called "skinny person" as you put it, I don't think weight loss is easy. It takes work and effort. It takes consistency . It takes eating quality food that nourishes your body. The journey is different for everyone . However, it is possible for everyone to do. What is most important to to be healthy. What you look like doesn't matter. Your weight does not determine your worth. What matters is your health.
The second you started crying I wanted to hug you so badly. I really heavily relate. Sending so much love. ❤️
I’ve gained a few kg since a 20kg weight loss and it’s making me feel terrible about yourself. Seeing your workouts helps me feel really motivated. Keep doing what you’re doing!
Same here. I have a very heavy ♥
I don’t know if your reading this but you are the most honest fitness person I’ve ever seen and I’m not just saying that I cried seeing this cuz being a big person not easy you can do this I love the workouts cuz nobody understands your weight like the people of your weight we got this!! Please don’t give up this truly inspired me even this has respect because it’s real and honest
I've seen such a change in your body and strength. You are inspiring. Of all the fitness channels I decided to subscribe to yours because you are real. You are doing your part but you need to reach out to a professional if you feel that your eating is disordered. Don't be angry at yourself. You are a role model. I exercise with you and my 82 year old mother does also.♥️
Accidentally stumbled upon your wonderful exercise video for the first time today. I have to say how refreshing to see someone in my shoes who really understood how hard it is to find the strength to share and to also show us that you don't have to be a cheerleader to lead the wonderful workout you've shared with all of us. You are a true inspiration. Please don't give up!! YOU are worth every bit of it!!!
Don't Quit, We need real people like you to share your experiences.
Don’t stop!! You have inspired me so much to get my body moving!! You are real & real is why we need!! You can do this.
I completely relate and understand how you're feeling. Its a constant struggle. There seems to be 2 sides, weight loss side and body positive sides. Everyone forgets there is a middle ground. Stop beating yourself up. Love yourself no matter what your size but also work on being healthier. There are plenty of people that are of ''normal weight'' and still are unhealthy because a number on a scale does NOT define who you are or how healthy or unhealthy you are. Please just do what you need to do to be mentally and physically healthy, happy and love yourself. Much love to you. 💜💜💜💜💜
Just thought I'd share a story that my cousin was hospitalized because his blood pressure and cholesterol was so high he was getting woozy and nearly fainted while driving. He is skinny (same age as me) while I am fat, even obese. But my test numbers (BP, Blood sugar, heart rate, cholesterol) were better than him.
Please, Holly dear. Don't put pressure on yourself over scale weight and body size. Just keep living a healthy lifestyle and get your blood checks once in a while. Getting slim is just a side quest! Love from Indonesia. 🌟💝
As someone that just found your RUclips channel, I just want to say thank you. It's so hard watching skinny, ripped people work out and make moves that people our size cannot do. It's NOT easy for people our size to just do it as they say. There are mental barriers we have to break down also. I've been struggling with my weight for the last 13 years since I started having children. Thank you for sharing your journey. Your videos (all of them) can help people at every stage of their journey.
Holly you’re human! Please be kind to yourself, Don’t quit we need you ❤️❤️❤️ I wasn’t working out at all until I started your videos. Support is key and your viewers support you. I was in such a bad mental state but your videos bring me light 💡
hi holly i think your so brave for sharing your story.i wish you all the best in your journey take care of you take one day at a time.
Oh Holly, unfortunately in this world there are so many people who feel they know what you should do for this or that but they do not live your life or walk in your shoes or have your history. You have motivated so many people to just get up and move. This is so important for mental health not just to make the clothes fit better. Joining you on your videos has made my effort to move more so much more enjoyable. The message I receive from you every video I watch is that I can be stronger. Viewing it as stronger rather than slimmer is so much more motivating for me. So thank you Holly, truly thank you. Also thank you for being so open, I know how scary that can be. Lastly, I am so glad to hear you are going to put yourself and your well being and healing first. Please know that is the most important thing you could ever do for yourself.
I absolutely love your comment 💖
GodsChild B4TheWomb - yes me too❤️
Oh please don't give up! I came a crossed you for the first time today when I needed a workout for a bigger woman. I'm struggling with severe depression and started working out today. I'm going to be doing this with the help of your videos. I hope you continue videos and good luck to you!
I found your channel in May, and I have not made any progress in losing weight. The progress I’ve made is in my confidence. Also I have less pain over all I have fibromyalgia, and your videos have helped me so much. Thank you! Don’t ever stop you’re doing great! As long as you don’t stop you are making progress.
Oh sweet lady- you’re brave for putting yourself in the public eye and for inspiring others. We are all real, just like you- the struggle is so real. We love you and are grateful for you.
As you spoke I looked at most of the comments! Girl you are held up in so much love. Thank you for your vulnerability. You change of direction is wise. Thankyou for all you do to inspire others
Your genuine kindness and open sincerity will take you through your next journey. You’re a delight! My best to you.
We’ll be pulling for you all the way.
I just discovered your workouts last week, and yesterday did one finally- and loved it! It got my heart pumping, it got me moving for 30 minutes, and that’s what I needed!
I’m currently about the same size as you, and at 32 I realized I don’t want to have high blood pressure, and I don’t want to be winded so easily, and that I need a better relationship with food.
You’ve really helped me see that as a bigger person, you can still move! That I don’t need the excuse of the gyms being closed, my ass can sweat at home watching your videos! That making 30 minutes of my day dedicated to exercise needs to me a lifelong priority- not a well once I’m thinner this won’t be a concern.
THANK YOU, for being real about the struggle, for showing you’re a real person, and sharing with us you’re seeking help. I sincerely hope you continue to upload frequently, because you’re seriously hilarious. And I’m happy to follow along for the ride 💜
I'm with you all the way Holly. You are a real woman. Remember one thing darling. You have small kids so you have to be healthy and strong for them. Do it for them and forget about yourself and whoever else. After all I feel they made a contribution to you reaching the size you are. At least you know what your weaknesses are. Don't worry - we all have to always strive to be better people. You are not alone my dear girl. Think of your kids.
Don't give up. I've struggled for years and continue to struggle but it's so important to keep trying. You can do this!
Loving yourself is so much more important than anything a scale says. I’m so happy you’re taking the time to heal yourself from the inside. Hearing your story broke my heart, but just know that you have our 100% our full support. We love you Holly!
Thank you so much ✨
Yes YeS YES!! Everything you said could be a mirror image of my life. All we can do is to try our best everyday to love ourself and to choose happy. We sometimes need to hear from others to know that we are not alone in the struggles. You are not alone and you do deserve much more then you give yourself credit for. I hope that you find the acceptance you are looking for and that therapy helps. Thank you for your video and confirming for me that I am not alone and I deserve much more then I give myself credit for. xoxoxo
Do not judge yourself, science behind this which tells how hard to lose weight. I am also struggling to lose I am doing a course where all very well explained, it’s not your fault at all, lovely lady!!! Do not give up. You are on the right path! You you feel better since you were recording with this video! Sending hugs
You are not alone and I totally understand your struggle because it is NOT easy!
It makes you extra sympathetic, that you sharing this with us.
Bless your heart! I think you speak of things that so many of us feel in our hearts. You have a ton of support behind you as we're all cheering you on.
And now I'm following you on Instagram!
This exact struggle has been my life for the past few years. I commit to making a big change, and then I fall back into terrible habits. I think the best thing that anyone can do especially during the pandemic is to be kind to yourself. And being kind can mean working out, it can mean not beating yourself up over a particularly rough night or stretch of days.
Just found your channel...im 15 years old, about 5'4 and weigh 189 lbs...it has me really down on myself most of the time to where i get terrible anxiety even going out to stores or hanging out with the people closest to me...its like im always self aware of how i perceive myself physically and it just sucks and I've been thinking abt starting to work out..I've done it before and stopped when i feel too self conscious but now i realize that i don't owe it to anyone to look what the world sees as "perfect" or "beautiful"... Im slowly learning to love myself and im going to start working out again but for a different reason this time.. Im gonna do it because i do love myself but i still want to work on me for me and there is nothing wrong with that being my form of self care because i know im beautiful in my own unique way and so are all of you gorgeous people❤
Also ik this is late but you making this content is really awesome...a lot of people don't understand how hard this topic is to talk about and i seriously look up to you in your journey of self love both mentally and physically...even if you fall back which happens to everyone, you are an inspiration and don't forget it!!
Please don't give up, we need you x x
Don't get upset I'm totally on this journey with you 😞 I too am struggling and am now pre-diabetic 😣, but watching and joining in with you is a real help. It's NOT EASY....... ITS NOT! 😘❤️💕
Holly, Inspiring people isn't about being perfect! It's about helping people to see their potential! You've done that! You've inspired so many people, myself included, and showed us that we CAN do something to improve our health and fitness! People who might otherwise give up after seeing some of the other 'beginner' workouts on youtube can find your videos and say "Wait! I CAN TOTALLY DO THIS!".
It's normal in the course of any major undertaking that you're going to think you can't do it, you're going to want to give up, but doing what you need to do to take care of yourself, and finding a way to push forward, or reassessing and finding another path to meet your goal, that's honestly the most courageous and amazing thing! That's how you learn and become better and better. Constant learning and figuring out how to make it all work, that's what gives life meaning, IMO. Anyways, I know I probably sound like some goofy motivational speaker, but these are my true feelings, and I want you to know how many people are rooting for you
I love that you’re shifting your focus from weight loss to health gain! It’s such a rewarding journey 💕
I just found your Full Body Workout video today, and you have inspired me. Keep up the good work.
My dear, sweet Holly. I am SO happy that you have realized the true meaning of your journey. No one needs to let their life revolve around weight loss, as it is only 1 part of who you are. A healthy LIFEstyle, mind - body - soul, is vital to your happiness and security and you are SO WORTH IT!!! You are worthy of a happy, healthy life -- in whatever form it comes. NEVER let the scale set the tone for your success. It is merely ONE measurement of success and is never as important as the NSV's (non scale victories). Just know, you are fearfully and wonderfully made and you were created for a purpose. NEVER put the keys to your happiness in someone else's hands. Your journey is for you to discover. Thank you for sharing it with all of us and I pray that your journey to discovering Your Purposeful Healthy Life well help you realize that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!!! 💖
Just do you! You are awesome and we love you for you ❤❤
Ooo girl your not alone. Its so hard! And You got 2 small kids, thats a work to. Life changing goals need so so mutch work. Keep loving your self. You are a Great rollmodel for me and so many more.
We love your candor. You are not alone. I have tried so many things that i “say” don’t work, but the truth is I don’t do the programs like i should. Have wasted so much time and money but i know there is something in me that keeps me from finishing what i start. You are a real inspiration in that you are exposing to the world who you really are. We love you.
Thank you 🥺 same here, but I think there is a reason we don't finish them. We can do it 🧡
I can completely relate to everything you have said. I have been using your videos to be healthier and fitter rather than for losing weight. Thank you for keeping to so real and stay strong xxx
Just discovered you today. Just want to say I'm glad you didn't quit. There are so many conflicting pressures out there but ultimately you speak my language, you are real and you have got me moving for the first time in over a year. Thank you. Keep going x
I love you so much! Not only do you inspire me but I can't tell how much I appreciate having workout routines that are good for us big beautiful women. I understand what you're going through I workout 3 or 4 days a week mostly now I do your videos you know I try and eat well but there are times that I will just binge and I feel like The Biggest Loser afterwards because why can't I control this one thing. Sweetheart you're not alone and you're so brave for putting it out there and the hell with anybody who questions or criticizes your methods. You keep doing you you're a beautiful strong amazing woman and We All Fall Down but it's how we get back up that defines our character.
Take a look at the book "The Fuc*k it Diet". It changed my life.
I've just started following you and I can already tell you're a beautiful soul inside and out. Your struggles are SO common with a lot of women, myself included. I started putting on weight after my grandpa died in 2003 when I was 13 years old. From then, I've never been at a healthy weight. It got worse when my aunt that I was closest to passed away shortly after my grandpa in 2006. I'm just now starting a weight loss journey myself and I know I need to see someone about all the grief I have that I've never actually delt with as people I've been close to have passed away and have just put all of that into eating. You're not alone! Please remember that and know that no matter what your weight is, you're special. You were put on this Earth for a reason and I think that reason is sharing your story with us on RUclips. Whether that be weight loss or your body positivity goals. You're making a difference to so many people and I can't wait to continue to see you grow this next year!
We need more people like you on RUclips!!
Oh hun!!! Absolutely, your mental health is just as important as your physical health! Sending you loads of positive vibes 💖💖💖
WE LOVE YOU!!!! We are ALL on this journey with you.❤️ You have INSPIRED more people than you realize. Never worriy about what others think. You have given us a beautiful gift. You gave us YOU! Your Positivity, your honesty, your encouragement. Keep shining your beautiful bright light 💐❤️🙏🏽
ABSOLUTELY AE Felton!! Absolutely!!
You’re not alone lovely. you are putting yourself out there and trying to help others as well as yourself. Take a break, refocus. Don’t ever give up. We are behind you girl 😊❤️❤️❤️
Oh my lovely girl most of us reach a point in life where outside help is needed I'm glad you made that choice now while you are still young. Your food issues are related to past traumas things that happen in childhood have very severe repercussions for the adult you become. With help you can work your way through that and the rest will fall into place. You are not a failure you are a beautiful person inside and out and you deserve to be happy you are still on a journey to that. Sending positive thoughts your way xx
Don't feel bad! This is the truth that all of us over weight ppl feel! I know personally. I have been through this! Time and time again! It's not easy!
More LOVE AND POWER to you! I feel the need to tell you that all these things you've shared whole heartedly, I have been feeling the same way and just requires so much courage to actually put it out in words.
You choosing you and your mental health over everything is an encouragement for so many of us! ❤️
Huge thanks to you for sharing this.
We are here for you. I myself, have been inspired by you and have been struggling with the same thoughts. Feel better soon! We love you and what you've brought to us for this past year! ❤️
I wanna hug you SO HARD, same here sister, i started therapy a month ago and now i started to do a little for mysel, like do your routine, but mental health comes first, if the brain is good, the body too, be strong, love you
Thank you, that's what I'm hoping. Glad therapy is having a positive impact on you.
I'm sad to hear that you are feeling broken hearted. As you know weight loss is a journey, not a race. On our journey we learn about ourselves. Don't be so hard on yourself. 2020 has and continues to produce very many challenges on top of the normal challenges we face.
I am listening to you pour your heart out. You are insightful and I think it is a very good idea for you to talk to a professional therapist.
Sounds cheesy, but I am sending you a big hug, wrap your arms around yourself and squeeze.... xoxo
So many wonderful and kind people on this thread. I’ve struggled with my weight all my life. I’ve lost and I’ve gained. I would work out great for awhile and I would stop working out for awhile. I feel like this pandemic has made me focus on myself more. So many great videos like yours on RUclips for fitness and mental health. I feel so good just taking care of myself. Please everyone take care of yourselves. You can’t help anyone if you don’t take care of yourself. Do not worry about the number on the scale.
Please don’t go! I love your exercise videos. I’m just getting started again and struggle with motivation. I’m still only able to do half of one of your sit down videos. It’s encouraging for me to watch your videos because your like me and are working towards a goal and are struggling just like me. ♥️
Hi. Don't be sad. You have come further than many people for at least trying. Much appreciation for you being honest about your struggles. Keep your head up. Things will get better 🌞🤗
Thank you ✨
Holly, pls don’t say I Quit..... pls never give up on positive things in life. You were an inspiration to me. Thanks for inspiring me. Love you and may God Bless you always 🙏
Very well said🙌👍
Hi Holly!
I just found you today! Your videos are perfect for me to get started on my weight loss journey. I’m so excited to do more of your workouts so don’t quit! I know it is not easy but we can all do this together! ❤️
Coming across your videos is what got me started and motivated! I haven’t been able to do workouts like someone who is in better shape. I was feeling discouraged. I saw your workout and I said, okay, I can do this. I can start here. Finally, here is someone who knows what I am going through. Progress is slow, but it is still progress. This is a journey. I can relate to you so much! Don’t stop inspiring. You got this. I got this. Let’s keep going.
Holly, I just happened to land on one of your videos last week for the first time, and first of all, I just want to say THANK YOU for hearing the call and responding to it by creating workout videos for "people like us". I spent the week doing your 6-minute HIIT video, and just felt really seen and understood. Today I decided to try one of your longer videos, and found myself just grinning during one of your longer videos, enjoying how real you were--funny, inspiring, confident, and even a little self-deprecating (like we all are). It made me want to keep exploring your videos. ...And then I came across this one. Well, holy buckets if you aren't the realest, coolest, most admirable angel in the world! I too have gone up and down with my weight, and up and down with my gung-ho attitude about it being about "weight loss". Three years being driven by the numbers going in my mouth through calories and out on the scale in pounds. I too reached a point where I never wanted to set foot on a scale. People don't often realize the emotional toll that comes with chasing weight loss, and the realization that essentially what it does is uncovers traumas we've covered up with food over the course of years, maybe decades. As a therapy advocate, I just wanted to pop on (almost a year later, I realize), and give you the biggest virtual hug and congratulate you for recognizing your desire to change your focus from weight loss to loving yourself, and I have no doubt that if you're still on that journey, it's been a roller coaster in itself. Therapy isn't a straight line, just like weight loss. There's tears, heartache, anger, and everything else that comes along with finding joy. So girl, congratulations, you're officially an icon to me, and if there's any advice I could give, it's this: Change the damn title of this video...you didn't quit anything! You're not a quitter...in fact, that's the exact opposite sentiment I got from you! You're driven as hell. You just shifted what you're driving toward. You're loving YOU. And that's the only way any of us are going to get through this world smiling inside. Be you, my hero.
It’s so difficult being there for others while trying to be there for ourselves. Your beauty is in your ability to be who you truly are and share that so honestly. Thank you for that. As for your goals, they are yours. You are where you need to be today, in order to get you to where you want to be. Your 1st responsibility is to you and that’s what you are prioritizing now! Thank you for that lesson we all need to hear! Big hugs to you.
Everything you said is so incredibly relatable Holly and it's so true about the struggle to both be positive about the body you have and want to achieve goals, while struggling with WHY we have the relationship with food we do.
For what it's worth Holly you've helped my immensely when I was at a very low and defeated place with my weight.
Your voice reminds me so much of bell from once upon a time!! Your so beautiful! You will do great on your journey!
Your genuine heart is what makes you so incredible. Life is too short and precious to stress. You are beautiful inside and out. Hugs Holly!!!
I've been working through the same thing you're going through and I'm sending love to you for being vulnerable and admitting what's going on. It's not an easy journey to overcome, but I hope you can reach a healing place, especially mentally. xx
It was really horrible to say it out loud, but also a weight off my shoulder (not the scale, lol). Glad to hear there are more people like me. I'm still on this journey.
Your honesty is golden. You have inspired me greatly this year. It’s all about the journey. If you rewatch one of your videos, make it this one. Focus on health and happiness. Wise words. 🌈
It is so refreshing to see someone that understands the struggle. I am a binge eater and an emotional eater. I have abused my body for years. I just want you to know that I appreciate you. I appreciate you putting yourself out there like this. I need this right now. You are an inspiration.
Hi, please don't ever give up on anything. Its hard because its challenging. I have never seen anyone before trying to lose weight and help people at the same time who is not already thin. Its hard putting yourself out there but that's what I love about you. Your real. You put everything out there. How you feel is how most people feel. You are encouraging, positive, not sure and that's beautiful. Your honesty towards your goals, your feelings etc. I love looking at your youtube channel. You are an inspiration.
I LOVE your focus on body positivity!!! I'm going to join you there, thank you. YET AGAIN you inspire me. One can accept one's body 100% and also move for the joy of moving and for health, not for "weight loss." XO
Yes, thank you. I'm still on this journey, still working out. Just focused more on my mental health atm.
You are a beautiful person inside and out. There is no shame in reaching out for help, I am very grateful that you have put yourself out there! Just keep in mind that we are often hardest on ourselves. What you think others are thinking / feeling is often "just" a manifestation of our own demons.
My heart was breaking as I watched this video. I had just found your channel and was so excited to find a workout by someone who looked like me. I'm old by comparison and gave up on losing weight a long time ago. (not acceptance, just resignation) However, as I get closer to retiring, I find that I need a better fitness level to do the things I want to do. I think your videos will be able to help me. I hope that you find what you need to be healthy both inside and out.
Thank you Denise. I appreciate the support 🤗 I'm sure some of my workouts will be useful for you 💪 😊
Don't quit!!! I was praying for you this morning before I even saw the headline of this video. You are not alone.
Such a real life moment. Thank you for being so genuine. We love you and continue to be great to yourself first. Thank you for the videos.
Holly you are so normal like all of us who struggle 💗 keep going hugs lady
You are speaking words and they could have come straight out of my own mouth. Get well Holly and I wish you all the best x
Dont give up girl, your just getting me started
U r an inspiration to me i now enjoy working out to ur videos
Oh Holly, you wonderful person you, I am saddened by all this but you are absolutely doing the right thing. I will still keep watching your exercise videos over and over because they really are helping me in my weight loss. I wish you every success and hope you get the help and support you need. Then one day we can see you back on our screens. You will really be missed xxx Tina
You’re so strong, so powerful, unstoppable! You are an inspiration to me