1000%!!! Dead on!!! I have worked in law enforcement for 25 years and recently suffered a mental break. I was subsequently diagnosed with CPTSD and this video nailed the explanation of exactly what I have been going through. Thank you!
This is one of the best explanations of cumulative PTSD from the police perspective that I have seen. Unfortunately that decompensation can take years tp recover from, if at all. To all my blue brothers and sisters, be gentle with yourselves, take time to notice the leaks. It's ok to not be ok sometimes. Take time for yourselves, recover, recoup, and if you can't adequately do that - get out while you can and be proud of your service. To the managers, notice this in your staff, for they don't always see it in themselves or they may feel shame that their armour has finally cracked. Help them and give them pathways to recover, you may save a career or perhaps a life. Stay safe my friends and thank you for your service.
Thanks for your comment and please share the video on your social channels. It would really help get the information/model out to the people that need it. A problems with relying on mangers to lookout for their staff is explored here: ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
This was a nail hit squarely on the head moment for me - ex-army medic with combat experience (multiple) and a betrayal story. It so fits it feels like you’re talking about me! Currently going through Schema therapy in Wales.
Thankyou so much for this clip. I can assure you this is so true. I thought i was invincible to pressure, trauma, grief. Then I had an unforgivable betrayal which hit me hard, accused of doing something whilst in reality trying to look after a vulnerable person. Then we had the loss of a baby we had been so excited about, then 18 months later my baby boy was born critically ill requiring open heart surgery. It has completely trashed me. I'm not the same person. This has made me understand what's going on more and I'm so grateful. Thankyou.
This is the most amazing video. It's my life on a white board. I'd like to thank my Dad, Dr. Charles E. Main, for starting the trauma train by letting a bunch of his friends perv on me for a good laugh. Being a violent man, there were many more trauma events to come. Not to mention being perv'ed on by another adult when I was 12. Despite these traumas, I managed to have a very successful career. Marriage was hopeless, but I had a good life. It wasn't until I was in my 60's that I found out he had made efforts to keep me from getting the help I needed. Then to hear that he even torpedoed me with our own family to the point I don't bother going home anymore. Betrayal. My life went down the tubes. I went for a couple of years totally useless, barely able to take care of myself. Thanks to being a Vet and the VA, I am now getting the help I need. I am back in therapy for the fourth time. 😂 I think this video just put a big piece in the puzzle. Thank you so much for this and bless you.
My PTSD was from relentless bullying, intimidation by Senior Officers from the day I started. Then because I was a female in a male dominated Highway Patrol office. The hammer was from Inspectir levels and the Commissioner who didn’t give a damn about it, I identify with this 100% as do many officers because we are just not looked after. Management don’t want to hear about bullying.
Love this clip. When I explain my journey I use the analogy of a small water leak behind the bathroom wall. First few times the water damage can be patched and repainted and you move on. Eventually the patches get bigger but that’s just on the surface. Underneath the structure has been rotting and one day the smallest thing happens and your whole wall collapses. That’s what happened to me 2 years ago and I’ve slowly rebuilt the wall and the structure underneath. Now I share my story to help others learn from my mistakes.
I have been dealing with CPSTD with my first noticeable signs beginning in 2011. I just now feel like I am starting to find me again. I have recently begun EMDR therapy which seems to be opening my mind up a lot. It is a long journey.
I uncovered corruption between several officers. I was their supervisor. I sat on it for a week before turning in the evidence because I knew it would backfire against me. Well it did. That was in 2022. Today I’m still out seeing multiple doctors while on 4 different BP meds, 2 different anti depressants, Xanax for anxiety and 1 med. for sleeping. You know why? Because the admin. Never backed me. The mayor is woke, the chief is woke and no one else had the balls to stand with me. I currently have a whistleblower lawsuit against the city. As a 2nd generation cop, this wasn’t a job to me, this was a calling. If I could do it again, I would have looked the other way. Any cops suffering from ptsd I beg you to get some help and talk to someone. Let your significant other know that you are in a bad place.
Sorry to hear about your experiences and being let down by your managers. This may resonate: Dark Triad: Toxic “leaders” ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
That which does not kill us, makes us stronger.” Studies have shown that some trauma survivors report positive changes and enhanced personal development, called post traumatic growth (PTG). PTG refers to any beneficial change resulting from a major life crisis or traumatic event, but people most commonly experience a positive shift by having a renewed appreciation for life; adopting a new world view with new possibilities for themselves; feeling more personal strength; feeling more satisfied spiritually, and/or their relationships improve.
Yes. If they recognise and address their susceptibilities, then growth is the result. Otherwise they may be stuck hiding with unaddressed susceptibilities.
Interesting, all that happened to me is uncontrollable shaking anytime something even remotely traumatic or exciting happens. Just today a traffic collision occurred right in front of me and I was unable to put out radio traffic without shaking and it took me two hours to relax after. This was an occurrence that would be handled daily or weekly (minimum) a couple years ago. Wtf the is happening to me? I’m beginning to not be capable of handling situations and it’s beginning to spill over into my private life.
@Warren B This might explain it with the concepts of YELLOW and RED alert: PTSD Explained: the Role of the Alarm System for Ongoing Susceptibility ruclips.net/video/Afp0_u4fLK8/видео.html
@@thePSYCHcollective to be honest I’m going to go back to drinking. I haven’t drank a drop of alcohol in 3 years. However, when I was drinking (which was an every other day occurrence) I was able to deal with anything. Yes, it’ll put me in an early grave, but what’s the point of living an extra few years if I’m miserable? Self medication when the doctors can’t figure it out. Not that you’re not trying, I get it. We aren’t the most helpful of patients I’m sure.
A bunch of violent domestics… I see those every night. Suicides? Yep been to more of those than I can count, being shot at numerous times, yep! Mass shootings? I’ve survived 3 of those. My brain is fucked. I haven’t been able To sleep a full night on 2 years. It’s like a raging river of all my bad thoughts at once, flowing through my mind and screaming at me. I fucking hate it. If you’re feeling this, please get help, because I’m just about done.
So many good Officer's get Black Balled over BS/Politics. The Officer is left realizing he was willing to put his life on the line for their coworkers and citizens 😳 😢 and all though the Officer cared so much but, no one else did... dog eat dog world.
Fact of life for a cop in any city of size and their leadership continues to fail to take care of their people and just pile on more responsibility and work and blame. It’s going to get worse before it gets better while commands claim “we put people through a resiliency training.”
@Midland4341 sometimes it’s no accident: Toxic “leaders”: Recognise and Avoid Status Seeking Dark Triad Managers ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
I agree betrayal is the final straw.
100 percent accurate I glad we are finally being understood. I was 25 years Police and now diagnosed with PTSD. Best explaination ever.
1000%!!! Dead on!!! I have worked in law enforcement for 25 years and recently suffered a mental break. I was subsequently diagnosed with CPTSD and this video nailed the explanation of exactly what I have been going through. Thank you!
This might also be useful:
Switch off the PTSD Alarm
ruclips.net/video/Afp0_u4fLK8/видео.html
@@thePSYCHcollective good stuff thanks.
This is one of the best explanations of cumulative PTSD from the police perspective that I have seen. Unfortunately that decompensation can take years tp recover from, if at all. To all my blue brothers and sisters, be gentle with yourselves, take time to notice the leaks. It's ok to not be ok sometimes. Take time for yourselves, recover, recoup, and if you can't adequately do that - get out while you can and be proud of your service. To the managers, notice this in your staff, for they don't always see it in themselves or they may feel shame that their armour has finally cracked. Help them and give them pathways to recover, you may save a career or perhaps a life. Stay safe my friends and thank you for your service.
Thanks for your comment and please share the video on your social channels. It would really help get the information/model out to the people that need it.
A problems with relying on mangers to lookout for their staff is explored here:
ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
This was a nail hit squarely on the head moment for me - ex-army medic with combat experience (multiple) and a betrayal story. It so fits it feels like you’re talking about me! Currently going through Schema therapy in Wales.
Thankyou so much for this clip. I can assure you this is so true. I thought i was invincible to pressure, trauma, grief. Then I had an unforgivable betrayal which hit me hard, accused of doing something whilst in reality trying to look after a vulnerable person. Then we had the loss of a baby we had been so excited about, then 18 months later my baby boy was born critically ill requiring open heart surgery. It has completely trashed me. I'm not the same person. This has made me understand what's going on more and I'm so grateful. Thankyou.
This is the most amazing video. It's my life on a white board. I'd like to thank my Dad, Dr. Charles E. Main, for starting the
trauma train by letting a bunch of his friends perv on me for a good laugh. Being a violent man, there were many more trauma events to come. Not to mention being perv'ed on by another adult when I was 12. Despite these traumas, I managed to
have a very successful career. Marriage was hopeless, but I had a good life.
It wasn't until I was in my 60's that I found out he had made efforts to keep me from getting the help I needed. Then to hear that he even torpedoed me with our own family to the point I don't bother going home anymore. Betrayal. My life went down the tubes. I went for a couple of years totally useless, barely able to take care of myself.
Thanks to being a Vet and the VA, I am now getting the help I need. I am back in therapy for the fourth time.
😂
I think this video just put a big piece in the puzzle. Thank you so much for this and bless you.
My PTSD was from relentless bullying, intimidation by Senior Officers from the day I started. Then because I was a female in a male dominated Highway Patrol office. The hammer was from Inspectir levels and the Commissioner who didn’t give a damn about it,
I identify with this 100% as do many officers because we are just not looked after. Management don’t want to hear about bullying.
@veegee7481 This might resonate: Dark Triad: Toxic “leaders”
ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
Love this clip. When I explain my journey I use the analogy of a small water leak behind the bathroom wall. First few times the water damage can be patched and repainted and you move on. Eventually the patches get bigger but that’s just on the surface. Underneath the structure has been rotting and one day the smallest thing happens and your whole wall collapses. That’s what happened to me 2 years ago and I’ve slowly rebuilt the wall and the structure underneath. Now I share my story to help others learn from my mistakes.
I have been dealing with CPSTD with my first noticeable signs beginning in 2011. I just now feel like I am starting to find me again. I have recently begun EMDR therapy which seems to be opening my mind up a lot. It is a long journey.
I uncovered corruption between several officers. I was their supervisor. I sat on it for a week before turning in the evidence because I knew it would backfire against me. Well it did. That was in 2022. Today I’m still out seeing multiple doctors while on 4 different BP meds, 2 different anti depressants, Xanax for anxiety and 1 med. for sleeping. You know why? Because the admin. Never backed me. The mayor is woke, the chief is woke and no one else had the balls to stand with me. I currently have a whistleblower lawsuit against the city.
As a 2nd generation cop, this wasn’t a job to me, this was a calling. If I could do it again, I would have looked the other way.
Any cops suffering from ptsd I beg you to get some help and talk to someone. Let your significant other know that you are in a bad place.
Sorry to hear about your experiences and being let down by your managers. This may resonate:
Dark Triad: Toxic “leaders”
ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
@@thePSYCHcollective - Thank you for that. Great video and I have subscribed. 👍🏻
That which does not kill us, makes us stronger.”
Studies have shown that some trauma survivors report positive changes and enhanced personal development, called post traumatic growth (PTG). PTG refers to any beneficial change resulting from a major life crisis or traumatic event, but people most commonly experience a positive shift by having a renewed appreciation for life; adopting a new world view with new possibilities for themselves; feeling more personal strength; feeling more satisfied spiritually, and/or their relationships improve.
Yes. If they recognise and address their susceptibilities, then growth is the result. Otherwise they may be stuck hiding with unaddressed susceptibilities.
Interesting, all that happened to me is uncontrollable shaking anytime something even remotely traumatic or exciting happens. Just today a traffic collision occurred right in front of me and I was unable to put out radio traffic without shaking and it took me two hours to relax after. This was an occurrence that would be handled daily or weekly (minimum) a couple years ago. Wtf the is happening to me? I’m beginning to not be capable of handling situations and it’s beginning to spill over into my private life.
@Warren B
This might explain it with the concepts of YELLOW and RED alert:
PTSD Explained: the Role of the Alarm System for Ongoing Susceptibility
ruclips.net/video/Afp0_u4fLK8/видео.html
@@thePSYCHcollective to be honest I’m going to go back to drinking. I haven’t drank a drop of alcohol in 3 years. However, when I was drinking (which was an every other day occurrence) I was able to deal with anything. Yes, it’ll put me in an early grave, but what’s the point of living an extra few years if I’m miserable? Self medication when the doctors can’t figure it out. Not that you’re not trying, I get it. We aren’t the most helpful of patients I’m sure.
A bunch of violent domestics… I see those every night. Suicides? Yep been to more of those than I can count, being shot at numerous times, yep! Mass shootings? I’ve survived 3 of those. My brain is fucked. I haven’t been able
To sleep a full night on 2 years. It’s like a raging river of all my bad thoughts at once, flowing through my mind and screaming at me. I fucking hate it. If you’re feeling this, please get help, because I’m just about done.
That's exactly right! Damn that dam!
There’s no scope for that! but addressing the susceptibilities that led to the traumatisation is the way forward
@@thePSYCHcollective Are you the guy in the video and can you help me
So many good Officer's get Black Balled over BS/Politics. The Officer is left realizing he was willing to put his life on the line for their coworkers and citizens 😳 😢 and all though the Officer cared so much but, no one else did... dog eat dog world.
This might resonate also:
ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
Soooooo true!
Kind of surprised you didn't mention childhood trauma in this.
That comes up in the longer version
Fact of life for a cop in any city of size and their leadership continues to fail to take care of their people and just pile on more responsibility and work and blame.
It’s going to get worse before it gets better while commands claim “we put people through a resiliency training.”
@Midland4341 sometimes it’s no accident:
Toxic “leaders”: Recognise and Avoid Status Seeking Dark Triad Managers
ruclips.net/video/xkrwMOshRTg/видео.html
Resiliency training can only go so far and they refuse to acknowledge such. We are all human and we are all susceptible to negative emotions.
what if this happened, then continues still for years ? because now, im not scared of anything. and i look 100 years older.