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  • Опубликовано: 28 июн 2021
  • I hate you meaning I hate cancer... with a passion 🙃Anyways Thanks for 15k subs!!! 💙🎗
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    Clovis, Ca 93612
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  • @stopitrightnow70
    @stopitrightnow70 3 года назад +45

    You've mom was such a beautiful lady and you look like her too. So sorry that you're going through so much. You are one strong woman. 💕

  • @ipat31461
    @ipat31461 3 года назад +19

    12 years in remission. Stay hopeful, positive and believe in yourself. The power of your mind will help you to heal. 🙌🏼❤️❤️❤️

  • @sandracruz5974
    @sandracruz5974 3 года назад +33

    Vanessa, I hate cancer too. Don’t apologize for taking time to heal and recover. Sending nothing but positive vibes your way.

    • @zeek4749
      @zeek4749 3 года назад +1

      I hate cancer more then anything because it has attacked my family several times 🥲🥲🥲🤣

    • @jeremyanderson6789
      @jeremyanderson6789 3 года назад

      @@zeek4749 it not funny 😤

  • @kimberlymarshall3977
    @kimberlymarshall3977 3 года назад +15

    I can see it in your eyes; and I hear it in your words. If you are tired, and ready to rest, it's ok. God bless you sweet girl. I will always pray for you, and your family. 🙏🏾💜😊

  • @lisandramorales3859
    @lisandramorales3859 3 года назад +15

    You’re a fighter. Don’t ever apologize for focusing on yourself especially when it comes to taking care of yourself physically/mentally. You got this! We love you so much. My prayers are with you. God bless you, always 🤍🙏

  • @jenlaracroft
    @jenlaracroft 3 года назад +24

    She was defo with you hun, all the way. She's beautiful and she will be so proud of you 🎀. Keep fighting lioness, your pride need you. If you haven't been told lately, your strong, your amazing, you are an inspiration, your beautiful, your loved and your so worth it 🎀. All my love from England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🌹❤️ x FU CANCER

  • @Louiebull242
    @Louiebull242 3 года назад +15

    You are such a Strong woman, the positive attitude is what we Love! My husband died from stomach cancer, very fast! Cancer is a Bitch! I admire how you document this all! Your Moms journey was her’s not yours! You can reflect, but every outcome is different! Stay strong!🥰

    • @michellemichelle5202
      @michellemichelle5202 3 года назад +1

      I’m sorry to hear about your husband 😔
      How was he diagnosed, and what were his symptoms(if you don’t mind my asking)? What stage was he diagnosed at?

    • @keepinitkawaii
      @keepinitkawaii 3 года назад

      Sooo sorry to heat that sis. My mom is battling stage 4 colon cancer and she told me recently that shes thinking of stopping treatments:( its been so incredibly difficult. She might not live to see me get married or meet my kids. I feel like im mourning her even though shes still here and i feel so bad but i cant help having anxiety about the future. I hate cancer with a passion. No one deserves this

  • @sharon9111
    @sharon9111 3 года назад +5

    I have battled cancer my whole life and I had Colin cancer in 2012. I had complications and I was in the hospital for three months. And then I got stage 3 Melanoma in 2015 and I still have my port and so I can understand what you are going through. Just stay positive and turn it over to God. You are your and beautiful and you will make it through this storm.

    • @sunshine9122
      @sunshine9122 3 года назад +1

      God bless you, Sharon. 🙏❤

  • @phyllisbowen3698
    @phyllisbowen3698 3 года назад +12

    I don’t think you should feel the need to apologize for not posting in awhile. You need to do whatever is best for you. Thank you for sharing with us when you feel like it.

  • @melindacalte1728
    @melindacalte1728 3 года назад +9

    This video is everything! The tribute to your mom was absolutely beautiful. The vibes scream F YOU CANCER. And truly F IT! You can do this girl. Sending love❤️
    I’ve been thinking of you and glad you’re well. ❤️

  • @terrierodriguez3355
    @terrierodriguez3355 3 года назад +12

    You are a warrior girl! I’ve been thinking about you often. Glad to see your well. You have inspired me ever since I found you here on RUclips. You have so many people rooting for you. I bet your mom is beyond proud of you ❤️

  • @lin2thez341
    @lin2thez341 3 года назад +5

    Ugggggh, rough month for you boo......so sorry. I'm having a battle royale with breast cancer (I have a nasty, aggressive form) and then two months ago my dad got diagnosed with esophageal cancer too. It's been sooooooo hard watching him go through treatment. He's super skinny, doesn't want to eat but hasn't lost the will to live. Breaks my heart every day 💔

  • @queenofstitcheswarrior2668
    @queenofstitcheswarrior2668 3 года назад +5

    Crying my eyes out😢 Your words hit me like a brick wall because that’s exactly how i feel and hearing someone else say it pff. Cancer is ugly it only takes and destroys. I lost 3 people in 2 years and it leaves you broken for a long time.
    Your going trough a very hard time and we can all understand you need time to focus on your treatment and recovery.
    Your mom was a beauty and her grave looks beautiful. She is with you, mind, heart and spirit and she is looking down at you with nothing but proud and love❣️ Big hugg take care sweety

  • @Lulu259225
    @Lulu259225 3 года назад +10

    I’m so glad to see that you are doing well. You are right when put in a rough spot we have no choice but to fight. We fight for our loved ones and not only for ourselves. You are in my prayers ! Hope you and your family stay safe and healthy

  • @ShopStylebyme
    @ShopStylebyme 3 года назад +1

    My Beautiful CRC Sister I have been praying for you everyday. Please don’t ever apologize nobody expects you to have a schedule. You do not owe anyone a thing except for yourself and children. Focus on recovery and do what feels right for you. If you want to scream, cry, complain etc…. do all of that! It is normal not to be positive all the time.
    Remember, you and your mom already won the fight the day you got your diagnosis and you decided to fight. Cancer lost that day.
    I am going to pray your mom comes to you in your dreams and lets you know she is with you.💙💙

  • @beknic8872
    @beknic8872 3 года назад +10

    Girl this vlog got me. My grandmother has what your mum had, but she just celebrated her 95th birthday so she’s chosen to not have treatment and live out her days. My grandfather was my hero, he died on his birthday too. Bowel cancer took him 😔. And I’m heading in for my colonoscopy and gastroscopy in two weeks because I have all the symptoms of something sinister. You are definitely not alone in your journey and I wish I could give you a hug. X

    • @sandymywayofcooking1853
      @sandymywayofcooking1853 3 года назад +2

      Bek Nic..... I wish nothing but the best on your colonoscopy and gastroscopy.... I pray to God you can have a healthy long and blessed life ahead of you... I got an endoscopy done too they removed a pylop still waiting for my results...but I have faith in god .... I'm praying for you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😇❣️

    • @beknic8872
      @beknic8872 3 года назад

      @@sandymywayofcooking1853 thank you so much, I’ll keep you in my prayers too. 💐 🙏🏻

    • @Fizzy332
      @Fizzy332 2 года назад

      @@beknic8872 hey how are you

  • @Bebe23956
    @Bebe23956 3 года назад +12

    I hate cancer i lost my brother in law from prostate cancer. I cried when i think about it my nephew and my niece will grow up without dad sucks

    • @michellemichelle5202
      @michellemichelle5202 3 года назад +1

      So sad. May he Rest In Peace and may your niece and nephew always know that they were loved

  • @lorainevasquez
    @lorainevasquez 3 года назад +2

    Girl I just wanna give you a big 'ol hug. The strength you have is insurmountable. May God walk with you on your journey 🙏.

  • @Magical_Thinking
    @Magical_Thinking 3 года назад +24

    I’m crying……. Thanks for checking in with us. Self care is the most important thing that you can do for yourself right now. I got thinking and came to the realization that you haven’t even been able to grieve all the changes and trauma that has happened to you since your diagnosis. All of us out here in RUclips land are praying for you and your family and can wait however long it takes until your next video. No pressure.

  • @abbisambrosius6223
    @abbisambrosius6223 3 года назад +22

    Hello Vanessa, I was looking with particular interest at your videos recently and I am following your story with hope and positive wishes for you.
    My family has also a history of colon cancer diseases and I would like leave a couple of good advices for you.
    I am not sure how much will these advices contribute to keep the cancer far from coming back, but it will definitely help a lot.
    1) Once you have finished this chemos, start to avoid buying pre-cooked food or with preservatives, try to make food by yourself. Both I and my father are Italians and we love cooking. So we make our biscuits and jam tarts for breakfast, our lunch and dinner. All my gastro disorders ended when I started to do homemade food.
    2) increase the amount of legumes in your diet. Lentils, chickpeas, white beans, green peas, at least 1 time a week.
    3) avoid tea, caffeine and milk for your breakfast, replace it with "Barley Coffee". Barley is famous for its regenerative natural properties and protective of the intestinal mucosa.
    4) Last but not least, try to do sport everyday, even just 30mins a day, but do it always. This is a Must for your general health and endorphins replacement.
    The best sports I would recommend is swimming. If you can alternate swimming 1 day and slow running another day.
    You can rest on Sunday.
    These are my 4 big suggestions to add into your life style.
    Oh, I forgot the last one:
    Spend more time close to Wild Nature and fresh air🌲🍂🍁🏕🌄🌅

    • @VanessaLPZ1
      @VanessaLPZ1  3 года назад +7

      By far the kindest way someone has given me advice. 💗 yes I have completely changed my diet and I can’t eat raw fruits or vegetables because of my ileostomy currently. 😩 but once I get it reversed I will definitely go back to eating lots of greens again. I have children and a dog lol 😂 I’m running 🏃‍♀️ all the darn time. Thank you 🙏🏼

    • @abbisambrosius6223
      @abbisambrosius6223 3 года назад +1

      @@VanessaLPZ1 ❤🌅🌅

    • @ineshadr9070
      @ineshadr9070 3 года назад +1

      @@VanessaLPZ1 also when the ileostomy is reversed, eating raw vegetables is not possible anymore. I used to eat only raw before my cancerdiagnose and now I don't digest it anymore, always diarrhia when I eat raw. Now I do all my vegetables in the wok and that is perfect to avoid problems with your bowel. Best is to eat low-residue food, but that also means that it is the less healthier food, like white rice, white bread, pasta...Also no milk. But you have to, otherwise you can have no normal life and bound on the toilet.

    • @Truth1561
      @Truth1561 3 года назад

      @@ineshadr9070 it depends entirely on how much of the colon and which part of the colon is removed. I’m in a large support group and several of the members eat a complete,y raw plant based diet after this surgery. I have no colon at all but have an internal J-pouch- I struggle to digest even cooked veg and have gained a lot of weight due to my dietary restrictions. Most of my friends in the group however have returned to their previous diet or have tried to adopt a healthier one however.

    • @ineshadr9070
      @ineshadr9070 3 года назад

      @@Truth1561 Yes, that's true, it depends on which part is removed. I had a lower anterior resection, and I tought Vanessa also had that done and most of the people who have a LAR , I hear from them, have many difficulties after the ileostomy is removed and some even asked to put back the ileostomy. I hope for Vanessa she has the least problems after her ileostomy is removed because it is a daily worry and stress.

  • @raniasegakis1263
    @raniasegakis1263 3 года назад +7

    Your mum is certainly with you, every day in Heaven she is praying for her girl, long life to you sweetheart may the Lord and His Mother bless and heal you sending you much love from Australia

  • @xxpositivexxful
    @xxpositivexxful 3 года назад +1

    You and your mum look so alike. Both beautiful! You are so strong & do brave 💕 keep going

  • @catmama54
    @catmama54 3 года назад +6

    I think you are amazing and your Mom is watching over you and very proud of the woman you are.🙏

  • @vickilachmann8927
    @vickilachmann8927 3 года назад +3

    I'm glad you are doing well and I'm so sorry you are still going through the loss of your mom. It's sweet that you sit in the same chair she did and feel her around you...I lost my mom in 2006 and still feel her around me at times. Your mom is your angel and will help you beat this, no doubt in my mind. Love to you and your family ❤

  • @bigfan2452
    @bigfan2452 3 года назад +21

    I hate cancer too, it took away my Uncle. It made my uncle suffer severely and than took him away from us. I hope a cure for cancer comes soon so that we can finally get rid of this evil disease which shows no mercy at all.

  • @ILoveSeries1
    @ILoveSeries1 3 года назад +4

    You always look beautiful. My good friend has colon cancer her mom had pancreatic we are in CA she is beating it thank God and I pray for you. You are so honest. She is at a hospital there. She had same symptoms as you exactly. Your mom was so lovely. I asked her what she likes and doesn’t like to hear this is it; you’ve got this. She says she hates cancer and so do I.

  • @ubsessedwithmkup6949
    @ubsessedwithmkup6949 3 года назад +3

    Your mom was the same age as my mom. You’re definitely right you don’t know how strong you are until you have to fight. Your attitude is so positive, you inspire me every day God bless, positive vibes only 🥰

  • @janelowe4128
    @janelowe4128 3 года назад +2

    You are your mothers double, and obviously still in the early stages of grief, as well as battling yourself..you are one extra ordinary woman, David is so lucky to have you, you really are one in a million xx

  • @TT-bf7wh
    @TT-bf7wh 3 года назад +7

    I was wondering what happened to you. Glad your updating. You got this !

  • @dianaengel1641
    @dianaengel1641 3 года назад +3

    Sending love 💘 💕 💗 ❤ 💓 💖 💘 💕 💗
    My mom passed from pancreatic cancer in 2013. Miss her every day. This was so touching.

  • @KiwikimNZ
    @KiwikimNZ 3 года назад

    It’s so sad that we have to excuse the way we look when introducing ourselves. That we worry what others think of our appearance. :( Don’t worry hunny you look lovely. !!! Concentrate on living a life you want to live, it’s no one else’s business how you navigate your journey. . Your brave for posting and sharing sweet girl. I’m a nurse and you have been through an incredibly tough time. I’m sorry your mum is not here in the physical sense but she is standing right beside you cheering you on! You got this ! Your an inspiration and amazing xx

  • @SqutternutBosh
    @SqutternutBosh 3 года назад +3

    You and your Mama are warriors. Im sure she is sending you her strength and love. Strong women raise strong women! 💙

  • @berthabbdiva9162
    @berthabbdiva9162 3 года назад

    You are awesome I know my cancer is different from yours but you didn’t lose hair that’s amazing 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾💕💕 I’m starting my journey and you are stronger thru sharing your testimony……. I applaud you 💕🙏🏾

  • @debbielucero5510
    @debbielucero5510 3 года назад +3

    You look like your beautiful mama.so sorry that she passed away.thinking of you everyday.god bless

  • @rhondawhatley1591
    @rhondawhatley1591 3 года назад +2

    I'm so sorry sweetheart. I lost my dad when I was 7 to brain tumor so ikw how you feel. I'm praying for you and your family hun and know that God and your mom is walking with you on this journey. You are not alone and you will get through this hun just hang on, hold your head up and keep fighting.

  • @Truth1561
    @Truth1561 3 года назад

    As a two-time cancer survivor I agree with you- we don’t have much option other than to fight. Some however face that fight with such grace and wisdom- you my dear are one of those people. Sharing your experience as a young woman with a family is such a gift to others who are current,y or will in the future face the same journey. God bless you and may the memories of your beautiful mum be a blessing xxx

  • @sharon9111
    @sharon9111 3 года назад +3

    I know it’s hard to go through this but you are doing a wonderful job. And I’m sure your Mother is your guiding light in this journey.

  • @brandylittle9186
    @brandylittle9186 3 года назад +2

    My heart is aching. My mom is a breast cancer survivor. This made me even that much more grateful that she was able to fight it. It could have easily taken the other direction. God bless you in every aspect of your life girl.

  • @jaynevassar6526
    @jaynevassar6526 3 года назад

    Thanks for checking in with us, I hate cancer too it took my dad on the 14th June 2010 I miss him so much and still find it hard on the anniversary 😔.
    Your looking really well hun your doing so well keep strong and take care, your mum was so beautiful and I'm sure shes with you 💕💕xxx

  • @angelarobles6025
    @angelarobles6025 3 года назад +1

    Your video brought me to tears. I have followed your journey while I was goin thru mine. Seeing someone else get unhooked from the pump made me emotional. I want you to know you have inspired me to share my story. I am in the process of video editing ect. This journey is hard. And your right it changes you. Stay strong. I had a few reaction to the chemo and had to have my meds changed a couple times. Sending positive and healing thought to you.

  • @cindym3340
    @cindym3340 3 года назад +2

    I’m so glad to hear from you. I was worrying about you. I so admire how you are fighting this battle with such grace. You look so much like your Mother. I am sure she is with you every step of the way!😘

  • @sherrydawson6253
    @sherrydawson6253 3 года назад +1

    U do need u time. U deserve it sweetie.maybe none of the chemo u have will take your hair. Your beautiful inside out. Whether u have make up on or not u have that natural beauty. I will say a prayer for your mom. She's so proud of u! Yes if we pass we have no more suffering. Yet those who love us there pain begins. But u figure so much out. You have good days and bad. Give yourself rest time. Me time. I love seeing u and pray for u and your family. U got this girl! Hugs 🤗to u. Were here for u😘😋❤💯🙏🙏

  • @nancypatterson374
    @nancypatterson374 3 года назад +2

    Praying for you and yes we never forget our moms. Your mom was a beautiful lady and she is with you every step of the way, God Bless!🙏❤️

  • @celticwelsh
    @celticwelsh 3 года назад

    I'm so sorry for the passing of your mother. Losing a loved parent is devastating, especially during times when all we want is for them to hug us and tell us everything is going to be alright. I'm glad you felt like she was with you while you were getting chemo.

  • @leslymarshmallows
    @leslymarshmallows 3 года назад

    God bless you. Your story has MOVED me like nothing else. I lost my dad suddenly 9 months ago. Although I can’t relate to your cancer struggle but I cried with you every time you got emotional through these vlogs. And I felt your pain that much more when you mentioned everything about losing your mama. I will mention you, your mom and your family in my prayers. Thank you for your transparency and for your strength.

  • @janinna7480
    @janinna7480 3 года назад

    Every time I come to your channel I end up crying like a baby. You are inspiring

  • @jenc1276
    @jenc1276 3 года назад

    Your mom was gorgeous just like you are. I think you do have choices and you and your mom are badass, brave ladies who chose to fight and who are clearly loved. Sending hugs.

  • @maiaa893
    @maiaa893 3 года назад +2

    My Dad was diagnosed with esophageal cancer as well, thankfully we caught his on time.
    My Dad fought that shit and we were there every step of the way, like you with your mom.
    Girl you got this🦾 so sorry for your loss. Your mom is there with you every step of the way!! 😘

  • @sha-sha7665
    @sha-sha7665 3 года назад

    God bless you! So sorry your mom passed on and you are in my prayers! Glad you are hanging in there as best you can.

  • @raelinacampos9207
    @raelinacampos9207 3 года назад +1

    This was so emotional, you're such a beautiful fighter. When you mention about you sitting in the same chair as she was gave me goosebumps. May God give you and your family strength! God bless you and your family!💗🙏

  • @case1962
    @case1962 3 года назад

    Happy heavenly birthday to your beautiful mother above (you are twins). She is smiling down and sending you strength for your fight with cancer. Hang in there and don't apologize for anything. I am having some issues after my radiation and chemo, too, and it put a damper on my usual happy-go-lucky self. I needed some 'quiet time' recently. But, I'm getting better. I'm jealous of how neat your port incision is. Mine was done not very well and constantly bothers me (9 months now), and to think I have at least another year of it stuck there -- ugh. But, I'll make the best of it. So, I'm with you -- *cancer sucks.*
    But, we'll pull through. Until then, we are entitled to bitch about it a bit!😄
    *Keep strong cancer sister, we've got this!*

  • @AldamaAdventures
    @AldamaAdventures 3 года назад

    Girl you look fabulous, don't apologize!! I wish you well! Thank you for updating us. 💕

  • @darondatoole7439
    @darondatoole7439 3 года назад +4

    Very understandable. Glad to see you and get the update. Wishing you well every moment every day.

  • @kandydewey1286
    @kandydewey1286 3 года назад

    so glad you posted. my hearts been weighing heavy as i let my mind wander not hearing from you. such a beautiful lady🤩! lifting you and your family up in prayer. may God bless
    you always Nd give you a very long life

  • @kellylattimore5234
    @kellylattimore5234 3 года назад +1

    Thank you so much for posting, I’m sorry that you were going through all of this but I’m glad you’re getting better

  • @monica77aguilera
    @monica77aguilera 3 года назад +1

    Just watched this & im thinking about you & sending prayers. My mom passed away from Colon cancer in august 2020 & her birthday is this month. You give me strength & inspiration as you are so incredibly strong to be fighting this beast called cancer & doing it with such Grace. Your mom is definitely your Angel 🙏🏼❤️

  • @brooklynroyale5764
    @brooklynroyale5764 3 года назад +2

    I’m so sorry. ♥️🌹
    Praying for you and your loved ones. 🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻

  • @thereugo8900
    @thereugo8900 3 года назад +2

    🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️. My mother, grandfather, uncle, and my dear brother all had different forms of this horrible cancer. Most recently my brother succumbed to the same cancer as your beautiful mother. You are amazingly strong and beautiful ❤️

    • @VanessaLPZ1
      @VanessaLPZ1  3 года назад +2

      I’m so sorry. I hope your brother comes out on top and fights 💙

    • @thereugo8900
      @thereugo8900 3 года назад +1

      @@VanessaLPZ1 He did pass away and I wasn't told he was dying. His wife wouldn't let me say goodbye. I'm still processing his death. 😢 He was my favorite best brother. May God continue to bless you and give you strength ❤️💕💕🐾💗💕🐾💗💋

    • @VanessaLPZ1
      @VanessaLPZ1  3 года назад +2

      I’m so so sorry 😢 any loss is difficult and I’ll pray for you and your family 💙

    • @thereugo8900
      @thereugo8900 3 года назад +1

      @@VanessaLPZ1 THANK YOU, dear sweet Vanessa. My prayers are with you and your family 💞💞💞

  • @simplyme7821
    @simplyme7821 3 года назад +2

    Oh, sweetie. A day doesn't go by when you don't pop into my mind. I stop and I picture you and I ask God to give you strength. I only just found out about your mom in this video. It breaks my heart. My husband died on the same day that he was born too. I'm already starting to grieve because the anniversary is coming up for the second time. You're so right about how people that love you miss their loved ones. I just said happy birthday and he laid down and went away. You are strong because you know what love is and you know its value. Your mom is right there at your side. Keep going and we will come along with you all the way to perfect health. Sincerely, Carly💗😊🙋

    • @VanessaLPZ1
      @VanessaLPZ1  3 года назад

      I’m so sorry to hear about your husbands passing. I will be praying for the both of you tonight. 💙

    • @simplyme7821
      @simplyme7821 3 года назад

      @@VanessaLPZ1 You are like an angel. Your mother put so much love and goodness into you. You are not bitter. Thank you, sweetie. I just can't stop crying because I'm alone and noone is ever going to love me again. We adored each other for twenty-three years. May God bless you and keep you close to His heart.🌺carly

  • @sierrab5132
    @sierrab5132 3 года назад

    This video was beautiful I’m crying!! I pray for your healing!!

  • @samwilson9333
    @samwilson9333 3 года назад +2

    I’m totally speechless. That’s was the most intense vlog I’ve ever felt. I’m so sorry that you have to go through this. It’s unfair but you have been so strong! Don’t give up. Don’t say goodbye yet. God be with you!

  • @j4068
    @j4068 3 года назад

    🙏my mom went at 43 on Thanksgiving💙 Bless her heart she gave the good fight for 10 years with chemo every Friday. I started to be her care taker at 15yrs old. 3 yrs after she passed I was diagnosed. She had metastatic breast cancer I had ovarian /bladder/ intestines. It's has been literally all I know. My whole family has passed from cancer. Aunts uncle's grandparents.. Not sure what God's purpose is yet but I was able to have a daughter before my hysterectomy and every day I wake up saying I will be the one to break the chain. I pray this out loud. My daughter will be cancer free. She was tested for the cancer Gene right away afterbirth and it wasn't passed down!!! We serve a gracious and merciful God🙏😍 I connect with your channel and your story because of your beautiful relationship with your ma and everything you did for her. Then you being quickly diagnosed right after. I have never seen anyone have a similar story. Keep fighting. Stay strong. Your mom is definitely there with you sitting beside you in that chair. She is laying by you in your bed after treatment and even riding shotgun on the ride home... Believe in the power of prayer and the power of Almighty Jesus and his name! God bless you and your family! May you be blessed with strength and favor! Sending you hugs and love!🙏🌸💙-J

  • @shayladaniel6040
    @shayladaniel6040 3 года назад +1

    Omg your mama and you are so beautiful! She is your angel ❤️ never apologize to us for taking time for you. We will always be here xo sending you strength as always! Keep fighting mama 😍

  • @cindycarr3460
    @cindycarr3460 3 года назад

    I found this after my mom passed from Dementia. I keep it close to my ♥️
    “GRIEF NEVER ENDS…BUT IT CHANGES
    ITS A PASSAGE. NOT A PLACE TO STAY
    GRIEF IS NOT A SIGN OF WEAKNESS.
    NOR A LACK OF FAITH
    IT IS THE PRICE OF ❤️ LOVE”

  • @susanwagner9443
    @susanwagner9443 3 года назад +2

    Always put yourself at the top of the list.. you need it and deserve it! 🙏🏻

  • @margaretbaca6017
    @margaretbaca6017 3 года назад +6

    I have been wondering how you are doing. I continue to pray for you

  • @Sofiagar_55
    @Sofiagar_55 3 года назад

    Im so happy you posted a video to give an update I was thinking of you and kept checking your RUclips page to see if you had posted. You are so strong!! Praying for your healing, I know your Mom is looking over you and bringing you healing, cancer does suck you are so strong to deal with so much at a young age and have your kiddos, you’re amazing!! May God give you strength and healing ❤️‍🩹 🙏🏻💕🙏🏻

  • @georgej2751
    @georgej2751 3 года назад +1

    May God give you the strength to keep going and wish you the best of health and recovery

  • @nallelip.7634
    @nallelip.7634 3 года назад

    You are so brave! I’m very inspired by your journey and how strong you are. I am sorry for your loss. I agree with you, your beautiful mom is always with you. Hope you recover soon! God willing you will upload a video soon telling us you have made it to remission! 🙏🏻

  • @clbrad402
    @clbrad402 3 года назад +1

    Vanessa ...I think you are an "old soul".. Wise beyond your years. Your mother was so beautiful ...as are you. I am going through something myself...and you inspire me. Thank you. You are loved by many 😘

  • @ann85gomez22
    @ann85gomez22 3 года назад

    your a beautiful strong person. your mom is definitely right next to you. you are strong and inspiring. ! you got this ❤️

  • @alexismartinez4281
    @alexismartinez4281 2 года назад

    This video gave me all the feels. My mom just got diagnosed with colorectal cancer as well. She’s going to her oncologist appointment tomorrow. Thank you for documenting your journey, I’m glad I came across your channel. The ending tho 😭😭😭🥺

  • @peachxtaehyung
    @peachxtaehyung 3 года назад

    Girl you do not look bad at all! You are always gorgeous! Also side note but your intro is beautiful!!!

  • @Tonya169
    @Tonya169 3 года назад

    I am currently fighting breast cancer. I am in the midst of my chemo treatments. And still have 2 more months to go. 6 months total of chemo. And I couldn't agree more with you! We are fighting for our loved ones! I also lost my mom to cancer a few years ago. I can completely relate to you on everything you are going through! You never know how strong you are, until we have to be! :) hugs!! :)

  • @aslobos
    @aslobos 3 года назад +2

    You look beautiful, just like your mom. Blessing to you. 💖💖🥰🙏🙏💐💐💐

  • @timlittle1286
    @timlittle1286 3 года назад

    You take all the time that you need. It must be hard for you and you have been very brave. I just hope that you have been made to feel as comfortable as possible. Be happy with yourself you are a kind person.

  • @reneeanitab7694
    @reneeanitab7694 3 года назад

    I cannot thank you enough for sharing your incredible personal journey. Tears stream down my face as memories of my younger sister flash before me once again. She lost her battle with colorectal cancer three years ago, exactly 28 days after her 49th birthday. It is so true how the grieving process starts all over again on each anniversary. Your story is helping me to understand some of the things she went through all alone. So many decisions. So many heartaches. So much fear and anger. I wish you peace and comfort during your struggle. You may feel all alone in this battle, but please know that there are so many cheering you on, praying for you, and struggling right alongside you. Let our strength comfort you and carry you through when the battle causes you to grow weary. You are loved! You are special! You are important!

    • @VanessaLPZ1
      @VanessaLPZ1  3 года назад

      Thank you! May your sister Rest In Peace 🕊

  • @JournalofaWarriorsJourney
    @JournalofaWarriorsJourney 3 года назад +2

    Grief is a mystery at times & the spirit world is here - we just can’t always see it; but I know at times we can feel it. How can we not?
    My mom went Home on my birthday last year and though I know she is finally free from a lifetime of physical and mental struggles, it still doesn’t seem real at times.
    Take good care of you. We are not going anywhere out here - create when you have the energy for all this. Family 🔝. 🙏🏻💜

  • @lorenenoe4472
    @lorenenoe4472 3 года назад +1

    It’s not a mere coincidence you are sharing your moms chemo chair…she’s watching and wrapping her loving energy around you. What a beautiful memory and tribute you two share. Everything’s going to be alright, it’s already decided as you know. We missed you and are glad you took the time you needed. Blessings to you my sister in colon cancer. 🦋🤎🤎🦋

  • @4loones478
    @4loones478 3 года назад

    Happy Belated birthday to your mom! I just ran across your channel. Keep fighting how you said for your loved ones! You are beautiful and look just like your mom 🤍

  • @gabbyperez7477
    @gabbyperez7477 3 года назад

    😩😢🥺 my deepest/hugest condolences 💐! I don’t know why I’m crying so much! Sending you hugs 🫂 and love ❤️. Stay strong girl! You got this! It’ll be worth it at the end.

  • @israelarroyo2765
    @israelarroyo2765 3 года назад

    I don’t understand %100 how you feel inside cause I don’t ever want to go through this or my worst enemy to go through this. I try not live in fear, but cancer runs extremely high in my family. My father, three aunts, two grandmothers, all have had cancer. Some have beaten it. Some not. I have so much in mind with al there deaths of cancer and I just hope I never go what you and my other family went through. God bless you and chin up.

  • @dalexis3165
    @dalexis3165 3 года назад

    Prayers Love 🙏💖 You are so beautiful and strong and have a Beautiful Angel Watching over you.

  • @miguelchacon6224
    @miguelchacon6224 3 года назад

    you are a warrior and is not a coincidence that you are sitting in your mom's chair! as a person who was diagnosed with spino cerebellar ataxia( a rare terminal disease) at the age of 21... i kept fighting best i could. I am now 37 years old. anyway this disease runs in my family but i'm still alive. You my friend are a warrior, so fight! you can beat it... does it suck? yes, ofcourse! it's scary knowing you have cancer in your 20's! but you still have purpose in this life. trust it!

  • @AyMela
    @AyMela 3 года назад +2

    awwww Vane, this made me tear up! Thank you for taking the time to update us. We are all rooting and praying for you and your family. Sending you positive vibes! Tu eres fuerte 💕

  • @angelicadoyle1705
    @angelicadoyle1705 3 года назад +3

    You are such a brave young woman, you will be rewarded you’ll see and you are in my prayers

  • @janfraser8681
    @janfraser8681 3 года назад +1

    My Mom also died from esophageal cancer. I didn’t know your Mom passed from the same cancer. You’re not alone girl, we’re all right here cheering you on. You got this!

  • @elizabethtorres6461
    @elizabethtorres6461 3 года назад

    God bless you. What a beautiful tribute to your Mom. Happy birthday in heaven to your beautiful Mom.🙏🤗💐💝🙏

  • @arlene4996
    @arlene4996 3 года назад

    I have been watching your videos and seeing how strong you are to upload videos being sick and dealing with that horrible sickness is so helpful for people that have cáncer to. . You are very young and positive. Hope you get better soon. 🤗❣️

  • @anecoladyjames1245
    @anecoladyjames1245 3 года назад

    God Bless You. Your Mom Is Right There Watching Over You Sweetie. "You Are Never Alone, You Always Have Jesus." I Pray For Your Total Healing and Remission. Also Your Treatment & Recovery, Not To Be Too Hard. Your Mother Was Stunning & You Are Her Twin. I Send You Strength, Hugs And Love!🙏🏽💜

  • @olenacastillo9977
    @olenacastillo9977 3 года назад

    So happy to see a video from you! I love watching. 🤍

  • @Jordynfire
    @Jordynfire 3 года назад

    Praying for you! You are so strong and your mom is with you💜 please take care you don’t owe us anything.

  • @juliearnone1421
    @juliearnone1421 3 года назад

    Ok, I'm still wiping away tears...this video was so powerful. Vanessa, thank you so much for sharing your story. It takes such strength to be vulnerable and kind of like you said, being positive during something like cancer. Please know you are helping so many people...including me. I was diagnosed with rectal cancer in March and had my colostomy and proctectomy in April. I'm currently trying to decide whether to have chemo or not since it isn't required. Everytime I lean towards no, I think of all those precious faces of the people I love...my Mom, brother, niece & nephews, my boyfriend. Watching your channel has made me feel less alone, so thank you. 💗💫 Also, know your Mom is with you every step of the way. 😇

  • @jacquedooley1577
    @jacquedooley1577 3 года назад

    My dear heart, Thank you for your update. First and foremost is taking time for you! You must come first. My prayers are with you daily and I also pray your mom walks along side you to give you her strength and guidance. She is in our Lord’s arms watching over you and your family. God be with you. Thank you again for the update.

  • @suzannenelson919
    @suzannenelson919 3 года назад

    So happy to see your video. I have been wondering if you were okay. I completely understand how you feel. I remember my chemo days and I didn't feel like doing much. I did not know that you lost your Mom. Wow, what a year you have had. I also noticed that your mom passed away on her birthday? So very sorry for your loss. . You look great though.... Yes, chemo is rough. Praying for you and your beautiful family. RUclips when you feel like it. Everyone understands!

  • @orimedina9664
    @orimedina9664 3 года назад

    Sobbing 😭 I love this. My mom is a breast cancer survivor & I also was diagnosed this year. We share a gene mutation. And just thinking of what my mom has been through brings me to tears at how strong she was.
    Moms are literally hero’s.
    Sending you extra love and peace ❤️

  • @lori....4816
    @lori....4816 3 года назад +2

    Your mom was so young when she passed and you are so young to be going through this battle. Her graveside is so beautiful anybody passing by can see she was well loved. We pray for you everyday remember... ask and you shall receive . 💞

  • @parisfemine4032
    @parisfemine4032 3 года назад

    aww stay strong don't give up u have people who support u I come from Trinidad and Tobago in the Caribbean I hope u best of luck may ur mum continue to watch over u

  • @bubbieble
    @bubbieble 3 года назад

    You said it so well; there comes a point in fighting. And that’s when you are not longer only fighting for yourself, but for your family. I experienced this also! But I had tears in my eyes when you said it. Never thought of this before so clear.. thank you 🙏 I send you a lot of healing ❤️

  • @francisjohnson665
    @francisjohnson665 3 года назад

    My momma died when she was 55 years old , from breast cancer. Been gone 50 years this coming December. I always thought that I would get it , took me 61 years , I'm still here 13 years later. The treatments were so different for her than for me. Her family was filled with various types of cancer . She was the only one who has breast cancer , until me . Mostly colon cancer. God bless you.