I'm 13 month and a half off of 1 mg Xanax I took to sleep .Ive had this ringing in my head since November of 2018, its October 2019. When it stared the level was a 10 and i had 5 diffrent sounds it was insane!! Now the level is about 6 7 and it's only one sound of ringing in the head and it feels like my ears are clogged up and my head pressure like stuffy in a way. it dosent come and go away for me. i have it 24/7. Pluse lots of other symptoms dizziness derealisation depersonalization confusion memory loss not recognizing myself or others not being able to Drive ect.. the mental torture it's just inhumane!! symptoms now come and go. I miss me . I keep telling my self i should be better by now too but then i remind my self that this is going to be a long healing process and I am healing and i am gonna be better again. & keep myself eating healthy I'm going for 15 20 minute walks sometimes 30 mins. &yes when going through this is extremely lonely but please keep fighting with us we get it we believe you. Stay strong keep going 💗
M. L.M -Thank you for being supportive and taking the time to encourage me. You and I have had some similar symptoms. And you have just listed most of my symptoms.
My benzo Journey By Trailhead I have the same feeling in my head sometimes I just like you hope I can die soon, but is just a tough this is not me . Some day I know I going to get better. We going to get better.
I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I’m a good deal ahead of you and we’ve talked before on bb. But I have very similar head and ear symptoms. Felt the same way at 13 months. It’s been a long process but it gets better. Please hang in and keep going.
McS -I remember you. Thank you for always being so supportive and taking the time to encourage me. Yes we have had some similar symptoms. I really hope it gets better for me I have my doubts at this point.
You were on xanax for a long time. Please be patient. I know exactly how you feel. I was on it for over twenty years with a forced ct by the VA. You sound so much like me, just like me. The suicidal ideation is very scarey, i have been there. You must always remember that you are going to heal. You are healing. You have completed the taper, some symptoms have healed already; this is proof that you are going to heal. Sometimes when i feel like it's not going to happen for me, i go to benzobuddies and read success stories. It reinforces what i am going through and that i will heal. It takes time, there is no way around that; you could wake up tomorrow and it can be over or maybe it will take longer but you have accomplished so much already. As far as your sister, remember how long you were on the drug before you hit tolerance? That's where your sister is now. Focus on you, and getting through this. The one thing i read over and over again is how beaitiful life is when you are on the other side of this! Keep going, you are stronger than you know; it's going to happen.
Sunny Romano Sunny Romano -Thank you so much for your support. And yes I used to be on benzo buddies all the time. My name is Trailhead on there. But the negative stories on there is what pushed me away. But I have read success stories on there. They are helpful. Thank you. And congrats on getting off, c/t tho wow can’t imagine. It’s relief to know someone on it for a lengthy time like I was. I think I’m worried my ear symptoms are not related to withdrawal because they are just so constant and severe. I just don’t understand. I have so many symptoms that I always seem to forget to mention because of the ones that stand out every day. Thank you for your supportive and kind words.
You seem like such a sweet soul. I am sorry you are suffering. I am suffering as well. I have a lot of problems with my ears. Constant loud buzzing and then the screaming sometimes. And major hyperacusis. It hurts when people reach into the ice bucket. Yard power tools send my akathesia and nerves through the roof. Hold on tight to your wife. You have support. She’s got you. Give it more time.
B. B. B. B. -Thank you for saying that. I also suffer badly from hyperacusis. My ears constantly feel compacted ,cracking fullness ringing severely. I hope you get some relief soon. I can’t take any remotely loud sounds. I am so grateful for my wife. Thank you for your support.
Thanks for the update. Sorry you’re still suffering so much. I feel like I’m on a boat all the time. I had bad ear stuff when I first came off and hadn’t had the ear stuff in four months and got it bad again this week. Luckily it’s lifted but the boatiness still going strong. I deal with bad mental symptoms. I hate how much we suffer for these Benzos. I hope you see healing soon.
Jennifer G -I have that boat feeling almost constantly. I’m sorry your struggling. The ear stuff is maddening to me. I just can’t cope. I hope you start finding a little relief soon as well. Thank you for your support .
I struggle with weather changes as well. Re/ ears. Rain, wind, thunder, lightening, snow, clouds, sun. I am not to go outside in the shade. Only sun. And to top it off I have to pretend I am ok. Or, I don’t have a place to stay.
B. B. -Did the weather sensitivity start in withdrawal ? Because I never had it before. It’s so awful. Especially when the barametric rises it’s excruciating for me. I am sorry you don’t have the support you deserve it must be hard not being able to talk about it as much.
I believe it did start w/wd. I was always a little sensitive to noise. Weather - I never was a fan of rain due to depression. Wind - due to anxiety. But, functioning, living, etc. I had 28 years of meds. Poly drugged, kindled, etc. My ears are hell. The depression, terror, si is hell. AKA/Rage is my deadliest symptom. EVERYTHING you said I can relate too 100%. You are not alone.
Keep making videos sweetie. I'm right there with you. I reinstated, but I think I'm going to resume tapering. I wake up the same way every day...my worst symptom is depression...you are loved ♥️
Please don't leave us please stay strong like you have been it will get better it will get so much better your wife is an angel she's got you still never let you go just hang on hang on don't leave us your wife needs you your family needs you we all need you I'll be damned if I see another one on benzos kill themselves I'm supporting you I'm praying for you
Hang in there, I really understand where you at, since tapering I have tinnitus screaming in both ears and 24/7 derealisation not even including the poor vision (like the lights have dimmed), vision does not adjust to light changes, which has caused agoraphobia and confined me to my bedroom, so not even going outdoors. Been off work since March this year. Barometric pressure drop sends me into bed. There is nothing linear with withdrawal symptoms, except for the ones that stick like glue.I have lost all sense of smell and sleep has been an endless battle for 9 months with huge anxiety in the mornings. You have a supportive partner and showing signs of healing, you are getting better, just a very slow process. Keep looking ahead and moving forward. Supporting you!
hey! trailhead, thank you so much for this video! this is amazing that you did this to help people who don't know what xanax can do. this is NOT in your head! you have no idea how shocked i was when i heard you say that your biggest problem was your ears. i think that the ear thing is related to your withdrawal! i can't believe that you mentioned this! the doctors all acted like it wasn't related to my withdrawal. they said they never heard of it. it was like you were telling my story.i was on them 25 years, as well, and have been off for about 1 year (six more days is a year). inside my ears burn horrible. like they are on FIRE! it has lessened in the last couple of months, and sometimes it comes and goes in intensity. the depression sounds like what i have been going through. i've been learning meditation, it helps.the terger meditation youtube site has been good for me to watch. it's peaceful. drinking a lot of plain water is good too. the food thing i understand too. we have a lot of the same symptoms, thank you so much
LEILANI I’m glad it helped you. Yes my ears amongst new symptoms have gotten worse actually I’m out of my mind with it all. So over it. It’s nice to be able to hear from someone who was on them as long as I was. Keep up the fight and yes meditation is a healer I’m learning how to do it myself. 💙. Also look up Abraham Hicks on you tube. You will find peace in her videos. Thank you for your comment.
@@JourneyTrailhead hey there! thank you so much for getting back with me. i also have the pressure in my ears. its like im going from low to high altitude, and high to low, i cant predict when it will happen, but it has happened when i eat. thats the most common time, that i recognize. i will check out abraham hicks. do you go to the virtual meetings of NA online? they are the NA.org meetings. i just started going about a week ago and what a life saver! you get to talk to other people around the world 24/7 in chat rooms where you see one anothers face (unless you dont want to show your face thats fine too). they have been HUGELY supportive and a lot of my symptoms have lessened so much. i feel much better and i know that i have that support from people who know whats going on and treat me kindly unconditionally. doesnt matter about age, gender, sexual orientation, country of origin, color of skin. thank you for making your video. it was a blessing for me. i was on 3 times to 5 times the amount that you took daily for 25 years. it is a very bad drug and shouldnt be used long time. i know you will agree. i see now that any dose over time has horrible side effects.
@@JourneyTrailhead hey dear. I ve a lot compassion for you. You re a very sweet and humble personn. Please, ask your wife to search for you on internet : grounding = earthing. She ll explain you its amazing benefits , how does it acts on the brain and the cells. And ask her to do it with you : for example when you spend 30 min barefoot lying on the ground ( grass or sand). Like that she will support you. I ve nobody to do it with me so i m tired but whith someone beside you which who you can talk or else, times goes faster. Try it . It s very ancestral and natural technic of healing. It helped me a lot in my equilibrium, mood, sleep, ear ringing, etc.. 👍👍❤❤
I hope you are starting to feel better. It's been a tough journey for me as well. The good news is that there's no evidence that the symptoms are ever permanent. They do eventually lessen and go away over time. Much love!
Hi - I don’t know what your name is - wish I did so I could address you. I know exactly how you feel. Do you have someone that you can talk to that is or has gone through this? Did you know that the University of Arizona had a symposium about benzos in September? It is a long youtube - three hours - at least some of the medical community is starting to come to the table. I am 25 months off benzos - I had the sensation of a tight band around my head for about a year - it was terribly scary. Terrible pain like shocks shooting up and down my body. Inner tremor. Burning hot pain. Often I am short of breath and have heart palpitations. I didn’t sleep the first year - literally I did not sleep. Go to Neighbor Bob on youtube - he had terrible problems with his ears. He also had bad neck pain. His videos are great! I understand how you feel - this is a horrible horrible thing to go through. I am thinking of you and praying for you. Many times I have wanted to give up also. Go to Neighbor Bob.
You're not alone in this. We have been injured but our bodies can heal and adapt. I always remind myself that our ancestors did not survive by luck. Generations have forged resilience and we are strong. The garbage in garbage out model is applicable... Our bodies are moving us in the right direction even if we don't understand our feel that way. This is not a rational process. Also, our bodies love movement and it helps with ANY recovery. So you said you were walking and I think that is great. Take it slow and build up. Don't press yourself or set expectations for walking, even if you have been successful in the past. Listening to our bodies is super important as they heal. I'm still learning this but better off for knowing it. Keep up the good fight and know you're not alone.
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Hope you recover fully! Look into Flumazenil therapy, and if you ever try it let me know! Best of luck!!!
Please hang in there, you can do this...there's so many of us. 💞 Finally free from 30yrs of dozens of overprescribed antidepressants/benzos/antipsychotics/etc and in a similar bad state myself, not really sure what to say (brain fog)...just please try to keep faith that we'll continue to heal. Baby steps... 💞
We have all the same neurotoxic symptoms.. my ears are horribly affected...esp. tinnitus & hyperacusis, akathisia, dysphagia, itchiness, brain stem/head pain, zaps, panic,...& much, much more. All typical benzo iatrogenic-harm symptoms...sorry you're suffering too. 💞
Dear sweet girl, I know the suffering you are going through but please never give up hope because you Will have your life back one day. I am 67 yr old and took Xanax for 23 yrs. Been off 3 and 1/2 yr and about 70 percent healed. Think it takes longer to heal for those of us that were on the meds for so long. You are lucky you are so young. You will still have a long life left once you get through this. You just have to hold on to the knowledge that this is a very long recovery but you WILL get through this. God will give you the strength you need just lean on Him. So glad you have a loving partner to stand by your side. I had no one and believe me it is tough doing this on your own. I will be praying for you. I Know you can do this. Much love, Kathy
Do you mean blood pressure medicine? I had and still have irregular heart beats and palpitations but I still have normal blood pressure, thank goodness!
You sweet angel please hold on keep fighting❤️ , I had the ear thing early on but it faded within 6 months. My head/brain still feels floaty , like my brain is just floating around inside my head or there is weird air pressure in there, it’s hard to describe. 23 months out and I’m still nervous all the time, can’t sleep more than 3 hours , can’t work, can’t socialize etc.. it takes me 12 hours to sleep 3 hours ( just insane) . Can you do anything like hobbies that are tolerable , it sometimes seems to distract the symptoms? Can you do light exercise etc ? I cry all the time from watching tv and see people living LIFE and experiencing things that seem like a lifetime ago to me. Every once in a while I guess I sleep a little longer or deeper and I’ll have a day where symptoms are low and I think I’m getting better , but then I barely sleep and here we go again. Hope you feel better, think how much we will enjoy life and the little things once this shit is over for us 😎
Remi 118 -Remi 118 -I’m sorry it’s so bad for you still. I have the floaty boaty feeling too it’s awful. My head is never clear. My ears always full in some way. Pressure. I do try to walk everyday Atleast a mile or so with my wife. I get super nervous all the time. I’m constantly shaking inside and out. And as far as the reaction you get to tv. I stopped watching it because It has same effect on me. It’s like the person I used to be is lost. And I want it all back and can’t do anything about it. Watching others enjoy their lives and complain about what used to be a valid complaint in my life now seems ridiculous and minuscule to me. If they only had our symptoms to complain about they would never survive . So I can relate to almost all of what you have expressed. I do have lighter days and I have improved in many ways but because the remaining symptoms are so debilitating I don’t feel any better if that makes sense. Hang in there. Thank you for your support.
Remi 118 -I would like to add that I never slept very well when I was on benzo, but now that my acute withdrawal has passed I am sleeping much better these days. Better than I slept in 20 years or so. Well ,when I’m not having intense ear pressure that is.
@@sangeetalambh6389 yes lots of stomach problems, it’s now been 3.5 years for me and I’m still home bound and non functional. If you are only at 100 ish days I wouldn’t worry you will prob be fine but it may take 12-18 months. Depends on if you have had previous exposure and withdrawl to benzos in the past, plus how long you have been on them , other medications etc..
You are a very sweet person. Very honest. I’m so sorry you are going through this awful journey of withdrawal. Please don’t hate yourself. Please may I suggest something. God loves you so much. You may not of heard that before. He knows everything about the situation you are in, that has been caused by the drug and now the withdrawal. Please ask Him to reveal Himself to you. To show you He loves you and that He understands completely.. People can help you and stand with you. God alone knows everything and He will help you if you ask Him. I am not a religious freak.. I am a 68 year old woman who has been taking Clonazepam for nearly 30 years. I am also going through horrible withdrawal ( 70 days). I don’t know how I would have faced this without God. I have never mentions God in any other video I have watched on this subject. I have watched many. My heart has gone out to you sweetheart. Your symptoms are real for sure. I have watched two of your videos today.. Please spend a little time being still and asking God to give you a sign that he loves and cares for you and He will help you. He will heal you. He will use your terrible experience to help others. I can see that you want to encourage others even though you are in a pit yourself. That is the Father’s heart. What have you got to lose ?. Please try this. God is only a prayer away but He wont barge in. He waits until He is asked. ❤️
@@sangeetalambh6389 . Yes have experienced all of that. Many get something called Benzo belly and get all sorts of weird stomach symptoms. Have you looked at this online community. ‘ Beating benzos’. It is excellent, very informative and well monitored. 🙂
I was on a 24 hour 2mg dose of klonopin for 3 years and got cut off cold turkey 2 months ago and I’m still incapacitated and stuck in bed in severe pain and fear. Does this get better?! I feel like I’m truly going to die or go insane. I can’t find any support. My doctor says it’s not withdrawal but it feels like intense acute withdrawal or brain damage. My ears have not stopped ringing since the day they cut me off. It is so loud it wakes me up and feels like it’s causing headaches and dizziness. The buzzing and ringing is probably the most uncomfortable symptom by far. I’ve never had ringing in my ears in my life. It feels like I have a permanent concussion. It is killing me. I could not live with this either. Hope things get better ! Thanks for video.
Bobby James - I’m sorry you are going through this. You are very early in your withdrawal. You are still in the acute phase. I was in acute for about 4 -6 months and even after that it was intensely brutal for first year. (I’m not saying yours will last that long ) My ears rang so loud I wanted to end my life right then among other reasons. Don’t listen to your dr if they are telling you it isn’t withdrawal,most have no idea about benzo withdrawal. You will get better it’s is a slow ,very slow process. Like I said 2 months is so early give it time. Your ears will calm down and eventually be at a tolerable level until they are healed. I when other ear symptoms is why mine have lasted almost 3 years so far. They are full ,crackling all the time and weather makes them so much worse. But please just have faith in the process and be patient with the healing process. You will get there..
My benzo Journey By Trailhead thank you, this is awful. I am thinking of reinstating and trying a slow taper but don’t know if that’ll make matters worse. Did you taper? Hope things get better for you too!
Bobby James -I taper for 2 1/2 yrs. first year was way too fast and made things much worse for me. If you have been off 2 months already I don’t think I would reinstate if I were you. But that’s just me. Cold turkey is brutal and I tapered so fast In beginning it felt like cold turkey to me ,only because I was on them for 25 yrs. I’m so sorry you were cut off them like that .
My benzo Journey By Trailhead Thank you, I am definitely gonna take that advice because I’m deathly afraid of reinstating and going through it again. Wow, that’s a long time. I have been on benzos maybe 5 years and it feels like raging hell still. I hope things get better for you too. Appreciate the support!!
@@graalteach79 hi. I read your story. Yes, this poison is devastating and it s hell. I ve listened to dr eric berg and motivationaldoc channels about magnesium l threonate. It s the only form of magnesium able to cross the brain barrier. Mg2t block nmda glutamate excitators receptors. It does help a lot to quiet the brain. Maybe you could try it. And whatever people don t know they all need 600 mg of magnesium daily as these docs explain. So i think it could really help you in a huge range of action.keep hope. A strong support to you. Loves
Yes I do, I think I might get a grounding rod and hook it to my mat instead of plugging it in, my nervous system is just easily triggered by the extra, but grounding can heal the entire body , I plan on doing it as much as I can every day ! I’m so happy you have one too lol.
You right it is a lonely feeling, I have the ringing ears too and my head hurts my scalp fell numb too , is horrible and I don’t tell anyone because there are no way to explain, I don’t go to any Dr because I know they going to say that is not the Xanax . I’m off for one year too , but I hope is going to be better I don’t know how or when. We going to get better
I'm sick from benzos. was on much less time then you, and am much more sick. i wish i had your symptoms cuz I'm kindled to hell and my symptoms are sadistic idk how im still alive. all i can say is stay away from things that can Couse a setback like beer and supplements iv had setbacks before but my last one ruined me.
how are you ? I hope your doing better these days! I hope this new year brings you awesome healing and love ! I hope all your prayers are answered, I hope your most horrific symptoms have ether gone away completely or dissipated so small that they are no longer a issue, I hope your relationship is strong and your family is well and good , I hope you found laughter and light in all your darkness, I hope when you are well enough to look back on all this and hold your head up high and NEVER look back! I hope you have all you ever wished & prayed for ... in the lords name amen. I hope you see this and know we are still here with you . 🙏🏻 Jimmy j reviews.
Thank you jimmy. I’m actually doing worse then I ever have. I’m completely lost about it. I took vitamin D two months ago and idk what happened but I’ve been bed bound every since . I have horrific throat and breathing symptoms and my ears have been much worse. So I’ve seen every dr imaginable so far except maybe one left to see. I can only assume my body will still heal but the fear is definitely there. I’ve been suffering terribly. Thank you for your good words. I truly appreciate it.
@@JourneyTrailhead hi do you think you had a setback from vitamin d, if so has it subsided? Prayers your way continue pushing it takes long but time will heal us. I'm 39 months and still going through it. But I have done lots of healing but still struggling. Getting getting better very slowly. My dp dr has lifted about 80 percent. Keep going 🙏💝
@@JourneyTrailhead im so sorry you are still struggling. me too turned 40 months and symptoms got tensifying but if they pass before I know they will pass now hopefully it's the surge before we heal.🙏💝
Hey, did things get a little better? Simple yes or no would be enough. I have so much respect for you. I might have a solution. If you feel like it, please respond.
Hey and no. Ty. They would be much better I believe if I hadn’t taken the vitamin D. Now it’s just idk I’m trying to manifest good health at this point.
@@DeeKay1301 I see one comment ? You mentioned a solution maybe ? And thank you for all the respect. I just re read it and missed that part. Forgive me I struggle with clarity most moments.
You have to realize that you can’t withdraw from something that is no longer in your body, once the chemical compounds of what make up benzodiazepines are no longer in your system it becomes more of a REBUILDING PROCESS . Benzodiazepines affects EVERY SINGLE CELL in your body ! It’s gonna take a minute for your body and brain to ‘’ come back on line ‘’ i have watch all your videos and everything you say you are having coincides with symptoms and the length of time matches everyone els that I ever had talked to , so don’t worry you are on time with symptoms 👍
I'm going through withdrawal symptoms and I'm still.on xanax? So terrible I just feel like dying. I know the dizzy fussy ear unbalanced feeling well it's relentless every single day I do know what your feeling 5ml xanax a day and still feeling this way? I'm so lost and depressed
megz65 -Goin through withdrawals symptoms while tapering is very normal. I had horrific withdrawal during my taper. It does get better. I know I’m struggling but everyone is different and I was on Xanax 4-5 times a day for almost 25 years.
@@JourneyTrailhead oh I'm going through withdrawal while still on this stuff? I don't know what to do I feel like I'm going insane and no one can help. I live in my own prison I never leave my home unless to go to the Dr I'm so depressed 😓😓😓
Hey, My ribs and lungs do not hurt. And I still have some breathing anxiety but it isn’t as much as it used to be. I’m hoping it eventually will just be gone at some point.
@@elizabethcorral9048 air hunger has been my main struggle the entire time I was on the pills. It’s been almost 3 years and I still struggle with this symptom but it is a lot less now. I do have new symptoms now that are awful. I think me being on Xanax for over 26 years will take me a lot longer to heal.
So sorry you are suffering so much. This really sucks. I’m happy to chat with you anytime. My IG msanyadee.nextchapter 🙏🏽🦋 also your wife can talk to my parter we are family 🌈
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I'm 13 month and a half off of 1 mg Xanax I took to sleep .Ive had this ringing in my head since November of 2018, its October 2019. When it stared the level was a 10 and i had 5 diffrent sounds it was insane!! Now the level is about 6 7 and it's only one sound of ringing in the head and it feels like my ears are clogged up and my head pressure like stuffy in a way. it dosent come and go away for me. i have it 24/7. Pluse lots of other symptoms dizziness derealisation depersonalization confusion memory loss not recognizing myself or others not being able to Drive ect.. the mental torture it's just inhumane!! symptoms now come and go. I miss me . I keep telling my self i should be better by now too but then i remind my self that this is going to be a long healing process and I am healing and i am gonna be better again. & keep myself eating healthy I'm going for 15 20 minute walks sometimes 30 mins. &yes when going through this is extremely lonely but please keep fighting with us we get it we believe you. Stay strong keep going 💗
M. L.M -Thank you for being supportive and taking the time to encourage me. You and I have had some similar symptoms. And you have just listed most of my symptoms.
My benzo Journey By Trailhead I have the same feeling in my head sometimes I just like you hope I can die soon, but is just a tough this is not me . Some day I know I going to get better. We going to get better.
What level are you now ?
Mlm How are you now??
I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I’m a good deal
ahead of you and we’ve talked before on bb. But I have very similar head and ear symptoms. Felt the same way at 13 months. It’s been a long process but it gets better. Please hang in and keep going.
McS -I remember you. Thank you for always being so supportive and taking the time to encourage me. Yes we have had some similar symptoms. I really hope it gets better for me I have my doubts at this point.
MCS how r u now
You were on xanax for a long time. Please be patient. I know exactly how you feel. I was on it for over twenty years with a forced ct by the VA. You sound so much like me, just like me. The suicidal ideation is very scarey, i have been there. You must always remember that you are going to heal. You are healing. You have completed the taper, some symptoms have healed already; this is proof that you are going to heal. Sometimes when i feel like it's not going to happen for me, i go to benzobuddies and read success stories. It reinforces what i am going through and that i will heal. It takes time, there is no way around that; you could wake up tomorrow and it can be over or maybe it will take longer but you have accomplished so much already. As far as your sister, remember how long you were on the drug before you hit tolerance? That's where your sister is now. Focus on you, and getting through this. The one thing i read over and over again is how beaitiful life is when you are on the other side of this! Keep going, you are stronger than you know; it's going to happen.
Sunny Romano Sunny Romano -Thank you so much for your support. And yes I used to be on benzo buddies all the time. My name is Trailhead on there. But the negative stories on there is what pushed me away. But I have read success stories on there. They are helpful. Thank you. And congrats on getting off, c/t tho wow can’t imagine. It’s relief to know someone on it for a lengthy time like I was. I think I’m worried my ear symptoms are not related to withdrawal because they are just so constant and severe. I just don’t understand. I have so many symptoms that I always seem to forget to mention because of the ones that stand out every day. Thank you for your supportive and kind words.
You seem like such a sweet soul. I am sorry you are suffering. I am suffering as well. I have a lot of problems with my ears. Constant loud buzzing and then the screaming sometimes. And major hyperacusis. It hurts when people reach into the ice bucket. Yard power tools send my akathesia and nerves through the roof. Hold on tight to your wife. You have support. She’s got you. Give it more time.
B. B. B. B. -Thank you for saying that. I also suffer badly from hyperacusis. My ears constantly feel compacted ,cracking fullness ringing severely. I hope you get some relief soon. I can’t take any remotely loud sounds. I am so grateful for my wife. Thank you for your support.
B B did u feel fatigue like emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober
Thanks for the update. Sorry you’re still suffering so much. I feel like I’m on a boat all the time. I had bad ear stuff when I first came off and hadn’t had the ear stuff in four months and got it bad again this week. Luckily it’s lifted but the boatiness still going strong. I deal with bad mental symptoms. I hate how much we suffer for these Benzos. I hope you see healing soon.
Jennifer G -I have that boat feeling almost constantly. I’m sorry your struggling. The ear stuff is maddening to me. I just can’t cope. I hope you start finding a little relief soon as well. Thank you for your support .
@@JourneyTrailhead God bless u.
I struggle with weather changes as well. Re/ ears. Rain, wind, thunder, lightening, snow, clouds, sun. I am not to go outside in the shade. Only sun. And to top it off I have to pretend I am ok. Or, I don’t have a place to stay.
B. B. -Did the weather sensitivity start in withdrawal ? Because I never had it before. It’s so awful. Especially when the barametric rises it’s excruciating for me. I am sorry you don’t have the support you deserve it must be hard not being able to talk about it as much.
I believe it did start w/wd. I was always a little sensitive to noise. Weather - I never was a fan of rain due to depression. Wind - due to anxiety. But, functioning, living, etc. I had 28 years of meds. Poly drugged, kindled, etc. My ears are hell. The depression, terror, si is hell. AKA/Rage is my deadliest symptom. EVERYTHING you said I can relate too 100%. You are not alone.
I can’t be outside unless it’s sunny. The weather, rain, snow messes with my brain bad!!!!!!
Keep making videos sweetie. I'm right there with you. I reinstated, but I think I'm going to resume tapering. I wake up the same way every day...my worst symptom is depression...you are loved ♥️
Please don't leave us please stay strong like you have been it will get better it will get so much better your wife is an angel she's got you still never let you go just hang on hang on don't leave us your wife needs you your family needs you we all need you I'll be damned if I see another one on benzos kill themselves I'm supporting you I'm praying for you
Hang in there, I really understand where you at, since tapering I have tinnitus screaming in both ears and 24/7 derealisation not even including the poor vision (like the lights have dimmed), vision does not adjust to light changes, which has caused agoraphobia and confined me to my bedroom, so not even going outdoors. Been off work since March this year. Barometric pressure drop sends me into bed. There is nothing linear with withdrawal symptoms, except for the ones that stick like glue.I have lost all sense of smell and sleep has been an endless battle for 9 months with huge anxiety in the mornings. You have a supportive partner and showing signs of healing, you are getting better, just a very slow process. Keep looking ahead and moving forward. Supporting you!
Ian Anderson did u feel fatigue like spiritless or dereallization and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 121 days sober
It's just a nightmare how long this shit lasts!! I hope you get some relief.
Jeff Galaska -Ty. Hope you do as well.
hey! trailhead, thank you so much for this video!
this is amazing that you did this to help people who don't know what xanax can do. this is NOT in your head!
you have no idea how shocked i was when i heard you say that your biggest problem was your ears. i think that the ear thing is related to your withdrawal! i can't believe that you mentioned this! the doctors all acted like it wasn't related to my withdrawal. they said they never heard of it. it was like you were telling my story.i was on them 25 years, as well, and have been off for about 1 year (six more days is a year).
inside my ears burn horrible. like they are on FIRE! it has lessened in the last couple of months, and sometimes it comes and goes in intensity.
the depression sounds like what i have been going through.
i've been learning meditation, it helps.the terger meditation youtube site has been good for me to watch. it's peaceful. drinking a lot of plain water is good too.
the food thing i understand too.
we have a lot of the same symptoms, thank you so much
LEILANI I’m glad it helped you. Yes my ears amongst new symptoms have gotten worse actually I’m out of my mind with it all. So over it. It’s nice to be able to hear from someone who was on them as long as I was. Keep up the fight and yes meditation is a healer I’m learning how to do it myself. 💙. Also look up Abraham Hicks on you tube. You will find peace in her videos. Thank you for your comment.
@@JourneyTrailhead hey there! thank you so much for getting back with me. i also have the pressure in my ears. its like im going from low to high altitude, and high to low, i cant predict when it will happen, but it has happened when i eat. thats the most common time, that i recognize. i will check out abraham hicks. do you go to the virtual meetings of NA online? they are the NA.org meetings. i just started going about a week ago and what a life saver! you get to talk to other people around the world 24/7 in chat rooms where you see one anothers face (unless you dont want to show your face thats fine too). they have been HUGELY supportive and a lot of my symptoms have lessened so much. i feel much better and i know that i have that support from people who know whats going on and treat me kindly unconditionally. doesnt matter about age, gender, sexual orientation, country of origin, color of skin. thank you for making your video. it was a blessing for me. i was on 3 times to 5 times the amount that you took daily for 25 years. it is a very bad drug and shouldnt be used long time. i know you will agree. i see now that any dose over time has horrible side effects.
@@JourneyTrailhead hey dear. I ve a lot compassion for you. You re a very sweet and humble personn. Please, ask your wife to search for you on internet : grounding = earthing. She ll explain you its amazing benefits , how does it acts on the brain and the cells. And ask her to do it with you : for example when you spend 30 min barefoot lying on the ground ( grass or sand). Like that she will support you. I ve nobody to do it with me so i m tired but whith someone beside you which who you can talk or else, times goes faster. Try it . It s very ancestral and natural technic of healing. It helped me a lot in my equilibrium, mood, sleep, ear ringing, etc.. 👍👍❤❤
I hope you are starting to feel better. It's been a tough journey for me as well. The good news is that there's no evidence that the symptoms are ever permanent. They do eventually lessen and go away over time. Much love!
Hi - I don’t know what your name is - wish I did so I could address you. I know exactly how you feel. Do you have someone that you can talk to that is or has gone through this? Did you know that the University of Arizona had a symposium about benzos in September? It is a long youtube - three hours - at least some of the medical community is starting to come to the table.
I am 25 months off benzos - I had the sensation of a tight band around my head for about a year - it was terribly scary. Terrible pain like shocks shooting up and down my body. Inner tremor. Burning hot pain. Often I am short of breath and have heart palpitations. I didn’t sleep the first year - literally I did not sleep.
Go to Neighbor Bob on youtube - he had terrible problems with his ears. He also had bad neck pain. His videos are great!
I understand how you feel - this is a horrible horrible thing to go through.
I am thinking of you and praying for you. Many times I have wanted to give up also.
Go to Neighbor Bob.
Hand in there my friend. You are getting closer to healing. We understand where your coming from... I’m praying for you..
How are you. We have spoke a few times on here, I was wondering about you today when some Benzo content content was in my suggestions.
You're not alone in this. We have been injured but our bodies can heal and adapt. I always remind myself that our ancestors did not survive by luck. Generations have forged resilience and we are strong. The garbage in garbage out model is applicable... Our bodies are moving us in the right direction even if we don't understand our feel that way. This is not a rational process.
Also, our bodies love movement and it helps with ANY recovery. So you said you were walking and I think that is great. Take it slow and build up. Don't press yourself or set expectations for walking, even if you have been successful in the past. Listening to our bodies is super important as they heal. I'm still learning this but better off for knowing it. Keep up the good fight and know you're not alone.
Hope you recover fully! Look into Flumazenil therapy, and if you ever try it let me know! Best of luck!!!
You don't have to "know" how to heal, your body knows this naturally. Try to roll with out as best you can, time is the key. Please hold on 🙏
Please hang in there, you can do this...there's so many of us. 💞 Finally free from 30yrs of dozens of overprescribed antidepressants/benzos/antipsychotics/etc and in a similar bad state myself, not really sure what to say (brain fog)...just please try to keep faith that we'll continue to heal. Baby steps... 💞
We have all the same neurotoxic symptoms.. my ears are horribly affected...esp. tinnitus & hyperacusis, akathisia, dysphagia, itchiness, brain stem/head pain, zaps, panic,...& much, much more. All typical benzo iatrogenic-harm symptoms...sorry you're suffering too. 💞
Lesilie W did u feel emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober did u take any bp medicine
Keep fighting! 🙏🏻🏅
Hi how are you now? I pray your ok❤ I’m 14 months off ctd 3 mg k after 12 years. I also got pollydrugged on antipsychotic meds ctd them too.
Your story is so interesting, and you are so inspiring.
Much love from England 🏴 ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Peter Cruz ❤️
Dear sweet girl, I know the suffering you are going through but please never give up hope because you Will
have your life back one day. I am 67 yr old and took Xanax for 23 yrs. Been off 3 and 1/2 yr and about 70 percent healed. Think it takes longer to heal for those of us that were on the meds for so long. You are lucky you are so young. You will still have a long life left once you get through this. You just have to hold on to the knowledge that this is a very long recovery but you WILL get through this. God will give you the strength you need just lean on Him. So glad you have a loving partner to stand by your side. I had no one and believe me it is tough doing this on your own. I will be praying for you. I Know you can do this. Much love, Kathy
Kathy Downs did u take any bp medicine
Do you mean blood pressure medicine? I had and still have irregular heart beats and palpitations but I still have normal blood pressure, thank goodness!
You sweet angel please hold on keep fighting❤️ , I had the ear thing early on but it faded within 6 months.
My head/brain still feels floaty , like my brain is just floating around inside my head or there is weird air pressure in there, it’s hard to describe. 23 months out and I’m still nervous all the time, can’t sleep more than 3 hours , can’t work, can’t socialize etc.. it takes me 12 hours to sleep 3 hours ( just insane) . Can you do anything like hobbies that are tolerable , it sometimes seems to distract the symptoms? Can you do light exercise etc ? I cry all the time from watching tv and see people living LIFE and experiencing things that seem like a lifetime ago to me. Every once in a while I guess I sleep a little longer or deeper and I’ll have a day where symptoms are low and I think I’m getting better , but then I barely sleep and here we go again. Hope you feel better, think how much we will enjoy life and the little things once this shit is over for us 😎
Remi 118 -Remi 118 -I’m sorry it’s so bad for you still. I have the floaty boaty feeling too it’s awful. My head is never clear. My ears always full in some way. Pressure. I do try to walk everyday Atleast a mile or so with my wife. I get super nervous all the time. I’m constantly shaking inside and out. And as far as the reaction you get to tv. I stopped watching it because It has same effect on me. It’s like the person I used to be is lost. And I want it all back and can’t do anything about it. Watching others enjoy their lives and complain about what used to be a valid complaint in my life now seems ridiculous and minuscule to me. If they only had our symptoms to complain about they would never survive . So I can relate to almost all of what you have expressed. I do have lighter days and I have improved in many ways but because the remaining symptoms are so debilitating I don’t feel any better if that makes sense. Hang in there. Thank you for your support.
Remi 118 -I would like to add that I never slept very well when I was on benzo, but now that my acute withdrawal has passed I am sleeping much better these days. Better than I slept in 20 years or so. Well ,when I’m not having intense ear pressure that is.
Hope things are a little better?give an update when u can ❤️
Remi 118 did u feel emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober
@@sangeetalambh6389 yes lots of stomach problems, it’s now been 3.5 years for me and I’m still home bound and non functional. If you are only at 100 ish days I wouldn’t worry you will prob be fine but it may take 12-18 months. Depends on if you have had previous exposure and withdrawl to benzos in the past, plus how long you have been on them , other medications etc..
You are a very sweet person. Very honest. I’m so sorry you are going through this awful journey of withdrawal. Please don’t hate yourself. Please may I suggest something. God loves you so much. You may not of heard that before. He knows everything about the situation you are in, that has been caused by the drug and now the withdrawal. Please ask Him to reveal Himself to you. To show you He loves you and that He understands completely.. People can help you and stand with you. God alone knows everything and He will help you if you ask Him. I am not a religious freak.. I am a 68 year old woman who has been taking Clonazepam for nearly 30 years. I am also going through horrible withdrawal ( 70 days). I don’t know how I would have faced this without God. I have never mentions God in any other video I have watched on this subject. I have watched many. My heart has gone out to you sweetheart. Your symptoms are real for sure. I have watched two of your videos today.. Please spend a little time being still and asking God to give you a sign that he loves and cares for you and He will help you. He will heal you. He will use your terrible experience to help others. I can see that you want to encourage others even though you are in a pit yourself. That is the Father’s heart. What have you got to lose ?. Please try this. God is only a prayer away but He wont barge in. He waits until He is asked. ❤️
Julie did u feel emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober
@@sangeetalambh6389 . Yes have experienced all of that. Many get something called Benzo belly and get all sorts of weird stomach symptoms. Have you looked at this online community. ‘ Beating benzos’. It is excellent, very informative and well monitored. 🙂
I was on a 24 hour 2mg dose of klonopin for 3 years and got cut off cold turkey 2 months ago and I’m still incapacitated and stuck in bed in severe pain and fear. Does this get better?! I feel like I’m truly going to die or go insane. I can’t find any support. My doctor says it’s not withdrawal but it feels like intense acute withdrawal or brain damage. My ears have not stopped ringing since the day they cut me off. It is so loud it wakes me up and feels like it’s causing headaches and dizziness. The buzzing and ringing is probably the most uncomfortable symptom by far. I’ve never had ringing in my ears in my life. It feels like I have a permanent concussion. It is killing me. I could not live with this either. Hope things get better ! Thanks for video.
Bobby James - I’m sorry you are going through this. You are very early in your withdrawal. You are still in the acute phase. I was in acute for about 4 -6 months and even after that it was intensely brutal for first year. (I’m not saying yours will last that long ) My ears rang so loud I wanted to end my life right then among other reasons. Don’t listen to your dr if they are telling you it isn’t withdrawal,most have no idea about benzo withdrawal. You will get better it’s is a slow ,very slow process. Like I said 2 months is so early give it time. Your ears will calm down and eventually be at a tolerable level until they are healed. I when other ear symptoms is why mine have lasted almost 3 years so far. They are full ,crackling all the time and weather makes them so much worse. But please just have faith in the process and be patient with the healing process. You will get there..
My benzo Journey By Trailhead thank you, this is awful. I am thinking of reinstating and trying a slow taper but don’t know if that’ll make matters worse. Did you taper? Hope things get better for you too!
Bobby James -I taper for 2 1/2 yrs. first year was way too fast and made things much worse for me. If you have been off 2 months already I don’t think I would reinstate if I were you. But that’s just me. Cold turkey is brutal and I tapered so fast In beginning it felt like cold turkey to me ,only because I was on them for 25 yrs. I’m so sorry you were cut off them like that .
My benzo Journey By Trailhead Thank you, I am definitely gonna take that advice because I’m deathly afraid of reinstating and going through it again. Wow, that’s a long time. I have been on benzos maybe 5 years and it feels like raging hell still. I hope things get better for you too. Appreciate the support!!
@@graalteach79 hi. I read your story. Yes, this poison is devastating and it s hell. I ve listened to dr eric berg and motivationaldoc channels about magnesium l threonate. It s the only form of magnesium able to cross the brain barrier. Mg2t block nmda glutamate excitators receptors. It does help a lot to quiet the brain. Maybe you could try it. And whatever people don t know they all need 600 mg of magnesium daily as these docs explain. So i think it could really help you in a huge range of action.keep hope. A strong support to you. Loves
Stay strong
I see you just bought a grounding mat too! I have the end with the wire by my feet so the energy is pulled down! 2 nights and I love it already!
Yes I do, I think I might get a grounding rod and hook it to my mat instead of plugging it in, my nervous system is just easily triggered by the extra, but grounding can heal the entire body , I plan on doing it as much as I can every day ! I’m so happy you have one too lol.
@@JourneyTrailhead this chapter of our lives is now called, "investing in ourselves." Keep us posted on your results please!
@@PimpDomingo I will. I don’t know how to turn comments on in my recent post. I must have uploaded it wrong 😑.
You right it is a lonely feeling, I have the ringing ears too and my head hurts my scalp fell numb too , is horrible and I don’t tell anyone because there are no way to explain, I don’t go to any Dr because I know they going to say that is not the Xanax . I’m off for one year too , but I hope is going to be better I don’t know how or when. We going to get better
Hi, how are you now?
I'm sick from benzos. was on much less time then you, and am much more sick. i wish i had your symptoms cuz I'm kindled to hell and my symptoms are sadistic idk how im still alive. all i can say is stay away from things that can Couse a setback like beer and supplements iv had setbacks before but my last one ruined me.
The Ajmos did u feel fatigue like dereallization and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 107 days sober
how are you ? I hope your doing better these days! I hope this new year brings you awesome healing and love ! I hope all your prayers are answered, I hope your most horrific symptoms have ether gone away completely or dissipated so small that they are no longer a issue, I hope your relationship is strong and your family is well and good , I hope you found laughter and light in all your darkness, I hope when you are well enough to look back on all this and hold your head up high and NEVER look back! I hope you have all you ever wished & prayed for ... in the lords name amen. I hope you see this and know we are still here with you . 🙏🏻 Jimmy j reviews.
Thank you jimmy. I’m actually doing worse then I ever have. I’m completely lost about it. I took vitamin D two months ago and idk what happened but I’ve been bed bound every since . I have horrific throat and breathing symptoms and my ears have been much worse. So I’ve seen every dr imaginable so far except maybe one left to see. I can only assume my body will still heal but the fear is definitely there. I’ve been suffering terribly. Thank you for your good words. I truly appreciate it.
@@JourneyTrailhead hi do you think you had a setback from vitamin d, if so has it subsided? Prayers your way continue pushing it takes long but time will heal us. I'm 39 months and still going through it. But I have done lots of healing but still struggling. Getting getting better very slowly. My dp dr has lifted about 80 percent. Keep going 🙏💝
@@tu_madre4 yes. I’ve been much worse. Just in shock and really hoping this subsides. Thank you.
@@JourneyTrailhead im so sorry you are still struggling. me too turned 40 months and symptoms got tensifying but if they pass before I know they will pass now hopefully it's the surge before we heal.🙏💝
@@JourneyTrailhead your not alone keep fighting 🙏💝
Hey, did things get a little better? Simple yes or no would be enough. I have so much respect for you. I might have a solution. If you feel like it, please respond.
Hey and no. Ty. They would be much better I believe if I hadn’t taken the vitamin D. Now it’s just idk I’m trying to manifest good health at this point.
Has my second comment disappear?
@@DeeKay1301 I see one comment ? You mentioned a solution maybe ? And thank you for all the respect. I just re read it and missed that part. Forgive me I struggle with clarity most moments.
Crazy, I just wrote another lengthy comment and it disappeared again. It was not a critical comment.
I wanted to direct you to a channel that might really help you. Maybe YT sees it as some from of advertisement and thus delets it.
Are you still with us TH? I hope so.
You have to realize that you can’t withdraw from something that is no longer in your body, once the chemical compounds of what make up benzodiazepines are no longer in your system it becomes more of a REBUILDING PROCESS . Benzodiazepines affects EVERY SINGLE CELL in your body ! It’s gonna take a minute for your body and brain to ‘’ come back on line ‘’ i have watch all your videos and everything you say you are having coincides with symptoms and the length of time matches everyone els that I ever had talked to , so don’t worry you are on time with symptoms 👍
I probably ask this before but do you get like gas trap inside your chest and its difficult to breath you almost feel like ur choking? Please help
No that’s one symptom I’ve never had. I’m sorry. It will pass.
How are you doing these days ?
Hi how are you doing now
I'm going through withdrawal symptoms and I'm still.on xanax? So terrible I just feel like dying. I know the dizzy fussy ear unbalanced feeling well it's relentless every single day I do know what your feeling 5ml xanax a day and still feeling this way? I'm so lost and depressed
megz65 -Goin through withdrawals symptoms while tapering is very normal. I had horrific withdrawal during my taper. It does get better. I know I’m struggling but everyone is different and I was on Xanax 4-5 times a day for almost 25 years.
@@JourneyTrailhead oh I'm going through withdrawal while still on this stuff? I don't know what to do I feel like I'm going insane and no one can help. I live in my own prison I never leave my home unless to go to the Dr I'm so depressed 😓😓😓
megz65 -How long did you take Xanax for and how long have you been tapering ?
@@megz_85 how r u now
@@sangeetalambh6389 I'm worse than ever. Mr Dr is going to give me CBD oil to try to help me. 😥😥
Hows ur shortness of breath feels like? Please
I relate on everything am 17 months off get at me let me know
Would love an update ❤
Do you ever get extremely dizzy???
Are you still having breathing problems and does ur ribs or lungs hurt?
Hey, My ribs and lungs do not hurt. And I still have some breathing anxiety but it isn’t as much as it used to be. I’m hoping it eventually will just be gone at some point.
@@JourneyTrailhead i also have breathing problems through the mouth i can breathe through the nose but its like a mouth habit
@@JourneyTrailhead do you also get that? Air hunger?
@@elizabethcorral9048 air hunger has been my main struggle the entire time I was on the pills. It’s been almost 3 years and I still struggle with this symptom but it is a lot less now. I do have new symptoms now that are awful. I think me being on Xanax for over 26 years will take me a lot longer to heal.
@@JourneyTrailhead am at er i think my cholesterol is high and shortness if breath. Do u get palpitations? Can i contact you if its not to much to ask
Hope u are ok
So sorry you are suffering so much. This really sucks. I’m happy to chat with you anytime. My IG msanyadee.nextchapter 🙏🏽🦋 also your wife can talk to my parter we are family 🌈